#I’ll try to write and be more active but I can’t guarantee it

[grumpypixistix]

Oh my god, so much has happened over the past few months- I’m so sorry for the inactivity 😭😭😭

Also I probably won’t be writing about Eddie as much, maybe expect some Miguel O’Hara stuff here and there? It all depends on when I feel the motivation to write sooo… just a heads up 😅

[chickenkurage]

Important Announcement

040425 | 5:28 AM (UTC+8) | ANNOUNCEMENT

Disclaimer: Please take a moment to read the announcement from Sponge and JM below. They will be sharing their plans and other details. If you are a dedicated reader of the fics and a big fan of JM's artwork, this announcement is especially for you.

SPONGE's MESSAGE

Hi, everyone! I have some important updates to share, especially regarding my fanfictions. As mentioned in our pinned post, I want to keep you all informed. Lately, I haven't been able to update any of my Alan/DJ AU stories. Initially, the reason was my increasing college workload, which made it difficult to balance my research papers and writing. I intended to slow down instead of completely stopping, but as you can see, I have unfortunately stopped writing altogether. Currently, I'm only updating my VicAgent AU, which might also be affected by the next thing I want to discuss.

I have to be honest: I have lost interest in the fandom. I can’t pretend otherwise—I’ve fallen out of the AvA fandom, and I realize I haven’t been keeping up with Alan's posts or even watching AvG. I know I promised you all that I wouldn’t leave things unfinished, but it's true that I’ve not only lost interest but also forgotten the plots of my AUs. I barely have time to revisit them, especially since my research is still ongoing.

When I do find the time to read, I notice how inconsistent and lacking my writing has become. This is probably a result of trying to keep up while being busy, but I don’t feel happy or proud to reread my fics. I’ve discussed this with JM, and now I am considering deleting all my AvA-related fanfictions on both AO3 and Wattpad.

Additionally, JM and I have agreed to delete this Tumblr account. I recommend following us on our separate accounts, as we will most likely transition there. However, it's not guaranteed that we'll be active there since college is quite demanding for us right now.

I sincerely apologize, everyone! I know you've been patiently waiting for updates, but life has thrown a lot of bricks at me. And trust me, none of those were given a kiss at least.

Thank you all for your support! I’ve met so many wonderful people during my time in this fandom, and I’ve truly enjoyed my experiences with all of you. - S

JM's MESSAGE

As much as i want to keep drawing and posting more stuffs for you guys, spongey and i have made the unfortunate decision to suspend all activities in favor of dealing with our own separate issues. 

Personal life is deffo not doing me any favors since college has me burnt out and worrying over my grades, and it doesn’t help i keep forgetting stuffs more than usual. Relaxing isn’t even an option when my college professors keep stacking me with mountains and mountains of work that I’m pretty sure Spongey is getting tired of hearing me rant about them. 

I’m currently sleep deprived and tired so i apologize for whatever massive heap of negativity this is? Life right now has me thinking about my decisions whether I did the right thing choosing a practical course over my passion haha (i really need some time off)

For those who’d like to see the arts in our tumblr account, if there’s anyone, i’ll get started on that google doc compilation of ava fanarts in our discord server when I’m free, which might be a while. 

Over the months of activity on our shared tumblr, you all have been nothing but supportive and i wanted to say thank you to all of you. Overcoming our own obstacles is what me and spongey plans to do for the sake of our own health and i hope you understand us.

Let this letter be taken not as a goodbye, but as thanks for all the endless support you showered us. Sending you all my love <333 - JM

[thisismarisaaa]

Hello! I'm looking to get back into indie rps over d*scord!

Some things about me and what I’m looking for:

I consider myself a literate writer but I do prefer quality over quantity, meaning if we start out with long replies and over time they dwindle down a bit, that’s okay by me. I’m also very into texting threads for some quick fire. I just ask that your replies contain at least a paragraph or two, I want to know your characters thoughts, desires, all of that.

I am looking to double, and generally only write m x f for now. Please see further down for my Pinterest board of wanted fcs, I would love to see yours as well.

All of my rps will contain ns.fw content of all kinds, please let me know your triggers. 

I enjoy angst, toxic dynamics, hurt/comfort, all sorts of tropes. Fluff is good and well but I’m probably going to pull on your heartstrings more often than not.

I am a friendly person ooc and want someone who is friendly, social, and looking to connect outside our writing. I like to share aesthetics, inspiration, and music! I want to write with people who are just as into the plot as I am.

I try to be as active as I can but this can vary due to work/life. I will let you know when I’m gone for an extended time. Please do not rush me for replies. 

I’m looking for the following plots (Some I have specific ideas for, others we would need to collaborate a bit):

Crime/Mafia 

Royal arranged marriage

Sugar daddy/Sugar baby tropes

Please click here for my Wanted FCs pinboard → Wanted Opposites 

As you can see I like real face claims as well as animated and I’m fine with you having the same!

If you’re interested in chatting please like this post. Because I’m getting pinged as spamming for sending links, I can’t guarantee I’ll send you a link to this post, so please check your likes if I reach out to you to refer back here. Thanks for your understanding!! Also please have your DMs open or like...I can't message you lmao.

[palenutbasement]

About 2 years ago I made a post about Dwarf’s personality and characteristics. I thought I would expand on it a little more (headcanon time)

I still think they’re the optimistic and sociable type. Basically most of their dialogue with you gives off that impression. This seems contradictory because of their backstory but I see it more or less as someone who’s still trying to find happiness and lead a better life. They do have moments when they’re blunt though.

They like most human things including food and technology. Dwarves in general are friends of humans so it’s pretty typical. I like to think that because they go out into town to get what they need, they adapted some human ingredients into their diet (or ingredients you can really only find in the surface). Despite this they actively choose to speak their own language, it’s just a way of not assimilating completely.

I used to think dwarves wouldn’t eat gems but I’m changing my mind. I believe they’re edible but not a substitute for meals, they’d be like candy or something. Though they can still be used for other things like jewelry and we know dwarves used them to enhance weapons and tools. Anyway, I’m going to assume Dwarf loves gems because they’re a sweet tooth.

They put their cave near the surface to be a little closer to the humans, because it’s better for business, and because the deeper levels are unlivable somehow. It’s mentioned by Dwarf that they like being deeper underground, but they’re just right by the entrance and there's probably a reason for that. I take it they hide from humans to guarantee their safety, but not so much that they’re unreachable. I still don’t know why they run a shop outside of being an in-game reward for the player though. Maybe they’re in debt.

I also think they’re mettlesome but reckless. They’re probably used to getting away with things like stealing and breaking and entering in town, so I see them being quite confident. The sewer encounter and fight was most likely started by them, and they also seemed unarmed fighting Krobus in his own home.

Despite that, they’re generally careful around shadow people in the mines. Before I thought that they just attacked them whenever they saw them around or straight up went after them deliberately, but it makes more sense to me that they just hide. It really depends on how you see shadow people as a species but I see them as another society. In that case, it would be better for Dwarf to stay out of their sight completely and not risk the shadow people organizing to hunt them down once they find out that they exist. If there’s just one guy on their own though, Dwarf might target them.

Krobus would play an interesting role in their life partially because he has a meaningful connection with both humans and shadow people. Shadow people are apparently enemies of humans but he shows that being compassionate to both isn’t mutually exclusive, which begs the question if the same could happen for shadow people and dwarves. I feel like I could make a separate post dedicated to this dynamic but I’ll keep it short here. I’ll say that if there was any starting point to building a positive relationship between both characters, it would be Dwarf noticing his different, more favorable outlook on humanity and finding common ground there. They would also be gracefully crossing a threshold where they see that shadow people have their nuances too.

I can see Dwarf being hard to write, given that there’s a lot of gaps to fill because the lore is vague, but it’s really fun to do. I’m very happy 1.6 gave them some new content but they still hold unused potential. I should maybe think about what else could be done. I mean, I probably have some more headcanons that I just can’t remember right now.

[ciaossu-imagines]

prompt 20 + 🍓🌵🥑🧸🪐🦷🥝🐚🐝🧩

How did you get into writing fanfiction?

