#I think we should talk and I'm sorry. But I don't want the pure negativity of old feelings you harbour tossed at my head once more

[lunasilvis]

Fact not assumption you stab friends in the back and flirt with their ex’s. Selfish & insecure

Wow, what a way to feel. Would be fair if you could elaborate on this, please?

The message your words convey is that you hold serious grudges towards me that in one way or another troubles your mind, and I think clouds your perception (I'm friendly-natured, but won't flirt with friend's ex-loves. I'm not fucking disrespectful). Tell me who you are, I might know.

Shall I unfollow him, if that helps you gain more peace of mind?

[robin374]

ROBIN HIHIHIHI, THINK FAST

*throws u silly HCS ideas yet again aggressively*

SOOO I KINDA GOT ATTACHED TO OUR ASSHOLE OF AN ANGEL, ADAM SO I WAS THINKING:

Adam x Sweet angel reader

basically reader is the most sweet person u can encounter, like always complementing Adam, giving him hand made gifts and etc, and then theres Adam.

wanna know how this dynamic will go

luv ya

"ᏖᏂᏋᏒᏋ ᎩᎧᏬ ᏗᏒᏋ, ᏕᏬᎶᏗᏒ ᏖᎥᏖᏕ!"

Character: Adam x reader (Romantic)

Notes: I'M BACK, I've finally finished my exams YIPPIE

Summary: Reader is a sweetheart and Adam somehow falls in love with them.

I'm pretty sure that he's always trying to make you angry in some way. For example, he will be trying to annoy you all the time, and you will answer him with a sweet smile asking him if he's happy that day because he seems more enegertic.

We all know that he sometimes says really morally questionable things, so whenever you hear him say those things you will hit the back of his head and scold him.

At first he thought that your kind and sweet nature was a sign of weakness, because well, he's always around Lute and the Exorcist angels. However, when he saw you ruining someone's day with just a smile and two sarcastic but bold phrases, all those negative thoughts about you dissapeared. Now you have a supportive angel behind you everytime you argue with someone. And with supportive I mean that he's flipping the other angel off while saying "That's right, bitch!" or "You tell ém, sugar tits!"

Yeah, he's pretty obvious with his crush on you, and he's not ashamed. He told Lute about it, she was bit confused at first, like... She's sure that your blood is pure sugar, how could he fall in love with you? You're the total opposite. But, she was happy that Adam found someone after the events with Lillith and Eve...

He's a bit insecure of those events, I mean, he's afraid that Lucifer goes to heaven and steal you away from him. Then, he realizes that you don't even know about the exterminations. He won't tell you, and if you were at the council when Charlie tried to talk to Heaven's leaders. He will be very afraid that you turn against him, that you see him as a monster. Of course, you don't want to accpet that he's been killing souls, even if they are in Hell, they don't desever to die permanentely.

He tried to apologize telling you that those souls desever it, they were in hell for a reason, right? You told him that as long as he didn't kill any children or people who didn't really deseve it, you would let him go down to Hell. If not, you would tell Sera and even God about it and forbid him to go to Hell.

Before the extermination he wanted to talk to you in private. "I want to tell you something, sweetcheeks." You looked at him with a smile. "I... Sorry, you..." For the first time in centuries he was at a loss of words. So, he decided to kiss your lips. It was a bit aggressive at first, but when you softly put your hands in his cheeks his tensed up body loosened a bit. When you separated, you looked at golden eyes, which were looking at you softly. You caressed his cheek, you knew that Hell was going to fight back in that extermination, you knew that he was in danger. "Just don't die, please." You whispered. "I won't die, sugar. I'm Adam, the Adam, the original dick! They can't kill me." He said while hugging you. The, he put his helmet on and flew off to Hell. You gave Lute a gaze that asked her to protect him.

What you didn't expect was to see Lute without an arm. You rapidly rushed to her and started to treat her wounds. While you were stitching up her arm, she took something from a bag. It was a halo similar to Adam's. Suddenly you felt a knot in your throat, was he dead? The look that Lute gave you told you everything. "I tried... But... I'm so sorry..."

You took his halo and put it next to your heart. Tears were falling from your eyes, Lute didn't know what to do, should she comfort you? Should she walk away? Call someone? She just decided to stand behind you waiting for you to say something Now, you had mixed feeling about Hell, you were sure that souls could be redeemed and that extermination was wrong. But how could you fully believe them when they killed your lover?

[changeling-ethereal]

{♦️♥️♣️♠️🪱Asking Husk if he'd still love you if you were a worm🪱♠️♣️♥️♦️}

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A few words from author: Hello there everyone, welcome to my newest imagines!

So, it's pretty much a routine for me to constantly find new fandoms to add to my writing list, so yeah, here we are again, this time with Hazbin Hotel! ^^

I apologize for not really being active, life's been bad lately and I'm stuck struggling to make it through each new day without considering death lmao.

Tho I'm in the mood for something more on the hurt/comfort side, today I present you some light-hearted and short imagines to hopefully bring some laughs, not sure if these are any good, sorry...

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Settings: Romantic based

Genre: Fluff, light-hearted

!TRIGGER WARNING!: Some swear words, one suggestive line just for laughs, but that's probably all,

Sidenote: Gender of reader is not specified, but if the reader has more feminine feel, then it's purely accidental and I apologize,

Sidenote: These feel so bad and ooc omg end me, I hate my writing,

Sidenote: Am unsure if I'll actively write for Husk, but I just had to do this idea with him cuz it seemed so funny at first, but idk about the outcome,

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That should be all,

Hopefully you'll enjoy,

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"Would I love you if you what? Say fucking what now? No wait- no, I don't wanna even- whatever- sure, for fuck's sake- sure, yes"

Already so fed up with everything and everyone,

and you pull up with this, smh,

Cue to him giving an exaggerated sigh and rubbing his face in annoyance (like in the gif above),

Doesn't appreciate your question,

like at all,

At first he wants to question how'd you even come up with something like that,

or why you feel that question is important,

But he decides against it,

he's really not in the mood for such shit,

So, deciding to just get over with it and satisfy you,

he tells you a yes,

or more like a "yeah, fucking sure, whatever, yes,"

Yes, he'd love you even as a worm, now please leave him be or talk to him about something normal,

please, for the love of Lucifer,

If you don't stop there though and question him further,

he just gives another exaggerated sigh and starts to question why he's dating you,

but he doesn't actually have the heart to make you sad,

so, he goes along with it and answers a 'yes' to any other question you might have regarding you being a worm,

Would he still give you kisses? Yes,

Would he get you a little worm house? Yes,

Would he still talk to you even if you couldn't answer? Yes,

He doesn't have the heart or the energy to respond negatively,

- "Would you still get intimate with me even as a worm?"

"Fucking what- how'd that even- whatever- yeah, sure, fucking sure, yes,"

Just goes along with it,

And when you finally get your fill and you squeal happily at his answers,

and you hug him,

he pats your head with his claws and feels like the boyfriend of the year,

Like- look how he handled the situation without upsetting you,

doesn't he deserve some recognition for that?

