#I was going to write a full fic where Angel fell in love with [Redacted] curing their symptoms but i got lazy

[mycryptidisqueererthanyours]

[Redacted] Hanahaki AU

Hunched over the sink, [Redacted’s] body trembled as familiar pain blazed through him, before being overwhelmed by familiar nausea. Familiar tears streamed down his face, as he ducked his head and retched. He seized and writhed as he threw up, vomit and blood pooling in the sink, clinging to skin in a way that made him want to claw it off. 

‘Angel,’ he croaked, voice reverent almost as if he were in prayer. But they couldn’t hear him here. And, even if they could, what could they do? Hold his hair back? ‘They could love me. They could love me like I love them,’ he whispered to the empty room, with its cold, empty countertops.

After being sick a few more times and finally being reasonably certain that he wasn’t going to be again, they peered into the basin below. Although he already knew what to expect, his doctors always advised him to confirm before doing anything else. Sure enough, hidden amongst his filth, stained white petals shone through. 

Despite their beauty, what they symbolised or - rather - who, he couldn’t help but breathe out a pained swear. Almost entire Brugmansia Arborea or angel’s trumpet blooms were coagulated in the sink, baptised in ugly shades of browns and reds. He had tainted them, as he always did. 

He reached up to open the mirrored medicine cabinet but his reflection gave him pause. God, he looked like shit, covered in assorted bodily fluids, eyes haggard and hair ill-kept. He needed a shower, badly. He tranced a hand over the scar on his chest, like it could in any way quell the lingering pain. It never did. 

Especially with how fully formed the flowers were, they might have to crack open his ribs and clear out his lungs again within the year and he’d barely recovered from the previous round of surgery. 

[Redacted] knew how unusually severe their case was. How - no matter how many times they operated on him - they just couldn’t fully eradicate the roots that were so deeply enshrined in his flesh, how it only ever seemed to progress faster each time, how their beautiful petals secreted sweet poison but he would sooner die than give up on his Angel.

His Angel would reciprocate in time. He’d make sure of it.

They opened the cabinet and grabbed a new needle. He checked the packaging for the dosage of physostigmine, as he always did in case it had magically changed in his sleep (it hadn’t), before peeling the needle open and filling it. Finally, with ill-deserved tenderness, he lined the needle up with his arm and gritted his teeth. 

This part always hurt. 

@14dayswithyou because I think I saw somewhere where they said they like being @ ed but I can remove it if that’s what they’d prefer

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Masterlist

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Fics

Train Pt 1 

All My Choices - “All my choices lead to you” prompt

Hot and Cold - He would compliment you one moment, and hurt you the next

Just a Drink - Someone came to hit on you at the bar...

Nothing More - You and him were friends with benefits...and nothing more? NSFW

Remember - You succumb to the thoughts in your head, and he’s there to remind you

Monster - “Why do you have to make me into a monster?” prompt

Snow - You get lost in blizzard and Levi is worried sick

By Your Side - What happens when your cheesy pickup line loving self gets paired with a handsome bodyguard?

Education - You are a poc, and somehow the world will not leave you alone

Counting the Days - Levi just wants to do the do, but his son gets in the way. NSFW

Bows - “I just wanted to be pretty for you” 

Carry a Tune - (LawyerAU) Levi gets jealous.

Never - He broke up with you out of the blue

Alleged Allergies - (LawyerAU) Levi and your cat adoption adventures

Fish - You’re feeding your baby and Levi couldn’t be more supportive

What More Could You Ask For - You and Levi with your kids on a beautiful morning

I Miss Her Too - Your best friend was gone. How could you ever heal?

Tease - (LawyerAU) You have to entertain an important client for the firm...your boyfriend is NOT pleased

Pep Talk - Hanji’s messy cat comes over to meet your cat...what could go wrong?

Next to You - He opens his eyes, and sees you, fast asleep.

Never Expected - He breaks up with you, but you loved him so much. So why?

For the Night - You met his eyes from across the club. Memories that weren't your own swirled in your head. One night of passion ensued. NSFW

Treading Water - You fall into the water after a titan attack. You can’t swim.

Poopyhead - You and Levi’s darling son goes missing one day

The Sham - You were arranged to married to Levi. It was a sham. 

Your Touch - Levi was so so stressed, so you do what you can to help him

Uprising - You loved him so much, but the moment never seemed right

Someone You Loved - He watched as you fell out of love with him

I Wish - Him and you were over months ago. What more could he have to say?

