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Loved your blaseball ask on the fictional aita (sorry if this is overstepping boundaryâs )
Oh shoot it's not at all, don't worry!! Looking back at it I think I was just a bit more anxious than usual when I wrote my pinned post because I was a bit cleepy. And thank you for saying you loved it!! I really appreciate it :DD Riv blaseball :pensive: And also it's nice to see another Scuttles enjoyer :)
#In all honesty I'm not used to writing but I kind of want to submit more#Like maybe a Sutton Bishop one because I love that horrible thing#OR THE BARISTAS#I think I need to do a baristas one#Any time someone says âpercolateâ I feel like I've been run over by a tlrain
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shirt with a heart and child of divorce written on top but then thereâs a picture of huntclaire. you wouldnt get it. i do
#child of divorce but theyre married and love each other but actually theyâre divorcees#theyre like those couples that get married and then get divorced and then get married again. actually thatâs so chic#you should be divorced by the time youâre 27. a little divorce makes life more exciting#do not consider red carpet diaries at all when writing claire but if i were to consider it#she wouldve broken up with hunt sometime after hollywood u and then it wouldâve been kind of a divorce#<- well my timeline for hollywood u i mean. that would be in 2016#they get back together but they have even stronger + weirder divorcees vibes#claire is actually a divorced woman. when you think about it. thatâs also a great descriptor for hunt but in a different way#so theyre like when you put two spiritually divorced people in a relationship#this makes a lot of sense to me. actually#they have the most loving relationship ever which is gross and disgusting. but when you look at them they have this weird vibe about them#theyre like bitter exes who know too much of each other and one of them is way too comfortable saying stuff in public#what do you mean theyre together and in love#huntclaire#actually i need them so be super fucking weird about each other in public#claire is too familiar with a guy who does Not seem to like her at all. why is she saying this stuff. claire thats tmi#he would do anything for her. he will still argue with her over the most mundane things ever.#her coffee order sucks and heâs not saying all That Stuff to a barista. kill him on the spot.#claire gets an extra cookie bc she threatened to cry#theyâre just kinda stuck together idk. something something his line about the universe bending to get them together. heâs bitter about it#itâs also a form of foreplay but i donât know what the tag limits are#just know that claire is weird about that as well#i mean tbf of course is foreplay what else would this be. how is this dynamic feasible otherwise#itâs*
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Ohmygod trans women are a gift I love you I wanna kiss you on the mouth
#I was reading poetry books in a bookstore#and I heard a pretty trans voice from one of the baristas in the cafe#so I was like fuck it I deserve a warm drink anyway Iâll go compliment her and tell her how much I like her energy and how pretty she is#but I got flustered and could barely order#and I couldnât say anything at all that I planned to say#and I just got my tea and left#BUT#I couldnât stop thinking about her the whole way home and I completely forgot I had other errands to run#I was in a daze until I parked in front of my home and realized oh shit I needed to do other things#transfem#trans women#trans#t4t yearning#my ramblings
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ohhh holy shit depressive episode cancelled i got an interview for a fucking fantastic job
#not really im still pretty mentally ill#and i still have to actually do the interview#but like#newt needs a text post tag#like it could pay more but the health insurance. think about the health insurance#i dont know what specific insurance i would have access to#but this is potentially a 'phallo could be achievable' type health insurance from employer. situation.#'why are you interested in this job'#I WANT A PENIS. and to buy food and pay rent. and stuff#not starbucks! to clarify. im not running that transsexual barista scheme#large university. the one i used to attend which is kinda funny.
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Why is my granddad messaging me and shading my uncle
#my uncleâs business was featured on a youtube channel because he and various other people at the business collaborated with a local artist#on a very (physically) big project#(iâm being deliberately vague to avoid doxxing my uncle)#and tell me why my granddad was like âheâs doing so well. i didnât know he had it in himâ#sir THIS IS YOUR SON#you invested in his business!! did you do that thinking it would fail#iâm ngl it sounded like kind of a bizarre idea when he pitched it to us all; but it also sounded like an untapped market & something that#could be a goldmine in the right hands. and it does seem to be in the right hands#i was just like âyeah i didnât expect this either but it looks greatâ and left it at that#i am once again asking when me and my uncle traded places as âthe successful oneâ & âthe black sheep of the familyâ#i would never suggest that thereâs a correlation. but also since my uncle started his business; i have been mugged twice#my mentor who i trusted tried to ruin my career and did succeed in making a lot of people lose respect for me; i had to leave the only job#that accepted me because they tried to make me work thrice as many hours as i was being paid for and gave me zero support#i was unemployed for months and losing my mind and finally had to become a barista and just as i was starting to enjoy that; i dislocated#my knee & sprained two joints in the process#oh and it wasnât the first time!! iâve actually dislocated that knee four times. all during the time my uncle had his business#letâs not even talk about how i got covid 3 times or all the shit that happened to me in 2021 because i really will scream#2021 literally had it in for me in every single way#i literally think my uncle was being dunked on by the universe but he found a way to dodge the curse and he has no descendants#so it just passed to me. i need to hand this curse over to a child#maybe i should just start a business. doing what though đ§#personal
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Thawing Out
summary: You and Sirius are in dire need of a new coach just weeks before the Olympics. Remus is a former figure skating prodigy forced to retire after a career-ending injury. Though it's not smooth skating right away, those stiff Olympic village beds are dying to be broken in.
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part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | part 4 | part 5 | part 6 | part 7 | part 8 | part 9 | part 10 | part 11 | part 12
cw: modern au, chronic pain
poly!wolfstar x fem!reader ⥠1.3k words
Remus still wakes before dark every morning. Itâs automatic, an urgency and excitement that thrums through him like an old instinct, born from years of his alarm clock rousing him at this time. The rink is always at its best right now, when theyâve just finished resurfacing the ice and no one else is around. It was Remusâ favorite time to practice.Â
Now, he has a new reason to get up. His hip clicks as he does it, so he starts his day with a couple of proactive painkillers. If he really wanted to be proactive he would stretch like heâs supposed to, but thereâs no time and Remus doesnât feel like it. Heâll pay his toll for the negligence later.Â
The webpage of his Airbnb boasted a five-minute walk to the rink, but with his hip it takes Remus seven. Itâs like an odd sort of muscle memory, an old routine from another life that feels as bitter as it does comfortable. He heads out early to give himself some cushion. The streets are empty but for bakers and baristas, the first hints of dawn tinging the sky a deep blue. When he turns a corner and the rink comes into view, the absence of his bag hanging from his shoulder is a phantom ache.Â
The front doors are locked but the side one staff uses isnât, the Zamboni driver already inside. Remus lets himself in, makes a cup of tea from the hot water dispenser they leave out when concessions are closed, plants himself on a bench, and waits.Â
And waits.Â
And waits.Â
Remus has nearly nodded off when two pairs of shoes come bounding up to him. Well, one pair bounds. The other drags.Â
âHi, sorry weâre late.â Youâre breathless and hauling a sullen-looking boy along behind you by the hand, but you manage a smile when Remus looks up at you. âI had to run over and get him out of bed. Itâs good to meet you!â
You hold out your untethered hand. Remus might normally stand to take it, but he no longer feels like doing you the courtesy. Your grip is firm and warm.Â
âYou were supposed to be here at six,â he says.Â
You wince. âI know. Sorry, Sirius is really not a morning person.âÂ
Remus thinks that he might put more stock into your apologies if you looked a tad more contrite. As it is, your countenance is almost cheery, a fizzy eagerness about you as you look between him and the ice like you canât wait to get out on it.Â
In stark contrast, the ill-tempered boy behind you seems not to have a clue where he is. He looks rumpled and disoriented, squinting in the rinkâs fluorescent light.Â
âThen why didnât you pick another time?â Remus asks.Â
He hadnât realized he was still looking at Sirius, or that the other boy could talk, so itâs a surprise when he answers. âWasnât my bloody idea.âÂ
By the way you grin, Remus wonders if youâve even heard the obvious bitterness in your partnerâs tone, or whether itâs gone straight over your head.Â
âI like the rink better early,â you explain. âNo one else ever comes before the hockey practice starts at nine, and theyâll have just finished resurfacing the ice.âÂ
Begrudgingly, Remus nods. âI always preferred it about now, too.âÂ
He realizes immediately that his agreement was a mistake, because your smile grows into something far too brilliant for the early hour. Christ, what has he gotten himself into? Thereâs you, starry-eyed and effervescing all over the place, and your partner, who looks more inclined to fall asleep on your shoulder than put on his skates.Â
And this is the pair skating duo Remus is supposed to take to the Olympics.Â
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âWatch that back foot!â Remus shouts across the ice.
Sirius doesnât look happy about it, but he corrects the placement of his skate, transitioning smoothly into the next synced turn.Â
âGood,â Remus murmurs to himself.Â
Once Sirius got out on the ice and woke up a bit, he was good. He skates with the technical proficiency of someone whoâs been in the sport since before they started primary school, and the intuitive artistry of someone who loves it. Youâre much the same, though your virtuosity and obvious competence are consistently undercut by hesitation, the grace of your movements interrupted when you second-guess yourself. But theseâtechnical prowess paired with devotionâare the basics of what makes a good figure skater. Youâll have to be flawless if you want to do well at the Olympics.Â
And Remus has found many flaws.Â
âNo, noâshit!â Remus stands as you fall out of your jump again, catching yourself on your forearms. âYouâre still under-rotating! Come on!âÂ
Sirius snarls a quick âHey!â over his shoulder before turning his back on Remus, going to help you up. He speaks to you quietly, checking you over as you stand. Remus seethes.Â
He has no clue why heâs been called out here to coach a pair. Remus doesnât know pairs, has never been a part of one. He was a solo skater. And frankly, it makes him wary that whatâs supposed to be the best skating pair in Britain has asked him, a former solo skater whoâs been isolated from the figure skating community in general for the past two years, to coach them. But Remus does know figure skating. And he knows when skaters are making stupid mistakes behind their skill level.Â
âWhat arenât you understanding?â asks Remus as you skate back to the edge of the rink. He really wants to know. âItâs simple. You can do this.â He knows he could have. As easy as breathing, and he would kill to have the chance again.Â
âWhat the fuck is your problem?âÂ
Siriusâ glare is sharp as knives. He steps off the ice before you can, positioning himself between you and Remus. Your lips purse with a knowing sort of apprehension.Â
âSiriusâŚâÂ
âNo, you donât talk to her like that,â Sirius spits. âIt was a tiny mistake.âÂ
Remus raises his eyebrows, incredulous. âIâm trying to help her! It was a giant mistake, with a simple fix. You ought to be telling her the same, unless youâre okay with your partner snapping her ankle weeks out from competition.âÂ
âNone of that means you get to fucking yell at her! Who do you think you are?âÂ
âOkayââÂ
âIâm her coach,â says Remus, voice rising, âandââ
âThen coach her! Maybe if youâd give some actual fucking feedback instead of just nitpickingââÂ
âOkay!â Your shout cuts through the space, echoing in the empty rink and silencing the other two. âThatâs enough.âÂ
You haul Sirius back by his shoulder. Your grip doesnât look severe enough to move him, but he goes, stepping back to your side. His eyes never leave Remusâ.Â
Your own gaze jumps between both boys, that same spark heâd seen in you earlier burning with a different light.Â
âLetâs call it for today,â you say firmly. âOkay? Weâll try again tomorrow.âÂ
Neither boy speaks, though Remus nods. It seems to be taking all of Siriusâ willpower to bite his tongue. He gets the impression it isnât something he succeeds at often, so Remus isnât ashamed to say that it brings him a perverse sort of joy to see it now. His tiny bit of smugness fizzles out, though, when your eyes land on him. Thereâs something desolate in your expression thatâs a salient deviation from how youâd looked at him before. Remus has the sinking feeling that heâs disappointed you. Itâs more distressing than he can account for.Â
âWeâll be here on time tomorrow,â you say in that same steady tone. âAnd my jump, Iâll work on it.âÂ
Remus nods again. You return it, and when you turn to leave, you drag Sirius after you by his shirtsleeve, picking up your bags along your way. Remusâ mouth feels dry. His lips are chapped, his fingertips hurt from the cold, and the sight of your skates sinking into the rubbery floor makes his hip ache terribly.Â
Itâs only once youâre nearly out of earshot that he manages to mumble, âThank you.â
#poly!wolfstar olympic au#poly!wolfstar#poly!wolfstar x reader#poly!wolfstar x fem!reader#poly!wolfstar x y/n#poly!wolfstar x you#poly!wolfstar x self insert#poly!wolfstar fanfiction#poly!wolfstar fanfic#poly!wolfstar fic#poly!wolfstar series#poly!wolfstar enemies to lovers#poly!wolfstar angst#poly!wolfstar fluff#poly!wolfstar imagine#poly!wolfstar scenario#poly!wolfstar drabble#poly!wolfstar blurb#poly!wolfstar oneshot#poly!wolfstar one shot#remus lupin x sirius black#remus lupin x sirius black x reader#wolfstar x reader#sirius black#remus lupin#figure skater!sirius#figure skater!reader#coach!remus#sirius black x reader#remus lupin x reader
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PROJECT PARTER HCS (he wants you so bad) haikyuu
ft: aran, kita, atsumu, osamu, suna
ATSUMU:
HES TRYING!!! but is it successful? (no)
literally cannot shut up the entire time you two meet up but it's ok because he's funny
"hey you wanna see pictures of my teammates" "yeah sure" he pulls out a blurry .5 of suna's nostrils
offers you protein bars and osamus leftovers as snacks
compliments you on literally everything
you wrote two words? he starts cheering and clapping his hands like you're shakespeare presenting a new play
loves pretending to be your strict teacher whenever commenting on your work
makes up for his lack of preparation by making you laugh and flustered
"i think you can add a little more to this part" "you look so sexy calling me dumb"
if you two meet up at a cafe he ALWAYS!!! pays for you
started off as a mistake because he asked you for your order in front of the barista
but he thought for a moment and decided you're worth an extra $5 out of his wallet
always loses his pencils but has dozens of erasers?????
