#I need to lose weight good fucking godddddd

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I haven’t been able to take a shower this whole week I feel terrible and I wish I was dead. I don’t know why I said I would go full time at this job and I’m scared. I don’t think my life is going anywhere. I haven’t seen my boyfriend in nearly a week and I haven’t properly gotten to spend time with him for even longer like pretty much this whole month and even though he’s finally free today I couldn’t do it I told him I wasn’t feeling it and I just stayed in my room for the rest of the day still in my fucking work clothes just sitting here and I don’t know why!!!!!

[lihikainanea]

Ok so I've been having dirty thoughts and want to delve back into Bill's cum kink. What if he goes cold turkey from getting himself off for like, most of a shoot? Maybe it's taking a lot to distract himself from it, so he hasn't really been around to chat with tiger because he's spending his time at the gym or going out a lot. But when he gets home, he tells her he's been saving up for her and just fucking lets loose.

oh godddddd yes hit me harder kid. I like it.

Maybe it’s...is it for a role? Maybe Bill is playing someone really on the outskirts of society (you know, for a change. SNORT.) A total fucking recluse. And Bill gets really into his roles--like if his character is isolated, then Bill isolates himself to really get a feel for it, delve into the psyche. And that’s what he does with this role.

He doesn’t let tiger come visit. Bill is all-in on everything, and this character is very far from his happy, sociable baseline--so to really get a feel for him, Bill has to immerse himself in it. Do what his character would do. Tiger understands--she’s worried, of course, always a little concerned when he’s this maniacal--but Bill is so passionate about what he does, he’s so good at it, that she lets him just...do what he’s gotta do. It’s not her place to step in anyway, because she’d kill him if he tried to interfere with her job.

In any case, Good Dude Bill is pent up. Because he’s not even getting himself off, no no, his character wouldn’t do that--so he doesn’t do that. And all of these pent up feelings are just adding to the rage his character would feel, and every day Bill is giving it his all and it’s one of his best performances to date. He’s fucking dying, and by the time the shoot wraps he’s basically walking funny because he needs it so bad.

But at that point--look man, he’s gone this long without an orgasm, and he’s like two days away from seeing tiger. He can either cave in and get himself off--which would be mind-blowing after this draught, no doubt, but it wouldn’t be nearly as incredible as slamming into tiger and losing his fucking mind in her warm wetness. And for as much as it hurts, for as much as it feels like he’s just a walking ball of tension with a chastity belt far too tight around his dick--he’s willing to wait. Because it’ll be good but unsatisfying if he does it himself, but if he waits for tiger? The heavens will fucking open up and shine down upon him. And he’s so close to seeing her.

So he packs up his trailer, packs his bags, and he calls her to tell her he wrapped. And he’s barely spoken to her--her safe word still applies in this case, if she needs to see him or talk to him that’s all she has to say and he’ll call her, but she was doing okay and wanted him to focus on his work, so she let him disappear into it. And he swears, just hearing her voice over the phone gave him a hard on that nearly had him admitting defeat.

“I can’t wait to see you,” she says excitedly, “God just to kiss you and hug you and sniff you and get on my knees for--”

Bill grits his teeth, twists his neck until it pops.

“Stop,” he commands, and Jesus it’s harsh. Tiger squeaks a little, and goes silent.

“Tiger, I haven’t--”

“But I thought you did it yours--”

“I didn't,” he says, and he can almost hear the shock in her silence.

“Bud, it’s been like two months,” she says, incredulously.

“I know,” he grits out.

“You must be so uncomfortable,” she sympathizes and his heart softens.

“I am,” he whines, “Please tell me you don’t have any plans for like, the next week.”

“All yours bud,” she says, “Just get home to me.”

The plane ride back is torture--Bill basically has a perpetual hard on that just won’t let up. And now that he’s so close, she’s all he can think about--her warm lips, her soft skin, those little gasps of surprise he’s rewarded with whenever he does something she really likes. Her taste, her smell, everything--he’s a man insane, it’s all he can think about. His knee is bouncing uncontrollably, he’s so hard that he’s throbbing, his music is blasting, but it’s hopeless--nothing can distract him now.

