#I wanna draw and write and draw and write and dra

[yanteetle]

ollie you cant keep putting bangers after bangers out this is too good 😭😭💗💗

Horrortober Day 5- Liar(Yandere Rise Leo x Reader)

A/N, not important: Any criticism is welcome, constructive or not. This is supposed to be a gender neutral reader, so if I screwed up somewhere, please tell me.

-Ollie

CW: Demonized self imagery, mirrors, kidnapping, mental breakdown, manipulation, lying, borderline isolation

Words: 1312

Summary: Leo promised he would take care of you. He said it wasn't safe anymore, and you believed him. Hook, line, and sinker.

The room is quiet. It always was once Leo was gone. The comic books he’d brought for this week were piled high in the corner, each having already been read. You shift in the bed, considering reading them all again. It had taken two days last time, but you weren’t sure you could. The words and colors blend together after so long, each character seeming the same as the last.

It also didn’t help with how jealous you were of them, seeing their adventures and travels making your stomach coil in knots. It had been eight months since the Kraang invasion, three months since Leo insisted the world was still rebuilding, still too dangerous for you to return. You shift the sheets over your body more, covering your entire person despite not being cold. The blanket was better than nothing while Leo was gone, his touch being the only interaction you’ve had since. Even his brothers had stayed away from you, leaving the room when you entered until you stopped leaving yourself. You could sometimes hear their whispers outside the subway car, muffled concerns and arguments being held just beyond your reach.

You were getting tired of Leo’s voice being the only one in your head. He had taken over your thoughts, your vision, your mind. He was all you thought of day in, day out. He was all you had.

Three months ago you would’ve gone on a walk in the park on a day like this. A day like this, where you feel so gloomy and down you can barely breathe. The outside may be bitter, but it was nice to hear the life around you and see the clouds in the sky. Was it raining? Snowing? Sunny? You weren’t sure. Leo didn’t talk about such things with you anymore. After all, it’s not like you would know.

The feeling of the sun on your skin and the smell of fresh rain had been forgotten, only small wisps of memory remained. You sometimes didn’t believe yourself when you tried to imagine it. Maybe the rain never smelled, and the sun never truly warmed your skin like you imagined. For all you knew, they were only dreams.

You missed going out with your friends or joining the boys down at Heuso’s. It was nicer then, simpler. Everything has its place, including you. You fit neatly into the slot of Leo’s best friend, and eventually his partner. It was a nice world to be in, nicer than the room you stayed in now.

You used to clean it everytime Leo left, trying to tidy up the space so Leo would have something nice to come back to. You still do sometimes, when you can get out of bed. It never was the same though. The metal walls never showed your reflection, and there was always a small damp smell in the air. You suspected there was a leak somewhere, or one of you had spilled something that had embedded itself into the train’s memory, but you weren’t sure. You could probably find it if you looked hard enough, but that was a job for another day. Or another week. Another month even. Just not today.

The airflow from the vent causes a slight ruffle from a blanket behind you, your dulled eyes peering over your shoulder. The blanket sways in the flow, a small flapping from the edges that reminds you of a bird. Or, well, you think it reminds you of a bird. You never could tell anymore.

You slowly peel the blankets off yourself, letting your feet press against the cold floor. A chill runs up your spine as you slowly stand, goosebumps appearing on the flesh of your arms and legs. You slowly creep towards the bird-like blanket, your fingers securing themselves around the soft material. It was a nice blanket, smooth under your fingers and cool to the touch. It was no wonder for its unusual coldness, as the vent was directly above it, a constant stream of air exhaled by the system.

You pull gently on the blanket, unsure what it covers. You were confident you once knew. Leo never messed with anything in the room, not unless he had you nodding along. It was nice, the way he let you do as you pleased despite it being his room. He was so kind to you, keeping you safe and warm and comfortable.

The blanket falls, revealing the liquidy glass of a mirror. You stare into it for a moment, your brain processing what it does but not who you were looking at. That couldn’t be you. Your face was deeply set, as if it had sunken in. Your skin looked sickly and had a soft sheen over the surface, like you had been preserved in wax. Your hands automatically reach to scratch at the  surface, disappointment shining in your eyes when it stays put. Your gaze continues to lower, horror and despair flooding your veins.

You had lost at least ten pounds, and looked like a complete mess. Your hair is brittle and no matter how much you quickly try to run your hands through it, it stays firmly knotted. Your face is creased and your clothes sag on you, even though you can clearly remember this exact pair being decently well fitted. You couldn’t take your eyes off the creases in your face, the bags under your eyes seeming deep enough to swim in.

A stark sob leaves you, the image breaking everything you had known. It was no wonder you had it covered. The thing it showed, the monster it held, it certainly wasn’t you. It couldn’t be. Right?

A loud crash sounds through the room and your fist stings as the blood drips down your arm. The mirror is shattered, but instead of taking the monster away, it only amplifies it. Millions of small images of the horror that was once you. Small cries turn into wails as you crumple to your knees. A door opens behind you, worried calls and shouts sounding just a few feet away, but you can’t hear them through your cries. The world had broken, and so had you.

Leo’s arms wrap around your shoulders, holding you gently as he starts to attempt at calming you down. Your body acts on reflex, clinging to the one thing you knew, the one solid in your sinking life.

“Please,” You sob, clinging onto him. Your hands can barely grip his shoulders, fingers slipping as you lean against him. You didn’t want to die, the image of yourself blowing away like dust in the wind. You were sure this meant the worst, that whatever infected the city Leo spoke so down on had gotten to you too. “Please, just let me go outside. Just once. I’m dying. Please. Can’t you see I’m dying?”

“You’re not dying honey,” He murmurs, kissing the crown of your head. His chin rests on your head as he pulls you into his lap, rocking you back and forth in his arms. “And you know I can’t do that. The invasion caused a lot of damage to the city. Once it’s repaired, I swear I’ll let you out. I don’t want you hurt, so you just gotta wait. It’s okay. I promise, it’ll be soon. I’ll take you out on a nice picnic and show you the stars. You just have to be patient.”

You nod, still crying as you bury your face into the crook of his neck. Leo smiles above you, his eyes twinkling with a malicious deviation. You bought it again, you always did. There was never an ounce of mistrust between the two of you. He sighs, sitting back as he continues to comfort you. You were too gullible, not to your own fault of course. Leo was always such a wonderful liar.

