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mercurytrinemoon · 4 months

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Neurodivergence in the birth chart and the issue of "aspects that indicate xyz"

I, once again, have rolled my eyes at an astro tiktok video. It was a few days ago so my level of annoyance has already (mostly) dropped and I'm now realizing that at least I have something to talk about.

How many times have you seen an article that said "aspects that indicate fame/talent/wealth or whatever"? I bet many, I've seen them too. But the problem is, astrology is a complex thing and there's no "one size fits all" solution. Fame in the birth chart? Have you looked at charts of more than 20 celebrities? All of their charts are different and will have barely anything in common. Singing talent in the birth chart? Yea singers have diverse charts as well. And so on...

Of course, sometimes there are some patterns and they work on some percentage of people, for example, Sun-Jupiter people are extremely lucky. But also notice that it is a generalization and in reality, some are lucky only in one sphere of their life, some are lucky alllll the way, for some that luck shows in travelling the world, for others they have high position at work. Or they survive a plane crash and that is their "lucky" moment (true story btw).

I like to say that the easiest delineations are often the most accurate. Let's say someone has Mars in the 6th house. Mars is sharp objects, 6th house is accidents - and that shows as an injury with a knife or whatever. Or let's say Venus in the 9th house. Venus is art, 9th house is higher education - the person studies art history at uni.

But these are the most basic keywords for these things. And sometimes they work on that basic level and sometimes they're more subtle or complex.

Now let's go back to the tiktok video I've mentioned. The person was talking about "aspects that indicate that you're neurodivergent". The first thing they said was Saturn in Aquarius in the 4th house or Aquarius placements in general. I frowned. First of all, you're telling me that every Scorpio rising with Saturn in the 4th is neurodivergent? Second of all, so only those born every 30 years are neurodivergent? And third of all, the 4th house??? This is a mess.

But let's start from the top.

There is no keyword in astrology for neurodivergence and its specific types. So the closest we can get to it are hints of different ways of thinking, troubles with communication, unique ways of assesing things and maybe some mental dysfunctions. So what we can look for, just from the top of my head, is: afflicted 3rd house (learning) or its ruler, afflicted Mercury (communication/learning/thinking), afflicted Gemini or Virgo placements (both mercurial signs), afflictions of the 1st house (the self) or its ruler, 12th house placements (subconscious, mental issues), maybe even 6th house placements (illness) and generally really any harsh aspects or even overloaded/prominent Mercury. Keeping that in mind, this is still a very generalized list and it probably won't apply to everyone who falls on the spectrum.

After this quick thought and listing these aspects in my head, I googled celebrities who are neurodivergent: some of them have Asperger's, some Tourette's or OCD. Let's have a look:

Anthony Hopkins has retrograde Mercury in the 1st house as well as both Mars and Saturn in the 3rd house. Elon Musk has stationing Mercury on the ascendant which is squared by Chiron, Saturn in Gemini as well as 3rd house Virgo Moon in squares. Billie Eilish has 3rd house retrograde Saturn in Gemini, Mercury conjunct Chiron and ascendant ruler in the 12th.

Greta Thunberg (untimed chart) has Mercury in retrograde and Saturn retrograde in Gemini. David Beckham has Mercury on the ascendant, 3rd house Saturn in detriment. His Moon is also on the apex of a Neptune-Chiron t-square. Deryl Hannah has Mars in fall in the 3rd house and the 3rd house ruler in Gemini.

I'd say there's a theme going on here, as I expected. Although, to be fair, in a few examples that I checked, I didn't see any afflictions in the chart (granted, some of them were untimed).

But here's the problem

The person in said tiktok video said that they were first diagnosed with autism by an astrologer before they had an official diagnosis. And now this is where I see the biggest issue. As I've mentioned, you can make generalized assumptions but to pin point a specific thing? I'd say either you have to have an amazing intuition or just make a lucky guess. Because the spectrum is big, the person could as well have ADHD or dyslexia so why autism exactly?

Just to compare, it's the same with other things. Years ago I made Halsey's chart analysis and I said it's very clear that she has mental health issues (physical as well), especially ones that are of the nature of identity crisis. But in no way I could guess that it's specifically bipolar disorder.

Just to give a different example from my own chart. Someone would look at it and mayyybeee say I have some sort of thinking/communication/motor skill issues: 3rd house Moon afflicted by Saturn and Chiron, Mercury in detriment and, most importantly 3rd house ruler Mars in retrograde in Gemini. But who would guess that I have cross eye dominance and used to have a heavy lisp as a kid? Probably no one. (some say I still talk funny lol).

So, if you have any of the aspects that I've listed in the beginning, you may be somewhere on the spectrum... or not. You can also stutter or have a lisp or never learn to drive. Or be held back at school... not because you have dyslexia, dyscalculia or ADHD or whatever, but because you're just a lazy ass. Or... it can manifest in a completely different way that won't be your standard cookbook definition.

#random #astrology #mercurytrinemoon #astro notes #astrology notes

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onmyyan · 1 year

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scorpio anon got me feelin some tingz with that time machine ask and now im brainrotting on how our boys would be if you took their virginity so, lemme set the scene

Reader is a bad gal okay? She's not completely stupid but maybe a bit of a bimbo and word on the street is She's got good pussy. Somehow (idk how) the boys end up choosing her as their darling so ofc they need to get it in right? Ok ok anyways this is how i imagine they would be like puttining it in for the first time

Cas: im sorry but he cums before he even puts it in. Literally creams his pants when you push him down and sit on his face and then cums again once he gets his fat tip in 🤧

Gabe: mans is TOO excited, literally laying back so ready to lose his v card, maybe reader teases him a bit for being a cherry boy so he slams her on his dick (gabe no 💀) but luckily she's wet so he just bounces her like that

Ricky: babygirl is so nervous, he's got the candles and rose petals set up (something cas told him) and he's horny gripping the sheets behind your head until you sit him down and calm him down and tell him its ok before you ride him. Baby thought he needed to be the top bc he's a man 😞

Marcos: ohhhh lawd, you started it all for him. Reader is prolly his tragic backstory 💀 like she popped marcos' cherry and he was ready to get married and then she was fuckin someone else the next day so he did the same to get her attention but never got it lmao. I think he'd last surprisingly long, second only to....

Manny!!! Baby is feral and somehow never cums? Like he's the virgin but he's the one eating your ass out, eating you upside down literally doin all kinds of weird foreplay, u literally gotta tie his ass to the chair finally get him in you and then he's sooo babygirl but he's got such endurance, he'd be the best service top ugh

Ashley would be childhood sweatheart kinda beat, he would lose it in one of the fields between your two houses aftwr he fucking finally confesses to you and he goes from your shy hot best friend to daddy out of nowhere 😭 possessive fucking and telling you that youre his now, no more games (and mayhaps he knocks u up on the first try 👀)

-shamelessly gonna rip this but can i be ♌️ anon

You are so smart,,,,,ohmygod???? The Manny one had me blushing n biting my pillow bec??? Hello??? You're so smart ??? Also Ashley absolutely the type to get you pregnant that first time just because of how damn near feral he gets also also the idea of being the woman who breaks Marcos heart initially and turning him into the slut he is?!?!?! Chefs kiss all around I love how your brain works 👩🏼‍🍳😘

♌ anon it is ❤️❤️❤️

#yananswers #anon submission #delmont brothers

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cosmic-ghost-hermit · 3 months

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New Perspective on Your Past or Current Lover

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Hey, babes! Thanks for supporting me by interacting with this post. If you feel so inclined please donate to my CashApp so I can do this full-time. <3 Take what resonates and leave the rest behind but always be open to new experiences.

Today the decks used are Ethereal Visions Illuminations Tarot, The Pure Magic Oracle, and The Crystallary Oracle. I meant for this to be a chill and fun reading but it ended up being shadow work. Also heads up, some of the readings have some NSFW mentioned as well as abuse/trauma mentioned. Only interact with this post if you are 18+. Thanks!

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PILE ONE

Astrology: Libra, Taurus, Scorpio

Song: I Miss the Misery by Halestorm

Vibes: Deep purple, emerald green, rich ruby red, jewel tones, crystal necklace, BDSM, flower bouquets, cats, predator animals, 555, green tea, camping, Sundays, ice cream, aphrodite

Cards: 5 of wands, 5 of cups, Vervian Everlasting, Hallowed Heart, Sugilite, Emerald

Welcome pile one. The way I read cards makes it so people energy's might intertwined. So, I could be talking about you while wording it as if it's about your partner or vice versa.

So, let's get started. First, the current view you have of your partner is really grounded and put together. They put on this persona to make you feel safe and secure when you are with them. They don't feel like a romantic partner though, not yet anyway. They are probably a friend with benefits or someone you exclusively see for sexual reasons. I think when y'all started exploring together they took charge of leading the experience. They are definitely a dom/top. They taught you a lot about what you enjoy in sex. They showed you kinks you had no idea existed until you heard it from them. They give off leader energy big time. When they look at you sometimes their gaze makes you feel like prey. You might have feelings for them but they are blocked by a perceived lack of interest from your sexual partner. From your perspective, you don't think that is something they want.

