#I wait for fanfic for years if needed you stupid bishes

[tealime9]

AURGHHHHH

I just discovered the cool writer from a sight for sore eyes, the cool as FUCK fanfic about legally blind Childe deleted their account because ASSHOLES kept pressing about the next chapter in which they just didnt found fun to the fanfic anymore!!!

THATS WHY, YOU SEND A NICE MESSAGE OVER THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT FANFIC, NOT A COMMENT OF 'WHEN NEXT CHAP' OH 'YOURE TAKING TOO LONG WHEN NEXT CHAP' LIKE GODDAMN IT DUDE GET SOME FANDOM ETIQUETTE

im so damn mad it was SUCH A GOOD FANFIC

The way they wrote Childe was absolutely fricking gOOOOOOOOOOD

AUGHHHHHHH

dont be a goddamn asshole!!

[if-i-ever-was]

‘tis me. 

SO, where do I even begin? I know I’d already read the first two pages, but they were so amazing and full of emotion that of course I had to read them again before diving in fully into the last chapter of that masterpiece. When you told me about the idea, I already was hooked and I could picture it all, and you had all these little ideas that throughout the course of this story I’ve seen you put in in a way that was always a million times better than I could have ever imagined. I knew this would be so wonderful and that we were all going to enjoy it and it makes me so happy that you’re getting the recognition you deserve. Even though I knew how it was going to end, the beginning of the chapter had me shook, I was already so emotional in the last one, but this one messed me up even more. The way they’re so careful with each other, “as if everything they’d built up that weekend was delicate enough to shatter with one false move", that was so good. It’s so difficult to write such raw and real emotion and to not fall into writing it poetically but the way it’s really authentically felt and you did that so well that it made me really emotional too. Everything that goes through their heads is so natural and it makes perfect sense and is very relatable and real and honest. 

I’m in love with the way they’ve impacted each other, I love how there are little smutty thoughts because they just can’t resist each other - also very relatable. I am so emotion at the hug, the kiss, it was all too much, I might have liked the hug even more than the kiss (not that the kiss wasn’t wonderful) but the way that you described the hug had me so weak and made it so easy to imagine what it would be like to hug him, I am weak. The way she kissed him though, Lola is a true icon, it was so hot and good and urghhh, I have no words. When she looks at him to take it all in, he is so fucking hot, I cannot handle it. His stupid game of the countdown and then all the lines added something even more special to this chapter, so nostalgic, it was perfect and made me want to reread it all and just shows how much they’ve actually experienced with each other. 

Okay. I knew he was going to do it. I knew it was going to happen. And yet … how dare he??? I knew all along from the first few chapters but how dare he??? I’m still so mad at him, he’s such a fucking idiot!! The way he leavs her is clever, and at the same time, it broke my heart. My poor daughter! With all the descriptions there is honestly nothing that you could have missed, it was all there and so wonderfully detailed and I just could picture it all so vividly as if it were happening to me - I’ve been anticipating this chapter so much and I wasn’t disappointed.

And then he’s out of breath because he’s an IDIOT!! He deserves that swat on the chest because he’s a true idiot, Lola voicing what we’re all thinking, he is an idiot!!!! I repeat - an idiot! The way he convinces her though, her struggle is so real and I know it was hard to execute, to have it make sense for them to be so close after such a short amount of time together, but it felt like half a lifetime and it’s the only natural way to go from here, there was nothing strange about it, they say and see it for how it is and it makes perfect sense. Her conditions are so good, I was really looking forward to that bit, it’s so typical of her and I love the way Alex always predicts her reactions to everything. 

They’re such soft and happy idiots. I am a happy idiot. This story was a true masterpiece, once again you captured Alex so well, he is so easy to imagine and it’s so uniquely him and I adore that so much when you write him. I am so proud of you for this story, I know it’s your baby and I know it’s not over and I’m so excited for the one shots and that different side to them that’s not under the roof of the hotel, I cannot wait! But I’m also excited about you focusing on Izzy and Alex and everything else you have planned, I just want you to keep writing and keep writing with me and stay as wonderful as you are. You’re so inspiring and wonderful and I don’t know where I’d be without you. You’re my inspiration. I love you so much! 🧡💝💓💛🐢💕

It’s you! 

Here we go. You really didn’t need to do this, babe. But I love you so much for it. 

Doesn’t it seem like years ago that I had that first idea randomly out of nowhere? I’m so glad you pushed me to write it. You’re so kind. I cannot thank you enough for simply being happy for me? It’s such a warm feeling knowing you’re proud and support me endlessly. I’m so glad that it comes across as I intended, they really are so delicate and scared to make a wrong move and that’s part of their charm and chemistry, I think. I’m sorry for doing you an emotion, but so so glad you think it’s authentic and real in the way I write their feelings (my double scorpio ass deffo helps). It’s so easy to rush it to get to the drama but the pace for this one had to be different, you know?

It definitely obvious they made a different to each other and that’s so special to me. Reading over the first chapter they’re like slightly different versions of themselves and they just brought out the best in each other. Their tiny little smutty thoughts are so entertaining to add, because it’s so relatable. That’s so cute, because hugs are so hard to write well! She looovvesss that control but also wants his to ruin her at times (libra bish) so yesss, she is an icon. He is unbelievably hot, it just doesn’t get boring. Nostalgia was exactly what I was aiming for.

I know I know I know. How dare he???? It’s always been the plan and I am so glad it still made sense and I get why he did it (obvs because I wrote him doing it) but it was still rude. I was furious. He really is being a smart boy but at the same time, he isn’t.  I know, my daughter just left there is such a haunting image. Glad the details weren’t overbearing, I did my best to make it seem like A LOT to handle though. YAY FOR NOT DISAPPOINTING YOU! That was my only goal haha. 

Out of breath baby!! Idiot is officially HH canon, we love!!! Do we like him??? I am so glad that it comes across as genuine, their reasoning and everything. I was so stressed about it seeming forced but you’ve reassured me that I made it work. You’re right, it was the only option. It is typical of her to make a list, and yes he really does know what she’s going to say and do, it’s my fave thing.

They’re so soft and happy at the end, correct. You are my favourite happy idiot. I captured him well? Shook? Never mentioned it before? Haha, no I’m kidding, I love that you think and say that every time because it’s the most impressive compliment for a fanfic writer to receive. It’s a joy to capture the essence of Alex Turner. Thank you for being proud, it makes me so proud to make you proud. It is my baby. It’s so exciting haha! You are so fucking kind to me. Izzy and Al coming up, Evie and Al coming up too. I 100% promise to keep writing as long as you do too, you and me till the end, babe. You’re my rock, my writing partner and my inspiration. This blog wouldn’t exist without you, HH is fully dedicated to you. I love you 💞💞💞💞💞