#I’m running on 4 hours of sleep rn
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love how sleep deprivation is making me write more than I have in the last few days
#・ ˖ ✦ ⋄ . AUTHOR OF THE STARS ❝ ooc. ❞#is this the secret guys did i crack the code?#its currently *checks clock* 9:30am#I’ve been awake for 3 hours barely#I’m running on 4 hours of sleep rn#I’m gonna crash out later just you wait and see#AND ITS RAINING RIGHT NOW….maybe I’ll take a nap after i write a bit more
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I feel like they’d be into baking (this is purely self-indulgent)
#bsd#bungoustraydogs#chuuyanakahara#dazai#dazaiosamu#skk#soukoku#artists on tumblr#procreate#theyre so in love#I actually just wanted to practice backgrounds but I can’t draw anything other than skk anymore#dazai has a sweet tooth it’s basically canon atp#actually don’t believe anything I say I’m running on caffeine and 4 hours of sleep rn#I was craving some croissants but I can’t buy any bc I’m broke#chuuya#bsd fanart#bsd dazai#bsd chuuya
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Hmmmmmnb silly little thangis i love him so much
It’s been forever since I’ve actually played a rayman game I miss it theyr so fun !!! I feel like I have lost myself in some stuff recently and I really want to get back to doing things I enjoy. I want to love them like I used to. Maybe I am just changing. Idk. I miss my little thingamajig!!!!!!!!!! I just want to care about me again and by extension,. Heh,,. Let’s just say. My raysman
#I’m so different now#I’m actually so tired rn#I’m running off like. 4 hours of sleep here#I don’t even know what the fuck I’m saying#rayman#f/o gush#selfship#selfshipping community#☀️🍆🧣 limbless lover#♡.love letters
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#so much chappell roan played at the club last night big slay 👯♀️#my body is now 90% soju#no hangover this morning even bigger slay#though i’m running on 4 hours sleep rn 💀#d stuff
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idk if i’ll be able to stay awake to watch live but i’m gonna try
#i’m so exhausted lately#i’m trying to get back into working out and running again#and i’m on a diet rn#that combo makes me tired af#i went to bed at like 6:30 pm last night and slept like 9 hours lol#but i sleep so good when im working out it’s nice#anyway i get up at 4 am for work so i can’t stay up too late
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I finally found my hillergoodspeed “I’m a good thing just the way I am” shirt I was gifted 4? Years ago (that I never really wore because it’s that wretched feminine cut skin tight fit in a small but I added it back into the outfit rotation because the design itself is too joyous to abandon the shirt entirely) & a girl was like ohh is that the one Instagram artist with the cheeto tiger and I was like no that’s Jennifer Xiao (also good!) but now I have an in to further peddle mr goodspeeds works a la “if you like that artist try this one” which I will do because I am nothing if not a hgs enjoyer first and a human being second.
#running on uhh. like 4 hours of sleep in the past 48 hours. suddenly developed horrific insomnia this year. if this or anything else I post#today is incoherent I’m fine just eepy.#this post also serves as me further peddling the works of hgs ohhh you wanna go to that tumblr blog sooo bad rn
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Pairing: Dean Winchester x Reader
Summary: Charlie discovers the Winchester boys to be struggling with keeping the bunker tidy, looking after themselves and being able to do their job simultaneously. Luckily she has a friend who’s from a Hunter family that is in need of work and can help them with research. Or so she thought that’s what her job would be. When Dean sees your more domesticated side, his head won’t stop swimming with all the wrong ideas.
Slow burn, enemies to lovers, smut
Warnings: BIG SMUT - fingering, PinV, essentially just a chapter of p*rn
Chapter Word Count: 2997
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A/N: basically just a whole chapter of smut. Hope it doesn’t suck ass as it’s 2am an I’ve been trying to proof read for half an hour but fuck knows what I’ve just written. But yeah same as always pls let me know of any errors as I am the only one who proof reads this shit.
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Please read the below first:
Prologue Chapter 1
Chapter 2 Chapter 3
Chapter 4 Chapter 5
Chapter 6 Chapter 7
Chapter 8 pt. 1
Chapter 8 pt. 2
I’m Not Your F*cking Maid
Chapter 9
Chapter 9
I laid in bed staring at the ceiling, sleep failing to whisk me away. I tossed and turned for several hours; kicking the covers off in frustration before pulling them up to my chin, then kicking them off again before pulling them back up - repeating this horrid cycle until two in the morning. Thoughts kept racing through my mind and I couldn’t get the image of Dean looking at me with those dark lustful eyes out of my head. The way he watched me move around Sam, witnessing how I caressed his younger brother and made him squirm where he sat. I could only dream of what was going through his mind in that moment - of what I hoped he was thinking. Heat prickled my skin and bubbled in the pit of my stomach as I remembered my daydream from earlier; Dean fucking me into his mattress as he held my hips and sought nothing but his own pleasure. A groan left my lips as I threw my covers off and sat up, rubbing my temples in a weak attempt to dismiss my attraction to the obnoxious man wreaking havoc in my mind. I placed my feet on the cold floor and stood up, deciding a glass of cold water was the best remedy for whatever it was that I was feeling. I rubbed my eyes as I padded towards my bedroom door, tugging on the old T-shirt that barely covered my behind. I grasped the handle and opened the door, jumping in surprise at the sight of Dean leaving his room. A startled noise left my lips as I placed a hand on my chest, not expecting to see him standing there.
“Shit, Dean, you scared the crap out of me.” In response Dean mumbled a half hearted apology, taking a step closer to me.
“What are you doing up? It’s late, you should be in bed.”
“What are you, my dad?” I scoffed, not sure how to feel about the reprimanding. He held his hands up in defence, only bowing his head slightly, not saying anything else. I sighed.
“I just can’t sleep; I’ve been tossing and turning for hours but no luck. I was just on my way to get a glass of water.”
“You didn’t think to put any more clothes on?” He asked, and it looked like he was trying desperately not to look me up and down as his eyes wouldn’t leave mine.
“I’m sorry - how many people do you run into at TWO AM? I wasn’t expecting company,” I tugged more on the bottom of my T-shirt, trying harder to cover up what little dignity I had left in front of Dean Winchester. All of a sudden we were stood in total silence, neither of us knowing what to say as we now avoided eye contact and I played with the hem on my shirt. We stayed like this for a few awkward moments before I opened my mouth to say something right as Dean decided to speak.
“I can’t get you out of my head, (Y/n).”
My eyes snapped up to meet his, and there was an almost pained look about his face that was hard to place in the dim lighting. My mouth opened and closed a few times, not knowing what words to pick. Luckily for me, Dean kept talking.
