#I’m having a blast with the btob guys

[loveisonlyforthebrave8]

Me: having an outer-body experience over the mayfly vocal performance

While these two are just:

Do I….stan BTOB now?

[honeyjaez]

Y’all ready for my shitty opinion on the Introduction Kingdom performances that literally no one asked for?

I preface this by saying I love every single group equally and each of these groups (with the sad exception of iKON) I am a hard core fan of. But I also love practicing thinking subjectively and I pride myself on not being too biased when it comes to performances and Kpop, like I know how to understand sometimes my ult might not be the best vocally or whatnot. I like being unbiased with this. So without further ado.

This is not based on scores already known, just my own thoughts.

(And also like these ranking do not reflect my love for a group or if I think they are untalented because all these groups are so massively talented. but rankings have to happen right?  Like someones gotta be last but i don’t love them any less lol) 

6. Stray Kids (and this hurts as a Stray Kids Ult)

A group that I think really hurt with forced to having to perform the song that they did. (Their only other option was Back Door or levanter but it doesn’t really hit the same as Miroh so I understand why they chose it). The song is still my favorite title track by them (Also Im such a hoe for center Minho like....), but it’s SUCH a hard song to perform live. I remember all the issues they had during the era and still saw a lot of that here, more specifically with the insane rap parts. Its just not something easily done live (I say this like I know how to rap) but it doesn’t take a lot to realize that Changbin’s rap is so insanely fast (which props to him) that it can still be difficult for him. Also I think the backtrack of the song really hindered the performance. It was just too loud. Like you know those performances when you can really tell a group has some relying on the backtrack and others don’t? I have nothing wrong with lip synching, honestly, I could care less by it because I understand they are doing so much movement on stage that I couldn’t understand how to do both. But it takes away from the performance when you hear the difference in members performing live and those who are relying a bit more on it. Stray Kids are AMAZING performers and CAN sing/rap live. It was very cool though I guess with props but it was like they were trying to distract people from the lack of performance. I just think that having to perform Miroh (I know they didn’t get to pick really) was their downfall to me. But the outfits were cool! Regardless, they are still #1 in my heart and I look forward to the other performances!!!  But with more Seungmin!!!!!

6. ATEEZ

Next to The Boyz, I am most excited about seeing ATEEZ on Kingdom. One because Korea seriously needs to stop sleeping on them, but two because they are such intense and talented performers.  True to form they came in crashing! Unfortunately, the only reason they are so low is that there wasn’t anything that really made them stand out from the others to me. I do appreciate the classic ATEEZ intensity (but like also Hongjoong please don’t be all serious and death stare while suddenly saying Hakuna Matata, I couldn’t take it seriously). But the VOCALS win most intense which sells towards their performance. I appreciated Ateez so much for their intense singing (looking at you Seonghwa and Jongho). I do think that having to perform Wave didn’t really help them. (From my understanding is that MNET told them they had to perform a song that placed #1 which for them was only Wave, or Inception  which they already performed at MAMAs (we did Wonderland so dirty)) Not that I hate Wave (its actually my favorite title track by them) and I did enjoy the composition of this new darker Wave, but could you imagine if they had come in swinging with Pirate King or Wonderland? Hell fucking yes. Regardless, looking forward to see how they grow as the youngest group on there! I have nothing but high hopes for them!

4. SF9 

Now You guys know how much I love SF9. They are practically an unofficial ult group for me. But this is not based off song because I actually can’t stand Good Guy (I overplayed it when it came out and now I hate it (not really but ya know) ) I remember people saying SF9′s performance wasn’t really memorable, but I didn’t see that. I saw an idol group coming out for the first time to prove something and actually shocking me with how intense they were. They really looked like Gang Members (handsome ones at that) ready to rule the world with their performance. Their looks and their dancing was great. I love SF9 and they haven’t had a lot of opportunities to showcase their talents like this so I look forward to how they shock the other group (also if they don’t do the wheel from K.O in a single performance I will riot) but all in all I think this was a solid performance by them! I laughed at the beginning with Inseong holding the crystal diamond because I couldn’t help but think back to tbz and the crown on rtk. I hope they also do story driven performances on here because I haven’t seen that from them before and I think it would be great!

