#I’m not a transphobe or a homophobe btw just confused

[heavy-buddy]

all this lgbt shit makes me cry

[sakiyaki-sashimi]

Heeeeeeello hello hello! I just realized that a lot of ppl have some sort of intro pinned post but I do not! LETS RECTIFY THIS >:D

(Btw I’m highlighting important info for ppl that need/like to skim!!)

My name is Sakki! I don’t use these names much anymore but you might see Enoki or Sai used too!

“sakis zatsudan” is a tag I use for text posts and just kinda whatever I want? But it’s (usually) not for fandom stuff! (IM SO LIBERAL WITH IT ITS CRAZY)

I 👏 am 👏 not 👏 an 👏 adult :D keep that in mind plzzzzz

My pronouns are she/her but also idk just like do whatever you want? Men are cool, enbys are hot, and genderfluid ppl are the sickest fucks alive so I’d be honored to be one frfr btw I am pansexual also!

I draw and talk about stuff I like (mostly fandom stuff) as well as chilling with my muts! (Become one??? :D)

If I mention I’m gonna make a side blog, don’t expect it to last XD it never does XDD (Except @i-draw-any-precure-ever)

I’d do a list of my fandoms, but that’s a lot so here’s a list of my mutuals!:

@milkfroggo @ponderous-ferret @transmascpetewentz @chaoscentral23 @eternalshiningstar @pastelcatnip-x3 @starfilledsky2810 @citrushomie @a-trench-coat-of-confused-worms @kneecoal-mooma @touratoura @leafy-mints @xx-ma11ory-xx @discarded-like-your-roses @spacingoutwards @drinks-battery-acid @prestonmonterey @losingobjectively @mitski-slope @pastelcatnip-x3 @insaneloligoth @mizuribbons @landmineloli @drunkwithoutalchohol @4thegays @thespoinkyspunge @wonderhello @kkat-astrophic @xmoonshardx @bon02 @loser-otaku-girll @stars-and-cows

Juuuuuuust one more thing before I go :D DNI iffff….

- You are a bigot in ANY way, shape, or form (homophobic/transphobic/racist/anti-religion/etc.)

- You are intending to look for a fight/comment negatively on my posts (looking at you, RWBY and TCOAAL fans..)

- You support genocide (can’t believe I even have to say this one :( )

That’s really it! I hope we can have some astounding vibes over hereee!!!

Happy scrolling :D

[bonedo-enthusiast]

coming out to bnd 𐂐◯𓇋

A/N: my first ever actual tumblr post! (AHH) i’m still learning about how to use tumblr and whatnot but… i had this thought one day and figured maybe i should post it. hope you guys like it. (also btw lowercase is intended!) :)

tws: none(?), mention of homophobia/transphobia but only in passing

genre(s): fluff, comfort

wc: 723

sungho

“oh, really?”

surprised but tries not to be too surprised because he doesn’t want to make you feel weird

will take your secret to his grave if need be

probably won't ask you many questions because he doesn't want to make you uncomfortable

assures you that this won't change anything about your friendship

he might be a little awkward though, unsure of how to segue into a different subject

if you came out as trans, it would definitely take several months for him to be able to switch to your new name and pronouns

not out of malice, but because he knew you for so long as (insert deadname)

he would cringe every time he slips up, quickly apologizing and moving right along

riwoo

"oh... thanks for telling me."

similarly to sungho, he's surprised

but he's definitely more awkward about it

like to the point you wonder if he's homophobic/transphobic

but he just has so many thoughts and questions swirling around in his head

like how long have you known? what does this mean? does this change anything about your friendship? (no, of course not!)

once he pushes those thoughts aside, he smiles at you tells you he's glad you told him

now you both are closer than ever! <3

no but i feel like whenever riwoo would mess up your pronouns, he'd apologize profusely

like to the point where it's very awkward...

but he's trying his best! :,)

jaehyun

"oh word?"

no but something in me tells me jaehyun would get excited (?)

(like this man may or may not have taken a "am i gay test" in high school kind of vibes)

"whaaaat?!"

if you came out as trans, he would definitely insist on buying necessary supplies for you, especially if your birthday is around the corner :D

he's super sweet and supportive, immediately asking you what your new name/pronouns are

"ooh, that's such a cool name!"

and if you came out with your sexuality, he would always consider this when talking about attractive people

like pointing out cute people you'd potentially be attracted to with your newly revealed sexuality

might even try setting you up with them lol

taesan

"okay... and? took you long enough."

bro already knew 😭

taesan strikes me as a very observant person, so i feel like he'd already have some idea

maybe he'd even start viewing you as the gender you transition to, before you even tell him

(he's psychic! /j)

in his mind, that's who you are and who you always have been! <3

as a result, he would have no issues with getting your pronouns/name right

as for sexuality, he really doesn't care (respectfully)

"cool."

like. so nonchalant.

leehan

"oh? tell me more."

i feel like he'd be very curious about your identity (if you're comfortable telling him about it of course!)

he's a big listener and likes learning about things, so he would be very good to talk to about these things

and actually, i could even see him doing some research to try and learn more about his friend and understand them better :)

i see him as the kind of person you'd come out to first, just because he's so understanding

like you could come to him with your fears and worries about your realized identity and he'd just be so so sweet :(

"you're still the same person, and you're still my friend. you are never alone. it's okay, we can figure this out together."

PLS 😭💗

woonhak

"huh... so what does that mean exactly?"

i'm not sure he would understand anything beyond the basic terms most people know (like gay, lesbian, trans)

so if you were to come out to him as, say, nonbinary, he might need some explaining about what exactly that means

but regardless, he'll just smile and nod

but still be confused because why are you telling him this??

he wonders if he's supposed to do something with this information, or just listen

i can so picture him trying hard to pay attention to what you're saying while at the same time trying to figure this stuff out in his head lol

but once he's past this internal debate, he's so sweet

messes up your pronouns/ name quite a bit at first though

"yeah, me and (insert deadname)-- i mean, wait! sorry, (insert chosen name)..."

