#I still want to finish it I just have no ideas T_T

[gachagon]

Ena's are treated by others based on how capable they are

Yesterday I played through the entirety of Ena Dream BBQ and it was the most fun and surreal time I'd ever had playing a video game since I played OFF.

After I finished it though, I couldn't help but think about how Ena was treated as some kind of dangerous, menacing entity that has the potential for harm from the other entities in the game. Everyone in the game either treats Ena as if she is a troublemaker or someone who is too dangerous to be left by herself or to be alone with. Which is strange because Dream BBQ Ena never does anything like that to anyone in the game.

So why does everyone hate Ena? I think it has to do with the idea that Meanie/Salesperson Ena is way more *capable* and aware than the Classic!Ena from the youtube series.

Meanie/Salesperson Ena is more proactive and is able to advocate for herself, and even has a job (which shocks a some of the characters when they learn that this Ena has a job lol) Meanie/Salesperson Ena is much more capable of doing "bad" things or harm then the Classic Ena we see in the show.

Classic Ena seems to lose control over her "sad" side a lot even if she's not really sad. And sometimes when she *is* sad, it becomes too much and literally makes her ill.

A lot of the characters in the youtube series aren't afraid of this Ena though they do still want her to leave them alone anyways. Nobody is panicked or frightened or even a little bit wary of this Ena because she doesn't even really have control over her own emotions, and she falls apart at the slightest bit of adversity.

And as far as I'm aware this Ena doesn't have a "job" like Dream BBQ Ena does. Meaning I don't think someone other than Moonie has trusted her to do things for them. No one gives her any kind of hard responsibility and once they see how out of control she is over herself, many of the entities seem to relax around her even though she's an Ena.

I know some people have been saying what if the reason Ena's are so mistreated is because they were maybe made to cause trouble or to harm other entities, but I think it's more so that Ena's have the potential to cause harm based off of how capable they are and how in control they are of themselves.

Classic!Ena is not able to pull herself together most of the time and it seems to take a great deal of strength to reel back in her "sad" side. Her sad side also doesn't seem to speak rationally and demeans herself, unlike how Meanie/Salesperson clearly talk and are always on the same subject most of the time. I think for the other entities if you knew Ena's were bad news for some reason and you met one who could barely walk straight because of how "sad" she was all the time, you'd probably think the Ena who's 100% in control of *both* sides to be a little spookier because now you're messing with a person who can seriously do harm to you somehow.

I also think Meanie/Salesperson is aware of this dichotomy between different Ena's thus why they constantly have to reassure other people that they're not doing any kind of "sketchy" or bad things. Entities have probably treated this Ena way worse in the past just because of being an Ena, and being capable and more aware most likely didn't actually help with trying to get people to trust her more.

Meanie/Salesperson might also not be quite as innocent as we may think based off of the ending of chapter 1 because in the end they do kind of "destroy" everything, and in the end the only person who comes out of it okay is Ena.

We don't actually know what their job really is, lol but them having a job at all was enough for a lot of the entities to just trust them to do things for them. I think the fact that Meanie/Salesperson Ena was able to complete their task at all and come out of it okay, kind of proves that maybe the entities in the Uncanny Valley were right to be a little wary because now the Uncanny Valley is gone thanks to Ena turning the smoke off T_T

[mrabubu]

Please don't be scared of this question but... what kind of bed chem do Leo and Ana have?

COME ON ABUBU WE'RE ADULTS HERE, IT IS NOT REALLY WEIRD TO HAVE WONDERED ABOUT THIS TOPIC ONCE.

C'mon man don't block me T_T

WHEEEEEEZE

Okay, sorry, I thought about that I wanted to finish a little animatic at first, but I realized it's taking too long, and found this sketch.

Also, I mean, yeah? About how people probably thought about this. DON'T LIE THAT YOU DIDN'T /or maybe you indeed never thought about this, then okay/ And, yeah, both Ana and Leo are adults in this au (Ana is 24-25, Leo is 26-27)

Just in case, I'll hid the text, so if you people want to read it, go on. Otherwise you can just skip it. There won't be much of like details details, obviously, but still. If this topic is sensitive to you, please, just skip it.

I won't go into details, but if trying to describe in short, it's both intense and caring. It took some time for Ana to learn how to control herself, because at first her new instincts been taking over to the point she could hurt Leo, and it's not only about the bed, but overall. At the same time, after Ana would learn to control herself, these moments could be their chances to kind of let go a bit, a let out their pent up feelings and emotions without worrying about hurting each other (only furniture), because both being not fully humans meaning they both can handle much more that average people.

It was also kind of meaningful for Ana as well because she was worried a lot about her appearance, being half-Kraang now and all, kind of a monster. I had this idea of the scene where Leo could say "well, we're both kinda monsters, in a way".

And yeah, they're both extremely caring towards each other afterwards.

[mmogurl]

Dragonseed Chapter 2 : Coveted

18+ | 3.0k | Daemon Targaryen X Female Reader | dangerous, sex-crazed, raunchy Daemon | hyper possessive behavior, ownership, objectifying, big breast reader, non con, non consensual, P in V, lots of typical Daemon cussing, rough, forceful sex, violence, threats of violence.

Daemon has been feeling a lot better now that he's found you, his Dragonseed. No longer deprived of his carnal appetites, he's been keeping you close by ever since bringing you to work at Dragonstone. You return his generosity by satisfying his every need, although not always in the way you expect to. Daemon is a rather unpredictable man after all. I came up with the idea for this after reading page 914 in Fire and Blood. In the show, they recruit Valyrian blooded bastards to ride the unclaimed dragons from King’s Landing, but in the book there is actually a fishing village at the base of the island where Dragonstone is located. The men of House Targaryen were known to seek pleasure among the commonfolk there quite often, claiming their ‘first night’ rights and sowing ‘dragonseeds.’ Sorry it came out a little late, I've been sick again the past couple of days.. T_T

Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 On AO3

Daemon wet his face in the basin, his fair skin caked with dirt and sweat from a day of training in the yard. He lathered a generous amount of milk soap into his hands and began to wash his face. He’d really prefer to take a bath and clean thoroughly, but he simply didn’t have enough time if he was going to wet his cock in you before supper.

Grinning he began to think of you as he ran a wet cloth under his armpits and then down to his groin. Standing buck arse naked in his chambers, his cock is already growing rigid in his hands at the thought of you, his little bird, his dragonseed, his secret paramour, and how hard he was going to fuck you when he got his hands on you.

Just as promised, he’d proffered you a position within the castle at Dragonstone easily enough, an assistant cook in the kitchen. Given you were so young and fit, the staff didn’t mind having another set of legs to fetch and carry things to and from the pantry. And given his high status, it wasn’t as though any of them would dare deny his request either.

The arrangement has been working out perfectly well for both of them so far. And since Rhaenyra never even bothered to join him in bed as of late, it had been painless enough to bring you into his chamber whenever he wished it. And oh how he had wished for it often, enjoying every moment of breaking in his new lover, and you were always so eager to please him. The biggest challenge was keeping you quiet so that his wife would not hear your screams of pleasure from down the way; he quite often accomplished this by covering your mouth, whether it be by his own hand or a gag of cloth to silence those heated moans.

Fuck, he was already at full mast, his manhood throbbing and twitching at just recalling the image of your full bosom bouncing beneath him as he restrained the sounds coming from your pretty little lips. Oh, how he’d love to let you go and hear every beautiful tune you might sing as he plunged his cock into your depths, but he’d rather not listen to the bitching that would ensue from Rhaenyra’s cantankerous mouth as a result.

Daemon finishes the quick job of freshening up, rinsing his body with more water from the basin and drying off before he gets dressed again. He rushes as he ties up his shirt, not wanting to miss the opportunity to have you sooner, rather than later tonight. His blood is pumping even more than usual today after some exceptionally good sparring with the other knights on the island, and he feels like he has enough seed stored up to take you at least three times, maybe even four.

He wears a knowing grin as he saunters through the halls of the keep, still half hard as he makes his way towards you, his toothsome little firebird. Daemon has a half a mind to take you wherever he finds you, loving the idea of a public fuck. Let one of the servants see him staking his claim on you, for it would make the act even more tantalizing. He wonders where he might take you, that self-satisfied smirk never leaving his countenance. Perhaps in the root cellar where the potatoes and wine were stored- or the pantry, or maybe even the larder? He finds himself further enticed by the idea of fucking you beside a full leg of mutton, after all, you are his piece of meat and he cherishes you for it.

There are a series of narrow hallways in the servants quarters, smaller rooms where they sleep, where you sleep when you are not keeping his bed warm. Daemon navigates them, slipping past other house staff that seem alarmed by his presence, but don’t offer any argument to it. The corridor opens up into the massive kitchen, a long rectangular room with an open stove in the center of one wall. Opposite the fire is a massive table that takes up much of the chamber, and women are busy preparing different elements of food to be served with dinner. Freshly cooked bread is laid out as well as several biscuits all arranged neatly on a silver tiered tray.

