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Everyone is talking about Rickyl x reader and I love it, but where is Richonne x reader fics?!?!? I NEED it now in a way that is concerning to my mental health
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as a bona fide vaxleth lover i am more confused than ever about how they are portrayed on the animated series i'm not gonna lie đ
#not that different is bad like it doesn't affect or 'ruin' the actual source material#i just legitimately do not understand some of their choices here#there's stuff i really like ofc but u know. i've written multiple long analyses about conflict in their relationship#and in previous seasons it seemed to me like they were just smoothing out those sharp edges which bummed me out ngl#(for one there was a line at the end of s1 where kiki directly contradicted her campaign self in favor of No Conflict that i was feeling#unsatisfied with. and s2 didn't contend with rq as a sticking point for keyleth really at all)#and like to be honest my distaste for that is biased by like fandom drama of years past and people shitting on them for that exact stuff#so for me it kinda felt like an updated and palatable version that appealed to the group of people that made me feel bad for liking them#which is again like a strong personal bias lol but u know it also is just. a really important story to me that i love#but this season it's like they went no no. they do actually need to fight that was a big thing. hmmmm what about#AH YES. let's reverse their povs about their relationship completely.#have not finished ep3 yet but 10 min in i'm just like HUH?#again this doesn't rly matter and the show remains an enjoyable adaptation it's just truly bizzare to me đ how did this choice get made#it speaks#lovm spoilers#sorry I'm not done yet actually because the specific conflict about happiness in the present being or not being worth sorrow later#is the VERY CORE OF BOTH OF THOSE CHARACTERS and to switch which one feels which is way more than weird for the romance it's weird for like#what each of their whole individual deal is. that's why i'm so ??????????????#gah. i truly don't want to complain too badly#(and tbh the eps simply don't have enough runtime for vax to be as completely-falling-apart as he actually was and the role of#depression and trauma and self-loathing in that vs like. a more easily telegraphed supernatural boogeyman#-which if they slowed the pace down more might fit in but the scale of the story is so grand that they can't so like i begrudingly get it.#but still absolutely wild for the solution to be: do away with their actual arguments about divinity or keyleth's insecurity about#outliving all of vox machina. oh btw we are giving the vision she had of that to vax as a gift from rq or whatever#so he can be inscure about it instead. because he's fate touched or smthn. and that's too abstract for us to explore here so let's just#give him ominous visions.)#the more i have typed the saltier i have gotten i'm sorry it's just WILD TO MEEEE
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Astrology observations-33
I notice a lot of Taurus moon/mars people tend to hoard a lot. Iâve seen ppl with this placement go thru periods in their life where they lost a lot of valuable things whether it be because of money issues of moving away or they may have had a period in their lives where material possessions were very scarce.
Venus in retrograde people tend to come off very cold in social situations. Iâve only seen a handful of ppl with this placement bc itâs quiet rare to find but I notice they tend to lack social graces so people assume they are rudeâšď¸ but deep down these ppl are so shy and sweet. I also notice this is lowkey a beauty aspect like ppl with this placement be sooo FINE but they never see it themselves (similar to Venus square Ascendant)
Saturn square Venus synastry is SOOOO annoying to have for both parties. You both wanna connect badly but everytime you interact thereâs this overly formal way you guys about things especially on Saturns end. These people are so attracted to eachother too but thereâs always something that keeps you from really getting to know this person whether it be distance, vulnerability problems, communication barriers ect. It usually takes these people a long ass time to connect but when they do itâs so long lasting just takes a lot of trust.
Aries sun/venus tend to try to over dominate their partners and friends a lot. I notice these people always try to compete with others to prove their superiority. This can cause them to have a bully reputation.
Mars in Taurusâs tend to work best when they are working with their hands ESPECIALLY in nature. They are usually amazing farmers/gardeners.
Mars in 3rd house people tend to have a very intense relationship with their siblings. They usually grew up arguing with them a lot or not getting along. Could also indicate having aggressive siblings. Could have a lot of resentment towards them.
Dating a Sag Venus & Aqua Venus just feels like youâre being friendzonedđ
Scorpio moons tend to get really embarrassed when they act out of emotion (Scorpio suns too but Scorpio moons definitely take the cake) they can lose control of their emotions for a second then start ghosting you for like a year lmao.
Aquarius risings are all soo hottt but when you get to know them deeper your just kinda like â????â Uk
Aquarius suns tend to be the least ambitious. They arenât as attached to money like most I notice. (Unless they got a lot of Taurus and Capricorn)
Virgo moons are such clean girls đ§ź
Venus in the 7th house people (especially with libra in the big three) usually canât be alone for too long. Needs a lot of romantic attention to function. I notice if they donât get that they tend to lowkey self destruct and go back to toxic exes.
Venus in the 2nd house people have the best self esteem. People usually only associate this placement with finances but people forget 2nd house also rules self worth. When positively aspected these people have such a deep love for themselves which turns them into a magnet. However If underdeveloped they can be very pessimistic & greedy & attract a lot of narcissists that use them for their $$.
Aries sun Cap moon people tend to be bullies.
Lilith in Pisces people tend to victimize themselves in every situation where they may be viewed negatively. They hate being held accountable for their faults.
Aries placements love provoking people and pushing their buttons. They find it stimulating.
Do not argue with someone with a Virgo moon and Scorpio Mars unless youâre ready to cry your eyes out for months
Taurus moons are usually very shy especially with a water/earth mercury it can be harder for these people to make friends due to their fear of getting out their comfort zone. You usually have to be very patient with these people they scope you out for awhile before they decide they want to be friends. Be lucky if they pick you too cuz they are PICKY.
When a Scorpio rising is attracted to you they will STAREEE INTO YOUR EYES. They are the masters at silent seduction. They wonât be overly flirtatious but the minutes they look at you itâs like theyâre looking into your soul. And while it can make your heart stop it is very intimidating at times. You see so much obsession in their eyes when they like you. But when they hate you itâs like youâre invisible to them they wonât even acknowledge your presence most of the time.
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Synastry Observations Pt. 3 đ
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DISCLAIMER: These are just my personal observations and are meant for entertainment purposes only; it may not resonate with everyone due to the nuances of astrology. Please respect my work and avoid copying or stealing it. Enjoy reading!! đŚ
đ in my opinion, moon opposite mars synastry can be SO MUCH better than moon conjuct mars. with moon conjunct mars, the energy gets WAY too intense (sexual energy or just the normal vibe between the two) and to some extent it is exciting and when itâs good itâs REALLY good but when its bad its EXPLOSIVE. whereas the opposition offers a more balanced approach to the relationship. Itâs not ON THE FACE typa energy but rather HMMM thereâs something interesting about you and i NEED to know youđ¤¨đ
đ i mentioned in my favorite synastry placement post, how I loved mars in the 1st house synastry and I TAKE IT BACK lmaođđ. This synastry is sooo triggering for no reason, mars person and house person CANNOT help but argue or fight for the silliest things. A lot of heated arguments and with 1st house synastry these arguments could happen in public toođ and everyone else around is like âomg yâall fr need to chill âđ˝đâ. Very intense energy again
đ 6th house synastry IS SO CUTE. you KNOW you can surely rely on people you share this synastry with (especially sun, moon and venus). itâs the âlet me help you out with thatâ or âdo you wanna go to the gym together?â or âomg letâs go and check out the new air fryer theyâre sellingâđđŤśđť. you literally donât need a special occasion or outing just to have fun with them. doing mundane tasks can also seem so exciting and refreshing if itâs with themđĽş
đ (18+) mars/venus/pluto in the 6th house synastry could indicate that yâall NEED to do the deed daily đ
đ another SUPER underrated synastry placement is moon - uranus synastry (trine, sextile and conjunction to some extent). this is the typa synastry where you can say the most random shit and the other person is like âomg fr i totally agreeâ and then yâall start laughing at something silly đ, itâs SO CUTE
đ lilith square venus synastry is confusing ngl, it has a very push and pull type of energy, especially from the lilith personâs side. Itâs like the lilith person wants the venus person BUT they also donât want the venus person to know that they want them ykđđ?? lilith person wants the control and letting the venus person know they might be interested in them is potentially the lilith person letting their guard down and not having the entire control to themselves so they altogether avoid fully committing and just want to keep the venus person guessing đ
đ mars - saturn synastry has some WEIRD sexual tension to it. itâs like yâall both know you want it so bad but thereâs something stopping you from acting on itđ, delayed gratification i suppose?đ
đ venus conjunct ascendant does not guarantee that both the parties will fall head over heels for each other. mostly the ascendant person ends up catching feelings QUICK and the venus person could just find the ascendant person attractive and not anything more than than. in any case the house person is the one who falls hard for the venus person (most of the scenarios Iâve seen irl, played out this way). but nonetheless both find each other EXTREMELY attractive FOR SURE â¤ď¸âđĽ
đ sun in the 11th house synastry đ¤đť ALWAYS HAVING FUN TOGETHER no matter whatđ
đ when earth house (2nd, 6th, and 10th) synastry is involved, you'll most definitely care about making a good impression and will think carefully before speaking or acting because you donât want the other person to think badly of you đ
đ conversely with fire house (1st, 5th,9th) synastry you donât really care AS much and are easily able to express your feelings more openly without the fear of judgment đ¤Ş
đ water house (4th, 8th, and 12th) synastry is like a blend of both earth and fire house synastry. you do care about what the other person thinks of you, but not so much that you keep your thoughts and feelings to yourself. at first, you might be cautious about sharing your feelings, but then you realize how much the other person just gets you, and eventually, you bond over some extremely random yet specific situations you've both experienced đ
đ water house synastry culture can literally be crying together and comforting each other during and afterđĽş
đ honestly gemini placements are such LOYAL and loving partners and are wholeheartedly committed when they are in a relationship, i hate when i read posts that say âgemini placements are cheaters/ afraid of commitmentâ blah blah, have you ever seen a gemini placement in love? literally the most devoted and supportive lovers frđŤśđť
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YES I KNOW THAT HEâS MY EX! | TOM BLYTH
pairing. tom blyth x fem!actress!reader
summary. you knew tom was your ex, and that you should probably stay away, but thatâs never stopped you before
part 1 | installment of this au (please read for more context!)

