#I really enjoy answearing your questions

[kekstala]

hopping on the ask train 😻

I really adore your art style and I’m looking to improve because I’m not too fond of mine currently. How long have you been drawing and what are some tips you have to improve?

(Also how do you do your line art?? It’s always so scrumptious)

First of all, thank you so much! <3 It makes me really happy to hear that my art brings you so much joy!

I’ll continue to shower you guys with my stuff, because comments like yours make me walk the extra mile <3

 

Now to your questions!

 

„How long have you been drawing?“

 

Funnily enough, my whole life lol

Sure, that sounds pretty farfetch’d considering I’m a lv. 29 duck, but eh, I mean it.

One day I just took a pencil and started drawing, and that‘s about it.

You could say I've been improving my art since ever - I started drawing stuff that I saw on TV or in magazines as a kid - Pokemon and Digimon being two of the very first things that I used as a base to draw.

Back then, I only used to draw creatures or animals, since I practically sucked at drawing humans.

Only after I met one of my real life friends, I also started to draw humans - It‘s been approximately 13 years since then, so the process of mastering something‘s indeed quite slow.

My best advice on that topic: never give up.

Sure, there will be days where you think you may never improve, but this isn‘t the case - you just need some patience and determination to keep going.

With every picture you draw, you learn more, until you arrive at an actual point of understanding.

When you reach this certain point, drawing turns from a difficult chore to a fun ride full of wonder, where you only see the fun parts instead of the bad ones :)

 

Also fun fact: when I started drawing humans, I preferred females over males - since women are much more curvy and „easier“ to draw for beginners.

Now it‘s the exact opposite - It‘s a walk in a park for me to draw men…woman instead… oh boi

I always sweat when I draw Carmine or Juliana LOL

Kieran and Drayton on the other hand - easy xD

 

„What are some tips you have to improve?“

 

1. Like I said before: never give up.

Drawing‘s like mastering a skill - you need time to improve.

I‘m the perfect example since it took me over 25 years before I reached a point that I‘m satisfied with. And even now, I’m still improving - it‘s an endless road without a certain goal, and you have to decide for yourself whenever you want to run or walk.

 

2. Take breaks

No seriously, I mean it, your body AND your mind need some, since they can influence your perspective and decisions.

When you draw and get more and more frustated with yourself and the picutre, it's, in most cases, time for a break.

Staring at one picture for hours can narrow your perspective. Perhaps you‘re even tired because of a lack of sleep, maybe even hungry - all these factors can influence you negatively, because your body‘s at war with your mind - its quite a psychological topic, but it plays a big role when you draw.

Drawing steals a lot of time and concentration - and with this concentration being interputed by needs like hunger or sleep, your body and mind won‘t focus anymore on one thing but instead on a lot of (in that case) obstacles.

Result -> your concentration weakens, and you get frustated because you did that one pencil stroke like a dozen times already and are still looking like crap! The WHOLE picture looks like crap! You really SUCK at drawing!

In this case, just take a break.

Eat something, do other stuff, or just go to get some sleep. After a few hours away from the picture, you will be surprised that all these negative emotions and thoughts you had before are in fact gone, and the picture doesn‘t look that hideous anymore.

 

3. Repeat what you draw

This one sounds simple but makes quite the impression later on.

By repeating the same thing over and over, your brain starts to save certain important parts, and it becomes much easier later on.

My example‘s Kieran - I’ve drawn this dude like a dozen times already - at first I had to use a character sheet as a base  because my mind hadn‘t saved some certain points yet, so I had to look it up.

By looking something up, you get interrupted in your concentration and fall out of the „flow of drawing“.

It‘s the same when drawing something new. You’re not used to it yet - hence, it's, in most cases, more difficult than something you've already had some experience with.

Since I‘m already used to drawing Kieran, I don‘t need to look stuff up anymore, I just draw him and move on. (this sounds so mean, I‘m sorry Kiki D: )

 

4. Look for references

I usually do this when I take a break from drawing. Just open Twitter (or X) or Tumblr and watch other artists do their stuff.

Of course, this‘s like a double-edged sword, since it COULD influence you negatively, especially when you are just down from not finishing an art piece.

But it can also help you improve where you’ve struggled before.

Like before, the best example’s Kieran lol

Since the release of the DLC people have drawn him A LOT - which is great because there’s like a dozen references you can use for your own benefit.

And don’t assume that people just drew him in one go perfectly - they had to master the process I already described before by repeating it over and over.

How fast they have mastered the way to draw him depends on the person themselves; some people choose to run the road while others choose to walk instead.

The artwork you see may be the result of 100 pictures before that had to build the base for it to truly shine.

You only see the result but not the way there, so don’t feel dishearted and think you may never arrive at their level - everyone had to start from scratch after all. :)

 

5. Draw stuff you enjoy

It’s the most important advice I can give - the four before depend on the person themselves, whether to follow them or not.

Every person works differently and does stuff differently - but almost everyone has one thing in common when they draw - they draw because they love what they do.

And thats the most important part: draw stuff you truly enjoy - it makes you happy, and that's what counts in the end :)

 

“How do you do your line art?”

 

To be honest, I’m far from satisfied with my way to draw linearts, but I’m happy that you guys seem to like them that much by showing interest :D

 

Applin’s here to help you understand the process a bit better <3

 

1. The rough sketch

Every artwork begins with a sketch - the sketch doesn’t need to look good or anything, just a quick reminder of what I wanted to draw in the first place.

 

2. The rough first lining

It’s the first step in the direction I want to go with the picture.

Like the sketch, it still looks very rough, but it already shapes the object or person I want to picture here.

 

3. The second lining

This one works as a bridge between “the rough first lining” and “the final lining”.

It looks like the end goal, but it needs some fine tuning or minor changes to be perfect.

 

4. The final lining

Like the title says, it's the finished linearts that show the object or person I wanted to picture in the first place.

To be honest, between Parts 3 and 4, a lot of stuff can happen, depending on whether I need to redo some part of the artwork or need some extra steps in between (like a third or fourth lining part)

 

5. Some extras

Because the lining itself looks so bland, I usually add some little details as well.

It’s more or less optional, but it makes the artwork look more lively. ( at least from my perspective, lol )

 

And that’s about it :D

 

I hope I can help you a little bit with my advice and wild rambling (I’m known for it after all kekeke)

 

Thank you so much for your ask, and have a wonderful day <3

And hopefully a lot of fun while drawing ;9

[somestardeww]

answer to this ask!

we all love peter parker, right? no warnings, just cuddles and pure fluff <33 reblogs are enjoyed!!

The two of you are sitting on the bed in his room in the Avengers tower and you look at the figure sitting next to you. Peter's beautiful features, the unique shape of his face and his brown eyes shine in his eyes like a star in the sky.

He is focused on the notebook in front of him, solving the questions you made; he looks so at peace like this, so focused and calm, that it fills your heart with happiness. You smile to yourself and lay your head on his shoulder, your own homework already done, to which he finally reacts and presses a kiss to your forehead, squeezing you closer to him with the arm he had already wrapped around your shoulders.

It's a late summer night, already past 7pm and the few stars that can be seen are starting to shine in the night sky. Staying in the cool, comfortable, air-conditioned room was probably the best decision you two could have made today: the heat was terrible in the morning and, let's face it, both Peter and you were too lazy to step out of the dorms to go to the library or maybe the lab, so you decided to stay in your room anyway, in a surprisingly productive (if If you consider that last time, Thor entered the room from your balcony, with cape and hammer, offering you freshly bought donuts, a situation that ended in a Star Wars movie marathon with him and your boyfriend, an afternoon full of comments and Thor laughs at the film's portrayal of space).

You sigh with a smile and continue to look up at the night sky.

When you come to your senses again, you notice that Peter is playing with your hair, twirling it around his fingers with ease.

"I finished the questions you made for me, Madam Professor Stark My Girlfriend" he says, with a playful smile on his lips which you break with a kiss, only for Peter answear by placing his thumb and index finger on your chin, gently moving your head so that you are facing him, a more comfortable position for you to kiss.

"Okay, let me correct it. Can you see my notes? It's for Spanish homework" You answer him, and kiss your boyfriend on the cheek when he takes the sheet and starts reading.

A few minutes later, you turn to him, the quiz you made for him to study in hand, with a proud smile on your face. "You got everything right! I'm a really great teacher"

He responds with a smile "And your Spanish homework is impeccable, my love" He places it on the table, turning to you, staring shamelessly, without saying anything, his eyes almost shaped in hearts as he admired you.

You look at him, placing his questionnaire on the table and turning to him too, silent like he. "What's up dear? Am I boring you?” you ask with a curious and playfull tone in your voice. Peter shakes his head and scoffs at your comment while keeping his eyes locked on yours “No, honey. No way." He says, coming closer to you, resting his forehead against yours, the two of you closing your eyes and unconsciously holding hands.

He uses the hand that is connected to yours to pull you closer, arms wrap tightly around your figure as he starts to scratch your back gently. Have his girl in his arms like that, with no one else around, was his favorite place to be, even though he never told you that directly.

