#I remade this after it was posted for two seconds bc I thought of two more options woops

[whelvenwings]

Not straight, not cis, not allo people, I'm curious:

[missbrunettebarbie]

Midnights - a review 3 months later and my tracklist

I've made a post about the album back when it came out, but I do think TS' songs in general are growers, not faders or instant hits, so here are my thoughts after having some time with it. Tbh, what really annoys me about Taylor's albums is usually the tracklist, which makes no sense, so I remade ir, using 16 out of the 20 songs (we don't count Hits Different bc I haven't listened to it). I am gonna talk about the 4 songs I left out at the end. My order is something like: from nightmares to sweet dreams, with track 5 being the darkest before dawn. So, in order:

1. Anti-Hero - 10/10. Perfect album opener, sets the tone for the rest of the songs AND establishes Taylor both as a person you want to root for and an unreliable narrator.

2. Maroon - 5/10 Still not a fan of this song, but it's a good second track and it fits the 'thing that keeps you up in the middle of the night' very well.

3. Midnight rain - 6/10 Pretty much the same as Maroon (yes, the voice distortion still grants on me).

4. Question....? -8/10 This is such a grower. I love how much more assertive and quite bitchy the narrator is here compared to the previous two. Like, all these 3 songs talk about past loves, but this narrator is less introspective and more like 'we were a meteor strike, babe!'.

5. Would've, should've, could've - 10/10 I mean, come on, this is the true track 5 of the album. Everything about it screams heartbreak and vulnerability.

6. Bigger than the whole sky -6/10 The saga of grief continues. And this song makes so much more sense next to WCS. They just fit, both musically and lyrically. Look how the new placement improved its rating, from 1 to 6!

7. Labyrinth - 8/10 When you hit rock bottom, the only place to go is up! Spmetimes against your will. And this is the perfect song to describe this.

8. Glitch - 7/10 We are almost out of the nightmare realm, and into the sweet dreams world. This topic and its narrator are much more uplifting, but there is still a sense of....haunting here.

9. Bejeweled - 10/10. I feel like the sweet dreams section needs to start strong and what better way than with Bejeweled? This is the narrator who went out tonight to make her dreams come true xDD

10. Mastermind - 9/10 Perfect transition from Bejeweled. Again, a very confident narrator who took matters into her own hands, and refused to believe in pesky little things like fate. This is also the first long song where we get to see a bit of the other partner's point of view as well.

11. Sweet Nothing -6/10. After 2 "I am that bitch" songs, I feel like Sweet Nothing is an welcome change of pace. It calms you down and shows you the other side of love.

12. Lavender Haze - 9/10. It's a bop, but it also is a very....limited point of view, of someone who refuses to let the relationship follow its natural course, because the narrator wants to be stuck in the pavender haze forever. I feel like this, alongside the next 2 songs, make their own story arc.

13. Paris - 8/10. Another romantic bop about how great it is to be in love.

14. The Great War - 10/10. But all lovers fight, and this song shows that the important part is 'surviving the great war'.

15. Karma - 8/10. This is such a positive song, that it needs to be towards the end of the album.

16. You're on your own, kid -10/10. This is A Journey. Most people say it feels like Taylor giving us a hug, so IMO, this is the best way to close the album. It is vulnerable, yes, but it's very uplifting and is a perfect closer to the Midnights chapter.

Overall score: 8.125/10. Pretty good!

Songs that didn't make it on My Midnights playlist won't get a score, but here are my thoughts on them:

Snow on the beach - Not only doesn't it add anything to the album, but it doesn't even fit the midnights theme in any way shape or form!

Vigilante shit - It's ok, but very manufactured! And we have Bejeweled and Mastermind to give us the same vibe, but better, so it adds nothing.

Dear Reader - I mean, it could add somthing, but I feel like it doesn't fit the theme at all.

High Infidelity - Eh. It's ok, but again, I feel like it adds nothing.

