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the-alphonze · 4 months ago
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Hey- hi! So sorry to bother you but I believe the mouse that's been tormenting you is mine! Her name is mini and I lost her like a month ago, before I was told by uh.. I was told she'd be on your ship! I don't actually know how she got so far- mice get stressed pretty easily especially pregnant ones, i figured that's why she ran away. I uh.. I don't actually know wither that stress would've let the litter survive but at least I know she did! I'm so sorry, I know how much damage this little thing can cause to a place. I honestly just want to see my pet more than anything, I myself am almost at Allport and it'd be great if I could take her off you when you get there and compensate for the damage somehow! Again I'm very very sorry this is my fault for losing her in the first place and I was so, so worried.
By the way I don't really have the best connection at the moment so I don't know if this ask will send later than i intended, as well as it makes it harder for me to see recent posts so please bare with me here. Again I'm very sorry for all the damage caused, just please keep my girl safe until I can see her. I know you must be angry but that should be at me and not her, she's just a scared and hungry animal. she means so much to me so please keep her safe.
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Am so . sorry
Your mouse ,must’ve uh ran. Some where I got . it ,,her . out and I couldn’t , move so ,i didn’t see . where she went
I ,think I can see . Allport . in the , distance but with takin’ time to dock and such we’will be .there . tomorrow maybe we can talk in person or . something , then ?
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livelaughlovesubs · 3 months ago
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Following up my other ask I send, my mom has been mad at me for the past 4 days, I had the worst response to a serious interview, I accidentally said ‘venti’ while I was ordering at a another coffee shop, I’m on my period, I’m more suicidal, school has been ruined, my phone is going to get checked and looked through by the teachers at my school, I had cheer practice and almost passed out and to top it all off I’am on my period. FUCKING HELL!!!!!!!!
I’ve been so stressed out to the point of changing my typing style…
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Warning: long rant
It’s alright, you can vent to me whenever you want and feel like it. And I’ll listen, as long as you need to. When the parents are mad at one it’s the worst feeling ever, and it always hurts so much. Have you tried talking with her? Though, if that’s not a possibility, I’d suggest you take a bath in the bathtub or a long shower to calm yourself. It’s very relaxing to have warm water run down your body or soak in it.
Eat something nice. Chocolate and sweets does help with bad mood, fruits too. I’d suggest you eat bananas or smt, I heard they make good mood. Who cares about weight or calories, the most important thing is that you are happy, and as long as you are happy you are the most beautiful version of yourself.
I used to write a journal when I was having a huge fight with my parents, and it really helped to write down every bad thought I had. Like how I hated everything, how sad I was. Now looking back, despite how often I wrote that, i don’t feel that way anymore.
Or, try out something new. Like a new game, read a new manhwa, a new show, listen to music… whatever it is. I’ve started playing dol and it’s really funny! I like Bailey the most :] dunno if you’ve played it before and know about it, though give it a try if you haven’t. If you don’t know how to install it on iOS I can help (it’s a bit complicated)
It’s alright to make mistakes or get turned down. That only means you have to look for other opportunities and learn from your mistakes. No one is perfect, there will always be hardships. But hey, there’s always an exit, whenever you hit your lowest point and everything feels shitty, just remember one day you can and you’ll climb high.
Being on your period is so shitty as a fellow woman I detest it too. The hormones going wild and making me emotional is driving me insane. But, it’s fine, being vulnerable is totally alright. There’s also nothing embarrassing about crying oneself to sleep, no matter what gender. Be honest with yourself and do what you think helps you to most, it’s alright to be egoistic at times, it’s okay.
I don’t know why you said schools not going very well. If it’s because of your grades, don’t be too harsh on yourself. School has just started, there’s enough time to improve. Making notes and writing them down all prettily turned out to be quite fun, it also helps with studying. Or going over the learned stuff with friends. Even if it’s less effective than learning alone, it’s better than hating it. And if it’s because of other people, we’ll, I gave you an answer a long time ago
I also don’t know why your phone is getting checked, and I know for a fact it is illegal except for special occasions (?) here in Germany. That’s simply outrageous. Your phone is something private to you and you only, that’s really horrible. I’m not sure how to help there, but if it were up to me I’d rebel or try and hide everything. Sorry for not having any advice on that one
Anyhow, about the passing out, dw. I went running today again and I also almost passed out. Cuz I went running even though it’s 31 Celsius- now I’m fine again, and by the looks of it, you are doing better too. I’m glad. If you are worried about it being embarrassing, no need to be. I can share an embarrassing story of me so that you don’t feel alone. One time, I thought a guy liked me and he was pretty cute, so I tried to flirt with him. Getting close to him and being a bit touchy. Then he outright told me, “can you keep some distance?” Guess I was picking up the wrong hints… haha… (I was so fucking delusional)
Oh god that was a ramble. Well, if you want to talk about it without other people knowing, you can always write a message to me. I hope you’ll do better after getting a good rest. In order to be in high spirits, it’s also important to take care of your body. Your soul and body is connected, your mind knows when you aren’t feeling your best and it affects your mood too. So eat and drink enough, also sleep well <3
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magdatf13 · 2 years ago
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Giving you a little bit of Context
Hiiiii, 
Today I’am going to give you my opinion and a summary about the book, So guys as you know I'm reading the book “The Catcher in the Rye”, which is from the author J.D Salinger with the genre of realistic fiction. This book has a lot of things to take in consideration!!!! I'am telling you, i am not lying.
This novel is about a 16 year old boy named Holden Caulfield, who has been expelled from 4 different schools. Pretty bad this guy!!!!!!! In Pencey Prep he has failed 4 of 5 subjects, what a terrible thing!!! After that, we meet two “friends” of Holden, Ackley, a very dirty man and Stradlater, his roommate, he was going to meet Jane, an old friend of Holden. After a time he asks Stradlater about the date with her, but he didn’t answer so they start to fight for a woman, very typical. Holden decides to leave Pencey. He reaches New York and lodges in a hotel, he remembers Jane and how he met her for the first time. He takes a taxi to Ernie’s tavern, during the trip he asks the cab about where ducks go during winter, here we can see how afraid he was of changing. In Ernie’s, he meets Lillia Simons, an ex-girlfriend of his brother DB. The brother was working in Hollywood, but he felt weird and returned to the hotel. Maurice the assistant of the elevator, offers Holden for a prostitute for only 5 dollars!!!! He was anxious about having s*x, then the prostitute cames but nothing happens, they only talk. Holden wasn’t prepared for this, he needs to mature first and grow mentally. The prostitute argue about the 5 dollars, instead they were 10!!!! He calls Sally, a friend of his, for them to meet. He takes a cab to Central Park in search of Phoebe, but he encounters a Phoebe’s friend in the park that tells Holden about where to encounter his sister, the museum. Here Holden compares the museum not changing but the people that go to it yes, mentioning his afrainess of the changes of life. He meets Sally, but all goes very wrong. Then he meets Carl Luce, a student of a past school, he leaves irritated because of the childness of Holden. He sneaks his own apartment, waking up with Phoebe, he tells the truth about school, he was expelled, he hates everything except for one thing, saving the kids from adulthood or in other words, The Catcher in the Rye. Holden goes for “living” to the house of Mr. Antolini a very drunk guy, during the night he felt the hand of the teacher, making Holden thinks about the teacher being an absolute pervert and leaves that night, leading to sleeping in a bench.After that day we writes a note to Phoebe for them to encounter during lunch time in the museum. Holden tells about the plan of leaving but Phoebe makes him regret his decision. The story ends in the mental facility with Holden there. THE END.
 As i made you a little summary now let me tell you what is good from the book. So here in this book you can find a lot of things, when i tell you a lot is A LOT. What I most like is the stream of consciousness he uses since it is really interesting to know what is exactly going on throughout the mind of the character. For example when in the beginning of chapter two he says “The minute I went in, I was sort of sorry I’d come. He was reading the Atlantic Monthly, and there were pills and medicine all over the place, and everything smelled like Vicks Nose Drops”. With the example mentioned we can see the thoughts of him which are really impressive. 
 But no, let's talk about the weakness of this book. What I really didn’t like was the time he spent talking, since the book was only two days, but while reading it seems like you have been reading like a month of his life. Which made it kind of boring since the transitions were really slow and long to change. 
Well, I have told you a lot about this book, JAJAJAJA, but having opinions is pretty important before reading a book. I think that this book is really good, but not for all types of people, since not all readers like books with a stream of consciousness. I’m going to give you an example, in chapter 20 “I kept sitting there getting drunk and waiting for old Tina and Janine to come out and do their stuff, but they weren’t there. A flitty-looking guy with wavy hair came out and played the piano, and then this new babe, Valencia came out and sang”.  With this I can tell you that he talks about three different things at once since streams of consciousness are all of the thoughts that come to his mind. So I would not recommend this book. 
Pretty hard, I toold you
This need ALLLLLLLLLL of your neurons
Hope You find a better book, guy but is my opinion, hope you like it. 
SEE YOU IN A FEW DAYS
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itsjustmyfantasyroom · 4 years ago
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Grey Socks
This apart came around quicker then I had expected and I’am working slowly on the next part, which I’ am excited about. Slightly based on season 3 but with my own twist. Shout out to my Bishop Beta @beccabarba for reading over it, thank you always lovely.
*Grey Leather*
*Grey Uniform*
*Grey Dress*
*Grey Vase*
*Grey Blanket*
*Grey Jeans*
Warnings: “What the f**k Steve” moment, swearing and of course smut.
WC: 2549
Enjoy x
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The sun was starting to go down and a cold snap started sweeping through making your body cover in goose bumps. You picked up your grey socks from next to you, pulling them on your feet and wrapped a blanket around you, lifting your feet up to rest on the wooden rail of the porch. The silence that surrounded you should have comforted you, but it was so loud it was deafening. You watched as the waves crashed on the sand as the sun went down, when your burner cell started to ring,
“Hey Baby” Bishop’s voice came over the other end of the phone “You ok?”
“Hey babe. I’ am ok” you sighed. “You ok”?”
“I’ am ok. I promise, baby, not much longer. I miss you”
“I miss you too, so much. I’ am sorry I couldn’t be there with you today,” a tear rolled down you cheek and you sniffed.
“Don’t cry baby, it’s ok. Wish you were here.” You could only nod and you wiped the tears away with the back of your hand. “As soon as everything is sorted I’ll be up there to get you. Bring you home to me. I love you Y/N”  
“Love you too.”
You hung up the phone just as Steve and Gabby walked out the back door carrying bowls of Chilli Con Carne and fresh bread that you and Gabby made earlier.  
There was an all-out war with the club and things had started to get too close to home. You had ended up in tears when Bishop had ask you to get out of town with Gabby. It was lucky you had a lot of long service leave up your sleeve; Bishop had asked you to use a month. Rosa moved to her sister’s place just out of town for now and you had paid for your parents to go and stay with your Aunty and Uncle in New York for the same amount of time you were away, telling them they needed a break.  
You packed everything that was important to you, locking it in your parent’s basement, and packed enough clothes to last. Bishop didn’t want you to leave the beach house at all. You and Bishop come to an agreement to shut off your social media and to turn off and leave your phone at home. He bought you and himself a burner cell to keep in contact, and Taza moved you and Gabby to a safe house. The club left Steve with you both just in case.  
You had pretty much eaten dinner in silence, Gabby getting a call from Ez not long before your call from Bishop, both your eyes puffy from crying. It had been 3 and half weeks, you just wanted to go home. Steve took the plates inside and was tidying up, you sitting back on the day bed, feet up on the rail listening to the ocean when Gabby walked back out with a cup of tea for you and herself, sitting down next to you. You pulled the blanket off your shoulders and draped it over both your laps. You took a sip of your tea and you almost spat it out with how sweet it was,  
“You ok?” Gabby looked at you worried.
“Who made the tea?”
“Steve, why?”
“What the fuck Steve! How many sugars did you put in it?”
“Sorry Y/N”
You and Gabby had a little giggle and then both fell silent, the sound of the waves filling the air again.
“Y/N?”
“Yeah,” you looked at Gabby who was staring out into the darkness.
“Can we do this for the rest of our lives? Being in love with men that put us in this kind of situation. Marry them? Have children with them? Have a future with them?”  
“You love Ez?” You asked. Gabby nodded “He treats you well?” Gabby nodded again “What else is there to think about? He isn’t a bad man. Ez is amazing, he will be an amazing husband and father.”
“You grew up with him?”
“I did. Our families are close friends. Gabby- don’t give up on him just because of the club. They are all good men. We all have two sides, they just can’t hide their other side like the rest of us can.”
“You love Bishop a lot” Gabby grabbed your hand and squeezed it.
“I do. He is the best thing that has happened to me. Even if I’ am in hiding because of him” you both giggled “No one said it was going to be easy, but really is any relationship?”
Gabby let go of your hand and lent over hugging you when revs of motor bikes ripped through the air and you both gasped, jumping up, fear pulsing through you, and running to the door just as Steve opened it walking out carrying a baseball bat,
“Get inside. Lock the doors”
“Steve” you grabbed his arm tears coming to your eyes.
“I’ll be fine. You know what to do. Go please”
You ran inside locking the doors behind you grabbing the baseball bat from next to the fridge and coming back to stand next to the door, Gabby huddled into your side,
“Go upstairs and hide in my room. If anything happens go through the doors to the balcony, climb down, run and call Ez. Just like we talked about,” Gabby nodded her eyes filled with tears as she ran up the stairs two at a time.
“Fuck Steve” you heard Ez’s voice “It’s just us”
Rage bolted through you. You unlocked the door, baseball bat still in hand storming out seeing Ez and Bishop walking up the stairs. You raised your eye brows at them and Bishop could see on your face that you were pissed,
“What the actual fuck?” you spat at them both “A heads up would have been nice” You pointed the end of the baseball bat at Ez’s chest “Do you have any idea what you just done to us?” you snarled. Ez held his hands up in surrender and a smirk on his face “Don’t smirk at me Ezekiel”  
Ez pushed the bat away, it dropping out of your hand to the ground out of the way and he wrapped you in his arm kissing the top of your head, “Maybe we should patch you in, you’re scarier than Steve,” the 3 men laughed,
“Yeah she is actually” Steve blurted out and you rolled your eyes.
“Where’s Gabby?” Ez looked down at you.
“Hiding upstairs waiting to climb down off the balcony”  
You pulled away from Ez poking your head inside the door yelling out to Gabby it was safe and Ez walked in followed by Steve. You turned around to Bishop standing on the second step down from the top. You rushed over to him wrapping your arms around him, his around you and he nuzzled his face into your chest while your fingers ran through his hair, scraping your nails over his sculp. Bishop pulled back slightly looking up at you. You dipped your head catching his lips with yours, kissing him deeply. Without breaking the kiss Bishop pushed you back stepping up to be level with you. Bishop finally broke the kiss, his hands coming up to cup your cheeks leaning his forehead on yours,
“I’ve missed you baby, so much. I’ am sorry we scared you. I wanted to surprise you”  
“Surprise is an understatement” you giggled “I missed you too”
“It’s all fixed baby, I can take you home” Bishop’s lips came up to kiss your forehead “Got any beer around here?”
You went to the fridge grabbing a couple of bottles. You gave one to Steve who was sitting on the couch watching TV, giving him a kiss on the cheek thanking him for looking after you and Gabby. You picked up the other two bottles walking up stairs to find Bishop. Gabby and Ez locked away in her room. As you walked into your bedroom you seen the sliding doors open and Bishop was sitting on the double seater outdoor couch and you walked out to him,
“Here babe” you handed Bishop a beer.
“Thank you baby” He grabbed your hand, kissing the back of it and then patted his thigh so you would sit down.  
You sat across Bishop’s lap, one of his arms going around your middle and his other that was holding the beer resting across your legs. Your hand that was around his shoulder’s came up to run your fingers over the nape of his neck and he sighed into your touch,
“You ok?” you whispered.
“Better now I’ am with you. I missed you baby”
“Missed you too” you lent down, your lips connecting with his.
The kiss started soft and tender and soon turned heated when Bishop’s hand that was around your middle started to slide up your back and into your hair pushing your head into him more deepening the kiss. You swallowed each other’s groans and whimpers. Without breaking the kiss Bishop reached behind, with his other hand sitting his bottle of beer on the table behind the couch and then did the same to yours.
Once both bottles where on the table, Bishop started to run his hand up your thigh and up under your shirt. His big warm rough hand ran up over your skin up to your breast groping it through your bra. You arched into his touch, your hand now threaded up into his hair and your other running over his solid chest down between you both to cup his hard cock through his jeans.
You broke the kiss and moved yourself to straddle his lap, both your hands resting on his bearded cheeks as your lips collided with his again, the kiss all teeth and tongues. You started to roll yours hips down on Bishop and you heard a growl rattle through his chest. You pulled back from the kiss giggling at his reaction, wrapping your arms around his neck peppering his face with kisses, both of Bishop’s hands rubbing the tops of your thighs and up your sides.
“I missed your noises,” You brushed your nose over his and he chuckled low.
You rolled your hips over Bishop again, your lips crashing on his once more, kissing him deeply. Bishop gripped your ass cheeks tight, pulling you down on him as he grunted into your mouth bucking up into you.  
You reached down between you both undoing his jean button and zipper sliding your hand into his boxers pulling out his hard length wrapping your hand around him giving him a couple of quick pumps up and down. Bishop pulled back from the kiss, his head falling back with his eyes closed and mouth slightly open groaning. You lent forward kissing around his neck and he bucked up into your hand.
“Missed this?” you grazed your teeth over his bearded chin.
“Fuck yes” Bishop grunted.
You moved away to stand and pushed down your tights and panties, them hitting the floor and you stepped out of them. Bishop wrapped his hand around himself, stroking his hard cock lazily, looking up at you with hooded eyes as he watched you pull your shirt and bra off throwing them on the floor. You sat back on his lap, the coolness of his fully clothed body made you shiver when it met your hot skin and when your sensitive nipples brush over the rough cotton of his shirt, you rolled your hips down again, brushing your core over his jeans and you bit your bottom lip wanting more.
You lifted yourself up slightly lining Bishop to you moving to slid down on him, your wet centre wrapping around him. You paused for a moment to catch your breath. Bishop made quick work pulling off his leather vest and undoing a couple of his shirt buttons pulling it up and over his head, followed by his under shirt, throwing them on the floor leaving him bare chested. You wrapped your arms back around Bishop’s neck, your hands going into his hair, your boobs resting on his chest and he lent forward, his lips landing on your skin leaving a trail of open mouth kisses, his beard running along your skin made you groan as he went and you rolled your hips over him fast, he bucking up into you hard.
“Fuck baby you feel so good” Bishop breathed into your skin before looking up to lock eyes with you, both his arms wrapping around your middle pulling you down on him harder as he bucked up into you.
“You feel amazing babe” you breathed out before you dipped your head kissing him deeply, your tongues rolling together.
You broke the kiss, your forehead resting on his as your release raced through you and you had to remember not to scream so the others didn’t hear you. You choked out Bishop’s name and you rolled your hips through your high when Bishop bucked up hard grunting, his seed spilling into you and his head dropping back on the couch breathless. You stilled your movements, the smell of salty air taking over the smell of sex and your heavy breathing almost as loud as the crashing waves.  
Bishop cupped your cheeks and pulled you towards him, his lips landing on yours for another deep kiss. You got up off him and walked to grab a blanket off the bed to wrap around you both as you both snuggled into each other on the couch, Bishop’s arm wrapped around you, his hand brushing through your hair as you rested on his shoulder,
“Baby, I want to ask you something” Bishop felt you go stiff against him and he tightened his grip around you and kissed the top of your head “Nothing bad”
“Ok, I’ am listening” You sat back slightly looking over up at him.
“I want you to move in with me” a grin pulled across your face “I have spoken to your Dad and Mum they gave us their blessing and Rosa is moving into the granny flat next door at the end of the month”
You looked out into the dark letting that all sink in as Bishop ran his hand up and down your back over the blanket,
“There is no granny flat next door” you looked up at him raising an eye brow.
“Will be at the end of the month” Bishop smirked at you and you nodded.  
“You managed all this in-between everything else going on?”  
“No. I started the ball rolling before all this shit happened. Your stuff can be moved into my place when we get back and Rosa has moved in with Coco till the end of the month”
“What if I say no?” you smirked at him with your eye brows raised and he laughed loud.
“Emily said you could move in with her” you both laughed and you nudged his side scoffing “If you don’t-“
“No” you almost shouted “I want to. I never want to be away from you again” you smiled reaching up to rest your hand on his cheek “I can’t wait for you to come home to me every night”
“Me too baby, me too.”
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thanosfarm · 6 years ago
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I think Endgame is neither a good movie nor a good ending for the Infinity Saga
(Repost from my main blog with a change in the title after two days of meditation)
I’m pretty disapointed with Endgame. I saw the film yesterday and came home thinking there were to much things I don’t liked. Today I have been reading opinions and the majority of them are incredibly positive. I don’t understand that. To me Endgame is far from the best Marvel films and not a good ending for the Infinity Saga.
SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT
First of all, I enyoyed many moments of the film: Tony and Nebula during the first scene, Thanos farm, fat Thor, Clint and Scott, Rockett with the classic clothes, the Ancient One and Avengers 1 from another perspective (LOKI!!), Cap getting the Mjiolner, Rescue, some moments of the IronMan-Thor-Cap vs Thanos….
But these are isolated moments in a storyline that, putting things simply, is totally supported and based on transform Thanos character conviently. The only way to get the epic and emotional ending is using a big trick and going against the logic that was alredy stabished at Infinity War. Why? Because not proceding this way leads inevitably to another Thanos victory. (I suppose that he is actually inevitable :D).
So that is the thing: if you want the good guys get the victory following the events of Endgame, then Thanos must be magically changed into a very different character.
