#I'M SO SAD that KS is over

[evilbeepthemeep]

You know after watching James Somerton's dog shit Killing Stalking vid, I don't know how people didn't notice the racism.

He literally just analysed it from a western culture lens and divorced it from the culture it did come from.

As well as refusing to do any research into why it's classed as a romance. Pretending that straight women and the publishers were behind the categorisation of it as a romance. When it was marketed as a Boy's Love manhwa in its native country of South Korea. Meaning the whole point was you are meant to ship the characters together. Plus Boy's Love is a genre for a majority female audience. Who are mostly queer in some way.

He also complained about the sex scenes. Like the sex is there for people to get off to. Because even porn can have artistic merit and be a horror story. Sex and horror go hand in hand after all.

The most egregious thing was him bringing up an interview Koogi did in 2018 while KS was still being serialised to prove it wasn't a love story. Completely ignoring a different interview she did in 2019 once the story was over to confirm Sangwoo loved Bum.

Throughout that god-forsaken video he kept mispronouncing the characters names. Like he kept calling Bum things like bomb and balm while also always calling him Yoonbum, when Yoon is actually his family name and Bum is given name. And forever saying Sangwo instead of Sangwoo unless I'm wrong about that but I doubt it.

His anti Asian racism is so fucking blatant the only reason people didn't fucking say anything because it was hating on a comic that they disliked for being queer in the wrong way.

So if you did like James Somerton and didn't notice the racism, please check your biases. Talk to those of us who are into BL as a genre and actually listen to us when we say it's not straight girls fetishising gay men. It's usually queer people who enjoy our media to be different from what the West has to offer. Most of us aren't white either.

And if you liked the Untamed, I'm sad to break it to you but that was also a BL novel written by a woman who wrote kinky gay sex.

[bellascarousel]

you know why i do this???? of caming here and ask you to not be suchna a fatphobic, just becuase it is painful to see woman ( even plus sice woman, as you said you are) mocking on a woman who is a plus size too, yeah this is a fictional character who not even exist but what you did to her trandsfer to real life, as you mock and treat her bad wishing her t end alone or not accept in the bridgerton family is what you will do to other fat woman . And not suggest me therapy or that i have problems, simone is a freaking bad person and you all support that!!!!

All right. You know what? I'm going to answer all of your stupid, bullying, harassment disguised as "asks". Some of this may get redundant, because YOU are redundant. Constantly saying the same thing over and over and over and over. You're fucking exhausting, honestly.

This is gonna be long, since I'm answering like half a dozen asks all at once. So, rant is below the cut.

I do not know how many times I can tell you that I'm not fucking fatphobic, and my problem with Penelope Featherington has nothing to do with her weight. But, apparently we're going to try to answer THAT question tonight, too. Yeah. I don't like her character. Because of her fucking ACTIONS. But, I know that you will give me more opportunities to talk about this, so whatever. Moving on.

what it is disgusting is you liking and supporting simone ashley that much when it is clear she is evil. While trashing plus sizes. Also it ks sad and disgustin how you probably laugh and ock with your friends in privat about polin sex scenes, what... you laugh at nic`s belly?? ohh yes fucking disuting simone is skinny bitch with flat stomach, not any fat there SHIT!!! life is so much more easy for her because of it and you all still support her .

What is so "evil" about Simone? The fact that she's skinny? I'm sure Nicola would just LOVE to see how her so-called "fans" (we will definitely get to why you aren't actually a fan of hers, later) trash-talk one of her friends. I have never "trashed" Nicola. I may talk trash about PENELOPE - the FICTIONAL CHARACTER - because of her actions and the way she was written. But, I have no fucking problem with NICOLA as a person. And certainly not with her looks. She's fucking gorgeous. I will admit to preferring the Kathony sex scenes to any of the ones in seasons 1 or 3, or in QC. But, that's because they're less graphic. I'd dislike them just as much if they were as "in your face" as the others. As for Simone having it easier than Nicola because of her size... honey, I can guarantee that a LOT more doors were closed to Simone for the color of her skin than were closed to Nicola for her weight.

and you know what?? eah, i search for your shit becuase what you wished for pen is what you did to poor fat irls who happened to jump into you in life

Can you please try to comprehend that not liking a fictional character for her ACTIONS in no way correlates to how I treat people in real life? Though, TBF, if somebody were to "jump into me" in real life, I probably would have fucking problems with them, too. Since, uh, pretty sure that phrase means giving people shit and fucking bullying them. So, yeah. I'd have a fucking problem with somebody "jumping into me" no matter WHAT they look like.

I don't consider show edwina or Mary not loving kate. Why you keep putting them as the evil ones even in the show when they are not???

Because actions speak louder than words. And one conversation each, at the end of the season, doesn't make up for them ignoring her, and everything else. But, since I could write a fucking ESSAY on why I don't like show Mary, or show Edwina - especially in comparison to their book counterparts - I'm just going to leave it at that. They may have loved her because she was family (though, let's not forget Edwina disowning her), but they didn't love her as a person. They didn't even KNOW her as a person, and neither of them cared to even try until she almost died. Had Kate not had that accident, Edwina probably would have gone to her grave hating her for the crime of daring to have feelings of her own - that she didn't even act on.

