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Hot take but maybe Ao3 should use some of their funding to make their own encryption / Captchas instead of giving the domain to Cloudfare. Or at least implement an alternative, non-3rd-party method of defending against DDosses
Since, y'know, Cloudfare could be a massive data mining company and is already causing problems for a lot of users... Further reading below
"Now cloudflare has control to eavesdrop and log any user interactions with your website or silently tamper content if they please." -dr jimbob (Link) explains this well & briefly in a stack exchange comment.
JoePie91 has a post criticizing Cloudfare & provides alternatives at the end, although the article is old so take it with a grain of salt (Link).
Troy Hunt has an equally old article in support of Cloudfare, if you want a different opinion (Link). Although I disagree with a lot of his takes, and the whole "anyone who disagrees is crazy and polarized" bit is super off-putting.
"if your choices are to either run entirely unencrypted or to protect against the 95% (or thereabouts) of transport layer threats that exist between your visitors and your origin, do the sensible thing. Nobody in their right mind is going to advocate for remaining totally unencrypted rather than using CloudFlare purely to encrypt between their edge nodes and your users. There are people not in their right mind that will argue to the contrary and that's precisely what the title of this post suggests - it's unhealthy security absolutism."
I personally think security absolutism is silly, but to say people who want to use more secure alternatives are "not in their right mind" is an insane straw man.
Idk I just want Ao3 voulenteers to do more research!! Users being forced to consent their info to Cloudfare in order to use the site is dumb! I'm done yapping, feel free to RB with your own thoughts / disagreements..
#ao3#ao3 outage#Cloudfare#Cybersecurity#BTW!! I understand that Ao3 is run by volunteers#I understand that they aren't paid#I am grateful for the work that they DO get done#And I don't blame them for picking the easy way out of these attacks#But still#Just thought I'd put this out there because I've seen a few people be worried abt the Cloudfare thing
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Getting real sick of a certain subset of Destiny players complaining that it’s a baby game and crying to Bungie to nerf exotics and abilities when their ENTIRE POINT IS TO BE STRONG in specific ways as if they are being locked into using them.
IF YOU WANT AN EXTRA CHALLENGE STOP BEING SUCH A DPS GOBLIN AND JUST EQUIP SOMETHING THATS NOT TOP TIER META AND STOP COMPLAINING JESUS FUCKING CHRIST
MOOD. Go off.
It's incredibly annoying to me. They always use the argument of "the game should FORCE me to do things, I should not SELF-IMPOSE challenges." And like. ? I'm sorry but what? It's a video game for a big audience, it's here to be playable and accessible to the widest possible playerbase. There are plenty of ways to make the game difficult for yourself, so knock yourself out if that's your thing, but don't force others into it.
Like, I enjoy hard content, I regularly at least attempt day 1 raids, I do master raids, GMs, solo and solo flawless content and all that. But only when I want to. Sometimes I don't and I don't want to suffer in a patrol zone or struggle in a seasonal activity I'm doing for the story. The majority of the players don't want that. Designing games for the professional gamers only has NEVER been a good idea and never will be. Fifty streamers can't sustain a video game. It needs casual players who will want to come back to the game instead of feeling defeated.
One of the reasons I really enjoy helping others is because I know that casual players tend to struggle in stuff that's basic activity for me. I've seen people unable to get through a strike. I've sat for 10 minutes rezing someone who couldn't do the jump in a seasonal activity. I want those people to be able to play basic content without feeling frustrated and I want them to know that there are people out there who will help them out.
And this doesn't apply just to basic content, although it should start with that. I think all dungeons and raids and everything should be things that all players can complete. Fine, doing a master raid with all challenges should be tough, but it should be achievable with time and practice, not impossible. What a lot of these "pros" want is just completely divorced from reality.
