#I was messing around with their japanese names yesterday lmao

[blueypingu]

Volví lol

[tianhai03]

It is december already and i just spent the whole day doodling these bad boys

[ts-2020-olympics]

EPISODE 3 - “Am I Old?” - Sarah

So far Shosha and Yujo haven’t lost any challenges, if we keep winning until the swap  i fear that the other tribes will target our people because we’re all still intact. Maybe it would be a good thing to maybe lose one? I dunno

ちくしょう 😉

FUCK the hosts for this how many hours can you put in challenge this early in the game, i'm literally fucking pissed, FUMIN love! i knew we were gonna lose from early on but i still put in the time and hours to distract myself from this bitch ass boy who curved me yesterday night, whatever. i'm just so exhausted like of the constant losing, the tribal council, ugh. i haven't been on a losing tribe like this in SO long. and i'm so.. over it. i can't stand losing and i can't stand that emma is immune right now because deciding who to vote off is going to be impossible and people are going to be coming for me so i'm like, probably most definitely gone or whatever. and that means i'm going to have to do the arena challenge and NOT have a day off which... ugh....... dont get me wrong i know that ORGs are time commitments but usually i win the premerge challenges so THIS IS NEW OKAy kdhfnsdkfndkfndf. i'm just annoyed and i'm so over my tribe... and i didn't find any advantages at the olympic village i finally remembered to search in. anyway i dont even wanna THINK about tribal rn so this is just me saying fuck this challenge and ughhh i'm so TIRED just so fatigued of everything, i'll like come back tmrw and strategize or something. *throws a rock at the cameraman* fuck this shit i'm out, give me the osake RIGHT! GOD DAMN! NOW! (alcohol for all you non duolingo-ers)

i'm kinda happy that bailey was evacuated from the game, she would have been voted out regardless and this gives our tribe better odds at survival. even if we had gone to tribal i would've been comfortable, but now i feel like it's better than i try to prove my value as a player by competing in the arena! kinda excited.

tribal three times in a row check! 😍✨💋 LMAO no one is wanting to actually talk to me about it so i’m hoping that i can still sway the votes in my favor but we’ll see! i think landen would defiantly do his best to help keep me from going, but it’s all a matter of who would we send instead. so! we’ll see! at least i can say i did my best 

So, for starters, the past round went pretty much as expected.  Kathy was the vote off from my tribe, and she lost at the arena, as well, past round I found nothing yet again at the village.   Now, right now in terms of this round, my tribe didn't win immunity, but Bailey ended up getting medically evacuated due to getting three inactivity strikes, so the tribal got cancelled for my tribe, and Beck ended up volunteering to do the arena.  So basically, just awaiting to search Olympic Village again, and hoping to goodness there is a tribe swap next round, since right now my tribe is just my alliance with Ben and Beck, which will make things rough come another loss with no swap.

yep worst case scenario happened. My tribe lost with me sitting out and Will, my one main ally, not showing up to the challenge at all!! I was hoping it could be an easy vote so i didn’t have to vote and I could get the advantage but now it seems like my tribe is ready to boot Will and if I want that advantage I need two of those other three to vote against each other! God this is gonna be hard... 

I’m in a tough predicament here. I could either A. play it safe, agree with everyone to vote will or B. try to save my ally and my advantage at the same time by getting Sarah and Eve to vote out Nik, risking my whole game. Godddd I don’t know!! aaaagh! 