SWEARS by wooden pencils. he sees a mechanical pencil and jumps 5 feet into the air and starts screaming
last few days of the project he looks constipated every time you two are together
"do you need a diaper" "I WANT YOU"
you accept his confession because you unfortunately like him back and because you want a good grade
also because you don't want him pooping his pants
ARAN:
the sweetest!!
always asks how you're doing before pulling out his notes
digital note taker 100%
loves loves loves writing with erasable pen and only uses pencils for exams
is a "let's work on everything together" kinds guy
he says it's to make sure there aren't any disagreements in content and aesthetic (he just wants to talk to you)
if you guys aren't at your house, always offers to walk you back!!!
great academically but if you're making a poster or slideshow do NOT let him decorate it... pls watch out
"does this look good!" "i'm gonna hold your hand when i tell you this..." "omg you want to hold my hand đ"
starts giggling to himself in his head whenever you guys accidentally touch
you catch him staring at you one day and you don't know what to say so you just stare back
he thinks its so romantic
you're just confused but go along with it
after presentations you think you guys are gonna go back to being friendly classmates but he finds you after class and asks you out :)
KITA:
ACADEMIC WEAPON TEACHERS FAV EVERYONE LOVES HIM
"do you want to read my notes?" he pulls out 5 notebooks with everything color coordinated, sticky tabs, perfect handwriting, and factually correct
he can sit and work for 5 hours straight and still somehow have perfect posture
first time you asked him for help on something you were about to piss yourself because you thought he would call you stupid and send you to hell
he gave you a small smile and started walking you through it with an unmatched level of patience
that was the moment you folded and had to physically restrain yourself from grabbing his cheeks and kissing his face
always offers you tea when you come over and brings out a small tray of snacks
"are you comfortable? do you need any help?"
is suuuuper meticulous but kind with his 739273 different corrections
he swears by the sandwich method of compliment-critique-compliment
"your analysis is amazing in this section but i think you can expand a little bit after because..."
you're the one who confessed first because you thought you would explode from cuteness aggression if you didn't
and also because you thought even if he did reject you, he'd do it in the most painless way
was super happy and bursted into a bright red face but shy smile!!
still told you to go back to the assignment though...
SUNA:
menace i hate him (no i don't)
literally doesn't understand anything that's going on and probably doesn't process what you're saying at first
realizes you're serious about this assignment and forces himself to lock in
asks a BUNCH of questions and jots them down on a google doc
loves to make random conversation when you two are working
actually insane gossiper
nosiest birch you know
allergic to minding his own business that mf has shit on everyone
are you slightly scared of what he has on you? yes. do you still want to hear everything he knows? yes
"i'm taking this info from page 175 of the textbook" "got it, but did you hear that kato is trying to get with his exs best friend??"
leaves notes on your project that are both unserious and encouraging
"omg u are literally einstein"
folds origami when bored
will give you paper cranes, frogs, foxes, and cats whenever you see each other
you discovered that there's small doodles in the posts it's he uses to make them
one day there's your name and his surrounded by hearts like the corny mf he is
confronted him and it and he was just like "oh you found that? well, do you want to go out with me?"
he was NOT SLICK with the way he skipped home and whistled to himself that day after you said yes
OSAMU:
HES TRYING HIS BEST!!! (pt. 2)
can only meet up after school because of volleyball so he offers to cook for you before starting to work
takes notes in class but doesn't understand half the stuff he jots down
writes actual bullshit but half a page in decides to abandon his pride and ask you for help
leans in a little too close whenever listening to what you're saying
tries to make sure your knees are touching and that it's all an accident when your fingers brush (he prepared each scenario in his head before sleeping the night before)
down bad LOSER
spends his time doing his portion of the project while sneaking glances at you
doesn't know how to decorate presentations for the life of him so he is on doodle duty
gives surprisingly good suggestions and takes your corrections to heart
one of the best project partners because of how willing he is to learn and contribute!!! (also because he wants to impress you)
talks shit about his brother to you
atsumu has walked in while osamu was telling you an embarrassing story
they start fighting
osamu gets super embarrassed when you laugh at him
then gets overly confident when you tell him you were rooting for him
will not stop dumb smiling whenever he sees you after that
asks you out after the project is turned in with his hands in his pockets with how they're shaking so much
#haikyuu fluff#haikyuu#haikyuu crack#haikyuu x reader#hq x reader#haikyuu headcanons#atsumu x reader#suna x reader#osamu x reader#kita x reader#aran x reader#miya atsumu#miya twins#miya osamu#suna rintarou#kita shinsuke#aran ojiro#inarizaki#inarizaki x reader
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risk â s. reid x reader
in which you have the sweetest regular, and itâs probably too soon to tell him you love him!
pairing: spencer reid x barista!reader genre: fluff tags: s1 spencer. who rambles. biblically accurate career!reader sorry if some of the coffee talk makes no sense to you. reader makes all the first moves. y'all kiss (aww). written in timeskip sorta it's not crazy (like maybe a month). not proofread sorryyy (im not). word count: 2.2k a/n: first instalment of my spencer reid eras tourđââď¸Â season 1 spencer reid i freaking adore you. he's so cute. gif!! i thought gifs in this series could be cute lol. envisioned 1x10 spencer bc of his nightmares if that means anything. enjoyyy ily im off to work đÂ
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There are many reasons you come to work each morning. The money (an obvious one), your coworkers who usually make each day a little bit more bearable. And Spencer. A regular who had become a little notorious for having an odd coffee order, that most of the store workers hated making.Â
Except for you.Â
It wasn't especially odd. But in a store that thrived on making the perfect cup of coffee, sometimes it meant remaking it three or four times because the shots didn't pour at the right amount of time, and recalibrating the machine was a hassle you all didn't want to deal with in the middle of the morning rush he usually came during.Â
You had taken note of him the first few times he came in â always keeping to himself, flashing the most awkward smile you think you've ever seen on a human being, and ordering his old order (a large latte with as much sugar as you could fit in the cup). It was by the seventh time that had you thinking of him a little more often than just while you were at work.Â
He looked a lot more exhausted than usual. His usually tame hair now loose and hanging over his face as he took a weary step towards the counter, fingers brushing strands away and tucking them behind his ears.Â
"The latte, right?" you had asked him, and he had frozen, and you stood in fear of this not being the Spencer you thought he was, and you had just asked a total stranger about a coffee they've never ordered.Â
But then he let out a nervous laugh, shaking his head. "Uh, no. Not today. Umâdo you guys have a limit on how much coffee I can have?"
Your eyebrows furrowed. "No... we don't. I wouldn't recommend any more than like five shots in our largest size, though. It'd probably taste gross. But we can add as much as you need."
"Five's good. Yeah," he nodded his head, fingers wrapped tightly around the leather strap of his messenger bag.Â
"Just... a five shot latte?" you clarified, and he froze again, shaking his head once more.Â
"Do you recommend anything else? Iâuh, I want it to be sweet enough still."
"I can do you a mocha?" you offered. "White chocolate mocha if you're looking for it to be even sweeter."
"I'll try that," he nodded his head, and out came his awkward smile, which had you smiling back just as awkwardly.Â
Which was how he got to his current usual. It honestly became a test to ensure your coffee machines were actually running well, considering pulling five well-done espresso shots at once was no easy feat. And, again, most of your coworkers hated making his drink.Â
Which was why it was palmed off to you. Every single morning without fail. And maybe in another universe you would join them in the hatred for this man's frustrating drink order. But then, in that universe, you wouldn't get to talk to him every morning (and slowly break him out of whatever shell he had locked himself up in).Â
"I never asked," you began, staring at him over the top of the coffee machine while putting white chocolate fudge into the bottom of the cup. "Why did you change your order randomly?"
He parted his lips and his eyebrows creased together for a few seconds, as if he was deciding whether or not to tell you. You were kind of grateful he concluded on trusting you.Â
"I wasn't really sleeping. When I asked about changing my order," he explained, hands letting go of the bag strap so he could talk with them. "Then I guess I just liked the taste of it? And it kept me awake. Which is a bonus."
"I can imagine it would," you nodded your head in agreement, flashing him a small smile, which he returned, bashfully. "Why weren't you sleeping?"
He went silent, and you almost cursed yourself for asking. Maybe you had gone too far. It was why, when you had begun to busy yourself with making his drink a little faster, you jumped when he spoke up again.
"I was getting these nightmares," he said, and your head lifted from the milk you were steaming. "Because of what I do for work."
"Law, right?" you asked, and he let out a small laugh, tucking hair behind his ear.Â
"Sort of. I'm with the FBI."
"Oh, that's right," you replied, nodding your head in recognition. He had said that to you at some point in the earlier days when he first started coming in, because you had asked where he works so close by to be coming in as often as he did. "Can you tell me what part? Or is that confidential?"
"No, no, I can. I'm with the Behavioural Analysis Unit," when your face twisted into confusion, he added, "We use psychology to analyse serial killers and catch them. Well, not just serial killers, actually. But that's what we focus on."
"And it works?" you asked, eyebrows rising as you placed a lid atop his coffee, sliding it out on the pick-up section where he was standing by. His face fell slightly, and so you were quick to add, "NotâI didn't mean it like that. I just mean I'm shocked. That psychology is all you really need to catch a serial killer."
"It's not all we need. There's a lot of other elements that go into finding one. But our primary focus is how their brain works and we use behavioural science to figure that out. Actually, we used to be called the Behavioural Science Unit when it was first created."
He was too busy talking animatedly with his hands for him to have picked up his coffee, and you were too busy watching him with a smile to remind him it was ready.Â
When he did reach for it, you could feel the familiar pang of disappointment that had started shooting through you every time he was picking up his coffee and leaving. A weird sensation that left you clawing at the walls of your brain to come up with something to say to keep him there.Â
It was probably why you blurted out, "Are you seeing anyone?" Which was followed by stunned silence from him, and regretful silence from yourself. What a question.Â
Slowly, he began to shake his head, his lips twitching into a confused frown. "No. I'mâI'm not."Â
It shocked you a little. He wasn't jaw dropping, per se. But he was attractive. You had said it a few times to your coworkers whenever they asked why you talked to him so much â there was a running joke that you were already secretly dating him behind their backs. Not funny.
"I was just wondering if you wanted to..." you hesitated. "Go out for dinner? Maybe? I'm so sorry if I'm totally overstepping. In fact, I encourage you to say no, because this is a little weird. I'm so sorry," you rambled when you were met with only silence from him, wondering if you had weirded him out of the ability to talk.Â
"With me?" he pushed out, his voice a little higher pitched than usual, and you nodded your head, because maybe he wasn't weirded out. Maybe you had just flustered him. You hoped so, at least.
"Yeah," you said. "Is that weird? Or is it okay? To ask that?"
"It's okay. Yeah. Yes. I would loveâlike to. I mean, that would be nice. Yeah," he stammered, and you smiled.Â
"Here," you held your hand out and gestured for his coffee, taking it back and picking up a Sharpie to write your number atop the lid, before you slid it back to him. "I get off work at one. Call me?"
"I will," he nodded, eyes fixated on the number for a few seconds more, before he returned his eyes to you. "I will. Umâbye!" he took a step back, and you let out a loud laugh when he stumbled into a chair behind him.Â
He was sheepish as he waved to you, bidding you another goodbye, the sound of the bell above the door ringing once, and then again when it fell shut.Â
And you had, somehow, secured a date with Spencer.
Which turned into two dates. Then three. And then, with some weird stroke of luck and twist of fate, you were spending every evening you could at his apartment, and him at yours.Â
But you were yet to kiss.Â
Not by any particular reason. Really, nothing either of you did ever really called for a kiss. Which was as frustrating as it was understandable. Frustrating, because you felt like you were simply friends, who sometimes went out for dinner, and had feelings for each other. But he had told you very early on he'd never been with anyone before, let alone ever been on a date. Hence; understandable.Â
But frustration was more overwhelming than you had thought, because you were on his couch, blanket draped over both of your bodies, as he read you a book â The Chameleon. A short story by Anton Chekhov (an author whom you were only barely familiar with). And yet, all you could think about was kissing him.Â
In your defence, he was very kissable, as you stared at his lips while he spoke, your heart stuttering quite uncomfortably in your chest. You weren't sure what it was precisely about him that made him like that. Maybe it was the natural pout of his lips, or how they twitched in humour at the little jokes Chekhov had written into the book that only made sense in Russian, despite him attempting to translate it for you.Â
Whatever it was, it was overriding your senses, and in true Spencer fashion, he hadn't noticed you weren't intently listening to his reading until he glanced down to catch a reaction to something he said. You caught as he closed the book and placed it off to the side, jostling you from your haze.Â
"You don't like the book, do you?" he asked, and you were quick to shake your head.Â
"No, I do," which was true. The parts you were actively listening to you enjoyed. "Sorry, I'm distracted."
"By what?" he shifted on the couch to face you.
You fell silent at that, the answer hanging on the tip of your tongue, unsure whether or not saying it could ruin things. You didn't think it would. "You."
"I'm distracting?" he asked, eyebrows creasing together and a confused frown pulling his lips down.Â
Which confused you. "Yes?"
"I don't think I'm meant to be sorry for that," he said. "But I am."
"You shouldn't be," you breathed out with a small laugh.Â
"Right," he nodded his head, laughing too, awkwardly. "How am I distracting?"
You studied his face for a few moments, which ended up being a pathetic excuse for a lip study, because you were fixated on them again, and you decided Spencer probably didn't even realise that that was what you were doing.Â
"We haven't kissed yet," you told him, instead.Â
"No. We haven't," he agreed.Â
"Do you just not want to kiss me?" you asked.
He did that thing he does when he's thinking â furrowed eyebrows and parted lips, eyes blinking a few times, before he comes up with his response.Â
"I just don't want you to be disappointed. I've never kissed anyone before."
"I concluded that," you answered. "I won't be disappointed."
"You might be," he mumbled, and his gaze averted from your own, which had another smile stretching across your lips.Â
"Only one way to find out, right?"
He hesitated before nodding his head, lifting his eyes back up to look at you. It was then that you learned that, like everything else, you might have to make the first move on him. Again.
The thought made you laugh, and though he wanted to, he didn't get a chance to question why you were laughing, because your hands were on his face and you were pulling him into you, lips meeting his in a gentle kiss that elicited a surprised squeak from him.Â
"You've gotta kiss me back," you murmured against his lips, and his response was a quiet 'oh'.Â
But he was a fast learner, because soon after he was. Objectively, it wasn't the best kiss you've ever had in your life. But it got better by the second, and he was doing enough to make your heart stutter in your chest, his hands reaching up to cup your own face, palms and fingers covering the mass of your cheeks.Â
His hands there provided him the ability to keep you there, and you had to pry them off your face so you were able to pull back for air, breaths coming out in short pants. Only for a short second, because he was chasing your lips again, and you laughed, before letting him kiss you again. And again. And again.Â
Until both of you were out of air, and he was glassy-eyed and pink-lipped. Though, you were probably his mirror image of that.
