#I love you Nikki thank you for singing this song for me specifically even though I wasn’t alive at the time 🤗🤗

[f1nneas]

IVE BEEN MISSING YOUR STRAWBERRY KISSES CAUSE NOTHINGS AS SWEET THE TASTE STILL DRIVES ME CRAZY IVE BEEN WISHING MY STRAWBERRY KISSES COULD FLY THROUGH THE WIND TO YOU FROM ME‼️‼️

[ellaenchanting]

Hypnovember 2020 Master List

Now that I have awoken from my post-Hypnovember nap, it’s time to post my 2020 Master List! in comparison to last year’s entries, a lot of stories this year delved more into either more intense kinks or more of my intense personal feelings than my stories last year did. Sometimes writing stories is a bit like reading my own tarot cards in that way- letting an ambiguous prompt roll around in my subconscious and sometimes being surprised or amused or even slightly unsettled by what it turns into. I hope you will find something in this group of works that soothes you, that turns you on, that intrigues you, and that most of all provokes a response. If you do, I’d absolutely love to hear about it. :)

Copying one of my favorite @jukeboxemcsa  ideas, I’ve also included a HypnoBS rating for every work about how realistic the hypnosis/mind control is in each work (IMHO). In this ranking, 1 means to is absolute bullshit and 5 is a normal Tuesday night (for someone).

Icons- 📰- story. 🔊- audio 💻- technology 😍- romantic 🌈- queer 😴- regular ole’ hypnosis 🛀- brainwashing and/or character in tub 👻- spooky 🐈- at least one happy pussy ❓- bad or reeeally questionable consent 👨‍🔬 -science! 🤪 -crackfic #-#sceneideas 😭-feeeels ⭐-author’s personal favorites

Day 1: Instant M/f 📰 😴🐈#😭

Choice quote: “Sean chuckled as he moved in closer. And closer. ‘I thought you wanted to know what it was like to be hypnotized, sweetheart. To follow suggestions? To have someone else take control? It’s not real control if I’m doing something you already wanted, now is it?”

HypnoBS- 5. Read the whole thing but- IMHO totally plausible.

Fun Fact- These are the same characters from last year’s Day 5: Poison.

Day 2: Coils F/m 📰 😴 💻 👨‍🔬

Choice quote: “Daniel rolled his eyes. ‘I bet you could hypnotize me with a bar of soap if you wanted to. That still doesn’t make me like spirals.’”

HypnoBS- 5. Maybe 4 because I don’t love the induction but- maybe you will? Also- oh no poor Daniel is so conditioned that he’ll go under to anything Jamie does! How hard for him. :(

Day 3: Staged Hypnosis (Stage) F/f 📰 😴 🌈 🛀 ❓

Choice quote: “No one needed to know she was a plant. A confederate. A stooge.”

HypnoBS- 1.5. This would collapse like a house of cards. It’s a fun concept though.

Day 4: Psychic F/nb 📰 😴 🌈 😍 👨‍🔬⭐

Choice quote: “Something about the hypnosis- being in and out of each other’s heads and in and out of each other’s bodies all weekend- made her feel like she and Tris had merged in some way. Like there was a new, deeper understanding between them now- a telepathic bond.”

HypnoBS- 5. Maybe a 4.5 if you’re recognizing some nre magical thinking here. But- I’ve definitely had this feeling and this kind of experience- and I hope some of you have had it/will have it as well. :)

Day 5: Visor F/multiple 📰 😴 🛀 💻 👨‍🔬 🤪#

Choice quote: “Besides, everyone knew stormtroopers were kinky.”

HypnoBS- 4.5. Some of the exact details would need to be changed and thought through more thoroughly, but I absolutely believe you could do something like this if you wanted to. (And if you do, you definitely have to let me know. I know some of y’all out there go to Dragoncon.)

Day 6: Pendulum F/y’all 🔊😴 👨‍🔬

Choice quote: This is a trick I first learned from a science book I read in 5th grade.

HypnoBS- 5. The real thing.

Day 7: Song Aliens/the human race 📰 💻 👻❓

Choice quote: “Anna didn’t know what she was singing.”

HypnoBS- 1. I hope. Why do the song based stories always turn out so creepy?

Day 8: Performance unknown/f 📰 👻❓😴# ⭐

Choice quote: “With each snap, the gears inside her doll body click click click clicked into action. She turned, jerky but graceful. She was determined to do well. “

HypnoBS- 5 (if part of a fearplay scene, which is my headcanon for this story)

Day 9: (Hot Under the) Collar F/f 📰 😴🛀🌈 🐈#⭐

Choice quote: “She was wearing her collar. She was aroused. It was as simple as that.“

HypnoBS- 5 With time, I think you could do this. Maybe a 4.5 for the 30 minutes thing- that might lead to a bit too much cramping.

Day 10: Gentle 🔊😴

Choice quote: “Just look into the spiral....”

HypnoBS- 5. I hope.

Day 11: Summoning Sappho (Summon) eventual F/f I hope 📰 😴🌈 🤪

Choice quote: “In fact, the only ideas left to try on their brainstorming board included ‘sexy alien invasion’, ‘sexy witches’, and this. Shockingly, at this point a sexy seance seemed the most practical.”

HypnoBS-1. Although stay tuned for Femme Flirt 2021.

Day 12: Plants unknown/m 📰 😴🛀#

Choice quote: “If he focused, Chris could feel that new suggestion also growing stronger and stronger, becoming more and more firmly rooted inside of him. “

HypnoBS- 5, with the right person

Day 13: Artifact F/f 📰 😴🛀🌈 👨‍🔬 ❓

Choice quote: “She fumbled through the contents when suddenly her hand found something unexpected from her past.A red lipstick tube. An artifact.”

HypnoBS- 4? There’s different ways of reading this story, but my headcanon is that the consent here is pretty dubious.

Day 14: Tail M/f 📰 😴🛀❓👻#

Choice quote: “It was no use. She could sense her tail was still behind her. She couldn’t shake him. She should have known he’d come for her.“

HypnoBS- Let’s say 2. Although I think this could work really well for a fearplay scene in an appropriate setting (where someone wasn’t actually left unmonitored with extreme paranoia).