At one point he does consider jokingly telling you he'd feed you to the crows tho,

but when he thinks about it more,

and thinks of you actually being a worm and him feeding you to the crows,

he'd feel disturbed and upset at his own idea,

cuz no, that'd be so awful!

he would never do that to you, he couldn't,

no, that thought seriously upsets him and makes his stomach twist and turn,

he may be an asshole, but he loves you too much,

yes, even if you were a worm,

So, he'd make it work even if you were a worm,

Yeah, maybe you were actually asking some real questions,

he'd have to give it more thought and plan out how he'd accommodate to you if you did turn into a worm someday,

Better be safe than sorry,

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[natsmagi]

tbh you should just sexualize your fem Tsumugi more. I'm talking full on fetish hentai style. Put her in the open boob sweater. Have her accidentally flash while leaning fowards. Have her slip and show pantsu. Full kink with no breaks. Please shut these anons up. People trying to police your creativity like it has some sort of reflection on your morals or beliefs. I also wish you would stop answering them? or at least tagging it as anon hate because it's so sad to keep seeing people be so mean to you over and over when most of us just want to enjoy your big brain takes and drawings. Maybe I'm getting parasocial bc I get so sad seeing people hate on your Tsumugi I love her she's just like me fr!!! All that matters is that you enjoy how you draw her and I hope you don't feel pressured to change your headcanons.

HWEISUHRUHKDHG I SHOULDDDDDDDDD I SHOULD UR RIGHT ive been too prudish as of late. need to be insane again. Tbh ive made some art that was made purely bc i am a freak and insane but i feel like its never the art people would expect it to be. And thats really funny to me. like my more explicit stuff is just drawn for fun But if uve ever looked at a drawing of mine and gone "this seems kind of freakish conceptually even though the execution isnt super weird" Well thats probably bc it actually is freakish. sorry. My suggestive art is usually just for the vibes tho i DID also like. yesterday?? discover a twt acc that will sometimes post various lingerie fits SO!! MAYBE ILL DRAW SOME SOON 💪💪

AND AUGHHH I KNOWWWW in the beginning i thought itd be worth replying to people bc i was like "well this is all kind of niche. im sure they have good intentions so we might aswell talk it out" But as things progress its been made clear thats doing me or anyone else no favors. i love having discussions, so i reply to most of my asks! but i do hope that ive made myself clear enough and that we can all just continue doing our own things im sorry to hear its made you sad though!!!!! rest assured its not something that demotivates me, nor is it something that makes me feel i need to change how i draw. i do what i do because i enjoy it! and i know others enjoy it too! i will never be able to appeal to everyone, and that has never been my goal. i like having fun with others though, which is why i enjoy hearing why others might think differently than me!

but yes! i already feel ive said my piece on the whole discourse thing by now and i hate walking in circles, so even if i get negative asks about it i likely wont answer unless i feel its warranted. but! if that does happen, ill be sure to tag it! you can mute "#discourse tag" ahead of time incase i ever end up using it

[honeycreammilkshake]

Been reading some japanese opinions about the chapter and I'm glad some of them were able to start waking up about how bad fan pressure is. One comment that really caught my attention and reminded me of your Sukuna Gojo analysis is one saying

"this Gojo Yuji talk feels forced they don't really had that much of a deep relationship"

I mean....they are right. Gojo is a victim of leak/fandom culture. A person casually reading this or watching the anime won't even remember the 2 scenes of gojo and yuji. Yuji had more interactions with Todo, Nanami and Higuruma yet those fans don't care

I laugh at gojofans how they are constantly bringing random villains from other mangas like...why should I care about those? If Sukuna is that bland why are you constantly comparing him with random villains? Why are you so afraid to compare Gojo with other better mangas and characters? I think the character they want for Gojo is simple just Sukuna, and this is just pure jealousy

Though after the other pages were released I'm glad more and more people are starting to appreciate Sukuna

hi, anon!

i get your point exactly (also tysm for reading my gojo & sukuna analysis).

i feel like both gojo and yuuji were severely mistreated/ misunderstood by the leak readers and gojo-only fans. yuuji because people constantly put him down for not being a "smart" or "complex" enough main character (like what version are they even reading? yuuji might not be the sharpest but he's not a total idiot either, and he's far more adept and emotionally intelligent than most of the sorcerers we've seen) and gojo because the narrative "abuses" him. what they fail to see, however, is that the narrative abuses almost every character. the whole jjk world is founded on the concept of people's suffering and negativity being manifested into physical monsters, and the sorcerers that fight them every day are also not-so-stable and are treated as mere tools.

gojo is a wildcard whose birth shifted the very flow of the jujutsu world, but his story is one that reminds us that even if you work on the side of "good" you can still have bad qualities or experience the corruption that comes with having so much power, either literal power or hierarchical power. in this case, gojo had more literal power than hierarchical, but even though he did suffer under the corruption of the jujutsu higher ups (same as nanami and the rest) he himself shouldn't be trusted to have that hierarchical power because he's also morally ambiguous, selfish, overly confident, and immature.

him being the one in a powerful position is not a good idea. which is why his conversation with yuuji at the end, even though it felt a bit forced, was necessary to show us that the new generation needs to move on from the past ways of thinking that only pure strength can solve everything. he trusts people like yuuji, who are for more emotionally intelligent and compassionate than him, to make that change for a better world. him saying he believes he will be ultimately forgotten proves to us that being "the strongest" isn't something to aspire to, as it does nothing but corrupt and isolate people, like it did to both gojo and sukuna.

and yuuji was the key to igniting that change. it was his approach, with more emotional strength than just physical, that actually made a difference. and he's also the reason why the king of curses himself decided to go on a different path. sukuna lost to love. he couldn't handle that change immediately, of being destroyed by someone who had empathy for him, but i believe he was touched by yuuji's words and decided to go north this next time. and it shows a deepness and growth in his character that i was afraid we wouldn't get to see. but i'm glad we did.

sorry for my late reply btw, anon! hope you've been good! glad to hear your thoughts on this.

[nightglider124]

Titans: Season 4 - Ep11 - Thoughts

I have finally watched the episode. My God, my day at work was agonizing; I looked at tumblr and saw gifs and posts and was like screaming cos I wanted to watch it.

Anyway, since I've just freshly finished watching it, I am gonna note down some thoughts!

So... I feel weirdly mixed on this episode? As an episode it was good but as the penultimate episode? Idk... I feel kinda meh about it? I don't wanna come across as negative and the rest of this will mostly be stuff I enjoyed since I actually did enjoy the majority of it and as an episode in itself, it was good but idk... the fact the finale is all that's left, I feel like it's gonna be rushed... or the actual action is gonna be over super quick etc and loose ends won't get tied up... and I hate to say it, but I am kinda now doubting what is in store for dk fans in the finale? I would have thought this episode would have had more than it did, I gotta say. Idk... I just felt I had to say that to begin with.

Sigh, Kory continues to be and will forever be my absolute favourite. Idgaf what haters say and shit, I love Anna as Kory. I really do. She might not be like some of the versions people know Kory from but I think she brings close qualities and if anything makes this version of Kory edgier. Like, I absolutely adore her. Starfire is my absolute favourite DC character. Always has been, always will. I basically support any and all versions of my baby girl since DC doesn't spotlight her as much as they should cos she's fucking amazing.

Kory's dreaming and shit has me nervous for her. Like, we all know by now some bad shit goes down and happens to Kory. I am so dreading it. I know that she's gonna be fine from BTS stuff but like... it's still gonna hurt like a motherfucker.

