#I’ve been drawing consistently for years and just. never post anything

[discrunkled-twog]

sorry for more than one sketch thing; this likely will happen again

[the-100-days-of-junkan]

Day 61

I was wondering what day would land on my Birthday, woulda been funny if it was yesterday’s piece, but alas, I was merely a day off.

Anyway your eyes do not deceive you this isn’t a sketch with colors I actually finished this one in it’s entirety. As a treat to myself after spending like 2 weeks working on the comic. Unfortunately it’s going to be awhile before we get more full pieces, look forward to day 91 I guess??

One thing I’ve always liked to do is draw little icons for the ships I like, I haven’t made a lot of them but they’re usually fun. I never made one for Junkan until this post because paranoia, but now we’re in the fuck it era. And can I just say that shading Junko’s hair is consistently one of the most fun things about drawing her at times? Like the colors I get to use are so nice and the sense of flow, it’s just perfect!~ Anyway time for a story I alluded to yesterday. 

Eventually during one of my desperate searches for Junkan fics I would go to Wattpad since it was the only other site I could think of that might have something. Wattpad is a site I have never really used at all, both because I don’t really like the formatting of the site, and because I’ve not exactly been given a good impression of it by the rest of the internet. 

I was pleasantly surprised to see a few fics, and some of them seemed to be taking the Soft Junkan angle. So I click one, and it can be summed up as “If you clicked on this wanting a Junkan Fic, fuck you, you’re a freak.” And I’m like “Alright that was a waste of time, next one.” and so I click another and it’s the exact same thing.

And the format would always be like the first chapter is used to just tell you what you’re about to read. And then it’s the second chapter is the twist that it’s someone deriding you for wanting Junkan. But some fics couldn’t even hide it, if you just hovered over the preview you’d see the actual contents is just bashing Junkan shippers.

So then I made this little image to amuse myself.

To be clear also this isn’t like, supposed to be some attack on the people who made those posts. I’m sure they’re just teens trying to have a moral high ground over shipping, which makes sense when you’re young like that. I mentioned it before but when I was getting into Danganronpa at the tail end of my teens I fucking hated Togafuka. Now I don't give a shit because why should I???

I find it more funny than I do like, annoying. It ain’t worth starting anything over. I just think it makes for a fun anecdote from this year. 

As always, Reblogs, Comments, and Little Notes in the Tags are appreciated!~ They always make my day!~

[milky-rozen]

This is going to be a veeery long rant, but I’ve reached my limit and I felt the urge to address and share some things I’ve been going through.

•••

Lately, someone has been consistently stealing my character designs and claiming them as their own.

This person used to be one of my followers, a very supportive one. We used to talk a lot about our projects since they were based on similar concepts. One day, I noticed them posting a drawing of a character that looked exactly like one of mine. Despite the obvious resemblance, they never credited me and claimed it as their OC.

I confronted them, and they apologized, later changing the caption to say their design was inspired by me and tagging me as I requested. But not long after, they copied another design and claimed it as theirs. I didn’t address it at the time, wanting to give them a chance, but I regret that now.

This morning, I saw them posting again after a long break, and once more, the design was a clear copy of one of my OCs. I had to block them, but what's funny is that soon after, they blocked me too and unfollowed me everywhere as if I was the problem.

This isn’t the first time this has happened to me. In the past, I went through something much worse.

Years ago, I was part of a small fandom on Facebook. There was a group that would regularly copy me and others, but when confronted, they claimed it wasn’t intentional. As they gained popularity, they used their influence to create a group and spread false rumors, accusing me of being mean and stealing ideas. All of this happened because I refused to join their group since I didn't have the time to as I was busy with University.

And just like that, I was isolated, stalked and even lost some irl friendships due to these people.

While I’m confident this person won’t do anything like that, I can’t help but wonder why this keeps happening to me. Why do I keep trusting people who take advantage of me? I hope this won’t happen again because I’m tired and disheartened. I won’t give up, but I can’t pretend this didn’t affect me one bit.

I might be a small artist, but copying others is not fair at all. No one deserves this.

[pebblume]

I never realized how liberating writing fanfiction would be. I hadn’t written creatively in years. It’s been so long that I kind of forgot what it felt like. The childlike rush of pouring your heart out onto a blank page, not caring about the results as long as you were having fun. I’ve tried writing fanfic a couple of times, for different fandoms across the years, but never finished anything I was really happy with, nothing that I felt comfortable sharing with the world. But something just clicked for me this past week. I realized how much fun it was to stretch out my writing muscles, to get inside the heads of my favorite characters. I realized that it didn’t have to be perfect to be worthy of being shared and loved by others. I realized that I had so many stories inside myself - more than I thought possible. 

But perhaps what I’m most in awe of is fanfic readers. The people who read my work and leave kudos and bookmarks and comments - one word comments, sweet comments, silly comments, paragraph-long comments. I love them all. I used to be afraid of leaving comments on AO3, afraid I wouldn’t have enough words, wouldn’t have the right words, to depict how I felt. But when I felt firsthand how much those comments meant to me I started leaving more and more of them, spreading a digital paper trail of love to all my favorite authors. More and more often I recognize the profile names and images in my comment section and think, Hey, I know you! Now I’m not just a guest on AO3, or a passive reader. I belong here. 

I won’t lie and say I don’t miss drawing a bit, my previous creative outlet. There are plenty of drawings inside me too, itching to be realized. I really just don’t have the time for two time extensive hobbies, not when I need to balance school and practicing and little things like sleeping and eating and relaxing. I miss it, but not as much as I thought I would. There’s a level of investment to sharing a story online that feels…special. When I post my art, I get engagement, and it feels nice, but ultimately, most people are only spending about ten seconds looking at the work I spent eight hours on, if that. When someone reads my fics, we’ve now spent time together. You’ve lived inside my head for a bit, made it your home. It’s about feeling seen, I think. Writing makes me feel understood in a way visual art sometimes doesn’t. It makes me feel vulnerable in the same way performing music does, but less exposed too. It’s interesting to me. 

The only downside, if you can call it that, is now that the writing bug has infected me, I’m finding it harder and harder to stop. I’ll have an idea and then suddenly five hours have flown by because I’m on a creative streak and I just want to write one more idea down, which turns into two, and so on and so forth. I dread stopping, because what if I forget something? What if I get into a writing block later? Suddenly I have people who want to read the things I write and I want to provide it, I really do, but I also have responsibilities. I say, as I write this, ignoring my audition tomorrow afternoon. 

