#I saw a cat sleeping on a tree yesterday btw it was very lovely

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Alpha Bakugou x Reader

- So Bakugou is 18+, he has is own agency and he’s currently the number 1 hero, he does have injuries from the recent chapters, and i’m assuming Izuku probably either retired bc his arms are never going to be fixed, or he’s lying in the lower ranks for the rest of his life purposefully.

So how does alpha Bakugou court you?!?!!

- He doesn’t like omegas

- or betas

- or alphas

- he hates everyone

- so one day he just stopped at his favorite book store

- bc mans likes to read

- the reason why he loves the library

- is bc 

- he will never admit this

- he thinks your adorable

- he doesn’t want a mate

- and then you exist

- like he wants to be around you 24/7

- at first he didn’t care about you

- he thought you were hot

- and that was it

- but when a man thought he could rub you through your panties

- then you caught his eye

- you roundhoused his face

- he fell to the ground

- like rly he knew he wanted to be around you

- so he started buying 2 books

- and would give you the other book

- it was him courting you behind his own back

- he didn’t realize his alpha was trying to court you

- but you accepted it

- “Thank you Mr. Dynamite”, you would thank him every day(i can't with his hero name)

- your voice would send his mind into a frenzy

- then he went to a cafe

- and he saw you working as a bartender there

- he stared at you secretly the entire time

- he thought about approaching you

- know he wanted to protect you

- someone was looking up your skirt

- you didn’t notice

- so you kept on working

- then he grabbed your clothed sex roughly

- your head snapped around

- that look in your eyes

- he could sense his rut coming in early

- you literally punched him and knocked at least 5 teeth out

- that’s how he knew you were the one

- but he had to run home bc he was going in a rut

- he kept jerking off to you

- your lips

- your smile

- your voice

- what would you look like underneath him

- what would your lips look like wrapped around his cock

- what your moans would sound

- he was obsessed with you

- and not even in a sexual way

- everywhere he went he could only see you

- it was starting to tick him off

- so he was in front of you

- “Hey, idiot, do you want to go get a coffee with me later?”, he asked

- you tilted your head

- your cheeks were flared up in embarrassment

- he could smell it

- it was just to intoxicating

- “u-um sure, I get out at 5″, you replied sweetly

- inside you were just screaming out in joy

- you always had a small crush on the pro hero

- and know he was inviting you out to talk

- he left

- then at 5 you met him outside the library

- he wore something a bit more formal the the usual sweatpants and sweatshirt

- he had a nice shirt and some jeans

- you both walked to a different coffee shop

- bc he was worried you would know that he knows that you work at that coffee shop

- you guys talk for a few hours

- your surprised he hasn’t shouted once

- in fact

- (he wasn't smiling) but you could sense he was very happy

- he ended up walking you home

- “it’s part of my job you get home safe”, he did not phrase that correctly

- you scowled

- “Your job has nothing to do with me”, you snapped

- he was sad that you snapped at him

- so he did the one thing nobody would ever expect him to

- he apologized

- “Ah, sorry I phrased that wrong, I meant it’s my duty as a hero to make sure you are safe and comfortable”

- on the inside he was screaming

- though he hid that

- the next day he got you a muffin and a book

- now it was regular for you two to go get a coffee at the coffee shop

- he was ecstatic 24/7

- he would go through ruts 1 a month now that he was closer to you

- and one night you 2 were walking to the coffee shop (it’s like 2 miles away btw)

- you guys stumbled past a drunk alpha

- when he saw you

- he was all over you

- groping you

- his knee was grinding against your pussy

- his stanky breath fanning over your marking spot

- Bakugou tried to stop him

- but you already had him pinned to the floor with blood seeping out of his mouth, and you were growling ferally