3. BTOB

Can I just say I appreciate the fact that they are staying true to their vocal roots? So much Kpop these days is intense and in your face with everything, and I worried about a vocally driving group like BTOB being on this program because they’ve never been about the choreography (though I’ll be your man was lit) but just like how everyone reacted, BTOB focusing on their vocals rather than dance was such a breath of fresh air in this round. They really are vocal kings in KPop and the chills that some of those idols felt were so important. Like Wooyoung said after their performance “Vocals are so powerful” (or something like that) and I sometimes feel that people forget that. Intense dancing is great and all, but to wow people with just your voice like they did is a feat not every group can do. The  acapella was such a nice tough too. Beautiful Pain is such a beautiful song (ha) and the remix they did for it was just so nice. My only complaint is that we didn’t get enough Minhyuk vocals :(((((

2. The Boyz

Aight, people might accuse me of being biased based on how whipped I was for The Boyz back during RTK, but I’m really not. Like the other groups agreed on, you can tell The Boyz were on RTK. You can tell they have been through a program like this and they came in swinging. They have a lot of pressure on them after the wonderful performances on RTK and I think the opening performance they did didn’t disappoint. They are such good storytellers when it comes to performances (something Ateez is also really good at as well). They just get you immersed in their performances and thats something unique to certain groups. They were just meant to perform. Regardless of scores, The Boyz are proving to be fierce competitor from the get go and not to name names, but Sunwoo is such an amazing rapper live like holy shit. He needs more credit. RTK was amazing for them and I am sure Kingdom will be just that as well!

1. iKON

God I hope Kingdom will turn me from a casual fan to a hardcore ikonic. What I loved about iKON’s performance is a lot like BTOB’s or even SF9′s. There was a sense of branding, like this style was their’s and theirs alone. Also their performance brought so many smiling and happy faces to the crowd. A lot of younger groups look up to iKON and you even heard how many idols there and evaluations to their songs or what not. They just had so much fun on stage and that reflected on the audience who in turn also had a blast. I wasn’t sure how I would feel watching them since out of all the groups I’m least attached to iKON, but just with that causal, fun, but intense performance of rytham-ta one could easily see them as Kings already.  I didn’t notice any thing out of place because I was just enjoying the performance completely. And to me, thats the most important part of a performance.

Again, these were just my opinions on this introduction stage. I’d love to hear your thoughts on the performances. Your rankings, and who you look forward to see more from! We will have a fun time with Kingdom on my blog! <3 :3

I look forward to future rounds and what other groups have to offer!

[killingmebtob]

Vindictive: Ruins and Dead Ends [Part One]

Collaboration between Chi and Sara

Author: @killingmebtob // Sara

Title: Vindictive: Ruins and Dead Ends

Characters: BTOB and Reader B

Summary: There’s always a reason behind each and every action but how far can a reason justify ones actions?

Author’s Note: Hello! We’re back with another collab. A lot of people have been asking for a crime fiction so here we are. I hope that you will like it. Please do remember that the reader in this story is different from the reader in Chi’s story. Hence, Reader A and Reader B. :)

Part One || Part Two

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Cold, I couldn’t help but shiver as I ducked my head while walking down a dimly lit basement hallway. I was trying to be as inconspicuous as possible, even going as far as wearing the facility’s standard uniform, but I felt like I wasn’t blending in properly with the hood on my head. It seemed like a long walk from the elevator to the end of the hall. Finally, I got to the room where I needed to be without being stopped or questioned by anyone.

“Gia, of all the places we could meet…,” I huffed, pushing off the hood as I looked at the woman standing in the room with her arms crossed. I watched the lady, who was the same age as me, as she rolled her eyes while the corner of her lips pulled up into a smirk. “You just had to call me to the morgue,”

My eyes wandered the dimly lit room. There was a metal table in the center along with medical equipment. Metal cabinets lined one of the walls of the morgue—the place where they preserve the bodies to be as fresh as possible.

“Are you really complaining though?” She challenged, shifting her weight from one foot to the other.

“Nope, not at all,” I quickly stated, rushing towards where she stood. “What did you want to show me?”

The woman stepped to the side to open the door that was behind her. It was almost like watching an episode of a crime television show. A blast of cold air swept across the room as a puff of white fog came out. She had pulled out the sliding metal tray at the same time. Once the smoke disappeared, my eyes were set on a discolored body.

“You’ve always been complaining about not being able to see the body,” she stated as we both stared at the corpse. “I think that it’s about time that you see it now,”

I looked at her suspiciously. “Why? What’s with the sudden change? I’m not complaining but the photos you sent me of the previous corpses are fine,”

“I’ve thought about this a lot ever since the last two or three incidents,” she sighed while handing me a pair of latex gloves to use. I was screaming with anticipation inside because I’d be touching the actual corpse. However, I patiently waited for her to tell me her reason. “For you to be able to truly help him, I think you need to see and study the actual bodies. Some of the bodies are gone, especially the ones from years ago. We just have to make do with what we have now. Let’s start with the latest one,”

//

“Good morning, beautiful,”

I almost tripped on my own foot when the greeting came out of nowhere while I was stepping out of my apartment. I quickly looked at who it was. My knees almost gave up on me when I saw the amused grin on his face as he leaned against the opposite concrete wall. Geez, I inwardly sighed. Three years and you still get weak on the knees every single time, I scolded myself.