Anthonh never was colinas father. Don't say BS , he was welcome st colin's bachelor party!! But he didn't care enough to go. When his brither was steuggling he only attempt to be smug and arrogant about his marriage instead of helping him!! I think that will be okey with you since you are a fatphobe and you only like toxic man

Umm... not only have I never said that Anthony was Colin's father, I've never heard anybody ELSE say that, either. And I've also never seen anybody say that Anthony wasn't invited to Colin's bachelor party. So... maybe stop getting mad at shit you make up in your own head? I don't know what the in-universe reason for Anthony not being there was. My personal guess is that either Kate was experiencing morning sickness and Anthony was taking care of her, or an emergency came up with the estate. Though, the real reason is that the production chose to film that scene during a time that Jonny wasn't available. There's a cynical part of me that wonders if they did it on purpose to create this fucking fandom drama. But, maybe that's just the fact that it's getting close to my bedtime talking.

And, okay. Yeah. Anthony is an idiot. A clown. He was still riding the high of somehow actually getting this woman to marry him after doing everything wrong. But, on that note. What advice was he going to give? "You saw what I did, last season? Don't do that." The simple truth is that Anthony had no advice to give, because he has no bloody clue how he ended up married to Kate. Would you actually WANT that idiot giving your fave relationship advice? Sounds like a good way to break Polin up, actually.

In lets run aways together the problem is not bagwell, is that you made edwina so badN that is not show edwina. And you made kate a bitch!! Trily she needed to humilate edwina and mary that much??? Threatening them to not have money !!!?? What a bitch!! It could have be funny if it os not sad how you like that your faves are bad people. You made kabtjiby so shit people and they ar eyour faves!! For kanthony fajs it is okey to cheat on your own sister and it is okey to threatenee them to be por and edwina need to end poor while kate got all.

Oh, here we go. First of all, so glad to see that you are now on-board with Bagwell. I'm guessing that's since she didn't end up with the prince in the show, either? But, I portrayed Edwina exactly the way I saw her. And... honestly, she turned out a lot nicer than I was expecting her to. I did NOT expect that convo with the queen where she realized and admitted her own faults.

But, where did Kate humiliate Edwina and Mary? I just read over the parts of LRAT where she talked to them and see nothing that could be considered humiliating. And where the fuck did I have them threaten them to be poor? Anthony provided them with an allowance - on top of providing a home for them. And then Anthony gave Edwina a dowry. At no time were either of them threatened to not have money. They had an allowance, they were GIVEN a home, Edwina had a dowry. The ONLY conditions on ANY of that was that for Edwina to get her dowry, she had to start treating Kate like an actual sister again, and she had to marry somebody who would actually make her HAPPY. Oh, the horror!

But! You know who WAS going to be poor if her family had their way? KATE. Mary and Edwina were both perfectly fine with the idea of Kate going back to India and becoming a servant when it was EDWINA that was going to be a rich viscountess. What Kate and Anthony gave Mary and Edwina was a fuck of a lot more than Mary and Edwina would have given Kate.

why you like kanthony and why you hate polin??? wy you love kate and hate Pen???

Oh... this one is actually kind of fun! Kathony are... two little puzzle pieces that just fit together. They were made for each other. And not just in the sense that it's a romance novel, so of course they were written for each other. They just give the feeling of having been made for each other in-universe, too. They bring out the best in each other, and make each other better. I wrote a whole fucking essay about them embodying Edmund's line about how you can't give somebody your best until you've let them see your worst. I'm sure you've read it, since you stalk my blog like it's your job. And I relate to them. I relate to Kate feeling like she doesn't belong. I relate to Anthony feeling like nothing he does is ever right. I relate to feeling like not only does love need to be earned, but that you're failing to do so. I also love how they could be themselves with each other in a way they couldn't with anybody else. Like, Daphne mentioned before Anthony's first wedding how he never smiles or laughs anymore. But, he smiles and laughs with Kate. They healed each other.

I didn't finish Polin's book because it bored me. I loved Colin in every book but his own. In his book, I wanted to stab him. And the book was just boring in general. The best parts in it were Hyacinth and Felicity. I just never really got that "meant to be together" vibe from them that I got from Kathony. And they just... didn't really have any stakes. I think I like when my romance characters are damaged in some way. And Polin just really weren't. Which might be a big part of why their book bored me.

Comparing Kate to Pen... Kate made mistakes. Of course she did. But, she owned up to them. And most of them were made out of love. She loved Edwina and wanted her to have everything her heart desired. Even at the expense of Kate's own heart. Pen... most of her mistakes were out of jealousy and spite. And she never really atones for any of it.