[achios]

Howdy my name is Les, although I mostly go by Leg (yes like the appendage.)

my user is pronounced ah-ch-ee-ohs btw if you were confused

╰┈➤ About Me !💬

I’m 16 and use they/them. I don’t feel like following the rules of grammar today, so you get rapid fire bullet points!

- I read a fuck ton

- i’m in many fandoms tho it’s mainly readacted audio, voltron, and heaven official’s blessing (gravity falls is creeping in on me lately

- i’m hispanic and aroace (the jury has resumed debating the aromanticism, we’ll get back to you)

- im incredibly tone deaf to most conversations online and very blunt so please put indicators in the tags or smth if you’re unsure of how your message might be interpreted

- same goes to not be afraid to ask me to clarify what i mean. i have no problem with doing so. i may tease you tho 😋

- i have no idea what to put in smth like this tbh so excuse me

⊹₊ㆍ About this blog

I’m mostly just on here to yap abt my interests, post my art, and make friends, so feel free to clog my inbox if what I have to say tickles ur fancy!!

⊹₊ㆍ DNI criteria

The basics bigots homophobes transphobes racists the works

⚠️ I’m not sex repulsed but please keep me out of those types of conversations ⚠️

(shouldn’t rlly include me cause i’m a minor anyways but im not gonna be the judge on that)

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this is my first intro post so it’s very subject to change please lemme know if i could improve the formatting in any way ok love you byeeeeee

credits to @milogreer for the blinksssss

[jisreal64]

So I’ve tried to make peace with both the Hellverse community and the Kicktoon community multiple times to no avail. But I’m going to try one last time. Each time I’ve tried to describe what a Kicktoon is, people just get angry and confused, so I’ll describe it like this:

A Kicktoon is a genre of indie web animation that is crowd funded, thrived during the fake indie animation boom created by Hazbin Hotel, abd follows a “fight first, ask questions later” formula. With this being the said formula:

-Is often heavily inspired by or flat out plagiarizes other media

-Makes tons of week one merch based around a test pilot

-Features furry bait

-Features Tumblr Sexypeople

-And last but certainly not least, critics and cartoonists/animation nerds love them, while general audiences and people who are indifferent to the medium view them as bland or don’t care about them

“But what’s the difference between a normal indie animated web series and a Kicktoon?”, well the difference is that the non-kicktoon cartoons aren’t as successful/commercialized as them and the genre has quickly dominated the platform, but does this mean that every non-kicktoon is inherently better than every kicktoon ever made, no, there are ones that are definitely worse (ie Skibidi Toilet), I just miss the days when indie animation didn’t have to be so commercialized to be popular/successful.

Although to be fair, I haven’t seen any other Kicktoon outside of HB and the pilot of HH, but the problem is that I don’t feel comfortable watching these cartoons by myself because I’m afraid of what they’ll be like; and since I have been living on campus for the past 10 months (I recently got out on summer break btw), the only thing I have to go off of is the “gold standard” for this medium.

But I haven’t explained WHY I don’t like either HH and HB, and it’s a bit simple, I don’t like the pacing, humor, soundtrack, and writing. A lot of people mindlessly hate on it because they think it’s either racist, sexist, homophobic, antisemitic, transphobic, fat phobic, etc, but I highly doubt that a cartoon created by an openly queer Latina American woman would be so bigoted. If you want to see a more in depth review, watch this video made by this guy here, he more or less shares my opinion on both shows:

As for the soundtrack, it’s just so bland, and I expected better from the Living Tombstone, like this soundtrack is so bad that it feels like it was written by Jake Paul. And the same hypocritical idiots who accused the songs in Wish of being written by an AI fucking love it.

Don’t get me wrong, if you like these cartoons but have a valid reason for liking them (instead of being a shill like Saberspark or Cellspex), then that’s fine, this is just my opinion and I’m just trying to vent my frustration. If I offended anyone with these posts, then I’m sorry, I’ll try to make it up to any of you somehow.

Btw, I don’t think that the Kicktoon genre is a bad thing, I just think it has unexplored potential to be good/great. Also, I don’t hate HH and HB, I just think they’re mediocre (but they do have potential, much like the genre they started).

[blub-blub-bish]

I sometimes had to pretend to be transphobic. (I’m not btw. I’m literally trans.)

Like Yesterday, I was on a call with my dad (he has a work out of town). We were talking about comedians and my dad told me a joke a comedian was talking about how [one time he has a friend coming to his house bringing another friend with they/them pronouns and the comedian thought there were a lot of people coming. So the comedian made a lot of food and when he saw there was only 2 people(the friend and the friend’s friend) he told his friend “well, tell your friend to finish the foods”] probably as a joke. And my dad, a VERY homophobic and transphobic guy, he kinda took it as a “no they/them singular pronoun” bullshit, and said “ those people with they/them pronoun making everything confusing” and I, a closeted gender queer person who uses xey/they, just sit there like ‘ how am I supposed to react without outing my self.’ at the same time trying to keep calm bc my mom and siblings are next to me and they, just like my dad, are transphobic and homophobic. I was internally panicking and just went “ yeah… haha… they are very confusing” like, pretending to be transphobic.

[straightlightyagami]

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Hello Horse Music

32. Do you do arts and crafts? Post a pic of a project you’ve done

I have some arts under the tag “#my art” (most of it is not really art but there’s some stuff I actually put effort into too lol) you’ve seen them but if someone else wants to look it’s there. I used to do that sort of stuff more, might poast a picture if I find any of my old art stuff. Haven’t had the time, motivation, or skill in a long time, but I might try again sometime.

8. Describe your gender without using any words traditionally related to gender

Autistic child who is kind of obsessed with math (also btw I don’t mean this in like a weird misogynist way)

10. Something that gives you gender euphoria

Umm when my hair looks nice. When people get confused about my gender lol. There was other stuff but I cannot think of it rn

14. How do you think other factors like neurodivergency or upbringing have impacted your identity?

I made a post before where I said to some extent I was not really pressured into traditional gender norms despite what you’d expect based on everything about my parents. And because of being autistic I just did not Perceive the more subtle (or even not subtle) social messaging about gender as a child, and for example when kids split up by gender at school I’d go to the “wrong” group. But at the same time despite being allowed to act gnc gender is not really something I can think about irl because my parents are like the most transphobic people on earth (even though they’re not homophobic afaik).

