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#I simply cannot stop listening to this#it’s so good#so haunting#the word play on curie eleison/kyrie eleison has been rattling around my brain for days#kyrie eleison#radium girls#Spotify
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guys how do I stop listening to omg by newjeans
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I've reached the point in my "not supporting taylor swift era" where I've gone from "I still respect her music a lot" to "Fuck her AND her music," and I think that's very sexy of me.
#like if you like her music good for you#but after hearing daddy i love him and other songs on ttpd i simply cannot#i am no longer just upset and disappointed with her#i am angry and done#wtf was bdilh#she seriously told her fans that she can date a racist if she wants to#and to stop bitching about it#and spent months letting her friends hate on joe#when joe did nothing wrong#ugh i can no longer enjoy her music#i wish i hadn't given the album a chance i didn't even listen to either of the past two recordings#idk why i thought this would be better#anti taylor swift#anti matty healy#swifties dni#anti ttpd
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the fact that ive discovered most of my fave artists because theyve opened for harry or hes talked about them/recommended them would be way more embarrassing if his taste in music wasn't one of the best things about him. like that man has an EAR
#i just started listening to orville peck and i simply cannot stop#same thing happened w wolf alice and muna#god when i think about the fact that he chose muna as his opening band for his first ever solo tour i will simply lose my mind#if only the same could be said for his taste in middle aged men to be life long friends with
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*distant sounds of incoherent gay screaming*
#personal#I promise I will stop bothering y'all with this eventually#BUT SHE'S SO. PRETTY. I SIMPLY CANNOT.#and she likes when I speak nerd and we both wanna learn to swordfight and PLEASE IF THERE IS A DIETY LISTENING LET THIS WORK#Tumblinweed rediscovers dating
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It always gets me how Justice did not change at all, like, he is not corrupted at all. It makes everything more tragic than it already is. The only thing that changed was his perception, which of course, naturally came due to the change of hosts. I'm mostly taking Awakening Justice into account and how he acts because that is where we can carefully observe him by himself, without Anders' influence on the matter. And his influence is everything on the point I am trying to make.
When we first meet Justice, he is fulfilling his nature of bringing justice to the people he thinks that need it. He is very outspoken about it, and is already ready to take action with or without Warden's help. For a supposedly peaceful spirit that Anders claims to have ruined with his anger, Justice is acting pretty angry here himself (This is not the only time either). This is one of the first things I want to point out that did not change much about the spirit. Justice was always fierce about his cause. However, what stands out to me in these scenes is when the witch calls him out on his idea of justice.
Justice, is that what you are calling it? What of their punishment, burning my house to the ground and with me in it?
Well, in this case, the witch is a demon and mocking Justice for funsies. But what she says actually gives a bit more insight about what kind of a spirit Justice is. The actions do not speak louder than intent to him, as long as it is within the lines he set for himself. In a way, he was always okay with a few… casualties in the name of justice. Even though it is as simple as burning down a house this time. Isn't violence for violence vengeance after all?
While we are on the topic of vengeance, let's not forget the way he is eager on avenging Kristoff, vowing to kill every darkspawn for his cause (I mean the way he literally calls it avenging is enough debate for some people but I want to continue). So how come wanting to take revenge on the offenders that wronged not only his host but many other people, is any different? How did this route did not take him to the road of vengeance but attacking the templars, who are also offenders that wronged his host and other people, is corrupting him?
The answer is of course, that it is not, it did not. There is no difference between those two for Justice, there is no difference between vengeance and justice. Punishing the ones who deserve it is all there is. There is no gray area for spirits the way there is in the mortal world, and we see this clearly in the way he judges Velanna and Nathaniel for their crimes. Despite what I said about him seeing intent before action, now he cannot see beyond their wrongs. This simply shows that if the intent is as clear as violence for violence, he understands. But he does not understand the gray area of Velanna mistaking the innocents as guilty, or Nathaniel taking back what used to be already his.