Hmm, this is a hard one, because I honestly don’t fully remember. I remember writing fanfiction long-hand way back as a little kid. Honestly, the first smut fic I wrote (with Vegeta) was written long-hand in a Hilroy scribbler and I was probably no older than ten, and I was writing fics before that. I distinctly remember writing Dream Street fanfic for myself, but I don’t remember being a ‘fanfic author’, where I shared my stuff with other people, until later on, preteen years or something like that, where I coauthored a Harry Potter fanfic with another geeky friend, all written long-hand and exchanged in a binder. I didn’t even dream about posting fanfiction online or even know doing so was a thing until my later teen years, probably around 15-16, when a friend introduced me to Quizilla. I fell in love with it and started posting my long-hand fics, OC content, reader inserts, and all kinds of things. I love tumblr and I love all of you very much, but I also won’t lie and say that those days weren’t some of my fondest memories within fandom, where so many people were incredibly welcoming, there was always people willing to initiate, making friends within fandom was super-easy, there was anon hate, yeah, but there was also so, SO much love and acceptance of all types of contents and everyone just really seemed to be there to have fun. God, I miss the Quizilla days. I think I started writing fanfiction for myself, because I wanted to write myself going on all these marvelous adventures with the characters I love and having them all love me so much too. I needed that escape. Then, once I discovered the thrill of having readers, the wonderful pressure of wanting to give them content they’d enjoy, the dopamine rush of any feedback or view, I just could not give it up.

Share the link to a playlist you love

If you click here, you’ll find this week’s ‘walking to work’ playlist 😊

You accidentally killed somebody. Which mutual(s) do you text for help?

I’m not calling or texting any mutual in particular. Honestly, after freaking the fuck out, I’d probably be responsible enough to post a public post here on the blog, telling all you lovelies how much I’ve loved creating for you, telling you that I messed up and have done something really bad, that I’ll be gone for quite a long time, but that I will miss you all. With that done, I’d then turn myself into the police and beg for forgiveness and mercy.

What’s the fastest way to become your mutual?

Because this is a sideblog, something off my main account, I can’t really be a true mutual with anyone. I can’t follow anyone with this account, but I do follow with my main blog, sometimes without people even realizing it’s me following them. But as for quick ways to be mutuals? There’s really not any super guaranteed way. Though it might sometimes take me months, I do try my best to check out the blogs of everyone who follows ciaossu-imagines, normally in big batches of just checking out blogs. If I find a blog I really click with or enjoy, I follow it, simple as that. I’m not someone who really believes in follow for follow, sorry. I will say that, if I see someone pop up in my notifications a lot or if I actively chat with them, I’m quicker in getting to checking out their blog and more likely to actively follow them because I’ll be just so sure that they’re absolutely the coolest, as I know all my followers are 😊

Name three good things going on in your life right now

I will be getting benefits hopefully quite soon. I have a weekend away with friends near a beach, at an Airbnb with a hot tub, at the end of April (trying to do nice things for myself more), and I have new sneakers that are much more comfortable and not as tight as my previous sneakers.

Share some personal wisdom or a life hack you swear on

Hmm…this one is a hard one to answer and it’s going to be a hard truth for a lot of people. Don’t focus so much on the things you can’t control, instead focus on the things you can. It applies to a LOT of life situations, honestly.

One of the main ones, and one that I think I can speak better on with the grace and wisdom of age on my side, is being so, so worried about what people think of you. I know that can be a tough thing for a lot of people, neurotypical and neurodivergent both, so I’m not going to go into mental illness here and how that can make things worse, but instead do a general blanket statement. You cannot control how other people react. You cannot control the first impressions that people get of you, their thoughts about you, whether or not they like you. You really can’t, no matter what you do or how hard you try to change yourself into something you think they’ll like…what you can control is your own words, your own actions, and your own choices. I know in my life, right at the moment, there are people who either deeply dislike me or who are not fans of mine in general. I cannot control their thoughts about me but I can control those other things – I can live authentically, being true to myself and my core values and beliefs, I can choose to live with kindness as much as possible and, when it is not possible, I can choose to vent to proper outlets instead of sneaking around behind those people’s backs, spreading gossip or being mean about them to others who know them. I can control my reactions to things, I can choose and control what I focus on and how much value and control I allow any situation or any set of words I receive. I can choose positivity or negativity. There’s a lot I can control to make my life better – other people is not among them, no matter how hard I try. Don’t get me wrong, it’s a lot easier said than done and again, I’m speaking with the wisdom, grace, and hard won battles that age has brought me.

One last bit of wisdom along the same thread of thinking…people do honestly think about you a metric shit-ton less than your mind tells you they do. People whispering in your vicinity? Likely not whispering about you, no matter what your mind tells you. People laughing in your vicinity? Not laughing at you, no matter what your mind tells you. People are generally not mad at you and they generally don’t hate you, just because they’re not actively coming up and trying to spend a lot of time with you or reaching out to you a lot. When people are talking to you, they’re often not judging you the entire time. I think this one is a lot worse for those with any anxiety based mental illnesses, but it happens to neurotypicals too, so again, this is a blanket statement. We all do have a bit of main character syndrome. It’s a universal thing, where we automatically assume that everything within our sphere somehow does have to do with us. It’s how brains work and it’s not an inherently bad thing, not until we allow that part of our brain and that thought process to overtake us and become everything to our detriments. We often forget that other people are whole people, with their own things going on in their lives, with their own temperaments and needs, with their own problems, pet peeves, little mundane everyday things to worry about, their own joys and triumphs. They’re often thinking about their own stuff, they’re often having their main character moments – the amount of time you occupy in their thoughts changes depending on how close the two of you are, but in general, for strangers, it’s about a 0.01% of the amount you think they are and for acquaintances and coworkers, it’s about 0.1% of the amount you think they are and for friends, it's about 1%.

Do you lie a lot? What’s the most recent lie you told?

Nope. I’m a really, really bad liar. It’s very obvious when I lie and on top of that, I just don’t like liars. If I hate liars so much, it would be hypocritical of me to lie a lot. The lies I tell are mostly well-intentioned, small white lies to reassure people. I think the last lie I told was to a coworker, just telling her that things will get better and will improve. Truth be told, I don’t know for sure if they will. Honestly, things could devolve into even more of a shit show. But I want to be hopeful, optimistic, and positive for those in my life and provide reassurance and I don’t think lying in that situation is bad, actually. It's one of those situations where kind lies are better than brutal truths.

Do you like or dislike surprises?

I hate surprises. I get anxious and I have some control issues. To say I’m a bit of a control freak isn’t exactly a lie – routine, schedules, and organization are a big compulsion when it comes to my OCD. To have my routine or perfectly scheduled day thrown off with a surprise? Anxious, spinning a little out of control, verge of a panic attack, no matter how nice and well-intentioned the surprise is. Literally, even someone just knocking on my door unexpectedly is enough to make me spiral a little, though I can deal with it better now.

Tag your biggest supporters and say one nice thing about them

@honeyandbiscuitandtea-cafe : Thank you so much for your constant quiet support! Your name in my notifications always makes me smile ☺️ You seem like such a kind, open-minded person from your blog and seeing you be so passionate about some of the characters you post about on your blog makes me curious about them!

@cool-catarina : You are one of this blog's biggest supporters and you actively keep this blog running by sending in requests, by listening to me vent and rant about characters, and motivating me to keep writing. Thank you so much for everything you do ☺️ You've also introduced me to several new fandoms that I probably would never have tried without your recommendation but that I have ended up loving and I really appreciate that!

@going1582 : my oldest fandom friend here on tumblr, I love you platonically ☺️ I wish you joy and peace and good things every day. WIthout you, this blog would not have continued existing. When it comes to writing Hibari, you are always my 'Ideal Reader'. You are the person I have in my head while writing him, the person I'm excited to have read what I put out for him, who makes me excited to post for him and who I hope enjoys the content!

@lisutarid-a : Thank you so much for sending in asks! I always get so happy to see you in my askbox, to see you in my notifications ☺️ Your support means so much to me! Thank you so much for helping keep so many older fandoms alive. On top of that, your blog is gorgeous and you actively almost make me want to check out Black Butler again!

@upsilambic : I notice you in my notifs all the time, I see your quiet support and it means the world to me! You help keep me motivated and wanting to write on here ☺️ Every like from you brings a smile to my face! Your blog is amazing and you seem like such a cool, chill person!