Also me being aspec is definitely associated with me being autistic.. like I’m definitely sex repulsed (for various reasons but autism being one of them) but other than that I am not like completely sure whether I’m aroace or just straight or whatever and cannot tell when I’m attracted to someone..

[queerprayers]

hi!! first of all i just wanted to say i really appreciate your blog (and your instagram too!). your thoughts have provided me great comfort. anytime i see another queer, leftist, christian my heart fills with joy!! i think: ‘oh! there are other people like me!! there are so many wonderful people out here who love God and are accepting and supportive and loving!’ so thank you- for making me feel less alone and for giving me hope. thank you for existing and just being you- it means more than you know (especially as a young (only 15) queer christian). was scrolling through your blog this morning (on holy saturday) and i started crying. i’m not sure why. because i was overwhelmed with love for god? because i am confused about religion and things? idk but it was a weirdly intense feeling- like a cry i needed. anyways, i hope you are having a wonderful day and that your easter is full of love and hope and all the wonderful things!

i did have a few questions for you (i guess they’re questions?? or just asking for your opinion). no pressure to respond btw

1) (i’m a lesbian) and i’m afraid i’ll never find another queer girl who loves God/is christian/is religious who will also love me. i want to have a relationship with someone who not only understands the struggle of being a queer christian, but someone who can help me learn and grow in my faith. i’m just afraid that i’m asking too much and i’ll never find that.

2) i often feel ashamed(?) of being a christian. even though i am one, whenever i hear “christian” i don’t think of very nice and accepting people. i feel like people like you are in the minority(?). and so i almost never talk about my religion or anything because i am afraid people will assume I am homophobic/transphobic/racist/misogynistic/slut shaming. i feel bad for feeling this way though.

3) (last one 😅 ) what is the difference between religion and spirituality? and how can i, as a christian, explore spirituality?

I’m finally answering this so thank you for your patience! I relate so much to that joy of finding someone else like us— it’s exactly what I felt when I discovered queer Christian communities online! I’m so happy that I can give you that comfort and recognition— it’s all I want. I’m sorry I made you cry but I hope it was what you needed and I’m so happy you’re processing and stuff! Being overwhelmed and confused are two emotions I am intensely familiar with. 

I had a lovely Easter, thank you! I hope yours was wonderful as well <3 Thanks for numbering your questions :) This is perfect, and here are some answers/thoughts:

1) I relate! And I’m sure so many others do too! When religion is important in your life, it can be hard to find someone who’s on the same page. And when you’re queer, that adds a whole ‘nother layer, doesn’t it? My last relationship (and my only serious one) is a testament to the fact that there is hope! She was an absolutely lovely lesbian Christian and we talked about faith a lot. She really changed how I thought about faith and even though we’re not together anymore (for tragic backstory/mental health reasons), I still hold close the spiritual growth I went through with her! There are people out there to connect with, even if being queer can be a really lonely experience. I met her through Lex, which is a really cool app. :) Also, we’re both so young! There’s so much beautiful time for us to grow and meet new people, and I have hope for both of us. <3 You know what you want, and you deserve that. Wishing you luck!

2)THIS THIS THIS! Listen, every time I’m in a queer or progressive space, this goes through my mind. And there have been people who’ve assumed I’m all manner of horrible things when they learn I’m Christian! I talked about a similar situation in this ask. Religion is a super hard topic for a lot of minorities, and I always have to remember to respect that anger/trauma, as well as standing up for myself and my beliefs. There are reasons that those stereotypes exist, and also harmful consequences from those stereotypes. A few things: There are a lot more of us than we think. Since I’ve been open about stuff on social media, so many religious people have admitted to me they’re queer, and so many queer people have admitted they’re religious! There are so many people who just don’t talk about one or both of these facets of their identities because of the reception they might get in both religious and queer spaces. You don’t have to feel bad for this. You don’t have to feel bad for not opening up about every part of yourself (especially to strangers/acquaintances). No one has a right to your identities/beliefs! These are things for you to talk about when/if you're comfortable with. That said, the best way to combat these stereotypes about Christianity is to be a Christian and a loving/accepting person. People have told me that I've changed their idea of what being a Christian is, or that they'd never met a "nice" Christian before. Obviously that's a lot of pressure, and not everyone is called to be that representation. But the more openly queer Christians there are in the world, the more we can fight those stereotypes! Go at your own speed, and it might not be till later in your life/journey (or never!) that you become more open, and that's okay. I pray that you encounter accepting people in your life that are open to learning new things about groups of people!

3) Generally, religion is organized/external, and spirituality is informal/internal. So religion tends to based on historical figures and religious texts, with formal rituals and houses of worship, while spirituality tends to be more experience-based and personal, without a set of defined beliefs. Many people describe themselves as "spiritual but not religious," meaning they connect to a faith/practice or have their own personal belief system, but don't go to church/belong to an organized religion. Christianity as an institution and set of beliefs is a religion, but many Christians have some kind of spiritual practice, and some off-sets/teachings within Christianity are spirituality-based (like mysticism). Not all Christians connect with spirituality, though— my dad, for instance, always jokes that he's "religious but not spiritual." There is room for both, though! And I think it's really healthy so have both external and internal sources for your faith.

Ideas for exploring spirituality as a Christian: meditate on scripture, connect with nature, read/research saints who participated in spirituality/mysticism (x), journal

Some resources: The Society for the Study of Christian Spirituality at Johns Hopkins University, "Christian Spirituality and Social Transformation" by Philip Sheldrake, "Christian Spirituality: Theology in Action" by Dr. Alex Tang, Presentations by David Monyak on Christian Spirituality: an Introduction by Alister E. McGrath (1999)

Okay, I think that's everything! Anyone who has anything to add can reply/reblog, and if I've missed anything, feel free to shoot me another ask!