Mercy was an interesting addition this season, I gotta say. I like the actress a lot since her days on Coronation Street (UK soap opera) and honestly, seeing her get choke slammed by Kory had me grinning but I like in the end she is purely like fuck it, take the documents, whatevs. Gar was also hilarious in that scene like no we don't need them all but I'm taking them ehehehehe. XD

Was... Was I missing something with May?? Like I thought she was dead when he burnt her ass up last episode? I was really confused cos she was just walking about like that didn't happen. Did she die and come back or was she never dead?? What... was that bodybag scene in the last ep real? I thought it was a dream. It was weird. I mean she dead af now and I enjoyed her as Mother Mayhem; she really had the villain oomf. Sebastian is... lacking in comparison.

In addition to that, Sebastian had potential to be scary but honestly, he comes off as a whiney mamas boy like he is grating. XD

Conner... my boy, I am always so left and right with you. I'm glad he is actually team Titans but... idk something in me still isn't trusting his ass XD. Like, I thought the bit with him and Dick in the tunnel was him tricking Dick or something but seems legit. We'll agree to like Conner and trust him... for now. XD

So, I didn't mind the Jason and Tim scenes but fuck me, wrong time. Like, I'm sorry. It felt so badly placed. We are at the penultimate episode and we're now just getting some Tim training as Robin with Jason? Nah, I was annoyed. And, they spent so many scenes on it?? Like miss me with that bs. It felt unnecessary, imo.

Another sour note, I feel like we actually could have had a lot more Kory scenes considering the episode was called Project Starfire. Like, damn. I promise, that's my only really salty thing.

Now, ahem... the dickkory scene on the balcony was cute af. It really nicely reflected the scene in S1 at the motel. But, it was too shorttt! Their sweet scenes are just... always too short for my liking which is disappointing. I'm happy for all and any scenes but jeez.

Gar and Rachel talking about wanting a change and shit, I was like are y'all gonna leave the famjam?? Cos I will not be emotionally okay if that happens. I literally just saw a certain new hero film where this was also a thing like pls CAN YOU NOT. My heart can't.

Lmao, Dick in the chamber thing when they were powering the orb thing was hilarious. Like, boy done fucked up the whole plan bc of his own anxiety for his wife. It was cute and his concern was very obvious.

Also, side note, the bit where Dick, Rachel and Gar appear where Kory is with Mercy made me giggle. Like Dick was so huffy like 'Making new friends?' and it was unusual like in this series its a real rarity that Dick is annoyed at something Kory has done like he has let her get away with literal murder whilst batting eyelashes at her. So, it was like tehe. Ya know? I'm assuming others know what I mean.

ALSO. When in the chamber thing as they got to 98% and before Dick fucked it up, did you guys notice Kory's eyes? That tiny bit where it went a bit slower and her eyes like flickered from glowing to normal? Was that something up with her powers or am I imagining shit?

I think that's mostly my thoughts. I still don't know how to feel on the episode. It didn't blow me away and I feel like with penultimate episode, I should be? I got excited in like the very last minute where he blows the horn and Kory's like 'There's only one way to end this. My way.' like bitch is dead serious and I'm scared for my girl.

I'm hoping the finale is really good buuut... I have also seen screeners really hyping it up and I'm just not trusting it. So, I think I'm gonna try and go into the finale with as less an expectation as possible to avoid crushing disappointment. I'm not gonna have any theories or anything or scenes that I would ideally like bc I think that's how you get set up for disappointment.

I'm gonna enjoy the ride and just see where the finale takes us. Weird that this time next week, Titans will be over. Sad times. :(

One upside, I'm working til 3pm next week so I am gonna try my absolute HARDEST to avoid tumblr and just not look at the tags so I remain blissfully unaware of what happens. Even if it kills me.

Each week when I am at work and a new episode of Titans comes out, I literally refresh the dc titans and dickkory tag like a thousand times to get me through the day.

Anyways! Hope others liked this episode and see y'all for the finale!

[oraclekleo]

Hi! This is my feedback for your latest free reading.

First of all, thank you for this reading. If I could summarize into ome word what this reading made me feel, it would be this: WOW.

Yes. Wow. In capital letters. I mean, I am so flattered and grateful for how the cards perceive what I bring to the world. To be honest with you, this reasonated a lot with me. I do actually love to take care of animals. We have more than 10 cats at our home, and they're all strays. Also, you were right with me wanting to babysit. I remember back in college (pre-pandemic times), whenever I have free time, I loved visiting my cousin and my baby nephew just to babysit and play with him. I'm not sure about plants since I don't think I'm not that good at taking care of them, but I'd love to try once again in the future. You were also on point with attracting broken people and "healing" them in some way, which to a certain extent, became a weak point of mine before. I learned more of how to use and share my energy and whom to share it with now.

I've also been described by past friends as someone who likes to take care of them. I guess the card fits with some of my past friends calling me the "mom of the group".i have these experiences but I never realized I am motherly figure. I never realized a lot of abundance, empathy, and compassion stems from me probably because of lingering issues I had before.

This is so beautiful. I love it so much. This also made things in a different perspective. I've never experienced scarcity, but sometimes I fail to see that because I focus on the wrong things. This was a good reminder of how abundant I am, and how lovely it is to share it with people who do not degrade you in any way.

And I say WOW to your lovely feedback! Thank you so much for the details! 💖

And it's so lovely you adopted those cats! I can't imagine having 10 of them but I myself have two dogs rescued from dog meat farms in South Korea, adopted them from a private shelter. So yeah, adpoted pets are the best. Their love is pure and unconditional.

And you are absolutely right about people sometimes abusing the care we are willing to give them. You can only be the best care taker if you also have healthy boundaries. The better you yourself feel, the better care and help you can provide for others. Not wasting your energy on those who don't deserve it is surely something we all need to work on. I have had my share of energetic vampires in my life, too, toxic people and more. I wish you the inner strength so you can protect your life energy and lovely vibe. 🌟✨

It's a human nature to overlook all the good things in our lives and focus on the negative ones. But it's always good to sometimes take a moment and be grateful for what we have because no matter what, we are living so much better lives than anyone 100 years ago. 😊 It reminded me of a scene from British mini series about Dracula (I think it's on Netflix). Dracula is trapped in his coffin under the sea and he wakes up in 2023? 2022? Doesn't matter. Modern times. And he breaks in a house in Dover countryside and when he's talking to the woman living there, he's telling her how royal life she has because all that luxury wasn't common even for kings in his times. And she's confused because she's living in a shabby house but she has TV, fridge, dishwasher, carpets on the floor, big bed... All the things she considers to be just like basic or middle class equipment. But for Dracula she seems to be living a life of a queen. And that's why we should be grateful for the abundance we have. 😊

Anyway! Sorry for the Dracula detour. Thank you again for your feedback. It means a world to me. I wish you all the best of luck!

And hopefully see you soon for my next game!

