#I need to use the same pic because i dont have any other that could correspond this lol

[pixeletinha]

The video stopped and Sasha took a quick deep breath as if she was proud of herself for what she just did. Then she looked at me and she could see my eyes drowning in anger and her smile became firm. "Wow" Jules sensated and then his chocolate eyes laid at me. I woke up from my fixated anger at my sister and quickly glanced at him. Trying to be present in the moment. "You are very talented" he nodded in approval of his statement and I laughed and awkwardly tucked a piece of my hair behind my ear. Sasha was looking at me with a teased annoyed face and then rolled her eyes and put her phone away. Jules smiled in my direction again and my heart was slowly melting in my chest, I was mesmerised by his loving smile. I could feel the awkwardness transferring into affection. I tried to trick my mind into thinking about Calvin and all the memories that we had together, but the truth is there weren't too many of them that would have swayed me over to him.

Jules then took out the package and explained to us all the prepared activities that were set out for us. I'd study his big hands going over the pamphlets..  a heat went through my body and I could not concentrate. "Thea?" Sasha asked and lightly kicked me in my ankle. "What do you think? Can we do it in 3 days?"  I did not know what was going on, the whole story just flew by my ears. So I spontaneously nodded and then Jules collected the pamphlets in a pile and took out some additional accessories that were part of the price. "So as mentioned in the package, here is a tent, survivor food and some maps you can use. There is no signal in the catacombs so please be careful where you step and also read once again our policy guidelines" he said and then we collected the stuff. I could feel his eyes examining us, especially me. While we were getting ready for the trip. "Well thank you Jules!" Sasha waved and opened the front door. "Merci" I said and was about to leave but then his hand gently caressed mine. He stopped me and I looked at him. "I know this might not be appropriate, but can I invite you for lunch? I would like to get to know you better" he said quietly, my heart was pounding quickly. I felt confettis in my mind but I did not let it on and smiled slightly. "Ofcourse, I do like that" Let’s meet at the square at 1PM? Does that work?" Perfectly" I smiled and then I waved at him and he at me back. When I stepped out of the building, I already saw Sasha leaning on the wall, inhaling the smoke of a cigarette. Teasingly examining me and then blowing the smoke away. "So?" she said and pulled her brow up, waiting for an answer. I was looking around and playing with my hair and when our eyes matched I pulled my hands up and teased her back with a grimace face. "I have nothing to say to you." I said proudly and she scoffed "Well.. okay. Don't thank your little sister for scoring you a date" and then she stepped on the cigarette bud "It's not a date" I mumbled and looked on the ground "What is it then? Lunch at 1" she said mockingly and pushed my shoulder. "Come on, let's go" I rolled my eyes and took the tent from the ground.

It was a very warm day, our adventure started at a museum at the edge of the city so we had to take a bus. It was humid inside, the AC was broken thus our sweat was literally falling down from our faces. I could not stop thinking about Jules. Was it really a date? Did I just set up a date with another man? I bit my lower lip at the thought of that. Am I turning into my promiscuous yet loving sister?

[badlydrawnronpa]

hi anon ty for sending the message! I did look through their blog and they very obviously use AI - I would've published the ask normally to let other people know but I decided against it in the end because after a closer inspection I noticed that all commissions are fake (besides being fake art I mean) and they're not actually scamming anyone because. uh. literally most of the blogs I saw interact with them are empty rp blogs that are blatantly controlled by them and one of the commissions I saw on their patreon was for a defunct ohsc rp blog from 2014??? Which honestly was really funny.

so yeah, they're very much not pulling any money from that, and on top of it all they posted pics of themselves sooooo yeh, not going to blast them on a blog with a big following for trying the 'i dont use ai im a real artist' but ultimately not scamming anyone out of their money. They're also not the best at like... hiding they're using AI because you can see their traditional art in other posts, and the style or experience level doesn't match at all.

I will post some of their AI stuff underneath the read more and point out the inconsistencies tho, to help out other people in spotting out ai shit (esp non artists that might have an harder time figuring things out). If you find out the original user that posted these, please don't harass them, be civil.

BTW I'M SAYING THIS NOW: if you see something I point out and say ''ah, I do that, I'm in trouble" - no you're not, if you actually draw the stuff yourself. You can see when an artist's work (and mistakes!) are genuine. Beginner's mistakes can be made by experienced artists too, but if you look at their entire body of work you can see when something doesn't add up.

to start off, I saw anon calling them out on this one so I'm just reiterating some of the points, but here's some junko 'art' they made

when confronted abt it, they said that the fingers look weird because they can't control their shaky hands and drawing small is hard. anyway if you draw digitally you can zoom in on the canvas and work on a detail as big as you need, so that excuse doesn't hold

this other post was basically what made me just say 'yep thats ai' and it was just the second 'art' post I saw from them

while taken alone they could've been a little harder to spot as AI, with them all bundled together you can easily see they came from the same prompt; the user tried to justify the inconsistencies saying it was because they were 'experimenting' with the design of their oc and gundham's scar but I'm telling you now, no sane artist fully renders four pieces that are basically the same concept while changing the design of the character just slightly in every single one of them. anyway, here's the breakdown of every piece:

another that was way easier to break down because it's so full of inconsistencies the moment you really take a look at it

also let's be real if you render art like that you're not gonna put a bright purple unreadable text on your supposed vtuber "art"

let's end this with the AI "commission" that could be harder to break down as AI if seen in a vacuum now, shall we? esp because our friend, the fucked up melty finger, isn't there

I honestly had to look for a while at this one because if you had shown it to me and I didn't see the other stuff this person posted, I could've just chalked up a lot of these mistakes to human error. Tangents between lines, scribbles for details, forgotten uncolored sections is all normal stuff. BUT we know this person used AI in all the other posts, so we know what to look at:

again, some mistakes the AI does can be also mistakes actual artists do: be sure to check the other art the user makes before throwing accusations

they also posted a fake speedpaint that is so embarassing it made me laugh but if I start pointing out inconsistencies in an AI speedpaint we're gonna be here for a long time, so.

TL;DR AI 'ART' SIGNS:

The classics: hands and fingers don't make sense, there's additional weird lines and they melt into other part of the drawing

long hair strands and other long or flowy elements can suddenly disappear behind objects and not reappear where they should

jewels, intricate details, hairpins and other accessories bend and melt into each other and other part of the design

the resolution of the image is very low and/or grainy - a lot of artists post lower res pieces online, but again: look for a pattern and combos of all the other signs

inconsistencies between multiple art posts, character designs constantly being different, sudden art style changes - while this can also be found with real artists, this is an additional tell of someone using AI, when combined with the stuff I mentioned above. humans mistakes usually have a reason for what they happen, AI makes them because it doesnt understand what it's doing most of the time

[13thdoctorposts]

Sometimes it’s important to know when to let a show go. 