ynuser :)
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user1 im loving the aesthetic
user2 THE BIKINI TOP IS SO CUTE
user3 put them toes awayyyy
rachelzegler i pay attention to things that most people ignore (this isnât your car.)
⼠user4 PLEASE?? not rachel using ynâs own lyrics on her
⼠user5 IS THIS TOMâS CAR??
user6 i may be delulu but those r tom blythâs mfing hands.
user7 he has her hair tie on; i repeat, tom blyth literally has ynâs hair tie on
When Tom had messaged you saying he wanted to talk, no matter how much you knew it was a bad idea, you decided to agree to it anyway.
The breakup had ended pretty badly. Although it was an agreement between you and Tom, that didnât mean thatâs what the both of you truly wanted.
The reason the two of you broke up in the first place was that Tom was talking too much about your future, which wasnât a bad thing â but it overwhelmed you. You werenât ready to settle down, not yet, at least. You and Tom had only been dating for a few months, and although it was all sweet and loving, you knew that getting engaged this early was like asking for a disaster to strike.
He was upset. Clearly. He loved you, you loved him, so why was it such an inconvenience for you to agree to take the leap in your relationship? That caused a blown out argument between you two, and by the end of it, you had agreed breaking up was the right thing.
You had a acting and music career to focus on, and Tom had an acting career that was just at the beginning of its success. You felt that it wasnât right to put a distraction into his life.
âIs this a bad idea?â You ask breathlessly as you pull away from the kiss. You canât help but stare into Tomâs eyes, which held a language of their own.
âMaybe,â he says, wiping the corner of your mouth. âBut who cares?â
Who cares. Right. Well surely, it was a bad idea to meet up with your ex, much less kiss him, and although alarms were baring in your head that you probably shouldnâtâyou go in for a second kiss, this time, Tom doesnât let you go, cradling you close to his body.
âI donât care if you donât want to take the next step in our relationship, Iâm fine if youâre not ready yet. I just want you, okay?â
And how could any girl possibly reject Tom Blyth when heâs begging so prettily? Certainly not you.
tomblyth and ynuser both posted an instagram story !


ynsbiggestfan THE GIRLS AND I AFTER SEEING THE STORIES ON INSTA
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user8 IM ACTUALLY DYING BC NO WAY WAS THAT A COINCIDENCE
user9 theyâre connected they cant be far away from each other
user10 sheâs my Heather đđ
⼠user12 fr i wish tom was that inlove w me
user13 so this is why rachel said that wasnât ynâs car
⼠user14 ITS ALL MAKING SENSE NOW

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ynuser pic creds ?? đ¤Ź
⼠sean.kauf đ¤đ¤
user15 wait im confused, is she together with tom again or is she with sean..
user16 Ykw i cant even be mad, if i was as hot as yn, iâd have two bfs too!
⼠user17 REAL SHIIT
tomblyth fun fact: the 2nd pic is sean third wheeling after forcing me and yn to speak to each other
⼠user17 TOM CONFIRMED IT IM DEAD
user18 all the yn haters must feel stupid asf rn after accusing yn of being with sean
⼠user19 literally cause all 3 of them are literally close đđ like why would sean date yn, heâs literally friends with tom
user20 if yn isnât dating sean let me have him omg

ynuser yes i know that heâs my ex but canât two people reconnect !!!!!
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user21 this took the cake.
user22 time to cry again bc tom blyth is off the market
user23 she got him wrapped around her finger FR
user24 THE THIRD PIC OF THEM đĽšđĽš
user25 THE CAPTION OUUU GIRLY IS BRAVE
tomblyth i only see you as a friend (the biggest lie iâve ever said)
⼠user26 I CHOKED
⼠user27 THEIR SOCIAL MEDIA MANAGERS ARE CRYING RN
#coriolanus snow angst#coriolanus snow x you#coriolanus snow smut#coriolanus snow imagine#coriolanus snow fanfiction#coriolanus snow x reader#coriolanus snow#tom blyth x reader#tom blyth#the ballad of songbirds and snakes#the hunger games x reader
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omg your celebration is soo cute congrats on 10k. could i pls request âpoor baby, all fucked out and iâve barely even touched youâ for max or oscar (or both đ)
thank you for requesting!đŤśđ˝
46. âPoor baby, all fucked out and Iâve barely even touched you.â
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You were taunting him.Â
That was the only way to describe your messages to your boyfriend whilst he was away for the triple header. You were teasing and taunting him and hanging what he desperately wanted in front of his face before yanking it away.Â
For three weeks, Max had been travelling from country to country. For three weeks, he had been away whilst you stayed home, stuck between work projects and other commitments that left you unable to join your boyfriend for any of the race weekend. And for three weeks, you had been sending the boy some of the most explicit and downright filthy messages and videos that he had ever received from you in the duration of your relationship.Â
And Max was damn near close losing his mind by the end of the triple header.Â
You knew exactly what you were doing. A plan had been set out from day one when you sent the first video despite knowing he was in between meetings with little time to spare, let alone get off to whatever you sent. You had expected to tease the boy to his absolute limit before he came home to give you what you wanted.Â
You didnât expect Max to get revenge in his own way.Â
âPoor baby, all fucked out and Iâve barely even touched you.â
A pathetic noise left your mouth as you arched against the bed, your chest panting and heaving as you desperately tried to catch your breath. You could feel your body tethering the edge again, so close to being overwhelmed with pleasure and your eyes welled up.Â
He had been going on for hours. He landed earlier that afternoon, making as few stops as he could before he came home. He had sent you a messageâa simple âbe ready, home in 5 minsââthe second his jet landed in Nice. You expected him to be all over you the second he stepped through the door, but he wasnât.
âIs this not what you wanted, schat?â His voice was sweet and patronising and it made your whole body feel hot. âAll those videos begging to come and now youâre crying about it.âÂ
âMax,â you wheezed, whiny and desperate as you looked up at him. âPlease, mâsorry, promise.âÂ
âSheâs sorry,â he mocked with a faux pout, his thumb swiping along the apple of your cheek. âSorry doesnât cut it when youâve been a brat.âÂ
âMax,â you whined, nuzzling your face against his touch but he pulled away.Â
âIâm enjoying this,â he commented as he squeezed the base of his cock, hard and heavy in his hand as he watched you squirm and wiggle on the bed. Your hands were tied above your head, your legs unable to shut with the toy between them. You were completely helpless and at his mercy. âMy desperate brat, hm? A few weeks away and you forget how to be good for me.â
âIâll be good,â you promised, your eyes glossy and dazed. âJust wanna feel you.âÂ
âAlways so desperate for my cock,â he mused before he moved closer again, kneeling right by you. âGo on then, baby. Open up. Show me just how badly you want my cock.â
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Dear author,
I love your batfam series SO MUCH. I like the way you describe the feelings, how you use the words, how the depression of Y/N was shown, and the thinking of Batfam when they realize that Y/N had been heavily neglectful. Every time I read this series again, I still feel the hurtful of it and it actually makes me cry a lot T.T. And I love that feeling. And the series makes me want to draw, even though Iâm not good at drawing.
The first panel, I draw Y/N in my thoughts ( sorry if you feel uncomfortable) and Conner. This one is inspired from a manga called â Veilâ.
The second one, I draw some scenes from chapter 3 (I tried to draw the ways Y/N calmed themselves down, but I couldnât đ).
From your series, Iâve thought about ABO au, where Y/N is a beta, they canât be marked ; so the yanderes ( romantic one) are more yandere, because they know that Y/N never belong to anyone.
Last thing to say, I VERY VERY VERY LOVE your batfam series and this is one of the greatest fics of Batfam Iâve ever read. I also very admire your hardworking and your inspiration about this series. But I hope that you also stay healthy because I saw that youâre very productive ( how you can write so fast but still focus on the details TvT). No words can reveal the love in my heart to your series.
Sorry if I either bother you or my bad grammar ( English not my native language, this is also the first time I do this ). Thank you so much because spending your time reading this piece of mine. I just want to express my feelings and thoughts about your fic. Hope you have a good day!!!<333333

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a/n: the topic of a/b/o is written under this post. anyways, this comic panel is so absolutely brilliant and breathtaking omg... i love all the thoughts u have compiled here and i'm so sorry I wasn't able to reply to this quick enough đ but i appreciate this sm !! "even tho im not good at drawing" YET U SENT ME THIS !! i absolutely love everything about this don't say ur not good at drawing bec u are đĄ
so like i said, don't be sorry if u draw the reader as female bec i portrayed them as gn so anyone can interpret them as any gender and it doesn't make me uncomfortable at all as long as i'm the one not being misgendered. anyways, veil is actually one of my fave mangas and if u ask me, i could say your relationship with conner is pretty much akin to that of veil's! which means conner is very touchy-feely with you and is uncaring of their status as a wayne and would rather... have you take his last name very soon, if you know what i mean hehe.
the second scene is absolutely heartbreaking even for me, especially the panel where your mom tries to comfort you by telling you it's all alright made my heart ache real badly because that's probably the last time you have experienced; the love of a parent that's soon taken away from you. your mom's last words would be reassurance, one that both comforts and disturbs you as the memory repeats itself over and over in you head like a broken record </3
and the abo au, for me personally (tho i never have written for it) is just going to threaten more angst with your family because not even your pack is willing to take you in and care for you. despite your hopes due to being a beta unlike your family who are comprised of strong alphas and resilient omegas, you are merely average in their eyes probably, average enough to be forgotten and discarded by a pack you had thought would take you in for you must be a misfit just like them.
yet despite the pain you had to endure for feeling unloved as a beta, it would also deepen your potential with conner as your love interest because although you could never be claimed by any past sweethearts, conner would always, and i mean always make a show that he loves you in a deeper, more symbolical way. he may not be able to mark you as your alpha, but a ring and an always protective hold on your waist paired with his scent and pheromones engraved into every piece of your clothing is enough to tell everyone to "fuck off, this one's mine."
and tysm for loving my fanfic đ even tho i have written it impulsively, look where it got now !! yes i am very productive but this is a mere product of my attention span and hyperfixations towards the dc storyline and no my health is very bad but trust me it's not from writing, it's more from me just being very ill every single day but im trying to take care of myself <33
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I loved ur fic abt having to warm up with Arthur. He was so cute in it hehe. Imagine if he picked you flowers and brought them to you and was all shy and embarrassed about it ahhhhhhhđ¤đ¤đ¤
hiiii !!! thank you so much for this wonderful ask!! ive had this in my inbox for forever so, soo sorry. đłđłbut i wrote something for this and a little self indulgent detail bc im on my period and was craving something super fluffy for my boy... i for sure included what you wanted but i added more situational stuff. I hope you like it!!!đđđđđđđĽšđĽš @emerald-ranch thanks for giving me such a good idea for this piece queen, love you sm đđ tags: fmc, periods vaguely mentioned, arthur is sooo sweet so fluffy, not quite an established relationship yet but theres something there đ
(high honor) Arthur Morgan x fem. reader
Arthur shares his space with you when you aren't feeling well.
