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Heartsick (A James Patrick March/Reader Oneshot)
Synopsis: When you fall ill, James is given a forceful awakening about how heâs been neglecting your needs and what he must do to prevent harm from befalling you again
Tags: Fluff, Sickfic, Cuddling, Marriage Proposal
Rating: 16+
Warnings: Language, Potentially Triggering Mentions of the Reader Being Ill for a Long Time/Almost Dying of an Unnamed Illness, Planning Your Own Death
Word Count: 3700~
This was crossposted to my AO3 under the same title!
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James Patrick March considered himself a fairly patient man. He had to be, in his line of work. Some things didnât deserve his patience, like lazy workers or angry hotel guests, but when it came to things that did matter, he was willing to go to extremes. Murder, for example, deserved his patience. Once upon a time, the Countess did too. Yes, patience was a rare virtue Mr. March had possessed all his life.
When it came to you, though, he found his patience running short.
You had been a revelation all your own when you first walked through the doors of the Hotel Cortez with not even a suitcase to your name, radiating purity with every shallow breath. James had been excited to find you in some dark corner of the hotel and rip the life from your body. That is until you found his little nook at the Blue Parrot Lounge and seduced him with your charming personality and sweet smile. From that moment on the Countess didnât matter anymore. The whole world was just him, you, and all of the deliciously naughty ways he wanted to debauch you.
James had insisted on moving you into your own suite on the seventh floor that very night, just a few short hallways away from his own, and given every luxury he could offer. He was nothing if not a gentleman. It just wouldnât be right to move the one he intended to court directly into his bedroom, especially while he was still married to his previous wide. Despite the distance, things between the two of you went swimmingly. Even the murder, which James initially worried could drive you apart, was now a delightful shared activity when you chose to grace him with your presence during a kill.
Thatâs where the problems started.
Mr. March was a man stuck in his own time. Thatâs why, after 5 splendid years with you at his side, you still werenât moved into room 78. This also meant your suite was a place he wouldnât enter unless he was invited. Sure, you had a healthy sex life, but the Countess still had the March family engagement ring tucked away somewhere. He wouldnât move you into his quarters or impose himself on yours until the two of you were at the very least engaged. The plans for his and the Countessâ divorce were moving, albeit slowly, when you stopped opening the door for James.
The first day he thought perhaps you were simply elsewhere, but after a week of nothing, he began to get angry. It was one thing to deny him your company, but to ignore him while he made a fool of himself banging on your door? That was a punishable offense in the March family playbook. So, he decided if you wanted to play hard to get, he would too. In his mind, James could practically envision you rushing back into his arms once you got over whatever was souring your mood. It wouldnât be long until the whole nasty affair was behind the both of you once and for all, right?
Wrong.
A month since he last dined with you, James sat at his table in the Blue Parrot lounge alone nursing the remains of his 4th glass of scotch.
Liz was slow to walk out from her place behind the bar. âYou want another?â she asked, holding out a crystal decanter, âor should I fish out the absinthe fountain a little early this year,â
âNo, no I do believe Iâve had quite enough. Besides, itâs not as if I can actually get drunk anymore,â he huffed. Whether it was the drinks or his growing rage, Mr. March found his collar feeling a bit tighter. He reached up to pull at his cravat but paused when thinking about the ghastly wound it hid. In the end, he let his hand return to its place on his glass.
âSuit yourself,â Liz quickly returned the decanter to its place and began polishing glasses.
Somewhere in the distance, Iris picked up a phone and began to take an order for room service. James had an epiphany.
âLiz!â he shouted, getting her attention, âhas Y/N been ordering much room service lately?â
Liz shrugged. âOnly once a day for the past month. Why do you ask?â
âI find myself in a bit of a predicament. You see, Y/N began ignoring me about a month ago. Iâve been giving her a taste of her own medicine for quite some time now, and yet she has made no attempts to seek me out. Do you think, perhaps, there could be something wrong?â
The energy in the room began to still.
âWait, Y/N hasnât told you?â
âTold me what?â
The dirty glasses were abandoned as Liz let out a humorless laugh.
âDamn you, woman!â James rose with a shout, slamming his glass down on the table, âwhat is she hiding!?â
âSheâs sick,â
Jamesâ heart would have stopped if it were still beating. He sat down again, bewildered. âWhat?â
âSheâs sick. Fever, puking, tremors; the whole shebang,â As she spoke, Liz came back to the table and sat down on the plush booth across from him.