And I’ll bet the minute he walks in the door, the minute he sees her standing there with a kind smile on her face, waiting for him--he’s already undoing his belt. The door isn’t even closed behind him, and his buckle is already undone. He doesn’t dare reach for her, doesn’t grab her to press her to him and kiss the hell out of her--because he’s legitimately afraid that he might bust. And that would be incredibly anticlimactic, after having waited this long.

He doesn’t even greet her, actually. Just stares her down, undoes his belt and his jeans.

“This is going to be real quick, kid,” god it’s a struggle for him to even talk, but he licks his lips as his gaze washes over her.

“That’s okay Billy,” she says, taking a few steps towards him.

“Probably none too gentle, either,” and his pants are down and off--he’s so hard it actually hurts. She just steps closer again, and then it hits him--the smell of her shampoo, the warmth radiating off of her body that is so close now--so, so close. His knees almost buckle.

“Let go bud,” she encourages, “Come on, let’s see what you’ve got.”

“Tiger--” he tries. He tries for her sake. He needs to know that she’ll safeword if it’s too much, he needs to know that at least SHE trusts him not to hurt her, because he doesn’t trust anything about himself in that moment.

“Bill,” she says and it’s surprisingly harsh, “Go for it. Now.”

And with a fucking roar, Bill dives for her. He doesn’t even make it to the bedroom, he just slams her back onto the hallway floor and takes her there. Its rough, but tiger ain’t no bitch and she can take it. Not that he needs it, but she does everything to egg him on even more--digs her nails into his back and rakes them down as he growls, grabs onto his peachy little butt and pull him forward forcefully to drive him in deeper. His release is almost immediate--just barely 2 pumps in and he’s losing it. He comes with a shout,  contorting enough to pop his back, every single muscle in him tensing at the same time and he probably punches the floor just for good measure. It lasts for a long time because there’s just uh, so much of it but tiger helps him ride it out--pulls at his hair the way he likes, keeps him buried in deep, arches her hips up towards his. When his spasms ease he probably just straight up collapses, flumps on top of her on the verge of unconsciousness, and he can’t move.

She gives him a few minutes--probably more than a few minutes, because Bill is basically just drooling onto her shoulder and he’s barely breathing--but she starts scritching at his hair softly, and he moans. She runs her hands soothingly up his back as he gets some of his wits about him again, but his full weight is still on her.

“You good?” she coos in his ear, presses a soft kiss there. Bill just groans.

“M’sorry,” he slurs, “That was--”

“Well deserved,” she interrupts. He balances some of his weight clumsily on his elbow, shaky as all hell, and rests his forehead against hers.

“Better?” she asks.

He just hums. Bumps his nose gently with hers.

“Hi, kid,” he says softly, “I missed you.”

“You just missed my--”

He cuts her off with a kiss, slow and deep, and she melts into it. And like, it probably takes him a long ass time to be able to feel his legs again, but when he can, he starts to move off of her and bring her to the bedroom--where he basically doesn’t let her leave for like, 4 days. And once he’s gotten enough of finding his release while buried tight inside her, her muscles squeezing the hell out of him and he’s just enveloped in everything warm and wet and amazing, then his other come kink kicks in. The one where he wants to see her covered in it. At her encouragement, it’s everywhere. On her chest, on her stomach--anywhere he wants, she lets him.

Bill’s so insatiable that she might ask for a small break after 4 days, just because she can’t walk anymore. Bill tries not to pout, but he’s not doing a very good job. But that’s alright. What he’s lacking in sex, tiger makes up to him in sloppy BJs.

[thethirdwheel404]

Med Rewatch Series (#16)

S3 E16: An Inconvenient Truth.

Episode description: After taking the lead on a surgery, Dr. Bekker feels the heat after something goes wrong. Dr. Manning and Dr. Charles are faced with a tough decision concerning the gender of a 9-year-old girl.