“That shit you pulled earlier - the way you… danced… for Sam - made me genuinely jealous of my own brother. I mean come on, we’ve already done the deed, why didn’t you pick me?”
“Because how would you have known how good I was if you couldn’t see everything?”
He thought for a second before tilting his head and raising his eyebrows in agreement.
“You’ve got me there.”
“I know what I’m doing, Winchester.”
“You sure do sweetheart,” Dean stepped closer to me, closing the already short distance between us with those forest-green eyes not leaving mine. Our chests were almost touching as his gaze started flicking between my eyes and my lips. I watched as his own lips parted and he chewed on his bottom lip as if deep in thought, his eyes growing darker by the second. My heart started to race and the atmosphere turned thick. What was he thinking about? Why did he have to look at me the way he did - like he wanted to devour me - the intensity of his gaze increasing by the second and making me warm both inside and out. Not another thought ran through my mind when my back thumped against my bedroom door and Deans lips descended on my own - hot and hurried. His large arms circled my waist, rough palms caressing every inch of my back, waist and ass like he was searching for the best place to grip onto - to dig his fingers into my soft skin. I pulled on his hair, bringing his face and body closer to mine, wanting to feel every muscled inch of him press against me.
I released one hand from his hair and reached back, fumbling around the door looking for the handle, soon finding it and twisting. The door swung open and we stumbled in, too wrapped up in every fibre of each other to pay much attention to anything else. Dean kicked the door closed, reluctant to release me from his grasp and his lips still on mine as he hastily backed me towards my bed; my knees hitting the mattress and I tumbled down onto my back, pulling him with me. He gripped me with one strong arm and lifted me further up the bed so I was in a more comfortable position - my head now resting on the pillow and my hair fanning around me. His lips were so soft on mine, his stubble occasionally scratching my chin when his lips parted further and his tongue hesitantly skimmed mine. The action was slow, as if he was testing the waters. I couldn’t stop the moan from leaving my lips at the feeling of him in my mouth and the sheer intimacy of the action, wrapping my arms over his shoulders and surrendering my mouth to him. I subconsciously pulled him closer, my knees parting without a second thought and his hips dipped down, allowing me to feel every well-sculpted muscle in his abdomen and thighs - including the hardness growing in those loose pyjama pants. The ever so familiar sensation of my own arousal began brewing like a storm; twisting in the pit of my stomach with excitement and anticipation. Electric jolts shot through me every time he pressed into my most sensitive area, making my legs twitch involuntarily as breathy gasps escaped me. His mouth quickly left mine and trailed down my throat before he sat up, pulling himself from my grasp. His evergreen eyes, black with desire that pierced into mine with white hot lust held my gaze, and I fought to stop my eyes rolling into the back of my head from the way he looked at me. Without missing a beat he pulled his black T-shirt over his head and threw it to the floor, holding himself above me as I let myself admire him - trailing my gaze over every inch of exposed skin, lingering on his tattoo. I reached up and traced my fingers over it, feeling him shiver and groan at my gentle touch, his head dropping into the crook of my neck. With one hand he reached down, those rough fingers delicately slipping into my underwear and circling that sensitive button, making my legs twitch even more than before. He went around and around, tauntingly avoiding contact with it before a desperate whimper slipped from my lips. He smirked like the Devil himself before he finally indulged me, pressing his fingertips expertly to the tender mound, undoing me in a way that I’ve never been undone before. He leaned down as his ministrations continued, pressing soft kisses to my moaning lips. My head tilted back into my pillow as that recognisable feeling in the pit of my stomach began to twist tighter and tighter, my nails digging into Deans shoulders, leaving behind little crescent moon-shaped indents in his skin. My breathing increased and I was right on the edge of bliss when out of nowhere he stopped, the pleasure disappearing in an instant. However before I even had a chance to complain he’d slid two thick fingers inside me with ease, drawing a gasp from my chest. He pumped in and out a few times, teasingly pressing on the hidden cushion of over-sensitive flesh that was hidden deep inside, making me writhe underneath him. It wasn’t hidden to Dean though, no, he knew EXACTLY what he was looking for. Once again this pleasure was short lived as he pulled his fingers out, leaving me cold and empty on the inside. On the outside however I was red hot as I watched the older Winchester stick his fingers in his mouth, circling his tongue around them as he sucked my essence from his digits, not missing a single drop. My heart flipped when he spoke in a low, husky voice.
“Delicious - just like last time.”
Heat spread like wildfire over my cheeks as I blushed furiously, not knowing how to deal with the sexual expertise of this incredibly objectionable man. He placed his hands on my thighs, my knees almost gripping his hips in anticipation.
“Are you ready princess?” He asked, his voice smooth and frustratingly calm, except for his chest rising and falling rapidly with supposedly eager breaths.
“Yes- Dean please-”
In a single beat he pulled himself out of his pants and slid inside me with ease, stretching me as he made every inch disappear. My eyes rolled and my mouth was agape, a pornstar-grade moan unintentionally leaving my lips and making Dean quiver.
“Fuck- (Y/n) don’t squeeze me like that darlin or I won’t last long…” he breathed out, all calmness from his voice now gone.
“I-I’m not doing anything- I swear,” I almost squeak out as he lowers himself over me again, one hand dropping next to my head to support himself as the other gripped my thigh pulling it around him. It was his turn for his eyes to roll.
“Lord have mercy…” he muttered out under his breath, slowly moving his hips, thrusting in and out, in and out, over and over and over again. He was ever so gentle at first, but that soon changed when his own pleasure was there to be chased and gentle thrusting turned to mind-melting pounding. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders, his mouth occasionally pressing into the curve of my neck as my lips rested near his ear, my soft moans going straight to his brain. I started to feel sweat pepper his skin, his breathing heavy as his motions became even more rapid and uneven. He was right - he wouldn’t last long. I unwound my arms and placed my palms on his chest and pushed, taking him by surprise. He stopped his pounding and I could feel him flex inside me, bringing a gasp from my lips before I could get my words out. I refocused, his attention on me unwavering.
“Get on your back.”
I didn’t have to tell him twice as he flipped over with ease, pulling out of me for a second and taking my spot on the bed. I flung my leg over him and lowered myself down on him with zero hesitation, hating the cold feeling of emptiness. Deans hands worked on their own as they grabbed the soft flesh on my thighs, his fingers digging in as he groaned in pleasure. His head went back in the pillow, his eyes shut and jaw slack as I started to move, rocking back and forth, his hands softly guiding me. My fingers pushed into his chest as I steadied myself, and he seemed unphased by my weight in his state of ecstasy. I moaned, unable to stop myself from chasing my own pleasure as I looked down at him, loving that I was the one making him lose his mind in bliss. He opened his eyes, lids still hooded as he gazed up, watching me ride him like there was no tomorrow. For a moment his hands left my thighs, reaching up and tugging on the old T-shirt I was wearing.
