#I’VE BEEN CURSED 😭😭 POISONED!!!!

[vhoorlpool]

need to fuck an old (sentient, or at least consent giving) computer so bad. need to reach deep inside them and stroke their wiring, flick at their glass vacuum tubes and pinch their electron guns. go so slow and be so attentive to each high pitched beep and drawn out whirr that it makes their circuits grow hot and their fans kick on. need to run my tongue along their cords so languidly, suck on it so harshly they bluescreen and I’m left to just stand and laugh at them as they kick back on, screen warm with embarrassment and arousal <3

[the-darkestminds]

A Dying Flame

Eris POV — my first fic

Heyyyyy friends. I decided to write the two scenes UTM from Eris’s POV where Lucien is being tormented and Eris is forced to watch. It can also be found here. I’ve never written anything before so be nice to me 😭 I took a few lines directly from ACOTAR to set the scene and make it as canon as possible, but the rest came from me. I tried to channel SJM's writing style as best I could. I am trash for Eris so I couldn’t resist. I hope you guys like it 🥲 title is dumb so I might change it. I am eternally grateful for any of you who choose to read the whole thing, I promise it’s not too long! 🙏

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Eris

I stood at the edge of the gathered crowd, struggling to keep the cool mask of indifference on my face as Amarantha once again had Lucien bound and on his knees before her. Would his torment never cease? He had never quite mastered the ability to keep his mouth shut, to leash his tongue until the moment it would best serve him. Lucien’s loud mouth had already cost him his left eye, plucked right from his head by Amarantha herself. Rage coursed through me at the role I was forced to play each day under this cursed mountain. How useless I’d become at protecting those I held most dear. 

Lucien and I had not exchanged honest words in over 30 years. I longed for the chance to speak to him alone, to beg him to hold his tongue so as not to draw Amarantha’s ire more than he already had. Not for the first time, I desperately wished for the daemati abilities the High Lord of Night possessed so that I might speak to Lucien privately. Abilities he was about to unleash upon my brother.  

Beside Lucien stood a small and ordinary mortal girl, likely Amarantha’s newest plaything to torture and discard.

“Her name?” Amarantha asked Tamlin, who didn’t reply. “I don’t suppose your handsome brothers know, Lucien,” she purred.

Give up her name! I nearly begged him. To hell with the girl. Instead I heard myself say, “If we did, Lady, we would be the first to tell you.” The words tasted like poison on my tongue. My brothers chuckled from behind me.

Amarantha only smiled and nodded at Rhysand. He cocked his head, his eyes narrowing slightly on Lucien, who hissed in pain.

I tensed as Rhysand began smiling faintly. Bastard. He was a loathsome, foul bastard. And though I knew he played a role and wore a mask as much as the rest of us, it didn’t stop me from hating him as he held Lucien’s mind in his clutches.

Lucien stiffened in pain. A groan slipped out of him, and– 

“Feyre!” the girl shouted. “My name is Feyre.” 

Lucien sagged on the ground, trembling. Relief shuttered through me, and I bared my teeth and snarled quietly at the girl to disguise the trembling in my hands, my legs. He was safe, for now. And no thanks to me. 

The conversation continued, but I let my mind drift far away. Tried to feel nothing as I attempted to calm my racing heart. I clenched my sweaty palms at my sides and allowed myself a quick glance at Lucien’s prone form. Alive–for now. 

I slipped back into the crowd as they dragged Feyre away. He was alive. I repeated this to myself as the cruelty continued through the night, as it did every night in this miserable place. Alive–as I sipped wine and smiled at the punishment the Attor was inflicting on the poor faeries Amarantha had singled out this evening. Alive, alive, alive a steady chant in my blood as the night wore on.

Alive.

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“Well, Feyre, your second trial has come.” I heard Amarantha smugly announce from her throne at the front of the room. A gnawing dread had been pooling in my gut for the last hour. I could only guess at what new horror she had in store for the girl, but I grew increasingly anxious when I did not see Lucien amongst the revelers. He tended to lurk in the shadows of the room, one eye on Tamlin, ever the loyal sentry. I couldn’t help the low snarl that escaped me at the thought. That Lucien was willing to risk his own life for the Spring Court brute. The faerie next to me skittered away at the sound.

I slowly made my way towards the gathered crowd. Faeries averted their eyes as I passed. It was a relief that I still commanded a modicum of fear from these leeches. Their fear of me was a weapon I wielded frequently.

Amarantha sat proudly on her throne. The Attor at her left, Tamlin braced stiffly behind her on her right. 

“Here, Feyre darling, you shall find your task. Simply answer the question by selecting the correct lever, and you’ll win. Select the wrong one to your doom. As there are only three options, I think I have given you an unfair advantage.” Something metallic groaned at the snap of her fingers. “That is,” she added with a snake-like smile, “if you can solve the puzzle in time.”

I had just gotten a glimpse of the girl when the floor where she was standing began to sink down, revealing a small chamber split in two by a metal grate.

I went rigid as I beheld the figure chained to the floor, previously hidden from view. A loud roaring began building in my head. My skin felt tight and hot as I saw that it was Lucien–Lucien, who would again be part of the night’s entertainment. Lucien wrenched at the chains binding him to the floor. I nearly puked on the throne room floor at the sight of it.

Only the many years of practice in my long immortal life stopped the cry of anguish from escaping me as burning spikes began to slowly lower towards Lucien from above. I was a fool. A wretched fool to think Amarantha was done torturing him. That she would not use his friendship with the girl again and again until she finally broke, or was dead, Lucien along with her. I made to take a step forward but then jerked to a stop. Nothing. There was nothing I could do to stop this without damning us both further. I would be forced to watch in silent agony as Lucien was slowly and painfully crushed under the weight of those red-hot spikes. 

I stared and stared at Lucien, only vaguely aware of the girl flailing and panicking in the chamber next to him. This was some new level of hell. My nightmare brought to life, one that I could not wake myself up from. 

“Answer it!” Lucien shouted, his voice hitched. My eyes burned, and I felt a cold drop of sweat begin to drip down my spine. Only sheer force of will kept the practiced smirk on my lips. The spikes lowered further.

“Just pick one!” Lucien shouted. He strained against the chains, panting frantically, eyes wide.