It was only a matter of time before you could stop hiding this little problem of yours. Before, you had hidden away; Abigail had let you stay in her big tent but when she got into a severe spat with John and she stopped sleeping there, you had lost your solution to this problem. You had told Ms. Grimshaw. You asked her if it would be alright if you stayed away from chores today. She raised her brow, the line of her mouth turned skeptical. She laughed at you, like she would a child faking a cough.
âWhat are you, the only woman in the world? You ainât special. Now, get back to work! I donât want to hear anymore of this belly achinâ,â She seethes and you look down after you give her a weak nod. You look around nervously. You know that today will be bad. You just feel it. The squeeze in your lower belly and the nauseous unease in your stomach tells you so. You walk to the cutting board, bidding Pearson a good morning.Â
âYou look⌠pale,â Pearson asks suspiciously but you brush him off with a tight smile. You go back to chopping vegetables. The morning develops into a sweltering noon. The overwhelming smells of the camp and the morning chatter only put you in a precarious state. The last person youâd like to see you like this comes by, tells Pearson heâs going out. âThatâs good, I was this close to ripping the leather off the boots around here,â Pearson jokes and Arthur scoffs before passing you, where you continue working sluggishly behind the chuck wagon.Â
âYou alright?â you slowly lift your head to look up at him. You don't even have it in you to shyly avoid eye contact with his sharp blue eyes and his look of real concern. You trail up the length of his body, up his gun belt and to his brown hunters jacket.Â
âIâm sorry?â you ask, clinging to the edge of the wooden table. You turn your back to the produce you had been chopping, resting briefly against the support of the surface. You face him fully, even if itâs not the best idea if you want to keep hiding how much the pain is crawling down your thighs. It sears into your muscle, dripping like hot wax down your body.
âAsked if you was feelinâ alright,â he wants the truth out of you but you bite your lip. Ms. Grimshaw said she didnât want to hear it, you aren't sure how much youâd like to discuss this with him. Disgusted or dismissive, either or both would only serve to make things worse. Arthur dismissing you like Ms. Grimshaw would have you about ready to cry, overcome by the disrupting emotions that always come over you at times like these. He looks you over, assessing your wellness maybe. It certainly isnât in the wobble of your knee under your skirt or the pallid color of your face, a cold sweat breaking over your forehead.
âNo â I mean yes! ⌠Iâm feeling ok,â you mutter, but you arenât convincing anyone, especially not Arthur. He tilts his head and stares down at you. Heâs absorbing details (the half chopped carrot youâve been taking way too long to finish up with, your nails digging into the grain of the wood) and you do your best to smile and dismiss his badly hidden worry. You can still see the way he hesitates to walk away, shuffles his boots in the dirt, shakes his head just slightly. Heâs right not to believe you.Â
Weakness in your body begins to form, building up inside of you the longer youâve decided to ignore this pain. Itâs been burrowing holes through you all morning, for hours, youâve stood upright, trying to keep yourself from slipping. But just as Arthur is about to wish you a good day and head to his horse to ride off, you clutch at your abdomen, bent over. As if youâve been flayed open. Your pained moan makes him put a hand over your shoulder.Â
âJesus, girl, whatâs wrong with you?â you canât muster a response, too busy trying not to fall backwards. âYou need to lay down?âÂ
âPlease, I canâtâŚâ
âLike hell, you canât. Câmon,â he tries to guide you but your legs hardly move like his, and he doesnât linger a second longer. He has one of your arms around him to help, holding you up. The other camp members watch curiously but you pay them no mind. Another wave of clenching ache, like a lance through your midsection, has you doubling over again. You shuffle along with Arthur who lets you sit on his bed. He urges you to lay down.Â
âI donât know whatâs goinâ on witâyou but reckon some rest might help,â you clutch at your stomach, curling in on yourself. Arthur glances around, hands stiffly at his sides, unsure what to use them for. You canât pretend not to enjoy the comfort his mattress offers, to lay down on something soft. Embarrassment has no place in your mind as you let yourself follow his direction. Surrounded by his things and his scent, you collapse ungraciously on your side. Every moment of agony makes you whine, close to tears.Â
âYou eat somethinâ bad? Pearsonâs stew finally get the better of ya?â You shake your head, you gasp and let your eyes glaze over, unable to really converse with him. Your fingers tangle in his sheets. He cusses, calling for help. Abigail and Tilly rush over when he says your name. Abigail nods at Tilly.Â
You can make out some pieces of their conversation, itâs all muffled as your pain drowns everything out around you. Bits and pieces of the people surrounding you filter in and out. You're sweating under your skirt and you have half a mind to feel bad for putting your shoes up on Arthurâs bed. His own kindness isnât lost on you.Â
You catch words here and there. Abigail mentions your monthly. She looks at you, as if thinking better of it. Perhaps you should be ashamed but all you can do is pant and wail. Tilly returns with a cool cloth for your forehead and something pleasantly warm to place gingerly on your stomach. The brief pleasure it brings you makes you relax a little. You fall asleep to the sun's glow through the thin canvas over Arthurâs bed and the smell of the earth, the lulled tobacco scent that soaks into his sheets. The smell of his hair on the pillow, the summer sweat.Â
When you wake, sleep is a stone tied to your ankle, pulling you down until you wiggle free. You feel awful as you turn to see Arthur slumped in a chair at your bedside. His hat is pulled down low and he snores quietly. How he sleeps like that, you donât know. It brings a small smile to your face, watching him doze off in the light of the candle lit at the table next to his bed.Â
But the only reason heâs there is because he had given you his bed. Even when he could be using it. You canât see much past the canvas flaps that had been lowered to keep the chill of the breeze out but you sense the evening blue. The lack of voices tells you that it must be far past dinner already. Maybe even an hour after midnight, you canât hear much but crickets and the snap of firewood burning at the fire nearby.
Looking around more, you focus on Arthurâs tent. How strange, you had never noticed all of the little things he places around himself. Photos of people, a small flower. An honorable little picture of an older woman, his mother, you think. Your mother had always told you to look for men who loved their mothers. That detail twinges at the strings attached to your heart.Â
You sit up carefully, a blanket that's been tugged over you falls away. He wakes as you make the smallest noise. Startling, he looks up a little, straightening his neck out. He clears his throat as he rolls his shoulders out, his jacket hung on the wooden chair he sits on. He puts his hat on his head, placing it back on top instead of tugged over his eyes.Â
âFeelinâ better?â his voice is a little gruff with sleep and you donât trust your own not to falter so you nod. You feel all of your memories come back, the pathetic whining and whimpering, like a kicked puppy. You sigh. Arthur nods as well.Â
âIâm sorry, I took your bed,âÂ
âAinât takinâ if I put you on it. If I didnât want ya on it, wouldnâtâve put you on the damn thing,â he pulls a cigarette from his side table and strikes a match. He holds it delicately between his lips before he lights it, you watch as the flame flickers, to the tune of the wavering candle. He watches you from the corner of his eye.Â
You try not to read into how he worded that. Want. You smile softly. âThank you for⌠helping me,â your voice is nothing much but a whisper. âAnd thanks for letting me lay down here. I didnât want to cause so much fuss,â the rags that Tilly prepared for you sit next to a bunch of flowers. Red and pink, little bunches of petals gathered around the stems, wreaths of blooms at the end of the stalks. Youâd like to say something about them but you bring your attention back down to your hands in your lap.Â
âDidnât put me out or nothinâ, I was out most of the day anyway,â He puffs on his cigarette, wavy mists of smoke coloring the air between you. âWhat was goinâ on with ya, looked like you was âbout ready to put your breakfast all over my shoes,â he chuckles, a playful glint in his eye.
You cover your face, rubbing and heaving a big breath. âI thought I remember someone telling you,âÂ
âThey did⌠Abigail did. If itâs all that business, how come you donât get like this all the time?â He seems genuinely interested in the habits of your menstrual cycle. Youâve never had a man take an interest in such a taboo topic. But you suppose most of the girls are open about their privacies, most feel comfortable sleeping in their underwear in the evening. You continue despite the warmth that rushes to your cheeks.