- and that was the first time he heard you growl

- he was in heaven

- like rly

- he loved ur growl

- it was so dominating and just TURNED HIM ON

- he arrested the man

- and made sure he was locked up for harassing his mate

- but you don’t know that yet

- and one day

- you let him in his house

- he was excited

- you lived alone

- and he got to see your nest

- when he came inside

- he was confined to the living room

- like every time he tried to explore

- you bared your teeth softly in a warning for him to stay

- you weren’t use to people being in your house

- and to be honest you kinda liked the power you had over the top pro hero in Japan

- he was wrapped around your finger

- he was slightly disappointed he could explore

- but he respected your boundaries

- so he sat at the couch and just took everything in

- you appeared with 2 cups of tea

- you continued to talk

- he was happy that he was engulfed in your scent

- but he wanted to make it smell like him

- but he knew you’d probably kick him in the balls and kick him out forever

- he sat in the same spot for hours

- but you were wrestles

- constantly fidgeting

- you were slightly distressed an alpha was in your house at 2 in the morning

- he noticed you were beginning to become overwhelmed with his presence.

- but he was happy no less

- “I’ll so you tomorrow L/N-san”, he purred before excusing himself of your house

- you locked the door behind him

- you didn’t notice but your heart was racing at a thousand miles per hour

- your cheeks were flushed red

- you picked yourself off and walked to the couch

- his scent lingered on the pillow he was resting beside

- a smile creeped to your lips

- you picked the pillow up and snuggled with it all night

- somehow it made you feel like he was sleeping beside you

- the actual thought of sleeping next to him had her squirming uncomfortably

- so the next day you were working at the library again

- you were on a ladder sorting out the books

- “Nice view”, someone underneath you commented

- you scowled and hit the man in the face with your foot

- “Get out”, you hissed

- he left

- then the front door opened

- you climbed down from the ladder and peered around the corner

- Bakugou was there

- he had dark circles under his eyes

- but he was still happy to see u

- he won’t tell u but he jacked off to you again

- again

- as in this is at least the 10th time he’s jacked off just to you

- you smiled softly

- “Helly Mr. Dynamite”, you greeted him

- “Hello L/N-san”

- today he invited you to the park with him

- you agreed hesitently

- you were socially awkward

- I mean yesterday was the first time someone was in your house

- so when you were at the park

- like you were in awe

- you especially likes the lake

- it was closed off to the public for cleaning

- you couldn’t stop gazing into the clear water

- it was so pretty

- just gorgeus

- and then the tree’s

- you had never really admired their beauty

- but here

- the pink blossoms fell from the trees

- and a single one landed on your palm

- it was amazing

- “Can we come to the park tomorrow?”, you asked turning your head around to slightly look at him

- he was smirking

- “Whatever you want L/N-san”.

- you turned around 

- “you call me F/N if you want you know”, you pointed out

- he was flustered at how direct you were

- “i-in that case, whatever you want F/N-chan”.

- you smiled brightly

- he took you to a pond

- baby ducks were swimming in the water

- a little one came swimming over to you

- you reached out

- it clambered onto your hand

- water dripped onto your hand

- you cupped the baby duck perfectly

- a purr emitting from deep into your chest

- you looked so beautiful like this

- Bakugou couldn’t help but smile and sneak a quick photo of you

- Bakugou got you an ice cream

- then you invited him back inside you house to warm up from the cold

- this time you didn’t bare your teeth when he peered around the corner to the kitchen