What is the most terrifying thing of Thanos? That he has a terrible urgency, yet he is so patient, cautious and resoluted that he is capable of going planet by planet, slowly, in order to do what he thinks he must do. When he decides to get the stones (because they let him do the same thing in a faster and better way), he doesn’t run for them recklessly; he studies the situation, send his minions because the possible traps, and only move himself when it’s necessary. He doesn’t risk his objetive, even for the stones, until he knows that the way is secure.
And now, let’s go to Endgame. When (present )Nebula is kidnapped, she becomes much more valuable that the stones: she knows everything about the events of the future and the method the Avengers are using to travel in time. Thanos extracts some of this information and deduces, correctly, the implications of these actions (he is going to get the stones and win, but there will be some loose ends). BUT  (and here is the biggest WTF)  instead of  extraxting the rest of the information (to understand the hole pic and act accordingly), he decides on the fly that he must pursue the Avengers to the future (?) and steal the stones from them (?!), risking his mission in the most dumbest way ever.  For Cronos’s sake, he even don’t know if he can go back to his time! (And how on Earth can the whole Sanctuary travel through the quantum realm? Has she had a suit too?) WHY the hell his first idea is not use this data to avoid the future in which a group of desesperate people is trying to undo his victory?? Why he uses the timetravel device in a so obvious bad way? Where is the pacient character? The cautious one?
The truth is that Real Thanos will never do such a thing as to confront future Avengers, having so many other options that are safer, smarter and leads to his main goal more directly. He must be transform in Stupid Thanos to do such stupid thing and the film lasted more than 10 minuts.
Now, let’s go to the final battle. I can’t understand how defeating the Avengers can become something personal for Real Thanos. He knows the principal obstacle to his objetive is the people (sentient beings) who don’t want to die for the greater good. Ok, the Avengers are exactly this type of people. He has been fighting this type of people for centuries. For Thanos, triying to undo the snap is exactly the same as triying to avoid it. He will never use more resourses that the needed ones to get rid of these issues… buuuuuut you need ALL Thanos army deployed on Earth for the sake of a big battle incluying all Marvel Characters. The script transforms Thanos into a random final boss so the ending can be spectacular. Stupid Random Thanos.
Tony Stark dies confronting Stupid Random Thanos. I’am supossed to think this is emotive? It is not fair for the characters we are saying goodbye after 11 years.  Is the battle really epic if they are fighting an army with no better motivations than Malekith’s?  Really Marvel has nothing better than a mediocre character to be the final antagonist of the Infinity Saga?
And as a fan of Thanos, see him transformed in this stupid guy was painful. My biggest fear was him not dying at the end of the movie only to see bad writing versions of him in future films (or series, or books). What I didn’t expected was to get exactly that at Endgame.
Ok, that was my opinion. Sorry if I sound  like a hater or something, but I am pretty disapointed :((((
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ajaasiopaoo · 6 years ago
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prompt: madam s and zelda are obligated to spend some time together and realize that they actually like each other
Sorry for the delay, here you go!
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Today is a very special day for Sabrina Spellman, because today is family day. Well, it’s just a day she made up but she miss spending time with her family. Being a half mortal and half witch isn’t easy especially when she is attending two schools.
But today is all about her family and only her family, school works, projects, etc. will be forgotten for the day, the young witch will focus on her family first.
They were at the Greendale park, having a little picnic. Ambrose, along with his boyfriend Luke was playing frisbee with Sabrina’s mortal friends. While her aunt Zelda and Hilda sat down on one of the tables that was available. Hilda brought some of her delicious snacks for them to eat for later and Zelda is playing peekaboo with baby Leticia.
“This is nice, the family spending the day together,” Zelda said with a smile. Hilda chuckled, “Yes it is. Thank you for this love,” Hilda smiled at Sabrina.
“No problem, auntie. I know I haven’t been spending some time with all of you but I hope this day makes up for it,” Sabrina muttered. “Oh Sabrina, we understand why you’re so busy and it’s fine. We’re just glad that you haven’t completely forgotten that we’re still here,” Zelda waved her hand off in Sabrina’s direction.
Sabrina chuckled, she knows her aunt missed spending time with her, the ever hard Zelda Spellman just won’t admit it.
“Oh sorry I’m late!” A voice behind them say, they all turn to look and see that it was Lilith. The mother of demons.
“What are you doing here?!” Zelda asked coldly, glaring at the demoness in front of her. “Sabrina invited me,” Lilith said with a smug smirk that Zelda just wants to wipe off her face.
“Now, now auntie Zee. I know Lilith is a dangerous and manipulative bitch but she wants to make up for what she did. So I invited her, in that way she can really prove to us that she’s sorry,” Sabrina tried to explained, hoping that her aunt won’t explode.
“The more the merrier,” Hilda chuckled with a smile. “Hilda!” Zelda gasped, glaring at her sister. “What? Let’s give the dear a chance, Zelds. Maybe she really is sorry for what she did to us,” Hilda shrugged.
Zelda remain quiet and focus her attention to baby Leticia who is now eating her tiny fist. Lilith sat down besides Zelda and watched as the eldest Spellman interact with the babe.
Sabrina and Hilda glanced at each other, both thinking the same thing. Sabrina cleared her throat and slowly stood up, along with Hilda.
“I’m going to play with Ambrose and the other’s,” Sabrina made an excused.
“A-And I’ll go with you,” Hilda said. Both women quickly took off before the redhead witch could even protest. Zelda huffed, feeling annoyed by Lilith’s presence.
“She is one beautiful baby, Zelda. What’s her name?” Lilith asked. Zelda glance at Lilith and back at Leticia, her features softening as the little one smiled at her. ���Her name is Leticia,” Zelda smiled.
“May I hold her?” Zelda bit her lip, reluctant to give Leticia to the demoness. “Don’t worry Zelda, I don’t harm little ones. I’am a mother of demons,” Lilith assured the witch.
Zelda nodded and carefully handed Lilith the baby. The mother of demons gasped as baby Leticia gave her an innocent sweet smile that could melt a cold heart. “She is so precious,” Lilith breathed out.
“I forgot what it feels like to hold a little one,” Lilith muttered.
“What about your children?” Zelda asked.
“They grow up too fast, and when they do they forget their mother.” Lilith gave the redhead a small smile. “No mother deserves to be forgotten by their children,” Zelda said softly, placing a hand on the demoness shoulder she gave a small squeeze.
Baby Leticia started crying, Lilith cooed down at the baby in her arms trying to soothe her cries. “Shh, it’s okay. Look your mommy Zelda is here,” Zelda’s eyes widened.
She smiled at the demon queen and sat closer to Lilith, resting her head on Lilith’s shoulder while holding baby Leticia’s hand. “Shh, it’s okay Letty. Did big ol’ mean Lilith scared you?” Zelda pinched Lilith’s shoulder and the demon queen played along and pretended to be hurt and made a funny face, making Leticia giggle.
“Now there’s that smile your mommy loves! Who’s a beautiful girl? Yes you are!” Lilith cooed at the baby, she turn her head to the side to look at Zelda who was still resting her head on her shoulder. Their nose touching of how close they are, Zelda’s cheeks turned pink at the closeness.
“You’re actually not that bad,” Zelda whispered.
“I’m glad you think that,” Lilith whispered back.
Zelda smiled and Lilith’s cheeks turned pink. Zelda is one beautiful witch, and her smile alone can brightened someone’s day. Lilith started to feel something warm inside her chest, a feeling she’s not familiar with and only Zelda Spellman can make her feel that way. Zelda felt the same towards the demon queen, she’s scared but at the same time, she enjoys the feelings Lilith brings out in her.
Maybe Zelda doesn’t hate the demon queen after all. She’s annoyed by her yes, but hate is such a strong word and she doesn’t feel that kind of emotion towards Lilith. Deep down, Zelda admits that she likes the demoness.
Meanwhile, Lilith is happy that Zelda thinks differently of her now. The idea of Zelda being friendly towards her made Lilith feel all warm inside. She likes the feeling, and most importantly she likes the witch who has made her feel these feelings.
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kevkesblog · 6 years ago
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Felix Kroos (spring 2018)
Sorry for spelling or grammar errors. This was also recorded before the World Cup 2018 in Russia.
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N:     Hello, nice to see you. Tell us: who are you?
F:      I’m Felix Kroos. 27 years old and Toni’s brother.
N:     So you grew up in Greifswald. You are slightly younger but nevertheless you are pretty close age-wise. How was that like? Has there ever been anything other than football at home?
F:      Yeah, I mean because of our small age gap we did almost everything together. The same interests; really we did everything together. Sports was always on top of our list. And it wasn’t necessarily always football. I guess we started with badminton. We even went to practice badminton, since our uncle worked as a coach. Our mother also used to play it. But in the end it came down to football very quick. We were maybe five or six years old around that time. So from that day on, for us it was only football. After a while we recognized both that we can play rather decent (smirks) and it’s even more fun if you successful doing it. So we committed doing it and now we are here…
N:     What turned you off badminton? It also a nice sport…
F:      Sure, but for me one reason was the fact that you were able to win more trophies why football was better.
N:     So it was all about winning…
F:      Yeah, maybe it was all about winning even back then… but I would say almost every boy played football on the streets before and it was just fun. So this automatically led us to football. My father worked as a coach as well… so we almost had no other choice. But we liked it (laughs)
N:     (laughs). Did he also directly coached you guys?
F:      Yeah, yeah. He basically followed everything over the years from the very beginning. He stopped once we got into professional areas of football. But he definitely followed our path for a very long time.
N:     Where you actually able to deal with him in a neutral way? Or did have moments sometimes where you would think „Oh come on dad! You saw I scored!“ How was that like?
F:      (smirks). Sometimes like this; sometimes like that. It wasn’t always easy. You didn’t want to be lectured by him all the time especially once you grew older. Because once you were getting home it was all about football again – so in that sense we never really had a breack (smirks). But in the end you can say that it helped us. I think thats one of the reasons why we are at the point we are today.
N:     Were you able to say for yourself, „I dont want to play football anymore“ Or was that something that never really reached your mind?
F:      I never really had any thoughs about that. It never reached me. I was rather successful and it was still fun. A great mixture success and fun. So thats why those thoughts never came up – no.
N:     What did you think, did you do different than your brother to be successful? Did you do things differently?
F:      I think so. Talent was there – but thats not the only recipe you need. We did a lot of extra stuff. Extra sessions. Which was something – again, we were able to do together. Everything around has was put aside – we had to renounce alot oft hings in life. But also because we wanted it. This – adding talent and hard work, brought us to were we are today.
N:     Were you able to give yourself some extra love and support because you did everything together?
F:      Yes, I think so. Like I said, we were always together since we were little kids. We were everywhere on the road together. And we became even closer once Toni left home for Munich at the age of sixteen. We became closer. We had almost daily contact with each other. We dont even need words anymore, we always know what one thinks the other is thinking. Support is always there. Regardless what happens. Thats something everyone knows from the other.
N:     But it is crazy isn’t it, if somebody leaves home so early in life? I mean you are still a child right?
F:      Yeah. I couldn’t imagine it at that age myself. It was definitely a brave step, but Toni was always a guy who made clear decisions. Sure he had some thoughts about it, but he always stood behind his decisions. And he always was striving for the best. It was the path which led to Munich (laughs).
N:     Sure. But until 2010 he was always the youngest player on the pitch. Thats something you have to accomplish right?
F:      Yeah definitely – he always was the best. Since he was little. In every team he played. Striving for the best was always something he was used to. The fact he beats records doing it – may not be normal, but forseeable.
N:     Does it maybe come from yourself. That you look into the mirrow and say to yourself „I’am the best“?
F:      I don’t. (laughs) I can’t speak for others. I don’t think Toni does it too – saying „I’am the best“. He is just convinced of his own strength. He knows he is good, if he performs well and shows his skills and does what he does best. That he doesn’t have to be afraid of something. And he knows it – every day. Without him standing in front of the mirrow telling himself everyday how good he is. (smirks)
N:     If you go back to your childhood. Do you remember your first football? How did it look like?
F:      Well that was very long ago. We have become older ourselves over the meantime (smirks).
N:     Was it like a real ball – or didn’t you start with a small, light rubber ball?
F:      No, I think it was a real one. Anyway we grew up very protected. We didn’t lack anything. Maybe because we didn’t need much – except a ball (laughs). But I think it was a normal football – even back then and you never let someone else take it away from you.
N:     Did you have posters of famous football players in your room?
F:      Yes. I was back then – because oft he geografical distance, Rostock fan. So in that regard I had posters of Rostock players, but I cant tell which players percisely. Toni was a Werder fan – Werder Bremen fan. But he had almost everything on his walls. Football players – but not exclusively from one club.
N:     But baskatball has also been a great deal. NBA, right?
F:      Yeah thats when basketball kind of came along – the older he got. „The older he got“ (rolls eyes) well were aren’t that old yet – you have to be careful saying that (laughs). But to a degree where we are watching more basketball on TV than football.
N:     Perhaps to get some distance…?
F:      Yeah I mean you deal with football almost every day. I think it’s important to see something different once in a while. And to focus your interest on other things. Without lacking your focus on your own performance – your own job, so to speak. But nevertheless I think it’s important to see other things as well.
N:     Did he lace up your shoes?
F:      I could be, yes (laughs). I really don’t have good memory on that one. But sure he did. He did quite some stuff being a „big brother“.
N:     Did you share food in a brotherly fashion?
F:      Ehm, well sure we did have arguments at home like you usually have as siblings but in the end nothing bad ever happend.
N:     Favorite food?
F:      With regards to Toni it’s very easy: a Schnitzel with potatoes. He even eats fried potatoes without anything - without onions. He is very simple on those terms.
N:     How about you?
F:      Back in the day it was – I don’t know if people remember them, but yeast-dough dumpling from grandma. (laughs). Really good – even today! (laughs) But I like to eat everything: sushi, meat, Döner, everything.
N:     Well it all tastes great.
F:      Yeah (smirks).
N:     Ok, back home. I would like to know, have there been like special agreements, code words, nicknames during your childhood? Something that bonded you together? Did you went off road with bikes… or…
F:      There was always a sort of competition between us two. We really made a competition out of nothing. Even then we did a bike tour, the question always was „who gets to the finishline first?“ We were always looking for competition. It was always about winning. And we were both different in that regard. I was the grimly guy that and Toni by contrast was always very smooth and easygoing. He had to laugh about everything I did, which (laughs) made me sometimes really angry. We were very different in that regard. Yet – we always wanted to compete. Almost everywhere and thats something that has bonded us together.
N:     How does he deal with loosing?
F:      Sure he doesn’t like it. But he has a very relaxed way of dealing with defeats….
N:     And you?
F:      It’s fine now. I would never say I like to loose, but you realize that there are more important things than loosing a football game.
        (10:00min)
N:     You are a successful football player yourself – If something doesn’t really go well, how do you deal with that? Do you speak with each other? I mean it is a lot of pressure… all the fans in the stadium… everybody watches every move you make very closely…
F:      Yeah sure. Both of us know how it all works. Everyone of us has experiences in that regard. So we both can feel how the other one is feeling. And that there is always support. But like I said: we don’t need a lot of words. We know from each other, what the other person is thinking. Sure we do have some words of encouragement occasionally. He uses them more for me than I do for him (laughs)… Since he wins more often. Just the fact, that each of us knows that the other is there for you – and that he knows how it looks like with the other brother, thats enough.
N:     And your mom? Do you have to go to your mom sometimes? (laughs)
F:      (laughs) No, you have to comfort her more sometimes than yourself… (laughs) But there is always support coming from them as well. They are rooting for us everytime… sometimes more than they anticipate. In some situations they are more upset than us. I mean they almost gave up everything for us. They have always been there for us and brought us to where we are today.
N:     Crazy unconditional love…
F:      Yeah… like I said, they did almost everything for us. Without reservations. We didn’t miss anything in our childhood, we had everything. And maybe you try to give something back in our age or our position now.
N:     Support…
F:      Yes, you know realize that there are things in life more important than football. Things that ARE more important. Sometimes you should never forget. Even now with Toni’s Foundation. We are doing a lot of things and try to support many people. People that weren’t as lucky as we were. You get to know that football is not everything…
N:     But I would guess it is difficult isn’t it? Because you have a certain amount of income… when you see a nice car. Do you think if you get to know a sick child or meet their family… I mean does that change something within yourself?
F:      Yes, absolutely! I remember going into one special hospital for the first time. I have never seen anything like this before. It’s really difficult, yet – I can recommend to everyone to take a look for themselves and see how strong these people are. How good these people cope with their fates and circumstances. You are nothing against that as a football player. Those are the real everyday heros! Like I said, I would recommend everyone to see this on their own. Because you quickly realize that your problems aren’t as bis as they seem…
N:     Yeah I can imagine. Will you be in Russia?
F:      I will definitely watch the first game live in the stadium. I have to look at my schedule after that. How long do I have vacation? But sure, I will at least see one game in Russia.
N:     Have you ever been there before?
F:      No.
N:     Are you excited?
F:      Well it wasn’t my number one travel destination. But if you can connect the two, it gives you an opportinity to see Russia. I look forward to it.
N:     It’s nice there.
F:      Yeah, we will see.
N:     I can recommend it. Do you have a special wish for your brother? Is there something you want to tell him?
F:      No, not really. Of course you wish him health and success - generally speaking. He should just enjoy it. I think not many football players are able to play at a world cup. And maybe in a few years you will look back and you start to feel sorry for not enjoying it. So that’s why I think he should just enjoy it.
N:     What about Real? Do you sometimes visit Madrid?
F:      I haven’t been to a game yet. It just doesn’t fit my schedule…
N:     …because you both are playing at the same time…
F:      Not being able to just go there for a short trip - it annoys me pretty much. I have been to Madrid a couple of times, just to see him. But I think at one point I’ll be able to watch one of his games live. Yet I follow every game via I-pad or TV.
N:     Well, I guess he watches your games as well…
F:      Yeah, yeah – if he doesn’t play at the same time as I do, he watches my games too. We always watch each others games.
N:     What about your future? Is there something you want to achieve?
F:      I just try to… ehm try the best under the current circumstances. So that I don’t have to regret something later. I don’t want to plan what I want to do in one year, two years. I want to do whats right now and what I think is right. So with that I won’t regret anything later on. (laughs)
N:     What I always want to know – I also have siblings. Two brothers who play in Croatia. What’s it like to go onto the pitch with everyone chanting your name?
F:      It’s a nice feeling – everytime. It’s never a daily routine. It’s always special.
N:     Are you nervous?
F:      Tense – yes. Nervous, yes maybe a bit. But not in negative way. Also positive…
N:     …motivating…
F:      Yes, motivating. It’s always something special – every time. It never became a daily routine and it never will be… And I think thats something which a lot of players will miss once their career is over. Those moments.
N:     Goosebumps right?
F:      Yeah…
N:     Once Toni got to play for Bayern Munich for the first time… How was that for you? Where you there?
F:      I was watching it on TV – yes. I think he was a subsitute player that game. And I can remember very vividly that he made to assists that game. I just went like it went before through his youth. It was the perfect first game… I think he played for some twenty minutes… but I think that was more emotional than his world cup win. Because it seems that you finally reached the place you always trained and worked to get to. That your dreams have finally come true… thats a moment you probably will never forget.
N:     Exactly, you are living your dream… but there are so many other players – so many others. And sometimes it just takes a few minutes and your spot on the team is gone. How can you motivate or calm yourself so you dont get discomfort or fear of not making it? Everybody is interchangeable. Do you really get away from that fear? Sure you finally fulfill your dream but it doesn’t mean anything…
F:      Yeah, I mean often dreams are different than reality. Sure, if you in the game for some ten years, you can‘t say „Now I have fulfilled my dream!“. Not everyday is going to be like that. It’s always hard work. Nevertheless there is always a sense of satisfaction. Because, I mean, not many people can say about themselves they fufilled their childhood dream. Thats why investing a lot in it is always worth the cost. Everybody should always believe in it – in themselves. Regardless whether it works at the first opportunity or the next. If you have a dream – you should follow it.
N:     Don’t you sometimes crave for a relaxed time with slippers and a beer in your hand… or not (laughs).
F:      Well sometimes I do have those thoughs (smirks)… just let everything go. Not to think about what do I have to eat now. Or can I stay up later than usual? The ability to just decide freely what you want to do… it‘s something you look forward to but maybe in a couple of years down the road. You know the time will come – someday…
N:     As long as your body can handle it…
F:      Yeah right.
N:     Do you have real close friendships with other players with teams you’re playing in?
F:      Yes, I do. Not many but…
N:     Is it because of the competition?
F:      No, No… I don’t think so… I think it takes a year to build a friendship. And… I mean I played in Bremen for about six years now… and it felt I played with over 100 different players. You can‘t build friendships with that, players have come and gone over that period of time it’s not possible. But there are one or two guys among the players who stayed there for six years like I did … where you have a stronger bond and you made friends with. It’s possible - but very rare.
N:     But do you still have a relationship to Greifswald, to Rostock?
F:      Yes Greifwald, because grandma and grandpa still live there. As well as uncle and aunts.
N:     Can they live in peace or are they…
F:      Yeah, they have their peace.
N:     Everyone knows…
F:      ….well yeah everyone knows them. Sometimes people ask. But no, uncle and anuts are still there. My cousin moved there with his small family lately. My parents still live in Rostock. Mostly family but not really friends still live there.
N:     You are in Berlin?
F:      I’m in Berlin, yes. I like it.
N:     Well thats not far from home right?
F:      No, thats fine. If we only had a good airport it would be easier to reach the city (laughs)
N:     (laughs) Hey don’t grouse about Tegel airport! The nice thing about Tegel airport is two steps you are out of the plane; two steps you get through the airport; two steps our out of it!
F:      Well, yeah….
N:     Ok, I see. You want the new international airport…
F:      (laughs) But I guess I won’t be in Berlin once its finished.