[etsuven]

☁️Scaramouche | Mistletoe☁️

remember that scara post I made?… yeah I’m gonna write for that now. it’s still December therefore it’s still christmas

this is also an apology for that so called Christmas fic it’s so bad I’m not very proud of it

still haven’t gotten my headers remade so-

cw: maybe ooc scara bc the only time I ever got to meet him was in inazuma, flustered scara, modern au, mild cursing

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“come on, scaramouche! you have to be there!” childe begged, watching as scaramouche rolled his eyes once more.

the two had been arguing for the past 15 minutes about some party that childe had wanted him to attend for some odd reason. at this point, scaramouche was thinking about just giving in so he would just shut up.

“you don’t have to go.” another voice spoke up. childe and scaramouche looked at who had spoken, varying looks on their faces.

the person who had spoken was signora, who was staring into the mirror as she adjusted her red and ice blue crystalfly hair-clip. the men started to argue again, this time bringing her into the conversation.

“will you two shut the fuck up.” she glared at the two men from the corners of her eyes before glancing at the mirror, retouching her eyeshadow a bit before turning back to them.

“you don’t have the go, scaramouche. but just know that you’ll be missing out on that person you’ve been checking out for the past 6 or 7 months.” signora laughed evilly, covering her mouth with her hand.

childe also looked back at scara, his lips turning into a knowing smirk. “oh right, them!” scaramouche’s cheeks flushed under his two friends’ gazes, averting his eyes as he crossed his arms.

“i wasn’t checking them out! they just… happened to be in my line of vision!” he flushed more when childe and signora let out a simultaneous ‘right.’

signora stood up, adjusting her clothes before grabbing scaramouche by the arm. “we’re going.”

and scara really didn’t have the energy to argue.

at least, that’s what he told himself.

the three friends arrived at the house in a matter of minutes, knocking on the door to reveal one of childe’s friends. they let them in, the sound of Christmas music filling the home.

scaramouche felt a tap on his shoulder, glancing at childe who was pointing at something. “look, it’s your partner!…” scaramouche found himself looking by instinct, looking away soon after as he covered his face.

“they’re not my partner!” he walked away, covering his face in embarrassment. he could hear the laughter of (sadly) his friends behind him, slowly fading away.

he removed his hands from his face after a few seconds, taking a deep breath as he calmed his nerves. he managed to make his way to the kitchen, and there was food placed on the island and the counters.

scaramouche sighed once more, running his hands over his face as his mind wandered to thoughts about you.

he was normally so strong. knowing what he wanted and how he wanted it, never backing down. but for some reason, things were different around you. he was so soft around you, and he couldn’t keep his eyes off of you. clearly that was something his friends had picked up on.

you were also so sweet and so patient with him, treating him gently and not forcing him to do things he didn’t want to do. (which is common human decency. but for some reason, it felt different with you.)

he also felt strange around you. you made his stomach feel weird, and he found that his heart would skip a beat whenever you were around. clearly you put a spell on him, that was the only explanation…

“what’s got you all worked up?” a teasing voice spoke from behind him. scaramouche jumped and turned around, being met with the face of the very person he was just thinking about.

(y/n).

scaramouche found himself fiddling with the loose strings on his sweater, a nervous habit he had picked up back from when he first began to have these strange feeling about you.

“it’s… it’s nothing.” he averted his eyes, adjusting the signature hat on his head. the only time he ever took his hat off was when he was sleeping.

“doesn’t look like ‘nothing.’ did someone force you here? you don’t seem like the person who would go to a Christmas party.” you stepped closer to him, leaning down a bit in order to meet his eyes from under his hat.

scaramouche took a glance at your face before quickly looking away, his heart beating quickly in his chest. he fiddled with his sweater more.

you gave him a small smile, knowing what he wanted to say. “here, you can hang out with me instead! how does that sound?” you watched as he nodded softly, the intricate ornaments on his hat ringing slightly.

the two of you began to walk out of the kitchen, chatting slightly before you were interrupted by the sound of childe yelling out. “well, look that that!”

scaramouche rolled his eyes, taking a look at childe and noticing that he seemed to be pointing at something. not at him, but something above him… he looked up, his cheeks heating up quickly as he stared at the plant.

mistletoe.

clearly he had missed it on his way to the kitchen! or maybe someone planted it there… signora’s voice rang out this time as scaramouche looked back in that direction. “you have to kiss now! or else you’ll have bad luck!”

you looked to your right at scaramouche, taking note of his red cheeks. in all honesty, you really wanted to kiss him, and you weren’t really sure if he wanted to kiss you too or if he was just embarrassed that his friends were calling him out.

