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lumiilys · 29 days
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What if I just rambled in the tags rn?
#personal stuff don’t mind me#just musings about sex and relationships#am I ace or aro? am I just opposed to the idea of a relationship cause I feel like I could never trust anyone on that level?#am I ace? sex sounds fun enough but it also doesn’t feel necessary? and I can’t imagine ever wanting to sleep with anyone#I literally never considered this until one of my friends complained to me about being sexually frustrated and I was like ???#??? THATS A REAL THING ???#I THOUGHT IT WAS A JOKE#where am I going with this#I’ve had 4 crushes in my life (excluding fictional characters cause I don’t think that’s the same)#I’m definitely bisexual#and yet am I? am I even attracted to anyone?#maybe I’m just on the ace spectrum somewhere?#and does it even really matter? why should I feel like I have to label it?#maybe it’s cause I feel like I have to label it to be valid#otherwise people view you as a loser#it’s frustrating#people talk about the concept of virginity being meaningless#and I usually see people talk about it in the sense of like#having lots of sex and sleeping with lots of people doesn’t make you impure#(which is true!!!)#but I feel like some people who say that still look down on people who don’t have sex#and view them as no fun or prudes or whatever#and the double standards piss me off#lol sorry for all of this I just need to ramble somewhere#ollie rambles#adding on#like the fact that I’m ashamed to admit even in the tags here that I’ve not had sex before is ridiculous!!!#it shouldn’t be this way!!!!#it’s something completely neutral!!!!!#it should be on the same level as admitting I’ve never tried melon or never been rollerblading!!!!
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inmyarmswrappedin · 4 years
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Now that Nora's season is coming to end, what are somethings that you want for amira's season
Hi 😁 I bet you thought I’d never reply to this ask! Well, after you sent this in MARCH, I am finally posting an answer. 
Btw, I did the same for Nora’s season, and as a note, I’m a white European and an atheist. If any of this is offensive or not my place to say, I preemptively apologize.
1) I would like for Amira's arc not to be about being Muslim. That is, Cris' arc isn't about being bi, it's about learning (and accepting) that she's more than the fun friend. That she has and can offer more to the people in her life. Nora's arc isn't about being a feminist, it's about not being so set in your first impression of someone that you don't notice red flags or don't notice them trying to be better people. Same with Eva and not being defined by her mistakes, or about Viri and her financial situation. And I would like the same for Amira.
2) I think one common denominator of all Sana seasons so far is that they've shown the mains doing something that people assume hijabi can't do when it's more like they're systematically excluded from participating. For Sana, it was basketball. For Imane, it was dancing. For Amira M, it was boxing. I joked on twitter that Amira N's thing should be binging TV shows and eating junk, proving that hijabi are really like anyone else, but on a serious note, I'd like for Amira's thing to be photography (and maybe modeling? since Amira's friend was taking pics of her).
3) A scene where Amira explains how she can be a feminist and a hijabi both, just so we as a society have that scene to point to when the question inevitably comes up again. Seriously, I feel like that's one of the questions I most often see people asking Hajar.
4) I want the association girls to have their own youtube channel. Or at the very least, their own instagram and/or twitter account. I would love for them to post memes punching up about their experiences.
5) I feel like, much like with trans narratives, there's this "acceptable" narrative for hijabi in mainstream society, which is: the character made the decision to cover after coming up with solid reasons to do so. I.e. she made the decision early and can defend it with inarguable rebuttals. It's like women can't be trusted unless they know 150% what they're doing, be it covering, or dating a girl, or going vegan, or any number of things. I really appreciate that Amira started covering just because it felt right, and she's finding meaning in it after the fact. I would like for this to be a thing in her season, that she's still figuring herself out, that she's not already an Islamic scholar.
6) I also think that's what makes her stand apart from the other Sanas. I feel like (maybe with Zoya's exception), none of the other Sanas would entertain a crush on a white guy. They'd have never drunk or flirted (like we know Amira used to do). It's like they're not allowed to fuck up, or can only fuck up in acceptable ways, like engaging in a flirtation with a non Muslim only because they didn't know he wasn't a Muslim, or had booze at home, but it wasn't theirs, etc. I'm hoping that they've made Dani a love interest specifically to explore this idea (and not because they wanted to whitewash a character or give less time to an actor of color).
7) On that note, SKAM Hajar brought up an idea that, because the hijab makes them super visible, hijabi are perceived as ambassadors of Islam, expected to be able to answer any question about Islam, but also that people will judge all Muslims based on whatever mistake they individually make. I would like for a potential bench scene to allow Amira to say that it puts major pressure on her to feel like she can't make any mistake, because every Muslim will be judged based on her making a mistake, having a shitty day, being in a bad mood, not wanting to be Muslim wikipedia that day, etc. That sometimes she just wants to be Amira, not Islam personified.
