#I thought in the idea of Nortstar and Karma in a team thanks to a panel

[kurtty-drabbles]

I feel what you feel au (PART 4)

It will have this part and one last more so YEAH Another au complete.

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Ever since the big fight between Kurt and Brian/Meggan- as she does count and is forever going to be over conscious of how men and how to defend herself- it has passed more or less 2 months. It´s clear as day that Kurt, Brian, and Meggan will never be friends and as Meggan still wants to be away from him it proves that Kurt is not delusional. However, there´s a silver line in this situation as Cap Britain and Gloriana are professional to the booth and Nightcrawler can follow the example (if a bit late)

Brian stopped drink for a while and it will reach almost one year of sobriety and Kurt didn´t even notice when Brian has stopped drinking nor will throw any comments about it. It has been 2 months since the big revelation and 2 months ever since Karma and Wolfsbane join the team and are 2 agonizing 2 months that Karma and Kitty are in "friends with benefits" arrangement.

Am I...superficial?

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It happened by chance as if the Gods (God) were making a gambit with Excalibur and privately, Kitty does ponder if there´s more of one God - in those rare moments where she didn´t take her pill. She likes how Kurt seems to be thinking the same- when Logan appears in Excalibur´s door in his grumpy and Wolverinesque way.

"Excalibur" Logan inclination towards Rachel is a bit awkward considering a few years ago he was pinning for her mother. "I was in a mission for the X-men. No, I´m not Mystique" he is quick to voice out when Ray probes in his mind and it really sour his mood.

"Sorry," Rachel said not feeling too much for her actions. "Mystique has done tricks like that in the past" her eyes flick to Kitty for a moment as if she´s asking if she´s alright and Kitty nods mutely.

That changes his mood and Kurt notices it. "As I was saying. Not Mystique. Anyway, I just want to say hi and...wonder if Karma or Pheonix would be interested in work in a separated mission" Logan said and now Moira, Meggan, and Brian as well Karma are paying attention.

Kitty is near Karma as Logan is explaining the situation. "Northstar is forming a team to capture Machine Y" his tone is dry and straightforward. "and they need a telepath...Jean´s sister" and Logan sighs as he explains Northstar´s name. "In Quebec, Jean is a name for boys and girls"

"Oh, I didn´t know" Karma stated blink owlish.

"Anyway, his sister got some power up and is too unstable to go to the mission and he asked me to see if there´s any telepath free for the mission" he concludes. Rachel is quick to ask if the sister is alright and why her twin would want to leave if she got a power-up or even want a replacement.

"Because she got a power-up that makes her believe she´s no longer human and the mission is not pivotal to the point they are leaving now...the machine Y is no real danger, but, they want to cut all looses ends if you got my meaning" Logan explains and Meggan and Brian can understand the meaning.

England has asked Excalibur to do the same several times. Meggan looks at the two telepaths thinking Rachel would offer herself-she´s the best telepath and the Pheonix, so, it would make sense she would go- and to her surprise and to everyone but Logan Karma raises her hand.

"If is alright. I would like to help. I have work in missions similar and I know Rachel is important to Excalibur" she states her reason and no one seems opposed to the idea- is not like the mission would face Apocalypse and like Karma said she has dealt with similar events- yet, Kitty is the one who is not totally happy with this decision.

Am I being selfish?

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Rhane arrives a bit later for this decision and is quick to show a bitter mixture of joy and sadness for Karma´s decision. "I feel like New Mutants are breaking up again" she tries to joke but it comes out as anything but a joke.

"Rhane" Karma begins benevolently as the Scottish girl is still too young. "When we decided to be the New Mutants. Do you remember what we said?" she asked waiting for her answer.

And Rhane letting her breath out finally replies. "We´re the New Mutants. No matter what life throws at us"

"And why you think it would be different now?"

"Sorry...guess I´m still a bit clingy"

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Logan is in the kitchen with the convenient excuse of wanting a beer- the elf promised a fine brand in the fridge that Logan can take- but in reality, his interest goes beyond the beer. And Kurt can sense where this will go.

