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tastesoftamriel · 1 year ago
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I'm already semi-overwhelmed by my research outline (only 7k words to go) and my brain is like...
'Towards a Decolonisation of Fantasy: Deconstructing Cultural Essentialism in The Elder Scrolls'
...I am NOT writing that. Or am I...I mean I am literally at my laptop. ~Tal
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celepeace · 4 years ago
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A monster-taming game recommendation list for fans of Pokemon
Whether you're a pokemon fanatic obsessed with all things pokemon past and present, or a veteran fan disillusioned with GameFreak's recent adoption of monetary philosophies and strategies reminiscent of other major game publishers, or looking for a monster-taming fix as you await new Pokemon content...
I'm compiling here a post of little-known games in the genre that Pokemon fans are likely to enjoy!
Under readmore cause long, but some of these games really don’t get the attention they deserve, so if you have the time, please read!
(I am also likely to keep updating and editing this post)
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First up is Temtem!
Temtem is a game made by and for Pokemon fans, from the spanish indie developer Crema. Temtem is currently in early access on Steam and PS5, and is likely to remain in early access until sometime late next year. Full launch will include a Nintendo Switch release, too. Despite this, it has plenty of content to explore before full release. The developers are active, release new content on a semi-regular basis, and are responsive to the community as a whole and individuals if you happen to come across a bug you want to report.
Temtem boasts a wide variety of monsters to collect and train. It takes place in the Airborne Archipelago, a system of floating islands that orbit their star, the Pansun. The monsters inhabiting the archipelago are called Temtem, or tem(s), for short.
As far as game mechanics go, it has many similarities to Pokemon, but also many important distinctions. The biggest one, in my opinion, is that the element of chance has been removed from battle entirely. Moves cannot miss, have the same power constantly, and status afflictions have an obviously displayed countdown to when they will wear off (for instance, sleep lasts as long as it says it will last. Not 2-4 turns). PP does not exist, either. Your tems can battle for as long as their HP holds out. In place of PP, a new system called Stamina exists. Stamina is an individual stat, like HP and Attack. Each move costs a certain amount of stamina. If you go over the amount of stamina your tem has, the deficit is detracted from your health instead, and that tem cannot move next turn. Stamina passively regenerates a certain amount each turn, and items and moves exist that can heal stamina. All battles are also double-battles, you and your opponent will typically have two tems on the field at a time. This is just a few of the differences Temtem has from Pokemon, but they're some of the biggest ones.
Temtem is also a massively multiplayer game. You complete the storyline independently (or with a friend through co-op!), but in the overworld you can see other, real players moving around and interacting with the world. There is also public and area-specific chat you can talk to other players through. Despite this, all multiplayer functions are (currently) completely optional. You do not need to interact with others to complete the game.
Overall, Temtem is suitable for the Pokemon fan who is looking for a more challenging experience. Temtem is not a walk in the park you can blaze through with a single super-strong monster. For one, individual tem strength is more well-balanced than it is in Pokemon. There are very few (if any!) completely useless tems. Even some unevolved tems have their niche in the competitive scene! Aside from that, enemy tamers are scaled quite high, and you typically cannot beat them just from the exp you get from other enemy tamers. You have to do some wild-encounter grinding if you want to progress.
Temtem is a very fun game and I've already gotten over 100 hours out of it, despite only 3/5-ish of the planned content being released!
However, I do feel obligated to warn any prospective players of one thing: the current endgame is quite inaccessible. After you complete what is currently implemented of the main storyline, there is still quite a lot left to explore and do, but much of it is locked behind putting a lot of hours into the game. You kind of have to get perfect temtem to do the current PVE (and this is also somewhat true for the PVP too). By perfect I mean you have to breed a good tem and then train it to get the preferable EVs (called TVs in temtem). This takes... well, for a whole team... tens of hours. Of boring grinding. Some people enjoy it! But I don't. Regardless, the game was still worth buying because the non-endgame content is expansive and fun.
So overall, pros & cons:
Pros
Battle system is more friendly towards a competitive scene
Cute monsters
Lots of gay characters, also you can choose pronouns (including they/them) independently from body type and voice
Less difference between the objectively bad tems and good tems than there is in Pokemon
Lots of stuff to do even in early access
Most conversations with dialog choices have the option to be a complete ass for no reason other than it’s fun
Having less type variety in your team is less punishing than in Pokemon due to the synergy system and types overall having less weaknesses and resistances
At least one major character is nonbinary
Cons
Falls prey to the issue of MMOs having in-game economies that are only accessible to diehard no-life players
Related to the above point, cosmetics are prohibitively expensive
Endgame CURRENTLY is inaccessible to most players unless you buy good monsters from other players or spend tens of hours making your own. However I must add that the grind is great if you like that kind of thing and is quite easy and painless to do while watching a show or something.
Here is their Steam page and here is their official website.
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Next is Monster Hunter: Stories!
This is a spinoff game of the Monster Hunter franchise released for the 3DS in 2018. If you're anything like me, and you've played the core Monster Hunter games, you've often thought "Man, I wish I could befriend and ride these cool dragon creatures instead of killing or maiming them!"
Well now you can! In Stories, as I will be calling it, you play as a rider rather than a hunter. Riders steal monster eggs from wild nests to raise them among humans as companions and guardians. And yes, egg stealing is a whole mechanic in of itself in this game.
This game works pretty differently from most monster-collecting games. You do battle (usually) against one or two wild monsters using your own, except you fight alongside your monsters too. With swords and stuff. There's armor and weapons you can smelt to make yourself stronger. Type match-ups also kind of don't exist in this game? Except they do? But not in a way you'd expect?
The vast majority of attacking moves you and your monster use fall into categories reminiscent of rock-paper-scissors. Moves can be categorized as power, speed, or technical. Speed beats power, technical beats speed, and power beats technical. The matchup of your move vs your opponent's determines how a turn will go down. If one move beats the other in matchup, then the winner's move will get to go and the loser doesn't get to do anything. If you tie, you both get hit, but for reduced damage. There's also abilities and basic attacks, with abilities basically being the same as pokemon moves, and basic attacks just being "I hit you for normal damage within this category". Also, you don't control what your monster does all the time in battle. You can tell it to use abilities, but what kind basic attacks it carries out is determined by its species' preference. Velicidrome, for instance, prefers speed attacks, but Yian Garuga prefers technical. Stamina also exists in this game in a very similar manner to Temtem.
Overall this game carries over a lot of mechanics Monster Hunter fans will find familiar (how items and statuses work for instance). You don't have to have played a core Monster Hunter game to enjoy Stories though! It's fine and is easy to understand as a stand-alone.
The story has some likable characters and is rather long (it was actually adapted into an anime!), for those of you who enjoy a good story.
I'd really recommend this one especially. If it sounds fun to you and you can drop $30, just do it. I bought it on a whim and I got a few weeks' worth of playing almost nonstop out of it, and I didn't even get to do everything! (I got distracted by Hades, oops)
Stories is also getting a sequel later next year on the nintendo switch! How exciting!
And yes, you do ride the monsters.
Pros & cons:
Pros
Large variety of cool monsters to befriend and raise
Pretty lengthy story
Every tamable monster is also rideable
Deceptively simple combat mechanics, easy to be okay at, hard to master
Incorporates some mechanics from early turn-based party rpgs like Final Fantasy for a nice twist on the monster collecting genre
Cons
Many monsters are objectively outclassed by other ones, making what can be in an actually good team more limited than you’d expect
3DS graphics inherently means the game looks like it was made 7 years before its time
Here is the Monster Hunter Stories official 3DS product page.
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And here is Monster Sanctuary!
Monster sanctuary is a game that just had its 1.0 launch- meaning it was in early access and no longer is! Although the devs say they still plan to implement a few more things into the game in future updates. It is available on Steam, Nintendo Switch, Xbox One, and PS4.
Monster sanctuary is a metroidvania twist on the typical monster collecting game, meaning it is also a sidescrolling platformer in which you use abilities you gain throughout the game to explore the world around you. The abilities in this case are the monsters you get! Every monster has an ability that helps you traverse the sanctuary.
Speaking of the sanctuary, the game is set in one. The monster sanctuary is a magically shielded area, cut off from the rest of the world, created by an order of monster keepers, people who befriend and protect the mystical monsters inhabiting the world. Humankind encroached too far on the natural habitat of monsters and were hostile to the native wildlife, so the keepers created an area of varied environments to safely protect and preserve the remaining monsters of the world.
Unlike many other monster collecting games, this game only has 5 types: fire, water, earth, air, and neutral. However, the types themselves do not possess resistances and weaknesses. Instead, each monster has its own assigned weaknesses and resistances. And yes, this can include things like debuffs, physical vs special attacks, and the typical elemental types.
All battles are also 3 vs 3! And unlike in pokemon, where you can only hit the enemies nearest, all monsters have the ability to hit any opponent they want. Turns also work a little differently in that speed doesn't exist, you just use 1 move per monster in your turn and then it goes to your opponent's turn. Your monsters hit in whatever order you want them to.
There is also a quite important combo system in this game, where every hit builds a damage multiplier for the next. Moves often hit multiple times per turn. Healing and buffing actions also build this combo counter. So what monsters you have move in what order really counts!
But the main mechanical difference between this and other games in the genre is how it handles levels and skills. Instead of learning a set move at a certain level, this game incorporates a skill tree, and you get to allocate points into different skills as you grow stronger. And jeez, these skill trees are really extensive. Monster sanctuary is a theorycrafter's dream. Each monster has a unique, specially tailored skill tree, making every monster truly able to have its own niche. You can make use of whatever monster you want if you just put thought into it!
And like Temtem, this game is not made to be beatable by children. I'm sure a child could beat it, but it's not made to be inherently child-friendly like pokemon. It's honestly quite difficult.
On top of that, you are actively encouraged to not just be scraping by each battle. Your performance in battle is rated by an automated system that scores your usage of various mechanics like buffs and debuffs applied, type matchups, and effective usage of combos. The rating system directly influences the rewards you get from each battle, including your likelihood of obtaining an egg from one of the wild monsters you battled (no, you don't catch wild monsters in this game, you get eggs and hatch them). If you're not paying attention to how the game works and making good, effective use of your monsters, you'll have a hard time expanding your team!
The music is also really good, it's made by nature to be able to play over and over and not get old as you explore each area, and the composer(s) really did a good job with this. Some area songs, namely the beach one, I especially enjoy, so much so I've actually played it in the background while I do work.
This is a game I would really recommend. If I made it sound intimidating, it is by no means unbeatable, you're just gonna have to put some thought into how you play. At no point did I actually feel frustrated or like something was impossible. When I hit a wall, I was able to recognize what I did wrong and how I could improve, or I could at least realize something wasn't working and experiment until I found a solution. It's challenging in a genuinely fun, rewarding way.
Pros & cons:
Pros
Extremely in-depth combat system
I genuinely don’t know if there’s an objectively bad monster in this game
Evolution exists but is completely optional, as even un-evolved monsters can be great
Entire soundtrack is full of bangers
Large and diverse variety of monsters to tame
Cons
Story is a little lackluster, but passable
That’s the only con I can think of
Here’s a link to their Steam page and the game’s website.
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A kind of unorthodox recommendation is the Pokemon Mystery Dungeon series!
Likelihood is that everyone reading this has heard of this series already, but just in case anyone hasn't, I thought I'd include it! I would categorize this as a hybrid between the mystery dungeon genre and the monster collecting genre, because you recruit pokemon as you play and can use those pokemon on your team!
If you're unaware, the mystery dungeon genre is a small subset of dungeon crawler games where you progress through randomly generated levels called mystery dungeons. Throughout the dungeons, there will be enemies to fight and items to collect. The challenge of these games is mostly due to the stamina aspect of them, in that you have to manage your resources as you progress through the level. If you go all out in each fight, you will inevitably lose quite quickly. You have to learn to win against enemies while balancing your use of items and PP, so you have enough for the next fight, and the fight after that.
Pokemon mystery dungeon in particular is famous for its stories, the likes of which isn't seen often in Pokemon games. They are hugely story-driven games and are notable for the emotional depth they possess. It's pretty normal for the average player to cry at least once in the span of the game. There's lots of memes about that specifically.
This entry in my list is also unique for being a series. So, which one should you play first? It actually doesn't matter! Each storyline is entirely self-contained and requires no knowledge of prior entries. The quality of each entry varies and is a point of contention among fans. I say you should play all of them, because they all have their merits (though some more than others.... coughgatestoinfinitycough). They're mostly distinct for the generation of Pokemon they take place in. Rescue team is gen 3, Explorers is gen 4, Gates to Infinity is gen 5, Super Mystery Dungeon is gen 6, and Rescue Team DX is a remake of a gen 3 game but has the mechanics and moves of a gen 8 game.
My only real caution is that you play Explorers of Sky, not Darkness or Time. Sky is basically a combination of the two games with added items and content. It's an objective upgrade over its predecessors, and I honestly wouldn't waste money on the other two. 
I’m not going to include a pros and cons list for the PMD series because I’m incredibly biased and it wouldn’t be an honest review.
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Next is Monster Crown!
Monster Crown is a monster collecting game that seems to take heavy inspiration from early-gen Pokemon games in particular. It is currently in early access on Steam and is not expensive. I learned about it through the developers of Monster Sanctuary, when they recommended it on their official Discord.
The game has lots of charm and interesting creature designs, and an entirely new take on monster typings as well. Instead of monster types being based off of natural elements like fire, water, electricity, etc. Monster Crown uses typings that seem to be influenced by the personalities of the monsters. For instance, Brutal, Relentless, and Will are all monster types!
It also captures a lot of the charm many of us look fondly upon in early GameBoy-era games. The music is mostly chiptune, with some more modern backing instruments at times, and the visuals are very reminiscent of games like Pokemon Crystal in particular. Monster Crown is definitely the monster collecting game for fans of the 8-bit era!
The thing that stands out the most to me about this game is the breeding system. Instead of one parent monster passing down its species to its offspring, you can create true hybrids in this game.
However, it is very early access. I would consider the current build as an alpha, not even a beta yet! So temper your expectations here. I have not encountered any major bugs, but visual glitches here and there are quite common. The game also could definitely use some polish and streamlining, and is quite limited in content currently. But the dev(s) seem quite active, so I fully expect these kinks to be worked out in time!
The reviews are rather positive, especially for being in early access. I'm all for expanding the monster collecting genre, so if you're looking to expand your horizons in that sense, I would recommend you at least give this one a look! I personally had quite a bit of fun playing Monster Crown and am going to keep an eye out for updates.
Pros & cons:
Pros
Charming artstyle, appealing monster designs
Faithful callback to a bygone era of gaming
Controls are fairly simple and easy to get the hang of (and are completely customizable!)
Cool breeding and hybridization mechanics
There's a starter for each monster type!
You can choose your pronouns, including they/them!
Cons
Inherent nature of being very early access means can be clunky and unpolished at times
Also not much content as of right now, see above
User interface could use some redesign in places
Here’s their Steam page and the official website!
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Here’s an oldie but a goodie, Azure Dreams!
This is one I actually haven’t played, mostly because it’s really old and therefore only practically accessible if you play it on an emulator, unless you're one of those old game collectors. Azure Dreams was developed by Konami and released for the PS1 in 1997. My impression of it was that it either didn’t sell well or only took off in Japan, because it’s actually really hard to find any comprehensive information about it on the internet.
Azure Dreams is a monster collecting - dating sim hybrid. You can build relationships with various characters and can pursue some of them romantically, although that isn’t the main draw of the game. There is also a stripped-down version that exists for the GameBoy Color, which forgoes the dating portion of the game entirely.
