#I still will die for heart my beloved boyo

[wainwrightjakobshammerlock]

- Ahem. - Zane coughed, drawing attention to himself. - Boyos, ladies, bots and every feckin' other concievable point on, around and beyond the spectrum, we're gathered here today to get these two gentlegeezers married again, because the last wedding got interrupted by a bunch of shitehead tentacle-faces. Blah, blah, whatever. If any of you object to this union, speak now and get shot or shut yer japes forever.

[...] Sure, sure. Was that before or after the automaton-assisted murder?

But his beloved has forbidden him from going out until he recovers, and a Hammerlock never betrays someone's trust, especially if that someone is a person they care about. At least, that's what his family liked to tell themselves - they usually didn't actually obey that rule. [...]

[...] I AM ETERNAL, INVINCIBLE. - the meat walls close in - I KEEP MYSELF ALIVE. - the staircase flattens into a slope - I LIVE IN MY OWN GLORY, MY OWN PERSONAL LIGHT, WHERE THE SHADOW OF PAIN 'N' PAST CANNOT TOUCH ME. - the voice laughs one last time.

We both recognize what needs to be done, an’ that’s when you allow me. [...] I once mapped these lines, charted ‘em, and now I’m ripping ‘em like an old shirt’s seams.

You are a manor onto yourself. [...]

- You care for those you love, an' they care right back. Least, that's what my father told me, or to be precise, what I understand from what he told me. It's confusin' sometimes. - Wainwright chuckled. - Now, eat. You deserve it.

There was another constant now, one that he also loved. This one wasn't so chaotic - quite the exact opposite, in fact.

[...] asinine reasons are why this planet’s still kickin’. Either they were gon’ go crazy - like they did - or die.

[...] Wainwright recalled the last time he was in there: an unfinished taxidermy on the table, sketches of various creatures on the floor, a half-empty cup of tea on the end-table and a scent of dried blood. It was... odd and unfamiliar, yet somehow comforting.

[...] Slightly suspicious, like a burnt smell from the kitchen or a gun not clicking on reload the exact same way it did the last 263 times... but that thought didn't stay in his mind for long.

The beams, the paths, they converge. I- I can’t, oh god. I can’t take my eyes off you. You’re being laid bare before me [...]

[...] he had more time now, time to rest and enjoy himself. In a way, he felt more grounded, leading the mere humble life of a mildly deranged wealthy man who doesn't need to rely on meagre royalties and stretching the allowance his parents gave him when he left his homeworld, never to return there again.

- Not to be all "back in my day" - Wainwright said, his warm voice punctuated by his hands pinning the buttons of his shirt - but these days, you can just walk up to a Quick-Change an' will yer dick 'n' balls into existence. When I was a boy, we had to get ourselves the long way.

By jove, you look handsome. A carbon tesselation [...] You reflect my light like a fine mirror, or like a cephalopod mimicking its environs.

Unfortunately, they didn't have the time to savor its flavor properly. They were in too much of a hurry to savor its flavor on eachother's lips.

[...] The blood will split itself, or blood shall be split here.

I find you there, holdin’ me. Me, as a fresh body. You’re surrounded by wonders uncountable and yet only desire one, so you pull me outta there like a sculptor makin’ men from marble. I can feel the love you put into every motion of this needle, every slash of that knife. Eternally preserved as part of your heart.

Wainwright felt his own eyes grow heavy with affection, his mind waning like a celestial body with a name lost to time. [...]

The over-man is three meters tall. [...] throwing bread to the oviraptucks in the lake with two hands, and sketching their anatomy with a third. The pencil is too small for it, yet it doesn’t break.

Well excuse me, Sir Jakobs, I can't exactly use your last name like anyone else, now can I? / Is that not because you stole it, Mr. Hammerlock? / And you stole mine, Sir Jakobs. / That is not an excuse, mister. / It's called gettin' even, sir. Frontier justice, if ya may. / I say, I say. If so, then I shall "get even" for all this affection you've given me, mister.

Your arms. Yes, yours. Therein lies the promise of that great and terrible feeling of safety.

- I... I know you love me. You have said that a thousand times, and proved it at least thrice that number. [...] But sometimes I'm afraid I'm just not the man you fell in love with anymore. It has been years, dear. So much has happened since then, and I sometimes fear what might happen next.

[...] I can't help but feel I am the one with my neck exposed, here. / I am always that when I am with you, in a way. [...]

Alistair raised his head [...] Oh god, he looked so pained.