It takes days and days of practice every time a new master raid is out for me and my team (all with thousands of hours of playtime) to get comfortable to finally finish it. We're far from casual players and it still takes a lot of time to be able to finish hard content. Making it even harder is insane to me. Like, if something is so hard that my team full of people, each with 5000+ hours of playtime and a coordinated team that's been raiding together for years now can't finish it, that means it's absolutely impossible for probably 90% of the playerbase. That's wild to me. Raids and GMs should have more people playing them. If master raids are too easy for you, Mr. I-Play-Destiny-For-A-Living, that's on you buddy. Unequip the super god tier god roll meta guns and loadouts or play something else.
And ofc, another excuse they make is "if I don't use meta, I am not going to win a raid race!" Then don't. Idk. Let me play you the tiniest violin. This affects literally nobody except a grand total of 50 people. Run your meta in day 1, and play with random shit otherwise. Play raids with all white weapons. Play without mods. Play without a HUD. Do things solo only. I don't know, make up a way to spice things up for yourself. I'm not interested in that and neither are 99% of the players out there. The game is genuinely hard enough for the majority of the players. On top of that, I am here to feel like a powerful space fantasy superhero. I am NOT here to die to dregs in patrol zones. If there's ONE thing that I know for a fact that put people off from Lightfall (as in this year of Destiny), it's the difficulty changes. They're annoying, frustrating and for some a barrier to entry more than anything else.
#destiny 2#gameplay#ask#long post#i really do love helping but i can't not feel bad because once the people i helped are out of my fireteam...#...there's no telling what other experiences they'll have#there's so many speedrunners and people who don't care and people who just aren't helping and are instead mocking others#you can only do so much for a few people you see in activities#this season's activities are super tough. every time so far I've played everyone in the team was struggling#i'm gonna have to start going into altars of summoning with my full support build warlock just to sit in there and help people#istg the 'pros' have to get their loadouts restricted. go play with non-god tier armour sets and guns#equip the same loadout that some casual player has available and let me see you then#this idea that everyone has minmaxed best equipment available at all times is bizarre. please get your head out of your ass#'i have perfectly rolled all artifice armour with perfect stat exotics for every loadout because i have infinite time to grind' okay dude#most of us aren't being paid to play destiny. lmao#'the game used to be hard' no. you got better. you mastered it#why is this so difficult to understand. everything is hard when you first start. 5000 hours later it no longer is#the game is fine. the 'health of the game' is fine. you mastered it and outgrew it#either impose challenges on yourself or find something else#like. when i first started GMs they were almost impossible for me#now i play them for fun. they're still challenging but they're not the same level of hard and I'm fine with that#i enjoy them as content and they're still entertaining#and when a new GM comes out it's a new challenge to master so it'll be hard at the start#as everything ever in the world#if that's no longer enough for you then you just outgrew the game and should probably move on#the only reason why some things used to be hard was poor quality of life that got improved over time#not being able to mantle in d1 is not difficulty. it's just not good design. it was fixed and improved#the bitching about light 3.0 as well. man. just don't use the 'OP' fragments. it's so easy to unequip them#i personally love the variety and all the options i have now as opposed to before#okay tag essay done. fhkajhakfhksjf
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you know I remember once when my best friend and I were just browsing the video game section in a store he turned to me and went "the nintendo ds is now considered a retro console btw" and I had a whole crisis. the scariest part of this story is that it happened like ten years ago
#i've been thinking about the consoles of my youth lately because i was searching for a specific ds game#and the thing is. ds games aren't particularly cheaper now. they used to be forty bucks and they pretty much still are that much#for a console that came out in what. 2005? i got my ds lite for christmas 2006#i mean it is the superior console hands down but still#i found the game btw and i paid around thirty bucks. other sellers want as much as ninety tho ❤️#it's a rare-ish game so understandable#it hasn't got here yet so i am still suspicious#rayrambles
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https://www.tumblr.com/cementcornfield/748681680206905344/hes-looking-for-more-long-term-security-than-what
I really hope it doesn’t come to this with Ja’Marr man
i don't think it's a similar situation at all really. and we have a history of paying our WR1s from what i understand. it might not happen this offseason, but i have faith we'll pull through for ja'marr at least.