The new perspective the cards want you to see about this person is a much softer view than you currently have. This person is a hopeless romantic and they have been slowly falling for you since y'all started seeing each other. They might not even realize it themselves yet. I think you should shift your view to include that there is a gentleness to them that seeps out from time to time. Sometimes they bring you flowers unexpectedly before your sessions. You can always tell they showered right before coming over. You first thought this was just something courteous they did but they are so down bad for you. The main indicator for all this is the after-care they give you. They draw a bath for you and make you a delicious meal after every session. Again this is something you viewed as very courteous but genuinely they just really wanna make you feel romanced. They REEEEEALY want to impress you. You make them so nervous. I see them lying in bed at home thinking about you dreamily. They are usually daydreaming about having a domestic life with you. Picnics in the park. Anniversary dates. Maybe having a family together. They really want a future with you but they have convinced themselves it isn't possible. I see they probably had some bad relationships in the past where they were only viewed as useful when they were having sex. Now they are convinced that is all they are good for. :( If you feel so inclined I recommend slowly and gently working your way up to dates with them that aren't sexual in nature. Call them just to talk, not just for phone sex. I think if you feed them hints like this it will ease them into the idea that they are more than a sex toy and open up a new relationship opportunity for you. Good Luck!

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PILE TWO

Astrology: Sagittarius, Aries, Gemini

Song: i like the way you kiss me by Artemas/ Two Poltergeists by Dalton Deschain

Vibes: Red, orange, gold, silver, prayer beads, roses, peonies, globe, quartz, garden, lemons, 1010, crown chakra, Hermes, dandelion, sage, red meat, Horus, hawk

Cards: The Hierophant, 7 of Pentacles, Astral Travels, Ancient Amulets, Ruby, Carnelian

Welcome in, pile 2! Your current perception of your partner is interesting. This is a past partner, not a current one. They did some kind of love magic on you. I am feeling very foggy-headed right now while reading so I assume you have gotten that feeling a lot when you are around this person or when you think about them. Which makes me think your view of them is distorted by the magic. Let me clear your vision. You were very possessive of them which isn't a normal thing you do with your partners. You both knew each other for a long time. I see y'all started out as friends and they slowly lured you into their web. I see they gave you a necklace or a piece of jewelry during your friendship that changed your feelings about them. After you started wearing that jewelry, you started feeling very strange. I see you might have had wet dreams about them but only after they gifted this object to you. It was a very abrupt shift in emotions. Good news and bad news about this. The good news is that they had/have no intention of hurting you. They just wanted to be with you. The bad news is if you weren't under their spell, your life would transform into an entirely different experience. They worked really hard cultivating the perfect personality to put on for you which made the love spell also remove a lot of your authenticity. I'm sure for some of you this doesn't change your view at all but for others' of you I can see getting very angry or even grossed out by learning this new information.

If you wish to know what you would be like if you escaped their spell, the rest of this reading will talk about that. To escape their web you must find a way to get rid of the jewelry given to you. You would be an entirely different person if you do choose to get rid of it. However, you wouldn't be tied down anymore. You would be able to travel a lot more and explore your own identity and spirituality. I see you have tried to do spiritual exploration while owning the jewelry piece but the spell they put on you has been putting a glass ceiling on your growth. I see how many times you have attempted astral travel and meditation. It never goes how you expect. I see you falling asleep during meditation and not having many dreams at all. Be prepared to change drastically as a person if you decide to get rid of the object. I wish you luck, my friend. I hope you can free yourself with ease.

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PILE THREE

Astrology: Cancer, Pisces, Virgo

Song: Mixed Messages by Tom Cardy

Vibes: Green, teal, cerulean, insomnia, snakes, cicadas, scarab beetle, rosemary, nightmares, queen Isis, mother Nut, long showers, anxiety, molecular gastronomy, mixologist, mangrove trees

Cards: The Moon, 9 of Swords, Snake Skin, Banyan Blessings, Chrysocolla, Moonstone

Welcome to your reading pile 3. Just a heads up, when I do love readings the energies can get all tied up. So, if you get the feeling I am talking about you but I am wording it as if I am talking about your partner (or vice versa) that is why.

I see that you don't really know how to view your partner. It is a current relationship but they are quite mysterious to you so it might be kind of early on in the relationship. They keep a lot of their emotions to themselves. Especially, the negative emotions. Usually, they brush off your concern for them. They use comedy to deflect and avoid talking about some of the things they struggle with. They are a super attentive partner outside of this though. Like I see they are so sweet to you about your feelings. Also tbh, they are an absolute riot when it comes to jokes.

Now before I tell you about what they have been hiding. I want you to know they keep all of their negative emotions a secret to protect themselves. I do not advise you bring any of this new information to them. In fact, I advise against it. It will make them feel cornered and scared. They might lash out at you out of fear or shut down entirely. Neither of these will be productive to your connection if you want it to stay healthy. They have PTSD and depression. They experience nightmares constantly about their trauma. It's why they shut down sometimes when you start to get frisky with them. It's why they are fine about sexual stuff sometimes but freeze up/tense up at other times. Please be patient with them. They have been through some truly awful stuff in the past. I see how healthy of a relationship they have with you now. They really feel super safe and comforted by you. You feel the same way about them. Be as patient as you possibly can be. Eventually, they will open up to you about it. When they do, you need to be super supportive. Please encourage them to find professional help through therapy. I can kind of see them being resistant to the idea at first. If you offer to help by going with them to therapy for moral support they might feel more open to the idea. Let them heal at their own pace. Allow them to speak for themselves in therapy. I know it can be tempting to speak for them as a way of assisting but for real all it's gonna do is make them feel even more out of control than they already do. They can heal from this. They want to open up to you but they are so scared. I believe in you and them. The universe put you two together for a reason. <3

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PILE FOUR

Astrology: Leo, Capricorn, Aquarius

Song: Ghosting by Mother Mother

Vibes: All shades of blue, glowing orange, red, balcony, ancestors, roses, volcano, royalty, swords, apples, grapes, crowns, red carpet, red curtain, purity ring, poetry, blood

Cards: 2 of Wands, 3 of Swords, Lapis Lazuli, Larimar, Secret Seances, Florida Water

Hi, pile 4! My love readings like to tangle up different peoples' energy together so if it sounds like I'm talking about you but using words as if I am talking about your partner(or vice versa) that is why! Just swap them in ur mind real quick lol.

You actually really struggle to see your partner with clarity. I wanna make it clear that isn't your fault. When I first looked at the cards I could tell either you or your partner (or both) have been in some REEEAL bad relationships. Like, real fucking bad. You were not treated well. Your ex was two-faced. They acted one way in public but as soon as you two were behind closed doors this person turned into a demon. Not the hot and sexy kind of demon. They were a physically/verbally abusive kind of demon. Your ex wouldn't even let you have opinions much less let you speak your mind or listen to you. They are legit the scum of the earth. The partner you are with is nothing like them. They are the exact opposite of that actually. They do feel like they have a temper though. Which I see does scare you sometimes. Even if it isn't ever aimed at you. They love hearing you talk. They love it when you get passionate about the things you like! They understand you and love you so so so so so so so so much!!!!! The ghosts of the past ex have passed on.

I recognize that it isn't going to be easy to reposition your perspective because of your previous experiences in love. But, I promise the partner you are with is safe to be around. They will never be like your ex. Cleanse your vision of love. Heal your broken heart. Maybe express to your current partner that sometimes you feel scared when you don't need to be because of the trauma. I see them listening intently while you speak. I see them consoling you. They truly, deeply love you, my dear. I guarantee it. Communicating how you feel and listening to your partner is what makes the strongest relationships. It is safe to be yourself now.

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maniculum · 9 months

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So, this one is from Cambridge's MS Kk.4.25, which Cambridge's digital library describes as a "didactic miscellany". There's actually quite a lot of information on this manuscript accompanying their digitization... I'm putting a cut here before I start throwing in the links and images and stuff.

All right, link:

The manuscript is from England circa 1230, and is apparently from the same tradition as another of their bestiaries (Fitzwilliam MS 254). One of the major differences between the two is that this contains a couple extra chapters, including one enigmatically titled "The Four Ways it is Sinful". (The four ways what is sinful? You know. It.)

The description also tells us this is "a masterpiece of bestiary imagery, often overlooked in discussions of the most beautiful examples," which is not the vibe I was getting from the Flat Crocodile at the top of this post, so hold on a bit while I flip through the digitization.

Okay, so Flat Crocodile is not representative, this is really good. The section on sea creatures is quite charming also. I recommend everyone go follow that link above and flip through it a bit -- there's a table of contents you can use to skip straight to the bestiary.

Anyway, to the point of this whole thing. This critter is supposedly a scorpion, and in fact appears in the "worms / vermin" section of the bestiary. If I'm reading the Latin correctly, it comes between the leech:

and the caterpillar:

Despite that context -- i.e., it being in the correct section and surrounded by other things that fall into the medieval category of "worm" (remember, that's a broad category for them, it includes insects and arachnids like scorpions just fine), our artist has drawn what is clearly the only reptile in the chapter:

It even says "Scorpio vermis" right under the image, jfc.

Also, the lumps around the base of the tail can't be credited to Pliny's "knots" as mentioned before; I counted at least three other lizards with those same lumps when I was looking through the digitization, so it's just part of the artist's style.

Speaking of the artist's style, this one should be exempt from the "identifiably a different animal" penalty because it has little ears and a generally mammalian head... except that's, again, how this artist draws all their lizards. In fact, this "scorpion" is basically identical to the Botrax/Botruca a few pages earlier:

I'm making the executive decision than this penalty applies when the artist is just re-using the design of another critter in the same bestiary, even if technically that's not a real animal.

