#I was just gonna dump a bunch of screenshots and then i realized I kind of had

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The Bad Batch 2021 - 2024

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WIP dump, inventory as follows:

- An entire month’s very late Mermay set based on fruits - More Cubes - Some Ghibli-related doodles & draws - I took a ton of screenshots while watching all of the Ghibli movies & I wanna choose 2 shots from each movie & do screenie redraws - Remember that KK Slider album cover art challenge? Yeah I started one & then my laptop screen broke & I had to order a new one & I forgot about the KK Slider album art challenge until I found it in my WIPS while taking these photos today OTL - A somewhat ambitious doll mod that I started while waiting for some glue to dry on the project listed below this. Just realized I also have another doll mod to finish but I already uploaded the max amount of pics so uuhh off-camera there’s a half-finished Hornet from Hollow Knight doll mod pffb - A 2-sided wall that I’m making to take pics of my dolls in front of, with a bunch of plants on one side & a personal library with cozy fireplace on the other - Some amateur embroidering using the wrong kind of thread & the wrong kind of base fabric - Furby face molds made from one of those little furby keychains from mcdonalds in the 90′s that I got off ebay, which I will use to make a Furberos - A Trish Una cosplay that I’ve been severely slacking on since the convention I was gonna finish it for got postponed indefinitely due to the Backstreet Boys’ reunion tour - Scripts for 2 more haunted doll comics that I thought of forever ago & just haven’t been able to draw yet, thx brain - Notes for a silly dressup photoset idea where I see how many styles I can put together using my existing wardrobe

I’ve been all stressed lately & when I’m stress’t’d I can’t like, focus on one thing to completion. I have been cursed to bounce around between projects for a while so I just gotta ride it out. I decided to put together this WIP dump to remind myself that just because I haven’t finished any of these doesn’t mean I haven’t been working on them.

[babygotbackyaaa-blog]

Ryan has a new bitch he’s interested in every week so ladies don’t think you’re special. None of us are. He has a new bitch every week whether he’s single or not. Isn’t that right Ryan? Do you want to counter argue me? Also would you like me to give names of just a FEW of those lovely ladies or are you gonna stop talking shit to me? Get this he’s still calling me a whore! He can’t own up to shit. He still denies it and is pissed I found him out yet again! He won’t apologize. He actually never has for ANY of it. EVER. Big surprise there! Should I post the emails babe? I can prove it however it needs to be proven. If he denies any of it there’s always a way around it. Trust me I’ve tried this before and the motherfucker still fucking lies and tries to find a way around it so I already know his pathetic tactics. Just trace the IP address to the email. Btw thanks for teaching me that btw. I never knew itd come in handy one day it sucks that the cops couldn’t help me with that tho. They had more important things to do then to trace shit over the net with a bunch of she said he said bullshit cause there’s too much of that going around all over the net anyway. It’s impossible to prove anything and no cop or judge is going to make a case out of any of it. Apparently it’s too pointless and petty and happens far too frequently that it’s not even an important matter of concern to them as cops etc. Also they aren’t gonna go Searching for evidence all over the net too when there are babies being thrown in dumpsters. Etc. etc. The cops couldn’t even help me when you posted the revenge porn of me even when they EVEN heard you admitting to it on the fucking phone from YOUR # & your voicemails that they listened to. Ya remember that?? But yes! Believe me I tried. Need me to go on tho?? Oh... also didn’t you say you even sent revenge porn of me to one of my ex friends who liked me? I stopped talking to them cause of you (mr. we both only need eachother. I don’t need to talk to other girls. I’m not a whore like you blah fucking blah - care for me to expand on that too??!) but I can get that video if need be but sure go ahead and try and threaten them too. I got more dirt on that person that you wouldn’t believe. I mean you have deframed (?) me enough times on twitter and on fb and on the deep/dark web posting revenge porn of me there too. And ya the cops etc. also they can’t help if you retaliated back too in the past. Which I have and you have. And dating you I learned to take screenshots and show other people your actual posts too Incase you try and lie later. There’s also your friends that have seen it but ofc if they’re YOUR friends I wouldn’t put it past them to be the type of person to lie under oath for you. I mean I know some of the girls that you are friends with on here even support you even knowing that youre an abuser. Which maybe I should out now that I think of it. no one tolerates people that defend abusers anymore anyway. Whether the abuser is your friend or not. No one cares. It makes you look just as bad as the abuser. Especially if you are a woman supporting an abusive man. Also remember jack, Ryan? Ya there’s this guy jack. His mother came to my house once cause she wanted to get in contact with Ryan. Apparently his own parents shooed jacks poor old mother away. See your precious Ryan... he’s a con man. He stole her car but see he got away with it because jacks sweet old mother thought she could trust him with the keys. He takes the car and steals (he always does this - big ass clepto/thief) the stuff inside it (a bunch of electronic crap.) As a con man you got to know a lot about the law so there really is nothing the cops can do with Ryan stealing her car cause she willingly gave his con man ass the keys. And when He was done using the car to go to places (he didn’t have a car at the time) he dumps it somewhere far away from San antonio and or where jack and his mother live and then one of his family members (and I know who too so yes try to get at me - I’m not outing this person YET cause this is the only actual person in Ryan’s family that actually seems like the most sane and level headed person) who lived around there drove Ryan’s ass away. Ryan’s so called friends know about this too. I can name the two... but ofc these people unlike most of you on here know how Ryan really is so ofc they back up Ryan in fear of what he might do to them. Am I right? So and so.. ;) I also have jack and his mothers #. I can go on and on. I have tons of proof, don’t I Ryan? So yes. Please keep calling me a whore. I even have the report jacks mother made that I went down and got Incase you threaten them to back you up somehow so ya thought of that too, darling and ofc other things etc. etc. and lies about you and your family that I have found out and have known for quite some time now. But haven’t said shit despite how y’all treat me. But see that was because I LOVED Ryan. Think I still do now?? But you see being with Ryan you’ll realize you have to do all these types of things cause he’s just that kind of a con man/asshole/wife beater etc. etc. arent you, Ryan? So yes. Please. Keep calling me a whore, babe. Do it ️ oh and you think you can get at me for so called ‘threatening’ your family which I hardly am but knowing your lying desperate ass I can only imagine... Well before you try that one, my dear...think long and hard first... here I’ll kinda help your narcissistic self out cause you always forget all the shit you’ve did cause you never do anything wrong... right babe? You’re such a sweet guy... right everyone?? But ya... babe...remember my dying father that was in intensive care that you wanted to pull out all his plugs and kill him. I have the voicemail still of you threatening that to me if I didn’t call you back and the report of that too and the cop who listened to that vm as well and the hospital who was alerted and the cops/security in the hospital who were on standby. But yes... There’s also that just for STARTERS. But yes it’s awesome that both are fathers are lawyers. Isn’t it babe? Both of us know so much about the law and all. And also this isn’t half of what I know and I’m sure I only know a bit of what you know too. But mr let’s let bygones be bygones... hm? How does that apply with Brandi now? You hated that I still held all your cheating against you and you wanted a clean slate with me. ‘unlike you I love you so I trust you. Blah fucking blah. Hur durh.’ It must be easy for you to trust me and ‘love’ me when I don’t go around fucking cheating and whoring myself out all the damn time and then lying about it!! so yes babe. I can trust you. You love me. You don’t cheat. You are faithful and you do love me. You want to marry me. You bought me a ring. You want to have babies with me. Yaddah yaddah yaddah. Did I forget any of the other bullshit that you’ve said??? I guess why I’m the most pissed off is cause you abuse me and say you don’t do shit behind my back and for me not to still be hurt or bring up that old shit that you don’t do anymore and that I should give you a clean slate and all this fucking bs and yet... here we are... see if I did any of the shit you did... let’s face it. I’d be dead right now. Want me to say how I know? ;) ya didn’t think so. The most fucked up part is that you never even felt bad for it... and if anything I went over and beyond to save your ass cause I was worried about you getting in trouble for some of the real bad abusive shit you did to me. Or did you forget that too? Or do you Want to make a lie about that too or should I just say the whole damn thing?? Cause let’s be honest Ryan... I don’t ever find out everything do I? ;)