I still have a bit of embarrassment attached to fandom works. When I tell acquaintances that I like to draw or write, I rarely tell them I mean fanart and fanfiction. As if loving something that deeply, that sincerely, is inherently shameful in this age of irony and soulless remakes. Especially when my interests usually consist of media marketed towards children, nevermind the fact that it has more emotional maturity than most ‘adult’ works. But I’m trying to get better about it. A lot of my closest friends know about my hobbies, and some I’ve even let see my work. It’s terrifying but also giddying, seeing them like an art post or comment on a fic. After all, to reap the rewards of being loved, one must submit themselves to the mortifying ordeal of being known, or something like that. 

I realized today that I’ve written over 30,000 words in the past two weeks about about two characters who don’t belong to me, but whom I’ve made my own.

And I’ve never felt happier

[kidovna]

Hey!! I feel like I’ve been following you forever and it’s been amazing! I was wondering if you had any tips for growing an art account? I feel like I post a steady amount of art that’s decent (hopefully) and I interact with the FEW followers I have and love it! The art I create is art I enjoy and so its easy to keep creating. By no means do I really care about numbers but it does help with reaching bigger audiences, growing engagement for commissions, and freelance work. Tbf at this point I think the algorithm despises me but idk how to fix it. I’ve been posting art for a few years now but the engagement on my posts usually never gets above 200-500 on a wim, on average it won’t reach above 50-im so serious. Anyway!! Im only asking cause I’ve seen how far you’ve come on your account and how you and your art have evolved and there is no one who has inspired me more than you. Like ur work is the highlight of my day, week, month! Lots of love!!🫶

hello!! this is such an interesting ask and i get exactly where you’re coming from. i do think that i’ve been lucky enough to have gotten some work in the publishing field because of how much book art i’ve done.

honestly i’ve never done anything specific to gain an audience. i’ve been posting art since 2014 and i’ve switched to so many platforms over the years. i think people started noticing my work just as covid first hit the news and i got very involved in the harry potter fandom. sitting at home, just having finished my undergrad final project, i was posting every other day.

i genuinely think my consistency is what reeled people in and every time i was really passionate about something, i think people noticed that. i’ve gotten so many messages from people telling me that they read rwrb or watched st because of me and it always, always makes my day!

summarised : consistency is what the algorithm is looking for and passion is what the audience is looking for. if neither of this works, you could also always participate in trends? i’m too much of a procrastinator to do it at the right time but i know a lot of artists gain traction especially on reels and tiktok because of art trends and drawing challenges.

[theaawalker]

My Writeblr Intro

— who are you & what do you write?

Hey, I'm A.A. Walker! I'm 20 and live in southeast America. I've been into writing and fandom stuff since I was 8 years old. I have situational anxiety so it's been a battle to actually put out what I've written. I've had my work copied in the past, but thanks to my legal rep that's no longer a concern. I work at B&N and I'm in college studying psychology.

I read philosophy, fantasy, YA, biographies, and the occasional horror (the older, the better). I write philosophy, fantasy, and YA, and am revising a book series as we speak. Here is my BOOK BLOG for it. Most of my imagines (masterlist) were pre-written by teen-me but never posted. You can request an imagine after reading the fandom list and guidelines. This blog is for posting imagines, sharing author tips, and promoting my upcoming book.

In 2019, I survived something that left me traumatized for life. Then, in 2020, it happened again. I've only recently decided to get back into what I love: reading/writing worlds that bend imagination. And I'd love for you to come along for the journey! 🌎 ❤️ 📚

— sweet, what can i read right now?

🏹Fanfiction Masterlist, my list of imagines, fluffs, drabbles, one-shots, and smut. Majority of this literature was written in my adolescence. The literature consists of the Hunger Games, K-12, Narnia, Marvel, DCEU, and much more. [ masterlist & fandoms & guidelines ]

🏹Wattpad Stories, my log of critically-acclaimed, published stories. All of this literature was written in my adolescence. The literature consists of the It (2017), Stranger Things, X-Men, The Maze Runner, Deadpool, and The Suicide Squad. [ stories & recommendation ]

🏹Quotev Libraries, my library of highly praised, published works. All of this literature was written in my adolescence. The literature consists of the X-Men, Scream Queens, The Orphan, Spiderman, and original fictions. [ library 1 & 2 & recommendation ]

— what will i see on this blog?

- book posts : as stated, i'm writing a high-fantasy series. i have so many blogworthy thoughts that i just have to share sometimes. this includes lore, collages, drawings, and journal entries. the goal is to give my fans something to look back on once i publish and make it big.

- reblogs : anything i find relatable silly or super cool i reblog here. this could be thoughts i agree with, inspirational posts, photographs of ancient castles, film stills, etc !!

- fanfiction : things i’ve written over the years and in present day.

- fangirling : i love art, transcending from writing to films, music, and painting, so i may hype things here.

- writing tips : i post writing tips to help others refine their storytelling, from crafting compelling characters to building immersive worlds. Whether you're polishing dialogue or tackling plot twists, i got you!

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[justaprismolover]

WARNING! This rant is a very subjective and hot take about Prismo [Adventure Time] & how the modern fandom treats him. This is a personal and emotionally driven rant. if that doesn’t sound good to you, please do not read this rant.

⚠️Please read the full post before you say anything. Context is very important in this post! ⚠️

hello to anyone reading this! you probably don’t know me or you don’t know much about me, but i’m justaprismolover. i’ve been obsessed with prismo for a very long time, about three years or so. he was this major interest of mine that i would constantly think about 24/7.

he was this huuuge obsession of mine that i consistently was enamored by. the phase seemed to never wear off. i drew him, animated him, wrote fanfictions about him, i had elaborate daydreams about him, i started making an album about him (which i only discontinued because all of the songs suck lol), i posted about him and ranted and raved to my friends, said his name many times every day, made AUs for him, and i even started archiving every drawing i saw of him. you see, prismo drawings back in the day were very rare, so i was constantly starving for tha goods (fanart). i would always look him up on deviantart and google to see if anyone posted art of him. i followed and subbed to anyone who showed interest in him. i had looked him up on youtube and deviantart and pinterest countless times. i started seeing the same prismo content over and over again, which is reasonable, but i, who at the time started to archive every piece of work of prismo i could find, had this crazy goal of archiving every work i could find of prismo. so i started making social media accounts for the sole purpose of archiving content containing him and dipping.

i made a tiktok account (which was banned after one day for some reason?? i didnt comment or have a trashy username or anything idk) i made a twitter account (total waste of time i couldnt find any prismo stuff) and i made a tumblr account, the only account i kept. i originally wasn’t going to at first but tumblr sorta stuck with me. there were a wee amount of prismo fans who loved him just like me! so i stuck around and started posting art just for fun.