It all looks rather delicious, but no delicacy in the castle could compare to the taste of you. And Daemon is starving for you, ravenous with hunger for the sweet cunt between your legs, seemingly unable to get enough of it. He sees you standing at the table, your back towards him and your long silvery tresses glowing from the dancing flame of the fire-pit. He’d hoped to find you somewhere a little more private, but that doesn’t mean he can’t take you to another location to have his way with you.

As Daemon takes a step into the kitchen, he stops in his tracks, pausing in place as a consternated look appears across his furled brow and crinkled nose. A man, broad of chest and dark in his features comes to stand beside you, resting his hand on your shoulder and looking down at you with far too much affection and familiarity.

How dare that piece of shit touch you. You belong to him! He’d already stolen you away from your husband and in fact had the marriage annulled. He’d realized after talking with his maester, that as the lord of Dragonstone, he has the legal authority to deny any wedding among the peasants, and so he did. But, now some upstart ruffian from the kitchen was going to try and steal you away from him? How many men would he have to dispose of before he could be at peace with his claim on you?

It wouldn’t do at all. Daemon would need to make an example of him. Show everyone what happened when they touched what was his.

He strode up proudly, his back straight as his Valyrian Steel longsword, Dark Sister, as he approached the pair and cleared his throat, his hand clenching down on the man’s shoulder viciously. The scamp let out a startled yelp as you turned to see what was happening, a look of concern flashing across your eyes as you saw Daemon standing there. He saw the tremulous fear in your periwinkle eyes as you began to grasp the situation and sneered with a wild look of abandon in his eyes.

“What do you think you’re fucking doing?” Daemon roared out, squeezing even harder into the man’s meaty shoulder.

The fellow sunk under his grip, instantly relinquishing his hold on you as he attempted to turn and face his assailant.

“No, you can stay right there prick,” he said with a scathing venom in his tone.

The kitchen staff had all stopped what they were doing, gazing upon the scene with terror as though they knew blood was likely soon to be spilled.

“LEAVE US!” Daemon roared out loudly, the sound bouncing off the walls in echo as every single servant jumped in fright before rushing to leave the premises.

He reaches past you to pick up a chef’s knife from the table and spins the offender around to face him. “You see this knife, you fuckwit?” he asks with condescension. The man nods stupidly, wearing a veil of abject dread upon his face. “If I ever see you so much as look at her again, I’m going to make you a fucking eunuch. You understand?”

The man simply stared up at Daemon, disbelief rife in his slack jaw. He did not answer immediately and it angered the King-Consort even more.

“DO YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND!? You are not to touch her! EVER!!” he screams and wraps his giant hand around the man’s face, slamming him back against the heavy wooden table.

“Yes! Yes, m’lord!” the whelp finally replies, falling to his knees with his hands clasped up and pleading.

Disgusted, Daemon scowls and shoves him to the side, away from him and towards the exit. “Get out of you filthy mongrel!” he spits derisively. “Before I change my mind…”

The peasant chef or whatever the fuck he was, shambled to his feet, tripping and falling twice before he made it out of the room. The silence was cumbersome as Daemon eyed you, his gaze hard and vicious as he decided how he should punish you.

“Why did you do that?” you are asking, but your voice is so far away, barely noticeable against the ringing of his furious heartbeat in his ears.

“After everything I’ve done for you?” he begins tearing into you, his words savage and his voice hateful. He cups your face in one hand, stroking your cheek almost tenderly, completely juxtapose to the angry expression on his face. A squeak of surprise escapes your lips as he then runs the dull backside of the knife along the opposite side of your face. He is pleased with the fright in your features, after all, he wants you to know how grave an offense this is.

He turns you swiftly, shoving you against the surface of the table and pushing you down with a strong hand to the middle of your back. You try to get up when he tosses the knife with a clatter across the table, but he slams you back down causing the table to groan with the weight of his force. “Stay fucking down,” he hisses with frustration as he unlaces his trousers.

“But I didn’t do anything,” you whine sorrowfully, still trying to play dumb.

“Like fucking hell you didn’t, you little whore!” he spits back, pulling his stiffened cock out from his smallclothes and letting it hang freely. “You let him touch you. I fucking saw it! Saw the way he looked at you. How he wanted you.”

Daemon begins to pull your skirts up, shoving them up and over your waist until he can see your bared cunny before him. “Did you want to fuck him, girl? Did you think he’d have a bigger cock than me? Think he could fill you to the brim and make you ache like I can?”

You’re already whimpering, a soft mewl of tears in your voice as you try to make excuses. As you try to implore him to cease in being so upset. As though anything could calm him down now that he’d seen another man’s hands upon you.

“I will never let another have you, firebird.. You are fucking mine! You belong to me!” he shouted with a gruff and spiteful voice.

He pressed the head of his cock against your wet center, pressing through without warning and sinking all the way in until he thudded roughly against your womb.

“Fuck!,” he roared as you continued to whine against the hard surface of the counter. “I need to remind you, hm?” he asked, one hand coming to your hip and pulling you back roughly onto his member as he thrust into you again and again. “That you are just a little thing, a prized cunt for me to fuck whenever I wish it?”

That actually makes your breath catch with fresh indignant cries of pain. Oh you haven’t cried like this for him since the very first time he had you and he is relishing the way you keep trying to pull your tender core away from his impending wrath. It’s not like you have anywhere to escape to though, not like you can get away from his grip, pinned between him and the table, forced to take him like a good little trollop.

“This tight little hole belongs to me, girl!” he seethed, losing himself completely in your wet heat, his fury unbridled as he pounds into you relentlessly. “Say it. Tell me what you are and who you belong to. Say it now!”

He knows you won’t like that, understand all too well how proud you are, but he has to break your spirit further if he’s going to keep you under his thumb. He has to make you realize that you’re nothing without him. You stay silent besides the sound of your wailing, your dismay at how he is taking you and how low he is trying to bring you apparent.

“Say it, you little fucking slut!” he howls, raising his hand from your hip to slap you viciously on the the round fat of your arse.

You let out an alarmed yelp, followed by a wail of outrage as you finally relent. “I’m…I-I’m your cunny to fuck, Daemon!” you squeal with the sharp sting of embarrassment clear in your tone as your tight core clamps down on him in response.

“Damn fucking right you are,” he leers over you with a primal growl of arousal and conquest. “You like it don’t you? Like being my little whore?” He slaps you on the arse once more, this time hard enough to leave a crimson handprint on your flesh. Daemon can’t help but grin at the sound you make and the way you clench down tightly on his cock each time he slaps your rear. “You really do enjoy it,” he smiles smugly, loving that his filth has this affect on you. “I wonder how much coin I could fetch for you back in the brothels at King’s Landing? I bet you’d be the biggest earner on the Street of Silk… And you’d love every moment of it wouldn’t you?”

The inner lining of your center contracts violently around his length as you peak, causing him to wince in pain as he pushes past the taut muscles. “My dirty little bird,” he pants, grinning from ear to ear as you go limp against the table and he plunges deeply into you, pounding endlessly as he chases his own release.

He spills into you with the heat and thickness of molten lava, his cockhead slamming roughly against your womb as he pulls your hips onto him firmly, pulsing seed inside of you as he groans with the pleasure of subduing you completely.

“Fucking hellls!” he bellows out, falling on top of your back with nothing but his arm to keep from crushing you, holding himself up slightly from the wooden counter.

Daemon stays inside of you, not in a rush to leave the safe and welcoming heat of your cunt. As he steadies himself on his forearm, he reaches up to brush your hair aside, wiping salty tears dotingly from your cheeks as he takes in your expression.

“Are you hurt, little bird?” he asks with a hint of regret in seeing your reddened eyes and cheeks. “Was I too rough?”

You shake your head slightly, still not making eye contact with him as your body shivers beneath him. He smooths your bright locks of hair back against your scalp, still panting as he tries to recover.

Gods, he thinks you look beautiful like this, ravaged and spent, and still impaled on his cock.

“I don’t want him,” you finally say quietly, almost pouting. “He means nothing to me.”

Daemon sighs, feeling a pang of guilt at how decisively you say that, without a hint of doubt. He withdraws his length from you, leaving a slick mess of your combined fluids as he lets your skirts fall down again. He puts his now softening cock back in his brailes and turns you around to face him.

“I know,” he says pressing a kiss against your lips, before pulling back to take a look at you. “I can’t control how I feel about you, my searing firebird,” he says more softly, peppering kisses on your cheeks in between words. “It drives me mad with rage to think of another man so much as touching you.”

There was something about fucking you that always dulled his sharpest edges. It was as though every bit of pent up rage and aggression just fell away once he spent inside you. You were the only one who could sooth his ferocity like this, quell the savage beast that he always became in your absence, or even at the thought of losing you.