“scara?” you called out, tapping his hip with the back of your hand. he looked at you, calming down slightly, but not by much. “do you want to- i mean- you don’t have to but…”

he shrugged, looking away from you. you placed your hand on his waist, leaning down once more to look him in the eye. “i need a ‘yes’ or ‘no’, scara… I don’t want to make you uncomfortable…”

you watched as scara bit his lip, his eyes looking into yours as he pleaded slightly. “y-yes, please…”

scara gasped as the hand on his hip pushed him, his back hitting the door frame behind him, and a few gasps and ‘ooh’s’ hit your ears. you took a quick glance at them before pulling the hat off of scaramouche’s head, using it to hide your faces as you kissed him.

cheers rang through the room, but scara paid them no mind as he kissed you back, sighing softly as your warm lips invaded his senses. you were in the same situation, squeezing his hip slightly as a way to keep yourself grounded.

out of nowhere, scaramouche felt your tongue brush against his lower lip, causing a whimper to escape his mouth and his knees to buckle slightly. his arms flew around your neck to keep himself up, not paying attention to how the cheers got louder.

after a few seconds, you pulled away, and scara found himself chasing your lips with his own. you giggled at him, running the hand that was just on his waist over his bright red cheek.

“you’re cute… we should go out sometime, how does that sound?” you handed scaramouche his hat, watching as he fumbled with it before nodding at you.

“great! now come on, let’s go sit down…”

[sortasirius]

“Carry On” and...Yikes.

Well clowns, looks like the clown calls were coming from inside the house this entire time.

I so desperately wish I wasn’t writing this right now.  I so wish that I could be writing something better, something joyful, something happy about this fifteen year journey with these characters.  It seems as though the show had other ideas, so in we go.

So...the dog was cool.  Also interesting that Dean was back to his breakup/grieving coping mechanisms: not making his bed, messy room, beer all over the place, Sam making breakfast, etc.

So I guess I better just start off with how...off this episode felt in regards to Dean specifically. Idk why he suddenly wanted a dog and Sam had no real interest in one, since the opposite has been true for, idk, fifteen years, but whatever, I was willing to let it go.

I thought the pie thing was a sweet scene, it was funny and nice and a good button on Dean’s pie thing.

Weird to, you know, bring up Cas and not mention his tragic ass deal and why he got got, but whatever.

I cannot physically believe that this MOTW aspect was, quite literally, so much of the plot.  Like...we figured that it was going to be an aspect, but for it to be SO MUCH?  Bruh.  I am such a fucking fool lmfao.

Again, cool to see Cas’ coat in the back.  Too bad it wasn’t addressed.

Jenny.  Bitch.  Come on.  Of ALL the villains in the FIFTEEN YEARS of Supernatural.  Jenny.  Who was in....one....episode.  Ok.

I mean that line about the high school thing was funny, I did laugh at that moment.  Fuck I love Dean Winchester.

I cannot believe I specced so much about the barn scene.  Are y’all telling me that “The Night We Met” is being claimed by......Sam and Dean.  Fuck off.

I mean, I thought Dean was going to die, and the scene actually did play out pretty similarly to how I thought.  It was probably the most powerful moment in the episode.  I am very glad that it was Dean’s choice, his choice and his peace to let go. 

“Let me look at you.  There he is.  I am so proud of you, Sam.”

I do love this, I love this because Dean is able to look at his work, the man that he raised, and tell him these things.  He was Sam’s parent, he raised Sam into the man he is today, and he should be damn proud of that.