There might be none for Justice, but there is a difference between darkspawn and templars for mortals. For one, darkspawn are generally mindless, and has no moral compass for us to judge. Whereas templars are just people with different ideals about life, to put it kindly at least. (Which is worse, being a mindless cruel monster, or having the mind and morals to choose to be something else but going for being one anyway? Lol another discussion for another time). Templars are the gray area that Justice lacks the understanding of. When he vows to kill every templar like he did with the darkspawn, he does not suddenly turn into a demon, he is simply punishing the ones that were doing wrong, as he does.
From here we can say that spirits' judgments and mortal's don't exactly match up. Though, there is one idea that seems to match better than others, and that is corruption. As far as we learn from Justice, spirits do not know about corruption any better than we do. Spirit do bad, spirit go bad, right? So, when Justice starts to feel things that are associated with demons, such as envy, he starts to fear corruption. He says he does not want to learn how a demon feels, but he also states that he does see the wishful thinking of a demon wanting to cross the Veil for this world. He is conflicted at best about the whole thing. Still, he does not consider himself corrupted regardless. I think that the reason behind that is simply the fact that generally, the Warden can ease his worries when Justice confides in them. And that is another thing that says a bit about him. He seems to accept the lack of understanding he has in the world, and chooses to listen to someone who does. Though, not just a random anybody, someone he deemed just.
So, let's see. A fade spirit with identity issues and an anxious spirit healer walks into a bar…
When they merged and Justice accepted Anders' cause for himself, and when they went all crazy on the Templars, Anders was scared. He feared the worst immediately because he is taught the worst about possession. He knew that Justice was angry because of him and his ideals about mages. So he blamed himself, called it a corruption he caused. And as I mentioned, Justice is accepting of the fact that he has a lack of understanding of some things. Plus, he was already scared of corruption. So, when Anders, who is an educated mage about possessions and corruption claims that he is slowly corrupting the spirit, they held onto it.
Everyone in their life from this point on, do nothing but egg them on about it, on top of it all. They might not corrupt each other, but everyone else does by pushing them the idea that they are now an abomination. Anders starts to fear the nonexistent corruption more, and Justice is confusing the inability to just wipe all the bad out with sloth. We are talking about a being who comes from the Fade, which can be bent at will and a place of immediate action. This works well in Awakening because we are already fighting darkspawn nonstop, and we are in the middle of a war. But in Kirkwall? Everything requires planning and suspended ideals. Templars bring injustice everywhere they go, yet there is not much they can do. After many years of being held back, it is no wonder Justice is surfacing more and more, itching to fulfill his purpose. Because he was always outspoken, angry at the injustice in the world and eager to bring justice. He did not change, but Anders' morals and his' just did not align the way they thought it would. They forgot that in Justice, there was always a part that was vengeance.
At the end, Justice was one of the most stable parts of Anders' story. He couldn't count his vow in Awakening complete without reaching the root of the problem, which was the broodmother. And he could not do so in Kirkwall without getting rid of the Chantry. Because chantry is the root of the Templars, and being a bystander while you can help solve everything easily is unjust all the same.
Anders and Justice had the same cause, different morality and they were just confused because they didn't know any better.
#going through awakening again made me so annoyinnnng i cant stop thinking about justice#listen i have so much more to say#justice didnt become a corrupted spirit when he went on a vengeance run on the darkspawn#and he didnt become a demon when he went on another vengeance run on templars#but once people were included they became confused#and this kinda goes to show that spirits' morality is all about their awareness of a wrong-doing imo#spirits' idea of doing something “bad” could mean something totally different like they need to be held a different judgment on the matter#demons could be just confused beings with too much feelings they couldn't understand so they became them#if they embody their name as much as spirits do there is nothing they can do about it#they cannot simply be bad because the emotion is not the bad part about such things they are the natural part#the bad part of negative emotions are the fact that they cause actions that we mortals would count as bad#at one point what of the nightmare demon eating away the fears we would be glad to be rid of is so bad?#and justice going as far as a boom for his virtue isnt something we could judge him bad for its just his nature#y'know? does that make sense?#they were right to blow shit up tho lol#im sleep deprived#i wrote this for myself but u can also have it lol#justice#anders#justice positive#anders positive#dragon age#dragon age awakening#me own
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Do you guys ever think about the fact that Elias Bouchard could legitimately have been/be addicted to cocaine?
