#I may not care about spoilers but I'd like to know what is or isnt canon

[vicsep7250]

Wait hol' up. Before I do a deep dive back into RWBY, I gotta know.

Is the fucking DC spinoff canon to the main show???

[kiawren]

kiawren things that may add some plot to our relationship: (becuz to me we both like each other too much and are so perfect for each other we already know we're in love and get together so early like I Know it's not realistic but really I don't see how it'd drag out becuz I'm not stupid and I'd realise he likes me becuz he's not exactly good at hiding it so it wouldn't even be mutual pining for long lol)

– wren confessed his crush first (very in character of me becuz I get infatuated too easily), and kia/we says sorry he doesn't like them and has responsibilities to focus on, but they stay good friends. And then he falls for wren

– if we continue with the above, kia/we later asks wren if they view him still as a crush or a friend, and wren replies friend but he actually still adores kia/we, but kia/wes like ok he doesnt like me. And doesn't confess (he would've if wren said he still likes him)

– but then again im not that oblivious I feel like I can easily tell if kia/we likes me 😭 so thats fun to think about but it's not how the relationship 'canonly' mainly goes

– trans guy kia/we who wasn't sure that he was gay (didn't even like anyone legitimately till wren), when he transitioned he just took on an assumed transhet identity. and was conflicted when he starts to like wren whos nonbinary transmasc but doesn't really pass so he was worried he doesnt see wren as the boy they identify as!

– if kia/we already knows he likes guys/masculine aligned people, then wren was worried he wasn't enough of a boy for kia/we to reciprocate (actual thing that I thought of alot when I had an infatuation for a cis gay irl)

– over a vacation wren went back to whatever region they came from (idk poke/mon well enough outside of gen 7 my bad💀💀) and both of them were thinking whether it's a crush that'll pass over the month or two. (spoiler it didn't)

– well on the gender and sexuality thing maybe kia/we thought wren as someone who understands him in that aspect very well (since they're both transmasc, just to different extents) so he confused himself over whether it was like a special bond of solidarity and understanding or like. An actual crush (reminder he has not liked anyone so bad before. Or anyone for that matter. I still haven't really decided on that. I feel like he knows what love is cuz his parents are in love but never really had time to think abt it)

– wren isnt from alo/la right. He's there to study on conservation (my irl dream) and kia/we doesnt trust foreigners as seen in the first few eps. So he treats wren in a stern and a bit mean. kinda way. This is kinda important becuz if he didn't, wren would immediately be infatuated with him within like max 5 days. So to drag out the time they take to like each other kia/we has to warm up to wren and wren has to see him as actually not intimidating.

– it'll also be interesting if there were foreign students before and they did not care for alo/la's natural world as their academic intentions made them seem to. So kia/we had bad impressions of ppl coming to alo/la to help the region becuz he doesn't trust that they truly care for it. But wren really does and kia/we needs a bit of time to realise that. So he was initially really mean to wren lol, and unlike the shift in the canon show where kia/we quickly became a silly guy and wasn't mean anymore, here it was more gradual and so wren didnt like him that early on

– they were on the topic of dating before and wren said they didn't really like the idea of dating a schoolmate (once again, me irl, schoolmates suck) but that mostly applied for his school back home, not the smaller and more bonded class he was part of here in alola. And kia/we was like yeah I have lots of commitments too like my family, my training,... So they were both like yeah I don't think I'd date. So they were apprehensive on confessing to each other becuz they thought the other's answer was pretty much definitive. (but it completely changed later on solely becuz they really liked each other..!!)

Some other points of personality conflicts so they're not actually as perfect as I say they are lol

– I posted this before but wren (me irl) is kind of a germaphobe when it comes to their bedroom and some other routines in their life and kia/we is much less hygienic like basic hygiene ofc but he stays on a farm and sweats a lot and he sometimes lays down on his bed in between, or like before he sleeps he trains but he doesnt shower idfk in the games his bed literally smells like sweat. But anyway the point is wren got thrown off by kia/we like idk not washing his hands that much etc etc it's hard to say becuz I freak over 'germs' in specific places and circumstances only... but ajsksjkd I'm literally getting nowhere with this. I'm just saying they have to get used to each other here

– kiawe has 100 discipline responsibility commitment. wren has like 2. If we were to keep it realistic kia/we wouldn't be like head over heels for wren cuz he's really not perfect lol, all this comes to kia/we so naturally and. I kinda want to say he'd be annoyed that wren isn't like that but he also doesn't get annoyed at people's flaws. He understands them and helps them achieve their goals regardless.. but I still think it'd be tiring for him.. so I guess he'd want to help wren as more of a friend and it'd take a while to see them for their other strengths aside from yknow their work ethic that takes up a lot of what you see in someone and infer about them. What I mean is that I'm so non-committal but if someone were to like me. I guess it'd be more of the artistic and intellectual aspect? I hope........

[atbgauge]

writing this on my phone and so naturally i'm gonna ramble hope its coherent... anyways thoughts on wuwa yaaay

there are story spoilers for 1.0 so do not bother reading if you have not completed it yet

i wonder what the hell they were even thinking in regards to releasing wuwa the way it did this year. i remember when rumors about the may release date were coming around and i didnt believe them because i felt like that'd be too soon, and that they'd probably release june earliest but around september latest but look where we are now HRRKFJFKF

i knew to keep my expectations low especially after participating in the beta and idk i dont think they'd rewrite and then have to reprogram & rescript and reanimate according to the new writing. i am very disappointed they went with the mass appeal route rather than giving us uhmmm something good and new. i know someone out there is gonna say "well its a mobile gacha game" but idgaf thats not really an excuse to me and i still think you can make something worthwhile and still deliver an interesting message

i dont think i'm ever gonna get the same creativity that f7d had but it'd be nice if these gacha game developers tried like... also like even pgr was more creative and this kinda isnt the post for it but i liked the beginning chapters idgaf. anyways idk i just wish they kept the original gloomy atmosphere as they teased wuwa and maybe get rid of rover or like. idk just dont make them self inserts for us and just make them actual characters or something. i'd rather see yangyang as the main character like we see how capable and knowledgeable she is and then she gets thrown to the side. oh well idk because of its format and its shift towards mass appeal and following the trends of today... we got this kind of game instead

genuinely there are some really cool moments in terms of animation, environment/set design, technology, 3d modeling but idk it kinda ends up being a mess for me because of the really poorly written story

acts 1-4 are idgaf central except 3/4 i guess because thats when scar appears or whatever and then we confront him and then we get that grand reveal that we'll be facing jue soon. scar..... idk i think he is definitely interesting and the fractsidus thing is cool too but we only really get to know them on a surface level and how they want us to join their side to cause the end of the world basically and they want to be in control and they want to worship whatever lifeforms that come from bringing the lament but idk just seems. not that all interesting

5...... is our introduction to black shores with a brief fan service moment which was kinda weird as fuck and then the second half is the experiments the savantes were creating for the tacet rain (whatever the fuck thats called) and i kinda didnt care for it too much because it just reminded me of earlier acts and its just more background on the lore and the 3 million terms it throws at you

