#I nearly feel like this one was tough love from me ahahaha

[fandxmslxt69]

hello beloved!!! <3

13, 18, 26

oh my gosh my love!!! hello dearest <333

13. How many siblings do you have? Are you oldest, middle, or youngest?

UGHHHH. Lmao. Uuuh I have 3 siblings, two brothers and a sister- I'm the oldest!!! Tough tough job let me tell you. It's fun I guess, because I've got dirt on everyone and I'm one less for my parents to worry about. But it's also kinda tragic cuz I feel held to such a standard my siblings see me as enemy #1 because I "get everything I want". I mean YEAH I more or less do but consider: my work really hard to collect enough Parent Points to get my stuff soooo really it's their fault :/ NOT TO SOUND DRAMATIC but its also kinda tragic cuz like between me and my younger sister is nearly a whole lifetime. My youngest brother is in that horrible middle school boy phase, and the older one is so distant I think he'll ditch the family as soon as he can. Also- lmao the anger issues that run in this household!!!

ANYWAY THIS GOT OFF TOPIC (love chatting abt sibling dynamics) but yeah, 3 siblings, I'm the oldest, it's such a blast I would not trade this life for anything.

18. What's the most expensive thing you've ever bought?

Stares at my bookshelf that has over 3k dollars worth of books. uuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hmmmmm. I mean, other than my books, my mom usually buys me most of my stuff. Like no yeah sure I go clothes shopping but she's always there cuz a) i cant make choices and b) i cant be trusted with a credit card and c) i dont have my own money ahahaha. So ummm yeah, most expensive thing has to be my books (bought a book once for 30 bucks.) or my computer/laptop/thing (200 bucks, but it was my dad who got it sooooo) I mean I have clothes that were rather expensive like coats and shoes, but I never bought that stuff with my own money (has never worked a real job in her life other than library tutoring) so my books are the #1 i guess.

26. Do you believe in second chances?

Hm. If it's an honest, little mistake, sure. But if it's something bigger? My pride won't let me. My mom drilled it into me pretty young. Funny enough I got pushed around pretty easily growing up, and I didn't really know how to say no (most of that was due to being thrown into an environment in which i a) could not speak nor understand the language and b) i was. well. Not White and thought I had to appease everyone so no one could pick on me). Anyway yeah my mom drilled it into me that second chances had to be earned and only for the right things. STORY TIME!!! Gosh oh gosh okay, so I got pushed back a couple years in school when we first moved to Canada, hence why I'm so behind on everything. When I (finally) hit 5th grade, I remember I made 2 good friends. One of them, my parents were friends with her parents, the other was this nice white girl whom friend A had known for a very long time. I was kindly invited into their group (I'd known them for about a year or so but was never very close) and I tagged along! It wasnt unusual, since we lived in a small area and went to the local school, so pretty much the entire grade knew each other and we (the 20 smth kids) were always in the same class together for a solid 3 years. Anyway, these girls were fun and we had a good time but shit went DOWN and it kind of fucked me up real bad. I still think abt it to this day. Long story short they spread shit abt people in their little diaries and the teachers caught them and they thought I was apart of it but TURNS OUT I was the CENTER of the shit talking and to this DAY, nearly a decade later, my parents refuse to tell me about any of it. I gave them quite a few chances before and after bc we had some fights, and in the end it like just. it humiliated me completely. Anyway lmao um um um yeah, ever since that shit I kind of stuck to avoiding second chances.

If it's not deserved, it's not happening. They're cut from my life immediately. I simply refused to let myself be put in that same vulnerable position again. So no, I don't really believe in second chances. If it was an honest mistake, a misunderstanding, miscommunication or something harmless, I'm okay. It's fine, it'll wash over. But most other shit? Man I can't handle it at ALL. My pride genuinely won't let me. I'll end up burning all the bridges in anger before I even consider it.

UMMM THAT WAS LONG WOW but im tired and idc anymore. WHOOPS

THANKS FOR THE ASK AMPHI i love you :D

[becca-e-barnes]

Hi Becca 💖

Hope you're having a lovely day and you're healthy and well hydrated 💕

I'm sorry to bother you, but you seem such a great person and your blog is kind of a safe space to me and I really feel the need to vent about something and I don't really have anybody to talk about this to so..here I am

Oof okay uhm I have this kind of a crush thing for a neighbor who's like...a little bit older than me :/ okay no he's considerably older than me, he's in his late (really late) 30s and I'm turning 23

I am like totally aware of the risks of the whole thing but I mean, I barley know him and we've never spoken to each other, so it's not a big deal. Hell we'll probably never interact. I'm about to move out of my city and it's just a stupid crush, really. It's just the feelings I have on the whole thing what really makes me feel awful.

Because I feel terribly judged, although nobody knows about this thing. And I don't know, maybe it's just my daddy issues but if it happened once, it can happen again in the future. And what if, in this hypothetical future, I fall bad for somebody who's almost twice my age? What would I do? Of course I'm not naive and I always have to know somebody well before deciding to commit in a relationship. But it scares me to death. Not only because of the age gap but also the consequences of it. Especially what people would think or say. I'm scared they would think I'm some kind of a whore or something or that I'm gross or disgusting.

I've always thought that as long as both parts are consenting adults and they just get well with one another, then it's not a big deal at all. Especially if the relationship is healthy and loving. But now that I'm living this kind of situation, I really don't know how to act nor what to do.

Now that I know that this is actually a possibility for me to happen in the future, I'm terrified. God what would my parents even say? My whole fucking family.

If you have some thoughts or opinions, perhaps advice, please please share them with me 🙏

Of course you can absolutely ignore this if you don't feel comfortable about the whole thing!!

Thank you anyways 💖🙏

Sweetheart!! It sounds like you have your poor brain working overtime on this! 🙈

I hope I get my point across properly here but it sounds like you’re stressing about a situation that hasn’t even happened yet and might not ever happen! While yes, things might be difficult for you if you pursued something with your neighbour right now but that’s not the situation you’re in!! (If that makes sense?) It just seems like you’ve thought about this so much you’ve worked yourself up into a state about it!!