Day 15: Serve F/m 📰 😴#⭐

Choice quote: “He had put his heart and soul into the dish.They were hers now.”

HypnoBS- As a scene? 5 (depending on the person). As a long term effect, much lower.

Day 16: Memory F/f  📰 😴 🛀🌈 😍

Choice quote: “Mesmera waited for Galaxy Girl at the door.”

HypnoBS- 4, you could do an induction along these lines but -1 for psychic powers

Fun Fact: These characters were originally featured in last year’s Day 19: Hideout. 

Day 17: Toy F/f m/f 📰 😴 🛀🌈🐈 #

Choice quote: “Dolly hated to have Bad Manners. “

HypnoBS- 4.5. This is pretty deep into headspace, but I wouldn’t want to rule it out for the right person.

Day 18: Monster m/f 📰 😴 ❓😭⭐

Choice quote: “That kind of stuff wasn’t fair to think about here. It wasn’t everyone else’s fault that she was so warped.”

HypnoBS- 5. Ouch my heart. Poor young!Ella.

Day 19: Eyes M/m 📰 😴 🌈 😍

Choice quote: “Scott looked into his partner Brandon’s eyes. Brandon had hypnotized him so many times over the years in so many ways but- this was one of Scott’s favorites.”

HypnoBS- 5. Especially in a long term relationship like this. (In my pretend Hypnovember universe, these guys are some of the patriarchs of the hypnokinky convention scene and absolutely wonderful advice givers.)

Fun fact: The story of how these characters originally got together is in last year’s Day 12: Stage story. 

Day 20: Possession F/f  📰 😴 🌈 😍😭

Choice Quote- “Things that were hard to do for herself during these times became easier to do as something owned by Thadra. Taking a shower. Getting up and going to bed at the right time. Making sure she ran once a day. Making sure she ate.”

HypnoBS- Errr....4 trending upwards. Although for this to be safe and healthy you’d really need to be checking in with a therapist and working on your continuing mental health at the same time (IMHO). Please do not get relationship advice from my porn.

Day 21: Snaps 🔊😴👨‍🔬

Choice Quote- “No, that one was up.”

HypnoBS- 5. I’m not sure quite how this translates to audio but this is the kind of shenanigans I pull with friends all of the time.

Day 22: Restrict  F/f 📰 😴 🌈 🐈👨‍🔬 

Choice quote: “’Hmm. By ‘weird’ do you mean ‘hot’?’ asked Zahara, lounging above her on the couch. Nikki nodded. She definitely meant hot. “

HypnoBS- 2. A month is a long time and this is a strong reaction. But- maaaaaybe would work for a bit, especially within these boundaries?

Day 23:  Villain there’s a m and a f  📰 🛀👨‍🔬❓#

Choice quote: “They had been planning against that damned do-gooder reporter Lizzy Lampost for months and now they were about to finally have her in their clutches. “

HypnoBS-1. But you’re not reading this one for realism, are you?

Day 24: Drink F/f 📰 😴👨‍🔬🌈 😍

Choice quote: “’Leah,’ she said. ‘I’ve found a drinking game! This might be fun! Want to try it?’”

HypnoBs- 5. With the right person. (That part of the end might be a bit harder.)

Day 25:Worship: F/m 📰 🛀🌈 

Choice quote: “After all, it wasn’t the time to work right now. It was time to worship his Mistress’s cock.”

HypnoBS- Someone on AO3 told me this fic just wrecked them. Lucky that person- this one’s a 5. Maybe not with everyone, but an awful lot of people should be able to do an awful lot of the activities in this story. :)

Day 26: Fey M/f 📰😴 😭⭐

Choice quote: “Humans do not know the spells they weave.”

HypnoBS- 1 Only true in that metaphorical way. (So- really, really true. But not factual.)

Day 27: Recording F./m 📰 🛀❓👻#

Choice quote: “It’s a recording, he reminded himself. “She’s not there. No one is there.”

HypnoBS- 2 At least, I don’t know how to make this happen (outside of a consensual scene).

Day 28: Obsession M/F 📰 🛀😍👨‍🔬

Choice quote: “Some guys had cars. Some had computer systems. Some had home brewing. But Mark’s obsession was Julia.“

HypnoBS- Oh gosh. Errr...2.5? Hard to say. 

Fun Fact: This started as a one-sided scenario, then it changed, then it felt really hot, now it feels like a sweet silly sitcom premise. (If you want to read some episode synopses of this hypothetical sitcom, there are some brilliant ones here! Also- feel free to send me more!)

Day 29: Helpless F/m 📰😴😍

Choice quote: “’I want to be helpless,’ he replied. Juan felt his headspace changing. He threw himself into that feeling, trusting Josie to take the reins.“

HypnoBS- 5. Not a scene log, but pretty much How I Top.

Day 30: Awaken 🔊😴👨‍🔬

Choice quote: “Aaaaaand-awaken!”

HypnoBS- 5 Hypnotist BS- also a 5

Thank you all for reading these! Thank you especially to everyone who reblogged, wrote me comments, and generally supported me through this past month. I’m going to specifically single out @daja-the-hypnokitten​, @wellgnawed​, and @spiralturquoise​ for the encouragement- y’all are the best. :)  I know this is a long post, but I’d really appreciate reblogs of it!

Also, I didn’t have time to contribute myself but- if you donate to Hypnokink for Trans Lives, let me know and I’ll write you an epilogue for any of these stories that you choose. 

[wokestraightpuffy]

So songs I think puffy would play/sing in her piano and who are they for:

1) Lost Stars by Kiera Knighyley (https://youtu.be/sLTRSakuugs) this more than abt someone or something is just a song I think represents puffy a lot and something she would truly sing cuz she believes in what the songs says, like a theme for her if that makes any sense

2) You Can Put Your Dukes Down, Stringbean by Teddy Hyde (https://youtu.be/n2pA0e7Azgs) this one is specifically sang towards Dream but it’s regarding their current relationship and it’s more a plea from Puffy to Dream to go back to when he was her duckling and they could be happy

3) Davy Jones cover by Man on the internet (https://youtu.be/br7a6cJXD98) now this one is one I think puffy would sing to or with Nikki, talking about their love and their promise to be together and love each other regardless of what happened. It’s both soft and very passionate and I think it represents them both and their relationship pretty accurately!