#joe wants ja'marr#and what joe wants he gets in this organization!#tee hasn't been paid i believe because they're choosing to invest in ja'marr instead#this trey thing is just...unfortunate#given he signed an extension last offseason#and then balled the fuck out this season#i understand how he'd want more money#hopefully we give him some - or at least more guaranteed#but we aren't trading him i'm sure
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i hate when someone invites me to like do something or go somewhere but they also invite someone i dislike, that they know i dislike and when i say i don't want to come because that person is there they're like it's fine, just ignore them...because i want to spend money i barely even have to spend time around people that have hurt me????? like if i don't like the person, idc who else is there and if i can ignore them, i'm not gonna put myself into a situation like that and idk why that's so hard for people to get
#my friends birthday is tomorrow#and she decided to spring a last minute plan on me to go to some hotel and stay for the weekend#which is a horrible idea for several reasons#we used to be a trio and then the other girl stopped talking to me because she was jealous#and we havent spoken in a year but they’re still friends#i hate her#she hates me#and we dont see each other and i want to keep it that way#secondly i hate last minute plans#it gives me unnecessary anxiety#thirdly the other person who's coming we aren't that close#so its just a mess all around#and lastly i literally told her i cant afford this because my internship hasn't paid me#i have less than 200 bucks to my name rn because idk when im gonna get paid#and shes like oh well ill lend it to you and you can just pay me back#like the issue isnt just not having the money rn#its that this is the type of thing id have to save for in advance#even if i borrowed the money from her#itd still put me out because i simply cant afford it#and its perplexing to me why she cant understand why a last minute overnight trip to a hotel isnt something everyone can just drop money on#especially in this fucking economy#i think i need better friends#rants and ramblings
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I don't know how well you know SA1, but consider: Twinkle Park's rule of "cute couples get in free" with Silver and Espio plus Blaze and Gold👀 (they ended up on a double date and none of them know how that happened lmao)
I had to look up to see what Twinkle Park is like because I legit didn't remember gosh, I am so rusty
At first glance, bomb-throwing robots and spiky balls aside, Twinkle Park is pretty much like a real life amusement park: there's a rollercoaster, a hall of mirrors, bumper cars, a carousel, etc... Buuuut then you realize they are a little... Hmmmmm... Deadly radical. They're a little deadly radical: the bumper cars descent slide will surely be with the car a meter above the floor, the access to the rollercoaster is a bit complicated, the hall of mirrors is full of traps, KAKAKAKAAK, plus, there are badniks and spiky balls in almost every corner of that park AKAKAKAKAKAKA
I mean, that does seem the standart judging by the fact it is just there amid Station Square and by the other carnival stages, like in Sonic Rush and Advance (although it's hard to say if those were or weren't created by Eggman)
That taken into account, Espio, Silver and Blaze probably would be very chill and enjoy the park, I bet Silver would be even the most excited with the presence of badniks as the challenge in destroying them, but poor Gold would panick for sure, the regret for falling to the bait until they get her to the only calm ride, the carousel... Which is also surrounded by big spiky balls 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 the girl can't take a break, she is never falling for this bait again 🤣🤣 In a second thought Blaze's not chill as her girlfriend is not chill, she's full focused in protec her
For how it happened though, for Espilver case I imagine it's possible that a day, after they finish a case around Station Square, they come around the entrance to the park and Espio considers it could be a nice activity to do with his lover, especially if it's free to cute couples, aka them, Silver just shrugged and agreed with a "why not?" CUT to him have fun galore destroying some bomb-throwing robots
For Goldaze it's harder... Maybe Gold heard of the place through Amy and managed to convince Blaze in a free day (She then swears the next time she's gonna put more thought before take Amy's suggestions... She doesn't, no shenanigan is enough) or maybe it was one of that one in a million cases and Gold was lucky to meet Blaze exactly there... Anyway, if that's their very first date, or one of their first dates, bet Espio and Silver are gonna make help them to find a ride they both can enjoy nothing less than their main goal (what is a hard mission... Even harder with badniks and spiky balls almost everywhere).