[tiny-vermin]

I want to know more about the m9 artist au!! I remember reading a post or two about it a billion years ago (and would love to read them again) 💜

hi jess!!!! thank u for being interested hehe :")

so ever since i drew that lil thing of essek painting a frank stella inspired painting (or even before), ive been thinking of what kinds of art each of the m9 would do. essek ofc is inspired by a minimalist show that i went to here, all the big names from that movement were shown, but those really dark, sinkhole-like paintings are speaking to me. another artwork of boxes made of mirrors also seems like the thing he would do too

there's a kiln here that we visited which was huge, and surrounding it were artists' studios and some other ceramic sellers, i imagine the clay family having a place like this in the middle of nowhere amongst the trees, and caleb would do his work there

anyways because at heart im a shadowgast luver its centred around them,, they meet at an artist residency or something like that and its an incredibly slow burn that involves talking and not-talking and looking and not-looking. in the end i am but a simple wong kar wai fan so. that kinda vibes would definitely influence this, i would describe it as a quiet burning i guess?? time skipy and words that are not said

i think im gonna rant a bit more about their different mediums and styles so i'll keep it under the cut

i think caleb sculpts figures and portraits, but in a sad, kathe kollwitz charcoal vibe. maybe some funky looking animals, perhaps some pots and vases to look at the pretty glazes. he's interested in using fire to burn texture into different mediums, like ive seen it being used on shellac to make a really cool net of ink looking structure.. but yknow, just seeing the aftermath of glazed ceramic from the kiln is enough, and probably better for him to keep his distance anyways

the clay family produces most of the ceramic to sell, vases, pots, plates, cups, teapots, yknow just a whole array. and its really colourful too, depicting every family members different style. i think caduceus would do some matte glazes with a lot of different colours, theyre all a little wonky but theyre better off that way anyways. he does some really mean ink calligraphy and painting though

jester definitely does,, everything, whatever her heart desires kinda thang. she makes pastel textile installations and lighthearted cute paintings, but theyre always so contemplative and soothing. she gets m9 a lot of work cus her mom has connections, etc etc. i really love the idea of jester creating works that talk about the female body and femininity (definitely not projecting no)

beau is a printmaker and photographer who's really experimental, she loves cyanotypes and printing flowers (for yasha), idk she seems like she would put fabric and rocks into the washing machine to see what would happen. u would probably catch her in someone elses studio learning about what they do or in the library learning about what old people did

veth works in a museum as a curator, getting beau to help her sometimes with gathering artworks and artists etc. she probably organises community art projects for kids and public art installations. her house is full of m9's artworks and various other artists shes worked with.

yasha does bouquets as her post-retirement part time job, prior to that no one really knows what she did ("she probably murdered a bunch of people and is now hiding from the government"). fjord draws comics for fun but is also not a job for him, molly is a question mark for me. but these guys probably wont be in it as much anyways

im still not sure what format i wanna do this in, im actually having fun just writing it in my notebook now (digital does not facilitate the creative juices) but i do want to do some visuals like fake movie stills or storyboards. maybe they will work together well???? dunno. working on the other shadowgasty thing im doing made me realise how much easier it is to draw when there's a script already there, so im writing the script for myself

im definitely not as practiced in writing as i am in drawing, but idk im just gonna have some fun and see where that takes me, meanwhile try not to feel too bad that its fanart HAHA (very bad habit)

edit: i just saw my previous thoughts on beau being an art journalist, but i kinda like this better.. but maybe she can do both muah

[sarrinight]

UH are we allowed to ask you questions? Cause I have questions on. The Sillies. (Kinjo and Yuki) Like what are your thoughts on their ship? I see you draw Kinjo with DRA Yuki and the real Yuki and I want to know what you actually think about them.. feel free to go off about it but if not you can just delete this hdshhsd

oh yes of course!!! and i do wanna talk about it, gosh i really haven't elaborated my piece about them yet since this is an art blog n i felt a little annoying when i blow up a tag, THANK YOU!! !!!

I also don't see many people talk about post-sdra2 either. this take, im gonna be minty fresh

kinjomae analysis

DRA Yuki

Canon-speaking, Kinjomae was deliberately called back to in both games. Tsurugi fills the role of the queer survivor in dra the way that Yoruko blatantly does in sdra2 (and the protagonist dies) except, it's less obvious as a main couple because of the way linuj writes, and it also doesn't fit the way some people see stereotyped mlm characters.

Kinjo's entire life is a trauma that is so oriented on staying alone, being alone in his suffering and his profession. He particularly killed the men closest to him, (Teruya, Kouhei, threatening Utsuro, and even his father) and seeing those people die around him leaves him numb. I feel like the Yuki of the first game is another unhealthy contributor to the sad cycle of his life, but ALSO remains to be his biggest savior. Kinjo and Akane are the only characters of DRA to have both 5 free-times, their bond has always been THAT highlight level of important.

DRA Yuki tears into this unhealthy string of Tsurugi's life by literally preventing the one time he felt alone the most. In Yuki's perspective, Tsurugi is such a strong figure but still trusting himself to lean on him, it solidifies both of them and forces them to develop their situations even when Utsuro rips through the Yuki facade. They were partners in crime unknowing that one of them was a criminal, omg, they were the dear rabbit, the along came a spider, the jane and john doe,,,

Tsurugi mentions he can't trust anybody but Yuki, Tsurugi gives Yuki a pass at trying to murder him despite his rigid moral. (not without a punch or two, but impressive.) and when Yuki is on the outsides he is the connected peacekeeper to Kinjo VS. Everyone Else. They are there to hold eachother's hands so they can still reconnect onto the border of the group. Like, the way Yuki shouts main character philosophy in chapter 4 at him while he's fighting everyone else brutally at the dinner table, and once again in chapter 6.

(Teruya, then fulfils this goal of reparation with Rei after they leave the killing game, but not on the mental stability side.) Tsurugi is seemingly independant and incredibly uncontrollable due to his detachment, and yet Yuki is able to have a significant part of influence over his life; as well as the deceased Kisaragi pre-killing game.