"Moira told me..." he starts using his claw to open the beer. "Tell me how are you dealing with this"

Kurt now frowns at him. "Everyone label me as a slut. Kitty is my soulmate...so how do you think?" is a snarky reply that didn´t raise Logan´s bad temper...yet.

"Let me try again. You´re my friend and I care for you as much I care for Kitty. She´s like a daughter for me and I don´t want to see her suffering as much I don´t want to see you suffering. So, one last time, how are you dealing with this?" Logan crosses his arms and his face is free of his mask.

Now Kurt sighs and replies tiredly. "I´m doing a lot of introspection and hate it...Me and Kitty talk about it...she said how she´s young. I agree, then she said how she believes the problem must be her looks...and that makes me feel like shit...and I made her feel like shit" his hand cover his face for a moment. "We agree in date other people until she´s older enough and now...Karma is her friends with benefits"

"Kurt..." Logan begins "why you went after a woman who had a soulmate is beyond me..." he didn´t have time to continue as Kurt rather rudely mention Jean Grey´s name. Logan would be anger by this if he didn´t make peace with this fact years ago.

"Yes, I went after Jean Grey who is now Mrs. Scott Summers. But more than that, I went after a woman who didn´t want me and I made her uncomfortable...you´re following my example? Her kid is not frying me up because...no idea." He let a mirthless laugh escape now. "and again, you follow my example with women...not sure why. You think flirting is flattering but not all women like to be flirt and no is always no, Kurt" Logan thinks God is playing a strange joke on him to make him, of all people, to talk about this subject to Kurt.

"So...I ask you again, how are you dealing with this?"

"I have no idea...I´m scared, Logan, she is taking those pills to stop feeling what I feel. And I´m terrified of losing her..."

"Then do better, elf. Do grow emotionally, I can´t believe is me saying this but you can be kind insensitive"

"Yeah...I noticed now"

And Logan changes the subject. "Piotr is still ashamed...even if Neena and Yana are always saying is not his fault...is not his fault Mystique pretend to be him and hit on Kitty...any news on the big man?"

"Not really, last time we talk he was gushing about Neena"

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In the end, Logan gives the contact of Northstar and the two talk via video-chat and it was a happy coincidence they´re both gays-a fact that ear a playful joke among them only- but aside that, Karma was brief in regards the mission and she agreed in participated. She´ll be leaving at the end of the month.

"Will you be alright?" Karma asked Kitty who is still on the fence about the mission.

"I´ll. Kickass, Karma"

"...I don´t need to read your mind to understand it. You don´t need to fear your feelings or him"

"....I know..."

"Promise you´ll not be too reckless?"

"Promise to tell interesting stories? I can´t go to Canada because of a curse"

"I promise it"

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Karma´s departure hit Kitty a bit too much and Kurt wonders if he should do something-not gloating as Lockheed is ready to burn him to the ashes if he so much hits something of this nature-but seeing her sad like that does make him sad. She took the pill. This is his own feelings.

"Katzchen?" he asked tentatively and she looks at him with her brown eyes. "Are you fine?"

"I think I´ll...elf"

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Rachel was drinking her coffee from her mug-savoring the flavor and the nice feeling of having the kitchen all to herself- when a ship out of nowhere lands outside the Lighting house. And Rachel sighs tiredly. "Here we go again"

And in a minute, Excalibur is outside at the ship who has a Shiar´s symbol- Kurt and Kitty don´t have good memories of the Shiars- and a person wearing a comical large space suit waves at them rather awkward and takes her space helmet and everyone can see her pretty face.

"Hello, my name is Cerise...I´m running from my planet. Can I stay here?" there´s a nice smile on her face and she is quick to explain her situation. The Shiars sent Cerise to Earth as a form of punishment...she must join a group of heroes and defeat 1000 villains if she wants to return.

Odd way to punish someone. Thought Kitty and Kurt.