I hope these aren’t so sad nsksbsjs and that you enjoy my choices snsksbsjs please tell me what you think of them! —🤡

 obligatory reminder that these are all /rp and /dsmp !!

auuuughh i love the the first song so much,, ive heard this song before but never this version. i totally agree that this is something that can be puffy’s theme. also the line, ‘its hunting season, and this lamb is on the run’ fits her really well huh :’] this song makes me think of how young she is, weird thought to think about, especially w how muddled the canon ages even are in the smp, but its like a small reminder that sometimes people treat her like an adult more than others, (tbh this can apply to the whole cast ) when her age, 22, is quite relatively young still. she’s still finding her way through the world! just much less apparent

awww i can definitely see this song as something puffy feels towards dream ;-; stringbean too- like, puffy personally has never called dream stringbean i think? but she calls creepers, which are green, greenbeans, lmao, and its sort of a sweet nickname she couldve given dream too, since he’s so tall. (ignoring the canon that puffy is 6′9 if ur me and just imagine her as 5′2 lol) i feel like this is the sorta song of puffy reminiscing, of her thinking abt what couldve been, before moving on and facing what she can do now instead of what she couldve done. i assume that these moments are saved for when shes alone and hurting :’)

the third song is outside my music preferences, but reading the lyrics does remind me of puffychu TT and the song has,,, what do you call it,, like, it conveys what their relationship is like? it starts out soft and slow, then powerful, then it slowly fades out as well. and though that may say that this phase of their lives has already passed, it left its mark, it said that it happened, and maybe, it might still be something in the future regardless too :’D

thank u for the song suggestions! they’re all really nice, and dw abt them being too sad or not, its fun to see what kind of songs people associate w puffy, and picking apart the lyrics to connect them w her is really fun too ^^

[flowerslut]

BREAKING DAWN Part 1 & Part 2

an updated, more modern take on the original soundtrack.

(TWILIGHT) (NEW MOON) (ECLIPSE)

spotify link — BD pt1 spotify link — BD pt2

[track list and commentary under the cut]

Part One

 Endtapes — The Joy Formidable  ➼ ➼ ➼ I Will Be Waiting — Let’s Eat Grandma

This soundtrack starts off so strongly that I had no choice but to pick one that can kick it off just as well. Let’s Eat Grandma might be my favorite band I’ve found this year. Their genre-bending is exquisite.

Love Will Take You — Angus & Julia Stone  ➼ ➼ ➼ Need Ur Luv (Japanese Wallpaper Remix) — Charli XCX

Talk to me a year ago and tell me I was going to be putting Charli on a Twilight soundtrack recreation and I would’ve stared blankly and asked “fucking how?” Well, with this incredible Japanese Wallpaper remix, that’s how.

It Will Rain — Bruno Mars ➼ ➼ ➼ In My Blood — Shawn Mendes 

And how do you replace baby Bruno? Well, only with today’s romantic power-balad singing baby, Shawn Mendes. It’s a perfect replacement, if you ask me.

Turning Page — Sleeping at Last  ➼ ➼ ➼ For Now - Reimagined — Kina Grannis

Any other 2009-era Kina Grannis stans? Message From Your Heart? All those YouTube covers? No, just me? Whatever. Kina belonged on those soundtracks back then, and this is setting things right.

From Now On — The Features  ➼ ➼ ➼ Cliffs Edge — Hayley Kiyoko

One of Hayley’s older songs, so it’s not too new, but I felt that is matched From Now On’s mood fantastically.

A Thousand Years — Christina Perri  ➼ ➼ ➼  human — Christina Perri

No, this isn’t cheating. But only Christina Perri can truly replace Christina Perri. It’s also a perfect pre-change Bella song. I’m sure you heard this song everywhere at the end of the saga when everyone took to YouTube to make their cathartic recap videos. 2012-13 was a great (but weird) year to be a Twilight stan.

Neighbors — Theophilus London ➼ ➼ ➼ FACE — BROCKHAMPTON

Whether you like BROCKHAMPTON or not means little to me. They were absolutely ending up on one of these soundtracks. And as replacement to Neighbors, it’s like they belong. “Tell me what you’re waiting for? I just want to love you.” Ouch. Harsh Jacob vibes.

I Didn’t Mean It — The Belle Brigade ➼ ➼ ➼ All out of Tears — Z Berg

Z Berg created a song that sounded like it was made for one of these soundtracks. It’s insane. And one of my fucking favorites.

Sister Rosetta — Noisettes  ➼ ➼ ➼ Digital Witness — St. Vincent

The Twilight soundtracks (and also Sufjan Stevens himself) are responsible for introducing me to St. Vincent. Now, years later, she’s consistently been one of my favorite artists. She has the range, y’all.

Northern Lights — Cider Sky  ➼ ➼ ➼ Pool — Paramore

Of course I was putting Paramore back on one of these lists, you crazies. (And this isn’t the last you’ll see of them, either.) 

Flightless Bird, American Mouth (Wedding Version) — Iron & Wine ➼ ➼ ➼ New America Classic — Vitamin String Quartet

There isn’t a wedding version of New American classic, but there is a Vitamin String Quartet version! (And no offense Iron & Wine, but it sounds so much more like an actual wedding song.) Any OG Twilight stans know that in this house, we love and cherish the Vitamin String Quartet. They were like our musical savior back in the day. Couldn’t find a decent quality soundtrack upload? No worries. Odds are, they’d already recorded an insane strings cover already.

Requiem on — Imperial Mammoth  ➼ ➼ ➼ Waste — Oh Wonder

I unashamedly adore this song by Oh Wonder. Their dual vocals always put me in a damn trance. It’s so beautiful to describe. Just listen.

Cold — Aqualung & Lucy Schwartz ➼ ➼ ➼ Willow (feat. Robert Pattinson) — Tindersticks

Told you I’d stick him back on the soundtracks eventually. This song is so hauntingly perfect. When I first heard it it reminded me why I was so in love with Robert back in the day. That voice, man. Talent leapt!

Lloverá — Mía Maestro  ➼ ➼ ➼ Silence II — Son Lux

It’s not as beautiful as the Carmen actress’ ballad, but it’s just as haunting.