I do love this most of scene, I really do, I love my boys, these brothers so damn much, and at least, at the very least, I have this scene of them.

Forehead touch was weird, I’m just gonna say it.

I feel like most of this episode was montages lol.  I mean I always hate sad Sam but at this point I still fully felt like we were going to get closure and we just...didn’t.

The Austin number was a cool detail, I liked that bc I picked up on it right away (since, you know, my phone is a 512 number lmao).

What a lackluster goodbye to the Bunker.  I had no clue that was going to be the last time we saw it ever.

FUCK AT LEAST I GOT MY DAMN HEAVEN BAR.

The scene with Bobby was nice, it was good to see him.  We did get our remade Heaven, that’s also nice to know.

“It ain’t just Heaven, Dean.  It’s the Heaven you deserve.”

He does deserve this.  An open Heaven, the people he loves, finally some peace, he deserves that, and I am glad that he got it.

Our second Cas mention.  Great.  Thanks guys.

I mean thanks Jim and Jensen for the microexpressions I guess lmao.

So I am supposed to believe.  That Dean.  Whose entire arc has been speaking his truth, specifically speaking his truth to Cas.  Where he has been stopped twice before this season.  Is going to just drive around in circles for forty years until Sam gets there?  Yeah, that’s gonna be a no from me, dawg.

And Sam gets married and has a kid that he names Dean, and the unspecified dark haired woman in the back of the ten minute montage is supposed to be enough for me to buy that it’s Eileen?  Bruh.

Also it’s BACK TO BACK MONTAGES???  WITH TWO VERSIONS OF CARRY ON WAYWARD SON?

Sam’s age makeup????  Hello????  AT FIRST THEY DIDN’T EVEN AGE HIM THEY JUST PUT HIM IN A WIG?????

That cover of Wayward Son did slap but was it enough?  No.

Even that bridge moment didn’t hit right because Sam didn’t cross it?  He was just suddenly there.

It just fucking sucks.  It sucks that their reunion doesn’t land right because they...didn’t do anything when they were apart.  Sam had his kid sure but Dean literally just drove around.  No mention of Cas or of Eileen.  Nothing.  So the last moment of this show I love feels tainted and hollow and just wrong.

It sucks.  I’m not going to lie.  But the worst thing about it?  Is that it doesn’t make any sense.  I have not spent two years of my life picking apart the writing rooms in Supernatural, lauding this current team for what they’ve accomplished for it to end like this.  I know many of you will regard me as a complete tinhat freak right now, but this, to me, does not feel like an episode that Andrew Dabb wrote.  Hell, it doesn’t feel like an episode of Supernatural.

None of the arcs were completed: Dean didn’t get to speak his truth to Cas, Sam never got to become the leader, the legacy hunter he was meant to.  We don’t see them with Cas or Eileen, we don’t even hear about them.

Listen, there’s a lot that...simply doesn’t add up to me.  First of all, the episode was SHORT, and most of it was montages. They had four montages AND the episode was only 38 minutes.  The series finale of the show was shorter than any other episode and had four multiple minute montages.  Okay.  Make it make sense.  Newsflash: it doesn’t, there is simply no way I can believe that there weren’t massive cuts and reworks done to this episode on an executive level.

I know there are people who will tell me that the writers are just bad and I need to accept that they gave me a shitty ending, but after all this time with this story, especially with Dabb’s arc, he just...doesn’t do shit like this.  His arcs are always complete, always tied up well, always have a button.  But this mess?  This confusing episode that left everything hanging with a cover of Wayward Son hanging in the air?  It just doesn’t add up to me.

This wasn’t the story they were telling, this hasn’t been the story they were telling all season, and I stand by that.

So, I sure do wish I could give you a better post. I wish that we had gotten something better.  I still, after everything, love this show, and will still be here in the morning.

Thanks guys.  Love y’all.