<3 Johanna

[warm-starlight]

i am an lh but i genuinely think that its high time that a lot of us should admit that there are huge homophobes/enbyphobes in the fandom and the whole "levihan is a het ship" thing isnt in alignment with what is stated by yams. fandom spaces become a lot better when you admit that there are weirdos in every shipping circle(including your own)

I was wondering if i should post this because i feel like some more asks from offended anons will come.. 😅

I feel like people should personaly ponder about why they are so strictly against accepting the notion that Hange might not be a cis woman or that Levi might not be straight and come to conclusions about themselves. I feel like each have their own reasons for it so i don't like calling ppl names based on their stance since idk why it is they have it.

Personally (this is solely my own experience) where i live gender as a concept is strictly binary, we don't have a pronouns for gender neutral ppl. People also are very angi lgbt+ and incredibly transphobic..

Being a member of that community is seen as unnatural and disgusting to ppl, the whole "Being trans is a mental illness" thing and such..The comments under Lgbt+ posts on fb always make my stomach turn...

But as i am Ace myself (btw i got comfortable with that just quite recently too yet i only have come out to one of my friends. Can't say they understood, as i got the usual attempts to rationalize and invalidate it, but as they don't press the issue anymore i'm ok) i started educating myself on these issues, reading a lot about it, talking to people...Can't say i understand it all, some claims are still confusing to me, but in general, i am much more accepting and realize that human psychology and identity is a big, complicated, colorful spectrum. Putting people in boxes based on common perception of society is not good for anyone imo..but i get the urge to label people's gender in binary, even when someone says "i will not assign a gender to this character"..

People feel the need to make everything "proper" and "proper" is usually what the majority of society they live in decides it is.

Anyway, i rambled too much. Again this won't be my hill to die on. I am kinda tired of ship wars and all other wars so, whatever...🤷‍♀️

I feel like Keanu Reeves at this point.

I mean i will present my points, my sources and why i disagree, but i won't try to convince anyone. 😄

Have a fun day everyone!

[waywardfeathered]

um so someone contacted me in private to ask me about it, and that’s why i’m aware that there’s been some drama over people who don’t portray castiel as homosexual being called homophobic?

i’m too old for this shit lol.

but ok. first of all, castiel canonically has no gender. like textually, canonically, he has no gender. his sexual orientation has never been canonically stated - the only homophobic way of portraying him would be to call him straight. (kinda actually transphobic to call him a cis male btw! but i’ll let that slide since i don’t really care; he’s never been a trans rep character, he’s... cis agender if anything)

i think where people got confused is that his love confession for dean has been called “homosexual”. you know, purely based on that both of the characters were perceived as male. as in, the same way people call a woman and man in a relationship heterosexual regardless of whether one or both of them are queer or not. or the way people call wlw lesbian whether or not the people are actually lesbian or bi or something else. cas has never been confirmed homosexual by anyone, the confession was what’s been called that. also, “gay” is an umbrella term, the same way as queer is, for a lot of people - especially straight people.

i promise you portraying castiel as pan/bi is not homophobic. this is a character whose canon sexual orientation was never confirmed, and who has been canonically confirmed to have no gender. people who claim otherwise are starting drama over nothing. it’s ok to portray cas as homosexual, bisexual, pansexual, asexual.

btw, portraying canonically homosexual characters as bi/pan is homophobic, so don’t go using this as an excuse to write a bi charlie or something pls. don’t reblog but feel free to quote me. if you feel like sending me anon hate over this, consider this: don’t. i’ll probably just refer you back to this post since it pretty much encompasses the facts.

[voxofthevoid]

Hii. Can i share an irrelevant yet interesting thing i observed? On twitter, mcu stans and writers & artists are segregated bc they mostly clash. Anyway, lots of stans see steve as bottom sometimes to the point of feminization, while for writers its the other way around-they do it w/ bucky. I have no problem either way but I'm just wondering why that is. Any thots? Feel free to ignore this hahaha its stupid but im really curious

Shit. Just realized how my ask abt the twitter stans + writers sounded. The clash has nothing to do w/ sex positions btw. Mostly mcu twt criticizes the "problematic content" & "fetishization". The most recent one I can think of is bucky being drawn in feminine clothes. Which is weird bc the way they talk about steve isnt different? Im just confused why theyre against bucky being seen that way. Sorry for bothering u!! Just wanted to clear that up. Pls ignore 😭 

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Hi, anon! It’s not a stupid question at all, I understand the confusion about some fandom behaviors. Gods know I’ve got it too. I do have thoughts (and also thots but the pandemic has separated me from them).

So disclaimer: I avoid twitter like the plague, so I’m going by only what you've described, which is that there are two groups who don’t get along and both display the same behavior but one thinks the other is problematic for that behavior.

Now, this specific instance might be alien to me but the general gist of it is sadly very familiar.

(Also, I’m gonna be using ‘you’ in the general sense a lot in this. I’m not accusing you of anything described here, nonnie)

First of all, whenever fandom discussions segue into accusations of "problematic content" and "fetishization", you can stop unpacking and throw away the whole damn suitcase. In this particular case, if one side is saying that feminizing Bucky is fetishizing (how the fuckst even) while they themselves feminize Steve, then they’re hypocrites who’re clearly far less subtle about their double standards than most people who engage in this sort of wank.

As for why they act this way - from what I’ve generally observed, there’s a trend in fandom where it’s no longer enough to simply like or dislike something. You have to do it for woke reasons and moreover, you have to go out of your way to convince other people to also like/dislike it. This is baffling to me. I understand finding fandom friends who share your tastes. Common ground is fun, even - especially - for venting/bitching purposes. But those who go “my way or the highway” for all of fandom make zero sense. Not everyone will agree with your character interpretations and your ships and your likes and your dislikes. We’re all different people looking for different things from fandom.

For the most part, this is an implicit understanding in fan interactions, but for a while, things have been changing. There’s a lot of performative vitriol from certain sects of fans. Quite a few people act like your tastes in fiction define you as a person.

No. It doesn’t. If you hate Natasha, you’re not a misogynist. If you think Stucky is boring, you’re not a homophobe.

And to use the example you cited, drawing Bucky in feminine clothes doesn’t make you a fetishizer or a transphobe or whatever hot-button word people like to throw around when men are drawn in feminine ways. Drawing Steve that way also doesn’t make you any of these things.