Azure Dreams is kind of like a mystery dungeon game in that you progress through a randomly generated, ever-changing tower using the help of the familiars you have accrued throughout your adventure. Similarly to Monster Hunter: Stories, you yourself also take part in the fighting alongside your monsters. Each time you enter the tower, your character’s level is lowered to 1, but your familiars keep their experience. Thus, progression is made through strengthening your monsters. To obtain monsters, you collect their eggs, just like in Monster Sanctuary (which, turns out, was at least partially inspired by this game!)
Due to this game being very old and on the PS1, the visuals leave a lot to be desired... but if you can get past that, Azure Dreams has lots of replayability and customization to how you play the game. To this day, it appears it has a somewhat active speedrunning community!
If you don’t mind the effort of using an emulator, and like old games, Azure Dreams just might be that timesink you were looking for in quarantine.
Honorable mentions:
Pokemon Insurgence (or any Pokemon fangame/ROMhack, really!) is a Pokemon fangame that introduces Delta Pokemon, which are really cool type-swapped versions of existing Pokemon. It’s sufficiently challenging and has a lot of variety in what you can catch in the wild, so you can pretty much add whatever you want to your team! The story is quite good, and the main campaign is multiple times longer than a typical Pokemon game’s campaign. Download it here!
ARK: Survival Evolved is NOT a monster collecting game BUT you do get to tame and fight alongside a lot of really cool extinct species, including but not limited to the dinosaurs we all know and love. This game is genuinely fun as hell, especially with friends, but I must warn you: never play on official servers. I highly recommend singleplayer, playing on a casual private server, or making your own server. Here’s the Steam page.
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yumeisha · 4 years ago
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Love In Print [Masaru] - Episode 1
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“But Mari, I don’t WANT to go read this on Wattpad, I want to stay here on Tumblr!” Listen, my friend. Let me help you. Here’s all of Episode 1! (But the rest is over here if you decide you want to read it!)
— SATURDAY NIGHT —
 She’s started to think of it as the summer of weddings. Like purgatory, but with more flowers.
Reiko sighs. Another Saturday, another charming garden venue. Soft, flickering tea lights float in shallow porcelain bowls. It looks like something lifted straight out of Pinterest, and it’s pretty in all the right ways, hitting every obligatory aesthetic beat. The music is loud and many of the guests are amiably drunk, swaying in slow circles on the dance floor or queuing up for one more lap around the buffet.
Alone at her table, Reiko hides behind the towering lily centerpiece, nursing a headache. She fishes her phone out of the tiny, mostly useless evening bag she’s bought to go with this dress and takes refuge in her work inbox.
She’d love to go home, but it’s too early to make her retreat. Another two hours, she coaches herself. You can make it for two more.
“Come on,” says Ren, prodding her in the shoulder. Reiko jumps half a mile and nearly drops her phone, not that her cousin notices. “We’re missing a cake opportunity,” he whines.
As usual, Ren resembles a figure pulled directly off some runway in Milan. Impeccably attired, hair artfully tousled, a Rolex gleaming from his left wrist. Reiko plucks at a tuft of fur caught on the cuff of his tuxedo.
“You know, there is such a thing as a lint roller. You have one somewhere in your apartment.”
Ren peers down at the wad of cat hair slowly drifting down to the grass beneath their table. “Lint roller? What lint roller?” And then his face lights up. “Oh! You mean that tape-on-a-stick thing from the last time you came over?”
“Yes,” Reiko answers patiently. “That tape-on-a-stick thing. You use it to make sure you aren’t leaving the house dressed in cat fluff.”
Suzu pops up behind Ren. “He likes for everyone to know that he’s more complex than he appears. An insufferable playboy and a sophisticated cat bachelor.” She loops her arm through his and makes a show of sniffing at his clothes. “Ah,” she breathes. “The smell of too much money, layered over eau de too many cats.”
“I have three. How is that too many? And why aren’t either of you interested in getting some cake? This is a wedding. You go to weddings for cake.”
“That’s definitely the primary reason for attending weddings.”
“It’s from Fujiwara’s, you know. They never do weddings anymore. You’re missing the dessert event of your lives.”
Suzu straightens his boutonniere. “You accosted the Fujiwara grannies for these people?” A low whistle. “Wow. Dad must really like them.”
Reiko follows her twin’s gaze. Their father, Ryuuki, is busy holding court at a neighboring table. He laughs raucously at someone’s cheesy anecdote and is having the most fun out of all of them. “It’s all business, I suppose,” she says, unable to keep from smiling despite how little she’s enjoying herself.
Suzu snorts. “Of course it’s all business. Isn’t it always?” To Ren, she says, “Hey, how long before we’ve done our duty for the family market stall? I still have ten pages left to write on a research paper and it’s…” She grabs his arm in order to check the time on his fancy watch. “… 9:34. With half an hour’s drive back to my apartment.”
“You can spare ten minutes to have a slice of legendary cake, Tachibana Suzuna.”
“God, okay. But it better not be weird like that sheet cake you ordered for the charity auction last month.”
“Not weird. Avant-garde.”
“Uh-huh. Also, it tasted like beets and had radioactive magenta icing. So gross.”
“You and Reiko just really have no appreciation for the finer things in life. Let’s go, the line’s only getting longer.”
“Don’t want any,” Reiko pipes up. “I’ll have a slice vicariously, through Suzu.”
“Twin powers,” Suzu concurs, initiating the special handshake they invented when they were six. Almost twenty years later, they’re still augmenting the sequence with new moves. “Anything I ate, Reiko also ate. And vice versa. Page 2, Line 21 in the Twin Manual.”
“The worst plus-ones anybody ever brought to a wedding,” complains Ren. He pours Reiko a fresh glass of water from the pitcher on the table and gives her a pat on the head, a gesture of silent sympathy.
She watches Ren and Suzu as they stop to tease Ryuuki along the way. And then she blinks back the onslaught of unwanted tears, reaches for her phone again, and taps the newest e-mail notification. Three unread messages beckon through Reiko’s blurred vision. She scans the subject lines, head bowed over the glowing screen. Slipping into the steps of a familiar dance, she starts at the bottom with the oldest message first, because that’s easier than confronting her emotions.
PRE-ORDER CAMPAIGN - SPS OMNIBUS EDITION. A reply from the manufacturer about a shipment of Star Princess Sanna enamel pins she asked about on Friday afternoon. Delayed for another two weeks. Not ideal, but better than never getting them in at all. Reiko marks it for a response later.
TENJOU DELIVERY WEDNESDAY. Timestamped a mere ten minutes ago. She isn’t the only one working on a day off. Reiko notices right away that the message has been flagged as important, which is odd. This e-mail appears, without fail, every Monday of her life. Throughout the long history of this exchange, the message has never been flagged as important. At least, not that Reiko can remember.
She almost opens it, curiosity triggered, but then she sees the subject of the next e-mail and momentarily forgets everything else.
ALL DEPTS: QUARTERLY MEETING — MON @ 10AM
A thrill dances through her, momentarily displacing the throbbing ache in her skull. The sounds of the reception fade away. She taps the message and it unfurls into a calendar invite. Representatives from every department at her publishing house will be expected to attend, including Reiko and the other senior marketing staff.
Most meetings are a dreary prospect, especially when scheduled for first thing on a Monday. At these quarterly gatherings, it takes hours to discuss things like sales figures and future business plans. But this one is special, because they’ll finally present the twentieth anniversary plans for DUCHESS Magazine’s most iconic franchise to date: Red Thread. The first manga she ever read all the way through, start to finish. The reason why she applied at Yumeisha in the first place, as soon as she’d graduated.
Reiko accepts the invite and adds it to her burgeoning, meticulously color-coded calendar. She can’t keep from breaking into a smile. She’s still beaming at her phone when she hears the grass crunching softly under someone’s feet and looks up to find that she is no longer alone.
The someone is tall, just about as impeccably turned out as Ren, and wearing a pair of dress shoes so highly polished that Reiko can see her reflection in them. He’s shed the jacket and rolled up the sleeves of the crisp white shirt underneath.
There is only a bowl of tealights to see him by, so it takes a moment for Reiko to recognize the man now seating himself across from her. But if the head of blond hair hadn’t given it away, the green eyes and trademark smirk would have made it very clear within the next two seconds, anyway.
She blinks at him. “Oshiro?”
“Hi.”
“Um, hi. What are you doing here?”
He leans back into the chair and stretches his long legs under the table, instantly making himself at home. “Attending a wedding,” he replies. “Chatting with the bride’s aunties. Waiting for you to pay attention to me.”
“And sending e-mails?”
“No rest for the wicked, as they say.”
Reiko puts her phone down. “It’s weird seeing you outside of work. This is the last place I’d expect to run into you.”
“Why? Because you figured that I live at the office and camp out under my desk on days off?”
She laughs. “I mean, yeah.”
“To be fair, I’d expect the same of you.”
Well, that really is fair. Sometimes Reiko looks up from the endless loop between work and her apartment, her apartment and then work, and realizes that her entire existence can be summed up in three boring sentences or less. And then she’ll go back to her computer screen, her half empty coffee mug, the pathetic little granola bar that will have to serve as her lunch. But that’s just the way of things, isn’t it? At least she genuinely loves her job. It would be much harder to bear, otherwise.
“I’ve considered just packing myself a bag and living in my cubicle,” Reiko admits, without any real shame. In the background, the band segues into their much livelier cover of a depressing breakup anthem. Over the noise, she adds, “At least it would save me a commute.”
“So dedicated.”
She shrugs. “So lazy.”
“Anyone truly lazy wouldn’t be checking her inbox at a wedding reception,” Oshiro points out.
“Guilty as charged. Have you come to scold me for not participating in wedding activities?”
“No, I’ve come to ask you why you haven’t opened my e-mail.” He waves his own phone at her. “I checked three seconds ago. It definitely still says unread.”
“It’s flagged important and with a read receipt? Seriously?”
“Seriously. It’s high priority. Read it right now.” He angles a covert glance over her shoulder, in the direction he came from earlier. “Oh, and if you don’t mind, don’t reply until I’m back over there.”
“Wait, you want a reply, too? What am I supposed to say? You send me the same four lines every week. I have the thing memorized by now.” To prove this point, she clasps her hands behind her back and recites, “Heading to Tenjou on Wednesday. They need endcaps, window decals, sticker packs, blah blah blah, for insert-manga-title-here. I’ll stop by and grab them on my way out. Thanks. Oshiro Masaru, DUCHESS Sales, 81-4-8914-1111, extension 822.”
His demeanor shifts, now part bemusement and part blatant self-satisfaction. “Look, Tachibana, I’m beyond flattered that you hang onto my every word like this. Not surprising. I’m extremely eloquent in my digital correspondence.”
She rolls her eyes. “There it is. I knew it was coming.”
“You even know my extension by heart,” Oshiro continues blithely. “It’s like my wildest dreams coming true. But what I really need right now is for you to open that e-mail and write me a timely reply. By timely, I mean don’t hit send until I’m at my table again. And then I’ll read your response and write you back. So on, so forth, rinse and repeat, until this torture is over and we can both leave.”
“Ah.” Reiko crosses her arms. “You want a prolonged reason to be on your phone.”
“Correct.”
“Because you don’t want to be here.”
“Also correct, but needs clarification. I don’t want to be at this wedding. I do want to be at this table with you.”
He tips his head towards his original seating arrangements. Reiko risks a covert glance and notes that Oshiro’s vacated chair is surrounded by chattering ladies ranging from middle-aged to elderly. Somehow, without ever speaking to a single one of them, Reiko can tell that they’re the problematic aunties who don’t get along with any of the other aunties. Consequently, they’ve been placed where they can ostensibly do the least damage. From the looks of it, they’re having a fabulous time.
Reiko bites her lip, smothering a surge of laughter. “Wow. How did you end up with the best seat in the house? Like, who did you offend?”
“Ha ha. I owed the groom a favor and he cashed in, majorly.” Oshiro leans forward. “They’re a nice bunch, don’t get me wrong, but if they set me up with another of their nieces, I’ll be double booked from today until Christmas.”
“You’re welcome to sit here instead,” she offers. “We have an extra chair. My dad prefers to migrate between friend groups.”
“Thanks, but I can’t just abandon my post. I wouldn’t put it past them to follow me over here, or else I’d take you up on that suggestion. I figure random texts to my brothers will seem rude, unlike important work e-mails. So play along, won’t you? And keep in mind at least one of them will be reading over my shoulder the whole time.”
“What’s that supposed to mean? What on earth do you think I’d be putting in that e-mail?”
“I’m just saying, don’t use this as an opportunity to confess your undying love or anything. Maintain professionalism and all that.”
“Gosh, what a tall order. How will I ever comply?”
“Dig deep, Tachibana. Find that inner strength.”
Reiko pulls a face. “You came all the way here just to make me do this?”
“Yes,” says Oshiro. “You’re welcome. I’ll look for your thank you note in the mail. I also like gift baskets. The ones with baked goods are okay, but no edible fruit bouquets or artisan cheeses. Nobody wants those.”
“But why me?” she persists. “Don’t you have anyone else you can trade fake work e-mails with? What about Ueda? Or your boss?”
“Hey, take it easy. I’m not used to outright rejection.”
“I’m not rejecting you, I’m just confused.”
“What’s there to be confused about? I don’t want to be here. Neither do you. Let’s help each other out.”
Neither do you. Reiko feels very, very obvious, now.
He watches her expectantly. She can tell that he’s fighting hard not to break into one of his insouciant grins. Reiko can’t decide if she wants to smack him or bask in the infectious warmth of his attention, like a deprived houseplant straining to soak up every drop of sunshine it can get.
This conflicted reaction is more embarrassing than being caught on her phone. For God’s sake, it’s just Oshiro.
Their departments — Sales for him, Marketing for her — are often flung together, which means running into him at Yumeisha is pretty normal. They take the same elevator from the lobby and frequent the same break room on the tenth floor. He stops at her desk most Wednesday afternoons, as promised in his e-mails. Once in a while, if she stays even later than usual, Reiko might see him striding ahead of her through the lobby’s sliding glass doors, crossing the street to catch the same train. They never talk much, though, unless it’s about work.
Still true, she concludes, as Oshiro stands up and pushes the chair into place, preparing to return to the Island of Matchmaking Aunties. He walks backwards away from her, hands in his pockets. “Talk soon,” he tells Reiko, smiling as if he’s guessed all her secrets. And then he’s gone, threading his way through the crowd while she stares after him, utterly bewildered.
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How to Deal With Stress Positively
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How to Deal With Stress Positively
How to deal with stress positively
First off, before we get into how to deal with stress positively, I want to just debunk the misconception that anxiety is an unavoidable aspect of living. I do not think that. I decide not to believe that because even though stress is widespread, everyone here has probably experienced stress in life.
Life can be stressful at times. I believe that if you meditate, you will have the ability to achieve a little state of zen in which you are so so present you’re never stressed.
I think that it is likely to exist much more worry-free and longer stress-free. Don’t believe that stress is unavoidable because it is avoidable.
Today I’m going to share some tips on how to deal with stress positively. My first tip on how to deal with stress positively is to:
1) Take a shower or a bath.
There is a definite feeling about cleansing yourself, which also cleanses yourself emotionally. It washes your energy by removing those impurities away. It relaxes you.
Also, make sure to hydrate and drink lots of water, then a bath or shower, and you will feel so much better.
2) Be present.
You notice that, once you’re stressed, you’re usually feeling stressed or apprehensive about the future since it’s unsure.