You'll notice that I didn't mention appearance at all. Now, I challenge you to do the same. Tell me why you like Pen and not Kate, and Polin and not Kathony. But! You aren't allowed to mention Nicola's weight. I want to know what you like about Penelope as a CHARACTER.

you cynical bitch. Ypu post about fatness when you dislike Pen because you canpt stand a fat woman being love. If this wasn`t true you would have love her not matter what

OMFG! So-called Penelope stans actually respect Nicola's wishes and go a whole day without mentioning her weight, or calling her fat challenge! Nicola has asked, repeatedly, for people to not talk about her weight. But, that is all you people EVER talk about. You have absolutely zero respect for her as a person, and only pretend to give a shit about her because of her weight. If you were really a fan of hers, you would show some fucking respect and do as she has REPEATEDLY asked, and STOP CALLING HER FAT EVERY FUCKING DAY. I find it fascinating that you keep calling Kathony fans fatphobic, and yet, you literally see NOTHING about Nicola or Penelope except her weight. Honey, you're the one being fatphobic. Because you are the one reducing her to nothing but a number on a scale.

So, sorry. But, no. It doesn't work that way. Her weight doesn't give her a free pass. Penelope as a character is frankly a jealous bitch. And I am not required to love her despite that just because she also happens to be bigger. The two things are not at all related. I would hate Penelope's character even if she was as skinny as Kate.

So there! Most of your asks have now been answered. Now, leave me the fuck alone! Why don't you find some people who like the same things you do and talk about things you actually LIKE?! That sounds like a lot more fun than bullying and harassing people for the crime of not liking the same fictional character you do. Get a fucking life!

[thatstormygeek]

With the whole "US athletes are taking full advantage of Olympic village healthcare" thing going around, folks are rightly horrified about the abysmal state of healthcare in this country.

What's not obvious in that wider context is that, even within our awful system, the quality of care you receive varies massively - not just because of your financial situation, which is bad enough, but also based on your location.

My stepdad's sister died this morning. She was diagnosed with stage IV lung cancer less than three weeks ago. She was still working in May.

She lived in Kansas.

I've written before about the sad state of the Kansas healthcare system. Which is confusing to some people, because the University of Kansas healthcare network has a pretty good reputation. But the experience of your average Kansan does not reflect that.

My aunt had been seeing doctors about her coughing all year. She was not ignoring the problem or putting off treatment. She was not rich by any means, but she made a comfortable living, owned her home, and could afford to help out her three adult children from time to time. She had what passes for "good" health insurance before graduating to Medicare, which despite being repeatedly gutted, is still better than any private insurance I've had.

My personal experiences with the Kansas system are from years ago, as I moved away in my 20s. My parents still live there, though. From what they tell me about their doctors, things have not improved. But we all know the plural of anecdote is not data, so...

Kansas maternal health care deserts mean hardships on mothers, communities and providers

Kansas’ unrivaled rural hospital crisis: 58% at risk of closing, 82% lost money on patient care

Kansas is number 18 on this list of states with primary care deserts. 23 counties bear that designation, affecting over 30% of the state's population.

But it's not just about the numbers; the type of doctor you tend to get in KS is just...

Well, they are the type of doctor to refuse a person with a degenerative spinal condition a disability parking tag, on the theory that the extra walking would be good exercise.

They are the type of doctor to mark "temporary" on their patient's disability tag form so the patient has to take their walker to the motor vehicle office every six months to get the tag renewed.

They are the type of doctor to prescribe multiple courses of antibiotics for six months before testing for lung cancer.

I'm sure there are plenty of perfectly decent medical professionals in Kansas. Unfortunately, they seem to be massively outnumbered.

It's depressing. It shouldn't be this way. It doesn't have to be this way. But here we are.

[fyrets]

I know this is a PB blog that has been very VERY open about their support of the project, so it would be uncouth to say anything negative about it but I'm thinking about how extremely unprecedented PB is in.. a way that isn't necessarily bad but, weirdly off-putting when thinking about it.

this got long so under the cut it goes

PB is the most funded petsim on Kickstarter. It raised over $80,000. That's an incredible achievement, and they absolutely deserve it! But that already puts it in an incredibly unprecedented position. Petsims using crowdfunding platforms for their projects is already pretty uncommon all things considered, at least historically in the grand scheme of things where most are just passion projects made in the spare time of a handful of people. many of them manage to stick around through the sheer force of will a dedicated userbase can bring, but most stay pretty small and more completely fade into obscurity. And that's fine, y'know? A little sad for the ones that go dark, but it is what it is.

But ever since FR's success I think a lot of people have almost forgotten that a petsim becoming a smash hit isn't the norm, or at least they don't realize just how uncommon it is and how much work goes into making something as successful as FR past the KS stage. probably the most notable examples are Dappervolk (the previous holder of the "most funded petsim" title) and Lorwolf (most recent KS funded game that is quite derivative of FR to launch).

Now Dappervolk is a bit of an outlier by virtue of it being a pretty different game to the typical petsim and it being more of an avatar game but yeah yeah yeah everyone around me at the time called it a petsim so I'm counting it. It's pretty well known that it had a very strong start with a pretty big playerbase during beta and launch, but people lost interest rather quickly for a lot of reasons. I'm admittedly out of the loop for those reasonings (my reason for dumping DV was I Just Forgor) but from what I've heard it was a combination of the gacha system, heavy grind, and some paywalled monthly content. Now I have heard that it has gotten better recently, but I wouldn't know myself and it still hasn't recovered the numbers it once had.