- you didn’t bare your teeth when he walked in the kitchen

- he turned the corner to try and enter your room

- then he could hear a soft growl come from you

- he then passed your door and the growl stopped

- you started to cook dinner

- just a simple recipe your mother taught you

- it was just rice and chicken

- like it was really simple

- but it made anyone’s mouth water with the taste and smell

- he started to explore every inch except for your room

- his nose knuding into your coat

- he could smell your scent

- this was the strongest he’s ever smelt it

- his eyes rolled back into his head

- you smelled so sweet

- he quickly moved on so he wouldn’t appear suspicious

- he looked to see another room

- you couldn’t see him

- you had a beautiful house

- your house was big

- there was a patie in the middle of your house

- a huge shrine was in the middle of it

- there were lit candles

- he opened the door

- and saw a picture of a little boy with black hair and green eyes

- it looked like he had passed away

- he kept exploring 

- there wasn’t much after that

- just a few extra rooms

- an office

- really not much

- he went back into the living room

- you had finished making dinner

- “Do you want to eat here?”, you asked him

- “That would be amazing”, he replied

- you smiled and prepared 2 plates

- you both ate at the kitchen table

- he loved it

- like it was the first time he's had a home made meal

- since his mom just got pre made shit

- and he doesn’t know how to cook well

- so this was amazing

- in just a few seconds his plate was empty

- so him eating at your house became a thing

- he would walk you home

- you would cook dinner

- he’d probably sniff at everything

- he’d growl at your cat

- bc he doesn’t like you cat at all

- he has been trying to take you out on a date tho

- like he came up to you and asked if you wanted to spend an evening with him

- you declined

- he’s been trying for at least a month now

- you keep saying no

- he wasn’t even asking you directly

- like youd didn’t want to spend any time with him at all

- so he got angry

- stormed up to you in the library

- “You. me. dinner tonight, and you can’t say no”, then he stormed off

- you were in shock

- like he asked you out to dinner

- you were worried at first he would have an extravagant evening planned if you said yes

- and tbh you just wanted to go eat dinner at a restaurant with him

- you wore a red dress and black heels

- like you *italian kisses the air*

- that night he took you to a fancy restaurant

- and you two had a great time

- it was amazing

- he walked you home

- and when you walked inside

- he followed you

- and you didn’t know that

- so when someone spun you around

- and kissed your lips softly

- you were completely shocked.

- he left after that

- you were up all night thinking about him

- the next day you saw him at the library again

- and you were beyond flustered

 - you were a blushing mess

- he smirked and walked up to you

- “WHat did you think of last night?”, he asked cooly

- you could face him like thats how embarrassed you were

- “I-I l-like t-the food, i-it was very n-nice”, you stuttered and looked away

- “Thats not what i was asking about”, he purred

- “What did you think of the kiss?”

- you could’ve died right there

- you just froze

- y/n.exe has stopped working

- He chuckled and shook his head

- “I think you liked it, so know that I know you did, I wanted to ask you something”, he chuckled and grabbed your hand and led you to the storage room

WARNING NSFW UP AHEAD

- he brought you to the storage room

- locked the door

- and pressed himself flush against you

- so you could feel his hot breath on your neck

- “Ever since I saw you”, he mumbled softly

- “I knew you were my omega”

- he started to kiss your neck softly 

- “You looked so hot when you beat those men up”

- he kissed your collar bone softly

- you knew he intended to go lower

- and you were OK with it

- it might seem rushed in others eyes

- but to you and him, it didn’t

- I mean, it took him 3 months to get you on a date with him, and it took 1 month of convincing 

- he looked up at you

- “Can i?”, he asked softly

- you were to shy to actually form an answer

- you just nodded your head

- he quickly took your shirt off leaving you in a skirt and bra

- he stared at your body with love

- you were so beautiful

- he kissed your cleavage before going behind your bra and just ripping it off

- your breasts bounced when they were released from their condiments

- you naturally covered up your chest from his eyes

- the audacity

- he was mad

- why would you be shy of him?

- Why wouldn’t you show him your body?