âBut itâs been a month! Influenza shouldnât last that longâŠâ
âWell, itâs definitely not the flu, I can tell you that. Last time I brought down her dinner she nearly choked on her toast. She was so weak that I had to sit there feeding her soup because she couldnât lift up the spoon long enough to feed herself,â
It was as if Jamesâ whole world had come collapsing down on him all at once. Mortified, he let his head drop into his hands. âWhy didnât she inform me? Am I that pathetic a lover that she would rather suffer in silence than tell me she was ill?â
âWell, to her credit, you donât exactly look like the most comforting type. When did she move in again?â
âAlmost five years ago, itâll be the anniversary of her first entering the Cortez on the 20th,â
âAnd how many times in the past five years have you, I donât know, cuddled with Y/N,â
âYou insolent-â
Liz lifted her arms, offering up a white flag. âIâm just asking a question,â
James opened his mouth to offer up a rebuttal but found he had no way to defend himself.
It was true that his relationship with Y/N tended to fluctuate between chaste and lecherous at the drop of a hat. Once they had made love, it was the only habit for him to leave her in bed and return to whatever was keeping him busy at the moment. Post-coital intimacy was simply something he had never experienced or needed. Unfortunately, seeing that the only time he spent with Y/N outside of their trysts were formal meetings or dinners, there had been no time for gentility or softness between just the two of them. If ghosts could blanch, he would have.
Noticing his sudden shift in mood, Liz rose, backing off. âNow, usually I like to stay out of your business, but because your little relationship makes Y/N happy Iâll give you some advice. Go down to the kitchen, have Ms. Evers heat some broth, and give Y/N her dinner personally, maybe even give her some extra attention as a little treat. That should fix the bulk of your issues. Got it?â
He was never one to take orders, but surprisingly James nodded. He stood quickly, smoothing his suit. âThank you for your advice, Ms. Taylor, but I must depart. My paramour needs me,â
She nodded. âAny time,â James began to hurry down the stairs, but suddenly Liz shouted. âWait a second,â
James paused. âYes?â
âOnly the living get sick, Mr. March. Maybe, after five years, itâs time for Y/N to extend her stay at the Cortez... permanently. Just something to think about,â
He gave her a sharp nod before disappearing down the stairs to the kitchen. 15 minutes later he was waiting outside your door with a rolling cart in hard. He had already been stalling there for 5 minutes when he finally, with a deep, steadying breath, unlocked the door.
The room was dark and silent, almost like a tomb.
Your voice rang out like a bell as James pushed the cart forward. âIris?â you called weakly, âis that you?â
âNo, darling,â he responded, closing the door behind him. Slowly, he bent down at turned on a small lamp. âYou wonât need Iris to bring you your dinner any longer,â
âJames,â You whispered, half reverent and half shocked.
He was far too taken aback by the severity of your condition to form an immediate response.
You were curled up in bed, folded in on yourself as you wheezed for breath. As Liz had mentioned your body was weak and wracked with near-constant tremors while you tried your best to prop yourself up on the headboard. James had to abandon the cart with your dinner on it in favor of rushing over and helping you sit up. As he took in your gaunt face, his heart broke.
Your soft voice snapped him from his thoughts.
âAm I dead?â
James shook his head. âNo my love, not yet,â
Tears began to spill from your eyes. âI thought youâd left me, James. I thought I was going to have to rot in this awful, dark room for eternity, that maybe âcause I died while I was sick my ghost was too damn weak to get up,â As you spoke, you tried to grip the back of his suit, but found you were far too weak to actually hold the fabric. Your inability to even do the simplest of tasks only made you cry harder.
Mr. March was quick to pull out his handkerchief and wipe your eyes. âOh, my dearest, that couldnât be farther from the truth, but none of that matters now. I cannot apologize enough for my abhorrent behavior as of late,â
âWill you stay?â your words were laced with desperation, âjust for a little bit?â
âOf course, my dearest. I think youâll find it very difficult to get rid of me from now on. Besides, I couldnât leave my beloved paramour without doing what it is that I set out to do,â
âWhich is?â
James stood and quickly returned with the room service cart. As he removed the silver tray-topper, you found he had brought you a bowl of soup, a small plate of crackers, and a tall glass of ice water.
âI intend to make sure you are well-fed and taken care of,â
âJames, you donât-â you tried to argue, but he cut you off.