Oh and before you threaten me with your lie that my 4’11 tiny ass stole your mainframe/supercomputer wtf ever it’s called. And that supposedly your parents went along with. So get this guys... I broke into his house (I’m a tiny 4’11 chick and what Ryan’s 6’1 and is actually known to ALMOST kill guys twice his size - incase some of you didn’t already know. You know that scar on his eyebrow? Two big guys twice his size apparently hit him with a baseball bat and then he fucking wrecked them.) Anyway I supposedly stole his big ass computer and his parents were apparently witnesses in that is that right?? Cause that’s how Ryan tells it. I mean... to lie about something like that tho... with what actual proof?? That’s all I’ll say... ;) Anyway I stole his big ass computer in this false report that he made of me by breaking into his house and what I walked how many miles to my house with this supercomputer/mainframe??!! Oh didnt Jeremy help you with this lie too? Driving you to the police station and then driving you to my house with the cop you made the false report with?? But yes...Okay use that report against me. But I’m going to demand actual proof of all of it. Witnesses if you want to keep up that lie. And or your parents too apparently. Cause I’m sure if they find anything actually concrete they would see that no one in the streets that day saw shit! My neighbors didn’t see me leave that day or carry that huge ass computer. Let’s say you want to lie some more (I know you too well) say I took a car. Okay ask my neighbors about that too. There’s also cameras at most of the lights. Oh and want to say how I held your computer hostage too? Okay we’ll just find the cop that told my mother and I to do that cause you were a danger to us so they said to just have you come by with a cop but leave the stuff out before hand and go from there etc. this was right before you either tried to slit my throat or went to go cheat all night making tons of excuses for never coming back home till 12pm the next day... so I locked your ass out. And also you threatened my mother and I that you were coming to get your stuff one time. Banging on the door with the knife you tried to slit my throat with that one time. We told you we didn’t want you to come unless a cop was here with you to get your things and who wouldn’t want that?! I mean if they actually know you that is...anyway...Remember that cop that found the knife you had to slit my throat with stop and arrested you for that weapon? And I’m sure he’ll tell people first hand how you tried to frame him. Also all my neighbors who saw. Right?! Can’t forget that either ;) ya I’ll go all the way bitch. How far you want to take this?? Like you tried to frame me for ‘pushing you down the stairs’ when you were trying to steal my phone ie me trying to pull my phone from you that you were trying to steal on the stairs and then letting go cause my mom woke up with all the racket and startled me. So you slipped down the stairs. Pushing you down the stairs my ass. So ya... I’m sure me and that cop and lord knows who else can testify to other lies you’ve told like that. So Ryan tell me what little fantasy you got next that never actually happened? Oh... what about that time you said we made a false report against you? My mother and I. One you have access to guns. We both know this I wonder who else aside from your parents (go hide the guns now! Jesus you all probably would too, anything to cover your sweet baby boys ass) we even called your father asking if you were even home we were so scared. Which said you weren’t (I think you were out at that titty bar with that guy who was living with you at the time for a while - which we didn’t find out until later ofc) anyway we asked if you even had access to guns. And we were told... what again...hm??? What were we told again?? I honestly don’t remember... I’ll ask my mom since she was the one who called on speaker... I’m sure she’ll remember...But yes when we made that report...We said we heard gun shots at our house and we said we weren’t SURE but you are the only person we could think of that would do something like that to us especially with your record and not too long ago the reports of one of the many times you abused me were made. So how the hell did we know?! The cops can tell you also that we mentioned time and time again that we weren’t sure (I’m not a moron Ryan.) But we were scared regardless and just wanted the cops to take a look. Did I cover everything yet?? But yes... someone like you would be trying to get with someone like Brandi behind my back. You two deserve eachother. Want me to post more of her classy ass pictures you seem so proud of liking? Is that why she’s no longer on your Instagram and you unliked that one photo that I posted of her? I’m sure your father would be so proud if the people he works with would see the type of woman his son is seeing and the photos he likes of her. But nah... you and Brandi aren’t whores at all. I actually can’t really blame Brandi tbh. I know this. It takes two to tango and it’s not like she’s the only one you’ve cheated on me with. Also want me to mention how I found the whole thing out tho and who also knows about it before you tried to hide your ass from being ashamed of having done any of that to her with a photo like that. WHAT are you ashamed of her Ryan?! WHY WOULD YOU BE ASHAMED OF HER THO?!  I DONT SEE WHY!! I MEAN WHY WOULD YOU BE??! SRSLY!! Can we discuss this? Cause what you’re telling me does not add up... I’m the whore not you or her? Yet you seem so ashamed... why unlike the photo and NOW finally stop having anything to do with her (that I know of ofc.) You’re so classy tho and she is too! I just wanted everyone to see it! That’s all babe. Cause I’m just some skank right?? Ya fuck you, asshole. You push people too fucking far sometimes. What the fuck did you expect?! Oh let’s not forget how most of the cops that you have associated with have felt about you or how you proved how you can be by the way you treated them. Not just that one cop I mentioned. Sorry babe... I’m just tying to figure everything out... cause you’re not a whore and all... xo