- like he was legit pissed

- he grabbed your hands and pressed them to your sides

- and he quickly latched onto your hardened nub and started to suckle harshly

- you bit your lip to hold back moans

- his other hand massaged the other breast

- he loved your taste

- and how your body slightly jerked everytime he rolled his fingers over the sensitive flesh

- he started to kiss your breast

- and slowly made his was down your stomach

- kissing at your flesh softly

- his fingers hooked around your skirt

- he slowly took it off 

- and know you were only in your panties

- which were soaked btw

- he slowly took your panties off and stared at your exposed heat

- you looked away shyly

- he started to kiss your lower lips

- he discarded his pants and boxers so he was only in a loose shirt

- he quickly picked you up and pressed you gently against the wall

- your wrapped your legs around his waist

- he faqed u in a storage room

- then he marked you

- and you two bonded for life

[wishingfornever]

9/8/17 – No Contact: Second Day and Still Thinking of You

Yesterday, I told NS Region Founder (NSRF) that I’m taking time off.  He was very understanding, just asked me to log in once a month.  Thing is, I set my nation to vacation mode so I can be offline for two months.  I need to log back in by November.  Last night, I redid my calorie count and I was 300 short of 1500.  Lo and behold, a cup of noodles?  300 calories.  Unfortunately, they’re empty but I’ve had a lot of fruit today.  I’m just trying to prevent muscle loss.

Seems most my entries tend to talk about things I missed out on from yesterday.  Hope that trend stops soon.

At least this happened early this morning:

((The Following was originally a link to my own Facebook.  In the interests of protecting myself and everyone I’ve mentioned, I’ve copied someone posting on my Facebook talking about their daughter and referencing when I used to babysit for her.)) "So little Miss gets a 'new' babysitter for one night tonight. She's demanding her 'crazy' babysitter. When asked "who's the crazy one"? ....."that one guy who makes me laugh!" Thank you.... You can't be beat!” It’s touching.  :/

Anyways, I came up with an idea.  In case of an emergency, update the blog. It’s been the only tab to continuously be up for this entire affair.  I update it daily and if you really need me to check it, you can ask me “Check the blog.”  If anyone were to check our messages, it wouldn’t mean much.  They’d have to actively find your blog just to get in it.  You can send me a message saying, “Need help, pick me up at placename immediately” and I’ll go to help as best as I can.  Or maybe you can use it for other messages, ask me questions. I don’t know, use it for “ICE” situations.  Or maybe keep updating.  >.> I ordered that tea tree shampoo stuff.  I found it myself and ordered two bottles for $32 total.  It’s not that bad, they gave me free shipping.  It’s just that it’ll take a week for it to get here. That’s fine, I’m optimistic.  Honestly, I wouldn’t have been able to have discovered tea tree soap without you and this may have been far worse. It’s pretty bad now, but again… could be worse. I tried giving my dad some dragon fruit.  He didn’t seem to like it that much, saying it doesn’t have a lot of flavor.  The dragon fruit from yesterday was more sweet, I’ll admit, but it was still good. I gave him just a bite so I basically ate the whole thing.  He’s making rice which I’ll need to calculate the calories.  Last night before I got the ramen, I checked the sausage links he used and they’re 200 per link.  Apart from the sausage, should be healthy in moderation.  Bound to have a bunch of veggies and rice is naturally filling.  Just can’t put cheese in it, which is fine because we ran out. As I write this, Kiki is laying next to me.  She’s been extra cuddly as of late.  I left the door open last night so she could sleep by my feet.  She’s a good cat.  Miller just came back in.  Still refuse to call him Balless because my dad sucks with names. Then again, Kiki is French for “Kitty” so maybe I’ve inherited that trait. My mom is coming back.  I think she’s just checking on me because my sister said I was crazy and suicidal.  Checking my arm, I might have some light scarring but it’s difficult to notice.  Btw, not sure if I mentioned this, but my nose leaking?  I had a sinus infection.  Gone now.  If it were a brain leak, I’d have to have suffered a brain injury and the liquid from my nose would have to be clear. Thing is, when I was looking it up, it was the same side nostril as what everyone else reported.  Weird, right?