YOOO okay. Big Ava ep, ig. Also, in the previous breakdown I talked about how Ava seems to be losing her confidence, which leads directly into this ep, the prophesized panic attack/breakdown episode. How exciting. I will say, good lead in, from the previous episode.

Let’s get into it.

- connor will bromance is tops

- maggie waiting for sarah by the elevators, tapping the charge phone anxiously. nice of her. she cares.

- sarah just... watching. from the outside. it’s so interesting. bc most people whose fmaily members are getting worked on are emotional, and sarah is, but she also knows a good deal. just the... little signs of anxiety. the way her eyes just scan the scene

- sarah not going up with them

- sarah doing mental calculations, you can see it. trying to figure out if its worth ‘it’

- personally, no, bc getting close to him means inevitably leaving chicago and ava so

- connor covering for sarah. chef’s kiss. good for him

- noah trying to help sarah is nice, and funny, and a little exhausting.

- sarah in the basic white top. v professional

- noah’s ‘yes sir.’ respect the patient. (especially bc april knows him)

- OOOO AVA WITH ROLLED UP SLEEVES hahaha wowwww

- i just took a very deep breath

- ava smiling and poking fun at connor. you love to see it.

- god their back and forth is just fantastic

- connor: “are you rooting for my success?”

- ava: “not at all, i just hate winning by default.” - the way she enunciated that so deep!

- she’s confident again (that will change)

- why must she suffer. i am so scared

- god, everytime she’s on screen, i’m just like.. . <3<3<3

- ava sits back and lets them talk. let’s them set the details of the case, before she gives her two cents

- oh god she’s gonna mess up i am so fucking scared to see her like that

- like excited too but still

- AVA SUBTLY ROLLING HER EYES AT CONNOR DISAGREEING WITH HER. RAISING AN EYEBROW

- ava being so cocky with connor. it’s what she deserves

- ava immediately accusing connor of messing up? dare I say,,, defense mechanism.

- maggie telling noah to back off. good.

- the tremble in ava’s voice when she realizes it’s her suction cup, and her trying to push forward

- ava lashing out at connor

- the shake in her voice as she pushes herself as far as she can w/o breaking in the surgery

- she cannot get out of there fast enough

- aw no she’s sad

- if they kiss rn i’m gonna jump off a bridge

- GOD SAD AVA HITS SO HARD

- like, just everything. the way she leans against the lockers -

- connor misreading ava so hard. thinking she’s worried about her reputation, when really she just almost killed her patient. she cares about her patient’s well being, not her rep.

- this story where noah pretends to be this patient’s son is actually such a good moment. he’s a good guy.

- sarah being floored by this act of kindness

- sarah and her backpack again!

- sarah and noah talking is nice. know why? bc he is the only person she interacts with regularly that isn’t charles. she actually gets to have a conversation w/o ungodly amounts of stress and weight on her. she gets to smile! thank god for that

- ava, standing in latham’s office, tense, arms held behind her, standing at attention. (you can obviously tell that she’s anxious)

- connor trying to take the fall for ava. come on. (okay, you can make the argument that he knows his rep will carry him through. using his privilege for good?)

- and the annoyance (or confusion, i can’t tell) on her face

- YOOOO WHAT. THAT IS LIKE THE FIFTH TIME SHE’S OPENED THE DOOR FOR HIM. okay come on what is this pattern i’m seeing. honestly. this is insane

- GODDDDDD the adorable little shoulder bump?!?!?! bros to the max. that is adorable holy shit

- her small little smile (at this point i don’t even have to point it out, it’s pedantic)

- this ava/connor interaction and banter is peak

- william is an idiot

Okay. Honestly, not as big of an Ava ep as I thought. What did we get to see? Well, we saw what happens when she messes up at work, when she experiences a lot of stress/anxiety. This was specifically related to the well being of her patient and her not trusting (to an extent) her own abilities. Oddly enough, the anxiety resolved itself, so i don’t think there are any loose threads.

