#I"M DESTROYED???????????????

[aita-blorbos]

AITA for having a lot of resentment for my father, and trying to move on from him after his death?

I should at least introduce myself and provide some background first. I (24, F) am best known for joining a company that my father (50s, M) founded that invaded planets. This stopped happening ever since a peculiar young being that we'll call K (10, M) destroyed our spaceship. I've managed to make amends with K, though, some time after I turned around and implored him to stop the machine that went haywire at the end. Nowadays, I am friends with K as he's long forgiven me for the invasion, and thus I think that situation has been resolved.

Now for the actual matter at hand here. My father is dead. You'd think that I would be mourning him after he died, and I actually have! As a matter fact, I have in fact had grief over it! It was me that was responsible for his death... I killed him by pure accident, and for a while I've felt absolutely horrible about it. I still regret it even now!

.... But while I've indeed mourned him, I also just cannot help but legitimately resent him at the same time, and that's affected my grief over time. Let me explain why I have resentment for him:

He treated me like shit. You would not believe what he was like at times. I was stuck in a horrible place that was dimensions apart from my father for a long time, and when I finally returned to him, he forgot about my existence entirely. I tried to give him a hug upon return, but he brutally rejected it and told me that I was a freak for trying to hug him because he considered me to be a stranger.

I tried this multiple more times, and the outcome never changed.

I also tried so many other things. He did at least offer me to become his secretary, so I took the offer, but it didn't fix things at all. I tried singing a particular song for him that I thought would've gotten him to remember me, but it failed. I'd also have deliberately done other things like making gifts for him, but that never made him change.

I gave him everything, and he gave me nothing back.

I didn't even always get along with him. He was often a pretty harsh, mean-spirited and demanding 'boss'... it's embarrassing to think that this was my relationship with my dad. I was supposed to be his daughter, not his employee that he wasn't even very nice to!

He essentially spat in my face every time I tried to do something to try to get him to remember me being his daughter. He even called me rude things like 'weirdo', 'degenerate', and the aforementioned 'freak' that I said earlier. And he always had an aggressive tone every time he rejected all the hugs I tried to give him. As if I wronged him for it.

... I'll never forget all of that! Especially the first time it happened when I came back from that dimension. This has all just been so, so stressful that I honestly just can't forgive it. It hurt too much!

What kind of dad coldly refuses hugs from his own daughter?

He wasn't my dad anymore, really. More like a stranger that managed to steal my dad's body. He was a mockery... an insult.

I felt absolute disgust at what he became and how he treated me.

Now, I feel like his memories got erased. I've felt like the machine had something to do with it... it's partially why I tried stealing it from him in the first place, but I don't understand how it got to that point before I came back to him? Why was he using it after I disappeared?

Did he purposefully let the machine eat away his memories? Did he decide to just stop caring about me after the portal accident? Or... I wonder if there's a possibility that he deliberately got rid of me from the start. Like he was pretending to love me at the start and then made his move at some point.

... I don't know. I have no idea what happened to him while I was gone and I certainly hope it wasn't the last possibility I mentioned. I can hardly even remember what he was like when I was little. It was so long ago. I question if he ever loved me in the first place, and if it was all just a fluke if he 'did'. I didn't want to believe that... the reason I've even mourned him to begin with is because I wanted to believe that he loved me before, but I can't say that I'm convinced he ever did.

And if he never loved me, then I think that'd mean that I was stupid for mourning him. I don't even know if I'm supposed to miss him since I don't even know if he ever loved me at all to begin with.

I wish I could better remember the times before the portal stole me away from him. But I just can't.

It also just stresses me out to constantly think about it. I've been trying to heal and move on as time has been going on... at least things are easier in life now since I'm not in a twisted dimension anymore, nor am I hamstrung in harsh and demanding conditions as a result of being my dad's secretary.

I've revived his company and resorted to different practices. Not invading planets anymore, at least.

I also have friends now. The friends I'll give a shout out to are the aforementioned K that I talked about earlier, as well as a spidery guy (25, M) and some blue-hooded alien guy (28, M) that owns a big blue ship that's actually a really impressive piece of technology.

These friends actually care about me. Way more than my dad ever did, I think.

The spidery guy also lost someone, and at first he didn't understand why I wasn't as openly grieving my loss as he was until I explained it all to him. Thankfully, he came to understand, and was generous and caring enough to act as support for me nonetheless.

