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If my uterus doesn’t stop bleeding I’m going to reach up there and claw it out with my own two bloody fucking hands! 🤮💀🔪
#dysphoria#why did it restart#I’ve not had one is like half a year#trans dysphoria#period#period cramps#severe cramps#I literally just lost like a whole cup of blood#somebody shoot me#I need to be put down#trans Masc#trans vent#Frances rants#trans man#tshot#6 months on t
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Fabian Seacaster, Maximum Legend that you are
#My art#alternate titles include “the only my-own-his-darling-man-boy in the whole world” and “sir tap shoes are NOT a practice piece of casual wea#Anyways I love him. He’s so fun to draw actually he’s so pretty#I tried to keep him looking a bit like Lou with the nose and mouth but I’ve always pictured him with a much softer face? Than he’s usually-#-portrayed? At least in all the official art. Idk I think it’s because he’s a half-elf but it might just be vibes#also I tried giving him arm and chest hair but it looked wrong. He’d probably wax anyway#anyways this is sorta inspired by the cover art of Leon Bridges’ “Gold Diggers Sound” album#Ironically enough I was listening to a Leon Bridges song from a different album the whole time I was drawing it#fabian aramais seacaster#fabian seacaster#fabian seacaster fanart#fantasy high#fantasy high art#d20 fantasy high#dimension 20 fantasy high#fantasy high fanart#fantasy high junior year#fhjr#d20#d20 fanart#d20 fhjy#d20 art#dimension 20#intrepid heroes#lou wilson#I had SO much fun doing the patterns for this as well!!!#The sheet had one originally too but it looked too busy with the shines as well#But for the shirt I used the radial symmetry tool: I included a sword some waves and a music note if you can find them all!#and for the pants I just fiddled with a squiggly line until it lines up so I could repeat it then I just copied the layer flipped back and-#-forth till I got a whole pattern
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Something that really sets Wille and Simon apart from other queer ships is that when we say their love language is physical touch, IT REALLY IS PHYSICAL TOUCH. And I’m not speaking of just sex. Over the course of the show, the amount of touching between them is astronomical. And that’s really something rarely seen in queer media. There may be moments here or there, but often times there’s a lack of physical contact unless it’s for “the plot”. Wille and Simon feel like a real couple in the way they’re always physically reaching out for each other.
#wilmon#young royals#OH ALSO#wtfock#sobbe#cuz they def belong in this category too#constant touching between them#but you don’t get it with most queer ships and idk if it’s just bc production is afraid of it being ‘too much’ or what#but it’s annoying#and frustrating#just something I’ve been pondering on recently#tv has come a long way in terms of representation#but it still feels like there’s almost a FEAR of too much affection between queer pairings#it’s seen more with mlm than wlw cuz I think they’re like oh well women are more physically affectionate in general even with friends#but damn like#I mean I’m a woman and bisexual so obv I have a lot of queer friends#and a couple of my besties are gay men who have been married for years#fun thing they live right next door to my parents lol#and I’ve known one half (michael) since I was 16 and he was 14 lol my friend jen actually had a big crush on him#and I was like GIRL#BUT ANYWAY#he and rick have been married for many years and they’re SO AFFECTIONATE in a casual way that you would be with a partner#just touches here and there on the shoulder or hand hold or kisses like???#obviously they aren’t the only gay couple I know but I’m around them so much so they are a good example#Lol this got weirdly personal but the point is that we don’t see that shit in queer media#at least not enough of it it’s like producers/writers are afraid of ‘too much’#so they give not enough#ANYWAYYYY rant over!!!
