#I’m feeling suffocated 😟

[tthankstoyou]

I put on the new chord Christmas movie & darren singing the first song in here is like getting punched in the face and stepped on

[elliespeach]

it didn’t last for too long i don’t think lmao i can’t rlly remember. i could barely breath for like 5-7 minutes maybe? and then i was fine

usually when i get baked i do feel a pressure on my chest periodically that makes it hard to breath but that’s like a good pressure (idk i’m just a freak like that) BUT this time it was a bit too much so i was freakin out for a sec😟 tell me why after i got over the fear of suffocating i kinda liked the pressure again (i wanna do it again🧍) ANYWAYS

-🐞

that’s happened to me a few times too!! and i mean u do u baby if u like it 🤷🏼‍♀️ but 5-7 mins is lowkey long asfffff when ur stoned ur a goddamn solider

[min-hoax]

castaway - myg

Chapter 11

Pairing: Yandere! Idol Yoongi x F! Singer Reader

Warning(s): Mentions of growing up inside a toxic environment, absentee parents, mentions of cheating, alcohol and drug consumption.

A/N: not charles being king smh 😟

- This is complete fiction. I do not believe any of the members would do or act as written.

CASTAWAY MASTERLIST

yn

How is it possible that so many vow to one? A one who’s simply human and has nothing special to them. I never understood the loyalty people have towards us, maybe because I never really had it.

I grew up lonely, inside a broken home with parents who fought like it was the only thing they knew what to do, absent because they were engrossed in their own career and never with their only daughter.

When I met my first love, Niko, it was a dream I couldn’t comprehend. I felt I could’ve changed things - that we wouldn’t be like my mother and father. We’d get married, have a baby or two and live happily ever after, but it seems that luck is never on my side.

Now, I don’t know if I’ll ever have that optimism again.

After he cheated I felt I could fix things, but it never got to be the same again. He messed with the wrong crowd and dragged me down with him. I wanted peace, but the only small piece of dignity I had with me vanished the second I decided to try what he loved the most.

It seemed that fighting was the only thing we knew what to do, too. We’d get high, drunk and be happy in each other’s arms - the only way we could stand to be in each other's presence.

I miss him.

I miss the way things used to be.

Missing him feels like a betrayal to Alex. They’re kind, sweet, and patient, knowing what I’m going through. Others would see and run if they saw the state that I'm in, but not Alex. And I don’t know how to feel.

I love them, but it’s suffocating. Knowing that somebody loves you at your worst. It makes me feel undeserving of something so special, like I wasn’t made for it.

Things between us happened suddenly, too soon. I was desperately craving for something, and I thought I found it. Maybe I did, and I just don’t know it, maybe it’s just that my mind is everywhere and I don’t know what to think.

They visit from time to time, giving me the space I asked for even though all I want was to be in their warm embrace, for them to hug me as I cry and tell me it’s all going to be okay as they did once.

But how are things going to be okay? They never are.

I will officially be coming back to the public eye in a few weeks. When I was told, I couldn’t help but to cry. Wasn’t this what I wanted? To be free from the shackles that is my home?

No, what I wanted was to be free on MY terms, to go out and enjoy a day with my friends and my love, and not to an award ceremony where there'll be incessant flashes of lights and the screams of excitement that make my ears ring.

And what I hate the most in the world is posing as a happy, healthy, and beautiful woman when I’m truly a miserable little girl who cannot do something without someone’s supervision.

Yay.

Can’t wait to come back and write how wonderful it’s going to be.

[headcanonsandmore]

Oooh, new chapter!

'Nyssa awoke to an empty bed. Tegan’s imprint next to her felt like a black hole, still warm, and full of history. An unknown destructive force. Sighing and getting out of the too-low bed, she set herself on starting this trip anew. On moving forward, leaving what happened behind. Whatever it was. The room, like the bed, was deserted. She hazarded a guess that Tegan had gone down for breakfast. Leaving her alone,' Awww, poor Nyssa 😟😟

'“Tegan, why didn’t you wake me?” Nyssa asked, looking towards Tegan who appeared to have found a rather interesting crack in the ceiling.' PFFFT 😂🤣 Oh, Tegan, you useless lesbian...

'“Lady… queers, was it you said? What exactly are they?” She inquired hopefully. Hopeful that the immense confusion she’d been feeling the past 12 hours would be cleared up. Silence. Not the comfortable kind, by a long shot. Tegan looked like a deer in the headlights' NYSSA!