âWellâ usually, Abigail hides me in what was her tent. But now John is in there and she canât keep me from Ms. Grimshaw anymore. Iâm sure she had something to say about my sleeping here today,â he shakes his head.Â
He adjusts his legs to relax them further, leaning back and kicking them out. âSheâs tough on you but I told her to leave well enough alone. You wasnât gonna go back to choppinâ carrots like that,â you feel like youâve thanked him enough. Where all of this comes from, you havenât decided. The men here donât pay you much attention and Arthur is always rather soft on the girls, all of you get greetings from him. But perhaps he does linger with you a while, asking if youâre okay. If you need anything; his low voice feels like his calloused fingers when it touches your ear. And you do give him sweet smiles. Everyone seems to think Arthur Morgan isnât much more than a bitter old soul. But you watch and you see fluttering moments of his kindness. Like bursts of sunlight through a canopy of trees.Â
He reaches behind himself to the flowers on the table at the back of his chair. He sniffs before handing them to you. âBrought these for you, saw âem while I was out huntinâ, thought they might cheer you up a bit,â You take them from him, briefly touching his own hand. Shock gathers at the corners of your lips before they push back into a smile. The stalks are fresh and stiff, the scent of them naturally brightening.Â
âArthur, I⌠thank you, really,â he hums. Arthur plays with his cigarette, fumbling at it. You play with the thin velvet of the flower petals. âWhat are they?â
âYarrow. Grow just about anywhere,â he means to humble them, to bring them down. But you hold them tighter.Â
âTheyâre beautiful,â you catch his stare but you canât drag your eyes away from him. Arthur doesnât look away as he flicks the butt of his cigarette away, grinding it beneath his heel. Every second feels like ten and the minute could be an hour, ensnared by him.Â
When heâs walking around camp, he squares his shoulders, marches with purpose. Now, he slumps forward. Tired or weighed down. He takes an uneven breath. âI- I think I should leave you to your own bed, shouldnât I⌠But thank you again, I really do mean it,â you start to lift the blanket off of yourself. He opens his mouth. Like he wants to say something. You pause a moment.Â
âWhatâchu talkinâ bout, youâre sick,â he says as if he thinks youâre being ridiculous. He motions to you with his hand vaguely.
âArthur, Iâm not- Iâm not sick. It happens all the time. I think Iâve caused enough trouble today,âÂ
âNâ you can promise that you wonât go startinâ up again? Cryinâ and rollinâ around?âÂ
âIâll be fine,â Avoiding his eyes as you say that isnât what you should have done if you wanted him to believe you.Â
âYouâre lyinâ,â You bring your shoulders up before dropping them. Twiddling your thumbs, the flowers in your hands become your focal point.
You give an idea some thought. Sharing a bed with Arthur Morgan isnât the worst idea youâve had in your life. The rumors that would circulate make you think twice. Neither of you would hear the end of it. The camp in which the Van Der Linde gang resides isnât a place without a gossip mill. But⌠you trust Arthur. If any of the men, you trusted him. With your life, you knew you could.
Putting Arthur out of his own bed isnât something that appeals to you at all.Â
âIt doesnât seem right, taking your bed. Iâve been in it all day, I could move over if you like,â itâs your clumsy attempt at humor poking fun at your own imaginings. But he doesnât smile.Â
âYou mean that?â As if you pressed the very air from his lungs, he dips his head low, hardly breathes. He stares down at the dirt, before he sits all the way up. He turns to you, something youâve never seen pulls at his features. Makes his brow scrunch and his cheek pull in like heâs chewing on it.Â
âDo you want me to? To mean it?â Your head is full of hot air, dizzy at the thought. You set the flowers down on the crate behind you. Your hips lift and scoot to make what little room you can for Arthurâs frame. You had always known he was quite big, wide shouldered. Nothing makes you realize that more than the way you turn on your side to fit him. Youâre in a dream, you must be.Â
One you donât want to wake from. You soak up his warmth, listen to the sounds he makes. Arthur arranges himself so awkwardly it could make you laugh if you didnât fear breaking this trance heâs in. You bunch your hands up close to your chest, tucked into his shoulder. The wind playing with the flaps of canvas around you distracts you enough to let him settle.
The black hat he wears everywhere sits on the table, he rubs one of his hands over his cheek, down his jaw. âYouâre alright with this?âÂ
âI trust you.â There isnât much room in his bed, you donât even know how he sleeps in it comfortably with him being as long as he is. But maybe he doesnât. He comes back to it most nights though. He came back to it tonight, even if he knew you were sick and that heâd want to make you stay in it. You squeeze into Arthurâs side.Â
He scoffs like he has something funny to say about your words. In the dim candle light, his chest rises steadily. This close to his neck, you can feel his pulse pick up, like yours as you come to your senses. You are sharing a bed with Arthur. There's a tightness in your belly, fingernails dig into your palm.Â
âThank you again, for letting me stay,â you whisper but you forget that youâre facing his ear. He hasnât once turned to look at you. The smallest tremor goes through him. The tiniest details of him become more apparent to you. A nicked scar on the bridge of his nose, sweat beading on the tanned skin of his throat. His brow pinches and his eyes stare at the bottom of his make-shift roof.Â
âSâ no problem, now⌠jusâ sleep, will ya?â you nod, trying to keep what fraction of space you can between you but you give up, pressing your cheek to his shoulder.Â
âGoodnight, Arthur,â you murmur, humming as you sink comfortably next to him.
âNight,â his stiff response makes you stifle a giggle. Relaxing into his bed, you sigh. Even if youâve been sleeping for most of the day, you still find it again quickly.Â
In the morning, the bed is still warm but youâre alone in it. In the haziness of sleep, you can hear scratching and some shuffling, the jingle of Arthurâs spurs as he pulls the flap open and slips out. You open your eyes more when youâre sure heâs gone, the quiet command he gives his horse to go.
On the table, is a note, white smooth paper, smudged with black powdery pencil lead. You pick it up gently before reading it, the gray morning light lets you read. You touch gently at where he started and crossed out his words twice before starting again.
âHope you feel better today. You can hide in here if you need to.âÂ
You smile as you go back to your small space amongst the girls with your two prizes. A bouquet of yarrow and a pretty note signed by Arthur Morgan.Â
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Lord of a house aspecting that house
Okay, so just so clear things up, this is a very tiny thing and cannot do anything alone. It has to be supported by other factors as well. For ex: if your 2nd lord is aspecting the 2nd house, but the 2nd lord itself is in 6,8,12 houses, is afflicted, debilitated or in it's marana karaka, then it won't do much since the MAIN thing is in a bad position. It's like (I'm so bad at analogies but...bear with it), your gums and teeth are healthy so flossing your teeth just maintains the already good state, it removes small food particles stuck here and there. but if the gums and teeth are rotten then what will flossing do? Nothing. (The analogy is so bad i can't đđ)

1st lord aspecting the 1st house makes a person have a strong personality. They know what they want and how to get it. Have a good head on their shoulders (I know a person with this who also has ketu in 1st and he acts like a headless person anyways, so....). They can gain a lot of money through family business.
2nd lord aspecting the 2nd house makes the person gain through their family. Can get a LARGE inheritance. They can be very persuasive as well. Most of the times, have quite a large Appetite and this can make them fat.
3rd lord aspecting the 3rd house makes the person courageous and intelligent. Many actors and talk show hosts that are known for their wittiness have this. Can be very close with their siblings and school friends. They are creative and have a talent for constantly coming up with unique ideas.
4th lord aspecting the 4th house makes the person feel extremely close to their mother. She may have a huge influence in what decisions they make about their life. They can gain a lot of money through real estate. They will always support their family members no matter how they are.
5th lord aspecting the 5th house can make someone a successful actor, from what I noticed. You'll see this everywhere, but these people indeed have good children. I know two people with this and they have both treated their kids so badly but the kids still love them and I feel so sad, cuz bro, abandon them, who cares. Can have succesful short term romantic relationships, even if you breakup with someone it won't be that bad. Have the ability to convert their hobbies into a professional career. Can have a great relationship with their kids, I mean, my mom has this, and me and my sister couldn't have asked for someone better.
6th lord aspecting the 6th house is perfect for surviving in this era of capitalism. They will never be in debt and are good at financial management. A good immune system, don't easily get sick. They never remain unemployed for a long period of time. All your enemies will disappear from your life, like, if someone bullies you, they will have to pay their karma.

7th lord aspecting the 7th house is good for marriage and business partnerships. Can have good interpersonal skills. The spouse can resemble their "ideal type" very closely. Have a good public image. Good for settling abroad as well. People who openly oppose you will also get defeated.
8th lord aspecting the 8th house can make someone a great psychologist. Gives a heightened intuition. Sex life can be good. Can make them the best in their career. Can get a large inheritance from in laws. This also makes a person interested in magic and other things that are considered to be taboo, so they'll be interested in exploring it and may have a talent in it as well.
9th lord aspecting the 9th house is one of the best aspects that one can have, since 9th house is literally the house of luck. Can make a person lucky in general, even if they end up in a bad situation they get out of it very easily. Can have a great relationship with their father. Are usually very very intelligent and have the ability to read between the lines. I know a few people with this and the way they're able to grasp things is so fascinating, they actually use their brain. This also indicates abroad settlement. A lot of spiritual gurus have this.
10th lord aspecting the 10th house makes a person well liked by other people. Their bosses love them and that helps in career. They will always get recognised for their work. Can achieve a high social status. This also gives a good relationship with mother in law and not just "good" but good in the sense that she may be a business woman who will help them in their career goals.
11th lord aspecting the 11th house is another lucky position. Can give enormous amount of wealth. They have friends who help them climb the social ladder. This can give a large inheritance as well. Can give the same results as 10th house, except mother in law.
12th lord aspecting the 12th house also indicates abroad settlement. Can have psychic abilities (I would really recommend you guys to work on them). They can have a good sex life as well. Can be good healers. Can be good artists and writers as well.
Also, i forgot to add, it's a vedic system, so use sidereal and whole signs and aspects work differently in vedic, it's not according to sextiles, trines, squares. Most of the planets only aspect the house opposite from it. Saturn aspects 3,7,10 from it. Jupiter aspects 5,7,9 from it. Mars aspects 4,7,8 from it. All the others only aspect the 7th from it.
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exes to lovers! seungcheol x reader
!!MDNI!!
[seungcheol ended your five year long relationship seemingly out of nowhere, leaving you heartbroken. two years after your breakup, you release your solo album, song written about the heartbreak you felt. now, seungcheol is trying to get your love back]
cw: idol x idol, angst w/ comfort, semi public sex, not grammar checked wellđ
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âI think we should break upâ is all Seungcheol says to you, sad in his eyes.