Lorwolf is a much more relevant point of comparison both because of recency (fully launched earlier this year) and it operates a lot more like FR in many aspects like having limited color slots, a wheel of pre-selected colors, and a bunch of other little stuff, making it a more direct competitor to FR. I didn't find out about LW until after the beta period but I was managed to sign up for the "Early Access" it had, and it was pretty good! Spirits were very high and though the full launch got delayed, when it came around it made a big impact. Much like DV did in its launch, lots of people rushed to cross-site trade their FR stuff for LW, indicating a lot of confidence for the game and its future. Unfortunately, things aren't looking good now 6 months out from full launch. There is a lot to consider when assessing how we've gotten to this point of very low morale, but I guess the biggest thing would be the community having to deal with feelings of being unheard and abandoned as a result of very inexperienced developers. I genuinely hope things turn up sometime soon, but I'm not sure for how long I can keep that hope.

So what am I getting at with all of this? Am I expecting PB to fall a similar fate of having a very big beta and launch only to bleed players months later as a result of people either realizing the game doesn't suit their playstyle or because the game is seemingly abandoned with radio silence from devs? No! I have a lot of hope for PB to deliver a game that has something for everyone, and based on how well they've handled communication along with knowing so far I doubt we would be left in the dark. Despite my hope though, the odds are stacked against PB having the same level of success as FR.

But what if it does manage it? What if PB manages to be a smash hit and it stays a smash hit? What lessons will the people who hope to make their own games take from it? Will their takeaway be that this game was successful because it made the most money ever (and got additional investment!)? Or will people try to see what commonalities it and FR had and try to do the same? Will we see more projects try and fail to achieve success? Or will they manage to crack some kind of code and join the ranks of giants? Just what sort of impact will PB have?

[sokokoko]

These are from @awfulalignmentcharts

I have wanted to fill out alignment charts for so sooo long. I even have some saved on Pinterest that I might get to later

Using my characters from After School Guardians for this <33 I did 10 charts because I don't have self control

Sorry I haven't made proper drawings for everyone yet :((( but these are them. I'm going to rant about my characters and their placements now though🚨🚨🚨

Any good, healthy decisions Ash makes is as a result of him thinking about his father

I was so tempted to put him in doesnt study and it shows seeing as he's proved to be a problematic disaster (see: road trip and living together 😭)

Stormy aces without studying even though she's not much of a brainiac (more of a fashionista type, tbh) because a lot of her youth was spent either surviving or sharpening her mind. She's unexpectedly smart sometimes (kind of sad that it's "unexpected", as if she can't be both beauty and brains). She has photographic memory and commits important details to mind (which really helped her when she was on her own) and I think that'd transfer over to remembering things she needs to ace tests

There's no other way to put it but to say Shadow is a himbo. but!!! he can't completely be blamed? He, Ash, Crystal and Stormy are all non humans getting used to human things so stuff's kind of complicated. Although, it probably makes him look really dumb seeing as the others aren't doing things as silly as him

On the note of them being non human, (Shad a boogeyman, Stormy a siren, Crystal a harpy and Ash an it's complicated) they don't attend school (they'll definitely have their moments where they show up and embarrass the human gang or get into shenanigans) so the studying one is definitely hypothetical

I'd honestly be scared to give some of those guys phones. Crystal would follow instructions on how to use it (probably being guided by one of the humans), Shadow would struggle for 3 months and discover a new feature every other day ("huh?? You can check the weather? I thought this was just a calculator???" "Shadow, PLEASE 😭") Stormy would probably always be getting hers wet/forgetting it's not waterproof and Ash would be the one with the horribly cracked screen, disgusting fingerprints all over or losing his phone frequently (possibly all at once. If so, Zinthia would faint after seeing the "phone" and she isn't phased by many things [execpt Ash being Ash])

It's okay though cuz Zinthia and Alan are our rich kids!! Just buy more phones and ignore what Ash is doing to his current ones 💞

Zinthia steals your wallet only for the thrill of stealing it but doesn't care about money cuz she has her own ✨

Alan will def help u out by holding ur wallet for u but he got his own money so he wouldn't even have any particular intentions. He's not not touching your money cuz he cares about you or your feelings. No, no. Koko is the only one who could be accused of caring about feelings (Shadow too but not in the situation in which you give him your wallet and say he can buy something if he likes)

Crystal's alignment explained wallet wise; she simply doesn't care about material goods (but food is 💯 the way to her heart)

The phone wallpaper one is actually really interesting to me cuz the pairs seem to mostly have the same tastes. Crystal is Nino's guardian, Stormy Alan's, Ash Zinthia's and Shadow Koko's and they're all basically next to each other ("basically" cuz Koko and Shadow deviated, dang it, guys)