N:     So you do have dreams and you want to play somewhere else?
F:      No. But I won’t play for another ten years. Thats pretty clear to me. I already know I will be going back to Bremen once my career is over. And yes, if the new airport needs another ten years to get finished it will be difficult for myself.
N:     Thankfully you dont need an airplane to Bremen. (laughs)
F:      Yeah (laughs).
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itsmecessy · 4 years ago
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Having You Near Me
Most people say that I shouldn't care much on looking for someone to be with given my young age. But I couldn’t just shrug the thought when most girls in my age are already in a relationship.
It hurts and made me feel so frustrated because every time that I hang up with my squad, my role is just a “third-wheel” and I’m so tired for that role. All of them are holding hands while walking with their boyfriend or girlfriend and as usual I look like their maid following them anywhere they want to go.
By the way, I’m Queencess Quinn Dela Torre, an 18 years old girl living in Olongapo City and currently Grade 12 HUMSS student at Maxwell Prime University . When I was a child I’m just a simple girl staying just on my room watching cartoons and playing indoor games at home, in short I am an “introvert girl when I was a little”. As time passes by, everything has changed about me when I meet my bestfriend Hailey, Hailey Chantal Buenavetura. AsI witnessed her long time ago, I describe her as DORA because she is an explorer girl. She loves exploring something that is new in the present nor traveling.
Well, Everyone knows me as a simple and a minimalist girl before but for some reason, because of I learned to explore and enjoy trends in today’s generation. In this time of pandemic we need to be quarantined not because we are infected but just for our safety. Even though I used to be alone before, I still feel or experience boredom.
For the reason that I was bored, I contact my bff for me to surpass those problems because its killing me.
 “bebs!! I’m bored. I don’t know what to do! I don’t play games thooooo.”
 “besh…. explore, explore, explore!” Hailey said.
 “Ughhh there you go again dora! HAKHAKAHKA.”
 She smirked and said “STOP!! Grrrrr!”
 “HAKAHKAHKA, youre so cute everytime you act like that bebs! Can you just do it one more time?”
 “stop it its not funny!” she said.
 “no more bully… but bebs!! help!! I’m bored!”
 “okay..fine! I use yugo whenever I’m bored”
 “huh? what’s that?”
 “besh, it is an app wherein you can make friends with others.”hailey said while eating.
 “but.. how?”
 “its like a dating but not usually like that. You can swipe left and right too if you want to add someone also you can search if ever you have someone you know that is also using that app. The difference of of the two is you do live stream and watch with your friends there and meet new people in live..uhggg its hard to explain.” hailey said while discussing it hard.
 “owwwww.. thats cool… I’ll try it later!”
 “just explore the app and I’m sure you’ll enjoy it.”
 “thank you bebs!! you’re the best!!! luvyah dora!”
 “stop calling me dora!!! hays”she smirked again and said “luvyah too.” with disappointment on her face.
 “HAAKAHKAHKHA!! okay fine! Byeeee. Mwuahh”
 “bye besh!”
 At first, I didn’t enjoy the app because I’m not used to it. I’m just a simple girl and if you try to look my phone, the only application that you can see are Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, and Youtube. Yes, I’ve changed and not the girl tat they know before but duh, yubo is not my type. I don’t do live stream and I don’t feel talking to someone I didn’t know.
After a month, I gave yugo a second chance. I patiently explore what is the beauty of that app. I started to watch live streams and unexpectedly enjoy watching those streamers who are enjoying the bond they have. One night, I open up my yugo and started live hopping again to watch different streamers and as time passes I received invitation to stream with them but for some reason, I’m not that confident because I’m shy so I declined. After a week, I still do my yugo routine but this time I accept invitations already and I do live stream already and have friend with everyone.Yugo app helps me to fill up myself whenever I’m bored for so many months.
 There was I time, my junior highshool classmate shakira marie called me and had some talks about life or something. Honestly, that was the beginning of our friendship and we started to talk and have fun during quarantine. Since its been a month since I’m using yugo, I decided to take a rest from using it and continue having fun with kira.
 “kira!”
 “long time no talk!” kira said
 “how are you? I missed you!”
 “well, I’m good and still pretty same as you and I missed you too gurl!”
 “HAKHAKHAAHK”
 “do you know yugo?.” kira asked.
 “yes, I’am!. I have yugo account too!”
 “what a coincidence!” kira said with excitement.
 “let do live stream sometimes!”
 “sure why not!”kira answered.
 After knowing that kira knows about yugo, we have been live streaming for almost five months, we already had a lot of friend in yugo and enjoys streaming every night. For five months, we never missed one day of streaming, everyday and every night we do yugo “routine” sounds fun right?. We’re tripping and having fun whenever someone came and stream with us (sometimes we flirt).
 One day, when kira and I are waiting for our online class while we were streaming, someone raised his hand wanted to live stream with us and his name is King Glean Javier he’s from Infanta, Quezon Provice same as me Grade 12 student taking STEM curriculum. Kira and I had fun with him but for awhile, kira felt so hungry and left us streaming. While king and I are streaming alone and no one is watching, king open up and started to talk about his past.
 “cess, have you been in a relationship?” king asked.
 “why’d you ask?”
 “how long have you been in a relationship?” he asked again
 “okay okay… yes I’ve been in a relationship but it last just for 2 months I think?”
 “why did you guys broke up?”
 “actually my ex and I have never been I a fight, I just let him do what ever he wanted to do but I think did something wrong in that part because I just let him do everything he wants?”
 “but by do you think you’re wrong?”
 “ I’m wrong in the way that I “tolerate” his vices because I let him do what ever he wants to do to the point that I let him forget that he has a girlfriend waiting for his chats. I’ve been too considerate for him even though he doesn't make time for me anymore because I want him to be happy. To be honest, I don’t want him to let him go but I think there’s something wrong”
 “awww, he’s so lucky but he didn’t prioritize you and keep you with love, I understand what your point is. I hope you’re okay now.” king said.
 “how about you? I think you had something you want to say about your past for some reason.”
 “actually I’m broken, I’ve been in a relationship in two years and five months.” he said
 “aww! That’s long, but why does it ends?”
 During this quarantine, were not allowed to roam outside since we are just a minor. One time I chatted her that I am supposed to go on their but suddenly she no, and she is so sorry because she doesn’t love him anymore and she’s with her new man. Even though she refused, I still go to their place and yah we talked to each other and she said sorry to me. But all I can is just to accept and let her go even if it hurts.” king said with mixed emotions.
 “aww, that hurts but we just did our part.”
 “yess! Kira is already here!!” king shouted.
  When kira is already in, after fifteen minutes we decided to end up our live stream because king had to go and prepare for hin onlice class at one o'clock on the after noon and kira and I doesn’t have class that time. Around one thirty pm while I am scrolling at my social medias account, I saw King Glean sent me a friend request and that was an expected things to me and because I know him already, I accepted his request and I unexpectedly received wave message from him and yes, I waved back to him and started a conversation that day.
King told me that he didn’t expect me to accept his request since we just meet online which is on yugo and I told him that “why would I do that if I know you?” also he keeps telling that he is very comfortable with me and just like that and I am fun to be with and that day that we chatted to each other, that was the beginning for to know each other well. As time passes by, we had a lot of talks about our past and he send some picture like family pictures, we do random video calls, updates and were having fun a lot of time.
 King made me feel excited every time that he is sending me a message and calling me every-time, I don’t know what to do but to stop what I am thinking for because there was a time that our topic is about entering again in a relationship again. One day he asked if ever that some will come into my life again, am I ready to be in a relationship again? And I told him yes but I asked that question back to him but hi didn’t answer. Also there was a time that he asked me if he’s attractive and I said “yes, you’re attractive the you are.” also the thing that I felt so excited because of him and he reminded me that he was not simping and he was just showy and clingy person. For some reason, king asked me like if am I “ghoster or not” because some of the other girls did that stupid things to him before and made him felt so bad.
 “queen, I’m not saying this to you just to disappoint you or hurt you haaa, I was just thinking of you ghosting me someday.”
 “uhmmm, its okay that you asked something like that to. But I must to you that majority of those guys or friends who came into my life are the first people who got tired off, not me. I don’t usually have an intentions of doing that stupid thing to someone because I know the feeling of being left behind or ghosted. So why would I do those event to people who are welcome to me but unfortunately, not welcome to them?” I answered.
 “well, I got your point but this time, I want you to know that I will not let you feel what you felt from those people did that stupid case to you, I promise.”
 “ I wanted them to stay but they’re  looking for better person that I am. But you know its not our lost and we deserve better.” I added.
 “yes we are.” he answered
 “ you if I will be given a chance to tell something to those people who left you, I will tell the that “you lost a potential guy” jakahkhaka, bumble be like!
 “how crazy lil silly you are!” he said
 “king, lets just put in our mind that we did our part, they just let their stupidity dominant than being intelligent when it comes from hitting up!” I said.
 “they need seminar from us!” his naughty answer.
 After a week of communication, king suddenly didn’t send good morning because I’ve never missed receiving good-morning message for him and it made me feel sad. Eleven o’clock in the morning kira and I decided to stream and had talk about ourselves. While streaming I saw king watching our live and I started to share something about me while he still watching us.
 “kira you know what, I’m clingy and approachable in person.”
 “of course I know that” kira’s answer.
 “but online, I’m not. I want someone will hit me up not me. I just want the first way of hitting up with someone in an opposite gender. In our culture before, the girls are sitting in pretty white the guys are the one who do the first move” I said.
 Kira answered back, “sisz, at this point in time, we had an different world!, this, the girls are the one who’s doing the first move or the one who’s hitting up first not the guys anymore…. but not all the but most of the time hkahkahah”
 “well, I’m just telling my side thooo, that’s my stupid mindset!”
 “then try hitting up first so you will no gonna bored sisz!” kira said.
 After that conversation with kira, king left and we just continue our talk. After thirty minutes that he had left, king is back and I said hi to him and he replied, “hello my baby”. after that reply, I felt so fluttered and that’s why I don’t know what to say but to laugh. That day I’m still curious why he’s not messaging me and I’m not feeling good that day that is why I post a status at my social media saying “aww, no chat and no good morning for today :(“.
 As I woke up the next day, I felt so happy because he already messaged me and unexpectedly confront about my status.
 “Good-morning baby, char” king’s message.
 “aww, good-morning!” while I felt so fluttered.
 “what was that drama?” he asked
 “what?”
 King sent the screenshot of my status.
 “ahhhhh, don’t mind it thoooo. HAHKAHKA”
 “wait for awhile, my mom calls me to eat and you too” king asked.
 “okie, eat well”
 While king is eating, there’s a lot of thing out of my mind. I’m curious about his moves. He’s too sweet all of a sudden.
 “hello my baby! Char” he said
 “too fast ha.. hkahka”
 “too fast?” he asked
 “too fast to eat…” I answered.
 “ahy, I had the wrong idea.. hakhka”
 “huh? Hkahka”
  At that point, I already knew about what is in his mind. I started to doubt and over-think what will happen next. I had this feelings that I can’t really even explain why am I too nervous or paranoid about something. There was a time that, because of this bad  feelings, I always think about something that made my mind boast.
 I had a lots of “what ifs” in my mind, “what if this guy left me?”, “what if he likes me too but he’s hesitating to tell or open up with me?”, “what if he still love his first love?”, “what if his first came back and left me behind?” ,“ what if we were not having a one sided love?”. but as time passes by, all those “what ifs” that I was scared off  are suddenly happened on its time. Not in a negative way but positive and fluttering.
 King said, “what is this?”, “what are this convos of us?”
 “hala (omg)” I said as I felt my heart aching because of beating so fast.
 “ I’m just asking, we had a lot of random video calls, right?, I always update you about me and you almost know my routine everyday, my errands, even my movements hkaha joke, etc.” he said.
 “uhmmmmm.” speechless me.
 “ for you what are these?” he asked.
 “uhmmm, for me, this was just a typical convos just what like the others doing.” I know you and I know your side thooo.” I answered.
 “but, what do you think you know about me?” he asked
 “well, as far as I know, you don’t have plans to flirt since you’re not yet healed from you past right? You told me that you’re just showing who you are truly, right?” I said.
 “ let’s say that “I’m not yet totally healed from the past”, but for me, I’m okay now. I already accepted the fact that we are not together anymore and we already had clear and good closure.” he said. “ I’m just holding back to open up with you before but since we were just seeing or meeting each other online.” he added.
 “then, what do you mean by that feelings?” I answered. “how cute you are hkakhaa”
   “I LIKE YOU, but the thing is I don’t think that fell the same way as me. Also were long distanced to each other” king said.
 “ wait, is this a prank?” I asked
 “why am I pranking you in this serious conversation?” king said.
  All this time, I told king that, “I thought that it was all one sided”. For the reason that I don’t want hoping for someone and holding on to someone that will never last, I always taught myself not to be stupid in this kind of situations.  Before this time came, I forced myself not to fall for him even though he shows motives about having feelings for me. I forces myself to put in mind that “two broken people will never make whole”. I forced myself not to be “fragile as glass” wherein someone will make me fall and no one will catch me and became just like a broken glass. I’m tired, tired of being left behind or ghosted, and begins from the start just like a cycle of pain, but suddenly my world stopped and I look like a dog, a dog that making face like I did something stupid, sitting on the corner of my room, thinking about ,“should I give a chance for us to flirt and build love for each other  or not?”
 Even though I over-think about him, I always think if how could I I know the answers about certain things that made think badly if I would not give it a try?. Everything has its different outcomes, they may be negative or positive. So what if I give it a try and in result, it will give happiness?
 I said to king, “i understand you concern for me and you, yes were long distanced to each other, but don’t be too sad for it.”
 “ I know that this is fast, but what if the time comes and you’ll the true colors of me? Would you still like me or not?” he said. “I know this isn’t formal, but I like you”. with sad emoji. “and I thingk you’re holding back”. he added.
 “ I want you to know that I’ am not holding back. Honestly, I thought everything was just a one sided “feelings”.  also, one of my weaknesses is attachment and I think I am attached from you.” I said.
 “ therefore, that explains the rant on you facebook status?” he asked.
 “yes, because I’m used to it already. Every I have good-mornings from you but suddenly, in just one changes it feels so bat for me.” I answered with sad emoji.
  “ I just did that because I want to know if you will still chat when I an not messaging you, if you will look for me when I’m not around or online, but as u said in live with kasi, you’re not hitting up yourself and what you want is someone will hit you up on chat.” he said.”
 “ but I messaged you that time!” I said while laughing.
 After this, king told me not to tell kira about us, and as I respect his decision, i promised him that I will not tell kira about us for him. And continue our conversation about the fb post.  
 When king didn’t chat that time, I wasn’t supposing to chat him at night because I don’t know how to start, I don’t have any topics to start with but some of my friend pranked about lazada something. So that was the topic I brought up with him.
 Although, I had this negatinve mindset in my head,  i cant stop thinking about him. King is very different from all those guys that I have met online. He is very genuine, respectful, and an ideal guy for me. He respect me the way he respect his parents as I’ve seen in every video call we had and no words can explain how go he is. I like him just the way he is.
 So as we continue our conversation that day, king told that he was just holding back before but fuck I was too far from him and he cant go here for me.
 “ don’t that I was just holding back before because you’re too far from me and I cant go there for you?” he said
 I said, “don’t you thing that I was just “nagpaparinig” or telling those things for a purpose? But it was true..”
 “I can't be with you and i cant see yo, I can't hug you, I can't smell you and it’s fucking frustrating.” he sadly reply.
 “aww, too cute…hmmm”, “ don’t message me on my second account ha, I want you here in my main.” I said.
 “well, why do you need second account huh?” he asked?
 “ that was long time ago, don’t be too curious.”
 King suddenly became so funny and said, “Im just clingy not horny, HAHAHAHAHA.”
  I replied, “well, that’s good, I’m scared from those who are like that… hkahka”
 I thought when king wasn’t chatting me, that was the end of us but its not. He told that whenever he was not messaging me, he is busy doing something. After telling me about that, we have talked about how long is the traveling hour from here in longapo to infanta and it was too long. As I estimate the hours on how long the travel from olongapo to manila, it was two to three hours away and from infanta to manila, it was three to five hours. Therefore the estimated time from infanta to olongapo, it was too tiring to travel because it will be six to eight hours of traveling.
 Within the day of our conversation, as I said before, king is always flooding me with his pictures. I already have his family pictures, pictures with his classmates and friends, his pictures of a beautiful view when he was resting after long ride of biking, also from being toddler to present. And I was so fluttered about it because the reason why he send his pictures is for me to avoid feeling lonely when I’m alone.
 “i’ll send you my pictures ha, I just wanted you not to feel bad or lonely when you’re alone.”
 “ awww, you’re too cute and sweet..” I replied.
 “well, I’m cute when I was a child but what happened now?”he ranted.
 “you’re still cute until now, you’re cute when you smile, that’s why I felt so fluttered whenever I see your smile..” I said.
 “so you like my smile, you’re turned on whenever I smiled?”
 “yes? Hkahaka” I said.
 “ can I say I love you?” he asked
 “of course! Why not?” I answered.
 “ I love you my queen” he said with emojis showing love
 “ I love you too my king” I replied when feeling so fluttered.
 After a month of getting to know each other well, one of the thing that I have been flattered about him is that, he asked me all of a sudden about “what is my favourite song is?”. And  I told him my favourite song was “having you near me”. When I told him about that, after a minute of time, he called me and I was shocked because as I answered his call, my favourite song is playing on his laptop. And as we were video calling for a month already, he still playing it and lip syncing it for me.
 So for a month of knowing each other, king decided to tell kira about us. And we planned to tell her in live so there’s a lot of fun that will be hold on.
 “babe, lets do live at yugo and tell kira about us.” king said.
 “sure, no problem but how?” I asked.
 “we’ll let think, since sometimes her brain-cells are slow, hkahkaha.” he replied.
 “you’re too harsh babe! Ahakha.” I replied.
 “let’s go then..” he said.
 When we were live streaming with kira, we were just acting like normal. We acted normal until the time comes for us to do what we planned awhile ago. During our stream, I told kira that I have something to tell her but there was a viewer who wants to stream with us and she send an invitation for it and suddenly didn’t hear and asked me what did I said.
 “hi sisz!!!” kira said.
 “hello, king ask if what time are we going to stream and I told him that “right now” I said to kira.
 “hhkahak, hey king is here now!” kira shouted.
 “come up here king!” I said.
 “hello guys!, wazzup? ” king said.
 “hello!” kira and I said.
 “kira, queen had something to tell you.” king said.
 “whatttt!????” I shouted.
 “wait, someone wants to stream with us, let me invite her.” kira said.
 King and I continue to talk like at the same time that’s why its too loud to here.
  “hey, what are you guys up to?” kira asked.
 “nothing thooo, hkahkahka” I answered.
 There was a viewer named “love” and everyone said “sana all love”
 “sana all love” I said.
 “ I love you babe!” king said
 “ luhhh!, are you guys flirting?” kira said!
 “ uhmmmm, yes?” I answered.
 “ now, you knew it already! So we don’t have to think that much about us when it comes to you.. hkahka” king said.
 When kira already knew about us, kira started to asked non stop about us, he aske so many things like how we started to open up to each other and king was the only one who’s answering all those question from kira since he was just the that kira was asking for.
 “omg, king what’s poppin! Char”. kira asked.
 “hkhahka,” king laughed.
 “so, you like her?” asked kira.
 “yes, I like her and I love her” king answered genuinely.
 “sana all!” she shouted. “ but how and why?” kira asked.
 “ I like and love her just the way she and no words can explain how I feel for her” king answered.
 “stop asking, but the only thing that we can say is were both mutual, we like and love each other, hkahkah” I said.
 “okay, fine! Sana all!” kira said.
 “hey king! I just want to remind you ha, don’t make my bb gurl hurt ha or else you’ll be dead from me.” kira’s threat.
 “ of course no!, I know the feelings of being hurt and why would I do those thing to my queen. She deserve to be loved not to be hurt” king answered.
 “so, if you guys needs help, I’m always here for the two of you! I luh yuh” kira’s advice.
 After our stream, king and I talked in facebook chat about the reaction of kira when we already told her about us. We were surprised about her reaction, she shouted and her eyes widened and she flustered about us.
 On the next day, since king told me that they will be having a long ride from five to nine am, I waited for so long for him and flooded him a lot of messages until they came back home and called me even he’s not yet changed. I told him to rest but he resist because he wants me to see and to talk with.
 Since we were running out of topics, I opened up someone who wont stop hitting me up, he’s too cringy and he doesn’t stop calling me baby, love, babe or something and he’s getting into my nerves every time he’s asking me for time even though I’m not that interested to him. Upon knowing all my rants about that guy, king decided to confront him and ask him to keep distance from me. while confronting him, the guy replied a lot of things that not makes sense as we were screen-sharing messenger. He opened a lot of thing like I had a bumble account and king doesn't even care about it because I didn’t use it anymore. After confronting the guy, we hang up our call so we can do thing that we need to do like doing requirements and online class.
 A week after, I visited my yugo. Upon visiting, I saw jess “a gay” streaming with king. King saw me and said hi to me but jess is simpig with him without knowing that king and I had something together. Jess continue flirting while king is resisting from him. I had a lot of trust for him so I don’t get jealous about them. King invites me on their stream and pushing jess to king as making fun and enjoy with them at the same time until king has to leave the stream for the reason that he needs to attend his online class at that day.
 Since king left the stream, jess and I continue to have fun. We did a lot of chika about something. He told me that he likes king but king said he had someone for a month or two months I think.
 “is it true jess? You like him?” I asked.
  “uhmm, yess hkahkaha” jess answered with feeling shy.
 “hakhkahakha” speechless me.
 “ can you help me?” he asked.
 “uhm, hkhaha sure?” I replied.