“Take this shit off,” he growled, helping me discard the item. I lifted it over my head and tossed it to the floor with his garment, dishevelling my hair in the process.
“Better?” I asked, now completely bare to his burning gaze.
“Fuck yes,” he breathed, hands sliding up my stomach to caress the underside of my breasts, sliding a thumb over the silky smooth skin as his palms rested on my ribs. I rocked against him harder, feeling my own wetness on my thighs and mixing with my sweat. In this position it was like his cock was in my throat - he felt so deep, so engulfed by me I felt I could never let him go. I’d never felt so full in my life, it was borderline uncomfortable but I couldn’t get enough - it was intoxicating. HE was intoxicating. The smell of leather and gunpowder on his skin, the taste of beer on his lips and the silky smooth scars that dotted his otherwise perfect body was a drug in itself. I don’t even know if I truly hated him. Especially when he was here giving me the best sex of my life. I’d fuck this mans brains out everyday if I could. If he’d let me.
It didn’t take long for my impending climax to appear on the horizon. It bubbled, almost boiling as I rocked harder, faster, more desperately than before, making the bed creak and the headboard knock against the wall. Deans grip on my ass was assisting my motions as I started to lose control over the sounds tumbling from my lips - the name.
Dean.
I could see the desperation seeping into him as his rhythm started faltering, throwing me off for a split second before we found unison again. My nails dug into his chest once more, Dean totally unphased and too overwhelmed with pleasure to even care. My own pleasure turned to Earth shattering ecstasy as the buildup dropped and the cord snapped - wave, after wave, after wave of euphoria crashed around me, making my eyes roll and toes curl; legs trembling either side of Dean as I moaned his name - temporarily forgetting all other words. Clenching around Dean, it sent shockwaves through him that brought him to his own release, his grip painful on my delicate skin as he came undone with my name on his lips. I instantly felt warmth seep down the inside of my thigh, and the thought of being completely filled to the brim by him made my heart flutter. Dean trembled beneath me, both of us slowing down as we came down from our synchronised highs. After a few quiet moments of nothing but heavy breathing, he was the first to speak up.
“Ahh fuck, (Y/n)…. What the fuck was that?” He ran a hand through his hair.
I tilted my head in confusion.
“Excuse me?”
“THAT,” he said pausing to catch his breath, looking up at me with eyes as black as coal, “was one of the most intense moments of my life,” he propped himself up onto his elbows so we were now almost eye to eye. I couldn’t help but giggle.
“I hope that’s a good thing?”
“Damn right.”
We stared at each other, clarity returning through the sexual fog, and strangely, regret was nowhere to be found. Deans tongue darted out and wet his lips, and I gnawed on my bottom lip almost nervously. He was still here. Unmoving. Why didn’t he leave?
Why didn’t I WANT him to leave?
We sat in peaceful silence as I stayed on his lap, Dean making no effort to move even though he had started to soften inside me, letting the mess leak out and drip down my thighs and over his hips. I’d have to change the bedsheets before sleeping. Deans eyes were returning to their usual mossy green, his gaze gentle on my figure for the first time since we’d met.
“I should probably get off - let you get back to your room,” I said, my eyes not leaving his, my tone lacking.
“Yeah… I should really let you sleep…” Deans voice was the same as mine. We looked at each other for a few more minutes before we both leaned forwards, Deans fingers threading ever so gently through my hair and I placed my hands on his bare chest, feeling his heartbeat thrum beneath my fingertips. His lips were as soft as silk as they pressed on mine - a great contrast to the bruising make out session earlier. He kissed me with a tenderness I didn’t know he could muster, and it made my heart flutter something crazy. His mouth moved on mine, as soft and warm as a summers breeze and I didn’t want it to end. Eventually he pulled away, a smile on his lips.
“Sweetheart you really need to sleep,” his voice held a kindness I’m sure wasn’t for me.
“I…umm…” I paused and looked away, fighting with myself about whether I should even say what’s in my mind. I decided to be bold, fighting the blush rising from deep within.
“Dean, I don’t want you to go…”
He stared at me, and for the first time ever a pink glow adorned his masculine features. He was still. Very still, and I was starting to scold myself for being weird and out of character. It didn’t take much longer for him to reply.
“Well let's get you cleaned up and head to my room - we can sort your sheets out in the morning.”
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Mini Bjorn blurb because today was unbearably long and I just want to crawl into bed with him
Also I love writing short little snippets like this! Send in any request or ideas you guys wanna see about our Romulus gang. I’m actively writing for Bjorn, Tyler and Rain rn!
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It’s been an unbearingly long day. The exhaustion has seeped deep into your bones and you feel stiff and uncoordinated as you exit the shower.
If you hadn’t been covered in 16 hours of mine grime and sweat, you probably would’ve just collapsed into bed. But the feeling of it under your fingernails and in your hairline had made you crawl.
You walk into the small dark room.
The light from the holo-tv casting an eerie green glow, reflecting off the dusty singular window. The space is a bit cramped, but in a homey way, which is fine. You know where everything is- even in the dark you’re able to shed the towel and rummage in a drawer for a pair of panties and an oversized shirt that you’ve stolen so many times, that at this point it’s yours.
There’s a bed in the corner. Piled with blankets, blankets that move up and down softly as the person underneath them slumbers.
You crawl in as gently as you can, trying so hard not to wake him-
“Baby?” Comes the gruff voice of your boyfriend and you sigh.
“Sorry, I didn’t mean to wake you up”
Bjorn turns to you, hair untamed, his eyes are sleep crusted and slightly unfocused. You feel so bad, he’d pulled a double to make sure the two of you weren’t behind on rent.
He’s supposed to be resting.
“None’a that. C’mere” his arms twine around you and he pulls you close. He’s always extra cuddly when he’s just woke up. “Missed you, you smell so nice. When’d you get home?”
You smile wide as he buries his face in your neck, nose pressed into your still damp skin. He’s so tactile, all touch and smell and taste. You’ve been at the mercy of it since you’d met him.