then something interesting happened. a new fiona and cake show was coming out, and a depressed looking prismo was right there in it! i was excited to see more prismo, but i was also kind of worried. i was scared the prismo ‘fandom’ (it was literally like 5 people at the time) wouldn’t be the same after fiona and cake came out. what if prismo became a tumblr sexyman and they started humanizing him and making him act super out of character? what if he was downplayed as a “silly blorbo”? what will happen to my archive? will there be too much art to archive?

i know that it might sound selfish to be saying stuff like this, but i’m sure everyone has felt it before. that feeling when something tiny you like became popular and you just sat there thinking “i was here first!” its petty but its valid as long as you aren’t putting anyone down for getting there later than you.

so i comforted myself by telling myself that it won’t be that big of a deal and prismo probably wouldn’t play a big part. its not like there was a huge prismo craze in 2012 when he first was introduced or anything like that. there’s going to be so much new cool artwork of prismo made by so many cool people that will all put their own lil twists on him, and in a month most of the prismo likers will move on which means it’ll be me and a bunch of dedicated prismo enjoyers, but not too many, and it’ll be like one of those teeny cool fandoms. yep, that’s what i told myself. it’s not like i was fully convinced by this or anything but it kept me afloat. i just kept on doing what i usually did until the show came out, and…

boy, was i wrong.

prismo played a huge role! he CREATED fiona and cake! he had new characters to interact with! there was new art! new fanfiction! a huge brand-spanking new prismo fandom flooded into tumblr. prismo playlists! prismo cosplays! prismo crafts! i was flabbergasted. totally enamored by this wave of content. do you know how insane it feels when this character that was forgotten by everyone but you and some others suddenly gets extremely popular?! it’s like you’re dying in the sahara desert of dehydration when suddenly you trip into lake baikal. it was insane. and, it wasn’t THAT bad! yeah, there was some headcanon stuff and “sillyposting” that i didn’t like, but hey, most of the prismo stuff kept him looking the same and drew really neat looking art of him! i was ready to embrace this new prismo epidemic with open arms if it wasn’t for one teensy weensy itty bitty minor problem…

Scarab.

ya see, scarab and prismo to this new era of prismo lovers are absolutely inseparable. you cant have one without the other. they’re treated akin to simon and betty, where if you draw one, you must draw the other. pink, yellow and blue is no longer prismo including his lil blue pupil, but now its prismo, the wall of the time room and scarab! pretty much what i’m saying is the new prismo fandom was almost ALL prismo x scarab shippers. hell, most of them joined BECAUSE they liked the pairing itself. the prismo fandom pretty much became the prohibited wish fandom, which to someone like me who doesn’t ship it… was… something. yeeep. it was totally something alright.

i know its easy to make fun of me for being sad about a ship that everyone else in the fandom ships, which i mean, fair enough, it’s pretty funny, but i hope you get my point of view as someone who doesn’t ship the ship and doesn’t really care for scarab. i’ve been so dedicated to doing my weird little prismo stuff for so long, just me and sometimes me and a few others, and suddenly, this humongous wave of people come who start drawing all sorts of ship art with this… bug dude thingy that i didn’t even care for. and its only. ship art. which made me feel so left out of all the fun. i can’t force myself to like the ship, because, well, not only is that near impossible for me but i don’t like the tropes and its a ship that’s pretty lustful and often puts the characters in sexual scenarios with one another.

you see, the ship alone isn’t the whole issue. it’s the way the ship is portrayed, and especially the way prismo is portrayed.

back in the day, prismo was characterized by most people (including me) to be this super chill yet awkward guy who was funny and cool yet lonely and kinda clingy (which was proved to be CANON cuz hes obsessed with jake in Fiona and Cake HEHEHEHH). he was a side character who was kinda mysterious which left him up in speculation. everyone had their own little prismo theories. the best part about prismo was that nobody really forced him to have a one dimensional trope (ironic).

like, there weren’t any moments in canon that made everyone think he was obsessed with something like, pickles or destroying universes or whatever. you know how so many fanon side characters are often attributed to one singular thing they like or do, and so everyone makes it as if they’re obsessed with doing it to the point where it’s more of a lifestyle than a hobby to that character? prismo didn’t get that treatment! many people who liked him UNDERSTOOD that he wasn’t some guy who sat around in his hot tub all day manically making pickles or messing around with the lich. (true ogs remember prismo x lich. RIP that ship you sucked but the art was delicious)

so many people understood that below the surface he was lonely and just needed somebody to talk to, how he could never leave the time room. we based our drawings more on the character himself, his internal struggles and external battles. and yeah, most prismo fanart… WAS JUST PRISMO! and the prisjake art was (and still is) almost ALL wholesome and cute, because, well, prismo never came off to anyone as a sexual person!

and the just prismo drawings were unique too! so many of them explored different concepts and ideas, which is something i rarely see nowadays, cuz most of the art is just him calling scarab petnames and writing fanfics.

warning: the following paragraph contains mentions of art of sexual harassment. please skip this paragraph if you are uncomfortable with this topic. please note that this is my main reason as to why i do not like the modern prismo fandom.

the biggest issue i have with the modern prismo fandom is that they portray him as a very lustful person, someone who openly talks about doin’ the deed towards scarab as soon as he sees him. so many depictions of this pairing will show prismo telling scarab he’s hot whilst scarab is trying to kill him, or saying things like, “please do” when scarab makes genuine threats to end his life, which in turn makes scarab angry and uncomfortable. other depictions include prismo GRABBING SCARAB WITHOUT HIS CONSENT! and i hate to break it to some, but that is harassment! what surprises me is how common works like these are. i constantly see them on my dashboard. people just seem to love the idea of prismo going, “now that we’re in the same dimension, i can do whatever i want to you.” i would show examples so yall can see what i mean, but that’d be really stupid of me to go showing around peoples art and giving specific examples. so, just look out for it, and you might start seeing it more. (these types of drawings have died down as the time goes on but they used to be a lot more common in the early f&c days). all i’ll say is, prismo grabbing or saying sexual stuff to scarab is not cute if scarab looks uncomfortable or is telling him to cut it out or leave him alone. this is harassment. i thought modern fandom was supposed to be more progressive than this. c’on, guys. (alsooo, prismo just. isn’t a sexual guy. like at all. when prismo and scarab meet he just seems like hes freaking the hell out the whole time and never stops to check scarab out at all. people are being gaslight by fanart or something lol okay sorry i know people can have headcanons)

if you skipped the last paragraph, you can continue here!

another lil thing grudge i have is the whole fanfiction thing. y’all, he made an action based genderbent world. he’s not writing omegaverse smut fanfiction. okay, i get if you wanna headcanon him with that, i think its funny, but like, don’t make him writing fanfiction his whole personality!!!