'“Oh! Like me then. Why didn’t you all just tell me?” Nyssa spoke cheerfully like someone finally being clued in to a joke. The Doctor looked as if he was expecting this to happen; Adric hummed in acknowledgement. On the other hand, Tegan began opening and closing her mouth like a suffocating fish and her wide-eyed expression was only matched by the landlady’s.' Pretty sure that Nyssa has now broken Tegan's brain 😂🤣

'“No I di-” Tegan stopped Nyssa’s protest with a light kick to the shin and a warning stare. Nyssa noted that it was the first time she’d properly looked at her since last night. Looking between the travellers, the landlady decided to take her leave. Clearly, she hadn’t the time nor the care in order to deal with whatever was going on between the unusual lot. The table waited until they saw the door shut, with rather too much power than needed. They all then returned their gaze to Nyssa, who had, surprisingly to her, become even more perplexed by the situation. “What?” Nyssa asked, directionless. “Nyssa, you can’t mean you’re-”, Tegan paused, “that you’re-”, The rest of the sentence died on Tegan’s tongue.' THESE TWO, I SWEAR

'“Were,” Adric piped up, unhelpfully. Nyssa was too enthralled in the Doctor’s explanation to respond.' Adric, that's not cool. 😠😠

'“You see the TARDIS hasn’t been able to translate such words for you as Traken doesn’t have any specific words for sexual orientation, that aren’t particularly scientific at least.”, the Doctor explained further, “Seeing that your people did not hold so much importance towards,” he coughed, “sexual or romantic relationships, to the same extent as humans”' I love your reasoning for this, as well as the Doctor's coded-aceness when regarding this stuff.

'Tegan snapped out of her shell-shocked daze as she thought out loud, “But didn’t you say you had a father and a mother, and a stepmother at that?” “Well yes, but my father’s, how do you say? Inclinations… were uncommon.” Tegan returned to her gaping fish state' NYSSA 🤣😂

'Tegan returned to her gaping fish state, prompting the Doctor to continue, “But Nyssa, the reason we’ve had to lie to the landlady is that your preferences, or to use the human term homosexuality-” Nyssa interrupted, “Oh, that one translates!” Tegan grumbled and put her head in her hands.' NYSSA STOP YOU'RE GOING TO BREAK TEGAN'S BRAIN AGAIN 🤣😂

'“How come you can go back there to research but we can’t just sleep there instead of staying in a shoddy guesthouse?” Tegan huffed. “Where would be the fun in that?”, The Doctor said in reply,' Classic Five 🤣😂

'Therefore it seems the obvious course of action for you and Nyssa to go undercover, as it were, as a couple” Tegan eyes darted about in utter disbelief, “You expect us to what?”' OF COURSE this was going to happen sooner or later; love it!

'Nyssa tried to be helpful and answered, “he wants us to pretend to be in a romantic relationship” Tegan turned to Nyssa and hollowly said “I got that Nys”' Poor Tegan is having a bit of a rough day so far 🤣😂

'“Butch!”, Tegan yelled, “I’m not butch!” “Ah, but you will be. The conventions of the Lesbian scene at this time and place are for one partner to be butch. You’re the obvious candidate over Nyssa” She went to argue but looked at Nyssa and then herself in the silverware' To be fair, Tegan is fairly butch personality-and-spirit wise even without the comparison to Nyssa.

'“What you expect us to do when we get in there anyway? Snog in the middle of the room and hope she kidnaps us?” Nyssa began nodding eagerly' ATTA GIRL, NYSSA! 🤣😂 At this point, only someone as oblivious as Tegan wouldn't be able to notice that Nyssa fancies her!

'Tegan looked down at her untouched breakfast and sighed.' Poor Tegan; never-mind, you get to have a pretend-dating scenario with Nyssa (and, judging from Nyssa's reaction earlier, she's dead keen on potentially getting to kiss Tegan). 😊😊

Honestly, this chapter is FANTASTIC! I'm loving seeing Tegan's utterly flummoxed reactions to Nyssa's reveals about her sexuality, and it's always fun seeing the season 19 TARDIS team interacting (Adric is such a little twerp 😂🤣); looking forward to seeing Tegan and Nyssa going undercover as a couple, especially with Tegan now knowing that Nyssa likes women, and Nyssa now realising that Tegan's time period has a lot of homophobia. Thank you so much for sharing! 😊😊

new chapter lads

[tired-biscuit]

I’m usually not that big of a sasori fan but goshhh he’s so hot and I keep seeing those edits of him, got me blushin and shi🫣🫣

sasori can own me!! 😟 i'll do anything just to be acknowledged by that man, fr. he is immensely underrated and those hooded, sleepy eyes make me feel all warm inside. also, i love that he's a psycho. i can change him for the better, i promise 😔🚩

look at this edit of him:

i wanna write sasori content, but at the same time i'm nervous that i won't hit the mark when it comes to his characterization. i'm used to writing himbo characters, but something about that suffocating, gloomy personality of his is so hot to me, idk.

if he were to be actually interested in sex, he'd be a good dom.