I actually don't make my daddy issues known to a lot of people. I have a feeling a lot of them would find a way to judge me or weaponize it against me, or they'd just paint me as some heartless monster for having resentment for my dad and I'd have to sit them down and explain it all for them to get it. But I'm simply not interested in letting that situation happen. And besides, I don't need to have my very personal business be known to people that aren't my closest friends.

... Although that's also part of the reason why I might be TA. Like I should just blindly grieve my dad to the fullest without any complications. I wish it were that easy, but what happened between me and him is much too complicated for there to not be resentment. I can't shake off the feeling of resentment after how he treated me ever since I came back to him. Doesn't help I barely remember him before the horrendous accident.

AITA, or am I justified to handle my dad's death the way I have?

(Sorry that this was long, by the way)

[libelulaforever]

I´m destroyed...

I remember this day, he was so happy....

“I was trying to surprise him actually by coming in but I didn’t know how I was gonna get in otherwise. I’ll be honest with you, Louis- all the boys have been there for me. I’ve suffered a bit of a dark time in my life at the moment and honestly I wouldn’t be here without the boys. I’m so excited to see this, he’s so passionate about what he does, I can’t wait. It’s gonna be a nice trip down memory lane. Even being here is so nostalgic, it’s the most amazing thing.”

-Liam on attending the All Of Those Voices London premiere.

All Of Those Voices Premiere: London. (16 March 2023)

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[guzhufuren]

i hate when ficwriters make me cry in a tragic way like. shut up bestie why would you write something so sad so beautifully. i m destroyed

[kayandp]

My friend created the most handsome character for our roleplaying game and I m DESTROYED. . . . #wip #comics #exaltedvswod #blackandwhite #worldofdarkness #sketch https://www.instagram.com/p/CNTqXIYjuCp/?igshid=1l4pdnzuoidna

[faakeid]

L that are multi/claim to love only e * o, but support and make excuse for SM/nc* have zero right to talk about e * o cause they are responsible for e * o downgrade and the lack of tempo/love shot promotion that mainly focus on kb because of this group. Even more, dont act like kb love it when IF NC/ was sucessuful s * m and CAPITAL would never invent this. S * m destroyed e * o. BH is the only smart company that why b * s only get bigger and s * m is flopping, even s * m idols support b *s.

I think SM has a conservative kind of way to make their business and that’s why their groups didn’t reach a level like Big Hit did with BTS. They always had a close relationship with fans and ifans that boosted the attention to western market overall. They had content that put them closer and the group also grew musically speaking. At the time BTS debuted the hip hop concept was popular and they took it but with time they transceded that and did more authoral music with authoral messages.

SM was always stuck with a “formula” of what worked with their previous groups and still works so far (until RV). But they want to apply their own views in their newest groups where we see a market reinventing itself every day with different needs and groups. So yeah this new generation could be so much bigger for this company with trying something new that could appeal new fans and also not disagree much with the old public.

[leojfitz]

a few thoughts on 5x03 (the ep leaked, if you haven’t watched it yet don’t read!!) 

so, it’s really hard to write something coherent after watching the episode. I was mad for the most time. The whole Jason thing was fun the first two episodes but it was starting to get on my nerves here. He’s an asshole, we get it. Jane doesn’t like him, she basically despises him, we get it. 

I hated that everyone was so adamant on letting him go away. As I said, ok, Jason isn’t (wasn’t, I should say now I guess) a nice person. But it’s like Jane and Raf (and Petra, since she also told Jane to let him go) completely forgot that this person went through electroshock and had to recreate a whole life with no idea of who he was for his whole life? I also wouldn’t be a nice person, I suppose. No one tries to reach out to him. No one. They all want him gone, plain and simple. Okay. 

The fishing scene got on my nerves so much. I suppose they want(ed) us to hate Jason too as much as possible and don’t have any resentment towards Jane that wants him gone. Then she says “Oh I hated camping but I didn’t hate it with Michael!!!” oh okay. Thanks for giving us these... crumbs, I guess? 

Then, all of a sudden, Jane says that she and Michael are soulmates. Oh okay. If you know that your soulmate is somewhere in there, you want to let your soulmate go? What. the. hell. It’s like they want us Villadero shippers to have, again,  these crumbs, like “Heyy we know you know your ship isn’t endgame (they’re not even trying anymore, like you saw that last ig video with Justin and Gina on set and she’s wearing an engagement ring?) BUT JANE SAID THEY’RE SOULMATES”. And Abuela even says THAT’S SOME TELENOVELA STUFF THEY DON’T EXIST IN REAL LIFE. uh okay.  pour more salt in the wound, will ya? 

i don’t know how to process that final minute. it hurt so much to think that he’s back and i’m so not ready to see j/m destroyed some more next week, with the knowledge that it will hurt eVEN MORE NOW THAT HE REMEMBERED EVERYTHING LIKE IN A FANVIDEO. thank you, i almost cried in the bus. 

sorry this wasn’t really coherent i’m afraid.