Yuki IS and will always be the exception to him and no matter how hard he tries to escape it, it follows him till the remainder of his character arc. In the same way, Tsurugi was the kickstarter to Utsuro's new mindset too. It's the "You can't pull the trigger cause you love me", cause that's what Utsuro-Yuki is to Tsurugi. Utsuro may be the most vile villain in the world to somebody who even considered assisted self defense to be a crime on first thought, and then he STILL proceeded to not take that final shot. He didn't hesitate blowing Mikado up, who arguably wasn't the first source of despair.

anyways i think dra yuki-utsuro/tsurugi are integral, important, and good to know your hizstory

he wants me i want him, we went out, then we (YukiUtsuro) DIED!! /ref

Yuki

Tsurugi would move on to be the worst man to cope in the existence of the franchise, and probably hardly ever move on after the death of DRA Yuki. If Yuki was truly dead he'd have two funerals for his two guypals, and spit on Utsuro's grave pretending not to like him. Plus that bad ending where Tsurugi just wakes up in the middle of the night in cold sweat shows what would sort of happen, he thinks about them too much. However,

Yuki was still a concept of a person who existed in the world. He's not gone, he's just someone in a different form, and still is inside the memory of Kinjo's mind that remains deteriorating. He's like, the same dude but he's in the clutches of EVIL!! and he hates evil. (Kinjo seems to catch onto Mikado's plans early on and then it only amplifies in his duty to stop Utsuro and find Yuki.)

Tsurugi's defeatist attitude to fail saving Teruya and Yuki was very much a falsetto because of the Omake 2 and I truly believe Rei was right that this was their agreed purpose.

The real Yuki has none of these shared moments that Tsurugi can look back on together, but if it was just the memories he wouldn't have acted so patronizing to Utsuro. He's affectionately looking back on the person that Utsuro was, which was just Yuki Maeda. Did Homura Akemi decide to go back in time for 10 years just so Madoka could share moments with her?? Absolutely not, and the same goes for Tsurugi Kinjo, who ran an entire organization which later adopted the name of the goal. As Mikado joked, it's "the love of your life" but it's in the most unconventional messy, dictatorial, and murderous way.

Kinjomae absolutely drives the narrative forward on Yuki's side of the story even if it's significantly relegated mostly to the end. Imagine your entire existence leaning on a few people you can't even remember, but they remember you? One dude sacrifices a guy, one girl sacrifices her body. With Tsurugi's final decrees of (semi) unconditional care for you, you finish the trial with this one-sided trauma bond and a promise to keep the survivors safe. Sora takes on all the karmic debt of Divine Luck, and peace returns in an ending that isn't really elaborated on.

ur now a fugitive awesome trans guyboss with superpowers, and you're just absolutely bawling out of your mind at this point. some blue haired dude in a wheelchair is going to die if you don't help him out with your sora-luck.

nobody talks about this enough but this is THE PERFECT set-up for a postgame friendship to develop, not only are they both survivors, this is the genuine Yuki who isn't hiding apart of an Utsuro disguise. He's alive but now in the body of someone Kinjo despised,,, he hates Akane, he refuses to acknowledge her. he loves yuki. But Yuki remembers her fondly and has to take care of the body, but he probably hates himself. not to mention the INTENSE guilt you would get from feeling anything in it or the dysphoria of even wearing/not wearing the clothes she is??? sdra2 so evil?? soruko died so kinjomae could slowburn.

There's nothing Yuki can do now but go on his quest to potentially get along with this man who is homo-erotically trauma bonded to him and got a whole-ass person killed in the process of ending Utsuro and finding the true Maeda., He also has to go atone to Yoruko and the rest of the gang. as you can see i like kinjomae i think they are a foundational element in the story of dra.

unrelated thinking

their suits are completely black and white i find that silly they match

my partner and i did a voiceover of their final freetime one time cause we were feeling quirky.

[chiangyorange]

i wanna write for wmas i wanna write a karai ficlet i wanna draw cassandra multiverse i wanna draw wmas character references i wanna dras karai J Chillin bc i love her i wanna draw april fashion show i wanna develop more future fam designs i wanna draw a height chart i wanna draw wmas memes i wanna-

[maxaroniiiii]

i wanna draw my ocs but i wanna write fanfic but i wanna finish the cross stitch im making for my moms boss but i wanna play rune factory but i wanna start the bread dough i told my mom i was gonna make yesterday but i wanna play color splash but i wanna reorganize all my threads and fabrics but i wanna dra

[writesmutandbeproud]

Get to know your fic writer!

Do you prefer writing one-shots or multi-chaptered fics? - One-shots

Do you plan each chapter ahead or write as you go? - depends 

Describe the creative process of writing a chapter/fic - talking to myself a lot/daydreaming + writing it roughly down - trying to make it into something presentable - edit 

Where do you find inspiration for new ideas? - spite 

Do you like constructive criticism? - yes! 

Do you have your work beta'd? How important is this to your process? - would love to have a beta but no

How do you choose which POV to write from? - coolest POV wins

Do you prefer the beginning, middle, or end of a story? - middle

Do you comment on stories you read? - yes, the ones I like and on the ones I think have great potential

Name your three favorite fics right now - The Lemonade Leak by TurtleSoupSwimmer;  No Rest For The Weary by Nekotsuki; Cass apocalyptic series 

how does receiving or not receiving feedback/support impact you? love feedback and it makes me generally write faster, no feedback is okay too, but I tend to lose interest in a fandom when the community is inactive

what’s a common writing tip that you almost always follow? I use paragraphs and grammarly

how do you write emotional scenes? Do you ever feel what the characters feel? Do you draw from personal experiences? - love indulging in my own sadness and project it to fictional characters 

How do you write smut scenes? Do you get very visual or detailed? How important is it to be realistic? - uhm, yes

How many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? Share one of them? - 42, the apocalypse is the worst case scenario for all of them, in order to gain the power to protect his family Mikey has to leave them and slowly becomes a stranger...  

What do you do when writing becomes difficult? (maybe a lack of inspiration or writers block) - I stop writing

Do you title your fics before, during, or after the writing process? How do you come up with titles? - before, I have a list of titles I want to use and as long as they loosely fit the theme I don’t mind if its not a perfect match

What is your most-used tag on your ao3? - Hurt/Comfort

Have you noticed any patterns in your fics? Words/expressions that appear a lot, themes, common settings, etc? - yes, it drives me nuts, there are so many words out there why do I always end up using the same?