“You’re here early,” I commented, trying to redeem my dignity and making it seem like I was unaffected while locking up my home.

“Well,” his voice sounded closer. “I was thinking that we could go and grab breakfast before work. Knowing you, you’d head straight to your office to start working and then you’d forget that the last proper meal you ate was from last night,”

Last night.

A wave of guilt washed over me as I remembered studying a handful of corpses with similar lacerations on their shoulders and wrecked Achilles tendons until the early hours of the morning. The bag hanging on my shoulder felt heavier when I recalled that the profiles and photos of the bodies were in it. I had to push those feelings away while reminding myself of the reason why I was in the morgue in the first place.

“You’re not denying it,” he said and grabbed my shoulders to gently turn me around. Thankfully, I managed to erase the guilt that was probably showing on my face the moment that I faced him. “Stop skipping your meals,” he emphasized each word while pulling at my cheeks.

“Minhyuk,” I whined, swatting his hands away. “Okay. Okay. I’ll try my best not to,”

“That’s good enough for me,” he sighed while one of his hands held mine. I couldn’t help but smile at the warm feeling. I gently squeezed his hand, reassuring him that he doesn’t have to worry about me. He has a lot on his shoulders, I don’t want to be another burden.

As we settled ourselves in his car, I carefully asked, “How’s the case going? It’s been exactly a week since the retrieval of the body at the pier.”

Minhyuk heavily exhaled as he started the car. “It’s also been a week since I saw you trying to sneak inside the closed area of the pier,” he countered.

“I just want to help,” I mumbled, taking a quick glance at him. “You’ve been following this guy who seeks out his own version of justice for five years,”

“I know but it’s my job. As much as I appreciate your willingness to help, I don’t want you getting even more involved,” he stated with a certain finality and harshness in his tone. I would’ve pushed more but judging the deep frown on his lips, I knew that it wouldn’t end well. “That time at the pier is the last time I’m going to bend the rules a bit for you,”

I deeply exhaled as I recalled that last Wednesday, the midday television news revealed that a body was retrieved at the pier. The reason why I rushed to the area was because of their headline, ‘The Reaper Strikes Again?’.

“Okay,” I whispered. In my head, however, I was thinking of ways on how I could sneak inside future crime scenes related to the vigilante who has been dubbed by society as the Reaper.

Minhyuk heavily sighed, obviously disliking the atmosphere that had settled around us. “I don’t know what this guy can do, especially now that it seems like he’s straying away from his pattern. I just don’t want you to get caught in the middle of things,” he tried to explain his side as calmly as possible while he reached for my hand.

“I know, I know. I’m sorry,”

I’m sorry because I’m not stopping, I wanted to tell him.

“Enough about the Reaper. I want to spend this time thinking and talking about us and not that vigilante,”

His words managed to make my cheeks turn red as I nodded, “Okay. Let’s talk about us then. Should we plan a weekend getaway somewhere soon?”

The rest of the morning we spent together was lighter and made me feel like we were in our own little bubble that’s away from the mess that is called Sunshine City. The crispy waffles drizzled with maple syrup and the aroma of freshly brewed coffee definitely added to making the morning great. As we ate and laughed, the guilt inside my chest disappeared for a moment.

“I missed you,” I blurted out, causing him to look at me in surprise. I almost laughed because he was in the middle of taking a bite.

“What?” He chuckled. “We see each other almost every day,”

“I know,” I bit down on my lip, suddenly feeling shy at the sudden declaration. “I meant I missed this side of you. I miss seeing that carefree smile on your face. I miss having these kinds of dates with you. I often see you looking tired so it’s refreshing to see you like this,”

“Ahh,” Minhyuk shook his head, a smile trying to break on his lips. I could also see a hint of red on his cheeks. “I wasn’t prepared for that. My heart is racing,” he chuckled.

“Shut up,” I scrunched my nose, truly feeling shy at this point. “Just keep on eating your waffle,”

He wouldn’t stop teasing me after that. Even when he was driving me to work, he would keep on imitating what I said. Still, I knew it made him happy. At least it was a good way for him to start his work day. Who knows how stressful the investigations would be.

“Do you want me to pick you up after work?” He called out through the open window after I got off his car.