6........ okay i actually sorta kinda liked this one because we kinda just got right into it but it still felt off to me. the game does literally tell you that an outbreak is gonna happen but it kinda just happens too quickly for me? i guess we got that brief moment with aalto looking outside and the retroact rain was forming and then cut to jiyan and getting more lore on him and the history of huanglong (which is a nice set up for his character quest later) and then it jumps back to us helping out in jinzhou's defense lines and everybody is there so it Feels like we're all contributing to fighting off the tacet discords

and the. there's the one part where we create a battle plan basically and that just felt so unnecessary like. what is the point of making rover do that just let it be an animated scene where they all discuss this together?? also jiyan YOURE THE GENERAL so YOU can do that yourself and those irrelevant npcs like that was a waste of time and if you select the wrong choice anyways rover talks it out in his head why thats the wrong thing and expects you to choose the correct one so its all very stupid

i mention this to say.... there are some very unnecessary cuts like this throughout all acts. like the heron fight before getting into dreamless' domain has a fade to black just for jiyan to say a singular line like "ok lets move foward" basically then fade to black and then back to gameplay like... why could that not have been a simple voice over line like in other quests. and again for that battle plan thing was just very unnecessary just animate that shit out or whatever. the cutscenes in this game are actually surprisingly very nice and they cut into gameplay pretty well sometimes so i dont understand why they just... didnt do more of that. i dont know why theyre not considering the execution of these things and the intention as well

idk hopefully they do more creative things, they've done that with pgr and i know pgr was made with unity and wuwa is unreal but idk like... we couldnt have finetuned things more??? we cant take more time to create some cool set pieces for this game and have cool animated events and cool programming/scripting???

i also hope kuro addresses optimization and localization issues too. i am amazed they still managed to screw up this games launch in the same way they messed up pgr's launches in all its servers its kinda amazing really

anyways stopping here because its late and this is getting long heres to hoping 1.1 is good and thanks if you read this far HRFGJHDJF

[itfitsitshipsart]

You know what? Tell EVERYTHING about Sugu, this is just too good!

Everything? EVERYTHING?! This might take a while then, so I hope you're comfy!

Oh, and obviously there's spoilers for the Jujutsu Kaisen anime, manga, and movie. I'll state later when we get to those.

Now, he may be a villain, but this man can be a real sweetheart. Gift giving, doting, when it comes to his family of curse users, he can be a real pushover. Of course, he can be stern when he needs to with everyone. the way he can glare and make everyone for silent, it's quite delightful and chilling.

He's also so very possessive of me. No need to worry about creeps coming around. Even if they did try anything, he would quite effortlessly 'take care of them', because how dare any monkey so much as look at me like that. And while he knows I can very well protect myself, he's still taking things into his own hands.

Oh, his hands. They're quite large compared to mine. They aren't the softest, he spent many years training in martial arts, but they aren't that rough. He takes decent care of them, and has no qualms using my scented lotions. Holding hands was the first thing even close to romantic or intimate for the two of us, and he knows I'm staring at his hands sometimes.

Since I'm on the topic of his physical features. That hair of his is something special. It's very silky soft and thick. I love brushing through it, and he let's me braid and play with it often (alone of course. It would be embarrassing around anyone else). His hair he takes the most care about, and I think I'd cry if he ever thought to cut it.

Now for some relationship plot point things! This where bigger spoilers may be

He and my S/I met on the streets some years after Sugu 'took charge' of his cult orginization. It was a chance encounter, but in recognizing her cursed powers, he felt there was potential. So he tried to start a friendship... and it went WAY further than he anticipated.

The two had been together for a little over 2 years when he declared war on all the sorcerers at Jujutsu High and planned to take the cursed spirit Rika for himself. While he planned for everyone else to be in Kyoto, and found her reverse cursed technique to be more practical in case any of the others got hurt, he couldn't get her to listen, allowing her insistence of going with him instead. She had a bad feeling about that day, and stayed at the edge of the barrier to watch him, just in case.

Now, if you've seen the movie, or read the manga, you know that after that battle, Geto Suguru died. Perhaps if she was faster to get to him, she could have stopped his bleeding, maybe saved him. But by the time she got to him, Gojo was walking away and he was dead. (Did Gojo see her? Maybe. If he did, he didn't stop her from desperately trying to bring him back).

And to add more sorrow (I'm sorry, but I am a sucker for angst and drama, thicker than molasses), Sugu had planned to propose after it was all said and done. She found the ring several days later at his home, proceeding to wear it as a silent 'yes'.

But that's not the end of the story. While Geto 'came back', she knew its wasn't completely him. This person that used his body like a puppet felt nothing in particular for her, but welcomed her loyalty and assistance. She stood beside him, her emotions a mess and unable to quite process how to handle this man who was both who she loved, and yet not. She made him promise to let Sugu's body rest when he was done with his plans, and she would protect him to protect Suguru.

As for how that goes... I'm still reading the manga to catch up!

I hope you enjoyed my mess of ideas, anon! I know this isnt everything, cause I'm still figuring things out myself, but it feels really good to get some of it out, especially if theres people like you who may be interested! Do expect more in the future for him!

[candyskiez]

Mob is. Way way WAY more explicit than Willow, to the point I am genuinely curious if it was intentional. Like. Willow is just coincidences that make me go 👀 as a system, Mob is "everyone and their mom thinks he has DID". So like. Beating a dead horse, just taking my own experiences on it whoops. This will have massive spoilers for mp100, which you should all watch. Right now. Watch mp100. Especially if you're autistic or are plural. This analysis will probably be biased to my own experience being a part of a system, so keep that in mind.

Even before ???% is first revealed to us,Mob shows signs of potentially being a system. He doesn't really know much about himself, which is something so so many systems struggle with. Because when there's multiple people in your brain "your" opinions shift constantly to the point it's all so confusing, and you don't remember what's what, and especially when you're young it can feel like you know nothing about yourself. Mob has no clue what he wants and is trying to remember if he's ever wanted ANYTHING in the literal second episode. Even when you are looking at Mob, not ???%, he's so reminiscent of someone whos the host of a system. Increasing fear of his blank patches in memory, not knowing much about himself, thinking there's something deeply wrong with him for feeling this way, difficulty having interests or hobbies, disconnected from reality at times, it's...not hard to grasp.

And ???% is just...writings on the wall, man. Comes out when Mob's in danger, is repeatedly referenced as a different person, has completely different expressions and body languages, has different opinions on the people around him, has different morals and personality, he is just repeatedly shown to Not Be Mob. It's repeatedly stated that he is different from Mob. He feels a connection to their name, but isn't Mob. And also you can make an argument that Mob ISNT connected to that name and I'd probably agree. You could make an argument that ???% was originally the host and I would probably listen. It's so so SO easy to read them as a system. I could can it here, but I don't want to. I'm gonna dig into this. You can't stop me.

When the Kageyama house burns down, ???% comes out and there are SO many ways to read it. ???% shoving Mob out of front so he doesn't remember this event, Mob becoming so distressed he leaves front, or ???% being so distressed that his emotions push everyone else out of front. He only leaves and passes out once it's become clear that his family is safe, which...I mean you see the implications right.

I could list every single time he comes out to protect Mob, but you've already heard that. I wanna talk about ???%'s differences from Mob and how his struggles closely mirror that of a headmate.

???% is repeatedly referred to as a thing controlling Mob's body. He's dehumanized and made into a monster, no matter how much he tries to help. He comes out to literally save Mob or someone he loves life, and everyone thinks of him as a monster for using violence in a life or death situation. He's said to have split and formed because of Mob's trauma. Like, explicitly. The moment most people realize he's not Mob, he suddenly becomes a monster to them. He's shown to have so much anger about this, given the fact anyone says to be normal or refers to him as a monster or dangerous he only becomes more destructive.

That brings me to confession arc.

In the first episode of it, Mob is shown to not know why he likes Tsumobi. Because he's not the one in love with her at all. He likes her, but not romantically. Shigeo's feelings and opinions are shown to be completely separate from Mob's. He may care about the same people he does, but in different ways.

We also see the counter going up, despite the fact Mob is calm at the end of the episode. So why? Because that isn't Mobs number. That's ???%. He's the one getting distressed. Why?