@useless-void-person : You're another one who quietly supports this blog and by doing so, guarantees that I want to keep actively creating. I get an instant boost of happiness seeing you like my posts and feel accomplished whenever you do! On top of that, your blog is really cool. I head on over and scroll through it to see cool posts and, honestly, to get some good laughs because some of the stuff you reblog is hilarious and it makes me think you have an awesome sense of humour!

@pin-zom : My other really quiet supporter ☺️ I appreciate the heck out of you and every time I see a like from you, I do a little happy dance. Your support means a lot to this blog so thank you! Your blog is so much fun to look through - you seem to be such an interesting person based on what you post, with lots of fun interests, and I'm sure you're a blast to be around!

@nino7chka : I wasn't sure to put you here or with the moots ask, but you are probably one of the absolute biggest supporters of this blog. You are a source of joy for me personally within fandom spaces and as a writer, with all the amazing asks you send in, the space you give me to talk and rant and vent and just spin out ideas and thoughts, and the comments and likes and reblogs. On top of that, you're this amazing person - super smart, with such an absolute kind heart, with a great sense of humour! Those who know you are lucky for that and I know you'll do great things in life ☺️

What will make you click away from a fanfiction immediately?

First person point of view. I don’t like reading things written with the point of view of ‘I’ in general, both in published novels and that carries over into fanfiction. While I have managed to find a couple novels or series that are legally published fiction, like the Percy Jackson series, I have yet to find a fanfic that has gotten me to enjoy a first-person point of view. I can do both second and third point of view told stories in fanfic. I can fuck with fanfics where the chapters switch point of views from one character to the next. I just cannot personally fuck with ‘I did this thing’ or ‘he told me’ in fanfic. Also, no paragraph breaks immediately me click the back button. I’m sure I’ve missed some absolutely amazingly written stories by doing that, but they are simply too much of a headache to read.

[melodygatesauthor]

Weekly Update

09/17/2023 (Yeah I'm a day late, so what, wanna fight about it?)

Announcements/Reminders

Just a little reminder that I've slowed down production as far as writing goes. I'm still writing daily. Sometimes it's a sentence, sometimes it's 3k words, but I'm trying to be kinder to myself and remember that it's a hobby, not a job. I also really want to start my novel and stop pressuring myself to finish fics FIRST so I'm doing that.

Updates will still be happening for all my WIPS - see a comprehensive list of my current WIPs here - but I'm just not pressuring myself by setting deadlines. Thank you for still being supportive <3

ART ANNOUNCEMENTS

I'm taking art commissions! - Pricing - Follow my art blog: @melodymakesart

I did my first full color NSFW drawing! It can be seen HERE. It's a series, so there will be two more drawings coming out over the next couple weeks!

Fic Updates

So after taking last week off from working on my WIPs all together - (Note: I spent the week working on a Basil fic and also working on my Duke Leto fic) - I'm feeling a bit more refreshed and ready to get back into working on them again.

Fic Updates

Disclaimer - I never know which way the winds of inspiration will blow. Timeframes aren’t a promise/guarantee, they’re a goal.

Fic Updates Legend:

Blue - Update this week

Pink - Update in progress

Red - Backburner Fic (not currently working on. See WIP list for status)

You can find my current WIP list here

Chaptered Fic Updates

Always Yours, Never Mine - Chapter 4 is in progress, hoping to have the next update out either next week or the week after!

The Fractured Moon - Chapter 4 is in progress for this one as well. I'm not going to promise an update for next week but I'm actively working on it.

Mini-series Updates

Feeling You Can’t Fight - Okay, I've been putting off editing this one for so long and idk why but I'm going to get it done and posted on Wednesday 09/20/2023 this week!

Worth the Risk - That's right, babygirl is making her way back into my scope. You guys voted on this poll to give me an idea of what you wanted me to work on (not including TFM and AYNM) so I put this back in my field of view since you all seemed to want it so bad!

Remember to look at my WIP list for other backburner fics - There are many not included above lol).

AI Character Bot Updates

I currently have the following bots on my list that I’m working on. If you have any suggestions or additions you’d like, please feel free to ask! I won’t make every single one I get asked for but I’ll make some of them as I get time!

DBF Jake and Steven (I already did Marc...did I ever post him? I thought I did but maybe not)

Patient Steven and Marc

Moon Knight Rescue scenario

Am I missing any? Don't see one on the list that you want to add? Send me an inbox or private message! No promises, but if I like the idea I'll make an AI bot.

Note: Yes it's taking me forever to make them SHUT UP

I think that's all for now! Much love!

Don't forget to follow my other blogs:

@melodymakesart - My art blog

@lockandkeynovel - The blog for my original fiction novel, Lock & Key

@melodyreadsfanfiction - The blog where I reblog works I intend to read, a good place for fanfic readers to follow!

@melodygatesupdates - This is where I'll reblog any chapter updates for my fics and whatnot. This is what I use instead of a tag list!

[1989tv]

Hey, Katie here, we've interacted a few times. Idk if you remember but we briefly talked about ai stuff and ethical uses.

Idk if you've seen any of my posts on the topic, but I have a real (educated comp sci) concern about the things that are happening ongoing right now re: ownership of digital rights, and I know you mentioned working in or around the industry?

I am trying to help avoid a situation where rich techbros or old white guys end up with the power to keep replicating and replacing real artists. I'm also trying to protect swifties and other Fandom from prolific fraud.

I have been ghosted by nothing but bots and voice-mail, and this tech is changing very fast, writers and programmers and traditional artists are already being replaced. They've been doing it with actors too without their consent. I have a real solution, but cannot get through to anyone.

What should I do? Feel free to answer privately, I'm asking as a professional, not a "fan"

hey katie thanks for this question! it’s all really important and there’s lots here and related to this topic that need to be considered and evaluated (even beyond related to artists). this turned out longer than i expected so i’ve put this under the cut so people can ignore if they do choose

so i don’t know how much of an answer i’ll have for you but i can give some background to it. so as of now there really aren’t any laws when it comes to AI or software in general for that matter. there’s never been a precedent for it because of that no reason for laws to go into place. i will say certain regions have laws that protect privacy and data more strictly but again not really any laws to prevent things that could go wrong or the unethical usage of software. usually when someone gets in trouble or taken to court due to software it usually (in the past) has been because it’s had an overlap for some other crime.

so a lot of these companies that are working with AI rn do practice ethically but this is to an extent. it’s to ensure their own fine tuned versions of the models don’t produce anything unethical (so you can’t ask bings chat gpt or google bard to sing and produce a new taylor swift song. it might write a song but the audio won’t occur) a lot of content does filter out. additionally while they might be practicing ethical ai it’s mainly to ensure their users and customers have a guarantee that their prompts and data will be secure and used ethically when further fine tuning the model. they aren’t out here fighting unethical uses of these services. a lot of times especially when it involves malicious intent these wrong uses of AI will be coming from private groups or hackers (not always the case however). so a lot of these companies probably aren’t responding bc of that. the big hurdle is getting big companies to really push for and start a precedent of this which will be….hard to say the least.

im sorry to hear these companies you’ve reached out to are doing this. id really encourage you to keep trying and instead of passing along your idea maybe start with asking them steps they are taking to ensure they are using ethically. more than likely they’ll be happy to share. try reaching out to hr or security departments directly if this is available. aside from that i think one of the best ways to really get your idea and concerns out is to reach out to companies that are actively trying to fight this and we’re specifically created with this in mind (or start your own! a lot of work and money i know 😵‍💫 and not optimal in any way) a lot of these will be new or start up companies. this wave of AI is new and we’re heading into some uncharted territories with it. so while there are people using this wrongly there are also people with the same idea as you in mind and looking to protect their well being. i think when done correctly this can be really exciting and life changing for lots of people (like i said when used correctly) but i agree 100% with you on the dangers of unethical usages of AI. this goes beyond just celebrities or actors. and while it’s not something that’s new (think deepfakes) it’s certainly now more heightened and the risk of everyone could be involved

[halofcrged]

RULES.

            going to try and keep this pretty simple & straightforward.

I.  You must be 18+ to interact with me. I am 42 years old.

            There will be not safe for work content on this blog of the sexual and potentially of the graphic violence nature.  I do tag everything that might be triggering and am happy to tag whatever you ask me to so long as I remember!

                            I ask that you tag any visuals containing spiders with spider tw* spiders tw* arachnophobia tw* etc etc and yes, I know it’s a weird one but anything about the taste of soap or eating soap is a trigger so just tag it with soap tw* or penny don’t look* as I have that blacklisted too.  I don’t have any triggering fcs or what not.