So first of all, take a deep breath! 💗 don’t let the fear get the better of you because things are absolutely fine right now and that’s what you should be focusing on! You can’t preempt a hugely negative response from your family or anyone else on a hypothetical situation because if you did that for everything in life, you’d never get out of bed in the morning!

But looking forward to a situation where you maybe do meet an older man and decide to have a relationship with him, the reactions might not be as bad as you think! Sure some people might take time to warm up to the idea but eventually things will work themselves out!!

Your family and friends love you and just want you to be happy so I’m sure if they saw you in love with this man, they wouldn’t give a single shit. His age shouldn’t be their priority. Their priority should be your happiness! I bet once your family meet him or see you together and they realise you truly are happy, they’ll come around!

And if not (hypothetically), you might need to consider their priorities and weigh some stuff up. If your family aren’t supportive of a situation where you’re loved and appreciated for the sake of their own appearances, that says a whole lot more about them than it does about you. But that’s not something you need to worry about until you’re in that situation!! Don’t catastrophize about it because those aren’t the shoes you’re in!

Chase your fucking happiness boo! Life is too damn short to worry about the “what ifs”. I’d hate to see you talk yourself out of a great situation with someone just because you’ve stressed yourself out endlessly!

And you do seem really aware of the dangers of dating an older man so I won’t go into that but he could be really fucking amazing too!! And if you do ever find him, ask him if he has any hot friends he can send my direction, male or female idc 😂 I hope this helped a little! 💗

[dialovers-translations]

DIABOLIK LOVERS MORE, MORE BLOOD Vol.13 Kino [Track 5 + Epilogue]

Original title: 箱庭の旋律 & エピローグ

Source: Diabolik Lovers More, More Blood Vol. 13 Kino [CD not owned by me]

Audio: Here (48:01 ~ 64:58)

Seiyuu: Tomoaki Maeno

Translator’s note: D A M N. Just like most MMB CDs, the main part of the CD ends with somewhat of a cliffhanger/bittersweet note. However, I would definitely rank this CD as one of my favorites in the series despite not having much attachment to Kino as a character! I’m super curious about his Another Story track so I’ll have to look for the audio of that one! If I find it, I’ll be sure to translate it for you guys as well!

Track 1 ll Track 2 ll Track 3 ll Track 4 ll Track 5 + Epilogue

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Track 5: Melody of the Miniature Garden

*Rattle*

“...Haah. Not this one either, huh? The next door’sーー”

You try and walk over to the next door but nearly collapse.

*Rustle*

“...Hey!”

Kino catches you just in time.

*Thud*

“You’re shaky in your steps...! You can’t walk any more. ...It can’t be helped, so let’s just take a small break for now.”

You try and act tough.

“...’Fine’, you say? Listen up, you don’t look that way at all. Why not just admit you’re having a hard time? It only causes extra trouble when you overexert yourself.”

You say sorry.

“Ah, no! I wasn’t trying to get you to apologize! ...Haah, it sucks how I end up taking out my anger on you. I have to admit, this situation has got me pretty freaked out as well.”

*Rustle*

“...Haven’t you been pushing yourself? I’ve been thinking you see...A human body’s fragile, unlike mine. On top of that, it’s my fault...things turned out this way.”

You shake your head.

“Look at you being way too nice for your own good again...I’m obviously to blame. It’s fine for you to get mad at me for getting you involved, you know?”

You comfort Kino. 

“That’s...Well, you’re right that I didn’t know this would happen. So in a sense you could say it is a case of force majeure. Honestly...Even in the most dire of situations, you never change, do you? I hope we can quickly find our way out and get to enjoy a nice, relaxing break at home. Just the two of us, while snacking on some konpeito.”

You agree.

“Makes sense. You want to get out of here as soon as possible as well, don’t you? In that case, let’s try our hardest to keep walking, okay?”

You get back on your feet.

“...As to be expected, you’re still shaky in your step and your complexion is pale as well. No matter how hard you try, you must be nearing your limit.”

*Cling*

“It’ll be hit or miss...But guess I should give it a shot.”

Your eyes widen in shock.

“I’d rather never use this cursed item again either but let’s use this to rewind time. If we go back to before we arrived at school, we should effectively make it out of this maze, right?”

You seem worried.

“I know! If this ‘bug’ gets any worse, then we might actually...But you know, if we stay here like this any longer, you’ll be in danger. Not just physically, but mentally as well, right? ...I’m sure you’re more than fed up with this suffocating place, aren’t you? It’s fine, I don’t need to hear your reply. It’s written all over your face. Let’s use this...to return home. And then, I’ll never use it again. I’m going back to my dull school life...!”

*Tick tock - Tick tock - Tick tock - Tick tock*

ーーー

“...!? We’re not at home...!? ...How come!? Why the broadcasting room...!?”

*Cling*

“There’s still magical energy left inside, so why did it fail!? Don’t tell me...Because this space has been distorted as well?”

You gasp.

“Eh...? What’s wrong?”

You point towards the wall. 

“...!! You’ve got to be kidding me. ...Why are there this many doors!? The whole entire wall is covered in them! On the ceiling...and even the floor as well!? What is going on...!? It’s gotten even worse than before!? Fuck...!!”

He rushes towards the ‘exit’.

*Rattle*

“Kuh...! It’s a hallway after all...”

*Rattle*

“This one too...!”

*Rattle*

“...What is going on!? Why are there hallways running even underneath the floor!? ...I guess I shouldn’t have rewinded time after all. We can’t return home either and now space has been even more distorted...! Why did things turn out like this!? ...Is it because I turned back time too much? Because I...used that Hourglass? Because of me...”

You start shivering.

“...!! Are you okay...? You’re shaking...Are you crying?”