 While streaming with jess, I messaged king since he’s live hopping that time and told him about what jess said during our conversation but he initiate first. But eventually after a minute of time jess and I ended our live.
 “babe?” king’s messaged
 “i’m live streaming with jess.” I answered.
 “i’m live streaming babe” he said.
 “yes, I saw you online and watching” I replied.
 “ but what are you guys talking about?” he asked.
 “well, jess told me that he has crush on you.” I replied.
 “wait, what!?” he loudly asked.
 “ he said that he’s serious about you.” I replied.
 “he’s just making fun form me, I know his trip thoo, hkahka” he said.
 “ what if it’s true? He’s serious?” I added.
 “ are you jealous?” he asked.
 “no, I’m not, I promise.” I said
 “are you sure, I’m just asking so I know what I need to do.” he replied.
 “i’m not, promise” I answered.
 “ I love you then.!” he said.
 “I love you too, babe!” I repplied.
 An hours after our conversation, jess and I started a live and talk something about his side for king. At first, he just great me like we were close and then he started to ask about king.
 “cess!, how are you?” he joyfully asked.
 “here, doin’ great, hkahka” I said while laughing.
 “so what’s poppin girl?” he asked.
 “nothing much bb!” I answered
 “well, I felt so fluttered because kind said “I love you” awhile ago!” he’s fluttered answer.
 “is that so?, hajhajhja” I said
 “but I don’t take it as an advantage because he said that he had this girl chatting with him for 2 months I think?” he said
 “awww, is that so? I know that he had but I’m not sure thooo.” I replied.
 “do you know her?” he asked.
 “no, I don’t” I said.
 After this convo, king started to watch our live and jess started to flirt at him again but because king is straight and not interested on him, he decided just to go with the flow and make jess feel so fluttered.
 “bb, king is already here!” I said to jess.
 “oh my gosh!, hello baby!” excitedly answered.
 “hkahkahakha” I just laughed at them and watch them.
 While we were streaming, king messaged me and told me everything like how’ he feeling about jess’ trip.
 “ I think that jess is just tripping up with me!” king messaged.
 “ don’t you know what jess told me awhile ago? He said that you made him fluttered by saying “I love you” to him. Hkahkaha” I said.
 “yes, I told him that but in the end, I said char!”.”he’s too naughty thoo, he’s trippin’ me or making fun of me, then I’ll go with the flow.” I added.
 “hkahahakhaa” I just laugh
 “I don’t know if he’s serious or not but I never mind it anymore because for me, you’re my one and only babe.” he said.
 “but babe, lets not tell jess about us ha.” my favor for him.
 “sure, why not!” he said.
 “i just want to know something about him when it comes to, making sure that he will not steal you from me.” I naughty replied at him.
 “what a crazy mind is that my queen? Hahhaa, remember that you’re always be my babe. I love you” he answered.
 “ I love you so much babe!” I replied.
 At this point, I felt so fluttered about him but I’m still streaming so I came back from our live but this time king is not watching anymore. So as king left the stream, jess started to tell chikas about him.
 “bb, I streamed with king awhile ago and I saw that girl he was saying because he did screen-sharing.”
 “ where?” I asked
 “on his instagram bb!” he replied.
 (I got nervous but fighting since we don’t have some proof.)
 “ but bb, I’m not sure because I didn’t recognized her well, and I saw a girl too on his messenger but I don’t thins that’s it too because there are so many chatheads and it’s all groupchats as well.”
 “ahh, okay hkahakha.” I answered.
 “bb, help me ha.” asking favor.
 “yessss, promise..” I responded.
 Jess and I had a lot of chika during live streaming. We had a lot of fun during that time. From all those news that I got from jess, I put in mind that king is not making stupid things as much as cheating because he knows how painful it is. I just prayed to God that I hope king is serious about me and not cheating to another girl. And I just thought that it was just a friend that he was talking with.
 A night during at the same day, kira and I started live streaming again. At first, I critically think if should I tell kira or not about those news I heard from jess. I’m thinking because I know kira, kira is a judgemental person. Kira will say anything that she wanted to tell even without proof but for some reason I told her about it.
 “sisz, I have something to tell you.” I said.
 “what is it ?” she asked.
 “sisz, jess said a while ago in our stream that king have someone in instgram like they were chatting there.” I said.
 “aww, bad new siz!” he answered.
 “hkahka” I just laughed.
 “that’s a red flag siz. Be mindful, stop what you are guys up to!”. she said.
 “no, were not sure about it since we don’t have any proof about it!” I replied.
 At this point in time I got pissed off from kira. She had a lot of thing that she said against king. She misunderstood king and judged him without knowing the truth as well as not having a proof. I got angry on her, she messed up king’s name with other people and the reason that I got into that feeling is because I don’t want someone will be hurt just because of me. Many guys misunderstood king since there was a viewers that time before. I defended king against them but they insist that I should stop being stupid for him in that situation but I keep pointing out to them that “why would I stop without knowing his side”, “ I know what to do, and what I need to do is t seek for the truth and let him explain for his side.”, and “In the end, I don’t want to regret that I didn’t let him explain his side.”
After the argument, king join us streaming without knowing that he was our topic. Even king was in our stream, kira continue to say anything about certain problems connected in my situation. King stay still and and keeping on quiet. Because of the fact that our live title is “RED FLAG”, I think king got the point of it and he left the stream and I panicked about it so I messaged him as soon as possible.
 “babe?” I asked.
 “yes babe?” he asked.
 “why’d you left?” I asked.
 (messenger’s ringing, he called)
 “babe, why’d you left?” I asked?
 “ I just left because I can’t understand what are you guys up to.”
 “ but babe, is it true that you had someone on IG?” I asked?
 “what?, who said those things to you?, is that the reason why “red lfag” is the title of your live?” he asked like he’s stressed out.
 “i must say yes?, I don’t believe jess about it thooo.” I said.
 “if that so?, let me show you the dm section for clarification.”
 (king showed me his dm section and messenger through screen sharing)
 “see?, I don’t have another girl. The girl in my instagram is my yugo friend, the reason why I’m chatting with her is that I’m asking her if what time they are going to live.” he said.
 “well, don’t be too stressed out about that. I trust you babe. So have a good vibes..” I said to him.
 “i’ll hang up this call, go to your live and vibe with them” he said like he’s hurt.
 “don’t mind it anymore babe, just put in your mind that I trust you.” I said before he hanged up.
  “okay” he said.
 After the call, king messaged me saying “I love you” and I answered back to him “I love you too”. I cheered him up by telling him that I have trust on him that why I keep fighting for him.
 “how could you trust me? Why are you keep saying that you had trust on me, thooo were just talking on yugo and online?” he asked.
 “why?, you don’t want me to have trust on you?” I asked him back.
 “it’s up to you” he replied.
 “well, I’ll trust you anyways that I want.” I said.
 King said,“we still cant be on an intimate love.”, “were not meeting in person, we two are just hoping, and this is just a “HOPE”. it will be a long time for us to reach or pursue this kind of intimate love.”  
 “it will never be intimate if you would not give it a try, right?” I answered.
 “i just don’t want you to be hurt” he said.
 “why? Do you have plan to left me and find some other girls near to you? You don’t trust me or not?” I asked.
 “ughhh! Fuck, this is so hard to explain.” “ how could this type of our situation work?” he’s frustrating asked for me.
 “it will never work if we will not try it king.” I said.
 “so you’ll take risk, even though its an online relationship?” he asked
 “i’m ready to take risk tho, but I don’t know if you’re ready too.” I said.
 “ I want it too, but I’m too coward for this because I don’t want to cause you pain” he replied.
 “it will work if the both of us will fight together” I said.
 “ just let the time work, lets wait for the right time for us, okay?, I’m just here.” he said.
 “ I LOVE YOU” he added
 I replied, “ I LOVE YOU TOO”.
 After this conversation, I almost cry because I overthink and I overthink about what will happen the next. I had a lot of what ifs again like, “what if one day he will not chat me anymore?”, “what if he left me hangging?”, “what if he’s restraining himself for us to have an intimate love?”, “what if someday he will tell me for us to stop?”. That night I felt so unwell, I felt so empty and that time, I loose appetite to stream in yugo but after thirty minutes, That point in time, I must say that, that was the worst night that I had in my life. My what ifs that I was scared off suddenly happened on its wrong timing. My world crumbled and the only thing that I can do is to cry secretly. Not as being an exaggerated person but I asked God why did this thing happened to me?. king was the only one who made me feel that I deserve to be respected, I deserve to be love, and I’m worth it just I am. I thought he’s the one, the one that will never leave me behind.
 (king messaged me)
 “babe?” he asked
 “yes?” I respond.
 “why did you fell for me?, we don’t have label but we’re calling each other “babe” and saying “I love you” back to each others?” he asked.”I’m just clearing things up tho,”
 “I fell for you because you’re different from all those guys that I met before.” I answered.
 “ like how?” his ask.
 “i like you just the way you are. Because of you, I felt so excited to wake up in the morning, and no words can explain how different you are” I answered.
 “ cess, we don’t have label right?” he asked
 (at this point, I got very nervous, he called me cess already, there so many things came up in my mind and I don’t even know what to do.)
 “yes” I said.
 “can we stop this for a while?” he asked.
 “but why?” I asked him back.
 “ I’m having a hard time because of this, I’m studying and I’m worried if someday I cant be able to make you happy, I cant be able to update you, I cant be able to talk with you and I cant be able to make you smile” he said.
 “what if I’m not willing to stop of what we have for so long?” I asked. “ I understood your point, were both student here and all we can do is to go with the flow and sorry if kira misunderstood you before.” I added.
 After that, king called me and explain his side, he told me to stop the things that we are up to and be friends this time. He told me that he will never change, the king that I know before will be the king until the end. He’s too sorry for me, he told me that if there is something wrong about us is that could be him. I don’t need to blame myself about us because it’s all in him. He love me but the distance woke us up to reality that it will be hard for us to enter in a relationship that we were up to. In that point, I don’t know what to do but to cry and accept his decisions.
 “cess,please don’t cry anymore” his message.
 “i’m okay, thank you” I replied. “ but agai, sorry for messing up your name. I ‘am also wrong to let my feelings brought me up on what we are before.” I added.
 “it’s okay, we cant really control our emotions and again, I’m sorry” he replied.
 “yes, masakit pero ayos lang (it hurts but it’s fine)” I said.
 “i’ am really sorry, it’s all my fault” he replied.
 “ thank you for everything, for making me feel that I’m worth it to love and to have.” I said.
 “ you’re worth it, but you’re not meant for me” he said.
 “thank you king.” I replied
 And king answered, “thank you queen”.
 After our conversation, I visited my yugo and I saw jess streaming. I watched and I was invited to his live. Even though I’m still crying that time, I accepted his invitation and act like I had flu but behind that, I was still crying for what happened for awhile. Since jess and I used to talk about king, he asked me again and I answered it all.
 “bb, do you know the girls now? The girl that king talks about?” his ask.
 “uhhmm, why do you keep aking me about her?” I asked him.
 “well, I’m just curious” he said.
 “honestly, I was the girl who you wanted to know!” I answered.
 “omg, is it true? I’m sorry” he said. “how are you guys tho?” he added.
 “actually, we just ended up what we are before I stream with you. And the reason that I have runny nose it is because I’m still crying right now.” I replied
 “what was the reason?” he asked.
 “honestly because of what you’ve said before, I told kira that king has someone on his IG and she started to make assumptions against king, tho I’m not believing on that thing since I don’t have proof about it. And I think the reason why he did that decision is because he felt so down about what din kira said before” I said.
 “omg, I felt so bad for that. I think its all my fault. In our place, they always call me a relationship wrecker because I’m always messing up relationships. Today, I have I messed up three relationship. Sorry, its all my fault.” he said.
 “don’t be sorry, its not your faulth bb.” I said.
 “ I know how king loves you, he’s always sharing something good about you. He’s always flexing you cess.” he said
 “i felt that love from him jess, but I think he downgrade himself and brought himself into that decision” I replied
 “ it’s okay not to be okay bb, everythinh will be alright.” he’s cheering me up.
 “i met a lot of guys before but he’s the only one who made me feel like this, I will wait for him. I’ll wait for one week and will not entertain some other guys and if king didn’t message me within a week, I’ll let him go.
 Jess replied, “I’ll support you in any ways, I’m just here for you.”
  On the next day, I felt so empty, I don’t have appetite to attend online classes, I just wanted to sleep all day and that feeling was what I felt for a couple of days. The people that I am with in our home keep asking me “what happened to me”, I am acting different for a couple of days, and I became quiet and I just want to be alone. Because of the fact that I am broken, I brought up myself into this situation. Since I don’t know what to do, I keep on crying all day and open up from some of my friends on yugo. I did not entertain kira for three days but as a friend I forgave her.
 As time passes by, I’m still broken. I always posted a lot of “hugot” message for him, I shared posts related to my situation and how I felt since he left me, I always post memes for a purpose and all of those are for him, but as I’ve said, time passes by and the most awaited time for a couple of days just happen on its perfect timing.
 One day, on the afternoon, I was just scrolling at my social medias and unexpectedly king sent me a picture saying that “ thank you sun for the warmth, thank you clouds for the shade, and You, thank you for existing.” my heart aches because it beats so fast, I felt so fluttered about that and I rashly forward it back to him.
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   After this event, everything has returned. We begin right from the start but at this point in time, we put God in the center of our relationship until he grant us the grace and time for us to meet after waiting for so long and suffer long distance relationship. Now, we are the characters of our on story, no supreme beings, no power, no fairy, and sailing on a huge sea while putting in our mind that our relationship is not like a book or a movie anymore that runs fast as flash and began and started to last.
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sheilasministry · 4 years ago
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Jesus says it’s a great idea to do this but I’m not into it. I’m a little tired from my jog but I went anyway. I don’t have to do these things but when I do it’s like I wanted to after I’m done. It’s the way we all feel when we  say; Well okay but I’m not into this but when I’am I will be smiling but not laughing as much to be here with you at some game place. Okay how  about this. We go in there to have a laser fight with each other you know on opposite teams. Okay but I won’t be as much into it as you might think but I will have some fun beating you at some laser game sport if that’s how you want to spend our time together today. I had a plan but you said here first. Okay what is your plan? Well let’s do this & see if we have time for mine. I mean it’s been you all the way through this time of your life’s past history. Okay I didn’t know it was that bad. Well it was fun right up until you said; Now is where I go cheap as in food & I’m  buying you lunch. Great I said to me but she says it was a fun way to show me who I’am. That’s what I said & now I know how much fun she is but her time is not with me that much. So I can go without that much time about her with her in her life but it was fun when she said; I’m doing this so you can say it’s about me in the blog when I have you read it in time. Okay well I will say that & I will mean it. I know. I just wanted to let you know that if you say it’s from me to you to God. You are wrong. So here is the saying for me to anyone out there now. No one can have a great time unless it’s about them & that is the end of that. Okay I’m not having as much fun but I thought we could go some place different then just playing sports & you know eating at the same old places. I take you some place different each time but it’s my favorite so you show me now what you want to do. I don’t have a plan. Then why all the complaining now? I don’t know. I thought you would show me some museum where we can go for some History on this world with you still in it. Oh that reminds me. I have a place where I can take you. They call it a museum but it’s not really. Okay let’s go where you say it’s about me with you & then we can go do something where I can say I had a fun time but that’s it. I will go see anyone from now on in my vacation but not you. Okay I was hoping you would say that. I wanted to go some place but you showed up so God said to take you all over the place about me. When you say you want to get to know someone. How is it that you say it was a boring & not worth your time to do so when we  try to show you how we live & not you. Your world is not mine. So go to your place & be with whoever you want but when you are with me it’s  about who I’am with me & you. Not you with me & then we talk about you & then I say; I can’t be there because I can’t afford where you want me to be with you to shop for things that are thousands of dollars & maybe into the millions I don’t have now. Okay what is that I don’t have now? It will be wise if you answered me first. Okay I’m good. I had a blast but I  would like to show you something first. Right after I show you something to be here in time with me about. Okay what? Well we have to do it my way. Are you okay with that? Yes I’m okay with that. I’m getting into really great shape. Not much but I will show you some place where you will say to me some day not that far in the future; Hey I’m really sorry I told a  person about me with you & it didn’t work out but I had a bunch of fun but I wasn’t honest with you. I had a blast with you. I just wanted you to say it  to me how much you wanted to be with me but now I realize it’s the way you are & many are. In fact it’s about me when I’m with people to but you said it so well I didn’t get what you were trying to say to me. Can we go through that again. I can’t hear what you are saying over this noise in this place. Well I was saying I will be back. Okay I will be over here. No you have to be with me when I’m with you from now on. Every time I’m with you, you slip off to a place of where I have no idea but that person over  there is waiting to talk to me about you. Can you wait for me please for a bit? No I can’t. I have to be over there for that person who says it’s  always about you in a script but not enough about me or anyone else who says it better then me or you. Who is that? You. Me? Yes you. I can’t ever be right for you but you can be right for me. I have to go. Have a  great time over there. I’m here to have fun over there & then I have to go back home today. I have to see my grandchild before he Graduates from some school he says he is done with when I say he is. What does that mean? It means when his life is done with me & grandpa it will be a day of no relief but sorrow. He likes to love being with me & grandpa. He says I say it the best but that some day he will say it the best out of all on this world but not me. Okay what is that? You will see when I say it here I will be out & about & you will see if you can find me but you will not be exactly impressed with me because of who I’am with God. Okay how is that, that you knew that then & not me? I hope you have a great time here. I’m  going over there. I will have a great time with your kids though. They have a way with me that you say is to childish for you to deal with right now. Okay I will be over there & my kids don’t even know you. Not yet but when they do they will ask why you are the way you are? And I will say go ask your mom about that. They will say well maybe but she get’s into her life to the point of saying do this or be this way or do that & look over there into that camera. Well I have to say it’s the right thing to do. Yeah but you are a place of wanting more & I have to say you will get it the only way you know how. So I’m not into this but when I’am & I know who you are from the start God will say; Don’t go over there if you don’t want to be stopped by that person but then He will say; What do you think on this new script I wrote about someone you won’t meet but you will meet the right person in time? Well it’s all up to you God Jesus but I’m not looking forward to her look on her face when I say; I have to go over  there far from you. So don’t be embarrassed of me to say it won’t  happen but when it does you will say; Okay I’m done with this person for her to make fun of me in front of many. Okay I will say but it will be such a mock for me to say I’m here. So let’s get going & you will say; I’m not going anywhere with you looking like that. Great I will say. I’m not going anywhere with you looking like that either. Okay this is the show down for me but it will be a fun one for anyone to say it was a mean trick for me to pull but it will be such a blast to say it but then she will say; You have got to be kidding. They are not laughing & she is. Okay I will say. Let me repeat this to you all again. If you have to say it right for me to say it right for you. Just go ahead & leave now because I’m not backing down on what I said as all of you being Hollywood buzz town people in this world. So what makes you Hollywood buzz town people & not me? That’s when they will laugh. I’m here to in your town which makes me a person as buzzing around bizzy but I’m here to say it for me & not for you to say it again in this way to say it right. No one has a right to say our God’s Name in vain. So don’t do it so much in your movies & if  there is any Hollywood buzz town Producer’s, Director,s & writer’s who say you have to say that to offer them a way out of their lack of talent of writing a script FREE from taking God’s Name in vain all of the time. Well here is my advice to ALL of you now. Go back to the 40′s & 50′s  & see how movies were made then. That’s when the REAL time fun in any movie was done. God says it’s been done way to long ago. So go back to the old way of making a movie. Oh & by the way. Keep ALL of your clothes on please. NO one wants to see you anyway but FULLY DRESSED.
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It is heartbreaking. I think you’re a good son and that you love your mom very much and don’t feel bad or ashamed, i think it’s normal to feel sad. May god bless you. You’ll never be sorry for being a good son to love and help your mom. It will come back to you later.  Watching this is like watching my family’s life at the moment,my beautiful mum has There Is Only One Dangerous Breed Humans Shirt and its so heartbreaking.
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If i could just have one day where i could phone her up for our daily chat,go shopping or just have a mum and girly day and laugh again i’d pay a million pound just for my mum back how she used to be just for one day. Good on this man for filming this, makes people more aware and makes others not feel so alone in their struggles .  My dad has alzheimer’s, was diagnosed four and a half years ago. People don’t understand the disease, there are so many different layers and levels.
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My mom died of dementia. Words cannot express how you feel going through this until it actually happens in your life. I hate when people make jokes about this disease. It is not a joke. Thank you for your courage to share your story. You are a good son.!! I know if your mom could, she would say “thank you, joey for all you do for me, i love you!” joey i see that some think you shouldn’t post this because your mom doesn’t know your doing it.
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But i’am sure you know your mom best and that if she was still the person she once was she would probably say it’s okay it could help people understand something that hasn’t happened to them yet. I have work in this field and it is very difficult to understand it standing right in front of a There Is Only One Dangerous Breed Humans Shirt with this illness so any information you can share will help those that may one day have this come to pass in their own lives.