You Weren’t There - You were missing in action for weeks. No way you were still alive. Right?

Mergers and Accusations - (Lawyer AU) Your boyfriend couldn't have leaked your confidential files...could he? 

The Mop Job - Levi, Isabel, and Farlan and Levi’s broken ankle 

Where You Belong - You and Levi were expecting. So what happens when one of you loses their memory?

A Matter of Time - It was only a matter of time before one of you caught feelings

Hold On - There was nothing you wouldn’t do for your sister...who also happened to be Levi’s girlfriend.

Dibs - You sought out Levi for comfort after a breakup

Mirrors - You felt insecure in your body. Levi comforts you

Pumpkin - You tell Levi you’re pregnant against a gorgeous fall background

His Touch - You have a phobia of intimacy, and you thought you were ready to try something new

You Never Liked Her - You stood by Levi through it all. What about your own feelings?

Stressed - You were so stressed over exams, and Levi helps you out

Pet - You were a high ranking demon. And then you met him

Treading Water 2 - he was so glad to have you back and he wanted to show you (tiny bit spicy)

About Damn Time - the other vets act as ScoutWingmen because you and Levi were taking too long

Pointe - Levi finds you alone in the mess hall in the middle of the night. Dancing?

Zoom - the 104th kiddos see a cat...in two zoom calls?

How Many Times? - how many times does Levi have to ask you to be his?

Diamonds - (MafiaAU) Fluff/angst

Just a Trim - haircut with Levi drabble

Whirlybird - domestic drabble

Moot - LawyerAU, nsfw | watching Levi demolish opposing counsel made you feel a certain way...

Headcanons

- Levi’s Ideal s/o - kinda turned imagine/scenario, some nsfw

- Levi with a Med&Science s/o

- Levi with s/o with eating disorder  - tw eating disorder mention

- Levi with a s/o who has a fear of intimacy

- Levi with a s/o who cries after sex - mention of past trauma, fluff, kinda nsfw

- Levi with a s/o who is RIPPED 

- Cheater!Levi with a badass s/o

- Cheater!Levi with a badass s/o PT2 

- Levi when his s/o has a miscarriage (tw) 

- Levi with a smaller male s/o

- Levi with a s/o with narcolepsy 

- Levi with a smaller bratty male sub! s/o NSFW

- Awkward sub!Levi in a relationship - SFW, fluffy af

- Levi when he meets another full Asian girl

- Levi slow dancing with you

- Levi with a dom!male reader

- Levi with a s/o who looks like an angel but is kinda the devil

- Levi with a s/o who likes to laugh/tell jokes

THIRSTY THURSDAYS - NSFW AF Y’ALL. 18+!!!!!!!!

#1  - oral reader receiving | You just wanted to try sitting on his face...

#2 - first time, smut, choking kink | You waited for him to be your first

#3 - Sub!Levi, tied up, slapping | He wanted to prove he could take orders

#4 - Dom!Levi, jealous/possessive, edging | You spent time with Erwin?

#5 - Waxplay, sensation play, edging, dom-ish Levi | You wanted to try this...

#6 - Omegaverse, ModernAU | Your heat was coming and the sauna helped

#7 - Dirty talk, modern AU | You just wanted to watch the dang movie

#8 - Pegging, prostate stimulation, sub!Levi | You wanted to try something...

#9 - public sex, oral, dirty talk | A fun time in the waterpark changeroom

#10 - dirty talk, sex, modernAU | You wanted him to do more than just your taxes

#11 - bathtub sex | Levi saw you training cadets...and oops you’re hot

#12 - Modern AU, dirty talk, name calling, domlevi | You were worried Levi wasn't enjoying himself

#13 - hurt/comfort, comfort sex, fluff | After the [redacted] Levi was worried you were avoiding him 

#14 - jealous/possessive dom!Levi, rough sex, choking, slapping | You got a little carried away squealing over your favourite actor...

#15 - MIKE X READER - daddy kink, size kink | no plot just fucking Mike while calling him daddy

#16 - oral female receiving | He was too busy to give you attention...

#17 - older!reader (31) x Levi (25). No kinks just sex | it had been so long since you were with someone...then you met him

#18 - public-ish sex | you and him were friends with benefits for years. But one day, beneath the stars and against the wall...

#19 - oral, slight voyeurism | you, in a dress. Him under the table...what could go wrong?

