#I’m listening to Raleigh Ritchie and being sad

[talamasca-amc]

That is definitely his left hand....

I think it’s his right hand crossed over. I don’t know I suck at spacial reasoning.

[imgoingtocrash]

Made of Iron, Born of Fire: The Fanmix 

by @imgoingtocrash

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AKA: A labor of love for @savvysass’s birthday!!!!

What can I say that hasn’t already been said because we’re both incredibly sappy people in our Author’s Notes? Writing this series with you has brought me so much joy in the last two years, and I never could have hit over 100k words without you. Here’s to whatever we write next in the series...and all of the WIPs we’re working on right now...and only god knows what’s next for us personally and professionally...and most importantly, to you on your Birthday. Thank you for being such a good friend, in both fandom and outside of it. I’m so, so thankful to know you and love you. 🥰

Director’s Cut Below, because we all know I love talking about this series, and yes, that does extend to why I picked these songs. (And also maybe because these song choices only make sense in my brain and hopefully Savannah’s?? Who knows! Feel free to ask questions if you want but let’s be honest this series and fanmix are most importantly for us, because we love the series so dang much.)

My Wildest Dreams by Ron Pope

I spoke in riddles and in rhymes, but my time with you has taught me to simplify, you’re not quite what I pictured you would be, you’re better than my wildest dreams.

We’ve talked about this one before, and I’LL TALK ABOUT IT AGAIN!!!! Ron Pope is so good imo, and this song wowowow the father-child feels, but especially with Tony and newborn Peter a la A Foreign Feeling and A First Time For Everything.

Big & Scared by Raleigh Ritchie

I want to be better for you, let me do that now, you’re my favorite human, so you should be prepared, I’ll help you get through it, when you’re big and scared

We’ve mentioned Tony’s thoughts about legacy multiple times by now, and I think this song really represents Tony looking forward to the person Peter could be become and that “breaking the cycle” mentality of supporting Peter even when he’s not a perfect father.

Legacy of Sadness by Ron Pope

irrational as it may seem I guess I’m sorry, even though I know that none of it’s my fault, it is easier for me to count my blessings, than to cry for every single thing we’ve lost

I have 0 shame putting these two songs by Ron Pope almost back to back because they’re the opening and closing of an album dedicated to his child like...it’s so perfect for Tony and this theme of reflection on who he is and who Peter will become/is becoming and all that entails.

this is me trying by Taylor Swift

They told me all of my cages were mental, so I got wasted like all my potential, and my words shoot to kill when I'm mad, I have a lot of regrets about that

I wrote something...very sad but also soft recently??? and this is for That it’s about pre-CW Pepperony being separated and the road to them trying to come back together including Tony working on himself and I love it!!! It hurts really good!!! This whole song is perfect for it and I can’t wait until people get to read it.

Be Good When I’m Gone by Four Year Strong

I'm sorry I can't stop to listen, but I've got so much to do and I've got some place to be, the house looks like the aftermath of a hurricane, I hope it stays that way

Tony being a busy parent but doing his best to make time for Peter in his life and making that time count has been something super important to illustrate to us, especially the transition from being a CEO to being a superhero and how that changes how Peter sees Tony’s absence over time.

I Won’t Back Down by Johnnyswim, Drew Holcomb & The Neighbors, and Penny and Sparrow

Tony puts on the original version by Tom Petty in Home Is Where The Heart Is, but I think this cover has a very slow, emotional undertone that’s really great too. The interludes, if you didn’t catch it, have all been featured in a fic previously.

Let It Matter by Johnnyswim

So if it matters let it matter, if your heart's breaking let it ache, catch those pieces as they scatter, know your hurt is not in vain

Pepper in Never Tell Me The Odds ALL DAYYYYY. She’s the emotional rock of that fic (and of our Ironfam TBH) and it’s all because she allows herself to feel her feelings and encourages the Stark boys to do so as well.

Simmer - Acoustic by Hayley Williams

And if my child, needed protection, from a fucker like that man, I’d sooner gut him, cause nothing cuts like a mother

Post-Home Is Where The Heart Is...y’all know Pepper’s not that mad about what happened to Obie. Also just Pepper when someone hurts her family?? I always write it as her sort of putting all of her emotion into something she can control and doing it well, so, this song is all about that.

Tightrope by Nia Hendricks

one step after another, keep holding on to each other, don’t look back, move on and let go, that’s how you walk on a tightrope

Pepperony trying to navigate their relationship and the insanity of superhero stuff and also co-parenting. It’s all excellent, I love them so much, I enjoy writing it so much!!!!

Dancing With Your Ghost by Sasha Sloan

Never got the chance, to say a last goodbye, I gotta move on, but it hurts to try, how do I love, how do I love again?