Love Death Birth — Carter Burwell  ➼ ➼ ➼ Sæglópur — Sigur Rós

When I went through my Sigur Rós phase way back when (pre-Twilight) Sæglópur was my favorite song for ages. It takes you through the whole spectrum of emotion, just as Carter Burwell’s music does. I thought it was an ideal way to end this first half.

You still get bonus tracks! Here’s two for the first movie:

Otherside — Perfume Genius

Simple. Powerful. Emotional. All you need at this point in the saga.

Everything In Its Right Place — Radiohead 

A song that feels like waking up from a dream. Perfect for Bella’s dramatic change. (And of course I had to actually add Radiohead to one of these.)

Part Two

Where I Come From — Passion Pit  ➼ ➼ ➼ Manchester — Kishi Bashi

Bella deserves to see the world for the first time with vampire eyes while Kishi Bashi magically transforms the scene in the background. It’s *chef’s kiss* literal perfection. 

Bittersweet — Ellie Goulding  ➼ ➼ ➼ Warrior — AURORA

Can I go off topic for half a second and tell you guys that I cried when I saw AURORA featured on the new Frozen song? No one deserves that wide recognition as much as she does. And no one does mystical pop better than AURORA (not even Ellie Goulding).

The Forgotten — Green Day ➼ ➼ ➼ Warm Winds (feat. Isaiah Rashad) — SZA

SZA deserves this spot and don’t even question why. SZA’s first album was so iconically emo. She’s another artist I’m convinced would’ve been reached out to for a track if she’d been making music just a little bit earlier.

Fire In The Water — Feist ➼ ➼ ➼ Carry Me Out — Mitski

Even though I’ve been a Feist fan since I got my first vocal comparison to her pre-Twilight (so I was ecstatic when she was featured here) I think Mitski really encapsulates everything a Twilight soundtrack needs.

Everything and Nothing — The Boom Circuits ➼ ➼ ➼ Highspeeds — Elliot Moss

I can’t not give Elliot Moss a spot. And that's it.

The Antidote — St. Vincent  ➼ ➼ ➼ Unholy Trinity — Von Grey

I needed a harder song for this replacement and Von Grey’s music does the trick. This is the band of an old Tumblr friend that goes fucking hard, y’all. She and her sisters know how to bang out the tunes.

Speak Up — POP ETC  ➼ ➼ ➼ Reasons Not To Die (Demo) — Ryn Weaver

This girl just knows how to fucking get me. Her second and final appearance on the soundtrack, here to just make you want to laugh and cry all at once. And as a replacement to another top favorite, it works well.

Heart of Stone — Iko  ➼ ➼ ➼ Smother — Daughter

Heart of Stone actually made my end of year top tracks playlist for 2018. I knew I needed a solid replacement. And you can never go wrong with a Daughter track.

Cover Your Tracks — A Boy and His Kite  ➼ ➼ ➼ In The Mourning — Paramore

We bid farewell to Paramore with their final appearance here. In The Mourning is another long-time favorite. It’s beautiful. And sad! We love it.

Ghosts — James Vincent McMorrow  ➼ ➼ ➼ Weight — Crywolf

You need that late Breaking Dawn depressing shit? I got you that late Breaking Dawn depressing shit. “Bless me with just one kiss before you leave me here with my heart.”

All I've Ever Needed — Paul McDonald & Nikki Reed ➼ ➼ ➼ Beetroot (What If I Was 1?) — Blue Americans

I can’t describe how double-sad I get when I remember that Paul McDonald & Nikki Reed divorced not long after the saga wrapped. (Not that I ever had an attachment to him, but this song is so nice!) So that’s why Beetroot is a little sadder than All I’ve Ever Needed. Still a great song though.

New for You — Reeve Carney ➼ ➼ ➼ Black Hole — HANA 

Black Hole is a little more pop than New For You. But it’s beautiful and nice and lovely and I am also In Love with HANA. So you get her here.

A Thousand Years (Part 2) — Christina Perri (feat. Steve Kazee) ➼ ➼ ➼ I Get To Love You — Ruelle 

Had had had to put this incredible, romantic, hopeful song at the end of this soundtrack specifically. Just listen and tell me you don’t get emotional over their future with this.

Plus Que Ma Propre Vie (More Than My Own Life) — Carter Burwell ➼ ➼ ➼ Half Life - Instrumental Version — Imogen Heap

How are you supposed to pick a song to end the soundtracks? Thankfully, Imogen Heap had the foresight to release instrumental versions of each song on her Ellipse album. Such a thoughtful queen. We thank her by giving her the final word. 

What’s this? No more? It’s okay. You do get bonus tracks, but not here.

I’ll be posting one more soundtrack, full of all the extras and little gems that I couldn’t quite place in any specific spot on the soundtracks. A whole other playlist full of Twilight-vibey songs for your listening enjoyment! Look out for that next week. Happy New Year!

[valentines-in-london]

I Need Fire (Part 2)

Gif by @robwiethoff

Previous chapters: Chapter 1

Next Chapter: Chapter 3

Summary:  Rayne moved to LA a few years ago and has never really fit in.  While most of the Sunset Strip girls were movie star beautiful, with thin builds and blonde, Rayne stood at 5′10 in flats, had curves that no diet would make disappear and had big red curly hair.  The only person that ever made her feel normal was her best friend and room mate Jo.  In this chapter Jo tries to play matchmaker…

Authors Note:  Hey there, thank you all for coming back for chapter 2!  Spread the word tell your friends, as always my asks are open for suggestions, reviews, what you like, what you don’t, etc, etc<3</p>

Word Count: 3,297

Taglist: @triplehaitches  send me an ask if you want to be added!

Chapter 2

It was a hot weekend in Los Angeles, today alone was going to hit 88° according to the local news.  So what were two girls to do?  Of course, lounge by the pool and catch some sun!  The apartment complex that Rayne and Jo lived in had a giant pool that no one ever seemed to take advantage of, it was always a ghost town.

Rayne brought her boom box to the pool with a stack of cassettes.  First she put in On Through The Night by Def Leppard and pressed play.  “I know you’re gonna say I listen to this too much but the guy at the record store knocked it out of the park with this suggestion!  This band is gonna be big.”