II. This blog is multi-ship, multi-verse, crossover & au friendly.  

          Every ship is in its’ own verse unless previously discussed with all parties.  Every thread or set of threads takes place in its own universe unless previously discussed with all parties.

III.  I write anything from one-liners to novellas, it really just depends on life, my headspace, how much sleep I’ve been getting, how much else I have going on in real life, etc.

IV. My activity is NOT consistent.  I am infamous for blog hopping.  I have literally replied to some starters / replies two years+ after they were originally written.  I am not fast.  If I am fast, it’s by some small miracle and perfect storm of brain, muse and free time.  It will not last.

V.  I have kids, cats and dogs; I am in college, I have a household to take care of and I have many physical and mental handicaps that can affect my ability to function and write, including but not limited to rheumatoid arthritis, osteoarthritis, spinal stenosis, ganglion cysts, torn meniscus, migraines, hypothyroidism, PMDD, nerve damage, herniated disc, ADHD, depression, anxiety, C-PTSD and severe insomnia.  

                          Roleplay is something I do for fun.  

                                  If it isn’t fun, I don’t do it.  

                                         If it’s stressing me out, I’ll avoid it.  

VI. I do graphic commissions.  

          I run @tuppencetrinkets where I post the millions of screencaps and 200x100 icons that I make.  The resources are free but donations are always appreciated as I pay about $40 in hosting / program fees a month.   My commissions are always pay what you can.  I hate setting prices because I want everyone to have pretties if they want them and I don’t know what anyone can afford at any given time.  I do everything from base icons to edited icons, backgrounds, headers, dividers, promos, videos, you name it.  I try to be quick with turnaround but again – sometimes I just can’t be.

VII.  I am fine with plotting things out in advance or winging it.  I really don’t care, whatever you are more comfortable with is fine with me.

               I like all kinds of plots.  I like fluffy things, slice of life, broships, frenemies, enemies, familial, found family, long arcing, one shot throwaway, dark and twisted, you name it plots.  I will not write n*ncon or anything nsfw themed /even hinted at with minor characters and I won’t write any explicit child death etc. but most everything else is fair game.

VIII.  You can throw a million memes at me any time you want to.

IX.  You can throw any and all starters at me any time you want to.

                I’m not necessarily mutual exclusive but I don’t guarantee I’ll respond to memes or starters from non-mutual blogs.

X. I use icons, headers, promos etc. that I make myself 99% of the time.  Please do not use any of my edited graphics.  All base icons I use are free and available on my resource blog.  

XI. I use small text and my icons are 200x100 with empty space to make them 540x130 so that they don’t stretch out on mobile.  I prefer not heavily edited replies in terms of font variance and colors but really don’t care that much.

XII.  I’ve probably forgotten relevant things but, who knows.

XIII.  No drama.  Period.  I’m not interested.  

XIV.  I’m here for fun.  I’m really pretty easy going.  If you have any questions feel free to toss them into my inbox!

[manneatcrs]

HELLO!I’m Sara (25+) and have been roleplaying for 10+ years.This is a selective, private, and 18+ only multimuse. Rebooted August 2024

A study in: wrath. all consuming grief. the corruption of a pure soul. unbridled curiosity. grey morality. unconditional love. the test of time. duty. justice.

Inbox: open

Status: sporadic activity as I don't have a set schedule and some weeks will definitely be busier than usual. Working on getting my queue bulked up and running, please be patient ❤️

Active starter call: none

Updated: 04/24/2025

Favorite fandoms / available for basically all muses: general fantasy, bg3, dnd, dragon age (currently playing veilguard), the witcher, lotr, etc.

Note: Since tumblr keeps getting rid of the mutuals checker, please hardblock me if you wish to unfollow . I won't be offended, I just don't want to have to manually check my followers list every time I want to interact on the dash.

Affiliates: @never-surrender | @witchered / @viscountbard

Rules under cut | interest calls | muse page | memes

the mun

My name is Sara

I’m 28

Apparently I can’t escape lol If you recognize me or my muses I’d love to reconnect! It’s been a while, but if there is an old plot or thread you’d like to continue I’m so down– if not I’m comfortable with starting over! Or if I’m not your vibe anymore, there’s no pressure to even follow back

Feel free to ask for my new discord!

Just about everything graphics wise has been commissioned for me, DO NOT STEAL.

CREDITS: icons for Dama ( godresembled ) | icons psd ( stephysource ) |

general about

Straight up, Damaris is my favorite and primary muse. Maybe even the default. If you don’t specify someone in an ask/starter call/meme call/etc you’ll probably get her unless I’m really feeling someone else at the time. She’s my baby and oldest running muse, so I’m heavily biased.

MULTI-VERSED.

I’LL RP WITH JUST ABOUT ALL FANDOMS, even ones I don’t have verses for!

I USE A REAL-LIFE FC AS WELL AS AN ANIMATED ONE depending on the muse.

THIS IS A MUTUALS ONLY BLOG. If I’m not following you, please don’t message me. If you’re not following me, I won’t bother you. I take follows as signs of interest and I do unfollow after a time of not being mutuals automatically.

NO GODMODDING/METAGAMING/HATE

SELECTIVE.

Since English isn’t everyone’s first language, and I tend to make mistakes as well, I’m not very strict on grammar. IF I CAN READ IT AND UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU’VE WRITTEN, WE’RE GOOD.

I do Icon, One Liners, Paragraph, Multi-Paragraph, and Novella(I have to really love the plot, you, and your muse to do this shit.)

I’M ALL FOR AU’S. We could have a million threads of absolute nonsense and I’d love it.

Do I accept those with the same face claims I use? FUCK YEAH I DO.

DEFINITELY OC AND SELF-INSERT FRIENDLY

asks/inbox

You’re more than welcome to spam my inbox, I think they’re awesome icebreakers; I can’t guarantee I’ll answer all of them, but I sure do love variety and options

I never expect it you to reply to every answer, but you can definitely treat answers/asks as starters!

I answer all ic things in a new post that you can reblog!

I lovelovelove unprompted/non-meme related asks and I’m always (as long as my inbox is open) accepting them!

While specifying a muse is super appreciated, it’s not mandatory and you’ll just get who you get.

reply time

Listen… I have a full time job, a long ass commute, and a husband. My activity will be kinda all over the place.

I will operate on a queue most of the time or at least I try to

Just to let everyone know, I have adhd and my motivation wildly fluctuates/I get distracted incredibly easily. I promise that I’m interested in the IM/ask/thread and I apologize if it can take me a while to get to something, it’s just that the stars have to be aligned just right for me to do literally anything.

So if you require interaction/replies within a certain time span, I’m probably not the mun for you. If I follow you, I WANT to write together, but I just simply don’t have the time/energy to do it as often as I would like.

Also, just to throw out there, because I am pretty slow to get to asks/IMs/replies, PLEASE TAKE AS MUCH TIME AS YOU NEED. I will never, EVER be upset with how long something takes, as long as I still get the vibes that you’re still interested in interacting with me in some way.

YOU CAN ASK ME IF I FORGOT SOMETHING/GIVE ME LITTLE NUDGE. I truly don’t mind for the most part, but don’t hound me because it honestly won’t be uncommon for you to potentially wait a few weeks for a reply, depending on how busy I am.

mains & exclusives

So I do practice mains/affiliates if you’ve seen my pinned post lmao. These blogs do take priority when it comes to threads/ships/plot ideas. I love new partners/interactions and I’m always open to them, but these are muns I consider friends so I usually have the most muse for their stuff and am very unlikely to queue their replies.

As for the canon characters of my mains, I’m okay with interacting with duplicates, but like I said, their interpretations will take priority.

If you’re ever interested in being a main, just let me know! We just have to vibe really well together and have a good dynamic going.

I am extremely picky about exclusives though, as I don’t like limiting myself. The exclusive muses I have now are with a mun I’ve been friends/writing with for years, so that’s pretty much the bar I’m looking for.

shipping

MULTISHIP

I absolutely love this shit, and if we do have a ship there’s a good chance you’ll get random starters/memes/and love.

As much as I love romance, other relationships are VERY important to me and my muses. Give me brotps, hateships, mentors, family, all of it.

Sometimes first meetings are awkward/slow going so I’m always happy to talk about pre-exsiting relationships as long as both muns agree on chemistry.