[dichromaticdyke]

long post, still a little high, might not make much sense. god. it's a lesbian rant sorry to the followers who hate that just skip if you want to lmfao.

i find it really strange how much criticism there's been levied at the idea that anyone could potentially prefer or find greater love or value or enjoyment or pleasure out of sapphic relationships.

thinking about this because i see posts about how calling sapphic relationships "more pure" is terf rhetoric or about how women aren't inherently better than men. and i don't disagree from a basic level, i don't think we should hold sapphic relationships to a really high standard, especially when the rates of abuse faced by sapphic women are higher than abuse faced by straight women (not that this is inherently due to sapphic relationships since most of the abuse levied towards sapphic women comes from men, but there is also a significant rate of violence coming from women partners as well). but ppl aren't trying to remind sapphics that women r just as capable of violence as anyone else, there seems to be almost a desire to denigrate the joy and relief that comes out of sapphic relationships, and perhaps almost a resurgence in the idea that lesbians are inherently terfs.

i don't think this is explicitly the goal here, at least not for most people. but i don't think a lot of y'all have unlearned that rhetoric that was going around. i think a lot of y'all see the vocal terf lesbians and then start to assume that most things that are commonly expressed by lesbians are therefore terf talking points. some of you really need to kill the idea that terfs are man-hating dykes and that that's the end of it.

kill the idea that any rhetoric that hates men or is critical of men is terf rhetoric. because guess what, terfs will align themselves with men if it means they can get power to further terrorize trans women. hyperanalyzing anything that a lesbian says that's critical of men or that otherwise uplifts our experiences and love for other women as being secretly transmisogynistic is unproductive and lesbophobic.

and it's strange to see this sort of negative attitude towards sapphic relationships specifically because it feels so transparent. it feels so transparent to see a relationship that doesn't have men in it and to immediately want to tear it down. no, sapphic relationships aren't inherently more pure or whatever. but if a lesbian says her love for other women is sacred, maybe she's not saying that because of some bioessentialist divine feminine bullshit, maybe she's saying it because she finally feels fucking happy and is able to unshackle at least part of herself from patriarchal supremacy and the idea that men need to be included in every aspect of public life.

i'm saying all this as a tme lesbian, and i know i'm not immune to transmisogynistic rhetoric or talking points. but 99% of what i see on this site as "warning this is a terf talking point" is just something lesbians say that have nothing to do with transmisogyny, trans exclusion, radical feminism, or fascism. and fuck, i know a lot of people have lost the plot here too, but you also do know that radical feminism by itself isn't inherently transphobic, right? don't get me wrong, a large number of self-identified radfems are transphobic, and i definitely believe many of them are using the term "radical feminism" to dilute the movement and cause more confusion and bring more people to their side, but there are a good number of radical feminists who are trans inclusive--because radical feminism, as an ideology, was created with the intention of recognizing the patriarchy as a supremacist force and working to uproot it.

this isn't to say i don't think you shouldn't be at least a little bit critical of strangers calling themselves radical feminists, you should. the movement has been overtaken by a lot of transmisogynistic fascists, but there are/were quite a lot of radical feminists who, even from the start in the 60s and 70s, supported trans women.

what my point of all this is, you're not fighting transmisogyny if you're just looking at lesbian experiences and unconsciously associating that with terf rhetoric, you're just further dividing the cause and, as i've said in a previous post, helping the lesbian terf minority by insinuating all lesbians are secretly transmisogynistic or by equating our experiences or common things we say to express ourselves with terf rhetoric is only going to help them win.

oh and also lesbians as a sexual orientation group are the most accepting of trans people. like actually. go to page 63. so when i say terf lesbians are a vocal minority i mean it. stop letting a vocal minority speak for the whole group, stop letting the tiny hate-filled percentage taint how you look at everyone else.

[beautifulhigh]

I have a question for you that I really hope you'll answer. But if you think it might start discourse you'd rather avoid, I understand if you ignore this.

So I love both OG and LS and I follow a bunch of popular blogs in both fandoms. but so many of those folks watch only one of the two shows and are pretty rude about the other one, by insulting cast members and making fun of even the popular well-received storylines. often they don't tag such posts in any particular way so there's no way to filter those out. I sent a few of them asks requesting if they'd tag such posts. Some agreed to but they haven't actually done it. I've seen you interact in a pretty friendly way with some of those accounts and I'm wondering, how do you do it? Everyone always says to unfollow but I genuinely don't want to miss out on the other posts these ppl share. I enjoy those other posts. It's just these particular posts that diss the shows that I want to avoid but can't. I've tried ignoring it, I've tried laughing it off, but I don't think I'm very good at managing my emotions because I always still end up feeling low and negative when I see such posts. How do you manage to interact with people with opinions you clearly don't share? I'd really appreciate any tips. I really don't want to withdraw from these two fandoms but I don't know how to remain while also maintaining a healthy emotional state.

Firstly, I'm sorry this has happened to you. I really am. And I want to stress that this reply is 100% around my experience and the way I have curated my fandom experience, and YMMV. I hope that it doesn't vary too much but this is how I deal with it. I'm going to tag a few people in this, people who I have on my dash, purely to illustrate the diversity and how you can approach things.

I'm also going to pre-empt things and say that if you read a line and you get mad at me for that one line, I want you to do two things. Firstly, I want you to go outside and touch grass. Secondly, I want you to maybe read the full thing and engage some level of critical thinking before you start yelling at me that I'm being inconsiderate because you have a grass allergy so how DARE I tell you to go touch grass?

Also, because I want this to have a bit of a reach and I know people do curate their dashes, I'm going to be a bit sneaky with how I refer to things to actively circumvent any filters. Should make sense what I'm actually referring to but if you're not sure then please ask.

Step one

Curate your experience. I mean this. One of the few joys of this hellsite is that you are in control over your dash. You can't control who people on your dash reblog but you can start with who is on your dash. If you don't want to block anyone then you can filter by blog names and install add ons like Tumblr Savior.

Step two

Remember why you're on this hellsite in the first place. Chances are it's for fandom purposes. And, given the premise of your ask, I'm going to focus on the TV element of it. So you're here because you like one or both of the weewoo shows and you want to share thoughts and ideas and reblogs of gif sets of people who are WAY too pretty to just be out there like normal people. And because we're hardwired that way, we want to seek connections with people. So we follow blogs and we talk to people and we have our mutuals and we message then and chat with them and we develop relationships with them because we all watch the same TV show.

But – and this is the point that I think a lot of fandom forgets. It's a fucking TV show. That's it. A silly little show which is 99% designed for entertainment and distraction. I am not ignoring the fact that there will be parts of both shows which have impact above and beyond the show, but Ryan Murphy et al did not set out to make shows with the primary goals of changing people's lives.

It is a TV show. It isn't actually life or death. So the first thing you need to ask yourself I have represented in a nice little flow chart with ALT text:

Negative and hateful ideas

Yes, it's a TV show. But that doesn't stop shitty people saying shitty things. I love that both OG and LS have a diverse cast. I love that both of them explore difficult issues such as addiction and a sense of self-worth. I love that both of them have characters who are tragedy magnets and are both dealing with an entire back story of guilt and grief and a sense of failure and so we are rooting for them to find the self-worth that we know they deserve. Is this Evan? Tyler Kennedy? Both of them? Maybe Eduado, or Carlos? Both captains have their tragedy stories.

But what I'm talking about here is people making comments that are, no matter your views or stances, way out of line. Be them about the characters or the actors, you know exactly the kind that I mean. Commenting on the ethnicity, gender, sexuality of characters/actors. Making statements about race or religion. The Big Stuff that most of us know is way out of line.