so yeah, all of the prohibited wish and new characterization of prismo i don’t agree with has made me feel so left out of something that i’ve partaken in for so long. all of this over time has lead me to not be able to enjoy prismo as much. yes, i still love him, and drawing him still brings me immense joy, but it just isn’t the same. i just feel so left out and it really hurts. even if it is laughable, i hope anyone reading this, if anyone at all, could at least understand that bit.

so, TL;DR:

the old prismo fandom was full of different headcanons and theories, different ships, rarepairs even, and all sorts of unique and awesome ideas and art.

the modern one is (mostly) either two things: scarab x prismo or prismo writing smut fanfiction with some other character (but its usually scarab).

and guys. please, please, please. THIS IS MY SUBJECTIVE OPINION! people can headcanon whatever they want and draw whatever they want! i have never, ever harassed anyone who drew something i don’t like. this is honestly my first time opening up about my extremely hot take. it’s not like i’m an ultra petty bully who hates every piece of prohibited wish (my likes are public and you can see that i actually have liked prohibited wish stuff, you can see i have a preference for wholesome tho) please continue to ship what you ship and do whatever you want to prismo and whatever other characters. i’m honestly so scared of getting hate and getting attacked by people. if you read all of this, first of all, thank you SO much, i’m so happy someone actually took the time to hear me out!, and second, you are likely not the problem, and i’m sure i’d love your art of prismo, even if it’s prisxscrabby. just. please, don’t attack me. (i’m aware this post probably has 2 notes or less this is just in case)

quick Q&A:

Q: are you asexual?

A: i don’t really know? im probably demisexual. i know that i’m pansexual. but i do ship characters that partake in sexual acts or are lustful towards each other. i personally don’t think that Prismo is a sexual person. i don’t think of him as ace either, i just don’t think of him as someone who often has lustful thoughts.

Q: are you neurodivergent?

A: i think i might be. i have a therapist and we’re working on getting me a diagnoses. she’s very positive that i have autism. we can’t say for sure if i do until i get my diagnoses, though. please keep in mind that my extreme obsession with prismo and my unwelcomeness for change may be the result of my potential autism. but like i said, i haven’t been officially diagnosed and i do not like the idea of self-diagnosing.

Q: will you keep posting prismo stuff?

A: hopefully. i’m a busy genderfluid, y’know? i have so much social medias to keep track of. this is just a place to dump ma prismo’s, but it gets less and less fun everyday, ya know?

if you’re reading this i love you so so much you’re literally awesome and i can’t thank you enough for it. justaprismolover is outta here bye byeee B)

[cherry-aqua-blossom]

All in all, it’s been an alright year. Nothing spectacular, nothing horrible. More of a transitional year if anything. Things changed, I’ve changed, I’ve lost many things but I’ve also gained more than I’ve had before. So I can’t say I’m ungrateful.

I know I haven’t really been consistent with art since 2021, and for that, I apologize. I have my reasons which I’ll explain below.

Around mid 2021 I went back to in person school after being online for a year and a half due to the pandemic. Compared to online school, it took up a big chunk of my time, time I was used to spending in my art.

And well, I was getting burnt out. Almost everyday for a near year and a half I was working on drawings for Hazbin and Helluva Boss. It was practically the only hobby I had during that time and the only thing I drew. In retrospect, it wasn’t healthy, just drawing nonstop. It didn’t help I was losing interest in the fandoms either.

But over 2022 and 2023, I changed. I gained new friends, lost old ones, made mistakes, learned from those mistakes. I became healthier mentally and physically. I got into other hobbies like painting, sewing, writing, reading, etc. Hell I even got into a couple romantic relationships.

Things were simpler in 2020-2021, with my online friends and my art, but simple doesn’t always mean better.

As for this blog? I’m definitely keeping it, and I’ll try being active more. I can’t say I’ll post so much art as I used to, but Im looking forward to Hazbin’s release and getting that spark again.

This blog has a special place in my heart, all the memories and the friends I’ve made, they’re all special, even if some of them aren’t in my life anymore. Despite all the hard ships, rat mom never stopped loving you guys.

Thank you to my mutuals, my loyal rat children, my followers, for giving me so much support and love for the three years I’ve been here. I hope we can make more memories in 2024.

In no particular list, here’s some specific people I’d love to thank for just being here and dealing with my chaos.

@tofuless @tranquil-slaughterhouse @lazypanartist @omilkandhoneyteao @spookigoobi @l00ny-m00n @gib-vinegar @funkyfoxx0 @businesscasualart @outofthepapers @petitprincess1 @maple-chuuu @thesnowflake18 @tatawitchred @hatsanddragons

[alwaysxlarrie]

i never thought i’d say it’s been a while since i’ve posted a snippet but i also never thought i’d write a cult leader louis fic, so. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ but here it is !!

“The moment he’d heard about the event, he signed up. Harry loved his college, but unfortunately they didn’t prioritize the music department the way he wished they would, which made being a music major a slightly more lonely experience than he would’ve liked. So, while he’d never heard of Louis Tomlinson or his organization before this, that was okay. Those were just mere details. What mattered was that there was an event. For music. In all his nineteen years, he’s never been so excited for a school event.

“Harmonic Haven is my most important life mission. Bringing people in, instilling confidence in them, encouraging them to be their best, always readily available lessons, improving your skills — all of it is essential to the heart of this organization.” Louis saunters around the stage, confident and raspy voice booming smoothly from his microphone.

Harry watches raptly as Louis makes eye contact with people in the crowd and sends an alluring grin their way, enticing them to continue listening. His eyes are hypnotizingly sparkly; a unique blue that Harry could spend days writing songs about. They draw you in and make you constantly want their undivided attention; Harry has had them on him twice now and has been actively fighting the urge to do something ridiculous to get his attention again. He can tell that even just having a single conversation with Louis about their passion for music would reignite the spark in him.

His fingers are itching to take notes, but he doesn’t dare to look away for too long — it’s too much of an risk to miss anything Louis' saying, let alone miss the chance of Louis' eyes on him again.

But Harry knows he needs to do something memorable before Louis' presentation is over, needs Louis to recognize him when Harry goes down to talk to him afterward. There will be tens — likely hundreds, really — of students lined up to talk to Louis and Harry can’t risk not getting a chance. He needs to do something now that will make Louis remember him. And quickly.”

i am nothing if not consistent with long-ish snippets, no matter how long it's been lol. anyway i've edited this to absolute smithereens so hopefully it's decent!! not entirely sure who’s working on a fic at the moment so i’ll just tag a few people lol @loveislarryislove @allwaswell16 @lululawrence @londonfoginacup @jacaranda-bloom @kingonafiftymetreroad @crinkle-eyed-boo @greenblueish @beelou @disgruntledkittenface

[boqvistsbabe]

Update!!!!!!!!

Hey Y’all!!