Kino approaches you. 

“...Say. You don’t have to cry? I’m here with you. I’ll definitely fix this somehow! So...”

You suddenly burst out in laughter.

“...Eh? Why are you laughing...?

You start destroying the room in a frenzy.

*THUD*

*SHATTER*

“...Hey! Get a hold of yourself!

You press the ON button.

*Bzzzzzzzt*

“...Why did you turn that on!?”

Kino swiftly turns it off again.

“Look at me...!”

*Rustle*

“Get a grip! ...What exactly is so funny!?”

You tell him you are having so much fun.

“Hah...? What are you saying? How could you describe this as ‘having a fun school life’...!? This isn’t enjoyable in the slightest!”

You insist.

“Why do you keep on spouting nonsense? I don’t know if you’re just trying to be funny, but it’s not working!”

You continue talking like a lunatic.

“S...Shut up! Don’t speak another word!”

You ignore his pleas.

“Shut it! Don’t speak...!”

You chuckle again.

“Uu...Haah, haah...Ahー Fufu...Fufufu...I see...You’ve finally lost your mind, huh? I no longer know how much time has passed since we started, but I guess it was enough for your mind to break.”

*Rustle*

“I wonder if I’m to blame for this as well? I played with both time and you...It’s my fault. My sin. In that case...I might as well...!”

Kino grabs hold of you and bites you.

*Gulp gulp gulp*

“...I no longer care. If we can’t escape this anyway, I’ll just enjoy it instead. ...As long as you’re here with me, I can enjoy myself like this. ...You’re having fun as well, aren’t you?”

You nod.

“Knew it. I figured you’d nod. Although I no longer know if those are your true feelings, or if your madness has taken over. I don’t care. Either way works...I love you.”

*Rustle*

“I’ll suck you gently this time, okay? Try telling me where you want my fangs. ...You understand? Can you do that?”

You ask to be bitten above your chest.

“...Fufu~ So that’s where you want it, huh? ...Understood. As you wish, I’ll thrust them all the way to your heart, and suck your blood.”

Kino bites you once more.

*Gulp gulp gulp*

“...Hah! ...Ahahaha! Seems like somebody is enjoying themselves. Your face is bright red, how shameless of you! Did it feel good to have me suck you gently? ...However, are you okay? Your body seems to be twitching and convulsing. Well...I guess you like it when it’s a little painful.”

*Rustle*

“...Say. I know why you chose the chest, you know? You want to overwrite the painful reality with an even stronger sensation of pain and pleasure, don’t you? You want to forget, even if for just one second. I felt better once I had your blood as well. ...I mean, it’s mind-blowingly delicious after all.”

You ask him to bite you again.

“...Yeah. You’re craving for it again, huh? I know. I haven’t had nearly enough either.”

*Rustle*

“Well then, where should I suck from next?”

Kino ponders for a bit.

“Right. I’ll suck from your ear next. I quite like biting you here. With the sound echoing straight to your skull, I’m sure it’ll make for quite the intense experience. I bet that’s the ultimate reward anyone could give you today?”

*Smooch*

“...Nice reaction. You’ve gotten rather sensitive, haven’t you? You want it that badly?”

You nod.

“Fufu~ I see. ...But when you yearn after me that strongly, it makes me want to torment you instead. I suppose it wouldn’t be bad to tease you a little.”

You beg him not to.

*Rustle*

“Fufu~ Look at you clinging onto me because you want my fangs so badly. What happened to the usual pure act? Don’t you feel ashamed, acting this way towards a man? Well, I guess you’ve lost all reason right now. ...But rest assured, I love you regardless.”

You beg for his fangs again.

“...I know, I know. You can barely wait, can you? I was just feeling thirsty again as well, so I’ll suck you plenty.”

Kino bites you a third time.

*Gulp gulp gulp*

“...Hah. Mm~ ...Sweet. I can clearly tell just how worked up you are right now. ...For some reason, I’m starting to feel more and more fine with the current situation. You told me earlier while laughing, didn’t you? That you’re happy to be able to attend school together with me. I bet you wouldn’t be able to endure this situation if you didn’t tell yourself that, no? That as long as I’m with you, everything will be fine. I doubt you’d be able to keep going otherwise, would you? 

...I feel the same way. Just the two of us. That’s how it should be. ...Exactly, it’s perfect! Ideal! The ultimate form of happiness! We’re alone here...So there’s nobody else to get in our way. I wonder why I panicked that much earlier? There honestly was no need to. I mean, even if we’re locked up in here forever, I can simply have fun with you. As long as I have you, that’s all I need.”

You agree.

“Right? I’m glad we both feel the same way. Locked in each other’s embrace foreverーー kissing you, sucking your blood...Honestly, school life really is a blast! Fufu...Ahahahaha...Ahahaha!!!”

Track 6: Epilogue

“...Say, you’re still not satisfied, are you? ...You want more, don’t you? ...Sure. I’ll give it to you.”

Kino bites you.

*Gulp gulp gulp*

“...Hah! ...Haah, haah...How’s that? I bet it feels pretty nice when I suck from your shoulder as well? There’s little flesh, so I’m sure you can clearly feel my fangs sinking in? ...Shall I bite the same spot once more? I’m sure that’ll...”

*Rustle*

“...Huh? ...Oh. You’ve lost consciousness? I wonder when that happened? I got so absorbed in sucking your blood, I didn’t even realize. ...Fufu~ I’m sorry for making you go through all of this. However, I promise. No matter what happens, I’ll stay by your side forever. ...So you can rest assured. ...Sweet dreams, my Princess.”