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sheilasministry · 6 years ago
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This time is better then I can say because I’m with God so much because of me being temperamental that it causes me to be away from God. So I say Praise God so much that I know that with God it will be okay to say I’m not favored but I’m here to be with God. I don’t care if I’m favored by people around me. I care that they favor God but when they are with me & they don’t say it back to me as in fun of playing a fun sport. Well I just say; Fine I’m good with me to say I know how to play just fine. I need to play more to be as good as I want but I want to play other sports & I’am doing fine with me saying I have so much fun. I’m going to take some tennis lessons & get back into the game to improve me in my pickleball sport. I know it’s not too much but I want to learn some things when I was back playing that I didn’t learn because it wasn’t taught to me how to do it. Now I can say I will be with  anyone to play some pickleball but to learn how to footwork my way into the net better & faster & play a good block shot. I know it won’t be over  night that I will learn this but I’m a fast learner. I will have to say I might have to be there once a week for a month & then take the time to practice but it’s hard to practice with people if I don’t know anyone to play practice with. I have one person but it won’t be much into me for learning from them but maybe I can. Okay what is new with me? Not much. I’m still here & I’m glad I’am. I have a pretty good reason for not saying this to me but I went into a temper like you know mad time & hit the wall & it went out of it’s position as in a dent on the wall. It’s a nice wall to but I have to say I have learned to say; Well I’m not sure how that got there. It’s one but upstairs there is a few that someone said; I don’t know how they got there. I didn’t but it’s not a  good idea to say it was an accident but I will just let it go. I won’t be in the moment of that again. It was a dumb thing to do. So what happens when we say many bad things to us when we bump into a car or break something that is not ours or is ours & we say; More money for that. Well keep it up with God & He will say it will get better & it does in time but the more time we say it to God as in Prayer & in Promise & in Praise. It really does get better with time. My paddle has a crack in it but today it’s fine but it’s not me that is not happy about the dent in the wall. It is my husband who says; Okay I have to say it’s going to take me more time & fun not here to be with this dent in the wall but it’s not in our house. I learned to be with me better & it will get  better & better with me getting better & better. I will say I’m not proud of me but God says He is. I’m here doing what I know I can do for God Jesus &  with me here to say I have done a Sermon for online & it was easy. I have done so much practice for the longer Sermon last weekend that I said it faster then ever to say it the way God says to say it His way but with His words that come into my heart. Sometimes I can’t or don’t get them as clear as possible but I will get it so much right that ALL of it will be correct about God’s Heart with me. Someone doesn’t like me much but he really likes who I’am with him on the court. I say it well to people to say well done & good job. It takes no time for anyone to say let’s play but if I get too into saying what they need to do better for us to win. That’s when a guy says; Okay not so much but if it’s someone else saying it to them. Then they  say; Oh okay. I have not had the time on the court but my shots are really good to say I can see what anyone needs to do & me to get better. I see it better then me when I’m playing for me to say; Okay I have to do better then that. I’m not a self taught person in playing pickleball but I’am someone who says okay but it doesn’t always work for me. I have some shots but not many that have helped me. There is no standard form in pickleball to say it helps you get better. Maybe some soft shots but that’s about it. I don’t say much when I’m with some people but I listen & they teach what I have been taught from tennis. That is the funny part. I say go do this & they say no. I say go do this & they say no again to some form that I introduce as NOT new information. I have a shot that I will keep from racquetball & it works well if I have the time to set up to hit it. It’s not anything I can teach but I can get a lot of compliment’s with it from anyone but the person who says; I don’t want you to hit that shot. Well not going to happen. I use my heart to shoot a shot that is now given me some degree of angle from my forehand to their forehand or backhand if they are a left handed person. It works for either side of the court & now that I’m playing the whole court depending who I’m playing with. I can hit the shots I want to hit instead of someone saying; Mine, mine, mine, mine & oh I will get that. I will play in a tournament with pickleball maybe next time around of next year. I’m pretty much into racquetball to the point of saying I’m liked there & this one person likes who I’am as a person. He is a friend of my person who says he says  it won’t be a good game but we when most of the time. What a bad way to say it before we even start playing my sport of pickleball. This guy in  racquetball saw me one time playing & said to himself; Okay she does know how to play well. Her timing is off after six years of pickleball & not playing racquetball at all in that time but whoa what a serve I hear when she is  hitting that ball. Okay I will ask if she wants to help out for racquetball in the fall for coaching the kids from High School & help me get enough here to say it will be okay for their tournaments to do well in them. Well I said yes but I’m not committed to doing anything on weekends but I will play two to three nights a week once I get my timing back & I will be better in time with me to say I can be a good to better player in time. I’m not into saying I will be a great player but these kids know who I’am & they say I have a great game but once I get my timing back it will be not much for them to say but this; Okay I want a rematch with you this time in playing racquetball. Okay I will say. It will get me out & playing another favorite  sport I have played for many years but six of them are not in that count. My time in tennis has been longer but I’m trying to be in it again. I haven’t started yet. If I can be with one person who seems to be really good & she is on it with the tennis with form for me & the now time of tennis playing. I will give a call to her but they aren’t in now. I will set up a time to go see  them & go from there. I have to say it’s not a great blog but a fun one when I’m with God Alone. That’s it for me & have a Blessed day. I will do my practice Sermon & maybe another online Sermon but I have to say I have been out of my heart but not. I’m here to say when I’m with God so much in favor about Who He Is as God Alone in my life & as God Alone with NO one to even say he is god with anyone but God Jesus says its okay if I say this to me. It’s not going to be a great day but an awesome day. I might go & see my grandson but she wants to be by herself today. It’s time I say that I have a great relationship with my kids when they live with us on the same property. They like that we are not always down there. My dad would have been out & busy doing things around the fifth wheeler but it’s done for now until the weather is done. We will be out soon for another  one to be looking to buy but it’s not that soon. That’s what I say but God says it’s a surprise for me all of my life because I like surprises & He is not saying when that is going to happen either. A person is going to say; Okay my kid just said this person is online writing for God again & they said God Is Jesus with God Jehovah & The Holy Spirit Who are One but Three in the Presence as One God Alone Infinitely. Okay that person will say. I  will go find this person in time but now is not a good time for me. I have to see if I can make another movie for me to say I made money on the last two or three. I have to be here for kids & it’s not easy to have that kind of thing going on for me to say it’s another blog or tweet that my kids say I’m in some cave with someone named Harry. Well how do you know it’s me? Well they say, it’s not you or someone maybe like you but you have kids of you know six & you make & act in movies & you made a movie in the movie “SALT” right? Yes but so? It makes us think you are the one she is saying that is in some cave with someone or something called Harry like in the movie “HARRY & THE HENDERSON’S. Okay is what mom says to her kids but they say she is not with us to tell us about God. Well take this person  here to heart & say she is right about God. How come you never taught us about God? I want to know more about God being with us now & not being left behind with nothing but demons if we are too old to be in you know a situation about not believing in God but I do. Well then you are fine & that is from her the person who is writing this blog. Okay so you are okay with person just saying this to this world here to say I’m in a cave with Harry who? I don’t know but if I ever see her in my life I will say; Will you please stop writing about Harry & his life with me in a cave. Sorry I can’t  do that but I will say that your kids will have to know more about God with God Jehovah & The Holy Spirit as One but Three in the Presence as One God Alone Forever. You salt lady need to know that you need to be with  God more. She just called you salt lady & that you need to say it more to us as your kids while we are still being taught about you know us being here with this person saying the “SALT” movie is a great movie but the two sequels you made about a wizard you played or ferry god mother or whatever that is on your head. Well just take it off & smile for God to say it will be fine if you actually take time out to make a movie with your kids about learning  about God more in your life. I know it doesn’t make money that way did  it but it will in time if you give it a go. God will Bless you & for pete sake will you get a pickleball court on your property for your kids to be able to say; Hey look! We have something to do after our homework is done & we are not flying around the world wondering if we will make it to a function with  kids involved in you know a school thing. Okay what is it of her business that she says I can’t take my kids to some Country to talk about life &  things that are important. Animals need a home here in America to. We have lots of things to do here that your kids can follow you around in your private jet & make a big old impression on how much money you have  just to say; Look we have an animal Sanctuary to be in but your kids don’t have anytime to be there to say; Look this is where I want to be to help our animals here in the United States of America. It’s nice to say it is for the helping of people but it’s NOT fun to see our own people in dire need of help here as in starving & homelessness. I help the homeless find God as Jesus with God Jehovah & The Holy Spirit as One but Three in the Presence as One God Alone Always but Hollywood thinks that is NOT as important as saying; LOOK AT ME! I’m here in another Country to say I have been there to give money & say NOT one thing about God when I’m handing out food & making a home to help the homeless there which they need & Thank you for doing that but what about our own homeless people here in the United States & helping them out to get a home. Some day they might be squatting on your own area of worth which is worth millions of  dollars to have someone go to the bathroom several times a day & oh yeah there will be more in Hollywood next time for like say God says next time I’m there to say it. That is this if you don’t get what I just said or what God just said two lines ago. There will be so many homeless people in Hollywood buzz town starting from this moment forward & Hollywood says a wall for our safety to PREVENT the ILLEGAL IMMIGRANT’S from coming through the Border & trying to kill or maim our Officer’s on their way through. Well God says I say go to California & let them know how much they are welcome to their state. They have welcomed so many illegal immigrant’s into this Country America that it will be years for them to settle in on your piece of property with stench, filth, vomit, feces & oh yeah the garbage is NEVER  EVER taken out for the city to say take it here to the dump. They the homeless just squat & go where they want & dump their garbage where they want. NO one in Oregon reads these blogs but they have read some of the tweets when God says our Politician’s are NO where in site to say; Hey clean up this place here with feces to the max & stink & garbage. God says He will send most of them to California & ALL states who say it’s not a good thing to let people in with us saying they are illegal. Obama did it on purpose saying we could have them come in. So God says they the  homeless will find their way into the city where he & Hillary live & their kids live. It’s just starting to say to me that from now on I will Pray that if we let in so many people to say; We can make it across the Border to have a  baby & then be a legal citizen with our child. NO YOU CANNOT! Be with  your time & say this to God Jesus ALL who say this site is so blunt with God Jesus Being God all the way through that many have said; Get this person on tv. NO THANK YOU VERY MUCH! My God says it just fine here but I will be in some tournaments in time when God says my racquetball & my tennis game is really on the timing of my game for both of them. I have to say my pickleball game is really getting on time with it being better to & I give God ALL the Glory for ALL of it. And DON’T let in more terrorist’s for  us to say; Who is that there parked in my driveway or in my yard or who is this person saying they can squat on my land & I can’t do anything about it because of a Law that a new President will say; If we let them go into the peoples yard to stay then it won’t be a stinking mess in our property to say we want them not there. Well God says it will be a Law that will NOT be in place. I have Prayer going on in my life daily ALL day long & ALL night long to say; God Is Jesus with God Jehovah & The Holy Spirit. I will say a  Prayer EVERY DAY FOR WEEKS TO GIVE MY GOD THE GLORY FOR  HIM BEING ONE WITH THREE IN THE PRESENCE AS ONE GOD ALONE FOREVER! Done for now but God says I’m here to say this about Who I’am with God when I Pray a Prayer & say His Name so much as God Jesus  with God Jehovah that I say this to anyone who dares to say I’m not on with the Tribulation being DONE. The One Thousand Year Millennium is DONE & we are now in the Battle of the Armageddon with God saying to me & many; DON’T STOP PRAYING! We need people who say that God  Is Jesus with God Jehovah & The Holy Spirit as One but Three in the Presence as One God Alone Infinitely & Forever. We need you to say it is NOT done now but it will be soon that a person of a god like figure who will say to someone some day soon; We need to annihilate the United States of America. It is weak & it has NO time for God anymore but my God says it will NEVER happen unless all take a stand against God as our ONLY GOD to be here for us until His Return for ALL who say God Jesus for His Name to be Glorified Forever & Ever. Get it into you time with God & say it is time for the Battle of Armageddon to the MAX because daily I see on the News that North Korea & South Korea have NO time for us anymore. Now Russia has made a threat to us here in the United States. We have to say it is NOW that God Is Our God Alone. I will Pray but if God says to me in the near future; Go NOW & don’t look back until I say when to be here  when it is safe again. They will target certain people here but never me & my family. God CAN DO ALL THINGS & I believe this with ALL of my  heart. PRAISE GOD JESUS & GOD JEHOVAH & THE HOLY SPIRIT AS ONE GOD ALONE FOREVER & EVER!  AMEN 
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Jesus says I had the best time with someone who says I have to be more specific about her playing. I’am but it’s not easy to be with someone who  is not into playing the game as much as me. It’s just a time for her to be out & about for fun. I take tournament’s seriously & she knows that but she played well to the max. She realizes that when I show her something or say move up to the net all the way up then things are better in her game. It has to be that way because they chose her to give all shots to. The team who beat us in the first Place for the medal in this tournament was not going to do that but then they saw I was in all areas at the same time. My friend on the other side of the net couldn’t decide if they should hit to me or not. They decided against it but they won & we took second. It’s not fun to say I was happy about it but I was a good sport. Okay as for anyone else who said I can’t play well. They changed their mind like really fast. I was not  into just standing around & watching like some people do in a tournament situation. I play hard & I’m tired but I took home a second place medal but it was worth all of the work I have been putting in for the last month to be able to move on my own without anyone saying do this or do that or move over for me to take all of these shots even though I know you can get them really easy before me. I’m not playing with that person anymore. He says I’m too much into lobs but they work with some people. He noticed I was playing more in the middle but not that much. My partner had to play in a really skinny area to keep the ball in play. She did GREAT & I told her so. No one can say I played great but I can. Those who know me know I had some great shots & my partner is not wanting to play with anyone else for a while. That’s a nice compliment. I’m supportive to & that is a plus but I need someone more into a stronger game because I have a tendency to get shots back a lot & no one can get how I do that so easily now that I’m almost 66 years old. My old partner still thinks he is not playing well in his game but he is. He plays in really tough tournament events. It’s hard to play in events that are open for the younger players & you are over 60. It’s not easy to say yes to that for me either. It’s not easy of me to say I can do this or that but it’s easy for me now & God says it’s going to be  even easier because I kept Praising Him through The Holy Spirit. I will  take ALL shots & gets God wants to give me. He says He has something go give me in time with my heart the way it is with people but I’m still not getting into a moment where I’m happy about losing. I’m not the only one  but I have to say it’s hard to pick up a great shot & expecting your partner to get the easy ones back or the ones I set up to put away for points & they miss so easily. I have to but they don’t have their feet set the way I do. I can be way back & be up & bouncing all over the court. My partner noticed that like right away. She thinks I can be an open player but not yet I’m still getting my game together. I had a partner who stopped me from learning how to  play my game. So now is my time to get better with my game that God says I can have even more if I say this to Him now; Okay God Jesus thank you so very much for today. I have been Praising you all day long & saying I  want to win more games instead of losing to those I know I can beat in  another time of you know playing. Thank you God Jesus & God Jehovah that I can be with you now but I can’t be with you one on one while I’m  here with writing for you to be out & you know have some fun with people saying she plays a game of pickleball. My partner is surprised at how well I played today. She thinks she got more back but that’s because she was their main target to play to. The weaker you are in a game like that you will get picked on more but her game got better as she went along. She knows that she was being picked on but she played the way I told her to & we won some really great rally's & we always said; Great job even if we lost that great rally. I want God to say this to all now. Just say; Thank you God Jesus for all things you have Blessed us with in this day. It’s been a good day for me & I had a lot of fun. Thank for my new shots but thank you for  being with me today to have fun to with my friend & partner to. She did really good & then went on to do great. God says we will do fine in our next tournament but it’s even tougher then the one we were in today but now that we know how to communicate & play with each other on the  court. We will do even better in time. Okay here is what God wants me to say to me. I don’t have to relate to people too much but I have to say that when I’m not sure of a call I want to know that a person is paying attention to their playing the ref guy who says; I was watching over there. Why would you be watching over there when the ball was right where you were? Well point was taken & I made sure he knew he has to make the calls for us when there is a question if it was a good or bad shot. He knew I was a  serious player but it was out a little but I wanted to see if the ref was like paying attention. He wasn’t but I let it go until after the game we lost. Then I made my point loud & clear. No one argues with me over anything  because they know I know my game well. I see it in. I call it in. I see it out. I call it out. Okay maybe one was in but I can’t remember which one one it was. Too late & they won the tournament event but God says they played better then me but not. They held onto the fact I had a weaker partner but she played well. I’m disappointed but she played so well & tried so hard to be in that event that I’m glad I played with her. She is a great friend & we will play in two more tournaments & then I might try to find someone else a little tougher in their game of moving around & more aggressive then she was. Okay I have to say I’m not into saying this but I know that I don’t say anything to anyone unless I need to. Some think I don’t want to lose & I don’t but if I have a question I will ask it & make  sure the ref knows what they are talking about & doing in a 5.0 womens event. No one likes to see that of me but I do it because I know I have to say it for me. No one has said anything because they don’t care that I  do it but it’s not good to say; Hey you guys that is a great shot by you. It encourages them to do better the next time around but I always try to say: Good shot guys. Okay someone from Hollywood buzz town just popped  into my heart. He is not happy that he is not as popular as his ex-wife & kids are now that he is not in the family anymore. Well you blew it bud.  You knew what you were doing when you had that affair on that movie you were making. It wasn’t obvious then to me but you looked kind of cozy with that lady that played your wife in that movie. Okay I don’t feel sorry for anyone that cheats on their spouse & his wife new it that’s why he left & she filed for a divorce. Okay I didn't know if that was the reason you left your family so fast hoping to be with her instead of your wife. Now you know it happened again to you when you did it with your fist wife. Wow I can’t imagine why anyone would do that with kids at home. Just because you have a few fights doesn’t mean you can’t have a good to great  Marriage. Well you had a great Marriage. What a heartbreak for your kids. Does anyone on this planet ever think about their family being just fine & say I can work this out if my wife or husband still loves me? Or if they don’t beat you or verbally hit you with bad things like this when it happened to him & he said this to his wife; I want you but there is not much to say in a Marriage after a family is started & we both are gone you know making movies. We need to have some space you know? Well she gave you the space you deserved right up until you say maybe say; I’m sorry. I wouldn’t take you back either. Anyone who cheat’s on you the first time or cheat’s on his first wife with the one he Married until that moment when you said this to her on some place back home in the middle of the day; Well I want out but I want in. Okay it’s out for me. Okay it’s fine with me. We had a good time but now I’m tired of me with a family of kids. I want that macho thing going on with other women. THEN DON’T EVER GET MARRIED  AGAIN YOU IDIOT! I will say that to him in time but I will have to wait on that for a bit. I won’t be nice about it either. How come I get to say that about men in Hollywood MORE then women cheating on their spouse? God says I wouldn’t have ever have done that then if I was a Hollywood buzz town person. I could have. My husband could have just the way we are now but God see’s us together like many Married people in this world who say; I’m in my Marriage for good. Okay this guy from Hollywood buzz town has seen these blogs but doesn’t see his name here. Why? Because I DON’T LIKE MEN WHO CHEAT ON THEIR WIFE THAT’S WHY! Okay I will say this. I think feeling’s were mutual but it takes two to make a Marriage work anytime & for a long time no matter who you are rich or poor. I know someone else I will say something to in time but God will say it all for me. That’s the best part for me is to say I can let God say it here. Well I’m done but God says this to me for now. Great job today doll. I know it’s not fun to say you tried all you could to make it a winning day for first place but  in time with the Blessed time with God Jesus you will be winning like big time in all tournaments until they figure out how you know where that ball is going & how you get them back with such quick speed on that ball. Well God Jesus & God Jehovah I give ALL of that to you. Thank you for my new backhand today. It was awesome fun to see it fly over that net with such speed that it shook up my partner to see me hit it that hard for a serve return. Okay there is one person who says I’m an okay player but he hasn’t seen me play in a long time. And that cheating husband used to be in Hollywood buzz town, ALL of you, it’s NOT good for you to be out & about with another women until you are divorced. God will bring it all back to you just the way you met & fell in love & then broke it off with you spouse just because it was someone different then your wife or your husband. Okay I will say this. My old partner of past is not happy the way I have said a few things to him on the court but I’m not happy either about how he has said things to me either. It’s either we play as a team or just say we are done. I know I’am & he says it to. So I’m good with that. We might beat him & his new partner tomorrow if my partner stays patient with some shots that will be in our best interest to stay with to win the point. Okay I have to say that no matter what if you have the money to divorce go ahead & do it if your spouse makes a pass at someone else. Get RID OF THEM FASTER THEN FAST because they will do it again & again. You are NOT the young gun in town you Mr. you who said he wanted to do the same as with your present Marriage. That worked right into your Marriage with the one you cheated  with on your wife. Well they say what goes around comes around but you did it again & this time she said; Well I have a boyfriend to be with & not him. We are just friends. That stung a little didn’t it? Okay I have another  person who says this site doesn’t have his name here either. Too bad you bud you. I have seen a few of your movies that REALLY DISRESPECT’S women LIKE BIG TIME. I won’t watch anymore of your movies until you say you are sorry to your beautiful wife & kids like in