“You don’t have to. I can go on my own later,” I leaned down a bit so that I could still see him. Like a little kid, he pouted. I wasn’t able to stop myself from laughing. “You’ll just get caught in traffic if you pick me up, okay? So, it’s fine,”

“Okay,” he mumbled. Just as I was about to say something, my attention was caught by someone who was calling my name.

I stood a little straighter and I also noticed Minhyuk moving a bit so that he could see who it was. A small smile graced my lips as the person walked over to where I stood.

“Oh, Peniel. You’re early,” I commended.

“I need to make a good impression at work,” he lightly chuckled, a sheepish grin on his lips.

“Ah. Minhyuk. This is the person I was telling you about. He’s the new photographer in the office that the chief assigned as my partner,” I told him while pointing to Peniel. “Peniel, this is my boyfriend, Minhyuk,”

I smiled to myself as the two of them nodded at each other but I didn’t miss the hard gaze Minhyuk gave. I wanted to roll my eyes at him, thinking that he was being too protective and territorial. Meanwhile, Peniel was just smiling kindly at him as he greeted Minhyuk.

“I’ll go on inside,” Peniel said before leaving.

“Did you really have to glare at him?”

“I did not,” Minhyuk huffed in defense.

I snickered. “Oh sure, you didn’t. Okay Mister I-Did-Not-Glare-At-Him, you need to go or else you’ll be late,”

//

The day went by quickly. Soon enough, I was seated alone at my cubicle in the office with a pack of biscuits and some of the files splayed out on my desk. I was contemplating on a detail that Gia and I noticed while we were studying the corpses and their autopsy reports.

“You said that a slit on the throat would cause the victim to gasp for air. That’s why there were traces of the Pheasant’s Eye inside their throats, just like this one, because the flowers were stuffed in his mouth while he was still breathing,” I pointed to the victim from a month ago.

“You’re really interested in that vigilante case,” a voice from behind caused me to jolt on my place, cutting my line of thought.

I whipped my head around only to see Peniel leaning over my shoulder, his eyes trained on the x-ray photos of the throats of two corpses on my desk. Immediately, I slammed the folder closed as I forced a smile on my lips.

“You’ve finished your lunch?” I asked, avoiding answering his statement.

The man nodded as he settled on his cubicle to my left. “You’re only eating a pack of biscuits?”

I nodded. I was itching to open the file again but I couldn’t because someone else was here. “So, how’s Sunshine City been treating you?” I continued to direct his mind away from what he saw. “It’s been almost a week since you’ve started working here,”

Peniel was introduced to me as my temporary partner during the early morning of Friday last week. He’s a foreigner who came all the way from Chicago to look for a new opportunity to put his photography skills to the test. It seemed like the rugged charm of Sunshine City drew him to the area.

“So far, it’s been good,” he slightly smiled. “It’s interesting how the inner workings of Sunshine City are quite far from its name,”

I chuckled, agreeing with him. Sunshine City, despite its given name, is home to numerous crimes—both petty and heinous ones.

“Well, it has its good points too,” I commented. “It’s all a matter of how you look at it,”

A small smirk graced his lips for a moment. It was almost unnoticeable. “It’s only been a few weeks since I’ve transferred here and I feel like I’ll enjoy working here. The good and the bad in the city makes it even more enticing to an outsider,”

“I’m glad that you think that way,” I mused. “But I hope you don’t enjoy too much that you forget that we have work to do, like covering the bilateral negotiations that will be happening tomorrow morning,” I reminded him, feeling a bit relieved that I managed to somehow pull his thoughts away from what I was looking at.

“Of course. It’s my first assignment. I need to do well,”

“Good. I hope you always keep that mindset with you,”

We spent the rest of our work hours preparing questions for the press conference after I gave him a briefing of what the negotiations would be about. Not once did he bring up the topic of the vigilante, which I was extremely grateful for.

I headed straight home after work to prepare for tomorrow. For sure, it’d be a long day for us both so I wanted to get as much rest as possible. Thankfully, the commute home wasn’t as tedious like other days. As I was walking down the hallway to my apartment, I suddenly wondered about how my neighbor was doing. It’s been a while since I’ve seen her at the pier. I’ve been wanting to ask her if she was successful in sneaking in but I haven’t had the chance to talk to her since then.

Maybe next time, I thought to myself as I went inside my home. A sigh of relief escaped my lips once I was inside. As much as I wanted to go over the folder of autopsy reports in my bag, I knew I had to set it aside for another day. Even if I yearned to help Minhyuk in my own way, I also have other responsibilities of my own that I have to prioritize if I wanted to have a roof above my head.