You are unsure whether you are gonna pass this test, or you’re uncertain whether something is definitely going to be a certainty, and that may drive us mad if we allow it to.
But when you’re in the now, you’re focused on whatever’s in front of you. And in case you haven’t noticed: You can always handle the present moment.
So whatever obstacle is happening in your own life, if it’s the situation you are in at the moment, you are going to deal with it.
But usually, we are worried because we are attempting to deal with the problem which has not happened yet. It’s later on. That’s what’s causing the stress.
Know your power is here in the present moment. It is possible to think of the time you had a test in school coming up, and you were anxious about it.
You were really stressed out preparing or studying, or perhaps procrastinating made you stressed out. But when you’re really there taking the exam, you are not stressing out.
You are focused, you’re flowing. You are like, Okay, allow me to figure out this. Let me do this…” You’re solving the issue facing you.
Stress is a trick your brain plays on you before anything is actually happening. Stress is your anticipation, not the activity. Concentrate on the job in an instant, and you’ll be okay.
3) Brain dump.
Write it all down. When you journal all of your thoughts out, worries, and anxieties, you notice what is causing your stress, and you see how silly some of your concerns or fears maybe.
This may help you feel more clear then, so you’re not in your head all the time. You’ll be able to organize your thoughts a bit when you view it down on paper.
You might give yourself advice in your journal session. Usually, I only help myself when I am journaling it out. I’m worried about this, or I am concerned about that.
But also: this, this, and this. It’s okay because of this, this, and this. That means that you can use journaling as a tool to alleviate your anxiety, to inform yourself that it is going to be okay.
You might also utilize this session to assist you in planning out those future actions to help you escape this situation. You can use it as productive time, plan for your next baby steps, and see what beliefs or thoughts are holding you back.
Really use it to get clear. The fourth step on how to deal with stress positively is:
4) Talk to someone and get help.
Sometimes you want an outsider’s view to have the ability to understand your situation clearly. Speaking to a trusted friend or therapist can help you set you at ease and alleviate your tension and anxiety and feel in peace.
A fantastic resource to get connected with a licensed therapist online is BetterHelp.
BetterHelp is for cheap, personal counseling. Their website and the app offer access to accredited, trained, and certified counselors and therapists so that they can get assistance anytime, anywhere.
How it works is they pair you with a counselor who is right for you. You’ll be able to find a description of your therapist, their specialties, years of expertise, and reviews from other clients too.
If you don’t vibe with the one that you got, you may always change the therapist you have. In my situation, I was matched by BetterHelp the same day, and we scheduled a live video conversation.
So that was my very first experience with speaking to a therapist. And at the very first session, it was refreshing to have the ability to talk about anxieties and my issues frankly.
I cried a lot in the first session, which I ultimately did not anticipate. But it’s just been really healing and another experience to try.
In case you’re interested, definitely, check out BetterHelp because it’s so accessible and straightforward to utilize.
5) Detach yourself from the outcome and trust the process.
Understand in life you’ll find things that you can control and items that you can’t control. And it is useless, and it is a waste of time to focus and worry about matters that are outside of your control.
Therefore concentrate which you can get a handle on. Do your best and discharge your control of the outcome. Consider having this fresh perspective.
When you don’t care what happens, you are living more carefree, you have zero expectations. Whatever happens, happens.
The idea is that life will simply take you in these directions. You’ll have challenges, and sometimes, however, everything placed before you in life, everything is given for you, is there to allow you to grow, to help you learn, to gain strength.
So expect that whatever is in front of you is whatever you need to grow. A comfortable life isn’t real, there isn’t any simple life, there isn’t any ideal life.
Bad things are gonna happen. Challenges are gonna happen. So as long as you have the mindset: I am just going to perform my best and not care about the outcome. I’m here to learn, you’ll be okay.
6) Meditate
Meditation should be done every day as it’s one of the foundation habits, one of being more stress-free, carefree, joyful in the life of the main hints.
It has so many benefits. If you were able to meditate 5 minutes daily, you would feel the benefits of a sound mind and a centered soul.
Meditation is learning to realign with your soul and softening the noise around you, and remembering that your soul within, it’s always still, it’s always secure.
Your soul is invincible. So meditation is a reminder to come back to that and realize that everything around is just temporary.
It’s not going to stay like that forever. Anyway, if it’s difficult for you to meditate, you can definitely try guided meditations like Calm or Headspace. Or you could try spa music.
I really like Spotify spa music in the background sometimes, just because it’s so relaxing. There’s also a quote that I heard once that really stuck with me, something like: “Fifteen minutes of meditation a day is essential. If you are busy, then an hour is necessary.”
I actually think that’s a quote that keeps coming up in my meditation app Zenfriend. But anyway, it’s super accurate that you should meditate every day, but if you are busier or if you are more stressed, then you should meditate longer.
I know it’s counter – when you’re busy, you’re like, “I don’t have time for meditation.” But when you are working is when you need it most.
7) Take care of yourself.
Take care of your body, your health, your well-being. Don’t forget that self-care always comes first, because you have to be okay to function in everyday life.
So make sure you’re eating healthy, drinking a lot of water, getting enough sleep. It really is the basics. And I know that when we’re busy or stressed, we tend to sacrifice things like that.
We tend to cut sleep, we tend to eat unhealthy because it’s more convenient. But when you’re busy, that’s actually the time that you need those things more.
The busier you are, the more you own it to yourself to take care of yourself. Lastly, I want to leave you guys with a quote that I really like.
It’s by Dale Carnegie: “Inaction breeds doubt and fear. Action breeds confidence and courage. If you want to conquer fear, do not sit home and think about it. Go out and get busy.”
That just means that, when you’re feeling stressed, anxious, worried, which are all versions of fear, it means that it’s all happening in your head.
And the best thing that you can do to get out of that state is to simply take action. To my point of being present, focus on what you can do right now in the present moment and do your best.
That’s the best that you can do. And when you start to take action, you will feel like – the fear dissolves because you’re so focused on what you’re doing.
So when you just sit home, and you’re just thinking, of course, you’re gonna feel stressed and scared. But when you’re taking action, you feel more confident, and you have more courage and bravery to keep going and to just get things done.
So I send you guys all of that positive energy, all of that just-do-it energy. And I hope that whatever stress you’re going through right now, that you just take a step back from your life, appreciate it for what it is, be grateful for everything that you have, and just relax.
We all need to just appreciate the beauty. After you do that, focus on what’s in front of you and get to work. I hope these tips on how to deal with stress positively have helped you in some way. Thank you for stopping by and have a blessed day!
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How to Deal With Stress Positively
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How to Deal With Stress Positively
How to deal with stress positively
First off, before we get into how to deal with stress positively, I want to just debunk the misconception that anxiety is an unavoidable aspect of living. I do not think that. I decide not to believe that because even though stress is widespread, everyone here has probably experienced stress in life.
Life can be stressful at times. I believe that if you meditate, you will have the ability to achieve a little state of zen in which you are so so present you’re never stressed.
I think that it is likely to exist much more worry-free and longer stress-free. Don’t believe that stress is unavoidable because it is avoidable.
Today I’m going to share some tips on how to deal with stress positively. My first tip on how to deal with stress positively is to:
1) Take a shower or a bath.
There is a definite feeling about cleansing yourself, which also cleanses yourself emotionally. It washes your energy by removing those impurities away. It relaxes you.
Also, make sure to hydrate and drink lots of water, then a bath or shower, and you will feel so much better.
2) Be present.
You notice that, once you’re stressed, you’re usually feeling stressed or apprehensive about the future since it’s unsure.
You are unsure whether you are gonna pass this test, or you’re uncertain whether something is definitely going to be a certainty, and that may drive us mad if we allow it to.
But when you’re in the now, you’re focused on whatever’s in front of you. And in case you haven’t noticed: You can always handle the present moment.
So whatever obstacle is happening in your own life, if it’s the situation you are in at the moment, you are going to deal with it.
But usually, we are worried because we are attempting to deal with the problem which has not happened yet. It’s later on. That’s what’s causing the stress.
Know your power is here in the present moment. It is possible to think of the time you had a test in school coming up, and you were anxious about it.
You were really stressed out preparing or studying, or perhaps procrastinating made you stressed out. But when you’re really there taking the exam, you are not stressing out.
You are focused, you’re flowing. You are like, Okay, allow me to figure out this. Let me do this…” You’re solving the issue facing you.
Stress is a trick your brain plays on you before anything is actually happening. Stress is your anticipation, not the activity. Concentrate on the job in an instant, and you’ll be okay.
3) Brain dump.
Write it all down. When you journal all of your thoughts out, worries, and anxieties, you notice what is causing your stress, and you see how silly some of your concerns or fears maybe.
This may help you feel more clear then, so you’re not in your head all the time. You’ll be able to organize your thoughts a bit when you view it down on paper.
You might give yourself advice in your journal session. Usually, I only help myself when I am journaling it out. I’m worried about this, or I am concerned about that.
But also: this, this, and this. It’s okay because of this, this, and this. That means that you can use journaling as a tool to alleviate your anxiety, to inform yourself that it is going to be okay.
You might also utilize this session to assist you in planning out those future actions to help you escape this situation. You can use it as productive time, plan for your next baby steps, and see what beliefs or thoughts are holding you back.
Really use it to get clear. The fourth step on how to deal with stress positively is:
4) Talk to someone and get help.
Sometimes you want an outsider’s view to have the ability to understand your situation clearly. Speaking to a trusted friend or therapist can help you set you at ease and alleviate your tension and anxiety and feel in peace.
A fantastic resource to get connected with a licensed therapist online is BetterHelp.
BetterHelp is for cheap, personal counseling. Their website and the app offer access to accredited, trained, and certified counselors and therapists so that they can get assistance anytime, anywhere.
How it works is they pair you with a counselor who is right for you. You’ll be able to find a description of your therapist, their specialties, years of expertise, and reviews from other clients too.
If you don’t vibe with the one that you got, you may always change the therapist you have. In my situation, I was matched by BetterHelp the same day, and we scheduled a live video conversation.
So that was my very first experience with speaking to a therapist. And at the very first session, it was refreshing to have the ability to talk about anxieties and my issues frankly.
I cried a lot in the first session, which I ultimately did not anticipate. But it’s just been really healing and another experience to try.
In case you’re interested, definitely, check out BetterHelp because it’s so accessible and straightforward to utilize.
5) Detach yourself from the outcome and trust the process.
Understand in life you’ll find things that you can control and items that you can’t control. And it is useless, and it is a waste of time to focus and worry about matters that are outside of your control.
Therefore concentrate which you can get a handle on. Do your best and discharge your control of the outcome. Consider having this fresh perspective.
When you don’t care what happens, you are living more carefree, you have zero expectations. Whatever happens, happens.
The idea is that life will simply take you in these directions. You’ll have challenges, and sometimes, however, everything placed before you in life, everything is given for you, is there to allow you to grow, to help you learn, to gain strength.
So expect that whatever is in front of you is whatever you need to grow. A comfortable life isn’t real, there isn’t any simple life, there isn’t any ideal life.
Bad things are gonna happen. Challenges are gonna happen. So as long as you have the mindset: I am just going to perform my best and not care about the outcome. I’m here to learn, you’ll be okay.
6) Meditate
Meditation should be done every day as it’s one of the foundation habits, one of being more stress-free, carefree, joyful in the life of the main hints.
It has so many benefits. If you were able to meditate 5 minutes daily, you would feel the benefits of a sound mind and a centered soul.
Meditation is learning to realign with your soul and softening the noise around you, and remembering that your soul within, it’s always still, it’s always secure.
Your soul is invincible. So meditation is a reminder to come back to that and realize that everything around is just temporary.
It’s not going to stay like that forever. Anyway, if it’s difficult for you to meditate, you can definitely try guided meditations like Calm or Headspace. Or you could try spa music.
I really like Spotify spa music in the background sometimes, just because it’s so relaxing. There’s also a quote that I heard once that really stuck with me, something like: “Fifteen minutes of meditation a day is essential. If you are busy, then an hour is necessary.”
I actually think that’s a quote that keeps coming up in my meditation app Zenfriend. But anyway, it’s super accurate that you should meditate every day, but if you are busier or if you are more stressed, then you should meditate longer.
I know it’s counter – when you’re busy, you’re like, “I don’t have time for meditation.” But when you are working is when you need it most.
7) Take care of yourself.
Take care of your body, your health, your well-being. Don’t forget that self-care always comes first, because you have to be okay to function in everyday life.
So make sure you’re eating healthy, drinking a lot of water, getting enough sleep. It really is the basics. And I know that when we’re busy or stressed, we tend to sacrifice things like that.
We tend to cut sleep, we tend to eat unhealthy because it’s more convenient. But when you’re busy, that’s actually the time that you need those things more.
The busier you are, the more you own it to yourself to take care of yourself. Lastly, I want to leave you guys with a quote that I really like.
It’s by Dale Carnegie: “Inaction breeds doubt and fear. Action breeds confidence and courage. If you want to conquer fear, do not sit home and think about it. Go out and get busy.”
That just means that, when you’re feeling stressed, anxious, worried, which are all versions of fear, it means that it’s all happening in your head.
And the best thing that you can do to get out of that state is to simply take action. To my point of being present, focus on what you can do right now in the present moment and do your best.
That’s the best that you can do. And when you start to take action, you will feel like – the fear dissolves because you’re so focused on what you’re doing.
So when you just sit home, and you’re just thinking, of course, you’re gonna feel stressed and scared. But when you’re taking action, you feel more confident, and you have more courage and bravery to keep going and to just get things done.
So I send you guys all of that positive energy, all of that just-do-it energy. And I hope that whatever stress you’re going through right now, that you just take a step back from your life, appreciate it for what it is, be grateful for everything that you have, and just relax.
We all need to just appreciate the beauty. After you do that, focus on what’s in front of you and get to work. I hope these tips on how to deal with stress positively have helped you in some way. Thank you for stopping by and have a blessed day!
Check out our article on how to get something off your mind
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Obviously, creative writing programs aren't known for job placement or high salaries. People give me lectures, looks, nasty comments, etc. I've had to come to terms with the fact that I am going into an incredibly competitive and unforgiving field with no guarantees. Despite all of this, I'm following my passion because I can't imagine doing otherwise.
"What are you going to do with your degree?"
First of all, my degree is not just in creative writing. I'm also minoring in journalism with a focus on classes about digital media for writers, digital and print publications, and editing. I also plan on taking classes in screenwriting and business communication. This way, I'll have experience in different types of writing, editing, and the business side of the publishing industry. Making myself more marketable is one of my top priorities. Even if my major is seen as useless to many people, I know that that isn't what defines me professionally.
I also don't plan on stopping after my bachelor's degree. In such a competitive field, I need to take my education to the next level. I'm already graduating early with my bachelor's, and I plan on going straight into my master's degree. I've been focusing on programs that include courses in publishing, editing, and teaching (as a professor). I'd love to make a living as an author one day, but I am absolutely open to positions like these until I'm able to do that.
If I decide that I want to be a professor one day, I can always go back for my doctorate. I'm very passionate about education and love the idea of sharing my love of writing. If I go into editing or publishing and decide to stay there for a while, I love the idea of helping other writers share their work with the world. I'm open to all of these possibilities. I'm excited about my future career no matter where I end up. My education is going to reflect that.
"Why not just make this a hobby?"
If I wasn't going into creative writing, I would be a forensic psychologist. By doing this, I could help so many people and do something that interests me. However, I'm not sure that I want to put myself through that kind of darkness. I love true crime and I have so much respect for those that deal with the darkest part of humanity, but I would rather keep that as my hobby. (Also, I hate research papers.)