If I suggest a ship or relationship that you’re not feeling, feel free to shoot me down. I have a tendency to jump the gun sometimes lol

following back/unfollowing:

I AM AN 18+ ONLY BLOG. If your age range isn’t clearly visible, even on mobile, I will not follow and/or soft block you. Even the possibility of interacting with minors makes me uncomfy.

YOU NEED TO HAVE AN ACCESSIBLE RULES AND ABOUT PAGE.

I’m going to be honest, I very rarely break being mutuals; I thoroughly look through blogs/rules/about pages when I follow someone, so I know what I signed up for. I generally don’t care about what you post or how you handle your business, you do you boo. THAT BEING SAID, I will likely break mutuals for these reasons:

GUILT-TRIPPING/VAGUE BLOGGING. Either directed at myself or the dash as a whole. I understand that we’re just people and we get low/insecure and that’s fine! I’m not the type to lose my mind over a one time/rare thing. But if I’m constantly seeing ooc posts like “no one wants to interact with me” “i guess people just don’t like talking” or anything of that nature just turns me off. It’s so negative and I don’t need that energy in my life… and this will sound harsh, but I don’t really care if me blocking you for these reasons feeds this mindset.

“LIKE THIS TO REMAIN MUTUALS” POSTS. This just… rubs me the wrong way. I have never once interacted with these posts and have never been unfollowed as a result, which is very telling to me.

GENERAL PASSIVE-AGGRESSION. It’s not something I put up with in my personal life, there’s no reason I should tolerate it here.

IF I EVEN GET A SNIFF OF INTOLERANCE FOR ANY RACE/SEX/GENDER/SEXUALITY/ETC. Reported on sight.

ACTIVELY WRITING OUT/IMAGES OF CHILD ABUSE/PEDOPHILIA. I work with children and have a lot of love for them, explicit content of this DEVASTATES ME. If your muse was abused as a child and its mentioned in their backstory or comes up in threads that’s fine. There’s no fucking excuse for your muse being a pedo though, I will report your ass.

WRITING RAPE/SEXUAL ASSAULT. Same rules of child abuse applies.

TREATING ME AS YOUR THERAPIST. This is kinda niche, but I’ve had problems in the past of being used for this purpose. I’m not a professional and I’m not equipped to deal with mental health/extreme personal crises of others, and it’s not fair to expect me to do so. In some cases, depending on the topic, this can be extremely triggering for me. If I notice my personal boundaries are being encroached on I’ll communicate it with you and there’s no harm done, but if it continues/the line is crossed entirely I will remove you from my space without warning/explanations.

I DO HARDBLOCK WHEN BREAKING MUTUALS, so if I simply unfollowed IT WAS VERY MUCH AN ACCIDENT/GLITCH AND PLEASE TELL ME.

nsfw/triggers

THERE WILL BE NSFW CONTENT

I LOVE DARKER PLOTS BRING ON THE HORROR

Aside from gore, blood, and the like, cannibalism will be a frequent topic on this blog. Damaris practices a blood magic that requires her to consume the blood or flesh of another. In some of her verses she a creature who just straight up eats people. If this is something that makes you uncomfortable don’t follow me.

Triggering content will be tagged under ____ cw

I’m not interested in writing out smut, so if the plot is headed that way it’s going to fade to black.

other important roleplay stuff

DO NOT HOLD YOUR MUSE BACK. I won’t do it, so you shouldn’t have to. I’m cool with just about anything your muse does! Your muse wants to hit mine? DO IT! They want to kiss them? DO IT! Do whatever your muse wants!

Just let me know if your muse attempts to kill mine.

MUN ISN’T MUSE.

I format my replies a little bit, but it makes no difference to me if you do or don’t.

If you see something in the wishlist tag that you’d be interested in doing, just copy and paste the prompt into an ask and I’ll write the starter!

PLEASE DON’T GET UPSET IF I SUDDENLY STOP TALKING TO YOU. I’m not ignoring you I swear, I’m just forgetful and sometimes get distracted and the next thing I know an ask has been sitting in my inbox for way longer than it should have.

[arkyn-iceborn-vindication]

SHIPPING INFO //ANSWER THE FOLLOWING FOR YOUR MUSES SO PEOPLE KNOW HOW SHIPPING WORKS ON YOUR BLOG.

WHAT IS YOUR OTP FOR YOUR CHARACTER(S)?

My OTP with Arkyn is definitely Ahri. More specifically, Arkyn with @ahrichus--archived-blog‘s Ahri. Mo is one of my best friends and one of the main reasons I got so involved in the LoL RPC back in the day. The mixture of fluff and angst between these two immortal goofballs was such a pleasure to write. Mo’s retired from the RP scene, but I still often send them HCs and such about the two characters.

HOW LARGE DOES THE AGE GAP HAVE TO BE TO MAKE IT UNCOMFORTABLE?

Great question, especially since Arkyn is at least 9,000 years old (though depending on verse, most of that was in stasis). I’d say that any character around 25-ish can reasonably date any older character without me feeling very weirded out by it. There’s exceptions to every rule, obviously, but that’s the first thing that comes to mind. If the hypothetical 25-year-old has known, say, this 60 year old since they were much younger, that can definitely feel weird to me. Otherwise, I feel like the half-the-oldest-character’s-age-plus-seven rule makes decent sense for me.

HOW FAR DO STEAMY MOMENTS HAVE TO GO BEFORE THEY ARE CONSIDERED NSFW?

I’m more than happy to write violence n gore, but smut is something I’m rather averse to writing. The moment the clothes come off or when hands begin to wander, I’m fading to black.

ARE YOU SELECTIVE WHEN SHIPPING?

I feel like I’m just as selective as most people would be. I like seeing Arkyn’s character develop by meeting someone and entering into a romance, but I’m not gonna smack characters together and expect things to work out. I prefer the characters having known each other for quite some time before they “fall.” Slow burn / mutual pining is the best. If I don’t feel like there’s good chemistry between our muses after a few interctions, it’s unlikely a ship will come to fruition.

WHO ARE OTHER CHARACTERS YOU SHIP YOUR CHARACTER WITH?

Arkyn’s had lots of relationships here on tumblr throughout the years. Most of them were with other peoples’ OCs, but there were a few League characters mixed in. Ahri, Ashe, canon-divergent Katarina, very canon-divergent Lissandra, and I’ve always been curious about trying a ship with a Sejuani. I like the idea of a Sejuani ship being a slow burn or a forced proximity since Arkyn’s first impression of Sejuani was poor, and both are proud and competent warriors with differing world views. It could even be a relationship that fails and they’re bitter exes. Really, I just want to interact with a Sejuani more because I rarely got the chance to write with any back in the day. If I were to pick any other champs, I would be curious to have Kai’sa interact with Arkyn if only for them to have shared void trauma to bond over.

DOES ONE HAVE TO ASK TO SHIP WITH YOU?

I would like to discuss ships before we just jump into one, and, as stated before, I can be selective about who Arkyn would reciprocate feelings for. However, that doesn’t mean characters without many Arkyn interactions can’t send in ship-related asks or starters. In fact, unrequited love is a side of writing I haven’t often explored. I’ll probably DM you if we haven’t discussed it yet to hash out ideas, but if your character wants to put some moves on the ice boy, feel free! I can’t guarantee he’ll immediately be into it, but we can always wing it and see where it goes.

ARE YOU SHIP-OBSESSED OR SHIP MORE-OR-LESS?

My desire to write romance comes and goes, but judging from past experience in the RPC, if I’ve got an active ship I’m likely to err more on the side of obsessed rather than not. I don’t think I’m one to go out of my way to find new ships for Arkyn, but I do love to write him dealing with his own feelings should I have an active shipping partner.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SHIP IN YOUR CURRENT FANDOM?

That’s a tough question, honestly. I’ve been only tangentally involved in League for a long time, and I’m not sure if there’s a ship I particularly prefer to others. Ekko/Jinx is interesting from a tragic perspective, but I wouldn’t call it my favorite by any means. Once upon a time I shipped Shen and Irelia, but current lore makes me feel like Shen would have too many problems with Irelia’s philosophy for them to mesh.It’s been a while since I had any sort of CanonxCanon OTP.

