#I’m clinically insane actually
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I immediately forgot I have a new tumblr mutual I’m about to roleplay with and I’ve been reposting the most deprived shit, bro I’m so sorry
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Strap in babe I gotchu
Crossed Wires series
Get High Go Down series
A Gem Beyond Counting
Sleepover Revelations
Swing and a Miss
Give some of these a shot lemme know if you need more 👀
Also follow @fuctacles for some great works that are on tumblr, they have a master list of their stuff!
I feel as if I have come back from war, I started college and just fell off the face of the earth and now here I am nearly 13 weeks later about to graduate with my associates in accounting with out an ounce of motivation left in me. Like I want to write but what? I have no clue.
And I kind of want to get back into reading? Does anyone have any recommendations for steddie? (Or if there is any ship out there that you want to reccomend go for it, I want to trigger a hyperfixation so I’m not so bored.)
#I’m clinically insane actually#I haven’t gone to my saved fics yet#but those might be better to#look at next#I try to rec finished stuff because I’ve been burnt before#also I’m having the time of my life with this
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my stobotnik omegaverse thoughts
ask and you shall receive, as i am nothing if not responsive to the people. and apparently, this is what the people want! nsfw warning but only if ur chronically online tbh
so, starting off with some context: it’s 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 time. be warned pt 2. bc that’s actually what my friend and i were discussing LMAOOO. the whole conversation was kickstarted by them sending me a drawing of stone flushed due to a fever in which everyone in the replies were saying “damn he’s in heat”, right? but the artist was like “GUYS HES NOT IN HEAT HES SICK”
and my response was “hes sick because he isn’t being knotted actually. Soon that will be fixed.”
but then i was like… Wait. bc to me, they’re both alphas … bc….
yes, stone follows robotniks every command, and he is ECSTATIC doing it! we all agree on this!!!
but but BUT…. if you’ve seen my other posts, you’ll know that i am an AVID supporter of the idea that stone was a top of the line, best of the best field agent before working for robotnik. i believe he has killed before robotnik, but SINCE working for robotnik?
he never took any sort of pleasure when he had to kill before. it was just a necessary evil. but now that he’s got something to protect? someone of his own?? he has killed for robotnik without a second thought and would kill for him again in a heartbeat. and he has lowkey enjoyed it, knowing he’s the one saving the doctor
he’s like those pictures of wolves with watermelons on their heads and etc . of tigers laying in cardboard boxes
he follows robotniks orders and follows them well because he WANTS to fiercely protect robotnik, fulfill all of his needs, and ensure his happiness at all costs, no matter if it’s shooting someone point blank or dealing with robotniks hand dragging him around by the inside of his mouth
(he likes that last one, actually.)
robotnik is just an alpha. idc. he’s literally the stereotype: taller, important, impressive facial hair, a loud and extremely confident asshole
i just feel it in my bones sorry for very little elaboration, besides how he also loves pushing people around
(in contexts other than this, however, i’ll also accept him being a beta tho. solely bc i think him proving that he’s a valuable genius despite not being anything biologically special is a good idea too)
and then i remembered this wonderful thing called bitching! and this wonderful thought that hey actually…. stone went So Hard caring for robotnik, he started becoming lowkey like a feral omega. but obviously, that can’t be EVERYTHING.
it, alongside the fact that he’s been (shamefully) wondering about robotniks knot since like less than a year into working for him, is REALLYYY getting to stone.
and finally, after some plot- perhaps around the time robotnik is recovering in the crab, where stones caretaking instincts are going haywire?- stone gets a taste of that knot !!!!
and then another. and then another. and then about a decades worth more. and what do you know? he and robotnik spedrun bitching at 100%, emotionally and physically
also, i just want you to know that during this revelation, my friend was researching if you can get sick from being too horny irl. (sex improves immune system functions is the answer)
and then this friend, word for word, spat out this wonderful idea: “bitch Stone with a 24/7 piston fuck machine w/ orgasm denial/chastity cage WHAT WHO SAID THAT”
AND HELL YEAH BROTHER
And honestly?? i’d like to add on…….
stone found the blueprints for it when he was trying to save as much as possible from robotniks lab, between the first and second movies. maybe it was even somewhere hidden among the manifesto, deep in some code stone would’ve normally missed. (if he built it at home to use whenever he was especially missing the doctor, that’s between him, the beginning of the bitching, and god)
anyways. if anyone wants to write smthn based on this. FEEL FREEEEEEEEEE just tag me pls!!!!!!