*Smooch*

ーー THE END ーー

[marculees]

Soft Bias Tag <3

Tagged by the lovely @pikachulein, thank you! ^-^

Prepare for soft cringe. So because I’m selfish and lowkey narcissistic hahaha, I kinda have two so this is going to be a 2-in-1 yay. I haven’t even started yet and I’m already laughing?? Anyway lets go~

1. Who is my Bias?

💛 Jackson Wang

💜 Mark Lee

2. What made you notice him?

💛 His laugh, sense of humor and energy! It was contagious and I couldn’t help just OwO at him in every video lololol

💜 Lmao we have the exact same birthday so I was like omg yes finally someone I can relate to. So I looked up his profile and noticed we were basically the same person and was shook O.o

3. What’s your favorite thing about him?

💛 His heart of gold (aha get the emoji reference yeeeah i did that).He’s honestly such a kind and generous person and sjkglsgfdkjf he makes me cry. Like when I see him helping others or taking care of his members or his family especially, my heart skips a beat. He’s my ideal type tbh, as cringey as that sounds. Here’s an excerpt from a letter to my bias thing I have in my drafts cx

“Ideal types may be just a charade to some, but ultimately you are everything I want in a partner. Your kindness and generosity is one of my favourite things about you and is hugely underappreciated by others. How you always go out of your way to help others, be it strangers or loved ones, is so inspiring. You truly have a heart of gold and I feel like it isn’t said enough. Yes, you are fucking gorgeous and a huge idiot but its the kind soul underneath that I love most.”

💜 That he makes me feel more confident and loving towards myself <3

“I’ve always been the black sheep, odd one out, and I still struggle with finding others I can relate to. When I was in school I was friendly with everyone but with my friends I wasn’t really considered part of the group. I didn’t fit.  I was an afterthought, an outsider. I’m in college now and while I do feel a sense of belonging with my new friends, with you I feel not just that but a sense of understanding, a sense of empathy NCT 2018. Since the very first day, I settled on biasing you for these probably selfish reasons alone. I was a kid back then, we both were. And now that we are barely considered adults, I am still following you. But my initial fascination has become much deeper than just that. The more I’ve fallen in love with you, the more I’ve begun to love myself also. You show and teach me things I’ve discredited or put down about about myself. The more interest I showed in you and your group, the more similar I realised we are. From our attitude, ethic, gestures, sense of humor and way of speaking, it became apparent to me that I had finally found someone. Someone who makes me feel like it’s okay to be who I am, because I am not alone. What I perceived as flaws in myself, I saw as endearing in you.”

*pukes from cringe at myself* I am never going to post the full thing

4. Who would initiate skinship more?

💛 HIM WITHOUT A DOUBT. He’s a touchy baby. Tbh it would probably piss me off slightly, like I’m just being honest ahaha. I don’t mind people touching my thigh or my arm for a second but he’s the type to just touch and then stay there lol

💜 Him too, I think. I’ve noticed he’s become a bit more touchy with the members recently! I’m not very touchy but if someone is more chill about it and doesn’t feel like its necessary or has to be like all the fucking time, then I’m more inclined to actually engage in it surprise surprise.

5. Who would hog the blankets more?

💛 I would say him but then I remember him saying he gets really hot at night (it was in one of those GOT2Days with JB lol). I get hot too so he can hog them if he wants cx

💜 He’s pretty chill, like so long as he has his pillow to hug then I don’t think he would mind much. I would insist on covering him up still though. I’m not a hogger at all, in fact usually I end up with literally half/no blanket in the morning because I’ve kicked it off at some point

6. Who would be more clingy?

💛 HIM. I honestly don’t think I need to explain XD

💜 Oooh tough question. I feel like it could be him? I would be more clingy on the inside, if that makes sense?

7. Who would say I love you first?

💛 I think it would be me but just as like a casual thing like, “Ahh you’re lucky I love you”. But he would take it serious and be like “...I love you too”. And then I’d get all giggly and embarrassed because that’s all I ever do T-T

💜 Maybe me? Idk like it would a kind of ‘in the moment’ thing? I’d be thinking it but I wouldn’t say it until I realised I actually had. I’ve done this before ;-;

8. Who would be more easily flustered?

💛 Me!!!! I bet that would be his favourite thing to do too. He’s such a little shit like he’d be all “Aww is someone all blushy?” and then make me even worse and kjdsgfldfmdsfg I would lowkey enjoy it tbh XD

💜 I think him actually! I wouldn’t be over-the-top romantic or cheesy so if I ever did something, it would catch him by surprise and make him uwu haha. I’m not the best at speaking my thoughts but I would write lots of poems and songs for him and I think that would make him get all flustered since he likes writing too c:

9. What cuddling position would you two have?

💛 Aww I honestly love backhugs so anything where I could just wrap my arms around him and lie against his back. The big spoon! But I feel like he would give the best hugs so like sitting in his lap with his arms around me and djkfhdjfhj fuck this shit I’m out T-T

💜 We’re both quite childish and awkward when it comes to cuddling so I feel like it would be just playwrestling and then forgetting that we’re supposed to wrestle so we just lie in a big tangle on top of each other ;-;

10. Which colors remind you of them and why?

💛 Yellow because his blonde hair is beautiful, plus he’s so bright and cheerful like the colour itself  ^-^

💜 Pink! He looks adorable in pink plus he’s mentioned the colour a few times on broadcasts and stuff so I feel like he has a fondness for it~

11. Which season would you like to spend with them?

💛 Summer because he’s probably be sleeveless all the time or even shirtless... ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) I have no shame ahahaha

💜 Winter because I think if it was snowing, it would remind him of his home and then it would be cute af and we’d have a snowball fight and hot chocolate after <3

12. Who would bake the cookies and who would steal the batter?

💛 Tbh we’d bake and steal it together XD

💜 I think he would try so hard not to fuck the baking up but I’d tempt him into stealing the batter with me cx

13. Which one of you would make bad puns and how would the other react?

💛 Ohhh definitely me. And he’d either scream with laughter or just get pissed off oops. I’d just laugh even more though lmao

💜 We share the same sense of humor so it would be kinda mutual! I’d make a shitty pun and he makes an even worse one on top of that and then we end up getting into a spiral of awful puns and rhymes and before you know it we’ve written possibly the worst rap of all time