#i don't understand why I never paid attention to the twinkle Park before but now I have like a hundred questions#like: are we sure thar was not created by Eggman? that doesn't seem the case but them the badniks are just there#although I love the fact the amusement parks in Sonic world seem to be like that by standart#they are like the pokémon gym: in real world would have several security flaws and would be closed in a blink#but in that cartoon world everything is allowed#akakakakakakkaakkaakkaakkaakka#that many badniks around and that many traps aren't that bad to Gold at the end of the day...#the perfect excuse to be carried by Blaze and cuddle her 😁#iirc you've had an Ask about Gold in an amusement park a time ago as she likely barely even knows the concept (raised in OC after all)#poor girl her first experience and it is that extreme and radical by minimum standart#wait until she learn of Twinkle Park's bowling#Gold: if I recall the rules right... we should throw a ball at the pines...#Espio; that's the neat part here YOU are the ball *curls and get in the launcher*#espilver#goldaze#thanks for the ask
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#to anyone asking#it's family drama#I need attention too#but everyone else's problems are just so big#just so overwhelming#i can't even give anyone an update#my life doesn't matter#especially in comparison to the drama#yes my sister is more important i get it#her break up with her fiancé (again) is more important than my plans#Yes her going on a sleep over with a boy with brain damage that she's planning on exploiting emotionally and financially is NOT GOOD#But i have to remain sympathetic to her because she feels bad#yes she asked me to take a week long vacation to take care of her with no notice#but I have to be patient and understanding#i need to ignore my problems#after all my problems aren't half as important#it doesnt matter#it doesn't matter if I need help with homework there's a house on fire#it doesnt matter that the house has been on fire for 7 years and I still need help with homework#why would I bring up homework any more#doesn't matter that I'm struggling against suicidal thoughts she is so important she can take a week off work paid#doesnt matter that I'm starting to hate myself she can't be alone for a single hour without feeling anxiety#it doesnt matter how much i hurt she hurts worse and I can't get a hundredth of the attention she gets#i want to scream
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My doctor messaging me at 12:30 in the morning to tell me she wants to do a telehealth visit abt the side effects I'm having with my new Lamotrigine dose (including worse insomnia than my usual insomnia, as u may have guessed lmao) is. something.
#text post#like i know why i am awake babe why are YOU awake this late#and god why do we have to do another visit#they aren't bad enough to make me stop this dose and i haven't been on the new dose long enough to let it even out#can i not just Not have to do another uncomfortable visit where even if things turn out okay after#i later feel like I'm still not being wholly trusted/treated like i know my body and how i feel#i had worse side effects restarting this med months ago and we didn't have any additional visits for that#they fucking forgot to even book me for a f/u and i had to call in and beg for one basically#and then they misbooked it for the wrong reason and with the wrong doctor#and made it out like it was my fault when i made clear i begged and told the receptionist i spoke to to book said appt#that it needed to b with my doc for the Lamotrigine and that i hadn't been told when to follow up so i was just. doing it#bc she said i needed to but then didn't say when to book it#they're trying hard and im trying to give them grace but then this shit happens and like#im tired. makes me want to go into my new doc like nah never mind im fine. don't ask me nothing and i won't bug you with anything#unless im dying or nearly dead already.#would suck beyond believe attempting to raw dog life mostly again but goddamn. im so sick of this lack of stability with my care#anyway. probably an appt next Tuesday which is great#that's the week of the weekend that i work again and the week before my bday#(a bday I'll be working now which I'm not normally irked abt but. i am a bit rn)#so cool. yeah. let's stack anxiety and fear over a medical appt on top of everything else for that week#and that's not counting that this weekend I've been tasked with buying and getting signed a v expensive and rare figure#for my mum's bf and I'm kind of terrified im gonna fuck it up#he paid for tickets to the con the figure will be sold at and that the person he wants to sign it will be at#so if i fuck this up he'll want (understandably) to be paid back asap for that#and that's money i don't fucking have rn#i really wish she had waited till the actual day proper to contact me bc i couldn't sleep before this#and now i definitely cant bc like#it's dumb. but what if she takes my med away. it isn't perfect but it works better than any other med I've tried#what if she wants me to try a new one. i cant do that and b dealing with major side effects during the intense work schedule#that'll be happening for me v soon and then into November
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sorry i PURCHASED a plan for extra photos with the yearbook photographers to get some professional headshots done and now they're telling me i have to pay literally Hundreds Of US Dollars more just to download them????