And he smiled at you, crookedly. And you wondered if it was too soon to say you loved him.Â
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espresso [rafe cameron]
âoh he looks so cute, wrapped round my finger..â ËĘâĄÉË
pairing - rafe cameron x reader
summary - rafe doesnât do relationships, cuddling, kisses, and sweetness. strictly no commitment hookups had sufficed. that was until he met the girl at the coffee shop.
warnings - nothing rlly, just super sweet whipped rafe
Rafe was heartless. Cold. Rough. Any situation he had with girls was nothing more than thatâa situation, a fling. He had absolutely zero desire to be in anything committed.
To his friends, his sisters, his family, and his hookupsâhe was a mean, heartless monster. (Only tolerating Wheezie, of course.)
And he liked it that way.
No one expected anything from him, no one bored him with their feelings. It made his life so much easier not being overly concerned about the well-being of others.
But today, when Wheezie dragged Rafe to some fancy coffee shop sheâs been wanting to visit, his philosophy flew out the window.
âYeah, Iâll have the caramel latte with cold foam,â the young girl recites her order. âOh! And a chocolate croissant.â
âYeah, for sure!â I smile at her, typing her order into the till. âAnything for you?â I turn my attention to the man next to her, presumably a father or brotherâprobably brother, he seems younger.
He doesnât say anything, his gaze remaining intent on my features, like my words flew right past his ears.
âUm.. sir? Did you want anything?â
The girl next him sighs, shoving his shoulder. âStop staring at her you creep.â
His head shakes, like he was snapped out of a trance. He comes to the situation at hand, pinching the bridge of his nose âIâm sorry, that was probably creepy, my bad,â he chuckles awkwardly. The girl next to him makes a face at him, surprised by his actions.
âItâs okay,â I smile. âI zone out a lot too,â I let out a small giggle, trying to make him feel more comfortable.
He grins, âYeah, um, Iâll take a macchiato, thanks.â
âGreat, and could I get a name for the order?â
âWheââ
âRafe,â he interjects. I grin, writing his name down.
He pays for the drinks, smiling at me before going to find a table with the girl.
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âWhat was that?â Wheezie questions loudly.
âShut it, Wheeze. I was zoned out, is all.â
She blows out a puff of air, âYeah right, me and that barista could practically see the drool falling out of your mouth the second you laid eyes onââ
I kick Wheezieâs leg under the table when that same pretty barista comes by with our drinks.
âOne caramel latte with cold foam and a chocolate croissant,â She smiles sweetly, placing the pastry and sugary drink in front of Wheezie. âAnd one macchiato for Rafe.â
When my name rolls off her tongue, I swear I see stars. She says it with a sweetness Iâve never heard before. Her voice so soft and kind. As sheâs placing the drink in front of me, all I can think about it how much I wish I knew her name.
So, I incite a moment for her to tell me. âThank youâŚâ I pause, trailing off.
âOh, Y/n!â She says, surprise I asked such a question.
Y/n. So fitting. Itâs perfect.
âThatâs a pretty name,â for a pretty girl, I wish to say.
She grins, her cheeks flushing a shy pink. âThanks, if you guys need anything else, let me know!â She informs before wandering off.
Once sheâs out of ear shot, Wheezie begins. âMight as well go kiss her over the coffee beans.â
âOh, shut up, Wheeze.â
one year later
I walk through the doors of Tannyhill like I have so many times before, itâs become a second home.
âHi, sweetie.â Rose says from the living room where she sips on a glass of wine, reading a book.
âHi, Rose! Do you know whereââ
âHeâs in the gym with Topper and Kelce. Beware I hear a lot of groaning and shouting. Too much testosterone for their own good.â She jokes.
I chuckle, shaking my head as I head to the side of the house near the garage where the gym is. The blasting of rap music grows louder the closer I get along with the clanking of weights, and occasional grunts.
I open the door and see Topper and Kelce doing pull ups while Rafe bench presses. Rafe canât see me due to obviously needing to stay focused.
âHey, Y/n,â Topper greets, jumping down from the pull up bar.
Before I could ever reply with a greeting, Rafe hooks up the bench press, sitting up quickly. âY/n?â He smiles, his smile faltering when he turns back toward his friends. âAye, Kelce, turn that shit down.â
He gets up, walking toward me and pushing me out the door and back into the hallway. He closes the door behind him and his hands find their spot on my waist, a grin taking home on his lips. âHey baby.â
I smile, my cheeks flushing pink. âHi.â
âWhatâre you doing here?â He asks, his thumbs rubbing comforting circles into my skin thatâs exposed near the hemline of my shirt.
My hands run up his chest, manicured nails running along the collar of his shirt. âNothinâ⌠just missed you is all.â
âYeah?â He questions, that sly smirk on his lips. âYou missed me, baby?â
âYeah, come hang out with me? We can just stay upstairs or we can go to the beach maybe? Or go get lunch, hm?â I coo, my hands now running along his jaw, studying his every feature.
âWhatever you wanna do, my love. Just wanna spend time with you.â He leans in, his lips kissing their favorite spots along my jaw and neck. He pauses for a moment when he hears childish giggles from the other side of the door.
Topper and Kelce walk out, teasing grins on their faces. âI missed you baby,â Topper mocks. âI missed you more, come kiss me and spend time with me, please Y/n. Let me worship the ground youââ
Kelce was cut off by a rough punch to his shoulder. âOw! Shit, Rafe. Not my fault youâre whipped.â
Topper and Kelce chuckle, walking past us toward the front door. âTry that shit again and you wonât be able to walk out of here!â Rafe threatens.
âOh cmon, Rafe. They just know youâre wrapped around my finger,â I say loud enough for them to hear.
âAinât that the motherfuckinâ truth!â Topper shouts before shutting the front door behind him.
Rafe buries his head in my shoulder, âBaby, youâre just egging them on.â
I chuckle, âSorry, youâre just so cute all wrapped around my finger.â
He looks back in my eyes, a smile on his lips. âIâm whipped and Iâm proud.â
I chuckle, slapping his chest playfully as I drag him upstairs.
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What's the definition of "oneshot" here? I've always that to mean any single-chaptered work? Which is what I voted for, it'd be that or "short."
I'll read things that are longer but usually only if it's a situation like I like the author and I've read all their shorter stuff so it's longfic or nothing. While they're being posted it can be hard to follow a multi-chapter because I might forget what's happening in it between updates (which may also never arrive anyway) and once they're finished I can see the 250k wordcount and that's a lot of words. In some cases it's gonna be too many words. (We may all have a novel inside us, but do we all have a novel in us that's the length of several novels, needs no outside editor, and also we can write this novel on our first attempt at writing anything ever?)
I probably write shorter fics because I read shorter fics. More plots and scenarios in the same amount of time, give me all the content NOWWWWW.
(OBVIOUSLY a drabble is exactly 100 words long and many of those are great but I don't generally seek them out cos... well, too short.)
#one of the AO3 tags i follow is currently dominated by multi-chapter Mundane AUs which is not ideal for me tbh#do Mundane AUs seem to lead to longer fic generally? 300k words about the ds9 crew as baristas and that sort of thing?#i must admit as a oneshot writer sometimes i feel like everyone would rather i posted longer works with 25 chapters each#but i just don't have that many words in me at least not all for the same story#and i think i'd rather leave the reader wanting more than have them get partway through an epic and get sick of me#(my current multichapter is... well writing it's a slog at times tbh. what do i have left to say about medieval queens?)#(don't worry i am under no illusions that i'm saying much of anything about the canon characters via this particular AU)#but i have left more than one online fic community because i felt so intimdated by the assumption of multichapter works as default#which is odd because surely wordcount of all things is irrelevant in terms of writing quality?#but for YEARS now i've struggled with feeling like i'm not doing the âacceptableâ kind of fic that people spend days reading#when/if i finish The AU there is no way it'll be more than 40k words and that'll still be BY FAR my longest every fic in over 20 years#so like... i am not what you'd call a marathon runner#noobs asking how to pace their 450k debut work. well first of all are you SURE it needs to be 450k words? that's... that's a lot of words.#that's SEVERAL novels. you're committing to A LOT there.#relatedly i almost never read anything tagged âslow burnâ#i don't have the patience. this is longer than LotR already and they still haven't even kissed? get tae fuck! i want my fiilth! give me it!#fanfiction#fandom#polls
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just friends pt. 2 | lando norris
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part 1!
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y/nstagram me and my gf terrorise monaco đ
flavy.barla that barista so wanted to throw that matcha at us âł y/nstagram because you took about 10 years deciding what drink you wanted!!! âł flavy.barla they all looked so good :(
fan flavs 𼚠i love their friendship so much âł y/nstagram wdym friendship thats my GIRL âł fan lando found dead in a ditch âĽď¸ y/nstagram âł fan SHADE
estebanocon can i have my girlfriend back now? âł y/nstagram nope she's mine :) âł estebanocon understandable
lilymhe me next!!!! âł y/nstagram come join us babygirl i have 2 hands xx âł alexandrasaintmleux what about me? :( âł y/nstagram we can link toes đ
bffstagram seeing you happy makes my heart so đđđđđđđđđđđđ âł y/nstagram i love you so intensely
fan still no lando like bro i'm in the trenches
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f1gossipgirl ANNOUNCEMENT! We sat down with the mystery girl on all of your feeds to discuss those pictures with Lando Norris, Y/N L/N and the fallout from her recent introduction to the F1 world. Available at f1gossipgirl.com tomorrow 7PM GMT. You won't wanna miss this one!
fan not her using lando for fame
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fan they better be just friends or i'm gonna be in lando's walls
fan if they're dating it's game over y/nlando'ers !!! âł fan bro i'll scream âł fan i'll cry âł fan i'll throw up âł fan i'll do all three simultaneously
fan hopefully people will leave them the fuck alone after this damn
fan not them asking her about y/n that's so shady âł fan if she mentions one bad word about y/n we ride at dawn
charlottehinchcliffe thank you for having me! :) âł fan đđđ âł fan homewrecker âł fan not too much on charlotte now we don't even know what happened
True to his word, 10 minutes later, Lando was at your door. Steeling yourself for the conversation ahead, you turn the lock and open the door to reveal a slightly out of breath Lando.
Eyeing him as he pants slightly, you lean against the doorframe. "You good?"
"Yeah!" He takes a moment to catch his breath, wiping his hands against his shorts. "I was at padel, so I had to run over."
You look at him incredulously. "The padel courts are a good 25 minutes from here, Lan, did you run here or something?"
In lieu of a verbal answer, he shrugs his shoulders, nudging his way into your apartment.
The two of you sit in silence on the sofa, both waiting for the other to begin speaking.
"I-" "So-"
You can't help but giggle at the ridiculousness of the situation. Never once in your friendship with Lando had you ever felt so awkward to start a conversation. You gesture towards him, "you start."
He nods, turning to face you on the sofa. "Did I do something? Like we were good until Sass Cafe, and then it's like you just dropped off the face of the earth. I missed my best friend."
Your heart breaks at the way his face drops, blaming himself for something that was completely out of his control.
"Lan, no, it wasn't you, I promise. I'm sorry for ghosting you, I just needed some time to think some things through."
You reach forward and pat his hand, a purely friendly gesture.
"You can talk to me about anything, Y/N. What's going on?" His eyes are pleading, hand twisting around to grasp your own.
Sighing, you pull your hand away from his, missing the warmth immediately. "We need to stop hooking up."
You can tell that wasn't what he thought you were going to say from the way he stiffens, eyes wide and searching your own.
"Why? Did..." He trails off for a moment, eyes drifting down to the hand you pulled from his, "are you dating someone?"
You want to scoff. The only person you wanted to date was the one you were currently pushing away. "No, Lan. I'm not dating anyone. I think everything's just become too complicated, we need to just be best friends, nothing more, nothing less."
He looks hurt, mouth trying to form words as he takes a second to process your words. "Um, ok? I'm sorry? I didn't realise things were complicated..." There's a beat of silence between you before he speaks again. "Is this about the girl I was pictured with because I promise nothing happened between us."
He's almost begging, hands half reaching forward like he wants to grab yours before he catches himself, stilling in the air.
You shake your head, smiling softly at him. "No, I spoke to Charlotte, I know nothing happened. This is simply a me and you thing. Well, a me thing, I guess. You're my best friend and I love you but I need to do this for myself."
He's about to speak when your best friend comes waltzing through the front door. "Y/N! I got pastries from the cafe down the road, come get them while they're still warm!"
Walking into the living room, she stills at the sight of you and Lando on the sofa, hand carrying a bag of pastries stuck in the air. "I'll just..." She hurries off into the kitchen before either of you can say anything.
The two of you look at each other, tension in the air broken as you both laugh softly at your best friend.
"So, still best friends?" Lando's eyes are soft as they look at you.
"Always."
He leaves soon after, a shared hug in lieu of a goodbye. At the sound of the door closing, your best friend comes running through the kitchen door. "So?"
You fall back onto the sofa, tears lining your eyes. "Hand me the damn pastries."
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landonorris bahrain brought the bahpain... p9 with some car difficulties, but we try again for monaco! congrats to oscarpiastri on the podium, lets go!
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fan bro's majestic
fan not him flopping when y/ns in the paddock âł fan when the camera panned to her and she looked... different... i need to know what happened âł fan f1gossipgirl posted an interview with the girl, nothing happened between them but we still don't know what happened between lando and y/n!! âł fan did you see her cheering when oscar finished p3? giggling
oscarpiastri cheers đđź âł fan go girl give us nothing! âł fan no but the photos of him and lily laughing with y/n after the race while lando was just standing in the garage watching them âł fan oscar is a girl's girl fr
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oscarpiastri me, my girlfriend and my girlfriend's girlfriend.
for real though, podium in bahrain is a big win for the team! shame we couldn't get more points but we regroup and prepare for monaco!
