#I’ll updtae

[edge-oftheworld]

are the natural disasters referenced in 5sosverse songs related to climate change?

love like a landslide (caramel): no. soil erosion/deforestation maybe, so it’s connected

the room is on fire (bloodhound): probably, but not 100% sure

there’s a hole in the sun (tears!): no don’t buy the myth. people use that to pretend climate change doesn’t exist

we burnt the city without warning (red line): that was your own fault. but climate change makes it harder to put the fire out

running underwater, can’t make a sound, it’s drowning it’s drowning me out (close enough to feel you): no evidence of whether it’s a flood or just regular water (same goes with mum and diamonds and baby blue)

something to break the levee, the overflow in my heart (close my eyes): most likely yes. climate change makes floods a lot more common

dark city, can’t find the light in the sun (close my eyes): not really a natural disaster is it? sounds like air pollution

hoping for thunder in these desert eyes (saigon): yes thunderstorms in the desert are more common due to climate change

sun is gone, but you always liked this time of day (place in me): no that’s just a regular sunset time. same goes with the bursting sunrise in comedown

lost in the rubble, but the house stands all the same (repeat): that’s a really weird earthquake so no

so dark and dreary, please find the sun soon (garden life): it could be, or it could just be the weather. not everything needs to be a disaster

I’d set myself on fire (Benny): no I’m pretty sure you just admitted to being at fault

all alone in the city, I’ve never seen it this cold (promises): YES COLD IS ACTUALLY A CONSEQUENCE OF CLIMATE CHANGE IN SOME PLACES

lightning fast at night, whispers in the rain (I’m to blame): maybe partially

two birds on a wire, they don’t know that they’ll catch fire (I’m to blame): not really, this is mostly due to the risk of power lines but climate might have an influence

our house on fire (lonely heart): same as bloodhound. likely

hurricane insert name (nitsw): hurricanes have always happened, but climate change makes them worse. so partially

red desert: no there has been a desert there long before anthropogenic climate change but let’s not make it bigger

pouring rain (or tears) (want you back): not really, climate change will influence the heaviness of it but there’s always been rain. I chose the clean version because that’s got more evidence of climate change and it’s there it’s just minimal when there’s no average weather patterns to contrast it with. still I reckon it’s there so overall yes

dead man walking/crawling (youngblood): why are zombies considered a natural disaster?

burn too bright now the fire’s gone (babylon): pretty sure the whole premise of that empire is that it’s your own fault. so no. climate change would simply make the fire never go out and trust me that would be worse

enemy lines are drawn (more): by definition not a natural disaster. but it’s included because climate change causes political instability so…yes?

you haven’t found fish in the ocean (moving along): yes this is an overfishing and plastic pollution and climate change (which destroys their habitats) issue

rain in outer space: now that’s just absurd

earthquakes won’t wait (unpredictable): no. earthquakes are not related to climate change

sky is falling down, earth is crumbling around our feet (gotta get out): it’s not that catastrophic and if we keep going the way we are (switching to renewables nicely) that’s never gonna happen

[ruthytwoshakes]

UPDTAES ON THE FRIEND MAKING!!!

I did not make a friend. But that is okay!! I will try again next week. I found a group I can go to after school for free so I will try that instead.

I would have updated sooner but I was realllly busy and I got a really bad migraine tonight. Took a shit ton of advil and a nap and now I feel better yay!! I get them when I get sensory overload,, so not fun. They happen a lot, so it is okay I’ll live.

But uhh I am very exhausted, today and tomorrow I think I will be too tired to make any art. I apologize,,,, sensory overload takes a lot out of me and I want to rest so that I won’t be tired for even longer. E

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[yagamisdiary]

hi when will i’ll you updtae eldia

never

[lothcatlovesysalamiri]

Idk when i’ll get around to updating again

Maybe it was the caffeine from the Excedrin mixing with the tequila and Prosecco and fancy-ass mini cocktails I had that were all keeping me up last night, but I was thinking about posting about this, thinking about what I’d say, which blog i’d put it under, etc. Idk that I ever really reached any sort of a conclusion, and this post is only coming out of a.) a feeling that I want to inform anyone reading my slow-ass Rebels fic that idk when I’m going to updtae it again and b.) local whiskey.

Cut because of personal that i don’t wanna inflict on anyone who’s not up for it/hasn’t consented to my drama.

Things are rough. I’m feeling some identity issues. Stuff I’m not sure that’s important, not sure how to think about if it even is important, if I should even think about thinking about it, does it matter, do I care, does it affect anything. Edging up toward the next decade and having nothing in my life to show for it. Waking up every morning to anger and disappointment from my family (#ADHD). being a letdown and a failure, and every day I fuck up, like more than your average college-educated human, i feel like (”that’s just your low self-esteem talking! go get some therapy!”). When I was in college I used to fantasize about being a successful author. still here; still not successful, many many many years later. Every day is repetitive. My life feels meaningless, directionless, and purposeless. I feel like I manage other people’s emotions all while working on myself to be “a better person.” It’s just sort of become an endless cycle of shit/stuff/disappointing people/letting people down/being a failure/accomplishing nothing. i’m not even on here much anymore, and this used to be my Happy Place. I guess we all search for Purpose, but it feels extra challenging when you question yourself every step of the way. When you’re full of regrets and doubts and apologies and wincing. When you spend your whole past week literally waking up in the middle of the night screaming from nightmares. Liek I know “life is hard” and “being human is hard” and “it’s a wonder with all the complications of genes and DNA etc that any of us even function 😜” but I mean, some days I REALLY feel like i was behind the door when “How to Human” class was going on or when the Life Skillz were handed out. Because I suck, man. I. Suck. I feel unqualified to be anything to anyone:partner, parent, friend, sister, niece, aunt, daughter, granddaughter, etc. like i can’t do any of it right. Like I fuck up everything I do try to do. I feel like poison.

[thebarsondaily]

Update: 1st Annual Barson Fanfiction Awards

The nomination process has officially closed. I’ve heard from almost every author with the exception of few. So those fanfictions will not be included in the judging if I don’t hear from them before judging starts. Right now, the nominations page doesn’t reflect those that I haven’t heard from. I feel it is best to have the author’s written permission before I allow anyone to judge them in specific categories so that is the reason for that. 

I’ll be getting to the judges as quickly as I can get everything organized. It maybe a week or so before that actually happens so be patient with me as I have some family stuff happening next weekend, and I don’t know how often I’ll be able to be online. But it will happen as soon as I can get it all organized. 

Thanks to everyone that has participated and especially to the authors that have written so many amazing Barson fics. 

ETA: Updtaed Nominations page can be viewed here.