Also after Ryan stops talking to every girl I find out about. They automatically get in a relationship soon after cause he’s done leading them on and trying to stop them from moving on. He loves a challenge sometimes. But there was always something fishy with Brandi and him cause it’s very unlike him to unfriend a girl and she stays single. Also she blocked me. I didn’t even think she really ever thought about me enough to even care to block me?? Why even be bothered enough to do so in the first place? I didn’t do anything to her, one other girl had blocked me but for that reason I get. But ya...Ryan goes thru great lengths to hide me from girls. Also he asked me one time I was so fed up with his cheating I went on his fb and removed some girls. But for some reason his dumbass flat out asks me if I read any of him and brandis messages to each other! He was so worried about that. Nah, i didn’t forget that. And then... what do you know he’s all up on her revealing pics on Instagram when he says he could get rid of her like it’s nothing, that she doesn’t mean shit to him and has NOTHING to do with her anymore. Yet likes her picture after said ‘fact’ and has her followed on Instagram. And liking that pic around the time of out 3 year anniversary at that...I  can go on but maybe some other time. I think I’ve said more than enough for now. Oh and why does it make me so mad that he talks to other women?? Put two and two together. Want me to show you how much he has isolated me from almost EVERYONE not just guys. And gets fucking abusive over other people contacting me or w/e and how he’s always calling me a whore for it too. Ya that’s why. Go ahead and lie and say you’d totally be okay with that too that you’d be okay that he abuses you for doing the same exact shit he did. And Calls you a whore etc fucking etc. ya fuck all of you that stood by this asshole and that still stand by him. I’m sure you all can live with yourselves if you can still stand by someone like that. Oh I should also pursue the false report you made of me with the other cops report that go against that ever even happening with the whole stolen computer bs. I’m sure the cop would change it cause I’m sure he wouldn’t want to look bad for pushing aside evidence from other actual cops! Why didn’t I do that before? Honestly I don’t know now that I think of it... the false report you made... and all the people that went along with it..: hm??? but ya... do you really want to bring up stolen computers my love? Cause I can mention two times. Yes Ryan. Two computers. Think hard my love. I know it’s hard for your narcissistic ass to see your wrong doings so I’ll try to be some help. Or are you still going to insist on living in denial and calling me a whore etc...? And yes I know a lot of the shit you’ve given me is stolen from god knows where. That’s why I toss that shit shortly after. Dumbass. So don’t even try to frame me for that shit either. Ya you fucked with the wrong girl, you pos.