But for a lot of folks, it’s not enough to simply say “yeah, I hate Bucky in a dress but I love Steve in one.” You have to do mental gymnastics to show why Bucky in a dress is fetishizing (once again, fetishizing  what) while Steve in a dress is a-okay. It doesn’t make much sense, as evidenced by your confusion, anon.

I got a little sidetracked but yeah, sounds like that's why what you’re describing happens. Basically, individual tastes are complex and can’t always be easily explained, but toxic fandom pockets have it made it so that these tastes can’t be expressed unless they’re accompanied by the ‘right reasons.’

That’s my two cents at least. Hope it helped? Feel free to drop by again if you wanna ask anything else <3

[yinzhengs]

原生之罪 | original sin ep. 11 + 12

(missed an ep? here’s the masterpost!) — or, join the OS discord!

no, your eyes aren’t deceiving you — it’s a double feature today, with two eps coming out in one post, closing out case 3 and bringing us to the halfway point of original sin’s eng subbing adventure! (my baby... they grow up so fast.) if you ask me, the show really kicks it into overdrive after case 4, at episode 17 and on — if you haven’t been sold yet, stick with it until then! (thank me later!)

a very loving shoutout to @hey-dairy-queen​ for doing part of ep. 11′s subs — you may recognize her for her work on mxtx’s scum villain translation team — and to @dtriad​ who helped me out with the ending lines of ep. 12, who also translates some parts of the guardian webnovel!

* advance warning: there's a scene in episode 11 that includes homophobic/transphobic language/jokes/slurs: you can skip from ~25:30 - ~28:00 if you'd rather not watch that scene! i apologize everyone, it's imo one of the low pts of the series... but i hope you stick around!

i’d really suggest reading the translation notes after watching this time — there are a lot of really Big and Emotional lines in these two eps that english just doesn’t do justice! as always, they’ll be under the cut. also, i should tweak my theme so video posts actually display within the post width, but... i’m lazy

ep. 11:

at around 7:45, deputy commissioner li tells chi zhen to take his reports back to “当小说看”, lit. “read them like they’re novels,” etc, in what’s clearly a derogatory tone — lily’s translated it as “use them for some light bedtime reading,” which does indeed capture that original tone well!

at around 27:00, chi zhen drops the term 人妖. this term has some complicated history — the closest terms i can compare it to in english are “queer,” or the t-slur. it’s a slur meaning literally something like “human monster,” but it’s directed mainly at gender-nonconforming and trans people, people who don’t fit the binary, though it can often be generalized to even cis lgb people, in general. some people have begun to reclaim it in recent years, but its usage is almost always still derogatory — how much it’s just insulting vs being a full-fledged slur is a little bit of a subjective thing, but it’s enough to make me, personally, pretty uncomfortable. that being said, people do drop it a lot, so... :/

the biggest one!! when chi zhen is looking at lu li in the car (for way too long, btw, he should really focus on driving) at around 33:00, he says “这个仇，我不知道该找谁去报。” which is a beautiful, heartbreaking line — that i’ve translated as well as i could, in english, but which stumped me for a long time. this line alone had me stuck for two hours. here’s my final translation: “this revenge — i don’t know who to take it from.” i realize this is technically grammatically incorrect; it should be “take revenge on” and so “take it [on]” instead of “from,” but hear me out. normally, “to take revenge” in chinese is the compound 报仇, but chi zhen here splits it up in an almost poetic way into 报, the verb, and 仇, the noun. the chinese concept of 仇 is like... a grudge, or a debt, or something that must warrant revenge, or that the 仇 is “repaid,” or avenged, or 报. in this case, chi zhen’s 仇 is the murder of his sister, and he’s saying that he doesn’t know who he should seek to 报 — who he should pursue to square that life debt, who should be the one to pay for the suffering of his family. in normal chinese culture, the sins of the father are passed on to the son — hence the drama’s name, original sin — but chi zhen is conflicted, confused. he’s saying that he doesn’t know who to blame, namely: whether he can blame lu li for his father’s actions, whether avenging his sister by killing lu li would even be the right thing to do. it’s agonizing and it’s painful and it’s so, so good.

ep 12:

at around 38:35, lu li says something that’s translated as “i won’t spare him” — a more accurate translation might be “i won’t be able to spare him.” but i decided that it took out a bit of the bite from the english when you write it that way. it’s almost a little more vicious in the cn this way — ie. even if he wanted to, he wouldn’t be able to show mercy, b/c of the depth of his anger.

"Perhaps, we have no way to control how that unbearable passing of life will begin. Perhaps, we have no way to let those agonies and regrets wear away to nothing. But, perhaps we can decide how all of this should end."

[happyhell]

This why Mogai ,tucute etc but also the modern LGBT movement will always keep people oppressed.

Mogai, Tucute ,etc

I had no idea those things existed until yesterday and when I found out about these things I was scrolling through their pages for hours in awe! ( Btw, before the supporters of these radical, pseudo progressive ,non sensical , abusive, homophobic,transphobic , racist ideologies attack me, yes I happen to not be straight. It's not what defines my existence but I happened to be born that way,and I'm not a fan of what the LGBT community has become so I'm not part of it either)

These people are exactly why straight people and society in general will never take people that are not heterosexual or cisgendered seriously. Because of people like you. You are ignorant, dangerous, abusive people that feel justified to tell human beings what they should be classified as, even by force. You talk about how lebels and gender are social constructs ( which I agree with) yet you create millions of lebels that you pull out of your asses , without any psychiatric knowledge , creating stress and even MORE confusion to people who do actually struggle with their identities.

What is criminal about you, is that you put pride on psychological problems like anxiety and depression suggesting that people should even make it part of their identity. Mental illness is NOT a joke I suffer from social anxiety. I'm not ashamed of it ,and yes nobody should feel ashamed of having issues,but that doesn't mean I should be happy I have them! Mental illness is just like physical illness it needs treatment. Another criminal thing you do, is that you blatantly ignore gender dysphoria being crucial for someone to be transgender even though it is accepted by SCIENCE and is even recognized by transgender individuals themselves. If the gender you where assigned at birth based on your sex is bringing you dysphoria then and after your therapist identifies that, after much thought and many discussions, trans people change their gender and body in order to eliminate that dysphoria. The reason that what you do is sooo incredibly dangerous ,is that people transition without actually having issues with their identities, leading to them permanently mutilating their genitals and then realizing they where actually cisgendered individuals.