He walks out of your apartment, not staying to listen to your cries and pleads, asking for an explanation on why he was so suddenly doing this. He was a completely different person from the last time you saw him; his love-filled eyes replaced with cold and sad ones.
You tried to contact him multiple times after that; calls and messages never answered, leaving you and your heart shattered, your members having to pick up the pieces. A five year old relationship gone in a flash, without a reason, without even a thought of why. Did i do something wrong? Did he grow tired? Was there.. someone else? The situation hurt you so badly, that even fans could tell something was wrong. Your relationship was a secret from fans and from your company, save from the members. Your performance during promotions were off and it took you almost a full year to get back on your game, taking a hiatus at one time because it was just so bad. but you were feeling better now. Itâs now past your two year breakup anniversary, and though you think about the good times of your old relationship, you werenât consumed with grief anymore. You felt much better, better than ever. Better enough to release your first solo album, songs written from that time.
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[interviewer] So, What was the thought process behind this album?
[Y/N] All these songs are a part of a giant collection of songs while i was going through a lot of feelings haha. Most of these were my inner thoughts and feelings that I couldn't express to anyone else so I wrote them out. theyâve only now came out because I was finally confident in myself and these songs after years and my members helped build my courage to share them with you all.
[Interviewer] Iâm happy that you were finally able to overcome your fears with your songs.
[Y/N] Thank you so much
[Interviewer] Do you think you could go more in depth about the song meanings?
[Y/n] Yea, of course. The first song on the album can be interpreted in multiple ways in my opinion. When I wrote this, I was thinking about someone I loved truly. I wrote this wishing that the way they ended it couldâve been that we just fell out of love. I wanted us to be tired of each other, to just want it to be over and so I wrote this point of view wishing this was the reality, even though I knew how much I still loved them. Itâs very sad and kinda pathetic but yea haha.
For the second track, I wrote this because in this same relationship, the way we broke up was so rushed and I was not ready for it. I felt like they didnât even feel anything towards me anymore and it broke me down so much. By the end of the song, I kinda accept it as the end and try to let them go.
Ah~ This third track was actually wrote when i was first in that relationship. We were both falling hard and fast and I had to let it out in a way. I canât really explain more.
[Interviewer] And lastly, the fully english track?
[Y/N] This one really talks about how even if Iâll be in another relationship in the future, Iâll only think about and try to find them in the other person. I wrote this the latest out of all of them. I knew I was still in love with this person even though itâs been years since the breakup but I know Iâll always see them as my first and only love even if they donât see me the same way.
[Interviewer] These are all truly beautiful songs
[Y/N] Thank you
[Interviewer] We just have a few more questions before we say goodbye today. Firstly, You said these songs were in a collection of other songs, will you release the rest of them as well?
[Y/N] Maybe, Iâm surprised I got away making this album so hopefully I can push my companies limits a tad more.
[Interviewer] Next question, This relationship you sing about seemed really intense. Was it a long one?
[Y/N] Yea, It dont think I can go into too many details but it was a pretty serious relationship. When it ended, I took it very hard. I liked them for a long time before too so it was rough haha
[Interviewer] Last question, Because you produce and write songs for your group, Have you ever wrote about this relationship in those songs?
[Y/N] Honestly I couldnât tell you. I try not to because Iâm still not the best about this relationship I was in but itâs probably slipped in a few songs unfortunately haha
[Interviewer] Thank you so much for coming onto my show today!
[Y/N] Iâm honored to be asked here for an interview, thank you. Iâd also like to say thank you to my fans and anyone else who is listening in! Please enjoy my new album!
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Needless to say, your interview was seen by alot of people. Neitzens have been picking it apart since it came out, speculating on the mystery person you were talking about. Your fans were both happy for you and angry for you; ready to fight the person who broke your heart. Though the publicity was great for your album sales and streams, the constant news was really tiring now, especially now that you were promoting at music shows. Music shows that your ex, S.Coups of Seventeen, was also promoting at with his group. Singing a song about your heartbreak in the same place of the person who hurt you so bad, was awkward to say the least. The waiting room of the music show was the worst. passing by him and his group makes your heart pound. His eyes follow you when you pass by each other. you try not to meet his eyes. Your heart just couldnât handle it. Your still wanted him yet you hated him at the same time. You wanted to kiss him again but also wanted to hit him. The last conversation you both had together was him breaking up with you. He hurt you so badly yet you yearned for him.
So when he approached you before your performance, you felt conflicted.
âY/n?â The familiar voice fills your ears and you look up at the man standing infront of your sitting figure.
âSeungcheol? What are you doingâ You didnât actually think he would speak to you again, but here he was.
âCan we- can we talk?â He pauses, licking his lips nervously âI know you probably never want to speak to me ever again but I just want a second of your time.â
âYou really have horrible timing. I going on stage in a few minutes. Please donât do this now. You had two years to talk about this,â You look away from his, glancing to the side âWe can talk.. after the music show is over. Donât expect too much, thoughâ You stand and walk to the stairs of the stage and he sighs, agreeing to meet later on.
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The music show ends entirely too quickly for your liking, leg bouncing nervously in your dressing room and when you hear a knock at the door you know itâs Seungcheol. You open the door, the man in front of you quickly walking in and closing the door again.
âY/n..â He sighs
âSeungcheol,â You try to sound disinterested but inside you just want to hug him. âPlease just say what you have to sayâ
âI just want to say Iâm so sorry for the way I ended things. I know I hurt you beyond belief and it hurts that I hurt you. I watched your interview and.. god.. I care about you so much.. I never wanted to break up with you but I had to..â His eyes brim with tears and he lets out a haggard breath.
âThen why did you? Five years, Seungcheol. I loved you for five years, hell, I still love you after what you did, but, just why? I felt like I wasted all those years for nothing. I want to marry you⌠I wanted to have everything with you.. You were my first everything and you hurt me like I was nothing..â You were choking on your tears at this point, the salty liquid pooling in you lips âYou were more than just a boyfriend to me, Seungcheol. You were the love of my life.â
âY/n.. I.. I didnât break up because I wanted to.. your company found out.. they threatened your career if I didnât break up with you.. I tried to convince them to let us be, but they were persistent and my company was pressuring me as well.. I shouldve fought for you more.. Iâm so sorry. I wanted to tell you what was happening but⌠I was a coward. I never stopped loving you, y/n.. Youâre the love of my life too. I had every intention of being with you until the day I died, and I want to fight for you now even though I didnât before.â
The shock of what he said lingers in your mind. You look at him without saying anything. He sat down next to you, letting you process his words. After some time you finally spoke.
âI dont know what to say,â You start âI believe you even though that means my company did this too me but.. I dont know. I want to forgive you. I want you, Cheol. I want you to be in my life again. but it took me so long to recover from this. I dont know if weâll ever be what we were before,â He looks down at his feet in defeat âBut we can try..â He looks up at you again, eyes brightening.
He finally smiles, âYou dont understand how badly I missed youâŚâ He hugs you tightly before looking into your eyes and then looking down at your lips âcan I..â You nod slowly, waiting for his lips to touch yours.
He kisses your lips with hunger, holding on to you for fear you might run away âMissed you.. Misses your touch.. âm so sorry, my loveâ He pushes you flat on the couch you were sitting on, kissing you face and neck with desire. He missed this so much. âI love you, baby. Please let me make you feel good.. Love you..â You whine at his words, hips grinding up at his.
âl-love you too, Cheolie.. Please.. Need you so badâ Your hands move up and down his clothed back. âPlease..missed you tooâ He kisses you quickly, breaking away to remove the both of your clothes.
âJust a gorgeous as I remember,â He mutters under his breath. You can feel his hard member on your stomach, moaning at the anticipation of having him after so long. âNeed to be inside you so bad, babyâ
âmhm please, cheolie..â You pull him closer, begging him to do anything.
âshhh, ill take care of you, baby.â he coos at you, finally pushing in, âshit- so tight.. you feel so good babyâ he brushes the hairs out of your face, kissing your forehead gently. âSo good for me, my loveâ
âPlease move- Please I need it. Cheolie- Needed this so badâ You sob as he finally starts to roll his hips into yours, groans falling from his mouth.
âGod- y-youâre too good, baby. Am I making you feel good, hm?â He fucks into you faster, rougher, breathlessly calling out your name into your ear.
âyes yes makinâ me feel so good- gonna cum soonâ You hips rut into his, determined to make both of you cum.
âb-babyâ He pushes your hips back into the couch, âBe good- iâll let you cum, promiseâŚâ He breathes out hot breath, eyes blown wide as he pounds into you; your heat sucking him in dangerously. âCum for me please, need you to cum, baby.â
Your desperation for each other was unmatched and you were sure that the people walking past your dressing room can hear the obscene noises coming from it, but you could care less. The pleads for more came out if your mouth like a ritual and Seungcheol knew you were close. One of his hands grip your own, telling you to cum, and what else can you do when his cock twitches inside of you so deliciously. You cry out his name once more before cumming hard. Feeling you pulse around him, he fills you up with spurts of his hot cum in you. âFuck, did you so good, my love. I love you so muchâ He breathes out, pecking your lips once again.
You look into his eyes, dazed, and welling with tears again. His happy demeanor changes ones again. âHey. Hey, Y/n. Whatâs wrong? Did i do something?â He looks you up and down, checking for injuries. Making sure he didnât fuck this up again.
âNo- i just- i just missed you so much, Cheolie,â you cry out. âLove you so much..â His arms are around you before you can even say another word. He murmurs I love youâs into your ears, kissing the tears rolling down your face.