When 13 regenerated into 14 and had her clothes burnt off like a witch on a stake, sending a horrible message about women and gender RTD came out and said he did it to protect David from right wing media. Then the fans defended David coming back and that RTD would address why he had that face and why the clothes also regenerated, although I was upset with 13s regeneration I thought ok I’ll wait and see how this get handles. Because even though I don’t like the real world messaging maybe the in world messaging will be enough to make it ok.

But then what happens? We get a trans story for the very first story with very positive messaging for trans issues which is great but undermined by the fact RTD wanted to protect David from gender critiques by the right wing but didn’t seem to want to protect Yasmin Finney. So first David can’t wear Jodies costume for protection but then RTD has Yasmin live through being deadnamed in the show which she herself has said made her uncomfortable and then also gave her character the line of telling the Doctor to not assume pronouns… which any of the characters could have done but RTD chose Rose and then what happen? What always happens with the right wing, the pronoun line and the male presenting line are the ones that the right wing all go on about in every video, in every article… they deadname the character and then misgender and say horrible things about Yasmin… so RTD protects the 50+ year old white man who’s worn way more feminine things then 13 outfit in his career the media could use if they wanted to go after him but don’t protect the 20 year old Trans Woman? How people aren’t talking about how fucked up that is I don’t know.

Then we get no reason why the Doctor has that face and why the clothes regenerated on them. Then in their own regeneration… they don’t! They bi-regenerates and this time Ncuti does get the Doctor clothes, well half of them… why didn’t 15 regenerate with their own clothes? No instead we have the new Doctor walking around with no pants on… and why is it that 15 has to go pantless and not David? are we protecting David again? Perfectly fine to have a bunch of pics of 15 in his tighty whities and no pants but again David could not be seen in 13s full gender neutral outfit. 

Then to top all this off theres no mention in the loves lost of Yaz… even though the Doctor chose to drop her off in a park 3 days ago after telling her if they could Date anyone it would be Yaz… is that not love lost? Was saying good bye to Yaz not an emotional trigger? Now people are saying thats because only the dead were brought up… Rose is not dead unlike Yaz Rose is not only alive in another Dimension but also got herself a Doctor… Yaz currently is mourning the Doctor while they cant even seem to remember she existed despite dropping her off 3 days a go… so they weren’t all dead… however Rose was over 1000 years ago and Yaz 3 days ago… what hurts more the lost of someone you loved but who is still alive from 50 years ago or the one you lost last week? What makes logical sense is the love you lost most recently hurts the most… and people dont need to die for you to hurt losing them from your life if you love them.

Now we have 2 Doctors and people are already saying they can’t wait for David Tennant episodes, so if you think the 10th Doctor overshadowed the other Doctors when he was no longer the Doctor how overshadowed do you think the first main Doctor of colour is going to be when lots of peoples favourite white Doctor ever is also a legitimate Doctor in universe existing at the exact same time with a TARDIS? Ncuti doesn’t event get to be the only Doctor during his tenure he has to share it with David.  

The lastly no mentions of Yaz at all… seems shes completely forgotten and at the very end the Doctor says they are finally with their family the happiest he’s ever been… what a diss of every TARDIS team ever that the Doctor has found family with… your last crew you literally called your ‘Fam’, the Ponds you actually married into… Susan was your flesh and blood… but no this family you haven’t seen in 1000 years, of which only one of who was part of your TARDIS team are the ones you finally found family with and make you the happiest you’ve ever be? Literally at the exact same time the Doctor is sitting at that table saying all of that, Yaz is mourning the Doctor and not wanting to have left the TARDIS, but she doesn’t get a mention because for some reason if it’s a wlw relationship it means nothing and can be ignored completely. 

Honestly by the end the Doctor just seems like a complete prick, and not in a 13 I’m dealing with internal trauma and I accidentally snapped way but just in a I’m a shit person way. Talk about compromised morals, people wouldn’t shut up about it with 13 but the Doctor just left a young woman to mourn them while being the “happiest they have ever been” grabbing themselves a new family and pretending Yaz doesn’t exist. Talk about shit morals. People say Chibs didn’t know anything from 12s era, which wasn’t true it directly affected the way 13 kept the fam at arms length but after watching this clearly RTD didn’t even know what happened in the episode 14 regenerated from 13 in and the previous episode Legend of the Sea Devils, because surely if you did, you wouldn’t not mention Yaz at all and give a reason why the Doctor wouldn’t go see her while she’s mourning them and just grabbing a new family and claiming to be the happiest you’ve ever been in the 2000 years of life you remember. Because that would make the character look like a prick, not a hero, which is exactly what happened. If RTD is the amazing writer people claim, he could have come up with a Yaz mention and a reason why the Doctor wasn’t going to see her.

I know not everyone was happy with the wlw representation with Thasmin but you know what’s way worse? Not even mentioning it or even acknowledging Yaz’s existence.

And to top it off I am so very very over the double standard of the fandom… this episode, had plot holes, had important things that weren’t explained… like why that face and why did the clothes regenerate… things that weren’t explained that weren’t so important like where did the sonic screw driver come from, why can it do all the things it now does… it had racism from both the Toymaker and Donna… what on earth was that line about ‘do you come in every colour’, was paced poorly, it clearly should have been longer and decided to mess with lore by creating bi-rengeration out of thin air and not explaining how it would effect things going forward or why it even happen, like a true WTF… if Chibs had done even one of these things, or wrote this episode the exact same way the fandom would be coming for him instead they are praising the genius of RTD not caring about any of those things, all the sins they claimed Chibs did and some of them on a bigger scale in this episode but the treatment of RTD is the polar opposite. 

It’s unbelievably hypocritical, and makes the fandom look even worse for being so hard on the first female Doctor because none of this was acceptable for her but its not only fine but great with a male Doctor.

So I think it’s time for me to let this show go, and know it’s time to bow out. Because unlike the people who have been horrible about 13 for the last 6 years I understand sometimes you have to step away from something you love when its no longer for you and leave it for other people to love.

Im out with 13.