[parkerrogersgirl]

Tempting Fate- Chapter 14

Pairing: Sebastian Stan x Reader

Word Count: 1,698

Warnings: Serious language, threats, SO MUCH ANGST and I think that’s it; it’s literally just gonna hurt and we’d apologize but we’re not sorry 😘😉

A/N: Hey, y’all! @sonofadeanwinchester and I decided it’d be cool if we wrote a series together. SO, HERE’S CHAPTER 14! Please, please, please give us feedback. Feedback is the glue that keeps the writers together. We need the feedback. Send either of us an ask, and we’ll just send each other screenshots. Or you can send it to both of us. Thanks, lovelies.

**I own all of these photos. Stealing these photos is wrong and against tumblr rules

He looks at you, confused, “babe, what’s wrong?”

You start walking quickly, not making eye contact with anyone. Sebastian follows you, pulling you to the side. He takes off his sunglasses, his blue eyes bright with concern.

“How could you, Sebastian? How could you post that without asking me? Do you have any how big of an adjustment this will be for me? This isn’t fair. I’m not ready yet. It’s only been a few days. I haven’t had time to prepare for all the shit that comes with being engaged to a celebrity.”

“Oh… I’m so sorry, babe. I didn’t think of that. I’ll go delete it,” he pulls out his phone and his eyes go wide, “ooooor maybe I won’t.”

You grab his phone from his hand, looking at it, “4,603 LIKES?! ARE YOU SERIOUS?! IT’S BEEN 3 MINUTES.” You start reading through the comments, and your body goes numb.

“Why would you get engaged to her when I’m right here?”

“Who’s that fugly bitch?”

“She better not hurt him, otherwise I’ll come after her and kill her.”

“Who’s the skank?”

“She looks like Eurotrash.”

You hand him his phone and sink to the ground, leaning against the wall. He briefly scrolls through, then sits next to you.

“I’m so sorry, darling. I had no idea this would happen.”

“It’s just not fair. I haven’t done anything to them. I just followed my heart.”

“I know. You haven’t done anything wrong. All you did was fall in love. Some people are jealous enough that they’ll say anything. I promise, I won’t let anything happen to you. I’ll always protect you.”

“But why do they all hate me?”

“Don’t worry about them, dearest. Their opinions don’t matter. Like I said, they’re jealous. You have what they want more than anything, and so they think they hate you. But I’ll make sure to schedule so many interviews that I’ll have more than enough opportunities to tell the world all the wonderful reasons I fell in love with you. They’ll have no choice but to love you. Probably not as much as I do, but maybe close.”

You smile sheepishly, kissing him softly. He picks you up, walking with you and steering you toward the castle.

“What’s the rush, babe?”

“I’m not looking forward to a bunch of crazy fans finding us. I just posted that photo. They’re probably already coming over here.”

Your eyes widen and you quickly put your bag in a locker with Sebastian’s disguise, then head upstairs with Seb to get on the ride. You’re grinning as you walk up the stairs, and you’re so excited that Sebastian has to help you not fall on the stairs. He’s also trying to simultaneously hide his face from the crowd.

You get in, with Sebastian sitting in the seat next to the wall of the carriage, and he kisses you while the other people get in with you. You know he’s just doing it so he’s not recognized, but you don’t care. You kiss him back deeply and the carriage is closed and you start moving. You’re bouncing in your seat, and you feel Sebastian’s eyes on you. He’s always absolutely loved watching you get excited about stuff, and right now was no exception.

After the ride, you’re still in a bit of a nerdy daze while you walk back over to the lockers. You notice a girl about your age giving you a strange look. You unlock your locker and remove your bag, and suddenly you feel a hand on your shoulder. It’s the girl who was staring at you, only now it’s turned into a death glare.

“Wait… you’re that whore Sebastian Stan posted a picture of!”

You shake your head vehemently, pulling out your phone to speed dial Seb’s number, “I’m sorry, you’re thinking of someone else.”

“No, I’d recognize that trashy outfit anywhere. Listen here, bitch. If you do anything to him, you will literally have millions of fans after you. So you might as well just dump him now before you break his heart. We all know you’re just in for the money. You could never love him.”

You feel an arm around your waist, and you’re still shaking when Sebastian pulls you away. He puts on his glasses and hat, walking back over to your tormenter.

“Listen here. I’m going to be very careful with my words because I know you’ll go straight to the media if I raise my voice or say anything slightly rude. So I’ll just say this- leave my fiancée alone. I have known her for fifteen years. There’s nothing you could possibly say to me to make her think she doesn’t love me. Now do yourself a favor and get out of here before I call security. Please.” He flashes her his charming smile, then makes his way back over to you. You’re browsing the shirts, and you decide to get a Hufflepuff shirt. It would make your day easier and less eventful.

He hugs you from behind, kissing your neck softly, “baby, are you okay?”

You shrug, looking at the shirt.

He turns you around, looking into your eyes. “(Y/N), talk to me.”

“I just… I don’t know how to not take what people say personally. Sebby, she called me a whore. I’ve never even met her before, and she still felt like she was justified to call me that.”

He pulls you tight against his chest, kissing the top of your head, “it’s settled. I’m getting a private security guard for you. I’m not going to let people do this to you. You did nothing to warrant this, and you don’t deserve this. This ends now.”