âI love you too, baby. letâs go home hm?â
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a/n: these are the songs i used as reference for the solo album songs:
1. Canât Love You Anymore - IU
2. Goodbye - OOHYO
3. Fallinâ - Yoon Hyun Sang
4. Glimpse of Us - Joji
this was so spur of the moment #loveit
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imagining your relationship with ateez!
a/n: i apologize this is so long..... i like to imagine!! i hope you enjoy :3
KIM HONGJOONGâ - this man will write you love songs - ballads, raps, hiphop, yada yada, he'll write songs about you in his freetime - you're on his mind 24/7 so he expresses his ideas with his writing! - depending on your native language, he'll learn it just for you. i def can see him wanting to learn every little thing about you because he loves you - he'll paint your nails for you :D - you once told him you were interested in starting fashion, so he began designing clothes with you - watching him work is amazing, he's kind of a workaholic - when hongjoong is exhausted from working in the studio, you'll sit with him, either sitting in his lap or just being there with him - your presence seems to wipe all the stress off of him - he loves compliments but gets so flustered when you compliment him back - "you're so cute, y/n..." "you're cuter, joongie!" "ohmygody/nstopit" - music brought you two together and it'll keep you two bonded - after he's done working on a few songs, he'll take you to the recording studio so you both can make demos for them!
PARK SEONGHWAâ - seonghwa is lowkey the prince of your dreams. - i know i know i KNOW if you're having a bad day, he'll hold you tight and sing to you, maybe your favorite songs - forehead kisses, making sure you're alright - i feel like out of all the members, he knows how to listen and comfort you - he will do anything that makes you happy. trust me. - "hi, lovey!" he is such a lovey-dovey man.... - bro is HEAD OVER HEELS in love with you!!! and isn't afraid to show it!!!!! - i know he's a sucker for when you call him "hwa," it makes him feel giggly or osmething - if seonghwa's away on tour, he always makes it a priority to call you every night - "dude, not right now, i'm trying to call y/n..." - he just wants to hear your voice, it helps him fall asleep.... you're just so comforting to him - tbh i see him as a little shy when he's with you because he sees you as this really really cool person - especially in front of the other members and they like to tease him - but (I WOULD HOPE) you're really sweet and always know how to make him feel better!
JEONG YUNHOâ - do dog cafes exist? because if so, that would be where you and him left - yunho would LITERALLY wake you up by singing that one song uhhh what's it called - "you are my sunshine / my only sunshine" idk - because yunho is so damn tall, he's kinda like your cuddle buddy - literally he will trap you in his chest while you two are together (big broad chest) - he's soft and gentle; head pats, small kisses everywhere and anywhere - maybe more likely on your neck??/ if that makes you uncomfy, he loves kissing your knuckles - OMG and that cringey thing like kissing your knuckles everytime he sees you - "good morning, princess" - princess treatment princess treatment princess treatment all from mr. jeong yunho!! - mingi finds it incredibly cringey but it's so funny.... he tells yunho to shut up but it never works in the end because yunho will simply kiss your lips to be quiet while you laugh - he loves pda and isn't afraid to show you off to the other members :) always will make you known, no matter what - "guys, this is my partner, y/n. say hi!"
KANG YEOSANGâ - depending on if you like to talk or not, you and yeosang will always be a pair, he listens to you and you listen to him :3 - he's also a little oblivious but it's kind of funny n cute - HELP he's def the most overprotective in terms of your safety - "Y/N, LOVE, I SWEAR-- DO NOT EAT THAT." - you and yeo would be the dumb/dumber duo (IM SORRY THIS IS JUST HOW I THINK OF IT) - you two can be roblox buddies!! - blind leading the blind.... - he likes to run his hands through your hair, maybe braid it (probably really badly.) - he will force you to watch the goofiest cartoons ever. - "y/n-y/n-y/n-y/n-y/n i wanna watch my little pony" or something (mlp is so good) đ - rainy day dates!!! - he def has the most atrocious .5s of you in his camera roll.... and vice versa - he's usually really quiet with you.... most of the time it'll just be you and him listening to music - yeosang is your biggest fan boy!! - profession or not, he'll always be cheering you on - "you're doing so good, baby!" and "i love you sososososo much"
CHOI SANâ - babe. trust me. babe. - he likes to call you babe no matter the time, setting, blah blah blah. he over uses it so much that the members begin to like gag.... - babe and baby !! the other members dont mind baby as much but wooyoung will kick his balls if he says it too much - he loves hand placement. hand on the waist, hand on thighs, hands on butt COUGH COUGH COUGH - san always strives for your comfort! hes the kinda guy who knows what you like and dont like, so when he sees you're uncomfy, it's like a zap and boom- - "baby, you okay?" and if you aren't, "let's get outta here. it's not important." - he could be in the most important meeting of your life and would be more concerned about you!! - imagine late nights with san: romance, horror, comedy movies, whatever they might be, he just wants to stay up late - after the movie's over, you'll either watch another one or you'll simply talk about everything and nothing - cuddles. head on his chest, both of you maybe scrolling on your phones, sorta ignoring each other but enjoying each other's presence - he's very overprotective.... like touch her wrong and i'll beat u up idk - like yeosang, he likes rainy days. dates will involve just watching the rain and giggling stupidly
SONG MINGIâ - NOW IMAGINE THIS MAN MAKING YOU BREAKFAST IN BED - stumbling out of the kitchen in the morning, seeing mingi in the kitchen with his smile - "hi bubba, you hungry?" - I CAN SEE HIM AS BUBBA BECAUSE LIKE he thinks its funny - (me personally) calling him bubba back and pinching his cheeks which makes him giggle - mingi's definitely likes to keep your relationship more private - it'd probably be out there but i feel like he mostly keeps your activities to yourselves (unlike wooyoung.....) - he likes to press his forehead to yours and hold you close to him, mostly because he feels the connection... he likes listening to your heartbeat - so he likes laying on your chest!! he's often dozing off there..... - mingi likes to tease you a lot but always knows your limits, making sure that he doesn't cross any boundaries and accidentally hurting you - IF you have any sort of trauma and/or bad experiences in the past, he likes to listen and just let you vent - when he's writing songs for ateez, he likes to take you with him on the journey - especially if he's recording any new demos!! he'll take you to the recording studio, like hongjoong!!
JUNG WOOYOUNGâ - jung wooyoung is the goddamn most obnoxious person ever - like san, he likes to make it known that you n him are a thing, just not in that overprotective way - arm around your waist or shoulders, yapping to whoever - "hey guys have you met my lovely lovely partner...." - i personally don't see him as a nick/petname kinda guy but if i haddd to guess i would say probably one of those really cringey ones like cupcake..... oh he would def text like that - "hi cupcake" "open your door pls" LMAO - but most of the time he uses your name because he likes it ! - "Y-NNNNN!!" - i see him as a very good listener and somehow always giving the best advice when you need it - he loves spooning you because he gets worried you'd just vanish (idk i see it) but would lowk hold u tightly đ - one time he tried to cook for you but ended up setting the ateez stove on fire (hongjoong beat his ass) he wouldn't stop pouting so you forced him to cuddle!!! - yap sessions 24/7, especially if you like to yap - it'd be going back and forth LOL - he also learned how to braid hair for you!! depending if youre fem, masc, or anything else, he likes to braid hair and learned especially for you :)
CHOI JONGHOâ - i just know this man would call you honey - maybe even sweetie but i feel like he would call you honey more - "sweetie, have you eaten today?" jsjgdljklgjksdLJJLKGSADLJ - he would definitely be shy about using it in public, he's not too big on pda, but i think he would warm up to calling you honey/sweetie in front of the others - they lowk tease him and he gets flustered (what a cutueiiee) - even though he might not like touching, i have a feeling he would like cuddling in private - he loves those moments between just you and him - genuinely i can see his favorite date being the photobooths..... like imagine putting bear ears on him and that gummy smile of his jklldsgds :c - he loves to see you smile and laugh, so even if he despises the ears or whatever accessories you force on him, he can't help but laugh along because he loves to see you happy - if you're sad, he'll do all this goofy stuff just to make you smile - jongho, like all members, is constantly making sure you're okay, like "how did you sleep?" n "are you feeling okay?" - GENTLEMANnnNNN - karaoke nights are just filled with him singing you love songs - help i cant remember if he likes to cook but if he does he would cook (like mingi!!) - he likes forehead kisses. case closed.
#ateez#ateez x reader#ateez imagines#ateez fanfic#ateez fic#atz#atiny#hongjoong#hongjoong x reader#seonghwa#seonghwa x reader#yunho#yunho x reader#yeosang#yeosang x reader#san#san x reader#mingi#mingi x reader#wooyoung#wooyoung x reader#jongho#jongho x reader#ateez fluff#ateez au#imagine#fluff
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JJ Valentineâs Fic Recs
in honour of Valentineâs Day (weekend bc iâm posting this late), here are my favourite fics of JJ Maybank that made the holiday a little less depressing <3 (this was originally supposed to be all obx characters but i got carried away but trust i have SO MANY MORE for the rest of the pogues (and more jj) so iâll do a part 2 eventually)
only got the courage to post this because of @tinypinkrobot so this is for them <3
most if not all fics are x fem!reader and some are 18+ (therefore i would prefer minors not to interact with this post but i do not have the time nor the energy to check everyoneâs acc), the authors are NOT responsible for your internet consumption (nor am i); be responsible, pay attention, and respect the authors boundaries! (all 18+ fics will be labelled! MINORS DNI)
Outerbanks
JJ Maybank
full length fics+series
His To Keep by @pankowperfection (18+)
smut, kinda dark JJ, oral (f receiving), branding
i first read this fic almost three months ago and i still think about it all the time (i have the link in my notes app im not kidding), this author is so talented go read all their fics tbh they kill it everytime, i go to their account and reread everything all the time
summer lovinâ by @murdockcastleslut (18+ blog)
ongoing series, kook!jj, pogue!reader, if jj was raised by larissa, rafe and reader have some history
look⌠i will eat up every kook!jj fic that is thrown my way. the way the author writes jj and the interactions between him and readerđŠ, the plot is so intriguing and im always so excited for every new chapter. ALSO reader is SO jjâs girl like he is so down bad, expect cute petnames (HE CALLS HER PRINCESS ICANYSIAKSKSOSIJWIDISJSKS and then he pulled out a âmy darling angelâ once and im pretty sure i passed out). honestly go read all of her works bc holy shit every single one of them is fantastic.
teach me please by @mrsriddlenott (18+)
smut, bsf!jj, innocent!reader, oral (m&f receiving), reader overhears someone talking badly ab them (indirect bullying), use of good girlđ¤
this is another one iâve had in my notes app since it was posted, since then the author has written a part two and both parts are so incredibly written. their dynamic and the way you can TELL theyâve been wanting each other for so long is EVERYTHING
love on the island by @papercranesandinkstains
ongoing series, love island!au
if you follow me and pay attention to my reposts you knew this was coming⌠i have said it once and will say it again this is my favourite SMAU (tied with rhythm&revelry) iâve ever read and itâs not even finished yet. the amount of time and effort put into this fic truly pays off because WOW. the graphics are beautiful. interactive polls. BANTER. jj is fumbling over himself he is so into readerđenough said go read it.