Well, think about it. Mob's been trying to change them and push him down. Mob isn't even the one in love with Tsumobi, and he's trying to change them completely so she likes them. ???% has been hated by Mob and everyone around them for years, and he doesn't even get to talk to the one person that was kind to him. He just lost the other only person who knew he wasn't Mob and didn't hate him, Dimple, a few months ago. Mob's trying so hard to be normal and ???% is forced to pretend along with it. Mob's gotten to grow and change as a person, but ???% has been shoved down so hard that he's stayed static. He never got to grieve Dimple, he never got to say sorry to Ritsu or fix things with him, he has to be around people he doesn't like (Reigen and Teru) because Mob likes them, he doesn't have any of his own friends and it's all causing an explosion to buildup.

And then they get hit by a fucking car.

And ???% is pissed, because Mob gets to grow as a person, Mob gets to figure out what he wants, Mob gets to heal, but he doesn't?

???%'s breakdown feels so much like he's just. Had it. He's never been allowed to be anything but a monster. So he goes, fucking fine. I can't be anything else. I get it. But I'm gonna do whatever the fuck I want. I'm done trying to be a better person, because no matter what I do it isn't enough for you to see me as a person. I'm done. Mob hates me, you all hate me, I'm going to see if the one person who ever treated me with kindness who's still alive can still be kind to me now. He's tired of being hated for existing, so he ditches pretending to be Mob, ditches trying at all, because he's so done and has nothing else to lose. Because why would he care if the town gets fucked up? He's literally had to see the worst of it to protect Mob. He's been oppressed and endangered for years. Of course he doesn't give a shit. He feels like everyone in the city hates him, so he hates them back. He's going to see if the one person who ever thought he was a person can see him at absolute rock bottom and think he's still worth it.

An interesting thing to note is the fact that he and Mob have different triggers for exploding so to speak. While Mob is more set off by telling him to be normal, even though ???% still has that as a thing he also is extremely set off by any telling him to act like Mob, dehumanizing statements, and just anything even remotely comparing him to Mob. What's interesting is anytime he gets even remotely more destructive to someone in the finale, it always has a reason. It's never just "???% is evil bad." It's always "???% is deeply hurting and this hurt him worse." which means SO much to me. Mob's friends telling him to go back to normal? Sets him off. Being referred to as a danger? Sets him off.

He reacts to Teru so strongly. I believe he really fucking hates that Mob's become friends with him, because he's deeply uncomfortable around him and he's forced to pretend not to be. Any time Teru shows how much he understands Mob sets him off. Both because nobody understands ???% like that and it really fucking hurts, and because he doesn't trust Teru and wants to be as far away from him as possible. Again, he has a completely different opinion on him than Mob does! He also is completely different with forgiveness. Mob just needed to see how much different Teru was now, but that's not enough for ?%. He doesn't trust him at all because he seriously hurt Mob and him too.

The scenes where Mob and ???% are on the fucking walls, man. Mob wants him gone so he can be normal and stop hating himself so much, and ???% is so so hurt by that. Because all he did was exist. He spent so long trying to keep it in, and eventually he grows to resent Mob for thinking he's just something to be contained. Not a person with wants and needs. And eventually, this comes out as him no longer protecting him, but trying to shove HIM down instead. Because he's sick of having no agency. Why should he have to be miserable? It's. So so SO reminiscent of system struggles it's actually insane.

What gets me is what calms ???% down is Reigen telling Mob to accept him. Accept that he's there, but that doesn't make him broken. That isn't something to be ashamed of. It's just something some people have. There's nothing wrong with him. So accept it. Accept that this is here and is going to be here. And sometimes it's going to suck but it's also going to lead to things that won't sometimes. It's. Man. Man!

What gets me is Mob telling ???% he has to accept him too. Them both needing to accept the other is there and flawed and they're always gonna be there. But they can try to co exist with each other. They can learn to help each other and be patient with each other. They don't have to be at odds. Maybe one day, they can be friends.

This man is not a fucking singlet.

I don't know how to say this but these two are the closest you can get to making a character canonically be a system without making them canonically be a system

[spaceyflowerswriting]

hello!! I love your writing, the soft vibes are exactly what this fandom needs after seeing all the horrific shit that's happened in the recent chapters. I saw your requests are open so may I ask for a gun x reader where they're just relaxing together? maybe a teeny tiny bit suggestive?? no pressure though, I know he can be difficult to characterize. thank you and have a good day <33

nighttime (gun park x reader)

details: oneshot, gender neutral reader but written in 2nd pov, general canon au, you and gun have been dating for a while already, i guess you both live in a house together ?? idk dont think too hard about it its only briefly mentioned in beginning

warnings: suggestive; sorry i think i went over mild because the ending has a heavy implication of how the night ended 🙏

summary: gun gets a day off tomorrow and tells you about it. also, he spends the night with you.

a/n: thank u for the request!! and sjdhshd im glad my writing's helping u cope(?) 😭😭 ngl im not caught up on latest ch since i read from webtoon only but ive seen some vague spoilers and yeah things arent looking too good 💔 especially gun's fashion LMAO

i'd agree gun is a bit difficult to characterize;; for me tho i just try to follow canon him but like... slightly more normal ??? i hope it works for u/isnt too ooc in ur eyes so this oneshot can still be enjoyable !! also i hope u have a good day too <33

btw shoutout to this post ; listening to the song they associated with gun helped me write this ^_^

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Gun was more than happy to return home to you with the good news that he had no work for tomorrow. And once he told you, he was pleased to see your shared excitement.

"We should plan a date for tomorrow," he suggested, "What would you like to do?"

He listened intently as you described the activities you had in mind. Whether they were staying at home all day or venturing off into the city, he didn't care as long as it was quality time spent with you. He couldn't wait to devote himself fully to you tomorrow, but for now he had other ideas.

Before he could say anything, you lead him right to it by asking, "What about you? Anything you want to do tomorrow?"

"No, your plans sound just fine. But, I was thinking that for tonight we do what I had planned ever since I got the news that I'm having tomorrow off."

"And that would be...?"

Gun held up a keyring with his car keys, dangling them. "A late night drive around sound good to you?"

"Why not?" His smile reflected yours as he began to lead you out of the house.

~

Dirving around Seoul and seeing all the night lights was beautiful. The hushed bustling compared to the loudness during the day was also refreshing. Not to mention, the general dark blanket that came with nighttime--it was all relaxing to Gun, and even more so with you by his side.

Not much talking happened throughout the ride, but it wasn't awkward at all. Just a peaceful silence as you both enjoyed the cool air that breezed through the open windows of the car. Of course, the occasional conversations did take place but they were more like lighthearted smalltalk if anything.

While driving, Gun didn't have a fixed destination in mind, but when his random turns lead you both to a quieter part of Seoul, he slowed down and looked for a place to park. It ended up being the parking lot of some abandoned store, or at least it looked like it.

"Late night drive over?" You turned to him as he finished up parking.

He nodded. "Let's stargaze."

"On what grass? I'm not laying on the asphalt floor," you semi-joked, looking around at the street.

Gun just rolled his eyes in amusement. "Who said we're even leaving the car?" He got up with a bent back as to not bump his head on the car's roof before stepping over the car's controls. He then sat down on the second row seats and reached an arm up, grabbing a handle on the roof and pulling it back to reveal a glass roof.

Your jaw dropped momentarily.

"Come on." He waved you over and watched as you moved from your seat to join him in the second row. Once you did, he adjusted the seats so they laid parallel to the floor and you both flopped down at the same time. The two of you glanced at each other for a moment before softly laughing together.

After that came more peaceful silence as you both stared up at the stars. At some point, Gun moved his attention from the sky to you, and he was reminded of another reason why he preferred nighttime over daytime--it was the way moonlight shined on you, the way it added a special charm that highlighted your features.