This song is tilted towards romance, but if you’ll remember, we’re a Pro-Tony Survives Endgame AU series, so it’s not about THAT...but well...Infinity War sure will hit something fierce for certain non-romantic relationships in this series, huh?

The Bones by Maren Morris

Call it dumb luck, but baby, you and I, can't even mess it up, although we both try, no, it don't always go the way we planned it, but the wolves came and went and we're still standing

Post-Endgame Ironfam!!! Tony and Pepper married with their kids, their family and HAPPY...THIS IS WHY WE DO ALL OF THE ANGST...FOR A FAMILY...WE LOVE THEM

Carry on Wayward Son by Kansas

Considered Pepper and Peter’s ‘song’, as it’s referenced multiple times in the series, and was one of the bigger solidifying moments of their mother-son relationship as a whole.

Mundane by Hardcastle

And I’ve been sinking into silence, dwelling on my thoughts, and in these months, I haven’t felt that most conversations have left me anything but blue

Peter’s selective mutism was something very special to us when we originally had the idea, and making sure we talk about it and utilize it in the right way is something we’re still working on, particularly with the Therapy Fic we’re brainstorming atm.

survivin’ (One Eyed Jack’s Session) by Bastille

What can I say? I'm survivin', crawling out these sheets to see another day, what can I say? I'm survivin', and I'm gonna be fine, I'm gonna be fine, I think I'll be fine

Spoiler Alert: Peter’s not fine, like, a decent amount of the time. But he’s sure trying, and we love him for that.

Jacob from the Bible by Jake Wesley Rogers

Mama, don't worry, it took me years, to say I'm sorry, to see your tears, Mama, forgive me, I grew up too fast, but it's not on you, it's in the past

Mostly part of Peter growing up to become a hero and realizing what his parents--particularly Pepper--have gone through for him to become the person he is today, but that sometimes he still doesn’t feel like he’s making them proud enough.

Compassion Is a German Word by To Kill A King

Don't be so arrogant, you ain't no different to anyone I've met, we're all the heroes in our own film, or maybe the villain in someone else's

Spider-Man being an excellent superhero boi!!! Being kind and good!!! We love it!! Also, I put a TKAK song on...a LOT of my playlists, because I think they’re great.

brutal by Olivia Rodrigo

And I'm so sick of seventeen, where's my fucking teenage dream?, if someone tells me one more time, "Enjoy your youth", I'm gonna cry

I mean...this song is such a Teenage Mood...I had to do it...

In The Wee Small Hours Of The Morning by Frank Sinatra

So, I had this cute little scene in my head that went with this song for SO LONG but there wasn’t really anything for it to fit into so...yeah that’s part 2 of Savannah’s Birthday Gift, a little soft Baby Peter drabble. Fluffy Goop from top to bottom. That can be read here.

Home by Phillip Phillips

Just know you're not alone, 'Cause I'm gonna make this place your home

...I know it’s not original, okay? It’s found family, it’s great, I don’t care!

Comes and Goes (In Waves) by Greg Laswell

And this part was for her, and this part was for her, this part was for her, does she remember?

This song is good family angst in general BUT these specific lyrics made me think of Mary and that they never forget her in their lives despite the other stuff going on (because we refuse to let them).

I Have Made Mistakes by The Oh Hellos

I have made mistakes, I continue to make them, the promises I've made, I continue to break them, and all the doubts I've faced, I continue to face them, but nothing is a waste if you learn from it

No one in the Ironfam is perfect, but they all do their best to try and grow even when they’re scared they’ll never be able to. The ups and downs are all par for the course of this series to us.

Easy Days - Demo by Bastille

Cause I don’t wanna fall back again, back into the easy days, everything was so simple then, little fires burned away

Strife is a part of life, and the family in this fic growing through their loss and struggles and moving ahead as a unit to get to a better place is super central to making the fic what it is...but it’s easy for them to remember the old days before being superheroes and wishing it was simple again.

North by Sleeping At Last

Let the years we’re here be kind, be kind, let our hearts like doors open wide, open wide, settle our bones like wood over time, over time, give us bread, give us salt, give us wine

The way Tony went from feeling so alone to having an entire built family that’s so full of love and everything he never dreamed of...*screams into my pillow* I love this series so much thank you and good night!!!