[dignityofadog]

eughhhhh why does my entire life revolve around ollie!!! not that im complaining, of course. if ollie isnt online then im thinking about ollie. if im not online then im thinking about ollie. oh, i did something that reminds me of ollie. would ollie like this? should i show this to ollie? i wonder if ollie does the same things i do. in fact, i wonder what ollie's routine is. that skk pic reminds me of us! ill tag them. i found a silly audio i could send to them. i also saw a picture of a cat. ollie seems to like cats. i should compare him to them. they mentioned they like getting compared to cats. and biting stuff (or themselves, really). ollie really does sound like one. their bedtime is around 11:00 pm. but they live in ireland, which is around 8 hours ahead from where i live, so its usually 3 in the afternoon when they go offline. they get up at midnight in my time, so 8 o'clock there. i try to pass the time but it takes forever. sometimes ill nap or read. maybe masturbate. it gets boring without them. ollie's never skateboarded before; they think its scary. he said they think their height is 5'1, just an inch under me. i like to tease ollie about that. ollie takes really short showers, too (just like him). i also tease them about that. it doesnt seem to like flirting, but when its playful and non-genuine they find it funny, although i try to avoid it altogether. in a discord chat, before they met me, ollie said partner was a term they favored over girlfriend/boyfriend. i think its cute; im starting to prefer 'partner' too. it said they thought about cuddling a lot. ill try to bring it up once in awhile to know theyre not alone in that thought. they bought a plant after we first met. we call each other names a lot, like 'homosexual' or 'gay' or smth about the country we live in. its fun to do that. theyll make posts on the transmasc dazai headcanon. it projects a lot onto dazai, especially 15zai. they like bsd gacha reactions but not the ooc ones yet he stills watches them anyways. the only types he doesnt watch are the videos including youtube shorts. its relatable though. they recently made a strawpage if any of y'all have scrolled so far. ollie is autistic and says they take showers a lot because he doesnt like being sweaty. it said theyre asexual so even if theyre fine with sex jokes, i also try not to bring them up often. he has three dogs in total, four at their dad's home (the ones most popular in being sent to me are ruby and archie; his dad's girlfriend has two other dogs called suzie and max) and one at their mom's (poppy). they call their mom 'mam' which i, again, think is cute. their birthday is december 20th. thats only six days before mine. ollie sends me voice messages a lot and i really like their voice. some words are kinda hard to hear with the dialect differences but its mainly understandable. ollie introduced me to the game pony town a few weeks ago and i really go on there to boop and kiss them. other than that, im not online often. purple, yellow, certain shades of green and brown, and blue are some colors ollie said they liked. i once asked if theyd rate himself out of ten. ollie's answer was '10/10 ofc'. ill think about if i could vent about unimportant things that seem important at the moment. ollie could do the same to me. i wouldnt mind. i find that everything about it is important. it might like this song or this band or this genre. whats his favorite author? should i vc or is it at their moms home? why wont they respond? ollie must be busy. but what if ollie isnt? what if theyre ignoring me? i really do know i need to stop getting caught up in my head. i know they care for me. but even the tiniest bit of thinking they dont like me makes me upset. but then they text me and i get happy again!! i love talking to them <3 it brings me comfort. speaking of comfort, they'll try to make me feel better when i mention im sad, it doesnt help much, but i appreciate the thought. i really do. ollie's kind.

[youremyheaven]

Karina: Kibbe Analysis

Karina is a very difficult idol to type because she's in oversized or ill fitted clothes a lot of the time😩 She has a large bust so I wonder if her stylist is dressing her in baggy clothes to prevent her from being overly sexualized or whatever but goddamn its hard to to find proper pics of her.

Karina is 167cms tall, has slim long limbs and a petite but curvy hourglass body.

Some would type her as an SD because of her height but she is a TR/Theatrical Romantic.

she has a petite hour glass body and a very small frame. She does not have the T shaped silhouette that SDs have and she is more "girly" than she is womanly.

there are some people who look good without makeup/with minimal makeup and makeup is perhaps a little too much on them; these people are Naturals. however for TRs, without makeup they tend to look very plain and washed out. the sharpness of their features needs to be highlighted using makeup

if you're a TR/R/SD, red lipstick and smoky eye look are your best friend.

compare the above looks to these two looks where she's wearing minimal or "natural/clean" makeup. she looks pretty but plain and washed out.

like Jennie, Karina also got a lot of hate early on in her career for being perceived as a mean girl and false rumours of her being a bitch was spread around. in this context, it makes sense as to why her stylists toned down her makeup and outfits significantly in the last few years so as to not bring too much attention to her.

she looks really good with accessories and needs delicate but ornate accessories to bring out her TR essence

compare the above 2 looks to the bottom row looks. she looks magnificent in the above looks, a total femme fatale, oozing a dark feminine energy that we associate with the type.

however in the bottom row?? the blazer look would've been flattering on an FN but on her its too overpowering, she looks like she's wearing her dad's clothes. the LBD would've suited a Gamine but it doesn't do anything for her. had it been an above the knee bodycon dress, it would've looked fab.

look at her in the top row and how she seems more harmonious with her essence and look at the bottom row and how they don't make her shine at all. dear Rs please dont wear leather btw

her face has a combination of soft and sharp features (yin with a yang undercurrent). She's an average height TR to me, like Selena.

She also has Romantic, Dramatic & Ethereal essence.

she has a very small frame and very delicate curves.

if she were an SD she would have looked more harmonious in an outfit like this. however this is too much for her delicate frame and overpowers her.

but a girlier dress like this really brings out her femme fatale essence and looks MUCH better on her.

if you look at the above outfits, they dont do much for her. they dont bring out any of her essences and they dont make her shine. which could be deliberate perhaps as maybe she's trying not to outshine others.

one thing about miss ma'am karina is that she always dresses for comfort😭😭so her personal style does not reveal much. she herself has stated that she likes simple clothes and styles more😭😭i sincerely wish i was her stylist bc id show her that its very much possible to be stylish and comfortable at the same time.