All right, points:

Small Scuttling Beaſtie? ✓, sure, in context we can assume such

Pincers? ✘

Exoskeleton or Shell? ✘

Visible Stinger? ✘

Limbs? 4

Vibes... I dunno. It's fine. It's a lizard, which is nice enough, but we've had much better lizards. And it's kind of losing out in comparison to the other illustrations in this manuscript. I went back and forth between a 2 and a 3, and eventually decided to just settle at 2.5 / 10.

As previously mentioned, -1 for copying. Which... oh dear. Makes this officially the Third Worst Scorpion, sorry Flat Croc fans.

Final points:

2.9 / 10

Eyes on your own work.

#medieval scorpions

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ophaeliacs · 2 months

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xavier underwood, better known as "chance", has lived in blue harbor for the last eight months. identifying as genderfluid, using he + they pronouns, they were born in san diego, california and fought his way tooth and nail up through the restaurant industry due to a failed dream. at age 30, born on october 29th, 1994 — making them a sun sign in scorpio — he is the head chef @ the newly - opened oyster & pearl. they are known to be determined & comedic, but can also be rather sarcastic & short.

biography. ( cw mentions of death / grief, smoke, & drink )

born in sunny california, as the youngest of three underwood kids, their name sounds on the pretentious side, and their upbringing was comfortable. the result of hard work, instead of hardly working, he and his older siblings were pressured to become even more than what they'd been born into. with his mother as a known banker, and his father having worked in medicine, both coming from humbler upbringings, they instilled this concept of success is how high your grades are and a stable career, and material things to show for it, were what made you. there was nothing shady about it on the outside. yet as you grew older, you started to see signs that you hadn't before. ones that indicated your parents were human, and not superheroes. your mother's stressed all-nighters, checking numbers once or twice, taking phone calls in the car driving you to school in hushed tones about money loans. your father, pouring a bit too many drinks to relax after a tough surgery. you thought this was normal: work hard, relax with a smoke and a drink. end scene.

he admired his older brothers. a room full of boisterous boys who all laughed and shoved at each other. there was always friendly — and sometimes unfriendly — competition and rivalry between all of the siblings. the eldest, roger, was expected to take on the mantle of the doctor, or surgeon, or anything medical. the second eldest, hayes, was taking on finance and business. zoomed around as if in a private jet, shouting i wanna be a millionaire! , all of them singing that song at the top of their lungs. though they didn't raise themselves, they sometimes only had each other. too late night shifts keeping their parents away and preoccupied, getting into video games, sneaking out to friends' parties — and breaking into their dad's cigar drawers. it was all in good fun, nothing bad about it. and xavier, as the youngest, watched his older brothers know their fate. and he — didn't. in high school, he rebelled. started not doing his homework. was it some kind of cry of attention? it's not that he was spoilt nor passed over; just hanging in purgatory. at the same time, the fights started. roger had a different dream than what his parents wanted: he wanted to be a chef.

it wasn't taken seriously. but xavier took it seriously. he stood by his brother when they would cook for family gatherings, help on the grill, engage in telling stories. hayes didn't seem to mind the finance side of things; but xavier saw the struggle. in his rebel without a cause phrase, clad in leather jackets but still showing up to help with the cookout, stepping in when roger would get distracted, getting compliments on how he seasoned things. did he have a natural gift? he went off for college for a regular degree, not culinary school. halfway through a marketing degree, he got the call he dreaded most: his brother was gone. the pressure had gotten to him. going to the funeral passed in a blur. xavier doesn't remember much about it; only now that his brother wouldn't get to be a chef in this life. so xavier became determined, and hardened, to do it for him. he crashed and burnt hard out of his original degree, relied too much on the cigars and alcohol he stole from his dad's cabinet before cutting off his family entirely. he spent most of his 20s going from restaurant to restaurant, gaining as much experience behind the lines and desserts as possible.

even so, he refuses to entirely become his work. he's afraid of what might happen if he takes this dream too seriously. that he'll become exactly what he hates. his nonchalant attitude is grating to most kitchens, despite how quickly he learns and how willing he is to come in to early and closing shifts. the sun of california started to burn and choke him from the inside out. every corner he stood at, he thought he saw his brother staring at him, laughing genuine happiness at how xavier was turning out, or shaking his head in apt disappointment. there was never any in-between.

in the midst of a second crash-and-burn, he saw an advertisement pop up in a facebook group for new restaurants around the united states. a seafood joint, opening up brand new in a place called blue harbor, searching for a chef. he took his years of experience, his rescued stray cat, and his single car full of belongings — left the furniture in his shoddy apartment and everything — cross-country one way. he is determined to make something of himself. make this restaurant have a reputation that extends beyond blue harbor. and maybe a small town, instead of a big city, is exactly what he needs.

#⩇⩇:⩇⩇ chance underwood ᐢ. .ᐢ about.#intro.bh

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doseofdillz · 5 months

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You're Replaceable.

Raise your hand if you’ve been personally victimized by your boss. I’m currently raising my hand.

I’ve had some terrible bosses in my professional life and all three of them had something in common– they love to stretch a bitch out and put as much work on you as possible to get their money's worth out of that sad little salary they so graciously gave you.

My first toxic boss was a real wake up call. He was the president of a major modeling agency, about 5’2, gay, and was “sober” from a wild past life in the fashion industry of the 90’s. He loved making comments as he walked by in his sheer scarf and whatever flamboyant fedora he found laying around his home that morning to cover the balding that was consuming the top of his sun-kissed-shiny-little head. His favorite line to say to me was during lunchtime on his way to his office. “Wow, that’s a lot of food”. You could almost guarantee that he’d bring his frantic energy to every meeting and leave still not knowing what was going on.

When disputes broke out in the small workspace my co-workers and I shared, his remedy was bringing us all in for a “team meeting” then revealing that this was actually a meeting to discuss our issues with each other. I always thought it was his way of pretending to be Andy Cohen refereeing a Real Housewives reunion as a means to get some type of entertainment in his new sober life. Surprise! It never resolved anything, only made our tiny, shared-space more tense and awkward than we left it.

I silent quit after 6 months and remained employed for another 2.5 years babysitting models and going to fabulous parties only so I could sneak a few hor dourves because I could barely afford groceries.

My next toxic boss came right after that. The universe was testing me, surely. She referred to herself as a “billionairess” and lived on her daddy’s estate. She walked on a crutch due to being thrown off a Zebra on her honeymoon that her parents paid for, of course. My office was the nursery her and her brother were raised in above the garage that held her father’s eccentric car collection and various pieces of fine art.

She was an artist herself who graduated from Pepperdine in Malibu and got bored one day so she started her own talent agency. Not only did she expect me to represent all her semi-famous friends but she also expected me to represent her as a talent. Her most notable “claim to fame”? She installed art pieces for a very famous family whose last name started with a K. When I couldn’t book her on jobs (because no one cared who she was), she would pout like a 5 year old princess who got told “no” by daddy… as if that was supposed to make me say “you know what, let me call and see if they can change their mind just for YOU”.

I loathed that woman. Hearing her complain made my jaw clench constantly– she had no clue what the real world consisted of and had no clue I was waking up at the ass crack of dawn to catch the bus to Beverly Hills and walk 40 minutes up her long winding canyon road only to walk for the longest 15 minutes of my life, up her gated, inclined, very chic driveway. I do miss walking past the lemon trees when they were blossoming. To this day, lemon blossoms are still my favorite smell. 2020 came like an answer to my prayers. She had to lay me off and I was finally at peace for the first time in my adult life for the next six months.

My peace came to a screeching halt as I realized this pandemic thing wasn’t going to last the rest of my life, unfortunately. I met my final toxic boss. She lived in Brooklyn, was a lesbian, scorpio, and had major coke rage. I’ve never had someone call, text, email, and slack more frequently and erratically as her. From 8a-11p she wouldn’t stop… she would take adderall in the morning, drink during the day, and cap her nights with lots of cocaine at some fabulous party her PR firm was running. On many occasions she would disappear for a few days at a time, reassuring us upon return that she had only been in jail for a domestic public dispute with her just-as-psycho girlfriend but that everything was “fine”.

The smallest things would set her off. Not adding certain punctuation throughout our meeting notes that was only shared internally. Not responding to her almost immediately after she blasted off texts, emails, and slacks and wondering why we couldn’t get all our day's work finished by 6p on the dot. Requesting time off. The list could go on and on, it really just depended on if she needed to use you as a punching bag that day or not. I never knew which version of her I’d get on the other end.

After 6 months of torture, I woke up one morning, saw her slew of messages awaiting my reply, closed my laptop, blocked her number, and never heard from or spoke to her again. I went back to school, switched careers and am now much happier with a less-cool job in tech. The entertainment industry had chewed me up and spat me out.

What I learned from these three traumatic experiences is that all we have in life is our time and if you’re miserable at the job you’re at every day you wake up, just fucking quit. You’re very replaceable…. And so are they.

#toxic boss #fashion industry #public relations #talent agency #los angeles #beverly hills

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tunabesimpin · 11 months

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Hello! I'm not sure if oc interactions are open at the moment, so feel free to answer this whenever they are 🧍‍♀️

May I ask for Tuna's opinion on Yuuta and Victoria? (Yuuta is sort of my Yuusona, whereas Vic is.... Just my favorite oc 😭)

Of course! Hope you don't mind just writing for now! ^o^ I love how you wrote your profiles for them, and the style for them too! It gives off that same vibe as the twst count down art!