[meetmeatthecoda]

I wanna just thank you for being here for everyone to vent to for the last week or so. I feel like such an idiot for even believing we might have got a satisfying ending, but knowing everyone else feels just as betrayed and hurt as me helps 😭 I still feel like I’m in a state of shock to be honest - like you said as bad as I thought it could be, that was worse 😩 I love and appreciate your fics and can’t wait for a fix it one (when you feel like you’re ready). Love a fellow crushed Lizzington shipper x

PS: as depressing as it is, I’ve been finding solace in listening to my Lizzington playlist and I was wondering if you had any songs you’d recommend me adding to it? Ones that particularly remind you of them (possibly from a happier time in S1-3?)

Oh, sweet anon 😭 You are too kind!! It has truly been my pleasure to be a part of this fandom - always, but especially in these last few weeks... We have always been such a passionate bunch & that has only intensified since things came to a head. It has been a pleasure to answer asks & make posts & write fics... I'm just so happy you all enjoy my stupid content 🥲 And please don't feel bad!! We were all hoping for something akin to a happy ending... I think it was a cruel combination of expectations for Megan's last ep, baseless baiting from the promo, & a misplaced hope that TPTB would be capable of writing something decent to wrap up this "arc" & not... a fucking undeserved Shakespearean tragedy. Rest assured, it is NOT our fault, anon ❤️ But I know what you mean, it helps to mourn with this group of lovely people & not feel alienated in our grief, that is definitely true!! 🥺 I'm still in a state of shock too... I think my brain is oscillating between mourning everything & completely rejecting what we saw. It makes it hard to process things & even harder to remember that the show is so unceremoniously over for us. It sucks 😭

And ahhh, you are so sweet, anon, I'm so honored you like my fics & you're looking forward to my fix-it stuff!! I have some ideas that I think have potential but I've also been tentative... I'm trying to let my emotions settle, but not lose the intensity we're still reeling from, bc that will be a big part of the first fic, I think. I'm looking to start asap & I hope you'll like it when it's done, which will hopefully be soon ❤️

And omg, no shade in finding solace in Lizzington music!! I've been doing much the same 🥺 My music taste is super subjective & varied - I think my "Lizzington songs" tend to include whatever I'm listening to whenever I'm thinking of them which is always & not necessarily songs that are inherently Lizzington in nature, & they're probably all pretty angsty, but I will give you some suggestions nonetheless!! ❤️ (I'll put them below a cut bc it turned into a lot of links lol whoops 😅) Anyway, I want to thank you so much for this ask, anon, you are truly so sweet. I'm so thankful to hear from a fellow crushed Lizzington shipper 🥲 Thank you again, hang in there & much, much love to you, my friend!! ❤️

For seasons 1-3 recs: (& these come mostly from popular/my fav Lizzington fanvids at the time... I will link those where I can, they are 1000% worth watching):

Til Enda by Olafur Arnolds (fanvid)

So Close by Olafur Arnolds (fanvid)

Sad Girl by Lana Del Rey (fanvid)

Be Together by Major Lazer (fanvid)

Young and Beautiful by Lana Del Ray (fanvid)

Hypnotic by Zella Day (fanvid)

#icanteven by The Neighbourhood (fanvid)

Clarity by Zedd (fanvid)

White Blank Page by Mumford & Sons (fanvid)

Earned It by The Weeknd (fanvid)

Crazy in Love cover by Kadebostany (fanvid)

Bloodsport by Raleigh Ritchie (fanvid)

Beautiful Days by Venus (fanvid)

No Trace by Ms Mr (fanvid)

Hurricane by Ms Mr

I Found by Amber Run

Take Me To Church by Hozier

More recently, these are my go-to Lizzington songs: (for no reason other than an anon recommended Starset & I had Lizzington on the brain while listening for the first time 🥲 The acoustic versions are also lovely! I based fics off the others.)

Die For You by Starset

Starlight by Starset

Satellite by Starset

Ricochet by Starset

Side by Pentatonix

Crave You (Adventure Club Remix) by Flight Facilities

Crave You by Flight Facilities

Carve You by Robinson

stardew by Purity Ring

almanac by Purity Ring

On Board by Joshua Burnside & Alana Henderson

That's all I can think of at the moment, anon!! I hope you like some of these!! Much love!! ❤️

[malereader-inserts]

And then this ask is to actually ask you stuff: 2020 is coming soooooo... which fic, which you wrote, is your favorite of alllll? What, to you, is the biggest achievement you have achieved this decade? What song do you think you’ve listened to the most this decade? Best movie of this decade in your opinion? The best thing that has happened to you this decade? What do u want to forget this decade and/or year? What do you hope for in 2020? Any plans for 2020? You be surprised, this is just to fill

Heyyy, i’m currently revising for exams that are happening in Jan but I promise to those who are waiting on request I will get round to doing them