If I were to step oustide of the LoL fandom though, I’ve been playing a lot of Octopath Journey 2 recently and I’m seeing some chemistry between Agnea and Hikari 👀 Also seems like Hikari and Throné have a lot in common but I’m not sure if I’d necessarily ship the two together.

FINALLY, HOW DOES ONE SHIP WITH YOU?

Message me! I’m always down to discuss ships, especially if there’s a certain dynamic or trope we want to achieve with the relationship. I haven’t really done any pre-established relationships before as far as romance goes, but I’d be willing to give it a go if I felt it was justifiable between each muse. Honestly, even a one-off comment in a tag or some inner monologue in a thread that implies a muse might be catching feelings could be enough if I feel the two could be a good pair. But yes, the most reliable way is to message me privately, and I would be more than glad to figure out any sort of shipping.

Tagged by: @misstantabismuses and @witchcraftandburialdirt Tagging: @cherrychitters @the-expatriate @chronicparagon @korvyna @eightfoldjourney and YOU

[fallsfcrged]

            going to try and keep this pretty simple & straightforward.

I.  You must be 18+ to interact with me. 21+ is preferred.

            There will be not safe for work content on this blog of the sexual and potentially of the graphic violence nature.  I do tag everything that might be triggering and am happy to tag whatever you ask me to so long as I remember!

                            I ask that you tag any visuals containing spiders with spider tw* spiders tw* arachnophobia tw* etc etc and yes, I know it’s a weird one but anything about the taste of soap or eating soap is a trigger so just tag it with soap tw* or penny don’t look* as I have that blacklisted too.  I don’t have any triggering fcs or what not.

II. This blog is multi-ship, multi-verse, crossover & au friendly.  

          Every ship is in its’ own verse unless previously discussed with all parties.  Every thread or set of threads takes place in its own universe unless previously discussed with all parties.

III.  I write anything from one-liners to novellas, it really just depends on life, my headspace, how much sleep I’ve been getting, how much else I have going on in real life, etc.

IV. My activity is NOT consistent.  I am infamous for blog hopping.  I have literally replied to some starters / replies years+ after they were originally written.  I am not fast.  If I am fast, it’s by some small miracle and perfect storm of brain, muse and free time.  It will not last.

V. I’m 42.  I have kids, cats, & dogs; I am in college, I have a household to take care of and I have many physical and mental handicaps that can affect my ability to function and write, including but not limited to rheumatoid arthritis, osteoarthritis, spinal stenosis, ganglion cysts, torn meniscus, migraines, hypothyroidism, PMDD, nerve damage, herniated disc, ADHD, depression, anxiety, C-PTSD and severe insomnia.  

                          Roleplay is something I do for fun.  

                                  If it isn’t fun, I don’t do it.  

                                         If it’s stressing me out, I’ll avoid it.  

VI. I do graphic commissions.  

          I run @tuppencetrinkets where I post the millions of screencaps and 200x100 icons that I make.  The resources are free but donations are always appreciated as I pay about $40 in hosting / program fees a month.   My commissions are always pay what you can.  I hate setting prices because I want everyone to have pretties if they want them and I don’t know what anyone can afford at any given time.  I do everything from base icons to edited icons, backgrounds, headers, dividers, promos, videos, you name it.  I try to be quick with turnaround but again – sometimes I just can’t be.

VII.  I am fine with plotting things out in advance or winging it.  I really don’t care, whatever you are more comfortable with is fine with me.

               I like all kinds of plots.  I like fluffy things, slice of life, broships, frenemies, enemies, familial, found family, long arcing, one shot throwaway, dark and twisted, you name it plots.  I will not write n*ncon or anything nsfw themed /even hinted at with minor characters and I won’t write any explicit child death etc. but most everything else is fair game.

VIII.  You can throw a million memes at me any time you want to.

IX.  You can throw any and all starters at me any time you want to.

                I’m not necessarily mutual exclusive but I don’t guarantee I’ll respond to memes or starters from non-mutual blogs.

X. I use icons, headers, promos etc. that I make myself 99% of the time.  Please do not use any of my edited graphics.  All base icons I use are free and available on my resource blog.  

XI. I use small text and my icons are 200x100 with empty space to make them 540x130 so that they don’t stretch out on mobile.  I prefer not heavily edited replies in terms of font variance and colors but really don’t care that much.

XII.  I’ve probably forgotten relevant things but, who knows.

XIII.  No drama.  Period.  I’m not interested.  

XIV.  I’m here for fun.  I’m really pretty easy going.  If you have any questions feel free to toss them into my inbox!

[gaysindistress]

LOVED the bucky imagine with them having a secret crush on each other, and y/n confessing before her date❤️ But there was WAY TOO LITTLE GROVELING😭 I need Bucky to be begging her for forgiveness after all he made her go through. I mean, SHE WAS HAVING PANIC ATTACKS FOR GOD SAKE. If you make a part 2, please include some grovelling for my sanity❤️

Hey babes,

It’s time we have a discussion about the expectations surrounding requests.

I’m very grateful and appreciative of the ones that I’ve received as well as all of the new people and support. With this influx, I’ve noticed a few things that I feel need to be addressed when it comes to requests. Id like to acknowledge that the overwhelming majority of people have been very kind and understanding. I’d also like to say that this is not meant to be negative or an attack on anyone and I was already planning on adding a similar note to my guidelines. Moving right along…

First and foremost, requests are not a guarantee.

I do my best to write all of them however I can’t guarantee that I will as not everything will work with my muse. I don’t think it’s fair to post a fic that isn’t up to my personal standards simply because it’s a request. I want everything on my blog to reflect the love and respect I have for writing which means I’ll only post what I feel is good quality. I’m also not going to force myself to write something just because someone asked me to. Again it goes against my quality over quantity rule (which applies my non requested fics as well).

Secondly, writing is a hobby for me.

As much as I would love to get paid to write and post, I don’t. This is all done simply because i want to. I have a very busy life outside of tumblr so my free time is limited and there’s even less to devote to my blog. I also started posting as a form of self care and in order to keep it that way, I give myself limits on how much time I devote to writing and working on my blog. Obviously I’m more active some days than others or not at all and that is okay. Personally I would much rather see a writer go MIA for a few weeks so they can recoup than watch them lose their passion entirely and disappear.

Third and finally, remember to always be kind and have empathy.

It’s easy to forget that there is person behind the username and profile picture. Even though our words may be typed, they still have an effect on people and we have to be mindful of that.

In regard to this particular ask, I truly believe that this person only meant to give feedback and did not intend to insult me. However the fact still remains that I was genuinely hurt by it and even cried when I first read it. Now that I’ve had the day to reflect, I understand what they were trying to say despite the poor word choice which leads me to my next point.

While I don’t believe it wasn’t meant to be hurtful, this is a backhanded compliment and not how you give appropriate feedback. Giving feedback can be very complicated because it’s easy to say and mean one thing but it comes across the complete opposite way.

If you’re going to give someone feedback, always make sure to say something positive it is important to let people know what they are doing well addition to what needs improvement. It doesn’t have to be an elaborate essay where their usage of tone words is analyzed. It can be as simple as commenting on how well they described the setting.

Second; be specific about what needs improvement. If you’re making food and ask someone to taste it because something isn’t right, you wouldn’t want them to just say “yeah it’s missing something.” You would want to be told exactly what is missing and how much to add. The same thing applies to writing. Tell the writer exactly what needs improvement and be prepared to explain your thoughts. In this case, “add more groveling” is the “yeah it’s missing something.” There aren’t specifics for me to focus on and brainstorm for. Making specific recommendations like “I would like to see more of the panic attacks so the audience gets a better feel for how deeply his behavior affected her” are going to give a writer more to work with and thus produce better results.

And lastly a writer is not required to accept feedback. I feel like this is pretty self explanatory; feedback is someone’s opinion and no one is required to listen to it.

All in all, I’m not trying to bash this anon and I hope that if they read this, they don’t see it that way. Had this not been an anon, I would have addressed it privately and just added something simple to my guidelines like I said in the beginning.

Once again thank you for all of the support and encouragement. It means so much more than I can ever say 💕

Love,

Rose 🌹

[rome-roy]

wowowow fun :) my only remaining friend from high school (and real life) has now blocked me on instagram and privated her account. I guess so she can chat shit about me! And like I’m sad to lose her but also…

I’m definitely in the wrong myself but to just drop me? ok sure… that’s reasonable.