Would you ever collaborate with another writer for a story? - depends 

Are there certain types of writing you won’t do? (style, pov, genre, tropes, etc) - yes, not a fan of insert reader

Best writing advice for other writers? - Just write something that you are passionate about. Do it! It doesn't have to be perfect, I just wanna read it! 

Worst writing advice anyone ever gave you? - none, all the advice I got so far was good

What fic do you wish you got more of a response on? - My Percy Jackson stuff (Chasing Shadows) - like I had a lot of ideas and loved the characters, but I kinda felt alone and it was hard to continue writing without someone reading. Now I am at a point were I don’t remember what I planed and am not that interested in the protagonists anymore... 

Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride? - Heroes and Villains. I wrote this when I was bored out of my mind during my theoretical lessons to become a nurse. It was really fun and the pacing I had going still scares and amazes me...

What is your most and least favorite part of writing? - editing and when you have a scene in your head you are already done with but then you still have to write it down (you know what to do but you just don’t want to) 

On average, how much writing do you get done in a day? - that differs greatly

What’s your revision or editing process like? - post the chapter first and edit later (I have no patience). It helps me during editing when I can read it on ao3 or else I have to print it. Also it’s not such a big deal since I mostly write one-shots     

Do you share rough drafts or do you wait until it’s all polished? - no polishing for me, but you don’t want to know what my ‘rough drafts’ look like... 

Do you start with the characters or the plot when writing? - characters. Always. First I hyperfixate and then I make it everyone else problem

Name three of your favorite fanfic writers. - boopboop, ThatOneGirlBehindYou, akurosa

Do you want to be published some day? - Idk

Five years from now, where do you see yourself as a writer? - hopefully completing my WIPs

What is one essential thing to remember when writing a villain? - let them be a characters too, not just plot devices  

How do you write kissing scenes? - depends 

How do you choose where to end a chapter? - most dramatic part 

Would you ever write commissions? depends 

Share a snippet from a WIP - ”Remember our seminar ‘hug.it.out’? There is a sequel - ‘mistakes happen’ followed by don’t judge a book by its cover’” 

If someone were to make fanart of your work, what fic or scene would you hope to see? - BTL/Oblivium - Part 1: Andrew hugging Varian in their prison cell

Do you tend to reread fics or are you a one-and-done kind of person? - the ones I love I reread again and again

What’s the last fic you read? Do you recommend it? - No Rest For The Weary by Nekotsuki, yes it is awesome!!!

Do you take a sadistic joy in whumping your characters, or are you more the "If you hurt them I would kill everyone and then myself" kind of person? - sadistic joy in emotionally whumping ... but then you have to make them feel better too

What mistakes do you keep making no matter how many times your beta corrects you? - writing in past tense and adding another embedded sentence that has a verb with an -ing in it 

Do you want to break your readers‘ heart or make them laugh? - both (and if I am really good I do it simultaneously) 

How would you describe your style? (Character/emotion/action-driven, etc) - depends

How many times do you usually revise your fic/chapter before posting? - not so many 4-5 times... I am mostly glad it’s out... editing comes later when I have more distance towards it (aka when deleting a sentence did not feel like erasing a part of my soul) 

What do you look for in a beta? - good grammar skills

Do you ever get rude reviews and how do you deal with them? - sometimes, I take it as a compliment and if I feel there is something I can respond too I will otherwise I’ll ignore it 

How long is your longest fic? - 15.000 words, I like it short and sweet when I write, otherwise I don’t finish 

What’s your total AO3 word count? -  169,663

Do you respond to comments, why or why not? - yes, cause it’s polite 

How do you spend your time when it comes to fanfiction? Are you primarily a fic reader, writer, or a perfect 50/50 split of both? - depends on the fandom, I usually write when I think something is missing

What’s your favorite part about the fanfiction writing process? - sharing your passion about things you love

Of the characters you write for, which is your favorite? Has that choice been swayed at all by your followers/readers’ reactions to certain ones? - Varian is my favorite

What’s something about your writing that you pride yourself on? - I try to do the ‘show don’t tell’ stuff, foreshadowing and to connect even the oneshots 

Do you prefer editing as you write, or waiting until it’s finished? - both

What part of the writing process do you enjoy the most? (Brainstorming, outlining, writing, editing, etc) - daydreaming about really dramatic stuff in my head

Does anyone in your personal life know you write fic? if not, would you tell anyone? - yes... most of them know (probably not my grandparents but I wouldn’t hide it when it comes up)

Have you had a writer you admire comment on your fic? What was that like? - best feeling ever!!! like I make screenshots and stuff

Why do you continue writing fics? - spite and love

Thoughts on cliffhangers? - love them but you better not let me hang forever 

Something you hate to see in smut. - stuff with animals?

Something you love to see in smut. - love and affection

Tell us about what you’re most looking forward to writing – in your current project, or a future project - ... for now I kinda just wanna finish them

How do you deal with writing pressure (ie. pressure to update, negative comments, deadlines, etc.)? - I’ll break down completely and switch fandoms (neg. comments: I write more cause yay a comment!)

Do you prefer prompts and challenges, or completely independent ideas? depends

What, if anything, do you do for inspiration? - reading

What work of yours, if any, are you the most embarrassed about existing? - they are all my beloved little babys

When asked, are you embarrassed or enthusiastic to tell people that you write? - depends

When it comes to more complicated narratives, how do you keep track of outlines, characters, development, timeline, ect.? - lots and lots of notes, tables, and charts, like for emotionally development, goals, physical updates... it’s a mess 

What order do you write in? front of book to back? chronological? favorite scenes first? something else? - depends, if I am motivated front to back... and if not favorite scenes 

What do you think makes your writing stand out from other works? - nothing 

You’ve posted a fic anonymously. How would someone be able to guess that you’d written it? - this is a really mean question... and makes me feel rather insecure about my writing style

What scene in took the longest to write? What was difficult about it? - Cracks in the Mirror, Storm in a Teacup - Part 3, Leo’s drowning scene. Cause I knew what it feels like, and what the mood supposed to be was but the words kept on failing me

Did you have any ideas that didn’t make the final cut? - not that many. I stop when I am satisfied. everything not used goes into the ‘scene folder’ and gets eventually recycled in another project

Do you have a favorite scene you’ve written?  BTL/Oblivium - Part 1, its rare for me to go to such dark places emotionally while writing... but it was fun in the ‘what have I done’ kind of way

[artist-lupus]

I have a lot of traditional doodles and since I haven't really posted any art here lately I was wondering if y'all would like to see those

[cyvorg]

How'd you go about making your own predator guys?? Like, drawing them and naming them and whatnot. I have a few concepts of my own ocs, but I wanna have proper drawing references and information and the likes. I love your ocs sm, and I'm rewatching all the predator movies rn lmao.