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fan that caption is so shady im HOWLING
fan "we" aka lando norris
fan no bc something must have happened with y/n and lando for oscar to shade his own teammate
fan i love the gf's
fan the caption đđ can't believe oscar admitted he's the third wheel in his own relationship âł oscarpiastri i've long since accepted that i am the side piece... âł lilynzeimer at least you're self aware â¤ď¸
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fan MAN???? THERE IS A MAN !!!! PLEASE SAY ITS LANDO !!!! âł y/nstagram no it's charles! me, alex and him went out for a meal! :) âł fan ok best friends! love you y/n
alexandrasaintmleux the first story def looks like you're on a date âł y/nstagram i was... with you xxx âł y/nstagram people will probs think its lando đ¤ˇââď¸ âł y/nstagram unless you want me to take it down? i don't want anyone to get the wrong idea about me and charles âł alexandrasaintmleux you can have him tbh he keeps whining about how he's the side chick in the relationship
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f1gossip Lando Norris and Y/N L/N were caught having a heated argument outside of a restaurant in Bahrain. Sources near the pair mentioned that Y/N met him outside then they were arguing about Y/N's recent instagram stories, with Lando insinuating she was on a date with one of his driver friends. He was then seen getting into a Lambourghini and leaving Y/N at the restaurant. Y/N was then flanked by Charles Leclerc and his girlfriend, Alexandra, who it appears Y/N was having dinner with.
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fan i'm actually gonna fight him what the fuck
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fan landonorris not you flirting with another girl in sass then getting mad at y/n for *checks notes* having a meal with friends âł fan he wasn't flirting with charlotte, they're friends âł fan either way, he can't just get mad at y/n for having a potential date if they're not even together
fan did lando think y/n would openly cheat on him like that? âł fan not cheating if they were never together âł fan we don't know that âł fan they've said multiple times that they're just best friends, the shippers are the ones who have it in their heads that they're dating
alex's pov
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alexandrasaintmleux my girl, the chauffeur and 3 wine glasses.
fan alex unprivating her account to say a big fuck you to lando đ¤đ¤đ¤
fan alex doesn't play when it comes to y/n âĽď¸ alexandrasaintmleux
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charles_leclerc can't believe i've been downgraded to chauffeur âł y/nstagram you literally drive for a living you're basically a chauffeur,,, just faster
fan alex and y/n one chance PLEASE
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charles_leclerc dude please stop being more in love with my girlfriend than me, the fans are rabid i cant fight !! âł y/nstagram đ¤ˇđťââď¸ up your game before someone (me) snatches up the baddest bitch in monaco âł charles_leclerc i literally paid for you to go on a couples trip with her, i am stupid âł y/nstagram thanks sugar daddy xx âł charles_leclerc using me for my money, i see how it is y/n âł y/nstagram for your money and your girl* why else would i keep you around? âł fan y/n let him get up let him get up FIGHT BACK âł charles_leclerc i am terrified of her âĽď¸ y/nstagram
fan alex is so gorgeous holy shit
fan when i'm in a loving alex competition and my opponent is y/n l/n: đ§đťââď¸đ§đťââď¸đ§đťââď¸
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You text Lando the day after you got back from Italy, wrapped in the safety of your best friends arms as you fire off a quick "you can come round". Again, within ten minutes Lando was outside your door. Your best friend answered, eyes laser focused on the sheepish man in front of her.
"Fix this or I'll spread a rumour that you cry when you cum."
Lando nods frantically at her, wide eyed and fully believing she would. If there's one thing he'd learnt since befriending you, it was that your best friend would lay her life on the line for you.
She frog marches Lando through the hallway and into the living room, nodding once at you before departing to her bedroom, not even bothering to check if Lando followed her.
You let your eyes linger on her until the bedroom door shuts, slowly moving your eyes to the man stood awkwardly in the doorway of the living room.
He looked terrible, dark rings circling now dull eyes, red rimmed and rubbed raw. His face looked gaunt, sunken in cheeks and downturned lips. You watch his brows furrow as he tries to think of what to say first.
Beating him to it, you gesture to the sofa. "Sit."
He moves as if on autopilot, choosing to sit the furthest away from you, half hanging off the sofa cushion as if he was ready to bolt at any moment. You have flashbacks to the last time you two met like this and you can't help but fear that this will be the last time he ever steps foot in your apartment.
"Y/N-"
Silencing him with a wave of your hand, you allow your eyes to rake over his face one more time, just in case it was the last. "No, Lando. You've said more than enough, it's time I get to speak."
He nods in response, hands wringing nervously in his lap.
The original plan had been to let him explain and see if he would apologise for the things he said, but during your girls trip with Alex, something had changed.
The two of you were swinging softly in the hammock on the patio of the villa Charles had rented out for the two of you, Alex stroking your hair as you recalled everything that had happened from the moment you met Lando.
The shy beginnings, the budding friendship and the drunken nights spent wrapped in his bedsheets.
She'd wrapped her free arm around your sun soaked skin when you began to cry, trying to make sense of where everything had gone so wrong.
Whispering soft words of encouragement into your hair, she reminded you that no matter how much you loved him, he had no right to speak to you the way that he did, whether it be as a boyfriend, best friend or acquaintance.
Pulling yourself back into the present, you sigh quietly before speaking. "I'm not sure where we went so wrong. I love being your best friend, I really do and I would do anything for us to go back to being just that, but I think both you and I know that can't happen."
Another nod from him, shoulders tense and still as if he was holding his breath.
"The first time we hooked up after your podium in Silverstone, I assumed it would be a one off. Too many drinks, too many high spirits and despite the girls vying for your attention, you knew I was the easiest option who would never tell anyone what happened."
Lando goes to interrupt you, eyes pleading. "It wasn't like that-"
You throw him a look, a reminder that this was your time to let out everything you had been holding in since that first night.
"When I woke up and you immediately said it was a mistake, I agreed. Wrote it off as something silly. Then it happened again and again and again. Each time, before I'd even wiped the sleep out of my eyes, you'd be staring at the ceiling, reminding me that it was just a mistake. At first it didn't hurt because I'd agreed, or at least I thought I'd agreed, but then we grew closer as friends. You'd pull me on your lap for a movie night, or twirl me around before one of your parties and tell me how pretty I looked, and somewhere along the line, I fell in love."
You refused to look at him at the last sentence, too scared to see what would be reflected in his eyes.
"It was stupid to keep hooking up with you after that, but I couldn't stop myself. It felt so good to be wanted by you. Every time we'd hook up, I'd smile and agree it was a mistake then go home and cry in one of the girls' arms. The last time, after Sass, I sat down with best friend and told her everything. She reminded me that I'm worth so much more than a drunken hook up, and for once, I finally agreed."
You allowed yourself to look at Lando then, heart twisting at the sight. Tears lined guilt filled eyes, those god damn eyes. He looked like someone had just punched him in the gut, mouth open in a slight downturned pout as he stared back at you.
"That's why I became so distant, I was trying to save our friendship. And then, those photos of you and Charlotte came out and I was jealous, so fucking jealous. Here I was, tearing myself apart at home while you were busy hitting on other girls." Ignoring the affronted noise from Lando, you continue. "I know now that wasn't the case, but it hurt so much. I genuinely felt like my heart was breaking in two."
Wiping the few tears that fell down your cheeks with the back of your hand, you smiled softly at him. "Then we met up and everything became a bit easier. I thought maybe we could, well I could, work through this. I could unlearn to love you and we could be best friends again."
Lando lets out a noise akin to a whine, tears finally escaping his eyes, dripping down to his chin. You resist the urge to reach out and brush them away, your own tears marring your vision.
"That night in Bahrain, I really had just wanted to stay at home and get an early night. Then Alex had texted me, and you know her, the girl doesn't take no for an answer." You try and laugh, the sound coming out flat and warbled at the same time. "I was trying to not be on my phone too much and that's why I didn't reply to your other messages. Charles offered to go out and speak to you but that wasn't fair on him, this wasn't his mess to fix."
Seeing Lando stare at you so gloomily from your sofa was becoming a little too much for you to handle, soft sobs echoing between the two of you. You stand from the sofa, moving to the window in your living room, eyes trained on the setting sun.
"The things you said that night really hurt, Lando. We've never argued in the entire time we've been friends, not even a little friendly one. You were so angry at the idea of me seeing one of your driver friends and I couldn't figure out why. We'd joked about me dating one of them before, hell, you even asked if I wanted Daniel's number after we snuck off at that house party to tie all your shoelaces together before he starting seeing Heidi..."
This time, Lando successfully cuts you off. "Do you really not know why?" His voice is gravelly, molasses thick around the edges.
Shaking your head, you hear him stand up from the sofa too, sock clad feet shuffling against the hardwood floor. When he speaks next, you can tell he's right behind you.
"I was jealous." The sound of him ruffling his hair floats through the silence between you. "When we met up and you said you wanted to stop hooking up, even if you were adamant that you weren't seeing someone new, I couldn't get that thought out of my head. Sure, our friendship is, was, a bit unconventional, but I thought it worked. I thought we worked. I had no idea it was hurting you and so when it ended, that was the only reason I could think of."
Looking through the glass of the window, your eyes lock with Lando's, his stare equal parts intense and regretful.
"And then I thought you were blowing me off in Bahrain and it was like a switch flipped. The thought of you ignoring me and being with someone who wasn't me made me feel sick to my stomach. It's the same feeling I get when you show me a silly meme Logan sent you or when I saw you and Dan giggling quietly and having to hold each other up in my hallway."
Gaze unwavering, he studies your face through the window pane. "Can you turn around and look at me properly, please?"
Unable to ignore the pleading in his voice, you turn slowly on the spot. The two of you are less than a foot apart, a few inches closer and you'd be able to see the flecks of gold in his eyes.
"There you are." A small smile crosses his lips. "I thought it was anger at you blatantly avoiding me, but then I remembered how my first thought when the photos of me and Charlotte came out wasn't 'my PR team's gonna fucking kill me', it was 'I need to tell Y/N it isn't true'."
He shuffles closer, hand reaching out to rest against your jaw. Using his thumb to swipe the stream of tears flowing down your face, he lowers his voice to a whisper.
"Every time I told you that us hooking up was a mistake, I was wrong. The mistake was me not realising how ridiculously in love I am with you."
You try to speak, a small whine escaping your lips, only audible because of the quietness of the apartment.
"I'm sorry, Y/N. I should have never spoken to you like that in Bahrain. I only ever want to see you happy, to see your nose scrunch at how wide you're smiling, to hear you laugh loud and unabashedly. Knowing I hurt you, and have been hurting you for months, breaks my heart and I'm so angry at myself for not letting you explain. I love you and I want to be with you, but I understand I've hurt you and it's ok if you don't want that too."
Tears glimmer in his eyes again, smile soft and warm but tinged with remorse. He scans your face, looking for your answer in lieu of a verbal one.
Reaching a shaking hand up to cover his on your jaw, you close your eyes, allowing yourself to savour the warmth of his palm. "I want that. I want to love and be loved by you."
You open your eyes, meeting his brightened gaze.
"Really?" He sounds and looks awestruck, the weight of possibly losing you physically dropping off his shoulders, his body relaxing as he melts at the sight of you smiling gently. "You're sure?"
You nod, matching his fond smile. "I'm sure."
His thumb traces your bottom lip, eyes drawn to the movement. Before he can ask, you use your free hand to grab the front of his t-shirt, dragging him until the two of you are pressed chest to chest.
"Kiss me, Lando."
His name gets muffled as he presses his lips to yours fervently. Warm, syrup soaked and something that could only be described as Lando. Not a trace of alcohol, a distant memory of how this normally went. You decide then and there that this was your favourite taste.
His hand slips to the back of your neck, fingers tangled in your hair as he pulls you closer, eliminating any possible space that could come between the two of you. Each time your lips part, he whispers a soft "I love you", the sound being inhaled by you.
Slipping an arm around your waist and digging his fingers into the flesh, he revels in your gasp, tongue slipping between your lips to find your own.
Your body flares up at the feeling, each nerve ending scorching hot and tinging with electricity. You whisper "I love you's" back with each parting, one hand still wrapped in the fabric of his t-shirt as the other slides up the back of his shirt, tracing the map of his muscles.
You giggle as he shivers at the touch, finally allowing the two of you to breathe as he joins you, the kiss becoming more teeth than lips. He drags you into his arms, the hand in your hair moving down to interlink with the one wrapped around your waist.
Nudging his nose against your temple, he moves his head until his lips are level with your ear.
"Be mine?"
You hum into his neck, pressing soft kisses to the skin. "I already was."
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y/npriv not one mean comment, that's boyfie!
lilymhe đ¤ âł flavy.barla đ¤ âł alexandrasaintmleux đ¤ âł francisca.c.gomes đ¤ âł lilynzeimer đ¤ âł heidiberger_ đ¤ âł carmenmmundt đ¤ âł kellypiquet đ¤ âł iamrebeccad đ¤ âł landonorris were you silent or were you silenced âł alexandrasaintmleux don't even try it norris
francisca.c.gomes on a real note, i'm happy for you, truly đ (please tell me he grovelled) âł landonorris i was 2 seconds away from getting down on my knees and begging âł francisca.c.gomes good. âĽď¸ alexandrasaintmleux, lilynzeimer, lilymhe, heidiberger_, carmenmmundt, kellypiquet, iamrebeccad, flavy.barla
lilymhe how did you even get in here landonorris âł landonorris begged her to let me in âł lilynzeimer you seem to be doing a lot of begging recently âł landonorris ??? you're meant to be the nice one âł lilynzeimer blame my boyfriends influence :)))))
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landonorris P1. Grand Prix Winner. It wasn't too much for little lando norris... feels absolutely surreal, I'll post something more eloquent when I've stopped shaking đ§Ą
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fan GRAND PRIX WINNER LANDO NORRIS !!!!! THAT FEELS SO GOOD TO TYPE!!!!
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y/nstagram my love, my light, my grand prix winner. words can't even begin to describe how proud i am of you. forever in awe of all that you do â¤ď¸
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fan ok cute and all but i still haven't forgiven him for bahrain âł y/nstagram well i have, and honestly that's all that matters âł fan just don't want to see you hurt y/n â¤ď¸ âł y/nstagram and i love you for that đ but we're all good, i promise
fan ik the grovelling was Excellent for her to dedicate a whole post to him âł y/nstagram just wanna celebrate my boyfie đŤśđŤś (it was) âł landonorris say that again âł y/nstagram my boyfriend â¤ď¸ âł fan yeah y'all are cute and all but i'm perpetually single and a hater so out of my replies (love you guys)
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alexandrasaintmleux i'm still your favourite though? :( âł francisca.c.gomes actually, that's me âł lilymhe no me âł y/nstagram before y'all start this again, my gaggle of girlfriends will always be my favourite đ âĽď¸ alexandrasaintmleux, lilynzeimer, lilymhe, heidiberger_, carmenmmundt, kellypiquet, iamrebeccad, flavy.barla âł landonorris i love me, my girlfriend and my girlfriends 10 girlfriends âł lilymhe hey, we had her first! âĽď¸ y/nstagram
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Alley Chat (Dp x dc)
Danny leaned on the dirty alleyway walls, his head down, as he tried to stave off tears. Taking one more shaky breath, he did his best to let it out slowly.
