#I still want to try nexplanon though…but idk it’s hormonal so I wonder if it would be better or worse

[brunetterightsactivist]

Lmao not to constantly discuss this but since getting off the pill the way my sugar cravings have almost disappeared…like of course I still love sweets but it’s not like every meal I need something sweet after or I’m gonna rip someone’s face open

[tolerateit]

ok so this is my health update for anyone wondering will post below the cut in case no one wants to read it kjdgsjkdgs 🤡

First and foremost, I've been dealing with this hip problem for almost 10 years. I'm drained. The pain is unpredictable and temperamental and we can't seem to figure it out. Am i always going to be this way? using a came from my twenties onward? i fucking hate this. sometimes i can't even get off the couch for days at a time.

the biggest thing, though, lately, is my gynecological problems. i have been in the ER for it so many times, for ovarian cysts that have burst to a strange shaped uterus to most recently cramps so severe that i was physically ill and couldn't eat or sleep for days. the doctor.. well he didn't know shit, they didn't find anything on my tests thank goodness but he called it """Dysfunctional bleeding""" and basically told me to get a hysterectomy (i'm 28 idk if i even want kids and have yet to date anyone seriously since 2016 sooooo...)

so then i go to my normal OBGYN with some hope she can help, but she's stumped. they're going to try another form of birth control that they put in the arm (Nexplanon) and basically if this doesn't help me they're going to have to do a partial hysterectomy and leave my ovaries in. this will stop my bleeding but will not stop the hormone problems i have with extreme mood swings, suicidal thoughts/tendencies etc.

all in all i'm just. i feel hopeless. i feel lost. i feel frustrated. i'm still trying to get my bipolar/anxiety/panic/depression/all of that meds figured out after like 15 years of bs and doctors telling me to "get over it" and "take 3 or 4 pills you'll be fine"

i just needed to vent and share and idk if anyone will read this but. if you do thank you. i love you all no matter what. i hope things get better soon. i'm just scared. i had one fairly major surgery on my hip in Feb 2020 and i'm terrified of more.

again, i love you, thank you for sticking with this if you have.

love, Jen xoxoxo