it's 10am, tribal is in 10 hours, and i've had about 10 separate heart attacks throughout the morning. i don't know what to do tonight. i'm really struggling to figure out what's right. my heart says jacob, that's definitely where i'm leaning. juls is my closest ally at this point, and after the whole debacle with Billy, voting him out, then instantly starting to bond with him and all that, and apologizing, and him sticking by me even after I voted him out first, I would feel terrible voting for him again and I want us to prove to eachother we can trust eachother. but the fact he said juls' name.. if that's who he's going to go for, i simply can't prove to him i will vote with him. i'm tight with juls, she saved me even over emma, and i just really feel a bond with her. we're both the youngest in this cast, we both have lots in common, it really do feel like we're the same person at times. at the same time, my head tells me jacob is good in challenges, and will be ok in arena, but that i really don't need a 3rd person upset at me for going to the arena, and if Emma is still coming after me, she could probably use me coming for Jacob to her advantage, but I don't even know where she's voting or what she's thinking. i'm torn about this vote, and it's all the more annoying that if emma just hadn't fucked up at the last challenge, we wouldn't be here without someone to vote right now. we'd all be able to agree on emma or jacob probably, and it would just... it would still suck complete ass, but it wouldn't be as complicated as it is now. with a tribe as tiny as 5 people, going to tribal THREE times, with all the same 5 people.. it's just not something we can afford. our tribe is being torn apart and... whew, i just need the swap. give it to me rn. as of now, i'm thinking i'm going to vote jacob, and i hope i can get billy on board for that and take his mind off juls. that's where my head is at right now... tribal is making me sick to my stomach

What the f does I stan you even mean? Am I old? And I no longer hip and down with the lingo? Bogus, man...

Our first tribal is tonight... I hate to say it, but I'm voting for Will. Nobody has heard from him in days, or for the last challenge, and tonight will be a second strike if he doesn't come back for tribal. WILL I'M SORRY. I definitely would not have voted him otherwise, he did great on the other challenges and is a great personality to have around. Come back for the next season Will.. 

I am the swing vote again lol Juls got blamed for messing up last vote by Emma and Billy, which considering Juls is beloved by everyone, PERFECT But now since we lost I need to pick a side, Landen and Juls or Emma and Billy. I like Emma, Billy sketches me out. Landen is the perfect meat shield for eternity. He's a bit of a blabbermouth. I watched the tapes of the live tribal, he sold me out unknowingly in front of Billy. How am I supposed to both sides these people now!? I could get sold onto a Landen vote, but that's not being sold, so WELL, who do I screw over. I feel so bad voting out Juls, but that's a reason to vote her out too, gah. GAH. Do I pick a side and lowkey goat, or do I make my control of the tribe forefront (but not evident because everyone hates each other) Time will tell. 1 Hour until tribal, and I have no idea what to do. inb4 voted out

why the FUCK does emma have immunity? she's literally so useless and does nothing in challenges... and the fact she already turned on juls, this quick, over practically nothing? im sick to my stomach, love. i know i said that already, but you know what? I must have the flu, because my nausea is neverending with this tribe and our constant spins at tribal council. as emma once said, we're basically taking turns sending people to the hellish arena. but the twist is so complex because you can't send someone you like there, because there IS always the very real chance that they lose the challenge. going there could be a good risk if you're smart with it, but it could be a risk that puts your entire game in jeopardy and i'm a KNOWN safe player when it comes to game mechanics ^_^ the only risks i take are in emotional labor! speaking of, myself and juls have both been working very hard to keep her safe from billy and emma's focused target on her, but i don't see it happening.. Billy and em seem to be tight now and it seems like they've convinced jacob to take out juls. The really horrible thing about all this, is that if i want to save juls.... i'm likely going to have to vote billy. and that is going to be aching, because i really like the guy, and i was being 100% honest and genuine with him saying i wanted to be on his side, to prove to him i have his trust and that i will be loyal to him and want to work with him til the endgame and be his ally. but if he's going to go against juls and i have to choose between the two of them..... i mean, i can't choose billy. it would be bad. so there's 30 minutes left and i don't have a clear idea of what's happening yet and any choice i make will permanently damage a tight connection that I thought I had heading into the later game. I guess in good news, Sammy, Caeleb, and a new friend, Jordan, ALL messaged me saying good luck at tribal, and talking to me a bit about it, saying they hope I'm safe. Forming those cross tribal bonds could be crucial in surviving the next stage of the game, which, god please, is happening VERY soon... *i bind myself to the cross* Give me strength to get through this, Japan. Onegaishimasu.