“But, Seb. What if it doesn’t stop?”

“It will. People won’t fuck with you once they realize that I’m actually truly, madly, deeply in love with you.”

“... Babe did you just quote One Direction?”

“I had to have something to remind me of you after I left….”

You smirk, kissing him softly, “I knew you liked their music.”

“I’m not gonna lie, Niall’s got a pretty damn good voice…”

You roll your eyes, leading him over to the cash register so you can buy your shirt. You pull out your purse, but Sebastian beats you to it. By the time you’ve taken your wallet out, he’s already given the cashier his credit card. 

“Baaaaabe let me buy my own shirt,” you groan, looking up at him.

“Not gonna happen, darling. This is my fault, getting you a shirt is the least I can do.”

You groan as you walk out of the stop and head to a corner to change. Sebastian stands in front of you, guarding you so no one can see you. You put on your new shirt quickly, taking off the tag before walking with Sebastian.

You make him go on Flight of the Hippogriff, simply because it was the only ride you could handle without getting a panic attack. He actually loved it, so you went on a few times.

You walked around Hogsmeade for a bit, holding off on the Butterbeer until you were about to leave. You went into Honeydukes, since you were pretty much obligated to get at least one Chocolate Frog. Sebastian got a chocolate wand and Bertie Bott’s Every Flavored Beans. His first one was dirt flavored, and he quickly threw away the box after that.

The Jurassic Park area was next, and you looked over at Seb. He looked like a kid on Christmas, and you knew that this would be an incredible day for him. And you got to watch him experience it all.

-----

Sebastian came back into the room with a bowl full of chips and flopped himself onto the couch beside me. “Why do we have to watch this?” He scrunched his nose up in disgust.

I chuckle beside him. “I can’t believe you don’t want to watch this movie.”

He shrugged. “It just doesn’t seem like my kind of movie.”

“Sebastian, that doesn’t make any sense. You’re the one who’s absolutely obsessed with space and NASA and all that shit. WHY are you so annoying about this movie?” “It just seems like a kids movie. I love Steven Spielberg, but this seems a little juvenile.”

“Okay, but it’s about space. How are you not more excited? You watch NASA documentaries like your life depends on it.”

He punched me playfully and smirked. “Hey, you stop that. NASA is this country’s backbone.”

“Oh and here I thought it was the hardworking Americans’ who put their blood, tears and sweat into their everyday work.” I cocked a brow and he shook his head. “No comment from the peanut gallery?”

He shrugged. “My parents are part of that working class.”

I sighed deep. “Right, of course. But I still don’t wanna watch this movie.”

“Just shut up and enjoy the movie.”

Over half way through the film, Sebastian started humming, sighing dramatically and muttering to himself how he didn’t want to continue. “Do we have to fini-” A sniffle from my direction. “Wait, are you crying?”

We’d reached the part where the scientists were running tests on E.T. and when he almost dies, which always made me cry. I wiped several tears from my cheeks. “No.” I could feel his eyes on me. “Stop staring at me.”

He chuckled. “I’m sorry but you’ve never cried in front of me before.”

“There’s a fucking reason for it.”

“You wanna elaborate?”

“Not really but mostly because I knew this is exactly how you would react.”

“How am I reacting?” He shifted in his seat so he was facing me.

I shrugged. “Just like looking at me like I have six heads.”

“I’m just shocked that you’re not the cold-hearted bitch you like to portray.”

“Jesus, don’t even bother sugar coating it.”

He laughed. “I’m kidding. You’re the sweetest person I know, of course you were bound to cry in front of me.”

“Actually the plan was to go our entire lives without this happening.”

“Well, too fucking bad, sunshine.” He slid closer to me and smiled. “If it means anything, you still look beautiful when you cry.”

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[tamiddyinyourcity]

8:59am, Thursday, December 12th of 2019.

Life doesn't always work out the way you want it to.

No matter how much things seem like theyre going great, they can easily backtrack in an absolute instant overnight.

Like how yknow, I expected to be waking up this morning in the arms of the guy I liked, with the clouds moving slowly outside of his window, and feeling glad that I "met someone like him".

And instead, I woke up with a bloody pad, (thank fucking god that I am not pregnant,) some mild eye bags, aaaaand a bunch of screenshots of petty messages I sent him and his best friend. (Do I even wanna look at twitter? I acted a fool on there....)

......and not sure if I'm gonna have followers there or not since most of his friends in Santa Cruz had followed me, but....

Whatever, dude.

Standing in my decision; he chose what he chose when he already knew that was fucked up.

Ladies, gentlemen, and all of my nonbinary friends:

Would you willingly stay in a relationship with someone who:

Openly had friends who hated you for shit that happened 3 months ago when you were not even dating your man

And the reason they hate you is literally a reason your (now ex) boyfriend had liked you? (i.e. blocked them after a fight, but then sent them a meme related to a discussion we had before blocking..... yeah i know that its weird, but months passed, we discussed why it happened, etc....)

And when you make an effort to try and befriend them, since like a rational girlfriend, you want to make a good impression on people.... and show them you're not the same person from 3 months before.

Just for his "best friend" to get mad at HIM for letting you text him, for talking to you about friendly conversations, etc.... (HOW IS THAT YOUR PLACE, REALLY?)