Focusing his attention on you, he rubs small, gentle circles along your spine. His touch is so gentle. that makes you feel at home and protected. It is your hiding place, something you can never leave behind.

You move your head to the crook of his neck, hugging him around the waist and he does the same, and then you find yourself in an embrace that feels like home. "I love you so much, did you know that?" He says, squeezing you a little, and you can feel his contented smile in the crook of your neck.

"And I love you too" You respond, and you feel a light kiss being placed on your neck by Peter, what makes your heart skipe a beat.

[skania]

hai! hello! i just finishing reading your post a few minutes ago. It's interesting as always the way you give your opinion with the proof. And i agree with that too!

But, i have a question. All this time Aqua using Akane for his revange. And when he found out that Akane in danger after fell from bridge, he letting her go for her own safe. He even says stop doing dengerous thing multiples times before he left her (chapter 98). But we found out that he waiting Akane to finishing her casting with Ruby and Frill until midnight just for remembering her to not doing such any dengerous things. If i'm not mistaken he said "But, i can't says it again and again" (to remembering her not doing such dengerous things). And like we knows Akane want to stop Aqua plan that's why Aqua/Goro being like the devil in that panel. (Chapter 116)

Meanwhile, for Kana. He never want to use her for his own revange. He never shows the real he is (or maybe when Aqua talks about himself when they plays catching ball when Aqua in LoveNow show to make sure his feeling for Akane) and Kana seems lost and don't understand at all what Aqua saying and called him weird if i'm not mistaken. Is more like one sided love and i never see Aqua in romanticly to Kana (or maybe i just don't feel it with their development). All i know Kana is the only friend that Aqua have after all. That's why he can be himself like in the past (more cheerful), but when with Akane he can be himself, the real himself. He shows his darkness and the cheerful him to her. Aqua only shows a good side of him to Kana.

The question in this series is what is Ai for Aqua? And what is Kana to Aqua?. This two question that given in the manga. And still no answear until now. But we also haven't seen their development after chapter 40.

When Aqua don't want to drag Akane to the hell, there is Aqua drag Kana and manipulated her with sweet words because he knows that Kana likes her and knows her weakness about him. And also after they both being a good friend there's Memcho happy with their relationship back to normal again and Kana seems to be happy again. But Memcho want his relationship with Akane to be good too.

Aqua answear make me confused, because he said he don't need to have that kind of relationship that makes him happy (with Akane) and giving up to be happy with that relationship. His answear is more goes to romantic feels than platonic. And he says he is more comfortable building a good relationship with Kana. And in his mind he wanted to use Kana. (Idk but maybe Aqua want to be close to Kana (again) because he want to using her, that's what i though when i read the panels). He stopping Akane but dragging Kana to his revange.

We can see if Akane and Aqua goes to platoic route or romantic route because they have both routes with proofs. But Kana and Aqua ? I'm so confused with them. A Platonic? Romantic? i can't really see it for romantic but there is some for platonic because Kana fine to be friend with him (chapter 117 about the Panda one). All i know Aqua and Kana is more like motivating for each other dreams (As an actress, idol to Kana and Actor to Aqua). I know Aqua looks amaze when Kana on stage and when Kana on her mode as an actress. But, i don't see anything romantic. (I'm not really good at reading romantic route actually lol)

If the end game romantic is Arima Kana just because she is the light in this series, i feel a bit strange to ghe story because Aqua-Akane have so much development who really importent to goes to romantic one.

Moreover, Akasaka said the ending was in sight. If they were to develop Aqua—Kana here would seem rushed and a bit pushy.

What do you think about this? Aqua—Akane is too far to reach their relationship if Aqua—Kana want to be end game. AquaKane had them all. Even their bond (AquaKane) is more stonger. They have been through a lot of things together.

Hi, anon! Thank you for giving my thoughts a chance and for sharing yours with me, I enjoyed the read!

I feel like I don't have much to add because I agree with your conclusion. Unlike you, I do think that it's easy to see Aqua's feelings towards Kana as romantic—I even think Aqua himself may perceive them this way, if these panels are any indication:

But just like you, I think Aqua and Kana are severely outmatched in the development department, specially because Kana just doesn't know who he truly is. She just knows the sides of himself that Aqua has wanted to show her. The one time she saw a glimpse of how broken Aqua is, nothing at all came out of it.

Look at the way Kana describes Aqua here, in comparison to what Akane says about him just a few chapters later. Like yeah, Kana is right: his girlfriend does feel at ease with him. But it's not because Aqua is "straight and sincere", it's because Akane knows he is a liar who is doing his best to be straight with her.

"Sincere" Aqua and "liar" Aqua are two sides of the same coin, he is as capable of being the former as he is of the latter, which is why it's so important that whoever he is with can see the full picture.

Moreover, Akasaka said the ending was in sight. If they were to develop Aqua—Kana here would seem rushed and a bit pushy.

Considering how long ago he set them up, I'm not sure I'd consider it rushed but "pushy" is exactly how that ship feels like to me lol Like the story really pushes it (constant reminders of Kana's feelings for Aqua, of how sad Kana is whenever Aqua ignores her, of how "obsessed" Aqua is supposed to be with her, etc.), but never does anything actually meaningful with it. In all honesty, it feels very forced to me because it's like the ship is a walking trope at the service of whatever symbolism Aka wants to convey through it by the end of the story.

He can still start developing them now of course, and I imagine that if he wants them to be endgame, he will need to start doing so. The truth is though that Aka can do whatever he wants and I still won't ship it, because the one that has the kind of gradual, organic, dynamic, complex, multilayered, parallel-filled development I'm a sucker for are Aqua and Akane, whether you look at their relationship platonically or romantically. So this is why I don't really bother with the whole: who will Aqua end up with? debate, Aqua can end up alone for all I care and that won't change the fact that his dynamic with Akane is my favorite 😂

[italianpersonwithashippersheart]

Hi again......If you don't mind, can I ask, what are your top 10 (or top 7) favorite media (can be books/ manga/ anime/movies/tv series)? Why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before......Thanks....

Sorry I totally forgot to answear this ask.

I don't really have a favorite media of all time, I think that question is a bit too broad. There are stuff I love to re-watch sometimes but not always.

So I am going to give you a list of personal categories of media that I more often come back too

Period Movies and Dramas

Musical

Theather production official recordings and non

Old school sitcoms

Detective/Crime Dramas (Not really all that much anymore because of everything I know about copaganda now, but there are still some I can enjoy)

Anime/Animated shows (not always new stuff, I mostly enjoy stuff that brings me nostalgia, but there are new stuff in there)

BLs/QLs (obviously my blog is basically all BLs at this point)

Queer movies and media in general

Rom-Coms - yes even the bad ones. Not as much since I discovered QLs but I still get the urge sometimes.

Nostalgia Train (movies that I watched and enjoyed when I was younger)

Bonus: Action movies and sagas I know I liked

Sorry I could not go more in dept, but I am feeling pretty off this week, very low on spoons. Hope it helps anyway!!

[zdezintegracja]

What it takes to be a goth?

So recently I’ve seen a rise of popularity of the goth subculture. Mainly bc of the wednesday netflix series. Many prople think taht its just the style and clothes you wear and ignore all the history behind it. I’ve seen a lot o pozers and so called goths who just wear long black skirts and corsets proudly. And man im tired of that. So heres some basics you should know about this subculture.

1. You must listen to goth music

Goths are listening mostly to post-punk, waves that came after (new wave, dark wave, cold wave etc.), goth-rock (which is very controversial to mention bc many goths dont agree that such thing exists), ebm. Of course if you are goth you can listen to other genres such as punk, metal and rock, but to call yourself a goth you should enjoy mentioned earlier genres the most. The most popular bands that are goth are: bauhaus, alien sex fiend, horror vacui, sisters of mercy (they werent identifying as a goth band and didint wanted to be seen as one, but the music is perfect example of what goths listen to), the cure, joy division, voodoo church, specimen, christian death, new order, scarlets remains, death cult, depeche mode, siouxsie and the banshees, clan of xymox etc. Personaly i dont take people who tell me that they are listening to post punk and kpop for example seriously. Mixing genres is ok, but things like kpop arent related to what goths listen at all. Mixing it with punk music is resonable bc it is from what it all came, but it depends of person.

2. Clothes

Many people will tell you that you dont need to dress as a goth to be one, wich i dont find true. Clothes are a big part of this subculture. You dont have to look like trad goth everyday, band shirts, some black pants, maybe ankh jewlery and you are good to go. There are many different type of goths and thier clothes that you will for sure find something for you. Some people are mixing goth subculture with metal for example. And thats okay. You can look more gothly one day and one day more like a metalhead, you dont have to close yourself for only one and can enjoy whatever you like!