The arrows in the thunderstorm one indicate that they'd just be comforting their magic guardians and Alan would use hot coco (never been so glad before that i used Ks in Koko's name 😭✋) while Nino uses his awkwardness

The storm one is funny but Crystal and Stormy are literally reliving trauma so that puts a bit of angst to an otherwise lighthearted situation. Thanks, Soko 🙏 just what the Dr ordered 💞

I felt the need to add something special for Stormy during the road trip. She'd appreciate me letting her have a place at the top <3

Nino and Koko protect the snacks in shifts but show no loyalty/there are no discounts for each other if they both happen to awake at the same time while one is guarding and the other is craving snacks

The urge to say Stormy disappears into to the ocean was so strong but considering the fact that she's a siren that's literal just running away 🤣 so Nino gets to avoid his problems through cryptidhood

Im crying at how Ash's placements literally tell a story

And Alan's "aesthetic" wallpaper exclusively means he goes through rotations of pictures of stars. Because he is obsessed with them by virtue of his family and their history. I won't get into that just like I won't get into what Ash is because that is a whole Thing™️™

Also, Alan is not meek, that's just the drawing. He's more of an intelligent, dedicated and composed person. Crystal might seem a bit similar to him because they had some similar answers or in how they are studious, but she is quiet and stoic in her intelligence and has a bit of a superiority complex towards the others at first. Alan just tries to wrangle these heathens he's been stuck with (read: everyone but Koko and occasionally Shadow if he doesn't get attacked in conversation. Despite how silent and level headed she is most of the time, Crystal gets hella argumentative with Stormy.)

✨ Refer to this post for the old + new summary of After School Guardians ✨

[dope-me]

It's also kinda funny or sad that #g gets dedicated posts. Though she has done the most harm. I'm curious to see if the naming pattern of exs will continue. Since it was k -> k -> s -> s -> s -> b -> b -> s -> c -> c -> g was the naming conventions thus far. So I usually repeat a letter. The first two Ks didn't really count and one of them for no reason became toxic over a decade later towards me. First S was the true real relationship. Second C was the healthiest. Unfortunately there isn't a pattern for who was worth dating in the end. One of those Bs may even find this tumblr too.

Don't mind my word vomit posts today. Trying to keep ideas organized for therapy coming up, while also not allowing myself to indulge in my addictive rumination towards g.

[jumpthensfall]

good morning i hope taylor knows how insanely loved she is

[timelessphoenix]

God, I just love people so so much. It takes very little time for me to care about a person in any capacity. Even if you're annoying to me at first, if we have ANY positive interaction or we work on a project together and it's a positive experience, I automatically care about you.

I just love people.

[myladyofmercy]

young royals rewatch

episode 6

i love this opening montage so much

right until the credits come up over wille screaming

wish we got that scream scene without the credits for edits tho

the little girl looks at simon as if she personally has seen the video

it must be so weird to see your face on a magazine cover. i wonder what the article says

he's wearing purple (in solidarity with simon)

you have nothing to apologize for wille baby

did simon go to the police tho?

love the little detail of clothes we seen on the show already laying folded up on the washing machine

is the floor of the library so clean that they can lie and sit on it? aren't there any chairs?

august just listening to the theories like the little bitch he is

I'm calling the cops if you don't leave

i love stellas clothing style so much

sara putting 1 and 2 together

rosh and ayub are back!!!

i have not seen kim ks sex tape and i don't intend to watch it

I really hope simon doesn't change schools in s2. I'm with rosh on that one

why is the sky so yellow? light pollution?

willes pajama pants from ep 2 are back

august you little shit stop spitting live lessons and spill the truth

fish scene flashback

the looney tunes shirt is back

first kiss fit

yellow tshirt, yellow shirt, yellow backpack. i know you're the center of willes universe but do you really have to look like the sun?

footsies

wille matches the blue background but simon sticks out like a sore thumb

this scene is so poweful even without a kiss

oh no i know what's coming

sara pls don't do this

she's wearing purple (in solidarity with simon)

wilhelm doesn't have everything he has nothing you piece of shit

and he will lose simon because of you too

oh doobidoo i wanna be like you u u

why does sara look kinda sad when august kisses her neck tho?

as someone who rarely sits at the dining table for dinner and watches tv during 99% of meals i relate to simon and his mom

how does felice dress fit sara so well tho?

simon you are not her father

linda you are her mother. pls act like that more often or i will have to rewoke your best mom card

the star behind simons head looks very pretty

simon saying annan and dum in this conversation makes me think of certain songs by a certain artist

sara and wilhelm both called simon fin

why do felice and maddie have their own bathroom and wille the crown prince has to share with the other guys on his floor?

the mirror shot of them on the floor

i don't think simon really believes wille will tell the truth

it's their last kiss and it breaks my heart

the sad scarf is back

why do the subtitles say how do you do??? simon says good day. that is way more formal than how do you do! simon isn't joey from friends

this car conversation is so frustratingly sad

love how many words i understand bc they sound so similar to the german word in this conversation

let wille and simon have sex in his royal bed in s2 petition

willes tie looks very yellow (simon anyone?)