This ep did contribute to Connor’s hero complex, as well so...

We got to see Sarah have a positive conversation with Noah, which means she smiled, which is always good.

Specific to the rewrite, I don’t really see any details that need to be overwritten. All the storylines in this episode were really good, not that messy at all. So...

At the most, this ep gave us Ava under anxiety, panicking. But not so much as to make impulsive decisions. This actually wasn’t really a panic, it was more fear. she was scared of her abilities, of her mistakes. (I argue that under anxiety, high stress, not necessarily fear, she makes impulsive decisions, like sleeping with Connor, which I argued in a previous post). That is what happens under anxiety. Under fear, she starts to panic, breaks down.

So, yeah, if you believe me and think that she only slept with Connor out of anxiety, then now we’ve seen two sides of Ava’s negative thoughts. This has actually been good work

thanks for stickin with it. i am so sorry.

[tumblunni]

Bunni continues to play Monster Rancher Advance 2! And generally not enjoy it as much as the first advance, though i can kinda blame it on the fact the first advance trained me to get used to a bunch of differences from regular monster rancher and now thats all gone again :P ANYWAY, ONWARD!

* Its a shame that the training coach system’s revamp makes it so much harder to actually achieve it now. i feel so guilty that my first monster Wrigley didnt quite make it! And like.. fusion isnt even WORTH it anymore! if I fused my high stats Wrigley with another high stats monster then all I get is the base stats version of that fusion, it doesnt carry over AT ALL! And it doesnt even let you carry over Traits like MRA1 did. And retiring a monster just seems to be like another name for deleting them, so I just have Wrigley frozen in the hibernation lab forevermore now. I DONT WANNA LET HIM GO! I do feel guilty for giggling slightly at the fact he’s got that cold minty freshness now XD

* Oh, and the ‘nobody dies anymore’ thing has been rebalanced now. In MRA1 you could just continue going forever with your retired monster, you just couldnt raise its stats anymore. (Tho you could still LOSE stats, so that was kinda awkward) Now you cant do anything with your retired monster except rest and give it items, and then send it to retirement/coaching class. BUT because of that change, I didnt realise Wrigley had as little time as he did, and I didnt manage to do that final tournement in time. :(

* For some reason the ‘SPECIAL’ training has been renamed to ‘Sparring’ training even though its exactly the same thing. And its called Errantry in every other game. I DUNNO LOL Also Loyalty has become Reliance, and now the E rank tournement has returned from Monster Rancher 2. (This is part of why its harder to reach teacher rank now)

* A funny glitch that may have possibly fucked up my ability to complete the main story, I HONESTLY DON’T KNOW?? Okay, so.. in MRA1 there was an annoying thing where you could still ‘use’ unuseable items, and they’d be gone forever with no effect to your monster. I lost 5000 gold due to this, the badly translated item descriptions meant I didnt even know that the Silver Cup passively reduces stress when you keep it in your inventory... In MRA2 you now actually get a ‘this is unuseable’ message when you select them! BUT... there’s one random specific circumstance where the game doesnt check for this. Sometimes when your monster is upset with a choice you’re making, it’ll say ‘[Name] would rather [suggested action]’. This time it SOMEHOW came out with ‘Wrigley would rather eat [magic amulet key item]’?? And I was just mashing thru the text and didnt realise it until I’d already hit yes! I really hope this doesnt come back to bite me in the ass later...

* Oh and there’s now a cool rival guy character! I’ve gained three rivals so far but he’s the most actually a rival. Can I just say the plot works a LOT better with actual other monster trainers as characters?? Seriously. THANKE! Why on earth was I even fighting in these tournements last time, lol... Anyway, here’s Mr Bishie Mysterious Jerk Rival:

* There’s also another rival who has more of a story role.. or uhh.. maybe I’m not able to get bishie man story scenes anymore cos i lost the key item, lol Anyway, he’s a younger cutie patoot rival who’s actually on your level as another rookie, rather than being an asshole adult randomly picking on kids. (No seriously, bishie man is introduced as a dude who’s ATTACKING OTHER RANCHES and then he’s just instantly forgiven??) lil rival boy is a bit competitive and grumpy but its just cos he (understandably) feels like you’re cheating by having the legendary holly as your mentor. But then when you battle him he realises youre actually a worthy rival and then you become Kinda Friends I Guess? I like him!

