#I only have gone for couch surfing bc of my disabilities. It might send me to hospital if the couch isn't right

[elvenmoans]

I haven't been this stressed since I was a homeless teenager or my mom was slowly died from cancer over 9 months. That's legitimately the only worse instances for me. My circadian rhythm disorder is so effected I'm scared I'm going to have a heart attack with how much it pauses then flutters. Pots isn't suppose to raise death rates but it feels like it will