"I want to show them my appreciation," he thought, hands suddenly aching to touch you. If he wasn't showing you love through gifts, it was definitely through his touch. He figured he might as well express the latter since there were no gifts around to give. Plus he was going to be free tomorrow anyway, why not stay up a little later with his lover?

Gun turned to lay on his side and put an arm over your abdomen, hand resting on your hip. "Hey."

"Mm?" You didn't turn to look at him, too busy admiring the stars. Not for long though, because the words he whispered in your ear made you jerk your head his direction and made your cheeks hotter than the sun. "Gun, we're in public," you practically hissed.

"This is a pretty secluded area. And I don't see anyone around. Do you?" He smirked when you couldn't reply. It only widened when you didn't stop him from sliding his hand up your shirt. "I need your vocal consent before I continue, dear."

Your breath hitched, and slowly you murmured, "By all means, Gun."

~

Nighttime sure was alluring to Gun, but not as much as you.

[rk-xin]

if this isnt spoilers in any way, what do you think astutia and carys would major in? and also what would it look like 10 years down the line? like their career paths etc

or even, what was their childhood like? its probably spoiler zone on carys end so what was dre's like? what was his favorite toy or little habits he did, maybe even his grade/middle school life? is he adopted by the moms or is that not relevant enough to be stated

please ramble about the boys i love hearing them, they make me so happy and i may be mentally ill

if im gonna be completely honest with you i havent thought that much into their futures HAHAHHHSGHSDJ but !!!! theres the rough idea (thank shi) that they would room together in college. carys pulls some strings and gets it to happen - violence may or may not have been involved; who's to say?

as for their majors, i could not for the life of me come up with ones for ya. all i know is that astutia could probably go into either STEM, education, or business pathways (smth like that) while carys would probably either go the creative route or something like languages - he's not really looking to build his "job-seeking" skills per se, as he's got a job that pays well (which will be revealed in ch8!)

regarding their childhoods... again, not something ive done any major worldbuilding on (LMAO). the base line is that dream was adopted by his moms at a young age (too young for him to specifically remember). there's probably a deeper story there that i could make, but for now, that's all thats significant about his origin :) his childhood however! I'd like to think he's always been a mama's boy. attached to his moms - yk, the type of kid to cry at the first day of kindergarten bc he doesn't want his parents to leave. going through school, as his academic record stays impressive, i reckon he slowly forms into the responsible role he has now - he's a natural-born leader; he loves having a community to take care of. (he's still a mama's boy tho.)

meanwhile, carys is a,,, complex story i suppose. even i still havent gotten to the gist of it. too busy writing drabbles of them being gay lmao. but HIS base line is that he comes from a not-so-great household - the extent to which that household affected him, i havent figured out yet, but safe to assume its Pretty Bad - and walked away from it all a while ago. which led him to where he is now, with astutia. he doesn't associate with his family - hence why he claims he "has no parents": because as far as he's concerned, he really doesnt.

i could go on for way longer but that would a) require a lot of background information that i havent revealed yet bc spoilers lol and b) probably take way too much time kjhskdjhf. hope you enjoy this tho !!! thanks for the q it was fun to ramble :))

[thoughtfulpaperback]

Charmed 2x12 Review SPOILERS!!!!!!

Okay let's do this. Sorry I skipped one but times are hectic. For entertainment I give it an 8/10. Same format. Dislikes, likes and highlights

Dislikes

1. Macy Kneeling to Abby.

Let's just get this one out the way. I can see where they might have been going with this.

They maybe are trying to move away from the ambiguous route with abby (trying to make her sympathetic with her whole patriarchy thing and her dead mom) I mean she is progressively becoming more predatory with Harry so with that in mind, this was possibly one of the "abby is really a bad person not a feminist as she is only out for her own gain and not the empowerment of all women". And I can get that maybe they were also trying to show "look Macy is willing to do the most degrading thing possible just for the chance at rebuilding that power of three/charmed bond with her sisters for the protection of the magical community".

But listen.....

We all know Abigael isnt a star feminist. We already know (although we dont exactly know) that she has some sort of plan up her sleeve to be weary of.

There has been too much attempted ambiguity and the main characters letting her get away with terrible things that the message isnt coming across.

Plus Maybe yes showing Macy being willing to do something that really probably hurt all of us (epecially those of us who are minorities) to watch, may have been to drive home the differences between her and Macy and play up Macy's love for her sisters

But like we know Macy and Abby arent similar (as much as you writers tried to play that up at first). And you know just adding more sister bonding moment and just the fact that Macy was willing to go to abby after all the previous stuff was enough to show she was desperate? Maybe just add more sister bonding moments so we can see how dedicated they are to each other?

Maybe? Just saying.

If the writers are finally going to commit to Abby being a full on villian then I guess the seen was worth cementing that she is horrible (sort of).

Here's my question though as I consider whether the scene was worth it. Who is this show for and what is it trying to show? I mean if it is for minorities and women then i can see how showing these historical and current issues (conflict of power and consideration among women where race is concerned) then I guess showing it and having that controversy makes sense. But like we live it.

As minorities we already know. I know I struggle between wanting my experience shown and also wanting to watch something where for once the minority characters arent subjected to that experience. Charmed did better at addressing controversy and women's issues in season 1. I dont care if it was "obvious" or "heavy handed" because when it is not you basically get the kneeling scene where you dont know what the point was, if it was necessary, and are left feeling hurt or bitter about it.

2. Hacy Kiss.

Listen Brenda/on, this is on my like and dislike list. I will mention what I dislike about it.

The first thing is that it was a fantasy. I mean yes I like that we get full on confirmation that Macy has romantic feelings for Harry and not just considering that she might have them, but I honestly hate the fact that they would tease us like that. Especially when Macy is at a low moment. Which I will get into.

They are kinda ruining Macy for me. Listen, at this point they havent given us enough insight into Macys feelings or thoughts to understand why she isnt pursuing Harry. We can speculate and infer based on previous seasons and some of what the writers or showrunners say on twitter, but this season itself hasnt done much in showing Macy's thought process and so it falls flat. It isnt her reluctance to let people in or not wanting to get involved with someone after Galvin since she does pursue Julian and gets serious relatively quickly. She, at least now we it is confirmed, has those feelings for Harry, but is still choosing to be with someone else inspite of those feelings. I hate that. Harry is obviously tempted by abby and is being naive with her, but he isnt pursuing her and has blocked her advances (except the kiss) so far which may change who knows, but the point is if Macy was just casually dating and enjoying Julian's company I would be like okay, still hate that she would lead someone on when she has feeling for someone else, but if its casual there is less of a chance of the other person being hurt.

I cant get behind Julian x Macy, not because of Julian (who so far is perfect and probably going to be a villian or some how connected to the villians because it is a common trope) but because of Macy. Julian x Macy isnt Healthy because Macy knows she has feelings for someone else. She is using him. That isnt to say she doesnt genuinely like or care about him, but at the end of the day she is using him. Which is crappy because Julian so far seems like a great guy and doesnt deserve being the "distraction". I mentioned this all the time but my least favorite love triangles are the ones where one person is using the other.

Healthy would be Macy and Julian being friends while she works through her feelings and then decides who she wants to be with. Not being with someone while having feelings for someone else.

Macy was shown in season 1 to be rational and could be rational to the point of compartmentalizing and coming off as cold. So maybe that is where they are drawing from, but again little effort has been made on the part of the writers to show what's going on in her brain other than that fantasy kiss. And again I am still like....okay so what does that mean in the long run you butts!!!