“I would never leave you for another, Daemon,” you say reassuringly, brushing your soft hand along the hard line of his jaw. “I don’t want anyone else but you. You must know that by now?”

“One day, I’ll learn,” he offers with a playful little smirk as he snatches your hand in his, and brushes a gentle kiss against the back of your knuckle.

“Well, isn’t that sweet?” an all too familiar voice cuts through the tender moment.

Daemon snaps his head towards the shrill sound, knowing exactly who he’ll see, his wife Rhaenyra. He looks back at you, realizing that he’s been caught and worried about what it could mean for you. He turns back to the would be queen and offers a feigned smile of surprise.

“I’m sorry, wife,” he offers complacently as he lets your hand go and smacks you on the bottom dismissively, signaling for you to leave. “Did we make too much noise?”

You scamper off obediently, retreating into the hallway and out of sight much to his relief. He doesn’t want Rhaenyra getting a good look at you, doesn’t want her getting any ideas concerning retribution against you.

“When the staff is not allowed into the kitchen to prepare supper and we are all made to wait… Well, it certainly sparks one’s curiosity as to what is causing the delay, husband,” she says, her voice cold and distant.

“Oh, that?” he throws his hands out in a disarming gesture, showing that they are empty. “That was just some fun,” he assures her, using as much disregard as possible so Rhaenyra might feel less threatened by you. “A passing dalliance, nothing more,” he offers with a wink as he lowers his hands to his sides and walks past her out towards the dining hall.

[reds-skull]

Fic recs - oneshots (part 4)

I'm currently in like, a lot of pain (...don't ask), so what better way to distract myself than cataloging some fics!

Last time I said I'll do a list of writers, but I noticed that so much time has passed that I've collected enough oneshots for another post like this, so I'm doing this first.

A couple of ones here are from shadowforest-wolf's lists, go check these posts out if you want more recs!

As always, sfw oneshots, if there are any dead links you need fixing let me know!

Sea of Love by MiddlemistsRed (chiakashie) - Soap keeps dying in Al Mazrah and Ghost reincarnates each time to save him.

Offhand Remarks by bisexual_werewolf - Ghost doesn’t think Soap is a good enough soldier. Soap tries his best to fix that. (Spoilers: It doesn’t work)

You'd Be the Mercy Under My Cruelty by ajax_in_agony - Ghost takes care of Soap in the aftermath of "Alone".

TV. by Kodalax - Ghost thinks Soaps mad at him so he distances himself as much as possible and clams up like he’s a child again. [this is a series with a second work from Soap's POV]

where the nightmares end by oh_ellie - Soap is sitting up in his bed, the sheets shoved off of his body and sweat beading on his forehead and running down his temple. It's dark in his room and far too quiet.

taken a shine to me? by oh_ellie - Soap is captured by Graves during alone [this has a second work which is nsfw]

Eleven by VibeDemon - Ghoap get stuck in an elevator. [this is just a little funny one :)]

He's The Gift That Just Keeps Giving! by StrixDaddy - some hurt/comfort featuring Christmas fluff.

Hold On To Me by iamtheidiot - That's when he saw it. A goddamn fucking knife sticking out of the man's right side, his arm at an angle like he was trying to conceal the thing from Soap.

Ghostly Music by oh_heccity - A 5+1 where Soap helps Ghost learn to have a healthy relationship with music, it, of course, has its ups and downs.

My heart in your hands keeps going on by FetteEule - 5 times Ghost is forced to go on leave and 1 time he takes leave on purpose.

Bleeding Sands by Islenthatur - What if Soap was one of the 15 who survived Operation Sand Viper [COD Ghosts Soap]

notre dame by merikai - Soap is stuck under rubble, but it takes a while until someone comes to the rescue.

heaven help the fool who falls in love by merikai - Soap has a "girl". Ghost tries to find out more.

leave it to the land by merikai - “Hypothermic,” Ghost mutters, more to himself as a note than to Soap. “You're delirious. Need to get you warmed up.”

no shortage of sordid by merikai - Hassan's men have taken Soap hostage—but there are things worse than this.

Dehiscence (Opening of a Wound) by made1for1life1 - Johnny knows his mind doesn't work the same as other people's. Maybe he just needs to try harder. Trying harder is a lot harder than he thought.

A quick game of chess by cheersyaslag - when Ghost tells him to shut up, he doesn't exactly know why it hurts so damn much. Maybe he's being too sensitive. But he does shut up. He will do as he's told for once.

Observations and Ink by Fearless_leaderr - He shifts nervously as the other man flips through the pages, and Soap can feel sweat begin to collect on his brow. "Didn't know you could draw like this, Johnny."

Still got like 3 days until I finish the semester, but I already got so many ideas for comics and drawings and fics it's not even funny. I'm gonna have so much fun once I'm finally done with my work T_T

[alicelufenia]

At the edge of the world, all debts will be settled, long prices paid

and there will be justice for all.

The night before it all ends, and we get some much needed closure

Honestly understandable. Kilian's absence from the series was a mild frustration for me, both cause I actually liked her as a character plus I'm shamelessly into redheads. Though given how chronically bad with relationships Catherine is, it makes sense. It takes years from when they broke up to actually get this closure, but even though they've both moved on it's still nice to see.

And just goes to show how obvious Cat is about Akua. A lot of harsh words were exchanged between her and Hakram earlier, but one thing he said that still rings true is when he said that while Cat loves all of the Woe, and him the most, she is only in love with Akua. Painful to hear, but she hasn't once denied it.

T_T

It's hard to say, as it is so (delightfully) painful to watch Cat torture herself like this while totally getting why, and that I'd lose all respect for her if she didn't even wait until journey's end at least, when the debt was due. Luckily Catherine Foundling has never done anything wrong.

Noooo! Well damn, there goes the failsafe. Hey, it's not like it was hard to predict that wasn't gonna go according to plan. Still, it makes sense why it was so effortlessly easy for Yara to set this up; there's not a story out there where Indrani wouldn't save Akua's life here.

But with a little tender care from Masego's (former) Apprentice and the greatest (living) sorceress of the age, another miracle could occur.

The immediate benefit I see of the fetters is that they are infinitely simpler than the Autumn crown, making them way less likely to backlash against a villain who would use them. A prisoner and their Warden, I mean warden? We'll see-

Speaking of Indrani's fate, shout-out to all time coward Hye Su

Let's go Indrani! You'll make a better Ranger than Hye ever did. Way to drop the ball hard Hye, I already didn't like you, but seeing as Indrani already had settled things with you at Praes, it's only fitting that she take your place by bothering to step up for other people. Do you know how hard you have to fuck up to lose me, Hye? Me?? The Evil Woman Fucker???

Pathetic. Anyway,

So it comes down to this: with the Dead King's soul contained within the entire city of Keter itself, it's effectively impossible to kill him even with Severance, and of course with Akua not in a position to have accepted it already, Catherine volunteers to be his jailer.

But the Intercessor, Yara, has other ideas, and lets Cat sample her ability to Guide.

Once again, Catherine's bad leg comes through to remind her of her own mortality and humanity! This is why I loved the parts of the story where she's had it the most. When she's been the most who she really is. Now get fucked, Intercessor, she will not be tricked into becoming you!

With the Dead King finally dead, brought back to life from undeath and then Sentenced to die, all that's left is how to deal with Yara, who still intends to finish this off how she wants; with everyone or nearly all on Calernia dead, the stories she's been bound to for millennia wiped clean at last.

And then... is that a Black Swan I see?

Intercessor Akua! A tag team of Good and Evil in the story of fate!

There's your Black Swan Event

So I'll be honest, I had this idea quite before even book 6, that what Akua was ultimately going to do would impact fate permanently. And I knew before I even finished Book 4 that Cat's final name would be the Warden, on account of checking the fan wiki and immediately seeing her Name listed as such, so I backed out lest I see any other pertinent information, like whether she dies at the end or not, and swore off the fan wiki until I was all done. This did make me convinced she was going to get a Bad End as a jailer for eternity. And then Akua calls her out for it and steps up instead!

I HAD thought that her unexpected, unpredicted act, the Black Swan Event in question, would have had to do with her redemption, perhaps ending with a new heroic Name. So I goofed there. She does use this moment to call the Gods' attention at least, which is similar if you turn your head sideways and squint.

THAT'S RIGHT YOU GO GET YOUR GIRL YOU BITCHES HAVE EARNED IT

At the end, debts are settled, long prices paid. And there was justice for all. Akua saved Catherine from the unhappy ending the latter was convinced was fated for her, and the knife that started us down this path since chapter 1 will be what finishes the journey.

And then, many years later

And THAT, is the single most well done, well paced, and well earned Enemies to Lovers story I have ever read. Every painful, ragged inch earned along the way, and while it ends in tragedy, there remained still a way for them to find each other, and for just a little while, partake of what a life together could have been.

Absolutely blew ALL of my expectations away. Holy SHIT

I will be thinking about this one for a long time.