#the art that kickstarted this is by BlackCatTheWhy1 on twt btw#if you want to go look at it#please do it’s very good#i’m just clinically insane#my beloved friend mentioned is the beloved aruru#also let’s be fr the government would neverrrfr let omegas do field work#another point for alpha stone#my musings#stobotnik headcanons#stobotnik#agent stone#aban stone#ivo robotnik#robotnik#doctor robotnik#stone x robotnik#my headcanons#omegaverse#sorry#not actually tbh#abo
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this man has no fucking right to be THIS beautiful… jinshi my LOVE.
#jinshi my BELOVED… god he makes me so. insane#i say that a lot but he really makes me Clinically Unwell i just love him so so so so so so so much#him & maomao <3 my favs of all time <3 the only people EVER#i NEED to order all the apothecary diaries manga/light novels STAT#ALSO THE FUCKING SOUNDTRACK TO THE ANIME??? THE NEW EPISODE TODAY???#BEST ANIME SERIES EVER I’M NOT EVEN REMOTELY JOKING.#the song that was used when jinshi carried maomao out after she saved his life… i teared up & got LITERAL chills holy FUCK#let me order the books rn actually like ’m not playing around#the apothecary diaries#jinshi#personal
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I hate the ultrakill fandom I’m ACTUALLY GONNA FUCKING LOSE ITTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY do people water down his personality to nothing but violence. Also HE HAS NEVERRRRR BEEN SHOWN TO BE ANGRY. EVER!!!!!!!!! WHAT!!!!!!!!!! Excuse me I’m kind of going insane this will turn into a fandom rant for a sec. Literally both characters had equally nuanced stories and personalities yet for some reason sisyphus gets the short end of the stick. Whag. This is the exact reason I’m scared of my ocs developing a fandom

I SAW THIS STUPID MEME AND I HAD TO COME AND COMPLAIN ABOUT IT BECAUSE FUCK
me pretending to not gaf about misinterpretations of my favorite characters so I won’t kill myself
#ultrakill#minos prime#sisyphus prime#By the way I’m not actually that mad at the meme itself but it kinda reminded me about how dumb this fandom can be sometimes#Orion’s clinically insane rambles#Probably will delete this later#Had to get it out of my system
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hyperfixation settling in deep now, thinking about buying rdr2 for the pc so i can access and edit together voice lines and character models into javieran content
#me when i buy a mod just to change the arthur and mary/epilogue john and abigail scenes into javier and kieran so i can have my silly little#‘canon’ romance moments#see the thing about me is that when i get hyperfixated on something and i can REALLY get into it i will actually go to great lengths to make#content for them and have fun with them and just. be passionate and make art of all kinds#literally downloaded a song and hours of scenepacks so i can start making edits of them ☹️#they’re so in love im ill. and it’s all made up in my head. they’ve literally ‘canonically’ interacted once and even then that exchange is#rare and completely missable LOL me when my only content of my ship is not only irrelevant to the plot but also one of them being a total#dickhead to the other#i’m clinically insane ❤️#rdr2#for the organization of my blog#hero’s talking to himself again#hero talks about himself for 40 hours#i think that’s the tag#yknow for someone who values blog organization i sure never remember the tags i used for said organization
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okay so like. i got offered a job (yay!) and if i accept (which i probably will cause nothing else is coming my way) then i will definitely have to work another job to ya know. bring in enough money to live and sustain myself (which is fine just. tiring) but i don’t think the full time job would wear me out like the other full time jobs i’ve had in the past so going and doing part time work wouldn’t drain me too bad. so? i guess i have a job?
#i can always keep looking around too at other places which is fine#but how fucked up is that that in todays day and age full time work is not a livable wage. i have to laugh#literally i have to or else i will succumb to the horrors#i think the full time gig will be worth it no matter what because health insurance#but yeah! major industry shift here going from recreation to medical field#and NO before anyone gets any ideas im not working for an insurance company those bastards#i’ll actually be a part of the care team at the heart clinic so that’s neat#also hopefully i can get new glasses cause i desperately need them#also let’s factor in that whatever part time gig i get will easily be $2 away from my full time pay like. that’s insane#if you’re paying someone full time dog shit salary so much so that a part time job is essentially the same pay…homie#i’m rambling again aren’t i
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WHEN WILL HE ASK ME OUT

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hi, i have severe attachment issues soooo don’t fucking come near me if you’re going to be one foot in and one foot out. can’t do it anymore. i’m fucking TIRED of pouring more into others. i’m left empty. i have nothing left. just leave me alone.