Rhythm & Revelry by @darlingchronicles
ongoing series, university au, SMAU
the creativity is simply insane, i canât even imagine how long it takes the author to do these chapters because sheâs truly created a whole world to the point where sometimes i forget itâs not actually an app and is actually a fanfic. the relationships between characters is so beautifully developed and itâs not all romance. you get really amazing insights into the friendships between the reader (nicknamed blue) and sarah, cleo and pope. honestly i canât even explain in words how much i love this fic. definitely a comfort fic (and i LOVE making up theories in my head as to what happened in the past iykyk). this is a long one so great for passing time (or if youâre me, ignoring your responsibilities and binging the whole thing bc youâre simply too hooked)
Kildare University by @papercranesandinkstains
completed series, two different endings (JJ or Rafe endgame depending on your preference), university au, jj plays football, reader is in band, rafe is readers ex, SMAU
ok i couldnât just put ONE of her fanfics on here letâs be real everything this author writes turns to gold. immaculate build up, amazing chemistry, the way you can choose who reader ends up with is everything to me bc i mightâve curled up in a ball and died if i didnât see a jj endgame. BUT everyone can be happy (ADDITIONALLY if youâre a jj AND rafe person you get double chapters sooooo whatâs not to love)
narcotic by @thebestjjenthusiast
completed series, SMAU, bsf!jj
you can tell the author has an elite sense of humor bc they have me cackling at 3am. also JJ is DOWN BAD for reader itâs so funny, like expect CONSTANT flirting⌠this man is practically begging reader to get with him and reader is OBLIVIOUSđ, the flirting has me blushing so hard i have to pause reading sometimes just to giggle into my pillow AND the ending is perfect
summer was my first love by @vampiriito (18+) pt.1 pt.2 pt.3 pt.4 pt.5 pt.6
ongoing series, shy! reader, reader has social anxiety, READER WEARS GLASSES (glasses girls rise), reader has secretly had a crush on jj for like ever but heâs always been âout of her reachâ⌠or so she thought
the build-up. readers characterization and the depiction of her social anxiety are everything to me. jj is so soft for her and he doesnât even fully know it or understand why at first. iâve cried multiple times reading this series AND NOT EVEN BC ITS SAD just because i feel so seen and represented. this author genuinely writes so well i cannot wait for the next partđĽš
Biker!JJ Oneshot by @highpope
biker!jj, motorbike stunt
this had me blushing and giggling iâm not kidding. jj is so soft with reader and reassures her when she gets scared. when he called her pretty girl i think i passed out. the flirting in this makes me flustered no matter how many times i read itđ
First Date Oneshot by @jjsloverre
bsf!jj, sweetheart!reader, fluff, mentions of sex but no smut
the dynamic between bsf!jj and sweetheart!reader is one of my favourites. they are honestly everything to me. heâs so sweet and caring towards her (but expect innuendos and cursing bc itâs jj we all know he canât help it). additionally you have to check out their other bsf!jj and sweetheart!reader fics too!!!
Gossip Girl by @maybejj (18+)
ongoing series, SMAU, pay attention to the trigger warnings at the beginning of each chapter
DRAMAAAAAAAAAA. the plot will grasp your attention and not let go and next thing you know itâs 5am and you have class in 3 hours (not at all speaking from experience thatâd be crazyyyy id never do thatâŚđĽ˛). JJ LOVES reader and would probably kill for them. readers friendship with kie, sarah and cleo is EVERYTHING, they are truly readers ride or dies.
secret admirer by @voidangxls
part two
kook!reader, pure fluff, jj is DOWN BAD, part of a valentines special
hands down THE CUTEST thing iâve ever read on this app. jj gets teased by the pogues for not being able to talk to readerđ the dual pov makes it so interesting bc you can see how in love jj is and wonder how the hell reader hasnât noticed him staring them down 24/7đđ will be rereading everyday.
-blurbs/drabbles/texts (not gonna make notes on these ones but know i have every single one in my notes app and reread them CONSTANTLY, these authors are so incredibly talented <3)
Boy in Love by @everydaydreamer (18+ blog)
pure fluff, valentines blurb
texts with jj by @lillymmb
boyfriend!jj, fluff, jj LOVES reader
breeding kink concept by @moremaybank (18+)
implied but no smut, breeding kink (duhđ)
black cat!reader by @ervotica (18+)
black cat!reader, use of daddy, once again jj LOVES reader, reader is grumpy
texts with jj and desi!reader by @deadpcnned
desi!reader, jj in a kurtađŠ, established relationship, i just love this
boyfriend!jj by @lovelyjj
âwear whatever you want i can fightâđŠ, jj can throw a punch, fluff fluff fluff
passenger princess by @rubiehart (18+)
jj being fine, groping, use of âmy girlâđ¤
valentineâs day with jj by @seasprincess
established relationship, jj saves up to buy reader gifts, pure fluff
#jackieâs recsđ#jj maybank#obx#outer banks#jj maybank x reader#smau#jj maybank smau#outerbanks#jj maybank fic recs#fic rec#jj maybank fic#jj maybank fluff#jj maybank smut#favs
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Me and my friends Nicktoons fankids!!
⨠random disclaimer ⨠I wanna make something clear since I don't want people to be weird about this. One of the biggest comforts when getting into shows is relationships - in this instance, happy, healthy families. It's also very important to me (us) to represent and explore varying degrees and types of transness, as it makes us happy.
All of these kids are from trans parents, and are their biological children in one way or another. If you are going to be weird/transphobic about it, I will block you. If you don't like it, then please just say nothing. Thank you.
P.S. be respectful with my ships <:)
IM ACTUALLY SO NERVOUS ABOUT POSTING THESE AAA. if any of you have any questions about any of the kids/families/ships, ASK AWAY (nicely please). me and my friend have a LOTT of hcs with all of them its crazy so anything goes.
cause i also realize, before this i never posted about eustace and remy but they are VERY important to me! and its another crack ship that i want people to understand so badly đboth stupid rich kids that got no one but themself
THANK YOU ^__^ (art by @chocowhomps ) also design help by him too
#jimmyn neutron boy genius#fairly oddparents#danny phantom#jimmy neutron#timmy turner#danny fenton#dash baxter#remy buxaplenty#eustace strych#imaginary gary#cool jimmy#jimmytimmy#gatorgary#dashxdanny#eustemy#fan kids#nickalodeon#nicktoons unite#teddy ghost#swagger bishie#fankid#tw implied pregnancy#nicktoons#timmyjimmy child#jimmytimmy child#gatorgary child#eustemy child#teddy ghost child#hoodedjelly art
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âš â â¤ď¸ VIX â¤ď¸â âš

My husband, Fox, received Desire Demon as his Redacted demon quiz type result. So, naturally, we cooked up a DemonSona for him. And by we, I mean he called all the shots and I had the utmost pleasure of drawing this flirt. (We also made Vix and my DemonSona, Wolf-Rayet, smooch. Because weâre gay.)
Vulpecula⌠Vix⌠like a vixen⌠l-like a Fox yeah you get it.


Vixâs Pinterest Board
More about Vix (from Fox himself):
HELLO TUMBLR ITS FOX AND ITS MY TURN ON THE WES ACCOUNT, STRAP IN
⢠Vix first began writing as a way to better understand human desires on a deeper, personal level through passing on letters with anonymous pen pals
⢠Through sending these letters back and forth, he found his passion for writing as a whole. He excels in writing romance and poetry.
⢠After sending his pen pals rough copies of his creative works, they encouraged Vix to publish his books. He decided to publish his books under his full name, Vulpecula
⢠The general public has been lead to believe that the name Vulpecula is a pseudonym, and that it is a pseudonym that was passed down from anonymous writer to anonymous writer as generations passed. Empowered folk likely know that an immortal raceâ like a demon or vampireâ is the person behind the pen
⢠He was a voracious reader from the start. Vixâs place on Elegy houses an impressive collection of books of all ages and genres
⢠Vix primarily feeds on humansâ general attraction towards him rather than from sexual relationships. Think of his dietary situation like something rent-a-boyfriend haha. Need a plus one to a wedding or work party? Donât want to waste a Friday night by staying home? Want a shopping buddy? Call him up, he likes both the company and the attention.
⢠Bringing people out of their shells to try new things or go on dates is his favorite thing to do, which is why he wants to study Wolf-Rayetâs reclusive self under a microscope so badly in a gay way
⢠HOW THEY MET IS SO CUTE BUT I DONT THINK I CAN SUMMARIZE IT ALL LIKE WES WOULD BE ABLE TO SO LOOK AT THE THUMBNAIL OF THEM MEETING INSTEAD

barcode: the pleasure is mine
⢠âŚI LIED IM DOING IT ANYWAY. Wolf-Rayet finally got out of the house to visit the quaint mom and pop book shop to pick up some new books to read to his patients. By happenstance, Vix was there, setting up for a book signing when he spotted WR looking lost and awkward in the romance section. He caught Vixâs eye in more ways than one, so of course he had to go fluster the shit out of WR. WR explodes and fucking dies because a McDonaldâs sprite would kill that Victorian man, but also because Vix wants to see him again, so he handed WR a copy of one of his spicer books heâs published, and on the back he wrote âwe could make such a beautiful library togetherâ. Itâs then that Wolf-Rayet learns that he is actually the author of that book signing before bolting out the doors in embarrassment đ
⢠He and Wolf-Rayet speak Latin together!! Vix learned it because heâs a sucker for dead languages and WR picked it up because heâs old as fuck medical terminology is heavy with Latin roots
⢠Vix calls WR âhis houndâ like from Fox and the Hound
Thatâs all I will share for now GOODBYE TUMBLR
-FOX
#I let the creature (my spouse) breach containment so he can tell you all about his Barbie doll#Creature feature#Whistlerâs OCs#Well⌠Foxâs OCs#You can tell I didnât write this post bc of the capslock screaming#redacted audio#redacted asmr#redactedverse#redacted fanart#redacted fandom#redacted art#redacted oc#redacted demons#redacted demonsona#redacted original character#redacted thumbnails#original character#oc#sincerelywhistler
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Hi!! Can i request a hurt/comfort hotch x reader?