âYouâre fine,â he gasped.Â
Then, one more gulp, âYouâre safe.â
And then, âBreathe.â
âCâmon just-â he heaved in a breath, âbreathe goddammit.âÂ
Then he tilted his head backwards as his eyes slid shut. He inhaled through his nose and exhaled through his mouth, his heart-rate finally slowing down.
He brushed away the wet of his cheeks with the rag heâd shoved in his barista apron earlier. Figuring it was already ruined as it was he blowed his nose in it as well. Now if he could just splash his face with cold water, heâd be almost as new.
He reached for the stick of gum he knew heâd left in the bigger pocket only to freeze as he felt something smoother under his fingers. The card from earlier.
âThis is for you,â his father had said, looking more unsure of himself than Danny had ever seen him. âDanny-oâŚâ
âWeâre sorry, Danny,â his mother had taken over, and there had been tears in her eyes. âWeâre so sorry, we didnât know-â
âYou canât be here,â Danny had said calmly enough, though his hand had been shaking.
âDanny-â his mom had started, as she had reached towards him and Danny just couldnât do this.
He had felt his pulse in his ear, his chest constricting and he hadnât been able to think past the need to get out, out, out.
Thereâd been bright light, and then he had been away from the noise, and he had ran until he couldnât breathe.Â
And here he was getting pushed to the precipice by a fucking card.
âNo,â he told himself but his eyes were already watering. âNo,â he choked out, fruitlessly.
âGoddamit,â he hiccuped as tears began to fall. And then it was as if the dam had broken. Every single tear heâd managed to repress were now coming back twofold. His whole body was wrecked by big heaving sobs and he had a moment to be glad heâd found himself a secluded place to have his fit in peace.
âOh, buddy,â he heard from behind just as the thought registered.
He turned around to find a guy in a skintight red suit looking at him.
âAre you ok?â The guy said before rallying. âThatâs a dumb question, isn't it.â
The halfa just looked at the man.
âDo you want to talk about it?â
Danny shook his head. He was actively trying not to think about it.
âIs it ok if I stay here ?â
Danny was too drained to care about a stranger witnessing this, so he raised his shoulders.
âI can talk if you donât want to, Iâve been told Iâm quite the motormouth.â
The man let a bit of silence pass before apparently he decided that was an agreement and he started blathering on about- rainbows was it?â
â-sure if compared against the big fishes, Rainbow Raider is far from the worst but I just canât get over how petty his reason to turn to crime is. Iâm not saying being colour blind would make being an artist easy but it doesnât make impossible. Beethoven was deaf and look at him now! Ok that was poorly phrased, but you get what I meant-â
And on he went, talking about anything that was going through his head it seemed.
As it went on, Danny realized his hands had stopped shaking and there was a tugging at his lips that was ever so slight, but near miraculous so soon after his cry session.
â-where does the iron even come from? Like do spinach plants just make it? What does a spinach plant look like for that matter? Iâm picturing like a salad plant but where do the stalks come from then,â the man hummed before there was a sound like a TVâs white noise and the man straightened. After a moment, he turned towards Danny and gave him a smile.
âIâm gonna have to run,â he said. âIâm not often in the neighborhood, so we might not meet again, so I wish you best of luck, bud.â
Another brilliant smile and he turned away.
Danny jumped forward in time to stop the manâs immediate departure. Said man turned to give Danny a quizzical look.
âThank you,â said Danny painfully sincere.
The manâs face softened in a smile for a moment and then he was gone.
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hot to go! | c.sn
or, when you meet one of your customers as a camgirl.
pairing/au: san and camgirl! fem reader, nonidol! au general content/summary: you meet (and fuck) one of your clients, emotions kinda talked about, hinting at wanting more, idk what else lmk, NO race specific descriptors (skin colour, hair texture, etc.), NO body type specific descriptors (size of reader body parts, BUT reader is alluded to being smaller than san i think, weight, etc.) genre: smut, fluff at the end
âď¸ sexual content warnings (explicit): spitting scene (idk why these show up in all my fics...), bigdick!san agenda (always and forever), stomach bulge, raw sex (do NAWT do this), he does NAWT pull out (pls practise safe sex), f! and m! oral receiving, 3 diff positions because why not, three reader orgasms, marking and biting, a singular ass slap, soft dom!san, kinda sub!reader, a clit nibbling and pinching (i have no words), pet names (baby, sweet girl, angel, etc), a cutie lil aftercare moment, lmk if i forgot anything :DÂ
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a/n: thank u to the lovely folks over at @mirohs-aurora-society for helping me finish writing this !
do you ever think about how your life could be ruined in an instant?Â
sure, the money and lack of a 9-5 job was glorious, but what would happen if people found out exactly why and how you were able to live like this? the lie you told your friends was that you worked as a copywriter. it was boring enough so there were no further questions asked, but also legitimate enough as to why you never go into an office. the truth is, you did work with technology, well, sort of. if you consider being an anonymous cam girl as working with technology, then, yes! you are still pursuing the traditional route, going to university to get your bachelorâs in some stupidly worthless major. your friends worked as waiters, baristas, uber drivers, and any other typical college job. you wanted an easy way to make money in the comfort of your own home, was that too much to ask for?
so, during one of the many nights you spent thrashing in bed, contemplating your life, you remember a remark one of your friends made to you years ago.
âwhy donât you just become a pornstar?â
at the time, you laughed it off. there was no way you were comfortable putting everything out there for another strangerâs enjoyment like that. but, one lonely night, you decided to give it a try.
whatâs the worst that could happen?
putting on the prettiest lingerie you owned, which happened to be a simple matching baby blue mesh set (whatâs the need for lingerie when you barely have time for yourself?). you found a somewhat reputable website you stumbled across, and quickly signed up for an account. you put no thought into the username, simply opting for âblossomiebabyâ, as you werenât expecting this to last very long. you set up your phone on a tripod, one which you cannot remember why you bought, and started the stream.
at first, you were very awkward. if the 3 viewers could see your face, they would say you looked like a deer in headlights. you kneeled on your bed, whole body in view with the camera cutting off half way up your neck, keeping your face safely out of frame.Â
the few viewers so far were giving you many compliments and also advice on what to do, how to pose your body, and other tips on helping you help them. after a few minutes, you grew more comfortable and started to move fluidly on your own, twisting and pushing your body to various positions that caused you to hear the donations pour in. you didnât even undress, or do anything explicit, and somehow your first show did well.Â
the next stream you did, you had a little extra preparation for. thanks for the generous donors in your first stream, you bought a new, actual lingerie set, a dildo, and some lube. the sex toy and lube sat out of view on your nightstand, you werenât sure if you were ready to use it or not, so you thought it was best to leave that decision up to yourself. you slipped on yet another set, this time soft baby powder pink ruffled bloomers and a matching cropped dainty tank top, they both adorned bows in the centre and poofed out on your body beautifully. you felt a lot more comfortable this time around, expertly setting the camera up the way you like and laying on the bed. you laid on your stomach, rear tutted up and frilly lace covered feet swinging in the back as you teased your growing audience with a closeup of the lower half of your face. this time, your viewer count was growing by the dozens; it was near 100 when you climbed away from the camera, kneeling on the bed. your soft plush thighs splayed out as you sat on your knees, your thigh high socks stretching with the new position.
you toyed with the hem of your top, pulling it down to create a v-shape, exposing more of your collarbone and a bit of cleavage. you leaned forward again to give your viewers a close up, still hearing the steady flow of donation chimes coming through. this time, your head dipped to the bottom corner of the video as you displayed your deeply arched back and wiggling rear to the camera.Â
that night, you hadnât pulled out any toys, and even now that it has been about a year since you have started, you still havenât shown much more. sure, you have gotten more generous with being a bit more revealing, but your private parts stayed private. what you do on stream those few days a week is seductively pose and fondle your body for your audience. however, you have upgraded to speaking to them now. you found adding the element of your voice has upped both your viewership and income. and some nights where youâre feeling extra nice, and needy, you tease yourself a bit through your bottoms, for both your relief as well as your audience. staring at yourself posing lewdly for hours sometimes makes you turn yourself on. Â
another night, another stream.Â
tonightâs outfit is something a bit spooky, it is the beginning of halloween month! tonight, you put on a sexy nurse costume. definitely basic, but also a crowd pleaser. the thin, tight white dress hugs your body perfectly, the red collar and details pop out against your skin tone. you also put on a pair of white lace thigh high socks, now a sort of staple of yours. you turn to set the camera up just the way you like it, hoping for another good night of work.
however, just before you start the stream, you notice a message from someone,
themountain: trick or treat?Â
you giggle at the stupid line, but you would be lying if you said you werenât curious as to where this was going.Â
blossomiebaby: hmmm, treat?Â
themountain: *$500 donation*
themountain: and if you want, i can still show you some tricks later ;)Â
your jaw drops at the huge donation this âthemountainâ user just sent through. the username seems vaguely familiar, but you donât remember anything outstanding or specific about him.Â
blossomiebaby: thank you mr. mountain man :)Â
blossomiebaby: do you stream?
themountain: nah, but for you iâd do a private stream
and maybe it was the fact this man just dropped $500 on you, or maybe the fact that he seems so charming from the few texts, or maybe it was the fact youâre ovulatingâ but either way, you knew you had to take him up on his offer.Â
blossomiebaby: are you comfortable with a two way stream?
blossomiebaby: wanna show my appreciationÂ
themountain: anything for you, baby
as you go on your laptop to invite him to the private stream, you feel insane. sure, youâve had private streams for small groups of your highest paying customers, but nothing like this. with the two way stream, you would basically be on facetime with him.Â
ding!
no turning back now.
the mysterious mountain user enters the stream, and you see the lower half of the screen flicker from black to a manâs broad chest and square shoulders.Â
he sits in a very fitted black short sleeve compression shirt, it shows off his triangular stature as he waist disappears under the dim lighting. you can see a peak of what you presume to be grey sweatpants, typical manwhore outfit.Â
you are sitting on your bed, knees bent as you press the heels of your feet into the mattress. youâre also at an angle against the camera, making your legs appear longer as you lean back on your hands set behind you.Â
âawww, did i pull you away from streaming tonight?â the stranger lifts the camera up a bit, and you watch a dimple appear as he smiles while speaking. you unknowingly press your thighs together a bit to suppress the desire starting to flow through your body down to your core.Â
you simply nod, too afraid to speak as your brain is slowly turning to mush.Â
âi would say iâm sorry, but iâm happy to have you all to myself tonight.â he chuckles, those same dimples marking his face as he smiles.Â
you giggle back at his comment, âso, what tricks do you have up your sleeve?âÂ
âhmm, well, it can be whatever you want. you seem a little nervous, so we can just talk.â this time when he smiles, thereâs no playfulness behind it, it seems full of sincerity.Â
you shake your head, but he tuts and starts making simple conversation. eventually, you move to a more comfortable position, sitting with your legs crossed in front of you as you drift off into conversation with him.Â
itâs only when you get a notification that your laptop is about to die when you see the time, you had been chatting, nonsexually, with this strange man for over two hours.Â
âi think iâve kept you long enough, but i hope you enjoyed our conversation, it was nice getting to know you, blossom.â he says, his hands go upward to the mouse on his desk.
and you know it is definitely not the smartest move, but you canât even think before you blurt out,
âcan i give you my number?âÂ
a few weeks have passed, and you still do your streams. as it gets closer to finals season, you slow down a bit, wanting to focus on your academics and prioritising that over your income currently. however, the main thing that has now changed in your life is a constant you never thought would happen.
san
after he quadruple checked you were truly okay with giving him your number, he decided to give you his instead, in case you changed your mind. he said he wanted you to feel as comfortable and safe as possible, so he gave you the power to reach out to him instead. which you did, the next day. and ever since, you both have been texting and calling nonstop. and this is how you came to know more about the man behind themountain user, san. he also sent you a few photos of him, and wow, he is a gorgeous man.Â
people always refer to women as beautiful and pretty, but san is the prettiest man you have ever seen. of course, his body is also mesmerising, but his face alone makes you think impure thoughts and pumps arousal through your veins.Â
after a few weeks of texting, you still wanted more. but you were nervous, and you also didnât know quite what you wanted from him. did you want to ask him on a date? he is local, but you also felt weird about asking him on a date, especially because of how you met. did you just want to meet up and hang out? but then, maybe he would get the wrong impression if you invited him to your place. i mean, it wouldnât necessarily be the wrong impression, as you did spend many nights under your sheets thinking of him, but you thought that would be too forward,Â
hey, wanna come over mine and fuck?
yeah, you definitely canât say that.Â
luckily, san was able to be on the same page as you. one night while you were studying, you got a text. you told him how youâve been busy preparing for finals, and he respected you taking some time away from the internet.Â
san: have you eaten?
y/n: no, been too busy studying :(Â
san: thatâs no good angel :(Â
you smiled, as you read his texts, he was always so sweet to you and caring. it seemed like he cared about you more than just the nature of your job. it seemed like he saw you as a person, not just a body for his own pleasure.Â
san: what do you want to eat?Â
y/n: hmmm, iâve been craving some sushi. maybe iâll get some after iâm done.
you looked away at the time, it was starting to near 11:00pm, and you knew most places would be closing soon. in your mind, you already started thinking of what you could put together in your kitchen.Â
san: that wonât do, how about i send some food to yours?
and if you thought san had made your heart skip a beat before, this time he truly did. you froze in place, staring at the message in the corner of your laptop until it swiped itself away. you open up the message thread and stare a bit more.Â
san: iâm sorry, i can just send you some money to order it yourself, does that sound better sweetie?
it warmed your heart to think that he thought he crossed a line, but in your mind, it was quite the opposite. you looked over at your planner, you had finished everything due for the next few days, so you had a bit of time to spare.Â
y/n: why donât you just pick something up for us? i could use some company to distract me from school.