[ibis-gt]

remade this post bc i hate making mile long posts if i can help it

i got a LOT of prompts wow so i'm combining some of them where i can!

mermaid luther au bc ive been neglecting it unu

@the-mad-hattie

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Cam leaned back in his chair and stretched his arms up over his head, rolling his neck from side to side and groaning. “Uuugh, I’ve been sittin’ here too long,” he said. “Gotta get up and move around.” He glanced at the aquarium tank next to him and smiled. A snail clung to the glass wall closest to him, but otherwise nothing living was visible. The little angel was hiding again. Luckily, Cam knew how to coax him out.

He got up from his chair with a grunt and reached for the shaker of fish food. He’d wondered for a while now if it was really getting the little guy all the nutrients he needed, but according to his research it should be fine, and he hadn’t heard any complaints. He lifted the lid of the tank and sprinkled a generous helping inside, then stepped back and waited.

After a few minutes, a tiny blue and green head poked out of the stand of fake seaweed. Big orange eyes flicked up to the gently descending flakes, then out to where Cam stood. Cam gave a little wave. The tiny creature ducked back inside. That’s fine, Cam thought, you’re shy, I’ll wait.

Another two minutes passed. The head poked back out and the intense eyes focused on him again. Ever so slowly, the tiny mermaid drifted forwards, exposing shoulders, then arms, then torso and fins. He stopped halfway out, gaze still fixed on Cam.

It had been two months since Luther started living permanently with Cam, but the little dear was still incredibly shy. His instincts were hard to overcome. The slightest movements from Cam sent fear and adrenaline coursing through him. At only eight inches long, and most of that taken up by his impressive tail, he was easily intimidated by Cam’s 6’4 frame. But he did genuinely like Cam’s company, and was working hard on getting used to the huge man.

“Hey,” Cam whispered. “Food time, buddy.”

Luther’s eyes darted back to the flakes. Most of them had settled near the bottom by now. With a graceful flick of his tail, he fully left the cover of the seaweed. He started to grab the flakes and eat them, one by one, eyes flicking back to Cam every now and then. He was gorgeous, all deep blue with thin yellow stripes down his back and arms. When he’d finally finished his meal Cam expected him to dart back to safety, but instead he stayed out in the open, turning to stare up at Cam. He knew what that meant. Cuddle time.

“Okay, here I come. I’m gonna move closer now, you ready?” Slowly, slowly, Cam took one step towards the tank. Luther flinched, but stayed where he was. “Ooh, real brave today, huh? Little closer, here we go.” One more step, and he was right up on the tank again. “Here it comes. It’s just a hand, nothing to worry about. You’ve seen it before, you’ll see it again.”

He lowered his hand into the water and let it sit there. As soon as it broke the surface, Luther sped away, ducking behind the big oval of rock that was his second-favorite hiding place. He immediately poked his head out again, though, letting Cam know he was still interested.

“No worries, take your time,” Cam murmured. He was proud of the progress Luther had made. From what he could tell, mermaids had kept secret for so long because they were so skittish and quick. The fact that he wasn’t cowering back in the seaweed was an achievement all on its own.

Luther drifted forwards again, ever so slowly. This close up, Cam could see his tiny mouth set in a determined line. He had to fight to keep himself still, but it was so cute he wanted to clutch at his aching heart in his chest. He kept his hand loose and relaxed and waited patiently as Luther slowly, slowly closed the distance between them. There was a pause and Luther pulled back just a hair, then suddenly shot forward and crashed into Cam’s palm, seeming to startle them both.

“Whoa,” Cam whispered. “Okay. Hey. Hi there.”

Luther’s arms were wrapped around his hand, his body pressed hard into his palm. He could feel the tiny heartbeat racing like Luther had just run a marathon. Luther’s tail wrapped itself around Cam’s pinky and the tiny mermaid began to relax a little. He rubbed his face against Cam’s palm like a cat marking its scent. Cam chuckled. This was the only mermaid he’d ever met, so it was hard to make any solid conclusions, but it seemed like this was a common sign of affection for them. And then there was the other sign of affection, which he was less fond of.