And then when you just straight up ask your boyfriend why his supposed platonic best friend hates me so much, he just goes "I need to respect our friendship confidentiality with them!"

.... I sure hope you answered "no".

I basically just realized.... he was prioritizing her over me. Which was fine if it was a situation where I was actually wrong, or if it were serious....

But no, he's prioritizing her in a much creepier way.

Since to put it bluntly, if this guy really saw me as a serious girlfriend, he would stand up for me no matter the circumstance.

And it says a lot if with her, its "Oh yeah, I'll let you talk shit about Tamiddy, not bother to even put in an effort to get to know her when given a chance, and STILL hold resentment over something that happened months ago".

And then when I'm blatantly showing discomfort at "hey, i really wanted to befriend her, i dont understand why she doesnt like me after this long despite never meeting me?", then its OOOOH YOURE BEING INTRUSIVE AND NOT RESPECT MY "FRIENDSHIP" CONFIDENTIALITY!

What kind of bitch ass shit is that?

He's really not any sort of a man.

I already should have dumped his ass the second I heard him say, "Well, I'll still be hanging out with her wherever and whenever I want", at the basic boundary of "I'd at least like to meet the girl, especially if she doesnt like or know me, but you're alone with her in your bedroom past Midnight?...."

I just am not here for that shit.

I did like Patrick, I did. I even thought we were getting much better at communicating at talking to eachother through things.

Its not like I'm absolutely ecstatic to lose someone I saw as a buddy. "Lets go to Zoo Lights", "I wanna take you to a fancy dinner", "Let's go to the lake and walk around at night", and all these other supposedly cute date ideas I had....

Trust me, even despite the words of confidence from my friends, I still.... feel at least a LITTLE bad.

Plus I was insulting the fuck out of him on twitter, to really seal the deal on the whole "you chose what you chose and cant get mad that i dont appreciate blatant disrespect in my relationships" type shit.

Like.... you can't allow a girl I don't know to dictate what I can and cannot talk about honestly with you in a relationship, while also not stopping that bitch from talking HEAVY shit about me.... for whatever reason.

Relationships involve maturity, honesty, and a healthy communication.

Not "oh my best friend talked shit about you today, but since i honor her right to talk shit more than your right to feel trusted in a relationship with me and my close friends, im not saying all the shit she said".

And the audacity to say its none of my business... its none of HER business. Bitch was literally stalking my twitter a month ago for something to gossip to Patrick about, and suddenly, she gets mad when *I* am told things about her by Patrick, (obviously as his fucking girlfriend who i assumed he somewhat trusted and respected,) and despite me turning a negative into a positive and trying to go talk to her and potentially befriend her......

Here this bitch go, complaining EVEN ABOUT THAT TO HIM!

It was 100% my place to see that there was no place for me in a relationship like that, and to leave.

He already fucked up when he let a guy spit on me and call me a f*ggot the day before, and he was on thin ice as well for telling me about checking out other girls at his shitty job.

For the reasons of "hes a pussy, and stupid", i just communicated and whatnot....

But clearly he doesnt wanna try.

And yeah dumbass, im not gonna go on a midnight stroll with you across the city, as you're holding my hand and telling you that you respect your friend's boundaries and feelings more than my own.

.....then she can go fuck you then, if thats the case lol.

Who really thinks id still date them when they decided to let a 3rd, uninvolved, person into my love life and shit on my life?

Hell no.

Thats not the vibe, honey! Not at all. Nope. Cry. I do not give a single shit! Not at fault. Not at all. I knew my intuition was so strong, and honestly? Good for me for stopping the date and asking to get taken home. The way he cried out, "She's been my best friend for YEARS, TAMIA", had a little *too* much vigor to it......

If he really liked me, then he wouldn't have to question whether or not he should be honest with me, or allow his "best friend" to shade on me..... A real relationship wouldnt even have that as a CONVERSATION, even!

"I'm gonna be disrespecting her if I tell her stuff she asked me to be confidential about, but disrespecting you, if I dont tell you about what she said about not liking you!"

And now there's extra disrespect, considering you just compared me to another bitch in a way that seemed "morally conflicting", as if it wasnt obvious you chose her as the person you actually preferred to support....

As well as.... choosing to side with the person who you admitted, "I don't even know why she doesn't like you"..... instead of the person blatantly making an EFFORT to be a positive person in you and your friend's lives.

Anyway..... imma just get all the feelings out for today, even if it makes me look crazy to others i barely even know.

....hell, if he really wanted to date me, he would have communicated at all.

Told me what was going on with his friend.

Actually talked to me about working through things.

Anything.

But no.

He chose, "send a petty text at 2am to the girl who obviously hates that I'm blatantly disregarding her as my girlfriend".

......yikes.

Alexa, play Stupid by Ashnikko.

Cool! Time to set goals for my next relationship, if ever.....

Admittedly annoyed, I was gonna give him AirPods for his birthday, but luckily my gut instinct felt iffy about him.... sucks, wanted a New Years Eve kiss.

Still a potential! Now with someone who would punch a guy for even looking at me funny, and not... pussy out in every given circumstance.

Relationship standards:

Communication. We did okay with it, but they said it all without needing to say much to me last night.