[aemiron-main]

oh im going insane

im finishing up an analysis that involves parallels that show owens likely being a father figure to henry & then i remembered. ‘peter’s school projects’. and THEN it hit me like a brick. so, i hadnt mentioned this yet but i have an analysis rn sitting in my drafts about how some of the unused costuming pieces in young henry’s wardrobe room remind me of vintage boys school uniform shirts & how the bts pics have henry wearing a pair of black leather shoes (which would be uniform code)  and just some other stuff and long story short i think there was a school uniform in his wardrobe. but it confused me bc like YES hawkins in the 50s could have had a school uniform but smthn still wasnt clicking bc why wouldnt they show him wearing the uniform during any of his hawkins scenes then?  but. if henry was living with owens and his wife......... in nevada... ruth, nevada..... a different school...... a uniform......... and the fact that nancy’s fake name at pennhurst is RUTH and the discussion about petey and summer camp happens at pennhurst.... ‘peter/petey’ and ‘ruth’ tied together AGAIN.  and owens. owens is tied to the theme of bullying because he gets angela’s charges against el dropped.  long story short i think there’s a chance henry went to school in ruth and was living with owens and got bullied at school (bc yknow. outcast weird kid) and that’s why owens is tied to the bullying imagery w angela.  ‘peter’s school projects’ -> whenever we see henry drawing in the creel house, save for the one scene in victor’s flashback where henry’s sitting at the couch, henry is drawing in his school binder, with school supplies, on lined paper, and one of his school binders even has some words written on the side of it that i need to go back and look at.  and its been stumping me like. we KNOW henry made it to the lab right after the creel murders. so when would he be at owens’ house. but then it hit me. that other analysis im working on. it also talks about henry very very likely escaping from the lab at some point and being brought back. if henry escaped. and was taken in by owens. and then the lab eventually located henry again/brenner realized henry was with owens.... this would explain why we dont see owens at the lab at all in 1979 & why he doesnt come back to the lab until s2,  until after brenner’s ‘death’ in s1. because he would have double-crossed brenner. and brenner wouldn’t have wanted him influencing henry/helping him escape again.  and there’s those mike and owens parallels i need to make a writeup on.... mike, who took in a child who escaped from the lab. owens, who likely did the same thing. mike, who dressed el up to take her to the school. owens, sending henry to school in a uniform.  this post is like. half coherent i promise i have actual evidence LMAO im gonna go work on the writeup about it bc. hm

especially considering the costuming parallels between owens vs victor creel.. both of them being father figures to henry...  smthn smthn owens-obi wan parallels (which is an analysis in and of itself) smthn smthn ‘my allegiance lies to the republic, anakin- to democracy’ smthn smthn that but its owens with the lab smthn smthn brenner either finding henry or owens GIVING henry back to the lab after some sort of incident... which is inch resting when we think about the idea of henry being bullied & how el hit angela and gave her an injury just like the one that brenner got from henry in 1979... henry using his powers against one of the kids bullying him..........  AND OK INSANE ERA TIME 

This is said to OWENS, at OWENS’ house. and henry was the attacker so henry = ghost.  why is this relevant? well. that bts pic i posted awhile back that i said might be unused footage of henry in a ghost costume as a kid..... and el with hopper in the cabin, dressing as a ghost... but not being able to go out because the lab would find her... henry going out for halloween though and something happening/getting bullied (will parallel) and maybe that’s when shit went down... resulting in him getting taken back to the lab

anyway i am insane. and Henry, if he escaped, would have escaped pretty early-on I think bc he likely would have gone the same route he took El…. and would’ve needed to be small enough to fit.

[bookishtheaterlover7]

👸- I'm breaking my rule of not talking about them for a hot second. I know this is lengthy, but I have a lot to say about how they are trying to drum up media by using fans.

It just occured to me we, the fans whoever is left, were used again. They saw pur comments about not giving them attention and adjusted thier strategy.

We all saw the photos discusses for maybe 180 minutes and then moved on. We all know they gave us what we all said last tine was missing/odd down to her out of place (we assume cause no one could actually see the dress) outfit and ridiculous heels to a "loving" hand hold flashing the ring.

But we all went theres a picture of before a possible kiss and after a possible kiss. But somehow they missed the money shot which many of us saw as in they didnt or whatever. Then we moved on to other topics and Then 24 hours later we get a video with 2 kisses and the video of said walking out.

THE PICTURE AND VIDEO OF THE KISS WAS HELD DELIBERTLY.

They did this deliberately to make sure fans talk about them for longer. Otherwise the picture of the kiss would have been released with all the others.

They did this because fans said that they arent going to give them and the poop show attention so it can go away faster. So what do thier teams do? Split up the relases. Usually outlets would have both whoever the pics were sold too usually gers the video but regardless the video is usually released at the same time.

And robert patterson who isnt media shy with his significant other went out the back to try and leave privately while the couple that says they are private didn't find a private way to leave.

chris and ebola waited infront of the glass in a weird position then give us those two very loving kisses. (I hope you all can detect my tone here)

We all saw her smirk and Chris' other language fans know so well. And if his body language starts changing again we will know it's because we all discussed it and the lurkers saw. If his body language doesnt change, that's a point in the win collum of it bejng true. Go ship. So congratulations, we all believe it is now true love!

The truth is no amount of papwalks can convince us anything other than someone seriously is holding something over Chris because I dont see any other reason why he's being forced to change to sell it. Its one thing to show up places, but having them try and act more like a couple from him is also another sign that its a sham. We have what 2 years' worth of videos to watch how they interact to compare to, so stop trying to give notes it makes everyone looks worse.

Real couples don't change what they wear and how they hold hands and act based on what fans say. Why because its idotic to do so no one wants to pretend to be aomeone they're nkt and destroys relationships as you can be who you are. And while im assuming that was gunna be the break uo angle- blame it on the fans you can't this time. Why?

This time you can blame his fans because its not just his fans the gen public online isn't buying thany of this bull 💩. That is based on Instagram comments and website comments all which have been limited/turned off the ability to comment.

After Britney Spears being forced to say she's fine for media ( a totally diffrent aituation minus that she was forced to lie that she is ok) and after Will smith and Jada revealed theyve seen seperated for 6 years but pretend theyre together for media reasons, people don't believe a lot of what's 'saud' ??and they especially dont believe/m and questjjn Hollywood couples like they used to

I have been so proud of the fandom or rather what is left to getting rid of the lablels and limiting our discussions.

Regardless if its her pr team CAA's team who is not only Chris' (as they are invested and actually have a distribution type role (i forget the exact name) in her new movie i teams really just proved how fake everything is and that they are lurking otherwise why would everything we all said across milti platforms tumblr, instagram and lipstick queen was suddenly included in this walk.

Do you want us to be convinced it's really a real relationship and they are just in the media to drum up press for thier releases?

(She had a movie that opened 2 days ago over seas)

Do you want to prove they are a real couple?

Then don't release ANYTHING for the next 2 months. No pap walks no reels no photos no stories, no magazine or website blurbs or sources, and no photos carousel of even Dodger. Her movies is released in 2 more places one in the end of January. The other was supposed to be in February but when I just checked the date was removed. Othwewise I expect to see another dog and pony show on or around January 27th.