[adventuringblind]

Flowers in your throat

Lando Norris x Reader x Oscar Piastri

Genre: Angst

Summary: the problems of unrequited love

Warnings: hanahaki disease, blood, coughing

Notes: idk what this is... Does anybody wanna spam my inbox with things to write over break? Logan is on the list, but I'm blanking on ideas for the boy T_T

Masterlist

Flowers. Beautiful things that each have their own meanings. One that even color plays into.

Beautiful amd deadly things, these Flowers. She can't even stomache the sight of them anymore. Not when they are the source of her current misery.

A misery she has yet to understand. Is one not enough for her? Will Lando hate her for loving more then just him? Is she really that greedy?

Her driving had suffered because of her lack of focus. She's coughing over the radio now and her engineer has started to notice. Her trainer even more so with how sick she looks.

She doesn't want Lando to find her like this. Maybe she doesn't even like Oscar and this is because of the loving looks and gentle touch he's been sharing with her boyfriend. Is she jealous? In a way yes, but she wants that from both of them. She coughs up another petal at the thought.

Hopefully Lando isn't awake. She'd been on the floor of the Hilton bathroom for at least an hour now. Her mind running through all her options. How she might be able to fix this.

Death is the easiest option in the long run. The surgery would hurt Lando as she would struggle with any kind of love afterwards. Oscar loving her back is another, but again, how would Lando react?

She'd yet to even open up to him about the idea of polyamoury. To scared from past encounters and getting hurt. Easier just to ignore anything else. The words of her last partner rings through her ears. 'It's either one or the other' but never both. How can she have such a love for two people to the point it's killing her?

The door creaks open. She panics and tries to hide from Lando's worried gaze. He still ends up on the floor with her.

"Please talk to me."

"I can't. You're going to leave me."

"Whatever this is, we'll figure it out, okay? But we can't even begin to work on it if I have no idea what's going on." And he's right. For as chaotic as he is, Lando has always wanted to work through things together.

"I'm not - well - before I start I should say I love you dearly with every fiber of my being."

"Is this a break up?"

"No!" She shouts a little to loudly and quickly. Lando looks a bit startled but calms we he sees just how panicked she is. "I don't want us to break up - I just know that you won't want me anymore."

The thoughts of Lando leaving her flood her mind. Having to watch him and Oscar be teammates while she watches from afar. Her body wracks with coughs again as another petal comes up, pretty but splatters in red.

"Is that-?"

"Hanahaki, unrequited love."

"But I do love you so then..." He takes a moments to process. "It's not me is it?"

"My parents always told me my heart was to big." She inhales shakily. "It's Oscar."

"Since when? How long do we have before-" He doesn't finish the sentence.

"A have a few months left maximum. I'm already two months in."

"Silverstone."

"I'd already been fond of him before that but watching the two of you smile together like that." Tears slip past her eyes as she tries to stop the burning in her chest. "I'm so sorry and I understand if you leave. It's not like you signed up for this."

"I'm not leaving you. I don't care who else you love as long as I'm here with you. Plus, it's Oscar, I'd be lying if I said I don't have any feelings for him." Lando Admits with a shrug.

"Really?"

"I know you love me, too much, probably. If this is what loving you means then I'll be here every damn step."

She throws herself into Lando's arms, curling into the warmth of his body. And for the first time on two months, she cries in relief.

~~~~~

On the other side of things, Oscar isn't fairing any better. The constant scratch of his throat has started in August. Over the summer break when he had to bare witness to Lando and his girlfriends pictures.

He couldn't tell who he was more jealous of, or if he was jealous at all. Both, he was jealous of both because he wants to be with both of them. It's illogical, he thinks, that he should want two partners so desperately. They are committed to each other, why would they want him as well?

Lando is once again on the podium his female counterpart part there to congratulate him. Eyes shining as they smile at each other. The itch in his throat is to much. It burns in his chest as his lungs try to fight for air.

He runs back to the garage after getting weighed. Just in time to collapse onto the floor of his driver's room. Petals fall from his lips. Beautiful and soaking in red fluid.

He's still struggling to breathe when his door flys open. Logan amd Liam swim in his vision and ears. They drag him off the floor and get him upright again.

They clean him op and sit with him until Kim comes to get him for debrief. The older male looks horribly concerned. Lando also looks at him with something he can't pinpoint while sitting through the meeting. It's enough to make his chest burn again just knowing Lando is even looking at him.

Logan and Liam come knocking at his door that night. They want answers and rightfully so. He tells them, coughing on the bathroom floor while doing so.

"Have you talked to them?"

"No, why would they want me Lo?"

Liam hands him more water and pratically forces him to drink it. "Have you seen the way they look at you?"

And no, he hasn't, only how people say he himself looks helplessly in love.

How would they look at him now? In disgust? Maybe pity?

Shame he may never find out.

~~~~~

Another hard race. Las Vegas had messed them all up in some way shape or form. She couldn't breathe knowing Lando had crashed to hard. She coughed an entire petal up during the yellow flags just thinking about how he must be feeling.

She's been coughing up whole flowers recently. Tonight was no exception. Lando, despite being on heavy painkillers, was desperately trying to help her through a few larger ones.

She was barely eating anymore. Couldn't breathe. Her teammate had even noticed the drastic change in her appearance. Max and Christian had both been on her case. Third seemed so far away now as Lando tries to get water down her throat.

"I don't want you to die."

"And I don't want to live without love."

Lando manages to pull himself off the floor to answer the door. Mumbling about how it's probably Jon making sure he's alright.

She can hear the familiar voices of Oscar and Logan through the thin walls.

Oscar sounds rough. She blames it on the long race he had. He'd looked so tired coming out of the car, hands running through his hair.

Her lungs burn again. It's more so this time. Her entire body is on fire. She can't even cough properly and wails as she has to pull out whatever is in her throat.

A stem. One with thorns.

Lando is frantically pleading with Oscar and Logan for something. Oscar is also coughing. Enough that is worsens her own.

She coughs again. Another stem feels like it's tearing her open from the inside. She wails at the stinging pain. Panic overcomes her as it seems to never end.

The door swings open. Lando and Logan drag in a coughing Oscar.

He's in the same boat as her. He's been suffering this whole time.

"Logan who is it?! Please, I need to know." Lando is begging now. The sight of what's happening can't be helping his nerves.

"It's you two, both of you I think. He didn't say exactly."

She tunes out anything else. It's them. He is feeling this because of them. She coughs up the rest of the stem and the burning starts to fade.

But then the exhaustion hits. She wants to tell Oscar everything. Enough so he doesn't have to cough up thorns like herself.