Here is the start of hopefully monthly updates. I know in my last update I said I was going to be more consistently here and active. Obviously, that didn’t happen lol. Trying to hold myself to that rn. So this is probably going to be the format for all of my update posts, just so they are easier to follow.

Refresh:

So I am almost completely done with the blog refresh. I think all that is left is updating links and getting some other posts (ex: theme days) made/redone. Most of that got put on the back burner due to how long they were going to take lol. But hopefully, over Spring Break, I’ll be able to get those done (no promises, another thing I’m trying to do, is be more realistic about what I want to get done by when so). 

Writing/Other Content:

Ik I said I’d write more. Once again didn’t really happen. Well, I have written a decent bit, but never finished anything. There is one fic that I am going to try and work on after this week (midterms lol) and have someone look over it (the first time I’ve had a beta reader, look at me go lol). Like the blog as a whole, I am trying to organize my writing, like requests and my ideas and what is going out when etc. (@ any of the other writers if you have any suggestions of what to/where to organize my stuff so it doesn’t get all confusing and mixed up you should def let me know). Speaking of requests, I am going to try and do at least two requests a month. That doesn’t sound like a lot but for me, that feels like something I can realistically do. I will be doing old requests first because even though they are years old at this point, I liked the ideas so I genuinely want to write them. I am still going to be accepting new requests (esp because sometimes that helps spark creativity/help with writer’s block so feel free to send in any ideas!!) but I will try to get those older ones done first. As for any other content (playlists, moodboards, IG edits, drawings, etc.) I am also taking requests for those so feel free to send in any of those requests too. 

Another Blog?!

As of rn the second hockey blog has not been “released”. I want to catch up on things for this blog before I throw that into the mix and try to grow that as well. I am hoping to add that sometime this summer. Also, I do technically have a sideblog already (@samistheman) which is normally where I reblog random things, and I don’t really have tags for that blog I just kinda willy-nilly reblog there (it used to be mostly PJO stuff but now that’s kind of here because of how much of it there is lol).

Life Update:

College is a lot rn. I’m doing 17 credit hours and tbh do not know what possessed me to do that. At first, I was doing pretty good, but now not so much. Like I said earlier I have midterms this week. If y’all didn’t know this, I’m shit at taking tests so not doing great rn. Thankfully one of my classes ends on Sunday so at least I don’t have to worry about that. I’ve had a lot going on in my personal life recently that is impacting a lot so trying to navigate that as well. I am moving out in May, which is yes months from now but there is still a lot that I need to do beforehand. Anyway, I’m going to a college hockey game on Thursday and I am super excited. I haven’t been able to go to a game since October. Also little fun update, I’m going on a weekend (work) trip to Boston. Super excited for that. I’ll be getting to go to a Celtics game and a Red Sox game (I’m a Royals girlie tho). I’ve never been to an NBA game so that’s for sure gonna be really cool. I’ve been to many MLB games before but this will be my first at a different stadium. Anyway, I think that is it for this update. Hope y’all are doing well!!

As usual, if y’all ever want to talk dms/inbox are open <3

I am going to tag some moots, I am totally forgetting some people so I am sorry for that (if y'all could reblog that would be amazing)

@2manytabsopen @krugstrash @jimmystrudel @andreburakozy @sidneycrosbyhoe @fallinallincurls @timstuetzle @typical-simplelove @ilyasorokinn @drei-mrssvechii

[clearcatastrophe]

🎉30 YEARS OF ANIMANIACS!!!🎉

Imma be real, it’s been a hot minute since I’ve posted anything relating to these funky little puppy children, and even though I didn’t get to finish a celebratory artwork, I just wanna put this expression of gratitude here at the very least.

Several years ago in high school, my geography teacher was giving out our first in a series of quizzes. Obviously, it consisted of labeling things on a map. He told us that we could get out of the quiz, but we had to do a bit of extra credit. He pulled up Yakko’s World on YouTube and I thought to myself “what the heck is this? I never saw this on PBS Kids”. If we could recite it all, then we could be exempt a quiz. I went home and watched the video that night, over and over, trying as best I could to memorize as much of the video that I could stuff in my brain. Of course the next day when the quiz happened I only got from United States to Haiti, but it was still fun to hear that catchy song, and I was still plagued by curiosity. What show was this? ‘Animaniacs’? Who are the mice? (holy shit “who are the mice?” girlie you have absolutely NO idea)

A bit later the reboot comes out and it’s all a-buzz in the animation community. I decided to check it out; I like rubber hose. I heard from an artist I followed online I should watch the og first to get a feel for the series, and lord was I hooked.

I resonated with Yakko a crapton ((who doesn’t?)) and I kinda wished for me and my younger sibs’ relationship to be as fun and carefree and the Warner’s. The show drove me to learn more about animation and to draw more, and I deeply appreciated the voice acting, and learned more about that too. Heck, I rejoined Tumblr because of Animaniacs (Pinky and The Brain to be exact). And some of the first people I reached out to online were also fans of the show.

It’s sappy and silly, but I love how this show has shaped me, and if there comes a day I don’t remember any of it, I at least will always retain the happiness and feeling of pure joy Animaniacs has brought me.

And now I have at least one unimpressive party trick to pull from my hammerspace whenever the topic of geography comes up.

Have a zany 30, Animaniacs.

[withlovelunette]

Hello Lunette! I saw your post about needing advice on how to reconnect with your writing after an absence due to chronic illness, and while I don’t have a chronic illness, I do have chronic depression. Here are 5 tips I’ve learned over the years that have helped me when it comes to feeling disconnected from your writing. Hopefully they help!

Read a book or watch a movie that is similar to what you’re trying to write. Pay attention to how you feel as you read/watch, how the story draws you in, and what kind of imagery/language is used. In what ways is your writing similar to these stories? In what ways is it different?

Rewrite, rewrite, rewrite! Don’t even look at the old scene- just rewrite it from memory. See if anything changes in tone or verbiage.

Bounce ideas off of friends. Sometimes we just need somebody to sort through the weeds with us. Ask for their honest (but kind and constructive) feedback, and see if they have any insights that can help.

Take a notebook with you everywhere you go and jot down your ideas. Whether it’s snippets of prose or dialogue, words that evoke feeling or even journaling! Any writing is better than no writing! Plus keeping all of your thoughts in one spot will help you connect your ideas.

Get excited!!! Make writing fun! Make playlists for your story and/or characters! Make niche memes about your story only a you will understand! Be your own number one fan! Sometimes you just have to let yourself get funky with it!