“Ah, ah, hey, what did we say about the teeth?” He hissed, trying to keep his hand from clenching as he felt those tiny, needle-sharp teeth sink into the soft flesh of his palm. Luther’s teeth looked like a moray eel’s, long glassy affairs that hurt like a bitch when he did his little lovebites. He felt the water hum as Luther gave some kind of response, but hell if he knew what it meant. “Yeah, yeah, just take them out, please.”

Begrudgingly, Luther slid his teeth back out and pressed a kiss to the bitemark. It hadn’t broken the skin, at least, that was a small mercy. Lord only knew what kind of shots he’d need for a mermaid bite. Luther wriggled forward and pushed himself between Cam’s pointer and middle fingers, laying his body over his knuckles and giving a happy hum.

“I love you too, buddy,” Cam murmured, and gave him a very gentle squeeze.

[seonfhwa]

hello friends! tis your favorite (or not) mingi stan, here with her first follow forever! 

recently, i hit the big milestone of 1,000 followers, something i never thought would happen! really, i want to thank all of you for following me, for supporting my content, for being a part of this mess of a blog. 

to those who came on over after i remade, and to those who only started following me yesterday, i love you all from the bottom of my heart.

click for some more fun things for my moots! (it gets long, i’m so sorry)!

i was thinking of doing something special, but i don’t know to what extent i could really do for all of you guys ;; if there’s anything you want (a lil blurb, a moodboard, a smol gifset) just let me know! this part’s only for mutuals, though, so keep that in mind. i don’t know how quick i can get all of the stuff done, but i would definitely do anything for you guys!!

for my mutuals, i’ve written each of you a little message. some may be shorter than others, but know that my love is overflowing and unending even if i may not be good with words!! also this isn’t really in any specific order!

@smol-joong 🌟 miss anett... i have a whole lot to say (if i say all of it we’ll be here forever), but honestly the main thing is... you’re my number one. you’re the sweetest, the most lovely, the most heartwarming. you’re someone i can count on no matter what, whether i need a pick me up or just attention. i love you, i truly truly do, and you always know how to make me happy. thank you for being my friend, for letting me love you, and for always being there for me!

@cherryjoong 🌟 maggie!! you’re honestly the sweetest bean, the most relatable human i’ve ever met. you were one of my first mutuals who really ever spoke to me, and i will forever hold you in a special place in my heart. you’re another person who’s always there for me, who really deserves the whole wide world. thank you for having such a big, caring heart.

@honeyboysan 🌟 jules, darling jules. frankly, you’re one of my first friends on this hellsite. you know how my first thing to you was me going “i poked around on your blog for a while before finally following you”? im just a big babey and you’re one of the most lovely people in the world. i’m really glad we’re friends, that i was able to meet someone like you. you make my heart happy, and you deserve all of the happiness in the world. it’s really, really good to see you happy.

@heoneyology 🌟 miss rainah!!! everyone always says you’re the mom type, and i’d have to agree. you’re sweet, you’re loving, you’re charming, and you’re one of the funniest people i know. your love for your biases (especially jooheon, zico, hongjoong, and ravn) makes my heart swell, and whenever i see you on my dash, i just get so happy. not to mention, when you’re happy, i’m happy! thank you for always being there to pick me up when i need it, and for being a ray of sunshine in my dull life.

@multidino 🌟 kimora!!! my multifandom queen!!! honestly, first of all i want to thank you for supporting me in all of my adventures and being one of the first people to help me kickstart my vav blog. second of all-- thank you, for being you. for being a great friend, for being a kind soul, for being one of the best people on this website. you’re doing your best, and that’s what matters!!! i love you so so so so much!!!

@ateezartblog 🌟 hello my sweet pumpkin. how are you today? have you eaten? did you sleep well? are you taking care of yourself? i hope you know how much i care about you!! i know you’re usually the one to come and check up on all of us, but sometimes you need it just as much as we do. please, angel love, remember to take care of yourself, even when you feel like you shouldn’t. you are just as deserving as everyone else, and one day, i hope you can see that. until then, i’ll make sure to remind you all of the time!! i love you lots!!