The word left him like steam from an opened pot. It was not easy to say for him, it never was. But with Winny being the only one to hear it, it was easier.

a slow, groggy settling into rest, like the setting sun and all the beautiful colors coming with that sort of phenomenon. / Alistair’s big, beautiful, brown, blood-and-retina eye - already half-shut - finally closed, the curtains of his bright soul sealed for the day; [...]

[...] did I fucking recognize it then. Hard to not recognize that particular mind's eye vision of a certain man when his white suit is soaked through with blood.

- This… erm, reminds me of the time I spent a weekend in a cabin with my first proper long-term boyfriend. Unfortunately, the corporate death squad his wife sent after him cut our stay short…

I retreat to my den to hibernate through the eclipse winter, as an animal does. [...]

[...] Oh, you're so beautiful like this, with your gunpowder curls exposed against the pillow like billowing smoke against the clouds.

[...] You must wrestle the horrors from within yourself and try to make something meaningful out of them. That's the way it always is. That's the way it always was.

Then, you open to me like a door, and I can feel myself sinking even deeper. I embrace this and that of you, the still and beating, and in turn you embrace me from the inside.

Little boy who is a man, where are your friends? [...]

[...] Normally, a female asset is to be inducted at an earlier age, but a procedural alteration had to be introduced, accounting for unforeseen disruption of homeostasis.

[...] Tears poured out of his organic eye like water out of a high pressure pipe. His nose was getting runny, his face was searingly hot. It was so, so, so hard to think like this, the weight of the world closed onto him.

- Well, what else am I supposed t' say? Bastard who caused an entire war to aerate his unleavened bread of an ego?

- Winny, my love, - Alistair raised his head again - would you be so kind as to carry my faggot arse to bed?

[...] that I am a warlock and either should or would be burned at the stake, were it not for my obvious status [...] Baseless rumors aside, things have somewhat changed since that fateful day when Elpis shone bright enough to be visible from here.

It's the crucible, the forge. Can't forge something without hitting it a lot, Father says in one of his many wisdoms.

cant do a proper art vs artist till i get home but haha what if i showed my favorite lines i wrote this year

[clownsuu]

SORRY FOR SENDING ANOTHER ASK SO SOON But I'm genuinely curious, do you have any OCs of your own that you draw, or do you just draw fandom characters and friends OCs?

A bit of a more specific question too, do you have any characters or something you unintentionally created just doodling or when burnt out? I created a character to draw when I'm frustrated with how my art is turning out, frustrated with anatomy, or have no ideas. Its something good to have 👀

(I would share him but I don't want to send you art in your asks that has nothing to do with you or your designs NDSKJAD)

I have seen your earlier ask, I might give it a good ol doodle for it- but for now this gives me an excuse to talk about some of my dumb ass characters hddhJDDH-

[cracks my knuckles and breaks all my finger bones]

(old art)

(long post)

I have a bunch of ocs that I have made in the past that aren’t fandom related- I have some I really like- but they are fandom related so I won’t show smhh- but anyway here are a few of my personal favorites-

Example one being Jack (yeah same name smhhh) he is part of a item head universe Iv created- and of course, as he looks it- is a party of a scheme-y and shady casino (no affiliations to Cuphead hfhdJDHD) He is the owner, but is stuck in a bet with a owner of a bank, and completely fucked himself over with- Jack is in denial really he does not like to be played like a deck of cards smh

(Human) Douglas- aka the “nasty big tid dude that no wonder is a character I made”- is the bank owner- really fucking scummy and cheap- rules the city despite being just a owner the bank- disgusting fucking man who smells like pennies and orphan tears-

Yeah I really enjoy those two- I also have a few more characters from this little universe I made like the mayor, Ignis, but I ain’t gunna go too far unless someone is curious lmao- but anyway, I don’t quite have characters that I accidentally unintentionally made, but I do kinda have support characters I doodle every now and then when I feel like absolute shit-

They had a name- but I completely fucking forgot JDHDGSHS- but we call them Arson Moth- They are a god of void who used to be extremely large and in charge, but somehow became small and marketable plushie sized- making them extremely irritated and upset, specially when people treat them like a soft plushie (because, yknow, they are smol and really soft-) so in revenge, the cause acts of arson and violence because fuck you hffhJDGDGD- i rarely doodle them, but they are fun to draw when really sad or frustrated cause- yknow-