“I mean you certainly have had much worse phases.”  Jo giggled from her lounge chair as Rayne took off her baggy t-shirt.  “Oh Rayne if I looked like you I would wear a bikini!”  Jo complained upon seeing Rayne in an emerald green one piece.

“You’re crazy!  I love my curves but no one wants to see me in a bikini.”  Rayne scoffed while laying back in the reclining chair sliding sunglasses over her eyes.

“Oh I can think of one person who wouldn’t mind seeing you in less than that.” Jo teased taking a drink of her iced tea.

“Huh?” Rayne asked propping herself up on her elbow.  "Who?“

“Well I saw Vince the other night and he told me that his drummer has been talking non stop about some bombshell red head he met the other night at the apartment.  He described you to Vince and then said you left with some blonde who was there for Vince.  Vinny later put two and two together that you must be my friend.

"Oh God!” Rayne put a hand on her forehead in exasperation.  “Of course he’s your fuck buddies friend.”

“You know Tommy is pretty sexy.”  Jo pushed the issue.

“Jo he ate a girl out in the middle of a room full of people.  I’m pretty sure her cum is on the walls.” Rayne slid her sunglasses down the bridge of her nose.

“Well at least you know he’s good at it!” Jo laughed before shoving Rayne���s shoulder.  "Oh come on, you deserve to have a little bit of fun!“

Rayne thought about it, maybe she did deserve to have some fun.  But was someone like Tommy worth the trouble he would undoubtedly bring with him?  "I don’t know Jo, I don’t think dating a musician is worth it. They tend to be like leeches.  Remember when Danielle dated that dude from Ratt and found out he was just using her for groceries?”

“I think this band is a little bit different Ray, they sell out every show they play on the Strip.  They’re making money. Vince says he thinks they’ll get signed soon, they have a label executive trying to convince the label to sign them.  And besides, who says you have to date, just fuck him and leave him.”

“If they’re making money why does their apartment look like a bomb went off in it?  God I can’t believe you fucked Vince in there!” Rayne laughed, not even wanting to justify the second part of her friends statement.

“Oh my god it’s awful in there isn’t it?” Jo agreed clenching her hands into fists in front of her.  "I think I saw a cockroach crawling on the floor when Vince had me bent over the bed.  But at that point I didn’t care.“

Rayne gave a loud sound of disgust and threw the sunscreen at her friend.  “Ew!  That’s so fucked.”

Rayne adored moments like this with Jo, where they could just get down to straight up girl talk.  Back home she never had friends that she could talk honestly with, most of her girl friends said that she had no tact and was more like a guy in that way.  Rayne would never forget the first time she ever met Jo after answering a want ad in Recycler magazine for a room mate.  When Rayne entered her hopeful future apartment she was greeted by a disheveled looking Jo, her blonde hair a mess, partially up in a pony tail and an off the shoulder loose fitting top.  Within two minutes of them talking Rayne watched as a guy walked out stark naked, her jaw dropped when he asked if Jo had a pair of pants he could borrow.  The blond smiled at Rayne with a megawatt smile, “I thought he was going to be gone by the time you got here, but I think I wore him out.”  As strange as it sounds Rayne knew in that moment she had met a kindred spirit, even if Jo made Rayne look like a prude most of the time.

The two girls sat by the pool for a few hours gossiping about new bands on the strip, new girls on the strip and every now and then going into the water to cool off.  That night they were going to the Roxy. No bands were playing that they were particularly interested in but the Roxy played the best music when no bands were on and the girls were friends with the DJ who would be spinning there.  Little did Rayne know that Jo had told Vince they were planning on going. If Vince was going that undoubtedly meant that the rest of the band would be there. Jo joked with Rayne that she needed to get laid, and it was all in good fun, but she truly didn’t want the white collar world to suck the fun out of her best friend.  Maybe a bad boy would be just what the doctor ordered.

Later that night the girls entered the Roxy and music already blasted out of the speakers, specifically "Fashion” by David Bowie.  Jo shouted in Rayne’s ear, “I’m gonna go find Robbie.”

Rayne nodded her head making her way over to the bar to grab drinks.  She smiled when she saw that her favorite bartender David was behind the bar. “My love!”

“Hi David.” Rayne smiled hopping onto the bar giving her friend a big hug.  "I keep missing you! We don’t come to the Roxy as much because you guys haven’t been doing live music as much.“

"That’s all going to change soon babe.” David said happily.  David had been working at the Roxy since Rayne moved to LA he was a typical bartender in that he was charming and worked for his tips, he also made a damn good drink.  "What can I get you?“

"I’ll just have a Cardu neat.  Jo is saying hi to Robbie, but let’s get her a vodka cranberry.”

“You got it sweets.” David winked.  After a few short moments he pushed two glasses across the bar.  

Rayne slid a twenty dollar bill back at him telling him to keep it.  "David, would you mind keeping an eye on our bags behind the bar tonight?“

"Always.” David reached his hand out to grab onto Rayne’s leather purse.  "Save me a dance tonight.“

"Oh I don’t know about that.” Rayne smiled and winked.  Rayne crossed the club floor weaving in and out of people to find a decent spot.  She and Jo had become strip rats so to speak, they went out basically every single night, mostly for live music but in that time they had made a little family of friends.  You go out to the same places enough you start to see familiar faces, and you either get along or start to mark your territory against those you didn’t like.  Working her way through the mass of people she spotted Jo coming down from the DJ booth through the crowd of people towards her as Metal Guru by T. Rex started to play.  "David will take your bag for the night, and here’s your drink. Drop your purse and come out and dance with me!“

Metal Guru could it be you’re gonna bring my baby to me She’ll be wild you know a rock and roll child, oh yeah Metal Guru has it been, just like a silver-studded sabre-tooth dream I'II be clean you know pollution machine, oh yeah

The two friends danced to the music singing with each other as they danced.  Swaying her hips to the music, Rayne lost herself in the music she absolutely loved.  T. Rex and Marc Bolan, even if in real life she would have towered over him, were huge influences on her music taste.  T. Rex wasn’t changing the word but they did change hers.  When Marc Bolan died Rayne vowed she would get to the UK one day and pay her respects in some way.

Metal Guru is it you, yeah, yeah, yeah!