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Might continue this when I’m running on more than 4 hours of sleep and an unholy amount of caffeine. I just know once you wifed this man up he’d be the cuddliest mf to ever live
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more bf!sukuna hcs, but he’s insufferable and stuck in my head. this is part 4…
warning: some NSFW, slight intox, minors DNI
NEVER lets you drive. he’s so misogynistic. “females are bad drivers” ass bitch. "you're gonna wrap us around a tree."
claims to despise when you baby him e.g. forehead kisses, scratching his back to put him to sleep, even fucking cuddling. don’t believe that shit for a second but pretend to and stop until he starts acting grateful.
way too confrontational to be taken out in public. just pretend you don’t know him when he’s pulling a gun on someone who stepped on his shoes.
you’d be broke if you bailed him out of jail every fucking time. at least let him marinate there all night before folding or call his dad to do it instead.
so messy. it's unintentional, but sukuna just leaves a trail of disorder in his wake. throw pillows on the floor, shoes in the walkway, and always leaving the lights on despite complaining about the utility bill.
throw him outside to do yardwork or something. he loves that shit. putting in a couple fruit trees, maybe stepping stones. by the end of the summer you have a tiered garden with slate retaining walls and an automatic irrigation system.
why does he have a green thumb? he's in a secret competition with the neighbors for prettiest lawn. and yet, you manage to kill the little succulent garden he planted for you.
a minimalist (derogatory). sukuna is always trying to throw your trinkets and knickknacks away when you're not paying attention.
he loves getting a little fashion show after you buy new clothes. it's one of the few cute things he'll admit to enjoying. it doesn't matter if the outfit is skimpy or modest, hearts are popping out of his eyes like in a fucking cartoon.
doesn't apologize under any circumstances. the word 'sorry,' isn't in his lexicon. however, he will leave his card on the counter before heading to work and pick up flowers on the way home and make reservations at your favorite restaurant. don't expect to hear a real apology though.
super duper tender-headed. you can't even detangle it without him whining. might cry if you try to do braids, twists, any kinda style. fucking pussy
irritating asf. actually hate him, idk why i’m writing this. i'd probably poison him and collect the life insurance.
UMM nsfw
calling sukuna something corny and dominant in bed (sir/daddy/king/etc.) out of the blue would make him nut. and he isn’t even embarrassed about it at all.
incapable of pulling off a quickie. i think this is more endearing than aggravating. he can't hit it right in just ten minutes. he'll ask for more time. and a little more. then it's been an hour and you're likely running late for something.
thinks you're hottest bent over (i'm not even projecting rn bc my ass is flat). don't worry, he thinks your face is cute, missionary is great too. but if you wore one of those pillow case ass house dresses with no panties he'd go crazy. i hate to air him out like this, but it's true. i gotta link this shit so you know what i'm talking about. makes him feral. maybe i am projecting bc i luv those dresses.
but anyway, he'd fall for the 'bend and snap' so bad (legally blonde reference). these are basically crack, sorry
occasionally forgets that foreplay is a thing and tries to go straight from light frenching to stickin it.
i feel like sukuna’s sunday nights are spent getting really high and kissing on you for hours. he just gets the munchies dude. leaving dewy spots of saliva on all your exposed skin. once he’s tasted that, your clothes is peeled off so he can drool on the rest of you. he doesn’t even realize how much of a tease he is. his mouth suctioned to your inner thigh… maybe i should just write this as its own thingy
p sure i said this already, but he’s a biter. gnaws on you like a mf chew toy. it’s an oral fixation thing, if you don’t like it buy him lots of lollipops and tic tacs.
ok i have to stop before i gross myself out. tyty for reading <3<3<3 have a wonderful day.
masterlist if you wanna read the rest
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*pops head in* Helping your bestfriend jerk off. *Runs away*
choso 🙇🏻♀️?
Need my help?
(kinktober: overstimulation)
A/N: Now..I’m ngl. This was so rushed. IM SORRY i’m working on eren fanfics rn. I hate this so much but I still hope you like it ml💋.
w/c: 600+
alcohol, overstimulation, coaching, Virgin!Choso, F/M, etc +
Smut under the cut.
Inviting your best friend over for a couple of drinks this late at night wasn’t a bad idea at all. You knew he was awake at this hour since he never sleeps. Choso wasn't a drinker so he was surprised when you invited him over. “I don’t really drink y/n. You know this.” Of course, you knew. You knew everything about each other. “I knoooww. But I’m so bored cmon.” after begging and pleading with him he finally gave in.
“Truth or dare?”
“Dare.”
“I dare you to tell me something nobody knows.” What dirty secrets did he have? How many skeletons were hidden in the closet? You threw your head back with a shot following it. The alcohol burned in the back of your throat, it felt so fucking good. You could drink so much and barely be tipsy. But on the other hand, Choso was a lightweight. He couldn’t drink for long and after 4 shots he was already slurring his words. His eyes were low and dark, he was blushing uncontrollably. “I’ve never came before.” The silence was loud. Very loud. How come you didn’t know this? You just stared at him with a confused look. “Never? Like not even once?” it was unbelievable, how could he never experience such luxury? “No. I don’t know how.” Poor baby, I guess you will just have to show him.
You were behind him with both of your hands on his cock. Stroking his length up and down. His hips bucked into your hands, thrusting into them. “Just like that, you’re doing so good Choso.” His breath was heavy on your neck, you watched as his chest fell up and down. “Mhm, fuck.” he whimpered as his nails dug into your thighs. He was a moaning mess, calling out for you begging you to please let him cum. You just wanted to take care of him, give him something he never had. Maybe this crossed the lines as ‘best friends’ or maybe it didn’t. I mean, you were just helping him. That’s what friends do right?
“Ah- ’m almost there.” His breath hitched in his throat. He threw his head back, falling over your shoulder. He watched as white flowed from his tip. Trickling down his length. He shuttered in your arms looking up at you. Your eyes both collectively locked together, sharing a look. You got up from behind him pushing him down on the bed. You took off your shirt tossing it to the side. His eyes traced your bra, observing it falling to the ground. His jaw slightly fell seeing the way your breast sat so pretty. He admired your body for a few seconds, processing what just happened. You sat between his thighs using your tits to jerk him off. Giving him kitten licks on his tip. His body jolted at the feeling. “S’ too much. fuck y/n, too much.” he wasn’t going to stop you though, he was going to let you do whatever. He was on the edge of another orgasm. Profanities leaving his mouth, as he chased his high. It never crossed his mind that you’d be here doing this for him. Is his best friend helping him cum? How thoughtful.
Your face was covered in his cum. A few droplets splash on your chest. He couldn’t look at you. The room fell into an awkward silence. It was hard for him to comprehend the sweet girl he knew and love just made him cum. He finally spoke up “Uhm..Thank you?” his eyes still looking everywhere but you. You smiled in response “That’s what friends do.” he cocked his head, finally looking at you. “Friends?” his eyebrows raising, with a questioning tone.
“Friends.”
