Tumgik
About
Privacy Policy
Removal Request
Visit Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Fun Fact
Tumblr has been providing a Korean-language service since 2013.
#I'll have it any other day mostly but just not today or tomorrow morning. argh. argh argh. argghhh
piplupod
·
1 year
Text
i hate that there isnt any way to work thru these feelings and i hate that theres no way for me to escape them properly and i am just supposed to survive all of this and sit with this terror and dread 24/7 and be fine !!!
#i do not have my last ditch coping mechanism tonight that I'd really loooove to have
#I'll have it any other day mostly but just not today or tomorrow morning. argh. argh argh. argghhh
#I should've just gotten high tonight idk i rly wish i could just be high constantly ngl fnfkdl
#but that's exactly why i avoid it as much as i can bc i cannooooot get into self medicating w that when theres these genetics at play
#family history of substance abuse and psychosis 👍 i hate being alive so much fhfkdl not going to lie rn
#i am trying so hard to be normal all the time and not entirely lose my mind but goddamn this is truly not smth ppl should have to survive
#other ppl have it much much worse i know and i am relatively lucky all things considered but jesus christ this is so much and im exhausted
#i cannot just be screaming my head off constantly though so i am doing my best to be normal and fine and decent and appropriate
#idk i just.... how do i get thru this when there is no end to it fjfkdl this is not Getting Through! its just Enduring!
#im going to go have some semblance of food and then work on clay maybe and try not to lose my mind entirely
#if i can keep myself from destroying a bunch of art tonight then i will consider tonight a success fhjfdkl
#pippen needs 2nd breakfast
2 notes
·
View notes
Last Seen Blogs
andyrichardson
zodiac assigned gay wizard
is-this-irony
kick it up a notch
ourreclife-blog
Untitled
vulturoh
Hello
pixarsluca
Luca