Because I do
A lot
#listen if you think about it#Jonah Magnus lived in the eighteen hundreds#and it's heavily implied that he was a rich upperclassmen#and what did rich upperclassmen do when they met with their little friends?#that's right!#cocaine#social cocaine was a thing back then#and we all know cocaine is highly addictive#and tbh I don't think simply switching bodies would get rid of that addicition#so yeah Elias/Jonah could very well have an addicition to cocaine 👍#(if anyone has any fics abt this pls pls tell me i cannot stop thinking abt this it's so fucking funny)#elias bouchard#jonah magnus#the magnus archives#tma#tw drugs#shut up mori
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some of y’all just rly rly have the audacity huh
#listen im getting real annoyed#ive put it in my tags#ive asked ppl not to do it#what do i get????#oh im sorry i know u dont want it but here are my opinions#that i rly didnt need nor want to know#would it kill u to not do that?????#are y’all just trying to hint me to do smth? cause boy#im telling you#thats not the way to do it#are you kindergarteners?#do you simply cannot read? what is it that youre smoking#should i just write it in my art directly?????#deadass one of my art have a fuckin shitshow of a reply section#i dont care if ur joking or not#we’re not friends#wag kang feeling close taena???????#STOP TELLING ME WHAT I SHOULD AND SHOULDNT DO IN MY ART#more annoying is that i literally just started in this fandom#a month ago lmao goddamn#can u let me settle down first?
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HELLOOOO
#IM !!!#i even stopped playing totk just to listen to the early access#i hate angsty things so im nervous for this but i simply cannot ignore this
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Do people realize this isn't unique to Disney? Cuz this is not unique to Disney. Other corporations are already doing this and this isn't new. Wish there could've been this big of a reaction about it before someone actually died 🙃
#I remember like last year(?) or something McDonald's added the same clause to their app#and i think a bunch of other companies followed - I can't recall if Disney added theirs before or after McD's#i feel like it was after. but anyways. the point is - this isn't unique to Disney.#a bunch of other companies figured out they could do this shit and decided to sneakily add it into their terms and conditions#because “well if you don't agree to it then you can just not use the app :)”#which is bs. Disney makes it so there are shows only available on D+ with actual canonical implications to other media-#and then freak out about any and all pirating. so if you want to indulge in the Content™ you “have to” use the streaming service#and therefore “have to” sign the agreement.#the McDonald's example is especially heinous imho because in some places McD's was and still is the only place-#to be able to buy a meal with enough calories to last you a full day for cheap.#but then they jacked up their prices and made it so the only way you could still get a full day's meal for cheap is to use the app#which means they are specifically targeting the most vulnerable individuals-#by making it so you *cannot* use the app without agreeing to never sue them.#like literally even if you had the app for forever before they changed the terms and conditions#they signed you out forced you to agree to the terms and conditions before you could use the app again.#corporations have been doing this shit. folks tried to warn people about it back then but nobody listened until a woman fucking died#unfortunately as far as i am aware what corporations are doing is completely legal and this cannot be stopped.#you as the consumer are technically required to fully read the terms and conditions (even though no one does)#when you click “i agree” that is - as far as I'm aware - legally binding.#and these apps are technically not necessities so by all means legally the companies can say “well then simply don't use these apps”#so if you decide to use the apps or streaming services or whatever-#then you are also deciding “of your own volition” to agree to an arbitration agreement.#and then you can't get them in trouble for having the arbitration agreement by claiming ignorance-#because technically you said that you knew about it when you clicked “i agree”
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Why is it when I always want to do something cool is when I have fiddy assignments due tomorrow night