why is rosh never included in eriksson family time?

poor simon

(love his sweater tho)

who put the name joakim for willes second bodyguard out there? is it canon?

i hate this scene so much

simon did the right thing even though it breaks his (and willes AND MY) heart

hemlighet

love how we see simon leaving blurry in the background

felice being the best detective

also she calls the guy she asks where willes room is edvin

why isn't there a bodyguard in front of willes room?

willes little flinch when he sees simon on the screen

yes the confrontation scene!!!

august is working out again. of course.

why didn't wille mention erik in this scene tho? something like erik told me i could trust you

edvins acting is so good in this scene. rising star award winner indeed.

this phone call hurts so much

love how him hanging up stops the background music and we are left with silence until the match strikes and the choir begins singing

wille and simon are wearing so much more hair product than they did during the whole rest of the season

god jul

the sad scarf is back again

is simon talking with sime choir kids?

falling

we are falling now

förlåt

jag älskar dig

hoppas du fan en fin jul

tack simon

running with a crown on your head

he wants to run bad so badly

city's on fire but it's beautiful

chills literal chills

i hope they continue with the 4th wall breaks in s2

i love this show

i hate this show

[kaisoobeliever]

So the DFTF era is over and with that possible Kaisoo content too. Makes me a little sad but what we got is pure gem. Also the way they were clinging onto each other said loud and clear that nothing has changed between them and they are still the closest just like their debut days. I will never forget Ksoo's uncontrollable giggles at Ji's antics and the way it seemed he was extra whipped for ji. Like gave him more attention than strictly needed and I loved every moment of it.

On the last episode ji spoke up about ksoo's astigmatism and also he supported ks throughout. I mean there are some people who will still say that they are not close but yes not everything is shown.

Just because we don't see Kaisoo going out and having dinner and doing shopping doesn't mean they are not together. So much happens in their lives and only 1-2% we get to know. So...I'm really happy knowing that they are very happy especially Ksoo. We have been seeing ji happy since his debut and now it's Ksoo's turn and I can't wait for the album.

P.S. ji liked Ksoo meme on insta. Now tell me that guy doesn't search for Ksoo pics and videos. 😏😉

[snickiebear]

🏆 fav fic youve written - & bc im nosey, why!!

EGGTOASTIES!!!!!!

🏆 fav fic you've written + why

i'm going to be honest; i love all my works... so i'll just list all my favs LMFAOOO :))) (these aren't in any specific order)

1. this is where we stand, within the ruin, among the very dead (we are the catalyst of our own destruction, the impetus of our own rebirth) | M | kakasaku

ok!!! this is my favorite sub from KS month!!!! its absolutely angsty, told in second person (one of my favorite writing styles) and its just... i really love writing from angsty kakashi. like the man has been through so much and i love playing with his trauma. and i am also very, very fond of angry!sakura, and in this one she's absolutely furious. just... i really love the emotions i put into this one, the wording, imagery. super proud of it :')

2. a drop of power (there is an ocean) | T | kakasaku

second favorite from KS month!! angsty just like the previous but its a little more sweet?? i am a whore for "self made monsters" and just two broken people jamming their shards of self together to create a whole. plus, i really love playing with how Kakashi and Saku are just kind of... forgotten when it comes to Nart and Sasuke,,,, like they played just as much as a role but well,,, 👀

3. a booming laugh, the bounce of that ass | T | leesaku

THIS ONE IS SO FUNNY TO ME!!! this was a prompt from lyn (roommates au) and i just- LNDSBALKD lee would have a nice ass. AND WE ALL KNOW IT. (sakura knows it too, it is a major part of her downfall HAHAHAHA). this ones super light and fluffy and funny, sakura & akatsuki are so much fun to write i love them so much

4. truths: seek them, tell them, accept them | T | shikasaku

another one in second person (its so much fun to write in!!!!) which means its absolutely angsty with a touch of fluff!! touching on the fact that sakura has worked and worked and worked to make herself strong and be strong and all of that is just looked over, is one of my favorite things. shikamaru seeing her hard work, and seeing sakura suffer, then reaching out a hand is also one of my favorite things.

5. god's pity | T | shikasaku

AAAAAA my favorite from ShikaSaku week!!!! i love the story telling aspect of this one!!! and the roman numerals you're bound to see in a lot of my work (inspired by mousey!!!! who also got me into second person writing) are just AAAAA. this one is a little sad but the end is happy!!! and i just really, really love writing romance through the ages, lifetime after lifetime type shit

6. you taught me how to misbehave | T | kakasaku

a birthday gift for ele!!!! i spent so much time on this one, really trying to make it as good as i could get bc i fucking love ele so much and she deserves the WORLD. you'll find some hannibal references and just "poetry" in this while also a lot of fluff and humor!!! i really enjoyed writing it and i go back to reread all the time :'''') super proud of it