My brothers around me laughed gleefully, and I forced myself to join in, the sound a pitiful rasp in my ears. I was grateful that the crowd around me was thoroughly distracted by the horror unfolding before us. That they could not hear my pounding heart or the screaming inside my head as those molten spikes lowered another inch closer to Lucien’s body, helplessly chained to the floor. This was the true torture. Not the painful lashes I’d so often received from my father for disappointing him in one way or another. Not the loneliness and fear that threatened to crush me after so many years navigating the snake pit of my father’s court. But this. Forced to stand idly by as my loved ones were killed. Forced to hear the fear in Lucien’s voice as he begged the girl to just pick a lever and be unable to stop any of it.

“Feyre, please!” Lucien moaned. The terror in his voice nearly brought me to my knees. And yet I stood there like a statue. Maybe this was my punishment for being so useless. So worthless. I desperately wished I could take Lucien’s place. That it was me chained to the floor. I deserved it.

I held my breath and shut my eyes as the girl finally reached for the third lever, bracing myself for what was surely to come. 

Silence. Then–a sigh. From Lucien. 

I opened my eyes at the sound and choked down the sob building in my chest. The girl, Feyre, had actually done it. By dumb luck or fate, she had saved them both.

I did not stay to witness Amarantha’s reaction to the girl besting her once more. Could not stand to be there a minute longer. I turned, not seeing any of the faces around me, desperate to escape the swirl of both panic and relief pressing in on me, threatening to swallow me whole. I could not fall apart, not here.

I stumbled away to the back of the throne room and kept walking until I was alone in a darkened passageway, the sounds of jeering and wicked laughter slowly disappearing. I leaned heavily against the nearest wall and emptied the contents of my stomach onto the floor. My eyes and throat burned and I let out the broken sob I had been holding in. I would allow myself one minute to fall apart, away from prying eyes. Just one minute, and then I would return to join in the merriment of those who had cheered as my brother had nearly been killed again.

I breathed in the damp, cold air of the mountain, my body shaking silently as I sunk to my knees. I listened to the drip, drip, drip of water on the stone floor and used it to slow my quaking heart. When the minute was up, I stood. Tunneled deep down inside until I could barely feel the rage and sorrow. I brought the smirk back to my mouth–it was second nature after all these years. I took one last deep breath, and turned back the way I had come. I had been gone too long, and these caves had eyes and ears that were always watching, always listening–always reporting back to her. And though Autumn Court fire burned in my veins, I forced my heart to freeze over, as cold as Kallias’s ice. I let that ice flow through me as I walked back–as I blocked out the despair that fought to drown me with every step I took. Until I was no one, and nothing. 

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A small part of me was aware that I was in shock. I drifted through the following day as if underwater, not fully hearing the words spoken to me or how I responded. Through it all, I made sure to keep the haughty mask on my face. Only when I spotted Lucien across the room did I feel as if I had come up briefly for air. Our eyes locked, and Lucien’s mouth tightened in displeasure. He held my gaze, emotion flickering in his right eye–there and then gone before I could decipher it. After a beat he looked away and was promptly swallowed up by the crowd.

I knew Lucien despised me. It was written on his face whenever he deigned to look me in the eyes, and I let him believe I felt the same. As much as it pained me to do so, I treated him as if he were nothing to me, no more than trash to be discarded. I hated myself more with each passing day–was at risk of being consumed by it entirely and slipping deep into the burning pit of fire within me. It was sheer defiance against the bitch queen that prevented me from doing so. The hope that I might one day see Autumn again. So many years trapped down in the dark were wearing heavy on my soul. The steady fear that I would fail those I sought to protect slowly ate away at me. What I’d give to breathe in the crisp, cool air of home, to walk amongst the red and gold leaves that sparkled like jewels in the dawn light. I held on to the hope that I would one day return. Tucked it deep down inside where it flickered softly, the aching pain in my heart its only companion.

[crazylittlejester]

Something which I'm really suprised about is the fact that nobody has come up with a story for Warriors that's basically the princess locked in a tower guarded by a dragon trope.

Like, the Chain in general tend to fit fairytale princess stories. Wild and Sky are quite literally Sleeping Beauty, Wind is basically The Little Mermaid but reversed and Hyrule and Time are very much Snow White in a different font and people acknowledge that but I've never seen anybody put Warriors in the classic fair maiden formula which genuinely suprises me because he's literally just that specific trope if the princess had a sword.

Imagine a story where somebody, say Artemis if we're going for the most basic play on this trope slays a dragon (WE HAVE A DRAGON! VOLGA!) and then came into the tower being like "hey yo. What's up? I heard a certain fair hero needed rescuing?"

I think this might just be my love of Links with classic fairytale tropes like the poisoned apple or sleeping curse talking but COME ON! You can't tell me that Warriors doesn't give you that vibe because this trope is basically an extremely toned down Helen of Troy story without the Trojan War 😭😭

Oh man.. I just keep finding ways to make Warriors suffer. First it was Sky and now Warriors has joined.

The little parallels between them and classic fairytales are really cool! I haven’t really ever thought about the fairytale aspects of it too much, but Warriors is definitely this world’s equivalent of Helen of Troy, which is an essay post I will have to write once I have the time to sit down and get really into it.

The mental image of Warriors as a damsel in distress up in some tower guarded by a dragon is an absolutely beautiful one. I imagine he’d be more like Fiona from Shrek where when the help finally comes he’s like “Excuse me?? You’re doing it wrong! Ugh! You’re supposed to be my one true love!!! 🥺🥺🥺”, because as traumatized as I write him, he really is a bit of a drama queen and I adore him for it.