3. Helen's suicude

I am so iffy about how shows portray people completing suicide. Like on one hand I get that them showing her exercising free will, but suicide portrayed as a positive rather than a tragedy is just....ugh for me. I still am not sure how I feel overall about it.

Lore wise I hate that they use it to explain why Harry and jimmy couldnt kill each other, because in an interview rupert claimed Harry was immortal now because of the elder thing and the show said it in that first episode. So like are both true? So if harry tries to stab himself like Helen will he just end up back in the coffin and alive since she is immortal?

I mean we are 12 episodes in and have about 10 to go so we really should be working towards a cohesive lore and storyline not adding confusing or not well explained layers. The world building they did in the first half was a lot better which makes me wonder what they heck is going on in the writing room.

Likes

1. Parkerita

Let me explain. While I fancy Jordan x Maggie together. I'd prefer that be a slow burn and steady friendship first. Parker seems to be Maggie's first love. It makes sense that she is still grieving and holding on. While I kind of wanted to be done with Parkerita in fairness to all the season 1 romances that where tossed out, I like the nod to Phole. I felt the OG Phole relationship was not healthy, but I liked the tradgedy of it. I think if new Charmed wants to wrestle with that and do it better (although my faith in the writers is low right now) then I wouldnt be against it. I love a good tradgedy and I sat through Phole so I'll sit through this one.

2.Hacy kiss

I love that the writers finally did something to show us what is going on in Macys brain. I need more (not necessarily Harry fantasies but I wont complain if we get more of those). I do hope a real Hacy kiss is a bit different because one one hand the fact Macy wanted to kiss harry when she was feeling down says something to me about how she feels about him and that she still trusts him (but it could, If I wanted to be cynical, just be more evidence that Macy skews towards using people when she is repressing or feeling down although she didnt actually kiss him, if she had I think I would have not liked it in that particular moment given it would have felt more like using him that expressing feelings)

Highlights

1. Abby really thinks no means maybe 😒 . . .

2. Mel is a lesbian magnet and I'd be fine with her just casually dating while all this other crap is going on as long as she is happy

2. Helen

3. These horror movie vibes though!!

[witchygalaxys]

So I played Nightmare harem.....

I played Nightmare Harem (now I'm broke in more ways than one)

Nightmare harem is an otome game. I have been playing so many different ones but I hadn't found one I loved nearly as much as the arcana but nightmare harem..... really stuck with me. Not in the best way. So let me tell you about the guy I chose.... AND HOW HE UTTERLY DESTROYED ME!!!!! MEET THIS FUCKER RICARDO!!!

First off dont get attached to this face.... the game and story are eh. If you want a lot of romance then this is it. But when I said I'm broke in more ways than one.... I meant one of them being I spent all my money on it.... and it has this weird system where you pay for 15 parts per chapter. But it would probably take a long time to finish the story. Like..... a long time. I think I ended up paying (not proud of this.....) 170.... So I kinda recomend against it.... but it does make you feel and get you attached to the characters. You get to know them pretty well which I feel like a lot of the other otome games dont do. It's one of the reasons I love the arcana because you get to really know the characters and who they are. You get attached and the Nightmare Harem did that pretty well. But here is the thing..... it went into really dark places.

By the end of it I was crying and shaking like a leaf. It actually scared me. I actually felt sick afterwards. I dont know how or why but it showed me all 3 endings. But it showed me the bad ending first and MAN! I COULD GIVE A CRAP ABOUT THE GOOD ENDING AND THE SECRET ENDING! CUZ HOLY FUCK! THAT BAD ENDING HAD ME FREAKED OUT! You may not get this but.... I'd rather he had killed me instead of what happened in the bad ending....

It started off like any normal story. You some how end up in another world. You are found on the demon side of the world. The demons are actually very nice. They treat you well and you like them. But you still want to go home and you are told there is a way to go home but it will only open 3 months from now. So you have to wait. In the mean time the angel side have found out about your existance because humans are rare. (Apparently) so the general of the Angel's meet with the demon prince at his estate (where you are staying) this demon general is none other than RICARDO!

This is where it gets spoilers so stop reading if you plan on playing yourself. SO!

SPOILER WARNING

Well Ricardo takes an interest in you and tells you there is a way to get you home sooner. But it can only be done in the angel side. So he tells you to lie to the demons and leave with him to the angel side. So you do but.....

Very quickly you find out he lied. He just wanted you to entertain him.

Later on you and him become closer. You learned he originally wanted you because you kind of reminded him of his sister who was killed. Later on he confesses his feelings to you by having sex with you. And all that stuff. You guys become very close...... but this is where it takes a dark turn......

Let me break Ricardo down for you. He is a killer. He is known every where for being a heartless killer. But he loves to tease you. He actually made me mad. I actually got pissed. So! When he tries to make you mad and you get a choice to react or not. Dont react. It actually kinda upsets him and it makes it kinda fun.

Hes confident and smart. He loves to tease you but you can also tell he cares (obviously) the more you get to know him the more you see he isnt that much of an awful guy as you thought. He wants to protect you so much. But..... he.... in his want to protect you and be with you.... he goes really dark. It starts out subtle.

He goes to work one day and asks you not to cheat on him or talk to strange men. I automadicly thought he was teasing. After he left the, demons came to the angel side to take you back. They found out you were tricked into coming to the angel side so they came to bring you home. As happy as you were, you told them you would be staying with the Angel's because of Ricardo. Ricardo came in and just started shooting them with no provocation. He said "they came to take you away. So they must die." That's the first time you realize something is off. You eventually calm him down and he stops attacking. And you tell the demons its okay and they leave. After this he gets very attached to you. He doesnt want you to talk with other men.

He begins to skip work to be with you. You know it isnt good so you keep trying to convince him to go so, he wont get in trouble. He spends 2 days with you but if I remember right on the 2nd day you go to help collect some herbs. He tries to stop you but you shake it off and go help. You kind of notice him in the window watching you. It seems like he spent the entire time watching you very carefully. When you go to your own room he is there waiting for you and starts questioning what you were talking about with the guy you were helping. At the end he tells you he must stay by your side.

The next day he decides to take you with him while he does some work because he was ordered to go back to work. He tells you it's fine but you keep questioning it. He says you need to stay by his side. Saying what if something happened to you at the estate while he is away. He said he is worried about the demons coming back to take you away so he wants you with him. He even threatens to take you with him tied up. Sounds like a joke but I dont think he was joking so you go with him willingly.

You end up waiting outside some place for him after he told you to stay and not talk to any one. A man approaches you because he saw you with Ricardo. You both talk about how amazing Ricardo is. The man is part of the army the works under Ricardo.

Ricardo comes out very angry and shouting. You get to choose what to say and after you say it he goes to hit the man. You stop him. Then he kisses you very deeply to show that you belong to him and he teases the man.

He brings you back home and tells you he cant leave you alone because other men will look at you. And if you stay at the estate you will get closer to the other people who live there.

Now pay in mind you arnt just doing nothing. You try to talk to him about it but he keeps stopping you or ignoring you. You notice what is happening and something is wrong. The worry grows more and more with each incident.

The next day Ricardo gets up for work and tells you to rest because.... he exhausted you yesterday. You tell him you cant do that and you have to help a boy named noel with the garden. He tells you to stay in his room for the day. He says he has to do something and he cant take you with him so that you need to stay in his room. He says he will be back as soon as he can and tells you not to leave the room. If you do he will punish you. I was actually terrified when he said that because he hasn't joked about anything seance you two have been together. You know its wrong and you try to run after him. But he closes the door and locks you in there. You pound on the door crying out for him to let you out. You can feel Ricardos need to control you. His confidence with out you is gone. Eventually Noel the boy you help in the garden let's you out. Noel brings you to Mikel. The leader of the Angel's to tell him what happened. Mikel asked if you had given consent to letting Ricardo do that. You tell him no. And Mikel explains how unhealthy yours and Ricardos relationship is getting. You know it is true.