Thank you so much! I’m really flattered!

Creating OCs is something very gradual for me. I rarely ever sit down and just come up with one, the idea of a character grows onto me and the character gains more depth as I go on. I feel like that is one of the best ways of developing a character or a story, where the story process just grows on you and you can naturally fall in love with it. I don’t know if this is just me though but I can attest I like the characters written by writers who are exposing little aspects at a time. It feels like you’re growing with the characters.

Now to be specific, most of the OCs I make are by accident. Kûn’ta and Judah are accidents, happy ones of course.

Bubba was the only one I sat down with the intention of making a few years ago when I wanted to make a predator OC for fun because I thought they looked cool. I wanted a comfort character so I gave him all the aspects I love, like making him my favorite color and just having fun with the design. I didn’t start really developing his character until now, which is why he lacks the most story so far on my blog. He’s not being abandoned of course, he’s just a work in progress.

Kûn’ta on the other hand was made because I have been currently working on a yautja cosplay for an upcoming convention, and while building the armor I thought it would look cool if I attach potion bottles and such to it to give my yautja look more personality. I liked the idea so much I figured I haven’t really seen many yautja scientists before and made him. When I made him he had no story yet, those came later. The little tidbits of lore and sketches I release come from the same vein of a new idea, and he’s grown on me a lot because I add so many personal aspects of myself into him and his story.

Judah also accidentally came about because while coming up with Kûn’tas color scheme, I made a purplish one I really liked but didn’t want to settle for, so I saved it for later. Then I made a sketch and Judah was born. I knew I wanted a more rough & tumble character this time around because so far my OCs were rather docile, so I made him with the intention of making a villain. But then I fell in love with his growth too so now he’s more of an anti with trust issues who is trying to come to terms with his grief.

All these tidbits are very gradual and never came together at once. They are little things I would pick up on through out my day like ‘oh hey, what if I gave them mommy issues?’, ‘oh, what if he had a prosthetic, that’s different’. Eventually I piece these things together to string it into a story. It’s not how everyone works but it’s something I’ve come to enjoy and what has kept me drawing since I was little. Feeling like I’m growing with my characters makes them very personal and dear to me, and it’s funny because sometimes I would realize parts about myself when writing a character and it would change my perspective.

Now for the design part, really have fun pushing the limits. Don’t do a singular sketch. Perhaps you make one design you really like, so extend upon that and flesh it out. Sketching helps me characterize them and give meat to the skeleton of an idea. You can be inspired by anything. You can look up color palettes, look at random creatures/animals and pick out a design you like (like the pattern of fur, scales of a fish, etc). Of course your characters story/setting can alter what they look like in your head, so the beginning stages can be very experimental. I don’t suggest making a full reference until you are finalizing your design and are sure with it.

If you’re having trouble making your character look original but fitting (something I struggle with a lot) I suggest just drawing yautjas in general and familiarizing yourself with their anatomy and variants. It helps to build off of that.

As for naming, I can’t give you a direct answer, because I literally name my characters whatever the fuck I want to. Bubba is named that because I found it endearing and he just looks like a Bubba to me. For Kûn’ta and Judah I tried making more traditional sounding names, which is kind of hard to do considering we are making characters off of a fandoms whose specific lore isn’t very well known. We aren’t given many inclinations to how yautja society works and their culture and the tidbits we do get the fandom is very wonderful at developing and exploring, which is why I love this community so much.

The upside to not knowing their traditional naming system is they are an alien race, and you can make up whatever you want and it pretty much sounds like an alien name. String together parts of words or syllables, look around your room at objects and flesh out a name off that.

Sorry for rambling, I realize a huge chunk of this tangent doesn’t even correlate to your actual question, I was just so delighted to answer this because I’m dumb of ass and get excited over these hyperfixations (like cough cough Kûn’ta).

I hope this helps in some manner, but I am in no way an expert and the best answer is to ask multiple artists/writers, who are all very talented and abundant in this community. A great aspect we yautja-enthusiasts have is being good at making shit up because the movies don’t give us anything. I will be shutting my whore mouth now thank you.

[mbrinnon35]

Draft day lol

Whole new meaning

Strange war going on

Chemical commercial substance

Anyways when should There be a draft day and release the multiples of content on this account

Damn after shuffling cutting, somehow deleting self nomifiers has jumped on the bandwagon in a different shape but more than than different before I can’t say just noticeable

C

Another app

Draws me like a long time lovers gaze

Enpty

Change is atom splitting speed

Maverick racing laps in the slick track

When nylon grips rock

Heavy bodies timber

Leaning tower of pizza

I am in this video game

I knew it would fall out and back

Sigh

And again

Bloodcurdling screams in the empty corridor

How is nobody scared

Singing will swap

But how is the action supposed to be morally done

I lose my mind I can’t continue playing

And the pain are the samë

Dra

Curse with a cross

Over and under

Run from speed guy

Feline

Need time

Blleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed

Eye

Creep by I been doing this since me 5

8 9 people don’t think i’m behind when i’m at the free line

Toe to toe with a beat pie I lead life as a senile

I hate to be liege

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Life is a fucking medieval story line

The dragon

The girl

Yeah

The fire

The gamble

The love

The jester

The jousting

The poison

The armour

Everything seems so meaningless because it’s like it’s going to happen again

Do you c what I mean

I guess I can keep traveling a bit further

Holding a cyclops hand

Error guy was tryna write cucumber lmao

Or cup

Or cut

Idk

Look over the horizon and (helz) why doesn’t my phone just output both stories at the same time