(You’ve awakened in me an urge to write something of a crack shrek au after I finish my big hero 6 au, and I’m sitting here cackling at the possibilities I’ve just been awoken to see)

[sunflowerharrington]

bestie PLS PLS GIVE SONG RECOMMENDATIONS??? I’m desperate for new music.. everything sounds like noise T-T

SORRY BUT THIS IS THE BEST ASK I HAVE EVER GOTTEN I SWEAR!!!

i absolutely love doing this!

so these songs are what i’ve been listening to recently;

- high school sweethearts by melanie martinez

- sex with my ex by lil peep

- boss bitch by doja cat

- thru the night by jack harlow and bryson tiller

- maniac 2000 by ruaile buaile 🎉😭😭 this one is a joke btw i’m not getting you to actually listen to it

- thot shit by meg thee stallion

- hallucinate by dula peep

- drive by wes nelson and clean bandit

- comme toi by tayc

- redbone by donald glover

- heartbreak anniversary by giveon

- hrs and hrs by muni long

- boyfriend by dove cameron

- she’s all i wanna be by tate mcrae

- fine line by harry styles

- show me how by men i trust

- heartless by kanye west

- i bet you look good on the dancefloor by arctic monkeys

- pink + white by frank ocean

- billie bossa nova by billie eilish

- honesty by pink $weats

- tú by maye

- supermassive black hole by muse

- loving is easy by rex orange county

- pluto projector by rex orange county

- hello? by clairo

- ok by wallows

- are you bored yet by wallows and clairo

- mind games by sickick

- poison by brent faiyaz

- confidence by raye and maleek berry and nana rouges

- twisted by missio

- easy by dani leigh and chr*s br*wn

- first class by jack harlow

- hypnotize by the notorious big

- breed by nirvana

- lounge act by nirvana

- come as you are by nirvana

- oxytocin by billie eilish

- fuck everyone but you by cheat codes

- all for us by labrinth and zendaya

- as it was by harry styles

- she by harry styles

- softcore by the neighbourhood

- the less i know the better by take impala

- deviltown by cavetown

- underground by cody fry

- she’s my collar by gorillaz and kali uchis

- see you again by tyler, the creator and kali uchis

- sweetest pie by dula peep and meg thee stallion

- tear you apart by she wants revenge

- potential breakup song by aly & aj

- burning pile by mother mother

- hayloft I & II by mother mother

- je te laisserai des mots by patrick watson

- brutal by olivia rodrigo

- wild by troye sivan

- my my my by troye sivan

- boys by lizzo

- wild side by normani and cardi b

- s&m by rihanna

- pov by ariana grande

- parents by yungblud

- smells like teen spirit by nirvana (had to hid this song in here somewhere lmao)

- rhinestone eyes by gorillaz

- little dark age by mgmt

- prefontaine by versatile (for all my dubs out there xoxo) and also ketamine by versatile. don’t @ me!

- teenagers by my chemical romance

- love on the brain by rihanna

- sweet dreams (are made of this) by eurythmics because how could i not recommend this song?

- could’ve been by her and bryson tiller

- boo’d up by ella mai

- shot clock by ella mai

- god is a dancer by mabel

- sociopath by olivia o’brien

- begin again by taylor swift

- fuck it i love you by lana del rey

- 505 by arctic monkeys ❤️😭 favourite song ever

- ilomilo by billie eilish

- nintendhoe by doja cat

- 40 shades of choke by ari lennox

- while we’re young by jhené aiko

- sativa by jhené aiko and swae lee

- love language by queen naija

- no idea (don toliver) remix by dj purpberry

- 3 nights by dominic fike

- cupid’s chokehold / breakfast in america by gym class heroes

- sparks by coldplay

- freaks by surf curse

- jealous by eyedress

if you want my playlists i can send them to you, babes!

[khaleesiofalicante]

Alright I'm back

But what if they can't save Selena?

How about you not think that

Max could maybe, with David’s love, survive life without magic.

But he didn’t think he could survive a life filled with fear.

Max you won't be able to live without it

But we need David

But if we kill Asmodeus?

Max: Selena took her Poison Ivy cosplay a little too seriously

I snorted

Dad, despite recovering from a fucking hole in his chest, had called for a meeting with the closest allies and confidants to restrategize.

ALEC FUCKING TAKE A NAP

Well he was sleeping earljer

SLEEP MORE BITCH

“What if the Consul hears us?” David would ask every goddamn time they were in the apartment.

“Babe,” Max would groan. “He is not even home.”

I just had an image of Alec somewhere else in the world spying on these two

Can't wait for David to come back and for there to be bonding

But Max remembered seeing David smile and thinking he would burn down the world to see it again.

It was a little extreme of course.

But people shouldn’t judge him for it. They hadn’t seen that smile. If they had, they would understand.

Their love just 😭😭

ELYAAS

HUH WTF

He's an eldest curse??????

Leviathan

I think

It makes sense

Oh my god

Yup it is

Levi wasn't an angel

So it makes sense why Max wasn't affected

So many thoughts

Is Levi gonna help max??

With bringing David back

“Do you always call your parents by their first name?” Leviathan asked in an amused tone.

STFU YOU ARE NOTHING BUT THE SPERM GIVER

Leviathan seems...okayish

Manipulating children IS disgusting. He made a good point

So he's the most powerful then...

Baby you really need to talk to Magnus now

“Believe me, this doesn’t even make it to the top five of the crazy shit I’ve been through in the last two weeks,”

True enofuu

“I don’t plot,” Leviathan laughed. “Well, not all the time. I am the prince of chaos after all.”

“Jesus, no wonder I am a fucking mess,” Max groaned.

Such a mood

What's with the "sugar"?

Does that shark have the same name as me...

MAMA IM A SHARK

Ok but first are we gonna talk about the fact that max is a blue Percy Jackson?

Back to the shark

Imma creat a storyline for my shark

I'm a megalodon because it was my hyper fixation for a long time. Yes they are extinct but razeil wasn't supposed to lose his powers either so the impossible happens. I'm the only one alive because otherwise it would fuck up the ecosystem (hyper fixation remember?) I'm immortal and I don't reproduce because again the ecosystem.

Also Hi max!!

Don't make stupid decisions!! Bye max imma swim away now!!

“That’s Evie,” Leviathan said. “Say hello.”

Max waved at the shark. He could swear it grinned back at him.

🦈🦈

“Perhaps it was lost in translation

The logical part of my brain: do not...

My swiftie brain: MAYBE WE GOT LOST IN TRANSLATION MAYBE I ASKED FOR TOO MUCH

Lemme switch the song

PLEASE MAX HAVING SO MANY SIMILARITIES WITH LEVI

Oh my god max is fucking Moses

calm down Percy Jackson

Also seafood is disgusting.

Evie the shark is disgusted by you

How dare you

He can control humans...

Blood has water

WE ARE 70 PERSON WATER

He can blood bend

“Because I was tired of listening to my brothers boast about their children,” Leviathan huffed. “Magnus this. Tessa that. I wanted to know what all the fuss was about.”