To me, I can also help people by going into writing. I write LGBTQ+ fiction for young adult audiences. The lack of representation for us in media, especially for anyone that isn't a white, cis, gay man, causes more suffering than many people realize. I'm asexual and I can name one character from anything I know of that is explicitly asexual. He's not a main character, and he dies. I can name more characters who were asexual and got completely erased in adaptions. And as a WLW, I'm tired of women like me getting killed off.
This is My Decision
No matter what people say or think, I'm going for it. I've considered my options, thought about the consequences, blah, blah, blah. Writing is my passion. Whatever it takes to make it work, I'll do it.
If you're considering doing the same thing, I'm not saying to ignore what people say. Consider it. Talk to an academic counselor about it if you need to. But when it comes down to it, the only person who knows what's right is you. If you're willing to put in the effort and time it takes to make your dreams happen, follow them. And after reading this, you can remember that you won't be the only one.
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How to improve yourself in College?
This is a introduction 
My name is Xiaohuan Zhang. I am an international student from China. The way of education in Chinese universities is completely different from that in the United States. In China the College is very hard to get in, you need to study very hard in high school. You have to put all your vacation day for study the exam. And you only have one chance for this exam. After you get into the College, it is very easy to get a diploma. However, the University in the U.S is not a easy job to graduated. So how to improve myself in the U.S as an international students? I read a book a few days ago, this book is very helpful for my college life. This book called “How to win at College���, author is Cal Newport. The author graduated from Dartmouth College as a member of the Honors Society in June 2004. In the "Wall Street Journal" and "Business Today" magazines, I published several articles about university life and the success stories of college students. Currently, he is pursuing a Ph.D. in computer science at the Massachusetts Institute of Technology, and lives in Boston, Massachusetts. The book is the experience of outstanding students. You do not need a very high level IQ, or working very hard to study every day. The book tells us, anyone can be an outstanding student. You don't have to be a talented and talented person, you can have a healthy and orderly sleep, and you don't have to have a memory. In fact, what you really need is just the experience and guidance of people coming over. There will always be some people in college, good grades, good work for students, gymnastics, singing and dancing are stars, even playing games, playing mahjong, playing poker is also very good, and interpersonal relationships are first class... These seem incredible, in fact many people can do it. So using some good skills could help you improve yourself.
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Successful students usually have some good abilities, such as self-determination ability, social skills, organizational management ability, practical ability and adapt to social ability. 
Make a schedule for yourself!
The first tip I want to tell is “Reasonable leisure time: plan your leisure time; first, determine the boundary of the day, second, determine the specific relaxation time of the day.” This tip tells you how to manage your time. The concept of time is very important for a College student, it influence your study or daily life. For example, learning in a reasonable working time will greatly improve learning efficiency. It’s rare to be late at a friend’s party and it will bring a good feeling to others. So create a schedule for yourself is very helpful. 
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Start review two weeks in advance!
The book has a tip that is reviewing two weeks in advance: Once you realize that you are only doing what you have to do, and the total amount of tasks has not increased, you will gradually understand that this method is not only simple but very effective for preparing for the exam. I think no one want to put all the work into one night. If you not plan to review your work before the exam, it is impossible to study all the knowledge for one night. And second day you will lose many energy for the exam. You also can make a plan on your computer or on your paper for that. For example the five-day-plan is very good.
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Extra-curricular pen!
This is also a very useful advice. More extra-curricular pens: For college students, writing is really very important. This is an irreplaceable basic skill. Only when you can express your thoughts clearly and forcefully can you succeed in your studies. The more words you get from your mind to the paper, the better you can master this vital skill. The exercise of writing ability, that is, organizational ability, speculative ability, and management ability, is very important. The only way to improve writing skill is reading and writing. For the students of our university, the writing ability of the post-work is very high. The writing training during the university will definitely help the development of the future career path.
Make up your bed!
This tip looks like very useless, but I believe this is one of the most important thing. A clean room can make your mind clearer, and a messy room will make your mind more confused. The orderly living space will reduce the dispersion of energy, making you feel that you are the master of the environment. If you can't keep the room tidy, you won't feel the orderly beauty of life. Boys should pay more attention to it. I have cleaned the office at least once a week.
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Which place you want to stay?
Learning how to take notes!
Most of students know how to take notes on class, but it is more important to take a good note. The book tells us, when the knowledge points are well organized and organized, and easy to find, your thoughts can be concentrated on the synthesis of concepts rather than focusing on the search. Be sure to use high-quality, well-organized learning tools, which is an important way to reduce the stress caused by chaos. At the same time, it also helps you to effectively organize classroom materials and form a good psychological suggestion for diligent students to learn hard. Using a quality notebook does not guarantee that you will succeed, but it will provide good conditions for success. Now I am suggesting two good skills that are “informal outline” and “The Block method”
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Maybe my hand writing is not good, but when I check my own note, I could review knowledge very clearly.
How to improve yourself to get succeed?
The gpa is not the only way to see if you get succeed. You have many ways to get succeed. When you have some good abilities, you are not far from success. I highly recommend reading “How to win at college”, this book have more details to guide you to get better. In my own opinion, having a good social skills, good study habits and good critical thinking is a great college student.
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Do you believe that Hamilton only told others he planned to throw away his shot to make himself look good if he missed Burr? Some people do but it just doesn't seem logical to me. Wouldn't saying you planned to miss only to lie and hit (and possibly kill) your opponent ruin your reputation? And Hamilton seemed very keen on protecting his reputation and how people saw him. I just feel like he wouldn't do something like that.
As far as I’ve read and can recall, AH spoke about his plans to reserve his fire with Rufus King and Nathaniel Pendleton. He likely discussed it with John Church too, but there’s no surviving evidence of that.  AH also prepared a statement to this effect alongside a letter to his wife, to be distributed by Pendleton in the event of his death. And then after the duel, others recall that AH stated that his intention was never to fire on Burr (Hosack, Moore, among them). 
So given that, I’m trying to understand this argument (please correct me if I’m wrong - I may not be understanding it at all):
1. Prior to his death, AH told Pendleton and King (possibly among others) and prepared a statement, alongside a letter to EH, stating that he was planning to not fire/hit Burr, while his actual intent WAS to harm Burr. (In the event that he hit Burr, the statement would never have been released, EH would never have received the letter, and Pendleton and King presumably would have kept their mouths shut.)
2. AH did this to avoid feeling embarrassed/damaging his reputation if he missed, but was subsequently injured/killed by Burr. 
Problems with these arguments.
1. AH told Pendleton and prepared a statement, alongside letters to EH, stating that he was planning to not fire/hit Burr, while his intent WAS to harm Burr.(In the event that he hit Burr, the statement would never have been released, EH would never have received the letters, and Pendleton and King presumably would have kept their mouths shut.)
According to Pendleton, AH told him that he would not fire at Burr AT ALL with his first shot. (P and Van Ness disagreed on who fired first.) 
Additionally, in their recollections of the conversations, both Pendleton and King tried to dissuade AH from reserving his fire after AH stated this intention to them. 
From Pendleton:
Besides the testimonies of Bishop Moore, and the paper containing an express declaration, under General Hamilton’s own hand, enclosed to his friend in a packet, not to be delivered but in the event of his death, and which have already been published, General Hamilton informed Mr. P. at least ten days previous to the affair, that he had doubts whether he would not receive and not return Mr. Burr’s first fire. Mr. P. remonstrated against this determination, and urged many considerations against it, as dangerous to himself and not necessary in the particular case, when every ground of accommodation, not humiliating, had been proposed and rejected. He said he would not decide lightly, but take time to deliberate fully. It was incidentally mentioned again at their occasional subsequent conversations, and on the evening preceding the time of the appointed interview, he informed Mr. P. he had made up his mind not to fire at Col. Burr the first time, but to receive his fire, and fire in the air. Mr. P. again urged him upon this subject, and repeated his former arguments. His final answer was in terms that made an impression on Mr. P’s mind which can never be effaced. “My friend, it is the effect of A Religious Scruple, and does not admit of reasoning, it is useless to say more on the subject, as my purpose is definitely fixed.” [my emphasis]
2d. His last words before he was wounded afford a proof that this purpose had not changed. When he received his pistol, after having taken his position, he was asked if he would have the hair spring set? His answer was, “Not this time.”
3d. After he was wounded, and laid in the boat, the first words he uttered after recovering the power of speech, were, (addressing himself to a gentleman present, who perfectly well remembers it) “Pendleton knows I did not mean to fire at Col. Burr the first time.”
4th. This determination had been communicated by Mr. P. to that gentleman that morning, before they left the city.  Nathaniel Pendleton’s amended statement, 19Jul1804
Rufus King stated (Rufus King to Charles King, 2April1819) that he tried to dissuade Hamilton from the duel, “I disapproved of the duel and endeavoured to prevail on Gen. Hamilton not to meet Col. Burr.” Charles King subsequently wrote the following back to his father, relaying the explanation he had provided to another party:
 “that preparatory and during the discussion of [the question of how to respond to Burr’s accusations], the main one, of whether Genl Hamilton should under any circumstances accept a challenge from Mr. Burr arose, and that my father decidedly advised that he should not, but that Genl Hamilton having stated that his mind was made up on this subject, as also to throw away his fire, if they should meet, my father then endeavoured to prove to him that if he, Mr. H, would persist in fighting, he owed it to his family and the rights of self-defence to fire at his antagonist,” (CKing to RKing, 7April1819). 
We’ll have to accept that the Kings (father and son) are being honest, and these recollections of a conversation that occurred nearly 15 years prior are not informed by the immediate testimony of others following the duel (See letter from William Wallace to King, dated 5 pm, 11July1804: “[Hamilton] received the shot of his antagonist, it is said with the determination of not returning the first fire.”). [See The life and correspondence of Rufus King vol 4, especially pgs, 389-411.]
So prior to the duel, we have AH’s own testimony in his prepared statement and a letter to EH (below) and recollections from Pendleton and King that AH was determined not to fire at Burr. He repeated to Pendleton and King that this was his determination even though they advised him against it. So we’d have to believe that this was all a façade to mask his real intent.
2. AH did this to avoid feeling embarrassed/damaging his reputation if he missed, but was subsequently injured/killed by Burr. 
On the first point, I doubt it would have damaged AH’s reputation to have been unsuccessful.  According to his own statement below, AH felt it was hurting his reputation to even be involved in a duel, as he claimed to be on the side of those who “abhorred” the practice (such as King). 
On the second point, if he had injured/killed Burr, I think the damage to his reputation would have been greater. Look what happened to Burr’s life after killing AH. And I don’t think AH was inclined to kill Burr, or anyone else. He stated in writing and to at least two people - prior to the duel - that his intent was exactly the opposite. My question is: what’s the evidence that he intended to physically harm Burr? 
From AH’s own statement: 
My religious and moral principles are strongly opposed to the practice of Duelling, and it would even give me pain to be obliged to shed the blood of a fellow creature in a private combat forbidden by the laws…
As well because it is possible that I may have injured Col Burr, however convinced myself that my opinions and declarations have been well founded, as from my general principles and temper in relation to similar affairs—I have resolved, if our interview is conducted in the usual manner, and it pleases God to give me the opportunity, to reserve and throw away my first fire, and I have thoughts even of reserving my second fire—and thus giving a double opportunity to Col Burr to pause and to reflect.
It is not however my intention to enter into any explanations on the ground. Apology, from principle I hope, rather than Pride, is out of the question.
To those, who with me abhorring the practice of Duelling may think that I ought on no account to have added to the number of bad examples—I answer that my relative situation, as well in public as private aspects, enforcing all the considerations which constitute what men of the world denominate honor, impressed on me (as I thought) a peculiar necessity not to decline the call. The ability to be in future useful, whether in resisting mischief or effecting good, in those crises of our public affairs, which seem likely to happen, would probably be inseparable from a conformity with public prejudice in this particular. Statement on Impending Duel with Aaron Burr
And his letter to EH:
The Scrup⟨les of a Christian have deter⟩mined me to expose my own li⟨fe to any⟩ extent rather than subject my s⟨elf to the⟩ guilt of taking the life of ⟨another.⟩ This must increase my hazards & redoubles my pangs for you. But you had rather I should die inno⟨c⟩ent than live guilty. Heaven can pre⟨se⟩rve me…10Jul1804, AH to EH
In the above letter he draws on religious reasons for not firing at Burr, and even admits in both the conversation with Pendleton and the above statements that it’s not entirely a rational argument, only that he cannot risk taking the life of another man. According to the testimony of Hosack in the boat, and then Bishop Moore and a few others who were at his deathbed, AH confirmed again that his intention was not to harm Burr.  From Moore:
“Do you sincerely repent of your sins past? Have you a lively faith in God’s mercy thro’ Christ, with a thankful remembrance of the death of Christ? And are you disposed to live in love and charity with all men?” [Hamilton] lifted up his hands and said, “With the utmost sincerity of heart I can answer those questions in the affirmative. I have no ill will against Col. Burr. I met him with a fixed resolution to do him no harm. - I forgive all that happened.” I then observed to him, that the terrors of the divine law were to be announced to the obdurate and impenitent, but that the consolations of the Gospel were to be offered to the humble and contrite heart; that I had no reason to doubt his sincerity and would proceed immediately to gratify his wishes. The Communion was then administered, which he received with great devotion, and his heart afterwards appeared to be perfectly at rest. I saw him again this morning, when with his last faltering words he expressed a strong confidence in the mercy of God through the intersession of the Redeemer. Benjamin Moore, New York Evening Post. 
Now someone could argue that AH only said these things to be allowed to receive communion, and this description was propaganda to convince others that AH had a Good Death. I don’t find that persuasive. 
I think AH was honest - as in frank, forthright, candid in his opinions (he seems to have also seen his own opinions as the logically argued obvious answer).  I do not think he was always truthful; I think he could be manipulative and deceitful towards his own (political) ends. And yet I cannot see him preparing the statement and letter to his wife, discussing the matter with Pendleton and King, and arguing against firing at Burr on religious grounds just in case he was unsuccessful at hitting Burr but Burr successfully killed him. I also don’t think that on his deathbed, concerned with his immortal soul and religious matters as he was, he would lie about it (having previously invoked religious reasons for not firing at Burr). I find it much more persuasive that he felt trapped into a challenge that he did not want, really did have an aversion to dueling following his eldest son’s death, and really did see the taking of another man’s life as a grave act. To argue otherwise, I think one has to present some evidence that points to AH actually intending to harm Burr (whether he fired first or not, firing into a tree above and to the side of Burr’s head isn’t that evidence). 
Here’s an article by Freeman that explains that the intent of these duels was not to kill or even seriously injure one’s antagonist. She then goes through AH’s arguments in his prepared statement.
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agentmarymargaretskitz · 7 years ago
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Top 3 headcanons for each past and present member of the Legends (you can't list them just not being dead as any of the headcanons), favorite fic you've written, favorite fic you've read, do you regret writing any fics, if so which ones, which character do you prefer; Leonard or Mick, Sara or Amaya, Ray or Nate, Jax or Wally, Rip or Stein, Zari or Kendra, Carter or Leo; top 5 ships, top 5 BroTP
This is….a lot.
Top 3 headcanons
Rip Hunter
Loves Western movies, hates root beer jelly beans, and tried to get the Bureau to hire a mental health professional.
Gideon
Forgives Rip for shutting her down when he comes back with Wally, wants Ray to make her an android body, and will troll the team with Asia’s ‘Heat of the Moment’ when things are slow.