3. Concerts

Concerts and events are a big part of goth subculture and to be a real goth you should attend these. Of course it can be kind of hard at the beginning, these can be expensive sometimes or happen not frequently, but if you search good enough you will find something eventually. You dont need of course to rush to the castle party at the beggining of your goth journey but try to attend as much as you can to the local concerts, and events.

4. Literature and movies

There are a lot of goth movies with this specific dark atmosphere. You should watch some of them to really sink in that subculture. The most popular are of course tim burtons movies, „the crow”, „the craft”, „only lovers left alive”, „let the right one in”, „the addams family” etc. It is really easy to find them so i wont write down all. It would be nice if you watch some of bands documentaries as well. For the literature edgar allan poe is the most basic and popular goth author, besides him you can also read mary shelley, lovecraft, bictor hugo. These are only some of the most popular, as before there are a lot of more authors you can find. I recommend also to get to know about goth athors from your country or more local community. Its nice to know them.

5. History

To really call yourself a goth you should know from where the whole subculture came from. Read about this or watch some videos, it is a really interesting topic and its important to know.

Of course these are some basics i will be talking more about these things in the next posts. This is to get a bit of a view what it takes to be a real goth. If you have any questions i will answear to them happily.

[atmymercy]

Hii tea, hope youre doing well!

sorrry for didnt reply you on your dms, idk why im like this but i struggle to answear others and there are about 3 people that I talk to like that for a while in my messages

i would like to participate in your giveaway!

the music i choose is: gorillaz - new gold.

Its a song that talk about a mysterious woman and i like to think that is about a fortune teller, kinda the high priestess vibe so it reminds about you!

｡･:*:･ﾟ★,｡･:*:･ﾟ☆

But in the magic cove, there's a pretty one I asked her where it goes 'cause I really want I wonder if she knows that we're underwater That's the way it goes in the city wonder

｡･:*:･ﾟ★,｡･:*:･ﾟ☆

My question is: how will my next boo will spoil me? I'm needy 😭

P

xoxo

hello princess p! i am! thank you for hoping so! i hope you are as well!

and omg honey you are so silly! i don't mind at all! i just hope you know with me, nothing is ever late! it's fate! lol

oooh i love the sireny high priestess vibe going on right here! which is funny because i was thinking a mermaid tarot deck would be fun to get! lol so i think you did pretty great on this!

for you, i got the 5 of swords, 7 of wands & 4 of coins.

so your next boo will spoil you in the way of not really wanting to argue with you or letting you down kind of thing. aka if you two do have a disagreement, they are most likely going to give in to you and let you feel like you "won" when really they're just being very kind. you should watch out for this because obviously, you don't want to take advantage of them or make them feel neglected if they want to let you win out a lot! aka they spoil you, honey! they also spoil you by defending you against others and not letting other people tear you down! they do not stand for that at all! for gifts, i see a lot of small things that are helpful or useful for around the house or for you. like if you lose your charger, suddenly they've gotten you a new one! or a new bathmat when yours gets old and raggedy.

hope you enjoyed it! please give feedback or buy me a coffee when you can! if you want to explore this further, please consider a private read as well. also thank you for sharing with me!♡

love & light!

-tea

as always, my rules & info are in my pinned post if you're interested in a reading of your own!

[whumpberry-cookie]

Night shift

(Caretaker + Whumpee, comfort, recovery whump)

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Whumpee tries to walk quietly through the dark hallway without waking anyone. He slowly walks barefoot across the cold panels toward the lighted living room. The sudden brightness blinds him to the extent that he does not notice Caretaker sitting there in the armchair.

"Where do you think you're wandering in the middle of the night?" Caretaker puts the newspaper down on the table and walks over to him.

"Oh- I- I couldn't sleep actually... But that's okay. I'll find myself something to do. You don't have to pay attention"

"Why can't you sleep?"

"Oh, it- it's nothing, my skin's just a little itchy, that's all"

"Of course it is. I told them the bandages should be changed more often" He sighs "Alright. Come after me, will you?"

Caretaker leads him into the small bathroom and encourages him with a gesture to sit on the edge of the tub. The entire floor is completely silent except for the quiet hum of a draft.

"I'll remove your gown now so I can have acces to bandages" He warns in advance. With the utmost gentleness, Caretaker undoes the buttons and slides the gown off Whumpee's shoulders. Then he chooses the subject to distract Whumpee from the fact of being uncovered "Say... Are you dreaming about anything?"

"Not at all, I'm just blacking out" He says, as Caretaker supports Whumpee's elbow with one hand and gently unwinds the dirty bandages with the other. The only touch Whumpee feels is tender tingles of warm fingertips. "Actually, after waking up for a long while I don't know where I am or who I am and... It doesn't really feel real. And it's... somehow threatening"

"I see. A sense of unreality can occur after long-term substance abuse. We'll be watching how it changes during the rehab. What can you do for now is to associate your waking environment with some pleasant experience or sense of security. It might help. Think of something like that and let me know"

While talking, Caretaker starts to soak a cloth in warm soapy water and gently washes Whumpee's skin of sweat and blood.

"Thanks, Caretaker. I can take care of the rest on my own. You can go to sleep"

"Oh really? Good. Raise your arm then"

He looks down on the floor and mumbles hesitantly: "....I can't do that"

"As I thought. I'm at my shift. I watch over you guys to make sure no one takes a midnight walk to the rooftop or something. It's my job, so don't let your guilt stop you from asking for help when you need it, okay?"

"Okay. I'm sorry..."

"You've done nothing wrong, Whumpee. You're not only a patient. You are important to me. Remember" He reaches out to stroke Whumpee's arm encouragingly, but eventually lowers his hand back "Here you go. Does it feel better now?"

Whumpee answears with a nod and a smile. Then Caretaker washes Whumpee's hair in a bowl of warm water, massaging his head and asking a lot of questions about how he feels to engage him. Caretaker dries Whumpee's head with the lowest setting of hairdryer so as not to wake anyone with the noise and gives him a fresh gown to change into.

The warmth of the air, the soft voice of Caretaker and smell of fresh laundry calms Whumpee's sensces and he finally fully relaxes.

Caretaker giggles quietly, seeing how Whumpee's blinking and trying to stay awake "Someone's sleepy"

"mmhm illgonow..."

Caretaker ends shift at 6am, right before Whumpee wakes up. When he does, he finds Caretaker laying next to him on his bed. Whumpee can enjoy the cuddle for next couple of hours while Caretaker is sleeping off his night shift.

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Caretaker being not only soo dammm good at caretaking but also a medic? It's a big yes from me!

I've recently developped an unhealthly love for all altruistic-medic type of characters and I have Shinra to blame.

[neverendingstories00]

Past The Point Of No Return (Ch.9/FINALE)

Pairing: Safin x F!Reader

Summary: You attempt to adjust back to your mundane lifestyle, but Safin still haunts you. Safin makes sure to let the world know that you are his and only his.

Word Count: 4.6k

Warnings: N/A

A/N: GUYS!! It's the final chappie...😖 Dw, there's an epilogue that is going to come very shortly. I know this has been short, but it's been a really fun ride. I promise to write more fics in the future. I might take a small break since school and that I've been writing non-stop for the past week and posting the chappies at like 3am. Anwyays, I stayed up until 2am to finish this for you guys. Your support and comments literally make my day so thank you once again! Hope you guys enjoy this ❣️❣️

MASTERLIST

Three months on that dreaded island, and the world hadn’t changed. M16 was still running, the protests still occurred, and you (surprisingly) were still alive. You returned to your old apartment and saw the desk where you had meet Safin, imaging the knife that was uncomfortable close to your neck. The way he had sniffed your hair and his nickname, clever girl, rolled off of his tongue. In your apartment, you always thought Safin was going to be waiting for you at every corner.

All of your family and friends were overjoyed seeing your alive. Your poor mother and sister sobbed as they held you close and gave a thousand thanks to M16. In those months you were gone, everybody was sure that you had died or were killed in a horrible manner. Your mother didn’t even want to know what you had gone through. Her arms were wrapped tightly around your body as her tears stained your shoulder,

“Just stay with me. Please.” Her broken voiced cracked. “I can’t lose you again, y/n.”

That had marked the first time you ever cried in front of your coworkers. You knew it was unprofessional, but after months of captivity, you were even more damaged then you were before. Being inside of your own body and clothes made you painfully uncomfortable. You constantly took showers and changed your clothes because everything reminded you of Safin. No longer could you wear in a braid since you lay on Safin’s chest and he’d unravel the braid, running his fingers as you two walked. All of the dresses in your closet you threw out, just looking at them made you think of the night after that dinner where Safin requested a kiss.

Even if it wasn’t there, he haunted you every second.

Safin had been locked away in M16’s underground emergency headquarters. Nomi reported that he was under constant surveillance. He was polite to most of the guards, requesting a copy of a Brave New World. It was absolutely bizarre, but they gave it to him. They tried to force information of out him, but he wouldn’t budge. No reason why he kidnapped you, wanted control over post-soviet countries, or any of the sadistic actions he had done. Upon seeing Bond, M, or any agent, he would ridicule and tear them down. It turned out the woman he had previously loved was Madeleine. He had attempted to create a clone with his and Madeliene’s blood but failed. Nobody had a single idea of what he was capable of. Not even you knew what Safin held. But all M16 knew was that he was a classified global threat that was taken down by his own prisoner. His downfall had begun after his capture. The protests had been contained by goverments and other international spy agencies. M had promised that he would never ever step within a mile of your location.