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Just like in a dream
#in which single child Ludwig dreams of a big brother he never had#also in which I repeat the joke that half of what I make is just shit a slightly more unstable Ludwig would have statues of in his manor#hws prussia#hws germany#gerpru#hetalia fanart#hetalia#this was meant to be a warmup but then my iPad ran out of battery :/#curse you battery life!!!#I barely get to draw as it is since it’s been hitting 90 degrees lately and being even close to my iPad in the daytime will burn me up#I imagine he’s like I dunno 15-16 here#unbuff and gangly#something something pygmalion and galatea#side note: I’ve been getting back into my 12 year old obsession with mythology lately so that’s gonna be fun#my love for sneaky trickster gods has not aged one bit#digital art#my art#hetalia human au#he probably curls up to sleep on the pedestal after such dreams tbh the little freak
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Me when my crewmates call me out for unconsciously talking about my son too much:
#Aladine: You literally never shut up about him over the past two years. We KNOW#Jinbe: I?? I really talked about him THAT much?? 😳#Me: HE LOVES HIS KID!! HE LOVES LUFFY!!!!#Jinbe really do be like I’ve only had Luffy for a day and a half but if anybody hurt him I would kill everyone in this room and then myself#One Piece#Jinbe#Jimbei#Shima speaks#Also I’m SO happy to see him I missed him so much 😭#Glad he’s finally getting ready to join Luffy
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Larchpaw
She/her, 8 moons, cis molly
#Larchpaw#beetleclan#apprentice#clangen#warrior cats oc#kiri’s clangen#warrior#kiri's clangen#Wow i wonder who this mini Berrymurk is. Surely it’s not his one and only daughter#surely him and his daughter don’t have nearly identical sprites save for Larch having a slightly yellower tint and an apprentice pose#But to be so forreal the name Larch is actually really fitting becuase of that becuase larch trees are a conifer that isn’t an evergreen.#their needles turn yellow and fall off in the fall which fits because she’s just a little more yellow than her dad#I also made the pointy parts of her fur point down instead of up like the rest of her family just to show she doesn’t look all that much-#-like her grandma Gravelshock#She’s technically half-clan and her other parent is unknown so I like to think her other parent had droopier fur (though I have no one in-#-particular planned)#Anyways she’s sort of friends/rivals with Swallowpaw (who I’m planning on having as the starting POV for beetleclan) so expect to see and-#-read a lot of her whenever I get to the actual story part#I actually love Larch a lot she’s very cute I’m tempted to do her POV at least sometimes#but Idk#Also I’M FUCKING BACK!!!#can’t say how regular posts will be considering the computer I use to add the border afterwords is Wigging The Fuck Out Constantly and I-#-can barely use it but I’ve got one more cat queued after this at least so there’s that!#I can’t wait to get to the actual story I’m gonna do it in fic form with some illustrations scattered throughout instead of a comic (unless#-I feel like a specific moons needs a comic)#and I think I’ll put in on my AO3 which’ll be fun so yeah. I’m excited to finally get through all these designs hopefully over this summer#and I’m done with hs now so I can continue working on it during this next year because I don’t plan on doing college immediately!! So yeah-#-I’ve got a lot of time on my hands now and I’m excited to get back to Projects!!#I’m thinking of doing commissions on my main too (including warriors/clangen designs) so look out for that if you’re interested
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Bakugo Katsuki.
#this week.#LISTEN TO ME CHAPTER 396… 3+9+6 = 18 AND I SWEAR TO GOD IF HE DOESNT LIVE TO BE THAT AGE#😭😭#I cannot BELIEVE it’s been ONE YEAR… a full year??? like 12 FULL MONTHS SOON TO BE 365 DAYS?!????#like genuinely a FULL YEAR#?????#ALL FOUR SEASONS AND EVERYTHING?!?!??#OUR PLANET WENT AROUND THE SUN#what about Deku’s sun huh??? the light of his life??? his other half??? his—dare I say—soulmate???#how am I still processing#I’ve had a year to do it shdkdhsjkddh#THIS IS STILL UNREAL TO ME#bkdk#dkbk#bakudeku#dekubaku#:’)
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today i was offered a full time (if I want it to be) well paying seamstress job sewing pageant dresses and costumes for kids?? by a lady who I just happened to cut fabric for at work last week. she has a whole successful business running out of her house right now, but next month is expanding to a very nice big space downtown
#utterly bizarre#thank you universe#like sure I have been sewing for the majority of my life and sure I’ve been working at a fabric store for 3 and a half years#but i’ve never imagined myself actually working as a seamstress#mostly cuz I have had no idea how one even finds a seamstress job#apparently they come to you#my grandma sewed wedding dresses until she had kids and i always thought that that was so cool
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this year rly has been an actual rollercoaster it’s kinda crazy
#i’ve quite literally had both the highest highs AND the lowest lows ever AT THE SAME TIME#two of my friends straight up died. school burned me out. didn’t get to talk to one of my besties for like multiple months.#got a bit depressed again#but then at the same time. i’m finally writing again. drawing again. i’m having so much fun doing it#mine and ramas relationship has developed in such a good way too#i got government hormones finally#got to spend the start of the year w one of my favourite ppl in the world and then got to go home and spend time with#my OTHER favorite person in the world. and also with one of my best friends#i’ve been so sad which i wished i didn’t have to be. but i’m also genuinely dealing with it better than i ever have before#it’s such a weird contrast#hope the next half of the year is a bit easier at least. lol#arambles