Very angi small mans hdhdDH-

This, is Heart- A character of mine that I personally feel is a emotional support character I have smh- I have created him far before Sun/moon came out, but he has almost the exact same personality as sun does- (and pointy nose hffhDHDHD) They are part of a universe of personified organs that work in a “human system”, and he is the most emotional character of them all smh- the heart does what the heart does, which is be chaotic and just does anything that makes themselves and others happy- also gets into arguments with Brian (Brain)

(Fuckin nerd-) those two argue a lot- Brain wanting to have the system work in a orderly fashion, and heart wanting everyone to just be happy and motivated-

He gives me brain rot I love this dumbass so much- drawing him always makes me feel better smh- their anatomy doesn’t really matter either because they aren’t human, they are Heart-

[bonnieisaway]

A Stupidly Long Critique of Saiki K: Reawakened

A Fuckton Of Spoilers Ahead

So I went and watched the new season/continuation of Saiki K today on Netflix and.

Boy, do I have some words. 

Spoilers under the cut!

Alright. So as I’ve said, today, (Dec 30th) Netflix decided to rip The Disastrous Life Of Saiki K out of Funimation’s hands and make their own continuation- Saiki K Reawakened. A 6 episode continuation and ending to our beloved show, that’s been hyped up for weeks now. 

..Except, it doesn’t really feel that way. 

The first episode, (Three Men, A Little Girl, A Police Officer, And A Dog) first of all struck me with this- they no longer had opening/ending theme songs. I posted about it earlier but this made me really upset. The op/ed songs are one of my favorite parts of the anime. Youth Isn’t So Cruel is a beautiful song, The Most Favorable! is hyper active and just a fun listen, Silent Prisoner is bad ass, and Put Your Hands Up always put a smile on my face, and that’s just the opening. But Netflix decided to take away the songs and it’s upsetting. I would’ve been happy even if they just re-used an old opening, because I was expecting something and it was really disappointing. 

The episode itself was a bit upsetting itself. I like watch things in order, but the chapter this episode is based off of is literally like the 10th chapter of the manga. I can’t find the exact one at the moment but I remember it was early on (hence, Nendo and Kaido arguing about which one of them is Saiki’s friend and such.) Even then- I went in expecting 6 episodes about his powers reawakening, not “Here’s 5 episodes of chapters we skipped and then we’re gonna mention the powers being reawakened.”

That’s probably one of my biggest problems with Reawakened. It’s just makeup work.

I think it would’ve been better if they put these episodes either in the places they belong or in the Season 3 category under the original show. They didn’t deserve all this hype for filler. 

Another thing I missed was that usually, after the ending song in every episode, there’d be a small narration by Saiki of what would come next week. Those were also super funny and I missed that. I feel like Reawakened was a bad fanfiction Netflix wrote which just killed the original work. I thought Reawakened was gonna be a bad ass, slow escalation of Saiki’s powers cranking themselves back up to what they were before the ending of Season 2. And it kind of disappointed.

That isn’t to say Reawakened didn’t have it’s few funny moments. I think the “useless powers” bit actually made me pee a bit.

But it was only of a few. Most moments felt out of character, or out of place, and the bit with the whole “teacher with a 10-year-anniversary-Jump’ was excruciating to sit through. I did like Saiki’s little smile at the end though. It felt like Saiki’s few expressions that make my heart scream ‘uwu’ were the one thing keeping me watching the show.

In Episode 3, (New Teacher with an Outstanding Feature), I personally felt like Iguchi’s existence was a dead horse they kept beating with a stick every time they called him a pervert. He just genuinely made me uncomfortable and felt like a bad forced joke. 

On the contrary, Hii felt like a great addition. I think they should’ve added her in the original two seasons in the first place, where she was supposed to be. I didn’t know till the other day that she came in way earlier. She’s a lovable unlucky klutz and she produced some genuinely funny moments. (Though, that whole ‘what happened last time’ bit kinda hurt my soul.)  Episode 4 was one of my favorites just because of her. It felt like she brung back what Netflix stripped away from the original anime. 

Before I get to the big money maker, episode 6- I have to point out the elephant in the room.

The fucking English dub.

I figured out that I could turn it on at some point during the episode with the useless abilities so I turned it on. I had heard the trailer with Saiki’s..new VA… but I figured he’d grow on me along with the rest of the cast. 

Oh my god I was so wrong. 

All I heard was Kuniharu’s and Saiki’s voice and genuinely, I nearly threw up. I’ve never had such an urge to slam my head into a brick wall until I heard the voices. I can’t even say much else because I didn’t and still do not have the willpower to sit through the English dub. It’s just.. so.. bad. I can’t stand it. I know that we can’t have the original English cast back because Funimation copyright yadda yadda I get it. But good lord. I can’t stand Saiki’s voice actor. The sarcasm sounds forced, the pauses are uncomfortable, and it just..hurts. The original one felt fluent, and just organic. The English dub made me, in short, want to blow my brains out. 