#SPOWTS#like I wanna actually write that fucking hfjone tlou fic I’ve been trying to revamp and listen to more and fucking MOVE#but no I have other shit to do#and the thing is is that I physically cannot do anything else until these assignments are done#I will feel empty if they’re not done#and procrastinate when I stop because I remember what it’s like to have fun again#Saturdays aren’t really part of the weekend for me anymore more than it is an extension to get shit done#Sundays are usually the one day I get off but it goes by too fast and that’s assuming I get everything done by Sat night even though#I’ve been working on this stuff since Friday night#AND I’m sick so I decided to stay home ONE day instead of forcing myself to go to school#and I fall behind by so much or I simply don’t understand the work we’re doing by the next day#a never ending cycle#I’ve been tired all day yet I cannot sleep nor take that coughing medicine (which makes me fall asleep) because of all of this#it’s sad#but it’s my own little hell#I’ll probably never escape#but eh#survive till summer right?#is this a vent#I think it’s a vent#sorry gang will shut up now
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the thing about listening to rewatch podcasts and trying to gif scenes theyre talking about to make corresponding posts with the commentary is that i dont know what the fuck part of the episode what i want is at and i gotta basically listen to the whole ass thing again
#i gotta start writing down time stamps#but the problem is so often i am listening to these things when im like out on walks with my dog#and i simply cannot stop and take a screenshot
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the horrors are haunting me again so of course instead of reaching out to my friends or trying harder to find a therapist, i, instead, rewatched scream 1996 bc it's a comfort movie and i cannot dwell on my lingering trauma if i am thinking about how hot billy n stu are. i rest my case ur honor.
#i literally cannot be sad when i hear GF say “can ya handle that?” in the first bit w drew berrymore#LISTEN THAT LINE ALWAYS HITS ME SO HARD#LIKE IIII#I CANT HANDLE IT SORRY SIR I AM MENTALLY ILL#i cannot handle it i cannot i simply cannot#GOD and the praise when she guesses michael myers correctly#“but youre doing so well!”#AAUAUAUAUAUAUAGHHHHHHHHHHBHBHHBHHHHHH#I DONT HAVE A PRAISE KINK I DONT I DONT STOP SUGGESTING IT#I DONT OKAY#its just#he says it rlly nice#thats ALL#i am so fucking weak dude i love scream '96 sm billy and stu ate i fear
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When The Dust Settles | Arthur Leclerc x Ricciardo! Reader
Summary: Arthur and Yn have been competing for years to be known as the best sibling on the F1 Grid. When the highs of the sport wear off, they realise that nobody can empathise with them better than each other.
Warnings: Danny Ric’s exit. Swearing. Frenemies to lovers.
Requested: Yes by @1800-love-me
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yn_ricc when your brother gives you free clothes and then pays you to wear them? i think i like this little life
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danielricciardo i didn’t pay you to post your underwear online! cover up
→ yn_ricc omg stop embarrassing me or i’ll tell mum! i’m trying to be supportive of your business venture
→ user these two are my favourite grid siblings, i swear
arthur_leclerc yeah, well me and my brother have matching ambassadorships
→ yn_ricc okay, and..? you don’t look as hot as i do when modelling it
alexandrasaintmleux pretty girl
→ user i love how yn actively terrorises alex’s brother in law but she still stans her
user for someone who claims to hate her, arthur liked this within 2 mins of it being posted
landonorris why hello there
→ danielricciardo no
→ landonorris but she looks hot!
→ arthur_leclerc you don’t want all of that. trust me
→ yn_ricc can’t a girl decide for herself
→ arthur_leclerc you’re not a girl
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arthur_leclerc what a special moment, couldn’t be prouder
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yn_ricc my brother did it first
→ user oh that’s cold
→ user love how she congratulated charles on his post but says this on arthur’s
→ user gotta let everyone know she’s the better sibling
scuderiaferrari okay but the hair ruffle was our favourite moment
charles_leclerc my brother! we did it! we won monaco!