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It is really soooooo brave of me to go to work with this many pimples <3
#genuinely the worst breakout I’ve had in years and WHAT IS THE CAUSE???#it’s so embarrassing to work at a school and have more acne than half the students#makes me feel like a child and I’m already the youngest staff bar one#anyway everyone tell me how brave and beautiful I am
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there’s so much i wanna do this week/month/etc but i’m just too sick, i have no energy, i can’t sleep, i’m constantly nauseous and headachey and on the verge of a migraine, i’m stressed and irritable and impatient and panicky…….how tf did i survive nearly 5 years of high school untreated if i can’t even manage this when i don’t have any major obligations rn
#at least i finally got my meds so hopefully i feel a little better soon#although i’m now on 20 pills per day which is Just Great#whenever i’m in remission it’s nice to just. forget sometimes that this can happen at any time#kinda wish i had the typical kinda chronic illness that people talk about with ‘flares’#or at least triggers that i can plan around#the other times have all had an easily identifiable stressor tho tbf. idk what caused this one#the first time was whooping cough and the next few were all very major life stressors like my cat dying right after i started uni#and i think also towards the end of my honours thesis?#but this…….there’s no major stress right now. nothing wildly beyond normal#i’m a little concerned about my joints tho. they’ve been so much worse than normal the last few months#so i’m kinda worried i’m developing rheumatoid arthritis (also an autoimmune disease and it runs in the family specifically)#so if that’s happening then it could set my thyroid off? probably should get to the doctor at some point#obv i’m seeing my endo for thyroid stuff. but i should see my gp and get her to run all the autoimmune blood tests again#i’ve done that before but it’s been a few years and my ankles and knees are so painful i can’t even walk properly a lot of the time#BUT I JUST WANNA DO THINGS I ENJOY AND I CANT AND I WILL CONTINUE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT IT#‘oh you’re so lucky you don’t have as many obligations because you’re chronically ill’ ha ha ha please swap lives with me immediately#personal#but seriously. i wasn’t diagnosed until i was nearly 17 and we can trace it back to whooping cough when i was 12#so it was the last half of year 6 and then all of years 7-10 and the start of year 11 of just being. uh. ‘very lazy and complaining a lot’#and TEACHERS joking about me and my sister (who was dealing with an arguably more severe undiagnosed disease) missing so many classes#wow so funny pdhpe teacher who’s supposed to be teaching is about health#and the thing with being a mentally ill teenager is that hyperthyroidism can just look like a very severe anxiety disorder#so i didn’t go to the dr until i was too sick to go to school at all. and luckily had a good dr who did a blood test#i’m just rambling now because i can’t sleep and i don’t wanna lie here doing nothing#might go play pvz or something. that’s been keeping me entertained
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#i keep trying and trying but it just doesn’t get better#like im trying to rationalize that people are going through worse in other countries and have problems bigger than mine and more real#hence i should stop feeling like this#but it just doesn’t stop it feels like i’ve been specifically chosen to be punished and i can try all i want but i can’t escape it#i was like ‘august is bad surely sept will be better’ but nope#and then i was like ‘sept is bad surely oct will be better’ but no again#im either tired or feeling like i failed myself and i hate it because its true#and i had a miserable first half of the year but right now it feels like i can’t remember that misery and i wanna go back in time#which is DUMB because i may be blocking it out but i know it wasn’t good#how can i just keep on having one bad year after another#arshia talks
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boy my French has gotten awful
#Jeez#I mean it’s not surprising#It was never exceptional to begin with and I haven’t practiced at all in like a year and a half#But I could always a) read b) hold/follow a slow conversation#Note I did not say I could WRITE in French because man. I’ve always sucked at that.#Basically I can (or at least could at one point) understand French when it was presented to me#My french has uh. Degraded.#I read something and was like “oh I’ll respond.” Then stared at the screen for ten seconds before realizing I had no idea how to say any of#What I was getting at in French.#Oopsie there goes my already shaky skill lol
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8 and 11 for the fandom ask game?
8. you hope more people will come to appreciate ___ (a ship, a trope, an episode, etc)
Well, I’m sure pretty much anyone looking at my blog feels will agree when I say the mobile games.
Like I feel like people are too quick to dismiss them as just Gatcha cash grabs (and I understand they were to an extent, but that’s not all they were, you know?) . They both have told really interesting stories (even if KHUX took its time to actually get to it… 300 missions until Ephemer was insane lol) and added so much to the lore and casts. Not only that, but they gave us new content in what otherwise would’ve been painfully long gaps between games.
Just talking about this makes me even more excited for Missing Link.
11. if you're a writer or artist, what fic or piece of art are you proud of making?
As a writer and an artist I’ll answer for both.