You are self untitled adult babies , that so desperately need to feel like special little snowflakes. Because the majority of you are actually in the majority ,most of you are straight cisgendered individuals that yern to get oppression points and I'm sorry that the LGBT community has made not being in a minority so "criminal" that it backfired in their faces. You have a big influence on young people that don't know better and you need to stop.

LGBT

Now it's time to tell my opinion about the LGBT community as well because you ain't no saints either. This is YOUR fault. I used to identify with you. Because I believed in what you guys began as. After Stonewall people where in the streets protesting for their rights like rational adults , just like any other minority group. The people that fought then, would be ashamed of what the community has become. It is the most toxic , immature, cringy "progressive" (don't make me laugh) community of all time. WE WILL NEVER BE IN THE MAJORITY because the fact is you don't want us to be. You don't actually want us to become equals and part of the majority because you won't have a reason to exist, you won't need to organize ridiculous, embarrassing pride parades that have gone from being a human rights protest ,to an embarrassing display of half naked adults shaking their pruny asses in the middle of the streets. How are other adult humans supposed to take any of us seriously if we act like 5 year olds.

You know what LGBT organizations I actually admire ? Organizations like the Trevor project and homeless shelters for LGBT youth ,those are actual mature serious adults taking action to protect young people whoever they are.

And finally, people that don't belong in a minority are valid , beautiful, emotional human beings that don't need or have to be our punching bags. I was always baffled how people like us that are oppressed daily can have so much hate and so many double standards. Straight and cisgendered people might not have to worry about the problems of an LGBT person but that doesn't give any of us the right to invalidate their pain. We are all HUMAN BEINGS that experience suffering and pain. Straight and cisgendered people weather we like it or not are ALWAYS going to be the majority in terms of numbers because that is what nature needs the most . People who can reproduce. Does that mean people with other sexualities and gender identity should be invalidated and oppressed? Of course not. But you can't just immediately cut off any person that is not in a minority and invalidate their opinion and pain because " they don't know what it's like" that isn't freedom, that isn't a democracy. Fuck you ,who are you to invalidate human beings like that.

Tumblr has litterally become a place for pseudo progressive radicals to thrive it's actually dangerous

[queer-bisexual-person]

Reblog with your coming out/ realization stories.

During pride month, on the third, which was marked as bisexual day by all of the calendars, I came out to my parents and my peers( through social media). I actually came out my mom on the third, in person. I said "In honor of pride month..." "We should do something?" She interjected. "I should tell you, I like girls, and boys" "ok" I told her that I was afraid to tell my dad because I thought he was homophobic, to which she replied "tell him that" then we didn't really talk about it. She couldn't see my tears through my sun glasses. I didn't tell my dad untill the sixth. My sister had seen my post on Snapchat and offered to take me to a pride parade. When I asked to go my dad said "so what, are you trying to be gay now?" To which I replied, "now?". He then said "Oh please don't go through this phase for attention." And proceeded to give me the "you are too young" speech. He specifically said "your balls haven't dropped yet" He asked my mother if she "knew about this" and she said "she(btw please use they/them for me) might have said something about it" I am positive the reaction was out of homophobia because to calm my dad down my mom said "she (they) still like guys!" He believes my sister married a gay man and said "just don't marry a gay man" and I said "if I'm going to marry a gay person, it's going to be a gay girl" He said that just because I thought girls were pretty didn't mean I wanted to have sex with them and proceeded to give me an example of how his friend was handsome but that didn't mean anything. I was, again, in tears. I went to my room and he tried to follow me talking about how of I was going to do this we needed to have a real conversation. About a week later, my sister took me to a pride parade and my parents were supposed to come. Only my mom showed up. She wanted to "make me feel supported" but had stated that she hopes I'll "change my mind". We were at Target and I saw pride flags for $5 and she said ok when I asked for one, I just quickly grabbed mine and continued. My mom was okay but she never stood up for me when my dad was freaking out and she still acted a bit homophobic, but she was trying. I came out to my mother's side grandma after my sister actively tried to keep me out of the house and away from my parents. She was great and she would often clash with my dad because of his verbally abusive nature. Again... I cried. My sister left the house at 17 because he kicked her out, and he constantly berates her (she's his stepdaughter). He just kept saying I was too young and acting older than I am. Yesterday he made a comment about the pride bracelet I wear and not caring what people think of me. His words felt like a knife. I get a lot of flak with my peers and get called the f slur or gay on a daily basis. It cuts. It cuts deep, but they aren't the ones who are supposed to love me unconditionally. When he first saw my flag he made another comment, I get nervous when he's around me. He ridicules everything I do and am. My weight, my sexuality, my grades (I have a 4.667 GPA and he's mad), anything else he can think of. When I came out to his mom, it was confusing. Her actions and her words weren't lining up. I told her and she said something about she thought that's what I was going to say. I had been trying to hint at it for a bit. She said "you're too young to make this decision" I told her "it's not a decision" she replied "it kind of is". She was trying to hug me though. I was crying. She asked my mom which of my friends were gay (to which she replied probably the one with gay moms????) So she could figure out which of my friends turned me gay. My brother had known for a year. He is alright, not the best but alright. My dad gave him transphobic and a bit homophobic veiws, but I'm trying to help him. My friends who saw the post on Snapchat were confused. So basically, it never really gets better, just people get bored of it.