I promise more choso is coming <3
#i hate this#choso x female reader#choso smut#choso kamo#choso x y/n#choso x reader#choso#jjk choso#jujutsu kaisen choso#choso x you#pae writes♡
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Chan x Youtuber (Discover Part) a1 d1
[Caution: These are not full fics, or even full parts of fics for some, these are part of my writing progress archive!]
Concept: Reader is an anonymous Youtuber who does English covers of various k-pop songs, including Stray Kids. Bangchan comes across one of these one night and falls in love with Reader's voice. They develop an online friendship, and Bangchan might be in love with more than just the voice.
Word Count: 962
Notes: I had a lot of fun narrating the video. I've seen it a lot in Idol novels that I read online, and it really is a fun and new perspective to use. The username may stay, it may change, i might get rid of it entirely idk. Kind of also contemplating using 'You' instead of 'person'. Idk we'll see how it goes as i work on it. Feedback would be much appreciated for this one. No editing notes rn, I'm not rlly feelin' it.
Warnings: None that I know of? It's just silly fluff idk what u want from me.
Masterlist link :D| Prev Part
It was 2am on a random Tuesday in Seoul. Bangchan lay staring at his ceiling for the nth time that month, silently cursing at his insomnia. He rolls over for the thousandth time to stare at his wall instead. His eyes drift his phone on the nightstand, and he idly wonders if he should spend some time teasing STAY on Bubble.
It’d definitely relieve the soul-crushing boredom of being unable to sleep, but he doesn’t really feel like receiving their well-intentioned scolding over his sleep schedule right now. He rolls back onto his back and heaves a tired sigh.
With resignation, he sits up and grabs his phone. He’d like to avoid being scolded, but receiving STAY’s love is always comforting. Vlogs and edits it is, then.
He hops onto YouTube with deft fingers and begins his latest STAY-binge. The thought of STAY’s reactions when he reminds them that he watches their stuff brings a smile to his face. They always freak out so cutely.
Soon enough, he’s zoned out and mindlessly scrolling through, giggling along to memes and watching vlogs with all the affection in his heart.
He runs out of content from the accounts he regularly watches pretty quickly. He’s only killed about 30 minutes, and even though his mood has improved significantly, he doesn’t quite feel up to going back to staring at his ceiling yet.
With a light heart, he descends into the familiar uncharted territory of his recommended feed. He manages to kill another hour or so before a particular video catches his eye.
[Learn Music Production With Me! | Cover Me by Stray Kids (English Cover) | EP.4]
The thumbnail features someone with brightly colored hair slumped over a desk, their face smooshed against the wood and their arms dangling limply beside them. Their features are obscured by a fabric mask, but bright blue tear-tracks are drawn on over top.
Bangchan can’t help but be amused by the image. He could definitely relate to the frustrations of learning music production. He actually felt a bit flattered and flustered that this person was using his music to learn from.
Officially intrigued, Chan clicks on the video.
It opens with a shot of the person from the thumbnail from the back. They’re sat at the same desk, which Chan can now see hosts a towering hutch with full shelves decked out in flower-shaped fairy lights. He spots a large section of SKZ albums tucked between other albums and books on the hutch’s shelves.
There’s a microphone on the desk, the boom arm pushed to the side, and a bulky set of headphone’s on the figure’s head. Despite the microphone’s distance from the person at the desk Chan can hear the furious clicking of a mouse as clear as day.
This scene plays out for a moment before the clicking suddenly stops and the person freezes. They slowly remove their headphones and sigh loudly. A very crisp [“Fuck!”] Takes him by surprise and he can’t help a soft laugh as the video pauses and begins to rewind.
[“So turns out I’m a big ol’ dumb-dumb and I’ve been doing this wrong this entire time.”] A voiceover begins to explain. The rewind quickly covers what Bagchan assumes is hours of work, and the voice over continues, [“Well, not wrong, per say, but I was definitely doing it the hard way. Wrong Equation right answer sort of situation. I.”] The voice chuckles ashamedly, [“I could have done this whole thing in a third of the time. I’m so embarrassed. Let me show you.”]
The rewind stops and the video switches to a different angle. The camera is obviously sitting on the desk this time, looking at the person from the side. The angle is much closer. The person waves awkwardly at the camera with both hands and rotates their chair to face it properly.
[“Hi all, I’m Grimm’sTeddy and this is episode 4 of me failing to learn how to produce music. We’re onto week 6 now, because I was quite seriously fighting with this program the entire time.”] A caption appears on the screen, [Shoulda watched more tutorials, buddy].
The video continues along the same vein for a while, a mix of Grimm talking and explaining their process while being unknowingly roasted by the occasional caption when they do something wrong. The video mostly shows the screen they’re working from, only switching back to the vlog-style camera when Grimm is being particularly dramatic about their struggles.
Around the 10 minute mark, Grimm discovers the feature of the program that triggered the reaction from the first clip. There’s a bit of grumbling and self-deprecating jokes, and then the video’s pace speeds up by quite a lot. Apparently the process is a lot less entertaining when it’s going smoothly.
Finally, 12 minutes in, the full cover is revealed.
Bangchan is, quite honestly, entranced.
There’s something almost desperate in the tone Grimm sings with, something raw and hurting. The cover is incredibly faithful to the original. They’d changed some words to preserve the melody across languages but were clever enough with it to preserve the meaning.
Bangchan finds himself impressed. Sure there are mistakes, and a lot of polish is missing, but the voice sticks in his head like glue. He goes to the channel’s page to find the first video in the series almost without thinking about it.
It turns out the video he’d watched was from several months ago, just after they’d released the song initially. There were only 2 videos after it, the series seemingly ending at episode 6.
Chan ends up watching the other 5 videos that night. He falls asleep with his phone on his chest at 5am, after making sure to leave a comment on each video.