* Also your third rival is GRANDPA Seriously, you literally just fuckin.. find a wild grandpa starving in the cold and take him in. And he says he’s gonna repay you by giving his monsters as free tutors for a certain period of time, but for the life of me I COULD NOT FIND any way to unlock them in the tutor screen! But this was back when I was first learning all these new systems to maybe I just messed up somewhere? Anyway, after a certain amount of time he’s all ‘I’m proud of you, you dont need me anymore, i’m gonna go join the tourneys too cos you inspired me to get back out of retirement’. And its kinda sad that he leaves :( I WILL MAKE U MO PROUD, MYSTERY FOREST GRANDPA I STILL DONT KNOW WHERE DE FUCK U CAME FROM

(Clarification: he is not saying this about you but about the jerkass bandit you just fought off.)

(This is the jerkass bandit you just fought off)

(It is TOTALLY unfair how the game throws you immediately into a battle with him as a tutorial to the exploration system! I literally got this as the first thing with my new monster after Wrigley, I just got lucky enough with the RNG that all his attacks missed and I somehow survived!)

* Random fun highlight of Wrigley’s short career: winning an all bunnies league.

* I really don’t like the random addition they made of a ‘counter system’, though. Apparantly this was an addition made in Monster Rancher 4 for the PS2? It wasnt very liked there either, but this is an absolutely TERRIBLE port of it into a modified game engine that was never designed to include it. In the PS2 game each move is assigned to the four face buttons, and you press one of those to choose which move to counter. Its still not very good cos you only have a 1 in 4 chance of it working, and the AI is completely random anyway so it’s only predictable in 2 player mode. but they somehow made it EVEN WORSE in this version, cos the moves ARENT mapped to buttons yet you still have to input a button combination with a 1 in 4 chance! You have to awkwardly try and hit B and one of the directional buttons simultaneously, and there’s no way to know which random direction the AI picked, and just... GAHHH The only good thing is that you can still play the game perfectly fine without ever using it, and the AI is equally likely to fuck up. I only saw a successful AI counter ONCE after raising three monsters! Anyway, look at this dumbass who failed a counter and smacked himself in the head for 220 damage as soon as the fight started.

* My second monster was kinda awesome, i lucked out and got a rare monster from random tablet regeneration! Its the only Antlan type that I actually like, cos its unique colouration makes it look more like a giant skull thingie. Woo!

* His name was Heartbreak! He didnt have many spectacular adventures along his way, just managing to become a coach for future generations. I mean, he didnt break my heart, so it turned out better than expected XD I’m sorry i didnt have faith in you, lil buddy! THIS GAME IS STILL REALLY DAMN HARD THO

* i haaaaaaate the changes to the coaching system I HAAAAAAAAATE dear fuckin GODDDDDD now you have to keep paying a salary every half a year or you lose your coaches forever all your memories of your past monsters dont have enough for one payment and they NEVER COME BACK T_________T I’ve been savescumming a lot more in this version of the game, there’s a lot of bullshit chances to lose everything... And like.. they kinda wanted to make a good change by letting you hire governement-funded coaches if you cant train your own. but their prices are so ludicrously high and the most powerful one just has 300 in two stats and 600 in one. Your own monsters are always gonna be better than that, and you’d need to raise a few monsters to even get enough money anyway! So yeah just.. fuck this system, seriously, dear god. I still had complaints about it last time, but i was more forgiving cos it was a new change to the formula and all, but this is just making it worse in every possible way...