That aside- episode 6. Saiki Kusuo gets his motha’ fuckin powers back.

I had my hopes low when I started this episode out of fear since some of the others literally just made me want to gag myself. 

But episode 6… (muwah.) A masterpiece. No anime is perfect but oh my god. 

I loved how Saiki kept forgetting he couldn’t use his powers. Call it weird but the way he’s kind of a tsundere in the sense of lying to himself that he doesn’t like any of this and would be much better off without them is one of my favorite things. And it’s even better when he runs out of lies and has to face it. And even then- as his powers slowly integrate back, I about died. It was so funny, with Tortisuka holding his shoulder when he went invisible and Saiki using that as a way out of it, or hearing others thoughts and thinking of it as an auditory hallucination. I didn’t like how the thoughts sounded distant and kind of echo-ey compared to when they were easy to hear before, but that might just be me. 

Also? This scene right here? Where all of his friends protect him and he’s upset because he had to be protected? I started bawling. Maybe it’s because Aunt Flo’s in town and I have an unhealthy emotional attachment to Saiki, but it just hurt so bad watching him upset like that. And on a personal level, I felt where he was coming from. I don’t cry much at movies or TV or anime but good grief, I was crying in the club. 

The whole meteorite heading to destroy Japan had me in a bit of shock. I saw the cryptic advertisements hyping Reawakened but I almost forgot about them and even then a meteorite didn’t seem dire until it seemed like Saiki had no say in anything. 

As the climax builds and Saiki hears his friends panic-

-also featuring the best line uttered by Akechi ever- but even as Saiko says “I need to get my friends to the bunker aswell!” (which, holy shit, I didn’t care for Saiko but that got me to tear up?) I was losing my mind. After so much disappointment and just agony from this continuation- this had to be the best scene there. It’s hard to describe. It’s just so much emotion.

And then it happens. 

The ever tsundere-lying-to-himself Kusuo accepts that he’s a psychic who doesn’t mind his disastrous friends sometimes. What a way to end the anime. Call it a cliche beginning-is-the-end but I’ve never been happier to hear those Japanese words. I’ve never loved an ending so much. It emotionally hurt and was hell, but I loved it. This has been my stupidly long criticism of Reawakened!

So, tl;dr, Reawakened had it’s hard weak points but I’ll be damned if I didn’t love the ending. We love my favorite boyo, Saiki Kusuo. Also I’d die for Hii. Goodnight. 

edit: recently i noticed that Saiki's eyes compared to everyone elses doesnt have detail (no pupil/shine etc) except for that epic ending scene with Saiki and I jsut- HOLY FUCK here's a gifnthat kinda shows my point- his eyes transition from normal to detailed

[the-captain-swan-posse]

Ok so... Captain Swan are happy forever. Erhm, yay? Moving on.

Any true-blooded captain Swan shipper is either salty af, or in denial. I won’t lie, I do feel a but salty myself, tbh. Look at these two! Did my time as a fan of 6 years of the show and 5 years ADORING this perfect pairing deserve to end in “I’m pregnant” and NOT get to ever again see Killian and Emma Jones at LEAST have their baby?

There will be those who are satisified with just that. I honestly am not. Sorry if this offends anyone, but I’m fairly sure I’m not the only one out there who felt like that was just nowhere near enough.

Here’s the deal... I invested 6 years of my life (and I am 40 now which means I was 33 or 34 when the show began), watching the story of Emma Swan because holy shit, I loved that character, and 5 years shipping like a crazy woman the then unlikely but promising S.S. Captain Swan Ship. And sure enough, it set sail and sailed like no ship has ever sailed before or ever will sail again.

 Emma was deliciously complex, full of psychological depth and and inner self-search, traits few characters in tv shows ever develop so deeply. Jen NAILED the role. Then in comes one Irish stud-muffin with uncanny acting skills and mad jig-dancing eyebrows named Colin O’Donoghue, rendering the maddest, coolest version of Captain Hook I had ever seen. I was in love with both and even MORE so after they climbed that stupid beanstalk. That seems like a lifetime ago.

Through the ups and downs of the show, through some good and not so good episodes, I stood by and supported CS, merely because of the beauty of the pairing. But after tonight, I am re-thinking my position as to whether or not I will continue to give this show a chance.