#skz x reader#stray kids fanfic#stray kids x reader#w.i.p fic#skz fanfic#skz fic#w.i.p#baby writes#bangchan x reader#chan x reader
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idk if you’ve done this already but bllk dads staying up with their kid because reader has insomnia :)
Writing this rn because I know I’m gonna pull an all-nighter tonight 🏃♀️ (going on an 8 hour car ride to Italy at 3am(around the time when this posts))
Characters: Ego, Noa, Lavinho
Requests open! - masterlist
Tags: gn!reader, reader is a teenager, reader has insomnia
Ego
-does this guy ever sleep in the first place? No (I know he does. He has the type of sleep schedule where he sleeps for 4 hours, gets up, sleeps for 2 hours again, gets up again and sleeps for 2 hours another time
-but anyways the point is, even without your insomnia he’d be awake most of the night
-Ego lets you stay in his office and rewatches recordings of Blue Lock matches with you. They’re either exciting and entertain you when you can’t fall asleep, or they’re so boring you fall asleep in your chair after one or two hours. No in-between
-surprisingly, your father has enough strength in his body to carry you to your room so you can safely sleep in your bed instead of on the uncomfortable desk chair
-if you still can’t fall asleep, you and Ego also spend a lot of time talking about anything that’s on your mind. Sometimes it’s thousands of thoughts running through your head that won’t let you fall asleep, so Ego let’s you talk about what’s on your mind
-it’s also very good bonding time for the both of you. It may not be under the most optimal circumstances but hey, at least you get to spend time with your father
Noa
-he may be tired and just wants to get to bed on most nights, but he always stays awake as long as he can with you. He knows you feel lonely late at night and that can cause bad thoughts to come up in your head when you can’t fall asleep. And to prevent that, your father stays awake with you
-most nights like this are spent sitting in the living room with a random movie on the TV while you and Noa just talk and talk until you get tired
-he always makes your favourite tea, hot choccy, warm milk, or whatever other (non-caffeinated) warm beverage you’re craving
-occasionally, Noa falls asleep on the couch and you always wonder if you should wake him up or let him continue sleeping. Usually you don’t wake him up because you know how tired your father is most of the time
-but sometimes, he wakes up by himself after like 10 minutes and he keeps apologizing. He feels guilty because he doesn’t like leaving you alone when he knows negative thoughts could flood your brain at any moment
-that’s why he also made you promise to immediately wake him up whenever that happens
Lavinho
-he doesn’t mind staying up longer at all. This guy could get 5 minutes of sleep and would be as energized as he always is
-when you can’t sleep, you and your dad play video games together!! Usually competitive ones like Mario Kart but sometimes ones for which you have work together like Stardew Valley
-it’s also the perfect chance to catch up and talk about stuff when you have busy weeks during which you barely see each other during daytime
-but because of your insomnia Lavinho does forbid you to drink anything that has caffeine in it. Cola, energy drinks and coffee are completely banned from the house. Yes, he doesn’t drink it anymore either because if you can’t, he won’t either
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So I’m planning to write a sickfic of RainCode involving all the Detective Agency members taking care of Yuma c: (the fever stricken screen edit of yuma was done by me)
Gonna wait a bit before writing since I’m on a trip rn and may need to replay the game to really study everyone’s characters again. I don’t wanna write anyone OOC. I just finished this game the first time a few days ago.
But here’s the summary notes I wrote on my hour plane trip~ WARNING! Contains a very small spoiler from Chapter 3.
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Title: Home is Where the Heart Is
☔️ -Yuma wakes up feverish after Chapter 3 ends and before Chapter 4 starts. He is unable to move much due to the aches and chills wrecking his small body.
👻 -Shinigami is unable to help him due to feeling weak too. (they share the same body) She whines and demands him to get better soon in order to ease her own suffering before she passes out beside him.
It’s up to his detective friends to help him get better. The Nocturnal Detective Agency takes a day off detective work in order to help their ailing rookie detective member.
List of the Agency Side Missions:
🚬 -Yakou: Lends Yuma his bed’s blanket temporarily to keep him warm and comfortable. Yuma refuses the offer, but the chief heavily insists on helping the small detective. (His dad side is showing) He then goes out to purchase a new and fresh blanket for Yuma alone to use.
📚 -Vivia: Stays behind and looks after Yuma. Often cooling his fever off, helping him drink water, and making sure he’s stable. Though he spends most of the time reading in the fireplace like he always does, but its right beside the sofa Yuma sleeps on so it works out. The peace and quiet works out for them both. He keeps a close eye on him despite his recent conflicted feelings on him.
🕰️ -Fubuki: Gets some warm tea from the cafe in Ginma District she used to work at. It takes her a while to remember which beverage is tea and which tea is herbal and proper for a cold, but she ends up succeeding in the end due to luck. And maybe help from her previous coworkers.
🪙 -Halara: Goes out to buy a strong fever reducing medicine. They let Yuma off the hook from adding this to his bill. This time.
⚡️ -Desuhiko: Looks for something in Kanai Ward light enough for Yuma to eat. With the current available options at Kamasaki District he cannot find anything light enough that wouldn’t upset Yuma’s stomach. But before he panics and moves on to a different district area, he runs into Kurumi.
🍓 -Kurumi: After Desuhiko tells her what happened to Yuma, Kurumi is desperate to help her hero. She thinks and tells him of a new food stand in Kanai Ward’s Kamasaki District that may have something safe enough for him to keep down. They find it and receive a Ramen Soup Broth made by the mysterious new chef. He makes sure its perfectly safe for Yuma to eat.
They all return to the submarine to give Yuma all of these things along with the proper care and assistance he needs. Yuma ends up touched and teary eyed that his new friends cared enough to do all of this for him. Truly feeling like a lost amnesiac like him was finally at a place he could call home. He smiles as everyone in the agency stays by his side the rest of the day. Once he and Shinigami feel better, she tells him in a teasing manner that he’s found a good detective family to rely on, but he agrees. They both are fully recovered the next day.
Thats all. I’m really looking forward to writing it!!
I love writing sickfics of my current obsessions~
Feel free to read my other few sickfics on Ao3
#rain code#rain code spoilers#fanfic#sickfic#work in progress#sickfics are my ultimate guilty pleasure#yuma kokohead#master detective archives: rain code#whumpcode
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you signed up for this thoughts (1)
currently riding off the adrenaline rush that was doing my final project for english literally 30 minutes before it was due. will i be pulling an all nighter? i hope not. i have things to do tomorrow. but it is entirely possible. it is currently 12:11 am on may 4th. i will be back with the time when i stop reading. ok. it’s 1:50 am and im done with chapter two. i’m tired but also im not but im going to force myself to sleep bc ill regret it if i dont.
chapter 1
guys i need long rosekiller fic recs. this is so irrelevant but
cruel summer! i love swifties.
modern AUs are really starting to grow on me
guys i love dorcas so much she’s so cool i’m in love with her
celsius jump scare (i just looked up the conversion and 30°C is 86°F which is PERFECT WEATHER what is regulus yapping about)
“honestly, straight guys. a mystery to regulus.”
“dorcas is almost too gay to function.” we should totally just stab caesar!!!
they’re in spain why did i think they were in australia
BARTY?!
yes dorcas you ARE a bad bitch
i’m living for dorcas and regulus friendship
lily! my love <3
remus!