I hope this helps! If you ever want to talk about your writing or get feedback on something your stuck with my messages are always open! 💛

Thank you so much for the advice!! I saw this ask when it first arrived into my inbox, but didn't get around to answering it until now; I figured other people might also be able to take something useful away from this ask so I wanted to share it :,) Luckily, I have gotten back into the swing of writing, although I'm (evidently) very far behind on tumblr. With some more experience being a chronically ill writer under my belt, these tips have been very helpful for me, particularly the 4th one. Being chronically ill (physically in my case, but this applies to other forms as well!) means you pretty much never know what your physical/mental state is going to be on any given day, so I've given up on planning my writing sessions and embraced writing more sporadically in my notes whenever I feel up for it, and then assemble it into a doc later.

I really appreciate you and everyone else who's reached out ever since I've spoken up about my health problems. Needless to say, it's been a rough (and lonely!) past year as I'm not really surrounded by other people who have any experience with chronic illness. It's a very alienating experience, but that's what makes online spaces like these very helpful; even if I mostly just lurk nowadays until I can manage to be consistent again. I hope you (and anyone else reading this) have a good writing year in 2024! :D <3

[mi-ni-me]

Hello everyone! I just wanna talk to y’all for a bit while I’m waiting to go to class, as far as 2023 I personally felt like I drew a good amount! Even if you guys didn’t see much of it lol. Now I’m personally a slow artist, it takes me years to finish one sketchbook, such as the one I’m working on right now almost 2 years old from 2022, and I’m just now half way through! But even though I do believe some art can stay in the books and not everything has to be uploaded, a lot of my sketches I did last year I really wanted to upload and never got the chance! I notice that even at my almost 20 years of age I still overthink about my art and how to improve it, as well as how I should go about uploading it. I guess I’m making this post to fully explain why I’m so sparse on this app and why I’ll randomly come back and just spit out drawing after drawing. I really do wish to be consistent with my art, but sometimes I just don’t feel like drawing, have the time or motivation to do my hobby, but when I do I usually always have this account in mind. All in all I wanna say thank all of you over the years for loving what I create and being patient with me, no matter how small the response I’m always grateful. I really came on here to say I’m going to be dropping most of my art from last year, especially since that was my original intentions, I’ve been holding the skeletons from y’all I apologize 🌚I’ll probably upload a couple pages every few days just to give an estimate, even today! I hope all of yours day is well and good! I love and appreciate each and every one of you!

(Note: also PLEASEEEE don’t afraid to leave comments, feedback, and even request for me, a way I can really stay on this app is if I have something to come back too, so if you like my art or even just wanna say hi, please drop by my inbox, this account is for fun I’m up for (almost) anything!!!

[bvannn]

Weekly Update October 6, 2023

I’ve been very volatile this week, which may continue next week or may not. I don’t know yet. I’ve been on weird cycles of doing a ton of art then doing nothing for a few days. It will probably continue.

So October is started and I’m an impulsive little greedy fuck so I decided to do three different prompt sets, but I’m doing them all differently. OG inktober is getting priority, because I feel bad about failing inktober 52 earlier this year. Maybe I’ll ink or digitize the few of those sketches that I never finished once I’m done, or maybe I won’t. Anywho I’m trying to do inktober daily, more or less. Second priority is goretober, because I need practice and also with life stuff being still weirdly volatile despite all I’ve done, bloody pictures are really cathartic. I’m tagging everything to be extra safe, even though I’m honestly probably over tagging. Idk day one was mouth stuff which really sets some people off so maybe I was overly cautious because of that, but I’d rather be over cautious than get in trouble. Lowest priority prompt set is cringetober, because even though I just kind of avoid most of the stuff on the list naturally due to personal distaste, I still appreciate the spirit of it. Cringe always has a place, even if that place isn’t on my monitor specifically. I’m not doing every prompt from that list because some of them I really can’t figure out anything Oc related (deadass almost gave up for ‘overly complex fit’ and drew Shulk Xenoblade and his ugly ass outfit instead, but decided against it because that’s against the spirit of the prompt set). I still want to fit in as many as I can, and even though most of those will be late, I’m still going to try. At a minimum I want to do the MS paint one that sounds fun.

Also I threw in a random drawing of Stitch this week. Maybe I’ll do other random drawings too, probably not. I’m already pretty behind on stuff.

So I’ve mentioned I’ve been slacking off with TRGA the past couple weeks but I’m trying to get myself back together with it. I’m trying to figure out timing a bit better, and I did finally get some assets I’ve been procrastinating on done. Jon now has actual soles to his feet, and soon Emile will have the sketch lines I’ve been trying to lean into with my art. I can recolor the foot sole asset for Tim and Emile also, although they won’t need it for this animation. I’m mostly at this point messing with actual movement timing and strategies to make the boys more distinct from one another, although I’m probably overthinking it admittedly. The current shot, 1-4, is by far my most complex in this regard, and may be the most complex of the animation, so chances are I’ll post a WIP once the ‘main’ character animation is done. Or maybe not. I’m not sure.

This week hasn’t been the best for personal life so my mood is extremely volatile, so there’s no guarantee anything will be consistent. My plan is to do one inktober drawing and one keyframe/batch of tweens/chunk of work a day for TRGA done every day, and then the additional prompt sets and/or general drawings done whenever possible, but I’m such a mess I can’t guarantee anything. I’m trying to get stuff together with doctors, since they have been telling me pretty good news, but my primary today said something that, while it would be great news, contradicts what a specialist told me. She did outright say to double check with the specialist since they were probably right, but you know how hard it is to get ahold of doctors for that so now I need to worry about that. I’m a mess this semester isn’t going very well, and tomorrow I’ll probably end up doing music instead of art which will suck because I probably won’t have anything to show for that for a while yet.

[dead-dove-doesnt-eat]

Do you have an active ED and an attention disorder?

Let me put you on something (medication) (it sucks)

Like many people with ADHD or ADD, I’ve been on adderall, Dexedrine, Ritilin, focalin, you name it. Here’s he one that worked for me

I started Vyvanse about 2 ish years ago when I was 17, and it has WAY way way more cons than pros, but the pros pay off and It’s what works for me. And while it might not work for everyone, I figured I’d share what I know

Disclaimer: this is an over the counter prescription drug. I am not encouraging getting this drug illegally or using it recreationally but also idc what you do

CONS (based on my personal experience an limited research)

Because It’s a known appetite suppressant, you may have a hard time getting it if you are already underweight or have ED anywhere in your records.

Random panic. I can just be sitting there and get shaky and can feel my heartbeat super fast, and overall I just sweat more when I’m on it.

I focus on whatever I’m doing. Not just school or work. I have a midterm due next week that I haven’t started, and I’m doing research for this post instead. This happens most of the time

I scratch myself till i bleed, and I pick at every imperfection on my face and body and scalp for hours on end without breaking concentration.

When I first started taking it I got panic attacks pretty often, but that went away as I got used to it. But it doesn’t go away if you aren’t consistent with taking it every day.