My favourite story to write has to be a hard one; I guess Sand Grains for Peter Parker has always been one of my favourites to write just because it’s all lovey dovey but I also love Stuff We Did for Natasha Romanoff because holy hell that’s gut rentching, yet I’m proud of Leave Me Be (But Don’t) because cute platonic loving. So, it’s hard to pick an all time favourite

Biggest Achievement? Getting into Uni? Never thought it was possible really for me as I often struggle with revision and such. And the song I listen to most is apparently Someone You Loved by Lewis Capaldi however, Bloodsport by Raleigh Ritchie is up there with Ocean Eyes by Billie

Best Movie of the decade is pretty hard, I watch movies but hardly again, but I have two which I love from this decade which are both surprisingly animated - Coco and Spider-Man into the Spider-Verse. Amazing plot line and animation is on point. NOT TO MENTION THE SOUNDTRACK FOR BOTH - UGH GREAT

Best thing to happen in this decade, a few things, my lil sister being born, my boyfriend, the long lasting friends i’ve made in Uni I guess. There’s not much I want to forget, since I have terrible memory anyway, but I guess from memories and such it’s a learning point in life - things you want to forget are things you learn to better yourself

Hope for 2020 and the new coming decade is finally seeing my worth, being happy, having good vibes. Looking in the mirror and actually believing that I’m worth it, and believing someone’s words when they call me cute or beautiful. For 2020, I just want to be happy and leave my dark sad days behind me but it’s gonna take a lot of effort.

No plans yet for 2020, but what about you? What are your plans for 2020 and your goal for the new decade? What about you and this is including everyone - I’m curious, what’s this new decade got for you?

[modern-victoria]

But I’m Here Now

A Quakerider Fic Playlist

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angst, implied sexual content, fluff, alcohol, blood

Anchor ~ by Novo Amor

And I hear your ship is comin' in Your tears a sea for me to swim And I hear a storm is comin' in My dear, is it all we've ever been?

The room was dark except for the few rays of street-light streaming through the curtains. Daisy was seated on the worn couch, clutching her shoulder with her opposite hand. Blood was leaking through her fingertips. After waiting a few moments longer, she heard Robbie entering the living room and Daisy turned her head towards him. She saw him carrying bandages and boxes of painkillers. He had also a bottle of whisky gripped in his right hand. He kneeled in front of her and put his hand on the one she was keeping on her shoulder. Carefully, he lifted her hand off the wound and stared at it for a few seconds. She nodded, telling him to continue, even if he hadn’t even voiced the question out loud. He poured a bit of alcohol on the wound and she winced in pain. He looked at her, terrified of hurting her too much, but she smiled, silently telling him it was okay. He continued cleaning the wound and then put a bandage over it. When he was done, he didn’t immediately stand up, but let his hand linger on her knee. They both savoured this quiet moment in the middle of the chaos. He glanced one last time at her injured shoulder. She’ll survive. They both will. 

Another Love ~ by Tom Odell

And I wanna kiss you, make you feel alright I'm just so tired to share my nights I wanna cry and I wanna love But all my tears have been used up On another love, another love

When Daisy loves, she loves with her whole heart.  So when Lincoln died, Daisy lost her heart. But then Daisy met Robbie and she thought she found her heart again. It was difficult, her soft edges and kind features had been replaced with a dark appearance, but as much as she missed Lincoln terribly, she started to fall in love with Robbie. He understood her grief and sadness, and she loved him all the more for that.

And The Boys ~ by Angus & Julia Stone

All the cracks in the walls reminds you of things we said And I could tell you that I won't hurt you this time But it's just safer to keep you in this heart of mine

Darkness surrounded her, that much Robbie could see. But every time she came to him, or he found her, he noticed that on the inside, she hid a light. Her heart was big and kind. He saw it when she was crying for her friends still in the framework. He saw it when she took care of his brother while he was away. Robbie understood why she had hidden it so well. She had been hurt too many times, and he recognised himself in her. He thought of all the things he could say at the moment, but chose: “But I’m here now, and that’s good.” She smiled kindly and he knew she was his light in that moment.

Bloodsport ~ by Raleigh Ritchie

I've got your back, and though it's stacked against us, I've got your hand, it's us against consensus, And I will burn The people who hurt you the worst and I will not learn 'Cause I am too young and too dumb to consider the terms Of breaking the law and I'll curse the day that they return With a smile on my face as their heads hit the floor And they're done now

She never really told him about Ward, or about Myles, or about all the other people who hurt her. While being Ghost Rider, he had seen a few flashes of her past and all the things she regretted. He had seen how all those people had betrayed her and it fuelled him with rage. Simmons had explained to him what had happened with Ward as to warn him not to do the same, or she would promise him the same thing she had promised Ward. Simmons would kill him. Robbie assured her that he’d never hurt Daisy, but if someone would, he’d be the first to end them. “Good,” Simmons answered.