8) I would like for Dani's character to represent not just white society, but also childhood, the safe choice, the choice her parents would love, and for Sofian's character to represent not just Moroccan culture, but also like... SEXY risk, independence, novelty... Because I feel like when I see Muslim girl/Muslim boy/white guy love triangles in fiction, the Muslim guy is positioned as the boring choice (but still incredibly wrong because he's abusive or maybe even secretly gay and forced to beard by his parents), the safety, the guy you'd bring home to your parents, whereas the white guy represents independence and carving your own path away from your parents.
9) Just once, I would like for a Muslim character to say, "what do you think of Catholic priests abusing kids?" to someone asking them what they think of such-and-such Muslim majority country doing such-and-such to its citizens. Bonus points if it's Sofian's character.
10) I would like for Dilan to get an insta and a storyline. And for that storyline to connect to Amira's.
11) In general, I would prefer that parents be kept to a minimum (not to get rid of them entirely, of course, but to be kept at the level they've been in other Sana seasons). I just have never thought the point of Skam was the parents. And I get why they have a larger presence in a second gen kid, but I, personally, am more interested in what they represent in the main's life, rather than in giving them a lot of face time.
12) And, on that note, if they do with Amira what I've outlined above, I don't think there's a necessity for Amira to have siblings. Particularly if eskam isn't going to continue after this season. I think it'd be far more interesting if Amira's character contained the elements of figuring her identity as a Muslim living in a Western country that Elias, Idriss and Essam had. (And maybe that way Dani is both Yousef and Elias, stealing not just one role for an actor of color, but two! lmao)
13) I really hope that the obligatory evak s4 side plot be kept at a minimum tbh. I'm really not interested in a) Eloy coming back to cause drama, b) Amira's friend causing croana drama because she's Joana ex or whatever, c) a physical fight breaking out because of (perceived) homophobia.
14) I want Amira to tell Cris that amiris es lo más real que hay. 😭 I would love it if, as a parallel to Cris' season, Amira doesn't tell Cris about her interest in Sofian's character at first because she's afraid of her reaction, only for Cris to be supportive of whatever she chooses to do.
15) I would be so fucking happy if eskam adapted the "is your faith stronger than your lust?" scene in this season. I have always wanted to love that scene, because how often do you get a scene where two girls get to talk that long and that much (even in Skam most of the iconic dialogue scenes between just two people aren't between two girls in the squad), but I just haaaated the purpose of the scene in Skam.
16) I would cry buckets if we got a scene like Det Beste fra Islam where Amira and Sofian's character both talk about what Islam means for them. Particularly if Sofian is introduced as not the Perfect Muslim Man, but it turns out he has THOUGHTS about religion.
17) And, finally, I would love for the unquestionable villain of the season to be a white guy. If the villain is going to be a woman, then I would want her to be Cris' mom, not a high school aged character. Not because of white feminism yayyy! but because I think the major issue Sana seasons have run into before is that the showrunners want to touch on white girls being the problem, but they also don't want to villainize white girls. So we have stuff like Sana inviting Sara and Ingrid (of all people!!) to Eid, Imane apologizing to Ingrid (of all people!!), random one clip white women attacking Amira M (and the Kiki/Amira friendship of course), etc. I'd just rather they didn't have girls doing shitty stuff to Amira N, if they're going to go back on it. Which they inevitably would, because eskam's overall message is sisterhood.
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18) I would love it if Skam España was like, "you thought we were dropping storylines left and right? Nope!" and resolved long standing mysteries like who was behind Eva's hate ig, who had the pills, who outed Cris to the school, who's the owner of the keys that were left behind at GSC, and so on. Will die if it turns out to be Ramón!
19) I want Joana to get that job she wanted so bad last season!
20) I would love for Emma to show up and come out as a lesbian, just as a last hurrah lol.
21) I don't feel strongly about which couples should be endgame and not (other than not Dani/Amira hghvvh please), BUT in my most embarrassing fantasies, I want Skam España to hire Alejandro Reina's irl boyfriend to play Lucas' boyfriend for the finale. Not because I can't separate fiction from reality or anything, but because when I thought Lucas would be getting a season, I wanted his boyfriend to be a poc, and I was highkey buttmad that they hired random white bread when they could just as easily have hired a poc.
22) I think it would be really cool if Inés got a clip on her POV, but I don't think we're going to get it. I think all bonus clips will be from the squad's POV, i.e. Eva, Cris, Nora and Viri. Not even Joana.
23) I want a Mallorca special or episode so bad, and I will be so FUCKING ANNOYED if we don't get it. Seriously, I can't imagine the team didn't feel betrayed when they watched Skam for writing purposes, and didn't get their russetide. So they should know how angry we would be if we didn't get even a little bit of Mallorca time.
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1. FIRST NAME:
I go primarily by Chibi but I can also be called Sticks or twiggy.