It gave me a couple of motor tics, which mostly faded away after about a year and a half of taking it.

I know the point of reading this for most people is to suppress appetite, but sometimes I just don’t notice that I haven’t eaten for a long time, and I get super super hangry without actually feeling hungry, so I just get frustrated.

Unlike other adhd medications that are more “take it when you need it” It has to be taken every morning to work best

You can’t sleep when it’s active. Its designed to keep you alert and focused for about 12 hours, but in my experience it fully wears off about 15 or 16 hours in. If I forget to take it in the morning I skip it for that day otherwise I won’t be able to fall asleep until the wee hours of the morning, and will be tossing and turning all night

^Seriously. Idc how sleepy of a person you think you are, it fucks up your sleep. Other people who take vyvanse have expressed this as well

It changes your personality. It changes who you like, how you think, how you act, and how you feel. It numbs me out big time

I had to get used to actively remembering to drink water

But also your mouth is always dry

I grind my teeth a ton and started biting my nails again

Random depression

I swear I’m like 70% less funny and socially aware when I take it

Everything around me is serious and I have a generally less fun than when I’m on it

PROS

Many doctors prefer it over adderall since it’s not as well known, isn’t a good high, and doesn’t have as much of a risk of being sold and abused

I can actually fucking focus when I take it it’s crazy

It’s used for treating binge eating disorder

Unlike other focus meds, it lasts all day. It’s working during class, it’s working at the gym, and it’s still working just as well at the end of the day so I can do my homework.

It just makes you flat out, not hungry all day

Like I don’t even think about food

Makes you less impulsive

I’m never bored when I take it. Idk if that makes sense but I used to get bored of video games and drawing and stuff and now I just don’t

It makes me motivated to do stuff idk

Gave me lots of pent up energy I used for working out

It gives you laser eyes and all the cool kids do it

Anyways that’s just my personal experience with it, if you have anything to add from being on it or something similar PLEASE do so

it’s cool and evil, and I love/hate it a lot.

[stepswowdsen]

【Multifandom】 Rambles

Update Rambles

Putting this as a ramble post too cuz I edited it today

I think in terms of art, I wanna grow even more obviously but I'm happy with my huge improvement this year... My style looks the best it's ever been and my way of drawing face/eyes and sense for picking colours keeps getting better and better.

I do think I wanna jumpstart a huge art improvement growth journey by trying to make gesture drawing somewhat of a consistent thing for me. Cuz I have no consistency for my gesture drawings. Not right now obviously but I wanna design plushies for my fave ships (XanLena, KuroEne, JuAli, IdaTatsu, LimGuda) one day. I love them all dearly… 🥺🫶

Because I was thinking that I would love to have physical merch of them. I'll make my faves kiss like barbie dolls ✌️💗 I would LOOOVE to dress them up and sit them next to each other... That's a huge dream of mine

I think KuroEne should be on the easier end of my fave ships since their designs are rather simple and less detailed in comparison? I'm not used to drawing chibis, compared to how I usually draw, but I'll do anything for my faves. Don't underestimate me. I'm dedicated.

I also wanna doodle some scenes from my KuroEne AU Route where MaryEne team up against Saeru. This Route has such a fun setup, especially with the way it plays out. Because it's so long, I haven't finished writing for it yet.

So I wanna draw some snippets from it eventually. Ofc I'd love to draw more, but my yapping outpaces my drawing speed, unfortunately. That's why I do rambles/dialogue scripts. So I can remember my ideas and hope to draw them later whenever I get the time

This Route is super long so I haven't gotten the chance to sort all my dialogue scripts for it yet. I take from my Notion docs for my stories. They remind me what I have/haven't posted on my socials

I have some art concepts simmering in my head like KuroEne wearing Viet clothes cuz seeing my faves in traditional clothes makes me <3 And then a ball themed art where Kuroha drapes a black veil over the both of them and Ene wears a dress with a cage dress aesthetic <3

I used to post my notes onto Insta directly (by copying them from my Notion docs) but it takes more time to format. I’ve been busier lately cuz of school, so I just post SS of my Notion docs directly.

Art Growth

Exactly agreed with this. This is how I spend my time drawing so I appreciate OP for putting this into words. For me I usually rotate between my interests but always end up coming back to them eventually since they're always in the back of my mind, even if years down along the line

I find that if I get really invested, then I don't move on from my fave series/characters. They linger in my heart forever and I just rotate between them. This also helps avoids burnout with one interest for me. My followers don't really have to worry about me not drawing [X] character/ship anymore. I will always come back to it eventually.

Tho, just in general, it's natural that peoples' interests just phase in and out, and they may or may not come back to [X] thing. I first got into KagePro when I was 12 so I'm surprised it took me this long to come back to it publically, since I had instances where I'd draw doodles for it but just not post them

I'm MORE shocked that I didn’t talk about my KuroEne obsession until 2024? I was literally NEVER obsessed with a ship like that until them (KuroEne). 12 y/o Sen's first big ship 💗

Cuz I was 12 when I first became obsessed with them, and up until that point, I wasn't insane about a ship like that until them

Me with my faves is basically just my insanity speedrun, especially when I’m mainly obsessed with XanLena, KuroEne, and IdaTatsu solely cuz of my ship AUs & interpretations. Those ships hinge entirely on my AU writing.

But I think it's cuz I knew the KuroEne obsession would come back in full force and that's exactly what happened in April. I predicted it LOL. I'm not really surprised cuz Kuroha/Saeru is EXTREMELY Sen-core in both writing and design, and his character concept and role as the main villain, is so unique. The instigator of the time loop tragedy who’s the embodiment of “Knowledge/Wisdom”

As I said, my top faves are all equally important to me they're just personal and important to me in different ways. So I try to split up the time spent between each interest by rotating through them periodically and drawing for them in random bursts. I always get a feeling of “I miss them and want to draw for them again...”

Like, I've mainly been drawing and writing KuroEne lately cuz they're the easiest of my faves to draw imo (other than XanLena).

I'm very particular about the way I draw Xanxus' eyes and hair (it's generally easy but sometimes I have trouble), but with KuroEne, I don't really have much trouble drawing them at all (their headphones are annoying to draw, along with the belts/straps on Kuroha, but they're generally easier).

So I'd put XanLena and KuroEne at a similar level. Like I don't really have trouble drawing KuroEne's hair and facial features. They're easy to do an initial sketch pass for. For the others, I either draw them good on the first try or they take multiple sketch passes for me to get right

I think it goes like this in terms of difficulty (easiest to most difficult)

KuroEne & XanLena < JuAli & IdaTatsu < LimGuda

And LimGuda's difficulty is because of how detailed Douman's design is

Also cuz Feila chats with me about KuroEne everyday, so the KuroEne AU rambles are just easy to post cuz I can just snatch from my notes, or whatever KuroEne AU works I'm working on.

