#I’m exhausted but this is worth itttt

[wwillowpilloww]

Ready for bed 7.5hr study 📚 sleep time 🌌

[chososcamgirl]

HIHIHIHI IYAAA SOOOO I JUST CAME BACK FROM HANGING OUT W MY FRIENDSSS AND I DIDNT BUY ANYTHINGG (was gonna spend @ Sephora but ended up reasoning with myself and put everything away YAY ME) BUTTTTTT WE DID END UP WATCHING JOKER 2 SOO IM GONNA RANT ABT IT (to make up for the lost check ins) 😈

HOW WAS WORKK??? HOPE IT WAS VERY SKIBIDIIII!!! TELL ME ABTT IT SIGMA ALPHA IYA🐺💪‼️

I FORGOT IF I SENT MY ACTUALLY DAILY CHECK IN TODAY (I write them in my notes) SO TELL ME IF U DONT SEE IT AND ILL PASTE IT OVER TO TUMBLR (im pretty sure I did but I THINK I FORGOT TO TURN ON ANON SO IF I ACCIDENTALLY DID A BLOG REVEAL KEEP MY IDENTITY A MYSTERY 🤫 BUT TELL ME SO I CAN RESEND MY DAILY ASK) 

OMG I RENTED A POWERBANK AND ACCIDENTALLY BROUGHT IT BACK WITH ME… ITS NEARLY 12AM HERE SO I NEED TO GO BACK TMRW (im gonna get charged about like $40 SOMEONE SHOOT ME OMFG) AT LEAST I GET AN EXCUSE TO GO TO THE MALL TMRW THO?? 

ALSOOO I FOUND A STORE HIRING NEAR MY SCHOOLLLL I RLLY WANT TO GET A PART TIME SO I MIGHTTT CONSIDER IT BUT THEN I WOULD NEED TO FIND THE TIME TO ACTUALLY COMMIT IF I DO WANT TO PURSUE ITTTT

OMGROIGOJIOJIR REMEMBER HOW I MENTIONED I WRITE IN MY SLEEP?? TURNS OUT THAT LIKE A WEEK AGO.. I FELL ASLEEP WHILE DOING HOMEWORK AND STARTED WRITING ABOUT MY RACE IN MY SLEEP.. AND I DIDNT BOTHER TO CHECK IT WHEN I WOKE UP ON MY DESK IN THE MORNING SO I TURNED THAT SHIT IN WITHOUT NOTICING I RANTED ABOUT MY FUCKING RACE ON MY ASSIGNMENT…. MY TEACHER WAS SO FUCKING CONFUSED ON WHY I STATED I WASN’T WHITE ON MY PAPER AND TOLD ME THAT THEY THOUGHT I MIGHT OF BEEN HAVING PROBLEMS MENTALLY… THE FACT I HAD TO ADMIT IT WAS BECAUSE I WAS SLEEP WRITING??? IM GONNA END IT PLEASEEE THATS SO EMBARRASSINMGGGG IT WAS HELLA FUNNY THO.. I WOULD POST THE PICTUJRE BUT I CANT </3 CUS OF ANON *sighs* 

ITSSS SJAPP WEEKENDDDDDD IM SO EXCITED ITLL BE 5AM WHERE I LIVE SO THAT MEANS I GET TO WAKE UP TO A NEW CHAPTERRRR

SPOILER WARNING FOR JOKER 2 ‼️‼️

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Okay I was a HUGE fan of the first movie which was why I was excited to see the second one with my friends but honestly… IT WAS SO ASSSSS

First, I DIDNT KNOW IT WAS GONNA BE A MUSICAL like I don’t mind musicals, they can be BANGERS and the first few songs were good BUT as the film progressed the songs just felt so unnecessary and awkward👿😭

UGHHHH OMFGGGG IM SOOOOO PISSED ABGT HOW DIRTY THEY DID MISS QUINN IN THE SEQUEL!!!! I LOVE HARLEY QUINN AND GAGA BUT LIKE HER BACKSTORY IN THIS MOVIE AND HER WHOLE PERSONALITY IS NOT ITTTTTT PLUSSS GAGA I LOVE UR VOICE BUT OMFGG I SWEAR THE SINGING WAS TOOOOO EXCESSIVE ARNTRJNSR THEY DID HER SOO DIRTYY.. GAGA WAS ROBBED.. SHE COULD HAVE BEEN SOOOO MUCH MORE BUT HER CHARACTER WAS JUST.. BLEH..