7. war torn and ragged (the beginnings of peace and a soft, soft life) | T-M | kakasaku

this series was the one that really helped like get me on the radar LMFAO,,, it is completely self indulgent with God Eater Saku and same age KKSK as they attempt to parent team 7 while also fixing everything! so basically; nothing ever goes wrong bc sakura and kakashi said "no." LMAO this one holds a special place in my heart cause i just really love their dynamics and everything :))))))

8. the making of a woman (the killing of a god)

okay! so you've already read this one, but i wrote this for mittens (who is an absolute genius!!!!!!!) and i wrote like three different drafts for it until i finally got to the final one and was like THIS IS IT!!! i usually write a very combative sakura with a temper and can/will kick your ass. but this one, she's much more sly, more clever, uses everything about her to lure in her prey before snapping (which was so interesting to explore). and i love big ole softie kks :)))))

9. of love and war | E | shikasaku

this monster fic has been living in my head since january. its gone through five different drafts before i finally settled on the final idea. i spent so much time (aka: not enough time,, sigh) world building and creating the lore and religion structure for the world. i know things about the world that will never make it into the actual fic. and!!!! i get to write blood thirsty shikamaru in a fantasy setting and its just so cool!!!!! its a hate to love/enemies to lovers story and i am having so much fun with the angst and how magical the world is!!! and the mystery aspects are just AAAAAA i'm so hype and excited about this. i'm 30k in and only 4 chaps + prologue out of 11 chapters so AAAA :)))))

10. a cocoon in the heart, a spark in the brain | T | leesaku

leesaku has such a soft spot in my heart, this was another prompt from ele (who gives the best prompts man, like wtf) that really got out of hand. i just love the vibes from it, very subdued and a little sad but with a touch of humor and fluff. lee and sakura deserve the world and each other. plus, playing with the whole "butterflies in my stomach" and "fireworks in my chest" thing when you have a crush was super fun :))))

OKAY so that was probably MUCH longer than you wanted HAHAHAH IM SORRY!! but yeah thank u for the ask :'''''')))))

[kaisoounderground]

I'm sorry if I'm disturbing but I don't know what to do I'm feeling sad and it's wrong, i know i shouldn't feel like this, but it's like 2016 all over again and I'm torn between believing it or not. I want to believe in Kaisoo and continue to appreciate what they have but at the same time I don't know if it's the right thing to do : (

Anon, of course you are not disturbing! I am so glad you sent this ask to me. My heart goes out to you. We are all in a funk, some feeling more wobbly than others, but everyone is disappointed at this turn of events, especially when kaisoo is going so strong.

The thing is that the fact that they have been obvious, when they had to have known this was coming, should give us comfort that they are still real, that nothing has really changed but the external. 

When kai*stal was the thing, that didn’t stop them and when that was over they stood together and just became stronger and more bold until here we are, two years later, coming off of the sweetest year of watching and celebrating them and supporting them.

Personally, I think that there is absolutely no reason at all to stop believing in them because nothing has changed and we have evidence to prove that. As I said above, they knew this was coming and yet we have had a markedly increase in moments over the last couple of months (supposedly when JI and Jennie were supposed to have been dating already). Think about that for a second. Did you have any indication that JI’s affections lay elsewhere? No, it was all for KS. Even to the Gayo on New Year’s Eve showed that JI was still fussing over KS, mere hours before this news came out. He has not changed, they have not changed, why should we in our belief in them at this point?

You have to do what will give you peace in your heart but maybe give it a little time before feeling like you have to decide and do anything? There is no pressure or time limit. All this is so dodgy that we might be able to dispel all this altogether or it may end sooner rather than later if it is an epic fail (although I do not want anyone hurting in the process, that would be awful).

I hope I have been at least a little help Anon. Please feel free to send more asks or DM me if you like. I don’t have any real answers but I will give it a try. We are all in this together. 💖💖

[dirtybiowareconfessions]

KS. After a few of these, I'm seeing that it's kind of canon that FemShep's sex drive is out. of. control. People talk about their tragic back stories, and she goes "SEX." People talk about sex and she literally loses her mind with the horny. But, it works. She's wooed many a sad dude with her libido.

Oh, please, like male Shepard is any better.

Liara: “my mom just died”Shepard: “want me to cheer you up? ;)”

Jack: “and this is the place I was tortured and experimented on”Shepard: “hot stuff, wanna bang?”

Miranda: “so my father abused me and my best friend betrayed me”Shepard: “dat ass though”

Steve: “i am crying over my dead husband–”Shepard: “MY BODY IS READY”

Shepard of any gender is a freak in bed, and that’s why we love them!