So far the game is makin  me p sad, I’m super tired of going to tribal and having to send people to arena. And that Japanese challenge was so damn frustrating 

so tribal last night.... i mean, uh, i guess my power, huh? lmao........... MESS!!! IM A MESS MY GAME IS A MESS THIS WHOLE DAMN THING IS A MESS. Someone get me a MOP rn because Sonkei-Matsing tribe is STRUGGLING and it's all EMMA'S FAULT!!!!! On the other hand, I'm very grateful Emma is an idiot, because Billy got to be safe!!! So let me explain what happened in that bonkers tribal council, from MY perspective... When I heard that my closest ally Juls had her name coming up, i was like, oh HELL. NO. So I put in the WORK to get Jacob and Billy to vote for eachother. Don't get me wrong, Juls worked hella hard on this too, she is a bad ass bitch and she deserves credit. But I do believe I was a major factor in swaying their votes as well as I'd built pretty close relationships with each of them in terms of strategy. But with Billy, that relationship wasn't a tight trusting one, more of a, please, I like you a lot, let me prove to you that I can be trusted and we can work together. Let us prove that to eachother. But here's how it happened. Even though Jacob and Billy DID vote for eachother... NEITHER OF THEM TOLD ME THEY WERE VOTING FOR EACH-OTHER. BILLY LED ME TO BELIEVE HE WAS VOTING JULS THE WHOLEEEEE TIME. And initially, I was fine with it, and i was STILL going to vote Jacob off with Juls!! Thinking there was nothing I could do and she would go 3-2. But then, 5 minutes into tribal, you'll see me furiously typing... Because Jacob FINALLY told me he was going to vote for Billy (and that's on Whispering!!! #LiveTribal!!) So from my perspective.... Billy and Emma are voting Juls. Juls is voting Jacob. Jacob is voting Billy. It's 2-1-1... and if I vote for Jacob, then Jacob and Juls can't vote, and Billy and Emma have the majority to send Juls out, saving Jacob on the revote. BUT if I vote for Billy, then Billy and Juls can't vote, and now me and Jacob have the majority over Emma. That was the thought process behind my initial vote for Billy. LITTLE DID I KNOW BILLY ACTUALLY WAS VOTING WITH ME AND NOW I FEEL HORRIBLE FOR VOTING FOR HIM AND I JUST WANT TO MAKE IT UP TO HIM BUT HE DIDN'T TEXT ME WHEN HE GOT OFF AND UGH, I NEED TO MAKE THIS RIGHT!!!! Emotional labor is the most annoying thing, and I'm really bad it. I'm terrible at apologizing and owning up to things, maybe that's why I just let my friendships fall apart in real life instead of doing the actual work to save them once a problem happens. because emotional labor is fucking annoying, exhausting, and stressful! I don't got time for it! But now, I need to have time for it, because our tribes are FIVE PEOPLE strong, and at the next tribal council, if I don't get my relationship with Billy in check, I WILL be gone. It is his vote that I need to help make sure Emma's psycho ass goes home, and if he, Jacob, and Emma all think they're on the bottom... Yikes. I hope Billy understands that I was absolutely disgusted it came down to him or Juls and I thought I was doing everything I could to save an ally.. I even swayed Juls to help save him with me, when she felt uncomfortable with him. He totally screwed up by like... not telling me he was voting with me, he said in tribal people just need to be real with where they're voting, and I agree! I wish he had just followed his own advice with me, because he would still be here right now. But his screw up does not at all compare to Emma... what the FUCK was she thinking, self-voting like that...? Like, HELLO? She throws out Juls' name all round, for I don't even know WHAT reason, since they were supposedly close, but it's implied she throws out Juls' name for getting 4 crowns on the challenge... Um, YOU STUPID BITCH YOU LITERALLY ONLY GOT ONE MORE CROWN THAN HER AND BEFORE THAT DID NOTHING ON THE SLIDE PUZZLE CHALLENGE OR THE TRIBE CHANT, DESPITE US KNOWING YOU CAN PUT IN THE TIME WHEN YOUR LIFE DEPENDS ON IT IN THE ARENA :) Headass.... Then, after doing that all round, she SELF-VOTES??? WITH IMMUNITY AROUND HER NECK??? Girl you MUST be crazy, cus this is psychotic. Headass, deadass, she is gone the next time we lose tribal, which, lbr, is probably next time because we're LIT RALLY matsing. at least caeleb thinks i'm denise though. i feel like i have the same amount of wrinkles as her, after the stress of this game like 3 rounds in. imagine how tired i am.  