#me#personal#can’t keep my head above water#the last 4 days have actually been hell on earth#I’m going clinically insane
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I think it is finally time to bite the bullet and begin the long and arduous process of getting my slew of illnesses (mental and physical) diagnosed so I can actually pursue treatment and/or accommodations with jobs because I uh, cannot do this shit anymore
#I am so tired of dragging myself to work in severe amounts of pain and misery#because if I don’t I’ll get fired#I hate doctors and any time I have ever gone none of my concerns have actually been addressed#(granted I have not gone to an actual doctor in like 8 years and they never listened to me because my mom would always talk over me and#claim everything was fine but ya know)#my migraines have become dibilitating and I’m like 95% sure I have endometriosis#not to mention the insane combo of adhd depression and ptsd that leaves me a mess more often than not#and obvi none of these things are being treated#plus my job literally DOESNT LET me take time off like it’s dead ass NOT ALLOWED#since I started there has been ONE time I got more then two days off in a row and I had to scrap and claw and beg and plead for that#so I can’t even call out because of these issues more often than not#because no time off and they only give me SIX HOURS of sick time a month#and when you work EIGHTY HOURS A MONTH that is quite literally NOTHING it’s not even a full day#and I…. just simply cannot keep living this way I feel like death more often than not#and I am too exhausted to do quite literally ANYTHING#so yeah…. I think I’m gonna have to actually find a doctor and a psychiatrist and get some of these things clinically diagnosed so I can#pursue some kind of accommodations#otherwise I’m gonna fucking lose it#kaz rambles
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all i want to do today is write
#there’s no doctor in today and my manager isn’t working#im actually the acting supervisor at the clinic today#(which is insane to me why would you trust this place in MY hands????)#so I’m hoping ill have most of the day to write my dumb little stories#the rebound AU is going so strong#and i would like to get started on the last chapter of i hate (love) you#and i just have so many ideas but there’s never enough time to write them#i get so excited about the next idea that i keep leaving things half finished in my drafts#sulley speaks#fan fic talk
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#man i am losing my fuckign MIND like actually going clinically insane this time!#had a huge fun cry out breakdown during lunch during my therapy session today 🤪🤪🤪#and this bitch had the audacity to come at me exactly like i’m paying him to#i’m. genuinely distraught hahaha#he’s saying that instead of just having the longest list of diagnoses ever now PLUS c-ptsd#he thinks it’s c-ptsd causing most of the other shit#which! fine! whatever! that would be SUCH a nice way to tie everything else up and hopefully throw it away#but like i can’t even get past the initial ‘oh babes. you have SUCH complex ptsd’#idk idk idk idk idk idk there’s just something so fun and wonderful about having your entire worldview upended#having lots of fun now doubling down on doubting my own perceptions and views of the world n people around me#me: listing out everything wrong with me#my therapist: yes you’ve literally just handed me a list of symptoms for this. congrats#poor guy really had to recenter me like three separate times ‘why is accepting this so hard for you?’#AND i’ve apparently been dissociating and not even the fun cool kind!!!#nooooooo i can’t just float n leave n go somewhere else#nooooooo instead i get the super annoying barely recognizable type that feels like i’m up one and slightly to the left#SUCH bullshit#shut up sydney
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2025 goals: destroy my autoimmune disease
#the fact that it so neglected in this country that they prescribed me a habit forming medication thats not actually safe for me to take….#like it actively has an ingredient in it that makes my condition activated…#and doctors have been calling me crazy#and I had to find the fucking clinical study that proves I’m right#like hello#fucking insane
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thanK you aIMee might actually be the funniest, most sagittarius thing taylor swift has ever done. she’s like “i’m clinically insane over this dude and everyone hates him someone lock me up” and “this other dude is too sad, doesnt want to marry me, and stole my youth whatever”
but kim k? fuck you kim k. just in case you forgot.
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polyband… but… qpr……………….. i’m going insane.
#i hc kats and toko as gay and momo as les so they can’t date Like That but as a qpr��. >:)#real 2 me actually :3#rarepair#crackship but not really?#i’m clinically insane#the ravings of a crazy person#this is coming from someone in a qpr btw
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(Starts overthinking horrifically abt my relationships) I think I hauve Covid
#I CAN FINALLY KILL MYSELF!!!!!!!#slash jay#no but fr idk I think I’m clinically insane#like actually#I wish I could blame some specific disorder but I won’t#I think my brain wants me to die#but i stay silly :3#it’s amazing how easily I can convince myself that my closest friends hate me#like logically I know it makes no sense#but boy howdy#is that brain effective
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