#sasha speaks#hello?? this wasn't on the fucking website when i booked?#they said i could buy the photo package and then use the photos. i already paid for them????#paying extra for prints i understand but to DOWNLOAD THE FILES? i want TWO PHOTOS and you're gonna charge $230 FOR ONE?#utter bullshit!!!!#i'm gonna have to find a new photographer and pay to get my headshots redone now aren't i.#oh i am mad about this one
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So I'm signed up for this online 30's speed dating event for WLW and sapphics right?
Here's the thing: It looks like they aren't even bothering to regulate it at all because I see tons of people who aren't in their 30s and even some men are listed in the people who are signed up for the event.
What's even the point of a specific event for 30 something WLW if just anyone can join it? :/
#As a 30 year old I'm not interested in 18/19 year olds and yet a bunch of them are signed up for a event for women in their 30s???#any one who is in their 30s and wants to date teenagers is a total creep#I hope they realize that because I don't think they do#18 and 19 year olds look like children to me now#if you promise an event for women in their 30s please actually deliver it :(#If I'm using a site that's for women loving women- men shouldn't be allowed? I'm not looking for a man!#now I see why the lesbians and other sapphics get angry#I'm debating whether or not this is even worth my time because I'm not confident that it will be run well at all#so many people failed to understand the prompt or purposely don't care#they are either too young or the wrong gender- if you're not a woman in her 30s it's not for you?#If a woman is in her late 20s that's different but it was a bunch of people under 25#dating is inherently exclusive- most people aren't attracted to everyone else???#A lot of people fail to realize you CAN be pro equality and still not want to date most other people- it IS possible#Now selfish people are going to ruin something that isn't even for them :/#I am the target audience for this event and they are making me not want to participate#I'm 30 and sapphic- questioning whether bi or lesbian but I belong there#Should I be surprised? I really don't know what to think honestly#I'm a little angry that they don't seem to care who attends because I paid for a ticket- not too much but still?#mychatter
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hihiiii fairy berry :3 i was reading flighty AGAIN!!!! and i was wondering if you ever thought ab a part 2 THIS ISNT ME PUTTING IN A REQ OR ANYTHING i just wanna know if its smth thatd ever be done yk no pressure i swear i love and am satisfied w flighty and i will happily continue to read it for the rest of my days
hi love! if the long flighty ask was yours, sorry i haven't responded to it yet,, i've been a little absent!! as for a part 2,, honestly i haven't really considered it yet? that's not to say it won't happen or anything, but it isn't a priority atm.