Round 3's over! That's fun, innit? Glad we got rid of some dead weight in Bailey. As for friendships and alliances, I'm still slightly on edge about Darcy - I trust Beck over him. Got acquainted with Karen - they seem nice, but I'll keep an eye on them, too. Other than that, Nicole and Tommy are the people I'm mainly corresponding with. Seems like fun! :) Here's to a fun Round 4!

Okay so we won this round which is fun! Tommy went to the arena which gives me, Karen and Kevin a good chance to bond because Stoner just isn’t paying attention ever. I wonder if he has even made a confessional. Anyway, I’m going to be real annoyed if we lose and he whips out an idol. Also going to be mad if after this round there’s a swap and I’m swapfucked. I don’t think it really COULD happen to me though, because I’ve talked to at least one newbie on each of the tribes. Unless I’m stuck with Nik, Emma and Billy who have no interest in speaking to me, I think I’ll be fine. Speaking of newbies, I find myself talking to Ben a lot but I’m under the impression he talks to a lot of people. He reminds me of a lot of friendly pure men in this community like Joey, just very social and very nice! The only thing is sometimes he will say something in a conversation and I don’t necessarily know where to go with it. For example right now he’s having a full conversation with me in the village chat about pizza. I don’t know what to do with this and rather not be so vocal in the village chat. While the other newbies are increasingly hard to talk to, and sitting around all day waiting for the arena stuff is boring, Ben is a very nice person to talk to but I just wish we would talk like...about the game not what I’m eating. When it comes down to it I want to know I have an ally or two to bring to the end that might offset my immediate threat of being a winner, but not give them so much power that they win over jury votes. He seems to be showing his social side and not giving me any game info at the same time, which I have to look out for. All of the other newbies I’ve spoken to have talked game. He’s either playing a really good game by doing this or a really transparent one, I can’t tell yet. We will have to see! 

Last night proved something that I’ve been wondering about Landen for a while. He truly is a snake. I unintentionally made a really good move in keeping it mysterious on who I was voting. In order to make the vote go his way and to keep Juls, he instead changed the vote to ME and got Jacob to do the same. Sneaky mother fucker 😋 thank god Juls stayed the same though. I know for an absolute fact now that I won’t be able to trust him. As for Jacob, I do hope he comes back, because now that I know where the tribe stands I know I can get him on my side.

I don't know if I ever had such a frustrating round for challenges first duolingo and now the arena I was in the lead in front of everyone until the last clue and I lost it all I didn't get a medal. I'm so pissed, you really don't wanna @ me anytime soon because I'm at the point where I wanna go off on someone. 

Love the tribe, so happy we 5-0d the last tribal!! it was a cute moment!! hehe, we seem to be very together as a unit

So Will’s gone, well he’s at the arena but i think he died so he’s probably out for good. Now that he’s out that leaves me on the bottom of my tribe as the next to go, my only hope is getting as close to sarah as I can and crossing my fingers for a swap! Due to that triple tribal I think it’s going to happen next... hopefully! 