I think you’ve heard me reference how humanity is an inefficient design, citing all the little dumb things like muscle cramps or eyelashes in eyes.  But I don’t give the human body enough credit. There are a lot of things that would destroy the human body and it’s been adequate in eliminating those threats.  So what if we still suffer from the common cold?  That common cold won’t kill you.  I don’t give a lot of credit when credit is due. Do you know why snakes don’t lean against glass?  They don’t want to be windshield vipers. So, my mom and my sister are coming over.  I kind of don’t want to see my sister but so long as my mom is here, she should be mellow.  And by mellow, I mean she and my dad won’t get drunk and annoying. And, of course, my mom isn’t perfect either.  She’s been really… naggy since what happened between us happened.  Very overwhelming.  I need to talk to her about Texas though.  Adela asked me to talk to her first.

Just did the math on my dad’s rice.  I think with a single bowl, I hit the 1500 limit.  It’s hard to say.  Rice has a lot of calories, though.  I think it’s healthy, but I’m not sure.  Should be a lot of protein from the meat, but it’s kind of fatty being pork I think.  I’m concerned that my mom might bring home some extra food. I’m hoping it’s just fruits, but I feel like she’ll bring back McDonald’s or KFC or something.  Hopefully, I won’t be expected to eat anything else tonight. I didn’t take that Attend pill today.  I don’t feel so energetic or happy.  Maybe if I had a constant supply,  our relationship would have worked better.  If only…  Regardless, I don’t expect to get any writing done today so I didn’t take it.  I need to get started on it.  I want to get started on my sets but I’m going to wait for my stomach to settle. I wonder if you worry about me…  I wonder if you want to ask me if I’ll be alright.  Well, I am in case you’re wondering.  I’m all right because I have NOTHING left! Eh?  Get it?  Get it?!  Right and left and… well… it’s a joke implying you were all I had? Eh?  No?  Okay… Remember the lint picture you sent Adela?  I wanted to do that to you, but I didn’t think you’d appreciate it so soon. Finished my exercises.  I upgraded my sets from 20 to 25.  That’s five 5’s. You know me, five is my lucky number.  Not that I believe in luck or that sort of thing.  I jog around the room for an undetermined amount of time.  I’m tired but I’m not breathing heavily, I assume it’s because of the colder weather and the two fans I have going.  Great conditions.  I’m sweating now, though.  Muscles are sore.  I didn’t have the energy from yesterday or the day before, but I’ll work through it. During my ‘jog’ if you’re brave enough to call it that, I saw one of the kittens outside sort of strutting. His tail was up and his head was held high.  He was a lion in only his eyes, but that’s the only eyes who needs to see it.  Cute little thing. Ah, well.  During the jog, I felt like one of my soldiers from Rome II: Total War.  Hunched over, dragging ass, and just running to the next objective.  Couldn’t raise their arms, either.  Yeah, I imagine I don’t look that great but it reminded me that I always wanted to get a panoply (or a set of ancient Greek armor).  I wanted to see you in chiton, which is like a toga but not so massive and encumbering.  I think you’d look great in it. Little sandals that say, “Follow me” too.  And that curly hair? Yeah, you could look the part.  You’re very lovely and have a certain charm about you. Only problem would be those damn piercings.  But, that’s life, eh?  It reminds me that we were supposed to get a tattoo together.  Maybe we still will.  You promised a lot of things.  Maybe I did too. The girl I’ve been flirting with.  We were talking about sports and she mentioned how she enjoyed playing football but wasn’t much of a voyeur, except when it came to tennis and the Winter Olympics.  Guess what her favorite event for the Winter Olympics was? Ice skating. Can you believe it?  All I could think of was watching you slide around the ice with that little old man giving you instructions.  He was a nice guy.  I hope you go to Texas and I hope he gives you the best lessons.  I hope I can see you try to ice skate again.  But, hoping gets nowhere in life.  If it happens, it happens. If not, then oh well.  Time will tell.  It always does.