#20 - oral, vaginal sex, slight voyeurism | you and levi get walked in on

#21 - touchstarved Levi | just sex no kinks, fluffy

#22 - Eren x Reader, modern AU, soft + sweet, no kinks, fluff

Multi - Chaptered

Abeille: Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6

Not Levi 

Sneakers - Annie x fem!reader - Annie goes to the mall to get a pair of sneakers...what she didnt expect to find was you 

She - Mikasa x fem!reader - You just loved her so much. But she...

[theputterer]

Good Things In 2020

It’s that time of year again! Time to remember all the good things that happened in 2020. I’ve done this since 2017, and highly recommend doing this as a fun way to reflect (and to have something for future reference when you are feeling Down.)

First off:

lol

2020 was a dumpster fire, and the real accomplishment and reward is in the simple act of making it this far. Congratulations! If the only thing you did you find to be noteworthy was surviving, that’s extremely true and valid. jesus christ.

PERSONAL

I’ve been working from home since March and it’s fucking weird. I do enjoy rolling out of bed like a minute before the office “opens” and I love not having to commute and I love grabbing a snack whenever I feel like it.

Got a space heater since I work in the attic, which is very fun.

I got a bonus from my work since we changed up our mail processing to a regional model and I do all of it. So that’s fun. I’ve never gotten a bonus before.

I received my Irish citizenship in February! It came RIGHT ON TIME, as Ireland stopped processing Foreign Birth Registration applications in March, due to COVID.

I submitted my passport application in September, when they opened again for non-emergent passport applications, so fingers crossed that one will get to me sometime.

I did not go on a vacation this year (I wanted to go to Chicago in the spring) but I was able to take time off still, which is nice.

The Los Angeles Dodgers won the World Series!!!!!!

big shout-out to @vaderkat and @fortysevenswrites for watching and talking it all through with me.

I, uh, wrote a 407,000 word fic series called Binary Star System. It’s a Sequel Trilogy AU, with the premise that Han and Leia had identical twin sons; one of them fell to the Dark and became Kylo Ren, and the other did not.

and the world will be better for this: a THE FORCE AWAKENS AU

“Promise me something. Promise me that whatever you do, whatever you become… Promise me that it will always be your choice.”

that looking-glass ache: a THE LAST JEDI AU

“You are your own best thing.”

to meet beyond shadows: this isn’t even a TROS AU because I hated TROS so it’s just a full off-road Old EU romp that serves as the final installment of this trilogy

“You know where to find me.”

I’m honestly super proud of this series.

I did not write any ROGUE ONE fic this year, for the first time since 2017! I think this is a good thing. I’m always trying to move away from fic and not publishing any since July seems good.

MOVIES

(bolded if I particularly liked them. I saw more movies but am not mentioning them because #positivity).

I think the last (and only?) movie I saw in a theater in 2020 was BIRDS OF PREY, which I enjoyed. Other 2020 movies I saw and liked:

HORSE GIRL

DA 5 BLOODS

HAMILTON

THE OLD GUARD

PALM SPRINGS

ENOLA HOLMES

Movies that came out in past years I saw for the first time and enjoyed:

ONCE UPON A TIME... IN HOLLYWOOD

THE FAREWELL

HARRIET

LITTLE WOMEN

PORTRAIT OF A LADY ON FIRE

PARASITE

1917

ZOMBIELAND 2

OPHELIA

THREE IDENTICAL STRANGERS

LADY MACBETH

VITA & VIRGINIA

PROFESSOR MARSTON AND THE WONDER WOMEN

THE CABIN IN THE WOODS

TV

KILLING EVE, Season 2

I know season 3 is now on Hulu but I haven’t gotten there!

WATCHMEN

I watched this in like the one week it was on Hulu

THE MANDALORIAN

(I mostly liked this; season 1 was great)

E.R.

I stopped halfway through... season 8? Whenever [REDACTED] dies.

THE CROWN

I watched the most recent season exclusively because I was so intrigued at how angry the Royal Family is and jesus christ.

SUPERNATURAL

ok well the good news is that it’s finally done even though the discourse will continue endlessly.

I hated the finale. it didn’t make any senseeeee

but real talk I fucking loved how batshit November was.

BOOKS

(bolded if I particularly liked them).

I got into Tana French!

"In The Woods”, “The Likeness”, “Faithful Place”, “Broken Harbor”

I got into N.K. Jemisin!