14. Who would want to adopt 50 dogs and cats?

💛 Me. I don’t want kids but I’m g with furbabies. 50 is a bit much though XD

💜 ^^^

15. Which one of you would nearly burn down the kitchen trying to microwave a pop tart and who would come to the rescue?

💛 I’d be the dumbass burning down the kitchen, no questions asked. He’d be having a heart attack and be screaming, like I can actually hear his scream right now just picturing it XD

💜 Oh dear, again it would probably be mutual... >.<

16. Who likes to lean over trail railings and who pulls them back?

💛 I’m really protective so I’d help steady him and make sure he doesn’t fall because we know how excited he gets XD

💜 ^^^ But I have seen him holding the members and looking out for their safety in general, so I think it would be him in this case actually~

17. What would watching a horror film with them be like?

💛 “This isn’t even scary. Like look, nothing is happening. Stop hiding behind the cushion, Niamh.” “THE MOTHERFUCKER IS RIGHT ON THE SCREEN, YOU LIAR. I HATE YOU.”

💜 “If you get scared, you can hold onto me” .“You mean, cuddle you because you’re scared, right?”. “Ah...yes, Niamh. Thanks.”

18. Who would be the cheesy flirt and who would be the smooth flirt?

💛 He’d be sooooo cheesy, like to the point where its not even flirting but just straight up cringey. I don’t flirt often but when I do, its like wow I see what you did there. But I’d get embarrassed around him so it would be less smooth and more stuttery unless I got a sudden burst of confidence. He would have no shame flirting though, like he legit would be the type to say “Omg damn girl, that ass” and I’d slap him XD

💜 Eww he’d be cheesy like he’d be walking around and see something and try make it a rap like in the LA vlog lmao. Something really dumb like “You’re so pretty, those flowers don’t compare because you have a cute face and nice hair” and I’d just be like “uhhh....thanks?” and burst out laughing and blushing out of secondhand embarrassment XD

19. Who is more competitive?

💛 We’re both so competitive but I think with his history in sporting competitions (whereas I was too shy to do them T-T), it would give him just a bit more. I’d always encourage him though, like I’d love seeing him try his best and would always ask if there was anything I could do to help. But if it came to games, I don’t take the “I let you win” excuse cx

💜 Me? I take my passions very seriously and throw myself into what I do, like I get VERY into my work. I was v competitive in debating and any time I hear the word challenge, its like yasss bring it on bish. Mark is competitive too but I think he’d prefer taking a support role. He’s so encouraging of his members and I honestly need a little cheerleader like him in my life ;-;

20. Who would be given constant reminders? (Don’t forget your keys, things like that)

💛 As much of a nagger I can be, I feel like he is the type to do this even at random moments. Like we’d be chilling together and then he’ll just say out of nowhere, “Did you eat lunch btw? I’m going to make you lunch”. He wouldn’t listen to any bullshit. He’d take care of me whether I liked it or not haha

💜 Hhmm kinda mutual here but for different things, if that makes sense? Like he’d be telling me to “take your meds and vitamins, bring a jacket, text when you get there”, etc. I’d be like “take a break for a few minutes, I’ll be there soon with some food”, etc, I need reminders for taking care of myself but I give reminders for others to take care of themselves lol

21. Who sends memes and who sends cute ‘i miss you’ texts at 3am?

💛 He’s the sappy bitch with “I miss you” texts haha and being the idiot I am, I would send him memes of himself in response XD

💜 Honestly, unless he was maybe drunk I think it would be me. Like it would very out of the blue and probably make him panic a bit oops. He’d write a long ass ride message in response though because he’d be so worried ^^’

This was very soft and cringey ahaha but I’m going to tag @jaexmins @cosmicrailwaybisexual @happysmilebtr @kikitsaaa @nctdoingthings @castielsinwhite @thefroghyungwon @seulgii-princess and if anyone else wants to do it then just say I tagged you XD

[kimonobeat]

okmusic: aiko “Shimetta Natsu no Hajimari” Interview

aiko has just released her first album in nearly 2 years, “Shimetta Natsu no Hajimari (The Start of a Sticky Summer)”. With 13 tracksーincluding the singles “Koi wo Shita no wa”, “Yokoku” and “Straw”ーthe album practically oozes with its own universe, one where aiko makes you feel the comfortable, moist warmth of another body. We sat down with her to talk about the thoughts and feelings that went into her latest release.

(Thank you parasmichael for the commission!!!)

Making this album gave me so much hope

ーYou’ve really put together a dense, rich album here.

aiko: Yes! It got thicker and denser with each song. It’s a pretty ‘heavy’ album. The moment I listened to all the songs in track list order, I just had this sense that I’d gotten everything out of my system.

ーThat isn’t something you feel every time you finish up an album?

aiko: Well, yes, but finishing this one made me feel that way more than anything else I’ve ever done. I really feel as if making this album gave me so much hope. It’s just... On the one hand, I can’t wait to hear what people will think when they listen to it, but on the other hand, I also get a little nervous about it.

ーWell, I think it turned out just fine! You have absolutely nothing to worry about there. I think it’s a wonderful album.

aiko: Is it? I hope it is. I still can’t listen to it objectively, so I’ve just been relishing all the rave reviews while I’m on tour. (laughs)

ーWhat’s the meaning behind the dramatic title you gave the album, “Shimetta Natsu no Hajimari”?

aiko: I did a spring-summer-fall-winter series starting with the album “Sakura no Ki no Shita (Underneath the Cherry Tree)” [her 2nd album released in 2000]. Or, I guess you could say, I did this thing where I included the season in the title. I stopped doing that for a while after I’d done one whole year, and then after that I sometimes would put what I’d been feeling in the title. When I looked back, it occured to me that it’d been 17 years since I released the album “Natsufuku (Summer Clothes)” in 2001. I just felt like making an album that gives you an idea of what things are like for me 17 years after “Natsufuku”, and how I’ve been spending my summers since “Natsufuku”. That’s how I landed on the title “Shimetta Natsu no Hajimari”.