So if someone is hating on "Buddy" because one of them is of Latinex descent? Screw you, step on a Lego. If you're hating on "Tarlus" because both of the actors are queer? You can fuck right off now. If you dislike Hen's storylines because she's a proud, queer black woman? Sit on a spike. If you want Paul to shut up and go away because he's trans? Walk off a short pier.

If you wish Owen had less seggsy and screen time? You'll find friends in both camps! But that's about the character and the storytelling.

A good rule of thumb is: can it be changed? If no, don't be a bitch about it. Oliver can't change his birthmark, Alisha can't change her skin colour, Rafael can't change his sexuality, Brian can't change his gender identity.

But they could write "Buddy" as queer. They could write Owen not drooling over some woman. And so we are going to have and express opinions over this.

We know where those lines are and those are the ones we have to draw. We have to shut down those voices and make it clear that they are not welcome because a) we need to make sure there are more safe spaces than there aren't, and b) we need to send the message that this kind of hate isn't OK.

Now where fandom seems to have an issue is where it comes to different opinions. This is because we equate what we like with who we are, and for many people fandom is a part of their identity as a person. There are so many reasons for this – good and otherwise. You see yourself represented in the show, the characters. The storylines resonate with you. It got you through the worst time in your life. You met amazing people because of it. Fandom is a good thing, it truly is, and it exists BECAUSE people take shows and characters and storylines to heart.

So if you come at the fandom then it feels like you're under attack. But you're not. Have another flow chart, also with alt text.

And I'm going to tag my wonderful friend @capseycartwright in this because she hates LS with a passion. I would go so far as to say it's probably visceral? Still follow her, still love her, and I still read her "Buddy" fics because she's an amazing writer. And the reason for this is because there isn't a single comment she makes about LS that is personal or hateful or spiteful. She just doesn't like it.

Now even if she did make a post saying "anyone who watches LS is dumb" I'll still follow her. Because if I follow my flow chart, even though I would call her a friend and maybe say I know her? She's not someone I'm related to and I don't have to deal with her on the day to day. Also she's not saying "Jen is dumb for liking LS". Even if she was, still not related so whatevs.

I'm also going to tag @paperstorm who isn't an OG fan, doesn't watch it at all, isn't at all shy in expressing her opinions on anything. If OG stuff crosses her dash she doesn’t engage. [Edited to clarify]

Now when @capseycartwright makes a post about LS, one of two things happen. Most of the time I just keep on scrolling. She's expressing her opinion about a show she doesn't watch, doesn't like, and has picked up on something that she's commenting on. She's not saying anything awful that would be picked up on the first flow chart so why do I care? I'm not going to get her to change her mind and honestly? It doesn't matter if she does or she doesn't.

I may comment – like I did on her wedding post – if I feel I can offer something to help explain something. She posted about "Tarlus" not cancelling the wedding so, as someone who has watched the episodes and had the information, I pointed out that they were absolutely going to do that but even the grieving widow was all for them having it go ahead.

The trick here is to be respectful. If I come at her with "well ACTUALLY" then it's not going to work. I just dropped in, said my bit, then left. People are still going to think the wedding shouldn't have happened - hell, there's people in the LS fandom who feel like that.

Could it have been written differently? Yes. So opinions get to be had and respected so long as they're respectful, as per the first flow chart.

We can debate if they should have gotten married in the episode. I'm not debating their right to get married.

When @paperstorm responds to an OG ask about something, same principle. Is she being hateful? No. Can I add anything to help explain/clarify? If yes, do it then move on. [Edited for clarity]

Be the change etc etc

If I wanted to start a fight, I could drop into the tags "OMG Buddy/Tarlus is awful and the characters deserve so much better". And people who have made fandom a huge part of who they are will take that a lot more to heart than people who haven't. Only you know where you fall on that spectrum.

Most people are not going to change their minds. I'm not going to be able to convince @capseycartwright that Tarlus are endgame and get her signed up to the "Peaches and Cherries" crew. I'm not going to convince @paperstorm that the OG crew are a wonderful example of how the love of your found family can help you rebuild and find strength with your blood family. And neither of them are going to convince me to bail on the other show!

Fandom doesn't recruit through arguments. Fandom recruits through gif sets and fics and metas and all of the good stuff that comes out of enjoying a show. Fandom grows through people sharing their love of a show and the characters involved in it. It doesn't recruit and it doesn't grow through arguments.

So if people are saying stuff you don't agree with, so long as they are not hurting anyone? Let them. Why are you ruining your peace and your enjoyment yelling into the wind? If you don't follow them and you're only coming across them because they are tagging their hate so it shows in the tags, then realise they're doing it to get the reaction from you. I'm not letting that petty win so I will keep on scrolling. And if it's on my dash? Well then I will just check that they've not decided to indulge in some -ism statements, and then I will keep on scrolling.

Because fandom is supposed to be fun. It's supposed to be uplifting. And there is enough shit out there in the world right now without yucking someone else's yum. Even if you don't understand it. (I don't understand how anyone can eat mushrooms, but I'm not running around a restaurant knocking them off people's plates.)

We like different things. We like what others dislike. And there are so many ways for you to find room and balance those things in your life if you want to. If they don't want to then that's their issue, not yours. Think about the friends you have IRL – do you share every single interest with them? Some of my closest friends are huge Drag Race fans, but not once have I had an issue with them discussing it in our group chat or making plans which exclude me for them to go and see shows.

I don't care that @capseycartwright is a huge Buddy fan. She loves them, it brings her joy, and so I love that for her. I love that she has something in this world which brings her enjoyment, even if I don't share it.

I don't care that @paperstorm doesn't like OG, and I'm pretty certain she doesn't care that I do.

What I do care about is whether it matters in the grand scheme of things. And honestly? More of fandom doesn't matter in the Big Picture than does. It matters when we use it to do great things. It matters when it helps people feel seen and heard and represented. It doesn't matter when your ship isn't canon/gets married.

tl;dr – if people are being deliberately shitty then the block button is your friend. Otherwise, why does it matter if someone has a different opinion to you?

I know this has gotten stupid long, but I wanted to do it justice because you seem to be struggling with it. And if you ever want to talk to me off anon then please do.

[muzligrafia]

breakups can be peaceful and cordial, and i thought this was going to be just that. at first it was "we should live separately so we can heal better", then "i don't think we should be together anymore but i still am here to grow and watch you grow, just separately" and then it somehow today ended up being "i can't even trust you when you say you don't hate me and i can't even be friends with you anymore due to this and that", this and that being things that happeneded both recently and also eight years ago.

i somehow ended up being painted as the sole reason we never worked out, the person who couldn't take accountability, the person who tried to silence the other, the one who did this and that and this and that.

not once during these conversations was it ever said whether you own up to your side of the scale or not. not even once. i owned up to the things i did, i apologized for them, i told you i will work on these things regardless of whatever connection we might have, for my own good. i told you i was sorry. i told you it was never intentional malice from my side. i told you most of the times it wasn't even about you - which was something you couldn't grasp. Every negative emotion I felt, just somehow had to be about you. I didn't even get to have a say about what I feel anymore, because every time I dared to feel anything other than pure, one hundred percent happiness and bliss, it made you feel some type of way, even if it had nothing to do with you. but you apparently "don't do drama" and "don't hold grudges", and yet two minutes pass after we somehow ended our last conversation moderately peacefully just to unleash another set of pettiness on me, because you can't control yourself the way you portray yourself you could, except you're in denial about it.

so at this point, i said what i had to. i told you i'll be here if at any point during your life you feel like you want to talk again. i will not forget the love i had for you, and at some point i'm sure i'll be able to forgive you too.

until then, have a blessed life.