after hovering over the send button for a moment, you finally pressed down on it. you took another look at your message sent and shut your phone off, throwing it to the other side of the couch as you curled up and screamed.Â
for someone who made a living off of seducing men, you sure didnât have a lot of in person experience of dating and romance.Â
and even though you threw your phone so you could escape his reply back, your laptop was still open, so you heard the ding! when he replied backÂ
san: just ordered it, send me your address so i can ease that pretty little head of yoursÂ
another scream leaves your throat as you quickly send him your address before you can even think to change your mind. you stand up and shut the laptop, looking around your place. noticing the state of your home, you start manically cleaning up and trying to make things look as nice as possible. you didnât know exactly where he lived, so you had to hurry in case he would be there soon.Â
you ran to your room and did the same, throwing dirty clothes in the hamper and pushing it into your closet. you took a look at yourself in the mirror, the days of reading and being locked inside your place was evident on your face and body. you decided to take a quick shower, something you had been neglecting in favour of studying. after your place was straightened out and you threw on some more presentable clothing, which just happened to be an oversized tee and some soft shorts. even though san had likely seen a lot more of your body on camera, the thought of him seeing it in person sent shivers down your spine.Â
and just as you sat back down with the recollection that he has never seen your face, you hear aÂ
ring!
shaken out of your thoughts, you shakily get up to walk toward the front door. you pause as your hand hovers over the door knob. once you open it, thereâs no turning back. you open that door, and your identity is revealed, youâll be letting a stranger come into your home which you have crafted to your safe space. after a few moments, you slowly unlock your door and turn it open. what if youâre getting catfished? what if this wasnât some nice customer who you have befriended, but a crazed fan whoâs going to harm you once you allow him in? itâs too late, the door is already cracked open, and all the person on the other side would have to do is fit their shoe in the opening to enter your place. but, much to your pleasant surprise, the door stays cracked. you can see a peek of the man on the other side, his physique seems similar to the man who you have been chatting with for the past few weeks, and it brings a small smile to your lips. heâs rocking on his feet, maybe heâs nervous too?Â
âif you donât want to let me in, iâll leave the food here.â
there is a twinge of disappointment in his voice, but itâs mostly full of compassion. and just as you hear him place the bags on the floor and his heavy footsteps, you take a step back to swing your door open.Â
âiâm sorry, come in san.âÂ
he turns back around quickly, just to see you bend down to pick the bag up and smile at him,
âitâs not like iâm going to eat all this food by myself.â
san follows you into your place, removing his shoes and hanging his jacket up. he stands awkwardly at your entrance as you place the bags on your coffee table and sit back on your couch. you turn around and giggle at his nervous state, it somehow puts you at ease to see him just as nervous, if not even more, than you. you motion him to come sit next to you, but he seems a bit frozen in place.Â
of course, san knew you had a beautiful body, he would be lying if he thought otherwise. afterall, the way you two âmetâ was through your body. however, after talking to you for the past few weeks, he has gotten to know you a lot deeper than just the lingerie you drape over your figure. heâs gotten to know more about your personal life, your likes and dislikes, your academic and career goals and endeavours, and everything else in between. he would be lying if he said he hasnât fallen in love with you over these past few weeks. he genuinely wasnât expecting it to happen, falling for a camgirl? before he thought that would be equivalent to falling in love with a hooker; it would take a fool to think they would want anything more than his money. but, he cannot stop the prominent beating in his chest as he walks over, seeing your face for the very first time.
seeing the last piece of the puzzle that was missing of you filled his body up with admiration. here you were, letting him in your home, seeing your face, and not in front of a camera. heâs seeing you in a state he never has before, actually covered in baggy clothes, hiding the figure he has only ever seen you flaunt. your face isnât cut out of frame, but fully in front of his face, all just for him to go over and analyse each one of your gorgeous features. from the way your nose curves perfectly into your face, your eyebrows framing your eyes perfectly, and the small smile on your plump lips as he sits next to you as you open the bags up.Â
âthanks for the food, and coming over. iâm sorry if it was a bit sudden.â you nervously say, shying away from his lingering fixation on your face.Â
he stutters, âitâs no problem, iâm happy to help.â he smiles back at you, helping you untie the bags to get ready to eat. you reach for the remote as he lays down the food and drinks on the table. flipping through numerous streaming channels to land on the perfect thing to watch. your uneasiness quickly flows away from you, and itâs evident san is feeling the same. heâs no longer as tense sitting next to you, he rolls up his sleeves and relaxes into the cushions, widening his legs to get more comfortable. you canât help but think how right this all feels. your thoughts no longer compile of anxiety and fear of the man sitting next to you, but instead morph into familiarity and comfort. you put on a random episode of the office and you both start eating the delicious food in front of you.
itâs quiet as you both eat and watch the show, only some small noises of you two enjoying the food leaves your mouths as you chew on the sushi and wash it down with drinks.Â
the food is now long gone, and you both have somehow ended up lightly cuddling on the couch, eyes still glued to dwight and michael scott on the television. laughs and dry chuckles escape your lips at the stupid humour as you find yourself nuzzling into sanâs chest with his arm draped around you.Â
you both are made aware of your current position when netflix shines a notification on the screen,
are you still watching?
you scramble out of his grasp as you reach for the remote. however, in your haste, you drop both the remote and the remnants of your drink all over your shirt. you rush to stand up, droplets dripping from your shirt to your carpet. san stands up and rushes to the kitchen, grabbing some towels and water to clean up the mess on your carpet as you run to your bedroom. you close the door and stand against it, cursing for making a fool of yourself in front of him. youâre feeling flustered as you look down at your shirt, now stained from the drink and throw it off your now sticky body. you head straight to the bathroom, opting to take a quick shower so you donât feel so gross.Â
meanwhile, san has finished up getting the spill off your carpet, and the bit that was wasted on the sofa. he goes to the sink to wash the towels to his best abilities, and his mind starts to wonder whatâs taking you so long to change. mindlessly, he follows the droplets to your bedroom door. he knocks, but when he doesnât hear anything back, he gets a little anxious. you did seem quite upset when you spilled, so he doesnât think twice when he opens the door to your bedroom after you donât answer his knocks and calls.Â
walking into your bedroom, he notices your shirt thrown on the floor and picks it up to place it in your poorly hidden, overfilled hamper peeking from your closet door. then, he hears a click!, and sees you walk out of the attached bathroom (which he wishes he would have noticed earlier), with your body naked and dripping wet.Â
he hurriedly shuts his eyes, puts his arm over them, and turns away, just to be safe (as if shutting his eyes wasnât enough). you quickly grab your towel off your bed and cover yourself with it. silence envelops the room as he stands there with his back toward you, and you canât help but let your eyes traverse around the broad expanse of his back, his other arm dangling, sleeve still rolled up with veins running across up and down his forearms. you quickly and quietly dry yourself off and walk over to him, all logic escaping your mind as you nudge him to turn around.Â
âiâm sorry, i just wanted to make sure you were okaââ
you cut him off with a gentle kiss on his lips. he just looked so cute standing there, like a deer in the headlights apologising profusely for invading your space. you didn't mind though, if anything, youâre starting to thank your clumsy self for knocking over the stupid drink.Â
after san starts to realise whatâs happening, his hands move to your waist, lightly groaning when he feels youâre still just in a towel. he presses your body impossibly closer to his, and you feel he strong torso against your chest as you strain your neck to kiss him back, hungrier this time.Â
he pulls away from you for a moment, lust clouding his eyes as he stares at your face. instead of the admiration he had earlier, it has now been replaced with need and arousal, something dark takes his features over. but, before he can act out on them, he needs to make sure youâre okay with this.Â
âyou know, i didnât come over here for this.â he whispers, his breath hot against your neck as he breathes in your freshly showered scent.Â
âi know, which is why i want you.â you tug at his hair so he can look at you, so he can see how serious you are about this, about him.Â
he wastes no more time as he gently shoves you to the bed, his body hovers over yours in a now heated makeout session. cleanliness is thrown out the window as you transfer spit from each of your mouths, desperate to feel him. you feel him poke in to explore your mouth, painting it with his tongue in every crevice he can find. one of your hands goes to his chest as the other goes back to his hair, tugging slightly to elicit beautiful groans from his mouth straight to yours.Â
youâre starting to feel antsy, and as youâre wiggling around with need, your towels undoes itself. san pulls away again, this time shamelessly fucking you with his hungry eyes. wordlessly, he travels down your body, pressing wet kisses into your neck, chest, stomach, and thighs. you feel his hot breath fan across your growingly wet folds, and he looks at your pussy with such strong intent, you start to feel nervous. you go to shut your legs, but he uses his strong hands to pry them back open. he sticks out his tongue and licks a fat, wet stripe up from your pulsing hole to your throbbing clit. you moan and arch your back at the sensation. itâs been so long since youâve had any type of real sexual release, and now that youâre getting it with the hottest man between your thighs, it makes your head swirl.Â
he hooks an arm around your thigh and presses his hand onto your stomach, forcing you down to keep still as his tongue continues its assault on your leaking cunt. the way he sucks and nibbles on your clit has you seeing stars, and when he takes his other hand to barely poke at your hole, you cry out at the feeling. his thick digit presses in further into your fluttering hole, and you clench down at the initial feeling. having his mouth on you and his finger inside you feels so much better than your own, and even better than the firm silicone youâve become accustomed to. he keeps his finger thrusting in and out at a steady pace before adding another. he increases his tongueâs pressure on your clit, large hand flexing as he uses his strength to keep your hips down.Â
âtaste so sweet, baby, wanna taste more.â
and with his delicate words whispered against your core, you come undone with one last suck on your clit and his fingers curling inside you. you throw your head back as he continues licking up all the mess you made from your orgasm, savouring the taste of you on his tongue.Â
he sits on his knees before you, and you sit up on your elbows to watch him remove his top, putting his bare body on display for you. his strength was easily detectable even under his clothes, but now that heâs taken them off, you donât think you can ever unsee him in this state.
he throws his shirt off, and his broad chest is rapidly rising and falling with his heavy breathing. a thin sheen of sweat glistens over his body, small droplets getting caught in the ridges of his muscles and expanding with his breathing. you follow a droplet down to his v-line, where the rest of him, the part you really want of him, stays barely hidden under his pants. you mindlessly go to reach for his bulge, already so prevalent, and you just know itâs bigger than any toy youâve taken. your hand lands on his throbbing erection, and you feel it jump at your touch. san lets out a sigh or relief as his hips subconsciously buck harder into your palm. you go to undo his pants, anxious to see the rest of him. after hastily getting them off him, you see head on his cock slap up against his abs. itâs leaking precum, and its head is red with need. while he isnât the girthiest, he is long. you sit up to trace your tongue along the veins that travel his shaft, ending up circling his tip with your tongue before you dive in to get a taste of his salty precum pooling at his slit. you wanted nothing more than to at least try to take all of him, but san has other ideas.Â
âyouâve done enough for me, pretty, lay back.âÂ
you pout, still wanting to taste more of him as you push your head further down his cock. he hisses before pulling you back by the hair and shoving you down on the bed.Â
ânext time, but i need to feel you right now, baby.â he whispers into your ear. heâs on his elbow above you, your legs naturally split open to welcome his hips closer to yours. you feel as he prods his tip at your entrance, then he takes his fingers in a v motion to open you up prettily to him. he rubs the shaft of his hard-on between your folds, lubricating himself with your dripping arousal. you whine and reach a hand down, moving him back down to your waiting hole. he sits back up, understanding your silent pleas as he slowly starts to dive into you, inch by agonising inch. you flutter around him, not being used to being stretched out like this, and you witness as he throws his head back with a moan of his own.Â
âfuck, no wonder you never showed this pretty little pussy of yours. so-so perfect.â san draws out, shallowly thrusting until he gets the okay from you.Â
he looks back down to where you two are connected, and he swears he has never seen something as beautiful as his cock in you, how when he draws out a ring of arousal pushes up near his base. he puckers his lips as he lets a fat string of saliva fall from his lips, right onto your clit, falling as he pushes back in. you can only moan and claw at his muscular biceps, nodding your head fervently so he can start fucking you how you want, how you need him to.
âmm-mm princess. use your words like you do on cam, baby.â
and once san hears your small
âpleaseâ
thereâs no more hope for him.
he grips your hips, thumbs pressing bruises into your pelvic bone as he wastes no time quickening his pace. his body is back on top of yours, and you feel the added stretch of your legs bending to accommodate him. the mixture of his precum, your arousal, and his spit, mixes together to make the loudest and nastiest noises you have ever heard, but you love it.
there is just something so carnal about the way heâs having you right now, thighs pressed against your chest and ankles around his neck. at this angle, you feel him even deeper, however that was possible. now, his hands move to cup your thighs, pushing them further into your torso like he was trying to break you. you feel the way his abs brush your skin every time he breathes, and his lips go to litter your face and neck with kisses and love bites. you feel pressure from everywhere, his large body barely hovering over you, hip lips burning their mark on your skin, his large hands pressing you deep into the mattress, and the way his cock fills up your poor cunt, who was trying its best to stretch for him. the way you feel the full extent of his force from both inside and outside of your body makes you feel like exploding, which is about to happen if he keeps it up like this.
all of the sudden, you feel a push at your calves, and find yourself being turned on your side, one leg straight and the other thrown at an angle to the side. most of your face is dug into the pillow as san keeps the same pace, thrusting into you over and over and over again. your body is contorted and twisted as you lay on your side, unfortunate for your hip that was supporting most of the damage. you throw an arm up to grip sanâs forearm, digging your nails into his skin from pleasure. the new position has his hips slapping against your rear, and the echoes it makes causes san to lose all sense of reality.Â
âfuck, youâre so perfect.â he groans as he takes a hand and squeezes your ass, then gives it a hard slap, causing you to yelp at the sensation. then, you feel both of his hands at your hips, manhandling you, once again, so youâre on all fours, all the while heâs keeping up his brutal pace. you however, cannot keep up, as you quickly end up with your face yet again buried into a pillow. san reaches down to take both of your wrists into one of his hands, pulling you up against him. he snakes down his other hand down to your clit while he peppers your face with his wet hot kisses and licks. you feel as he starts pinching and rubbing firm circles on your slit, and your body shudders at all of what heâs doing to you.Â
âcum, please, let me cum.â you cry out, starting to buck your hips back to get you closer to the edge.Â
he releases your wrists in favour of taking one of your hands to press down on your stomach. you can both feel the way his cock is rutting deep inside you, and your second release is oh so close once you reel in the feeling.