hugs & kiss’s with  your kids & a nice sorry to your wife for portraying yourself as a male  stripper on a disgusting movie & I mean it WAS DEGRADING TO ALL  WOMEN ON THIS EARTH. SHAME ON ALL WHO DO THAT TO THEIR FAMILY & WIFE. I hope you all get divorced on that part alone but some  of your wives are very supportive of the DISGUSTING things you say & do on a movie & then go home to fantasize about any women you want your wife to imitate after that DISGUSTING movie is done. Okay I have to say I’m not into saying names but I will say this. Anyone who says anything to me or about me or around me. I shut them down FAST. I WON’T put up with FILTHY MOUTH’S. NO women has to hear your STUPID idea or your STUPID mouth about what or when something is going to happen in you life here. IT WON’T THAT’S FOR SURE. Hollywood buzz town is about to be out of business for good & I can’t wait to say God will be the first to be involved with that going on. Okay there is a good guy I know that is a sweetheart & I love the way he is with his time with pickleball. No one knows how hard he works to get these tournaments into play but God says he see’s me & smiles because I always have a smile for him to be smiling back at him because he is a good friend. Okay one more thing to say about the person in Hollywood buzz town & then I’m done for the night. My bird wants to come up. Okay this guy is not a bad person but he   BLEW it big time. His kids have had a hard time not being with him because he wants to be out with another women but some don’t trust him now that he is available again. I hope NO one trusts him for a long time. He doesn’t want love. He wants you know to be a guy with a women occasionally but he is a nice person but NOT for a friendship thing with a women. He wants out of his Marriage for good. There for a bit he thought maybe I can be in it but he wants that fame that goes along with being a man’s man in you  know Hollywood buzz town. Many Marriages have broken up because of that man’s man thing with men. Okay that’s it for now. No one has ever heard me speak on stage. I’m determined to do God’s Will that is for sure. I know that I won’t be out for a bit but I can say I will be having the  opportunity to be with my husband who says it’s fun to think about our new grandchild. Someone we can be with in our motorhome to play games in &  go fishing & camping in or maybe even Disneyland again. We took our two kids on a plane but we can drive our new motorhome there if God says  yes to that. I Pray He does. No one can be God. ONLY God can be God  ALL by Himself. I know that someone is not worried about me being too bad of a person to be with. I hope not. I’m fun to be with. They see that in God’s tweets & here. So I’m done. God Bless this Country. As God said in His tweets over the past week. There is an FBI agent coming out on Fox News to say he witnessed Obama taking money for himself for selling uranium to Russia. This money was not that though. It was something to do with selling some poison to another Country to use on us but they didn’t say that to Obama but Obama BEING SO STUPID TO SELL IT TO THEM. Well it’s not going to be nice for Hillary & Bill & Obama anymore. They have done enough damage to our Country here. They have kids & some day  they will both have grandchildren but neither one of them say that for the future it would be BETTER to NOT SELL uranium to our WORST enemies in the whole world. They now have more missiles lined up in a deep down safe place that would not be hard to find by God Jesus. Well what do ya know. They have a NO NO place for missiles that are NOT supposed to be made. That’s what Obama said. No missiles please against us here in  America. HOW STUPID IS THAT TO THINK THAT OUR WORST ENEMY WOULD SAY TO OBAMA; Oh okay I will not use weapons against you or anyone else we HATE in this world. Okay how DUMB is our past President to say it’s not okay for me to say he is RESPONSIBLE for NOT being a good President after he SOLD THE WORST CHEMICAL TO MANKIND EVER MADE ON THIS EARTH? It’s so BAD that one drop of it in your  drink or food would kill you so fast before you even hit the ground. That’s our own President who says it’s not nice to say he sold these bad very bad chemical’s to our WORST enemy & now MANY have this uranium & this AWFUL DEADLY CHEMICAL THAT WOULD KILL IN A HEARTBEAT. After I’m done here I will be Praying for the safety of our Country here again in America. NO one else believes me about Obama selling our WORST enemy these HORRIBLE I MEAN HORRIBLE CHEMICAL’S TO OUR WORST ENEMY & NOW ALL OF THE COUNTRIES HAVE THIS HORRIBLE CHEMICAL HILLARY & OBAMA SOLD TO THEM!!!! READ THIS AGAIN VERY CAREFULLY & SAY IT’S ALL BECAUSE OF HILLARY & HER DUMB IDEA OF PUBLICLY SAYING I DON’T HAVE ANY RIGHT TO SAY WHAT SHE IS DOING. She has said that & I don’t know when but her e-mails are part of this deal she did with Russia when she was in Office as Secretary of State. That’s WHY she disposed of them. Someone will find them soon & she will be brought to trial & Obama to. They WILL GO TO COURT for  what they have done to God’s Country here in America. It’s NOT OKAY to say to our WORST enemy that God won’t mind if we make some money  with our WORST enemy & then know that they will use it in time. I Pray they DO NOT USE IT AT ALL. I PRAY & ASK THIS ALL IN JESUS CHRIST GOD’S NAME ALONE. amen    God says done for now but I will be back to say this later. I’m here to talk with your President. This person here now with me is with me for a reason but not for anyone to know that we are here but to have some fun in pickleball play but I have to say something about God with me to. Okay that is fine. Okay here is this person I was talking to you about. Don’t say a word but I think she knows about this meeting now anyway. It’s in a book that just came out & it’s so popular that no one wants to say anything bad to her about anything she says about God Being God Alone with God Jehovah & The Holy Spirit. She is serious & she will take NO prisoners with her when she says it about God Jesus & God Jehovah Alone. Okay I thought we were here for pickleball not this? Well if he doesn’t say God’s Name to me he will have to with you. I’m not going out to dinner with someone like that. You will have to if he says he likes you for a dinner date. Okay but I don’t have any nice clothes to wear. Good on that. I have some things for you to wear. You have clothes for me to wear for a dinner date with a guy who hate’s people like me & you for being American’s? Well if he doesn’t say God’s Name as Jesus with God Jehovah we are not going to be here for long. I will just leave without me showing him the pickleball he wants to learn for losing weight & for fun with his family. Well how is this going to work out then? We will wait for God to say it to me or you but God says it to me because I get it right all of the time. Well I’m working on that but I can’t think with this person liking me for you know a dinner date. He  won’t like you in sweats of mine. Go to this dinner & say afterwards we are  having a pickleball clinic to have fun. He will buy it fast. Okay that did  work but he is interested in playing with me on the court & not you. Fine then tell him what I would have told him through The Holy Spirit. I can’t & you know that. Then let me do it for you okay? Because it’s for us &  our future & our kids & their kids to. Okay I said not to upset this person & you haven’t asked her about God Jesus. What is there to ask? I see what she is doing to this safe place of hers. She says one thing & I don’t think I understand her language well. She says it in a language I don’t know how to speak. Okay get someone to interpret for her. No she won’t do that. She says God will provide what He needs to be said to you from her by God Jesus & The Holy Spirit will interpret for you to hear what you need to know from her from God Jesus through The Holy Spirit. Okay I will ask her. She’s leaving in the morning. If you want to say it for him to her then ask me first okay. What is that you just ask me? I don’t know  what it means but it’s about God Jesus with her like big time. No one can compete with God Jesus. If you send any missiles over to America or anyone else does who has missiles directed at America or that horrible poison Hillary said would not hurt anyone to bad but it might kill some  people in her Country but she said she was okay with that & Obama to said if it hurts only a few that was fine. Okay if that goes from anyone of us who has these things God says He will direct it ALL to the people who sold them this uranium & ALL poisons to them personally & back to us like so fast people won’t believe it. I don’t believe it. Believe it. She says it for God Alone. He said to me today she won’t leave anywhere to go any place without God Jesus. Do you see anything about her that is not normal about her appearance now that she is here to see you for & about God Jesus Being the Only True Living God Ever & Throughout Eternity & He says she says it for Him to be Glorified but no one wants to give God anything but junk back at Him as God Alone Jesus. What does that have to do with me then? She said it in her blog that God wrote for her to see  that if it does happen in time with her family here still on this planet. God will keep her safe in another Country far away from America. Where is that then? No one will know until it’s almost too late to find her to Pray for ALL in America. It seems God listens to her because she cares for His children here in America like no other. Okay I’m here to say this to anyone now who will read this blog. It’s not for you to doubt but for you all to be ready for anything to happen in this Country because Hillary & Obama  have said they won’t be targeted by our enemies but they will be by Russia & Japan. They are the two most invited Countries with Hillary & Obama  always being there. The FBI knows about this site & so does the CIA. They won’t do anything but I can say this. They are getting more money for  NOT doing one thing with God’s Heart here. They are NOT the ones who say what it is that is going to happen to this site. ONLY GOD IS. GOT THAT FBI & CIA? SHAME ON YOU ALL FOR DOUBTING IN GOD’S CAPABILITY OF BEING WITH ME OR ANYONE IN THIS COUNTRY NOW. But you are ALL BEING PAID AREN’T YOU TO KEEP YOUR TRAP’S SHUT ABOUT  HILLARY PAYING YOU TO LIE LIE LIE LIKE A DOG THAT YOU ALL ARE NOW. Go get the WRONG people in this Country who paid you. Give back all of that money & say this to God Jesus now; Forgive me of my sins. You have to be remorseful when you say it but God says you won’t anyway but will when Obama & Hillary BLAME you FBI & CIA people for NOT saying” anything to them first about this site & twitter. Oh yeah, they will drop you FBI & CIA agents like a poison potato you might receive from Russia if we keep letting them say we will poison the American’s so bad that they won’t be able to be here on this planet like another day but God says it WON’T at all because of me & only me who says God so much now days that no one can say anything to me about anything going on in this site or in God’s tweet site. It’s ALL TRUE. God says it’s not good to be here with me to say God does not exist when we ALL KNOW HE DOES EXIST. That’s it for me for now. I have my bird who says God wants to play with her. So here I go to my bird who KNOWS her Creator is God Jesus & God Jehovah. I’m  strong but I know God is stronger then me. So here it is one more time for me to see this for me alone. If you happen to read it. It will not be for you now or ever but only for me because I said some things to some people  today & they said Jesus God for the first time. It was a mom who was going to have a baby & I said I will Pray for you & God Bless you & your baby.  It didn’t take long but I said it because I meant it. I didn’t even think more about it but they watched me play pickleball & said; Sheesh who is that anyway? She plays like really well for being a grandma soon. Okay that’s it for now. Bye & don’t worry about anything I get from God Jesus. I have to say it but He meant it for me alone because I know how to say things like no other will ever be able to say it. That’s why more people will come to this site & God’s twitter site & God’s e-books will be a smash hit because I say it all from my heart. Compete with me if you want but I will say this to all now who say I brag about me. I do not brag about me. My fist intention was to say it ONLY for God but God said let’s have some fun with her now that she says it just for God Jesus & God Jehovah. Bye & don’t be in such a rush. I want to give my grandbaby a hug & a long hug before we take off to your, where is it we are going & not your place in Hollywood buzz town?  You will see & I know you will be fine with me in those clothes. I have some just like them. I shop at the same store you do. It’s five per cent off when you charge it on their card of the total balance. Yeah I know that’s a good deal huh? Yeah that’s a good deal. Bye for now & don’t wear that it’s way too  you know like nice for him to see you in. Okay you pick out my clothes as much as I hate to say that okay? Fine here. It will be nice. Okay I’m in for not saying we have way to many missiles from those two idiots we bought that uranium from. Okay I know there is something about her. Let’s go to the place & show them, her what we have. Okay by me. Bye for now. 
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sheilasministry · 7 years ago
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Jesus says today is a better day for blogging. I won’t try to delete one word but I will say I have not long ago. I didn’t think God was with me to blog but I’m getting what God is doing when I’m here & it’s me kind of like you know saying some thing’s before God starts saying what He wants to say. Well I’m here to be with God as much as I can. I’m not out doing Sermon’s. No one has called but I’m not ready to do anything without God with me but I can. I can’‘t do Sermon’s here because my youtube is not hooked up to my internet. So I wait until I can get a friend out here or my son. Okay here is the deal with that. I’m thinking one thing & God says it means this. They are not with me yet but sometime in the future they will both be living out here in their life with us in our home & them in our home to. Okay I guess I was saying it correct in my heart from God Jesus & God Jehovah hearing Their words from Them through The Holy Spirit Alone. It’s easy but my thought’s are usually involved in God’s words coming from Him. The way He says it is the best. I want to make sure His time with my heart is the right time for me to hear His words & not mine in thought. Okay I have some things to say to me but not. I’m here but I’m waiting for God’s Heart to start & it has. I know I’m concerned about me accidentally deleting this blog but God says I can do it careful & not be too upset if I do. I want to say the last time I just went into another blog but I was still bummed about deleting it by accident. I know that I’m not here to say anything much but God is. God says Hollywood buzz town is not here nor have they read one tweet on God’s site. I’m not surprised but God says their heart is with Him when I say that on my twitter site. I know that someone else will not really be out here but maybe. I know that when God says these things it’s just me & my imagination but not. I know that’s what I think & others to but I know that God says it here & on twitter. So I’m good with whatever happens in my “REAL LIFE” as some people have said but God says it so I’m here to say maybe. With God ALL Is Possible. He is the only True Living God to me but He Is the ONLY True Living God anyway. I know it all sound’s far out but God says it not me. I’m here to say anything I can about me not with God. That means I want God here & Who He Is as God Alone. This Harry thing got started with God’s Heart with me. He said He can write movies to but no one let’s God do it. So He said Sheila can do it for God Jesus & God Jehovah Alone. Well I didn’t offer. God said the words & I wrote them. They don’t make any sense. The ones God started way back with Goldie in a cave & falling into a hole not too far underground but it was fun to think about it. No harm done but God says I forgot to say thank you for all words for His writing. I took the credit but I didn’t do that at all. I said thank you for all that is written for all of His words from Him Alone through The Holy Spirit. Why the question about me saying I took credit?  I thought maybe I did & that’s why God stopped writing His blogs the way He did so far ago. Okay not that far back but it was a ways back. My heart is not here but my God Jesus is. He says it’s time to say other thing’s besides about an invisible bigfoot that people have grown fond of even though Harry Sr. & Harry Jr. are not here yet. Okay who knows. Maybe God will say yes. Today He told Jesus to say yes to it all this morning but I don’t know if the two Harry’s were in the deal for God to say yes to in time. Not that long either. God says He’s about ready to see if I can have someone come out to see me but not because of me. It’s because of Jesus God in their life almost.They want to see if I’m for real more then Harry Sr. & Harry Jr.. Well I’am for real. So don’t go there with me person you who has said your final okay not to long ago to see if I’m for real. I mean I’m here & your where you are but you just keep thinking about all of those water balloon’s coming at you. Now it won’t hurt you know that. Your kid’s will have fun & so will I watching you get pummeled to the point of you saying to me & I don’t know why either; You are in very big trouble for putting my kid’s up to this. Okay I will say. It won’t be the first time but I hope you won’t get mad at me when someone or something hit’s you with a snowball more then once while I’m standing right in front of you. You will say; Did you pay someone to come out & hit me with those snowballs? I will say; Yeah I know exactly where you & I will be standing & the exact time we will be standing here at the bottom of this hill just so they can throw two whole snowballs at just you & not me. Well it sure hurt. That last one hurt my head. I can’t believe someone can throw that hard that far. How do you know how far they threw that snowball? I saw them stand up & throw it. The last one. What? You just said I did it. Well you did if you hired them to do that. Okay wait a minute. If you saw them what did they look like? Some guy in a gorilla suit. Some guy in a gorilla suit? Yeah that’s what it looked like to me anyway. Okay if I was going to hire someone to hit you with two whole snowballs. Why would I say; Oh & put this on ya know to make her think it’s Harry Sr.. I don’t know. He is the one you hired to do this & are you in trouble again with me. I didn’t do that right there. Hire that thing to hit you with two whole snowballs. Well where is he now anyway? He left as soon as he hit me in my head really hard. Man that was a great shot from that distance. We need to sign him up for some baseball team & ask for like millions of dollars for his pay for pitching. Okay I have had enough of snowball fights. Lets go back to the house. The girls are smiling at me now because they think I had you & then I didn’t get in my last fight with you but I’m fine. I will get you another way. Well that’s what God said. He said you would get me coming & going. I don’t know if I should have said that but oh well. It is what it is. Well watch out for me kid. I will getting even with you. Okay if you want to make me go out of my way to keep doing this to I will but if you want to call a truce we can do that to. What would be the fun in that? Oh I don’t know. Maybe so I won’t have to keep looking forward to all of those; I got you now kid kind of thing’s that you will say to me in time. Okay I will say this. I’m not going to get you now. I will wait a bit until you trust me a bit. Then I will spring like a snake just for you. Gee I can’t wait to hang with you now. I think I’m choosing to go home & spend my time with my friend’s I can trust. What makes you think you can trust them now? I have made a deal with them in time. You wait & see it will be fun & funny for you to see for yourself. Oh I can’t wait. I’m sure it will be as much fun as our next adventure. Okay what is that? Going back into those old caves with you know me & Goldie & anyone else you can think of to say anything you want about God but nothing happens at all like I mean at all in those movies. I don’t think we can bank on them. We have looked at them but not much has happened. So we might scrap them & start again but not in the places we have been in. I wouldn’t do that if I were you. Why? We know there is nothing on them. Let’s try again that’s all I’m saying. I own those movies to. If you scrap them. How will we get back what I know is good stuff for God’s movies to connect to the ones we have already? What do you mean connect? I mean they are not done yet. We have like seven movies ready for not much to see. It’s got to be the worst movie like ever I have ever been a part of. Okay it’s your call. If you call God’s movies bad. You will be calling me bad for saying anything to you about any of the movies I have seen & you got paid big time for them. These will out do your movies, all of them, like big time. I don’t think so but I will pass that on to you know that guy over there. I will say it one more time. If you don’t take it more serious then you have already here. We will have no one left to have any fun with but I can get my family back up here. They can do camera’s & shoot good stuff. I can do that I guess. Well maybe you should have done that instead of wasting mine & anyone elses time with this stuff. Okay I can agree with that. I can say that I haven’t been the nicest but I have to you. You did come to see me remember? But if you say it was waste of your time. Well I can’t dispute how you feel. Okay that was nice. I’m sorry I said what I said. Do you forgive me? For what? For being honest? I don’t know. What is honest with someone from Hollywood buzz town anyway? Okay I have had it here. I’m going up to the house. Are you coming with me? Or are you going to track that thing down? I’m here to say what it is for God. I’m not here to say it to you for now. I will spend my time with God while you say what you want all the way back up that long old dark hill. Well don’t be too long. I won’t worry but they might. Okay see you later. I will be back in a while. Okay bye. Okay so what happened down there anyway? Well here is what we said & I don’t know. Maybe she has some idea & we don’t get it. Or maybe we have her all wrong to. I don’t know how that is but she says it & I believe her. Now I’m not so sure. Okay that’s not good. Well she says she wants time to be with God. So let her have her time & I will get cleaned up. What time is it anyway? I don’t know. She has been gone for a while. How come she’s not back up here? It’s really cold out. I don’t know & I don’t know if I care anymore but I do. Okay let’s go looking for her now. Hey how are you? Are you okay? Yeah I had a great time further down the way from where we were. There is a cave I went to & God showed me something I’m going to film tomorrow for His movie if it’s still on. Okay I won’t say anything but yes it’s still on. Okay I will be  back. I will be in that cave for tonight. I’m just here to get my stuff & go back down to where God wants me for tomorrow morning. Okay have fun I’m not going. Okay see you when I see you. Okay what is that about anyway? I don’t know but maybe we should go see what she is up to. Not much if you say she can’t film her film for God right. She said there are seven movies God will connect to each other when He says to do so. Do you believe that? Maybe that makes sense. I mean think about it. If someone wants to take any of these movie part’s made. They could be you now making their own for themself. Okay I’m going back to that cave we found today. I don’t know if it’s the same one but I will be here for her if she says I’m glad your here with me again. Well I don’t know but maybe I might be again like I was in the first few but after that. I said what is this about anyway? Well that’s it for me. I’m in. If there are seven movies connected to all of these parts. You have to know it will be fun to see them in sequel or just us doing another one & another one. She said we would all make more money on these seven movies then all of the others put together. Of course that was me she was talking about. Well it means for all of you if your interested again maybe. Okay I’m not going to say I’m not in but I will say this. You have had me coming & going in your life to. I was in for a while. I just have to say I’m not sure anymore. Okay I’m okay with that. Do you think I’m here for you? I’m here to do what God says to do. That’s not even why your here. So that’s why your doubting. I’m here to get something God told me I needed for tomorrow. I won’t be back for a day or two.So if I can go by here I will go get it. What is that more blankets? No my time with God I have with me so I won’t be cold when I’m out like you all will be. I forgot my heart here with you. If you tell that guy to get rid of God’s movies I won’t be needing any of you anymore. I will go with someone else. I won’t be here because God says all of you are just fooling around here anyway. So I’m good if you give me those clips. I might be able to imitate some of those great shots without you there. All of you. Okay where’s our time in this if you say your not here anymore to all of is? That’s why I’m here now. Are you in or not? Okay I’m in for seven movies. Are you serious about seven movies in like what we have done already now? Yes WITH GOD ALL THING’S ARE POSSIBLE. He brought all of you to me when my doubting was so bad I almost deleted all of God’s blogs & started over but I know now I would not have had some of God’s movie parts with me but He would have thought of something because He Is God you know. Okay I’m in but not now. I have to change my clothes & the we can go. No not tonight. I need God’s Heart to re-assure me this is all for Him & not me messing up. Okay we will see you tomorrow then okay. No I will be out all night finding something for God Jesus. He said they are only out at night. What we saw today was not a man in a gorilla suit but real. You are going by yourself to see that thing you saw today? Well her here. Yes I’m going to be with them for a bit. God said they were nice. I won’t be more then about two days. Your going to spend time with a thing you don’t know much about? I’m not sure I can be with someone who says that after what happened today down there. I don’t know what that means. You said I had you coming & going. Well I think you have us coming & going now. No I think you have all memorized God’s blogs so well that we already had this conversation in one of God’s not so recent but not so far back blog. Okay we will see you tomorrow then bye. Bye. I will be back. I have my cel phone if I need anyone to come into one last cave to see what it is God wants one person to see besides me. Well don’t call me. I’m going home after this day is done. Okay have a safe trip. I know you will be having fun. So have fun & I will Pray for your safe return. Okay bye & I won’t be needing this for a while. Okay I don’t want it now. I have something better now then that. Okay I know it’s not hard to say these thing’s but it all will happen in different ways of me seeing people for who they are with me. It will be the fun funniest thing to experience until they all see it was all made up just for them to see themself the way they are in life. Okay that’s it for now. Bye   