The one it’s changing and the one and the one

I guess there’s so many don’t know where’d it end or begin

So 1

Whatever I mean compared to

Fuck it

I give up

Or in

Or out

It a rest

But didn’t

I mean it a chance

I mean over

I mean next

Yeah

U diamon

Damn ima lose so hard

Still don’t wanna be here

The substance through it all (not though when you split dimensions)

At Epworth we all committed suicide 1 time per day

They let us

Even set it up for us

To fall

Just like what we were doing

The cover up story is ill

Damn

Got to use it

Trigger

Light in the dark

We shine

Drying in the fire

Finally vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvggvvvvvggggggggggggggggv

The art dvd

Cures the moment

Ahhhhhh

I run from

The gun that numbs

No fun

No love

My lungs

Need drugs

Rubber blunts

Fucking hunt

Rolled the stone

Cromasome

Where did the beauty go

How did it get so ugly

There’s gold flowing through my melting furnace structure

m

Where are you

I can’t handle all these heart flaps

Jumping through Mario looking pipes

It is on a hundred few trains all going up to the clouds

A roller coaster just to save an s

Even though output

Leaks

I’m so deep soepte feet

Sleep b

I can’t let you go

But you gon always be here

How can you become an idol

Such a subtle transition

I never noticed until after

Bad morals

So fatally flawed

Disentefratin my muscles and ideas

[yomiurinikei]

001 with dra?

 001 | Send me a fandom and I will tell you my:

Favorite character: i dont rlly dislike anyone but the one character who comes up on my blacklist!!!! uh uh tsurugi kinji and haru r rlly nice tho from a gay pov,,, then i like ayame mikako and akane rn!! i tend to rotate faves a lot excluding the boys that live in my head rent free

Least Favorite character: yeah.

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon): i mean i mostly think abt boys kissing but!!! thats boring and what 99% of this post is abt so lets ignore this question bc i like most ships

Character I find most attractive: hm hm tsurugi and haru yes. also kinji but specifically the way nblwkurokawa draws him

Character I would marry: have i not gay gushed abt the boys enough?? im polyam and abt to gain many many husbands

Character I would be best friends with: i mean. ignoring my severe social issues when interacting with people irl? if it were non-despair i think i could form a decent bond with yamato and mikako, in despair i’d at least try to end up vibing with teruya/satsuki/haru

a random thought: uh. kinjis hands r always either uncomfortably warm or terribly cold and u have to be a god, or rlly committed to it if u wanna hold hands with him

An unpopular opinion: higa attempted rape. had anything happened with akane, it wouldve been rape. higa has 0 issue with raping someone, and knew what he was doing was wrong and looked down upon, which didnt stop him

My Canon OTP: satsuhiko is all thats canon and its not rlly a fave of mine,,

My Non-canon OTP: mmm tsurugi/boys. yes. particularly i rlly like tsuhara and tsuhiko! but tsurugi is a cc so *places him with a boy* i just think itd b nice :D

Most Badass Character: mikako/akane/yamato! off the top of my head a least

Most Epic Villain: i dont think im allowed to talk here for legal reasons

Pairing I am not a fan of: t3rur31 has negative associations, but thats it off the top of my head? i also tend to hc rei as acearo, and when interacting with friends ship content of her, i tend to see the version they write as still being on that spectrum so thats probably part of it,,,

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another): like genuinely everyone but if we’re sticking with just how the characters were written in dra? i wish we had seen rei start to have more of the character development we saw in sdra2 instead of it being offscreen, i rlly wouldve liked to see akane and utsuros dynamic handled better, and. bc this is all off the top of my head, i thought abt kinji so. yes yes give us more of those social issues we know he has pls

Favourite Friendship: !!! rlly like seeing teruya/haru/satsuki interact and yamato/tsurugi/mikako

Character I most identify with: hm. i mean like on the one hand these were people who i knew so this feels weird,, but on the other hand. kinji tsurugi mikako akane yes.

Character I wish I could be: utsuro bc luck. i refuse to further comment on this

[unproduciblesmackdown]

3 am’s a crazy time for it but it occurs to me i may as well give a heads up that i am like, for real at the present assuming that i’m gonna like, sometime in the very near future here be going offline again, in that sort of my ~plan~ (my one-step plan) is seeing if i can get myself on a bus (hopefully) and see if that can get me to the west coast. and from there i’ll just be like, well here i am in a place i’ve never been before, being unhoused for the second time but this time not living in my car, which is a bit different than living right out in the open, which i’ve never done. this, for example, is why i was looking up how to do makeshift stp devices. way easier to be able to pee wherever you are than have to find a place you can drop your whole pants, or an actual bathroom. apparently cutting the end off one of those plastic liquid medicine measuring things with the sorta spoon at its mouth works. anyways

i suppose it hasn’t necessarily showed but for a few weeks now i’ve def been feeling The Impending Pressure and it was getting down to the wire there not knowing if the Last Day Online would spring itself on me suddenly. but i can at least say i think i’ll have a days warning now and be able to say something with at least a matter of hours forewarning and not like, a matter of minutes. its been sorta wild though like, sorta assuming its like a Two Days Remain situation and in the midst of the unpredictability of depression, trying to just enjoy things as they’re happening, the simple stuff like chatting with people and being able to put my bullshit thoughts online...cranking out a fic chapter because it’s at least a better place to leave it hanging than it wouldve been otherwise.....just consuming this content that’s enjoyable and chill af.......i tell ya what—both in terms of being Fun and Anxiety-Reducing and Good Distractions and also, a great opportunity just to be talking to people on the daily which has been and continues to be absolutely fantastic—having been On that deh/etc will roland train for the past couple months has been a total gift. it was some great luck stumbling into that, seriously