ーI love the expression “shimetta (sticky, humid)”. The songs you come up with all make the warmth you feel when two people’s bodies touch palpable. I think this album illustrates that even more vividly.

aiko: I often passed through Shibuya on my way home while recording this album. It made me realize just how many people flock there, seeking out contact with other people. On the street you hear people talking about how the number of people who don’t need anything other than their smartphone, or don’t want a boyfriend/girlfriend, or have no desire to get married is on the rise. But it didn’t feel that way to me at all. It seems to me that we’re all still seeking out connections with other people. Watching people get into huge lines to get their foot in the door somewhere, watching parties unfold night after night... It didn’t seem... healthy at first glance, but now I think it’s nice. I really wanted to write about the feelings all the people there harboring, healthy or not, in a song.

ーIt’s actually pretty wholesome, in your opinion, because they just want to feel connected to someone.

aiko: Yeah, yeah. That’s how I feel about it. It’s a bit of a relief to me. I don’t normally come up with concepts when making albums. I just naturally ended up with a lot of songs with topics like that because I was looking out at the city all the time. In the end, I feel like that played a part in the title I chose too.

ーThe album kicks off with “Kakko Ii na (You’re So Cool)”. Your vocals sound so serious and heartbroken in this song.

aiko: Shimada Masanori arranged the first track and the last track, “Dakara (So)”. It’s been a while since I worked with him. I hope the overall vibe of “Kakko Ii na” reminds you a little bit of “Hikouki (Airplane)”, the first track on “Natsufuku”. It’s been 17 years since then... It was just a coincidence but I thought it was funny and kind of miraculous that things turned out that way.

ーThe second track is “Hana ga Saita (The Flowers Have Bloomed)”, an upbeat tune that I’m positive will be a crowd-pleaser at concerts.

aiko: This song was really hard to perform. The musicians were all telling me this was the hardest song they’ve ever done in their entire careers. When I sang it on NHK’s “SONGS”, my guitarist [Iwasaki] Hikaru said, “I’m celebrating myself for coming up with my solo.” (laughs). As far as the lyrics go... The hook in the 2nd chorus goes “Before this song is over / I need to put my key in my pocket and go home”. That part really made me think, “I get that!” when I wrote it. (laughs)

ーAhahaha. You keep thinking to yourself that you need to go home, but you hate leaving your boyfriend so you just can’t bring yourself to leave. Then you shake your head at yourself: “You’ve said that a million times already!”

aiko: Yeah, yeah. (laughs) I think I did a good job representing the stuffy air in a room where you’re hanging out with someone important to you in that song.

ーYou really outdid yourself on this album. I was struck by just how incredible the lyrics were. They’re sharper, the expressions you use are more well-rounded, and yet they still sound quite pleasant to the listener’s ear.

aiko: This time around I threw all the rules I’d come up with out the window. I feel like I was better able to fill my head with words and just write lyrics. It was so fun to turn whatever I was doing, every single day, 24/7, into lyrics, thinking long and hard about myself, and whatever was on my mind at the time. Putting my feelings into words, and connecting with words is something that’s very, very important to me. Making this album made me realize that all over again.

I did a better job than usual of concentrating all my energy into singing

ー”Anata wa (You Are)” is an impressive medium tempo number that hits you right in the chest with the hook.

aiko: I wrote this song last year, and my producer really liked it. I loved the song myself and was super duper happy too. I was like, “For real? I really get to record this song??” It’s the most idyllic song on the album. I really love the way Hama’s [Hamaguchi Takatomo] cries.

ー”Drive Mode” is a fun song with a jaunty, rhythmic sound to it.

aiko: This was the first song I ever wrote with ‘la la la’ as a placeholder.

ーReally!? You’re saying that you started with the melody first? You always start with the lyrics first.

aiko: Yeah! It all started with me wanting to try writing a song in a slightly different way. I normally write lyrics and then come up with melodies for whatever I want to make into a song. This time I started with the song first.

ーAnd how’d that go?

aiko: It was a totally different way of writing, but I guess I never really hesitated. I was able to come up with lyrics on the spot in the studio and write them down. It was super fun.

ー”Ai wa Katte (I Love on My Own Terms)” features your coquettish vocals over an easygoing groove. It’s completely loaded with phrases that make your heart skip a beat, like “I paint my short nails over and over again, telling them to be pretty” or “How are you treating the heart you stole? Are you touching it every single day?”

aiko: Oh, that makes me so happy to hear! Sometimes I just get in this mode where I wanna write lyrics like that, and I really challenged myself to write some of the lines. I usually write a ton of stuff that might come off a little strong, and sort of... summarize. There’s this part in the lyrics of the second chorus where I hear the cool performance my band members did, and I’m practically floating on air.

ー”Yozora Kirei (The Night Sky’s So Pretty)” starts off with breaths, and ends with breaths. Your voice felt so much closer to me.

aiko: Singing this song was a huge ordeal. This album is full of songs I wrote without paying any mind to the range, so the highs are really high, and the lows are really low. It occurred to me just how tough it would be while I was doing rehearsals for my tour... even though I was the one who wrote them all. (laughs) But it also made me realize I was free to make all kinds of songs, and that makes me pretty happy too.

ー”Atashi no Sei (All My Fault)” has a bouncy, ska arrangement. I have a feeling this’ll be another crowd-pleaser at concerts

aiko: I had a ska vibe in mind for this song from the very beginning. I requested that specifically from the arranger. I do a lot of things in my daily routine without taking my earrings off, so I’m constantly getting them caught on my towel and ripping them out of my ears when I get out of the bathtub. It’s annoying, but at the same time I also find it pretty annoying to take them out. That’s the feeling that inspired that song.