In general, I snatch from whatever I'm currently drawing/writing about (or recent WIPs, or ones I've recently worked on and revamped)

But I think about all of my faves daily. I've been thinking of wanting to create for my other interests too.

Art is a craft of someone's passion and hard work. People are not entitled to it. I lowkey got sick/annoyed of drawing Ak*Yona cuz I got sentiments from people like "Please draw more ANY 🥺" and cuz it overshadowed the main AU works I focus on. Like... how do you think I'd feel about that.

Every few ~ several months, I get a feeling of wanting to archive my old works, cuz I hate looking at my old art. Some things from 2023 are hard for me to look at, much less anything older than that. I felt a sigh of relief when I archived most of my gallery. I want to fill it with new arts eventually ✌️

My mental health hit its lowest lows at times in the last couple years cuz of my not so great home life, but I think in terms of art, I'm the happiest I've been, rn. If I draw something, I want it to come from my heart as something I wanted to do, not because people wanted me to draw it

Ship Tastes

I think I talked about how I felt before in my Notion docs, but didn't post it here. To me, I feel like, the more that a ship resembles "traditional romance," the more I'm turned off by it tbh. I'm not looking for highschool sweethearts esque stuff. I like literary romanticism, the opposite of literary realism.

My fave ships are ones that are intense and dangerous, and deadly and passionate. I like ships with a compelling amount of conflict and tension, ones that are complicated, complex, and messy.

My ships are not "traditional romances" and I prefer it that way. Makes it much more interesting to me

Because for me, my only reaction is just, "Oh it's cute Ig." But there's nothing (or hardly anything much) for me to say about it.

ALL of my top fave ships are like this, so I think it really shows in my ship tastes.

Also on a side note. I also get bored by masc charas who are too NORMAL... Fiction is a form of escapism for me, I'm not searching for normal people it's generic and boring to me

That's why my acc is a villain enjoyers zone cuz my faves are all weirdos. They're just more fun /pos /endearing

Though I do make exceptions.

This is exactly how I feel

This fully explains why I'm only obsessed with MLW ships if:

The ship is complicated, messy, chaotic, and funny

At least one of the charas is queer, or can be HC'ed as queer

Like it HAS to have these, in order for me to be obsessed with it. Like if it doesn't have these requirements, then it's only a casual like to me. I’ve never had an exception to this

I HC my faves as LGBT+ by default cuz I'd keel over if any of my faves were straight. I'm allergic to cishet people

The thing is, is that I have very hyperspecific ship tastes, so my ships need a certain level of intensity and danger for me to be obsessed with them. I like when my ships are intense and dangerous

(Either one or both of the charas are dangerous, or their relationship is, in some way)

My big MLW ships are IdaTatsu and KuroEne, like the men in these ships are fruity af

Cishet meow meow mfs are a myth

Kuroha/Saeru can use Awakening Eyes to change his body into whatever he wants. I love my NB genderfluid Kuroha/Saeru HC sm. That's genderfluid swag 💖

Agreed with this post btw like the best MLW romances are written by queer women (bi women and lesbians allergic to heteronormativity)

I noticed that a LOT of my fave ships are Enemies/Rivals to Lovers

Enemies to Lovers: JuAli, LimGuda, KuroEne

KuroEne

KuroEne is my case study ship like it's fascinating to me

I'm studying them like a hamster spinning on a wheel

My mad scientist brain (or maybe Kuroha/Saeru's mad scientist brain?) is going off the rails /lh

Every other fave ship of mine I want them to be happy. My ship AUs are generally fluffy and focused on the ship and their intimate moments and them spending together

This is true for KuroEne too, but for KuroEne, I want their infinite XXX amount of Routes to keep on going forever so I can keep writing their endless possibilities cuz it's so fun to think of

There are some ships where I'm like "I don't think of them in terms of a usual romance/relationship, I just think they're interesting"

And yeah. KuroEne engage in intimacy but their r/s is soooo messy, and that's why makes it fun.

Once my faves are past the initial animosity/hostility, getting to know each other, I could definitely see my other ships in actual romantic relationships.

KuroEne is a different case tho because of Kuroha's role/setup as the instigator of the time loop tragedy constantly killing the cast who retains the knowledge/memories of previous Routes.

So in these XXX amount of Routes, they get reset back to 0 at the end everytime, and then they meet again... And Saeru remembers all these encounters.

Their relationship is filled with conflict and tension, desperation, love, obsession, passion, yearning, desire, attachment.

KuroEne is definitely different from my other ships, cuz, in the context of a ship AU, Kuroha/Saeru loves for his own sake due to his selfish, twisted desires. The emotions are genuine but it lacks pure, genuine love.

I imagine that the KuroEne AU started cuz he wanted to prove his theory that humans will do anything for love.

Irt how the KuroEne AU starts

He first questions humans' desire for love (that he probably mistook as lustful pleasure) then he decided to test his experiments on Ene (due to his vessel). Takane/Ene is more affected by Haruka & Konoha than anyone else. And that's how he comes up with the whole idea of the "game" with her, their trysts. And that's when he approaches her with the proposal to make her a body...

His elaborate scheme done in the most roundabout convoluted way, lol

One that he presents to the other party as being an equal trade, but ultimately benefits himself, mostly.

Though it is true that Kuroha/Saeru grants all of Ene's wishes in their relationship... He caters to her wishes and appeases her personality and whims, takes her out wherever she wants, gives her gifts, and love and affection...

Kuroha gives her everything she wanted (even if it comes at a heavy cost)

That heavy cost being - He kills everyone.

He gives her everything except for what she truly wants (getting to move onto the future with everyone and have a happy life)

And he gets to satisfy his desires for accumulating more knowledge (with getting to build the android body and improve on it)

It's filled with a very ILL affection, cuz he is at his core, ill.

Even Douman can be very genuine/show more tender sides...

When he reveals himself to Ene, the betrayal's gonna sink in. Like, if you spend that much time getting to know someone (I imagine they were basically living together for 1 - 2 years) then the betrayal from him revealing his true intentions is gonna be devastating

I imagine that he genuinely enjoyed his act of playing pretend with his S/O (and to the rest of the MekaDan, if they meet in this Route) and enjoyed the time he spent with them, and that's exactly why he won't give it up.

Like...... He's gonna push back against the idea of Ene proposing moving onto the future with everyone as much as possible for the sake of his own immortality (above all else), and then, on a secondary level, for the sake of the game - the love that's keeping him fulfilled

I see them as the type that will meet and cross paths with each other and meet and engage in intimacy with charged sexual tension