The girls sang the lyrics to each other as the song faded into All The World Is A Stage by Slade.

"I thought that was you.” Rayne heard a male voice from behind them.  Spinning on her tiger print heel her stomach flipped when she saw Vince, Tommy and two others with them.  One being the guy who lit himself on fire the other night and the other Rayne hadn’t seen before, he was slightly shorter had long black hair and was wearing aviators, even though we were already in a dark club.  Tommy’s eyes were locked on Rayne causing her stomach to do flips.

“Babe!” Jo shouted jumping onto Vince wrapping her legs around his waist.  The two kissed and Jo mouthed I’ll be right back to Rayne, leaving her alone with the other members of Vince’s band.  Thanks for being my wingman Jo, Rayne thought to herself.

“You like T Rex?” The fire guy asked.

“I love them, they’re one of the greats.  Too bad I never got to see them live.” Rayne smiled genuinely at him.  "What’s your name?“

"I’m Nikki.” He tilted his head upwards in greeting.  Rayne looked down at the shorter man with longer hair.

“And who’s Mr. Way Cool?” Rayne said jokingly to the man wearing aviators.

“Mick.” He said, short and to the point.  "The sunglasses usually make people fuck off.“

"Have you found that works?” He simply nodded, Rayne smiled approvingly.  "Well if that’s the case I might have to start wearing sunglasses when I go out. Not that many people take notice when I’m out with Jo.“

"They should take notice.” Tommy quickly interjected over the music, his dark eyes hadn’t left Rayne since she had turned around upon hearing Vince’s voice.  She saw Nikki roll his eyes and she was sure Mick did behind his sunglasses.

“I need vodka.” Mick said.

“I need a bump.” Nikki quickly said after.  Both of them heading in opposite directions leaving her alone with Tommy.  Fuck, everyone’s leaving me!

“You have to tell me your name.  It’s driving me crazy.” Tommy spoke his eyes begging like a puppy dog.

“Why should I tell you?”  If she was being honest with herself, Rayne kind of enjoyed this game of cat and mouse the two were playing.  Rayne wasn’t used to being chased, in fact since moving to LA she had gone on three dates, just three!  None of those resulted in anything longer than a few weeks and a few free meals.  For the life of her though she really couldn’t figure out why this good looking drummer was showing any interest in her.

“Because you’re fucking beautiful.  You’re a knockout. A ten!” Tommy said enthusiastically.  He certainly had a magnetic energy about him.  His dark hair was fluffed and teased but still maintained its shine.  He was in his leather pants again but this time wore a top with holes cut all through it.  He looked like he was ready to go on stage in this outfit, the other night he seemed more casual, even with the leather pants.

“Look, I appreciate that I really do.  But I am not the kind of girl you want.” Rayne said politely, pulling out a cigarette, offering one to Tommy which he happily took.

“Why not?” Tommy questioned pulling a lighter out igniting a flame for Rayne to use.  Rayne put the cigarette between her lips and leaned into the flame the end lighting up like a cherry.

“I’m not my best friend Jo.” She exhaled gesturing to the ladies room where her friend had gone off with Vince.  "I’m not going to fuck you in the bathroom of a club.“

Tommy flashed a smile before exhaling a stream of smoke, "Oh just give me some time.” As soon as the words left his mouth he closed his eyes and made a face.  "I can’t fucking believe I just said that.“

Rayne chuckled while reaching up and wrapping both her hands around Tommy’s neck, her fingers lazily playing with his hair.  "Don’t worry about it Tommy boy. I’m sure you and the fire hydrant will be happy.”

Tommy had a confused look on his face before it clicked, she was talking about Bullwinkle.  "No she’s not my…”

Rayne pulled one hand away from his neck taking a deep inhale of nicotine, “Yeah, yeah I know.  She’s not your girlfriend. That’s just the point I’m not that girl.  And you guys in bands enjoy being with those girls.”

“Oh so you think you know what we all want?”  Tommy narrowed his eyes.

“I’ve been around enough of you to know it is what you want.  That or I’m a bet between you and your buddies, which has also happened to me before. Good looking guys don’t go after the big girl.  They go after girls like Jo.” Tommy’s eyebrows shot up.

“So you think I’m good looking then?” He smiled wide resulting in Rayne playfully shoving his shoulder.  He’s a beautiful idiot, Rayne thought to herself.

“Oh fuck you.” She laughed, pushing his shoulder slightly.  Rayne had to give it to him he was charming.  His eyes were chocolate brown and strangely kind, if she didn’t know better Rayne would have thought he was being genuine with her.

“Come on!  Have a drink with me?” Tommy motioned over to the bar.  Her heart wanted to, badly. Her mind on the other hand…

“You never give up do you?”

Tommy leaned in close, so close that Rayne could feel his hot breath against her ear.  "Not when I see something I want.“ His response was simple and resulted in an electric shiver to coarse down Rayne’s spine.  Tommy reached down to take her hand in his and Rayne thought the two would catch on fire from the sparks she could feel between them.  She’d never experienced anything like this before.

Just when Rayne was about to open her mouth and say something, she was almost tackled to the ground by an excited Jo.  "It’s our song!!!”

Jo’s approach had snapped Rayne out of her Tommy fog and she realized Stay With Me by The Faces was blasting through the speakers of the club.  "Let’s dance!“ Jo led Rayne away from Tommy to a clear spot on the floor.

Red lips hair and fingernails I hear your a mean old Jezebel Let’s go up stairs and read my tarot cards, c'mon

“That’s you girl!” Jo smiled at her best friend pointing to her hair.  "I bet Tommy wouldn’t mind going upstairs and pulling on that hair.“

"Shut it you perv.”  Rayne laughed while continuing to dance.  She occasionally stole a glance over to Tommy and Vince who were watching the two girls intently.  She knew she’d regret it later but she definitely danced a little more seductively knowing Tommy was watching her.

Hours flew by music, smoke, drinks and swirling lights surrounded everyone in the club.  It was so easy to lose yourself along to the music, it was intoxicating.  Surprisingly Tommy left Rayne alone for the rest of the night, in every way at least except his eyes.  He couldn’t take them off of her. The way she moved, her smile, the way she’d get excited when a song she liked came on, and that mass of curly hair swaying back and forth.  Her hair was a shade of red that resembled fire, a mix of copper and wine that Tommy just wanted to run his fingers though and pull on.