HONESTLY IF YOU TOOK OUT ALL THE MUSICAL FACTORS THEN THE MOVIE WOULD FEEL LIKE A 2HR LECTURE… AND THE RUN TIME??? TWO HRS IS INSANE FOR SUCH A PLOT 

THERE WERE NO PLANS OF A SEQUEL AND THEY SHOULD OF KEPTTT IT THAT WAYYY OMGGG THIS WAS SUCH AN OBVIOUS CASHGRAB.. THE FIRST ONE CLEARLY HAD PASSION, THIS ONE WAS JUST FOR MONEY THERES A REASON WHY THE RATING IS SO LOWWWWWW

STILL THO, THE MOVIE HAD GOOD SCENES AND ALL THE ACTORS HAD THEIR MOMENTS  .

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. OKKKK HOPE YOU HAVE A VERY SIGMA NIGHT!!! SWEET DREAMS I LOVE YOU DAWG 💪🔥

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HI ALPHA!!🐺

responding to ur most recent ask sent on saturday night hello‼️‼️‼️

IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU HAD FUN WITH UR FRIENDS!!! im glad🙂‍↕️ hanging out with ur friends always makes life better even if its for that moment it’s still very much worth it <33 HOORAY FOR REASONABLE SPENDING🎉🎉 u are stronger than me alpha.. sephora and i are in a current battle and i fear she’s winning😰

WORK THIS WEEK HAS BEEN SO GOOD!! i worked 4 days in a row all either opening or closing (or both) but they were all good shifts! i’m just very exhausted from this week though like mentally and physically😭 i slept most of the day away yesterday and im just trying to rest up again today because my throat is actually getting worse which KMS.

NO LMFAO UR FINE!! if u do happen to reveal urself don’t worry i’ll keep it a secret 🤫🤫🤐 WHAT? $40 OH MU GOD what the fuck that is SO EXPENSIVE TO RETURN IT i would just keep it at that point.. but atleast it’s another excuse to go to da mall🤗🙂‍↕️ YIPEE! oooo job searching! that’s exciting. though part time is a big commitment just bc you can’t change ur hours once it’s set in place but if you want to apply for it then i say go for it!! as long as u have the time for it 100%!!

OH MY GOD😭😭 NOT ON THE HOMEWORK TOO PLS that actually made me giggle please. don’t worry abt it though i’ve seen worse!! sleep writing is a talent that u should not be embarrassed abt, you’re good‼️🙂‍↕️

IVE HEARD SO MANY BAD REVIEWS ABOUT THE MOVIE LIKE the fact that they break out into song randomly etc😭 i wanted to watch it but the reviews are making me rethink spending $15 on a movie ticket… ill probably not watch it and watch the substance instead (apparently that’s fucked) BUT ILL LYK!!!

THANK YOU ALPHA!! I HOPE YOU HAVE A VERY SIGMA DAY‼️ ILY🫵🫂

[csmeaner]

I want to get something off of my chest, so I don’t care if this is posted or deleted.

A follow up to the Edeia voiding post; It’s not my style to go against CS rules for the most part but I can’t afford to spend that kind of money just to walk about of the species with the designs I love. And even if I could afford it, I am… hesitant to give the owner another cent after the sheer amount of money I already gave them. I know some of my friends read this blog so I might be about to lose friendships for what I’m about to say, but it can’t be helped. No matter how much I like a CS, I won’t support a practice that I feel is unjustified.

So, I’m erasing all connections to the species from my characters’ TH profiles, and treating them as one-offs without getting them “officially” voided. I just want out of this shitty place and having to pay to void my shit feels like I’m being held hostage at this point. I’ve talked to enough people, family and friends and others IRL, about the situation and no one sees the point of paying extra just to freely use the characters I already bought. Christ, even people I talk to who are presently still IN the species didn’t know there was a voiding fee, and even they think it’s stupid after finding out.

I tallied up the cost of the Edeia I wanted to void, and the combined price of them was $1,175. I shouldn’t have to pay another $390-$455 on top of that. That’s just robbery at that point, considering the void fee wasn’t in existence when I got my designs. I don’t know when it got added, but I really don’t remember it being there before I walked out last year.