She passes out before she can.

~~~~~

Oscar wakes up in bed. One that definitely isn't his own. He tries to sit up, but his body is depleted still. Noticeably, his lungs feel lighter then they have in months. The ache in his chest has lessened, but his love for the two is still there. If this isn't the work of a surgery then-

He sits up frantically, searching for something. Someone, more like. A hand on his shoulder pushes him back down.

"Relax, we're still here." It's Lando and his partner is on the other side of Oscar. She's dead asleep and rightfully so after what he witnessed her cough up.

"Where's Logan?"

"Asleep on the couch. He didn't want to leave you."

"And you - do you and her - are we?" His words are broken. He can't think properly.

"Caught feeling a while ago, mate. Her before I realized myself. She loves hard, enough to cough up flowers, apparently." Lando crawls into the space between Oscar and the female. Oscar, in his sleepy haze, latches onto Lando. He feels better being apart of whatever cuddle pile this is.

He falls back to sleep so easily. Only to be woken up later by a few frantic coughs. Lando is immediately trying to get the female out of bed and to the sink. She claims she's fine and it's confirmed by the lack of petals.

"It's from what the thorns did." Her voice sounds wrecked. Oscar tries to get up to help only to be pushed back again by Logan. Curse his exhaustion.

The American gets everyone water. Oscar is grateful for it as it soothes his still sore throat.

"So does this mean you three are going to be together then?" Logan raises an eyebrow.

"If either of them say no after this, I'm throwing hands. After the hell they've put me through I will force them to cuddle if need be."

[circeyoru]

I've got an idea for a liu zhigang fic (not sure if it's too generic though) also a kind platonic fic for jinwoo

Reader is jinwoo's twin/younger sibling (not as young as hus younger sister, maybe like a middle child) . After their fathers disappearance, Jinwoo tried to cover all the fees but it's just too much for one man to do (when he was still an e-ranker). While reader is more gifted (like in a special way that makes people want to scout her), was scouted by a guild in china and finally met liu zhigang.

long story short they dated, jinwoo suddenly became an s-ranker, reader wanting to introduce them at the meeting in america (the one where jinwoo first met liu zhigang), and after that is up to you. maybe something like both either acknowledging each other, or straight up have a rivalry

it can be focused on either the romantic part with zhigang, or the platonic part with jinwoo. either way i hope this idea makes sense (i whipped it up because i couldn't sleep (T_T))

Sleep's important!! Get enough rest!! (I'm one to talk 🤣🤣)

This has been in my inbox for a while and I have also finished writing this for a while now. But it's just the other stories that got the spotlight. Anyways~ I've been checking my stories and there's A LOT of dark and angsty stories, so this is a good fixer-up. Haha. Before we go back to the ongoing series.

I didn't write everything in the request, but the main dynamic/relationship with the two characters were set. So, you guys see if you like it.

Twins But Still Different = Requested

[Liu Zhigang x Jinwoo’s Younger Twin!Reader | Sung Jinwoo x Younger Twin!Reader - Platonic]

Will be out in 15 minutes or so~

My Works: MASTERLIST

[animasola86]

missing you queenie are you okay 😭

Thank you for your concern! T_T

I am okay, please do not worry, I'm just (still) taking a social break, if you will? I'll be more active again very soon, I promise! <3

(Read below for a proper update that got a little out of hand :3)

I have one story (aka about 13 chapters) more or less ready to publish (something rather dark, see more info below), while I'm also working on another story that's like the exact opposite theme-wise on the side. Let's just say, writing has been going very well, but (unfortunately?) I had to let a few new ideas out of my brain first before I can focus back on existing stories.

That said, I wanna use this ask to answer a few others too.

(I'm really sorry I couldn't get back to you sooner or answered you individually, just know that even if I don't always reply in time or at all, I always read what you guys send me, and I'm really grateful you're spending your time writing me, so thank you for that, and please don't be discouraged if I don't get back to you! I see you, always! <3)

Innocence Lost is not abandoned, but on hiatus. Someday, I will get back to Ben and Nebbia. Someday. I don't know when (probably when inspiration strikes). So, please stay patient!

Dear @bnnyvrqnor - I was a little taken aback, actually XD Maybe mostly because I'm always surprised when people come forward praising Innocence Lost and wanting more of Ben and Nebbia. Thank you for your interest, it really means a lot! Like I said above, I will get back to them, they still live very lively in my mind, wanting their story to continue too. So hang in there, they'll get their happy ending (or at least a bit more screen time!), soon/eventually. :)

Lost & Found is taking a break, but it will return soon(ish). I have many plans for Mommy, Daddy and Pumpkin, and I will get to them, eventually.

Dear ✨ anon, I've read your ideas and I thank you for sharing them! They will definitely go on my list of possible things the three of them can experience together, the party one and the "pumpkin loves autumn" one. Lots to do with them, and hopefully, my brain lets me write them all down soon! :3

Infatuated will return too, eventually (take a shot every time I say that >_>). Part 2 of Season 3 is in the works, but as I'd like to finish writing the whole thing first, it might take a while for me to upload new chapters. There could be a little intermission chapter, though. Someday. Stay tuned.

Abandoned and Forgetful are both technically finished, but also on hold, the latter I have to say I do lack ideas and motivation to continue, I'm sorry.

The same goes for the promised continuation of my werewolf smut series. But never say never, I could wake up one day and suddenly have the energy to write more for those stories, who knows.

@ ✨ anon again: Thank you for the Interest in Forgetful and the idea about Mistress' life. I have to be honest, I poured all my energy into a different Mistress, into Mommy from Lost & Found, so I feel like all the former Mistresses will inevitably end up similar to her, just like they all came from the same Mistress who I introduced in Infatuated. So, like I said, unless motivation strikes, I don't think I'll venture back into Forgetful's storyline/characters, sorry.

Future projects: (I should have known that you're going to pick up on this, my dear 🥒 :D nothing gets past you! <3) So the story mentioned above (and teased with my latest inspiration pic over on @animasolaoriginal) will be called FORCED!

It'll focus on a Master/pet (slave/servant) dynamic and unlike my other stories, there will be no comfort, no aftercare, just rough sex and the darkest kinks I could think of. I just needed to write something truly dark after sending my other characters into their fluff era, I guess. So that story might not be for everyone, but maybe you will still give it a try once it's out (which could happen this coming Saturday (Friday on AO3)? Maybe?).

(Also thank you for your concern, pickles! <3 Please don't worry about sending too many asks, I always love reading your thoughts and comments and seeing your name pop up! Never stop/change, okay? <3)

I hope this cleared things up a bit. Thank you for reading, thank you for being here (I recently hit a little follower milestone, and while I know most of you prefer to stay in the shadows, I'd like to make sure you know how much I appreciate you all for giving this little blog a chance! Thank you!)

I will be back with more smut stories very soon! Take care everyone!

[merakiui]

Oh, Oh! I got an idea for that Demon Jade and Angel Floyd AU!!! (more like a ramble I wanna share sgsha)

So like, what if a long looooongggg time ago Jade was also an angel, and being the twin of Floyd, they were both the most cute little satanic blessings heaven has to offer.

Till one day Jade did something and he got kicked out of heaven, and Floyd being betrayed cause how dare his brother leave him tore a pretty big gap in their relationship.

So now for the present day where they both of them had decided they wanted to invade your peaceful life, you are busy with doing some work/homework.

And these two are just busy waging a war behind you, but you are used to the shenanigans so you just ignore them.

Till they get worse, and you had to kick them out.

And it's raining.

And the both of them are now sitting at your front door like sopping wet cats, begging to be let in. (Floyd can so totally teleport to be by your side cause he your guardian angel but he doesn't want to cause Jade can't and he doesn't like the thought of you pitying Jade amd giving him extra attention cause he is cold and wet, when HE IS SUPPOSED TO GET THAT ATTENTION HE IS YOUR ANGEL FOR CRYING OUT LOUD‐)

Anyways they still both end up fighting in the rain sgshsg

Omg the idea of Floyd enduring the cold rain just so that you won't feel sympathy for Jade and let him inside... T_T he's so petty. But then Floyd can't catch any colds or illnesses because he's an angel, so it doesn't really bother him. It's still not a pleasant experience sitting out there on the stoop and being soaked through, but it's better than having to watch you coddle Jade. >:( the argument definitely turns physical and it isn't long before Jade's trying to tear handfuls of Floyd's feathers out of his wings while Floyd's grabbing at Jade's horns to try to snap them off. ;;; they're mean!!!!

You end up throwing the door open to scold the both of them and they listen surprisingly well (even though they're both a bit miffed that they couldn't properly finish their fight). If either of them wants to come back inside where it's warm and cozy, they'll have to genuinely apologize to the other. It's like pulling teeth when they're both so stubborn, simmering in their still-brewing frustrations, but they manage their apologies if only to appease you. Floyd's injuries don't mean much when he can just heal and he does so without thinking. Jade can do the same, but he wants to be fawned over. You end up sitting Jade down so you can patch him up, scolding him all the while: "You ought to be nice to your brother. He's just doing his job; don't make it harder for him."

Floyd's distraught. :( why didn't he think of that!!!! He could have been patched up by his Shrimpy and yet all of your love and care is going to Jade. It's not fair at all! It should have been him!!!!!

But after you tend to Jade you turn to Floyd and check him over to make sure he's okay, so perhaps it's not entirely bad luck. <3 Floyd places his hands over yours to keep them there for a little longer, and he envelops you in his wings to keep you close. Let him be a little selfish with your affections. He deserves it!

[euphorajeon]

happy bangtan year!

Hi hi, long time no see!