Ricardo enters and calmly but very angrily asks why you left his room. He asks noel if it was him. Noel says yes. And then Ricardo tries to shoot Noel. Mikel is able to stop him before he can hurt Noel. You end up running away not wanting to see Ricardo fall apart anymore. That's when you make the choice that when the 3 months are over.... you will go back home to earth. Not just for you but for Ricardo as well. In the mean time you still spend time with Ricardo not telling him you are leaving.

You spend your last week with him and on the night you are leaving Ricardo learns about what you are doing and goes after you.

He asks you if you are leaving. You tell him yes. He pulls out his gun and says if you leave he will kill you. He asks you if you really loved him and you tell him you do but you cant be with him. And then the dark end showed up... and it made me wish he would have just shot me instead. Although most of that story seemed like a pretty dark ending.

DARK ENDING!

He says he will kill you and that way you will never leave him. But he cant stop shaking. So you walk up to him and hold his gun for him and tell him to shoot so you wont leave. That you wouldn't mind being killed by him. You close your eyes preparing to feel the bullet. He ends up dropping the gun and embraces you. You hold him and tell him you arnt going any where that you wont die and then fades to a few days later.

You look towards the window guessing what time it is because you cant see. You even question how long you have been waiting. Eventually you hear foot steps and Ricardo says he is home. He ends up locking the door and pulls the blind fold off your eyes. Asking you if you missed him. You look at him with so much love and say yes. He undoes your leg shackles but leaving your arms bounded and takes you to the bath. You bathe together and he comments how you have lost weight. You say "really?" And tells you that you can not eat while he is away. It is an order. He asks if you are hungry and you say no. "Seance I dont move much I dont need to eat much." He says he is glad. You think back to when you decided to to stay and how you want to do what ever Ricardo wants. So you let him leave you tied up blind folded in his room while he leaves. You dont think or feel anything other than Ricardo. Thinking you dont mind if you both crumble together.

He holds you telling you not to look at any one else and dont go near any one else. Telling you to only think about him and no one else all the time. Saying he wants you to be unable to live with out him. He asks you if you love him. You reply like a robot saying yes. And he wants you to smile. You try to smile but you cant do it properly because your face is very stiff. A single tear rolls down your face. He asks you why you are crying and all you can say is you are sorry. And then it ends......

SO AFTER ALL THAT IT NOW DECIDES! "Oh hey look at the happy ending!" NO! YOU CANT JUST SHOW ME THAT AND EXPECT ME TO BE LIKE "OH IM ALL BETTER NOW!!!!!!!" NO! NO NO NO NO NO NO NO! WTF!? NO! LIKE OH MY GOD!

THIS IS STOCKHOLM SYNDROME!!!!! LIKE MY GOD! You want a Yandere he is your guy!!!!!!!! And I am ashamed to say! I still really like him!

It reminded me greatly of this comic about a guy who gets kidnapped by his crush and gets very abused by him. If you know what I'm talking about.....I'm sorry....

I WAS SHAKING AFTER THAT! I CRIED! I WAS LEGITIMATELY SCARED! FROM AN OTOME GAME! A DATING SIM! HOLY FUCK! I KNOW IM INTO THE ENTIRE BAD BOY TEASING THING BUT MY GOD! THIS SCARES ME! I know things like that have happened to some people. I think that's one of things that's freaks me out so much to it. Plus dating sims are very personal. You get pretty into them yourselves. The games are meant to make it feel like you are the one being loved.

So that's my thoughts and story. If you want to check it out go do so! I wouldn't recomend against it. Like I said it makes you feel. But I was not ready for that whirlwind. It has good character interactions. I'm kind of..... neutral about it. I found it fun! But all the money it forces you to pay to play is kinda ridiculous. Especially its charm system thing. I find that just kinda lame. But it was fun.

[cariseca]

i read choco boys/swiss bliss... â

Spoilers

To start off. I recall reading a review on a forum saying this story was close to the morris+goscinny era wrt the pacing and the way the story develops as well as the gags and puns. And I'm not saying thats a requirement to rlly enjoy a derivative work, or if that's entirely true bc this may just be koning's way of pacing. But I do think there's some truth in it, except for the fact koning actually has emotional pull in most of the dialogue.

Even if i dont personally enjoy when luke is treated too much like a established living legend/celebrity a la buffalo bill or smth like that, the story makes that fact matter and isnt just for the gags or 4th wall breaks. It works because it's not /his/ story, it's Bud's story, we can see a reflection of stranger's perceptions of the Mysterious but famous Lucky Luke and the dreaded Bud in Straight Gulch, and part of the subtle tension between luke and Bud before their talk by the fire.

Of course Bud loves Terry, but it does seem to me there was an unspoken desire between the two? The admiration and how Luke offered him some vulnerability by admitting he did kill the original Daltons, the morning after Bud told him about his deal with Terry, and his sincere thoughts on why he doesn't kill.

I notice in a lot of Luke's friendships the reason they work is bc he can see eye to eye with the other person ((the comic's) Calamity Jane by both breaking their gendered expectations, Fingers by the end of the story with their banter, Hank Bully with his similar sense of humor and Bud by having something more than meets any stranger's eye just like him. Idk if tht makes sense.

As for the story, it flows nicely and i just rlly like how casually it was a circular story because Bud started off by the duel until Terry interrupted him. It was a good decision to have it be from Bud's POV towards the audience, as if we were the ones trying to thread the story of the "legend" lucky luke by asking people who met him. And the big reveal is that his biggest trait, what makes him be remembered fondly is the protection and empathy he gives to total strangers. Bud sounds so thankful that they crossed paths bc he can be with Terry instead of being intimidated into forgetting about him!!!

And this would all be well and good if it wasn't fucking racist. Like first off I know calamity jane is pretty separate from the historical figure the actual real person. But she is still the representation of a real person in history with a name attached to the displacement of native people. So I really dont think it bodes well at all that she was paired up with a fictional elder native woman.

As for the elder native woman herself and her native companion, it goes to show you can be a super famous for doing transgressive gay art for white europeans but if your gay art does not care to honor or understand native people (who should not be subjected to fitting into western notions of gender/sexuality especially if your setting is prior to these identifiers existing) then your gay art is not as transgressive or inclusive as you think it is. And that was the real failure of this otherwise sweet story.

I also found the addition of the daltons tacked on. Even if it worked for some gags it was hollow and would've been better if they hadn't showed up. I don't like giving a star or number rating but i'd say this is good as a character study for lucky luke as a side character and for double meaning puns.

[mybodyliberation]

David's Bridal Review

The feedback from my last bridal store review was so overwhelmingly awesome. I was so grateful that not only did so many of you read it but actually got in touch to tell me how much you loved it or how helpful you found it.

Boo, you know this sis has got your back and if I can help or assist in anyway never falter to holla at me. I want you to have an incredible experience filled with love and laughter and magic!

So with that said let's jump into the final bridal store review. I actually talked in my article for Scottish wedding directory about whether I should have visited a few boutiques seeing as I had done so much research and booked so many appointments, but I realieed that actually listening to my gut was more important than experiencing something just for the experience.

So spoiler I found my dress at David's Bridal, said yes to it and knew in my gut and in my heart that I would not find anything that made me as special as my dress did.

Not only did I say YES TO THE DRESS, but I screamed at the top of my lungs while ringing a bell and making a wish that I hope carried straight up into the heavens and is being made to order for delivery right now.