i know it's probably annoying to hear and i'm really not trying to shove my commissions down people's throats; but genuinely the best way to get full continuation fics definitely are my commissions, because i do those before any other fics i personally want to write. often times i don't really do part 2s (for stand alone fics) because i get ideas for another fic i'd rather do,,, and then any further fics that continue off of what i wrote just get pushed up and up and up and i forget about them a little :/
so i'm not sure? maybe when i watch season 2 jjk i'll be really inspired and want to continue flighty. but it's just as likely that i'll get a new fic idea and want to write that instead ♡♡♡
#i'm hesitant to say yes on these kinds of asks bc#i dont want to make promises i can't keep#i'm really sorry this is such a nebulous answer#and i know commissions just aren't in the cards for some people#and that's totally understandable#but because fics take 2-3 weeks at least to write;;;#it's either: i get paid to write something that person really wants#or i do that work purely because i really really want to yk?#♡♡♡♡ thank you for the ask though i appreaciate you soooo much#honey mail
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#WHY AM I ONLY THINKING OF THIS ONCE THE SEMESTER HAS ENDED#so the final essay assignment was about culture (esp pop) and all that n i wrote about the impact of technology in local pop culture spaces#BUT. i could've written about the prominent classism issue ive always been mad about#classism exists everywhere and its sucha fucking pain to encounter it in fandom spaces#couldve been a beautiful paper#the scope is very narrow but i think it wouldve been great#as with pop culture a lot of people are in on the bandwagon and the practice is mass & the stream is v fast#and the more successful ppl are almost always the ones who had more money beforehand#low budget creatives are looked down upon especially if their works aren't at the very least groundbreaking#'good' is simply not enough. paying for services is not enough. making your own equipments instead of buying expensive brands is not enough#and man am i fed up with the fucking arguments because ppl are missing the point of like#'if you cant afford to be a creative in local spaces then maybe there are things you should prioritize first' and this alone pains me bcs#yes there are things to prioritize because god forbid ppl like me make art without worrying about tomorrow's meal#and while i believe being a creative shouldnt be this expensive i do understand what they mean. i get it first hand#but this simple of a point still goes over people's head who took it as 'dont create art if you're poor'#'when you've paid a lot on something and some low budget artist comes in with their work getting more attention'#'if youre poor the least you could do is not making it worse by doing art'#ARE THEY HEARING THEMSELVES.#do they not realize what they're essentially saying they dont think poor people should make art#I LIVE IN A SOCIETY WHEREIN MY PURPOSE IS TO SCRAPE BY AND BE AN EXAMPLE OF THE COUNTRY'S ECONOMY#got a little heated there sorry tehee give me $500#krispeaks#idk if you noticed from my ramblings but it does get tiring to enter fandom spaces full with rich kids whose only problems are fandom drama
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#god my classmates are so fucking annoying fr fdmsklmf#like every single DAY they send so many fucking questions on the gc#like for our teachers#for our UNPAID TEACHERS#who are also students#and some of them are preparing their residency exam like GIRL#u can't possibly have a new question every single day just read a book idk what to tell u !!!#it's always the same 2 bitches as well#also the questions are not like oh hey i didn't understand this one thing#they're like hey is it right if i explain this like this: `(HUGE PARAGRAPH)#and like them trying to explain a concept#that we already talked about in class and that they said they understood and had no questions like girl fskdnf#i know i sound like a snob i promis i'm not it's just#i find it sooooo rude#especially when our teachers aren't even getting paid !!#like pls realize that u can't send questions every day and u can't send questions like that !!! just look for it in the book and read it#like what is the matter with u#annyways#rant over back to tumblring B)#shut up laura
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I know I’m trying to vent less here but god do I wanna complain about the sims 4 community because it has such incredibly terrible viewpoints on money and labour and it is increasingly draining on me to not just open up the subreddit and tell them they’re all wrong lmao :’)
#specifically making custom content is a HUGE thing#explicitly allowed by EA#not just to make it but to charge money for early access#i.e. you host content on patreon and patrons get it a week or two early#a LOT of people do that and make money that way#there also used to be a lot of straight-up paid CC but EA finally clarified last year they don't want that#obviously this is a really great way for people capable of 3d modeling to make extra money#especially since you don't need great language skils and there are a lot of international cc makers#so you'd think the community would like. be happy abt poor people being able to make money. esp from poorer countries.#especially since it's really not hard to download cc you can't currently afford so there aren't exactly real restrictions on it#N O P E#they fuckin. HATE people who make money off CC. with a burning righteous fiery rage!!!!!!#anyone who at any point had pure paid CC is the lowest of the low#and god forbid you make cc that they think they were already entitled to from EA#because 'EA should be providing these cc disability aids' or whatever is a totally reasonable thing to expect of individual players#like people got flamed for making disability aid cc. and providing early access. you literally just had to wait like 2 weeks.#it's just. the perfect incapsulation of anticapitalism not as in 'workers deserve to be paid'#but 'I deserve access to anything I want right now.'#absolutely 0 understanding that SIMS CC is a luxury good.#and that if OTHER PEOPLE LIVING UNDER CAPITALISM need money that's more important.#what's worst is that the people most vocal about this are ALSO vocally oppressed peoples!!!!#again proof that this idea of instinctive solidarity just. doesn't work lol.#nope to many of these people they either just don't want to conceive that other ppl have money issues they don't#or they see being denied anything they want as evidence of oppression and hierarchies of need.#god it's so shitty it makes me hate so much of the community tbh#soooo many good cc makers I've come across making the most. uncalled for comments abt ppl making money.#and it's so fuckin.#like it means that cc making is a hobby reserved for the financially secure yknow?#its not just that some people NEED the money desperately.#sometimes they cant afford to spend that amount of time on something that isnt also making money.