Yuuta-

How they meet! Likely Tuna saw them while Yuuta was in the Botanical Gardens. As a part of the mountian lovers club, Tuna sometimes has to help Jade replant some specimens and thusly had seen Yuuta! Though since Yuuta seemed surround by an air of "do not disturb", Tuna dubbed it safer to watch from a distance. It's not until chapter 3 takes place that the two will actually interact! Since Tuna works in monstro lounge and tends to eaves drop on Azuls dealings, they probably overheard the task Yuuta has to do. Tuna catches Yuuta on the way out giving a snarky remark "Hopefully nothing FISHY happens on you're little adventure~" To be honest Tuna just wanted make a pun, but their sarcastic tone doesn't help build any bridges... it's up to Yuuta to decide if he'll let that slide or not!

How they interact/ Get along! Tuna's probably scared of Yuuta to a degree. Hearing bro has gun skills and knife skills is both impressive and frightening. On top of that hearing of his feats in the little time he's been brought here, Tuna will try not to get under their skin too much from here on out. Tuna likes to prank, but they know not to stick their hand in a bee hive. If Yuuta ends up making friend with Tuna, it's likely a calm friendship. Yuuta can come get snacks while Tuna is on duty and Tuna will go watch Yuuta do knife tricks. Unless Yuuta wants to talk, its going to be whats it called.. !!! Parallel play LMAO- im sorry thats the only term i could think of. -This could become a similar relationship to how Tuna interacts with Jade (sarcastic banter and friendly bickering) if trust is built enough -Zodiac wise (im speaking purely from my own experience w a true bestie) : Scorpio + Virgo friendships STAY ON TOP!!!!! LITERALLY THE SASS AND ATTITUDE IS SO FUN- Like instant besties imo (dont take this too seriously i just like the zodiacs)

Victoria-

How they meet! So if you don't know, Tuna and Rook are besties. Besties who fuel each others eccentric personalities... If she had a headache with one, she will have two headaches with both. One day while the two fools were heading along to Rooks dorm for a hangout, Victoria happened to be passing along. Looking as stunning as always, Rook released plenty of praise to which Tuna also joined in "You have wonderful style! Truly as Rook says 100 points!" From then Tuna will likely start noticing Victoria around more often and may give a wave hello. If Tuna so happens to hear Victoria's claim of seeing and hearing all, Tuna will invite her to join them and Rook during their daily... uh... rounds of the campus (they watch the other students;;; =v=). I MEAN WHAT BETTER BONDING THEN OVER A SIMILAR ACTIVITY! ^o^ is what Tuna is thinking at least. -Note Tunas UM allows for a stealth buff so when they invite Victoria for these rounds, it is quite literally they are all hidden w Tunas UM, Rook analyzes and Victoria can choose what she'd like to do as they go along campus being terrors. They mostly eavesdrop on classroom/ hallway gossip.

How they interact/ get along! Tuna personally just admires Victoria's beauty a lot, they aren't scared of her so much as they worry about making her upset. Depending on how Victoria responds to Tuna's odd way of friendship, there's two outcomes. 1) She dislikes Tuna -> Tuna feels the vibe is off and simply just waves in passing by and nothing more. 2) She doesn't mind Tuna -> Tuna sees this as an opportunity of friendship and further tries to encourage hangouts and fashion nights in which Tuna attempts not to dress like a rodeo clown for once. Overall I can see them being sort of similar to Vil & Epel oddly enough. Victoria being a sort of 'mother bird' picking and teaching Tuna, 'that ball of feathers yet to molt'. Slight bickering but by the end of things its not hatred at least.

Thank you for sending me your ocs!!! I hope i didn't make them too OOC or anything!!! Overall Tuna is a goofball at heart so interpret as you will~!

#tuna be talkin #rosietrace #Sorry if you wanted an art depiction as well #I wanted to doodle the scenarios but #i mostly want to see if im understanding the ocs right first or if i butchered them greatly LMAO #twst #twisted wonderland #twst oc #twst tuna #oc interaction

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newsalvations · 6 months

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sebastian stan, pansexual + panromantic, trans man + he/him → isn’t that corvus stark? i’ve seen them hanging out with the harpies. i hear they’re forty-two, but they’ve only been in alexandria for one year. they seem to be assertive & vigilant, but also unyielding & hostile.

BASIC INFORMATION

full name: corvus stark

nickname(s): cor, corvy,

age: forty-two

date of birth: november 16

hometown: new york, new york

current location: alexandria, louisiana

species: harpy

ethnicity: white

nationality: american

gender: trans man

pronouns: he/him

orientation: pansexual + panromantic

occupation: antique shop owner, attorney

living arrangements: at the chateau

language(s): english, french, german

accent: none

PHYSICAL APPEARANCE

face claim: sebastian stan

hair color: brunette

eye color: blue

height: 6'4"

weight: 17- lb

build: athletic

tattoos: none

usual expression: scorned, frowning

distinguishing characteristics: his tiddies his eyes

PERSONALITY

positive traits: assertive, vigilant, precise

negative traits: unyielding, hostile, cutthroat

myers brigg: entj

zodiac sign: scorpio

element: water

enneagram: the challenger

temperament: melancholic

hogwarts house: slytherin

moral alignment: lawful evil

primary vice: pride

primary virtue: charity

fears: losing his power / control

hobbies: singing, designing

FAMILY

father: crassus stark

mother: eunonina stark

sibling(s): drusilla stark, sejanus stark

pet(s): none

FAVORITES

weather: misty/dewey

season: spring

color: red

music: classic rock

movies: drama

beverage: wie

food: salad idk

animal: hummingbirds

NSFW

preference: bottom, very dominant

kinks: breeding, rough sex, dom/sub, control in/out of bedroom, lingerie, submissive tops, open to others

anti kinks: scat, vomit, blood play, etc

BIOGRAPHY

corvus was born into an affluent and powerful family in manhattan. the starks have been important pieces in how new york city has been run since they first settled in the area two hundred years ago. corvus spent most of his early life living in the family penthouse and spending summers in the hamptons.

both of his parents came from generational wealth, with his father being a high profile attorney while his mother was a socialite. they were connected to the other supernatural families on the island; he first flew when he was a child and loved it, taking any escape the city and just fly away from his troubles.

the harpy has always been stern, something he inherited from his father who was always stoic around them and corvus could count the number of times he showed any kind of emotion with one hand. he took the world very seriously and never took any crap, looking to his father more than anyone else.

corvus and his siblings went to the best private schools you could find in manhattan and he'd eventually go to yale to study law like his father. he'd spend his entire college years in the library or in his dorms, studying. corvus never had the time or interest to waste his youth partying like so many of his peers.

it would eventually pay off and he graduated as valedvictorian of his class. after finishing yale, corvus was hired at his fathers firm and worked under him. he'd eventually find his first love, lionel, who was a few years older and worked at the firm with him. the two hit it off and after a few years, got married.

the marriage would work for a few years but he would eventually find his husband in bed with the firms newest intern. he would make sure to bury his husband in the divorce, taking as much as he possibly could and making sure lionel was screwed.

with his pride bruised, corvus decided to start over. it was too hard to stay in manhattan, so he packed his things and headed south until he was drawn to alexandria. it was like a flame calling out to a moth.

after a few weeks of visiting, corvus decided to settle down in town and has built his own law firm as well as buying an antique shop to help diversify his income. most people know better than to approach corvus, most are intimidated by just crossin him on the street. he doesn't think he'll ever love again but that's alright when you have a purpose like corvus does.

#( bio: corvus stark )#unveilintro

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fateinthestars · 11 months

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Probably about time for another one of my rambles with the forbidden/blessed scales I got for each God...

... Or Seven of them in this case.

Yes I want to cover Musings on Love briefly before I move onto the Promise of Infinty Stuff.

I'm gonna blank out whose is whose in the collage versions below and then reveal them from most blessed to most forbidden under the cut, with maybe some thoughts about the path. Spoiler warning, obviously.

There'll be comparisons to their Main Story result (My post on those is here) and their Sequel Story result (My post on those is here) but as it's only just over half of them I can't see how to include these in the rank calculation I started last time.

Right that's way too much rambling, let's get on with it.

Okay one more thing I want to get out the way quickly: Why seven of the Gods? I could get six, that's half of them. By doing seven they've gone one over half and also made it so there's one more Musings On Love story for Punishments.

Anyway!

1. Dui

Postion in Main Story: 11th

Position in Sequel Story: 1st

Dui's actually only two notches up from what he was in the Main Story, and four down from his sequel, but it's still juuuust enough for him to stay in front of the two in equal second. Also Musings on Love is only 4 episodes plus the ending, so three episodes less than the Sequels (which in turn are 5 episodes less than the main path), though to be fair I haven't counted how many actual interactions there are so it could still be the same.

Regardless, I'm supposed to be talking about Dui.

I think ouch is the word here. Whilst his sequel helped conclude what actually happened to his friend, and hopefully finally get the heavens to stop being so judgy, seems some of his friend's family needed a bit more of a push to accept what had happened.

This rounds his story off nicely though, and off the top of my head I can't think of any loose threads, meaning Promise of Infinity could concentrate more on Dui himself (themself? Hmm...)