First of all, I'm really sorry for not posting any writings since September of last year :( life was happening and I just couldn't find the time to write anything. I know I say this all the damn time but it really is the truth T_T

That aside, happy 2025 all! We will be welcoming back 5 of our boys this year, will have 6 members back by the time it's Festa, and Hobi is releasing new music and touring!!!!!!! I repeat, HOBI IS TOURING!!!!

Did your country/city get tour dates? If so, are you planning on going? I just hope I can secure tickets because I know it will be a bloodbath :')

Honestly the reason I made this post is because I wanted to do a writing recap for 2024 but as I listed them down, I realized I didn't even write 10 pieces last year ahaha... ha... but that's okay. I'll still list them down for fun. If you're not interested, you're free to scroll away~

warning: long post below the cut

euphorajeon 2024 writing recap

wednesday night(s)

as I said in the author's notes, I'd had the draft for this a few weeks after seven mv was released and just finished it a few months later. we were all hooked on wednesday!jk and i was no different, except i spent all those weeks screaming about it to my friends instead of writing about it, haha.. anyways. the first draft of this was going in a totally different way than the final version, then my friend was like "woah this took a weird, unexpected turn" so i scrapped it and practically rewrote like two-thirds to half of it. but i'm pretty satisfied with the result even if i still feel like eh about some things of the story. overall, i think i'd rate this an 8.

2. trippin' over, gettin' lost on you

this one was another old draft.. that did not get finished for forever.. i started having the idea of it because of the clips from memories 2020 or 2021 i think where jeongguk had mint hair and was wearing a black tanktop with his tattoos on full display yep yep but as i started writing it as usual life happened. and i honestly didn't think it was gonna be that long. i chuckle to myself every time i remember that i planned to post this on jeongguk's birthday in 2022. then it got pushed back for welcoming 2023. and then got pushed back for jeongguk's birthday in 2023. by the time 2023 was over, i was convinced that i would never finish this piece of writing and had just started making peace with it when i stumbled upon the draft again after i finished writing wednesday night(s). i don't really remember the writing process but i think i pulled an all-nighter to finish this ahaha and maybe that's the reason there are chunks that don't make sense or things that are too repetitive or even the characters not behaving like themselves or too caricature... it's kinda hard to give this an overall score. i'll let you guys decide :')

3. namjoon rpwp drabble

ouu i really like this simple drabble. i remember seeing this concept pic for the first time and thought to myself how cute he is with his bald? buzzcut? (pls correct me im honestly not familiar with haircuts terms in english aha) hair and his oversized tshirt just basking in the sunlight in some random driveway looking like your next door neighbor saying hi to you in the morning. i also like the term peculiar dandelion for some reason.. so. thank you namjoon for making rpwp and making this dandelion namjoon pic exist in our lives <3 i'll rate this a 9.5!

4. opposite of sun

this was part of my 1k followers celebration drabble, and above anything else, i like the title ahaha thank you my time lyrics.. thank you to the person who requested my time.. although i'd have to say i really have to stop writing this trope: jeongguk and oc are best friends, they've known each other since childhood, and jeongguk falls in love first. my friend said it mirrors the jeongguks in my other writings too much and might feel like just one character jumping around different universes instead of different characters. so, although overall i kinda like this writing, her words made sense and made me rethink my writing abilities (when do i not honestly). hmm.. i'd give this a 7.8 i think.

5. light of the morning

ouu whipped jeongguk is always so good, isn't it? still part of my 1k celebration, this continues with the couple from opposite of sun. i think this is slightly better than the previous part, but it's still classic euphorajeon-whipped-jeongguk, so i still feel eh about it, but i enjoyed writing it so it was okay i guess. the one thing that kept bugging me was how i portrayed the oc as a struggling college student with a part time job but she was able to book a spontaneous flight to new york, of all places.. where did she get the money did she somehow get hold of jeongguk's black card without his knowing or something T_T but! this is fiction, one written for fun, and it'd be nice for everyone if we just ignore that one crucial fact and just enjoy the way jeongguk was ready to melt into a puddle upon meeting the love of his life his best friend. rate: 8

6. never let go.

this mini part of the same couple from the last 2 writings just came about when never let go was released. it's just something i thought of quickly, i think i wrote it on the way to work... and partly inspired by the things my friends and i said (we joked how the lyrics are too romantic for it to be fan song, but we all know that's how jeongguk talks to us so we shouldn't have been surprised, really T_T) i'll probably rate this a 8.3 because i like it even if it's short ahaha.

7. namjoon soup-fork drabble

this drabble literally came about when i was holding a fork in my hand. and namjoon's words about soups and forks -- "If life is a soup then I'm a fork" -- has always stuck with me, so it was just written out like that. i don't know why it ended up like low-key flirting? instead of just light teasing? like i meant to write in the beginning? but hey, life doesn't always go as you planned, even if it's as small as a namjoon drabble. i'll rate this an 8.

8. twenty-seven.

i debated whether i should put this here because this is a birthday post and not a fiction, but figured it's still a writing, so i decided to include it. for the past few years, i'd been writing a handwritten letter for jeongguk's birthday, but since 2023 i honestly just ran out of words (they start to sound the same each year, so..) and decided to stop altogether. however, last year i was feeling like i could write something and then this piece was written. it's just literally my journey with jeongguk for the past 8-ish years.. which looking back, is a long time.. ahaha... i was crying by the time i finished writing this. rate: 10/10 would recommend (i'm kidding pls give this a rating if you'd like)

9. if it's a dream (i'll come around)

the last writing of 2024! so sorry i couldn't keep my promise of continuing this series in less than 4 months.. but honestly this one was also hard to finish because as usual, time!! won't let me!! (you really should blame my job for making me tired all the damn time.) this one is classic euphorajeon-whipped-jeongguk with some cliches sprinkled in because why not???? it's not like there's enough cliches in fiction!!! (kidding. i rolled my eyes when i wrote that part but had a mindset of fuck it we ball!! because i just really wanted to finish the piece HAHA) but like can you imagine whipped jeongguk just walking around new york with his best friend behind the camera like AAAAH i couldn't stop thinking of those "your camera roll if jeongguk was your boyfriend" edits because!!! bestfriend to boyfriend!jeongguk !!! WAAGHHHH (sorry.) rate: 8.5 probably because we all love cliches dont we?

i'll be honest i'm in the process of writing the next part but my brain is really fried these days that all i do is play games on weekends.. sad, sad life.

thanks for reading this long-ass post of me yapping away! if you want to talk with me (who knows..), im more active on twitter / X with the same username!!

(p.s. if anyone has good fic recommendations for me to refresh my brain pls share... preferably oneshots so i can read in one sitting without thinking about it at work... thank you... ^^)

ok bye bye now i'll probably be gone for another 4 months haha.. ha..

[timeregistry]

omg dude i love ur sebastian!!!

and if u want, i’ll tag u when i post my painter design

i’d also like to hear more of ur ramblings about pressure or anything of the sort :3

have a good day!!!

TYSM!!! I'm glad people like him 🥹He's been my everything since I got into Pressure, let's just say that the AU of my fic had lived in my brain since forever before I started writing LOL

OH and also I would ADORE to see your Painter design PLEASE 🙏🙏🙏 I LOVE PAINTER SM I LOVE ALL PAINTER DESIGNS

ALSO sorry for answering this so late I got injured (again...) and it was hard to write but also I’m INSANE like IM CRAZY you literally put on a silver platter that I can talk about ANYTHING like DUDE. IM CRAZY. I jump around fandoms a lot so to say that I have a lot on my mind apart from work is an understatement (let's just say earlier I went crazy about regretevator...... it's bad)

SO to organize my thoughts, I've been really wanting to actually talk about like... some thought process stuff of my fic (A Human's Touch) and things that happen before the fic... since SO MUCH happened but I don't mention it because we are put at a specific moment in the story... VERY VERY Sebastian and reader focused so TW: Sebastian Solace 😔

Under cut because its LONG. LIKE. REALLY LONG. I HAVE TOO MUCH TO TALK ABOUT LMAOOOO

SO pressure's lore is a MESS don't get me started on how I feel about the current lore so I decided that since no one really saw the timeline or pretends it doesn't exist as they should, I feel it's a bit unlikely Sebastian would be able to convince Painter to start killing people after meeting it TWENTY MINUTES PRIOR T_T (and hacking all of Urbanshade network in that time?!) so that's why I actually made (in chapter 7 that is not on tumblr rn LOL) them meet. I mentioned in a comment on AO3 since someone had asked smth about Sebastian and just to give an idea, the start of A Human's Touch happens a couple of months before the events of Pressure. SO at that point, Sebastian and Painter have known each other for months. I would LOVE to go into detail how I see their relationship is when the lockdown happens + what happens with reader but I DONT WANT TO SPOIL ANYTHING T_T so maybe when I finish the fic I'll go into detail as I'm not actually really planning on writing the actual like.... events of pressure w/ reader instead I guess, idk how to put it, just to let you in a little secret, Painter does know part of Sebastian's plan when the lockdown happens in this universe.

So enough about Pressure lore and what I changed from that, I wanted to talk a bit about before the events of the fic... I didn't write it since I felt it would be very Sebastian and reader centric and since it was most likely going to be in a platonic sense I wasn't sure if people would be interested! To admit something since I don't imagine many people will read this but originally I had written a fic that was with Sebastian (it was more romance with him tho as I was down HORRENDOUS I wrote so much Sebastian y’all have no idea I got jumpscared trying to find some of my old things to reference and seeing the sheer amount of Sebastian) which was actually where the original summary of A Human's Touch came from HELPPPP LIKE ORIGINALLY IT WAS A PARAGRAPH OF MY FIC I JUST EDITED IT T_T I never post what I write I'm surprised that I even posted A Human's Touch but I digress. Anyways I had originally considered writing a platonic version of that fic (not like that one was finished) but in the end I never did since again, I didn't think anyone would read it--