“Tommy if you keep staring at her you’re gonna burn a hole in her ass.”  Nikki said sitting down next to Tommy at the bar pouring out a line of coke.

“It’s great to look at though dude.  I’d like to do more than look at it though.” Tommy smiled at his best friend as Nikki dipped his head down snorting up the dust.  "I’m just drawn to her. I don’t know why, I’ve never felt this way before.“

Nikki sat up and rolled his eyes at the statement, "Really Tommy?”

“Dude!  I’m fuckin serious!  I’m getting a fuckin boner just from watching her dance, that hasn’t happened to me since I first started getting boners.”

“She hasn’t given you the time of day, forget about her and take a look at the sweet thing over there who’s practically drooling at the sight of you.  She’ll definitely relieve the blue balls induced by red over there.”  Nikki spoke gesturing toward a blonde girl at the end of the bar. She wore a hot pink string bikini top and pursed her lips when she saw Tommy look at her.  "I think we could have a threesome on our hands man.“

"Or a two-some, just you and her.”  Tommy laughed clapping his hand on Nikki’s shoulder before his eyes went to his beautiful red head on the dance floor.  He turned back to Nikki and simply said,  "She doesn’t even compare.“

"Well, T-Bone turning down pussy.  I think you should see a doctor man.” Nikki smiled before getting up and approaching the blonde.  Tommy stared down at his drink until he heard a voice from heaven next to him.

“Hey David, we’re heading out for the night can you grab our bags?”  Rayne spoke from beside him. The bar was packed so he could feel her pressed against him as she leaned over the bar.

“You’re just cruel you know that?” Tommy said shaking his head in disapproval looking up at her from his seated position.

“Am I?”  Rayne asked flirtatiously leaning into him, he could tell she’d had a few drinks.

Tommy spun on the stool fully facing her, taking a risk and resting his hands on her hips.  "Let me take you on a date. Come on.“

Rayne’s green eyes drifted to the ceiling in thought.  "Tell you what rockstar, if you can find me this week before your next show that I’m sure I’ll be dragged to by my best friend.  I’ll go on a date with you.”

“You promise?” Tommy smiled up at her leaning in to try for a kiss, his hands sliding down to her ass.

“Oh no you don’t.  I’m drunk but I’m not that drunk.” Rayne grinned grabbing Tommy’s hands and putting them in his lap.  He looked like a kid that was just told he couldn’t have cookies before dinner.

“Come and find me.” Rayne huskily said leaning in and kissing Tommy on the cheek, leaving a stain of red lipstick behind.  When she pulled back she broke eye contact. “Thanks David, see you later.”

And with that she was gone in a sea of people.  Tommy turned to the bartender that had handed her bag to his red haired beauty, gesturing for him to come over.  "David,“ he called him by the name she had used, "let’s talk you and I.”

Tommy punctuated his statement by pulling out a $50 slamming it on the bar.

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Song Inspiration for this chapter: Def Leppard-Rock Brigade T. Rex-Metal Guru Slade-All The World Is A Stage The Faces-Stay With Me

[crue6xx]

Crazy connection

Type:Fluffy

Requested by:@javiersdick

Pairing:Tommy×Reader

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You and tommy definitely fell for each other the day you met in the rainbow, he was nice goofy and cute and so romantic.

You sat at a table with your girl friends and chatted about the guys that you wanted to meet or date and all your friends were talking about The Beatles and all the soft rock bands no bad boys no heavy metal no heavy Rock just the softies, you expected your friends to want bad boys but nope look for the guys who would go to church with you the guys who would sing and make love songs to you the guy who would wait for marriage.

2 days before this little meet up at the rainbow with your girlfriends your brother was playing his music loudly you walk into his room and told him to turn it down because you have were calling your friends which you never even talked to them about fantasizing over guys you let them do the talking and you make your own opinion in this case you saw all the posters on your brothers walls not looking at them in disgust but looking at them like he was kind of crazy, "What (y/n)" your brother looked at you with about all the Teen Angst of 13 year old that he was.

"You never heard Motley crue?"

"No...." you had your head still peeking through the crack of the door until you stepped inside, you were looking for some new music to listen to because they're getting tired of your friends always popping on a Beatles song every car ride you are kind of ecstatic to learn about new music so you let your brother introduced you to Motley Crue.

He played dr. Feelgood In Too Fast for Love records that he got it for his 12th birthday even though they were heavy Rock heavy metal and alternative metal glam metal and hair metal you loved it at this point the Beatles were trash you can listen to this all day long with a new Rush of feeling every time.

But the thing that you noticed in his room where are the posters and obviously they were all over so you couldn't have missed them but the one guy and band sticking out on the wall was of course the one you just learned, Motley Crue but specifically the tall skinny goofy smiling cute Tommy look at first you had no idea who he was so you ask your brother who all they were.

" well on the end to the left is Mick Mars lead guitarist like an alien, that you have Nikki Sixx he is the bassist he is awesome then you have Vince Neil the lead singer he's so cool I bet he gets all the girls, then right there that's Tommy Lee did you remember my favorite of all time and that's why I play the drums cuz he's so cool"

" Tommy Lee huh?... Looks like a cool guy anyways I've got my friends on the line got to go thanks Blake"

So then when you mentioned Tommy Lee your friends just turned with a blank stare at you

" are you kidding? They are crazy they don't go to church they have tattoos they show too much skin and what would your mom think and of all things they are in a heavy metal band come on you can do better"

Feeling ashamed you sheepishly agree with them still you knew Motley Crue was way better than the Beatles And you kind of wanted to tell them but you didn't and in your mind Tommy Lee was way hotter then the Beatles I mean come on it's Tommy Lee against Paul McCartney what would you say. honestly.

Your friends decided to leave a few minutes earlier then you were planning to because you " ruin the vibe" with your satanic worship music.

You sat there sad and embarrassed you just sat there sipping your lemonade the bell wrong as the door swung open Tommy Lee and a couple buddies of his came in you didn't know too much about him but you blushed so hard Tommy was looking around as if he's looking for someone confused he spotted you.