→ arthur_leclerc YOU won monaco! je suis si fier de toi
yn_ricc also, why are you using that poor puppy for a thirst trap. put your chest away. it’s nothing special
→ arthur_leclerc i ignored you once. stop trying to get my attention. i’m busy celebrating my brother
→ arthur_leclerc and i’ve been told i have a very nice chest!
→ user oo someone took that personally
user these siblings have my heart
→ yn_ricc did they kidnap it?
→ user miss girl saw all the comments praising the affectionate moment between charles and arthur and decided to go on a rampage
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f1 when you’re in a “who’s the best f1 sibling” but these are your opponents
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yn_ricc @/arthur_leclerc see how i’m first. again
→ arthur_leclerc how do i dislike a post?
user no see because yn is the better sibling. arthur is simply posting with a poster of a handsome man whereas she’s wearing a jumper of her brother’s most disgusting moment
→ yn_ricc you tell ‘em, babe
user arthur is defo the better sibling. he attends more races and he’s always in team merch
→ yn_ricc that’s because arthur doesn’t have a life
→ yn_ricc and since he left red bull, daniel doesn’t have good team gear. sorry but you wouldn’t have caught me dead in orange
→ landonorris it’s papaya!
→ yn_ricc it’s disgusting!
→ arthur_leclerc see, internet people. this is why i am better
user omg little arthur and yn karting
→ user i love how he’s waving the flag around and she’s telling him off
→ yn_ricc he wouldn’t accept that i won
→ arthur_leclerc we crossed the line at the same time!
→ yn_ricc yet my lap time was faster!
danielricciardo that race was the bane of my existence for a whole year after. why would you remind me of it
→ charles_leclerc he complained about that race for ages. i cannot believe we have to listen to the same argument again
→ yn_ricc calm down, charles. it was just an inchident
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yn_ricc i’ve grown up watching you love this sport. i’ve grown up supporting you, even when you were on teams i didn’t support. my big brother, my biggest idol. you have done so much to be proud of. don’t let anyone take that away from you. i love you more than all the butterflies (but i can’t deny that i’ll be pleased if i never have to watch you do a shoey again) 🦋🩵
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danielricciardo 💙
→ user the fact that she’s the only person he replied to. the ricciardo siblings mean everything to me
user @/arthur_leclerc you can’t compete with that
→ arthur_leclerc damn
user she really is the most supportive sibling
→ arthur_leclerc i am right here
→ user this isn’t about you right now
lilymhe he’ll be missed so much, and so will you
alexandrasaintmleux i think you need a pick-me up brunch tomorrow. my treat
→ yn_ricc you might have to drag me out of bed first
francisca.cgomes oh beautiful yn. we will miss you sorely. i hope you find a reason to make it back into the paddock some time
→ yn_ricc don’t worry, kiks. i’ll be visiting you all the time so see sweet simba
user the fact that arthur hasn’t bullied her and she hasn’t replied to any of his comments show how serious this is. girly is heartbroken for her brother
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yn_ricc so what do normal people do with their sundays? need some ideas now that i’m dealing with unemployment, lost my job as best grid sibling
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arthur_leclerc you never had that title!
→ yn_ricc stay delusional, king
user um, looks like you have that sorted actually
alexandrasaintmleux i quite like a shopping trip, if you wanted some company
→ arthur_leclerc you’re supposed to be on my side in this war??
→ yn_ricc yes but she likes me more. and so does charles!
→ user out of pocket!
→ charles_leclerc ☕️☕️
user a man!
danielricciardo thank you for taking my loss so seriously
→ yn_ricc i made you an unemployment cake. how much more serious do you want?