Just as I was about to call it a night, my phone lit up before it started to ring. I almost ignored it but when I saw who it was, I quickly sat up and answered,

“Hello,”

“Hey. I just wanted to check up on you,” Minhyuk’s voice came from the phone. “Are you home?”

“Yeah. Are you at the hospital?” I questioned and he made a sound of affirmation. “Sorry I couldn’t drop by to see your mom. I wanted to get some rest for tomorrow,”

“It’s fine. You don’t have to drop by the hospital every day,” he reminded.

“I know but you’re not the only one worried about her,” I responded. “How is she? Any progress?”

His deep sigh rang in my ear and I knew what it meant. “She’s still the same as yesterday. The doctors still have no idea when or if she’s going to wake up,”

“Oh. I see,” I uttered. “Will you be staying there for the night?”

“No, I’m leaving in a bit. I have some more work to attend to. I just wanted to check on mom,” he explained. Despite his voice being distorted a bit by the phone, I could hear how tired he was. My mouth dropped into a frown.

“At this hour?” I mumbled. “Can’t it wait until tomorrow? You need to rest too,”

“I can’t. It’s about the case. Something came up,” Minhyuk vaguely responded.

“Oh,”

Once again, he sighed. “Don’t worry. I’ll head home right after, okay? Well, I don’t want to keep you up any longer,”

“Okay. Send me a message when you get home,”

“I will. Sleep well. I’ll try to see you tomorrow after work,”

“I’d rather that you rest after your work,” I told him.

He chuckled. “I get energized when I see you though. Is that counted as resting?”

“Geez,” I shook my head. “Anyway. I’ll go ahead,”

“Good night,” Minhyuk lowly yet sweetly spoke. I almost shivered.

“Take care and good night,”

“Love you,”

I made a weird noise akin to a hum that was mixed with a squeal that was being held in. It made him laugh. He knew that he managed to make me giddy once again. Shyly, I returned the same words to him.

“Cute,” he mused. “Okay. I’ll let you go to bed. Bye,”

The moment he dropped the call, I fell back on the bed with a goofy smile on my lips. Part of me still couldn’t believe that someone like him took an interest on me. I chuckled as I remembered the first time we met. He scolded me for snooping around a crime scene. It wasn’t like I had a choice. It was what the chief assigned for me to write so I had to do my work.

With one last chuckle, I closed my eyes with a smile on my lips. Not a second later, my phone beeped shortly, signaling that a message came in. Thinking that it was some follow-up message from Minhyuk, I quickly brought my phone in front of my face.

I had to keep on reading the words on the screen repeatedly as I slowly sat up. I could feel beads of sweat dotting my forehead.

We’ve just confirmed ID of the body. His name is Damien Dee.

[honestsungjae-blog]

An Open Letter to BTOB to Celebrate 5 Years

My dearest BTOB,

It’s crazy to think that we made it here, 5 years of BTOB. Today is a very special day; the day that has ruined my life; the day that BTOB was debut. March 21th 2012. In those 5 years all of you, Eunkwang, Minhyuk, Changsub, Hyunsik, Peniel, Ilhoon, and Sungjae managed to take the world by storm. It’s crazy to think just how much these boys have accomplished, and how many lives they have changed, saved, and touched. Notes, I would and will proudly choose the person in the bottom. The person who fell into the pressure of millions watching his every step. The person who’s feelings were overlooked. The person who’s passion for music has allowed him to make REAL music, touching music, relatable music, music that has helped many included myself. The person who fell and can say he got back on his feet. The person who took and takes responsibility for his actions. The person who sat on the dirty floor with fans and talked to them for a while. The person who stops for his fans even when he’s tired. The person who doesn’t forget where he came from. The person who loves God and Christ. The kind hearted, imperfect, human being who’s love is stronger than anyone trying to break them. Yes I choose them. I have no regrets on loving them and up to this day, being by their side is still the best decision I’ve ever made.

 In the past, parents assume that the internet brings many negative effects and do not really give a change in my life. But once i got into this fandom, i got a lot of friends, got a valuable lesson, cheerfulness, and i know them hehehe. So, i’m very grateful at BTOB already giving me a second family. So when i first ever discovered BTOB, the first song i listened to from their was insane and i was obsessed and begged dad to let me buy it on melon and i had it on repeat on my little ipod shuffle and i spent like the whole day googling them and stuff, and then the next day whilst we were eating dinner, i was like to my parents “i need to tell you something” and they were like “what”? and i was like “i think i love btob” IT WAS THE FUNNIEST FUCKING THING like it had been 1 day since i discovered them lmao every time i think about it i can’t stop laughing. Once you guys hit korea I was hooked, I would spend hours upon hours watching all of the video diaries, any interview you did, and instantly followed you on social media to keep up with your individual lives. For the 5th years anniversary, here are my 6 of the many reasons to thank BTOB.