Ray Palmer
Does meet adult Gumball at some point in the future, hadn’t spoken to Sydney in three years when he was first introduced on Arrow, and plans out the birthday parties on the ship.
Sara Lance
Listens to a lot of late 90′s/early 2000s songs, has no less than seven knifes lying out visibly around her room, and debates with Gideon about a salmon ladder for the Waverider.
Martin Stein
Wrote at least 3 major papers in college while high, read Harry Potter when the movies started coming out, and loved his families, blood and found.
Jefferson Jackson
Helps his mom make pecan pie at Thanksgiving, finished his degree when he got home for good, and tells Martina cleaner versions of the Legends’ adventures as bedtimes stories.
Carter Hall
Drinks his coffee black, used to be salesman before remembering who he was, and is useless.
Kendra Saunders
Ran track in high school, loves to bake, and started working at a women’s shelter after leaving the Legends.
Mick Rory
Looks at fanart for his book after it gets published, has visited Lux before, and considers the Legends his only family.
Leonard Snart
Had stolen jewelry to give to Lisa when he made it back, always has a pen somewhere (or steals it from someone else), and one of his aliases is Michael Scofield.
Amaya Jiwe
Taught Zari how to make pancakes, has many opinions on 21st century television, and got addicted to Candy Crush briefly.
Nate Heywood
Was on the academic decathlon team in high school, has fallen asleep on Ray, and dressed up as Indiana Jones for Halloween 3 years in a row.
Zari Tomaz
Is a secret XS fan, hates bees, and once fought Mick over a brownie.
Wally West
Will turn off music or skip to the next song when Careless Whisper starts to play, kept his Western outfit when he went back home, and broke his leg when he was nine. 
John Constantine
Sometimes plays guitar on the Waverider, once woke up in Barcelona with no recollection of how he ended up there, and has cooked breakfast for Gary at least twice.
Gary Green (he counts, I’m counting the S4 trailer)
Has TARDIS boxers, Rip was the one who recruited him because he had a gut feeling that Gary would be a good fit for the Bureau, and hates wearing contacts.
Fav fic I’ve ever written
That’s really hard. Probably Becoming a Legend, Five Years, Immortal!Leonard (that deserves a special mention) The Unhappy Birthday, To My Last Breath (I AM NOT READY TO DO THAT AGAIN IN LOS), and Losing Your Memory. I’m proud of a lot of my fics.
Fav fic I’ve ever read
Probably Queen of Mars by @incendiaglacies or 256 Days by @fezwearingjellybananas. Highly recommended reads.
Do I regret writing any fics
YES! I regret every Cartson fic I ever wrote thanks to season 2. Also I regret some of my early AoS stuff.
Which do I prefer?
Leonard or Mick
Sara or Amaya
Ray or Nate 
Jax or Wally
Rip or Stein (Just barely)
Zari or Kendra
Carter or Leo (HOW IS THIS EVEN A CHOICE?)
Top 5 Ships
Captain Canary
Garcy
ThunderGrace
Benlie
Mulder x Scully 
Top 5 Brotps
10 and Donna Noble (They did that right)
Michael Scofield and Lincoln Burrows (I will never not cry watching ‘he’s my brother’)
Oliver Queen and John Diggle
Barry Allen and Kara Danvers
Linh Cinder and Carswel Thorne (I need a series, animated or live action. It’d be soooooo good)
Friday Night Shenanigans
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uk-news-talking-politics · 7 years ago
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Demolishing Peter Lilley's WTO Brexit nonsense
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Earlier this month Peter Lilley, a former UK trade and industry secretary, published an article in The Times entitled: 'Even a no-deal Brexit is better than status quo'. This is just not true, and for reasons that Lilley ought to understand.
I do not want to pick on him particularly - other advocates of 'WTO terms' make similar claims, if a little less directly expressed. But since we hear that the European Reform Group is preparing a paper in which 'WTO terms' will be advanced as an acceptable option, it seems kindest to save them some effort by clearing up the main misapprehensions now.
It is often argued that because EU trade conducted under WTO rules is growing faster than trade between members, the WTO must somehow offer better terms. Colleagues in UKTPO have already shown that this is a total fallacy. That leaves me free here to deal with the rules themselves.
Lilley wrote:
"WTO terms are designed to provide a safety net ensuring all members can trade without discrimination. The EU will have to offer us the Most Favoured Nation terms its other major trading partners enjoy."
The WTO's Most Favoured Nation obligation does indeed avoid the worst discrimination, but in fact most EU trading partners receive better than that. Nearly 70 countries avoid almost all tariffs because they have free trade agreements (FTAs) with the EU. Low and lower-middle income countries avoid most of them via EU development-oriented preferences. Some of the FTAs go a bit further than tariffs to cover areas like services trade and mutual recognition of testing procedures.
The EU is close to completing several further trade deals – for instance with Japan and Vietnam – and the European Commission states that following these, only 24 countries will trade face 'WTO terms'. Even among these, some are trying to negotiate better terms, including Australia.
Since the WTO came into being, 243 new Free Trade Agreements have come into operation. Every country has at least one. None of this suggests that 'WTO terms' are viewed generally as a satisfactory option.
"Non-tariff border costs add just 0.1%, according to the Swiss."
The trouble with this argument is that the Swiss align almost perfectly with the EU. Every other estimate of EU non-tariff barriers is far higher, often exceeding 20%. And even though the UK is likely to be able to avoid some barriers, others – for example, having to submit documents and get certification that you meet EU regulations - will certainly apply.
"[Non-tariff barriers] are dwarfed by the 15% boost to our exporters' competitiveness from movement of the pound since the referendum."
Devaluation may help exporters be more competitive abroad, but it reinforces the price-increasing effects of tariffs and other barriers that the UK will have to levy on imports from the EU. So in reality it further reduces ordinary people's real incomes and increases British costs of production. Devaluation is no antidote to 'WTO terms'.
"Applying EU tariffs to our imports from Europe would yield £13 billion."
Tariffs may help the government's coffers, but they are taxes on those people and firms in the UK who consume imports. They are our money already. Tariffs distort the economy and reduce welfare, not the opposite. Lilley, who negotiated the Uruguay Round tariff cuts for the UK, used to believe this. It is unclear what has changed.
"We will be free to join the Trans-Pacific Partnership".
The trouble with this idea is that the partnership does not exist. The Comprehensive and Progressive Agreement for Trans-Pacific Partnership does. It accounts for about 14% of world income compared to the EU's 22%, is thousands of miles away, does not remove all tariffs and would still require the UK to adhere to certain rules, for example on digital trade.
"Without a trade deal, parliament will reject any withdrawal agreement offering the EU £40 billion. …. That leaves Britain £40 billion better off."
Not better off – just less badly off. Trading on WTO terms will reduce the UK's income in the long run by far more than avoiding a one-off payment of £40 billion will increase it. Moreover, having conceded, at least implicitly, that the £40 billion is a reflection of our future obligations to the EU, walking away from them will undermine any hope of cooperation in other dimensions. Security, flying rights and UK citizens' status in the EU, for instance, would all be vulnerable to worsening conditions without a withdrawal agreement.
"The unjustified Irish border 'backstop' commitment disappears. HMRC says Britain will not 'require any infrastructure at the border between Northern Ireland and Ireland under any circumstances' – tariffs can be collected alongside VAT returns."
Of course the backstop disappears – but so, too, might peace in Northern Ireland. Plenty of people - including implicitly the UK government, given they've pledged to maintain open borders - accept free commerce is part of the peace process.
"How we control imports is in our hands. Lorries laden with fresh food will not be queuing for hours at Dover since Dover sees no need for new physical checks …. HMRC will avoid delays by waving lorries through."
Lilley's plan entails that we'd have no checks on meat imports for food safety. Currently the EU inspects about 50% of poultry from non-EU sources. What about checks for chemicals safety? It is as if he thinks the EU is such a fine place that we do not need to inspect what they send to us. Waving lorries through hardly seems like taking back control.
"If the French slow down Calais, the Dutch and Belgian ports want the business and will offer speedier service."
This proposal seems to involve moving the Channel Tunnel. This should not need saying, but no other port can supply the UK at the same speed and cost.
"The hostile non-cooperation envisaged by Remainers would be not only impractical but triply illegal. It contravenes the EU's constitution, which requires it 'to establish an area of good neighbourliness' with neighbouring countries; the WTO treaty which forbids discrimination against trading partners; and the new trade facilitation treaty which commits members to facilitate trade not obstruct it."
This paragraph is nonsensical. Neighbourliness is perfectly compatible with having tariffs and inspections at the border. It certainly does not entail the EU abdicating responsibility for its own safety and customs duties. Non-discrimination works the opposite way from what Lilley suggests: the EU is obliged by the WTO to treat the UK as it treats other third countries. That is, with many more frictions than the UK faces at present as a member of the EU.
The Trade Facilitation Agreement is often cited by other advocates of WTO Terms – for example, Owen Patterson. However, as Patrick Minford of the Brexit-backing Economists for Free Trade and I have agreed in private correspondence, developed countries' current practices are already compatible with it, so the EU will treat imports from the UK as it currently treats those from Canada. The Canadian government's view of this treatment is as follows: "You will need to deal with a lot of documents when exporting goods to the EU market. To make exporting easier, you may wish to use freight forwarders and customs brokers."
From here, Lilley just gets carried away.
"Portray[ing] leaving the EU as costly….  demonstrates that membership has no significant benefits… Doing so parallels the Berlin Wall… The British people …  will [never] cave in before such threats."
This is a bit of a Catch22. If we don't point out the costs, there are none. But if we do point them out, there are none.
The WTO is not useless. Its rules are an essential part of the architecture for a peaceful and prosperous world. But they are lowest common denominator rules for trade between 164 separate and sometimes mutually hostile states, not the rules for deeply integrated, highly cooperative, sophisticated allies.
No-deal will not destroy all UK-EU trade or sink the UK economy beneath the waves. But it will involve a serious and permanent loss of income. Those who believe that the sacrifice is worth it for political reasons should be open about it. And they should be prepared to suffer their share of the losses.
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China Wants to Boost Births. But It’s Wary of Losing Control. When Fan Jianhua had her third daughter last April, she was afraid that she would be fined for violating China’s birth limits. Ms. Fan was already heavily in debt paying for treatment for her 6-year-old, who has leukemia. To her relief, when she registered her new baby with the police, she didn’t have to pay the $7,500 fine. “I was really happy and could finally relax,” said Ms. Fan, 34, a stay-at-home mother in the central city of Danjiangkou, in Hubei Province. Slowly, in fits and starts, China’s ruling Communist Party is loosening its long-held restrictions over childbirth and women’s bodies. Some local governments have tacitly allowed couples to have more than two children. Beijing has said civil servants will no longer be fired for such infringements. Party leaders have pledged to make population policies more inclusive, a signal that some have taken to mean the rules will be eased further. A growing number of voices in China, including lawmakers, scholars and officials, have urged the government to abolish birth restrictions. The party needs to take more aggressive action if it wants to reverse a precipitous decline in birthrates. A once-a-decade population census, released on Tuesday, showed that the number of births last year fell to the lowest since the Mao era. Low fertility translates to fewer workers and weaker demand, which could stunt growth in the world’s second-largest economy. But the party is wary of giving up control and has resisted scrapping birth restrictions wholesale. Instead, Beijing has been taking a piecemeal approach by slowly dismantling the once-powerful family-planning bureaucracy and carving out exemptions. In many places, police officers, employers and city officials are deciding how strictly, or loosely, to enforce the rules. That can mean more freedom for some, like Ms. Fan, to have more children. But it also creates uncertainty about the risks, adding to a reluctance about having more children. The strategy could also founder amid broad cultural changes. Anxiety over the rising cost of education, housing and health care is now deeply ingrained in society. Many Chinese simply prefer smaller families, and the government’s efforts to boost the birthrate, including introducing a two-child policy in 2016, have largely fizzled. “If the restrictions on family planning are not lifted, and they are encouraging births at the same time, this is self-contradictory,” said Huang Wenzheng, a demography expert with the Center for China and Globalization, a Beijing-based research center. He said that removing all birth limits would convey an important message. “I think such a step has to be taken.” Since it imposed the one-child policy in 1980, Beijing has maintained among the world’s harshest restrictions on procreation. That gave the national family-planning commission a powerful hold over the most intimate aspects of people’s lives, exacting fines from couples and urging — sometimes forcing — women to have abortions or be sterilized. When Chen Huayun, 33, was little, officials in her hometown in the eastern province of Jiangxi checked the laundry lines of houses for baby clothes, she said. Ms. Chen’s parents, who were civil servants, hid her or sent her to stay with her grandparents during the school holidays because she was their second child. “This was considered an illicit birth, and it was never spoken publicly of, so they were not fined,” she said. “It was only when they retired that their colleagues knew that I existed.” As it became clear that China’s society was rapidly aging, official murmurs about a reconsideration of the one-child policy surfaced but were quickly dismissed. It took years before the government moved to allow all couples to have two children. Now, the population is aging more rapidly than those of many developed countries, including the United States, and some argue that the government cannot afford to keep any restrictions on procreation. “We have to take advantage of the fact that a certain number of residents now are willing to give birth but aren’t allowed to,” China’s central bank said in a working paper it published on April 14. “If we wait to lift it when no one wants to give birth, it will be useless.” People of working age would make up 60 percent of China’s population in 2050, it predicted, down from three-quarters in 2010, a decline that would hurt the country’s productivity. Today in Business Updated  May 11, 2021, 1:13 p.m. ET Beijing has sought to show that it is listening. “The total fertility rate has fallen below the warning line, and population development has entered a critical transition period,” wrote Li Jiheng, the civil affairs minister, in December. He said the government would make child-care and education more affordable. And in January, the party-controlled national legislature urged local governments to stop imposing “excessively severe penalties” for the violation of birth limits. Beijing’s reluctance to abandon birth restrictions stems in part from the view that not all Chinese people can be trusted to know how many children they should have. “We found in some impoverished areas in the west that people are still obsessed with having more children,” Yuan Xin, vice president of the state-backed China Population Association, told the official China Daily newspaper. “So a more relaxed family-planning policy may mean more children for them and make it more difficult for them to escape poverty.” In China’s far western region of Xinjiang, the authorities have more harshly enforced family-planning rules in what Beijing has depicted as a fight against religious extremism. The campaign has led in recent years to a rise in sterilizations and contraceptive procedures — forcibly imposed in some cases — in the region’s Muslim-dominated areas. China’s family-planning policy has long given local officials a powerful weapon of control — one that may be hard, or costly, to wrest back. Before they were unwound, family-planning agencies hired around eight million people, down to the village level, who corralled women to be fitted with intrauterine devices or coerced them into abortions. The officials also collected large fines from couples who broke the rules. One senior researcher at the Central Party School estimated in 2015 that the fees amounted to between $3 billion and $5 billion annually. In recent years, the government has been reassigning family-planning employees to roles including in population research and tackling Covid-19. But local governments retain the power to enforce birth limits as they see fit, which has led to inconsistencies. The central government said in May last year that civil servants did not have to lose their jobs for violating birth limits, yet months later, a village committee in the eastern city of Hangzhou fired a woman after she had a third child — prompting a public outcry. Ultimately, the fate of China’s family-planning policies may change little. A generation of highly educated women are putting off marriage and childbirth for other reasons, including a rejection of traditional attitudes that dictate women should bear most of the responsibility of raising children and doing housework. Liu Qing, a 38-year-old editor of children’s books in Beijing, said getting married and having children were never in her future because they would come at too great a personal cost. “All the things that you want — your ideals and your ambitions — have to be sacrificed,” Ms. Liu said. Ms. Liu said Chinese society imposed a motherhood penalty on women, pointing to the discrimination that mothers often faced in hiring. “I’m furious about this environment,” she said. “I’m not the kind of person who would accept this reality and compromise. I just won’t.” For other Chinese, having fewer children is a matter of necessity when holes in the country’s social safety net mean that a major illness can lead to financial ruin. Ms. Fan, the woman in Hubei who was spared a fine, said that she and her husband, a laborer, were getting increasingly desperate. Public health insurance had covered half the cost of her daughter’s treatment for leukemia, but they were on the hook for $76,000. She had a third child only because she heard that a sibling’s cord blood could help in the treatment of leukemia. But she later learned that such treatment would cost more than $100,000. “I don’t dare think about the future,” Ms. Fan said. She added that if her daughter’s condition deteriorated or they went broke, they would have to give up treatment. “We can only leave it up to her fate,” she said. Research was contributed by Claire Fu, Liu Yi, Albee Zhang and Elsie Chen. Source link Orbem News #births #boost #China #Control #Losing #Wary
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Welcome to Aparecium, Cat! You have been accepted for Lily Potter. We’ve been so happy to have your Matilda, and it’s clear you put just as much love and thought into your application for Lily. I can’t wait to see your unique take on her hit the dash. Check out the new member checklist, and jump right in.