For writing I’ll have to say Nameless AU is probably the fic I’m the most proud of at the moment, and, uhh it’s not out yet but just you wait! Once I finish that first chapter it’s all over for you lol
For art I think I’m obligated to say my Safe and Sound PMV. The art is old and not the greatest but it’s honestly a miracle it got finished at all and I’m proud of that.
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#Nameless AU is my pride and joy… if only I could finish a chapter lol#Like this thing has how many chapters started? I’ve lost count but the first one is nearly done#it’s been nearly done for like *checks hand* a year and a half#hell maybe longer I dunno#but I swear this will get done eventually lol#Safe and Sound however took me 7 months and I had to draw the Lifeboat 100 times (it was actually like 7 times but it felt like 100 lol)#That thing was a labour of love and even if I’m not so happy with the art anymore I’m just happy that I finished it at all#then heccin’ YouTube took it down and I had to find a cover that lined up lest it be unviewable forever lol#the version with the original audio is in the replies if you wanna see it the way it was supposed to be
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what happened to persimmons… no one ever talks about persimmons
#i was OBSESSED with them as a kid like genuinely half my personality was just my love for persimmons#but i haven’t had one in like 9 years and i’ve never seen them in a grocery store#where did they go please#lj.txt
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Ok I’m probably not the best person to say this, but I’ve been seeing a lot of (as of right now) accurate insults on how the CGI approach for the Live Action Little Mermaid movie, but please be mindful that you don’t take things too far, and *especially* don’t start going after Halle Bailey (Ariel’s actress) and to a lesser extent, Ariel the character.
Antiblackness is still an issue in a lot of fandom spaces, and it doesn’t just come out as using nasty slurs or stereotypes. It manifests as drawing Black characters lighter and/or with more white features, it comes out as removing Black partners from ships, and it starts out as plausibly deniable insults that get the door open to microaggressions and outright nasty comments.
I’m not saying that all discussion of the movie should be stalled, or even if it turns out to be an artistic failure, that it doesn’t merit discussion. I’m saying that you shouldn’t extend your vitriol to the characters and actors.
If you really feel the need to insult her, it might be worth a little introspection. Ask yourself, “Do I resent that they changed Ariel, or that they changed Ariel in this way?”. You’re not irredeemable if your personal answer isn’t kind. Just be more careful, try and observe how that sort of world view affects your behavior to others, and then course correct.
A lot of little kids would love to see another Black Princess. A lot of little kids would love to have a Black mermaid as a main character. Hell, a lot of adults would love those too. Black fantasy characters have long been excluded, transformed, killed, merely in the background, relegated to stereotypes, villainized and have hardly ever in the spotlight, especially in major productions.
Don’t make it harder for kids (and adults!) to see themselves on screen. Don’t ruin their wonder. So don’t make unkind comments. Keep it to yourself. Frankly, Halle looks beautiful, and I can’t wait to see the sparkles in her fans’ eyes as she swims across the screen.
#live action little mermaid#the little mermaid 2023#Halle Bailey#I’m a white girl but the concept of a Black Ariel is near and dear to my heart#my best friend in elementary loved H20:Just add water and introduced it to me#and she dreamed (at least half then#we haven’t kept in touch) of ordering herself a mermaid tail to swim around in#and I really hope that she has. if she didn’t fuck up a year of college like I did (she was damn smart so I doubt it)#then she’s likely just about to graduate#M I hope you get a great paying job and can order yourself a beautiful quality tail and live out that little girl dream#you deserve it. I don’t think you had near enough#black girl Magic growing up. miss you#i doubt you’re on tumblr but just in case you’re wondering#‘is that me?’ I’ll give you a hint:#I used to say floober doober instead of cursing when we played Mario kart#I mean I did start cursing heavily later. but at first I said that#in any case idk if you’re still into mermaids but we both know you would’ve loved to watch this movie when you were little#this was both spurred on by all the flounder posts I’ve been seeing and ‘A Song Below Water’ by Bethany C. Morrow#one of the main characters Effie works as a Renaissance Faire mermaid and she talks a lot about#how people write fiction about her character but whitewash her or body swap her or would rather do self inserts#or the only comments made about her beauty are just about her tail and never about her Black skin or features#and how she (and her Mom before her death) were usually the only Black characters at the fair#and how she feels so beautiful and incredible being her mermaid self#also again I’m white so I don’t have personal experience but my younger brother is mixed#and he’s always been really lowkey about his feelings but#I took him to see Into the Spiderverse when it first came out#and he’s loved it since#here was this (adorable - don’t tell my brother I said that lol) lanky smart awkward hurting courageous Black boy on screen#and I can see in his heart how he’s been affected by it. he’s not a super fan or anything but I can just tell (big sister thing.) Anyways I#really hope that joy will happen more and more for everyone.
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