JAMES POV!!! james is my favorite guys i love him so much
is james hispanic in this omg (wait yeah that would make sense if this takes place in spain…) hispanic james is so dear to me
MARLENE!!!! just a mention of her but i love marlene. so. much.
no why is he being mean ☹️ i mean i get why but james fleabag potter is the most Genuinely Nice Guy to every Genuinely Nice Guy
peter!
frank!!
hogwarts spa and resort 😭
regulus pov again!
rip bartylus ☹️
six weeks!
the tired is setting in i might just read one chapter and then go to sleep
omg black brothers reunion when??
james pov again! i’m glad this fic clarifies the povs i like that
eeee jegulus
sex wax mention
regulus pov again again!
dorcas calling remus “tall dark and handsome” genuinely that phrase confused me so much for so long (it still does) like im just imagining them being enveloped in a perpetual shadow
what the fuck is a half british half american accent with a spanish twang
this fic is irking me, but generally all modern AUs do
“there go his plan for ogling” REAL
james pov again again!
sirius!
not lily thinking regulus is dorcas’ boyfriend
sirius is a short queen and i love him
remus pov!!!
eeee sirius
wolfstarwolfstarwolfstar
PANDORA!!!!!!!
i love remus and regulus friendship
i love long end notes
chapter 2
“But also, he’s so freaking tired.” james being the realest ever
enemies to lovers wolfstar
SIRIUS BEING 5’5 i love it
regulus pov!
oooooo
jegulus is jegulusing
i have to pee SO BAD rn omg
eee james pov
oh me oh my
remus pov!
dorcas!!!!!
regulus pov again
chapter 3
i am back many hours later (i am driving to prom) (don’t worry i am not the one driving)
excited for this one
i have no idea what the work aspect of this fic is about
STOP DONT CALL SUNSCREEN CREAM AHHH
“i’m weird. i’m a weirdo. i don’t fit in. i don’t want to fit in.”
platonic prongsfoot ❤️🩹
“i want to be marlene when i grow up” REAL
i hate the way paraphernalia is spelled so much
dorlene!!!!!!
marlene 😭 i love her so much
ew stop saying tall dark and handsome it’s so wattpad
dorlene is dorlening
i think regulus is going to stumble upon sirius rn
I KNEW IT AHHH
and he’s running away
AH james
jegulus is jegulusing
oh my god
this is so wattpad and im living for it honestly
“hello brother” BAH STOP
regulus having a canis major tattoo ❤️🩹
chapter 4
i stopped reading and it is now one more day later
james is so. james.
“Grumbling under his breath, he connects his phone via Bluetooth and finds his one sad playlist. It exists for emergencies only, but he thinks this qualifies.” HELP
regulus has been found
jegulus jegulus jegulus
james 😭
regulus having a peanut allergy
jamessss whyyyy ☹️
barty jump scare
stoppppp omg ew
lily!!!!!
pandora!! i love her so much
🎶you look like stevie nicks🎶
pandalily ?! eat.
i love pandora so much omg
greyback ??
james and sirius
chapter 5
what is 1700 in normal time
sirius leaving the note for regulus ❤️🩹
remus “i can’t fucking stand you” lupin and sirius “you’re welcome to kneel” black
dorcas!
arepas mmm
dorcas!
PLEASE barty and regulus texting i can’t with them
i lpve moonwater
chapter 6
dinner ahhh
beer is literally just bread soda
james is such a mom friend
midnights !!!!!
NOAH KAHAN !!!!!
sirius has excellent music taste
jegulus ahhh
peter 😭 i love him so much
stop this is giving me the ick
WHAT THE F
i’m eating this enemies to lovers wolfstar up please they need to kiss so bad
jegulus
chapter 7
regulus just pining
yes sirius you’re absolutely right lost the breakup IS a banger
MATILDA IS NOT A SKIP
omg is it called you signed up for this bc of the maisie peters song.
“There are only two reasons Sirius will get out of bed before eight am. Mortal peril or good waves.”
sirius and remus alone together ?!
KISS ALREADY
AHHHHHHH
wolfstar is wolfstaring
oh they’re really going at it
yeah that was really. hmm. i mean good for them honestly but
“Remus’ mouth twitches, then he looks at Sirius, who is trying very hard to avoid his gaze for some reason. It’s odd, and Regulus doesn’t like it. Did they have a fight or something?” yeah or something
sirius and regulus ☹️
marlene 😭 icon as always
james!
yay i love dancing
regulus being regulus (pining after james)
chapter 8
oh? hanky panky in this chapter ?!
no hablo español
regulus calling james mr darcy
THE HAND FLEX SCENE yes it is a classic
mcdonald’s so america core
james carrying an epipen for regulus ❤️🩹
omg they’re going dancing
james respectful king
omg daddy yankee mention we used to listen to his songs in middle school spanish class
jegulus is jegulusing omg
sirius pov
eeeee wolfstar happenings
moonwater friendship <3
CANNON FODDER 😭
chapter 9
lily!!!!!
pandora ?!
i love lesbian lily
pandalily!
keeping it platonic my ass
yeah inside joke. sure.
“If Mary finds out he took Remus into the staff corridor, she’ll neuter him” 😭😭
wow this author just loves the phrase “kisses their teeth”
i love sirius and regulus
BAH REGULUS AND THE TAYLOR REFERENCES i love him so much
regulus having no friends his whole life he’s just like me fr
james you menace
STOP SAYING CREAM IM BEGGING YOU
“While Regulus is having a small, private crisis” that’s one way to put it
i really don’t like barty in this which is sad for me because i love barty
“Do you really want to faint in front of Sirius like you’re a Victorian lady?”
what are they doing
please stop saying “#/10 would ___” it’s so millennial
i was gonna stop here but i think i will read one more
chapter 10
hanky panky hanky panky
i love dorlene
i love pandalily
we need more wlw centric fics if i was confident in my writing abilities that is what i would do
dorcas!!
guys i love dorlene so much
being a multishipper is so fun bc i love marylily so much but pandalily eats every time
i love forced proximity
sirius having to run after remus bc sirius is Very Short and remus is Very Tall so real
oh they’re in the backseat now
oh jegulus
oh me oh my
THEYRE KISSING AHHHHHHH
stop i can’t believe it’s only been a week
they’re really going at it aren’t they
ew stop this is giving me the ick
ok im going to read another chapter
chapter 11
this is the last one i swear
sirius telling lily! underrated friendship frfr
marlene!
i love jegulus so much omg
i love the word magnanimous
remus telling regulus
poor dorcas ☹️
“You’re like a pesky mosquito, you know that?” Remus groans, shaking his head. Unbelievable.