Character Basics
Birthday (Age): February 1st 2008 (19)
Gender (Pronouns): She/Her
Sexuality: Pansexual
Blood Status: Halfblood
Hogwarts House/School: Hufflepuff
Occupation: Agony aunt columnist/seer for the quibbler
Faceclaim: Zendaya Coleman
Biography: Lily grew up the youngest child of Harry and Ginny, loved and cared for by her large family who did everything they could to protect her. She was spoiled rotten. As one of the youngest of the famous Weasley-Potter clan she quickly realised her reputation (or rather her family’s reputation) preceded her. People she had never met knew who she was, the daughter of the famous Harry Potter but no one ever seemed to see her. She was just another Potter. Even at family gatherings with so many cousins - almost all of them older than her - she found herself fighting to be heard, desperate for attention.
When it was Lily’s turn to attend Hogwarts she decided she wanted to stand out from the rest of her family. She went out of her way to make new friends so that people would know her, instead of just her name. Although Lily was spoiled, bossy, and used to scrabbling for the centre of attention she had a way of making friends, or at least superficial friends, easily. The young witch did everything she could think of to get ahead and make people notice her.
She went through Hogwarts largely without any drama. She had a close group of friends and a happy life, where the most she had to worry about was relationship troubles and homework. She was always the kind of girl to fall fast and hard in love, which left her with many teenage heart breaks that she took deadly serious at the time. Her bubble was one where she was the centre of the universe and Lily rarely had time to think about what was happening outside the walls of Hogwarts.
She wasn’t the best student but found herself drawn to divination, which she excelled at, her other subjects falling to the side, scraping passes on them where she could. It wasn’t until her final N.E.W.T year she even started thinking about what she might want to do. Planning her future had never been something that Lily was very good at - even if she claimed she could see it.
At school Lily was popular, happy and she usually got her way. She was teased from time to time about her love of divination but largely thought that the other students were just jealous of her abilities to ‘predict the future’. Entering the ‘real world’ was a big shock for Lily, who had to very quickly learn that most wix wouldn’t put up with her immature behavior.
Lily quickly became a press favourite. She had a messy love life and was not afraid of causing a scene or letting people know how she felt, especially when she’d been drinking and being straight out of Hogwarts she liked to party a lot. Along with her drunken shenanigans Lily also liked to make predictions some of which would be splashed across papers when they were proven wrong. She got something of a reputation for being a little odd. She is well aware that her activities were reflecting poorly on her family but once the press had an idea of her they ran with the same story, no matter how she behaved. It seemed useless to try to change anyone’s mind.
After graduation Lily’s prospects in a traditional job seemed limited. She hadn’t performed well enough at school to be considered for any ministry job and she didn’t want to work in a stuffy office anyway. Lily would have been perfectly happy to just keep living at home and pursue her interest in divination but her parents wanted more from her. They wanted her to succeed and be happy. It didn’t take much for Ginny to pull a few strings and get Lily a job writing for the Quibbler.
The Quibbler was ahead of its time in many ways, the first wizarding newspaper to publish content online, they were quick to adapt to technology. Lily loved this. While she was highly skeptical of integration she knew the wizarding world could use muggle technology to their advantage. She had been researching muggle divination techniques for a long time and had even integrated some into her own practice. It gave her something of a career boost. She was doing something new and different.
The articles she wrote for the Quibbler at first were generic agony aunt content. She’d respond to questions posed by readers, give them relationship or career advice. It was a fluff piece at the end of the paper. As she developed as a writer though she found her own voice and used her divination skills to form advice for those who wrote in. It became a highlight of the paper’s online articles, often pushed to the front page of the entertainment section of the website. The name Potter certainly helped with that.
Lily had found her calling. The only thing she didn’t like about the Quibbler was their political sections. Even before she’d joined they were suggesting magical and muggle integration, but in the years since the call had only gotten stronger. She dared not speak her mind on the issue in her own articles but she didn’t like the direction the paper was going and she was concerned that the readers were going to be influenced towards integration. While she loves her job at the Quibbler she’s started to wonder whether it’s time to move on to somewhere she can speak her mind, even knowing the rifts it might cause in her family.
Character Questionnaire
How does your character feel about their family? A large family suits Lily well. She’s social and enjoys being around a lot of people, especially those who love and spoil her. Being one of the youngest means she can get away with quite a lot and when she acts up or makes a fool of herself the most she gets is a roll of the eyes from one of her aunts or uncles. She liked spending time with her older cousins as a kid, but hated being batted away and treated like the annoying little sister - when that happened it usually led to a tantrum or Lily doing her best to steal the spotlight in whatever way she could. She has a lot of people to look up to in her family - her aunts and uncles are all famous and impressive witches/wizards in their own right. It’s a little intimidating sometimes, especially when she knows many of them look down on her chosen career in divination. There can be some friction, especially with her Aunt Hermione which isn’t helped by Lily’s secret opposition to integration. Lily and her mum Ginny have a special bond. They’re two very different witches but Ginny has always accepted Lily as she was and encourages her daughter to find her own path in life. She wants Lily to stay as a happy free-spirited child and Lily embraces that, not knowing how fast Ginny had to grow up when she was her age.
How would a stranger who has just met your character describe them? Lily has a reputation that precedes her and with the press following her every move, all her embarrassing moments as a young adult have been put on show - including the time she got too drunk and flashed the cameras. She is largely thought of as some silly little girl who thinks the world revolves around her and isn’t in touch with everyone else’s reality. People who first meet her often come away with this impression, even if they haven’t kept up with what’s said about her online.  
What magical skill or talent is your character most proud of? Lily is proud of her skill in reading tarot cards. It wasn’t taught on the Hogwarts’ divination curriculum, which favoured traditional wixen ways of predicting the future, but Lily learnt about it online. She read about muggles using the cards to predict the future and believed their results to be true and so she started practicing. While it took her a long time to learn it by herself it quickly surpassed tea leaf reading as her favourite method of divination, and is now her main selling point as a seer. It’s not something most seers in the wizarding world use and Lily is keen to keep it as her shtick.
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It was Lily’s first day at the quibbler. She hated feeling uneasy and had planned to walk into the office wearing her lucky dress, the one that made her feel powerful and confident - the same one she’d worn the new years eve she’d made out with the singer of a famous muggle band her friends loved. She’d put a jacket over it, but Ginny had still gently told her it probably wasn’t work appropriate. She’d ended up borrowing an outfit from her mum but it had put her whole morning in a spin. She didn’t feel comfortable in the trousers, which were slightly too short for her, and she spent the entire morning conversation with her new boss worried that everyone would notice how they rode up. Lily had barely been listening to what he was telling her and didn’t realise that they’d arrived at her desk until he told her he’d leave her to set up the computer sitting at it.
She didn’t think much of it. Lily had been expecting a newspaper to have nicer offices than this. She didn’t even have her own office, she was sharing a small room with a group of other writers who were all eagerly typing away at their computers, occasionally throwing glances her way. Taking a seat Lily looked around and wondered who had decided it would be a good idea to carpet the room in tiles, or paint the walls that strange shade of green. She ignored the looks from her new co-workers, entirely used to it and settled down at her desk opening the computer and setting up a new account.
It didn’t take long and without any direct further instructions Lily leaned back on her chair scrolling her phone, assuming she’d be told what to do when she needed to do it. She got more strange looks from the other inhabitants of the office. They all seemed to be working hard, their loud typing noises irritating her.
When her boss finally returned to see her scrolling her phone he looked bemused.
“You didn’t come to my office when you’d finished?”
“Huh?”
Lily had not heard that instruction. He sighed.
“I’ll email you your first task, let me know if you have any problems with it.”
By the end of the day Lily had successfully written one reader response. There had been much back and forth correcting grammar errors and fixing formatting issues and suggesting that Lily’s advice didn’t contain the phrase ‘dump his ass!’ She was happy with her work and pleased the day had gone so well for her considering she hadn’t been wearing her lucky dress.
As the rest of the writers filed out of the office she heard them mentioning their usual after-work drinks. That was something she could get onboard with.
“Are we going out for drinks? Fab, I’ll let my parents know I’ll be back late. We can get smashed and celebrate my first day!”
Lily didn’t notice the looks of resentment the following day when they all arrived at their desks with a hangover and she was happily typing away on her next project.
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awkwardwritersyndrome · 5 years ago
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Chapter 1: Breath of Fresh Air
In the aftermath of Harmonic Convergence, Korra is struggling to restore balance to Republic City. Spirit vines have taken over entire blocks, coiling through windows and breaking through walls. Many of the city’s residents have been displaced. Businesses have been forced to close or relocate. Even the President’s office is overrun with foliage. The young Avatar is frantically searching for an answer with growing pressure from the people of Republic City. 
Korra awoke to the smell of jasmine tea coming from the kitchen. She could faintly hear Pema and Tenzin chatting as Rohan babbled along with them. She shifted herself over to the edge of the bed and let her head hang with her eyes trained to the floor. Her and Tenzin were planning to head into the city in search of a solution for the spirit vines. It was her last chance to figure something out before the President’s press conference later that day. The newspaper had recently published an article that said Korra had an 8% approval rating amongst Republic City constituents. The bleak statistic rattled around her mind for days. She wondered if she’d ever figure out how to be a good Avatar. 
Pema and Tenzin looked to the kitchen doorway as they heard shuffling feet before Korra appeared. 
“Ah, good morning Korra. I’ve got a good feeling about today. We’re bound to solve this vine issue sooner or later,” Tenzin proclaimed calmly. Korra sighed heavily and plopped down next to her mentor. 
“I don’t know Tenzin. It’s been two weeks since Harmonic Convergence and I haven’t made any progress.”
“There’s a lot of pressure to get this fixed quickly, but you can take your time Korra,” Pema said as she placed her hand on the Avatar’s shoulder. “You’re doing the best you can.”
Suddenly Meelo’s pitchy voice bellowed through the halls. “Korra! Asami’s on the phone!”
Korra jumped slightly, startled by the volume, and it took a bit for her to realize what Meelo shouted. When it clicked, her eyes widened with curiosity because she didn’t get many calls. She hurried to the study and took the receiver from the young airbender.
Unsure of why Asami was calling Korra awkwardly paused before saying, “uh...hi.”
“Sorry to bother you this early. I was just reading in the paper that the President is having a press conference this afternoon outside city hall. Are you going,” Asami asked.
Korra dropped her head at the thought of dealing with the press. “Unfortunately, yes. What about you? I can use all the support I can get.”
“You can count me in,” Asami assured her.
Firebending wouldn’t work. Airbending was useless. Korra couldn’t find where the roots ended or began. Everything was a mess in the spirit wilds. Jinora was probably the only one happy to see the center of the city full of spiritual activity. Standing at the edge of the wilds, Korra realized her time was up. “I gotta go face the press and tell them I still don’t have a way to get rid of the vines.” 
When she arrived in front of city hall on her glider, President Raiko was already riling the crowd. Korra attempted to reassure everyone that she could fix things but to no avail. President Raiko antagonized the Avatar until she lost her temper, gripped his chin in her hand, and berated him about his administration's failure to respond to Unalaq and Vaatu. Chief Beifong had to separate them and end the press conference. The crowd quickly dispersed and the only person left was Asami. 
The Future Industry CEO could see the disappointment on Korra’s face as she frowned, and said, “this is a disaster.”
“Don’t worry, we’ll figure something out,” Asami replied, dipping her head to find Korra’s eyes. 
“Easy for you to say. You don’t have my poll numbers. 8% approval? Who are they asking?”
“You can’t take that to heart,” Asami reassured her. “People are frustrated.”
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Korra furled her brow in frustration. “I don’t blame them. I should be able to fix this. I’m the Avatar.”
The two young women stood in silence for a few moments. A million thoughts flashed through Korra’s mind as she stared at the ground, fuming internally. It took a while for her to notice that Asami didn’t leave. Her friend was right there, attentive and concerned. Something about not being alone made Korra feel better. She finally looked up at Asami and mustered up a smile of appreciation. “Thanks for coming.”
“I’m happy to be part of that 8% approval rating,” Asami said as she nudged Korra’s arm with her elbow. The two of them chuckled and began heading down the front steps of city hall. 
“Need a ride back to Air Temple Island?” Asami flashed her car keys as the Avatar opened up her glider. Korra thought for a moment about the long flight home then took Asami up on her offer. They walked down a narrow street and found the car parked outside a tea shop. The aromas tickled their noses and made Asami sigh with delight. “Gosh that smells wonderful.” Korra grinned at the sight of Asami closing her eyes and drifting her head towards the flowery fumes.
“You wanna have some tea? That is of course if I’m welcome here,” Korra asked half-jokingly. 
A wide smile stretched across Asami’s face. “We can be quick. I’m sure Pema is making dinner so we won’t stay long.” She grabbed Korra’s forearm and practically dragged her into the tea shop. A short elderly woman greeted them and sat them at a small table near the window. Asami ordered for them both since Korra didn’t drink tea often. They made small talk as they waited for the beverages. Korra tried not to remain fixated on politics and crises in the city but Asami didn’t mind hearing about it. Honestly, she was pretty impressed with everything Korra had accomplished in the past month. She thought her friend deserved more credit for defeating Unalaq and Vaatu against great odds. 
“I’m sorry. Am I boring you,” Korra asked, embarrassed by the realization that she was rambling. 
“No, I get why all of this is so stressful,” Asami said as the waitress brought their tea. “With my dad out of the picture, and Varrick gone, I’ve had to run Future Industries all alone. It’s not end-of-the-world stuff, but I know what it’s like to be the person everyone’s looking to for answers.” 
Korra wrapped her hands around the warm cup of tea. She hadn’t given much thought to all the pressure Asami was under as the sole CEO of Future Industries. “Gee, I feel like a bad friend. I never even asked how things were going with your company since Varrick scammed you.”
A look of shame washed over Asami's face and Korra regretted her wording. “I mean...he’s slick...you...anyone would’ve fallen for it...not that you fell for it...gahhh,” Korra huffed, stumbling through her words. Apparently, she was bad at being the Avatar and supporting her friends.