@wooyuong 🌟 precious angel baby inna!! hello my sweetest beanie baby. frankly, i don’t know how someone like you wanted to be friends with someone like me, but every time we talk i’m like !! that’s her im super blessed bc !! we friends!! you’re super talented, you’re super cute, and pls pls pls always remember that!!! you deserve all good things in the world and i’m so super glad that we talk ;;;

@wangtaeil 🌟 iconic miss bee!! life’s too short to only have one bias, and your words haunt help me to this day!!! i’m really glad i met you, because you’ve kinda sorta been a really big source of inspiration and help for me, especially recently. from feeling shitty about gifs, not wanting to be around, to even needing help with some stuff, i know i can always trust you and confide in you. you’re a talented woman, and you really have so much going for you. and you want to be friends with a lil nugget like me??? i am undeserving but thankful.

@choisansbitch 🌟 upaamaaa!!! now every time i eat a tuna sandwich, i think of you (i eat tuna a lot, so take that... i’m ALWAYS thinking about you). i know when we first started talking, i was nervous because i ??? really didnt feel like i even deserved to talk to you, cause you’re like... super amazing. but i’m so glad we’re friends!! you make some of the best gifs, and even if you don’t think so, i love them so so much!! and you’re honestly one of the sweetest, most relatable people in the world. please never lose your charm, i love you so much.

@missminji 🌟 hARLSS!!!! im still shocked that your super secret detective skills figured me out, but hey!! in the end they helped because now i actually talk to my “redacted” (we all know who redacted is) and i love her sm ;;; we havent been talking too much recently (i think life’s been kicking us rip) but no matter what, i love you, and i love getting to talk to you whenever i can. thank you for being my friend, i don’t deserve someone as lovely as you.

@utopiagf 🌟 you crazy, but ily. that’s it that’s the post-- ehrbgjehb im kidding, there’s so much more. you’re literally one of the most fun, bright, cheery person, and i love seeing you around. i know you just remade (and i was confused bc i was like?? nik??? where she go??) but literally i love love love seeing & talking to you, even if these days i’m still... super intimidated by you. but you’re such a sweetheart, and thank you for blessing me with your presence in my life. uwu

@visualsan 🌟 honestly i need to talk to you more ehjbrhjge every time i talk to anett and we mention you (all good things, of course uwu) i’m like?? why do i not talk to bea more?? literally you seem like such the coolest person, and i love love love seeing you, your gifs, everything uwu so yeah!! pls let’s talk more ilysm!

@prettyseonghwa 🌟 yas, i think you have one of the biggest hearts around here. you are so caring, so loving, and you really need to know that. i love you, really, so so much. thank you for always being there for us, for always giving the best advice and love that we all need. just know!! that you deserve a break too. you deserve all of the love you give-- and more. 

@dreamboyunho 🌟 cami, miss cami, my numba 1!!! you’ve always been someone i adore and cherish with all of my heart, but even recently we connected in a different, probably more personal way. it may not have been the best of circumstances but i’m really glad we did! i treasure you so much, and i’m glad i found someone i can truly confide in. we’re like!! two peas of a pod!! i’m really super duper glad i met you and that i can call you my friend.

@jonghostation 🌟 miss adelle uwu you’re so sweet and precious and we need more jongho stans like you (and more jongho stans in general) in this world!! i love talking to you, though recently i’ve been dead and not really socializing but i really do enjoy seeing you around and getting to talk to you!! you’re such a sweet soul and i love you. recently i saw you said you lowkey wish i was your mom?? c’mere baby you’re my child now uwu thank you for being the sweetest angel. aND I COULD NEVER FORGET YOUR ICONIC URL!!! ATINY LESSGEDDIT!!! DROP THE BEAT YOOOOO!!

@celestial-yunho 🌟 nini, you are literally... so talented. i dont know how i managed to score such a talented, loving, and sweet friend. your art!! is so good and im always really excited to see more of what you do. you’re my lil moon witch, and i love you so so much. thank you for giving me the time of day to get to know you, to be able to say that’s her!! thats nini!! thats my friend uwu you’re so precious and i hope you know that!!