ーThe long notes that pop up throughout the song accent it nicely.

aiko: They do, don’t they? I bet that’ll be fun at concerts. I’m already excited about it.

ーNext we have “Un. (Mm-Hm)”. You use long notes to great effect in this song too. The super high note fakes in the second half of the song are also mind-blowing. It gave me goosebumps.

aiko: I’ve never done fakes that go that high or long notes that long before, have I? I wanted to try it... so then I did! (laughs) Singing this song was so much fun. When I was a little kid I would my absolute hardest to memorize the songs I heard on TV shows and the radio. I have vivid memories of just how fun it was to copy the way they sang. It was also honestly super fun to feel like I was able to do something I had never been able to do before.

ーAll the songs on this release give you a sense of just how much you’ve matured as a vocalist.

aiko: I think with this album, I did a better job of concentrating all my energy on singing each and every song. I really felt like I’d sang my heart out when I was done singing. It’s a little different from how I normally do things, but I definitely savored that feeling of accomplishment with every song on the album.

ー”Breathing in Space” has an almost retro-pop melody. It’s just incredible.

aiko: You know how old Western songs and Japanese songs have such simple compositions, and yet they’re so bittersweet they bring tears to your eyes? I think a big part of that might be that they have very honest, simple melodies. Because of that, I wanted to try writing a song with a melody so bittersweet and honest that it would send a shiver down my own spine. I actually said “I did it!” out loud when I finished the song at my house. (laughs)

ーThe ballad “Dakara” ends the album on an emotional note.

aiko: When I finished this song, I wasn’t sure whether to make it the first track or not. I eventually decided that it needed to be the very last song. I was able to include a lot of different kinds of songs on this release, but then I decided to end it with a ballad like I always do. I hope people feel a little bit relieved when this song comes on at the end.

ーI can’t wait to hear songs from this album live on your nationwide “Love Like Pop vol.20″ tour!

aiko: I can’t wait to sing them! I’ve been doing weight training to get ready. I wanna hurl myself at you guys so hard I burn out!

[raspberrytummytickles]

New Moves and Annoying Baby Brothers

Title: New Moves and Annoying Baby Brothers Fandom: Supernatural Characters: Sam, Dean Summary: Ticklish!Sam; Dedicated to @mattsmithwhovian; Dean and Sam move to a new home and this is how they settle in.

A/N: Me and @mattsmithwhovian decided to collaborate on (actually a lot of) fics and then this beautiful piece of art came up. Hope you like it!!!

Dean dropped his bags on the floor of the small apartment they’d just arrived at. He held the door open for Sam with his foot as he looked around. There was a small living room, kitchen and two bedrooms; one with a double bed and one with two singles.

“S’better than most places we’ve stayed in,” He mumbled, partially to himself and partly to Sam who was nosing around with a frown. “At least it actually has rooms.”

“And our own beds,” Sam chimed in, grumpily dropping his bag next to the small living room table and turned to his brother. “What’re we gonna do now?”

“Entertain yourself,” Dean shrugged, shoving Sam onto the old couch before walking to one of the single beds and pulling out his phone.

Sam yelped as he landed face first into the smelly cushions. He huffed, sitting up and eyeing his older brother.

“Jerk,” He muttered, trying to fix his already messy hair. He could hear Dean’s grin as the predicted Bitch was tossed back to him. Sam glanced around the room in thought. He was bored! How could he not be? Five hours on the road sucked, though it was better than their usual. Dad didn’t even tell them what they were hunting. Sam stole a look at his older brother and amended his statement: Dad didn’t tell him about what they were hunting. Apparently, it was on need to know bases and Sam didn’t need to know.

Sam pouted lightly, trying to do as Dean said and find something to entertain him. Another look at Dean had a mischievous smile form on his face. He ducked back onto the couch, making sure if Dean looked over, he wouldn’ be able to see Sam. Dean, when he realized his baby brother didn’t answer with an equal bitchy comment, did just what Sam predicted he would do.

“Whatcha doing, Samantha?”

Sam stayed silent, glowering at the hated nickname and eased himself a bit toward the bed. Taking a deep breath, Sam jumped up and let out a battle cry, throwing himself at Dean. The older brother let out an unmanly shriek, grunting as Sam slammed on his chest. He dropped his phone in the effort to keep his chest from bruising and it ended up in Sam’s smug hands. Bastard.

“Do I win?” Sam asked, smirking proudly.

Dean rolled his eyes, glaring up at his little brother, “Give me the phone back and nobody gets hurt,” He threatened before an incredious look came upon his face. “And no, you don't win! Little brothers never win.”

Sam contemplated on what his next move would be before shrugging. What did he have to lose? He scrambled off Dean in a mad attempt to make it to the bathroom, phone still clutched in his hands.

“Can you catch me, big brother?” Sam baited, happy to receive Dean’s attention. 

Dean couldn't help the fond smile that formed on his face at his little brother’s childishness. It wasn't often that either of them got to act like kids and it seemed less and less likely for Sam, especially since learning about the supernatural six years ago. It seemed liked Sam generaly wanted to have fun and Dean relished in it, easily chasing after his little brother. He grabbed Sam by the waist, whispering in his ear, “Wrong move, Sammy.”

Sam squealed in surprise―not really surprised―when Dean brought them both down, making sure the older one got the burnt of the fall. Sam still had the phone in his hands, gulping as she looked up at Dean. Already, the bubbly anticipation filled his chest.

“I’m gonna give you one last chance to give me my phone, Sammy, and apologize.”

Sam did the mature thing and stuck his tongue out before turning his head away. Dean tried to put on a tough façade but Sam was being too goddamn cute. He chuckled at him, “Not the choice I would of picked but hey, I don't mind.”

Dean weaseled the phone from Sam’s hands, taking them under his knees. He slowly walked his fingers up Sam’s right side, building the anticipation. Sam whined and felt small giggles bubble from his mouth as Dean teased him with a, Why so giggly?