âgo ahead, cum for me baby, want you to when you feel me cum inside you right⌠here.â he emphases his words as he forces your hand firmer on your stomach. you feel his thrusts starting to get more erratic, and you come undone just as you feel him sputtering deep inside you.Â
he slows down, riding out both of your orgasms as you fall face first into the soft bedding below you. san releases your hips so your body lays flat on the bed, his seed starting to seep out of you. you turn on your side as you feel him nudge you to turn around. once you do, you find him fixated on your leaking cunt, threatening to spill on the (fortunately placed) towel under you. he takes his two fingers and pushes his cum back inside you, thumb already going to your clit as you thrash at the overstimulation. you start muttering out a desperate please please please, even though you werenât quite sure what you were begging for. nevertheless, your third orgasm of the night comes quickly, as you gush all over his hand still pushing his cum back inside you.Â
finally, san lays next to you on his side, caressing your body softly and whispering in your ear.Â
âyou did so well for me, sweet girl. letâs get you cleaned up.âÂ
you can only nod as he brings you to your bathroom, which he now knows is attached to your bedroom. he leans your back against his chest as he washes the both of you up. you turn around to help clean him off as well, a silent intimacy shared between you two in the steamy warmth of the glass shower. he dries you off, with a clean towel, before laying you back on the bed. he goes to your kitchen to grab some water for you both, encouraging you to drink a bit before cuddling up in his arms.Â
he is the first to break the comfortable silence between you as he pulls the comforter over your naked bodies.Â
âyou know, i meant when i said that wasnât what i came over for.â he smiles, looking down at you nuzzled into his chest.Â
âi know, but i think we still needed to get it out of our system.â you laugh at him, considering the whole situation you have found yourselves in.Â
âiâm just happy you trusted me, i promise i wonât ever break that.â he softly cradles your face in his hand, giving you a more loving kiss. a kiss that seals his promise, the promise that he cares about you as a person, not just your current profession. a promise that what is between you two is deeper than just his initial love for your body, but a love for you.
this was not supposed to be this long... but i think i am incapable of writing shorter things so... hope u enjoyed :D
#mirohsaurorasociety#illusionnet#ateez oneshot#ateez x reader#ateez smut#san x reader#san ateez#san atz#san smut#ateez san#ateez san x reader#ateez san smut
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I am not closely following the election results tonight, but I am occasionally seeing flashes of them out of the corner of my eye. The most obvious sign that things arenât going well right now is the complete lack of celebrating on my dash. I know what tumblr looks like when itâs happy. Maybe Iâll go to bed tonight and see something different in the morning. I hope to god that is the case. But Iâm thinking about the way Iâm thinking right now, and I want to get some stuff down before the future kicks in.
In 2016 I was in a period of my life I affectionately refer to as as my fuckup era. I wasnât even fucking up really. More just chilling out and falling short of the vague expectations Iâd had about what I was supposed to be doing after I graduated college. While my friends from college rented apartments in the city and got jobs that didnât supply you with a uniform shirt, I lived at home and worked as a barista at a fancy movie theater. Thatâs a real job you can do for almost five years. I didnât have a clue what the back half of my twenties should look like. The only long term plan I had in my life was moving out west with my best friend, and my plan for finding a job once I was out there was basically to cross my fingers and hope.
Those days werenât bad on the whole, but it felt like I was not actually living a life so much as I was goofing off in the waiting room. Sometimes that felt embarrassing, sometimes it felt fun, and sometimes it felt like I was completely pointless to the world.
On 2016âs Election Day, I went to bed early. After watching the votes come in, I needed the night to be over. I woke in a world that felt different than it had been the night beforeânot just in the actuality of who would be president but down to its foundations. I realized for the first time how much hope Iâd had in human nature because now I didnât feel it anymore. Itâs almost silly when I think about itâso many horrible things had already happened that year, people had done horrible things as long as there have been people, and I didnât think I was naive to thatâbut something clicked into place that morning.
It felt the same way my world had changed a year earlier, in 2015 during my last semester of college. My college victory lap felt like a prolonged downward spiral. Very early in the morning on a Monday, after pulling an all-nighter and overwhelmed by self-loathing that I could not just motivate myself to work on a paper that had been my only thought all weekend, I self-harmed for the first time in a way that was impossible to pretend it was anything else. Earlier that weekend, Iâd tried staving off the urges drawing or writing on my arm, something that did (and does) usually work. Iâd written this quote in silver sharpie on my forearm: âGood is not a thing you are. It's a thing you do.â
I picked that quote from the Ms. Marvel comics and liked the words so much, I thought that I wouldnât be willing to purposefully mess it up by hurting myself there. Didnât work. They just made me feel more ashamed of myself as I did it.
That was the worst I had ever felt. Then, on the Friday of that week, a friend of mine was senselessly, brutally murdered.
It doesnât feel now like there was ever a time before her death. My memoir class is now where I wrote about her. My favorite professor is now the one who held me as I cried. My final thesis, the culmination of my history degree, never got finished and certainly never got polished. I turned it what I had and got an A minus. Sometimes I think of rereading that paper to see if thatâs the grade it actually deserved. We hadnât been the closest friends, but my name was still on the email admin sent to professors, listing students who might be emotionally affected by this tragic event. Graceâs murder hangs over every memory I have with her and everything she ever touched. It feels like its own type of obliteration to leave her reduced to her death.
Grace wanted to be a lawyer because she believed in justice and also liked arguing. She could be rude when she wasnât interested in what you were saying. When you caught her attention, you felt like the most fascinating person in the room. She was so proud of being Jewish. I watched her become proud of being gay. She was so universally friendly that it took me a year to realize that she actually liked specifically me. She had a somewhat silly laugh and an astonishingly luminous smile.
I thought less of the world and the people in it because of how she died. Trumpâs election in 2016 felt like that.
After he won, I left stasis. From November through December, I thought harder about my future than I ever had before. Who did I want to be? What did I most value? What did I think was worth protecting? What work wouldnât kill me to do? At one point, in presumably a fit of madness, I thought, âwhat if I got into politics.â Epiphany eventually hit me. By the time of Trumpâs inauguration, I was already enrolled at community college, getting my pre-reqs for nursing school.
Now itâs election night again, eight years later. I live on the west coast with my best friend, in a house that we bought together. I work as a nurse in a hospital in a city where there are homeless encampments off every highway and someone begging for change on every corner. Meanwhile, thereâs Palestine. Meanwhile thereâs Sudan. Meanwhile refugees drown in the sea and border patrol shoots jugs of water. Even hurricanes have human cruelty now.
I donât think people are inherently good or the universe inherently kind. But I am very good at tricking myself into thinking it for a little while, and when I do, I can remember the a specific feeling from Friday of my senior year, from that morning in Novemberâ how fucking hard the disappointment hit me because I had expected people to be better than this. It makes me want to be better than that.
I believe, and hope that I always will, that we can make a better world. I donât know what it looks like, but I think I will see it in my lifetime. Those of us who can believe such things owe a bit of that naĂŻvetĂŠ to the worldânot to excuse atrocities or think them impossible but to believe that we can stop them at all. You have to have a couple people sprinkled around who are genuinely shocked when people do bad things. Itâs not that the pessimists are wrong, but you need the occasional counterbalance. I want to be a reasonable cynicâs pleasant surprise.
Every shift, I interact with people at their lowest and worst. I see the direct pipeline from pain to anger to violence, and how fragile that pipeline can be. So many situations can be changed by things as small as a warm blanket or a kind word. Violence can be quite easy to avert. Crises can be quite simply to resolve. Even when I know that whatever I do that shift will not change the circumstances of a personâs life, I think that what I do that shift still matters.
Iâm lying in bed, writing this post instead of looking at the news. I wonder how tonight will change me. Been thinking about what Iâll do if Trump wins. Been thinking about how whatever I think I need to do under Trump will still need to be done if Harris clutches out a victory. I guess this is a pessimistâs optimism: to a degree the election doesnât matter. Good is not a thing you are. It is a thing you do. Our better world will always take a lot of work.
But please god please, why canât it be just a little easier to do it?
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Girl help I just realised this coding course me and my friend signed up for has a PRESENTATION COMPONENT?? As in we have to PRESENT something to a group of who knows how many people?! ONLINE????? What, and I cannot stress this enough, the fuck
#if it were just me i wouldnât be that bothered. like i literally used to teach. public speaking is nbd for me#even if itâs to faceless people on a screen like idc⌠what are they going to do. shoot me bc my code is wrong and i say âumâ too much? lmao#they have to find me to shoot me#also iâm humble enough to know that my presentation wonât stand out from the rest as being particularly good or bad#yet egotistical enough to know that i wonât fuck it up completely because iâm too generally good at presenting#my friend though. presenting with my friend is actually going to be terrible because she is going to fully shit her pants#and IâM going to be the one who has to tell her a million times âyouâre not going to fuck up and anyway it doesnât matter if you doâ#and she WONâT LISTEN#like donât ask for consolation if youâre not going to be consoled goddamn#and i get it! iâve had that anxiety. i STILL have anxiety. iâve spent most of the day beating myself up over a badly worded email i shot off#without thinking & received a sarcastic reply to#but for godâs sake CALM DOWN. youâre facing s class of your peers who are too nervous about their own presentations to listen to what youâre#saying; not a fucking firing squad. and if in doubt you can just let me talk the whole time#or iâll just write out word for word what you need to say and put it in front of you#teamwork is optional for the project but i already know sheâs going to make me team up with her and itâs going to be bad#i hope presenting is optional as well lol bc i canât DO this with her. i do not have sufficient patience#when i was a teacher i was basically mother theresa but now that iâm a barista i donât want to hear whining#it is a big problem#personal
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đđđđđđ đđ đđđđ - changbin x reader
wc: 4,400
cw: mostly fluff but then it gets NSFW. SMUT MDNI.
synopsis: changbin is your favorite barista who makes an effort to make every mundane morning coffee order a little more intriguing.
a/n: i wanted something soft and sweet and playful with binnie but if you know me i can't control my need to be a degenerate!
as always thank you to @httpdwaekki for helping me map this out (PLS BE PROUD OF ME FOR FINDING MY OWN PICS) and i'm including a tag for @thefantasyden because she is changbin's wife after all.
sw: dirty talk, talk of somnophilia, cockwarming, unprotected sex (pls be smarter than that), oral sex (m and f receiving), deepthroating, idk probably more but im bad at this shit.
Stopping at the little cafe down the street from your apartment on your way to work had become somewhat of a ritual for you. You looked forward to the coffee sure, but also the man making it for you. The barista who worked the morning shift, Changbin, was not only handsome but incredibly kind and sweet. In the weeks youâd been frequenting the little spot, you had developed a fun rapport with each other that you really looked forward to each day. It started off as simple hellos and exchanging of names but had developed into him no longer writing your name on your cup and instead opting for funny jokes, questions, or trivia facts. The trick though was that he always wrote the answers on the bottom of your cup so you couldnt find out the answer until you were done with your drink that day. Not only did it make the little game suspenseful but it also kept your mind coming back around to thoughts of the handsome man who started it.
Today was no different, you walked into the shop, saw Changbin behind the counter, caught his eye, drank in his gorgeous smile at your arrival, and approached the counter to order.
âWell well well, if it isn't my favorite customer!â he greeted you, leaning forward onto the counter. You couldn't help but glance down at his arms, they were so distracting sometimes with all that muscle on display. Quickly you averted your gaze to the menu board but unbeknownst to you, Changbin caught your appraisal of his body. He grinned secretly to himself before speaking.
âI don't know why you're looking at my board like you're going to order anything different than your usual.â he joked.
You put on a fake pout and turned to him. âI hate that youâre right. Whatever, coffee jockey. Just get me my drink!â you teased, poking out your tongue at him. His head dropped and his shoulders shook with the laugh that bubbled out of him. He wagged a finger at you and turned to make your drink.
You would never say it out loud but when Changbin turned around to make your daily beverage, it was one of the best parts of the interaction. It gave you nothing but time to feast your eyes upon the expanse of his wide back, the subtle tapering of his waist to his hips, and of course the curve of his ass. Hey, he is the one who put the tight pants on okay, he was practically begging you to look! Or at least that's what you told yourself. You were so lost in thought about what might be hiding under his signature form fitting black t shirt that you almost got caught gawking.
Changbin turned back to you, classic to-go cup in hand and you noticed his familiar handwriting on the side of the cup. His grin had you speculating what todayâs joke or question might be. You took the cup from his hand and spun it to start reading it.
â âWhat's the best thing you can do with 10 single digit numbers?â ugh not fair, I hate math, Iâll never figure this one out!â you whined and stomped your foot. This prompted him to laugh again, carding one hand through his dark wavy hair while the other pushed his glasses back up the delicate bridge of his nose.
âThere's nothing to figure out, I always give you the answer! Just think of me as your own personal snapple cap.â he retorted, eyes glimmering.
You huffed playfully and took a sip of your coffee before narrowing your eyes at him. âAlright well one day, Iâm gonna know the answer all on my own and impress you. Just you wait!â
âYou already impress meâŚâ Changbin murmured just low enough you could barely hear it, but you did. For his sake though, you just pretended not to. âAnyway, this one is on the house, Iâm feeling generous today. See you tomorrow?â he asked, his tone hopeful.
âSame time as always Bin,â you said as you turned to leave, âbut be ready for me to have a witty response to today's question though!â you called over your shoulder with a smile.
***
All morning you pondered what the hell the answer to this number question would be. You cursed yourself for not asking for an iced drink instead so you could just chug it and look at the bottom of the cup.
After a while of typing, you reached out for your coffee and took the last sip cheering internally because now you could finally find out the answer!
When you lifted the cup and your eyes fell on Changinâs neat and tidy handwriting, your mouth dropped open. Surely this was a dream, right? You couldn't take your eyes off the numbers, his phone number, and the words âCall me!â in his personal script.
Almost mindlessly you picked up your phone and tapped out the numbers, your thumb hitting the call icon. After just two rings Changbinâs voice traveled into your ear.
âHello?â he asked casually.
âHi, Bin? This is you, right? You questioned, almost expecting it to be a prank.
âAh, I see you've finished your drink! This might have been my best idea yet.â he chuckled. âTakes you a while to drink your coffee huh? I assumed youâd be quicker to finish, what with all the energy you have.â He flirted, and you had to cover your mouth to muffle the gasp at his innuendo. It didn't work though and he just ended up laughing louder.
âIâll have you know mister Seo Changbin, there's a lot of things i'm quick atâŚand finishing is not one of them.â you quipped, this time you were the one hearing the gasp from the other end of the call. You couldn't help the grin on your face, talking to him just felt so easy and the flirting was so fluid and felt so good. It had been a long time since you felt this good talking to a man.
âSo as much as I love our little coffee cup game, I'd like to buy you a different kind of drink. And dinner to go with it if youâll let me.â Changbin said, a quiet apprehension coloring his voice like he was worried you might reject him.
âThat sounds wonderful Bin, I'd love that. When?â you asked, already trying to plan what to wear.