@nctyping 🌟 im gonna be honest idek why i first followed you-- not in a like “ugh why did a follow her,,” i literally just cannot remember why i did. either way, it was one of the best decisions i’ve ever made. you’re one of the sweetest people in the whole world and i love reading what you write. like?? teach me your ways ;;; ily abbey!!

@toothgaptual 🌟 sun sun sunshine sunnie!!! okay, we don’t talk a ton, but i love love love when we do get to interact. you always manage to put a smile on my face, and i looove seeing you on my dash. please never ever think you’re bothersome or annoying, and talk your heart out! ilysm you cutie patootie!

@wonderhwalls 🌟 sweetest little flower, i know we’re more recently mutuals/friends, but i’m really glad i met you. talking to you always makes me feel better, whether its about what we’re doing, gifs, breaks, etc. you’re a voice of reason amidst the mess of this world, and i love being able to talk to you when i need a good pick me up. ily mika!!!

@atiteez 🌟 sonia, i literally think you were the first atiny mutual i ever had. i will always, aLWAYS hold you in a special place in my heart. you’re such a precious soul, and you’re lovely inside and out. i still dunno why you call me a moodboard queen-- i’m not thaaat good at that kinda stuff-- but i love you so much nonetheless. thank you for being my friend and helping me step into atinyblr (even though now we’re dying off).

@wlwrensung 🌟 miSS YUKKIIIII i hope you’re having fun on your trip!!! you’re one of my favorite people in the whole world, and i love love love talking to you. i mean?? someone like you??? wants to be friends with someone like me?? idk what you’re on that you wanna, but pls you’re the best ;;;; thank you for looking on someone like me and deciding “that’s it that’s her i wanna be friends with her” i dont deserve you but im all heart eyes bc i get to be friends with you!!

@shikyus 🌟 im an idiot with a brain the size of a pea and the memory of a goldfish. i love you-- i really do!! you’re one of the only people i clicked with immediately, and that’s kinda rare for me. you’re a sweetheart, you’re one of the most lovely people i’ve met, but you’re so chill and cool!! how do you do it?? honestly i’m really glad i met you, because like??? how often can someone say that they met someone and immediately clicked with them? i mean ok it happens often but !!! im still shocked!!! thank you for being my friend, for being super sweet, and kind, and caring-- a-and hopefully forgiving ;;;; im sorry im a dummy ;;;;;; im a big lovable dummy tho!!!!

and last but not least, miss kiki. i know she’s isnt on tumblr for now, but if she ever sees this... i have so much to say. thank you for being one of my best friends, for being one of the sweetest people in the world. i love you, i love everything about you, and i miss you. thank you for being my friend uwu

some other super awesome mutuals that i don’t have a ton to say about (either because we’re new mutuals or i havent talked to you too much yet) that i love with all my heart nonetheless: @meinyunho @fan-chngchng @ultvisual @seonghwalove @han-seungwoo @kthscenery @yooyonqha @woovoung @sanbotaged -- come talk to me more often!! i love to be bothered uwu

super special shoutout to my 3 starlight buddies who came over here and followed me despite originally knowing nothing about ateez and still supporting, loving, and talking to me: @hakjeon @babieken and @hansanghyuked. my longest standing mutuals, and even annie’s more than just a tumblr mutual-- she’s one of my closest friends. i love you guys ;;

now, i can’t leave a special message for every single one of my followers. hell, tumblr won’t even let me tag every single one of you (stupid tag limit), but know that i still love all of you. if i could (aka if i had time and energy), i’d go down the line and personally message each and every once of you to tell you all the important things.

you are all wonderful, you are all lovely, and i’m truly blessed to have all of you following me. remember to smile, to keep your chin up, because when the world gets going tough, i’m always there to support you! i love you all lots lots lots, whether we do or don’t talk. stay sweet, angels!