Ughh i keep forgetting to make confessionals until right before the round ends so im always like oh shit and then dont really know what im gonna talk about so its not good. hows things in the life of jordan pines? great thanks for asking, while i still feel on the bottom of my tirbe i definitly see a swap coming soon which i think depending on how it goes would be pretty good for me. Id ideally like to stay with most of the people ive been with plus new ones, becuse i think im seen as like an expendable numebr to caeleb and Jacob. I want them to keep thinking of me like this while I go out and start forming stronger relationships, keep bringing in those jordan pines minions, i got my sights set on billy right now, i like him but he makes me look as humble as they come and ive i could definitly turn him into a goat for me with the right coaxing. Im hoping will survives the arena cause hes for sure a number for me, but hes also a lil innactive so maybe he peaced. Im starting to build relationships with Landen who I like. I havent even looked at the all winners tribe holy shit. Karen and Stoner are gonna be my biggest obstacles as they dont necesarily love me. Im gonna try to work with Nicole for a bit if i can tbh. Thats really all im feeling right now. I think best cast scenario is people use me as a number and carry me just a little too far that I can turn shit around and fuck em over. It's definitely gonna be an uphill climb to the finish line, but the only way to do it is go step by step.

I feel like I am in a great position on my tribe! I trust Sarah and Eve a lot. Pete says he has my back so we can only hope that in the case of another tribal council, I will be safe! I’m still going to work my ass off and play my ass off to stay safe and not have to go to another tribal! This game is long and hard and I’m trying to see big picture. And within that big picture is a flashing sign that’s telling me there’s a tribe swap soon! Hopefully I’ll be able to work some magic and avoid being on a tribe with individuals that don’t like me. But overall I’m feeling pretty good after the last tribal!

[6-v-6]

70 horrible questions

tagged by @flower-taemin thank you for always tagging me in stuff !! Okay so this is incredibly long lol

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? With my mom I do, yes. We fight and lately things have been complicated as she comes to terms with my gender identity but she’s always been supportive and caring. My dad... i dont think of him as my dad

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? probably my bro andy

03: Do you regret anything? I regret many things seeing as my life is an ungodly mess of one embarrassment after the next

04: Are you insecure? Yes about literally everything haha what even is self esteem

05: What is your relationship status? dating sonic :)

06: How do you want to die? desperately shoveling SHINee CD’s into my mouth

07: What did you last eat? It’s 7pm I haven’t eaten anything today idk i dont remember what i ate last night

08: Played any sports? I did ballet/jazz for 5 years as a child. If those count. And gymnastics for 2. And then Tae Kwon Do for 8. So, yes. 

09: Do you bite your nails? no that’s never been a habit of mine

10: When was your last physical fight? I dont think I’ve ever had one lol

11: Do you like someone? my friends

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? close to it... once... horrible experience

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? naahh

14: Do you miss someone? Yeah

15: Have any pets? yes!!!!!!!! My little kitty socks!!!! and my two dogs Tatsu and Barney :D and a fish

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? hungry af

17: Ever made out in the bathroom? no

18: Are you scared of sp*de*s? why is that censored lmao. No I’m not I save them when they’re in my house and put them outside. 

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? The only reason I would do this would be to beat my own ass

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? um... Anime Expo a few years ago... at a dance rave

21: What are your plans for this weekend? Go to work and try not to die

22: Do you want to have kids? nope

23: Do you have piercings? Yup I have three in my left ear

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? English I fcking hated everything else. Now in college I get A’s in like the majority of my classes regardless of what I take so who knows

25: Do you miss anyone from your past? My old kitty? And my one friend Rebecca that I was best friends with in 6th grade we were super close but she moved schools the year after and I still think about her sometimes. I hope she’s doing okay

26: What are you craving right now? Sushi. Rice. Japanese food. I just ordered some and im dying as i wait

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Yeah I think so

28: Have you ever been cheated on? Nope

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? No

30: What’s irritating you right now? my stomach

31: Does somebody love you? my friends do

32: What is your favourite colour? turquoise 

33: Do you have trust issues? No I wouldn’t say so

34: Who/what was your last dream about? I dont remember..