âNonsense! There is, unfortunately, no way to sugar coat this, but I will try my best,â he whispered as he sat on the edge of the bed beside you, âI have neglected you, darling, not just for the past month when I found my pride and ego keeping me away from you, but also for the past five years. I ignored your needs out of a false sense of propriety by bending to rules that are long dead and considered inconsequential. For that, I fear I may never forgive myself. Things will be different from now on, though. I hope to win back your heart properly now that I have realized the severity of my mistakes. Would youâŠâ he paused, gulping, âwould you be willing to humor me?â
You offered him a soft smile. âOh, my beloved Mr. March, thereâs no need. My heart has always been yours,â
Your words soothed him, and he offered you one of his debonair grins, the kind where his little mustache scrunched before his lips parted that never failed to sweep you off your feet.
âNow where were we!â he exclaimed.
âDinner,â you responded.
âAh, yes! Soup!â He was quick to get a spoonful of the warm broth and bring it to your lips. âYou neednât worry, my sweetling, I watched Ms. Evers prepare this herself. Nothing but the best for you,â
It was easy to accept the spoon into your mouth. Something inside of you knew that James would be taking care of you from now on.
The rest of dinner passed in relative silence, but you didnât mind, far too tired to take part in any meaningful conversation. Instead, you simply enjoyed the attention. James had never been shy about his affection, but that affection always tended to come in the form of gifts or sex instead of close, intimate touch. It hadnât bothered you enough to tell him. You always just assumed he didnât enjoy that kind of love. Now that youâd had a taste, though, of his gentle yet constant affection, you knew you could never get enough.
Too soon the bowl was empty.
James stood, returning to the door with the cart as you relaxed and rolled onto your side. âWhen will you be back?â
He chuckled, opening the door. âDid you think you could be rid of me so soon, darling?â The cart was quickly pushed out into the hallway as James turned back towards you.
Your face flushed. âI just assumedâŠâ
âAssumptions, assumptions,â he tutted, âIt hurts that you have such little faith in me, but I admit I havenât given you much reason to. As I said, things will be different now,â James perched himself on the edge of the bed with a smile as he untied his shoes and slipped them off.
âWhat are you doing?â
âTaking off my shoes, darling, so I can join you in bed,â
Your heart skipped a beat. You had been imagining the first time James would actually stay in your bed to cuddle since the beginning of your relationship, but it had been years since you had given any thought to that silly fantasy. Could it really be happening?
Apparently, your surprise was evident on your face because Mr. March paused once both his shoes were settled neatly on the floor. âIs something wrong, my dearest?â
âNothing, darling, nothing at all,â you were quick to explain, âweâve just never done this before,â
James smirked like a predator who had just found his prey. âSuch an innocent gesture from such a naughty little minx. I donât recall you being so⊠flustered the night we met when I took you up to my suite and-â
âJames!â
âAlright! Alright, my love, no more vulgarity from me until youâre fully healed and back on your feet. Well, hypothetically on your feet,â he emphasized his words with a dirty wink. Then he crawled into bed beside you as if he belonged there, scootching over until he was resting pressed against your side. You slotted into place, with your face resting in his neck and your leg thrown haphazardly across his hips as if you were made to fit his body. Holding James was like coming home.
You let out a soft, pleased sound at just how good it felt to be held.
James took this as positive feedback. As he settled in, he began running his fingers through your bedhead, combing through the loosest of the knots. Sensing something strange, he paused to put his hand on your forehead. It was uncomfortably hot. âYouâre still feverish. Do you need anything? A cold compress? A wet washcloth? Some water?â
It was funny to hear him fussing over you, but it also warmed the deepest parts of your heart.