Deliverance ~ by RY X

I’ve been awake for deliverance Deliverance deliver me

It was hard for him, even if they were guilty of awful crimes, every time the Rider took a life, Robbie felt the chains he carried around pulling him down. The Spirit of Vengeance imprisoned him and Robbie thought he’d be forever chained by him. In walks Daisy Johnson. Although she was dressed completely in black, contrary to the angels he’d always heard about, he was sure she was here to free him. Because every time she looked at him, he fell harder in love and felt the chains become weightless. She made him feel human again.

Come A Little Bit Closer ~ by Jay & The Americans

And I knew, yes I knew I should leave When I heard her say, yeah Come a little bit closer You're my kind of man So big and so strong Come a little bit closer I'm all alone And the night is so long

It was an evening after a successful mission. The whole team was together in a loud and musky bar. They deserved it. Robbie sat alone at a table, watching the team all huddled together at the bar. His eyes scanned out of habit the team for Daisy, but he couldn’t find her. The music filled his ears and the smell of beer loaded his nose, and he hadn’t noticed Daisy coming his way until she was right next to him. “Will you be brooding the whole evening?” She said, lifting her beer bottle to her lips and sipping it. “No.” He could see the moment an idea entered her mind and suddenly he was afraid of her next words. “Come on, let’s dance. We deserve some fun.” “I don’t think this is the kind of place to dance.” His eyes roved across the patrons, almost all middle-aged men drinking their sorrows away. “Come on.” She took his hand and sparks of electricity shot up through his palm. She led him to a small space in the middle of the bar and pressed herself close to him. His whole body was, this time figuratively, on fire. She laughed at his perplexed expression. He knew he should leave, right now. But her laugh and her smile and her proximity pulled him closer every second and they danced until their feet could carry them no more.

Sick Of Losing Soulmates ~ by Dodie

Cause I'm sick of losing soulmates, so where do we begin I can finally see, you're as fucked up as me So how do we win?

After Lincoln, Daisy thought she’d never find someone like him again. And she was right, Robbie was completely different. But so like her. They both pushed away the ones they loved, because they were scared to lose them. Daisy was sick of losing the ones close to her, from Tripp to her parents to Lincoln. But Robbie couldn’t get hurt. She wouldn’t- couldn’t lose him.

Drive ~ by Halsey

All we do is drive All we do is think about the feelings that we hide All we do is sit in silence waiting for a sign Sick and full of pride All we do is drive

She was seated next to him in his Charger. She was staring out the window, mindless of his inner turmoil, and her feet were propped up onto the dashboard. He used to reprimand her for it, but she kept doing it and at a certain moment he didn’t care any more. He glanced occasionally towards her, alternating his gaze from the open road to her soft features. His eyes dropped to her lips, dry and chapped from the fight they just won. A memory crossed his mind: ‘You never give rides,’ his brother had said. And here he was, driving at night with a girl he hadn’t even known two months ago. He cared about her, maybe even more. But he kept his mouth shut and stared at the asphalt in front of him.

Electric Love ~ by Borns

And every night my mind is running around her Thunder's getting louder and louder

It wasn’t love at first sight. The first time he met her, he even tried to kill her, and yet she still came back the next day, a fresh bruise on her cheek and threatening to spill his secret. He tried to make it clear to her that he worked alone, but she still followed him, even if he had tied her to a chair. She left him alone afterwards, but it was too late, he couldn’t get her out of his mind. Every time his eyes fell on her, her presence in his thoughts and dreams grew stronger, until she was all he could think about. He went to her, letting her, a stranger, in his car, something he’d never done. When she touched him for the first time, as brief as it was, a spark of electricity shot through his whole body and he knew he started to fall in love with her. Oh what he would have done to feel that touch again.

Work Song ~ by Hozier

When my time comes around Lay me gently in the cold dark earth No grave can hold my body down I'll crawl home to her

Hell was cold and dark. “That sounds terrible and painful and lonely.” Her words still rang in his ears as he trudged through the desolate landscape of this hell dimension, searching for a place to safely stash this book that brought so much misery onto her. He remembered her tear-stained cheeks as she thought that Mack wouldn’t come back. His fingers ached to wipe away her tears and his arms were begging for him to take her in his arms. He had stood perfectly still. His mind wandered over to the memory of her face before he went through the portal. She had felt left behind again. But she was wrong. No world or dimension or even universe could keep him from her. He’d return, like he had promised her silently before stepping through the portal.

Is There Somewhere ~ by Halsey

I'm sorry, but I fell in love tonight. I didn't mean to fall in love tonight. You're looking like you fell in love tonight.