“Aw,” Max deadpanned. “You had baby fever.”

OH MY GOD HE HAD BABY FEVER

I'm kinda liking him but then again the bar is on the fucking ground after Belial and Asmodeus so...

Also this feels like another sammael situation

“Very,” Leviathan chuckled. “Also, no one expects two eldest curses to be under the same roof. It’s very unusual.”

“You wanted to fool Asmodeus,” Max pointed out in realization.

“He is not the only one capable of making powerful offspring,” Leviathan huffed.

I don't even know what to say about him leaving max on the doorstep of the academy

Thank you? Since Malec found him

Not at the princes of hell being like those moms

Especially Belial and Asmodeus

So leviathan wants him to stay alive for his chaotic purposes in the future

Well then

But seriously though Asmodeus will kill him if he finds out

Do not tell him

Max ignored that. He didn’t know why people kept pitting him against Rafael. He hated Rafael, of course. But only in that way all siblings did. He loved Rafael with all his heart.

Exactly!!!

This is giving me serious Percy Jackson vibes

Also leviathan giving him that sea shell is kind of sweet....

Like Poseidon gave Percy that sand dollar

They pulled the "you'll know when the time's right" shit

Smh

Just give straight answers

Also. It's not bad to have power as long as you use it correctly.

So max, just because you are super powerful and are made for chaos, it doesn't have to be a bad thing. Idk what you'll do in the future or if you'll even keep your immortality but just...I hope you have an anchor to cling to when you feel yourself slipping

“You were born into power, Max. As a warlock. As a Lightwood-Bane. And as my own. Don’t be afraid of it. Don’t be afraid of who you are. Don’t be afraid of what you will become.”

“What if I am not meant for this?” Max asked.

“You are meant to do great things,” Leviathan said, his voice gentle. “I know it.”

“How?” Max asked.

“Because I made you,” the prince of hell replied. “You are, and always have been, my greatest investment.”

IS THIS A KANEJ REFERENCE????

Y'all he cares!!

THERE'S A WAY TO GET DAVID AND POWERS???

Oh thank god someone telling him to talk to his parents

Which one?

Oh of course Magnus

Max please you need to talk to him

Seriously though Magnus are you ok???

Well none of them are

But are you ok??

“Baby,” Alec said. “Your shirt is inside out.”

“Oh,” Magnus said and looked down. Then he looked up at Alec again. “Do you want me to take it off?”

A breath of laughter escaped Alec. “If I ever say no to that question, that’s your cue that I’ve been possessed.”

BABY HE CALLED MAGNUS BABY

When I reread in going to creat a counter of all the times Alec calls Magnus baby

They would save him – and then they would go back home.

All four of them. Just the way it was meant to be.

TEARS

“You know what you should do if you are worried about someone?” Alec asked his husband.

Magnus looked at him. “What?”

“Talk to them,” Alec smiled.

“He is not talking to me, Alexander,” Magnus said defeatedly. “No. It’s worse. He is lying to me.”

“Then keep trying,” Alec insisted. “I know Max can be difficult sometimes. But we can’t give up on him.”

“I would never,” Magnus said then, his voice quiet. “But what if gives up on me?”

“He wouldn’t,” Alec promised.

He'll come around. He always dose. He would never give up on your or the family.

“What?” Alec asked in alarm.

Magnus chuckled. “You look horrified.”

This made me laugh.

In his defense, facial grooming hadn’t really been a priority with everything else that was going on.

Valid!

One kiss and I'm drowning in their feels 😭😭

“We are not responsible for what happened to her,” Alec said gently. “But we are responsible for what comes next. So, let’s make good choices, okay?”

EXACTLY!!

“Well,” Max said. “This…This is me in pieces.”

THE PARALLEL

“You have more to lose,” Alec pointed out. “When you have everything to lose, you need to think with your own head. Don’t listen to what other people say about you. Decide who you are and decide what you want. Whatever you decide, bapak and I will have your back.”

Just...he's so right.

“We have a situation,” Izzy said the moment he walked in.

Alec was no longer surprised. “What is it?”

He's so used to it by now

ALRIGHT WHO SNITCHED

KINGSLEY I WILL DROWN YOU

That's what you care about??? The next Consul??? A CHILD HAS BEEN POSSESSED

Aww Gabriel and Alec

“I don’t need your apology,” Gabriel said and walked out of the room and then turned back. “I would never betray Selena. But you did. All of you.”

Alec looked at Jace, who looked deeply ashamed.

“There is a possibility, however small, that we will never get Selena back again,” Gabriel said. “And the last thing she will remember as herself is that the people she loved didn’t believe her and put her under the mortal sword.”

They are right.

They might have been shady at first but they wouldn't do something like this

I better not regret trusting them

How do you thrust your hands into your sweater...?

Sweaters have POCKETS???

Oh my god I just googled it

They do

“Can we take a moment to appreciate that Alec got rid of Zara?” Emma asked. “Honestly, Alec. You are the real MVP.”

RIGHT????

In fact, he felt bad about it. Whatever said and done, they were still people. They did not deserve to die the way they did.

Yeah. Not like this. They were still Shadowhunters. Shitty Shadowhunters but still...

Except for the worst though. you know murderers and people like Albert who left their kids behind because they couldn't stop abusing them

And Zara ofc

STOP INTERRUPTING MAX LET HIM SPEAK

HE'S THE WARLOCK VERSION OF PERCY JACKSON

started reorganizing my books and shelf...I CAN MULITTASK

anyway meet max

taking this pic was so hard. why are laptop cameras like this?

Image

ignore my hand

the other side is more green and purple

anyway this is a chaotic mess of color and it reminded me of him

OH RIGHT ORGANIZING AND READING

“Raziel. You piece of shit. Whose side are you on?”

my exact thoughts

“They are going back to Idris,” Lexi pointed out. “They are all going to get killed.”

“Of course,” Raziel nodded.

“Oh my god!” Lexi gasped. “Don’t say of course! You have to say it won’t happen! Tell me they will come back.”

“But they won’t,” Raziel said apologetically. “You know what happened in Idris. They don’t stand a chance against Selena. She will drop like flies.”

Raziel WHAT THE FUCK

They would fight if shadowhunters asked – nicely of course.

The downworlders.

If it had been any other decade or century, they might have hesitated.

But not now. Not anymore.