“Y-Your fahace!” Sam sassed, belly fluttering as Dean brushed lightly against it.

“I wouldn't sass me if I were you, bitch. You’re the one pinned down and oh so vulnerable,” Dean smirked, knowing form years of torturing Sam that the teasing made it ten times worse.

Sam’s cheeks heated up to a light pink and squirmed in his big brother’s grip. Dean’s words made Sam’s body feel hypersensitive, his toes already curling and hips moving in small motions form side to side. Dean continued his gentle tickling, knowing it would put Sam on edge.

“Bet the anticipation is killing you, isn't it?” He grinned, feeling particularly cruel. “I’m sure you’d just rather I tickle you and get it over with, but nope! I’m just gonna keep teasing you until you go crazy, and only than will I begin the real torture!”

Sam’s dimples poked out of his cheeks, as he gave a small snort at Dean’s words. Dean would never hurt him, Sam knew but torture would just about be the correct word for whatever his big brother was planning. 

“Poor little Sammy, got yourself into a bit of a predicament, have you?” Dean smirked evilly, pushing up Sam’s thin shirt to reveal the smooth expanse of Sam’s tummy.

“Dehehe!” Sam whined, eyes squeezing shut as his stomach was exposed to the cool air. He pulled at his hands, trying to escape, nearly yelping when Dean circled a finger around his belly button.

“How does it feel knowing you can’t do anything to stop what I'm gonna do to you? Knowing you’re so vulnerable and completely at my mercy. Bet you regret taking my phone now, don't you? Bet you’re gonna regret it even more in a minute....”

“Nohohot thehere...” Sam pleaded through his giggles. Goddamn, his brother teased him so well, he was bursting at the seems with anticipation.

Dean chuckled at Sam and finally dug his fingers into the soft stomach with all ten fingers vibrating his hands, “Not where?” He asked, feigning innocence. “I have no idea what you’re talking about, Sammy.”

Sam arched and loud laughter immediately echoed through the apartment, “YEHehehes you dohOHOHO! Dehehe!”

The older brother laughed with Sam, “No, really Sammy, I have no idea. I’m not even doing anything!” Dean insisted as he tickled the inside of Sam’s bellybutton―causing Sam to squeak cutely―with one hand and moving the other to Sam’s ribs. Sam tried to suck his quivering belly in but that seemed to make the sensations worse. “You’re not going anywhere until I let you go and there is nothing you can do about it.”

“TIHIHICKLES!” Sam shrieked, trying to block out his brothers teasing. His dimples grew more defined along with the flush on his cheeks. When Dean tightened his hold on Sam, the kid tried to buck him off again as the helplessness he felt was agonizing. “IHIHI‘M SOHO GOHOING TO GEHEHET YOHOHOU BAHAHACK!”

“Good luck with that. I’m way stronger than you, Sammy. You have no chance, cant say I'm quaking in my boots,” Dean grabbed Sam’s wrists and pinned them abouve his headm using one of his hands. He wiggled the fingers of his free hand threateningly above Sam’s exposed underarms. “Are you sorry for jumping on me and stealing my phone?”

Sam giggled, ducking his head and admitting softly, “Nohoho...”

The older Winchester scribbled his fingers over Sam’s armpit with a grin, “You will be soon.” He kept one hand in Sam’s armpit, quickly letting go of the kids wrists and attacking the equally exposed belly, sometimes sliding into the little bellybutton. “You just let me know when you’re ready to apologize, okay? I have aaaaaaaaall day.”

Sam shrieked with laughter, arching his body in attempts to stop the tickly feelings. Giggles flooded into howling laughter and back down again with whatever maneuver his brother tried on him.

“DEHEHEAN! IHIHT TIHIHICKLES! AHAHAHA IHIHI‘M SOHOHORRY!”

“Are you sure you’re sorry? Because I think you’re only apologizing to fet me to stop. I don't think you truly learnt your lesson.”

“EHEHE! IHIHI’M SOHOHO SOHOHORRY! I JUHUHUST WAHAHANTED YOHOHOUR ATTENTIOHOHON!” Sam blushed darker with his admission. “NOHOT LIHIKE THIS THOHOHOUGH!”

Dean felt his heart warm with love for this stupid little kid in front of him. After a few more tickles, he stopped. “You’re such a dork,” He grinned, getting up. “And you loved it, don't bother denying it.”

Sam wiped his eyes, residue giggles leaving him at least and grinned cheekily back at Dean, “At least I can admit it, big brother. We both know you like tickles too!”

“You wanna go for round two?” Dean asked, wiggling his fingers tauntingly at Sam. The kid shook his head vigorously, just the action his brother made had him giggling again. Sam forced himself to his feet and into his brother’s arms, nuzzling his nose against Dean’s chest, hand subconsciously clutching Dean’s shirt.

Dean chuckled, ruffling Sam’s hair before pulling him into a hug, “You’re such a girl,” He teased.

Sam playfully scowled at his brother and lightly dug his fingertips into Dean’s sides, keeping himself wrapped up into Dean. “Wonder who I got it from.”

Dean jumped as the fingers hit a sensitive spot and grabbed Sam’s hands with a laugh. “Don’t even try it. It’ll only end up worse for you.”

Sam pouted but nodded in agreement. Besides, he needed his strength to form a plan and get Dean back.

~Fin~

A/N: So this is the first part I guess you can say? I’m leaving the collab as different stories instead of making a series but like, I’ll tell you if it is and stuff. Anyway, I want to give @mattsmithwhovian a big thank you and hug for being the best Dean in the world (I was Sammy) and her anticipation and teasing kills me every time I read it. I LOVE YOU DUDE! 

Also, this is my first fic as a 16 year old! Yay! My birthday present to myself lol (That's really self-centered but I don't care). I hope you all loved it as much as I did!!! And don't fret, there will be multiple sequels, starting with Dean tickles!!!!