Actually standing up for me. Allowing me to get spit on was already bad enlugh, but letting me get talked shit about? Then calling me the disrespectful and stupid one, for not wanting to be talked shit about????? Thanks Patrick, what a real upstanding person you are. That would be like if I had a designated person in my life talking shit about you; and instead of respecting you and trying to find ways to be friends, I called you intrusive, and told you to go fuck yourself.

Can last more than 6 minutes tops in a round. I forgot how having more than one orgasm during sex had felt... he only just started to get better at it too, but he chose what he chose and needs to realize his disrespectful actions have actual consequences to them.

Isn't always saying "I don't have any moneyyyyy", despite eating 1 dollar canned chili, and not paying for his own gas, rent, or food........

Talks like they have more than one singular friend in their life; this man had no fucking sense of self, understanding of basic jokes or comedy, and was just too pretentious to keep on talking to.

Sigh.

Now I can just say, thank fuck that relationship has died, and I can go back to being a bad bitch and saying what I want, without a scrawny dude getting insecure or pessimistic about everything... fucks sake.

Alright.

Gonna run errands for today:

Put money in the bank, since you know that I got it.

Buy a fuckton of pads for the hellstorm coming my way.

Buy a wig, so I can look and feel the best that I possibly can...

And I'll just start transitioning into a normal life without Patrick.

I'll find someone new. It's not gonna be as flawless as I'm making it seem, I'll probably cry at least once today.... or in a week or whatever. It'll hit me when I least expect it.

"I wanna go out toni-- ah shit, I gotta take the bus there..."

"Let's check out this movi-- aaaaaa crap.... fine, going solo is fine, itll just be a self care day instead".

It'll happen.... I don't miss him honestly, only in small ways.

Like, the way he smiled was always cute, even if sometimes it looked like he was uncomfortably biting his bottom lip instead of actually smiling.

The cuddling was okay, but I already know that good relationships and sex are everywhere, and cant be too emotional about some stupid shit like that. "UWU HE HELD ME SO NICE", bitch, arms are everywhere, its not hard to cuddle.

Hell, even a narcissistic nazi would probably know to cuddle.

.....why am I trying to egg myself into somehow having feelings for this person again?

They sealed the deal. I cant come back from that. Plus cursing out his bitch ass "friend" probably also makes it easier for both of us to realize that continuing this relationship would be a terrible ass idea.

........I'm not sure how to feel exactly, but I know that he fucked up, and i had to fuck him up as well, or else I'd go back to him and look foolish.

We all know hes not leaving his shitty friend behind or gonna stand up to them to actually have them learn to not be a dickhead in terms of talking about me, and from the way they said I was in the wrong for...... not wanting to date someone that allows blatant disrespect towards me.

.....it doesnt matter how much I thought stuff went well, hes still pathetic, and I wasnt about to date someone like that.

A doormat, an asshole, an enabler.

....I'm just disappointed, if anything.

But, eh.

I'll just say this....

Was it wrong of me to curse out that bitch? Maybe ever so slightly, but, i dont care about her any more. (Since apparently its HER place to dictate what can happen in my relationship, and be mad over shit from 3 months ago, but not MY place to actually have healthy communication with my man, who's supposed to see me as just important in his life as well... and his stupid ass really just agreed with her, too. Aight, imma head out. 👌.)

Admittedly, I could've waited until a day passed or whatever, but....

No point in talking it out. If anything, all that he did and said, said enough about how he lacked value and faith in our relationship.

And me telling his geek ass art friend that she overstepped WAY over the fucking line was deserved, really.

He can say its "dumb shit i shoukdnt have been mad about" all day if he so pleases. If it makes him sleep at night, and if it makes his bed any less empty, or his phone any less dry....

Did you get the Validation, Patrick?

Did you get the Healthy Communication from the bitch that had cursed you out for having the audacity to talk to a mutual friend, who you also date, about things happening in your life?

Did you get the pussy, man? :)

Nah. All he got was his ass screenshotted and posted on my instagrams, blocked, and told off.

All over some bitch that decided it was 100% her business, and right, to judge me over things that happened way before me and him had an actual relationship.

....sigh.

I hope he actually does cry, homie needs that emotional connection in his life forreal.

And thats all I should say for now.

If you're reading this and you're my ex....

You made your bed, now lie in it.

Don't hate me for some shit you pulled, lol. So yeah, guess all i can do is listen to my favorite songs, then do some good for myself if this loser clearly just couldn't. Seriously. :)

God bless and amen. Peace out, yalls. :)

[itsbenedict]

So today I spent approximately all day (to the exclusion of even the exercise i was supposed to do on my off day) playing Miitopia. Yeah. I got that thing and played it. I got through the first third of the game, hoping to do so before one in the morning but failing to do so because AGH

I’VE NEVER FELT SO MUCH PURE AGONY AT THE SIGHT OF A FORK ON THE ROAD THAN I HAVE WHILE PLAYING THIS GAME. WHY DO I NEED TO PLAY THESE FEATURELESS LEVELS THREE OR FOUR TIMES BEFORE THEY’RE COMPLETE. HAVE MERCY.

i’ve got a bunch of miis but also a bunch of roles i still need to fill- friends with OC miis, please send QR codes my way if you’ve got them

anyway here comes miitopia screenshot dump/adventure log

the autofilled streetpass pick for the tutorial character was so good that i didn’t bother changing it. “Carefree Guide Introducing Player Character To The Starting Town”, go.

i only had one granny available, so i guess helen’s gotta be here instead of doing something funnier later

i got malky’s DISTRUST miis all up in this. here is Mizushima Yuu scaring the daylights outta me

or i guess Heterodyne Yuu, because there were only so many characters i had available who were inventors and also potentially moms. sorry, agatha, them’s the breaks! you gotta deal with this kid!

designated pronouns can kiss my ass, harold

later oshiro rewards me with 10 gold for saving his entire face. what a fuckin cheapskate this guy is.

who let this man run a town???

then again, i could say that for pretty much any of the miis in my collection, so, alright monsieur voltaire, you are the least unqualified candidate here! congratulations!