Uncle Alec had seen to that.

He had built a shadow world that was based on trust and mutual respect. He had built a community that supported each other.

The downworlders would come to their aid. They could save Selena.

the love I have for this man and this man only

Raziel STOP TALKING IN RIDDLES JUST ANSWER STRAIGHT FORWARDLY

oh

takes out notebook and that voice saver thing you know the microphone that saves shit

now tell me exactly how Belial fucked up

oh oh oh

of course

im now wearing a tiara

I keep on thinking about how Gigi, Lexi, and Izzy saif they could feel being in the darkness

like they were there they knew that

and they were terrified

I can't stop thinking about Rafael. how scared he must be right now

Selena lives in that void oh my god

He kept Selena – the brightest person she knew – inside that darkness.

not the right time to be singing all too well?

she's conscious. she guards them

oh my god Selena

“Bro, I know what you have been showing,” Lexi said furiously. “You’ve been making Selena watch herself drown just like you made me watch myself plummet to my death. I don’t know where you got your diploma in oneiromancy but you better get a refund. Because you are very bad at it.”

right??

like what's the meaning

im so confused

what does this mean?

YES MAKE A PLAN AND THEN MAKE A BACKUP PLAN

Lexi stop rambling

OH MY GOD, ARE THEY GONNA DROWN BELIAL???

They all loved their spouses with their whole hearts.

But sometimes being married to a Lightwood required a lot of wine.

And your very own support group.

LMAO THEM

“They are not doing it out of duty. They are doing it out of love,” Magnus corrected. “That’s what it means to have an Alliance. You need to hold each other up when times get tough.”

how times change...

clary NO

NO SELF SACRIFICING SHIT

NO ONE DIES END OF STORY

not at me singing "teardrops on my guitar" like i have a star-crossed lover while reading about magnus saying that he cant imagine a world without asmodeus

Because another thing about being an immortal was getting used to change.

And this was a change Magnus could definitely get used to.

YAS

It was no wonder that a child had figured it out. Children thought so differently from adults.

Children looked for answers to quench their curiosity, not because they wanted to change the world or looked for glory.

Magnus had always liked people like that. People like Georgia.

People who simultaneously thought with their heart and head and did it so very well.

^^^^^^^

I FOUND A BALL I THOUGHT I HAD LOST DURING CLEANING

“If you are asking me if I happen to have one of his toenails or a secret stash of his hair, the answer is no.”

LMAO SDCBHBDCHCD

ok but like

if raziel dies and the shadowhunters die is it the same for princes of hell...??

like what happens to tessa and magnus

“Magnus,” Clary asked then, her voice suddenly tense. “What happens if we kill Asmodeus?”

“We throw a party,” Magnus smiled. “A big one.”

HELL YES

clary yes you be asking the real questions

Magnus i know i theorized you will die sacrificing yourself but let me be wrong 😄

HE SAW SELENA IN HIS DREAM

the one who wasn't with them... rafe? because one of them was being taken away right?

He would be talking to Alec, while the older man complained about talking with a mouth full of food.

He would be asking Magnus to summon him more food, for his appetite was endless as his chatter.

He would be stealing bits and pieces from Rafael’s plate, partly because he was hungry, but mostly because he liked teasing Rafael for no reason.

But now, Max was eating alone.

max...oh my god baby you need therapy

you all do

also max you really SHOULD NOT eat with your mouth fall

it can go into your trachea

levi would be really disappointed if his only son died from choking on food

I AM ABSOLUTELY SINGING SHOULD'VE SAID NO LIKE SOMEONE CHEATED ON ME

oh magnus knows

oh yes you guys are cousins

“No!” Magnus said. “It's me. Magnus. I’m your father.”

“Bapak,” Max said gently. “You know that’s not what I meant.”

this made the next lyrics die in my throat

now im singing mary's song like i have a childhood best friends to lover arc going on

taylor's old songs just are so good

oh

OH MY GOD IT WAS MAX

THAT'S WHY HE'S BEEN HIDING

That’s how love worked, didn’t it? It refused to be rational. He refused to see the red flags.

stupid bastard

oh my god

i will never recover from this

okay I love so many things about this.

First of all, bro you are literally Lexi like wtf.

"Mama I am a shark" has me screaming skdbnsjch. Also Lexi behaviour. Also, love the shark backstory. ily.

ALSO I NEED THIS ON A T-SHIRT - "STFU YOU ARE NOTHING BUT THE SPERM GIVER"

[ma-lark-ey]

WE’RE BACK BITCHES.

Okay so, I’m currently in finals hellscape. In the interest of reading this as fast as possible, I have therefore forsaken complete unabridged liveblogging in favour of giving more quotes/in depth thoughts rather than screaming into the void (thats what my boyfriends dms are for)

Anyways;

CHAPTER NINE:

Oh they’re watching Jeopardy… Love you sm

Jean relearning social cues. Autism. Real footage of him at USC

Cat is planning several murders as we speak. i love her. Also COOKING BESTIES. TEACH THAT WHITE BOY TO COOL ALVAREZ HELL YEAH.

oh they’re about to learn about the fuckass schedule.

“To show that we can still have fun and excel without resorting to poison.” Jean’s having an eye opening evening fr

Not to concern everyone ever for my wellbeing but me and my boy’s dynamic is so jerejean coded.

The Trojans are going to tear their hair out trying to explain to Jean that food is not, in fact, an inconvenience but is, in fact, something necessary to life that should be enjoyed and savoured.

fascinated by whatevers happening between Jeremy and Bryson. studying them like bugs.

Hold hold hold on with Jeremy’s blond now… oh we’re SO committing to the golden boy black cat vibe

Gene Moore 💀💀💀

THE FAKE FRENCH. CAT YOURE PERFECT NEVER CHANGE GIRL

“You’re as socialized as a stray dog” STOP

Jeremy’s so big brother coded.

GRABBED HIS CHIN??? AYO IS THIS SAY YES TO THE DRESS OR SAY YES TO THE—

theyre sooooooo.

Jean really did have to reboot his entire brain seeing Jeremy blond, huh? gayass.

CHAPTER TEN:

Oh. my god.

Jean fr out here not knowing how the fuck to respond to anything.

the implications of this. I. Jean…

HIM JUST LISTING OFF FACTS OF GRAYSON OBJECTIVELY?