You made a negative huff against his neck. âNo! Youâd better not move. Your skin feels too good. Itâs nice⊠cold. The only thing I could possibly want right now is for you to dim the lights and take your damn shirt off so you can cool more of me off,â
âI would, darling, believe me, but thereâs just the small issue of the wound on my neck,â
âJames,â you glared up at him, âI have literally ripped a dying manâs dick off in front of you. We have dinner with Jeffery Dahmer on your birthday every year, where I have to eat my salad as he zombifies whatever poor sap wandered into Sallyâs clutches across the table. Hell, just a few months ago we fucked in that bathtub filled with some businessmanâs blood. Your neck is just another part of you, James, it doesnât bother me. Shirt. Off.â
âHave I ever told you that I adore when you take charge?â
You grinned as he undid his cravat and the top few buttons of his dress shirt. âOnce or twice,â The thrill only lasted a moment, though, because before he finished unbuttoning his shirt he pulled away from your arms and got off the bed. A high-pitched whine escaped from your lips. âI thought you said you were staying?â
âI may be a ghost, dear heart, but my clothes canât just disappear,â Always one for the dramatics, he shed his shirt and suit jacket to the floor with gusto. The sight of his bare torso made your heart beat faster. You had to remind yourself that you were sick and it would probably kill you to go for even a gentle round with Mr. March. Ah, but what a way to dieâŠ
James dimmed the lamp before returning, undoing his pants, and stripping down to his boxers. âIs this better for you darling?â
You nodded and reached your trembling arms out to your lover. âMuch. Now come back to bed. You have five yearsâ worth of cuddling to make up for Mr. March, and I donât intend on letting you wheedle your way out of even a second of it,â
He gave you a gentle smile as he found his way beneath the covers again. âI wouldnât dream of it,â
Your face quickly found its way back into the crook of Jamesâ neck. It was inhumanly cool, easing the constant burn of your fever and soothing your sore skin. The slit across his throat truly didnât bother you. As you said, it was just another part of him for you to love, nothing more than a cosmetic imperfection.
Nuzzling closer, you took a deep inhale of his intoxicating scent. Perhaps it was the cologne he wore at the time of his death or even just what he naturally smelled like, but his pulse point radiated notes of sage and bergamot. God, how you loved him.
The pair of you were quiet for a moment with only the sound of your ragged breathing breaking through the air, but something urged you to speak your mind.
âYou know, James, when you walked into my room tonight I assumed you were here to kill me,â
He chuckled. âI canât say I didnât think about it, my pearl,â
âOf course you didâŠâ you went silent for a moment, âI wouldnât have minded. This sickness is hell. Iâm wasting away by the day and the pain never stops. I donât mind dying, not when it means I get to spend the rest of time here in the hotel with you, but I donât want to go out like somebody normal. My death needs to be special⊠I want to be the crowning glory of your murders, the most fantastic piece of art youâve ever created,â
Pressing a chaste kiss to the top of your hair, James sighed. âPerhaps itâs selfish of me, but the moment I thought of you, wasting away in the darkness and succumbing to some common germ, I knew I couldnât kill you. Not yet. I refuse to have my bride accompany me through eternity bearing a constant reminder of my failure,â
Your breath hitched. âBride?â
Slowly, his hand made its way to your throat. There was no threat in it, he wasnât using even an ounce of pressure. It was more of a gentle reminder of his presence; a physical conduit of his passion.
âYes, bride. I donât mind if you can only become Mrs. March posthumously, though I would prefer to wed you alive and enjoy your last moments of warmth in the throes of carnal delight on our wedding bed, it all depends on where your illness takes you next. Until then I will be glued to your side. No more harm will come to you. I shall nurse you back to health with my own hand so that you glow with life long after your death. Yes, Y/N, your death will come, but not until I have done my best to atone for my mistakes in your life,â
âWas that a proposal?â You gazed up at James with wide, misty eyes.
He huffed out a laugh. âI suppose it was, and a poor one at that! To think I stalled for years in the hopes of finding the perfect moment to present you with my motherâs ring only to pop the question in bed with no ring in sight. I do hope youâll say yes. Iâd be rather crushed if you rejected me after all this time,â
You nodded, small tears escaping as you pressed your face into his soft skin. âOf course Iâll marry you, you idiot. I wouldâve married you if you were the poorest man in the world and proposed with a ring-pop,â
âThen itâs settled. You shall be my wife as soon as you are well enough for me to fuck you again! I quite hate that Will Drake, but I believe heâs our best, quickest option if we wish to get you a dress commissioned. I have a few ideas drawn up already waiting in my office⊠perhaps I should call Ms. Evers and have her take them to him,â
âShhhh,â you smiled into his neck, pressing a kiss to his collarbone, âwe can figure out the details later. For right now, though, your fiancĂ©e is sick and she needs some TLC. What are you gonna do about it, Mr. March,â
He growled. âWell, I suppose ravishing you is off the table. Hmmm... what to do to my darling girl to make her feel better?â With a gentle nudge, he tilted your head up and pressed a sweet kiss to your lips.
âThatâs a start,â
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a/n: I hope you liked it! Iâm really leaning towards writing a second part of this where the reader actually dies, so let me know if youâre interested. Also, my requests are open if you want to see any of Evanâs other characters!Â
Please donât post my work to other sites, thank you <3
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