anyways it’s weird! it’s weird thinking just like, i’ll suddenly do this thing and be on the other coast and just step out and be somewhere i don’t know and with no particular destination and maybe the lgbt center i looked up will at least tell me whats the best area to be in, sometimes they’re in the know abt that re: where’s a better spot to be homeless in than others. and from there, y’know, all i’ve been doing for years and all i can continue to do is absolutely wing it. and it’s funny that this all seems slightly less intimidating to me than it wouldve like, a year or two ago (even tho two yrs ago i was technically homeless lol but living in my car so like i said its different from living Right on the street) but honestly, obviously, it’s still very intimidating because how could it not be. i’m maybe not AS anxious but i’m still anxious and even though i know i could do it, i’d be stressed tf out and anxious as hell and shit while i was doing it. i mean, a crosscountry bus ride alone—i’ve never done that!! what if i mess up switching over to a different connecting ride between stations. bus and train bathrooms unnerve me, god forbid i have to get past someone to get to the aisle to GO to the bathroom. and, yknow, just a really long bus ride—how do you manage to sleep, how do i manage not to fall asleep at the wrong time cuz i doubt there’s an attendant telling you to get off at the right stop. though god knows it’s somewhat arbitrary where i’m deciding to go, i have no especial connection in one particular place over another, i think i have an uncle and cousin in CA but i don’t have the first idea where and i don’t know them at all

ugh. like there’s no actual way to feel good about it but if i’m gonna go somewhere it might as well be in a completely different place and i could try the west coast and i’m not one for making careful plans or thinking that making careful plans about your life works unless you’ve already got a lot of control about your situation, which i don’t. and it’s always been p inevitable that i wind up “properly” homeless, and it happens, and i don’t pretend it doesn’t scare me, but what are you gonna do? c’est ca que c’est / la vie. this way there’s a chance that A Big Change might lead the way for something better, and like hey if i die or some shit i die, which has always been a possibility anyways for the past like 6-7 years especially, what with how shitty i’ve felt lol. but i have no attachment where i’m at now and just. it’s hard to explain i guess if you’re not in the kind of place where i’m at but there’s not a lot of choices in the first place so, if i can choose the location, if it can be somewhere new where i MIGHT like to be for once, that’s better than not. and somehow so far i’ve managed to go with the flow surrounding big changes and sometimes wild situations, even if i’ve felt like crap and been super worried sometimes too. i don’t know for how many years now i’ve been Not assuming i’d be alive by the next year, but here i am having gotten this far, at least. it’s fairly impressive even if i don’t have any amazing achievements. believe it or not i’m pretty satisfied with my Achievements as just like, dumbass blog posts and fic/art and occasionally contributing something someone enjoys and getting to talk to people sometimes. it’s how i’ve been able to enjoy myself in the midst of some really awful times for the past like 6 yrs and i’ve appreciated it every day i’ve gotten to surf the net

like i guess it’s like haha, nerd, that half of what i’m worried about is being offline. but it’s a big deal being able to connect w the world beyond your immediate reach and distract yourself and say things and maybe even Enjoy yourself and also actually get to talk to people. but hey sometimes even people who live on the street manage to snag wifi connections somehow. i’d have to ask them how, lol. but, yknow, like i said, for a couple weeks especially it’s been like , Not Assuming I’ll NOT Lose Internet Connection and thus really trying to bear down on appreciating it. not like being offline for 5 months or so didn’t also make me appreciate it extra already. i was gonna say i survived it but i did get wildly depressed throughout like, august? september? probably both lol. anyways. what i’m trying to say i guess is that i’m not actually assuming i’ll be okay, but that only means so much because like, not to sound dramatic but i’ve pretty much never been okay on account of ive been just a half step away from living on the streets ever since leaving my parents house where i’d previously lived my whole life, which was an abusive situation. and also the depression and the years of really wanting to die which, at least 2018 didn’t have TOO much of that, in terms of feeling like it might be impending. now i can’t really be bothered, i’m just floating along and if i die i die, right. what i’m trying to say is, there’s not really any Good Proper option to choose where i’m definitely okay, so it’s basically about choosing between bad options, and with this choice i might at least like the location a little better, change of scenery, not as cold as here, i dunno. there’s not a way to just choose my way into being okay. it’s all a roll of the dice anyhow

also it’s weird but one thing about being on my own is it takes the pressure off me in certain ways and it’s a bit easier for me to Do things. if there’s anyone else to answer to in any way, i tend to just not ever decide anything and definitely don’t pursue anything. i’m one of those ppl who either has to live alone or with ppl they’re really really really comfortable with, and since i don’t have the latter around and nobody especially me can afford the former, it’s like, well, how is not everybody homeless anyway, right? and people do it. because yknow, you have to do it, it’s suddenly just your situation and somehow people get through every day. idk. learn as you go. what can ya do. it’s choosing between various bad options, i could also just wander into the mountains and die, but i’d rather not, and offing myself is Way a hassle, and also would be difficult, same as dying of exposure/dehydration in this middle of nowhere patch of mtns. i might as well try my luck at being in a place where you COULD maybe survive or something, and where i could at least feel like, if i do manage to have any good things happen, i would even possibly want to be in that area and be more comfortable living there. i have no roots anywhere and only have a No Zone (near my parents house) and so its sorta like, pick a random place to be!! lol. ahhhh

what can i say. it also sucks having to think “boy, in addition to not dying, hope i don’t get physically/sexually assaulted—also, how do people get water??” but......such is the way that it is. i don’t know. i don’t think anybody looks at impending homelessness and goes “i’m okay about this and not at all afraid.” and it’s strange to talk about how this is sort of ~by choice~ but it’s not exactly, in that i didn’t choose to only have abusive family and how even though i was working while living in my car it would never have been enough for rent probably even if i had someone to split it with and i also didn’t choose to not be rich in the first place and *the economy...... .png*

sigh. i dunno, it’s hard because i can’t talk about it a right way or long enough and get to a point i don’t feel intimidated or upset that once i Go Offline i’ll for real just be on my own unless and until i manage to get online for a moment again, in which case i’ll still be on my own, but i’ll feel a bit less alone, ha ha

anyways. speaking of trying to appreciate the simple pleasures of talking about whatever weird shit i wanna talk about and pushing myself to draw/write as it feels like it gets even more down to the wire—time to do that! 4 am and time to draw this weird meme & hopefully crank out the rest of this oneshot & maybe even draw again, and maybe again—it’s cool cuz i slept weird the other night and then got again weirdly tired in the afternoon and took a long depression nap w sorta fun, sorta bizarre dreams. augh. so at least i figure i’m just cruisin now, Not Sleeping-wise

i might have to ask a favor eventually in that there’s something really super simple i ought to look up, but i’d have a ton of trouble making myself do so because of anxiety, yknow how it is. but i’ll ask that if and when i ask it

[bone-ifiedcryptid]

*draws one single thing* *gets burnt out* *thinks about drawing* *thinks about drawing* “I wonder if I could write this very specific scene in my head since I can’t draw atm” *thinks about writing said scene* *thinks about how I could build up to that scene* *comes up with a plot that gets my interest like a pointer hound with its quarry* *writes five paragraphs in one hour* *tries to write again* *writes five words* “oo I wanna draw this character” *thinks about drawing* *thinks about dra

[yumenosakiacademy]

tagged by: no one. i saw someone @ "anyone" n i went "o~kay!"