It all seemed too normal to be true.

The month following your return, you decided to get back into the line of action two weeks after your arrival. Your mother had voted against it, but you needed it more than anything. Anything to get Safin out your mind. Your first day in office was full of questions from all of your co-workers.

“What did he do to you?”

“What was Safin’s lair like?”

‘What was under the mask?”

You could never respond with the truth. The nights were he had fucked you with his tongue down your throat; your neck decorated in red marks. How he had married the two of you and took you on expensive shopping trips. The only people who knew of the truth were Nomi, Bond, and M. That was all. It all seemed like a drug trip gone wrong. After your first week back, the questions had gone down. Moneypenny would come to your desk with a report, a smile on her clear skin. “Welcome back, C”. It made you smile, taking the report and typing away. Being back to your mundane life was going to get taking use to it. No longer would you have nights of true pleasure in your life ever again. But it was for the better. You were utterly damaged beyond belief, but hid in deep in your body. Your broken, crippled soul.

Q had been one of your closest acquaintances in M16. Upon first meeting him, a rivalry was sparked between you two. Q had been deemed the smartest person in M16. With you, a stubborn and young recruit, he shook in his shoes. You thought he hated you at first, but he stated that he considered you a “boon companion”. The man spoke with such large words. You told him to simply call you a “friend”, and that is where your friendship that slowly began to grow.  

You knew you weren’t suppose to tell him, but you did. Every single bit of it. He would come over to your apartment every night with Chinese Food, listening with his Miso Soup as you explained your experience on the island. Q wasn’t one for gossip and you trusted him with all of the information you had told him. Not only was he a colleague, but a confidant.

The ring was minimanlistic gold band with thin, dainty diamonds. It was easy to miss. Q looked at your hand, examining the ring.

“You’re married to him?”

You nodded in response. “I am. He had a whole ceremony, and a priest held at gunpoint. I’ve taken the ring off…”

“Regardless, your still...married to him.” Q had seen some bizarre events over the years, but this was truly baffling. One of his friends was forcefully married to the world’s most feared anarchist.

“Do you think I wanted to be? I can’t forget about him. He’s still there..”

“In solitary confinement. He’s being guarded twenty-four seven. Safin isn’t going to be leaving anytime soon.” Q attempted to console. He was horrible with emotions. “I checked every database I could and tried to find any ties connected to him, but nothing came up. If they do, I’ll make sure to alert you of them.”

Holding the ring in your fingers, you spun it around. A sigh escaped your mouth. “Q, I...can’t. He..we..”

“He took advantage of you. All of the threats he had made were meant to scare you. I know you tried to fight back. Everything you had gone through...I apologize.” Q said, a hint of guilt in his voice. “Day and night, I tracked for your location. We thought Spectre had taken you. Safin had made sure there was no trace of you. Months prior, he had been planning this. He was obsessed with you. Only If I had kn-”

“I’m here now. I’m not leaving.” You confirmed, trying to sound confident. Safin couldn’t hurt you anymore. He was locked away, never to be shown to the world again. “Thanks to your and your little trick, I got out.”

“A prisoner bringing down her captor. That is quite impressive, C.”

“And I’ll do it again.” You promised. Q nodded in response, a sly smile on your face. He grabbed his Sake and the two of your cheered, drinking your sorrows away. Q wasn’t one for words. Whenever he grabbed his Sake, it was a silent reminder that your secrets were safe with him. Always.

-----

It all started with your period. Even before meeting Safin, your period was becoming spottier and came at late dates. You shrugged it out and thought nothing of it. But after your arrival home, not only did your mental health decline but so did your pyshical wellbeing. It all started with your frequent mood swings at work and home, causing sleepless nights. Your doctor prescribed you with bipolar medication, but it never worked. All it did was make you more paranoid and sensitive.

Your period came late. It was spotty and faint, and had disappeared two days later. Your heart beat was increasing, you breasts became larger as they ached, and you felt nauseous without getting sick. Those had been the major symptoms.

It wasn’t until you had fainted infront during a presentation that Q had decided it was best for you to go to a doctor. He had noticed the bags under your eyes, fatigue, and slight change in weight.

Inside of the doctor’s office, you looked down, rapidly tapping your foot. What the hell was happening to you? Were you truly going insane. Everything hurt so much.

Q placed his hand on your thigh, making the shaking stop. Looking over at him, your face was full of worry.

“He’ll put you on stronger medication, C. Your going to be fine.”

As you wanted to respond, the doctor opened the door and shut it behind him, looking at the papers as he tilted his glasses down.

Sitting up, you look at him, eager for an answear.  Your expectations were low for anything major. “What is the issue, docter?”

Sorting out his papers, he answered, “From your test, it appears that your...pregnant.”

The shaking stopped. Your breathing become lower as everything became blurry and muffled. Everything was numb. This was the last thing that you needed. It had to be a false test. There was no way you could be holding his child. It wasn’t possible.

“No...No…” You managed to mutter. Q looked over at you, pity in his eyes. “Please, I can’t do this,”

The doctor looked down at you, understanding your distress. He knew about who the father could potentially be.

“I’m sorry, I am..” He gulped as he shook his head. It didn’t seem like what he was going to tell you was good news.

“Your five months pregnant, y/n. It’s too late for an abortion.”

Everything dropped around you. Looking at your stomach, you felt disguetd with yourself. Inside your stomach, you were carrying his child. Safin’s offspring. Inside of your stomach was a growing monster.

The doctor interrupted, trying to make the best out of a positive situation. He said that you could give the child up to adoption and that he knew plenty of parents that wanted a child. All you did was want to leave the godawful place. A few short minutes later you had left with Q. Q barely spoke a word, seeing the disallief on your face.

Getting into Q’s Landrover, you close the door, looking straight foward.

“Q?” You muttered, turning to him.

He looked back at you, awaiting for your response.”Yes?”

“Is the office still open?”

Q furrowed an eyebrow, perplexed. “Why do you want to go at such a late hour?”

You looked at your stomach before looking back at Q.

“I have unfinished business I need to attend to.”

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Q had begged for you to reconsider, but you ignored him. You were furious, hurt, and upset. Not only at yourself, but Safin. He would always whisper in your ear that you were “past the point of no return”. After months of speculation, you finally knew why. Even if he was imprisoned, Safin had to mark you to let the world know that you were his and only his. It was all some sick and twisted plan.

Walking down into the emergency room, you entered the room and saw him, locked away in a glass cell. Safin looked the same, except he wore an nude jumpsuit. It had been two months since you had last saw him. His last, cold whisper with heartbroken eyes as he was dragged away. A subtle smile appeared on his face as he put his book down.

“My dear y/n, you’ve finally come to visit.” He greeted. “I was beginning to miss you.”

“YOU FUCKING ARSEHOLE!” You screeched like a banshee. Attempting to bang on the glass cell doors, the guards help you back. “HOW DARE YOU!”

Safin raised one of his eyebrows, confused. He scalded y/n’s body, seeing the tired face and somewhat noticeable bump. She still looked like her beautiful self. But there was something rather off about her appearance. When on his island, y/n looked happier. Like she had been sleeping more, letting down his guard. But when she returned home, all of the happiness had evaporated from her body. Safin could’t hate the woman that betrayed him. After all, y/n was his wife.

“What you mean?” He queried. “Isn’t this what you wanted? Did’t you say you needed me?”

“Do you want this?” Safin panted, looking down at you. Seeing him on top of him, he’s truly a stunning man. His velvety voice was making you wet. Instead of sounding pissed off, he sounded calm and even caring.

“Shut up, please.” Your hand traveled to his cheek, gently patting it. “I-”

Two of his fingers enter your clitoris, causing you to bite your lip. It was a painful reaction at first, but then became pleasurable. You could no longer hide your pleasure and let out a small moan. “N-need it.”

“I never asked to be pregnant! Especially with this!”

Safin simply shook his head, perplexed to why you had been acting so angry about your pregnancy. You were going to become his wife, it was bound to happen. “I thought you would have learned sooner. I don’t see why you are so distressed, my love.”

“Don’t fucking my love me, Safin.” You snapped back as tears began to prick at your eyes. “You used all these threats against my work and family for me to obey your little commands. Face it, you took advantage of me.”

“Took advantage of? What are you speaking of, y/n?” Safin stood up from sitting and walked close to the glass to get a better look at you. “When I first saw you, I knew you were going to mine. My wife, my companion, my light, forever. That child inside of you is our creation. Can you imagine what he or she will do?”