Respect Cat’s response to Jean hitting Laila actually. All three of the Trojans are quickly realizing how in over their heads they are & Jean is having to figure out that he’s NOT in danger. sobs.

“He could sense the others’ presence even if they weren’t around to bother him, and that was enough to take the edge off the loneliness eating at his heart.” theyre his friends…

I’m literally obsessed with the cardboard dog.

FIRST TEARS OF THE BOOK! “At least keep it down. I’ve got to be on the court in two hours,”

Jean it is okay to have boundaries. I. sighs so heavily. Please go to therapy.

CHAPTER ELEVEN:

“This heinous crime was committed against you, against all of you, but you’re not angry about it.”

“if you say it was your fault, i’ll trip you.”

oh yeah. its all coming together.

AYO LUCAS WATCH YOUR MOUTH

“They shouldn’t have said yes when you asked.” “I didnt ask.” OW. OW OW OW OW OOWNCSJSBSB

God.

“You are not them. Kevin would not have sent me here if you were.” SCREAMS. OKAY THATS FINE

BETSY!! BETSY!! BETSY!!

CHAPTER TWELVE:

Finally someones looking into the fucking Ravens HOW did they get away with this 😭💀

I just know with such certainty Kevin has not been sober for several days. Guaranteed.

Jeremy & Jean is literally SOOO unstoppable force meets an immovable object. tell me im wrong.

I need to stop watching anime. archetype terms from anime infesting my brain whole reading this like a parasyte get out of my HEAD.

(Hi besties. It’s been two days. Curse my catholic liberal arts school making me put Jean Moreau in a drawer to make presentations on Protestant Fundamentalists just to remind my class about cults. Bro I have better cults (re: the Ravens) to read about)

“Do not let it bother you,” Jean said, setting his racquet aside so he could finish getting dressed. “It will not affect my performance on the court.”

“That’s not the issue. Your parents are supposed to love and protect you, not—“ Jeremy gestured helplessly toward Jean. “I’m sorry. I can’t even imagine what that was like for you.”

“Imagine getting changed so we can practice.”

Jean be so fucking real with me right now you did not 😭😭 boy got JOKES does he???

Jeremy is so gay for Jean its so cute I love them

“As your captain and your partner, don’t I at least deserve the chance to not be a villain in your story?”   "You are

A lot of Jean’s trauma responses are gut punches. A lot of what we’ve learned of him rips out your heart the second you read it. But his speed showers is something that grows more and more haunting the longer you think on it because like… A shower is supposed to be a comfortable resetting place at the end of a long day. It’s supposed to be somewhere to allow an emotional release or catharsis. There’s a reason showers are so often used in poetic ways. But even that simple act of cleanliness or hygiene has been stripped from him. That little ounce of dignity is not something Riko allowed him. Not something ANY of the Ravens allowed him. And I just…

THE RESPONSE TO LISINSKI SHOVING HIM IM GOING TO DIE.

Jean, anytime he’s near water:

(its not funny I’m crying about him this is me coping)

“That meant some part of Jean understood that what had happened to him was a monstrous crime.”

Cat & Laila actively accommodating Jean’s food restrictions instead of trying to force him to completely unlearn his mindset overnight. They’re so important

Jean keeping the notebooks and magnets and postcards is something i feel viscerally in my soul. I understand him so implicitly I’m concerned.

Thank God someone in this series finally has a FUCKING GAYDAR.

THE FLOOZY LINE??

“Pat and Ananya have wanted to fuck Cody’s brains out for almost a year now. I really thought Cody moving in with them this summer was going to finally get that ball moving, but apparently not. It’s getting kind of pitiful.”

CAT. YOU REALLY JUST SAID THAT HUH.

LESBIANS !!!

So sad we got no Jean reaction to this commentary. I just know he was frog blinking at them.

CHAPTER THIRTEEN:

Jean: oh. oh this bitch is *gay*. how do we feel about that brain? complicated? Yeah. Checks out.

Jean is so real for just having no social skill whatsoever. Me too.

Cody why are you so oblivious. HE’S RUBBING CIRCLES ON YOUR ANKLE? stop.

I am not living, laughing, OR loving.

JEAN CHECKING WITH CAT ON IF CODY WAS SAFE? lays on the floor and cries

The dynamics between the Trojans is completely perfect and amazing in every way shape and form. Also Laila & Cat literally picking Jean up like a rescue pitbull <<3

The Trojans are the KINGS of petty.

TRANS KING TRANS KING TRANS KINGS

Jean be out here just like “Oh thats chill” at literally all of the queerness surrounding him but then be out here like “No *I* cant be gay because thats *wrong*” sir what is happening in your lizard brain.

Jeremy being patient in re-teaching Jean less aggressive techniques >> the coaches recognizing Jean is attempting to do better >> he’s just a GUY.

CHAPTER FOURTEEN:

Jeremy is going to teach this man to have fun even if it kills him

Impromptu intervention I LOVE them. THEY SOLVED THE RIDDLE !!

“You are Jean Moreau. Your place is here with me, with us. I’m your captain. You’re my partner. We’re supposed to be doing this together, aren’t we? Stop leaving me behind. Look at me.”

It wouldn’t work, but it did. Jean opened his eyes to meet Jeremy’s stare. “I told you not to ask me about him.”

I am neither living, laughing, nor loving

“Be careful with it.” Kevin said. “Be careful with him.” “I’m trying.”

JEREMY KNOX LOVE OF MY FUCKING LIFE

the hug….

can we cuddle pile 2.0 right now gang. please.

CHAPTER FIFTEEN:

“I am not a Raven.” NO THE FUCK YOURE NOT BABY BOY!! HELL YEAH !!

YES JEAN. Beat his ASS Jean

“You are lucky to have lost him.” PREACH JEAN

Lucas and Jean’s conversation is HAUNTING because you KNOW Lucas is piecing it together but wont admit it until he hears it

Jeremy’s family is FASCINATING

(hi. so. my commentary for chapters 16 & 17 did not. save.

HOWEVER!! I'm going to make another post that's literally just TSC but all the quotes I highlighted, so... Instead tak this vague reeanactment of what ti should have been;) LUCAS DO NOT. LUCAS SAY SIKE.

god. *head in hands*

Rhemann is the love of my life. He's perfect. No notes.

SHE'S DEAD????