If we get nothing for two months including Valentine’s day and this included blurbs in mags/online or "sources". Putting nothing out there it will go a long way to convince people that they are a private couple and they are together.

If not and we get one as planned on or around the 27th....

The truth is that her career is a non starter in the usa/north america. Not everyone makes it here- we all have seen way too much of her and since that didnt get any media coverage of that scandle nothing will really get her talken about minus 1 thing:

a REAL break up article

His career is close to being the same. We all see how Chris looks and the diffrent man he is now. Some are still holding out hope that well once again see the man who tweeted if you hang out with racists you are a racist even a charity wants nothing to do with him and he did do a lot for them, we all see that and that. That's why chris' career will dissapear or be on the c or d list as the man who used to be thst superhwro guy. My Point is:

IF YOU CONTINUE TO USE FANS LIKE THIS he won't have a career to go back to and all you press agents will be dropped because he wont have mkney to spend on people.. people who helped his career go down in flames. The only way he'll really be talked about for more thsn 300 minutes is if there is a break up article with truths

Otherwise we'll see you both again at the end of January and Chris will be told to adjust/change what he did wrong.... at least hollywoof knows he can take direction... we'll see the photos first sent to obscure blogs/accounts, then an outlet and then apprently video follows the photos now because you are all THAT desperate

P.S. it's a great choice to have him get makeup done makeup job on He looks a lot healthier (no one is buying that he actually changed that much in such a small amount of time is he wearing the new Prada or Dior foundation?)

No need for me to add anything else... 👸 said her peace, and damn is it everything and beautiful!

[firstservepercentage]

how playing a ethnic instrument helped me to argue with airline ground staffs:

(random story alert) so yesterday i needed to take a flight and my ticket includes a max 5kg carry on baggage. and it happens to be one of those times they actually check the baggage weights (first time i actually got checked lol), but there was only one weighing scale for something like 3 queues so for the other two queues is was just a staff lifting our luggages and estimating the weight. so this bro lifted my suitcase and said: im sorry i think this is overweight. and i was like: sorry sir, this thing is defiantly less than 5kg, if there is only 3 things i know for sure in this world is would be my name my phone password and how heavy 5 kg is

because i used to play this instrument called Pipa which is like a guitar except the wood part of it is almost completely solid so it could be quite heavy, and mine weight 5kg (actually it was something like 4.8kg but close enough). and through out my 6 years of middle school and high school life we rehearsed on every monday, wednesday and friday, and on those days i had to carry this piece of 5kg almost solid wood from ground floor to level 4 via STAIRS because of course students are not allowed to use school elevators.

so yea. now i havent touched my Pipa for 5+ years and ive probably forgotten how to play notes but it seems like i remember how heavy 5kg is. at leat those hours of practicing and carrying it around did give me some useful life skill i guess???

(and i also got a bit sentimental and went to look for pics of my pipa and realised i dont have any left but i did manage to find a pic of the exact (?) same model. o the good old days)

[hcfiles]

Need to block your page now because your whining and fake outrage in Henry's tag gets on my nerves. Hollywood is Hollywood, everyone knows it's a fake world. It's not news. Your rants are nothing new, always the same boring shit. Arent you tired of repeating yourself? Nobody cares. We have way bigger Problems in the World. Many Celebrities dont even have social media (or left), they never communicate with fans in any way. Many celebrities limit their comments like Ariana Grande ( she only allows other celebrities to comment, no fans) or close comments like Blake Lively. Celebrities arent our friends, non of them and they all have a persona on social media. Its.not.news. ! That's how Hollywood works. We Henry fans can be lucky Henry is (still) on social media. A lot of fans feel that way and we are happy when he shares something with us because after all the harassment and hate we thought he might disappear for a long time or delete his IG like other celebrities did after getting harassed. Because guess what? Celebrities are humans with feelings and many of them dont tolerate disrespect and rightly so. More and more Actors are closing the comment section on IG. Maybe look beyond your little bubble and look at the bigger picture. Social media in general is toxic, especially for celebrities! The amount of hate many of them have to deal with on a daily basis is insane and can destroy the mental health of these actors, no wonder that Studios want to protect their talents from toxic fans now. It's about time! Henry could easily post random pics but it's pretty obvious he doesnt want to because hes on a social media break. And you hate that so much dont you? because he doesnt entertain you...now you have to repeat the same lame shit over and over again without getting something new to speculate and rant about. Well, suck it up and maybe go and get a hobby or something. You are boring and no I dont give a damn what you think about him. I form my own opinion about celebrities.

If you don't care, why do you mind answering the post? You ask if I'm not tired of "being repetitive". Apparently, I'm not that boring and I manage to present the same in different ways. That's why there's always an anon like you to respond. What you wrote about Hollywood is true, but nothing new. We all know that. And answering about your "hate" question, No! I don't hate him, but based on what you say, it seems HE might feel hated. Maybe, because of shame. And, he DOES entertain me, even when absent. If the posts bother you, just ignore, scroll and move on. Writing about Henry's shit show is already a hobby. And, apparently, one that bothers. I wonder why. If I were that boring, you wouldn't be here answering the post. Thank you for the attention.

[theblackfemininesociety]

A guy I’m just getting to know from a dating app but haven’t met yet we’ve just been texting said to me “let me take care of you” and I was like what do you mean? And he goes “just in general, you seem like you need someone to take care of you” idk how he would get that just from texting me…? The only thing maybe is I told him I don’t smoke weed because it makes me paranoid but?? Idk if what he said is a good or bad thing

Hey bestie!

First, we want to express our gratitude that you trusted us enough to share your thoughts and seek our advice. 💗 We truly love engaging with all of our sisters and this could not only help you but any others who seek this same advice and guidance.

Let’s talk about dating apps:

#1 Keep it real: use up-to-date pics, and don’t stretch the truth about whatever you decide to disclose on your profile. Set your limits on what you’re cool with—whether it’s chatting, dating, or something more. No pressure! Just make sure you profile sets the tone for what you are seeking !

#2 SAFETY FIRST: Don’t share your address, number, or workplace. If you want to meet up, pick a public place at a reasonable hour and take your own form of transportation (your car, uber) always! Be sure to ALWAYS share your location with someone you trust and make sure to check in.

#3 Ghosting is OKAY! : You don’t owe anyone a reply. If you're not feeling it, just unmatch and keep it moving!

#4 Listen to your intuition: If a convo feels off or gives you bad vibes, trust yourself. Your intuition knows what's up.

#5 Report Weirdos: If someone’s being sketchy or disrespectful, report them. You deserve to feel safe!