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? My sister 

36: Do you give out second chances too easily? probably

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? Forgive

38: Is this year the best year of your life? Well I got a job, and if I can get tickets to that SHINee concert then yes it will be

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 15...? I think

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? Is this a reasonable thing to ask.. the answer is no

51: Favourite food? sushi

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? nah

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? uh... played this app on my phone about a ... horse with a human head..........

54: Is cheating ever okay? No.

55: Are you mean? I don’t think so but idk how other people see me so maybe

56: How many people have you fist fought? sadly zero but if anyone wants to go I’m your guy

57: Do you believe in true love? idk. For other people sure

58: Favourite weather? cloudy and rainy

59: Do you like the snow? I’ve only been in it a few times but yeah I think so

60: Do you wanna get married? nnnooooooooooo

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? no

62: What makes you happy? my cat, friends, shinee

63: Would you change your name? my legal name yeah and i plan to lol

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? Considering it was a disgusting experience that I never want to do again, yes

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? "opposite sex” makes me ehhhhh so I’m changing this to “opposite gender” and if she liked me then.. I’d have to tell her to encourage her to move on bcuz im not interested in romance lool

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? Again, this word choice is uncomfortable so I’m going with opposite gender. And yeah, I do. She’s my best friend of 9 years so ~

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? my bff

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? my friend naru yesterday

69: Do you believe in soulmates? platonic ones yea

70: Is there anyone you would die for? my close friends, my cat, shinee...

okay this is extremely long so I won’t tag anyone specific but pls feel free to do this if you want to <3

[alinepnhallow]

was tagged by @polaroidpidge!! thanks babe 

rules: copy this post into a new text post, remove my answers and put in yours, and when you are done tag up to 10 people and also tag the person who tagged you… and most importantly, have fun!

tagging (5): @artisteas, @pyrothea,  @cassiopheias, @wut-a-duckie, @psufoxes-ravens​, if you guys want to do it! 

a, age: 16 b, biggest fear: abandonment, failure, losing people c, current time: 10:22 pm d, drink you last had: water e, every day starts with: turning my alarm off f, favorite song: my music taste is a mess right now,, but i guess "we don’t have to take our clothes of" by ella eyre g, ghosts, are they real: idk it’d be cool if they were h, hometown: san francisco i, in love with: lmao,, no,,, if anything, it’d be thai ice tea j, jealous of: people who have a social life, are pretty, and have good grades k, killed someone: ?!?! l, last time you cried: yesterday m, middle name: no,, it means rice seedlings in japanese though n, number of siblings: 0 o, one wish: be less anxious around people that i don't know p, person you last called/texted: ap spanish group chat  q, questions you’re always asked: ??? idk r, reasons to smile: friends! spending time w friends! naps! bunnies! music! s, song last sang: el perdón t, time you woke up: 5 something am u,  underwear color: grey v, vacation destination: i’ve always wanted to go to england! x, x-rays you’ve had: quite a few,, y, your favorite food: chocolate ice cream or japanese curry z, zodiac sign: cancer

[fairielust]

ahhhhhh ahh ahhhh

ok omg y’all today wasn’t that bad as i thought it would be

so we walk into class n before i could stop myself i just had 2 show the instagrams of these two people from this japanese reality show wisteria got me into n this particular pairing are super cute n both wisteria n i love them lmao

which turns into a whole twenty minute conversation about who we like / dislike, showing the class the other people from said show’s instagrams, n pointing out particular moments we’ve seen lmao it was great

then wisteria gets us to do some work n it’s all fine until she randomly starts laughing to herself five minutes later ??? it was pretty creepy n she shows us what she was laughing at,,, these old photos of us from year 9 that she’s saved to ‘identify’ us when recording marks n stuff eW

for some reason my name had a keyboard emoji next to it ? n another girl had a music stave thing besides hers ? i mean, we both did music at the time but it was really weird lmAo tf @ wisteria

thankfully we did not get into any kind of speaking practice, just going through comprehension questions n then going through all the grammar for the unit which is always a delight.