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Jesus says it here to make me smile but I know I don’t have to be here to smile. He is so much fun that I try to be with Him as much as possible. It’s hard when things don’t go right in your life for a bit or for a long while. I have been here before with great times but now is not one of them. Now it’s just plain fun. So today is more fun then anything else. Let’s see if I can come up with some fun funny stuff. I want all of you who read this site to laugh to. Okay not much is coming up but I Pray you will smile or laugh some place during God’s blogging time here for today. Oh yeah, I’m a Certified instructor for pickelball. That makes me smile. Maybe not you but for now if I’m here in a good mood well I’m here to have some fun & to help me smile to. God smiles all of the time. I would to if I were home in Heaven with all of those beautiful animal’s who say fun things to God’s Heart for just the fun of it. I know He probably roller blade’s, plays pickleball, tennis, racquetball & maybe goes on hikes with His Father God Jehovah. I know His Angels follow Him around all of the time to. I would if I were home in Heaven. He is a lot of fun & First of all He Is God Alone. So you have to know He’s a whole lot more fun when we are with Him then not. So I’m not smiling but I’m dreaming of the day I’m home with God Jesus & God Jehovah & all of His Angels. How cool is that to be home in a perfect place called Heaven? I can’t imagine anything going on more fun then just thinking of being young forever with God Jesus. Him on my pickleball court forever & Him laughing like He just will when He shoots the greatest shot in pickleball like ever. He did create the game. He said to one guy; Make up this game & it will be here for like ever & eternity in Heaven with my kids who like to play & have a great workout going on in their youth & mainly in their old age. So this guy did & he gets all of the credit for God’s idea. Okay I had a awesome thought just now. Some young lady came up to me today & said; If I don’t see you again. It’s been nice knowing you. I said, okay you must be leaving for another place of work. She says no I just want a break from this place. It’s stressful & I have some things I need to work on. So I’m taking a break for a while. So I asked if she new Jesus as God & Savior in her life? She didn’t know what I meant. I could see it on her face but she said yes anyway. So I Prayed for her on the way home. I couldn’t with her there but I did when I was by myself. God heard my Prayer & she is still thinking about God Jesus as her Savior. Praise God Jesus for that. I said to her; Pray daily & take one day at a time. I Pray she will do that & I Pray & ask this in Jesus God’s Name Alone. amen   Okay why did she really come up to me? Just to say good bye? No she needed to Pray with someone & she saw my Cross around my neck. She new me already from her other place of work. She is a sweetheart & she does not know God really well but she will get to know Him like fast. She can’t stop thinking about what I asked her about knowing Jesus as her God & Savior. She thought that was really cool how I said; Pray daily & take it one day at a time. So she will. She will forget but I will continue to Pray for her daily. I won’t forget her needs she told me about. So that’s the neatest thing that happened to me today & it makes me smile because I got to ask someone about knowing God Jesus. I know the Cross around my neck is not the only reason she came up to me. She likes me & I like her. She has a sweet attitude but we all need God as Jesus in our life. So if that’s cool enough I can say this. I’m here to be with God Jesus. He wants me to say what it is I want to say but God says it the best & His memory is absolutely the best here on this planet. So if I can say this again. My memory lapses at times. So I have to look up things or words & I Pray for God’s help always. He never fails me in my Prayer’s. I can’t imagine not having God Jesus with me so close. I want all who read this blog today to find God Jesus as God Alone in your life to. It’s going to be a great day today for me. I might go to my favorite place of food for dinner tonight. God says I can do it. He’s pleased I said what I asked this young lady & I know I will be Praying for her daily for her to be with God to. She will want God close to her life now that I said Jesus Is God as Savior. So anything else God might say is this. I have an opportunity to practice this all I want but it’s not practice that gets God’s attention. It’s who we are as His children & Who God Is as God Alone with us in our life. Just Him & us. I’m with Him daily. I want to know more. I Pray all of you will want to know more about God’s Heart with you. Not me but you with God by yourself. He is not with me now as much when I’m writing & saying it all His way and it is the best way to say things. Now I just have to say it on my own when I’m not in my heart with God as much through The Holy Spirit. Okay I keep getting certain people in my life’s heart. Which means God gives us pictures of people with us in time. I can’t say I’m not excited. I just don’t know how much of their time I will have to say God Is Jesus. They will be busy with their life until God gets them to me & my family around this old world. I will not have them all to myself. I want them to be able to experience God’s Heart by themselves with God but God says I will have to be with them a lot to remind them to say thank you to God daily for all Blessing’s He gives to them. I do this daily now. I know it’s easy to get up & start our day but it’s easy to talk with God while we are getting ready for our day even with kid’s around us. Okay I have a new daughter-in-law now. I can’t wait to get to know her better with each day. It’s hard when they aren’t as accustomed to our culture but she is doing fine with our son who is thrilled she is with us here in our Country. She is from the Philippines. She took about a year to get all of the paper work done & is almost here for good. So I Pray about all thing’s to go well with them in their Marriage with God Jesus and when she says I want a baby. I will say; Yaaaaay until I can’t talk anymore but I will be excited to see if they decide that later on in their Marriage. It’s a big responsibility & our son is ready but not quite financially. So God prepares us all & then when we have a baby it start’s for real. Okay that is enough about that. Our kid’s are fine & I’m happy for them being young & just with each other. No pressure from me. Now for this one last thing before I say bye for today. God says it’s not for me but for all of us for now. God is not here to be with just one or two people. I know this & so do all around me. So God is saying I have people who says I can do this but they can’t. It’s a gift from God but I went into my heart & asked God to help me with the words here. So you can do the same. That’s it. Just say; God please give me all of your words from you alone through The Holy Spirit loud & precise. Thank you God Jesus for helping me to be here long enough to be Blessed to with these blog’s as well & I Pray my blog will be a hit to. So I’m glad for you. I Pray this site & God’s tweet site & Sermon site & Prayer Thought’s will all be a big gargantuas hit. Okay I’m not sure if that’s a word but God said go with it so I’am. That’s it for now. God Bless this Country. Hillary is not worried at all about another investigation. Everyone has been paid off nicely so she’s good for her to say; Hey go for it Republican’s. I’m good with who I have paid so much money to that I know I won’t be charged with anything wrong when I was Secretary of State. Okay I think it was a different department but God says she has them all paid off as well. So here is the deal with the Clinton’s. They have so much money. God says way too much that they have no problem getting people to basically stay quiet about their insufferable thing’s of life her in Politics for us & for our enemies. God says they have enemy friend’s who laugh at them because they can take advantage of them as much as the Clinton’s can take advantage of our Country here in America. Do I have proof of all this? God is my proof & wait until she stands up one day & says this to God Jesus on her way to Heaven for like ever. She will say; Well I knew I was not erasing too many of those awesomely wrong e-mails. I did it for us. You know Bill & me & our new grand kid. So if I did something wrong for this Country and she did, well I’m not that sorry. Oh yeah, Benghazi is a mistake I made in my bad judgement about Who God was at that time. The President, you know Obama at that time, well he said to do it anyway. Now I can’t say what to do it means in my language. I mean I could but then I probably would go to jail or I would have to pay out more of our multi-millions of millions of millions & oh what the heck, millions of dollars to this Country we try to say is still America but it’s hard to say it because God just won’t let us be so dishonest like we want here. So we go to another & another & another Country who are poor & we promise them millions of dollars which we never ever give out. I mean how dumb is it to give millions of dollars to people who are already poor? I hope I said that right. Well anyway Bill & I are very happy & boy if you only new how rich. Oh I’m not trying to brag but I’am. So if I can say this to anyone who said I was a bad Politician in Office. Especially this one person who says old Hillary babe on her tweet site. Well she is with God but she’s not here with me. So God is my Judge not her. Thank goodness for that. Okay I can say this for now. People in this Country are hurting & that my Country friend’s old Hillary babe she wanted to be in Office as our President. I gave it all I had daily for God to stop her & He said yes. I’m not the only one who said she is not nice to us Country people of her concern. HA! I will say this. If she wants God with her more. She has to do what ALL of us has to do. Complain like crazy & then ask God Jesus for forgiveness & then return all of that money to us she basically took from our pockets. How? I don’t know but God does and it will all come out sooner then later. The Law is going to catch up to those Clinton’s & their daughter to. So be prepared for a fight with me online from now on. Well it’s the Truth from God Jesus. He knows all. She knows I’m in my life daily with God Jesus & I won’t take one penny of bribe. Not that I have anything on her but God does & she knows it. That’s why she won’t respond like ever to me or my face. Do I have proof? No I do not. God is saying it His way. I know nothing until God gives me the words from Him through The Holy Spirit. That’s her only line right now. Oh she don’t have anything on me. So lets go do this again. Okay old Hillary babe. You got to say it one more time for me. She has something I don’t. What is that Hillary? Well it’s God with me like huge big time. I don’t hold back & I never will. So don’t be surprised if I come up to you & say; I told you so. Have a nice day & by the way. God Is Jesus Alone with God Jehovah. No one knows more then me but God Himself with all of this stuff from God Jesus & from God Jehovah & through The Holy Spirit Who Is God with All Three Being God Alone in Presence of just Being Themself as God Alone. How does she know how to say it that like that anyway? Well Hillary it’s ALL God Jesus here. So get ready, get set & babe go get those people into your life now. I’m here for God Jesus. When they bring you up to trial for accusation’s of ALL that you & Bill are still doing to this day. I will be Praying & Praising God Jesus Almighty to get you Indited on anything but being honest your life through. So that’s it for today. God Bless this Country. I Pray the Clinton’s are out of Politics sooner then soon. I Pray & ask this all in Jesus Christ God’s Name Alone. amen  Go for it girl. You won’t win this fight in Court this time. God is on our side. That is His children who have been Praying like crazy & Praising God more because of God’s site here & on twitter & God’s Sermon site & oh yeah, about those Prayer Thought’s. God says they are the most Blessed until I say I will do it all again just for Him.  The money doesn’t matter to me as much as the people saying their not for them. So say this to yourself now. I had my chance but I didn’t see God’s Heart with me too much but I see no one but God. I can’t wait until I’m home in Heaven. I Pray & ask this all in Jesus Christ God’s Name Alone. amen    That Prayer is for anyone who says their Sermon site or books for God Alone aren’t being read either. Well God will open the windows of Heaven for all of us soon now. I can’t wait for that to happen but we still have to say this for us about God Jesus Being Who He Is as God Alone. God will provide us all what we need & then it will all come at the same time. So I Pray it all will. Spiritually, physically, mentally, emotionally & financially. I Pray & ask this all in Jesus Christ God’s Name Alone. amen     That’s it for now & God Bless that Hillary thing to. I know she is not here now but in time she will be again until she says Jesus Is God to her to. So give that money away & then say your sorry old girl. She won’t but she can still be in Heaven. So bye for now & hey Goldie, I’m on my way or you are on your way out. Which is which is not known to me for now but I will see you in Heaven very soon. How soon? Well it’s all in God’s hands that I know. Angie you have a favored friend for you in time. She will be with you soon but not me. I will be with someone playing pickleball but we can catch up after I’m done playing pickleball for about 2 or 3 hours. Then we can have some great laughs over dinner I guess. My best friend won’t be there but I know she will be with me to in our fun pickleball match we are playing together when you are with your new best friend. Who is that? I don’t know but she will be fun to be with but not more fun then me. So be with you & be with God Jesus. You are a fun person. Take care of those awesome six kids. God has a story to say to you about all & particularly one of them. So be with God Jesus so you can understand me & whoever is with me to get it all in like fast. That is all about God Being Jesus with God Jehovah & God The Holy Spirit. They are One God Alone but Still Three in Presence as in Still God Alone Period. Bye for now. Oh one more thing. I’m not really writing these blogs myself God is. So that’s it for now & don’t forget to say; I lay me down to sleep. If I should die before I wake. I Pray my soul to take. Make sure God takes it & puts it in the right place. I want that over there for now. It’s not in a good place now but I know Sheila will get that taken care of. Oh God said I desire a place to do Sermons like wild fire. Well I do but it’s up to God to say yes. He just did. So I have it down in writing now. Praise God Jesus for His great sense of humor. I don’t know these people. Honest I don’t. Okay lady, how come you are here during this robbery attempt? Well I’m in town for a pickleball tournament & I was hungry so I stopped by for some dinner on my way back to the Hotel. Oh yeah right. You said go in there & have some fun. Well that meant have some fun with their great food. Not to rob the place. Well lady you have to do better then that but I have to admit. That is the funniest story anyone can tell me. I mean if anyone can say it like that & look like you do, that hair & all. I mean you look like you played some pickleball like all day long. Well I did. How would look after all day playing pickleball anyway? Well I’m a guy & I guess I would look quite like you maybe. I think that person was a man. I couldn’t tell could you? No but I can’t stop laughing at your hair the whole time. Well I’m hungry so let’s go over there to some place & talk. Great here comes that Police Officer again. Oh good, you can say what you want to her or him now. No I think I won’t. Hey there Sheila can I say something to you please? Yeah go ahead. I would like to meet up with you some place & get some pickleball lessons in time. Is that okay? Yeah that would be great. Are you Married? Yes I’am & she is not. Would you like her number? I have it here. Okay I will take her number if your not available. I mean if she is & your not. I mean if she plays pickleball I’m good with that. Oh yeah Goldie has been playing for about what two or three days now. I think she can handle you. I mean on the court if that’s where you want to meet her for pickleball that is. Okay great I will take her number. Hey if thing’s change with you give me a call okay. Oh I will say God is going to keep my Marriage in tact for a long time but old Goldie babe here. I can’t seem to get old Kurt babe to propose to her. Something about, Well you know we have been together this long. Why not get this thing done but she won’t do it. She thinks it will ruin their relationship. Well I want to say something if I may Sheila? I mean I’am here listening to you two go back & forth with my phone number. First of all I don’t know you Police Officer or not. I mean I do have someone in my life. So I’m not interested in you at all okay you Police Officer? Well what is your name anyway? Do you normally take out people you have falsely accused after we are or she is released. Sheila I don’t do this normally but you seem so nice out there & all that I thought we could talk about God Jesus for a while that’s all. Well get on this site & you will see what it is I say about God Jesus. I’m good with that. Okay then have a nice day Officer & don’t forget to put Goldie’s number in your phone. She can give you a call if anything changes with her & Kurt babe. Okay I will do that Sheila thanks. Okay I can’t stand the fact that she couldn’t see me in this ridiculous outfit again. I mean I didn’t like it before for that one movie but I went with it to do my part as a character. It was fun to see & hear her play Goldie though. I mean I thought she would break her stride with me & Sheila but she held on tight to her heart. Okay that was not fun to hear you say I might not be with Kurt babe. Well I meant anything can change. You know he might say; Hey babe you are younger then what I have now. So hey why not? Okay how come I’m the one with a bad situation & not you? Well I’m Married for one & I can’t think of a second reason I would ever leave my husband. I’ve seen him with other women for fun in pickleball & a gentleman. So I’m good with that. I know I play with guys in pickleball, racquetball & tennis like crazy now but I don’t play with my husband. He does other stuff with some other people & I’m good with that. Hey here comes that Police Officer again. I think they are going to try to say anything they can to get you out of here & into their patrol car like now. Oh say can I offer you two a drink or something besides alcohol? No I’m good thanks. I have to get back to my Hotel & call my husband to tell him about my adventure with Goldie here. Oh okay well nice meeting you Sheila. Nice meeting you to and remember God Is Jesus with God Jehovah & God The Holy Spirit. They are One God Alone in the Presence of Three but Still One All Together as One God Alone Still. Goldie here can take you further down the road of faith if she continues on her road of faith. Right kid? Well yeah I believe all that what you just said. Oh good now I don’t have to keep repeating myself when I’m with you & Angie. Hey she’s available. I will give you her number for you to call. I mean you being a Police Officer. I’m sure it’s safe right? You are a safe Police Officer right? Yeah I’m safe. Well good. I was beginning to wonder about those wandering hands all over Goldie here when you frisked her. Okay I will give you her number now. Ready? No I’m not. Okay when did you say I was a girl or a boy? I would like to clarify that for you. Well Goldie needs that information not me. She is the one that might be meeting you right? Well I don’t know. How about we all go to that place over there & talk about it? No thanks I’m good with that place over there now that it has been almost robbed & you blamed me for saying what I said to some people who tried to blame me to. So I’m going over there & way over there & I’m Praying & Praising God all the way back to my Hotel which is not around here Praise God Jesus for that. Anytime I need food I will just order from my room & run up the room food bill. Okay bye for now. Okay I know I’m busted. How did you know it was me? Well it looks like you even with this stuff on. Okay fine. Lets say this. I’m good for this. Lets go out & play gay like you know gay as in happy. Well I like being gay without having to play at it. Don’t you? Well yeah but this could be fun. Well Goldie is the one in the movie; Who does some really good dancing in The First House Wives Club. So I’m not there myself but Goldie seems to get into dancing like now. So have a good nice first date out & don’t stay up too late. You have to come back home & take that stuff off before you go to sleep. Well I don’t have to. I can keep it on & we can play in the mixed event that I have set up for us tomorrow. Okay why don’t you tell me these things sooner Angie? How do you know I’m her? Well who ever you are. You look just like her. Well it’s not her. So look again over there. Okay you must be her stunt double then. Okay Sheila keep talking & we will go back into that patrol car over there. Look I just said you look like her. That’s a compliment. So don’t take it personal. Well I do. I used to be a women but now I changed me into this. Well whatever that is. Good for you. I will be Praying for your safety out there in a patrol car. I’m sure people don’t want to be with anyone else but themself when they try to do something like what Goldie did here not to long ago. Oh & what is that? Well she said I could go for some treat but then she changed her mind. A promise is a promise. Well why did you change your mind Goldie about taking her for a treat. Yeah why did you do that Goldie to me? I’m a good person. Not big maybe at times but you know good. Okay I have to say it was a very special moment when I said; Go pick up your room first & she said; I will later but for now I can go before it closes. You know the ice cream place. Well she was right. I couldn’t say not but I had to say no to her at that moment. Well how old does a person have to be to clean their room with you & still get to go to have some ice cream? Yeah Goldie how old do you have to be to go get some people some nice ice cream treat on a hot day. I still haven’t let myself forget that day you know. Oh will you stop this. I’m not the bad guy here. It was the way you said it. Not that you said it. Well how old does a person have to be to say it the way you want them to say it before they get their ice cream treat? Yeah Goldie how old do I have to be for my ice cream treat you still owe me? Okay I have to say this. Angie told me to tell her no. Well who is Angie? That lady over there who I look like and by the way she is a fox. So can I have her number again? I threw out her other one. I thought you guys were giving me the run around. You know like us guys do to some women sometimes. So you are a guy then? Well I’m trying to be a guy. I’m not really a guy but I can be. Well this suit I have on is really not feminine enough for me. So I have to pick it up a little & play with the thought about being more manly, you know? No I don’t but Goldie here has the gay scene pretty much saved in her life to say; I’m gay & I want more or this fun time. Old Angie babe over there once dressed up just like you. She looked kind of like her but she did it for a movie to. So what is the excuse or reason for you know beefing up your title here for a man or for a women? I’m confused. Please clear this up with me first before Goldie makes a decision she might not want to make. Oh yeah & what is that? Well I will let her say it to you not me. Well I’m not gay that’s why. Okay I’m confused here. Either we are all gay here at this table or we are not. We, you just said you couldn’t be more feminine in that suit so you had to beef it up to be more of a man. How confusing is that? Well that’s a good point. Okay that lady over there is named Angie? Yes I think she is the right one for you to ask all of these gay questions about. Now she is not gay gay. She is just gay like Goldie here. We are just gay about God Being God Jesus. So clear that off of your site now. Don’t go saying Goldie is gay like you know lesbian gay but say she like Angie are very gay happy about God Jesus Being God in their life like now. So look up the word. I will to again. There are many words that explain or interpret or define the word gay. It’s not a crime to say some are gay for God.  It means happy, brilliant, jolly, lively, vivacious, festive, cheerful. See it means basically happy or jolly the most but I like festive to. It sounds like fun to be with them right but just not now. I see Angie is getting anxious over there. I think she thinks your asking out Goldie & not her. So go for it. She’s still single I think. The last time I was with her like today, this morning she was still single. I think she will be fine with you introducing yourself like you did with us here. Right Goldie? Oh I think she will be thrilled. Okay great. I will go over there & you Goldie will you take out this nice young lady to some ice cream treat? Or I might have to look you two up. You know you & Kurt babe to see if he is treating you nice. I saw that The Hateful Eight movie. I thought; Good grief how many times is he going to knock out the teeth of that one lady under his protection. I can do without that kind of protection from the Law if you know what I mean? No we don’t. You are the Law right Officer? Yes I’am & darn proud of it. Well you should be. No one can be a guy & a girl at the same time & still be a Police Officer trying to be manly & feminine at the same time. We should have suits suitable for women and not those teensy weensy things we see on professional women’s tennis either. Good grief they bend over & hello there we are staring some place we shouldn’t be. I can’t be here anymore. I can’t stand up. Where did you find this cop anyway Angie? Well it’s who she thinks it is. I can’t move either. I mean to think I can be her when I’m here & she can see me. I can’t even move. I can’t wait to see this recorded back to the beginning. Okay that’s it. I’m done for now. I can’t even stand up. Who is this person? When she gets going on someone for being someone else, there’s no stopping her. I know I have to say I’m not surprised that she guesses well but I have a few things up my sleeve that God says I can have fun with her to. Well that came out pretty darn sure of you saying that Angie. Well you wait & see what she is writing about me sometime in the future. I mean I won’t be able to say; Hey did I see that written in that one blog? She will say Yeah so what about it? It’s not bad you know. I’m gay about God Jesus to you know. Okay I will say but I’m ready for you. She says I know. You are always ready & prepared for all trips you take with me & someone else I’m not saying anything to until it happens. So it must be someone special. Okay I can go with that. I will just have fun with that when I can. Oh she doesn’t care. She’s playing pickleball over there & she will keep playing until it’s dark & she will then say; Oh look lights are on. Guess we have to play longer. They will say okay. Then they all will go out to eat. Watch out for that. Okay I’m listening. Okay here’s what we will do & I know she won’t be too surprised but she might be on this one thing here. Oh no your kidding? No I’m going to have some fun & know what? She won’t even know it’s going to happen. Well maybe not but I will have fun with God’s anyway. Bye for now.