Now as I said I had done A LOT of research and I had read a lot of reviews . This isnt sponsored or gifted or anything else so I have no problem telling the tea. And the tea is overall the company has a pretty terrible name in the states and in the London stores. There was review after review of disgruntled brides, talking about terrible customer service, lack of communication, messed up orders and the list went on.

It didnt leave much to the imagination and it certainly didn't bode well, but imagine my surprise when I looked at all of the reviews for the Glasgow store. They shone bright. It was 99.9% positive feedback for everything and for the staff.

Thruthfully that's what I experienced too. Glasgow David's Bridal is a testament to the entire company. It was really wonderful to see so many smiling faces when you walked in, so many designer options and prices and just I felt confident.

So important information to know.

• David's Bridal works on appointments. You can book in online or over the phone and it takes about 5 minutes total. You can also specify that you are attending for a Bridal appointment.

• As said in the previous review, bridal samples run small, so expect to be sized up but one of the wonderful things is that my measurements were taken and I wasnt even told what size I would be wearing. This was a confidence boost for me because I automatically knew it was about the dress not about my size or weight.

• Make sure you read the store policies online before attending but also ask on arrival if the store has any because for example we were not allowed to take any pictures or video.

• You're appointed a stylist on arrival

• You are given time to browse before your measurements are taken and then you are left to browse again so that you can pick the dresses youd like to try on

• Make sure you wear the right underwear. At Wed2B I ended up not wearing my bra but at David's bridal I absolutely did.

• They carry designers like Vera Wang and Oleg Cassini but at amazing prices. I personally never imagined being able to fit into or afford a designer gown and so it's really encouraging that there are options like this for plus size budget brides.

• There is no limit to how many dresses you can try on. This can be wonderful but also overwhelming so discuss with your stylist before hand how many dresses you feel you can handle.

• Take water and snacks for yourself and your guests. We didnt but I regret it as it's a time consuming and tiring process and keeping yourself watered and fed will help with stamina.

• Something I forgot to mention in the last review is that you try each dresses on with under skirts to add a fuller effect.

So I went to this appointment again during the week, during hours that would be more low key than a busy evening weekday or weekend time. I went with my mum, dad, sisters and a friend. That's a pretty large enterouge but all of them made the experience priceless. They brought so much joy to the day but as an aside always make sure the wedding dress shopping party is made up of people who will support you and make the day what it should be: ABOUT YOU and FUN!

Chloe (also who ended being my stylist for the appointment) greeted us with so much joy and kindness I was instantly excited for the appointment. She was incredible from start to finish I feel so grateful that my experience was with her. We giggled, we cuddled and more importantly she listened. As soon as we started she wanted to know what I liked and what I didn't, if I already knew what I'd like to try on, the whole shebang.

Chloe was funny, approachable, joyful, patient and kind. Sue explained the process perfectly and helped us feel at ease and excited. I was able to show her all the pictures I had and all the images I had pinned from the instagram page and it really helped us find the right direction.

Chloe took my measurements and never asked my size or told me my measurements so I didn't feel the need to ask. I cant help but be in love with that process of things and applaud her and David's Bridal for such a body positive approach to things because at the end of the day who cares what the size of the sample size is and who cares what your weight is.

What is important is that you feel great in whatever dresses you're trying on!

As I browsed and picked dresses she would be pulling the samples in the appropriate sizes for me and that's all the information you really need.

I know plus size brides fear being made to feel different because of their weight but it never even came into the conversation and I know it can be intimidating but if you feel like that's not the kind of care you're getting as a bride in any bridal store, please speak up and dictate the kind of treatment you want and deserve as you drop all of that coin.

I'm a pretty confident plus size woman and so this was great but I know for other plus women who might not quite be as confident yet, this kind of experience is the making of a positive journey from them as brides. So dont be afraid to message me and I'll call them on your behalf if I need to.

Since I had tried on every style previously in Wed2B, I used this as an opportunity to zero in on the styles that I really loved and dresses that I knew for sure I loved the look of. I had researched anout 4 of these dresses by looking through the Davids Bridal cookbook which you can find online.

I'll link that here: https://catalog.davidsbridal.co.uk/bridalstyle

It was a helpful tool to see what they had and I wrote down the product codes and took screenshots.

Combined with the dresses I had researched and the ones I saw in store and a few I had pinned on insta, I ended up trying on 7 dresses which is actually quite a lot in comparison to the last time I had tried on dresses. It took way more time and was genuinely quite tiring. Bate in mind that even when you have fun it will be tiring and emotionally quite taxing so be gentle with yourself. If you get a bit cranky or overwhelmed or upset don't feel bad for asking for a few seconds to yourself.

That being said at no point did I feel rushed or pushed, in fact Chloe encouraged me to take my time and be as vocal as possible while also taking on the feedback from my family and friends present at the appointment, while also making sure I felt in control.

It can be a tricky balance and thankful all my family and friends are very encouraging and patient and respectful but I know for other families there may be a more complicated dynamic at play.

Now although I had fun, each dress I tried on, even though it was within the style I wanted, felt like it was taking me further from what I could picture in my head.

You'll remember I left Wed2B with a solid option and really everything else was just competing against that dress.

As we got closer to the end of the appointment I wasn't exactly sure if I would find anything and I was right about to make peace with that but then I final dress I tried on, which coincidentally was the one I had saved three times on instagram.

Before Chloe had even pulled the dress against my body I knew...it was the one.

As stood there knowing this dress ticked every single box the other dress didn't quite manage to do, I knew the competition and the search was over.

My heart was pounding in my chest and I had one of the biggest smiles I had probably ever had stretching my face within an inch of itself.

I didn't just step out, I floated out and there was a moment of silence from what had previously been loud and laughing family.

It felt like this dreamy haze was filtering my vision, and I remember hearing a wow as Chloe completed the look with a gorgeous cathedral length embodied veil, a tiara and the bouquet.

I truly felt like a bride.

I turned first to my dad see his reaction. He sat smiling and nodding and then I turned to my mum (who had loved the Wed2B dress and had really not liked any of the other dresses I had tried on).

She smiled and I knew...right this is it.

I squealed and kept twirling and giggling and prancing. I felt like the princess and I instantly wanted to show Bae so badly because whenever theres something I love of course I want to share it with m5 best friend.

The search was finky over. I said YES a thousand times that day and yes everyday since. I cannot wait to walk down the aisle in a dreamy dress to my dream man.

Eeeek so yes now that I have gushed back to some logistics.

Once I had said Yes, rung the bell, sobbed my heart out while simultaneously laying, and finally being allowed to take photos it was time to get down to brass tax.

Once I reluctantly took the dress off, I then had my measurements taken again because when you buy the dress from David's Bridal:

• It will be ordered and made specifically for you.

• This will be done by the designer or DB itself if your purchase one of their dresses and it will then be sent to whatever store you tried your dress on in.

• You will then have alterations done 6 weeks before the wedding. This can be done with DB or at an alterations company of your choice but if you do it with DB your dress will remain insured under any accidents.

• They sometimes have deposits and installment plans but this depends on the dress so do make sure to ask.

• They also have discounts and deals running regularly so check in advance if there are any available that you would qualify for.

• Some dresses must be paid in full if you want to purchase the dress so have the money ready if this is something you want to do.

• I purchased my under skirt from them but of course you dont have to.

• Before you purchase your stylist will go over any changes you might want to make for example I ordered the dress in pure white instead of ivory.

• You will have to sign a form which will act as a contractually agreement to say you have listened to all the terms and conditions and you agree to them.

• Once ordered and made for you, you will not be able to refund the dress or get money back for the dress.

It is a huge commitment to make and there are always things you should make sure you are super clear on, in terms of policies and terms conditions, before verbally agreeing or signing any legal documentation. That's why its important to have a solid group with you full of people who will be there to act as witness or even help you understand any jargon that might be going over your wedding blissed out head.