I’ve been very dehydrated, btw.  Didn’t go to town unfortunately but maybe I won’t need to.  I have a bottle here and I want to drink it, but I’m so tired.  Exhausted even.  Unfortunately, I can’t sleep at night so I sleep in until 3-4 in the afternoon.  The heat makes me sweat as I sleep, so I’m always losing water.  Not a good thing.  As I was jogging, it felt like I had sand in my mouth I was so thirsty.

I don’t like sipping, though.  I know I really should but I place it down and then I forget about it and because my dad doesn’t finish ANYTHING he intends to ingest, it’s among millions of other bottles.  I secretly don’t like drinking from someone else’s bottle.  I’d do it, but I won’t like it.  I feel very uncomfortable with the thought.  So, in order to avoid confusion I drink it all at once. I don’t know why people think I’m so smart.  Most of the time, I’m petty and dumb and primitive and just… all sorts of mentally awful.

My mom got home.  She didn’t bring anything back, which is good.  I spoke to her about going to Texas to live with Adela.  She seemed okay with it.  I’m glad. Before she got here, I wrote several emails to Blizzard executives.  If you don’t know what Blizzard is, it’s a snow storm.  It’s also a game company that’s made World of Warcraft, Diablo, Starcraft, and Overwatch.  Maybe you’ve heard of them. The reason I emailed them was because people were talking about how Valve and Blizzard would release a game similar to PUBG because it’s such a money grab supposedly.  Not sure if it’s true or not, but I decided to act and sent out about five emails to five different people trying to convince them to make their PUBG ripoff using an Ancient Greek theme. There are a lot of ways they could do it, but I kept several ideas to myself.  Can’t reveal everything I know. Besides, I’d like to see if they’d pay me for my idea.  That’d be nice, eh?  I asked each email to message me back if they’re interested. I’m not expecting a response.  It’s just one of those things that I swear I’d do but never do…  Well, now I have.  I messaged a big game developer, pitched an idea, and if they don’t take it?  Nothing lost.  If they want it? Excellent. Whatever the case, I did something for me.  If they take it, that’s on them.  Anyways, been talking to Daniel. Vented a bit.  He seems sympathetic.  I’m wanting to go to town and hang out with him, which would be great for me.  Not going to bitch about Dennis to him when we meet, probably going to try joking about politics. That said, I realized that Dennis is literally dead to me.  There is nothing he can do to repair what he’s done. Not that he’s looking for forgiveness.  He had his chance and he lost it.  I’m ready to move on and forget he even existed.  I hate him. I told Daniel about when Dennis would cup me in front of him and say, “Look at his tits.”  Told him that I hated how he targeted my self-esteem to improve his own self-esteem.  In fact, you were there the last couple of times he did it.  He was such a dick yet I didn’t interfere because I thought he was my friend.  I’m wrong a lot, I fear. I know you don’t want to read about how much I hate Dennis, but he’s been a terrible friend to me.  It just took me suffering a catastrophe to realize it.  He’s a liar and a coward.  I don’t need that sort of person in my life. What I find ironic is that you said that you developed a romantic connection?  Not sure how true that actually is, but I find that hard to believe.  Not just because he’s a liar but because he’s always been so unreasonable with me. Jeremiah and I have tried to get him to go do things like play airsoft and try something new and indulge in adventures but he’d always say no.  Mind you, I used to live with Dennis’s family.  I was in a situation where my dad kicked me out, so I know for a fact that he can be difficult to just live with.  He epitomizes homebody and refuses to do anything beyond going to the casino to gamble and drink.  Well, I guess also smoke pot now.  I think he got worse since he started, but he used to be opposed to pot like me. Whatever. I’m tired of drinking and smoking.  It’s boring and expensive.

Anyways, I’ve been watching a lot of Youtube since you left.  The videos are dumb and I just use it as background noise but I think of you a lot when I actually take the time to watch.  I might be getting to the point where when I drink water I’ll break down and cry yelling, “ESTHER USED TO DRINK WATER!!!”

I won’t be that crazy.  I promise.  <3