→ arthur_leclerc and this is why i’m the better sibling. when charles lost monaco last year, i bought out a nightclub for the weekend
→ yn_ricc alcohol poisoning is not the answer. you’re a bad brother who tried to bump him off
landonorris okay but that smoothie looks like it’s about to spill all over your white stuff
→ user lando fearing the same thing we are
→ arthur_leclerc i hope it does
user i love how since arthur has had confirmation that yn is okay after the news daniel was leaving, he’s back on his bullshit
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arthur_leclerc celebrating my undefeated win as best grid sibling
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yn_ricc 🖕🏻🖕🏻
→ user do the pair of you have each other’s notifs on? how are you so quick
→ yn_ricc spite fuels us
user is that a woman? why is no one else freaking out about this
→ yn_ricc because he paid her to be in his pics
→ arthur_leclerc just because you do that, doesn’t mean everyone else does
user omg arthur on a date?
user okay but arthur and yn both posting a soft launch on the same day?? i've connected the two dots
→ user you didn't connect shit
user i wonder how she’ll feel about the relationship between arthur and yn
→ user no because he literally used their soft launch as a way to make a jab at yn
→ user what relationship. they’re age old rivals
→ user i’m just saying, to spend as much time thinking about the other as they do, there has to be something more there
charles_leclerc my little brother is growing up
→ yn_ricc *growing older. i don’t think it’s possible for him to grow up
→ arthur_leclerc says the person responding to every comment under my post
→ yn_ricc responds the person who posted a soft launch for clout
→ arthur_leclerc you did it first!
→ yn_ricc then you’re a copycat. i knew you just wanted to be me
alexandrasaintmleux what a beautiful picnic
danielricciardo are those flowers for me? little leclerc, you shouldn’t have
→ user ariana what are you doing here?
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daniel_ricciardo family dinner
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user daniel really decided he’d had enough of these two and decided to announce they were shagging
→ danielricciardo ew. i didn’t think that when i posted this
maxverstappen1 and i wasn’t invited?
user i had to double check the username ‘cause what do you mean, daniel is having dinner with the leclerc family
charles_leclerc i think daniel and i deserve the best sibling award for putting up with you two and your longing all these years
→ danielricciardo wdc winners in putting up with them
→ yn_ricc @/arthur_leclerc ha you had a crush on me! sucker
→ arthur_leclerc you were literally crying on facetime last night because you missed me
→ yn_ricc well that feeling faded fast
user daniel outing their relationship looks like it’ll be the end of their relationship
user they told me i was crazy! i said all along there was more to their competition than banter
landonorris but when i wanted to date her, you chased me around the mtc with a shoe
→ danielricciardo yeah, well that’s because it was you
→ yn_ricc but you approve of arthur? like, seriously, arthur?
→ arthur_leclerc i have feelings
user lost a seat but gained a brother in law
→ yn_ricc i’d rather he have the seat
→ user nice to see that dating arthur doesn’t stop the bullying
→ arthur_leclerc never
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Māzigon arlī naejot issa.
(Come back to me)
jacaerys velaryon x betrothed!reader
warnings; talk of injuries and blood, canon divergence, angst ending with comfort summary; reader was sent to rook’s rest and when she returns injured, jace nearly looses his mind a/n; reader is targaryen and in my head she is maybe rhaenyra’s cousin but i didn’t feel like fleshing out a whole family for her so you can use your imagination.
Jacaerys has been going mad. The Lady Y/N has been gone for hours, and every second more that the Prince was ignorant of her fate was a second closer to him flying off in search of her. She’d volunteered to fly to Rook’s Rest and face Cole’s army herself. Her dragon, Silverwing, is the largest dragon with a rider second only to Vhagar, but she’s been gone too long for the prince���s liking. He’d begged her not to go, begged his mother to send him instead, and neither had listened. He couldn’t deny the logic of the choice, but the longer she stayed at battle, the more images of her broken and bloody flooded her betrothed’s mind.