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i'm so happy i chose to be an OT consultant instead of an OT working in a hospital setting since i have more freedom with my time and schedule for clinic hours ( ⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝)
#mari's thoughts#mari's work thoughts#oh! oh! oh! and today marks my first month working as a licensed pediatric occupational therapist <3#i love the clinic i work at too everyone is so nice and chill and i don't feel like i'm a newbie or anything since they're so warm and kind#i'm still a little shy and come off as a little too awkward when we all get together and talk but i'm getting there!!#(sometimes i feel like i'm still doing my internship even tho i literally get paid aksjhdas)#my back hurts and i'm always tired but i'm happy <3#oh and they aren't too strict with documentation (i obvs have to submit it ofc) but they understand that i have like 20 documents to make -#and they're like “we say our deadline's a month but don't sweat it it's hard to always do paperwork after clinic hours”
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Sukuna, a middle aged man jaded by the harsh realities of his life. He steps outside for a smoke nearby a convenience store, completely bored out of his mind.
A lady is handing out flyers nearby, although nobody is bothering to look her way, including sukuna himself.
You approach the man who's getting irritated by the lighter that refuses to work in his hand.
"Hello there, sir. Would you be interested in taking up classes for arts and craft?" You offer the cute flyer up.
Sukuna scoffs. Is she serious?
"No thanks."
"Are you sure? You look like you could use a bit more colour in your life."
He's too exhausted at this point to get angry at a random woman on the street.
"...You're not too far off, i suppose," sukuna mutters, still trying to get the spark to stay on his lighter. "Even so, I'm not interested in the likes of arts and craft. Do i look like a child to you?"
You withdraw your offer of your flyer, and inspect him for a moment.
"Arts and craft can be enjoyed by anyone, regardless of age. But moving past that... you seem a bit down. If you'd like to confide in a stranger for a night, I'm happy to listen."
What a strange, persistent woman. Sukuna gives up on his lighter, and takes out the unlit cigarette in his mouth to think back for a moment. One thing does come to mind.
"I'm not feeling down. But i remembered something, now that i think about it..." he confesses, feeling weirdly compelled to tell you about it.
"Today is supposed to be my birthday."
Birthdays have never been special to him. Nobody celebrated his birth as a child, and in turn, he's never paid attention to the birthdays of others.
"Oh, happy birthday. Are you doing anything special for yourself today?"
"No. I've never cared for birthdays. And I'm getting too old for that anyway."
"Well, that won't do... Hold on for a second."
Puzzled, sukuna looks back at you but you've already gone inside the convenience store. Whatever you're up to now, couldn't possibly be more enticing than getting in a proper smoke right now. Sukuna begins to zone out.
He only snaps out of it when something mildly cold grazes past his cheek, leaving a ticklish and moist sensation on his skin as it disappears upon impact.
Bubbles. Bubbles are flying past him, and floating away into the sky.
For a moment, he gets mesmerised by the swirl of colours that are harboured in each one. Even just from the light of this dingy street, they fly up while holding a multitude of different colours inside them. Time seems to slow for a split second, and he doesn't understand why.