“Your carrying one of the elites. I know this transformation is painful, but they will be beautiful and smart like there mother. They will carry on for me and you, build a new world. Just like we will do.” Safin calmly stated in his silkly accented voice. He seemed so confident and calm in his wording as if the situation had been totally normal. “If you try to give him up, I swear on my life that I will find the child and you again. SPECTRE will want that child more than anything else.”

“This child or SPECTRE will never know of your existence.” You maintained, trying not to go emotional. Safin could never his child for thousnads of reasons. The last thing you wanted was to have another Safin running around the world. “It will grow up fatherless. It cannot be exposed to such a monstrous man.”

The calm composure of Safin quickly changed. His expression became more scrunched as his hands clenched into fists. “He is my child too, y/n. We bleed the same blood. I demand to see him. It is only fair.”

Stepping back, you shaked your head. As long as you were alive, that child was going to be far away from Safin. “It’s only fair to the child that they grow up normal.”

“Normal?” Safin quietly muttered, before booming. “HE IS OUR CHILD, WOMAN? HAVE YOU NOT SEEN ME? HAVE YOU NOT SEEN MY WORK? THAT CHILD IS NOT A FOLLOWER, HE IS A LEADER! WHAT DO YOU NOT SEE?”

You jumped back, startled by this yelling. The guards had turned to him, pointing there guns. The last thing they needed was a riled Safin.

“I see everything. You are going to be locked in here, forever. Charged for your crimes agaisnt humanity, and Myself?” You explained as you looked at your stomach before meeting the eyes of your husband. “Will raise the child as my own. Be a mother and raise them to be the opposite of there father. We may be married, but I am not connected to you. I’m breaking all ties with you. You hurt me, manipulated me, used me. That’s not what love is. I have never, and will never love you, Safin. Goodbye.”

Safin looked heartbroken and betrayed, unable to respond to such a thing. For the first time in forever, he looked defeated. The anarchist was so happy to have you as his wife and an offspring to call his own, but his dreams had been crushed. His own wife didn’t love him and his child would never know who he is. Safin would never see the only person he truly loved ever again.

Spinning on your heel, you walked out of the room with Q behind you. Tears fell from your eyes as you stopped at and looked at the empty office with a hand on your face. Safin’s child was growing inside of you. You were far past the point of return now as you carried one of the most dangerous men in the world’s child. But it wasn’t just Safin’s child, it was your as well. You were going to be this child’s mother now, whether you liked it or not. If SPECTRE or anybody had found them, they would be killed on spot. You refused to let an innocent child go through such pain. Just because it had Safin’s blood didn’t mean it was a monster. Evil was not born, but made. It was your duty as a former solider and new mother to serve your country and family.

Your child may bleed Safin’s blood, but it will never become anything similar to his father under your eyes.

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THREE YEARS LATER

Louis was the best thing that had happened to you. When you first saw him, held him, you knew you loved him. The child would always cry and fuss in everybody else’s arms but yours. After your difficult birth, the nurses tried to comfort Louis but he simply wouldn’t stop crying. When the nurses had given him to you he had stopped crying and slept in your arms. Holding Louis, all of the pain and anxiety in the world had gone away. He was the light in your darkness.

Everybody who had met the child loved him. Your closest acquaintances at M16 such as Moneypenny and Q knew about Louis. Moneypenny always offered to babysit while Q would bring his cats to be Louis’s first friends. Bond and Nomi had given him the nickname “big man” and Madeleine, to your surprise, thought Louis was a sweetheart.

You’re first week as a mother wasn’t the most ideal. It was full of crying, confusion, and uncomfort. Whenever you looked at Louis, he reminded you of Safin. Everything about him made Safin upon your eyes. But you kept telling yourself that they were two separate people. Safin was locked away, never to see your child or you ever again. You were safe.

Three years had gone by fast. You were no longer a girl, but a woman. You still continued your job at M16 as usual; encrypting, decrytping, helping the double oh agents with there missions. Nothing had changed, except you were a mother.

Your work shifts had gotten shorter due to your commitment. Instead of working to four am, you were strictly prohibited (Moneypenny’s words) to only work to Nine. It didn’t seem ideal at first. But as the days had gone on, your highlight would come home to Louis, running to your legs and hugging them. It brought a true smile to your face. It was the first one you had felt that was genuine in years.

Unlocking the door and opening it, Louis had ran up to your legs, jumping up and down that you were home.

“Mama! Home!” He smiled. You picked him up as he kissed your face, and you responded back with kisses as well. Louis had a minor speech delay and could only piece together certain words. Everybody had found it adorable.

[Y/s/n] came up to you, crossing her arms. “Let mama walk in the door and breathe for five seconds, Lou.”

“It’s fine, [y/s/n]. He’s just excited.” You reassured. Placing Louis down, you rub his head as he runs back to building his lego. Needing a drink, [y/s/n] leads you to the kitchen to make you one drink to ease your nerves.”

“How was work?” She asked, grabbing the glasses as she worked her magic.

You shrugged in response, “Same old shit. Glad to be home though, I got two days off.”

“Really? I thought you never got work off.”

“Thought so too. My supervisor gave me the weekend off. He wanted me to relax.” You explained. [Y/s/n] handed you a drink and you too toasted before gulping them down.

“You can get a break from him, if you want.” You offered. It was your only time to spend with Louis alone. Your sister smiled at the idea.

She had a growing family and life of her own as well. “Really?”

“Yeah, I need some time with him. I just want him to know what I love him..”

“Y/n..” Your sister patted your shoulder. “He knows that. Remember when he was a baby and James tried to hold him, but he got kicked in the face? When’s he around you, he’s calm. He loves you more than anything in the world.”

“Your not even a mother, yet you’re so motherly.” You smirked.

She chuckled back in response. “He’s one of the [y/l/n]’s. It’s my duty to be his aunt.”

Louis ran into the kitchen, bored with his project. All he wanted to do was be with his mama. Running up your legs, Louis grabbed the pant and tugged on them. “Mama?”

“Yes, Lou?” You looked down, moving his unruly dark curls out of his beautiful bronze face. He had Safin’s beautiful bluish-green eyes that always shined. Although nothing like his father, Louis was the copy and paste of Safin.

“Storytime..please?” Louis begged with his puppy eyes.

“Of course..” You smiled. Louis ran off to his bedroom to wait patiently for his story.

Your sister looked and smiled at you. “He’s amazing..”

“I know. Everybody knows..”

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Louis hadn’t even gotten through the first few pages without falling asleep on your shoulder. As you read through Beauty And The Beast, his little snores stopped your sighing. Looking down at him, Louis was truly a beautiful little boy. He had dark curly brown hair, bronzed olive skin, big bluish-green eyes, and chubby cheeks. You had gotten used to the fact that Louis was identical to Safin. He shared his blood, but Louis and Safin were two different people. Safin was a broken and misunderstood Anarchist while Louis was a sweet, little boy.

As hard as it was to believe, Safin was once a young childhood who didn’t know anybody better. His innocence had been stripped away from him at a young age, scarring him permanently with internal and external wounds.

You should hate him for he had done to you. What he had done to the world and the pain. But yet, a small part of you missed him.

You missed the way Safin gave you what no other man could give you. How he treated you not only with true obsessive love but spoiled you with endless gifts and kisses. How his fingers would play with your hair, his sweet nicknames, how he promised to kill and die for you. Safin worshipped you like a god. When he had kidnapped you, at first you hated him more than anything in the world. But as time had gone on and he became more vulnerable, you began to fall for him. You were a scared beauty who fell for the broken beast.

What if M16 had never come for you? Safin would have been your husband, whether you liked it not. Louis would have to grow up with Safin’s influences, trapped in a Submarine Pen. You didn’t want to imagine what Safin wanted with your child. What he would use it for in his sick game of Anarchy and Discord. Just the thought of Safin made you happy, sad, and confused. You pulled Louis close and stroked his curls, wanting to protect him. Maybe you should have slept with him to make sure he was safe.

Safin was locked away. He wouldn’t hurt you again.

Why did you miss someone you hated so much?

After taking off your prosthetic and rolling into your bed, you throw the covers over your cold body. Your whole life you had always felt alone. Connections were hard for you to make, no matter how hard you tried. In your thirty two years of life, you had always felt disconnected from the world. Something had to be wrong with you. The bed was big enough for two people, but there was only one person. As you make yourself comfortable, you notice a burning candle on the nightstand. It makes you think back to that night in Greece, with Safin’s hands travelling over your body as he passioantly made love to you. Safin wasn’t a man you had met everyday. He was an Anarchist who happened to be obsessed with you and your legal husband. The ring was still on your finger to this day. Looking at it made you subtly smile to yourself. Why were you so happy about him? Safin was unpredictable. One minute you symathized for him, wanted him, or hated him.

But then you realized it.