The Prince and the Queen stand on the balcony off his chambers. Queen Rhaenyra has tried calming her son, but to no avail. The sun nears the horizon, setting the sky on fire in shades of gold and red, but Jacaerys only watches for signs of his betrothed.
“I’m going after her,” Jacaerys blurts out, unable to contain himself any longer, pushing off the stone half wall.
“No,” the queen says firmly, moving to block her son’s path. Ever since the death of Prince Lucerys, the queen has kept her eldest son close, refusing to send him out on dragon back.
“She should have been back by now! I will not just sit here and await news of her fate,” the prince argues, his voice strained and fraught. The Queen’s heart aches at the panic in her son’s eyes.
“Y/N is a fierce dragon rider. I am confident she will return soon,” she says placatingly, reaching up to cup his cheek, but Jacaerys pushes her away.
“No, I can’t just sit here. She’s to be my wife; I’m meant to protect her, not sit safely by in a castle while she risks her life protecting my birthright!” The prince exclaims and pushes through the doors to his chambers, but a dragon’s shriek stops him in his path. He whips around, his eyes scanning the skies for the sight of his betrothed. And then he sees her.
Jacaerys sprints through the halls of Dragonstone, his steps echoing against the stone as he makes his way out of the castle. He should feel relieved, but the prince cannot shake the fear clutching at his heart.
As Jacaeryrs reaches the mouth of the Dragonmount, all his fears come to the forefront. Y/N isn’t in the saddle; instead, she’s clutched in the silver claws of her dragon, her arm hanging limply down. Silverwing sets her down gently before landing herself, and Jacaerys swears he can see the sadness in her massive silver eyes. “No, no, no,” Jacaerys mutters, dropping to his knees next to her body, tears blurring his vision as he pulls her body to him. Her clothes are covered in blood and singed, an arrow lodged in her shoulder, and a gash on her side. Her silver hair is dark with ash and crimson, but breath still moves through her lips shallowly, a small beacon of hope. Without any thought but her care, he scoops her into his arms, cradling the body of his betrothed to his chest and running as fast as he can back to the castle.
“Call the master!” He bellows to the first guard he sees, his voice fraught and cracking, the princely tone he maintains forgotten in his panic. “Hold on, my love.”
As he pushes his way through the doors of the castle, the Grand Maester and the queen, followed by Ser Lorrent, rush towards the pair. “Help her!” The prince shrieks at the maester, all manners forgotten, and his expression is wild with fear. Used to such behavior, Grand Maester Gerardys simply nods and inspects the body in the prince’s arms.
“We’ll take her to her chambers. I’ll meet you there,” he says and turns, hurrying off to gather supplies. Ser Lorrent steps forward, his arms outstretched, to take the girl from the prince, but Jacaerys pushes past him, following after the maester up to the stairs and hurries to her apartments.
As they reach her chambers, the prince lays her down gently on her bed, not caring for the state of her bedclothes. He stays close to her side as the maester gathers his things, watching her closely to make sure she stays breathing. Soon, Geradys comes to her side. “Excuse me, my prince,” he says softly to the young prince, but he doesn’t seem to hear. Rhaenyra steps forward, her hand wrapping around her son’s shoulder.
“Darling, let the Grand Maester work,” she says softly, pulling Jacaerys back a few steps. Rhaenyra tries to coax him away to wash and change, as he is now covered in his betrothed’s blood, but he refuses.
“No, I won’t leave her,” he says, pulling against his mother.
“We won’t; just give him space, my darling,” she coos, pulling him to her and wrapping her arms around her darling son, whose body is shaking. He relents to his mother’s pull, allowing him to be held like a child as he watches the maester struggle to keep the love of his life in the world of the living.
Nearly an hour later, the maester turns to the prince and queen, blood staining his front and hands and his eyes weary. “I’ve done all I can, your Grace, my Prince. It is up to her spirit and the gods now. But she is a fighter, if ever there was one,” the Geradys says, his eyes soft for the Prince of Dragonstone. The Queen thanks him, but Jacaerys isn’t listening, moving forward numbly. He kneels next to the bed, his shaking hands reaching for hers, the ash and blood washed clean by the maester. He presses a gentle kiss on her skin, gripping her hand tightly between his own.