Inexplicably, they fell in love.

Looking Too Closely ~ by Fink

Put your arms around somebody else And don’t punish yourself, punish yourself The truth is like blood underneath your fingernails You don’t wanna hurt yourself, hurt yourself By looking too closely

Daisy hated herself. She had loved Lincoln, and he had died for her. Now she was in the arms of someone else. She didn’t dare to say she loved him, for fear of losing him too. And every time her thoughts went to Robbie, instead of Lincoln, she felt bad. Yet slowly, Lincoln entered her mind less often, thoughts of Robbie filling the empty spaces. She had loved Lincoln, with all her heart. When he died, she thought her heart had died with him, but maybe she was wrong. Every time she thought that, she hated herself more, because if that was true, Lincoln had died for nothing.

Nightcall ~ by Kavinsky

There's something inside you It's hard to explain They're talking about you boy But you're still the same

When she had heard about the Ghost Rider, she had picked up horrible things. He burned his victims alive, running them over with his black charger. When she had met the Ghost Rider, she wasn’t sure all those rumours were true. He killed people, but they were guilty. She wasn’t in the right place to judge, she had killed countless of watchdogs, crushing their bones to the ground. When she had met Robbie Reyes, she knew there was more to him than only darkness and death. She had seen him with his brother, happy and laughing. She had seen him with her, smiling softly and reassuring her. Now, every time someone told her the Ghost Rider was evil, she couldn’t stop thinking about Robbie and started defending him. They didn’t know Robbie like she did.

Do I Wanna Know? ~ by Arctic Monkeys

(Do I wanna know?) If this feeling flows both ways? (Sad to see you go) Was sort of hoping that you'd stay (Baby, we both know) That the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can't say tomorrow day Crawling back to you

Robbie laid on his bed. The sheets were crumpled from the night before and the smell of her shampoo was already slowly fading out of his pillows. He knew they weren’t meant for each other, not now, not while they both had their own demons to fight. But maybe in another life, without watchdogs and other dimensions, they would’ve been able to confess their mutual attraction. Still, he loved her, and every time she would come knocking on his door, looking for a way to spend the night, he would let her in, hoping each morning she would stay.

Particles ~ by Nanna Bryndis Hilmarsdottir and Olafur Arnalds

But these heavy hands They’re pulling me down on my chest Latching on, coloring all of my flesh Quietly, you hover over me And I fight but it feels like wasted time Feels like wasted time

Daisy mustered all her remaining strength to keep the metal shelf from falling onto her. She could fell the weight of her powers pulling her down, bruising her bones and colouring her flesh into a deep purple. He hovered over her, trying to decide if she was worthy of living, like she imagined him doing countless of other times. Daisy had tried to do the right thing and stop him, but slowly she accepted her fate. “Do it. I deserve it.” She told the Rider. She closed her eyes, ready for the flames that never came.

Promise ~ by Ben Howard

And maybe, just maybe I'll come home

Robbie could see the terror in her eyes as she asked him if he was leaving. He wanted to tell her ‘no’, but alas, the Rider was much more stronger than him. He made her a promise instead, unlike all the other people she was hurt by. He’d return to her. He’d come home.

Sweat ~ by RY X

You're making me sweat sweat sweat my love down deep into your bones You're making me sweat sweat sweat my heart down deep into your soul

The hot air caused Daisy’s skin to stick to his as they were pressed against each other in the back of his charger. Robbie trailed a line of kisses from her jaw to her stomach, making her moan every time he pressed his lips to her damp skin. Daisy fiddled with the buckle of his belt, pulling him closer to her. He moved his mouth to hers as she ran his fingers through his short hair. Their kisses became more ardent, each hungry for the other. In the darkness of the night, their bodies melted away as they pressed closer together.

Sorry ~ by Halsey

So I'm sorry to my unknown lover Sorry that I can't believe that anybody ever really Starts to fall in love with me Sorry to my unknown lover Sorry I could be so blind Didn't mean to leave you And all of the things that we had behind

She ran away. She always did when things became hard. She left him behind her after he said he loved her. She couldn’t get close to him, not after Lincoln. She couldn’t lose another person that she cared about. She ran away and didn’t look back at him. Daisy didn’t want him to see the tears spilling out of her eyes, regret etched across her face.

Tear In My Heart ~ by Twenty One Pilots

My heart is my armor, She's the tear in my heart, she's a carver, She's a butcher with a smile, cut me farther, Than I've ever been.

Robbie’s eyes were on the road, a song playing softly on the radio. It was hot outside causing the asphalt to evaporate and the horizon to be indistinct. It was only when she let out a quiet snore that he looked over to her. He had always been good in keeping his walls up, but she came along, dressed in black and wearing a dazzling smile, and she had carved her name into his heart.