It's such an incredible privilege that I was able to purchase my dress then and there and I truly don't take it for granted.

It was such a perfect experience for myself and my family and friends, but and I hate that there is any because what could be worth mentioning that would leave this is on a slightly tinged note.

The only negative experience unfortunately came from the store manager, which while she seemed lovely enough, was extremely overbearing. At first I thought I was being paranoid but checking in with my group after that made confirmed that I wasnt the only person that felt a little uncomfortable.

You sed she was very intense and actually quite standoffish explaining that we weren't allowed to film or take pictures of me in the dresses I tried on despite the fact I had done this in other stores, but of course not every store can be the same. They have this policy in place because in the past other brides have complained about being in the shots of other brides photos. This makes perfect sense.

We instantly understood the stores policy and respected it, but then for the rest of my appointment she hovered almost as if she felt her presence needed to be there to enforce the rule. It probably wasnt her intention but it made us feel as if us, as the only large group of black people in the store, couldn't be trusted to not break the rule.

Though we were not bred new appointment in the store, there were no other brides around me so it felt unnecessary because the reason the policy was there was because a bride had complained about being in another brides picture.

There were other appointments behind us though and she never even went over to check on them.

She lingered around our appointment the entire time and quite frankly as the only people of colour in the store it did make me feel uncomfortable because it sent a message that the black family needed to be "watched". It would have been different if she was paying me special attention and trying to make the experience better but I didnt feel that from anyone but Chloe who truly went above and beyond.

It was disappointing and I know it wouldn't have been the intention of the manager to make a black bride feel singled out or like there was an issue but nonetheless every time I stepped out of the dressing room that's how it felt because there she was looking stern.

It really wasnt until I found my dress and was prancing around that she began to relax and to smile and announced, once I said this is it, with much authority and vim that I was allowed to take pictures.

Blessedly I was able to have the strength to ignore her and just focus on the reason I was there because honestly with all the time and effort we had all collectively put into the experience it wasnt worth ruining it thinking of things like that but I do hope that other people of colour that visit the store do not end up having any experience like that.

All said and done it was still perfect because I was with people who love me, had a stellar stylist and I found the dress of my dreams.

So am I hyped to be a bride?

Sis. Yes.

[mooifyourecows]

Lmfao I dont even follow you. You clearly dont know how this website works so let me see if I can explain it in a way that even you can understand.

I follow certain tags, like "kimetsu no yaiba" and Tumblr feeds me random posts that are tagged with that tag, regardless of whether I am following the blog that posted it or not.

But even if I'm not following tags that you deem worthy of being used, your posts can still randomly pop up on my dash! That's because I follow other blogs that may or may not find their way onto your shitty ass fucking blog and accidentally use the poor judgment of reblogging one of your posts.

This isnt a matter of, "this is my blog and I do what I want, dont like it, dont follow." If it were, hell yeah I'd mind my own business because I dont give a fuck about you and have never heard of your stupid ass blog in my life before this little tussle you've got goin on.

But this is a matter of your actions negatively affecting other people and you not having the mental maturity to give a shit.

And why? Why are you so insistently refusing to just add a tag to your post? I literally cannot fathom a reason why it's too difficult for you to manage. It's as easy as typing "kny spoilers" in the tags you are already typing.

Its different if you just didnt understand that your lack of tagging was hurting people. I, and pretty much everyone else, know that some people just dont realize the magnitude of improper tagging. The difference though, is that when those people are asked to tag their spoilers, they dont make a point to refuse and then be rude about it.

Nobody would give a shit if you just said, "oh, I'm sorry that I ruined this important spoiler for you. In the future, I will tag my spoilers so it doesnt happen again" and moved the fuck on. That's what any reasonable person would have done.

Honestly I'm not even emotionally invested in this issue. I dont read KNY and spoilers dont bother me. But the fact that you've been flat out rude to the people just kindly asking that you dont ruin things for other people out of the coldness of your heart has pissed me the fuck off.

As you are now, you are that jackass standing in the middle of a cinema lobby yelling the ending of a movie you just saw to the people waiting to see it next.

You are being an asshole. Objectively, you are being a dick.

And the worst part? You have no good reason to be doing this other than malice for your fellow fan. Tagging spoilers will do nothing to you. It doesnt take up so much time or effort that it's a difficult or strenuous process. Tagging spoilers wont diminish your blog's traffic to the point of you no longer getting the precious notes you clearly crave. In fact, tagging spoilers would probably gain you followers because people would see that you have respect for your fellow fans enough to care if their time in the fandom is ruined. You dont look more like a cool badass who dont give no fucks by rebelling against good manners of the internet. You just look like a whiny little toddler pressing your hands over your ears and screaming "lalalalalala!" because you dont like that the big boys are pointing out your mistakes.

You want to know my theory?

If it's not because you are just one of those lobby screaming douchebags, then I think you feel stupid.

You dont like to be told what to do, especially if someone is calling you out on something that you've done wrong. You see it as an attack on you, your intelligence, your judgment. You dont want to admit when you've done something wrong. So you attack and stubbornly refuse to bow when people ask something oh so simple of you. And now you're in too deep. Now you think, "if I back down at this point, it will look like I've lost." So you're fighting tooth and nail to still look like the winner, the big man, the cool badass who dont give no fucks.

Chill.

Nobody gives a fuck if you made a mistake. Learn from it and move on. It's really not that embarrassing. Everyone does it. I've done it. Ive done things, or failed to do things that people have called me out on. And you know what I did? I apologized for any inconvenience that my actions, or lack thereof, caused and I made the tiny adjustment to my life to fix my mistake and I moved on and never did it again.

And wow, it was that easy. Nobody laughed at me or berated me for the mistake. Because nobody gives a shit. They just want to have a good fandom experience like everyone else. And if you are going out of your way to ruin someone's experience then congrats, you are just an asshole. That's not me calling you that. That's you willingly taking that title on because you cant be bothered to care about anyone other than your poor fragile little ego.

Grow the fuck up and learn about accountability. It's not that difficult and people will stop sending you "meanie anon asks uwu" if you do.

Fighting it so hard now is just making it worse for you. You are showing your true colors. You are proving to your followers that you have a bad attitude and not enough maturity to learn from your mistakes.

Welcome to the internet. People are gonna call you out when you are a fucking shitstain. Grow as an individual or get fucked.

"I don’t tag spoilers! I never have!" Weird flex, but okay. Tagging spoilers is just good netiquette. It takes no effort, nor does it affect your posting experience in any way other than people wont be mad at you. Purposefully not tagging spoilers despite being asked to is objectively an asshole thing to do and then bragging about it is like shaking someone's hand and announcing that you have a highly contagious disease and that if they didnt want to get it, they should have stayed home.

Lmao listen buddy, pal, I don’t know how long you’ve been on the internet but here’s a tip: there’s gonna be more than one person who spoils something. I don’t tag spoilers, I’m not the only one, it’s not my fault others follow me and get spoiled lmao. And proper ‘netiquette’ lmao really? This isn’t the royal family bud. If you wanna follow someone who tags spoilers great, fantastic, I know quite a few and can lead you in that direction. But now there’s a warning on my blog in my before you follow, so I mean ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

And here we are back with the name calling! So now I’m a selfish prick and an asshole just because I won’t do what someone demands of me even tho I see no reason to, bc I hurt their feelings by spoiling something? Sure, go ahead. I’m not bragging ab this at all, idek if you’re the person who’s been sending me anons but I’m just tired of being harassed over something this fucking stupid when I have other things to worry ab in my life. It’s the internet, shits gonna be spoiled. Get the fuck over it.