AND THEN A FINAL BOSS ATTACKED

evil intern Mell W. Kelly is moving up in the world!

(...i’m gonna be honest, i was planning to make myself the Dark Lord and put someone else in as player character, but then i saw the pop star outfits and couldn’t resist.)

look at her. she’s so happy to be terrorizing the planet. helen would be proud.

then i got to choose my class, and... there really wasn’t any other choice.

look how fucking rad the male pop star’s starting outfit is??? i’m living the karamatsu aesthetic. hell yes.

shortly, my first party member joins me! i was planning to have him show up later, but the team i had planned for the first leg of the journey... well, i didn’t know that all the classes weren’t unlocked from the start, so my dream team is going to have to wait.

so instead, i recruit a space pirate.

welcome to the party’s Thief, Peter Vonn! with the amazing ability to Stab Everybody At Once.

also jesus christ the way i set up the eyes causes BIG PROMBLEMS with certain expressions

the third party member is...

Lisa Bradley, aka Paladin, from Strong Female Protagonist! It... turned out there wasn’t exactly a proper Paladin class, so the joke fell a little flat. but still! she’s gonna win!

then Mell came by to blast us into microscopic debris, but 

SHSL Philosopher is basically the same thing as “Great Sage”, right? the party’s verdict:

(if you haven’t read Strong Female Protagonist, Paladin is being an entirely in-character amount of gay right now)

(if you haven’t read Parhelion, Peter is being an entirely in-character amount of gay right now)

anyway, then it was time for the fourth party member to show up- but i realized that all the lesbians in my collection who weren’t underage, which would have left Lisa high and dry. i ventured forth to Mii Central to find a community-created perfect match

ms. pauling gets to be a cleric because there’s no “assassin” or “bureaucrat” class so far, and my party needs a healer badly. she’s going to room with Lisa and they are going to be the world’s deadliest power couple.

so that’s the party for part 1! me, Peter Vonn, Paladin, and Ms. Pauling. Kind of a motley crew, honestly! but i made it work.

oh, and. here begins the unintentional but in hindsight inevitable story of how i get ruthlessly seduced by a space pirate.

 a space pirate wearing a purple duck costume. Vonn, please.

Vonn, please.

VONN, PLEASE.

VONN, YOU’RE TOO SMOOTH, STOP

VONN, HOLY FUCK

anyway those things happened over the course of the plot, wherein we eventually reached the castle. the castle had guards. the initial selections were...

questionable.

for the guard who blocks your progress and won’t let you pass, i, uh. made a decision.

because. of the line where he goes. y’know. on the bridge. to the balrog? that one? that line? is the joke? i’m. sorry.

for the other guards...

a cushy job, except for the part where you get beaten up by demons later! sorry about that one.

at one point i got a haircut and it was FUCKING fantastic. i didn’t know that these weren’t permanent and only lasted for the scene where you show them off, and you would not BELIEVE how disappointed i was.

then we met the king, and i didn’t have any great ideas for him- so i went to Mii Central and looked through the popular choices again. and i found one that turned out to be on the popular choices list for a REASON

i also met the princess, but i’m not going to show her just yet, because for the love triangle, i decided to go with a certain infamous trio of podcast adventurers, and i’d like to preserve the mounting sense of dread as the identity of the princess is discovered via process of elimination

here’s number one:

it is SO hard to make a mii for Magnus Burnsides when the mii maker doesn’t have any fuckin sideburns options whatsoever

some miscellaneous scenes from the adventure:

workout sesh feat. matching outfits. god damn, vonn. how do you set these things up?

Vonn finally becomes a pirate

the game had me be like “haha just kidding” after this but, no, come on, this is exactly in-character, thank you very much

also i got the best outfit in the fucking game

fuckin. look at this. i’m ripped as hell, wearing a teal lamé outfit feat. suspenders and no shirt, carrying a rainbow microphone, makin’ bedroom eyes at Peter fucking Vonn. what has he done to me. what are these powers he has.

and then we meet the snooty asshole prince- which is to say,

“expert swordsmanship” here meaning “keeping the Flaming Raging Poisoning Sword of Doom decoratively strapped to my back the whole time”

and now that you know who the two princes are, i have some bad news.

AHAHAHAHAHA GET DUNKED ON MAXIE!!! GET DUNKED ON!!!! I GOT YOU! I’M A THOUSAND PERCENT SURE I FUCKIN GOT YOU!!! GUESS WHY I WENT AND BOUGHT THIS FUCKIN GAME? SPECIFICALLY FOR THIS MOMENT, GET WRECKED

anyway then i won and stuff. but at what cost, etc. etc.