Asami found the lack of tact humorous and laughed. “Don’t feel bad. Varrick took advantage of me being on my own for the first time. You’re right, anyone would have fallen for it. I’m glad Bolin took him down.” Korra squirmed in her seat and gulped her tea, still embarrassed with her poor word choice. “How’s the tea,” Asami asked, hoping to change the subject.
Korra looked up with her mouth filled with tea, her cheeks ballooned out like a pufferfish eel. She thought for a tick before swallowing hard. “Actually, it’s really good.”
“The secret is to ask for fresh ginger,” Asami whispered with a knowing grin. Korra smiled too and nodded her head. She felt honored to be let in on a little secret. 
The sun was setting by the time the two young women made it back to Air Temple Island. As they walked inside Asami noticed how low the sun was and grimaced. “I hate taking the ferry in the dark. Something about darkness over the water creeps me out.”
“I’m sure Tenzin and Pema wouldn’t mind you staying here for the night,” Korra suggested, waving Asami further inside towards the dining room. They found the whole family sitting around the table eating and bickering. Bolin told them all about Bumi’s claim that he could airbend and Mako’s insistence on sleeping at the police station. The scene was pretty chaotic until Meelo whipped a saucer at his uncle. Reflexively, Bumi stretched his arms out and airbent a sphere around the small plate, saving his face from imminent impact. “I told you,” Bumi screamed as everyone stared, completely dumbfounded by what they were seeing. Not knowing how to control the airbending, Bumi quickly dropped the plate and the conversation exploded into a million questions. 
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It wasn’t until Pema noticed Asami hovering behind Korra, who was planted in a seat near Jinora, that the topic of conversation shifted. “Wait a minute. Asami, isn’t it a bit late to be taking the ferry back to the city?”
Seemingly all at once, everyone’s attention shifted to the industrialist. “Oh right, I meant to ask if you and Tenzin would mind me staying for the night. I hate to impose but-”
“It’s no trouble at all,” Tenzin said firmly. “You can stay in your old room. I don’t think anyone’s used it since you were with us last.”
Asami smiled at the warm invitation. She felt a small hand tug on her sleeve and looked down to find Meelo pulling her towards his seat at the table. “You can sit next to me,” he offered, trying his best to deepen his voice. Asami chuckled and took a seat between Meelo and Kya. “Why thank you,” she said formally. “You’re quite the gentleman.” 
After dinner, Korra and Kya waterbent the dishes clean while Asami dried them. The three of them gossiped about Bumi’s not-so-graceful airbending and Bolin’s goofy stories about filming movers. When the dishes were done, Kya retired for the night, leaving Asami and Korra to put the dishes away. They maneuvered around each other to reach the cabinets and shelves, sliding and pivoting, almost like they were dancing. 
“Thanks for the help,” Korra said as she placed the last bowl. “If this stuff was made of rock I’d have it done in 3 seconds flat.”
“I guess we can add ‘doing the dishes’ to the list of things the Avatar needs to master,” Asami said jokingly, getting a laugh out of Korra. “This kind of reminds me of being little again. My family had a lot of staff at the mansion, but my mom always washed the dishes herself. I loved helping her.” The thought of her mom made Asami a bit sad and Korra noticed her expression change.
“Your mom sounds like a great person.” She felt bad that she wasn’t better at comforting others and rubbed her own arm awkwardly. “I’d love to hear more about her. That is...if you’re up for it.”
Asami turned to look directly at Korra, her light green eyes connecting with cyan blues. “I don’t think anyone’s ever said that before,” she stated warmly. “I wouldn’t even know where to start.”
Korra moved towards Asami and they began to walk side-by-side towards the bedrooms. “How about you start at the beginning,” the Avatar suggested. Instead of retreating to her own room, she followed Asami to hers. Korra nestled herself at the foot of the guest bed and rested her head on her fists. She listened intently as Asami described her early childhood in Republic City. She reminisced about tea parties, and family vacations, and her faint memories of starting school. An entire candle had melted by the time she got to her mother’s death. 
Korra could sense her friend getting tense as she recounted the days leading up to the break-in. She slid over to sit closer to Asami and placed her hand on her back. “It must be hard talking about it. You don’t have to,” she explained.
Tears welled in Asami’s eyes and she inhaled sharply to hold them back. Without looking at Korra she ended her story and said, “thank you. I can’t remember the last time I got to talk about my mother fondly.”
“Are you kidding? After you listened to me complain all day, it’s the least I could do.”
Without thinking, Asami threw her arms around Korra and hugged her. Korra was caught off guard but welcomed the embrace. The two exchanged “goodnights” and the Avatar headed to her room. She probably should have said it out loud but she thought of how happy she was to have a friend that was a girl. A smile crept across her face as she laid down. Korra whispered to herself, “maybe I’m not a bad friend after all.”
By the time Korra woke up the island was already alive with activity. Bumi was desperately trying to airbend in the yard while Asami, Kya, Tenzin, and the kids looked on with amusement and confusion. Korra joined Asami and Tenzin on the stairs as they hypothesized about Bumi’s new abilities. Shortly after, Chief Beifong and Mako arrived and stared curiously at Bumi’s haphazard flailing. Tenzin explained that his older brother was a new airbender but the officers weren’t surprised. They reported that there was another new airbender currently at large in the city. Everyone realized that it wasn’t an isolated incident and was likely the result of Harmonic Convergence. Korra offered to help Lin, Mako, and the authorities find the new airbender but Mako awkwardly rejected the offer. For some reason he saluted Asami and Korra and headed off to follow Lin back to the city. 
Ignoring Mako’s suggestion to leave things up to the police, Korra and Asami caught a ferry into town to look for signs of new airbenders. As they walked to the car Korra exclaimed how excited she was that there were new airbenders. “I bet we can find that guy before Mako does,” she proclaimed with a sly smirk.
A set of keys came flying towards her but she caught them without thinking. She shot a look of bewilderment at Asami. “You know, I’m not very good at this.”
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Asami encouraged her to try. “You’re the Avatar: master of all elements. You should know how to drive. Besides, it’s relaxing,” she explained confidently. She tossed her hair back and slid into the passenger seat. There wasn’t much Korra could do to argue so she walked over to the driver's side and got in. The dashboard might as well have been a cockpit because she had no idea where to look or what she was looking at. The young CEO started pointing out meters and knobs and levers but it was a lot to take in at first.
After a few follow up questions, Korra started the engine and pulled away from the curb. Things went smoothly until she had to speed up. The Avatar suddenly forgot all her instructions and her feet got confused. She was going faster than she intended and couldn’t figure out how to slow down. The car jerked and thrashed as she randomly mashed pedals. Asami’s body was whipping back and forth in her seat. She stretched her arms out and grabbed on to anything bolted down in an attempt to stabilize herself. “Clutch! Clutch! Clutch,” she yelped in fear. The car screeched to a sudden stop and Asami let out grunt at the erratic jostling “...that’s the break.”
Korra’s face got hot with embarrassment. She cringed behind the wheel as her friend took a deep breath. “Let’s try again,” Asami suggested. Korra swallowed her urge to give up and sat up tall in the driver's seat. She saluted Asami much like Mako had earlier, causing both women to burst into laughter. The Avatar looked over the inside of the car again quickly before accelerating slowly.
As she got the hang of things, Korra relaxed into her seat and replayed the morning in her head. Her brain paused at the recent memory of how strange Mako was acting on the island. She asked Asami “how long do you think talking to Mako will be like pulling teeth?”
“Well...Mako has never been the most in-touch-with-his-feelings guy. But...it’ll get better. Eventually.”
“So when I was gone did he tell you that we broke up?” Korra asked the question unsure if she wanted the answer.
Asami hesitated but responded, “yeah...we all knew...sorry.”
“That’s pretty embarrassing,” Korra replies, instantly regretting that she asked.
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“Actually,” Asami began, “I need to tell you something about that and I should’ve told you this sooner but...while you were gone...I...kind’ve kissed him. I’m sorry.”
Korra chuckled. “No wonder he’s so nervous around us.”
“You’re not mad,” Asami asked softly.
“Noooo...I mean, I kissed Mako when he was going out with you.”
“You what,” Asami inquired sharply, her brow raised in contempt. 
Korra could feel the heat of her passenger’s expression and choked out a shaky response. “I’m so sorry! I thought you knew!”
“I’m just kidding,” Asami said with a smirk. “I knew a long time ago.”
After laughing at her friend’s ruse Korra decided to share her thoughts from the night before. “Well, whatever happened with Mako, I’m glad it didn’t come between us. I’ve never had a girlfriend to hangout with and talk to before. Except for Naga.” Korra glanced at Asami and noted, “this is nice.”
When Korra said “girlfriend,” Asami’s brain misinterpreted it briefly. Not that the title was off-putting. It actually had a ring to it as far as Asami was concerned. However, she didn’t have time to respond to either interpretation because they were speeding towards a spirit vine.
“Vine!” 
Korra gasped and yanked the wheel. The car spun and the tires squealed loudly as they slid across the pavement. A porcupine spirit appeared out of nowhere, startling both women. He yelled at them for almost crashing into him and in return Korra berated him for making a home in the middle of the road. He shrugged off her complaint and reminded the Avatar that the vines are a lot like spirits too before he returned into the wilds. 
Korra had an epiphany. She got the idea to use waterbending to guide the vines out of the city the same way Unalaq calmed angry spirits. Asami helped her convince Lin and the press to come see her try it out the following day. The Avatar had to put her airbender search on hold.
Streams of water rose from the river and began glowing as they swirled around a nearby building. Korra let her energy flow through the water and surround the vines. Slowly the greenery began to shrink and return to the earth, freeing the building from its grasp. For a moment everyone was relieved that the Avatar had figured it out. Then the vines violently jutted from the ground and engulfed the building again. The spiritual plant grew even bigger than before, and overtook a second building, then a third one across the river. Korra, Lin, and Bolin scrambled to save the people inside.
Bolin made a quip about things not going as planned but all Korra could do was stare at the destruction her efforts caused. This was the opposite of what she wanted. Rife with guilt, the Avatar flew back to Air Temple Island. She strategically avoided the family and headed to the pagoda overlooking the city’s skyline. She desperately tried meditating until the sun was almost down. Tenzin found her in solitude and tried to comfort her. He pointed out that she had accomplished great things in just one year. He was empathetic about her disconnection with previous Avatars but encouraged her to use the freedom to blaze a new path.
As they were chatting, Bolin ran over to report that the new airbender in town was at the top of Kyoshi Bridge, threatening to jump. All three benders rushed into town on Oogi. Korra flew up to the top of the bridge and did her best to calm the man down. After some discussion he reached out for her hand and slipped off the ledge. Korra jumped after him and opened her glider as she caught him mid-fall. A crowd of onlookers began cheering but President Raiko was not amused. All he noticed was yet another crisis. Raiko confronted Korra and banned her from the city. 
The young Avatar was agitated but didn’t contest the ban. She decided to leave Republic City to find all the new airbenders in the world to help restore the Air Nation. Tenzin was fully supportive of her plan and wasted no time beginning their talks of searching every nation and village for new recruits.
As Korra, Tenzin, and Daw, the new bender, flew over the water to Air Temple Island, the Avatar lost track of what Tenzin was saying. It dawned on her that if she left Republic City she would be leaving her friends behind too. The thought of losing Asami was particularly disheartening because she had just realized how comforting it was to have a girlfriend. As she thought on it, her mind replayed the word “girlfriend” again and again until it began to sound odd. Korra tilted her head and pursed her lips while she was in deep thought. ‘Girlfriend is a weird word. Why have one word for someone that’s a friend and for someone that’s...well...more than a friend,’ she thought to herself. Oogi began drifting down towards land and Korra snapped out of her daydream. She wrapped up her talks with Tenzin by insisting he show Daw around and made a beeline for the phone. She had the operator connect her to the Sato residence and waited for an answer.
“Sato residence,” rang through the receiver in a soft sultry voice. Korra wasn’t used to Asami’s professional voice but it was pleasing to the ear.
“Hi, Asami. It’s me...urrr...Korra...the Avatar. Avatar Korra.”
“How’s it going Avatar,” Asami asked with jest in response to her friend’s odd greeting.
Korra pressed her palm to her forehead in dismay at how silly she sounded but pressed on with her call. “We finally found the new airbender but I somehow got banned from the city in the process.”
“What?!” Asami was shocked and worried. What did this mean?
“Don’t worry though, I have a plan. But I’ll need a really huge favor.” 
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i want to become a college professor but i’m not sure if it’s worth it or not. i see online how people say there aren’t enough positions for professors anymore and it’s not worth the time and money. i want to become an english professor, my other option was an english teacher. i love this subject so much but ppl always say it’s a useless degree and are criticizing the professions like the ones i want to pursue and it makes me depressed like i don’t have a future with the skills i have. i’m
going to college this fall and i’m honestly wondering if i should just change my major to something else for chances of a better job.
i forgot to say i live in the US btw for the question about college/being a professor thanks xx
Obligatory song, “What Do You Do With a BA in English”, from Avenue Q:
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But being serious, “worth it” is a really subjective measure, and I don’t think it’s necessarily how you should be thinking about this issue.  Rather, I would think about why you want to be an English Professor in particular.  I have a post here on identifying your passion which may be worth reading through to consider whether being a professor is actually would make you feel fulfilled. 
Of course you love English as a subject, but are you compatible with the lifestyle that being a professor brings?  Are you passionate about teaching students and introducing the next generation to the great works of literature?  Do you really want to conduct research?  Are you okay playing into the (sometimes arbitrary) expectations of your department?  Would you be willing to move to another country or take a position at a university that isn’t prestigious?  Would you be willing to teach at a community college?  Are you committed to spending the next several years of your life getting a PhD in the hopes that you can get a job once you graduate?  Are you willing to network, put aside your own research interests, and market yourself in order to get a job?
For some people, the answer to all of those is a resounding, emphatic “yes”.  They’re passionate about their subject, they love research and teaching, and they would do anything to pursue it.  But for those who aren’t as passionate, pursuing a career in academia can be really difficult and draining.  It can also be expensive.  In the US, unlike in the EU, there is no mandated minimum salary or national salary scale for PhD students.  So worst case scenario, you might be working for free and best case scenario, you’re making between $15,000 and $30,000 a year for the 4-7 year duration of your PhD program- and that’s with you having to pay for the program itself.  IMO, if you’re not getting free tuition and a stipend, a PhD isn’t worth the financial investment unless you’re independently wealthy.
Even if you do have a PhD, it can be difficult to get a job in academia. Especially in fields like English, there are lots of professors who have been in their position for upwards of 30 years and plan on teaching until they physically can’t anymore.  That means that there are lots of Associate Professors who have spent years trying to get tenure and fail because there just aren’t open positions.  If you’re willing to move abroad, especially to Asia, that’s less of an issue, but if you’re focused only on prestigious universities in the US, that can be a real problem.  Most universities in the West get between 250 and 400 candidates for a single open position, and even if you get that position, there isn’t a lot of job security.  
In an attempt to save money, many universities have opted to slash their budget for full-time, tenured, or tenure-track faculty in favor of poorly paid, part-time “adjunct” faculty.  However, PhD programs continue to accept and graduate lots of students every year, and so the number of open positions (even poor ones) in relation to the number of PhDs who are applying to those positions gets bigger every year.  You can see the discrepancy in this infographic from the paper, The missing piece to changing the university culture.  