2. Teorus

Position in Main Story: Equal 5th with Partheno and Krioff

Position in Sequel Story: Equal 7th with Ichthys, Leon, and Scorpio

His meter here is actually exactly the same as it was in the Sequel route, which was actually down on his Main by three notches.

Still though, I stick by what I said before that I like Teo more in his later stories, even if his possesiveness is still way too much.

Considering how easily Teo can get lost, and let's face it he's definitely not the brightest of them, the fact that his power is over time is pretty dangerous, especially when in this one it turns out when he was younger he accidentally tavelled through time into the future.

Actually if anything in this one (other than his aforementioned possiveness) it's MC I want to throttle. I think I worked out pretty early on what was going to happen, and when the special clothing requirements for the Planetarium's stall at the event were revealled it was very clear from what I recall.

They were both jealous of their own selves in this. MC is a moron but she at least didn't know it was her.

I guess it's also a bit strange if you think on it for too long. (Teo's 'Constellations of Love' DLC is arguably a better Time Travel story)

=. Scorpio

Position in Main Story: 12th (Forbidden)

Position in Sequel Story: Equal 7th with Ichthys, Leon, and Teorus

Well well well, it seems the Scorpion is keeping up with the Fairytale Prince.

No but seriously, I say I'm happier with Teo in his later stories? I'm faaaaar happier with Scorpio in his later ones.

This... this is just... 🥰 Scorpio finally finds out what family dynamics actually are, MC sympathises with how he is acting and even has a chance to snap back at Zyglavis, and yet it somehow all works out and Scorpio is saved from making a terrible mistake, but also with the knowledge that MC also gets upset at such acts.

4. Zygalvis

Position in Main Story: Equal 3rd with Tauxolouve

Position in Sequel Story: Equal 5th with Hue

Oh, and talking of Zyglavis, here he is! Right in the middle of where he was before. He's consistet if nothing else. His meter has dropped another couple of notches though.

Zig really doesn't make things easy for himself. At least there's no trials or threat of anihalation in this one... just the potential destruction of the world.

Oh wait. That's worse.

The detail I like the most in this is actually in the ending. I don't want to spoil it just in case but I will at least say it has something to do with his unique power.

For a Zig story where their relationship causes the issue, this arguably has some of the sweetest moments from him in it. Again especially the ending (I will admit it may have been a bit too long since I read some of these ones all the way through. I've been jogging my memory a little ^^;; )

=. Leon

Poisition in Main Story: Equal 8th with Aigo and Karno

Position in Sequel Story: Equal 7th with Ichthys, Teorus, and Scorpio

O-ho, what's this? Sheesh no one tell them they're sharing the same rank on this one it'll cause an argument for days!

That aside, I think I misjudged Leon. He acts with the jerkyness I think you probably would expect from someone with a unique power like his but... it seems his non believing in love wasn't just him not understanding but others treating him differently because of his immense power.

If you told me that there was a storyline in the game where one of the Gods was lonely... I think Leon might have been one of the last, if not the last, to even enter into my thoughts.

Also Zig? That was a bit of a jerk move on your part. You knew what you were doing when you framed your own past vision that way.

6. Huedhaut

Position in Main Story: Equal 1st With Ichthys

Position in Sequel Story: Equal 5th With Zyglavis

Note: The meter does end in Blessed here.

Oh... Oh Hue. Let's just bind the ties of fate even more together shall we? Ouch.

I'm not sure actually being Clotho for a bit (albeit in the past) will have helped how Hue's Promise of Infinity path goes, but it is a way to give more of the backstory on that without more dreams and also as MC is still there post what happened we get to see how Hue was really truly feeling.

As I say, OUCH.

But this does lead onto the Promise of Infinity and I warn you now... when we get to that I'm going to launch my full anger at the King.

=. Ichthys

Position in Main Story: Equal 1st with Hue

Position in Sequel Story: Equal 7th with Leon, Teorus, and Scorpio

Note: Also finishes in blessed meter like Hue's

Is Ikky messing with me? I swear I don't recall/didn't feel I was doing this badly with his sequels. Then again... I might have gone back through this one a bit? I've no idea.

Anyway geez talk about a massive mistake. At least it all got fixed. It was sweet watching him and MC having all these Deja Vu moments but not quite knowing why.

But sheesh, if the Heavens has a department for changing histories like this, maybe that's why certain things in certain routes aren't the same!

#star crossed myth #Star-crossed myth spoilers #star crossed myth review/character rambling #scm #scm ramble #scm leon #scm teorus #scm huedhaut #scm zyglavis #scm scorpio #scm dui #scm ichthys

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scarlet-ancunin · 2 years

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this request is just full blown self indulgent I saw a picture on pinterest and was like what if I come with a maybe I want all three request with it and so here we are.

Context: the big three (I'm calling them that as well it's easier) coming home and seeing their male s/o in typical guy fashion just laying on the couch playing videogames shirtless and in sweatpants.

Sparrow anon

(PS) thank you for writing for us guys we barely get any fan fiction for us. I've literally have gotten made fun of for reading fan fiction before so your blog and writing is very welcomed and appreciated, Much love Scarlet you're an angel.

Okay mixing this with another request.

@the-masked-scorpio Req: I was listening to Spanish music and I couldn't help but think of the big three, my dear friend could you possibly indulge me in a maybe I want all three request? The big three come home and see the reader in typical Hispanic fashion cleaning the place listening to Spanish music very loudly

~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~

S/o On Their Free Time

Desire of the Endless

Desire looked forward to visiting you because they will find you doing adorable things and they would watch you for a moment before you could notice.

Today was another free day for you so you decided you wanted to clean the house a bit. However, in order to do that you would need to listen to some kind of music to get in your groove.

So you connected your phone to Bluetooth and turned up the stero.

You cleaned around the house listening to nice spainsh music and boy was you moving your body to go with it.

Desire just so happen to pop in at that moment and grins watching you

They went closer to you and placed their hands on your hip.

The only reason you didn't went on attack mode was because you knew you locked the doors and only Desire literally can get in.

So you both sway to the beat of the music before desire pushed you off gently before spinning you back into their chest humming softly.

You giggle as you both danced the night away.

Another moment desire loved was walking in on you shirtless and wearing a simple baggy sweats playing games it was cute to see you pouting when you lost or doing evil giggles while you won.

They would watch for a few more minutes before laying beside you to which you kissed them

"Care to bask in my winning glow love" Desire chuckles "yes as the matter of fact i do~"

You giggle and started to play games once more enjoying the fact that Desire was watching you and soon enough you would feel them shift and lay half their upper body on you.

"Comfortable love?" You asked while playing your favorite game smiling when they kissed your shoulder them the top of your head.

"Of course i am"

Dr. Ian Wright

Ian Can come home and sometimes they can catch you doing two things both of which they found adorable.

The first is you playing video games. They would come home from work to find you laying on your bed or on the large sofa shirtless in baggy sweats and playing your favorite video game.

They would watch for a moment before walking up from behind and covering your eyes to which you fell off a cliff they laughed while you pouted saying hey.

"No fair love how do you always come home when im close to beating your score." You said glaring playfully.

"Because love i don't want you passing me and besides you know i enjoy watching you" they said while shedding their clothes and changing into a simple crop top tank top and short shorts you glare at them more.

"Oh now your trying to distract me" you said while trying hard not to stare. Ian laughed "oh certainly not but if you want to stare you can" they wink and you blush lightly. "Want to play best of three?" Ian nods and grabs the remote but not before moving to sit in between your legs resting their back on your chest. Or sometimes vice versa.

Amother time they enjoy is coming home to you cleaning the house since you would be shaking your booty and hips to the rhythm of the spanish music playing or even some random tune you love.

Ian would watch before they noticed you grin and wave at them still dusting and dancing. Ian came close to kiss you softly then suddenly dips you to kiss you again pulling you up and smirking.

"mi amor hace una hermosa bailarina" you blush amd responded "so do you dear" dancing along with them until you both was spent on the couch in a clean home and calm music playing in the background.

Gren - Cowboy Bebop

Gren was walking towards their door when they heard loud Spanish music playing and they smiled knowing what was going on.

They entered your little apartment watching and hearing you sing in spanish was dusting the house. They would chuckle walking over to you and twirling you around to face them.

You smile brightly at them giving a slightly out of breath "hi baby" to which they reply with a gentle kiss and placed their hands on your hips moving to the beat of the music with you singing along with you softly. Something you loved.

Soon you both would clean together laughing and enjoying each others company.

Another day was was Gren had a day off and decided to go get some snacks for you and themself to have when they picked out a show to watch.

Of course coming back Gren would spot you shirtless with baggy sweat pants and playing games. Your favorite one.

Gren sat beside them and giggles "looks like i could watch you instead love you seem to make a fool of yourself in this."

You pout cutely "hey i think i play better then you Gren" they simply shrug "i doubt that"

You hand them the control to which after learning the buttons they gave it a go. You was shocked by how good they was and pouted cutely once more "h-how"

"Well Spike and his friends has this game that has these same kind of demographics so its easy to pick up on what to do. Naturally im good at watching."

You tackled them which made them lose. They laughed while trying to get away.

All you heard from a distance was the sound of your and Gren's laughter.