His gaze follows the trail to identify it's source. And unsurprisingly, it's you, standing behind him. You blow a couple more out, and then grin at him childishly. He finally looks at your face properly for the first time.
"Birthday bubbles. For the birthday man," you chuckle sheepishly, knowing that you probably look a bit silly right now. You put the bubble wand back into the small bottle of the soapy mixture, and screw it tightly.
"Here, you can have it. Next time you're feeling a bit antsy, why don't you try blowing some yourself? They're pretty, aren't they?"
You also hand him a different small item.
"And i also threw in a little something else, while i was at it."
He looks down, and sees that it's a new lighter. He slowly pulls his hand out of his pocket to take both of them from your hands.
"I hope you get to do something more special next year. Birthdays are supposed to be joyful, after all," you comment.
"Thanks for putting up with my nosiness. Farewell."
And then you leave him after a quick wave.
Sukuna stares wordlessly as you walk off, wondering what to name this ticklish feeling rising in the pit of his stomach.
The small bottle in his palm reminds him of a moment in his childhood. Kids in the park bragging about their bubble wands that were gifted to them. the laughs that resounded as they all ran off to catch the fragile spheres as they blew away in the wind. The tiny feelings of envy in his heart.
The item he tucks away into his pocket is the lighter. And when nobody is watching, he blows a couple more bubbles into the night sky.
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Every time he passes by that convenience store, the thought of you comes to his mind. A flashback of your smile in the back of his mind. Every so often, he comes to this particular store. Despite having closer options, he comes to this specific one.
At times, sukuna regrets not taking one of the flyers that you were handing out. He wouldn't have had to mope around a convenience store in hopes of running into you again.
Today is a rainy day, and this calls for a hot piping cup of instant ramen. He doesn't usually enjoy convenience store food, but he wants a reason to stay around inside for a bit longer.
He needs to wait five minutes for the noodles to soften. In this time, he stares out the glass frame of the store, and watches the various rows of people walking past with their umbrellas opened.
There appears to be one anomaly in the crowd, however. Running without shelter from the rain, clutching her bag as if it contains something important in there. Sukuna realises that it's you.
Forgetting about his instant ramen, sukuna grabs his umbrella and dashes out the door.
You're mildly panicking about being stuck behind the red light at the zebra crossing without anything to save you from the rain, but the sensation of the droplets hitting your body come to a stop all too suddenly.
You look up, and there's a black umbrella sheltering you, big and strong looking. You spin around and recognise the stranger with pink hair and sharp eyes. Seemingly out of breath.
He signals to the light that has now turned green behind you, and ushers you forward to cross the road before you can say anything to him.
Now safely on the other side of the road, you begin to converse with him.
"It's you! Hello. Thank you for sheltering me. How have you been?"
"... So-so. Nothing's changed since the last time we met."
"I see. You look better than last time, though." You get the feeling that his eyes have a little more light in them.
Sukuna doesn't really get what you mean, but he moves on.
"What’s in your bag that's so important for you to be protecting it like that?" He asks, effectively changing the topic.
"Oh, this? I literally just bought some brand new origami paper... i can't risk getting them wet and unusable. The children would be disappointed."
"Origami, huh? How original."
"Hey! That's not all... there's a lot of options i offer them. They voted on origami this time."
"You got a lot of people signed up?"
"Not really... but I'm sure it'll start picking up soon. Slowly, one at a time."
You smile up at him hopefully.
"...is the offer still open?"
You cock your head to the side slightly, confused. Sukuna grits his teeth, feeling a little bashful about having to ask more specifically.
"You know. Lessons for grown adults."
"Oh! Of course, anytime! Would you like to come sign up today?"
"Do you offer one-on-one sessions too?"
"Yes, I do."
"Alright. Let’s go."
Sukuna can't fathom the words that are coming out of his own mouth. But fuck it, what's the worst that could happen? You've somehow intriged him, and he can't think of a better way to approach you.
You chatter his ears off along the way, and he nods along while his shoulder gets wet from the way he leans his umbrella closer to your side.
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