2. STRANGE FACT ABOUT YOURSELF:
I tend to be a bit literal minded when it comes to innuendos so they tend to fly over my head if I don’t quite get the comparison, or if something seems impractical to me.
3. TOP THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE ON A PERSON:
Hm...well I guess kind eyes, long hair and facial hair is super attractive to me..
4. A FOOD YOU COULD EAT FOREVER AND NOT GET BORED OF:
Beef or shrimp. That shit is delicious….but as specific dishes...hm...broccoli beef, beef chow fun, shrimp har gao, and katsusando.
5. A FOOD YOU HATE:
uuugh...peanut butter and bell peppers, I can’t eat most nut stuff as I found out it causes me indigestion… There isn’t much food I will legit refuse to eat as most things I will if I have to, Whether it be out of hunger or wanting to be polite.
6. GUILTY PLEASURE:
I love going all riff trax whenever I watch something terrible mostly because sometimes a bad movie is better than a boring one. (And for some movies it’s literally the only way I can even get through them.)
7. WHAT DO YOU SLEEP IN:
eeeeh really it depends on how cold it is, *laughs* but I prefer sleep shirts or flannel pajamas.
8. SERIOUS RELATIONSHIPS OR FLINGS: Flings to me are just tacky, I don’t see the point in dating someone you aren’t serious about and it’s no different than using someone like a toy.
9. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN THE PAST AND CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOUR LIFE, WOULD YOU AND WHAT WOULD IT BE:
If I had known how supportive my parents would have been during middle school when I was going through constant bullying and sexual harassment...I would’ve told them and let them take me out of there.
10. ARE YOU AN AFFECTIONATE PERSON:
Depends on if I like you. Then yes. But usually through jokes, and sometimes hugs if you need it.
11. A MOVIE YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN:
Hmm...The dark crystal, and a couple disney movies. I have a lot of those that I do that.
12. FAVORITE BOOK:
to me a good story is one you can read at any age and enjoy. So for me one of my favorites (excluding Manga.) would be anything by Neil Gaiman or Rick Riordan.
I also really like the Prydain Chronicles.
13. YOU HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO KEEP ANY ANIMAL AS A PET, WHAT DO YOU CHOOSE:
All of them?
14. TOP FIVE FICTIONAL SHIPS:
I’ll be honest I’m not really much of a shipper as I tend to prefer close friendships as it feels more meaningful to me most of the time….but I guess my favorite ships would be ShinjiFemc, AkiFemc, Junpei Fuuka, YukaMitsu, and alright Adrienette.
15. PIE OR CAKE: Cake.
16. FAVORITE SCENT:
Sweet or Floral scents. For sweet the smell of vanilla cupcakes. For floral the scent of roses.
17. CELEBRITY CRUSH:
Um….I don’t really have one.
18. IF YOU COULD TRAVEL ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD YOU GO:
Well I could be boring and say my real world locations which are Japan, Germany, Italy, France, England, Nicaragua, Israel, Hawaii, and Greece.
But if I am honest I just want to go to the pokemon regions. XD
19. INTROVERT OR EXTROVERT:
Introvert.
20. DO YOU SCARE EASILY:
I would like to think not, but my hypervigilance makes me look for danger. Horror stories don’t scare me if its purely fantastical, but stuff that could happen IRL scares me way more.
. for example welcome to the game which is a horror game based around the deep web, that game freaking terrifies me
21. IPHONE OR ANDROID:
I use an Iphone, but there are things I prefer android for.
22. DO YOU PLAY ANY VIDEO GAMES:
Mainly Pokemon, Persona, and Kirby.
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WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH A MILLION DOLLARS: I’d probably just make sure my family would be taken care of. Set aside a sum that I could use to start my indie gaming projects, and the rest I would give away.
24. FICTIONAL CHARACTER YOU HATE: OOOOOOH boy...I absolutely loathe Chie, Yukiko, and Anne from persona…and Lila Rossi from Miraculous.
The first three because it grates on me to no end how much abuse they put a character they say is their friend through. It also annoys me how much people are willing to excuse what they do because of their sex and that genuinely infuriates me. Abuse is abuse regardless of a persons gender or sex. If it’s not okay for guys to do something like that to someone it should not be okay for girls to do the same.
And Lila because she is an utterly irredeemable toxic liar. Good Lord I can’t wait till this little brat gets what she deserves. Seriously a person who lies about having a disability so she can schmooze a boy is the absolute worst kind of human being in my book.
25. FANDOM THAT YOU WERE ONCE A PART OF BUT AREN’T ANY LONGER:
Hetalia, Black Butler and RWBY.
The latter being so bad in my opinion but I’ve straight up blacklisted it. All these are due to particular incidents that made me super disgusted with the fans and no longer even wanting to be associated with it. Not exaggerating when I say this is one of the few times where a bad fandom honestly destroyed my enjoyment of a series.
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