1. Thank you for always being there

You guys have always been there since the beginning, showing us fans nothing but love and support as we have shown for you. When you guys came about I was just starting school and its safe to say that I would not have made it without you. I plastered your faces to my wall in every class room, blasted your music whenever it wasn’t quiet hours, and leaned on you guys whenever an assignment presented an opportunity to be about you. You were there through every study session, every emotional breakdown, every pregame, and every spontaneous dance party. You provided that escape from reality that I desperately needed when life got to be a little too much. Your lyrics define that time in my life and continue to define it as I make my way into the real world. You aided in my procrastination, you helped me when my grandfather and cousin passed away, and you motivated me to complete my assignments. Your songs were always there and your love for us fans made me feel like I was never alone. With you there was always something to look forward to, one of the reasons I kept on going and never gave up. You were always that light at the end of the tunnel every semester knowing I had tickets to your tour, knowing new music would be coming out, and knowing that through it all you never forgot about the people that helped get you there. When I look back at those years, your presence is so strong. I remember all the times I watched you win awards and you gave us fans a massive thank you. I remember having the worst week of my life and the shining moment was that I would be able to go see music champion that weekend. I remember listening to your albums any time I felt overwhelmed and uncertain about the future. I remember holding on so tight to the lyrics that related to my life at the time. You have always been there, whether it be physically, emotionally or musically, you never gave up on us. Even to this day with the insane, you are still there. Every now and then you acknowledge us and let us know everything is going to be okay. All of the rumors, and all of the fights, but we always find a way to make it out alive. We are going strong and we are holding on. You even released an album before you took our break which has meant so much to us. That album gives me so much reassurance that this truly is not the end and that you will continue to always be there. Just know you have never let us down. When obstacles arose you came out of them stronger than ever, you never once made us feel abandoned or alone and I could never thank you enough for that.

2. Thank you for making me feel a part of something bigger than myself

The best part about being a fan of BTOB is that there are so many others. The Fandom. I’m sure you guys have a lot to say about this fandom. We have our cringe moments but overall it’s nothing but so much love for you. I hope you realize just how many friendships have been created out of mutual love for you. Fan accounts becoming friends with other fan accounts, long distance friendships being reunited to see you in concert, the list is endless. This fandom has truly made me so happy. It’s so much fun to celebrate your successes together, live tweet about all of your concerts, freak out when you drop music out of nowhere, share pictures, talk about issues, share our opinions, and overall just to have a community that feels the same way you do. Being a fan sometimes makes you feel a bit crazy, especially when there are so many people who have to be so vocal about fangirls and how they need to grow up and its a waste of time. Having a community to go to, that are going through life just like you, that like the same things you do, that genuinely care about your life outside the fandom, is one of the best things in the world. Being a part of the BTOB fandom has been nothing but rewarding. When we band together to make sure you win the awards you deserve to win, when we break records on Youtube, on melon etc, and even turn a song we love into a single, its all because we have this desire to see you succeed. We can never thank you enough for what you have done for our lives and we try to help out in any way that we can. I have made some amazing friends being a part of this fandom and its an unbreakable bond I share with so many others. You guys have truly made such an impact on our social lives and I hope amidst all the success you see how many lives you have individually changed for the better. It was all you, you have that power and you are the driving force behind it all.

3. Thank you for encouraging me to follow my dreams

It all started with a dream didn’t it? All seven of you wanted to share your talent with the world and become a music superstar. What would have happened if you decided you weren’t good enough and didn’t even try to audition? It’s thoughts like these that motivate me and inspire me. There are days I don’t want to get out of bed, days I don’t want to leave my house, but you inspire me. I think of how you went after your dream, took a chance, took a risk, and how it paid off. I see how you all embrace life and decide not to let it pass me by. I force myself out of bed with the thought of what opportunities could I miss if I just hide away all day. My dream was to graduate college and my dream continues as I go for my CPA. When I feel like giving up, I’m going to think about how much work you guys put it in, how you went for what you wanted, how you were fearless and how it paid off. My dream is also to be involved in the media world, to spread good media and not make up rumors for views and whatnot. For that reason I created this tumblr, its a way of going after my dream but still being realistic career wise. It all started with a dream and amassed to this crazy adventure, and in a way I hope my life will follow the same suit.