Either way, here is a TLDR of how reader and Sebastian met. Basically reader came in as an intern to Urbanshade right? How I imagined it was that they actually had seen Sebastian when he was still in his big ol heavy containment aquarium. While I think he still needs to go there when Urbanshade wants to contain him, I imagine reader met him when he was MOSTLY in there... While he could leave as his status as an MR-P made it so that now he could leave and free-roam, I imagined that he never really saw a reason to do so... I think atp Urbanshade hadn't really found a good reason for him either, as he was soo unpredictable because of how aggressive he was with them. SO they just leave him in his cell basically, its good to see if there were any longer terms effects of his… condition. He would normally just look into the window and look at any of the scientists.

Now how I imagined his heavy containment cell was that like, an aquarium. Like there is this big window where you can see him but I imagine that he had this like area at the surface of his cell that there is like a walking area but it was specifically because not only is he an MR-P so its like a little better than his old cell but also because he was exactly for an experiment that was to make humans be able to breathe over and underwater so I like to think they want him to take in oxygen naturally anyways–

MS Paint jumpscare but something like this

ANYWAYS I imagine reader had seen him from the window that you can peak in from just him swimming around and being completely fascinated by him. Stuff happens, and they decide to try to see him without their superiors knowing so... I decided I would pull directly from one of my old fics:

You first met Sebastian fully at night, when most scientists were already resting in their own quarters. You were already shown where you would stay, yet you couldn’t get the image of Sebastian out of your mind. You wanted to meet him directly. He was the first of the subjects that you met, against all safety protocols and you remember he himself mentioning it. He was rude and in all ways, a certified asshole, immediately tricking you by making you walk a bit too close and effectively making you fall in his tank. He didn’t keep you there however, you knew he didn’t like your presence but you couldn’t resist wanting to learn more about him.

How I imagine reader's and Sebastian's relationship was just, a really rocky start because we have reader who wanted to know more about him and then we have Sebastian who didn't want to know anything about reader because they are just another scientist. He never left his containment either because I imagine that the other prisoners would give him funny looks and dislike his presence because of how he was. I think... he was very bitter. It took a lot for him to warm up as he did… Especially with someone who was one of the scientists! 

“You really don’t know do you?” Sebastian snarled slightly, his casual facade crumbling briefly as his expression went more of pity. “Of course you don’t, you keep coming in here as if I can’t kill you right here and now.” You frowned at him. “I’m here to learn-” “You are trapped. They have you right where they want you. The moment that you have served your purpose they will kill you.” He put a claw near you, his other hand flaunting his sharp nails. You took a step back, sensing danger unconsciously. He noticed, his trained eyes on you like a predator. “Word of advice, start making yourself useful and leave me alone.”

I always saw that reader was treading on treacherous waters... always seeing Sebastian secretly at night and after talking with him, he would eventually warm up because whether he liked it or not, I think he was lonely. Because he would live without speaking with anyone and talking to someone who's a lot more genuine... I don't think the reader is like the other scientists at all, I don't think that it would even be known what Urbanshade was doing! I think Urbanshade just flaunts a lot and doesn't hide anything, but makes any new interns or hires go through the longest paperwork part of their work EVER to see if they are dedicated before kinda forcing the unethical experiments... basically like roping in with mundanity and beauty, the curiousity on how these beautiful sea creatures are made only to find out that it was all done with torture--

SO my point is that reader didn't know what happened to Sebastian, nor knew why he was so standoffish, they were forced to do ONLY paperwork and their free time went into seeing the subject that they can see very very easily. It was like... just the curiousity of what Sebastian was, what he was capable of, etc etc. I don't think reader even knew that he was... human. And he doesn't mention it either... I think he only mentions it soooo much later... As for Sebastian’s side of things, I imagine he decided to entertain the reader only because atp he’s thinking he can probably use their naivety for his escape!

ANYWAYS to skip ahead because I have JUST SEEN THE SHEER LENGTH OF THIS IM SOOOO SORRY I LOVE LOVE TALKING ABOUT MY CREATIONS IDK lore dump moment

So at one point, Urbanshade notices that reader is interacting with Sebastian, however, instead of like, stopping them, I imagine that Urbanshade instead saw an opportunity. Sebastian doesn’t talk to ANYONE so suddenly finding out that he’s talking to someone??? 

It was only much later that he actually warmed up to your presence, choosing to follow you around when you were stuck doing your boring paperwork. You were starting to regret applying here as they wanted to wait a really long time until you could actually do any hands-on work. However, Sebastian’s presence made the situation a lot more bearable, as he would sometimes read over your shoulder and mention things that you would outright forget to write down. Because of his seeming attachment to you, your higher-ups completely changed your temporary job of reading and copying down paperwork into instead… still do the same thing but also look over Sebastian’s behaviour. They would say how you were the only person that he got along with, which meant it was the opportune moment to find out more about him and fill his file even more as it was severely lacking apparently. And so started your Behavioural Scientist job with no hiccups whatsoever. Especially not after begging Urbanshade not to let you go after the internship ended, convincing them that you were the only person who managed to get even remotely close to Sebastian’s good graces. No issues at all... 

OH and at some point reader is given their own office and it’s because they had a normal desk like other people before but because Sebastian is.. big… he would push the desks all the time and he would apologize to the scientists but you can tell he wasn’t being genuine as the malice was obvious on him SCREAMING but after having TOO MANY complaints about Sebastian following reader around and reader insisting that they need him to follow because it’s their job, Urbanshade just gave them a temporal office (that became their permanent office for years to come)--

I think it’s there where Sebastian starts seeing reader as a “friend”, they never hurt him and quickly realise that reader was genuinely not evil like the scientists that experimented on him. While Urbanshade made reader the behavioural scientist, they started working with other subjects as well (as you guys know) and Sebastian started seeing reader in a much more positive light. 

Reader goes on vacation sometimes, brings a lot of trinkets and pictures of the outside world to Sebastian. I think he tries to keep a strong face when he gets some of those things, he misses the outside world. I like to think reader asked him once what was his favorite snack and he would mention something from Chile and reader would get it for him and that’s probably the first time that he does cry in front of them because of the whole emotion of having something that’s basically a comfort food after so long. It was like a taste of freedom. Something to look forward to and not give up to Urbanshade. And seeing as how reader didn’t look disappointed or in any negative emotion I think that’s when Sebastian just completely changed his perspective. The idea where now in his grand plan of escaping the Blacksite that he had been making the moment that Urbanshade stopped doing the extreme experiments and let him walk (slitter?) freely now would include reader. 

While he knows reader is there for the other subjects too, he also knows that they are mostly there for him counting as I imagine there is a lot of subjects that reader can’t understand (like the angler… or pandemonium…) and while Sebastian knows a lot of them thanks to working with reader so closely (him reading all these classified documents) that he weights if he would escape the Blacksite he would want to take reader with him. I think at first when they met he was like they might die but its a sacrifice for his escape (they are but another scientist), but now he’s like if they die I die (“I have failed.”).

BASICALLY I imagine their friendship that is very slowburn but in the end they become extremely loyal to each other, reader doesn’t know that they are part of his plan now. I mention it in A Human’s Touch but Sebastian has this hidden room where he keeps all these things and he probably has written (in a coded language) a whole plan of his escape + what he would do once he gets out of the Blacksite. At first it only included him but the longer he spent with reader the more he kept in mine their safety as they are the only friend he’s had for years and they are ATTACHED. 

Oh and a final note, Sebastian’s bracelets were given by reader, but i wanted to talk briefly on the obsidian one because I went with spirituality and symbolism as to why I took that material… obsidian bracelets mean protection, grounding and emotional healing… a lot of mental clearance and transforms negative energy to positive ones. I like to think that reader got it for him after learning more about him, because just as he wants them to be safe, they want him to be safe too. Their biggest fear is that Urbanshade would want to experiment harder again with him again and/or kill him. Sebastian shares the same fear.

OK I think I am... done... I'm so sorry AGAIN if something doesn't make sense... feel free to send an ask.... That goes for anyone ofc but yes... I'm crazy but if you got this far here's a quick doodle I did for your troubles dear reader

[arty395]

OMG HAII I’ve been forgetting to send this: I read your fic a while ago and I just wanted to say that I really like the story !! I find it very interesting to see Basil living all by himself with his own apartment, poor thing he doesn’t even have Polly to accompany him 💔💔