[swiftfan14]

The Impact That Taylor Swift Has Had On My Life - My Beliefs + Storytime

I am one of the biggest swifties you will ever meet. And I'm sorry (not sorry), this will be a bit of a rant.

In my eyes, Taylor is the kind of woman that the parents of this generation should want their kids to look up to. Taylor is a beautiful, kind, intelligent, aspirational, creative, caring, pure, inspirational, funny, confident, sweet, raw, successful woman. I feel like the people who hate on her are just people who have never given her a chance. In this day and age, musicians are often over-the-top or "fake" for the media, but Taylor isn't. For some reason, because Taylor acts more human for the cameras, people find a need to hate. Personally, that's something that I love about her : her real, pure demeanor despite all the paparazzi and fame surrounding her. It inspires me to be resilient and confident. I think to myself "If Taylor can be herself in front of billions of people, I can definitely be myself in front of my class (for example)".

Not only this, but her talent is unmatched. She had a dream and she worked for it and now look at where she is. She used her talent, drive and passion for her artform to dominate the music industry for the past 18 or so years, and that's really credible. The fact that she's only 35, but has achieved so much and is no where near finished, is insane to me. She's a great example of a strong woman who knew what she wanted and didn't stop working until everybody knew her name. My 81 year old grandad does not listen to any music from after the 1970s, he does not watch the news, doesn't have anything to do with modern pop culture or anything like that, and he still knew the name "Taylor Swift". He didn't know who she was, but he knew her name.

The way Taylor evokes so much raw emotion through her songs is so healing for me. When I'm feeling really happy, I'll listen to 1989. When I'm feeling really romantic, I'll listen to Speak Now. When I'm feeling like a baddie, I'll listen to Reputation. When I'm feeling heartbroken, I'll listen to TTPD. When I'm feeling disregarded in any way, I'll listen to Folklore. I could go on. Her lyrics are poetic genius. She knows how to capture any raw human emotion and express it in a way nobody else can. She uses metaphors and other writing techniques that explain certain confusing feelings in such clear ways. She provides a way for me to express myself and let out my emotions, positive and negative. She spreads positive messages, she shares negative experiences, she stands up for herself, she lets us cry and smile and laugh and dance and scream out in anger... and it's like she's sitting next to us and understands. Her music is like that older sister we all never knew we needed. It puts a comforting arm around us when we're sad, it encourages us when we don't feel enough, it parties with us when we're celebrating. I've been through so many hard phases in my life. A lot of trauma, a lot of heartbreak, a lot of stress, a lot of grief, a lot of self-hatred. It's been a lot. But Taylor has given me an outlet for my negative emotions and then provided me with a way to cheer myself up and bring in those positive emotions. I feel more confident talking about my deteriorating mental health when I'm struggling, and feel like I can really open up and seek help.

I feel like anyone can love Taylor. There is genuinely nothing not to love. Even if her style of music "isn't for you", that does not mean you can diss her as a person. She's a human being like the rest of us, and she's been through tough times too. That's why her music is so relatable, because she feels things so deeply and is so open and trusting and raw for us. The whole "Kanye drama" was a lot. I can still tell occasionally. Whenever I listen to Reputation, I think to myself "F*ck you Kanye. How dare you make a young woman feel that way about herself. What gives you the f*cking right?" and I feel for Taylor. You can side with whoever you want in that fight, but at the end of the day, you're choosing between a talented, good-natured woman or a power-abusing, selfish older man. What gives anyone the right to disrespect an innocent girl like that? Let alone a man of his age and in his current situation? F*cking nothing gives him that right. I will stand by that until the day I die. You can't diss Taylor over that feud with Kanye, because that's manipulating facts. As a woman, I find it comforting knowing that other women out there (in and out of the public eye) are going through the same things I go through. The same disrespect, the same abuse etc. It's not right. I hate it. But if we stand together, we can fight it. That's something Taylor has demonstrated.

I could say so much more. I could mention her incredible endurance and dedication to The Eras Tour. I could mention her highly generous and admirable charity work. I could mention her love and devotion for her fans. I could mention so much more about the wonderful woman that is Miss Taylor Allison Swift.

I want to thank her for everything. I've been listening to her obsessively since I was 9, and my life has been so much better since. I will never stop listening, I will never stop spreading Taylor's positive messages and image, I will never stop believing in what is morally good and wholesome, I will never stop being me. And that's all thanks to Taylor >3

[angelacortez]

CHAPTER 5 : 10/30/2024 ~ GOOD KARMA

“Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile.” — Albert Einstein

This might be a message for a friend... This is for you.

It's been a long time since I shared something here. I have a few points about the title itself;

Did you know karma has a good thing?

It's a loop.

Definitely what everyone deserve.

You might wanted to stop what you are doing right now and read this long blog for a while. I really wanted to get your 100% attention.

Do you know why you exist?

You might have an answer but someone out there don't.

Which is okay... Purely valid. We all started zero knowledge. We did not exist to know everything immediately.

What is not okay, you getting to your adult stage and still doesn't know why you exist.

You don't exist to be a burden.

You don't exist out there spreading hate.

You don't exist, spitting negative words.

You don't exist to be someone's reason of sadness.

You don't exist to hate someone.

You don't exist to just exist.

You exist because you are someone's good karma.

I cannot fathom the sadness I have every time I become someone's witness of misery... It's so painful. I could feel my heart stops a few beat and my brain tries to break the cycle of it. Like, God, am I suppose to see this?

I believe you have a reason why I met this person. But why?

It's just so sad.

Should I really feel this way?

My empath on humanity are so high I cannot also understand it.

It's not like, I try to make their problems about myself, I really just wanted to try at least what I can do. The least thing I can do is to make their communication work. Every problem in the world has to do with communication. Family problem, financial problem, health problem and even personal problems. If I can be involve by just telling them advices, I'll do it.

I know the world is not doing good already, should I do the same? No. That's not me.

The world is not perfect either.

Should I follow that flow? Nope. That's not so me.

I might learn this from where I came from, but I really thank them for that. I learned a lot.

What did I learn? Well, for starter, I was told to serve God and other people, making me a person who wanted to please everyone. Which I never regret following.

I learned to be grateful.

I learned to appreciate small things.

I learned to say sorry when I'm wrong.

I learned to be humble.

I learned to be selfless.

I learned to sacrifice.

I learned to be patient.

I learned to be a good team player.

I learned to initiate.

I learned to smile.

I learned to greet others.

I learned to not expect people to do the same.

I learned to say good things to others.

I learned to see the good in every people.

I learned to accept everyone is not like me and of course, accept apologies that was never said.

I learned to be a good person... A small human being who's still a work in progress.

I wanted to be someone's good karma. Especially those people I witness the misery with. Understand that I cannot bear seeing people get hurt for doing good. Sorry if I might try to interfere and do things you cannot do. I genuinely just wanted to help. I understand if you don't want my help, or don't need it at all. I'm just a person who wanted to try.

I might not save everyone but at least I tried.

Every time I think of that, I cry. I cry for them.