âTonight? Or is that too soon? Shit, I sound too eager don't i? Oh whatever fuck it, i am eager. I've been wanting to ask you out for forever!â he hurried out, his voice laced with humor and excitement. You took a few minutes to exchange information regarding the date and decided he would pick you up at seven. You said your goodbyes and hung up before tracking down your supervisor to tell her you weren't feeling well and leaving early to start the weekend. She didn't need to know you were really going home early to prepare for your date, that was your business alone!
***
Seven oâclock came quicker than you expected but luckily you were just slipping on some shoes when the doorbell rang. You took a deep breath to calm yourself before swinging open the door. Changbin looked gorgeous. You'd never seen him out of his apron before so it was a feast for your eyes. He went monochromatic in his look for the evening with black pants and a black button up shirt and it was enough to almost make you whine. He looked so damn good you couldn't stop yourself from making a joke to distract from your glaringly obvious staring. âWow, I can't remember the last time I went on a date with a man who actually tucked his shirt in.â you quipped, making him laugh. âI'm concerned about where you're finding these men, tucking in your shirt is maybe the most work a man has to do in the getting ready for a date process.â he said, leaning against the doorframe grinning. âNow let's get this date started.â Changbin said, offering his hand to you and leading you to his car.
***
âYou can't just drop insane lore on me like that and not explain! Start talking!â you hissed from across the table. âThere's not much to tell! I was young with no work experience and I needed a job!â Changbin said, throwing his head back laughing.
âYou canât seriously tell me you believed it was a paid position on a dance team, he was so clearly pedaling a âMagic Mikeâ situation Bin!â you were wheezing at this point.
You had been talking about anything and everything for what seemed like hours and you had asked him how he got his current job. The story being that he used to go to the coffee shop every night before they closed to get his caffeine buzz for his job at a club downtown. He was a bouncer but the original interview hadnât been for that. A man had scouted him on the street one day and asked him to come audition to be a member of a âdance team he was putting togetherâ, and Changbin had been so sweet and naive that he believed him and went.
âWell I definitely knew what kind of âdance teamâ it was after he told me to take my pants off!â Changbin whined, covering his face with his hands as you cackled.
âAnyway, I told him I couldn't do that but I would work the door as long as he never asked me to strip again. Then I decided one day that the night shift wasn't for me and I just applied for the barista job and worked my way up.â he said, rightfully proud of himself and his accomplishments.
The waiter stopped by and delivered the coffee you ordered after dessert and scurried away again. You lifted the cup and took a sip, not enjoying it even a little. Your face must have shown it because Changbin huffed a quiet laugh before saying âThe coffee sucks huh?â
With a shy smile you replied, âIâve definitely had better.â A light blush tinged his face, knowing you were talking about the drinks he made for you every day. He reached across the table to take the cup from your hands and when his fingers brushed yours you swore there were sparks. He lifted the cup to his lips and took a sip. âOh babe, it's not just bad. Its fucking burnt!â he said, scowling at the mug like it had insulted him.
âLet's get out of here. Iâll make you a better one.â He said, tossing some money onto the table for your dinner bill and offering you a hand to lead you to his car once again.
***
When you pulled up in front of the coffee shop you were confused. When Changbin offered to make you a drink, you assumed it was a flirty line and a way to get you into his apartment. But apparently he was serious when it came to the coffee.
You stood behind him as he unlocked the door and then he ushered you in.
âBin are we supposed to be in here?! It's after hours! Wonât you get in trouble?â You whispered, trailing behind him as he flicked on a few lights and went behind the counter. When he turned to look at you his eyes were twinkling like he was in on a secret you had no idea about.
âSweetheart, I own this place. And my apartment is upstairs, I can do whatever I want!â he said, shooting you a proud smile as he rolled his sleeves up to his elbows.
Your jaw dropped at his confession. You quickly schooled your expression and leaned on the counter. âSo allllllll those times I playfully threatened to tell your manager you were messing with me, you were the manager the whole time?!â you screeched at his back while he prepared your coffee.
âWell...yeah i guess so!â He chuckled as he poured some espresso into a small cup. He finished making your beverage and turned to hand it to you. He looked so good with his sleeves rolled up, his hair a bit messy, and his glasses sitting just right, you couldn't help but stare at him for a moment. When he blushed again, you shook yourself out of your trance and took the cup, bringing it to your lips to take a long sip. Your eyes closed and you hummed a sound of satisfaction at the drink, he always made it just right. When you opened your eyes again that's when you noticed the writing on the cup. Looking at the side of it, you noticed he was continuing your usual game so you began to read it aloud.
âYou can use me to say hello, and to say goodbye. Iâm not as good when Iâm too dry. I can be quick or I can be slow. What am I?â you spoke, curiosity coloring your tone. At the same time you were reading the riddle, Changbin was rounding the counter to stand in front of you. He reached out and took the cup from you, tipping it back and downing the rest of the liquid before handing it back to you. Your heart pounded as you tipped it back and read the two simple words on the bottom of the cup out loud.
âA kiss.â you breathed out. And then it happened. Changbinâs hands fell on your waist and pulled you toward him, your lips meeting gently. His mouth moved against yours as his fingers gripped your hips. Your pulse was racing and the only thing you could think of in this moment was how badly you wanted him. It had been months of playing around this attraction and it was all coming to a head. It seemed like Changbin felt it too because it was as if he couldn't get your body close enough to his even though you were pressed together. He was grabbing at any bit of you he could get his hands on and sweeping his tongue into your mouth as you gasped. It was the hottest kiss youâd ever had and your brain just chanted âmore, more, moreâ.
He hiked your leg up over his hip and his thigh rubbed at you just where you wanted it to. You threw your head back as you panted for air but Changbin never slowed. His lips fell to your now exposed neck and shoulder where he alternated between kissing and sucking at your skin. You squeezed his biceps as his teeth grazed your pulse point. Then a thought pierced through the lust addled fog and you realized where you were, the coffee shop. In full view of the big glass windows facing the street.
âBinâŚBin hold on! People will see us!â You squeaked, horrified at the notion that any random person walking by might see you being taken apart by this man.
âDonât care. Want em to see. Mine.â He panted against the skin above your breasts, rocking you against his thigh. The motion sent you reeling for a moment, the delicious friction against your center almost too good.
âBin, take me upstairs. Please?â you whimpered against his mouth after pulling his face to yours.
âYeah. Yeah youre right. Okay câmon.â He mumbled, realizing maybe the idea of being seen wasn't the best idea for business reasons. He took your hand and pulled you to the back of the shop and lead you up the stairs. When you crossed the threshold of his apartment you didn't have much time to take it in but from what you saw it was very cute with some unique furniture pieces and light fixtures. Changbin weaved you through his apartment to his bedroom where as soon as you were in it, he had you against the wall with his lips attacking any sliver of skin he could get to. Your chest was heaving as he made quick work of your clothes and stripped you down to your bra and panties. He stepped back with a hand over his mouth, his breathing heavy as well. You felt very exposed as his eyes raked over you so you tried to make a joke.
âIâm almost naked and you're still fully clothed. Doesn't seem very fair, Binnie.â
âFuck, say that again.â He groaned as he rushed back to you.
âBinnie?â You questioned.
âGod, I love the way that sounds cominâ out of your mouth.â He pulled you to the bed and laid you down before reaching down to remove your panties. He gently pushed your legs apart and a low rumble resonated from him. âSo fucking pretty. God damn, even prettier than I dreamt.â He groaned.
âBeen dreaming about me huh? Why don't you have a taste and find out if I live up to your expectations?â you flirted as you brought your hands up to remove your bra.
And he didn't need to hear anything else. He dropped to his knees and drove right in. Immediately his lips latched onto your clit and he sucked, hard. Your back bowed up off the bed and a scream tore out of you at the unexpected intensity. Two of his fingers began rubbing at the wetness seeping out of you, and then he slowly pushed them inside. It felt like he was everywhere all at once and you were on complete overload. He continued lapping and sucking at you as his finger pumped lazily in and out of you, scissoring every few thrusts like he was trying to stretch you out. When your moans increased in volume and your hands fisted the sheets, Changbin curled his fingers and pressed against the spongy patch inside you. He rubbed over the spot repeatedly and gently bit down on your clit making you wail as you fell apart.
He removed his fingers and brought them to his mouth to suck them clean. The shine on the lower half of his face was all you and it brought you a sick kind of joy seeing yourself all over this beautiful man.
Changbin quickly removed his clothes until he was standing in front of you only in his boxers. You slid off the bed and onto your knees in front of him. When you looked up at him he was already staring down at you and it made you feel so good, knowing he enjoyed seeing you like this. You reached up and slowly drew his boxer briefs down, his cock springing free and slapping at his stomach.
âJesus fuck.â You breathed, in awe of his size and the pretty leaking tip.
âWhat? Is everything okay? We can stop!â he hurried out and nervously pushed his glasses back up his nose as they had started to slide down from the angle he was looking at you from.
âNo! No we are not stopping, fuck no. Itâs justâŚyou've got the biggest dick Iâve ever personally seen. Took me by surprise for a second is all, even though it shouldn't have. I should have known from how you carry yourself. Major BDE.â you explained and he started to laugh.
You leaned forward and in one go, took as much of him into your mouth and throat as you could, punching a sound out of him you'd never heard before but were determined to get him to make it again.
âFucking hell baby, that was a lot. God damn it, your mouth is so hot.â he moaned out as his hips started to move. His hand weaved into your hair to hold your head still as he shallowly thrusted into your eagerly awaiting throat. Your eyes almost rolled back as you savored the taste and weight of him on your tongue.
All too early it seemed, he withdrew from your mouth. He started to chuckle but you didn't know why until he spoke. âYou're pouting sweetheart. I took my dick out of your mouth and you look disappointed. I might be the luckiest man alive.â
âI like it. Helps me turn my brain off. And you taste good.â you mumbled. His hand came down to caress your cheek. âGod, youre an angel huh? Sent just for me. Câmon, up.â he said as he helped you stand.
Changbin got on the bed first before motioning you to climb on top of him. âWanâ you on top first. Easier for you to control how much of me goes in at once. Will you ride me baby?â he asked.
âFirst?â you questioned, still standing beside the bed. He looked at you confused.
âYou said you want me on top first. You gonna be movinâ me around a lot?â you asked with a grin.
âBaby, iâm going to have you in so many ways tonight. Donât worry your pretty little head about it.â He said as you threw a leg over his lap.
You reached forward to take his glasses off for him but he stopped you. âNo. I wanna see you, perfectly. Now go on, put me inside pretty girl.â And who were you to argue?
You reached beneath you to grab hold of him and line him up with your entrance. As you slowly sank down on him you watched his face. He stared at the spot where your bodies were now joined for as long as he could bear before you were fully seated on him and his head shot back. His hands wrapped around your thighs were squeezing you so tight you wouldn't be surprised to see bruises in the morning. You planted your hands on his pecs and thats when you saw it, the tears spilling out of his eyes that were slammed shut.
âBin? You okay baby?â You cooed.
âUh-huh. Jusâ feels sâgood. Been waiting for this, for you, for months. God, feels so good it almost hurts sweetheart.â he whimpered on a shaky breath.
âItâs okay, Mâgonna make it all better okay? Promise.â you said, leaning down to kiss him as you started to rock your hips. Gradually you picked up speed and were riding him in earnest, desperate to get him as deep as possible.
âUghhh Binnie, feels so good. So big too, stretches me out so perfect.â you moaned.
âYeah? You feel me so deep huh? Fuck youre so warm inside. Feel like im gonna bust like a fucking teenager.â Changbin groaned as you fucked him hard and fast, riding him like you had something to prove. You kept at it for a few more minutes until he stopped you to change positions.
He flipped you onto your stomach and pushed one leg up so you were flat on the bed but your legs were spread enough for him to settle between them. You felt the head of his cock prodding at you and then he sank inside in one fluid thrust. It was lucky you were already flat on the bed because if you hadnt been, you were sure your knees would have given out. He fucked into you like that for a few minutes and then he slowed down again. He leaned over you and pressed his chest to your back.
âIâm gonna try something, if you don't like it just tap my arm twice okay?â he asked and all you could do was moan out what you thought was an âokayâ. Suddenly he looped his arm underneath your neck and bent it at the elbow effectively putting you in a headlock. He started thrusting into you again at a steady even pace and slowly he increased the pressure of his bicep and forearm against your airway. The obstruction of your airway was enough to send your brain into a foggy cloudy space and you loved it. It heightened the sensations of everything else. You could feel his sweat slicked chest sliding against your back, you could feel his cock throbbing inside you, and you could feel the heat in your lower belly building.
âYoure so fucking pretty like this baby. A beautiful doll just for me to play with huh?â he said. âYeah you like it like this don't you? Quiets your brain for a while doesn't it? Makes you so cockdrunk you can't think of anything else. So beautifully mindless just for a little while. Binnie will take care of you baby, don't worry.â he spoke softly and you could feel that heat inside you skyrocketing. Who knew this sweet man was so nasty in bed? âWhy dont you cum for me baby, hmm? Give it to me sweetheart, wanna feel this tight little pussy sucking me in.â he encouraged as he kept moving inside you. âCâmonâŚcâmon baby. Yeaaaah there it is. Good girl.â he coaxed as you exploded around him with a yelp. He released your neck from his hold and used both hands to pull your hips up.
âCanâ hold myself up Binnie. You have to do it.â you whined, exhausted and boneless from your second mind blowing orgasm of the evening.
âSâokay baby, I got you. Donât worry, I'm so close, keep squeezing me like that. Yes yes yesâŚâ he mumbled as he continued to batter your insides with his huge dick. About four thrusts later he was spilling inside you, laying claim to your walls with his cum.
Changbin was over the moon and not ready for this to end so he stayed inside you and rolled you both over onto your side into the spooning position. He reached over you to grab the blanket and cover you both.
âYou wanna stay inside me Binnie? You want me again soon?â You yawned out, exhausted from the vigorous activities.
âMhmâŚfeels so good. Feels right, like i belong there. That okay?â He asked, his voice gentle as his hand stroked the soft skin of your thigh.
âMmm yeah. Like it. Fuck me again when you wake up though okay? Even if iâm still asleep. Wanâ wake up to you drilling me.â You mumbled, fully about to descend into sleep safe and warm in his arms. Changbin groaned and bit down on your shoulder before he responded.
âGod youre fucking perfect arenât you pretty girl? Sure, as soon as i wake up Iâll fuck you into the mattress. Whatever you want baby, Rest up. Iâm far from done with you.â
The End
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