To You Alone ~ by Tom Rosenthal

Called out, to you alone. What made you? Maybe you know. Oh life, let it all go. How do we get to the sky?

As much as Robbie hated to admit it, Daisy and he were quite the same. Life had both made them into someone else, someone lonely. Their only wish was to leave their past behind and fill the emptiness their grief had left.

It’s Ok ~ by Tom Rosenthal

It's okay I know someday I'm gonna be with you

They had chased ghosts, they had been chased by angry Russian robots, they had been separated by different dimensions, though they still knew they’d find their way back to each other.

Waves ~ by Dean Lewis

But there is a light In the dark And I feel its warmth In my hands In my heart Why can't I hold on

It was cold. Even with the flames of the Rider warming him, the cold of this dimension crept inside his bones. It was dark. The Rider knew where he went, but Robbie could only watch as he killed his way throughout this dimension. Robbie’s only companion were his thoughts and they often conjured her face in his mind. In those moments, Robbie could see light in the darkness and his body filled with warmth, but her face soon disappeared and Robbie was left alone again in this hell dimension.

10 am, Gare Du Nord ~ by Keaton Henson

And please do not hurt me, love, I am a fragile one, and you are the light in my eyes Please do not break my heart, I think it's had enough pain to last the rest of my life

They were careful with each other. They both knew of all the pain and grief the other had been through and they didn’t want to cause more. Their conversations were soft and their touches were brief, as if they would break the other if they made a wrong move. Daisy and Robbie took their time with each other and slowly they fell in love, knowing the other would never hurt them.

10,000 Miles ~ by Sleeping At Last

Fare thee well My own true love Farewell for a while I'm going away But I'll be back Though I go 10, 000 miles

Daisy had no idea where he was. She didn’t even have a clue if the distance between dimensions was measurable, or even existent. Daisy didn’t know which dimension he had walked into, nor wasn’t she even sure of how long he would be gone. One thing she did know, he’d come back, no matter how far he was. He had promised.

AND MUCH MORE (For which I may write some fics about in the future, if I have the courage and/or inspiration)

I Shall Rise ~ by Karen O

And I shall rise, oh well I shall rise Again and again

You Were A Kindness ~ by The National

You were a kindness when I was a stranger But I wouldn't ask for what I didn't need Everything's weird and we're always in danger Why would you shatter somebody like me

Fire In My Bones ~ by Fleurie

Fire in my bones quakes, bending but it won’t break

Walk Through The Fire ~ by Zayde Wolf and Ruelle

There's no way to go, no way to go But straight through the smoke, straight through the smoke And the fight is all we know The fight is all we know

Gasoline ~ by Halsey

Well my heart is gold, and my hands are cold

I’ll See You Again ~ Wolf Saga

And I know we’ll meet up And I’ll see you again

Dark Doo Wop ~ by MS MR

The earth breaks, it falls and save your beat I'd find myself swallowed, drowning in your heat As long as we're going down... Baby you should stick around

War Of Hearts ~ by Ruelle

I can't help but love you Even though I try not to I can't help but want you I know that I'd die without you

Shake It Out ~ by Florence + The Machine

And I am done with my graceless heart So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart 'Cause I like to keep my issues drawn It's always darkest before the dawn

Smokestacks ~ by Layla

You got a downtown fire, like a shot in the dark You got a mad beamin' on you and a hot wide-eyed spark I got a body of wonder and an emerald mind I'm on a luminous heavy to put gold in my eyes

Young God ~ by Halsey

But do you feel like a young god? You know the two of us are just young gods And we'll be flying through the streets with the people underneath And they're running, running, running

This has been in my drafts for a while now, ‘cause this was much more difficult than I had thought lol

I know a lot of fics are kind of the same, but that’s because the songs almost always make me think of that last damn moment were he looks back at her before leaving through the portal!!!

Let me know what you think of it! Hate it? Love it? Which one was your favourite (I’m curious) ?

[cloveroctobers]

Music shuffle playlist.

Rules: The first 14 songs you shuffle on your playlist sets the mood for how your 2018 will be.

1. Mali Music - My Life | “You know we spend a whole lot time

Thinking we living when we dead inside

We telling people what we see

Telling people what he heard

But they're just lies.” — PREACH

2. James TW - Naked | “What you done my cruel lover, You run these sheets we're under

You stripped me of my armor

You slipped and I blew your cover

You hesitated

You had a secret

My lips could taste it

Cause when you kissed me wasted

You left me naked.” — Is this some foreshadowing for me actually opening up to someone else just to get fucked over again? I think not.