Reader is starting to feel lonely in the relationship cause for the past 2 months hotch has only been home for a week total and she really misses him. They havenât had time to themselves cause even when hotch is in virginia heâs in the office and him getting called out on a case during his day off happens more often than the both of them want to. and even when they text and call itâs not the same.
anyway hotch comes home in the middle of the night after a case and he just finds reader on the sofa crying cause she just really misses her boyfriend and the two of them finally talk about it.
You have permission to break my heart with the angst and put it back together. I know its long and i have no clue if it made sense so im sorryđđ enjoy your dayđ
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â pairing: aaron hotchner x plus size!reader
â summary: you knew that being with aaron meant that his job came first, you just hadn't realized how badly it would actually affect you. now, your life and love is on the line.
â warnings: ANGST ANGST ANGST!!! you have been warned!, thoughts of breaking up, established relationship, hurt/comfort, angst with a happy ending, hints of depression.
â wc: 905
â a/n: my first long fic back being angst LMAOOOO. i'm not going to lie, writing this kind of bummed me out a bit but that's how i knew it was going to be good LOL. but never fear, i got a few smutty things in the works, so keep a silly little eye out for that!! i love you guys so so much and thank you for your request!
masterlist | AO3
The room felt melancholic. Empty.Â
The sounds of laughter that had once bounced off of the walls of your home now rang silently, one of the only people that knew of the joy that once made your house a home was long gone on a case right now.
You donât know what to do. How could you last like this? How could your relationship? How could Jack?
Jack, the precious little boy that you had taken under your wing even before you and Aaron had ever made it official. You knew he missed his father dearly, but with every large life milestone the boy had completed, Aaron had missed out on. It had gotten to the point where Jack doesnât bother to ask you if he could call his dad to tell him about it, because nine times out of ten, he knew that Aaron wouldnât answer.
So now as you sit here on the couch in the dark with your head in your hands, you canât help but think that maybe this was it, that it was time to consider the very dreaded other option.Â
You tried your best to make your relationship with Aaron work, God did you try, but having to sit there and endure weeks of radio silence, of not knowing whether or not he was alive was excruciating. When he did have time to text or call you, every conversation was more and more distant.Â
Hot tears rolled down your cheeks, and your bottom lip trembled. You crossed your arms and placed them on your knees where you leaned on them, staring out into the abyss of your dimly lit living room. You had just put Jack to sleep, and you didnât want to risk waking him up.
Your eyes solemnly scaled the walls where the pictures of your little family hung, frames upon frames of happy smiling faces.Â
What happened?
It was the fact you were absolutely drowning in your thoughts that you didnât hear your front door unlock â something that your boyfriend would deeply frown upon.Â
Aaron wasnât surprised to find the apartment quiet, what he was surprised to find was your silhouette illuminated by a single lamp. What really set off the alarms in his brain was your shivering shoulders, which could only mean one thing.
âSweetheart?â His deep voice pierced the thin air hovering above you. You just shook your head, any happiness that would have left your mouth died in your throat, the words leaving you was, âWe have to talk.â
You hated doing this, but whoâs to say he wonât get called in tomorrow? No, you had to do this now.
Aaron felt his heart fall into his stomach as he made his way over towards you, gently sitting down on the cushion next to yours, almost as if he was afraid to scare you.
âOf course. Are you okay?â He inquired in concern. You just shook your head again. âThis isnât working, Aaron.â The pain lacing your voice was unmissable. âWhat?â Heâs completely caught off guard, because this was the last thing heâd expected to come home to.
âI canât do this anymore⌠unless â unless we can figure something out but even then I-â He rushes to grab your hand, and it lays limp and cold in his warm and calloused one. âHoney please, whatâs wrong? Tell me what I can do.â Holy shit, heâs panicking.Â
âYouâre never here anymore! I - I canât remember the last time in the past two months that weâve been able to have any alone time together! Most of the time youâre either gone in a whole different state or stuck in the office!â You couldnât stop the word vomit from leaving, all kinds of emotions that had been kept dormant finally coming up to the surface.
You heaved out a deep breath, your body slumping in defeat. âDid you know that Jack learned how to ride a bike today?â You asked quietly. âNo.â Aaron gulped, âI didnât.â
A heavy silence settled between the two of you.
âWhat do you need me to do?â Finally, you looked at him.
There were unshed tears in your eyes, âWhat I want you to do, you canât make it happen.â His eyebrows furrowed. âYou want me to quit my job?â
âNo,â You said with a disbelieving laugh. âI just want you to be there.â
âWho says I canât do that?â His head tilts, his eyes boring into yours, desperately trying to read you. It was like his profiler skills didnât exist. âEvery time youâve had a day off youâve been called into the office one way or another.â Your tone is hopeless, like your situation canât be helped.Â
With a harsh squeeze of your eyelids, the tears began to fall, but Aaron was quick to swipe them away.
âHoney, look at me,â He cups the side of your cheek, his thumb brushing away the liquid. Hesitantly you did, and you instantly fell victim to the warmness of his irises. âI will fix this, because I am not losing you. My behavior has been completely unacceptable, and I swear that I will be here for you and Jack more consistently, I promise.â
âHow do I know if this wonât happen again?
âIâll make sure of it.âÂ
It was the finality in his voice that fizzled out the anxiety in your gut, setting your nerves at ease.
âDonât make me regret this, Hotchner.â
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I had so much fun writing this up as I drank my coffee this morning, thanks for making the templates @kiwiplaetzchen đĽšđ
A little bit of backstory for Eloise - Iâll do an actual drawing etc etc in the future but for now if youâre interested!!:
Eloise has a brother, Leonard (Leo) who is a year older than her (I want to draw him soon!!) and her parents are both (unfortunately đđ) still very much alive. If the family had continued to the 1930s, they would DEFINITELY have been part of the Sacred 28, making it the Sacred 29 instead. Her father was an only child so he inherited everything, and her mother is Elladora Babbit nĂŠe Black, the woman who started the Black family tradition of beheading useless house elvesđ (and yes unfortunately that makes Headmaster Black Eloiseâs uncleđŤ).
Eloise was kept a secret from the rest of magic society her whole life. In my imagination, the pureblood families have so much inbreeding amongst themselves that itâs not uncommon for them to give birth to squibs. Part of pureblood culture is not announcing theyâve given birth to a child until theyâve shown signs of magic - normally around 3/4 years old at most. When Eloise never showed ANY signs of magic, she was just their shameful secret. On her eleventh birthday when it was all but confirmed she was a squib, she was burned off the family tree and spent the next five years at a muggle finishing school. Always looking to take advantage of whatever they could get, however, Eloiseâs parents arranged a marriage between her and the firstborn son of a wealthy muggle landowner when she came of age.
Her family had no idea that she was admitted to Hogwarts (they cut off all ties to her and disowned her) and Leo, who had always been fiercely protective of her growing up was simultaneously devastated and ecstatic that he could see his sister again. Itâs been really hard to repair the relationship though, as there is a lot of resentment that they cannot get over even though they want tođ. And, for as much as her parents dictated everything about how her life has gone, Eloise canât help but try to work hard to get their love and approval as itâs all she ever thought she wanted. And now that sheâs in a position to become the daughter theyâve always desired, she feels a lot of resentment towards herself. She feels as if sheâs betraying the young girl who was abandoned by her family, because she wants their approval so badly (it will take a while for her to get over thisđđ)
In terms of the personality I did it a bit like the sims where I just max things out bc I think everything in the middle is boring jajajaja. But:
Shy: not shy in the sense she canât talk to other people and she isnât necessarily socially awkward. She just doesnât always know what to say and will remain silent if she thinks she has nothing to add to a conversation instead of yapping away (BUT unfortunately rambles and over explains herself to not be misunderstood when she does talk, THANKS narcissistic mother), and normally she wishes people would ignore her. When the Daily Prophet article came out about her âmiraculousâ recovery and introduction to magical society she HATED it & she HATES all of the people trying to talk to her and befriend her.
Active: NOT active as in super energetic. She just wakes up really early and always needs to keep herself busy. She gets anxious if she doesnât have anything to do - but, she includes thinking as doing something, and often retreats into her thoughts and doesnât realize when people are talking to her.
I think grouchy and nice can exist together so with this one I put it in the middle. Sheâs both simultaneouslyđ
Aaaand with cowardly/brave, she thinks she is really cowardly for going back to her parents so easily and wanting their love so badly, and hates herself for it (not realizing itâs an accumulation of a lifetime of emotional trauma). But lots of times when things get very high-stakes she will jump in and do incredibly reckless things without thinking of the consequences, although if she stopped to think before she acted she would definitely NOT do them. So maybe brave in actions, cowardly on the inside (IDK)
If you read all of this I love you!! I want to share more about her but this was getting crazy long jajajajajajajađđ
#a (not so) little introduction of Eloise#probably in my drawinfs Iâll keep treating her like a historical fashion barbie jajajajajajaj#but I wanted to share a bit of her as a personđđ#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#eloise#my editing skills are so bad I feel like there was an easier way to make thisđ
#and sorry I rambledđđđđđ#eloise babbit
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