“Y/N, my love,” the Crown Prince whispers, reaching up to brush a strand of silver hair from her brow. “You have to fight. Please, you can’t... I can’t lose you as well, please. Kostilus, māzigon arlī naejot issa. Ko-Kostilus,” he begs, his throat closed tightly as tears slip down his cheeks. Please, come back to me.
***
It’s a full day before Y/N wakes, and Jacaerys has refused to leave her side. Late afternoon light shines into the room, beams of light cutting the air and washing it in an amber glow. Amethyst eyes flutter open, blinking in the brightness of the room.
“Jace?” She mutters; her voice is rough and her throat is burning.
“Y/N!” Jace gasps, jumping up from his seat in the center of the room to kneel at her side, gingerly taking her hand in his. “You’re awake!” he laughs in relief, his vision blurring with tears of joy. He drinks her in, her weary smile, and the lilac swirls in her eyes he thought he’d never see again.
“How long-?” She begins groggily, attempting to sit up by the wound in her abdomen, causing her to grimace. Jacaerys gently pushes her back down to the pillows.
“Don’t move, my love. Silverwing brought you back one evening past. You were,” the prince swallows, his throat constricting at the memory, “badly wounded. Gods, I feared you’d not wake.” He reaches for her, his calloused hand cradling her head.
“I’m afraid you’re stuck with me, my prince,” she smiles. Even wounded and weak, her humor remains. Jacaerys laughs through his tears, moving to sit on the bed and covering her face in kisses, making her giggle until it causes too much pain in her stomach.
“What happened?” Jace asks, sitting back and holding her hand tightly.
“Aemond was there, and Aegon. It was a trap,” she sighs, grimacing. “We were engaged with Sunfyre when Vhagar appeared... I had to fly close to the ground to get out from between the pair, and their archers took advantage.”
“Gods, I will kill both of them for laying a hand on you,” the prince says, his voice crackling with anger.
“I’m alright, Jace,” she coos, reaching up to cradle his beautiful face in her hands. His anger subsides at her touch, her gentleness soothing the fires raging inside him.
“You’re wounded; you nearly died. If you’d arrived minutes later, you would have been passed by the time you returned to me. My love, Icouldn’t bear it if you-”
“Jace-”
“Promise me. Please just promise me you’ll be more careful,” the prince implores, his amber eyes fierce and wide.
“I promise, Jace. I do, and I will,” she says earnestly, their eyes locked for a long moment. “Come here,” she whispers, pulling on his hands to bring him closer. “Lay with me?”
“I don’t want to hurt you.”
“You could never. Please?” Y/N’s eyes plead with the prince, and he forgets any notion of courtly manners or what is proper for two betrotheds as he comes to lay in her bed. Careful of her injuries, he wraps his arms around her, pulling her frame into his, and she rests her head against his chest, sighing in relief at returning home to him. There they lay, the future king and queen of the Seven Kingdoms, basking in each other’s warmth and thanking the gods for another day of safety in this war.
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By the power of ADHD, I am immune to tinnitus. My left ear rings very faintly, and most of the time I can just completely tune it out because the constant invariable note cannot hold my interest for long. I only actually hear it when the other background noise of whatever environment I am in stops all of a sudden, and the ringing is the only one that remains, and then it gradually fades out like the end of an 80s pop song.
Sometimes I can make it fade out faster by trying to focus on listening to it. The more I focus, the more quiet and distant it gets, until I can't hear it anymore. In the battle of Curse of Infinite Whistle versus Can't Hear Shit Disorder, my ability to simply not notice my surroundings is an immovable object, but the inescapable noise is no unstoppable force.
I consider myself a fortunate man for how often my problems somehow manage to cancel each other out.
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