#6 Take Your Time: No rush to meet up IRL. Get to know them through texts or video chats first— we recommend you do this for about 2 months before you even consider meeting up. Again, safety and comfort over everything!

#7 Beware of the Games and Word-play: it’s a fact that a man is willing to say, act and do whatever he has to in order to enter the paradise we hold in between our legs. Be careful not to get easily persuaded and woo’d by a man’s empty promises and small gestures. While on dating apps you have to have a high sense of self-awareness, confidence and well, GAME (or rizz whatever you call it these days) dont be naïve and take what they say with a grain of salt.

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Our direct to you advice:

You haven’t told or shown this man any reason why you need to be taken care of. This may be the word play and game he gives to woman (reread #7 above) don’t read to much into it. We can tell you whether or not to accept his advances but please move with caution and stay safe!

Hope this helps ! 💋

[bbina]

here’s my situationship drama from a few years ago

this guy and i used to be bf gf but he broke up with me. but he couldn’t let me go completely i guess so we became fwb . and he started using my feelings for him. we started acting like bf gf again and he kept saying shit like maybe we can be together again, but not officially yet. and then suddenly he would be like no we are not together and we won’t ever be. it was like this back and forth, constant hope and then tearing it down to only give me hope again and again. so we weren’t together together but we did agree on not doing stuff (yk) with others, so we were still kinda exclusive?? it was weird.

he went on a trip to japan with some friends and all was well and he sent me lots of pics in the beginning but he suddenly gave shorter and shorter answers and went no contact in the middle of it. he said one day we needed to talk after he gets back and when he got back i asked about talking and he was like we have nothing to talk about. so i moved on and he was the one chasing me desperately after that but i did not give in even though i was heartbroken 💪🏻

years later when i coincidentally met his friends who were on this same trip they snitched on him and told me he went behind my back to sleep with someone there. i think he felt so guilty and thats why he cut contact so suddenly and idk it was nice to have some kind of closure with a reason on that part because i was just so lost and sad. so thats that.

this situationship lasted a year and i never felt more horrible in my life because of the constant push and pulling, don’t do it folks!!!

also user bbina feel free to use any of this as inspiration in an upcoming smau, just dont make wonbin the asshole who is pulling this shit!! 😄

- 🎀

the way he just kept you just for safe keeping in case if he wants to try again you’ll be there omfggggg im glad u moved on from that!! pls never put urself in a position like that ever again!!!

it was good u stood ur ground!!! i hope ur all healed now and happy with ur life 🎀 anon!

idt i could use this for inspo bc u might get reminded of it and i dont rlly want to do that to u 😅 but the least i could say is that the next wonbin smau.. wonbin isn’t that much of an asshole per say… we all just have to stay seated when it drops!

[frostbite-the-bat]

WHAT AN AMAZING COLLECTION !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love the dragons protecting the display OOOOOOOUGH SHARKS TEETH YEAAAAAAAAA Do you have any specific favorites? (& What about them said Pick Me to you? (i love rocks sm but have none space so i only have a lil bag of my own) )

YESS!!! THANK YUOU!!! and ofc i gotta have dragons B)

and HMMM OKAY lemme THInks

so *now* pick and buy gems at trinket stores whenver i go travelling and see any tha i just dont own yet (or if theres a piece that's really pretty to me that i DO have, but it's just unique and cool and i want it)

but back then id just..! buy whatever was Cool to me . id always buy so many at once my god

my favorites are defo my extra silly fancy lookin gems!! lemme show em here (older pics) (some are fancier bc i took them for my personal collection list google doc)

bismuth!!

these quartz! i was told they are some type of quartz! these are special to me because i got them a year ago during a school trip to germany - i only had a few euros on me and i ended up spending it all on gems. we checked out the christmas markets and there was an friendly old fellow who was selling gemstones and other things! he even had a cutter and could speak english. we chatted a bit and i listened to him talk about things (like how these lil fellas are formed. i know nothing about chemicals but i just think these things are interesting!!!! i actually get most my gems from giftshops near cave tours because i love visiting them and think it's interesting ^^

anyways he had a little box of various "rocks" that could possibly be geodes that he'd cut and see if they are! the price depended on their size. he said that i could guess with the weight and feel of the "rock" and let me pick from a few that could possible be ones. i said it didn't matter to me if it's gonna be hollow or not, since it's cool to me anyways!

so while my classmates waited and stared at me i just watched this guy cut it nicely in half like this - and he then even cut the smaller flatter piece of it, too. it was very nice! it's also where i bought the tooth, the bismuth, and some other things that i forgot as well... oops. i got a lot of gems

this shimmery pretty goldstone / aventurine glass ! wacky picture quality but i don't feel like getting new pics (+ im on pc now) (lie: i ended up getting new pics later)

. it's a man-made lil' mineral, but it's very lovely regardless! i honestly only care about the "realness" only i it's a scam of some sort. any rock, trinket, gem or mineral, man-made or not is very niceys to me. (i still want an opal tho i only got an opalite which was mislabeled. i dont think on purpose since these stores sometimes accidentally mislabel or misspell things. or use czech names which gets confusing. yeah i may have inaccurate names for some of my gems but i try my best to be accurate. im no pro im just a collector little beast)

some type of peacock ore! (either treated chalcopyrite or bornite, as i've previously written down. i'll trust my past self)

aura quartz! one of my first 3 pieces ive ever gotten that sparked my collection

all of these little fellas i bought at the same place for really cheap! filled my lil collection quite a bitso. i loves tghem. theyre like cereal To Me

in order: garnet, carnelian, emerald, tusquoise (why isnt this one in my list. oh my god how many gems did i miss. i still have a few to add that ill list on the list later that i need to re-check what gems they are. lord.) opalite, chalcedony, snowflake obsidian, obsidian (?), onyx. + not pictured an aquamarine which...? i cant find? im not checking if i put it behind a bigger gem and i cant FIND IT.

i really need to do a new and better gem list . oops. i cant always rely on my memory for these names

my EYES! in order: tiger's eye 2x, hawk's eye, bull's eye

my funny silly mosly multicolor fellas idk they fit the Vibes. i likes thgem (appreciae this secion i had to make sure and like re-identify half of these but i still could be incorrect)

in ORDER... lapis lazuli, sodalite 2x, elbaite (most likely), chrysocolla, rhodonite, blue apatite, amazonite, kyanite

dalmatian jasper and unakite

...some kinda jasper?

so ya!! thats some of my Rocks. this took a while bc i had to look what some of these are again @_@ i loaves them . todays guzma enrichment: this

