#I should've taken the flowers 😕 | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

mer-se · 6 months ago

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it’s crazy how people don’t think their death will affect people around them even if you aren’t close to them, or even if they were just semi passing encounters like no, others feel it. my neighbor died and as I park my car and look up at her dark little house it makes me so sad - I wanna go inside and turn on the lights she always has on. People notice and will feel it even if you don’t believe it.

#and I feel so bad because I saw her a couple of days ago and she was trying to give me flowers but I was rushing back to work #they’ve been on her porch she said take some and I haven’t and ew I feel bad #she was always trying to give me flowers and stuff because knows I like em #she was a lot but had a lot of issues going on #she use to come over crying all the time I knew so much about her life #and she genuinely cared about all of us over here #been like 16 years #I use to walk and also be chased by her dog way back in the day #stood in between her and her husband in a fighting match #one time she slid a picture of an owl under my door and we were so fucking creeped out because what #turned out it was her and she gave it to me because I love animals and photography hahah #l'd hide from her but feel bad and end up listening haha #she’d give me birthday cards because I share a birthday with one of her daughters #definitely an end to a era #I feel bad for her daughter she was sitting in her car while medical examiners were in the house #a bunch of ominious black vans outside for a bit #I should've taken the flowers 😕#I felt crazy guilty afterwards to the point I kept mentioning it and now I’m wondering if my spooky bitch body knew something #it's me and I wouldn't be that surprised I am all knowing even if I don't know you know?#seems odd #anyways I was thinking of leaving something for her daughter but I’m not sure when #she wasn’t home today #I’m not surprised by that #the flowers are still on her steps and it makes me really 😖#anyways life is short and weird and sad and ppl care

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