Safin’s love for you was unhealthy. He had stalked your whole life and pre planned your kidnapping to be his bride. You had thought you were going to be used a bargaining trip, but it was the total opposite. The more you learned (and obsered) Safin, you realized that he was human as well. He was a lonely evil man who yearned for love. The love he had experience was eithier negative or nothing. Upon seeing you, Safin wanted you, but didn’t know how to win you over. He made you a garden, gave you expensive items, a bedroom instead of a cell, yet you refused to love him. It wasn’t until Greece where you began to slighlty sympathieze with him. It would never justify his actions. When you had fucked, all you needed was a distraction. Both of you had been touchstarved. When that occurred, Safin had assumed you were in love. He did whatever he took for you to love him, even if it meant killing for freinds and family or forcing you into a loveless marriage.

It was for the better that Safin was locked away in a glass cell for the rest of his days. You and Louis could try to live a somewhat normal life. You would never experience a true connection again. But it was okay with you. If you could most of your life being confused and yearning, then you could do it for as long as you lived. Louis was the only reason you were going on with life. His smile and how his eyes twinkled in the light made you cry; he was truly a star.

You would never admit it to anyone, not even your cloest friends or family, but a small part of you did truly love Safin. You wanted to help him, but he was far past the point of the return. It was better if he was out of your life.

Looking into the burning candle, your eyes begin to flutter shut. You suddenly feel warm again, like your being held and watched over. It always felt like you were never alone. Safin was a lingering phantom that intrigued and haunted you. He was always watching you.

And yet, a small part of you truly loved Safin.

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Used to your absence 🌿

Anonymous said: hi there I saw you were taking request, I was wondering if you could do an Aron Piper imagine where him & the reader are broken up but one day they see each other at the club & someone tries to hurt her but then he goes over & becomes her knight & shinning armor which makes them spend more time together & eventually get back together. Love your writing 💛

a/n: Thank you for your kindness! There it is, I hope you like it! Thank you for your patience and I’m sorry it took me so long. Stay home and stay safe, everyone! Enjoy 🌿❤️ word count: 1.773

warnings: I don’t think there are any of them. Sorry for the eventual grammar errors, but it’s 4am :))).

Arón Piper x reader 🌿

The worst feeling is when you are having trouble breathing, with a huge weight pressing on your chest and the tremenduous need to cry, to scream, to get it off and move on. There are those thoughts haunting you again, in the middle of the day, in the middle of a overcrowded street, with too many people passing by and none of them realising how broken you are. One single day had changed everything, but you still don’t know how that happened.

You love summer, warm days and long walks while the sun kisses your skin softely, but some summer days there in Madrid can be too hot to be supportable. Danna is here only for a few days to celebrate her birthday and for her Mala Fama Tour. It’s always a pleasure to spend some time with her, she was the one you got along with the most and the one that was there for you after you and Arón broke up. She was only one call away despite the jet lag. 

After an afternoon spent at your favourite coffee shop with Danna, she decided to celebrate her birthday at a disco in Center of Madrid that night. You weren’t sure if it’s a good idea, her and Arón are literally like a family and though she’s your best friend, you wanted to turn down the invitation. You lately felt this unbearable longing as you saw his face everywhere.

”So, you coming tonight?” she smiled at you and waited for an answear before she would get in the cab.

“Yeah, definitely.” you accepted anyway and kissed cheeks then she left for some Cosmopolitan shooting.

It’s been months since you’ve heard anything from Arón and it seemed you felt better, but knowing your anniversary is approaching, somehow messed up your mind. You found yourself admiring his Instagram profile a few nights ago and even opened the dms to ask him what was going on in his life, but you came across quickly. He had moved on and you could really use a drink right now.

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The night only began and you just stood at the table beside Danna’s friends, drinking and laughing with them. Arón wasn’t there, Miguel hugged you so tight, Itzan told you that he missed you, but Mina and Omar immediately kidnapped you after you hugged the others and asked for all the stuff that happened in your life lately. The conversation died sooner that they expected, you haven’t done much, your life without Arón was not that exciting. He was the one that lighted up your world with his smile, integrated sarcasm as if it was his native language and his love that once was destined to you.

Omar isn’t only the life of the party, he is also a very kind and warm person, with a big heart and armed with so much patience that you could even imagine. He always listened to you when Danna considered you were going nuts.

“But you broke up months ago.” he shakes his head.

“I know, I know. It’s harder than I thought to fall out of love, but it’s better now.” you smiled and he pat your shoulder.

You made your way to the dance floor and waved your body as the music dictates you. It’s already the third drink, but nothing too strong as you are not usually a drinker. You frizzed as your sight accidentally met Arón’s. He was there, beside your table, trying to focus on wishing properly a “happy birthday” to Danna, though seeing you made his heart feeling strange and a lump going up, stuck on his throat.

You shake your head and ignored that feeling in your stomach. You moved again to the sound of the music and let the inhibitions disappear. You wouldn’t usually wear a short dress, you wouldn’t let your body exposed and you wouldn’t let so many males stare at you. You always thought that a real man’s attention is caught due to the brain, the way of thinking and because of the way two people mentally resonate. Not only resonating in bed or being sexually attracted by someone.

As you stayed in the middle of so many people who moved lascivious on the music, you felt two strong arms wrapping around your waist and pulling you closer to some strange man. He danced behind your back, rubbing his body against yours until you found the strength to somehow stop him from moving.

“Let me go!” you tried to get his hands off of your body, but he only just moved one of them.

“Why, love? You look so sexy, let me enjoy this beautiful body.” his hand rested on your ass, moving up and down, creating a very unpleasant feeling.

The whole situation looked like a couple dancing and it didn’t raised any question marks, that’s what made you scared. He could lift you up any moment and take you God knows where, making it looks perfectly normal.

“Come on, let’s not complicate it. Let me go, please.” your voice is shaky as you felt his breathing against you neck. His big arms wouldn’t let you make any move and feeling him kissing your neck made you sick. You had tears running down your face and your body started trembling.

“She said to let her go, so let her go!” a thick voice heard behind you and made the strange man that had you captive in his arms turn to face the owner of the voice, but didn’t loose the grip.

You looked at Arón as he clenched his jaw. You know he shaved his head, you saw pictures but you couldn’t imagine he looks so good in real life. He is wearing his piercing and the ring you bought him for his birthday two years ago. Since then he never took it off for anything, but you thought he was wearing it because of you. Now, after months you hadn’t been together, he’s still wearing it. And now, after he saw that the man is not letting you go, he used his right hand along with the ring to make him back off.

He punched him in the jawline, careful not to hurt you too. As the man brutally let go of your waist and Arón going on top of him, you somehow managed to attenuate the fall. Arón was throwing punches towards the man, his face starting to bleed more and more.

You quickly grabbed Arón’s arm and tried to stop him, but the real help came from Miguel who had taken him away from the body laying down on the floor almost unconscious. His eyes were filled with anger, his fists painted with blood, but he softened when he caught your sight.

You rushed and hugged him tight and cried while he was holding you. You didn’t know how you are supposed to interpret his intervention or his tight embrace, but you stood there, “Thank you so much. I didn’t know what was going to happen if you weren’t there.”

“There so need to think like that, alright? I was there and I helped as I could.” he rubbed your back, slowly moving up and down.

He knows about how reserved you are with touching, especially with other people touching you. You didn’t like much that kind of interaction and he is the only one you always allowed to touch you, to feel your body entirely.

“So, uhm, I have some of your mail at the apartament.” he broke the silence. “Some letters came to that adress a few months in a row, they eventually stopped after a while, but I think you should have them.” you moved away from his touch.

“Alright.”

“So, are you free tomorrow afternoon? I mean, we could met at our-“ he stopped and swallowed the lump “-at the coffee shop to hand them to you, if you want to.”

“Yeah, it’s fine. Tomorrow afternoon at the coffee shop.”

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He was waiting for you the next day at a table that used to be your favourite. From there you can see Madrid on its beauty and the people always walking made you detach for a moment and enjoy your own world you and Arón built together. There were also a perfect place for him because he could smoke without disturbing anyone and he always says that the light from that spot made you look literally like an angel.

“Hi!” you sat on the table facing him.

He extinguish the cigarette and smiled “Hi!”.

There was an awkward silence floating between you, filled with far too many unspoken words and regretted decisions.

“So, there are a few letters from your mom. I believe you told her your new address since after three months they stopped.” he broke the silence.

“I haven’t, actually. We had a pretty big fight so these letters are probably the payment amount.”

“Oh, shit. So this time you’ve been alone? I know that your mom is the only family you have.” he still remembers. He still knows you the best.

“Yeah, well that’s it. No big deal, really.” you half smiled.

“Do you remember why we agreed to split up?” he finally spoke his mind out. “You considered this thing we had being too much, and you being too much for me. I considered that I hadn’t enough time to show my love for you between the acting, photoshoots and all those crazy stuff going on in my life.”

“We spent some crazy, busy years together!” you laughed. 

“But were the most beautiful years. I miss the ‘always on the run’ life. I miss you.”

“Yeah, I know what you’re saying. I miss you too, a lot. I thought I managed to fall out of love with you, but I guess I just got used to your absence.”