-edi

[just-a-random-side-blog]

Kind of wish I kept reading ks as it came out, I feel like I missed so much in the fandom and I'm sad its over

[trubilee]

trying very hard not to watch the telly tv tonight. every time i do it keeps me up another hour after the programming is over. i'm letting myself watch hacks and starstruck (both hbo) bc they don't make me get all overinvested in them. which is not to say i haven't read all the ep summaries anyway. so this tumblring is one way of trying to fight.theurge.toturnonsomehbomaxwithp.

k. ah, k. w. ahh, w. i will not try in this post.

last week i was completely convinced i needed to visit revelation in simi valley to be part of the service that night but this week i feel a lot better and not in crisis mode and not like a giant raincloud hovers over me at all tiems. maybe it's bc of the power on monday night and how the group prayed for me even though i ordered p and a not to and how they kept encouraging me and speaking words over me even though they kept promising they'd keep it short. sigh. another example of how with a and p, it's so like them to just envelope/overwhelm me with generosity and tenderness and all this good stuff. so yea i do feel like yes there was spiritual power in that prayer substantive something but also the love the kindness changed me too. wonderful and terrible, as i told them. so rude of them to be so kind.

i'm still trying to figure this part out. but every weekday morning when i wake up for work, i feel a little current of excitement at the work ahead. every single day i learn something new, so much that's new, and it's not stagnant stuff but it's like some of the newest stuff and it feels very real time because it affects all these launches and campaigns and products and movements that are being developed and engineered real time. and i find tjhe stuff i have to learn to be quite interesting, probably bc it's all new to me and beyond what i've ever had to be responsible for knowing. and ugh it's so amazing that there is no drafting of Ks in this role. like i get to let go of that now.

and at the same time, that same little current doesn't exactly turn off in the evenings when i'm logged off and with the family. and it doesn't turn off on the weekends. it still kind of hums in the background like an air purifier that you leave on low mode or somehitng. and i dont feel like i've been able to figure out how to be completely here when i'm not working, even while i'm having dinner all together or i'm at the park in the evening or i'm putting w to sleep. is this how a lot of people just live? oh and most concerning of all is ---- this is stressing me out this articulating business so i'm gonna cope via yt break brb.

it's that i have always known--or thought i knew--that the true me didn't care about work. that that's a fact. but the more days pass by where i wake up with that little current of excitement/anticipation, the more i question what i've known. and i wouldn't go so far as to say i'vve changed and maybe yeah i'm just changing like all things and maybe i am this person here and now. i dunno.

back to the monday night prayers and stuff. i'll try to remember and store this in my heart. what pw said about the train. no back or left or right only forward. what jt said about that desire that very fervent zeal and not to lose it and that it was still the most important thing even w this job it wasn't gonna change that and the tension is what was making me so sad. and what pe said about the light. and what ae said about all the things that aren't of Him and all the things that are. and what sj said about--well it was something encouraging he.

k.

[otp-holic]

October 4th. A new revelation (14/05/2022 | 4.9 ks)

I forgot to post about this update yesterday because my brain is friend thanks to this crazy heatwave, but here it is now. The chapter with the award to "dumbest tile so far". I've been calling it "Sad Bucky" for weeks and when I tried to title it... Nothing worked.

Hope you enjoy it anyway :)

We're close to the beginning of the end (dont worry to much, I still got over 30ks to publish... and no epilogue yet) since this chapter marks the end of "The Gap" (all those chapters that were previously a very short one called "A Summer Interlude) and I thought I would be THRILLED... but I'm currently very angry at this monster of a fic because the amount of rewriting I'm gonna have to do it's making me CRY.

I was alone, I took a ride ( I didn't know what I would find there)

Stucky Modern AU. Friends to Lovers. WIP. Shelter (2007) AU. MOODBOARD

Summary: With his college dreams and life plans frozen in his past, Steve Rogers spends his days working a dead-end job, taking care of his ma and niece, doing street art, and occasionally riding his bike. But when Bucky Barnes, his best friend’s older brother, makes a surprising return home after being gone for years, many of the dreams he had learned to shield himself from start to make his way into his life, making him struggle to reconcile his own desires with his fears and responsibilities.

Chapter 1: July 13th. A change of plans. (28/02/2022 | 6 ks)

Chapter 2: July 13th. A ride cut short. (04/03/2022 | 5 ks)

Chapter 3: July 17th. An old piece of technology. (06/03/2022 | 1.6 ks)

Chapter 4: August 3rd. An interesting piece of art. (10/03/2022 | 4.5 ks)

August 16th. A day marked on the calendar. (17/03/2022 | 6.8 ks)

August 31st. A ride out of the city. (24/03/2022 | 6.6 ks)

August 31st. A roof with a view. (31/03/2022 | 7.8 ks)

August 31st. A wet blanket. (07/04/2022 | 3.5 ks)

September 1st. A bittersweet parade. (10/04/2022 | 4.5 ks)

September 1st. An undeniable truth. (19/04/2022 | 1.6 ks)

September 1st. A leap of faith. (24/04/2022 | 5.2 ks)

September 2nd. A new morning. (01/05/2022 | 1.6 ks)

September 6th. A better future. (08/05/2022 | 7 ks)

September 12th. A work in progress. (16/05/2022 | 5.1 ks)

September 18th. A window to the past. (23/05/2022 | 8.9 ks)

September 19th. A dessert for two. (26/05/2022 | 3.8 ks)

September 23th. A birthday surprise. (06/05/2022 | 3.5 ks)

October 4th. A new revelation (14/05/2022 | 4.9 ks)