[dilutedd]

here’s a list of popular/common users who are aphobes so those of us who don’t want to platform them can avoid them

or in other words, I see these guys casually on posts a lot and want you all who are reblogging them to know they are aphobes (and some of them have done worse yet, such as abuse, rape apologism, transphobia, being anti sj, racism, etc)

tw for: ableism, abuse, abuse apologism, biphobia, body shaming, child sexual abuse, cissexism, conversion therapy, death/violent threats, fatphobia, gaslighting, homophobia, intersexism, lesbophobia, misgendering, pedo apologism, pedophilia, queerphobia, racism, radfems/terfs/swerfs, rape, rape apologism, sex shaming, sexism, sexual abuse, sexual harassment, suicide baiting, transphobia, truscum, whorephobia

edit Last updated: 12/11/2017

[edit] fun fact: I am trans and queer!! thanks for the misgendering, misidentifying, threats, constant use of misogynistic slurs, and suicide bait!

(will exclusionists ever stop misgendering inclusionists and calling them the b-slur? the world may never know)

[edit] Honestly this has now become just a general list of aphobes for people to block, not necessarily specifically of people I “see a lot” that people don’t know about. So with that in mind, here’s an extension that lets you block a list of people at once. (edit: link fixed, sorry!) Unfortunately, it’s only for Google Chrome and I’m not sure if there are other versions out there for other browsers.

[edit] Latest additions, so people can keep track of updates: cadaverjones, captainfunkpunkandroll, captainprism, chainsawpunk, cherryseltzer, chloepricekin, chunke, cisphobepapyrus, clara-the-slytherin-graduate, clarith, clusterc, commanderlotus, commuwuism, confused-alien-on-earth, constowllation, corrgii, courtneyhammett, cozybears, crash-bandisloot, crawlybug, crunchydude, cuckmobile, cybernetyx, cyberni, depechemodemutual, peppermint-dyke, reindeer-ritsu, romansilver, wikdsushi

[edit] Other block lists to take note of: Pedo apologist list and list of other shitty inclusionists, list of anti-sj, anti-feminists, terfs, truscum, and their apologists

[edit] Previous versions of this list. Keep in mind these may contain users that have been removed.

[edit4] Aphobic as in,

don’t believe aro/aces are LGBT+,

don’t think aphobia is real, don’t think ace/aro pride is needed and/or that it is homophobic, don’t think aro/ace issues should be discussed,

think asexuality and aromanticism aren’t real, are “just modifiers”, are “just internalized homophobia”, and/or are fake “special snowflake” identities,

or worse, that aspecs need to be medically/psychologically examined - that being aspec is or is a symptom of a medical disorder or mental illness,

think asexuality just means someone doesn’t like or have sex,

don’t think we should educate about asexuality,

think minors can’t be aspec,

think the A is for “ally” which is particularly ironic while arguing aces don’t belong because they’re “cishet invaders”

think asexuality and/or aromanticism is pedophilia, homophobic, inherently abusive, or nsfw, etc

believe having sex without attraction is bad, mentally ill, abusive, rape, etc (just in general a lot of sex-shaming shit that often pulls in whorephobia), or even think aspecs can’t or shouldn’t date

often don’t even think you can be gay/etc and ace, and make sweeping statements against asexuality in general, so “lgbt aces” is a bunch of lying shit

make and support numerous lies regarding the discourse, such as that MOGAI was “coined by a pedophile” or that aspec was “stolen from autistics”

And most of them are biphobic, such as believing biphobia doesn’t exist, using phrases like “bihet”, and hating on “”””new”””” or “”””fake”””” identities in general, which means many are truscum/anti-nonbinary/exorsexist as well (fun fact: truscum came up with this “the mogais” shit btw), and most of them believing in “straight/cis passing” privilege

And tend to have a habit of shitting on people who identify as queer, or even imply or directly say nobody is allowed to ID as queer, as well as a habit of intersexism on top of that. Many also think it’s inherently homophobic to be triggered or uncomfortable by general pda and related content, including sexually explicit content (there’s generally a lot of anti-survivor and anti-sex repulsed bs).

Annnnd a lot of the cis here keep using “cishet” which is not their fucking word to use! because they have cis privilege! they are not oppressed by cis people! And a lot of them speak over trans people or outright try to educate us about what is “really” transphobic in the discourse. And the amount of misgendering is extreme, if the above big and bold part didn’t indicate that well enough.

Just look at my damned discourse tag ffs.

That being said of course if you see someone on here who is additionally abusive, an assailant, a radfem/truscum, etc, feel free to mention it. Blogs like @regreceipts and @aphobehallofshame and @justaphobethings​ has quite a lot of posts on these people (and others) saying awful things and being nasty.

[edit] Due to the increased harassment, transphobia, and threats, I am now auto-blocking everyone added to this list. If you do NOT believe any of the above and I’ve made a mistake, you’ll have to find another way besides a message or reply to correct this.

[edit] Also, (many) people on here aren’t irredeemable, there have been cases of people changing and being removed from here. There’s also the case of when someone else (often unrelated) takes over the URL and gets removed from here. If that happens, let me know… but again because of the abuse, these blogs are autoblocked, so you’ll have to find a way around that.

[edit5] “Why are there deactivated people on here?”

because regardless of deactivation their posts still exist and their comments on others’ posts also still exist, so, people who don’t want to give aphobes a platform should avoid those posts, that’s the point of this list

0829z

0nlyskeletonbcnesremain

16bitdiscourse (also threatens physical violence on aces for coming out)

343-guiltyspark / x2013x (also a terf and makes posts about violently attacking trans people)

37q

3amstims

3coursemeal

410940

4lung

6-/-6-6 (remove / for blocking purposes, tumblr autocorrects it to a longer dash)

6c415f (also a terf and biphobe)

6juggernaut

8bitprincex

9-lovs (also a terf and pedo apologist)