* Its also very annoying that we have a lot more items in the game but all their descriptions are badly translated. I have NO CLUE what the whole second page is about! ‘Its a cake’, ‘its a candy’, ‘its a meat dish’. Even stuff that had descriptions last time doesnt! You’d never know that ‘smoked newt’ lowers your monster’s ‘spoiled’ status! I mean, at least you could kinda assume that the cake raises it, if you’re getting too strict? I think? Cos I thought maybe the cake is for raising weight like the diet pills are for lowering it, but I can never get it to actually do that. the weight system is so unintuitively awkward! Any choice you make will change it wildly while your monster is a baby, and then as soon as they hit maturity its nigh impossible to change it! And its really hard to keep pushing it back and forth to keep the middle for whenever the maturity flag pops up, cos its not even set to happen on their birthday or anything. And being fat or thin causes gigantic debuffs because WHY NOT! Weirdly enough the raising style doesnt seem to do that anymore, its just like the chance of them running away, and a (never actually explained) small chance of lowering their overall lifespan every time you drift away from the medium.

* But anyway, I AM glad that now your strict/spoiled meter actually does exist in the menu again! It was definately still actually a part of the mechanics in MRA1, you’d still get stress and disobedience and stuff and just not be able to know when you were getting close to it. But MAN is it unforgiving this time... its always been the most difficult thing to manage but seriously... but seriously I am glad its at least in the menu...

* HOWEVER... i have no idea what the personalities do!! There’s now a thing on the menu above the spoilt/strict menu that says stuff like ‘hot headed’ or ‘medium’. And it never seems to change throughout their whole lifespan, so it seems to be like a personality or nature value? Does it actually affec anything? is it like pokemon and it means its easier to train a certain stat?

* Also there’s now the ability to get ill and go to the doctor. Its mostly pointless as its just like.. okay now you get TWO potential punishments for being too strict- monster can run away OR get sick. And running away just means you have to wait a few months and lose training time til they return, but instead sickness is like a debuff that halves your gains in a certain training. Its surprisingly in-depth, they give you a full diagonosis of a random illness and some made up medicines you need to take to fix it.

* ...do you really get anemia from being malnourished? i thought it was genetic only?

* And then ALAS I didnt manage to get any screenshots of my third monster while I was actually training her. I coulda sworn I did?? But it seems I forgot, so have a pic of her as a training coach

(for some reason special monsters get an ugly red background in status screens)

* She was actually surprisingly useful as my designated Explorer monster! It just sucks that you have to rank up in combat tourneys to unlock exploration areas, and you have to do it AGAIN every time you get a new monster. I didnt realise this so i trained her with an exploration-focused moveset and had to blunder thru the tourneys like a total mess. Errantry/Special/Sparring is now also based around combat stats, your chance of gaining a skill is greatly reduced if your stats are lower than the tutor, even if you win the fight! And if you dont, its fuckin impossibleeeee! So I couldnt even gain more skills to fight the skill tutor to gain more skills, GAH! Am I supposed to assign my own tutors here who have terrible stats?? But then the stat gains I get would be low too! So yeah, an intelligence based monster and I never managed to get a single intelligence skill in her entire lifespan. ALAS!

* Oh and Exploration is also REALLY WAY TOO HARD AND UNBALANCED AND  HARD Well I mean.. its not??? But it is??? Its actually got much smaller stat requirements than in MR on PS1, and the chance of getting nothing when you inspect a ruin is much lower. But the odds of the MOST HATED STUPID MECHANIC are way higher, and it seems that there isnt ANY stat that affects it, its totally random with no way to avoid! See, sometimes randomly when you’re exploring you can get lost. this ends the exploration immediately and you lose every item you’d collected. COMPLETELY AT RANDOM. NO WAY TO AVOID. keeps fuckin happening at the end of my 500 HP long 50 items gathered super sessions with super Rina the kitty of joy and hugs so I just ended up savescumming every time it happened, its too bullshit to be allowed to exist! Rina earned around 30000 or so Gold during her lifespan, and I was able to get the barn upgrade to keep bigger mons. And she also found the item that unlocks Monol monsters. Yay!