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I don’t mean to be a downer here, but as someone who very nearly pursued a career in academia (and honestly, still might), I’m glad that someone told me these things before I committed to that career path.  If you can carve out a niche for yourself, particularly a niche that universities are looking for, it becomes easier to become employed.  If you’re happy to do the grunt work and wait it out, academia can be a really fulfilling career path.  If your PhD program is one of the top 20 in the world, you have a much better chance (54% of top 10 PhD program students are employed out of their program) than if your PhD program is lower in the rankings.
There are also other things you can do with an English degree that don’t involve academia.  You can go into publishing, marketing/advertising, public relations, law, freelance writing, news reporting/journalism, library sciences, editing, interpreting/translation, etc.  Just because you get an English degree doesn’t mean you’re locked into teaching.
You also don’t have to write off getting a degree in English just because it doesn’t have a direct career path.  The vast majority of people don’t have jobs that are related to their college major.  But even if you do want to get a degree with a direct career path (which I think is smart), you can always double major in English and something else or minor in English.  You don’t have to let go of it entirely.
Finally, it’s possible that you’ll get to university and realize that English isn’t actually what you want to study after all.  A lot of people think they know what they want to study upon entering university and then realize that they hate their subject or that they’re actually more passionate about something else.  Give yourself that room to grow and explore without feeling tied to the person you expected you would be. 
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brialavellan · 8 years ago
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NaNoWriMo - Day 3
Words: 423 (minus some prewritten exposition)
Topic: FINALLY SOME DA FANFIC!!!!! I have been working one a longer fic and expansion of Vir Suledin Vir Harillen (shameless plug here) for, like 2 years now. I have a storyline, it’s just trying to make everything fit together. And I’m not planning to fully publish until I finish the entire series.....
But I figure I’ll share a bit. I’ve shared some of this, but the rest is new:
Briala had not visited the Grand Cathedral in many years. Not by choice and never for Faith. The gold, grim statues of Andraste and the glittering stained glass windows sent shivers up her back as she passed by them. She hurried past Andraste’s stoic, stern glare, through the gates, and towards the back of the Cathedral grounds.
Two Chantry mothers were standing nearby, giggling and pointing as she approached, bandying the word “knife ear” back and forth with enough vigor and volume for everyone to hear. Especially Briala. They were obviously young and naïve, likely lesser siblings of lesser houses, and Briala could tell they would not have lasted a day in Court.
They were tactless and tasteless, this petty display all purely designed to humiliate her.
She should have kept walking.
Instead, Briala stopped for a second to address them, “Good evening, sisters,” she said curtly, with just enough annoyance in her voice to simultaneously scandalize and shame them.
They glanced at her in shock, then skittered off, whispering hurried blessings to the Marquise as a blush began to freckle both of their faces.
Briala beamed. She did not always stoop to such petty displays of power, but time and her title had made her bolder, to the discomfort of many.
Almost everyone.
Briala kept walking, eventually reached a small two story building in the far right corner of the grounds, housing for the Hands that served the Divine. This was where ‘Manehn and her daughter, Mirwen, had taken residence since the Inquisition had been disbanded.
She had barely rapped on the door when ‘Manehn ushered her inside.
“I saw you talking to those Chantry sisters,” ‘Manehn said with a smirk as she entered the apartment, “they looked like they were going to leap right out of their robes.”
“Elves with titles still shock.” Briala replied with a small shrug as they ascended the stairs towards ‘Manehn’s private study, “and some have to be reminded that our titles aren’t meaningless.”
“And someone just likes to see Chantry mothers squirm just a little bit,” ‘Manehn said with a coy smile, “but it’s hard not to be flustered by a woman with such poise and grace.”
Briala smiled back but said nothing as they approached the study.
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The Divine’s Apartments were a thing of beauty, opulent to the point of ostentatious. Every room nearly glittered from crystal chandeliers, polished marble, Serault stained glass, and gilded gold trim on every piece of furniture and along every surface. In extreme contrast, ‘Manehn’s study was sparsely decorated, containing only large mahogany bookshelves stuffed to the brim with books and loose parers, and a single, spartan wooden desk. Her dagger and prosthetic laid on top of the desk, along with a whetstone and a bloody cloth, which had been used to scrape away the bits of dried blood from the day before.
A small bed sat in the corner, well used from the many times ‘Manehn’s work had kept her sequestered in her study for days at a time.
“18 years,” ‘Manehn said as she sat at her desk, “and he waited this long to make a move in Orlais?”
“Maybe he’s waiting for all of us to die of old age,” Briala said wryly, as she sat across from her, “it would certainly help his plans if you were out of the way.”
“Well, he’s immortal, he has all the time in the world,“ ‘Manehn said, brushing her hair back, exposing the small slivers of gray sparsely sprinkled through her short black hair. “Me, not so much.”
“But are his followers willing to wait?” Briala asked. “I don’t need intel to know that there are fractures we could exploit. I’m sure some are tired of waiting so long for the future he promises. ”
“Well, whatever future they think they’re getting, they’ll be a teeny bit disappointed.” ‘Manehn said, leaning back in her chair. “But all that’s irrelevant when I have no reliable leads, and no credible reports on his activities, machinations, or even his whereabouts…unless you found something.”
“Of course,” Briala said with a small smile, plucking a bloodstained parchment from a small satchel and placing it on the desk. “From the agent who betrayed me yesterday.”
“Does it have any useful information.”
“I have no idea. It’s in a cipher.”
“Can you break the cipher?”
“Maybe. In a few weeks,” Briala said with a slight shrug of her shoulders. “Besides, the cipher has very likely been changed, based on how the paper is relatively aged.”
“So, we have nothing but a useless piece of paper and a dead servant,” 
“So pessimistic,” Briala teased, “Don’t you want a lead on past activities? This is the closest thing to a history on his movements or objectives that we would have.”
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rowaelin-herondale · 8 years ago
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All This Time - An Elriel Fic - Chapter 4
Summary:  Slow burn Elriel fic taking place two years after the defeat of Hybern. Elain decides to reject her mating bond to Lucien, only to find that what she had been looking for was in front of her all along. Chapters 1. 2. 3. AO3 link. A/N:  A little over a year ago, I told my friend Becky (@rsrosenberg​) to pick up a SJM book. This past month, she finished reading ACOWAR and Empire of Storms, completing her read of every published SJM book to date. This chapter is for you, my dear, for giving me someone to fangirl over the Night Court with every day of the week.
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He hadn’t been able to put his finger on it, on the light that surrounded her. But it came to him then, swift and fierce and perfectly obvious. She was moonlight. ******
Azriel’s first thought was he needed to take several steps back from Elain. It went against everything he felt, every instinct he had, to take those three steps back. But he knew if he didn’t, Lucien could act before Elain said a single word. Fighting the anger that burned deep within, Azriel gripped the top of his blade, still in the holder on his hip, and took those steps away from her. She turned to face Lucien fully, standing tall. Only moments ago she was panicking, but there was no hint of that fear now as she looked at her mate. Her strength made Azriel want to kneel at her feet.
Without taking her eyes off Lucien, she said, “Azriel, you can leave.”
“I’m not leaving you,” he responded reflexively. He didn’t even realize he had spoken aloud until Lucien turned his stare towards him.
“You will,” Elain said, her gaze still focused on Lucien. “I’ll be okay.”
“Elain,” Lucien began, “What’s going on?”
“Nothing. Azriel was just leaving. We were discussing how best to sell some of my herbs and spices.” Azriel still hadn’t moved, so she finally turned her eyes towards him. From her look alone he knew that whatever happened next, she would be okay. In every circumstance this life had thrown at her, she’d proven to be stronger than anyone gave her credit for. She’d had her mortality stripped from her, a fiance she loved had broken her heart, a mate thrust upon her instantly, the gift (or curse, depending on how you looked at it) of being a seer, the death of her father, slaying the King…and yet, she’d only faltered briefly in those days after being turned. But not since.
So he did it. He went against every instinct, every muscle screaming at him not to move. And he left her standing there with her mate. Alone. Because she asked him to.
Within moments of setting foot outside Elain’s residence, he took to the skies to head towards the House of Wind, to let Rhys and Feyre know what happened. He feared Feyre would be angry with him, but he knew he had to leave her. Had he stayed, it would have done more harm than good.
Rhys was waiting for him on the balcony. Every aspect of their plan, every protection they had put in place, was unraveling before Azriel’s eyes. He couldn’t do anything to stop it.
“What happened? Why aren’t you still there?” Rhys said immediately upon seeing Azriel land. Feyre, thankfully, was elsewhere.
“Elain and I….Lucien came….” Azriel knew Rhys had never seen him so flustered. He wasn’t sure he had ever seen himself so flustered, even when it came to Mor. He would die for Mor, for any of them, but there was something about Elain that he couldn’t quite put his finger on. It wasn’t just that he would sacrifice his life for hers, it was more than that. He would do anything she asked him, anything at all, without hesitation. Even if it meant putting herself in danger. He’d let her do it, only because she asked.
Azriel filled Rhys in quickly, his cobalt siphons glowing as he spoke.
“Shit,” Rhys muttered. “There’s no one in the house to protect her if this goes wrong. Which it probably will. I need to get Cassian back from the Day Court as soon as possible.” Cassian had been sent there to tell Helion what Elain was planning to do, in case they needed him to interfere.
Azriel nodded. “I know it seems bad…but I have this feeling that she’s going to be okay.”
“You can’t know that.”
“I know...but I do.” Azriel didn’t know why he was so sure.
“Go back to her roof, just in case.”
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Elain led Lucien to the garden out back, sitting down on the gray and cracked cement bench next to him. Before Lucien arrived, she’d been unsure she was making the right decision. Mostly out of fear. But the moment she’d seen him, any ounce of doubt vanished. She realized she hadn’t missed him. Not his smile or his laugh or the warmth of his arms around her. She’d missed the idea of him - that she had this predestined mate who loved her unconditionally, no matter what. But that’s not really what her and Lucien had.
She sensed his nerves beside her, as he cracked his knuckles and fidgeted with his fingers. A few weeds had sprung up beside the bench and Elain bent over to pull them out. She held them between her fingers. Lucien reached over and gently took one from her.
“There are never weeds here.” He said, rolling the stem between his fingers. “You’re not one to neglect the garden, even a little.”
“I’ve had a lot on my mind,” she replied, dropping the remaining few stems into the grass in front of her. She’d grab them later.
When she didn’t continue, Lucien said, “Are you going to tell me what’s going on, or do I have to guess?” He was smiling, trying to make light of the situation. Through the bond, he must have sensed that whatever she had to say was serious.
The speech she practiced in front of the mirror was useless now. She knew it would come out sounding rehearsed and she respected Lucien too much to break his heart with practiced words. The crumpled piece of paper in her pocket lay untouched.
She looked at him. “I need you to let me get through this, to not interrupt me, however badly you may want to.” He nodded, and she began. “When you came into my life two years ago, I didn’t know what to make of the situation. Of anything. You weren’t there those first few weeks after - I didn’t know what was happening to my mind. I didn’t understand it, not until Azr - not until they figured out that what I was seeing were glimpses into the future. I was so emotionally confused for most of the battles with the King, between losing my mortality and my fiance and this life I had planned out for myself....and then being given this ability to see, I didn’t know what to make of any of it. And then I lost my father and the battle ended and you were there.”
She paused to look at him, to memorize the lines of his face, his one russet eye and the other golden. His red hair was blowing slightly in the breeze, the pointed tips of his ears visible. She resisted the urge to tuck the stray hands behind his ears as she had done so many times, instead lacing her own fingers together in her lap in front of her.
“Lucien, you were a gift I never deserved. You gave me the space to grieve, but also let it be known that as my mate, you were there for me. I don’t know if I ever voiced how much that all meant. And while we were getting to know each other, learning to be what the other needs and desires...six months ago, I had this vision. You had just learned you were Helion’s heir, and you’d raced off to the Day Court to deal with the repercussions and what it all meant. I was tending to the flowers when it came to me, this glimpse into the future. And in it, you weren’t beside me, not as my mate.”
At this, Lucien’s demeanor changed. He shifted from being gentle and concerned to alert. He faced her fully as she continued.
“You were in clothes from the Day Court and you just seemed so...happy. Happier than you’d ever been here. It’s all night and darkness and shadows here. You were always flames and light. There you were, finally where you belonged. And I, I was still here...still in the Night Court, wearing a navy gown and tending to the flowers among the shadows in the garden. We were happier apart, Lucien.”
He was silent as he processed what she told him, and she turned her gaze towards the house, not able to bare to look at him. She could have sworn she saw shadows on the roof.
“Is what you’re saying....are you saying, that you don’t want to be mates? You don’t want to accept the bond?” She’d never given him food, which was the customary tradition when one was accepting the mating bond. He’d never pressured her to, never even brought it up. Never asked when she thought she would be ready. But now, in this moment, she could see that he thought it was coming. Instead, she was shattering his heart.
“Yes,” and she heard her own heart break. “I don’t think we should accept the bond.”
A few flames escaped his hand, aimed not at Elain, but at her flowers. He didn’t say anything before winnowing away.
Feyre appeared immediately, pulling Elain into a tight hug. Nesta arrived a minute later, yanking Elain from Feyre’s arms into her own.
“Did he hurt you?” Nesta asked.
Elain shook her head. “Only a few of the black dahlias and purple calla lilies,” which Lucien knew were her favorite. She had a soft spot for dark flowers.
“Did he say anything? Did he agree to it?” Nesta asked, pulling Elain from the hug and looking at her face.
“He didn’t say anything before he winnowed away.” He didn’t need to. She could feel him raging down the bond, which hadn’t been properly buried yet. She knew there were unspoken words between them, that they would have to speak again before it was done. But for now, he needed space. And she needed quiet.
“Can you find Azriel?” Elain asked Feyre. Nesta was still analyzing her movements, as if waiting for her to break down at any moment. Feyre gave Nesta a look that Elain didn’t miss before she turned to the roof.
“You can come down from there, Az.”
Nesta and Feyre suddenly found they had elsewhere to be.
“Are you okay?” Azriel asked, seconds after landing on the grass.
“No,” she replied, a few tears escaping down her cheek. “I’m not.” He didn’t say anything as he reached his hand out to wipe away her tears.
“Were you on the roof the whole time?” Azriel nodded. “He could have spotted you, or scented you. He could have hurt you.”
“Not as much as he could have hurt you. He didn’t know I was there, I promise.”
She nodded, turning around to stare at the charred hole in her garden. She remembered the weeds from earlier, walking over to the front of the bench to pick them up. Azriel watched her, remaining silent. She threw them into the middle of the ashes. The garden could use more imperfections.
“I think he thought I was going to tell him that I was ready to accept the bond...and instead, I destroyed him. And in turn, it feels like I destroyed a piece of me.” She didn’t know why talking to Azriel was so much easier than her sisters, but it was. His shadows soothed her nerves as more tears escaped. She sat down on the bench, Azriel standing awkwardly nearby. His wings were folded in tight behind him and his siphons muted.
Azriel, who rarely seemed uncomfortable, knelt down in front of Elain, his knees in the grass and dirt, as she sat on the bench. Gently, he asked, “Why didn’t you tell any of us about the vision?”
“Because telling you meant it was true, and I wasn’t ready to accept it. But I am now.” More tears. Cauldron, why couldn’t she stop crying?
“Do you want me to leave?” He asked after a pregnant silence. She didn’t. In the days after she was made immortal, Azriel’s silent presence had saved her. At the time, she didn’t realize what a calming force he had been, the light breeze after a brutal storm.
“No...I just need to sit here. To accept what I’ve done. You don't have to leave, but I understand if there's somewhere else you need to be.”
For the rest of the day and night they sat in silence in the garden, staring at the weeds.
Chapter 5.
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