96galdeco

999twink

9enj1

a-bit-of-luck-and-a-lot-of-hunk

a-phobia

aawb (also a terf, doesn’t believe in biphobia, doesn’t believe that refusing to date or befriend bi people is biphobic, and believes that bi women are privileged over lesbians)

abigots

abracababra / discourspicy

accelgors (also biphobic)

ace-aro-spectrum-ppl-can-b-str8

ace-bpd-sangwoo

ace-cringe

ace-discourse-attorney

ace-tears

acecommunityreceipts (also claims aces can’t be raped for being ace)

acediscourse-central

acediscourseconsumer

acediscoursehalloffame

acediscourselesbian

acediskhorse

acenvy

aceoppression (also believes calling trans people cishets isn’t misgendering)

acephobeon

acephobia101 (also believes sex ed shouldn’t be taught to children and that you can’t know you’re ace until you’re a teen)

acephobiafreediscourse (also defended discourseprincesa (see below) and protested her outing)

acephobiaisajoke / gonnadeleteafter (also a rape apologist)

acepom

acetungldotcom (also suicide baits; wishes death on aces)

aceslation / lesbiandiscordblog (also blames Ace Tumblr TM for lesbian porn)

acevorese

acting-lesbianistically

aceslayertrannie

acetungle

acewlws

achievement-hunter

acoupleofradfems (also a terf)

actualaphobe

adlernotes

[mars-ipan]

ok real quick? i never understood why people are exclusionists. why are you against neopronouns, aspec people, trans folks in general, bi/pan/poly/omni people, etc.? so what if it “proves homophobes right?” they’re gonna commit hate crimes regardless of what we do unless we crack down on it. whatever we do isn’t gonna have an effect on them. why do you care about the pronouns another person uses, particularly neopronouns? yeah they can be tough to learn, i understand, but if you need help you can just look up websites to practice or better yet, ask the person using those pronouns and they’ll gladly help??

why are people deciding if other people are “trans enough?” your being trans isn’t my business, and their being trans isn’t yours, either. and yes, some people transition and regret it. but that doesn’t mean being trans needs these big rules, it just means we need to stop encouraging immediate transition but instead encourage healthy gender exploration. like, i wondered if i was a demigirl due to the slight disconnect i feel from gender as a whole. you know what i did? i researched, and tried she/they pronouns. and while i learned that no, i am definitely a female and nothing more, i also learned a lot about being nonbinary, which helped me be a better ally. why? because i was around people who taught me how to healthily experiment. let’s do that? please? also like. don’t misgender people even if you doubt their transness. if you misgender someone intentionally fuck you. nothing else to be said about it. don’t do things terfs do, guys. you’re not protecting trans folk, you’re harming your own people.

why do people think aspec people are bad?? what did they do???? they’re just vibing who gives a shit if they don’t need sex or romance, or if they have to know someone well to want it. as a pan person and also a romantic person, good on them! that shit is tiring and confusing and if they don’t need it then cool! they have extra time to spend not worrying about it, and from what i’ve seen a lot of them spend that time cooking. that’s great! leave aspec people alone they’re literally just making food. you sound like you got rejected and just never stopped being salty. that puts you on par with a cishet dude who hates lesbians because one he’s attracted to won’t make an exception for him. shut the fuck up. oh and aspec people aren’t prudes. they just don’t feel attraction. this isn’t to say aspec people can’t have a high sex drive! attraction (or lack thereof) and horny do not have to be the same that’s not how things work. oh and stop saying they’re inhuman or broken or some shit. no they’re fucking not. plenty of people who feel attraction don’t want kids, and guess what? this isn’t fucking caveman times. we don’t really need everyone to directly pass on their lineage or really want to. gay couples do these things called adoption or surrogation if they want kids. ace people can do that too. wow. who knew. stop being an asshole and Let Aspecs Vibe.

on a similar note, bi/pan/poly/omni folk! what the hell did we do?????? we’re “hetero passing????” what even is that???? hey dumbasses everyone is hetero passing if they’re not in a relationship because we live in a world where people expect each other to be heterosexual. sometimes even people in Clear Homosexual Relationships get asked if they’re siblings or some shit. i’ve seen women post about their homo marriages and get comments like “awww besties! having your wedding on the same day as your best friend is such goals!” a lot of people have horrible gaydars (also that erases straight trans people who are btw lgbt it is in the name). we’re not gonna cheat on you or leave you. this one confuses me. how do you think we see people??? as food?? we don’t like. get sick of something and decide to switch over to something else. our whole thing is that generally we don’t really give a shit about your gender???? like it’s not really a factor? some of us have differing standards for different genders but like. overall it’s not that important?? so why do you think we’d get “tired of vagina” or “miss dick” or some shit??? that feels vaguely transphobic. why is it always about sex?? which leads me to my next question. how the hell did “you want attention/you’re a whore” become a thing???? bitch what??? say you’re a gay dude. do you want to fuck literally every man you see? “no, of course not?” huh, funny, since you seem to think that’s how attraction works. we still have fucking standards, same as almost everyone else. and even if we didn’t, then what? who gives a shit? it’s 2020 man why are we still slutshaming? some people are horny stop fucking caring. oh and also stop pitting bi/pan/poly/omni people against each other!!! what the hell!!! why is that a thing??? we should be loving each other guys!! everyone has their own definitions of labels and reasons why they use them. pan people, stop calling all bi people transphobes. they’re not. bi people, stop calling all pan people biphobic (but also bisexual at the same time??? ig they think it’s internalized?). we’re not. and let’s not erase polysexual (not to be confused with polyamourous) or omnisexual people. they’re here too and they are just as valid as us. we should be filled with solidarity and appreciation for each other, not hate and spite. there’s not a competition to be the one sole label that means “i’m interested in multiple genders,” literally just pick what you’re comfy with and respect other people. sorry this one is longer i just have more experience dealing with shit like this

in conclusion, why the fuck are our own people attacking us??? i can understand if the word “queer” is a trigger word for some seeing as it is used as a slur, so with that one we literally just let people use it if they want to and don’t force it on anyone who doesn’t want to. bam problem solved. however, why are trans people who don’t fit a perfect mold a problem? why are aspecs a problem? why are bi/poly/pan/omni people a problem? what the fuck? every group i’ve talked about has been here since day one, by the way. we aren’t new. if you’re an exclusionist i want you to please not interact with me, i’m tired and just as my points probably didn’t change your mind, your points will not change mine. dear god can we please just let people be stop giving a shit a label is something we use to feel comfortable go away

TL;DR: stop fighting each other and instead respect each other. we’re a family and we should love each other. also exclusionists don’t interact

cishets can totally reblog this btw! just don’t clown please and thank you