* So yeah thats the end of my gameplay today, and I didnt really enjoy it as much as the last one. The weird new gameplay decisions are a part of it, but also because of just HOW MANY monsters are locked behind various sidequests, and how you have no clue how to get half of them. Last time they were all just tournements you had to beat, now there’s bullshit like raising five monsters of specific species to master rank and sending them to certain exploration areas to find orbs... And like, with the inability to carry over traits and stuff, and the smaller amount of fusions, you cant even make a particularly customized monster out of the ones you can start with. So its just les fun to wait to open up all the options. And there doesnt feel like much incentive to even do it anyway, its not like most of them were locked away because theyre stronger. There’s loads of stuff that was a starter monster last time and there’s just no reason you have to save up a titanic amount of 20000 just to get the weird rhino motorcycle i got by typing my own name in the game last time... But ehh, I might play again anyway? I dunno. Later. Much later.

* BUT I STILL LOVE MY SWEET MONSTER FRIENDOS love and hugs list of all the bebs: Jade the Golem/Lesione, Carole the Momo/Zan, Kyubi the Zan/Mocchi, Dandelion the special albino Lesione, and Diva the special albino Dragon and now Wrigley the Hare/Lesione, Heartbreak the special albino/halloween variant Antlan, and Rina the special albino Mew that looks more like nidorina hence the name ...I’m only just realizing that I tend to like the albino variants the best. I guess maybe its cos they look more normal and dont tend to have overpowered stats or anything. Except the albino dragon which was the strongest one in the first game, hence why I picked it when I just gave up and wanted to brute force my way to the ending... ANYWAY THEY ARE ALL CUTE AND YOU WILL APPRECIATE THEM

* ok bunni go play different games now

* also bunni go try and learn how to draw these monsters, yo

[lihikainanea]

I'm in a Soft Bill mood. Thinking about him tracing tiger's shoulders and neck with the tip of his nose, breathing on her skin, the occasional soft kiss to her pulse points, warm hands on her hips, etc. He wants to see how wet he can get her without touching her overtly sexually. And of course she starts to beg, but he's not having it. ❤beth

GODDDDDD BISH I--

Siiiiiiigh.

I am so soff for this. Look, I have run my mouth to hell and back over how much I think Bill really just finds his comfort in touch. In much of the same way that tiger has no idea that she’ll always try to pacify her oral fixation whenever she’s uncomfortable in any way--Bill literally has no idea that he’s so grounded in touch. Or maybe he kinda knows, but he doesn’t know the depth of it. But that’s all just soft touching, right? He’s not trying to work her up.

NOW. I have like, two scenarios for this alright--one where Bill just really needs to feel her soft skin under his fingertips so he’s just doing it for him, and one where he’s being a total fucking bastard and he KNOWS damn well how much he's working her up.

So listen--somehow I can never get rid of this image of these two idiots snug in bed, the room bathed in moonlight, and tiger is knocked out. Maybe jet lag really affects the tall boi, maybe he’s had a lot on his mind, maybe he’s nervous about a few upcoming auditions or can’t handle the suspense of waiting on the callbacks from recent auditions. Either way, Bill is up and he’s bug-eyed. Wide awake. And tiger is facing away from him because sometimes she scoots away from him in her sleep if she’s too warm, but she always finds her way back. Bill never particularly notices because usually he’s asleep too but that’s not happening tonight. So tiger is on her stomach, facing away from him, and about half an hour ago she sent a feeler hand out to pat for him because she couldn’t feel him. He smiled, resting his hand close to where hers was reaching blindly so that she’d find it--and she did. She sloppily plunked her hand in his giant paw, made a happy little grumble, hell she probably even shot a leg out and just draped it over his--and then she’s snoring again.