I also really like your writing style, I feel like the way you write monologue and stuff fits Sunny’s thoughts very well :DD can’t wait to see where the rest of the fic will go with Sunny and Basil + maybe even everyone else back in Faraway :3

awawawawawa... THANK YOU!! i really appreciate seeing peeps interact with my fic in any way... especially like a month after the last chapter came out T_T

i have a bunch of cool ideas for basil planned out! sort of. relatively. kinda. mostly just thinking about this one silly detail that probably wont even matter that much

also thank you again for more kind words... they are so kind... i do kinda worry sometimes that im basically ooc'ing sunny with how much internal monologue i give him haha.

i do plan to include the faraway folks btw! i actually plan to write a lot more. assuming i dont wither up before chapter 10 or something. which! im trying to work on the new chapter still. just. a little torn apart by bad thoughts and uni. so a lot of the time i just dont really feel like im in the right headspace to write nice and sweet interactions i guess. like ive gotten away with writing half of a vent chapter with chapter 4 but... yanno. dont wanna revert the progress sunny is supposed to be making. thats one of the things i want to really focus on, as well! i hope that in the future when you read chapter 20 and look at the internal monologue you will go 'woah... it has changed so much since the beginning... this is truly character development'!

anyway, dont wanna spoil anything! just know that im a big fan of healthy sunflower so. expect that. but im also a big fan of flawed sunflower so. expect more toxic thought patterns from sunny.

uhhh i think thats all the thoughts i want to share. praying that i get a sudden burst of inspiration and finish the chapter by the end of the month. unlikely but yknow. a boy can hope.

[journalsouppe]

Casltevania (NES)!! Omg i loved this game so much, but that shouldn't be surprising since The Adventure of Link is my fourth favorite TLOZ game ahdjfskl

I wanted to test the waters with the series early but plan to actually start my playthrough once I finish my Zelda journal which will be sometime this year. I also want to try a new journaling style with using fountain pen art but I'm still experimenting with pens and the style itself so don't expect spreads to look like this in the future lmao

The journal is from Copticore on Etsy!! I also made a post reviewing the journal (it's one of my favorites that I own ^-^)

Writing typed below!

Rating: 8.5 Played: Fa 2023 Port: Steam, Anniversary Edition Language: English

Comments:

LOVE the music

hehe pot roast

really enjoying the gameplay

i have no idea why the chest spawned in stage 5

evil that I cannot set an item to a button and have to press up plus whip

it's always the damn flying enemies T^T

trying to understand the family tree/timeline

these environments fuck!!! T^T <3

I really like both of simon's designs

love the stained glass with medusa

i like how simon and the early belmonts have an iconic walk

(switched to energel due to dip ink bleed)

the pride of frankenstein sounds so cool

the grim reaper hallway is so long T_T_T

NOT THE MEDUSA HEADS T-T-T-T

DAMN THE HOLY WATER DESTROYED IGOR AND FRANKENSTEIN'S MONSTER

i forgot hearts are tied to items T_T

death is so hard T_T

really loved the video that went over the history of this game's speed runs

THE COGS ROOM IS SO COOL

oooo i like how similar the thunderbird and dracula boss fights are

omfg dracula's head in the floor

DRACULA'S DEMON FORM IS CRAZY LOOKING

i can't express enough how much i love the ost - I bought i vinyl of it ^^;

CHRISTOPHER BEE, BELO LUGOSI, BORIS KARLOFFICE, LOVE CHANEY JR... SCREAMING T^T <3<3

absolutely love this game so much

Summary:

To start: I am still figuring out a journaling style so all my early spreads will be a little rough. That being said, I love this game so soosossososo much. This is everything my little universal horror heart could ever want. I knew I'd enjoy the gameplay since I really loved the gameplay of TAOL but the monsters and level design and music just made me have even more fun than i was expecting. The game is very straight forward and nowhere near as cryptic as TAOL, both are very charming but at least you can play castlevania without a guide. The environment designs are unbelievably gorgeous. I would love to draw them someday. I really liked not only Simon but his mechanics. He has a slow, burly gait and wields a whip-- very different from Joust moving link with his sword (joust the game). It ensures you aim your whip properly as enemies have to maintain contact with the end of the whip. The boss fights were also diverse design and attack wise, it was nice trying to figure out new strategies. I loved so much about this game, I just gave it an 8.5 since there's no major story. However, I love that this game was a catalyst for the whole series plus anime adaptations. I am sooo excited to play more of the series, esp Super Castlevania IV!

[darkfeanix]

FIC WRITING REVIEW 2024

Not tagged, but rather stolen shamelessly from the meme lord of my dash (you know who you are) who posted theirs and said anyone who wanted to share with the class could do so.

Rules: Feel free to show whatever stats you have. Only want to show Ao3 stats? Rock on. Want to include some qualitative info instead of stats? Please do this. Want to change how yours is presented? Absolutely do that. Would rather eat glass than do this? Please don’t eat glass but don’t feel like you have to do this either. Artists and gif makers, please also join in with any quantitative or qualitative stats or facts you want to share about your year.

Words and Fics

4 fics published (time between most two most recent: approx. 7 1/2 months)

7,022 words

Top 3 Pairings

Shadowheart/Male Gnome Tav

Um... N/A

None

Top 5 4 3 by Comments

Perspectives (6 threads, 12 total)

The Life and the Death of the Wild at Heart (3 threads, 5 total)

Feel the Sun Breaking Through AND Never Gonna Give You Up (both 2 threads, 3 total)

Top 5 4 by Kudos

Feel the Sun Breaking Through (10)

Never Gonna Give You Up (9)

The Life and the Death of the Wild at Heart (5)

Perspectives (3)

Top 5 4 by Hits

Feel the Sun Breaking Through (249)

Never Gonna Give You Up (203)

The Life and the Death of the Wild at Heart (32)

Perspectives (29)

Fandom Events in 2024

Feast of Lights Not-So-Secret Santa (and I promise it will be finished just as soon as I've finished this university thing)

Writing Reflection

So, when I was writing those Shadowheart/Erino stories, I had a lot of big ideas, but sadly a lot of those big ideas never went anywhere (as so many of my big ideas are wont to do). And then there was a lot of upheaval in my personal life, around the time of that last BG3 fic, and in addition to take a leave of absence from university, I basically took a leave of absence from finishing stories. I have so many WIPs that I started in that period, many of which will probably never see the light of day. I crossed many fandom lines.

The long-awaited announcement of the imminent release of Dragon Age: The Veilguard trailer reinvigorated my love for that franchise, and with it a small creative spark was ignited. I wrote Perspectives with, again, big ideas of what would come after the game was released. I enjoyed the game, and there were moments of inspiration, but I never really wrote anything for that first character (Hissera, my beloved daughter, I am sorry T_T), and I haven't been able to commit to a second playthrough either.

This next year is going to challenge me on the time management front as my PhD once again becomes one of my main priorities, but I still really want to write fic, and I don't want another 7 1/2 months between posting. Small ideas feel like a good approach. Maybe even unconnected stories for a change; just some one shots without any expectations placed upon them.

Completely unrelated to writing, but still creative, I'd also like to have a go at learning to crochet this year. My mum crocheted as a hobby, and all of her crocheting stuff is still there. It'd be another way of keeping her memory close.

[sinisterexaggerator]

G: Do you write your story from start to finish, or do you write the scenes out of order?

L: How many times do you usually revise your fic/chapter before posting?

M: Got any premises on the back burner that you’d care to share?

N: Is there a fic you wish someone else would write (or finish) for you?

G: I write them from start to finish! I have ideas for scenes, but I keep them either in my head, or as a note in a word doc for later. I don't like doing things out of order. Ha!

L: I usually write a bunch, then edit as I go. Once I finish the whole chapter, I'll go back and reread the whole thing and edit as I go again. So, maybe once or twice once they are completed, but also intermittently as I write.

M: Here is one.

Here is another.

And another.

Annnnd another.

Oh, and another!

Guess what...

I have so many!!

Too many!!

Let's throw an AU in there!

One more!

N: Sometimes, I think I got in over my head with this series, "Tales of (Rebel) Scum and Villainy, but I still want to write it. Sometimes, I wish someone else would finish my GTA fic, but not *really.* I just have so much more to go and lost the hyperfix when Star Wars took over. T_T

[talanashta]

✏️ WIP Word Game

Rules: You will be given a word. Share one sentence/excerpt from your wip(s) that start with each letter of that word.

I was tagged by the every sweet and amazing @little-annie a couple weeks ago and forgot (T_T) so I'm getting to it now for WIP Wednesday. My word was LICK. (This was a hard one! I had to start 2 snippets mid-sentence!)

L

Lucas shook his head in the background, and Max looked offended.

“El and I want to watch the Breakfast Club, dipwad. You’re the only one who wants to watch Labyrinth,” Max told him. (From my Sept Stobin Extravaganza Day 8 Fill - Movie Night, that I still haven't managed to finish.)

I

I’ve had a crush on you for a really long time, but I’m not brave like you. I wish I was; I’m such bullshit. I’m too scared to tell you in person, so I’ll just have to be content with this letter to tell you how I feel. I couldn’t keep it in anymore after I saw you today. (From my fic for the Byler Big Bang, coming out in November!)

C

... Corroded Coffin was performing their regular show. It took three cars to get everyone there, but they managed. The kids were noisy as hell on the way there, but luckily Steve missed most of it, since he only had to drive Dustin and Robin. Jonathan had taken Argyle, Eden, Will, and El in his car, and Nancy crammed the rest in hers. He could tell by the worn out face Nancy was wearing when she arrived, though, that the rest of the Party had been just as wound up as Dustin was. (From Chapter 2 of Show Night)

K

... kind of scared you wouldn’t; I thought you might find it weird and creepy for me to be writing you and saying all this stuff when you have no idea who I am. I know girls find it romantic, or whatever, but guys don’t really talk about this kind of thing, so I wasn’t sure how you’d take it. I’m glad I didn’t scare you off. (Also from my Byler Big Bang fic!)

I tag @dame-zoom-a-lot! No pressure, but if you want to, your word is THEN.