Imagine, not doing anything and be a witness of either bullying, killing, stealing, and a person trying to end their self. That sucks. Then if there's afterlife, you'll get to talk to someone about it, you'll review the worst memories you have, especially the traumatizing ones, either God or satan, satan will be the happiest of course. God will just tell you, I don't know you, you are not my child, you have no difference with a bully, killer, robber and suicidal, you stood there and helped them finish their plans... which is not my plan.

I'm not worried about where I'm going afterlife, actually. That is not and should not be the motivation here. The motivation I have is giving everyone the same peace I have.

The peace I have in my mind and heart.

I just wanted to share that thought to everyone.

Social media might teach you how to be selfish, how to be self proclaimed experts, to be social climbers, spread negativity, influencing people with greediness, not care for people who might see you doing things or saying things you shouldn't or for the world where you exist rather.

You'll have to understand karma.

What you did to others will be done to you.

Whatever that is.

For those who's like me, don't be in despair.

God knows your genuine heart, keep doing it.

[areeis]

Finally did the Big D fight, so this is more of a spoiler post than general talk.

I like how when you enter the Mountain Temple your pawns become pushy for the first time. They really want you to finish it and their charge along with it. I like that.

The temple area is so pretty and imposing. I know the statues are close to what the DDOnline sphinx looked like, and it would've been cool to see them in 1, too.

No, Spectre. Just thought you had some input here. After yapping at me for ages I thought it was really polite of my Dragon to patiently wait for my decision, as he has to. There are so many instances of the game making sure you understand that there are several cutoff points. I'm thankful for that, but it's also a bit overkill sometimes, like for the wyrm hunt... That whole sequence with the goblins is also really funny, cos you're never once jumping in as you probably would if given the chance.

Never much liked these Crash Bandicoot levels.. Welp, there goes the temple. He's destroying more of it as the fight goes on and even though it's also funny to see him try to get to me I wish there was a way for me to take it all in before he does.

The fight itself was fun. If I had to just compare fights 1 wins it for sure. 2 is understandably underwhelming while 1 is just pure spectacle. And ballistas make an appearance, too! But are actually 100% needed! What luck! Again I like how 1 is more hands-on with the lore, too, and one by one explains the steps after an Arisen successfully kills their Dragon. I also like how that emphasised even more that in 2 you really exploit a loophole by using the Godsbane and therefore spare the other Arisen, too. Love how you return after the fight and just go straight into celebratory campfire sex scene and then head home in the morning. That was SO CAMP I love it! Just completely ignoring the capital and everything! I like all the shit you get after the fight, too, including the enhancements. I barely enhanced anything, yet, so that's a plus. Pity that pawns get NOTHING, though. It makes me want to redo the fight as Mage, just so Spectre can later get an enhanced staff. It's fine for now anyway, I don't think I'm even close to my best gear yet, not for looks and not for stats.

Yea cool moss-and-mold sky now. (That wyvern engaged us but then just flew off :c)

I went right into the Everfall quest and encountered 2 eyes (fun fight) and a hydra (also fun fight) until I stopped one wakestone short to see more of the world first. I was getting too much into the dungeon crawling!

Some charas I could meet after the Big D fight so far and my thoughts on them: I know Eddy would've never been buds with me, but his downfall could've been more graceful imo suck it loser, you could've met the Big D before I did to renew your pact. Steffen is barely holding on and I thought he'd be more resilient after offering his help against the griffin. :/ Maximilian branded me a traitor even though we took a nice trip together AND he should know I'm not that kind of person after the whole trial period, but I guess acab even in dd. Arsmith is the same old optimist and his notice board survived, which is great, he prolly won't have a negative thought in him until his final moments. Madeleine is back so I could finally give her the idol, I hope she can set up shop again somewhere nice. I got a little reminder for her in case she tries to cutesy herself out of paying me back, but I wouldn't mind if she asked me for more money again right after. Selene must find it weird to also still stay in my house that I now share with Valmiro, but maybe not. Just for her own sake I hope she can find a way to not be attached to an Arisen any more. I like Valmiro's ambition to explore while also attracting misfortune left and right. Honestly being chosen by the Big D has to be the greatest misfortune after he was just able to set out to explore, I'm so sorry XD You're still welcome to stay for as long as you like, though. Pablos still takes my side as he always does, great friend. The Fool still hasn't officially changed his name to Dragonforged on his ID yet. I wonder if he's gonna move house now, since it suddenly got a little more dusty and he's not bound to this place by anything any more.

I'm still searching for the others I want to meet. I'm liking the subtle difficulty spike and new enemies, so I'm sure I'll enjoy wandering the world for a while :>

[cr1mson5returns]

Ugh. Personal under the cut.

So I lived through a lot of shit from my family. If anyone here knew me on my old, deleted blog from my teenage years, you might remember some of the uglier details. A lot of the small things are more or less lost to time, but it wasn't a good situation. I moved out on my own in October 2018, and I haven't gone back.

After a long fight that really started when I came out as a lesbian, I finally made the decision in May 2023 to cut contact indefinitely with my parents and older sisters. It just got bad, guys. My mom texted me about family plans I wasn't invited to (and not to invite me, either) and I spent an entire afternoon on the floor, sobbing and wondering what's wrong with me that I'm so unlovable. I just couldn't do that to myself anymore. I had to make a choice about my personal health and sanity, and keeping that relationship intact wasn't the right one.

So I haven't talked to my parents or older sisters in slightly over two months at this time. But there's a little compounding factor making it painful now, which is the fact that I have a little sister. She's 13 years younger than me (13 years, 2 months, and 10 days if I got the math right when I was 14 and bored) and she still lives with Mom and Dad because she's in middle school. I don't know about you, but where I'm from, it's a little bit illegal for a middle schooler to live on her own. So of course she lives with our parents, she's a minor.

But yesterday, I realized how long it's been since I talked to her. It made me so sad because that kid is so amazing, y'all. She's so bright and brilliant and hilarious, and she's the only one in the family who matches my goblin energy and hyperbolic humor. She's so interested in so many things, curious and loves to learn even if school makes her anxious and cranky; when she had the option to take a drafting class, she told me all about it and said she hoped she'd be able to do it, just because she was so excited about it. She loves Squishmallows and Among Us and BioShock and the Arkham games, though I don't know if she ever played the last two without me because it was our thing for a while. She's so smart and catches on so fast. When I last saw her, we worked on story problems for her math class and I taught her how to turn the words into equations and solve for the missing variable. She wears a million bracelets like a true emo, she's allergic to latex and has had mylar birthday balloons since she was 1 and has never tasted a banana because of it, and she worked so damn hard to come to a point where she wasn't afraid of sleepovers and new foods and crowds anymore.

I miss that kid so much, y'all. She's amazing, and I want to hold her close and tell her she should never listen to anyone who tells her she's unworthy or less than because she can reach the stars if she wants. She could be anything she wanted to be, purely because she would think of a way to make it happen before her anxiety even had a chance to talk her out of it. I want her to know I love her so much, I'm so sorry I was a shitty big sister as a teenager, I was sick and hurting and nobody got it but that didn't excuse anything, and I want to tell her I'll disappear anybody who breaks her heart and I don't care if I catch a charge for it.