Wymack call... I was not ready.

"That's illegal, just so you know."

Never change, Josten

"Do you have anyone who can take on local work?"

NEVER CHANGE, JOSTEN

*slowly lays flat on the floor* okay this is fine.

peace out. Until next liveblog

Lark Liveblogs Literature: THE SUNSHINE COURT BABYYYYY LETS GO JEAN

to begin: THE COVER???

The fucking NARCISSUS/DAFFODIL. Stop stop stop. Nora stop. She said it wouldn’t be a sun but I WASNT READY.

RESILIENCE. FIRST BLOOM AT THE END OF WINTER. NEW BEGINNINGS AND REBIRTH.

warning in advance for how many reaction images will be in this post. Miss Nora Sakavic has a way of making me unable to verbalise how devistated I am so I turn to goofy photos.

Also, just so we’re all on the same page:

it’s 1:20 AM. My roommate IS asleep. I am fighting the demons (downloading this book) but i am winning (it is queued on my kindle)

ITS DOWNLOADED LETS GO

Okay so context is that my Kindle is at 10%

I tried to go to bed and read this in the morning but I am

SO NOW I HAVE FRANTICALLY FOUGHT A WAR (figured out how to get this book) AND I AM READY FOR BATTLE (to cry over Jean)

ONE, TWO, THREE, LETS GO BITCH!!

Also my kindle cord is too small for me to properly lay in bed so im literally about to lay on my stomach kicking my feet like a middle schooler WISH. ME. LUCK.

CHAPTER ONE:

oh we’re jumping right in okay. god. hi baby :((

OH. I am just adding onto my #1 Riko hater agenda right now.

“The golden rule— not where the public can see” DIE. LITERALLY DIE TETSUJI

“The lack of broken fingers this time” THIS TIME??? JEAN. JEAN.

im so.

RENEE!!!

“and he had wasted them texting Renee a heads-up.” Nora please we’re only four pages in bro

Renee i love you im marrying you please give me a kiss. Mwah Mwah Mwah. She said “Bitch. Lay back down.”

currently also reading a batshit raven!neil fic and just. on the ground. about all of this.

stop the way I literally went “who the fuck is Nathaniel” Im too transgender for this.

Me, seeing the Abby content we need in this world:

Jean dont call that hellscape home bbg

Renee beating self worth into this man. ily

“Jean couldnt remember the last time he was allowed to wear color” LITERALLY KILL ME

Nora I need you to be less good at describing pain please and thanks

NOT THE BITING

DADMACK DADMACK DADMACK DADMACK!!

he fr be moving this man like a doll. love you wymack

tied him up with racquet laces I. h. lays on floor softly crying.

NOT THE DADDY ISSUES

Jean fr out here plotting 50 ways to kill his brother. he fr though Neil was the problem. no girl Neil just has no tact and autism rizz. Kevins the fucking snitch

no one:

Jean @ the Moriyamas;

“that man is years overdue for a head-on high-speed collision” YOU TELL EM DADMACK

CHAPTER TWO:

Jean please just sleep like a normal human man. God.

Even Jean be out here like “Kevins a little Chihuahua ass drama queen. Bitchboy. Wet cat man.”

Kevin: look, bro, if the 5’3 twink with enough daddy issues to make riko blush and chugs ‘fuck around and find out’ juice for breakfast can escape the moriyamas and not die, so can you.

Testuji. Testuji when I catch you. Tetsuji

Jean what the fuck makes you think anyone but Andrew Minyard will ever tell Neil what to do. Girl.

“If I am not a Raven, who am I?” A MOTHERCUCKING TROJAN BABYYYY

“I have to go to my next class.” I forgot they were in college deadass. Neil is straight up my age im gonna throw up.

Okay. It is. *checks time* 3 AM. I cannot keep my eyes open, which means i must put Jean away for sleep.

ITS IS NOON THE FOLLOWING DAY. I HAVE SLEPT. I HAVE TAKEN MY MEDICATIONS. TIME TO HYPERFOCUS BABY.

KINDLE SAYS WE HAVE 8 hrs 27 mins LEFT IN THIS BOOK. IM SAYING GOODBYE TO MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY. I’LL SEE Y’ALL AT DINNEE TIME. ITS JEAN TIME.

Hiiiiiii Thea….

“Good morning, Paris.” Now, the average man will see this as a reference to his frenchness. but real ones know Paris is prince of Troy, the man who married Helen of Troy & started the Trojan war.

do y’all think Jean has a french accent wait wait wait. obviously itd be very slight at this point but is it there. necessary question.

Assessing Thea like a fucking state exam right now. Neil could not have cared less about your ass I am gaining so much information

Hate of my life Riko moriyama.

CHAPTER THREE:

JEREMY FUCKING KNOW HI BAYYYBY

the way I literally got up and had to pace and stim for a moment even though I fully expected this. autism. my roommate is concerned. not really. she’s used to this she watched me read TKM and dramatically reenact the Ichirou Car Talk.

wow??? AFTG team actually seems happy and well-adjusted and friendly with each other??

Random Note: I’m currently watching Blue Exorcist & one of the main characters is a girl name Moriyama and I’m literally just sitting here like “This girl is way to nice and innocent to have that name.” Because she literally is the nicest girl to ever exist. Why is she cursed with the same name as my mortal enemy (Testuji)

“Tonight’s experiment was the icing on the cake, an invaluable experience no matter how it ended.” Jeremy, my love.

He has empathy… Never before seen footage. Y’all get the cameras!!

He’s so shaken about Jean,,, holding you so gently Jeremy. Here as a guy who knows nothing at all about Jeremy since I’m. so new here. but god.

Jeremy: are you sure a Raven can abide by Troja—

Kevin: Bro Jean is so pathetic he’s a bottom fr. He never disobeys an order

Jeremy: I. Okay you didnt have to say it like that, bro.

I will literally never stop respecting the Trojans strat in the final they really said. “If these fucks can win the championships with nine players, surely we can.” and then willingly got their asses handed to them.

“Xavier stumbled when he got the next serve off, and the Fox guarding him gamely hauled him back upright before running for the ball. It was a simple gesture, but it endeared Jeremy to them” I dont remember if this bit was described in tkm so i’m going to guess that’s Nicky or Matt. Aaron would fucking never.