Maybe the blanket is pooled around her hips. She’s naked so her beautiful back is on display, looking soft and supple, and Bill just...he can’t even help it. Reaching a tentative hand out he just barely brushes his fingertips along her back--just a whisper, really. Along her shoulder blades, down her spine, across her lower back, back up again across her rib cage. Just over and over again. And eventually, because he’s paying less attention, eventually he starts to touch with just a tad more pressure. Maybe he leans in closer, rests his cheek on her pillow, so now his warm breaths are being fanned across her back. Tiger probably woke up after a few minutes of this, but she’s not going to disturb him--because if he knows that she’s awake, then he’ll stop, he’ll get embarrassed, he’ll apologize for waking her up. And she can tell by his breathing--which is damn near meditative--that he’s getting a lot from this. So maybe she pretends to be still asleep, so he can get his fill.

And it’s so gentle, so rhythmic. So soft. Just over and over again, his hand runs all over her back. He’ll probably press a few gentle kisses there--god so, so, gentle.

But here’s the thing. Tiger has such a thing for Bill’s hands, you know? Because they’re always warm, but never clammy. They’re so big compared to her own, but they’re also so gentle. So kind, so fucking comforting. And waking up to those glorious hands all over her bare skin, his breath on her back, his soft lips pressing gentle kisses to her sensitive skin--after just a few minutes, tiger is on fucking fire. And god she doesn’t want to disturb him, she wants him to keep doing this for as long as he needs, but she’s gritting her teeth because Jesus she’s getting wet. And she knows he’s not doing this to work her up, but she can’t help it. And it gets a little too much and she can’t help it anymore, she stretches her legs, maybe arches her hips a little into the mattress for some friction, lifts her head and peers sleepily at him.

“You’re killing me, bud,” she sighs. Bill retracts his hand, a look of regret on his soft features.

“I’m sorry kid, I didn’t mean to wake you,” he says. And maybe he hasn’t quite clued in yet, until tiger lets out a bit of a breathless sigh, a soft moan really, as she arches her hips again.

“It’s okay, it’s a nice way to wake up,” she says, “But god I need to...would you mind if I...”

It’s kind of new territory. She knows Bill didn’t mean to work her up and he was probably just looking for some affection so now she feels little bad that she’s basically already a fucking mess for him--but she also doesn’t want him to feel like he needs to take care of it now. Homegirl can do it on her own and hell, he can watch, No problem.

“Oh,” he murmurs softly when he realizes, “Oh. I uh...sorry, I..”

“Yeah,” she chuckles lowly, and still on her stomach she reaches down but a gentle hand on her bicep stops her.

“I’ll do it for you tiger,” he offers with a kiss to her shoulder, “Flip over.”

She does, resting on her back and pushing her knees apart.

“I can--” she stops when he gently pushes two fingers into her mouth to wet them, dragging them down her chest.

“I know you can,” he murmurs, and she sighs when his fingers dance low on her stomach, “But let me do it for you.”

He pushes her thighs further apart, maybe hitching one of her knees over his legs. He balances his weight on an elbow, his other hand lightly in her hair to scratch at her scalp.

“Comfy?” he asks, and she nods as she arches her hips up just a little.

“Good,” he says, and then his fingers--long and slender and fucking beautiful--are stroking through her soaked folds, so gently. It’s embarrassingly how easily he can get her off with just his hands but he loves it, she’s so easy for him and so receptive to everything he does.

BUT THEN LIKE ALSO. Bill being a total bastard right? God, what’s the scenario here....half of me likes the idea that tiger is legitimately tied the fuck up. Face down on the bed, because her sass level was just way too high. So he ties her to the headboard and then settles in for his usual night time reading, and as he’s reading he’s just letting his touch kind of...linger. And it’s absolutely done with intent. He’s just stroking over her back softly, tutting or harumphing whenever he reads something funny or thoughtful--and tiger is straight up losing her fucking mind. She’s trying to arch her back into him, but all that makes him do is stop his movements. She pouts. Writhes. Actually tries to kick the book out of his hands. And all Bill does is just keep is steady and slow, soft, caressing. And when every ounce of sass leaves her body, when she is finally sweet and begging for him, whining and apologizing--then he’ll just reach over to turn off the light, get settled in under the blankets, put a hand on her butt and promptly fall asleep.