~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~☆~

Taglist: @justaproudslytherpuff , @sherazyjade , @adryanscott , @sugakookieswithacupoftae16 , @happilydangerousworld , @harlekin6 , @supermegapauselouca

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alyjojo · 2 years

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Advice to Work on Yourself 💇🏽‍♂️in November 2022: Aquarius

Page of Wands - 8 Cups - The Moon & Temperance

Regarding: The Fool

In the meditation, I was you, at the top of a very narrow & winding metal staircase that must’ve went up thousands of feet, around a pole or something. Way above a forest. At sunset 🌅 Which was thrilling, terrifying (for me cuz um heights…not my thing), and beautiful all at the same time. You were thinking you should start heading back down before it gets dark - and also, if I don’t watch the sunset up here then what the hell was the point? Kind of arguing with yourself on what’s more practical 😆 In the end, you started walking down and would take breaks to pause and watch the sky, before continuing on. I expected to see Temperance and sure enough. Also there’s a major play with darkness & light, we have the Sun & Moon at odds in 8 Cups here, and Van Gogh nods towards the same theme. If your Sun & Moon signs are squared/opposing each other, this could be highlighting you, or with the current energy being in Scorpio & squaring your sun, you may be needing to act more from your Moon’s way of behaving & feeling, or balancing the two more consciously. The eclipse may also affect you more than most, with it showing up here.

You may be needing to explain yourself or your reasoning behind something you’ve already done or plan to do. There’s a lot of Pisces energy here, could be someone that’s needing answers from you. Of course you don’t owe anyone anything, but you’re being advised to open up and speak your truth to someone that’s confused and probably asking. The Fool & Page of Wands are both a very excitable and impulsive sort of energy, but there’s a lot of confusion here too. You’re like a new puppy that’s ready to take on the world with no clue where you’re going or what you’ll do when you get there, so this person may be stepping in to be like um…what’s the plan?

With the intention of helping you avoid a disaster, or that’s switched, and you speaking up will do that for them.

You’ve been wanting to take a leap of faith into something new for awhile now but have just…hung around…waiting on something to change, maybe waiting to gain some perspective. This could be about a relationship or any number of things. Some of you may have left a job or some opportunity behind, or are thinking about it. If so that would be something that would make you happy, it could be something that eats away at your time so much there is none left for you to take care of yourself & your emotional/physical well being.

Whatever this energy of leaving is, you’re not actually doing it, because there’s potential for things to improve. At least in your mind. You see a possible 10 Cups and Pentacles here, you’re not clear with your plans at all, so though you may be thinking of jumping into something new and leaving whatever’s behind you - behind you - there is no action here. Not until you know there is no possibility for Temperance, balance, mixing energies, renewal & reconciliation. Your vision was very practical in nature and that seems to be your outlook here too, even if the impulsive bug has bitten your butt, it’s only in your mind.

Animal Oracle: Polar Bear 🐻‍❄️

“Stand up for yourself and speak your truth respectfully and compassionately with no attachment to outcome.”

When you express yourself from your heart and a place of power, it’s an unbeatable combination. You don’t need to growl or bully, nor do you need to fade into the background and deny yourself the opportunity to directly affect the situation. By showing up and being completely present, even when you’re simply listening, you’re a force to be reckoned with. Ask for what you want, and see what happens. Don’t get worked up about how it turns out. You may or may not get what you want, but your changes are better if you do ask. As for setting boundaries with others (such as saying no), others may respect those boundaries or try to test them. If they do test the limits you’ve set, stand your ground, be clear, and don’t apologize. Approach the situation with the purity and innocence of a child and the focused intensity of a warrior - one who doesn’t speak or act from anger, but from a place of truth and dignity. When you do, you’ll have nothing to fear.

Artist Oracle: VINCENT VAN GOGH

- If committed, stay committed.

- Posthumous recognition requires a paper trail.

- Use the daylight to face the night.

Advice:

- Find Time For Joy

- Build Your Culinary Repertoire

- Move More 💯

Charms:

Scarecrow 👩‍🌾 on Move More made me laugh out loud. Literally move. Walk your dog 🐶 Get up, go for a walk, dance, bike, squat, yoga, rock climb or whatever it is you know you enjoy & should do and don’t do enough. Exercise yourself. Especially after the cooking this reading is also telling you to do, go for a run 🏃‍♂️ The Scarecrow shows The Hanged Man all lazing about, just existing, he gotta go. Exercise is one of the best ways to clear foggy Moon brain too, it’s tried & true.

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#aquarius tarot reading #advice to work on yourself #november 2022 #Aquarius #tarot

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heartsofminds · 2 years

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i got tagged by @gretagerwigsmuse for this ask tag so here we go! thanks for the tag (from quite literally one of the coolest people ever)!

nickname - so my name is so very common but my last name isn't and it's two first names with double letters (it's LL, and you could probably guess what it is lol) so growing up (even though I was the only girl in my grade with that name) i was always addressed as my first and last name in like a sing-song voice? idk one of the TAs at my elementary school started doing it and it stuck. my dad calls me boopy loopy (a derivative of boop-a-loop from when i was a baby). first grandchild and only granddaughter privileges have deemed me "baby girl" to all of my extended family which is somewhat of a subtle flex if you ask me.

sign: leo sun, scorpio moon, pisces rising. cursed. i'm aware.

height: 5'1 and certainly done growing.

last thing i goggled: "succession of the president" (one of my friends and i were in a heated debate on who would be president if the pro tempore of the senate happens to bypass the presidency. i was right (so humble of me, i know) and it's the secretary of state if you were wondering).

song stuck in head: love of my life - harry styles

number of followers: 2,151 which amazes me that you all stick around for my bullshit?? on a real note, i'm so grateful for you all!

amount of sleep: 6 and a half hours... the life of an overwhelmed college student the week before finals 🤭

lucky number: hmm. not really a lucky number but just my favorite one to write?? i LOVE writing the number 8. i do the two circles on top of each other instead of that figure eight bullshit because it's way more satisfying.

dream job: i want to be a district attorney eventually, but right now my passions lie with the prosecution of special crimes as an assistant district attorney! i still have a year and a half left of undergrad, three years of law school, and at least four years of slop work with the DA before i can probably achieve that, but they don't call me bullheaded for nothing! have also dabbled in writing things under an anonymous pseudonym just for shits and gigs alongside this too.

wearing: a large sweatshirt with a student org on it that i'm certainly not in, but stole from my student org's closet because it hadn't been claimed yet, black nike running shorts i've had since my freshman year of high school (because i go to an SEC school and the american south is fucking 68 degrees fahrenheit right now), and some white running shoes. not the most stylish, but comfy i guess.

movie/book that summarizes you: i really relate to nadine in the edge of seventeen which isn't good at ALL but that damn scorpio moon in me sees so much of my own turmoil in her. i also relate to a lot of the feelings in the angst that i write (published on here and still sitting in my google docs) because it's so hard to verbalize the overwhelming sadness and guilt i feel sometimes? idk. but on a much lighter note, the live-action cat in the hat (the terrifying one) and the movie surf's up with the penguins sculpted my childhood and my sense of humor so we're able to cope with humor! 🤪

favorite song: UGH i despise this question. absolutely hate it. i'll gi you a top three of all time from the past two years maybe? so in no particular order, pool by paramore (which is where the title of 'cause no one breaks my heart like you' came from lol), chit chat by beach weather, and perfect places by lorde! i have so many others and would LOVE to give y'all the link to my spotify if you wanna check some of them out! oddly specific named playlists are my niche attachment.

favorite instrument: i love the versatility of the piano, but i'm gonna have to go with the cello. the amount of times i've listened to bach's cello suite no. 1 in high school so i could be "deep and intellectual" is a testament to how far i'll go to force myself to like something. it would be borderline offensive to not put it in there.

aesthetic: i've been DYING to speak on this. i love love LOVE 70s vibes (the flare pants, denim/corduroy jumpsuits, velvet everything, conversation pits. you know. the works) and also love the kind of cool aunt who travels and no one really knows that much about her vibe? like dakota johnson but less of an industry baby? the aunt from the ramona books by beverly cleary kind of thing? it's really hard to explain but my pinterest encapsulates that perfectly. i swear!!!

favorite author: i LOVE maya angelou, sonia sanchez, amy tan, and a few others! i recently read yusef salaam's memoir and loved it! i also want to get more into poetry and other classics but just haven't really had much time to read much of anything other than school readings or proofreading my own works.

fun fact: okay so i have a literal dent in the middle of my head? like i've had it for as long as i can remember and when i was little, i used to fill it up with water in the shower. it's like my literal fun fact that i accidentally disclose whenever i've had a few tequila shots and am literally bouncing off the walls with half-written thoughts in my head. i’m kind of obnoxious, if you couldn’t tell 😵‍💫

tagging a couple of other people because this was actually so fun?? i hope you all enjoy this as much as i did!

@hangmanapologist @sunlightmurdock @callsignvalley @currentlybradshaw

#L speaks #this is a lot so sorry lol #ask game

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Q Magazine, December 2019

Her 2011 breakthrough single Video Games is the most voted-for entry in Q’s Songs Of The Decade. But Lana Del Rey’s latest album, Norman Fucking Rockwell, is a strong candidate for album of the decade, too. Ted Kessler is granted an audience in Laurel Canyon to hear how the 2010s belonged to America’s finest modern singer-songwriter.

Here’s an address in Laurel Canyon. You’ll need to order an Uber to get there as there’s no parking, so press that button at 3.30 and head out into the Los Angeles traffic on Sunset and Vine. Lana Del Rey will be ready for you at 4pm.