Now don’t get me wrong; Jen decided to move on for personal reasons and since I respect her so much as an actor, I had to let her go, even though she will always be Emma Swan in my heart. But I have a very, VERY loud bee in my bonnet about the use of Emma Swan in this episode, and it needs prompt squashing. This was her “curtain call”  (Jen’s words), and I won’t like if I say that I had BIIIIIG expectations for a tear-filled, emotional farewell. Instead, we got a jumble-o-crap melee with no heads and no tails, where Wish!Hook tried to steal Killian’s wife because envy, but then turned good and nearly died and is looking for his daughter (who I can just bet is the lost-faced Alice), and then something about a bracelent and a ballet recital and Gold-Weaver-Stiltskin being shady with a speech to Killian-Faced-Rogers about a “moral compass” when he is still shady af...

And maybe 5 minutes of Emma Swan.

Yeah. That’s it. Jen’s final episode. We had all hoped for a beautiful development of a VERY poignant moment in CS’s story, one we have all been dreaming of, where she reveals she is having Killian’s baby, maybe seeing Killian’s joy upon finding out of his impending fatherhood... 

...and instead we got an unsavory “I’m pregnant”, then healing Wish!Hook, and saying goodbye, jump through the portal with the hubby’s hand on her tummy, and that.is.it. That was the “farewell” for CS after 6 years of development.

Now, ok... Knowing CS will be parents in canon is great. It is. It’s awesome. It was extremely sweet to see Killian rubbing Emma’s tummy.  Seeing the spoiler pics I was excited and felt a little glimmer of hope (I also can’t deny that hearing Killian call Henry “My Boy” was a very emotional moment because Daddy!Killian and Captain Cobra and all that). But that excitement, the same one I used to feel before every episode, an excitement that had faded after the finale and that had re-emerged this evening, filled with glorious expectations for a wonderful goodbye of our OTP, came crashing down like the blimp from the Land of Untold Stories. 

I’m sorry, but I feel like they have taken television’s most beautiful love story and given us an ending to it that feels more like they tossed a couple of pebbles on a puddle, to see how far they can bounce before they finally sink.

I am fairly sure I am not the only one that had at LEAST hoped to hear Killian talk about his excitement, or to see them speculate with Henry about names, or maybe a quick life-goes-on flash into Storybrooke to see Emma having delivered baby Jones and Killian holding it for the first time, I don’t know... SOMETHING!!

But no. 

However, I still have hope because well, I am that person. I hope that at LEAST we get to see Henry go back home with his own family and meet his kid sister (because OF COURSE it will be a sister), and we get to see Jen do one more appearance as a mom and wife, with her very besotted pirate husband and father of her child with her, being a very adoring daddy much like he was for Ashley’s little girl in that one episode. 

(I was just asked to remove a GIF from here basically because the person that made that gif disagrees with my opinion. So much for agreeing to disagree and simply respecting other people’s pov’s. Oh well, your ball your rules I guess... moving on.)

I honestly had hoped for so much more for Jen’s farewell episode. 

I am not trying to spread negativity... but I know I felt very let down. Captain Swan has been a dream boat... and even though I am satisfied to know that Emma Swan did not die in child labor or any other fatal ending, and that she and Killian are happy, I do believe that the loyal fandom of the show’s most beloved couple (because yes, it was) deserved better. MUCH better. The ship itself deserved better.  Such a long awaited moment, hearing Emma state that she is carrying Killian’s child... and that’s it?? THAT’S IT???

I can only hope that I will forge another memory of CS that is not related to Wish!Hook (although kudos to Colin for his performance on that because holy shit boyo!!), Wish!Hook’s missing daughter, or Wish!Hook’s newly-forged quasi-fatherhood with Henry (because it was CS’s Killian who fought hard to be a father to henry to the point where he called him “My Boy”).

That’s it. having said all this, I will make it known that I will ship Hook and Emma as long as I live, and that I will continue to navigate through Tumblr and other sources for CS joy, because that ship gave me some of the happiest moments of my life. I might not tune in as frequently to watch OUAT (I did give the new season a fair go), but when I do I’ll do so to see Colin, because I love that man. 

Dear writers:  PLEASE!! Do not make a new ship called Detective-Barlady or Captain Cocktail... I cannot see killian Jones’s identical twin romance Queenie. That would be a big rusty nail on an already moth-riddled coffin. 

That being said, here’s to hopes of seeing Jen’s pretty face at least one more time, maybe introducing a sibling to Henry, with the love of her life beaming with joy at her side.