@ the end of class the rest of the girls left the room without waiting for me which was absolutely perfECT bc i could easily give wisteria this drawing i’ve done for the class (but mostly 4 her) so i kept saying sensei n held the drawing before her waiting bc she was looking @ something on her laptop n when she finally looked up she full on gasped n said ‘suGOII ??!?!?!?’ which is amazing in japanese n she kept repeating that n i was blushing @ this point but trying to play it cool (?) (‘ahaha yeah it only took me 5 hours nbd ahaHAHA’) i told her it was for her n she tried identifying everyone but couldn’t recognise herself bc she forgot what she wore on the day lmAo (yet she easily pointed me out asdfghjk my heart)

n she said ‘arigatou gozaimasu’ in the softest voice ever n i wanted 2 cry it was so sweet n honestly even if i didn’t love her the way i do rn i would still be a miserable mess bc this ?? is all i’ve ever asked for ??? for my own god damn artworks to bring smiles to people’s faces ??!?!?! i love that !!!! a kink(TM) !!! then i told her to have a nice weekend bc it’s the long weekend now n she said you too as i was walking out n i just,, heart sigh

then @ lunch i went to the library bc my friends were studying 4 a religion test they had on n it was cold n i wanted to finish the last of my etching for art later this afternoon n wisteria was on duty n she came over bc i was sitting w another group of friends of mine n she was impressed w my etching before she pointed out the wall (with a suspicious ‘is that a wAll i sEE’) n i laughed n told her it was n she reminds me of her crazy wall photo collection which i asked if she could share bc i need more photos lol

one of my friends asked if we could go back to japan bc she obviously had a great time w us hEhe

n then she tells us this story that happened to her yesterday,, apparently this year 7 brat was misbehaving n when wisteria called her out she said her class was boring. now, im glad i contained my emotions bc inside i was FUMING like ?? how daRE YOU ?? SAY WISTERIA’S CLASS IS BORING YOU UNGRATEFUL BRAT ??? FUCK RIGHT OFF W THAT BULLSHIT this is why everyone hates wisteria bc she’s either bitchy or they can’t be bothered to try in japanese like wtf ?? i was super pissed that frustrated me sm ://

when the bell rang 4 next class i had my class in a room in the library n wisteria was just standing there,,, n i was just standing inside the room looking like a creep watching her,,, before i ran out n called her n asked about what was happening w our 1:1 sessions. she said she still had to check our timetables against one another, either for a study or for lunch. ahhhhhhhh !!!

today was such a great day i was shocked.

then in eng ex I, our teacher was away n there was only a few of us n we ended up talking about random stuff. i decided to do japanese hw bc i was not in the mood to write anything essay wise n the other girls got curious n tried recognising a few characters n i was lowkey proud of them for remembering stuff from year 7 ahh !!! it was a lot of fun being able to show my love for japanese !!!

this is completely irrelevant but my art teacher brought in her little son today 2 workshop n he’s only 4 but he’s stomping around the classroom n smiling n laughing n being cheeky n touching my bracelet n it was just,,, so pure. my teacher was like, ‘so do you want to take him home ? he’s a monster, i’m telling you,’ n i just,,, really want kids one day but i don’t want to be the one giving birth bc i’m weak asf but i do want to have kids despite their troubles idc !!! this was just so cute !!!

ahh ok i’m gonna work hard on speaking this weekend bc our first lesson back to school is double japanese n i bet you we’ll actually be doing speaking then smh