In the end, what came of my initial conversation with Auspice was me handing back $230 worth of designs to get my sona and his husband voided, and to obtain ownership of a fusion I co-owned with Auspice. It wasn’t a good deal by any means; voiding my sona and his mate would have cost $70, which leaves $160 for the ownership transfer and the… “Redesign” of the fusion. Which was a fucking fuss, I was handed a design I hated, and when I did my own variation, Aus fucking whined because they didn’t like me keeping the cape-like sleeves or stars on the inside of the clothes because that was “their sona’s traits.” The redesign, the time spent negotiating, and the transfer of the ownership rights definitely should NOT have cost $160 for what I got in the end. And the reason I wanted the fusion at all is because it would have otherwise just been deleted and I didn’t want my original $175 going to waste.

After some… “negotiating” on the areas of tension with the design, we “settled” on a redesign that was just a glorified version of my own sona, which wasn’t what I wanted. But I was fed up and dealing with Auspice gives me severe anxiety, so I approved it anyway just so that I could stop interacting. After ownership rights were handed over to me I tweaked the design on my own to restore the vibe and look I wanted. I compared the redesign and Auspice’s sona with a bunch of peeps and we all determined it’s very different from their sona in appearance.

oh ill definitely answer this one. auspice can suck it, edeia and its entire foundations can suck it, and that 35usd per character voiding fee can suck it the hardest

i wouldn't feel bad a single ounce it's unreasonable to expect people to pay to leave a cs and is in similar maliciousness for scummy services to create cancellation fees to force people to stay in the service or exhaust them so much they can be squeezed for a few more pennies. that shit's awful in real life what makes you think it's not a slimy practice in cs too

fuck are they going to do edeia can fucking suuuuuck itttt and burn in hell

[emo4life]

very exhausted with everything. i feel like i’m walking on eggshells * 100 with my roommate and i genuinely have no idea like … for what. like what was the reason all of a sudden. idk. atp i don’t even want to “reach out” rn or focus on that just feeling bleh abt the situation. it seems like everything that comes out of my mouth is an issue and it sucks for various reasons. idk i think that happening over again and again i’m tired of it. even if i am trying to just say something bothered /me/ i am the one in the wrong. alsooo im at my second job today until 1am and ugh i just know im gonna be so tired tomorrowww but at least i shouldn’t be working again at the second job until like the 26th. idk if they ever even aproved my time off but i will nawt be in town so… :/ . and i missed free kbbq from sbux today cuz i am working 😭! also idk if i will quit my sbux job and i hate that because the hours suck so bad and the pay is not worth it but it being close to home is all that matters to me rn like i’m just tired of trying and having to commute to a job doesn’t appeal to me at least not for the time being. also im gonna try to read the alchemist as my last book of 2022 since it’s not long i think i can finish it pretty quick. i finally bought some new black shoes!!!! i got the skechers oxfords lol 😭 they remind me of the black filas! i wanna get some lace up boots too but maybe in january hmmm. also i haven’t talked to my old work friend in like a month and i want to reach out but at the same time i’m doing this thing where i feel like i have nothing to say so i’m like why bother … 🙁but that’s not good cuz then that’s why all my friendships fade cuz i don’t try hard enough 🤢 i wish i felt more comfortable smoking weed cuz i like crave hitting a pen 🥸. i don’t like cigarettes much either i rlly do smoke them when i am drinking in a social setting tho but meh i tried once sober and didn’t like itttt

[usuallyeclecticmoon]

20/07/18

Lovely lovely time. Shar and Seonwoo are the best company sometimes, and I want to remember the small things about the night. 

Leaving and being apprehensive at first, it being so early in the morning (or late at night really). Getting pizza because sw was starving, talking about normal things. 

It;s funny, I dont know when we stopped having normal conversations. This is why I like spending time with sw and shar, they bring something different to the table; they’re more open to ideas, and to exploration, and discovering new things. Open mindedness is underrated. 

Just nice conversation, me squishing a slug and screaming, the line and the bitchy lady, the waiting, and then finally the show itself!

It’s fun. I don;t think I really understood the meaning of entertainment till now. 

I’m also realizing what I like. Other friends bring so much criticism and negativity to the table, which I find to be just so unnecessary. I find myself awkward with them sometimes because the things they talk about, the stress they give me, it all accumulates. Maybe they’re just not interesting people? No, that’s not true. 

It’s all in the stress. I dont want to be stressed out anymore, I am not going to allow myself to be this focused on silly things. That’s a true sign of maturity, which i would understand if i just relaxed. 