I want to rant for a sec. You don’t need to read this but feel free to tell me if I’m the asshole. I know I am a bit but… yeah. I feel guilty but not enough to warrant her reaction? Maybe?

So we’ve been friends since HS, but I left school and moved away. So we’ve kept in contact on and off over the years. Saw each other rarely but it sometimes it happened. I could probably count on my hands the amount of times we’ve seen each other (less than 10.)

One thing that is clear about me to anyone and most certainly her: I am terrible at staying in contact.

I’ll see a message and say I’ll respond later. And then it gets too late. Weeks go by. Most of the time I completely forget about it. And I end up not responding at all. I dislike this about myself. A lot of the time I don’t respond because I need time to think about the message or time where I don’t have distractions around me. The only time I can guarantee this is when I go to bed, and sometimes I’m just too sleepy or want to chill. Tough cycle to break.

Anyway, she knows this about me. I’ve been like this since high school. She’s never been mad about it, or at least she’s not said anything. We usually fall back into old ways before I lapse again.

Before lockdown (or the year of?) we decided to try writing some scripts together. We’ve been trying to do it for ages, but it’s hard to pin me down. I have no schedule, I cannot ever guarantee her a time in which we can both hop online and write. This especially got harder when she moved to Korea. Like where my life is at the minute… I don’t think anyone really understands how it makes me feel and how I feel I can’t do anything. I cannot dedicate my time because I don’t know what’s happening week to week, and I don’t want to inconvenience anyone else around me. I already feel like such an inconvenience to them.

ANYWAY, I told her this a few months ago, along with the fact that I’m just not feeling the story anymore and I’m struggling to be creative. I hoped that would be it, I’d have some space from the writing till I was able to think again. I was also kinda annoyed that we weren’t starting from scratch like we said we would but just editing what we had. We both agreed it needed to be completely rewritten… but no? She sent me a couple of voice notes, I didn’t have the time to listen to them straightaway so I put it off… we know how this goes.

So instead of just leaving me be for a bit she continues to message me. She messages me when she sees I’m online. Keeps trying to catch me out. And this kinda pisses me off. I don’t like that behaviour, just because I’m online doesn’t mean I have to talk to her. She doesn’t know what’s going on in my life. Having constant access to people online has fucked the world up a little - being online does not mean fully available and at your disposal. Oftentimes I wouldn’t actually be online. I’d click onto messenger to check the family groupchats and then go off… but it still says you’re active for a little while after that. I guess it’ll say you’re active if you have the tab open too. Not only did I not have time to start up a conversation with her but her trying to make me respond to her made me put it off even more.

Eventually she just messages me and says, to sum it up, ‘bye.’ I’m like… okay so… is this it?? She’s dropping me? None of my behaviour is out of the ordinary for me, I’ve never argued with her, never said a bad word, never fallen out with a friend before. After a few weeks she tries to catch me out some more. There’s a bit of attitude to her words and I’m not about that.

ON MY BIRTHDAY she posts a very plain ‘happy birthday!’ on my page. I honestly thought she wouldn’t bother. I can’t avoid it any longer, I say thanks and that I’m going to reply to her and explain. But it’s my birthday, I plan to do it the next day. No. That night she messages me after seeing I’m online and says ‘I thought we were friends??’ I’m tired and honestly just doing a quick scroll on insta before bed but I write back to give a brief summary and that I’ll reply in full later because I’m tired. I tell her that I see I’ve caused her pain and how terrible I feel, which I 100% do. She doesn’t respond straightaway so I go to sleep.

Next day I see she’s said that ‘it hasn’t caused [her] pain it’s just fucking annoying, do [I] want to write with [her] or not?’ and… I have been so so tempted to say ‘do you want a friend or do you a writing partner?’ but I can’t bring myself to do it. Because this is the only reason she’s been messaging me - so that I will write with her. The only reason she’s been in touch with me for a long while. I’ve been telling myself that people only want me around so they can use me for something that they want. She only talks to me because she wants to write this thing, for her benefit. Never about me, never reaching out for me. She has a fancy to start writing this again and that’s when she reaches out. That message really highlights that point to me, and the fact that the potential that she may have lost my friendship hasn’t actually caused her pain? But it’s been hurtful to me thinking she’s done? Like… do you actually care about me or do you just want me so you can write?

The story isn’t even what we started out with and has been really dominated by her and she’s never truly listened to anything I’ve said. I’ve tried to make her follow structures (and I hate structures usually but we really needed them) and suggested helpful things. It kinda means nothing but I do have a masters in creative writing, I know what I’m talking about. Yet all my suggestions go unfollowed.

She has not been the greatest friend to me (her 2019 birthday is a while other story), but I still love her. So I’m hurt. But in some respects I do wonder whether it’s for the best to maybe let her go. She’ll be fine, I know. She has lots of other friends and she has a boyfriend now. I don’t think she needs me… and I don’t think she’s wanted me for me in quite some time.

It’s a bit much for her to just go and block me. Like. I’m literally doing nothing. I’m not even posting, haven’t watched her insta story in a long time. But whatever. If she wants to go drastic and cut me out of her life like that so be it. I wonder if she’s going to unfriend me next?

I do plan on messaging her, maybe it will end up being the last time, but I don’t want to argue. I hate arguments so much, especially when we should be able to communicate like civilised adults.

[dialovers-translations]

Diabolik Lovers LOST EDEN ー Subaru Ecstasy [Prologue]

CHAPTER MASTERLIST

Monologue

ーー Both the Adler and Wolf Clan

were wiped out,

by the Vibora.

We decided to gather everyone in the Grand Hall,

to inform them about 

the message we received from Subaru-kun’s familiar.

ー The scene starts in the Grand Hall at Eden

Ruki: ...I see. However, under normal circumstances, it would be impossible for the Vibora to annihilate both clans all by themselves. 

In other words, I believe it is safe to assume they are working together with someone.

If it isn’t the Wolf or Adler clan, nor the Founders. ...Then only one possibility remains. 

Subaru: Aah? Stop actin’ all cocky and tell us already!

Reiji: ーー It must be the human clergy, correct?

Yui: ...!? 

( With the Church...Does he mean Father’s!? )

Shuu: ...If I recall correctly, those guys were put under pressure by the Old Man who used them to their own advantage, didn’t he?

I guess now that he’s out of the picture, they’re trying to use it as an opportunity to put us Demons in place.

Ruki: No, I doubt they’ll stop at that.

Now that they’ve joined hands with the Church, the Vibora are on the climb to conquer the whole Demon World. 

Ayato: Hm...Zweig, right? That guy can’t be underestimated.

Carla: This is not Zweig’s doing. There is someone else who gave the order for this conflict.

Shin: ...Nii-san, what do you mean?

Carla: Zweig is the type of man who thinks before he acts.

It is very much possible that the Church is the one in control of the Vibora clan. 

Shin: Which means...

Carla: Exactly. It is only a matter of time before they will attack us as well.

Yui: No way...

Reiji: I believe it is necessary we ready ourselves for battle.

Ruki: Yes. ...Well then, the four of us will patrol Eden and write down all possible ways for the enemy to get in. 

Carla: I shall have Shin send out his Familiars to gain as much information as we canx.

Shin: Gotcha, Nii-san.

Reiji: Subaru, I want you to bring all the remaining staff from the Sakamaki castle to this place.

We cannot guarantee their safety if they are at a separate location.

Subaru: ...Okay. 

Reiji: Just a reminder, you are the Vampire King. You should leave someone else in charge of escorting the staff here.

Subaru: In that case...

...Ayato, Kanato. I’d like you two to take care of that. Can I count on you?

Kanato: Yes, understood. 

I’ll show my good heart as your older brother and accept your order.

Ayato: ...Geez, guess I have no other choice.

Reiji: The others will follow me. I want to check the storage room for whatever could be used as a weapon.

ー Everyone walks away to fulfill their own duty

Yui: ( Wow... Everyone split up and got to work at once. )

( This place might actually become a war zone soon. )

( But...I. )

...

( If the Vibora are actually working together with the Church...That’ll mean Father and I will eventually have to face each other in a war. )

( Father... )

Subaru: ...

ー Subaru walks up to Yui and grabs her hand

Yui: Subaru-kun...

Subaru: You’re free to do as you wish. I...won’t go against your decision.

Yui: ...