3. ZAYN - BLUE | “I need somebody to love me blue.” — see I’m really not trying to be depressed this year. I’m trying to get my shit together and not like anybody ruin me especially with love. Although I’ve been single all 21 Years of life.

4. The Weeknd - False Alarm | “Six inch long, 'bout three inch wide (she loves)

Dolla, dolla bill is her only type (she loves)

You love her but you'll never be (she loves)...

You love her, but you'll never be (she loves)

Enough, enough

The one, the one — this song always reminds me of the good old 80’s. It just sets me in the mood for night time adventuring. It’s also when I really come alive too. I take on a whole new persona and feel different. Maybe it has to do with the fact that I was born at midnight. Anyways the last line to be translates personally to me: anyone that finds “interest” in me it’s usually never reciprocated on my part. Maybe it has to do with me being rejected in high school and glowing up where my standards are so high. Sure this song talks about materialism and I don’t think I’m that materialistic but I believe my inner persona maybe if that makes sense. Such as I see her as the extrovert part of me, the bold, the wild, red lipstick, striking Smokey eyes, in a 60s interior styled penthouse party dressed in gold velvet catching the eyes of all who want my attention.

5. Grace VanderWaal - Darkness keeps chasing me | “Every now and then

The darkness tries to chase me

And my legs are getting tired of running

Oh, please don't

Please don't let it get to me

Oh, I don't wanna give up that easily

But the darkness keeps chasing me, me.” — she sounds like bea Miller so much to me, except her voice is a little lighter! Anyways it seems like I’ll be feeling the blues a little bit this year. I’m not ready for that.

6. MiC LOWRY - 2 U interlude | “I keep my phone face down, you come around

Nothing to hide from you, give all my time to you

Love when you lie face down, such a pretty sound

You let me inside of you

Give all my time to you” — I love them so much no one has any idea. But does this mean I’ll actually find love this year? Lol.

7. Majid Jordan - Shake Shake Shake | “I really think she needs someone like me

To take her out for a quick two-step

Something that she ain't seen yet

I really wanna be her man

Someone who understands, someone who understands...” — this is one of my fav Majid Jordan songs and feels so 80s. Does this mean I’m actually going to the club this year? Will I find a cutie to dance with cause I’m down? Lmao.

8. Fifth Harmony - Make You Mad | “No other like me, yeah, baby, you'll see

Won't ya come my way?

I'll lock ya down and I'll throw out the key

Won't ya come my way?

I'm gonna make you miss me

I'm gonna make you go mad

I’m gonna make sure I’m the best you ever had (No).” — I’m good for doing this either way lol.

9. Young the giant - Amerika | “... With gold in my eyes

Are you paying attention?

I was searching for something

As I watched you run

I was sad when you said that you never really wanted some

Were you looking for someone?

As I watched you go

I am mad because I don't know what you used me for.” — America land of the free right? I’m seriously ready to move to Canada.

10. Raleigh Ritchie - The Greatest | “We'll be dancing forever, we don't know any better

We're lazy, whatever, at least we stick together

We're the greatest, I mean it, we'll never be defeated

You can take us or leave us, we don't care if you believe us, leave us

One drink, two drink, we're young, we're stupid

Who the fuck knows what they're doing?

Life is boring, and we can barely afford it.” — I’m living how I choose...no one can tell me how. I’m still figuring it out.

11. Bad Suns - Salt | “Look in the mirror and tell me

What it is like to be free

How do I grasp reality

When I don't have an identity?

Who, who can I look to?

Cause I'm not like you, you.” — I always felt like I was different from everybody else.

12. London Grammar - Strong (US radio edit) | “Excuse me for a while

While I'm wide-eyed

And I'm so down caught in the middle

I've excused you for a while

While I'm wide-eyed

And I'm so down caught in the middle

And a lion, a lion, roars would you not listen?

If a child, a child cries would you not forgive them?

Yeah, I might seem so strong.” — I remember the first time I discovered this band. My eyes are pretty wide when I’m not laughing but this song basically means to me that I’m used to appearing so strong by remaining silent when I’m really losing my shit unbeknownst to others. I want to be in a healthy mental state this year but I’m unsure but I know I’m human and will have my moments.

13. Sza - Go Gina | “I've been on the low key grinding

(Grinding, grinding, grinding)

Learning on the low key, shining

Tryin' to keep to myself

But you bring me out of character

Every time again.” — that’s what I’ve been doing as of 2017 keeping to myself especially from my friends. Whose gonna bring me out of that this year?

14. Jay Park - Me like Yuh | — lol since I hit text limit all I can do is laugh. Another song about me being in the club?