<3 <3 Happy day 

Exhausted but worth itttt

[platinum-happy]

Willow Official Blog 170224

If there’s a Willow, there’s a way- it’s Willow!! and with my first blog of the new year!! Late as usual with my blogs, but I’m probably gonna make this a long one to catch up ;D

  As for how I’ve been since my last blog… I got my hair died pink!! It didn’t end up lasting a long time, but I love itttt. I’ve been working on trying to make it last longer or finding other shades to try. I’ve been on such a hair care binge, and part of it is because I found a promotion where if I spent a certain amount, I got $100+ worth free!

I haven’t used much yet, but my hair’s been in great condition ever since. I can’t wait to try out more, especially the Disney Princess hair glitter-

But like I promised last blog, I’m overdue to talk about my trip to Japan last year and Tokyo Idol Festival!!

So it’s now a tradition that every time I go to Japan I need to go and buy myself a flower crown from Harajuku’s Takeshita dori. I don’t make the rules.

Last year, like the year before, I went to Japan for 2 weeks so I could go to both Tokyo Idol Festival and the Hello! Project Summer concert. I tend to fill up my trips with as many idol events as I can, and even I will admit I went a little overboard this time LOL.

The first day I arrived in Japan, was the day of Kobushi Factory’s release event! So not even 24 hours in and I’d already been to a mini-live on no sleep after landing at 5am. I have great priorities haha. The day after that was a Passpo/Fudanjuku 2man live, where I got to make friends with other foreign fans (2 of which knew of Purappi! I won’t name drop, but they’re both awesome <3). After that I was off to the H!P Summer con in Sapporo, the members went through the crowd and I was lucky to get eye contact with a few members ;-;!! I’m also pretty sure I was sitting a metre away from Captain and maybe some other staff?? I had a really great seat on an edge of a row near the mixing console.

The day after, I went to see Juice=Juice in Otaru, which was about an hour train ride away from Sapporo. Otaru is a great little town, and I was super lucky as it turned out the concert was the same day as the Otaru Matsuri! I had just enough time after the back to back Juice=Juice concerts to have a look around, eat some yakisoba, and watch the fireworks before I had to make my way back to my hotel in Sapporo.

The next day it was off to Kyoto and Osaka, I tried to see the AKB show at Universal Studios but tickets had sold out before I arrived. But I still had a great time there anyway, I finally got to go into the Wizarding World of Harry Potter!! It just so happened one of the types of wands they have available is willow… so I had to…

Next up was C-ute in Otodama! Which was the best??? Women only sections are the amazing and let me get up pretty close to the stage, and it helped that I was taller than most of the other women there. I had such a great view. The humidity was horrible though, but the best part was when C-ute came out during the encore with water guns and started spraying everyone. The only down side was Chisato was still recovering at the time, so she couldn’t sing in all the songs, but it did mean my Maimi got more lines, so I wasn’t complaining LOL Being able to see your favourite group in a smaller venue where you can make eye contact is so, so worth it. I’m really looking forward to the next time I can see them perform again, even if it is the last.

  And finally, the last event I went to while in Japan, Tokyo Idol Festival!! TIF16 was full on, 3 days full of idols and oh boy was I exhausted at the end of each day and I loved every minute of it. It’s hard to list all the groups I saw, but my highlights were definitely Fudanjuku, The Hoopers, Bitter&Sweet, Magical Punchline… and those friends I mentioned making at the Passpo/Fudanjuku live? I spent most of TIF hanging out with them and it was amazing.

Also, I got a photo with notall! (yes I was sunburnt again, Sky Stage is hell)

Out of the handshakes I did, the MagiPun and Fudanjuku stood out to me the most. MagiPun are such a good group?? I went into the handshakes as a Yuna oshi, and came out loving Rena and oshihenning to Anna. Whoops. All of the girls were very warm and friendly, but Rena straight up hugged me, which was a surprise, and Anna was so endearing. She can speak a little English, and having her blank on words in front of me in English, just as I did to her in Japanese was the most relatable and adorable thing. Meanwhile with Fudanjuku, they mostly went well minus blanking a couple of times, until I got to my oshi, Kojiro… who greeted me with “OH MY PRETTY BABY” in English. I’m not sure how I didn’t die right there, haha. Kojiro’s graduating before I’ll be able to go back to Japan, but even if this handshake is the last time we meet, I’m glad this will be the memory I get to keep.

And so, that was my Japan trip 2016! In good news, I recently paid for flights to go back to Japan in June! I’m both excited and sad, it’s C-ute’s final concert, but if all goes well, I’m going to meet Calla!! I have my fingers crossed every thing will work out well <3

and with that, until the next blog!

~ Willow