4. Thank you for being my inspirations

You inspire me. It may seem like such an simple sentence, but it holds so much weight and meaning. You inspire me as individuals as I watch you make choices with your lives and see how I can learn from them, grow from them, and better from them.

Changsub, you are so fearless and you don’t care what people think. You are fearless in the way you carry yourself, in the way you dress, and in the things you do. You wear what you want to wear without a care, and in the process you became a fashion icon. I love using you as inspiration in my wardrobe and taking risks. You inspire me because you are such a loving and caring person. I always hear how nice you are to fans, to crew members, to strangers, to just about everyone. You are such a kind and gentle soul as you go out of your way for the people you meet, do all you can to use your platform to make a difference in the world, and radiate so much joy. You have given me so much happiness, you make me laugh, and most importantly, you always make me smile. You’re a man with a heart of gold and boots to match.You inspire me to do what makes me happy and live my life for me. You’re off filming a movie because it’s something you want to do. You never comment on the hate, the rumors, and you live as private as a life as you can. For that I respect you and encourage you to just keep being yourself.

Hyunsik, as the one of the oldest of BTOB, you taught me how to adult. When life threw you a curve ball, you more than stepped up the plate. You now have the most beautiful baby boy. you have such a big heart. You are an amazing person. Most of all you inspire me to never take life too seriously. You always find ways to amuse yourself, to amuse others and always remain a kid at heart. Lets pray we stay young stay made of lightning. I know we both don’t want to ever grow up, and you have shown me that you can be responsible but always have fun with it.

Sungjae, you are a ball of sunshine, you make my days the brightest and its all because of your carefree attitude. You have shown me that a day without laughter is a day wasted. Your laugh is infectious and always makes me laugh while throwing away all my worries and troubles. You live your life to have fun, and that is so inspirational to me. You inspire me to live my life to the fullest while also not being ashamed of my lazy days. You are my spirit animal. You care so much for us and it inspires me to really reach out to the people that mean the most to me. You always want to see what we are up to and even wish you could talk to all of us. You appreciate our humor and truly just enjoy this wild ride. I am a natural born worrier and seeing how you approach life has inspired me to take a step back and think about how important the things I worry about are. Sungjae you are a ray of light and laughter and I know you will always have fun with all that you do. You have taught me to follow my passion as you have created your own golf management organization. You do what you want to do and have no shame and for that I thank you.

Eunkwang, you are a natural born leader, you also aren’t afraid of the tough stuff in life. When interviews ask the hard hitting questions, you are always prepared with a diplomatic answer that leaves the fans feeling reassured and stress free. I’ve seen you grow from the sensible young boy to the confident young man that you are today. You have managed to let your guard down and really just embrace life for what it is. You have always been so appreciative and humble and you inspire me to stay grounded. You don’t take anything for granted. You have also taught me that it’s okay to be the responsible one sometimes. You are also so loveable and I don’t think there is a single mean bone in your body. You have managed to navigate your way through the hate and have such a strong moral compass. The world would be a nicer place if everyone acted even just a smidgen like you.

Ilhon, you brings a breath of fresh air to the world of fashion. He’s not your average guy wearing t-shirts and jeans everyday, instead he tries on the most unusual statement pieces, loud prints, shiniest boots, and pulls them all off flawlessly. Just like its no secret that I’m obsessed with ilhon, its no secret that I am also obsessed with his wardrobe. He’s constantly confusing and confounding not only me, but the whole world as he captivates us with his bold fashion sense leaving us hanging on his every spotting. Ilhoon’s fashion sense is always something that grabbed my attention. I have found myself buying items of clothes inspired by his looks and also being inspired by his fearlessness and confidence that comes with each and every new outfit.

Peniel, is one of the kindest, funniest, sweetest, and just down right adorable human to walk this earth. This year I noticed just how much I was swerving into peniel lane! I mean he has so many different looks and a to die for personality, he’s so unexpected and always keeps you on your toes. He just seems like such a great guy, an overall gentleman with a sense of humor to top it all off. I wish I had a peniel in my life

Minhyuk, minhyuk's personality is my favourite thing in the entire world, he's so sweet and kind but he's also so funny and dorky, I LOVE HIM. He is literally living proof that you can overcome anything no matter how bad it may be and he's so inspiring and amazing my baby :( he's amazingly talented which is why he's inspires me on making music

As a whole you have all inspired me, BTOB doesn’t let anyone bring them down. You guys never give up, you always give back, you stay grounded, you live every day like its your last, and you have given me so much happiness over the years. My favorite lyrics are about embracing your youth and your life. You’ve taught me to live before we get older, do what we like we got nothing to lose, shake off the weight of the world from our shoulders, we got nothing to prove. I know this is not the end. I know I will see your face again.