She's such an amazing kid. So wonderful. One of my favorite people on Earth, honestly, but.....if I text her, will she even respond? If she responds negatively, will I keep myself safe?

[ghostspiritnovel]

GhostSpirit: Chapter 4

“Now?” Evan is still in shock.

“Yea, your dad said he would bring your stuff inside, we can help you put together your room and such.” Jax reassures his friend.

“Ok, one moment,” Evan goes to his dad. “Thank you, I love you, I miss you, tell mom I love her,-”

“You can call us anytime, you know our schedules, you have your friends here, you can take care of yourself.” Lucas hugs his boy. “Go have fun. Send pictures of your room. Don't make it a mess within hours of putting things away please.”

Evan laughs, nods, and goes back to his friends.

“Sorry,”

“You should have seen Lu, he was crying-” chuckles Jax.

“Shshshshshshs…. I just love my fam. That's all.” Lu hisses

“There is nothing wrong with that, lets go!” Jax says as he leads the way.

The wind is a cool breeze, the smell of sea water hits Evan in the face, mmm. Salt. He thinks to himself before asking “is there a beach?”

Lu nods “a beach and a forest and a whole farm like this place has everything!”

“Yea,” Jax chips in with “this used to be a huge field, still is mostly that, but some powerful being or whatever supposedly made the beach and the world gained a sea? I'm not going to ask the old gods. Also planted the mega forest.”

Evan nods, he finds this interesting but a little confusing.

“Heellooo,” a voice calls.

The boys go over, a sweet smell fills the air. Basking in the sun is a humanoid snake. White with yellow and orange pattern.

“Hey, I know you, I know you, whosssssss thisssss?” The snake asks.

“This is Evan, he's Cynthia s son, he's chill.” Jax puts an arm around Evan.

The snake man holds out a scaly hand. “Nice to meet you, if you need sssssomething feel free to ssstop by to chat. I'm Keath”

Keath and Evan shake hands. Evan had been worried about the texture but this new friend was surprisingly smooth and cool. He smiles.

“Oh Crap! I told Celine we could meet her soon! Thanks Keath, talk to you later! To the witch's house my boys!” Lu waves as he walks away. Evan and Jax say bye and follow.

“So you said witch? I thought they disappeared?” Evan questions as they walk at a more quicker speed.

“You don't see them often, they are still around just not as out and open ya know?” Jax replied.

They reach a house on a hill where the forest sands behind it. Its old and dark.

Lu knocks on the door.

“Yes yes I'm here I'm- oh hi boys!” The girl is about their age, dark hair with a red colored strand on the right and a blue colored strand on the left. Her hair is in a ponytail. She adjusts her eyepatch. “So you're Evan, nice to meet ya, I'm Celine.” She offers her hand.

Evan takes the offer and shakes it.

Celine stumbles back in shock, “whoa!”

“D-did I do something wrong?” Evan stutters.

Celine looks at had and Lu. “Does he know?”

Lu and Jax shake their heads.

“Know what!?” Evan hates being in the dark about things especially if he is involved.

“Come in ,come in, you are going to want to sit down, and you must be hungry. I made cookies.” She waves her hand and enters the house. The boys follow with Evan being insanely confused.

They reach a large room with a large round table with a crystal ball on it. Next to it are tarot decks.

“Sit my friends, I'll be right back.” Celine snaps her fingers as four seats appear around the table. She exits.

The boys sit. Jax seems incredibly excited. “You're going to love this!” he says.

Am I? Thinks Evan.

Celine returns to the room with a plate of cookies with little chocolate stars on them. She places the plate on the table and sits.

“Ok,” she breathes. “Evan Ghost. You have major power within you. Your mother was a part of a group of warriors called the Chaos Keepers. She, along with Lu's mother and Jax father, closed the rift to the Negative. Do you know about the Negative?”

Evan shakes his head.

“The Negative is an alternate dimension made of pure negativity. There is an evil queen who rules and every handful of years attempts to break out and come to our world.”

Evan can't believe what he is hearing. What, no, that cant be. Why would mom hide this from me?

Celine starts again. “The rift is opening again. There was a reason you came here. You three are destined to save us from negativity.”

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he was kissing another girl 4/1

i am not sure if i wrote about our meeting on wednesday. we talked about things and i left with a feeling in my heart that he is a good man. that after everything i knew he was a good man and he cared and we were friends. hilarious to me. maybe its just in my state of anger. i'm not even sure i should indulge in the rage. i sliced open my hands. the rage i had fr you and your actions spill out and onto myself as it does. i could have told you that you make me want to kill myself. i don't think that in a million years i could convey the burning in my chest you give me. you turn me into the female embodiment of fire. the anger that you left me with is one that is so familiar. i can make your life hell. maybe the rage is a reflection of the pain i feel. i am not a soft being for you anymore. you don't get to see the love in my soul anymore. you have made me cold. i can't see love in the sky anymore. i can't say that if i could i would cradle the child you once were and tell him how loved he would be. you don't deserve it. not even the little you. i've never seen you act like that. that was not the version of you that i once loved. someone and something changed you. was it me? did you want to provoke me? no. i know your mind space is not built in the shape of me like mine is of you. to think we could end on good terms. hilarious. i see the way you look at me. you could have asked if i was okay. you saw that i was in pain and you treated me like you barely knew me. that is not something a good person would do. i can't say that i'm proud of everything that i have done when i was drunk but i can say that it was always for or because of you. if you were better i'd be better. i would not have kissed men. i would not have cut myself. i would have been better. and then we could have actually ended on good terms. i can't defend you anymore. who are you? do you feel how my soul has left yours? do you regret not cherishing a love like mine. maybe not. i know i am a good person with a good heart. the reactions are purely based off of your actions. i could leak your address. i could be evil in its purest form. do you want to see how you've turned my heart cold. after i kissed him there was an incurable sense of pain and shame and guilt in my heart. because i still cared and i would never ever want to hurt you. i don't think that you feel that same way. i know that the way you reacted was based off of a trigger of past emotions wounds. that is why we ended. and i was grateful for that. because what we had was not healthy, but it will take time to drain the love for you i have in my heart. i just wanted to talk to you. is that too much to ask. i just wanted to say im sorry for some things. do you feel sorry? i am not sure if you feel that emotion for us. i wonder what you think of us. what you think of me. i did all i could for us. i loved you. I LOVED YOU. i loved who you were. everything that you were was a lovable to me. and you... you! you make me feel like i am undeserving of love in this life. i am not sure to do with all of this emotion. i have about 20 playlists about you. how sad is it that we have to end like this? i could go onto other men and think of you when i kiss them, sure. but i don't think i can take it. so now i just feel a bit empty. but my soul is filled with every negative emotion. or maybe right now i am feeling a bit numb. its about 7 am and i am looking out my window and thinking about the night we met. we looked out this same window on this same bed and talked about the people that all live here and the view from my room. maybe at the end of the day i should appreciate what we had. the more i try to cling onto it the sharper it gets and it cuts me a bit more every time. maybe the resentment that you hold towards me is a reflection of discontent you have with yourself. i have never seen you with that many girls. huh. i don't think i should have believed you when you said you could not pull. whatever. i hope you find love somewhere else. it is not mine but that is what you decided you wanted. i know i will.

i will find love within myself. i will cradle myself. i will hug myself and cry. i will mourn us but know there is nothing left to go back to. i will move on.