( Subaru-kun knows that my Father is part of the Church. )

( He realized that if things take a turn for the worse, I will most likely get hurt in the process... )

( That’s why he’s asking for my opinion like this. )

Monologue

ーー However, if I’m honest,

I actually did hesitate.

While I do love Subaru-kun,

without a doubt. 

Still, to this very moment,

I am not quite sure,

which side I am meant to take,

if a war were to break out between humans and Demons.

Yui: ...Thank you, Subaru-kun. For being considerate towards me...

But...I’m fine.

I have no idea what Father is up to right now, and there’s more than one person active in the Church.

Subaru: ...I see.

There’s still time, you know. You should think about what you’ll do. 

Yui: ...Yeah.

( I’ve kind of naturally become a part of the group, but I am still a human. )

( I’m different from Subaru-kun and the others. I may have Cordelia’s heart inside of me, but I’m not a demon... )

Monologue

ーー It was the next day,

when the staff from the Sakamaki castle,

arrived at Eden. 

Right now, I have been busy,

spending the whole day taking care of them and showing them around,

For now, I was just thankful,

to have something to distract me from the tricky matter at hand. 

Yui: ( Subaru-kun or Father. )

( I can’t choose between them... )

*SCENE SHIFT*

Subaru: ...Haah.

Christa’s maid: ーー Subaru-sama!

ー She runs up to him

Christa’s maid: I finally found you...Do you have a few moments to spare right now?

Subaru: You were the maid who looked after mom, huh? ...What do you need? 

Christa’s maid: There’s actually something I’ve been wanting to give you this whole time...

*Rustle*

Subaru: This is...

Christa’s maid: It’s a photo. Christa-sama took very good care of it, calling it her own personal treasure. 

I would love it if you - her son - were to have it.

I am truly glad I was able to hand it over to you. ...Well then, if you’d excuse me now.

Subaru: ...

( It has the Old Man and Mom...and a younger version of myself on it as well... )

( A treasure, huh...? )

...Ugh...

ー Subaru recalls Carla’s words

Carla: ...Eden is lamenting, huh...?

...When I was but a mere child, my Father once told me about it in a state of intoxication.

This happened before he was banished to Banmaden.

Apparently he heard cries during one of his visits here.

Father would jokingly refer to it as Karlheinz himself weeping.

Apparently these cries first occurred after Karlheinz had left his family behind and chose to isolate himself here at Eden.

ー The flashback ends

Subaru: ( ...Could it be? )

( Did he intentionally push mom and I away from him...? )

*ROAAAAAR*

Subaru: ...!

*ROAAAAAR*

Subaru: ーー Oh shut up! Be quiet!!

*ROAAAAAR*

Subaru: Kuh...Ugh...

Monologue

The cries only got stronger,

as I instinctively covered my years. 

I no longer knew what to do. 

It felt like in this battle against the Old Man,

the one I’m supposed to loathe and overcome ーー I was losing.

No.

No. No. No.

I’m not feeling sympathy.

I would never feel bad for him.

I felt terribly shaken up,

by various emotions stirring up inside of meーー

???: Oh~? Well if it isn’t Subaru! Long time no see!

ー Kino walks up him

Subaru: ーー You bastard! What brings you here, huh!?

Kino: Hmー ...I guess you could say I’m here to declare war?

We’re working together with the Vibora and the Church. ...Did you know?

Subaru: !?

Kino: That being said, while I’d love to just make quick work of you guys...

...before that, there’s one person I’d rather not get involved in this mess. So before we get to it, why don’t we both cool our heads off a little?

Subaru: Someone you’d rather not get involved with? 

Kino: Exactly. That girl’s Father is part of the Church we’re working with.

Subaru: ...!

Kino: Say, has it been decided that she’ll be taking you guys’ side?

Subaru: ...

Kino: At this rate, she’ll have to bear with the reality of being indirectly responsible for the death of her own father, no?

I don’t have any parents myself, so I can’t say for sure, but do you think that’s the right thing to do?

Subaru: ...Kuh...

Kino: That’s why I suggest that tomorrow night, you hand her over to us.

Subaru: Haah!?

Kino: I mean, you don’t have to take me up on that offer? But if you don’t, I’m sure that eventually, it’ll cause her much grief.

Subaru: ...

Kino: Here, take this. A map which marks the place where you have to take her. 

*Flip*

Kino: Well then. I’m looking forward to a fruitful deal!

ー Kino leaves again

Subaru: ...!!

Shit! Fuck, damnit!!

*ROAAAAAAAR*

ー The scene shifts to the night sky

Yui: ...Haah.

( I can’t choose between Subaru-kun or Father. )

( What should I do, I wonder...? )

ーー TO BE CONTINUED ーー

[chayscribbles]

CHAYSCRIBBLES ☆ a writeblr introduction

hello and welcome to my obligatory pinned post!

☆ ABOUT ME.

call me chay!

i gravitate towards sci-fi, space operas, (low or modern) fantasy, and any media that involves magic, superpowers, or supernatural elements, but i’m open to most genres if the premise is enticing enough

29, taurus, she/her and they/them pronouns (but mostly she/her)

biracial (filipino / ghanaian); born and raised in canada

i own many, many houseplants. at least 60. they all have names.

i also draw! you can find my art on my art blog @chaylattes-art. i’m also currently doing art commissions-- check out the info post here!

☆ MY WRITING.

The Gemini Heist: adult space opera about a dysfunctional crew of space criminals on a mission to steal a valuable statue from a powerful oligarch family while dealing with the consequences of past betrayals and bad decisions. currently writing the first draft. the intro post is here and the wip page is here.

i have a few other secret side projects in rotation, but i probably won’t be talking about them here much until they are more developed.

☆ OTHER.

here is my linktree for all the other places you can find me and my work!

i have an etsy where i sell stickers and prints of my art!

currently i am NOT doing writeblr days like storyteller saturday or worldbuilding wednesday, unless i specify so.

i have a full time job and limited energy, so i can’t guarantee i’ll be consistently active, but i’ll try my best to interact with people’s work!

[thegentlefem]

hi everyone! I recently got an influx of followers and I just want to say that I appreciate everyone and your compliments about the account. you all are great.

as a present to you guys, I made a little about me post. please don’t reblog it, but do feel free to copy these prompts to make your own bio.

Hobbies: photography, exercising, travel, reading, anything outdoors

Things I like: chai lattes, dogs, Marvel movies before phase 3 (generally), cars (racing), sci-fi, the beach, sports. I like the summertime and you can usually find me at the lake/pool/wherever water is when the weather gets hot. I’m a bit of a science and history nerd so there’s that.

Turn-ons: I have a list of these in my main bio already so I’ll write some non-kinky things here. It may sound weird but good hair, like a nice hairstyle, is really attractive to me. It’s like the first thing I notice visually about a guy. Also his pretty eyes. Other random turn-ons I can think of are accents, intelligence!!, men who think before speaking, and, you guessed it, a **good personality**.

Turn-offs: the word “daddy”. in any context. I’m sorry but I just...can’t. Hm what else... Smoking is also a turn off. Sorry to all the smokers out there. Also, intense age play is a no. I do love humiliation/degradation if my partner enjoys it (obviously), although any real shaming or toxic masculinity/femininity are big turn offs.

What kinks are you exploring atm?

Intoxication kink. I haven’t experimented with this in real life because it pushes the consent barrier for me, but in theory, intox kink is so hot. Something about having a tipsy sub stumbling around and begging for more...hm yeah. Also have been obsessed with shaving kink content (source material: that Skyfall scene).

Favorite cheesy romance tropes: enemies to lovers, only one bed, hurt/comfort, fake dating to developing feelings.

Random fact(s): I am absolutely terrible at cooking and baking. There’s a reason why my friends usually are the ones to make dinner and not me. I guess I should put an ad out there for a malewife who is good in the kitchen. Either that or we’ll just be struggling together to make bad food. I’m sure we’ll bond in the process but I can’t guarantee that we’ll produce anything edible.

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anyways I hope you all enjoyed this! if you message me or send an ask related to these topics, I will probably be happy to chat. I’m not active daily on this account but I try to keep my queue running, so if you message me and I don’t respond, I promise I’m not ignoring, I am just actually busy lol. (make sure to have your age in your bio or you will be blocked)

I will also just reiterate that other than what is already posted in my bio, I will never share my name, location, photos, etc. so don’t mistake my kindness for naivety and ask me for any of these.