RULES: answer all questions, add one question of your own and tag as many people as there are questions. (i dont have that many friends heck you)

tagging: @hajimeme-hinata @ojamajodoremi @jyflbx @orangetsundere @redscotty and anyone else who sees this n wanna do it! have fun~! ^w^

coke or pepsi: Coke

disney or dreamworks: Both i guess?? maybe disney?

coffee or tea: Both r good but caffeine isnt the best 4 u so i dont rly drink it often unless it’s a few sips in the morning every so often as a pick-me-up... i drink cold sweet tea tho! glug glug

books or movies: movies r easier to watch but the books r written better so i dont kno. i dont rly watch movies OR read books a ton tho

windows or mac: Windows

dc or marvel: De/adpool is from marvel but teen ti/tans r from dc n those r the only comic book characters i rly read/watch from their of those so im torn.. prob dc tho bc i luv te/en titans. ive read some De/adpool comics n theyre Funny tho

xbox or playstation: playstation! fun fact: i have a playstation 2 (in storage) and a playstation 3!

dra/gon age or mass ef/fect: never played either of em

night owl or early riser: night owl all the way baybee

cards or chess: cards

chocolate or vanilla: vanilla but chocolate is! also v v good. both. but vanilla by a smaaaall margin

vans or converse: i dont wear either of em lol

lavellan, trevelyan, cadash, or adaar: I had to look this up n i dint play dr/agon age sry mate

fluff or angst: fluff! angst is PAWESOME n i luv torturing others by writing it so maybe both? but i prefer reading fluff more ngl

beach or forest: beach

dogs or cats: cats!! nyanyanya!!!!

clear skies or rain: clear skies

cooking or eating out: cooking bc eating out costs Money and fast food is prob more Unhealthy... dunno

spicy food or mild food: mild food

halloween/samhain or solstice/yule/christmas: halloween! christmas costs money and on halloween i can trick or treat w haji! ^w^

would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot: binch im always too effin cold... but i dunno which one i'd choose tbh.. maybe a lil too hot? how much is "little" i need to know that before i can answer fully....

if you could have a superpower, what would it be: MAGIC! You can do so many things it's like having multiple powers! or if i cant choose that, then appearification, bc then i could make whatever objects i want, like money, food, cute clothes, anime mer/ch, etc all for Free >:3c

animation or live action: animation

paragon or renegade: ???? what's that nya? owo;;;

baths or showers: showers THEN baths. dont bathe in ur own germs. take a shower first then draw a bath n relax afterward! or sleep in the bath

team cap or team ironman: neither 

fantasy or sci-fi: fantasy!

do you have three or four favourite quotes? if so what are they: i kno of a few that i have saved so! “Dreams, like sea turtles’ eggs… Most of them.. are crushed, but… no matter how many tears one sheds, you cannot stop giving birth to them, can you…” (shinkai kana/ta, en/stars), “If I’m wishing for a dream that can’t come true, then I’ll just embrace the hurt past and have a dream I won’t wake up from.” (L/ost time Memory), "You don't have to 8e alive to make yourself relevant. And you don't have to 8e a good person to 8e a hero. You just have to know who you are and stay true to that. So I'm going to keep fighting for people the only way I ever knew how. 8y 8eing me." (Vr/iska Serk.et, Hom/estuck)

youtube or netflix: youtube!

harry po/tter or percy jack/son: neither. n ive only seen the movie 4 per/cy jackson: light/ning thief

when you feel accomplished: when I get stuff right in class or make someone happy!

star w/ars or star t/rek: neither

paperback books or hardback books: paperback! hardback costs more money n is heavier n stuff

horror or rom-com: rom-com

to live in a world without literature or music: ummm we need literature to read n grow smarter that's how we get our education n stuff so even tho i listen to music 24/7, for the sake of humanity we'd need literature

pastel colours or dark colours: pastel

tv shows or movies: tv shows

city or countryside: city

if any other zodiac sign could describe you, what would it be: umm.. i dunno abt zodiacs much tbh! sry ;;;

if you could only listen to one album for the rest of your life what would it be: "Forever" by Mys/tery Skulls

cinema or theatre: cinema

if you could be any fictional character’s best friend, who’d you be: arashi!! i want her to pat my head n take me out shopping n we’ll compliment eachother n look at cute makeup together aaa... or rox/y lalonde bc shes so funny n cool! they're both so nice n i Luv them!

smiling or smirking: both!

are you an ‘all or nothing’ type or are you more consistent: umm... dunno!

playlists or your whole library on shuffle: playlists, but i usually just listen to songs on you/tube bc i dont have a "library"! fan/mixes count as pla/ylists tho so!

travelling or staying at home: staying at home for sure. travelling costs money, i'm lazy, theres almost nothing i'd consider fun abt travelling either, nor would i want to learn languages to visit countrues that arent english-speaking. no thanks. even travelling in america or europe would prob be.. Boring. no thanks.

books or fanfiction: fanfiction most DEF!! 

If you could live in a fantasy world, what world would it be: i.. dont know an answer, sorry.... ;;;;

What fictional character do you think you're like? Bonus- Give reasons: ...Depends on who you ask tbh..... but i think maybe Nep/eta Leij/on from Hom/estuck bc im cheery nyanya n kitties n stuff! or Yu/ta Ashuu from Bp/ro bc we both try to get our friends to lighten up and we;re happy but we still kinda have insecurities n stuff so.. also i can sing like him! n i used to be an idol, yanno~! but these 2 it’s, yknow, for when i'm happy n stuff n around my friends or ppl i dont mind! ^w^ not around family or most classmates tho. nonono.