[megacarapa]

new needlepoint - i want to live here so fucking bad

this is wiehler needlepoint 2317 "es klappert die mühle am rauschenden bach" (the mill rattles by the rushing brook), which i actually just now learned is named after a german children's song - its pretty cute!

i was gonna put the process pics at the end of the rant but then the rant ended up too long so here they are at the beginning, i also added the dates each picture was taken =)

this is my first wiehler needlepoint out of 5 i got from the mentors at the embroidery workshop (originally 4 but i got another one just this week), FOR FREE, which is crazy to think about since the kits for these things arent that cheap to buy, but they gave them to me bc they were just sitting around with no one planning to actually make them

needlepoint used to be more popular over here back in ye olden days and it even used to be taught in home ec class, so both my grandmas, mom and even DAD used to make them in school, which i never knew about bc by the time i was going to school home ec classes were long gone from the curriculum, which sucks because it would have been awesome to learn stuff like this as a kid

out of the 5 kits i got, this was the smallest so i decided to do it first, the rest of them get progressively bigger and bigger until the last one which is kind of mind bogglingly huge, will i really be able to finish all of these? im honestly not sure, but i dont mind the idea of having something to work on that could take me my whole life (or like, 5 years)

these needlepoints are also different from the ones ive done up til now cause instead of the picture being printed onto the cloth, here you get an empty cloth with only counting squares printed on it and you need to follow the pattern from a paper, which i already got practice for by working on that llama cross stitch and got used to with no problem

there was one thing though, this is the only kit out of the 5 that didnt actually have the standard cloth with the squares on it (there was also some string missing, so i think the thing is that someone else had already made this kit before and what i got was the leftovers), bc of that i simply bought some new needlepoint cloth and drew the squares on myself, which led to....

honey i shrunk the needlepoint, SO YOU SEE THE THING IS, i didnt check what the squares on the cloth i did get for the other kits actually looked like, i simply assumed the squares would be normal 10x10 squares like in the picture, so thats what i drew by hand, but theyre actually supposed to be 20x20, and youre supposed to do a specific stitch called gobelin stitch where 2x2 of space is considered 1 stitch, idk if im explaining any of this well but basically if i had known this and done it correctly the finished work would have been pretty much the same size as the pattern on the picture

i know all of this now and the next needlepoint ive started since then will be the correct size, but either way i think the tiny one has its own charm and looks great anyway, its adorable!! im kind of obsessed with it, the green frame also looks great and ahh i just love it sm😭

heres the back

and size comparison with my previous ones

its a little bebe needlepoint🥺

it keeps happening that at the very end when these have finally been framed, i always notice one or two squares which i forgot to fill in, but i dont really mind it, and its fun asking people to try and find them🤣 (but dont bother trying to find them yourself bc they cant really be seen in these pictures)

i also accidentally swapped the two shades of green for the tree but the shades are so similar you literally cant see it, and i also ran out of the darkest blue shade and had to buy a new one, but couldnt find one that was similar enough, so you can actually see on most of the pics that the dark blue part to the left of the tree is a darker shade than on the right, but again, who cares, i just like jotting down as much of the process as i can remember in these posts🤣

thanks for reading!!

[kurazaru]

Ive never been the first choice for someone. Ive never been anyones crush, nor will i ever be. Ive never had anyone compliment me fr my looks, coz im kindof ugly. Ive never been on someones profile pic either, not even mine lmao(except LinkedIn lololol). Am i not good enough? What am i lacking... I tried to join a discord server for venting today but couldnt find any. My fucking roommates drive me crazy. Those fuckers are so fucking ungrateful even though they use my notes and thats the only reason they even pass the midsem exams. EVERYONE is ungrateful. They use my fucking notes which i made fr myself nd have the FUCKING AUDACITY to complain abt my handwriting. Ok, if u dont like my handwriting, DONT FUCKING USE MY NOTES :) U were being a stupid dumbfuck not caring abt the future while i was in class listening nd learning. I was kind enough to share my notes with you, even though i could hv totally lied nd told i didnt take any, nd then u behave like that? Honestly this is actually way better than how my roommates treat me. I give them the notes nd help them with A LOT of stuff, and what do i get? Them talking shit abt me to my face. I fucking hate them. And fr some reason i hv become the teacher of the entire fucking college COZ WHERE EVER I GO PPL ASK ME TO TEACH THEM STUFF? I taught 4 ppl EEE from scratch, 3 ppl Maths frm scratch, and 5 PEOPLE TINKERCAD FROM SCRATCH. I ALSO NEED TO FUCKING STUDY ?????I ALWAYS END UP STAYING AWAKE LATE JUST SO I COULD FINISH MY PORTIONS ON TIME BECAUSE I WAS BUSY TEACHING OTHERS. "Well if u teach other ppl that means u should hv learnt it while teaching right?" Yes. I learn to an extent. BUT TEACHING THE SAME THING 3 DIFFERENT TIMES takes up SO MUCH TIME that i barely hv any time to do extra things, like solving more types of sums and increasing my speed, and its basically a waste of my time AND SLEEP. Istg i need a fucking break frm these idiots.

[sixerslovecoach]

i am so sad. frustrated. emotional. disappointed. not in you, in myself. i wish life was easy as fucking sports. 2 points. 3 points. rebounds. even a referee. who cares. there are no foul shots in life. i'm mad.

i'm so mad. at you. and normally my pattern is: i'm going through something and you are not here physically or socially or verbally so fuck all that mentally and emotionally and spiritually shit. it's not even a financial frustration this time. fuck money. mine, yours, ours, theirs, the entire world economy can fuck off right now.

i'm just mad. at you. so mad. so mad that i can love someone but cannot call or text or look at them and say "i love you". glad that we were in the same room and i was focused. i was doing my job. i was happy to be there. i was me. my hair was done. i had done it myself. my sneakers were new. i purchased them. there was enough money to do so and even when there wasn't, there was a man who loved me enough to give me some when i was short. he's a menace. he can be a demon. but such is life, right? because i scare all the angels. i guess. i don't know what i'm saying. it doesn't make any sense and this is the kind of rambling that can undo so many laws of manifestation or attraction or use your fucking words or whatever.

i'm mad because we are supposed to fuck or whatever. and it's just a ball and bundle of unfulfilled longing for no other reason. a year of celibacy. of not wanting to be touched or even looked at. a year of loyalty. a year of "who is that supposed to be?" like life is one big fucking game of guess who while everyone wears other people's faces and bodies as costumes. the masked singer but make it the. masked human and instead of costumes - flesh! blood? cool?!?!

