#I’m feeling suffocated 😟

[tthankstoyou]

I put on the new chord Christmas movie & darren singing the first song in here is like getting punched in the face and stepped on

[elliespeach]

it didn’t last for too long i don’t think lmao i can’t rlly remember. i could barely breath for like 5-7 minutes maybe? and then i was fine

usually when i get baked i do feel a pressure on my chest periodically that makes it hard to breath but that’s like a good pressure (idk i’m just a freak like that) BUT this time it was a bit too much so i was freakin out for a sec😟 tell me why after i got over the fear of suffocating i kinda liked the pressure again (i wanna do it again🧍) ANYWAYS

-🐞

that’s happened to me a few times too!! and i mean u do u baby if u like it 🤷🏼‍♀️ but 5-7 mins is lowkey long asfffff when ur stoned ur a goddamn solider

[min-hoax]

castaway - myg

Chapter 11

Pairing: Yandere! Idol Yoongi x F! Singer Reader

Warning(s): Mentions of growing up inside a toxic environment, absentee parents, mentions of cheating, alcohol and drug consumption.

A/N: not charles being king smh 😟

- This is complete fiction. I do not believe any of the members would do or act as written.

CASTAWAY MASTERLIST

yn

How is it possible that so many vow to one? A one who’s simply human and has nothing special to them. I never understood the loyalty people have towards us, maybe because I never really had it.

I grew up lonely, inside a broken home with parents who fought like it was the only thing they knew what to do, absent because they were engrossed in their own career and never with their only daughter.

When I met my first love, Niko, it was a dream I couldn’t comprehend. I felt I could’ve changed things - that we wouldn’t be like my mother and father. We’d get married, have a baby or two and live happily ever after, but it seems that luck is never on my side.

Now, I don’t know if I’ll ever have that optimism again.

After he cheated I felt I could fix things, but it never got to be the same again. He messed with the wrong crowd and dragged me down with him. I wanted peace, but the only small piece of dignity I had with me vanished the second I decided to try what he loved the most.

It seemed that fighting was the only thing we knew what to do, too. We’d get high, drunk and be happy in each other’s arms - the only way we could stand to be in each other's presence.

I miss him.

I miss the way things used to be.

Missing him feels like a betrayal to Alex. They’re kind, sweet, and patient, knowing what I’m going through. Others would see and run if they saw the state that I'm in, but not Alex. And I don’t know how to feel.

I love them, but it’s suffocating. Knowing that somebody loves you at your worst. It makes me feel undeserving of something so special, like I wasn’t made for it.

Things between us happened suddenly, too soon. I was desperately craving for something, and I thought I found it. Maybe I did, and I just don’t know it, maybe it’s just that my mind is everywhere and I don’t know what to think.

They visit from time to time, giving me the space I asked for even though all I want was to be in their warm embrace, for them to hug me as I cry and tell me it’s all going to be okay as they did once.

But how are things going to be okay? They never are.

I will officially be coming back to the public eye in a few weeks. When I was told, I couldn’t help but to cry. Wasn’t this what I wanted? To be free from the shackles that is my home?

No, what I wanted was to be free on MY terms, to go out and enjoy a day with my friends and my love, and not to an award ceremony where there'll be incessant flashes of lights and the screams of excitement that make my ears ring.

And what I hate the most in the world is posing as a happy, healthy, and beautiful woman when I’m truly a miserable little girl who cannot do something without someone’s supervision.

Yay.

Can’t wait to come back and write how wonderful it’s going to be.

[tired-biscuit]

I’m usually not that big of a sasori fan but goshhh he’s so hot and I keep seeing those edits of him, got me blushin and shi🫣🫣

sasori can own me!! 😟 i'll do anything just to be acknowledged by that man, fr. he is immensely underrated and those hooded, sleepy eyes make me feel all warm inside. also, i love that he's a psycho. i can change him for the better, i promise 😔🚩

look at this edit of him:

i wanna write sasori content, but at the same time i'm nervous that i won't hit the mark when it comes to his characterization. i'm used to writing himbo characters, but something about that suffocating, gloomy personality of his is so hot to me, idk.

if he were to be actually interested in sex, he'd be a good dom.