[highteadarlingsun]

I'm destroyed

Cella December

[moonhowler94]

I m destroyed

I cant even think right now im crying i need time to peocess all of this

[aita-blorbos]

AITA for letting my friend make someone carry his allergens around

There's a bit of a convoluted backstory to this, so let me try to explain. So I (15M) have sort of recently made a friend, we can hall him G? Also 15. We've been traveling a lot together recently, we're really close. We met after some other guy, BD (19?? no idea. M?) destroyed a lot of my stuff, and G's helped me a lot with dealing with all of that.

So we travel a lot together, meeting people and seeing new places, leaving our mark, pretty normal! And then G gets it in his head to start a collection from the places we go. I'm all for this! But he's collecting some kind of rock he's allergic to? He can be near them, just can't touch them. And he feels kind of weird making me carry them around, so he suggested we ask someone else to do that while we're doing stuff.

So we head back home and G suggests we make BD carry this stuff around. He's older than us, apparently wants to help, and I don't mind being a bit mean to him after all the stuff of mine he broke. But he's been a lot quieter than usual, lately? I don't know if he's just doing this because he's guilty or what, but I do feel a little bad just making him carry stuff around all the time. He says he's fine with it though, and he does genuinely seem like he's not going to break anything else.

So AITA for this? Everyone seems fine with the whole thing, I just feel a bit weird about it.

[rinriya]

Rin,im sorry to bother you,i don´t have no one to talk about this. When i watched Jungkook´s video on tumblr i couldn´t stop crying,and now i´m destroyed. I don´t know what to do,i feel like my whole world has disappeared. I´m sorry to tell this to you,i´m sorry if i bothered you,i just needed to relieve it.

Don't be sad, please.It's okay to feel so deep, it's okay to cry, just please don't be sad.

Everything is fine)

Let's support him and thank him

[anonymoushouseplantfan]

I forget which blogger had a "Things M destroyed" list. I want to add: Public Relations. Until PH/M, I had a rather positive view of PR. It was something Glamours/Sexy/"Cheeky"/Adorably BS. You know, AbFab meets Samantha from Sex In The City. *smile* PH/M gave me a peek behind the curtains, and I saw that buck-ass-naked "wizard". Not even an emperor. There's something quite gross and toxic about the PR "game". It's no longer Glamours/Sexy/"Cheeky"/Adorably BS. Maybe PR needs some PR.

Oh, I love their pr. I loved cheeky Harry and pastels-loving, motherly Kate and Will the air ambulance pilot and Amner Hall and all that stuff.

That’s why I’m looking at this now and going “polar bear girlfriend challenge, wtf?”

I think that stupid Express story about the Commonwealth gala pretty much says it all. Kate’s slow roll-out gave this whole process a sense of weight and majesty. Same with Sofia’s long courtship. 

It was intimidating. You had to be prepared. You needed princess training. It was like the makeover montage in Princess Diaries. It made the whole event seem significant.

If you can just step out of the Suits trailer, put up your hair into a messy bun and step into a gown and tiara, then what’s the point of all this?

[maleksrami]

Kelli..... G&M destroyed me.... and I don’t know if I will ever forgive you for having good taste.

Thank you.

[una-ragazza-5]

I'm destroyed.

[aradiaswhispers]

"Will you be able to hold me and keep feeling love when you see my darkness, when i'm destroyed, will you be able to stay?"

[toaster-fashion]

Which outfit should I wear when I meet Pierce the veil?

Which outfit should I wear when I meet Pierce the veil? by briannanicole15 featuring a mens raglan t shirt ❤ liked on Polyvore

BB Dakota layered sweater / H m blouse, $18 / Logo top / AllSaints snap jacket, $410 / Stretchy skinny jeans / New Look flared skirt, $11 / H&M destroyed skinny jeans / Dark blue skinny jeans / Converse hi top / Converse black high top sneaker / Converse laced shoes / Vans round toe sneaker, $80 / Gap mens raglan t shirt

[gossipent]

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