i'm mad at you. i want to hate you to stop loving you for 5 minutes so i can realize that dreams do not always come true. fantasies do not always become real. and ideas, concepts, even babies do not always come to life. that you can be 105-99 or some bullshit and in the blink of an eye, you can watch everything slip away. the win. the victory. and now the opp has the audacity to ask you if you still believe in God.

why yes, i do. i still believe in God. i still believe in Love. i don't entirely believe in money. i don't entirely believe in fairness. i'm not even sure if i believe in justice when it doesn't involve the bodies of enemies falling into a river or a villain being carried away by the people who are supposed to protect us. i believe in me because that is the only thing i can rely on to be real and true every day. i don't even need to pinch myself. i exist. i don't even need to pinch you or kiss you or touch you or fuck you to know you exist. i don't need to make eye contact with you to know you see me. and i don't have to walk up to you and give you a hug or take a pic with you for you to know i am a huge fucking fan. i don't need you to take me home and rescue me. i don't need you to slide in my DMs and ask me out. i just need you, at this point, to not be evil. to not be some huge evil fucking disappointment that i believed in just so the devil could fuck with me.

i would much rather just smoke my weed and go take my stupid little fucking drug test and do whatever little fucking work that will make me money and ignore the constant door opening and closing all fucking day that comes along with a new tenant being in the buiding. silly fucking me. i should have ran up and down the hallways naked and screamed at the top of my lungs if i knew i would have neighbors already. fuck these humans and their microclingings and longings for attention that they dont even really want from me. they want it from the world as if the world was not enough and now i am some underpaid volunteer intern ass receptionist or a judge on a reality show where everyone gets approval and money and fame.

leave me the fuck alone. and that includes you. i am tired of being loved from such a long silent and invisible distance. i am tired of begging people for jobs that are essentially beneath me but being too fair and diplomatic and compassionate and humble to admit so. i'm tired of making custom resumes for corporations to reject me.

i'm tired of starting over because the old plan doesnt make sense anymore. i'm tired of not being able to take jobs because i dont have a car and they ar etoo far away. i'm tired of not focusing on my business because i am still carrying around the weight of the heavy ass truth that I DID NOT PROFIT FROM MY FUCKING PURPOSE.

i am tired of being an entrepreneur. i am tired of being a gigworker. i am tired of being everything but a fucking wife and mother. i am tired of appointments. i'm tired of spending money. i'm tired.

i hate being a woman because the one thing i want to do most requires a man. i hate you all and i want to impregnate myself.

i can fit a crib in this apartment. i can make enough money to support us both. i need $50,000 before i can even be a mom.

i hate it here. everyone can go away. including you.

but not too far. because you're the only one i trust to not be a complete fucking idiot and asshole when it matters most.

i love you. i just wish life loved me a little more.

what a fucking huge deception this has all been.

but in the end. yes.

i still believe in God.

shalom. - xo nia

(and christ is still king. whoever the fuck he is. wherever the fuck he is. even if i am christ. i dont care. fuck everybody. christ wins.)

[keefwho]

September 28 - 2023 Thursday

10:40pm

I didn't journal last night because I was up late chatting with Daisy.

This morning I had a hard time decided breakfast but I picked my last sausage pattie in a hamburger bun with a side of rice. My diet has been pretty non-varied lately so I'm trying to remember to eat something as different as possible every meal aside from my usual chicken dinner but even that might get changed up.

Stream didn't go so well. I just couldn't figure out what to work on. I'm sort of idea burnt out right now. In the past I would have been tired of the process but I feel like I can draw forever. Its just coming up with interesting ideas I actually want to do and not just the same poses and scenarios over and over. I ended stream very early, only about 30 minutes in. I also had to use the bathroom pretty bad. I felt bad about ending but also I knew that I honestly needed a break. I still do I think. I've been so focused on creating ideas that I haven't been taking in any information. I'm reverbing in my own brain. I need some fresh content to go off of.

After stream I honestly can't remember what I did. I somehow managed to kill a couple hours by doing actually nothing. Maybe watching a Twitch stream, maybe working a little bit on my room scan, and trying to find something to clean. Eventually I decided to fellate myself but I probably shouldn't have, I ended up not being very into it and because of that it took about 40 minutes.

Lunch was a few chicken fries, fish stick, and a macaroni cup. I had been looking forward to working on something while watching a stream on the side. Instead I had joined Eggs server and she showed up along with a couple of her friends. It was a nice call for the most part. Some of it was her friends nonstop narrating their OSU gameplay which rotted my brain but that stopped. For a bit it was just me and her and we share mutual feelings about being glad we bumped into each other for similar reasons. She was sort of isolating after a friend group break up and I also have very few social connections. I had been working on a halloween pic of Adora for Daisy in this call. Egg and her friend were watching and complimented me a lot which was nice, they really like my coloring brush. When I was done with the pic I left.

I felt terrible for Daisy today because of her finding out her insurance doesn't cover mental visits and also she had a bad day at work. Thats part of the reason I did the halloween pic. I didn't mean to get the whole thing done today but I thought it would make her feel at least a little better. I don't think I play myself up enough because that pic only took 2 hours. I think a lot of artist wish they could draw something so complete in that time. At this point its normal for me so it doesn't feel like anything special but I should take pride in being able to crank something out like this when it's needed.

After a little stream watching Daisy and I played Zelda together for just a little bit before her mom got home. When she hopped off my friend Will messaged and reminded me that we had planned to hang out in VRchat tonight so we did that for a bit. It was cool catching up with him even though I forgot about the plans and didn't quite feel up to socializing with someone I hadn't talked to in a decade. It was worth it though. We got him an avatar and showed him my cabin before getting crashed at a Black Cat.

Daisy and I chatted before bed as usual while I'm been Twitch gambling. I'm running another room scan alignment tonight and hoping it goes better with new settings. I dont want to settle for a lame result.

Its nearly time I try to figure out a new plan to self therapy. I've just stopped for a bit to regroup because everything kinda stopped working. I got too focused on certain things and at the same time not focused enough on others. I wasn't very coordinated in general, so much so I can't even describe exactly what the problem was. Just that I was so scattered. Whatever I try next will be more structured and focused.

I've naturally been better about feeling secure in my relationships. It might only be temporary but I've been aware of how miserable and harmful it is to not trust in my close bonds. Especially when I'm given so much reassurance. Sure I have legitimate reasons I end up feeling like this but it's still so goofy. Sometimes I just say fuck past experiences and so called trauma. I want to be happy and at least sometimes I can be.