Nah because like. Yes this proved to the Trojans how resilient the Foxes were, but it was also a message to the audience, yk? Like we know the Foxes were getting shit for their quick rise to the top after they pulled their shit together, but I personally think that the Trojans did this both for their improvement & for Foxes’ publicity. This game proved to the public at large how devastatingly *good* the Foxes were, because of their small size. The second best team in the league crumbled playing the same conditions the Foxes did *every game* and got to championships with. They proved that Foxes were, in fact, a D1 team who earned their keep.

oh hes got daddy’s money. Well. not. officially. yo what I mean.

“it was always best to have a paper trail” Neil Josten would have an anuerysm hearing those words.

Bye Jeremy I’m. Love you so much. Why do you feel like a sixty year old man in your early twenties.

“between seven and twelve students.” yikes.

“unfamiliar and accented voice.” I WAS RIGHT I FUCKING CALLED IY HES GOT AN ACCENT BABY FUCK YEAH

“you ever feel like— like you’re making a choice you cant come back from? But even knowing everything could go completely sideways, you’d make that choice every time?” okay so coming out allegories i could make aside, Jeremy is so… where to start with him. He reminds me of Percy Jackson. Endlessly loyal and selfless to the point its a bit stupid but endearingly stupid.

CHAPTER FOUR:

Okay so we’re alresdy hateflirting. noted.

Its also extremely sunny today in Podunk Hicksville where I live so it feels very On Brand.

“Jean had seen that smile in a half-dozen broadcast… He could picture it too easily, and he dug his fingernails into his own face in vicious warning.” Awww you think you can best the gay worms in your brain. goodluck with that Johnny.

“isn’t that reason enough to keep living? To rediscover simple delight one moment at a time,” keeping this quote for eternity

“enough sunlight to chase away Evermore’s shadows. They are willing to take a chance on you. Aren’t you?”

Kevin Day autistic king. taking this hesdcannon to my grave .

“the conspiracy theorists were working overtime” no girl they just aint stupid.

THEY DESTROYED HIS POSTCARDS…

CHAPTER FIVE:

I want to start keeping record of all the times Jean is like “[name] wasn’t decent enough to [thing]” because its SO funny. We LOVE a petty king.

also keeping track of all the insults he throws at Neil.

Neil likes to think he’s SUUUUCH a loner boy no friends angsty “dont speak to me” resting bitch face ass motherfucker. In reality he is a jack russell terrier — ceritifed jack russell owner who’s dog thinks hes soooo big and bad but said dog literally cries when you dont let him in the bed or say hi to people on the street

Jean is SOOOOOO dramatic 😭😭

Jean: Why would you let Kevin do this.

Neil: let him?? He did that on his own.

Jean: you’re proud of him for being a problem, arent you?

Neil: oh you fucking know I am, bitchass

“but other than his outstanding murder charge there was nothing interesting about that Fox.” i’d consider that very interesting information, Jean. Youre just deranged

“with milk, juice, and vodka dominating one shelf” that’s Aaron, Nicky, Andrew/Kevin in order. Im correct.

“There was an entire drawer dedicated to cheese.” Yeah that sounds like Nicky.

“Half the drawer was full of mini candy bars. Jean threw them all into the trash” bro Andrew is going to kill you in cold blood and not even Neil can save you.

Jean is SO dramatic. Give him Kevin’s crown.

Jean @ Neil during the final: ARE YOU WITHOUT INTELLIGENCE????? ARE YOU STUPID??? DO YOU WANT TO DIE??

Seeing the media coverage of the championship is the food I needed thank you Nora for this. I am eating it up. om nom nom

The sportscasters referring to athletes with their first name is batshit. What. why. huh. Absolutely not.

CHAPTER SIX:

Renee protecting Jean from discovering Riko’s death through media & not through them…

Everytime boys start fistfighting in this series I hear Roxanne from Megamind. “Ladies, ladies, you’re BOTH pretty.”

a) Jeans reaction to finding out was exaclty what I expected

b) I’m FASCINATED to know who called campus security. Jeremy?? Renee?? Someone in Fox tower???

Neil was gentle with someone other than Andrew? I didnt know he knew how to do that…

NEIL. NEIL JOSTEN. YEAH BABY

HES ROOMING WITH CAT AND LAILA??? YES YEA YES YESY

the Jean-Renee dynamic is so fucking important to me. MLM/WLW solidarity. theyre besties.

THEYRE SO IMPORTANT TO ME BRO.

Literally snuggling Jeremy

Oh he’s got Fox potential. Hiiii Jeremy. Give me the traumadump bbg

THEY/THEM??? DO MY EYES DECEIVE ME OR IS THIS AN HONEST TO GOD THEY/THEM PLAYER OH ILL CRY. ILL CRU RIGHT NOW

CHAPTER SEVEN:

Oh Jean. you’re about to have such a gay awakening babe i can feel it in my bones.

A FUCKING YOYO??? I LOVE HIM

“A mite bit hecked up” PLEEEASE JUST SAY FUCK /ref

OH HE WAS IN LOVE WITH KEVIN. INTERESTING INTERESTING INTERESTING.

autism coded lookingg motherfucker (stares at Jean.)

The chaos of Cat and Laila’s house is so fucking cute. Its about to be two lesbians and their distrustful pitbull rescue in this bitch and im ready for it.

CHAPTER EIGHT:

watching normal people discover the cult that is Evermore. Finally someone having a normal response to that madness. What the FUCK.

wait theres actually a cardboard dog i thought it was fanon joke.

oh my god there is actually a fucking cardboard dog. i.

jeans brain just got actually shattered by this living room. he cannot comprehend this.

Cat & Jeremy, realizing the cult rumors are real: I THOUGHT YOU WERE KIDDING! I thought it was joke! I even wrote it down in my diary! “Kevin made a very funny joke today!” I laughed at it later that night!

Okay, last night; I went to bed at 2:30 AM 45% through (college my beloathed). we’re back in business.

Jeremy is so disturbed all of the time. goofy ass.

“Loving something is not enough,”

“When was the last time you enjoyed playing?”

“ Irrelevant.”

Whats his shirt look like Jeremy. Jeremy whats the shirt look like. Jeremy. Whats the shirt look like.

Okay so I’ve reached my image limit for this post and I dont have fun reaction images on my laptop. so now I will post this & reblog with the rest of this book.