“The Hundred-Thousand Kingdoms”, “The Broken Kingdoms”, “The Kingdom of Gods”, “The Fifth Season”, “The Obelisk Gate”, “The Stone Sky”

“Ninth House” by Leigh Bardugo

“All The Birds In The Sky” by Charlie Jane Anders

“Dune” by Frank Herbert

“Underland” by Robert Macfarlane

“A Kind of Mirraculas Paradise” by Sandra Allen

“Virginia Woolf” by Gillian Gill

“Tangerine” by Christine Mangen

“My Dark Vanessa” by Kate Elizabeth Russell

“Circe” by Madeleine Miller

“The Sparrow” by Mary Doria Russell

“Three Moments of an Explosion” by China Miéville

“Luster” by Raven Leilani

“The Starless Sea” by Erin Morganstern

“Exhalation” by Ted Chiang

“The Protest Psychosis” by Jonathan Metzl

“The Lost Family” by Libby Copeland

“Hush” by Dylan Farrow

“Piranesi” by Susanna Clarke

I just want to mention I read “Midnight Sun” by Stephenie Meyer. it was huge and not worth it.

MUSIC

I have no fucking concept of music this year except I’ve been listening to evermore by Taylor Swift nonstop.

OTHER GOOD THINGS

“Who Did J.K. Rowling Become?” by Molly Fischer for Vulture. A really great deep dive into J.K. Rowling as a person and celebrity. (c.w. discussions of TERFdom).

“Happiness Won’t Save You” by Jennifer Senior for The New York Times. An obituary for a psychologist who specialized in determining what creates happiness, who ultimately completed suicide. great read.

This compilation of how the world celebrated when it was announced Trump could not win the Electoral College.

New York

Washington, D.C.

Toronto

The moment the Dodgers won the World Series, told in a series of gifs.

Everybody loves Kershaw.

Everybody loves Kershaw, part 2.

“I was born in a mother and baby home - we have a right to our past” by Fionn Davenport for The Journal. An op-ed following the news the Irish government voted to seal the records of a commission on the notorious mother and baby homes of Ireland for thirty years. required reading.

“The Mystery of the Immaculate Concussion” by Julia Ioffe for GQ. this is absolutely fucking wild and terrifying!

This video of Werner Herzog talking about how many languages he speaks.

He knows French but refuses to speak it.

“The Lynn Shelton that Marc Maron Knew” by Dave Itzkoff for The New York Times. Local filmmaker Lynn Shelton died suddenly this spring. It’s a huge loss. This is a lovely remembrance through the eyes of someone who loved her. The podcast episode Maron released following her death, with their first conversation, is so great too.

“Mad Max Fury Road: The Oral History of a Modern Classic” by Kyle Buchanan for The New York Times. I fucking love this movie and it is a MIRACLE it exists.

“I Don’t Want to Be the Strong Female Lead” by Brit Marling for The New York Times. what makes a good female character?

“PATERSON & the Secret Poet Hearts that Beat Within Us” by Sarah Goor for The Spool. I love what this movie has to say about art and love, and this essay breaks it down nicely.

Honorable mention: FOUR SEASONS TOTAL LANDSCAPING

I don’t think I laughed harder all year.

anyway. what a god damn weird year this was. I miss my friends desperately; I have not gotten to hang out with any since March. I miss my co-workers. I miss eating in restaurants, and going to the movie theater. I miss going to the library. I even miss going to the gym.

I don’t believe 2021 is going to immediately improve things. I don’t believe the pandemic in the U.S. will be even slightly better until June at the earliest. but there are multiple vaccines already out in the world, and I didn’t expect we’d have that so soon.

and we will have a president again and that’s huge. Biden has his issues but he actually wants the job and has the capacity (emotionally, professionally) to do it. these 4 years of Trump have really proven how much of a difference this makes.

I’d like to wish all of you a safe New Year. thanks for brightening up my online experience!

tagging (if you want to do it): @leaiorganas, @fortysevenswrites, @anexitlike​, @vaderkat​, @alecjmarsh​, @i-am-slain​, @cassianserso​, @callioope​, @starborncas​, @palis-delon​, @sunflowrer​, @magalis​, @kestrelsward​, @the-strongest-stars​, @alittlemomentum​, @moprocrastinates​, @rogue-rook​, @beaufale​, @castiellover77​ and anyone else who wants to give this a shot!