Leave the transience of Hollywood Boulevard in the rearview and head north-west, following ever-more leafy lanes far into the hills. Life is good up here, a picture of moneyed, rustic bohemia, with pastel stoops, houses built on stilts and floor-to-ceiling views of the Hollywood Hills. But it doesn’t matter how nice your house is when the big one hits and everything tumbles into the fire and brimstone of the San Andreas Fault. Everyone knows that approaching fear here. It’s all they ever talk about.

Pull up at some steep, winding steps beneath a lofty, proud wooden residence. Climb them, shake two pairs of hands and walk through wide-open French doors into a high-ceilinged rented kitchen-diner lined by so much vinyl there’s a ladder on wheels to reach the top shelf. She’s sitting on a stool with her back to the kitchen as you enter, scrolling through her phone, and rises to greet you with a firm handshake and an open smile. Say hello to the resident voice in your head, Lana Del Rey. “Where would you like to sit,” she asks? You really don’t mind.

“Are you a Libra?” Del Rey asks, perceptively. It’s an incredible deduction based on four words and maybe 30 seconds’ interaction.

“I only think of star signs because it’s come up in my writing for the next thing I’m doing,” she says, with a chuckle, as we pull up two chairs to a round table with a bowl of tiny red apples at its centre. “I never cared before. I did get you right as a Libra, though. Typical Libra answer.”

Lana’s a Cancer. Born on 21 June, 1985, in New York City, as Elizabeth Woolridge Grant.

“All water. A little fire. Carry my home on my back, like a crab. Crybaby. Compatible with Scorpio and Pisces, which is funnily enough my sister and my brother. Kind of cute, huh? I’m on the cusp of Gemini, which takes care of my more theatrical side.”

She presses record on her phone. Don’t worry, it’s just a precaution. “I’ve never needed it since I started doing it.” But there was that one time she wished she had done it, so she always records.

Lana Del Rey pulls at her long, loose pony-tail and straightens her back. A small, square vape. A puff of mango smoke. You have exactly one hour with America’s greatest singer and songwriter of the era. What is it that you want to know?

First of all, you have to tell her some good news.

Video Games, Lana Del Rey’s breakthrough single from 2011, has been voted the Song Of The Decade by the writers and readers of Q magazine. It won by some distance, too.

“No fucking way!” she laughs, looking absolutely thrilled, and shocked, even though later we will discover that she knew this already. Her joy seems genuine. “I mean… the best song of the decade?! People really voted for that?”

They did.

“Wow. Come on!”

It is a good song.

“One of my favourites.”

Its conception took time. Video Games finally arrived after Lana Del Rey had spent two lonely years living in East London with her manager Ben Mawson, above a fish market on Kingsland Road in Dalston.

“I was at the tail-end of 600 days of writing in London, back-to-back days. With about 111 writers. I was writing for others too. I wasn’t really sure what I was doing. I’d kind of exhausted my bigger sounds. I just worked every day. For two years, I had no friends.”

The night that Video Games was born, Del Rey was at the Sony studios in Mayfair, working with a young English writer, Justin Parker. “It was finally at the most casual point in our relationship. We’d already tried to write everything.”

On the piano, Parker started to pick out a melody in F minor. “Hmm,” thought Lana. “That’s good.” So she started to sing, in a much deeper register than she’d previously employed, “Swinging in the backyard, pull up in your fast car, whistling my name…” She knew immediately they had something serious.

“I wrote it very quickly, because it’s just that melody.” The song itself was a stately, melancholic ode to a formative boyfriend who liked to play World Of Warcraft as their happy domesticity slowly drifted off-course into a too-comfortable funk. It captures that moment when something is over before it actually officially ends. She knew it was right. She’d finally done it.

“So I sent it around to everybody and said, ‘This is it.’ And they were, like, ‘This is not it. This is six minutes long.’”

They were wrong. Coupled with a video she’d made using her own webcam segments and YouTube clips, Video Games became first a viral sensation, and then a bona-fide hit. “I’m really grateful to Fearne Cotton, too, for giving me a spin every week [on Radio 1] for four weeks. And Justin Parker is very good.”

In other words, Lana Del Rey is saying she did not do this on her own – but, really, in all the important ways, she did. She had a song that sounded how she felt at last, that represented her in a way that the music that she’d released independently earlier, both as Lana Del Rey and as Lizzy Grant hadn’t. “I wasn’t signed to anybody, but a couple of people had their eye on me. Everybody loved all the big stuff I was writing, but I was at the point where I had written in every style except my own. Now I had.”

With Video Games, she found her bearings. “It showed me a lot about myself, an insight in terms of persistence. I love to exhaust every resource before I get to that right path. But once I settle into myself and learn to trust my own style, I fall naturally into the vein of a singer-songwriter type.”

Del Rey felt her major label debut album materialise. She quickly wrote its title track Born To Die, Blue Jeans and Million Dollar Man. “Then I was like, ‘Got it.’ Racked that album and left all the 167 other songs I’d written in London behind.”

Or so she thought. “Eventually they all got leaked through my Hotmail, which fucking sucked. Cos they weren’t good. And I knew it, objectively.”

A what-can-you-do shrug. Vape. Mango smoke curls upwards beyond her eyes. Then, a smile. “It’s incredible that Video Games won Song Of The Decade. Born To Die [the album] had to sound bigger, but it’s interesting that what was its most quiet moment has won Song Of The Decade. I loved that song.” A nod. “And I still love it.”

On the sleeve of Lana Del Rey’s most recent album, Norman Fucking Rockwell, she is clutching the waist of a handsome young man on board a sailboat decorated with a Stars and Stripes flag, holding out her hand towards the listener. In the background, the Californian skyline is ablaze, as if the big one has finally hit. Come to me, she’s saying, this is your best hope of sanctuary.

In those seven years since Video Games and its parent record Born To Die, Lana Del Rey had made a further three albums before NFR arrived in August, each trying to hone what she is musically, how she writes. But it wasn’t until she met Jack Antonoff, the producer who’s worked with Taylor Swift and Lorde amongst many others, that she teamed up with a writing partner able to work in perfect relief to her.

His virtuoso musicianship and sympathetic ear collided with Del Rey’s melodic flair and once-in-a-lifetime way with a killer line. Together they created a complex, beautiful masterpiece. NFR unfolds lyrically like a great American novel about freedom, identity and the wreckage of the battle of the sexes set in modern-day California, where the stench of pot drenches every street corner and where the thump of distant G-funk mingles with the ghosts of Joni Mitchell and the other Laurel Canyon ’70s soothsayers. All the while the Pacific rolls in, and out, and every day the news cycle nags incessantly about Trump, the climate crises and the big one which is just around the corner…

It establishes Lana Del Rey as one of the truly great American songwriters of the age, perhaps the only one who has managed to distil this decade across an entire album. She’s a galaxy brain of emotional intelligence and cultural insight, armed with a skeleton key for stately melody, and who now has a writing partner with just the right palate to make it explode into Technicolor. You should take that hand she offers on the sleeve.

“It’s an album about coming into one’s own,” she decides. “And choosing to laugh rather than cry.”

This intention is clear from the very first line, she says.

“Probably my favourite line on the album. [she starts to sing it] ‘God damn man child, you fucked me so good I almost said I love you.’ That’s a tough one to sing in front of your dad. And the album ends not on a laugh, but still on a lightness.”

On that final song, Hope Is A Dangerous Thing For A Woman Like Me To Have, she sings of the many reasons why hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like her to have today, before a final echo where she softly insists three times, “But I have it…”

The motives behind these two songs, however, are not just what the album is about alone, clarifies Del Rey.

“Also, hard work. Craftsmanship. True craftsmanship. Eleven-minute songs. Fifteen chord progressions…”

Lana Del Rey raises her eyebrows.

She is already carving out the next chapter of this new imperial phase. In her 20s, she was always looking for songs to write. Now, she’ll write them when she can. Antonoff comes to Los Angeles every month and they’ll meet to see where it takes them. “Sometimes we don’t write, we just talk. And then, if I’m lucky, I’ll get a song a month.”

This next album may come in 2020, it may come in 2021, and it may be called White Hot Forever, or she may change her mind. But it will definitely have a first song and a last song decided before any others.

“I always say that if you have a closer and an opener then you know where you are going,” she explains.

She’d spent four years working on Hope Is A Dangerous Thing For A Woman Like Me To Have before she met Antonoff.

“Not because it was special, but it wasn’t piecing together. So I sang that to Jack a cappella the day I met him and we did Norman the next day. Just a series of chords that he played that I freestyled over. And I thought, ‘I’ve got the first song and I’ve got the 13th song.’ And then I pretty much know what to do in-between, I just don’t know how long it’s going to take. I have the same thing for this next album but it’s actually going to take longer than I want if it’s going to be as good as this one…”

Most importantly, though, she has the outline of the words for the next album. Certainly, if she was a white man holding a guitar and writing words as potent and poetic as she does on NFR, she’d be put on a much higher pedestal.

“They’d say I was like Johnny Cash or something,” she agrees. “It’s the words that make me feel confident about the next one. Every now and then one long phrase will come to me. Like, Hope Is A Dangerous Thing For A Woman Like Me To Have, Will You Still Love Me When I’m No Longer Young And Beautiful… I have no idea where they’re going to go, but objectively I’m, like, ‘Oof, I want to fill it in.’ So I have three of those. One in particular, Let Me Love You Like A Woman, there’s just something about it. I feel like it’s going to be really important, but I don’t know why yet. That’s where the magic comes in.”