“Please don’t try to fall out of love. Because I tried to love you less and that remembered me why I love you in the first place. So all I could do was to love you more than before if that is possible.”

“Yeah, but it’s over, as both of us wished.” you shrug, taking a sip from the coffee you ordered.

“And now, knowing how it’s like to live after you, I wish to take it back. Do you think it’s possible?” his hand shyly touched yours.

“No, we can’t change the past. But we can build a future and if you want, we can have a second chance to fix things.” you accepted his hand and crossed your fingers with his.

“This is all I want.”

[pinkpastels113]

Hi there

So I would like to say that we are in no rush so you don't need to apologize, enjoy the rest of your vacation.

Ooooooh I went to listen to that song when I saw your answear, it's so fun to sing. It's been sometime since i've listened to it. I'm surprise I still rembered the lyris tho haha. And I love that movie. I can't get enough of Emma S.

It's kinda sad that I dind't do anything special today, at least I don't feel like I did and that I don't know when was the last time I did.

And with that said, what's your favorite moment of your vacation so far?

P.S: after that song played, my random thing played A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton and now this song it's stuck in my head lol

Confession: I hadn’t known that A Thousand Miles existed till like two months ago and I swear to god my friends almost had a heart attack when I jumped in my seat and was like “WAIT WAIT WHAT IS THIS SONG ITS SO CATCHY AND WHY HAVE I NEVER HEARD OF IT BEFORE???” It’s really a wonder that we didn’t get into an accident and that I’m still alive and here talking to you XD.

I consider staying in bed and watching your favorite show/movie on repeat and just chilling doing something special bc I’ve been nonstop these past couple days and would really just like a lazy couch/bed potato day for myself so if you did that, or even just did something you loved or made you feel happy or just content, I would think that you did something special :)).

Now for numero tres, my fav moment of my vacation so far is the zip line that I went on for the first time this afternoon around 2:30, bc obviously it wasn’t something that I have done and/or experienced before and bc I hadn’t known that I could be so scared and excited and nervous all at once. Equally. In doses. Especially when I spun in a circle on the line and my foot almost touched a leaf on a tree and when then I almost face planted on a wall. I was shaking after the first line and the lady gave me a weird look while she adjusted my straps to go on the second one and I was laughing like I do when I get nervous and awkward and omg it was mortifying 🙈. I think I also hugged the wooden column in the middle of the platform thingie while I walked around bc there WAS NO RAILS and I didn’t want to fall to my death amidst green as all heck trees, even tho they were really pretty and GREEN and a lot. Sadly, I’m not Katniss Everdeen 😔.

Hmm… I think my question for you today will be: would you take a friend or a family member or someone in a murky area with you on a vacation or would you prefer to go alone and why?

[multyfandoms-imagines]

Headcannon on the fan favorite abnormality, Der Freischütz? (I hope you're having a lovely day/afternoon/night btw!)

My grammar is probably dead xd(since im not english girl). Also yeah, im having lovely time, hope you all also have it! Thanks for request, hope you enjoy!

Der Freischütz headcannons

•very silent. So dont expect alot of talking

•but silence with Frei isnt uncomfortable. In fact, it calms your nerves

•you can talk with him during work about your day or ask him questions, but he will probably just move his head or answear really shortly

•isnt much into affection either. Touch-starved. So he can be suprised if you hug him out of nowhere

•actually makes sure that noone will hurt you. But because his bullets...pierce everything... He has to make sure, that you wont be in its way

•you probably got his EGO gift for visiting him so often

•if you end up in the bad mood he may comfort you. You probably know about his story, where he killed his own family, so he may remind you, that you are not the only one who is hurt. There are worse fates

•if you'll be in THAT bad mood Der Freischütz will allow you to hug and cry on him. He understands. Fate is cruel

•alright. Enough of that sad part xd

•Frei will teach you how to take care of his EGO weapon and armor, if you have them

•you must be very carefull with rifle tho, it may shoot YOU if you are not carefull

•if anyone makes fun or bullies you they suddenly see a portal with that "Demon-shooter" aiming at them

•he either lets them run or shoots them on the spot. Depending on what they did

•Der Freischütz is a silent protector, but willing to be more talkative and give affection if you need, perfect HE that is ZAYIN for you

[crimson-chains]

Hello! I just wanted to say, thank you! For your site and all the contents you post. And thank you for all funny answears to peoples questions. All this really makes my day, Especially when i'm tired and/or sad. It's really great to just open up your site and giggle at some funny picture or just read your comics, and take my mind of things. So, thank you! :)

Awwww, no worries at all!!! ^W^I’m really happy that you enjoy the things I post, even answers to asks ad stuff! :DDD

[dangan-your-ronpa-imagines-blog]

V3 BOYS JEALOUS

I’m back at it again yo

Now, with the jealous boyos

Under the cut because is kinda long in some of them.

Shuichi Saihara

- He had been calm about your hang outs with your male friends.

- And his male friends too.

- All okay.

- Until he noticed close you’ve come with Kaito.

- Not so okay now.

- He noticed how you would always hug him when you see each other.

- How you suddendly wanted to join to their training

- How your smile grow bigger when you talked to him.

- Saihara had all the rights to be worried about you breaking up with him for Kaito.

- He was energetic,happy almost the entire day, funny, charismatic.

- Saihara wasn’t.

- But at the same time, he didn’t have a reason to be worried.

- Saihara and Kaito were best friends, and he knows how loyal Kaito is.

- After more of thinking, the chances of Kaito stealing you from him weren’t very high, and the chances of you cheating on him with Kaito weren’t very high either.

- He feels stupid for thinking that.

- But that doesn’t mean he wasn’t a little anxious.

- Specially with you and Kaito being those kind of friends that act and look like a couple but are not a couple.

- But at the end of the day, he knows you love him, he knows Kaito is a good friend, and that’s what matters.

Rantaro Amami

- Pretty chill lime.

- you thought I was gonna put avocado didn’t you

- He’s pretty okay with you spending time with your male friends.

- That doesn’t change when you spend half of a day with Kiyo.

- Or so he thought.

- He had found you and Kiyo spending time together too often.

- He wouldn’t be worried about this if it was another person.

- But this is Korekiyo “send shivers through your spine” Shinguji we’re talking about and;

- 1. He knows people usually don’t want to spend time with Kiyo due to his appearence and antics, so, someone spending this much time with him was rare.

- 2. He knows that, once you get to know him, he can be a very good companion when you want to talk with someone and learn in the process.

- 3. He knows Kiyo could be a charming fuck if he really wanted to, and he wasn’t particulary unattractive either.

- I AGREE WITH THAT

- Yeah, Amami was slightly worried, so what’s he gonna do?

- Spend time with you and send glares at Kiyo when you’re not paying attention.

- Kiyo would either, don’t get why Amami is doing that and not pay any attention, or get why Amami is doing that and keep doing it.

- He most likely will send glares at Amami too.

- Anyone who saw them was instantly scared because,, hello?? guys are you gonna attack each other or what??

- But he knew Kiyo wouldn’t steal you at the end of the day, Amami knows that you wouldn’t leave him for Kiyo.

- Also cuddles in the couch when you get home.

Kaito Momota

- This man right here.

- He didn’t seem slightly worried when you started to spend time with Saihara, in fact, he was happy to see his S/O and his sidekick AKA best friend together.

- But this changed soon.

- You started to refuse when he asked for a date because you were going with Saihara to the library.

- You cannot say no to stargazing or go to the planetarium with this boy and don’t expect him to not be slightly upset or offended.

- You better have a good reason for this.

- He followed you two one day and saw that you have been helping Saihara with some cases.

- Okay that’s a good reason but still.

- sTARGAZING CAN’T BE CANCELLED.

- He realize that he was feeling jealous.

- And is not trying to hide it.

- Everytime he sees you and Saihara Together he goes at the two of you and butts in the conversation you were having.

- Always touching you, an arm around your waist or your shoulder, kissing you from time to time.

- Also glares, a lot of glares.

- You wonder why Saihara is getting all nervous and why is he sweating.

-Soon enough you discover that Kaito is jealous because honestly he’s not even trying to hide it.

- And if he is then he’s not good at it.

- You tell him to calm the fuck down, that there’s nothing to worry about and that Saihara is not trying anthing on you.

- Kaito seems more relaxed, but he still a jealous fuck.

- Oh well.

Kokichi Ouma

- Nishishi~?

- i don’t know anymore damn everything

- A printer is spending time with his S/O?

- And his S/O is enjoying it?

- What?? Oh silly S/O!

- Why would you do that when you can be with the great Kokichi Ouma!

- That’s way better than being with a toaster.

- Is not worried about you being with that good-for-nothing-robot.

- Not even when he sees Kiibo getting all flustered and red after you said something.

- Okay maybe a little.

- Maybe a little because,, heeeeyy! S/OOOO! Why aren’t you spending time with him doing fun things and drinking panta??

- Why do you like to be with a useless robot??

- S/O pay attention to this brat for fucks sake.