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sheilasministry · 8 years ago
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Jesus says it’s time for all who say God Is God Alone to be just in your heart about our new President. It’s not him that is making these decision’s now in Office. It’s his staff who keep saying he is not popular so be popular now with the people here now. But it’s taking a toll on America because his decision’s are not good right now. It’s not good for us as an American people to see our own President go aside of himself & does not listen to his own heart anymore. More people have seen him make worse mistakes then when he was first in Office. That’s because he’s listening to the WRONG people around him. They don’t believe he is wrong. They just want their opinion in sight of the President’s circle of people so they can write a book in the future or just take his place in the future. So Pray that these people around our new President takes a hike from around Trump. Or our Country will not be as strong as it was about 60 days ago. So let it be said I’m here to be with God to about these thing’s but something happened today that upset me. Normally I say good but President Trump did it again against his own touch as in his heart with God saying: NO! Don’t do that but he did it anyway. That is the firing of the FBI Director Comey. That was a HUGE mistake. God said Comey did his best to not do anything wrong when he started a new investigation about Hillary’s e-mails. He didn’t flinch when he talked. People could see he was telling all that he knew he could without revealing more about an investigation that will sometime in the future be blown wide open. People know God says these things here.  So pay attention here on Gods site & get others to watch what God will be saying next time. Right now I have to go into my life to say; I had a great time playing with my open partner in pickle ball last weekend. We lost but we played well together. I’m looking for small tournament’s to play in, in time. I’m not going to play for a bit. I’m getting ready for our son’s Wedding soon. So it will be fun to have people over & celebrate his new Marriage to a wonderful young lady from the Philippines. She will be here soon & I’m very excited to meet her for the first time & my husband is excited to have her in our family to. So where was I last time I was here?  I don’t know. It’s been a while but I know Goldie & Angie were in it for about one or two sentences. So I’m here for now but I’m here to be sure I have something to say about God Jesus. Or is it the other way around? Well I do mention His Name. He Is God with God Jehovah & God The Holy Spirit. They are One God Alone but Three in One God Deity Alone Still. So here I’am not really wanting to do this but I’am.  I have to be here but I want to be here to. So this blog is going to be as long as God wants but not much longer then like now. So it’s because God says He wants all to be with Him to so we can all be home in Heaven with Him in our heart. That way I can not have to say I’m the only one writing for God but I know people say they do to. It’s just different but God says I will not be here alone to express my self. Now I’m with God Jesus again. Okay that was an example. So here is God Jesus with God Jehovah to as God Alone with The Holy Spirit with me to. Okay so I’m here some place & I’m talking with some people who say something about pickle ball & I say something about pickle ball to but they aren’t listening so I stand there to hear what some person is saying again about his own theory that people just hang on every word but not me. I just say; Well that sound’s good. Okay let’s try this. No it won’t work at all. Oh I do it & it works great for me in point’s. Well it won’t work at all. Okay I say. I’m just saying my part. They did. So I thought I would to. Yeah well they don’t know what it is their saying but I do. Oh I say. Well that’s fine with me. Okay I have to play now. Good luck. See ya around sometime. Okay bye. Well that was a great match & she used her strategy well to. Oh I know what that one person said. She doesn’t play enough to know much. So I just put down all she says when I want. It’s time to say this about me. I’m not mad at all. It happens all the time with people around me. People just listen & move on. That’s what I do. So the point here is to be a good listener & then say: Okay thanks & then move on with your game. If your game is working well for you, you have to listen to your heart. If someone says to do something different & you aren’t your usual self in winning. Well then go back to your game. I have a fun thing to say. I have some people around me who say it’s fun to just play & have fun so we do. I learn from all of my family in pickle ball even if they are a beginner because everyone has a gift God has given them just for their very own game. So I just take their game & work around their gift given to them by God Jesus. It works well & I have a good friend who said I helped him a lot. He is a very good player & we have fun in playing but his heart is with going to school. He just plays for fun. So if I can be with someone in playing for fun & yet being a really fun competitor, I’m in. Okay I’m not here but I’am. I try to hear God’s Word’s from Him to the point of not really enjoying God’s Heart with me but I do. It’s not hard to type but I’m trying to not lose this blog again on this site. So if that’s not good enough for me. I just say; God Is God Alone with God Jehovah & God The Holy Spirit. It’s good to say it. I want ALL to be home in Heaven. So I Pray daily for all here now. All who have passed away and all who will live & pass away up to Judgement day. So I Pray they all will confess God Is Jesus Alone & I do this daily. God helped me to get on a really good routine. So I’m also saying; Thank you God Jesus for dying on the Cross for the worlds sins. Thank you God Jehovah for sending your Son Jesus Christ God to die on the Cross for our sins and thank you God The Holy Spirit for being with us here now until the end of time on this earth & throughout Infinity. So I Pray & ask this all in Jesus Christ God’s Name Alone. amen     Okay I went out rollerblading today again after I went for a jog. I’m hungry now but I will wait a bit for me to eat some dinner. I will have an early dinner or a later dinner. I haven’t made up my mind yet. Okay I know it sounds funny but I’m hungry & it comes out in these blog’s. Why? Because God says it’s fun for Him to see I’m readying my life for Him like this. That means when I’m hungry for God Jesus I eat His word for well let’s say like this. It’s the same thing. I wanted to blog but I’m tired but I’m blogging anyway. It’s not me who says these words but God Jesus. Okay I have a good person who is saying I must be doing well this time this year. It’s about some thing’s going on in my life but it’s all good for now. I Pray it keeps going like it is now. God says yes but I should go get me check out just for the purpose of satisfying me about thing’s in medical check ups. So I won’t go in for that particular medical check up. Things are a lot better but the after affect of it all is still with me but I’m good. So it’s not much but it’s always when we get older we worry & I guess people around us do to. Okay here is the deal with me & Goldie or Angie now. It’s not them who is holding thing’s up or me. It’s God Jesus. He says I want to be out playing so much fun pickle ball that I can’t wait to play again with my new partner in open tournament’s. I haven’t had that much fun in years. That’s not to say I haven’t had fun. It’s just this person has as much fun in playing & winning point’s as me. Okay I do get a little noisy when he got some really great shot’s back over for a winner but he said & did the same thing for me. So my life at that moment made me feel like a winner even though we lost but not easily. We were coming together in our games. I shot some bad stuff. He did to but I’m not mad. He wasn’t either. He just said I’m sorry but I said we & he did great in our playing. He wants to play more tournament’s to. That gives us some time to play some small tournament’s before we both can say; Okay now is the time for us to play a bigger one. So that won’t be easy at all but I will have so much fun trying. Okay I have some person from Hollywood buzz town I had some fun thinking about in a movie he has done. He doesn’t know God as Jesus but for some reason God see’s he’s in my heart to for someone to say God Is Jesus to with God Jehovah & God The Holy Spirit. It will be fun to hear about these people saying these thing’s. It will get better in Hollywood buzz town but not much until after God gets His movies going like big time in the future. I won’t be in them but I will be playing pickle ball. So Harry will have to wait some time for me to get out of my game to go out into those dark old wood’s with some babe like Goldie to stay in some cave with something we never did find out what but that’s in God’s way of saying we have to be there to have fun with that. So anyway I don’t know how much time I have or Goldie has for waiting for God to get us out into that old Harry cave but sometime I’m going to say probably not now. So Goldie keep exercising like me & keep eating really healthy. It will not be now but God says soon. Every time He says soon. That is usually another year or two or three. It could go into the next generation of Angie’s kid’s having their own kid’s. I think that would be about the time she would be available to have some more fun. I know she’s busy but her life is kid’s & more kid’s & probably a few after that. Maybe her kid’s on top of kid’s are her kid’s friend’s. Anyway she won’t be in touch with who she is for sometime down the road. Kid’s do that to you ya know. Okay so where was I when Goldie asked me a question about Angie? What do I know about her? Only that she hasn’t made that movie SALT two yet. Okay so Goldie is in this place of no return with God & her. I hope it’s the right direction of no return because it’s only one way I’m going. So if she’s following me she can get some great stuff from God to me to her. So she’s trying to understand how I talk. It’s different then when you are just talking about stuff but then when God kick’s in. It’s like different. Okay I say it’s like this. That is The Holy Spirit going on & one about people. Because like you God says it’s not easy to deal with. Why is that she asks? Well if I can just finish what God is saying you might find out what He want’s to say to you personally for your own self improvement. Well I don’t need any improvement. Well you do because your interrupting me like people do when God wants to say something about Him self or about you. Okay what does He want to say about me? Well he says you don’t listen very well in your life with other people who say God Is Jesus to with God Jehovah. He says you don’t do anything to improve your relationship with Him like now before you leave this place for good & I mean for good like forever & ever & it could be now but He says you keep saying no. Okay I’m not going to die here am I just to say I’m with God now forever & ever right? I don’t know. Usually when God brings something like that up. Well you had better be ready. Well if I don’t make it from this cave. Will you drag me out so I don’t have to be in here with whatever is in that corner over there then Sheila? Well I don’t know whats over there either. So if your not here when I ask you to move. Well your on your own babe. Okay if I have to die here. Will I be in Heaven now. Yeah want to give it a try Goldie babe? No I do not. Well if you don’t God will have to then take you anyway like pretty darn soon. So make up who you want to be with okay. Otherwise He will take you home & you will be lost out here in these old wood’s for a while trying to figure out how all of a sudden you can hear His Voice & not before. So that means like me you will be not here but home with God in Heaven. Ooh so that’s what that means. It means God is with me & I’m hearing His Voice like you then? Yes that’s what I’ve been saying the whole time. Well not with me. You just said I will die here or not. Then maybe you would drag me out but probably not. So here I’am trying to figure out what it is your trying to say about me & dying. It’s dying in the Spirit every time you are in your life & in your heart with God in & through The Holy Spirit. Oh now I get it. It’s what you’ve been saying to me the whole time. How come it takes us so long to get what it is your saying? I mean every time I hear you say something it’s different then how you really sound when you are not letting God into your heart for Him Alone. Hey was I in my heart with God just now Sheila? Yes you were. Oh how do you know these thing’s anyway? The Holy Spirit will Teach you to. It’s not just for a few. It’s for all who God says to say whatever He wants. That’s it for you for now though. You will fall back into your own way of thinking but God said to The Holy Spirit to let you feel that in your heart. Oh & I did to. Oh now I have to do what to get back online with God Jesus through The Holy Spirit? Well spend as much time with God Jesus like I have & many have. Just Praise Him like daily & Pray for all around you. Stay with God. Practice a little each day. I have been doing this for years like some people but I have taken it as far as I can. God does it all anyway. So when I improve it’s God’s way of saying I’m with you now. So let’s have some fun but now He’s with me all of the time. I can’t wait until I’m home in Heaven for good. I will be with Him like crazy but so will many people. We can’t wait to see Him & to be with Him even more then we are now. It’s great to think we can have this kind of fun now but it’s not when we want to be home as much as we really do. So what is the big deal with being with God so much anyway Sheila? Well He’s just Pure Living God Alone. There isn’t anything He can’t do. So it’s just Who He Is as God that gets your attention. It will happen with you in time. Not now but soon enough. Okay well we had better get some sleep. I think Angie is coming into the cave now. No she’s not here now. She will be here later. I mean she will be here in a moment or two. Hey I can’t do what you do how come? It’s not your time yet. She will be here soon though. Well what do you mean by soon? Well I think that’s her over there in that corner. What? No you can’t be serious. She’s not even in town. I know that. She’s over there in that corner spying on you. Not me but you. No she’s not. Oh yes I’am. I can’t believe she figured out who I was. I didn’t God told me just now. Well He said she will be here soon. So I figured it was her here now. Okay so how do we have to know how come God is with you so much? Why not Teach others to do what God has Taught you to do with Him through The Holy Spirit? Well it’s not me that says no to Teaching. It’s people like you who say no to me. When I try to say something about God being with me. People shut me down fast. So I stopped & said; I’m here for you God. If they want Teaching. They can go do what I do daily with you. So God says wise child of mine. I have been with her long enough to know she means it but she really wants to Teach. So we will wait until people see something about her that they don’t have for now & maybe never. It’s up to God to say this to me. So I just let God say it the way He wants. So anyway, Angie is saying what I want to do which is Teach but people don’t care to hear about God now. I tweet like crazy & no one responds. Only barely responds. So I keep saying it over & over & over for God Jesus Name to be out in the eye of as many people as He want’s. I don’t know how many people that is but I Pray it will be in the millions to billions sometime in the future. God says He is working on that. In the mean time I play a lot with what God says to have fun in. I might even be a grandma sometime in the near future. Not to near. I want my kid’s to enjoy youth. Having a family is tiring but I will be & my husband will take them off their hand’s until we say; Okay we need a nap ourselves. Okay that’s it for now. My heart is here to be with God more then not. Bye for now. 
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sheilasministry · 8 years ago
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Jesus say’s it here people but He say’s in all places where people say He Is God with God Jehovah. How tough is that to say to have Eternal life with God Jesus anyway? No one has to do anything but just say; God you are Jesus to with God Jehovah & God The Holy Spirit. Then you say; God help me with my faith. I don’t believe in God but I do believe in something. Then you say; God help me to say in my life God Is Real & God does Exist in my life & in my heart. You are God Alone. No other God Exists but God Jesus, God Jehovah & God The Holy Spirit. You are All One God Alone but Three in Presence as Three as One God Alone Still. What this is saying is that God Exists & God Is One but Three in the Presence as One God Alone Still. It’s in the Bible in First John 5:7.  No one can deny God’s Heart & say I’m okay. It’s not okay to say God does not Exist. God said in Romans 12:3. It says this about God giving ALL creation of His faith. It says this: “For God has dealt to each man the measure of Faith”. So if you have doubt in God it’s because you have chosen to be with you & not with God. No excuses with God Jesus. He is our Judge on Judgment day. So don’t say I’m Judging you. I can’t Judge anyone. I’m saying what is already in the Bible. Jesus said it. I’m saying what Jesus said to say. Now is the time for all to say God Is Jesus to. No one can be with God Jehovah & be in their life with God Jesus to. No one can say I’m not online with my God Jesus. He says it. I write it for Him Alone. I’m here to be with God Jesus as God Alone in my life & for all who God created. God says it’s time for some real fun here. So here I go. Okay I’m here to be with God. I get into what God says about Who He Is as God Alone but God says people want to see & hear more about Goldie & Angie with me in those dark wood’s. Well I’m laughing already. I have no idea how I would ever be in those dark wood’s with two great fun people from Hollywood buzz town but I will let God decide that. I know it’s a far cry for me to say anything about anything with me in my life changing that much in the fraction of a second but I give it all to God anyway. If that’s what He wants. Then that’s what He will do. Why me? Well I’m not sure. I guess I have this fun spot in my heart for God Jesus. He helps me to smile like a lot. Then I just laugh because I can’t wait to be with Him in Heaven. I think about it all of the time. I can’t wait to see His Beautiful face for the first time. I can’t wait to hold Him in my arms & say; Thank you for saving me from me. I can’t wait to run around my land wherever that may be. I hope where I’m at now. I can’t afford another home but God says I have a few in mind but it all takes money & I’m too old & my husband to, to say; Oh gee let’s do this all again. We are in our third house of restoration & not one of them have ever been finished & then we moved again. So I’m good with what we have. It’s my favorite because God got us in this house to but it’s the most fun for me now. Good memories for the last two but this is the final run in my life. So I’m glad Jesus said yes to this place. My husband & me are both from the country. So I just said; Please God help me find a country home for us to stay in for good. Well Praise God Jesus He did. So it’s been over eighteen years since we moved here. We still aren’t done with what we want to do. That will probably never happen but Praise God Jesus for Eternity. We have that long to finish all that I have dreamed of & my husband so we can just relax and have some fun for like Ever. Okay I’m here already in Heaven just waiting for me to get there or my husband or Jesus our God to just Return. He says in His tweet’s that it’s almost time. The sign’s are in the Bible but God says not so fast. We have to make a few movies with our daughter here. No one believes she can do that now. Not with who she is. Well I say that about me to. So don’t worry my family & friend’s I’m not mad. I’am disappointed though. I would have loved to be in a movie with God Jesus in my heart the way He is now. I know that Harry will be fine without me in a movie with him & old Goldie babe. I know she won’t like that right there but God says she’s been a little stubborn about saying His Name like for real. So Goldie don’t go there with me. If you don’t believe in God as Jesus Alone. You won’t have a longer term relationship with Harry that’s for sure. I know, you have Kurt but he hasn’t put that ring on your finger yet has he? Okay so you say; Oh I’m fine. Let’s just be good friend’s. Well that’s okay to but God says it’s nice to say I do sometimes. Okay say I do to God Jesus. He Is God Alone. You know that already. Check that Scripture God gave me to say here at the first part of this blog. It’s Romans 12:3. So go back & read it here or in your Bible. You do own a Bible right?  I mean after all of them great movies you played in. I hope you saved some money for God’s Heart to be with you like now but He says you haven’t done one thing to say; Thank you God Jesus for all of this time & money I have for now but no He says you are kind of thinking of fully retiring from movies now that you are over seventy. Sorry but God says not yet. He has me in some planned movie to. I don’t know if it will happen but He says you might be a choice in one of the spot’s He has in mind. Angie will have to wait. She has her hand’s full with her six children. No time for fun for her now. So it’s just you & me in those old dark wood’s but Harry will show up sometime in the future if we get there in time. So what else is new with this Country? People know I don’t know anything. So they let God say it here. Well God says old Hillary is not in her life much now that she lost to a business man. He is doing the best he can since no one wants him in Office but we as the people voted him into that Oval Office for now. So God says no one can figure out how I know these thing’s about Hillary’s bad ways. Well I know not one thing unless God says it. So if you want some good stuff to. Just go to God Jesus & through The Holy Spirit He gives it all up here. No one wants to believe that but God is just getting going in my life. I’m not that old. I can still hold a great game in pickle ball. Someone just said today how much I have improved for someone who doesn’t play that much in my own court. Well it’s because of God Jesus in my life & in my heart all of my time I can be with Him & all night long Praising Him as God Alone with God Jehovah. They are just Awesome to be with. So I spend whatever time I can with them & I can say this about them; They are Awesome God Alone Period! Oh I have a story to say now. My heart is with God but my thought’s are to. So I’m here to say what it is that God wants to say but I have to get me some more money coming in. So I sent in some writing’s for some people to say & basically critique God’s work. They don’t know God but I know God’s Heart. I wanted to say something in those small blog examples like crazy but I couldn’t. So now I don’t care if I get any response from them at all but one of those people thought it was a unique way of response to their request. Well I didn’t see any place of how to reply so I just wrote it on their reply button. Anyway, I didn’t get much fun out of it. I knew that they wouldn’t want to hear anything about God. So God said let’s just say something about family & fiction & non-fiction. Well it took off pretty good around that old place. I don’t know if they liked it or not but I haven’t heard anything from them. It’s for free anyway but it could turn into a paid job. So I don’t know if God will say yes. I’m waiting for some job in writing that I can get paid but I don’t like not talking the way God wants to & need’s to, to get anyone’s attention for His Heart to be with them. So I’m not sure if I got a good review or not even noticed at all but I laughed at the end of the second blog. I thought God did great as usual. In fact, He does Perfect to me. So I want to say this about anyone who says God doesn’t care about us. First He died on the Cross for you. Take that personally okay people who say that? Second He wrote two awesome fun blog’s which I kept saying I want to say your Name so much but didn’t. God said can’t with this one site. So I’m going to keep having faith that I will be out & about & see someone or tell someone or maybe they might even contact me about some job to be saying anything God’s Heart desires to say about Him Being God Alone with God Jehovah & God The Holy Spirit. So if that’s not enough. I have one more thing to say before I go for a walk with my two pup’s. I can’t spell well but my speller thing can. So if some of these words don’t look right. Take it up with my computer. I rely on it to say what is right & what is not. That’s about it for now. Have a Blessed day & I will see you all in some place of fun time. I Pray it will be Heaven now or in time or maybe I might be in some old dark place called those wood’s. Hope Goldie isn’t too upset with me saying she is old. I’m only seven years younger then her & I feel great. Especially when I win with someone my age & we say; Okay let’s have fun & play & beat these two  fellow’s. Well we did just that twice. See they don’t play well together but we did. So there it is folks. I don’t care who you are or how much you play or how good you think the two of you do outside of your game of doubles. It’s just the way it is when God says yes. He said yes today for me a lot of times. Normally I lose most of the practice games but today I won most of them instead. Why? I don’t know. Something about me being more patient then in the past. My game is getting better but not where it need’s to be for open event’s again. So here I’am & my old partner who is in Heaven now pop’s into my mind. Well we will have Eternity to play doubles together. So if I can say this now. I thought we would be playing again like that now but God said no. So I wait for me to be in Heaven. I’am but it’s different for me but not much. I’m here & then I’m not. I get to be with God sometimes. She gets to be with Him all of the time. What a wonderful thing to think about. So we don’t die. We just go home to be with God. So where are you going when or if you die here from this world? Will you be home in Heaven or will you be here to say; I don’t know what is going on. I know I died but it’s not Heaven. What is going on here? So don’t be one of those. I could have been for a while but God said no to that. I had my moment’s but I always wanted God & no one else in my life. Life gets in the way but you can still have God with you now. No one can see much in these blog’s but so many do. So make a choice for you. God is not here with me in the flesh as He once was so long ago but He’s here with us all through The Holy Spirit. So it’s not impossible for Him to be here again like that but He likes to be home. I know I would be to. So be in your life here but have God with you to as your Only God Alone. Okay that’s it for now. And don’t let that thing right there in your life called doubt take up to much of your time. I think I have. Just be in your life. Enjoy it with God Alone Jesus & God Jehovah to. Just remember He can do all thing’s in His Name Alone. He Is God. So that’s it for now. Bye.
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