It’s during the filling in of these long phrases that Del Rey determines the song’s meaning. Hope Is A Dangerous Thing… was easy to determine. It’s about the toxic masculinity that she’d seen displayed on her journey through musical showbusiness, and her response to it.

“I think it’s dangerous for a woman who is too kind, I really do,” she says. “That’s what it’s about. Hope is a dangerous thing for a woman who is told to bend to whatever comes along because it’s the right thing to do. So it’s less dangerous if you never gave a fuck, but if you care it’s dangerous on seven different levels.” She stops. “Do you agree?”

Kindness is not normally a trait that bad men respect.

“I always say to my male friends that good guys don’t know anything about the bad side of truly bad men.”

This may be true. However, any man who has been on a stag do, or even regularly shared a locker room as part of a team sport, can attest to the fact that even the objectively “good” men can be much worse than one imagines.

Lana Del Rey’s face sets to stone. “Well, they’re the really bad ones. It’s rare to come across someone who’s truly wonderful.”

The room falls momentarily silent. What can we do?

“Write songs about it,” says Lana Del Rey solemnly.

Lana Del Rey spends a lot of time at the wheel of her black pick-up truck, trawling the highways of her adopted state of California out of her base in Los Angeles, heading north towards San Francisco, or south towards San Diego, where she has other nests. Not because she has to, but because she needs to.

“I have to do a lot to keep my feet on the ground,” she explains. “I need to leave to come back. It’s almost like toggling. I have to really get myself out, to get myself back in. I have to toggle myself.”

Practically, this means heavy road-time. “I’ll take a month at a time commuting to Newport. It’s an hour and 20 minutes, at least 80 miles every day. So I’ll drive to Newport and come back the next day. I’ll do yoga, I’ll swim. Then I’ll come back.”

This all leaves a lot of time alone in her car with herself. “I am quite a planner. I figure things out. I’m very much from here,” places one hand on her chest, “to here.” Puts the other hand on her head. She has feelings. She has thoughts. It’s why she needs the yoga and swimming: to stretch those feelings out beyond her chest, out into her toes and fingers.

But as she drives, those feelings and thoughts start to re-emerge and she once again begins to order them. She’ll dictate lyrics and ideas for hours on end, and then she’ll have to torturously unravel them at home. She also “free-writes” every morning and evening on her old typewriter, which requires a lot of untangling before she unearths any nuggets. It’s worth it, she says.

“Jung says that every character in your dream is you,” she explains. “So every morning I wake up and think, ‘Was I the killer and the spider?!’ I’ve heard that dream analysis upon free writing is the only way your psyche can communicate to your conscious self. So if you write, write, write and eventually look at it you think, ‘Why am I writing that?’ There’s definitely something to it.”

She’ll also think about the routing of upcoming tours in her car. She’ll chew over whether she’d like to do just a friends and family circuit, a tour that takes in theatres in unusual places. Alabama. Des Moines. Places that people with multiple worldwide Number 1 albums don’t typically play. But maybe she will. Maybe she will.

“Sometimes I think enough songs have been done. Enough tours. We toured constantly for four years. And we did at least 20 summer shows as well, and our own tours. So now, we can do what we like. We can do anything.”

So when she’s driving and she has an idea about this, or that, she can make it happen. For example, last weekend she did a “friends and family show” at Jones Beach, in New York, the site of the first concert she went to 20 years ago: Bob Dylan and Paul Simon. She invited two old friends who hadn’t seen each other for 21 years to join her, as well, just because she could and thought it would be beautiful. Sean Ono Lennon came on and sang their collaboration Tomorrow Never Came for the first time ever. And, on Leonard Cohen’s birthday, his son Adam sang Leonard’s Chelsea Hotel No 2 with Lana Del Rey. Not a dry eye on Long Island.

“Man, I got to say, that show at Jones Beach has got to be the best show I ever did.” Enthusiastic vape, mango smoke. “It was just a very gentle spirit.”

It got her thinking about who else she can have join her on this tour. Next week at the Hollywood Bowl, Weyes Blood will step up alongside her, as will ’80s heartthrob Chris Isaak “just because I like him.” Joan Baez has been invited to Berkeley. “I hope she comes. Diamonds And Rust is what we have planned to sing. She’s someone I think a lot about in terms of people I want to sing with.” She picks up one of the apples from the fruit bowl.

“It’s a very special time. I’m finally getting to enjoy the fruits of my labour.”

She bites into the apple.

“These are great apples, actually,” she decides. “You should take one for the ride home.”

Before we press that Uber icon again, Donald Trump shows up, as he so often does nowadays.

This August, in response to the mass shootings in El Paso, Texas, and Dayton, Ohio, Del Rey wrote and swiftly released a single, Looking For America. In a landscape noticeably bereft of any protest singles, certainly from big, mainstream stars, Looking For America is powerfully direct. “I’m still looking for my own version of America,” runs the chorus, “One without the gun, where the flag can freely fly.” It signalled that Lana Del Rey is happy to step beneath a spotlight American pop stars tend to shun.

The day that we meet, the Trump impeachment festival is in full swing on all the news channels. Del Rey asks what the latest from CNN is. She’s happy that some legal norms still function.

“Nobody is above the law and you can’t obstruct justice,” she notes. “It’s not just because you’re an asshole.”

The Trump era has been helpfully revealing, she says.

“What I like about it is that it’s mirroring our tiny microcosms. It’s so-what culture. ‘I fucked you over? So what? I’m going to run away with your money anyway.’ Trump is reflective of that culture. I mean, he was elected. And it’s no coincidence that it is all happening at this late stage of our climate crises. Again, that’s why I like Hope Is A Dangerous Thing, because the people at the forefront of fighting climate change are so lovely. Do people listen to lovely voices? Yeah, yeah, we’ll cut emissions in 10, 20, 30 years’ time.”

And yet, she says, that the more unhinged the world becomes, the more creatively stimulated she feels. “It’s definitely no coincidence that I’m gaining clarity in the midst of crises. I think chaos brings that: lots of ‘good to know’ moments. Like, ‘Oh! That entire group of people feel the same way? I had no idea.’ It’s a time for concerted effort. If just the needle could shift, be it in terms of the climate crises or impeachment. Then, it’s a question of the damage done, culturally and environmentally.”

The time has come to press that Uber app. Where are we headed, asks Del Rey. To a hotel called Dream, opposite a bar, Black Rabbit Rose, which makes a cameo on a song on Norman Fucking Rockwell, Happiness Is A Butterfly: “Hollywood and Vine, Black Rabbit in the alley/I just wanna hold you down the avenue…”

“Black Rabbit has a magic show every Wednesday,” she says, ruefully. “Been a while since I’ve been, but I do like Hollywood and Vine. I don’t get stopped there, unlike the younger areas.”

Her biggest foe are the paparazzi.

“I’ll have quiet months, then all of a sudden I’ll be at lunch and they’ll be there and I’ll be like [gasps]. It still surprises me. It’s like waking up from a dream. ‘What are we doing here again? I was just at a taco truck, and now what the fuck?’”

She says that when she feels uprooted by fame, either by paparazzi or just by fans coming too close while grocery shopping, she can call her friends, “Sarah, Jen or Anne, and be, like, ‘You are not going to believe what happened, and who I was with, and now they will never speak to me again.’ Because it’s unusual if you are with someone and they get surprised by it too. It’s slightly alarming.”

She shrugs, and laughs.

“Living the dream!”

No way out now.

“There’s a way out,” she says firmly. “Yes, there is. I know it. I see it. Out of the corner of my left eye, I have a rabbit hole. But you know what it entails is not working. No promoting. So it’s hard, but you could make a lifestyle change. I’ve seen people do it, sometimes not intentionally.”

We step out on to the verandah. Del Rey reveals she did actually know about the Song Of The Decade award: she was so touched, in fact, that she organised her own photo and video shoot for us to use this morning in this very house. We deserve it. “I mean, Song Of The Decade? Come on!”

As we stand admiring the view and the beautiful houses of Laurel Canyon, a woman appears at the window opposite. She is fresh from the shower and clearly naked. “Ooops,” says Lana Del Rey, almost involuntarily, and pulls back inside the house. “I saw boob! I do not want to get caught looking into strangers’ bathrooms.”

Oh look, there’s our ride. A handshake, a wave and away we go back down to the grime of Hollywood Boulevard.

A week later, an email arrives. A friend of a friend was just at an Afrobeat night at a club in San Francisco, the evening before Lana Del Rey’s big show in nearby Berkeley.

As the music and lights swirled on the dancefloor, our correspondent spotted a familiar face in a booth outside the floor. Emboldened by the night’s rush, she approached Lana Del Rey.

“I love your music,” she told her, and “I’m coming to see you perform tomorrow. I often listen to you before I go out,” she added. “I listened to you tonight even.”

“That’s so funny,” replied Lana. “The person I listen to before going out is here tonight with me too,” she said, pointing to the middle of floor. “We’re actually singing together tomorrow.”

There, frugging energetically in the midst of the throng on the dancefloor, was 78-year-old songwriting legend and activist Joan Baez.

And, in that booth, Lana Del Rey smiled joyfully. She’s living the dream. Finally enjoying the fruits of her labour.

Originally published in the December 2019 issue of Q Magazine with the headline Her Majesty.

#2019 #Norman Fucking Rockwell!#Q Magazine #Ted Kessler

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