“Hmm, yeah, I guess. I mean, I’d like to bite you.” 😭😭 sirius you menace
regulus you menace
“You are a menace.” this is exactly what i’ve been saying
sirius jump scare
oh me oh my
i love pandora
oh ?!
ok reading the next chapter
chapter 12
oh me oh my
not imagine dragons 😭
hospital 🫡
eeeeee they’re kissing
wolfstar
sleepover ?!
why is this hilarious
sirius is such a menace
i love sirius and regulus so much
“Barty made Regulus feel like the world was against them. James makes Regulus feel like it’s them against the world.”
dorcas!
dorlene ☹️
jegulus is jegulusing
ew stop this is giving me the ick
ok i actually have to sleep now
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was wondering why my head hurts and then i remembered i’m running on like 4 hours of sleep rn….
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Hey, I know I am the last person you wanna talk to rn, but my life is in genuine danger (still) because all I wanted was for a apology for the misconception.
I honestly meant no harm at all, and https://www.tumblr.com/lunarsilly/725681668334256128/all-i-wanted-was-for-fable-alologize-for-the
If you read this it will make a lot more sense.
I’m low empathetic and it takes a while for me to feel epmathy, and I think it’s hitting me like a bus
I never meant for you to be harassed anything (as I said in my OG callout posts) and I have not ONCE put your life in danger.
However, Davis has put mine in danger cuz he took some things I said in the wrong manner and it has caused me to get harassed to the point where I have to deactivate most of my accounts.
No, this isn’t ‘karma’ at all because I didn’t even want anything bad to happen to you and I didn’t mean to be malicious, all I wanted was for people to be aware that you could have possibly done this stuff, and benne like
“Hey, I have a choice if I wanna continue supporting them.” And unfollow if they please.
I have not once tried to put you or anyone else in danger, all I was doing was being like “hey, this can be seen as sams since you tagged it as such.”
Also to call you out for your ableism towards your own community.
That whole ‘no TSBS fictives and no factives’ rule is not only ableist, but it further Demonizes DID by saying that alters are their source when they aren’t,
People had a choice to support you, and I hadn’t meant for it to become this huge thing because a mess up in my wording )which I mostly wrote them at 1-5am, mind you. There’s going to be some mistakes since I was obviously running on 2-4 hours of sleep, and I always apologized if I said anything wrong in Davis’s DMs)
I get why you’re upset but this whole thing has gotten me death threats and it has also put not only me, but my family at risk.
Anyways that’s pretty much it, dm me on this app if you wanna respond.
This whole situation began because instead of trying to talk things over with me, you instead chose to cast a stone at me publicly. I’m not unreasonable. I would gladly have clarified anything you were concerned about, whether it be the claims of ableism or concerns about Lulu’s design. Instead, you publicly accused me of being a pedophile, not once, but twice. Which. I won’t lie; is a VERY harsh accusation that shouldn’t have ever been tossed out on a whim. The first was in a comment thread on one of Davis' posts, the other was a public callout post. You cannot downplay it by saying you just wanted to 'spread awareness' and 'let people choose to support me.' All I wanted to do was be left alone, and you wouldn't have it.
You took my art and made fun of it, called me names, called my partner’s alter names, and tried to make connections to an accusation that wasn’t there to begin with. I have co-workers that follow my SFW account on Twitter. I could have lost my actual job over this. You losing your Twitter account is not comparative to my entire livelihood. You can say you never wanted me to be harassed, but you slandered and insulted me all over Twitter and Tiktok during the entire duration in which this all played out, not to mention all of the posts and videos about me being ableist and treating me like some sort of class traitor.
I only spoke out about it when I was at the end of my rope, which you also mocked and slandered, and thus the harassment continued.
Davis reached out to me about it because after doing his own research, he saw it as unfair that I was being falsely accused of something that could literally ruin my life and career and put my safety in danger.
I didn't ask him to post it, and I certainly wouldn't have asked him to take so much time out of his busy schedule to research and write that entire google doc. All of the accounts he posted there are public socials, all of which have the Lunarsilly moniker attached to them somehow. He's never really talked to me much if at all outside of this situation.
As for the comments made towards people who were clearly against you, entirely unnecessary. If you wanted people to stop and leave you alone then you should have never responded. This stirs the pot and makes more trouble, it also makes you look bad.
I can't convince people to stop attacking you, despite telling them not to come after you in my last tweet about this situation. I can't order Davis to remove your socials from the google doc. All we can simply do is drop the subject and move on.
None of this would have happened if you just came to me first instead of airing out dirty laundry into public places where you were fully aware I was in. Next time you think you've been wronged in some way, instead of acting out, take a step back and breathe. Walk away from the computer/phone and clear your head so you can think straight. That is my absolute best advice to you.
I understand that you're only 15 and probably have some stuff going on at home, and the last thing I want is for anyone to get hurt. Death threats and doxxing are wrong in general, let alone to a teenager, and if you're reading this and have done either of those things to Lunarsilly, I am incredibly ashamed of you.
As for the damage? My alter is traumatized by the claims you've made. My early design of Lunar was never canon. His design belongs to me and I can use it however I please. He is not canon show Lunar.
Speaking of Alters, I want to address the ableism thing.
Once again, all this stress could have been avoided if you’d have just come to me privately on Discord when this was first addressed. I asked you politely to please keep alters of real people from the show avoidant of fronting in the TSBS server. I asked this of you with the knowledge of what was written in the moderator handbook that each moderator must read and follow in TSBS, and had no idea it wasn’t written in the public rules. I will admit fault for not checking that. It was never my intention to come off as ableist towards you nor anyone else.
We didn’t just come up with rules on a whim. We put rules in place to try and keep everyone in the server safe and comfortable, systems and otherwise. Ultimately, the bottom line was that some of the voice actors from the show found discomfort in seeing alters of themselves and their characters in the server, and the business that owns the whole shebang also agreed, and their word is final.
I entirely understand the frustration behind having alters from the show. I have a few of them myself and so does my partner. Yes, they are not their source. But that doesn't prevent the original creators, or actual person from being uncomfortable, much like some alters are uncomfortable with doubles. Everyone's system is different. Mine isn't large. It's not small either, but my alters all do have one thing, a mutual agreement to work together and harmony. If that's something you can't control, then I'd recommend staying out of larger servers such as TSBS.
I was also never obligated to tell you that I'm a system. I don’t exactly go out of my way to make sure every individual who interacts with me is aware of this information about myself. However, if you ever took a moment to look in my discord profile, you would have known. The first line that is on my profile on Discord is “Marshmallow System-DID” and it’s been there this entire time.
All I want is to be left alone. I want this all to finally be dropped so we can move on with our lives. I’m old and tired and simply do not have the time or energy to keep putting towards this situation. Just please, move on and leave me be.
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