- Everytime he sees you two together he will butt in and annoy Kiibo with robophobic remarks until he goes away.

- When that happens he proceeds to pestering you with kisses on the face.

- And then he drags you to make pranks to the others with him

- You don’t understand why is he acting more like a brat than how he usually acts.

- But you get kisses so you don’t question it.

K1-B0 (Kiibo/Keebo)

- Ah??

- He doesn’t understand this feeling he has when he sees you with Ouma??

- Everytime he sees how much you laugh at his jokes

- Everytime Ouma puts an arm around you.

- So he asks about this to a person that has a lot of emotions

- Also Known As Kaito or emotional spacial wreck.

- He tells Kaito that he has this bitter feeling everytime he sees you with someone.

- Then, Kaito laughs.

- He laughs for two whole minutes.

- When he stops laughing he tells Keebo that he’s jealous.

- And then Keebo asks for a definition of this feeling.

- Kaito explains, somehow, and then asks with which person he starts to feel it.

- The moment he says the name of the purple midget Kaito grab him by his shoulders and says:

- “Kokichi is trying to steal ya girl dude.”

- fight me i said it

- Keebo panics and asks what to do to prevent that.

- Kaito tells him to stay close to you and show you affection, he has to show everyone that this is his S/O.

- And off he goes.

- He finds you talking with Ouma, he approaches the two of you and shyly grabs your hand.

- “Huh? Keebo?”

- Ouma knows what’s up.

- So he wrap his arms around your waist.

- “Well hello Kee-boy! What are you doing?”

- Keebo not happy.

- With all his might and forces he proceeds to kiss your cheek.

- And whoa.

- You’re surprised.

- Ouma’s surprised because he didn’t crash-

- Oh wait, he did.

- Not so surprise now.

Korekiyo Shinguji

- Mm?

- You’ve been spending this few days very closed to Amami.

- And he understands.

- Amami is quite a great listener and a good companion.

- Not even worried

- He is well aware that Amami, even if he’s a flirty fuck without notice it, is not the kind of guy that would steal his best friend’s lover.

- But still, he can’t help but feel a little jealous of the way Amami treats you.

- But he just limits himself to watch the two of you from the distance without being notice.

- But more than just watch he glares.

- If that’s his intention or not is still on discussion.

- Amami notices this but acts like he doesn’t to make Kiyo think he didn’t saw him.

- Oh but he does.

- “Why are you sweating Amami?”

- “Why are you throwing me daggers Korekiyo?”

- “You didn’t answear my question”

- “Neither did you”

- Yeah they’re friends and all.

- Amami would act similar if we’re all being honest here.

- And Kiyo knows that.

Gonta Gokuhara

- Another one who doesn’t know what is he feeling.

- So he asks to the first person he sees.

- Keebo.

- And he doesn’t know either.

- What a surprise.

- Then lets asks to the next person!

- Kokichi Ouma.

- He tells Ouma about this weird feeling he gets when he sees you and Hoshi together.

- Ouma, being the piece of shit he is, tells Gonta that Hoshi is trying to steal you.

- Gonta gasp.

- Then Ouma tells him to go after you and fight Hoshi on the spot.

- “Oh but Hoshi is very nice to S/O.”

- “Do you want to lose your partner?”

- “No, Gonta does not want that.”

- “Then go, Gonta, go for your girl before it’s too late!”

- And off he goes!

- He spotted you talking happily to Hoshi.

- “Oh, hello Gon-”

- Oh what happened??

- Why aren’t you touching the floor??

- Why were you in Gonta’s arms??

- “Gonta what-”

- “A-Ah! Gonta not want to lose S/O, so Gonta will have S/O close to him so he won’t lose her!”

-”...Ah?”

- “I think the kid jealous.”

- “Ah, is that so?”

- Gonta sheepishly nods.

- “You don’t have to worry kid, nothing will happen between S/O and me.”

- “Yeah, Hoshi and I are just friends, don’t worry.”

- Gonta feels kinda dumb now.

- “Ah! Gonta sorry for misunderstand!”

- “It’s okay Gonta, really.”

- “Yeah, don’t worry”

- “Gonta’s happy you’re not mad at him!”

- “Then Gonta proceeds to carry Hoshi too in a hug.

- “Sure, put me down kid.”

- “Put me down.”

- “Kid.”

- “KID.”

Ryoma Hoshi

- My son,,

- He’s not jealous.

- He’s waiting for the moment when you say you’re breaking up with him.

- He understands, You and Gonta are very close friends.

- Gonta also seems to treat you well, like a gentleman.

- The gentleman he will never be.

- Always knew this was gonna happen

- Still hurts though

- He loves you, but he knows he doesn’t deserve love.

- You notices that he have been more gloomy than he usual.

- And ask him what’s the matter.

- “Look S/O, if you want to break up with me, then go ahead, I understand that you don’t want to be with a guy like me, Gonta is better for you.”

-”What? Break up with you? Hoshi what are you talking about?”

- “I’m saying that you would be more happy with someone like Gonta, someone good.”

- “Hoshi what have you been thinking? You know Gonta and I are just friends, and you know perfectly well that you are the one I love, I wouldn’t change you for anything or anyone, you got that?”

- This answer causes Hoshi to chuckle.

- “Ha, you and your long speeches...I’m lucky to have you around.”

- “Yes. Yes you are.”

[illbetheresomehow]

Kpop Tag

Oh i liked this one so i am doing it right now. 😉 i was tagged by @dragonsfire to do this... LETS GO. Hfksajkf

FIRST

First group you listened to? CNBLUE

First solo artist you listened to? Jooyoung

First group where you actualy know their names? CNBLUE

First song to make you emotional? Ok, i really dont remember. And what kind of emotional? Sad? Because this is probably the work of Please dont go by SHINee, oooooooor Promise by EXO...

TOP 3

Top 3 fav male groups? SHINee, SHINee, SHINee. HAHAHAHAH just kidding. SHINee, GOT7, VIXX.

Top 3 fav female group? SISTAR, EXID, OH MY GIRL (ive been listening them too much lately). I did not forgot my angels, ok? 😊

Top 3 fav songs of all time? ARE YOU KIDDING ME? WHAT KIND OF QUESTION IS THAT? Argh, ok... Your number - SHINee; On & On - JJ Project; Fireplace - Jonghyun. (This was so very very very hard).

Top 3 bias? BLING BLING IS JONGHYUN. (SHINee), Jaebum (GOT7) and Yongguk (B.A.P).

Top 3 fandoms. Ok, this is tricky. Even if i dont have a membership for either of them and some i feel i am half inside, ill just say the ones im confortable with: Monbebe, Ahgase and SHINee World.

Top 3 choreographies? THIS IS HARD. Argh. ok... The Closer - Vixx, EVERYBODY EVERYBODY EVERY EVERY EVERY EVERYBODY - SHINee and Paradise - GOT7.

ULTIMATE

Ultimate bias group? A penny for your thoughts... HAHAHAH THIS IS SHINEE FIVE AND WE'RE RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE. Hahahah

Ultimate male bias? This is no fun... all SHINee ok? Or jjong, yep.

Ultimate female bias? GODDES HYOLYN. WOMAN OF MY DREAMS...

Ok, this was super fun, although i definetly am that predictable i liked it. Its a shame i could not put all the groups i enjoy in all the answears... but yeah, ok... hahaha Thank you Sara!!! This was really fun!!!

Im tagging @afoxthing cuse i wanna see her freak out. Hahahahah lov you, maknea 😉

[atmymercy]

Hihihi tea how are you doing?

I would like to participate again in your readings hehe

Im curious to know, maybe this person dont exist and i need to chill lol(if is that answear plz say it!!) but my question is: When will the person I'm going to love(also being loved) show up in my life?

To put a lil context i was trying to date with some ppl but i think that won't lead to anything, I think.. well, there's one that im keeping talkiny to but I don't think he's really into it also i dont feel nothing for him so... 😅

Thanksss

Xoxo

P

hello p! i'm great! i hope you are too! of course, you can participate! i actually hope you always please do! ooh romance stuff! don't worry it's kind of my specialty! at least i like to think so! lol let's see!

for you, i got the king of cups, 10 of cups & 7 of cups.

well first off, your person is on the line and saying that they hate the thought of you with someone else. lol aka i don't think they love you mentioning these other sleazeballs! your king doesn't want you to replace him with someone else! you hear that! he's worried that you have options! omg! he sounds adorable, honey! okay! so i'm getting within the year but it could move up to like about ten months so honey, why are you in such a rush? your king is preparing himself for you and is on his way! if anything, shouldn't you be powdering your nose or something? you know! do something a queen would do! you both are close and are on your way to each other! this is usually the time when people start cleaning up their live and making room for another in their life! omg! i'm so excited for you two! i'm just seeing two birds like preening and peering into a mirror! lol you both want to look pretty! that's so cute! now this is not the time to go off the deep end! take it easy! and prepare yourself body and mind for your king who is on his way, honey! eee!

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love & light!

-tea

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