5. Thank you for being the soundtrack of my life

Your music has been with me for so long now, each and every album outdoing the last. I can define my years through your music. Second confession is a song that will always hold a special place in my heart. I used to blast it from the speakers in my car on the way to work all summer, I used to request it at every single bar I went to. I used to cry to every performance of it at every award show. I smile so big when I hear it in public. That song is part of the soundtrack of my life. Whenever I’m bored I throw on my favorite album New men. I listen to someday the Dark on my worst days and Movie on my best. I remember every single time I heard a new song and exactly where I was. Walking around my campus watching a new music video. Staying up all night to listen to the feel’em listening party. Everything has such a clear memory when it comes to you. Every single song brings me a memory and reminds me of where I was at a certain point in my life. Feel’em is now the soundtrack of my post grad life. It’s extremely relatable and those songs will always make me think about my 20s. Most importantly you gave us way back home, a song to remind us how much you love this band and love your fans. That songs brings me to the happiest tears. These songs hold so much meaning to me and I know for as long as I live I will never forget them. They will always be with me as I navigate through life, providing the perfect soundtrack. I don’t know where I’m going but I’m finding my way, and I know your music will help me along.

6. Thanks for 5 years of memories and many more to come

Thank you thank you thank you thank you. The memories we have made together will live on forever. I’ll never forget my first time seeing you in concert. I remember all the promotional interviews over the years. I remember spending an entire day watching btob day. I remember staying up late to watch champion, finding a link to watch you on the show, watching every single show performance. I’ve been there through it all and you’ve been there with me. I remember going on Twitter and instagram to find out about the tour and watching every single video there was. There are so many more memories I can recall have given me so much happiness and while you have been thanking us, the real thanks goes out to you. THANK YOU for an amazing 5 years, and many many more. I wish you all the best of luck and i will support you in whatever you decide. I’ll support it. I love you all more than you could ever know. You guys deserves all of the success getting right now, you deserves respect & just deserves to be surrounded by positivity constantly. THANK YOU BTOB FOR EVERYTHING!! I CAN’T EVEN PUT IT INTO WORDS!! CHEERS TO 5 YEARS!

THIS IS NOT THE END!

 All the Love,

@honestsungjae

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Song of the Day - March 13, 2017

BTOB - Movie

[C] BTOB will always be a group I follow, their music is usually fun and relaxed and that’s what I love about them. Movie is no exception, the whole music video looks like they are all having fun I love all the different movie references and the song is really catchy. I haven’t stopped playing this whole album since it came out so if for some weird reason you haven’t listened to the mini album yet go do it now. I’m really hoping Cube doesn’t mess with BTOB  either or I’m gonna have to hurt someone.

[T] This is probably my favourite BTOB music video so far. It’s just so fun to watch and I bet they had a blast filming this. I’m not a huge fan of Ilhoon’s parts, but either than that I really like this song. BTOB have always struck me as a bunch of really down-to-earth guys and I think one of these days I’m gonna sit down and watch some variety shows they’ve been on. I also really need to go through their discography. I think I’ve only listened to about half of their releases and that’s unacceptable. It does concern me that they’re under Cube since Cube really hasn’t been doing great lately, but no matter what happens these guys will have my support. P.S. Sungjae looks amazing in this and I want to cry.

[M] I can’t help but see the Cube logo and think of how many different ways they will ruin BTOB along with all their other groups, but my bitterness towards them aside this song has a really great song right from the start. I don’t know if I’ve said this before but I kind of really enjoy the over saturated colours that have been showing up in MVs lately. This song is so fun and I think I might actually download this one because I can see myself listening to Movie over and over again. The video and song have such a high energy I can’t help but love it. I have enjoyed the past BTOB songs we have reviewed and featured on here but this one is by far the one which stands out to me the most. BTOB may have finally won me over with this one. 

[S] BTOB is always a group I struggle with I really like them as people and I bias the heck out of Sungjae but as a kpop group they have never really managed to wow me with their music they have like 3 or so songs that I regularly go back and listen to but I do not like enough of their music to ever consider myself a fan. 

I read what the other girls had to say about this and I was feeling really hopeful that it would appeal to me a lot more then it did. The song is easily forgettable which is what I find to be the case with a lot of BTOB’s songs :( it kind of frustrates me that I am not able to make myself more into their music because I really want to love them even as I write this I have moved on from the movie song and am instead playing those 3 btob songs that I love. Sungjae is looking mighty fine in the mv though <3