He walked right over to you as if he knew you sat across from you in the booth

"Your (y/n) right?" Tommy asked with his leg over his other leg and his arm resting on the top of the booth you sat there quite confused.

"Yes..." you honestly didn't know what was happening and thought it was a dream but apparently I guess it's quite normal for Tommy Lee to just come up to you cuz that's what it looks like it looks like he knew you maybe your friends saw him in the parking lot walking in lectured him and then he came and talked to you but then you had a sudden flashback your brother had asked where you were going and you told him you were going to go out to the rainbow so you remember he had to go to some show head backstage pass to talk to Tommy Lee and you saw him maliciously grinning after he had come home which was the night before you went out to the rainbow and that night your brother swung into your room and teased you.

"(Y/n) got a crush on Tommy lee"

You ignored him as you were on the phone with your friends good thing they couldn't hear because you didn't want them to know at first.

" so you have a brother right, if so Blake told me that you really wanted to meet me and you love the way I played drums I'm always happy to meet a fan"

You were embarrassed but you were also really happy that your brother was able to do this put also a bit frustrated with him

" yeah you're awesome and I love the crucifix I really like that one song Live Wire it gets me going"

" you look a bit down you good?" Tommy asked

" I'm fine just some of my girlfriend's left because they figured out I like Motley Crew"

" yeah I think I saw some girls outside who were leaving and looked at me in disgust it's kind of funny" Tommy chuckled

" let's get out of here hang out do something fun" Tommy suggested

You ended up at his house hanging out watching a movie eating popcorn talking to him like he was your best friend ever since first grade it honestly felt like that you had this weird crazy connection it just felt right.

Your heart pumped with excitement as Tommy wrapped his arm around your shoulder eating popcorn and watching some scary movie you've never seen which was so romantic but also so stereotypical you loved it though.

During the movie it was getting to a scary scene where this guy and girl was in a closet hiding and the guy confessed his love for the girl before they kissed, Tommy turn to you as soon as the guy said hey

" hey I know we don't know each other too well I feel like we belong I know it's crazy, but I like you" Tommy synced the words perfectly with the lines in the movie.

Tommy leaned in and tugged you tight his lips met yours soft and nice as you guys kissed away while the scene was going suddenly you heard screaming.

You jumped back from the kiss kind of scared noticing that the jump-scare in the movie head just hit Tommy chuckled as he wrapped his arm back around you hugging you tight.

That night you spent at Tommy's house until he drove you home in the morning you're happy to be dating Tommy Lee.

[hungrymimigarfield]

Project 3: Curated Playlist (Week 6)

My curated playlist is designed by the apparently seven stages of heartbreak. According to https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/me-we/201406/the-7-stages-grieving-breakup which was written by Suzanne Lachmann who is a clinical psychologist specializing in psychotherapy in New York, there are in total 7 stages of heartbreak:

Desperate for answers

Denial

Bargaining

Relapse

Anger

Initial Acceptance

Redirected Hope

Although this was a great list to follow. It still felt lacking due to what I have experienced in my personal life and what I have noticed in break ups from people close to me. I decided then to update the list into something more suitable since it is my playlist not Lachmann’s. Therefore I altered the list to make it suitable for the playlist I will be creating.

I try to bridge each categories into each other the best I could because I didn’t want my playlist to be choppy. What I mean by choppy is that if you could tell very distinctively that the songs are very much grouped together in different groups, I don’t want it to seem like there should be a playlist for each group. I rather would like it to all play out smoothly. This is because although breakups processing and emotions are different as categorized in these groups they are still parts of one process that normally does flow naturally this way. However hard and long this process takes, it is only natural and it will get gradually better. And these parts of the process are not something you notice the majority of the time. You don’t get into a breakup and notice every stage your in and prepare for it. Your emotions and how you’re dealing with the situation is what leads you there. So that’s why it shouldn’t be choppy.

Most of the songs in the playlist are going to be pop music, the reason for this is because pop music is becoming less and less appreciated even though it is still a very popular music genre. The reason for this is apparently a lot of people believe that pop music all sound the same, almost like there’s no distinction from it. I see this point but I don’t think that that could generalized for all pop music. I think there is are obvious distinctions between pop music and especially the songs that portray heartbreak. Pop is the type of music that let’s you feel the intensity of the feeling of heartbreak sometimes. But it isn’t just limited to heartbreak.

I didn’t want to include any ‘basic’ break up songs. I wanted these songs to be enriching, powerful, where it really touches you. Not songs like ‘Thank you, Next’ by Ariana Grande, because in my opinion, although it was the hit song for getting over breakups, it wasn’t really deep, it gave a sort of ‘whatever’ vibe which isn’t something constructive. Some of these songs don’t actually literally describe that specific stage in a breakup but that is the point, it is the the feelings and emotions connected to the song and powerful specific lyrics that represents these stages.

I didn’t just include purely heartbreak songs but also songs that provoke the same type of emotion as the stage you’re in. For example, Chandelier by Sia isn’t a song about heartbreak but it is the song’s language, beat, rhythm, symbolisms, motifs, metaphors, and the way in which the singer Sia sings the song that creates such a powerful strong emotion that fits perfectly in the categories they’re under.

Planning of the Playlist

1. Fixating on things that happened in the relationship / Pain / Disorientation / Confusion / Desperate for answers / Fixating on things you and your ex did in the relationship / despair

Rolling in the Deep - Adele

I'll Never Love Again - Bradley Cooper and Lady Gaga

Bruno Mars - Talking To The Moon

Just Give Me a Reason - P!NK ft Nate Reuss

SLANDER - Love Is Gone

2. Denial / Grief / Sadness / Depression / Struggling to cope / Isolation / Losing your mind

Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

Pills N Potions - Nikki Minaj

Summertime Sadness - Lana Del Rey

What A Time - Julia Michaels

Never the same - Camilla Cabello

This City - Sam Fischer

Stay High - Tove Lo

Chandelier - sia

3. Bargaining / you are willing to change and be better because you can’t accept that it’s over / clinging on hope

Clarity - Zedd + Foxes

Fix You - Coldplay

When I Was Your Man - Bruno Mars

Back to December - Taylor Swift

Whatever it takes - Lifehouse

4. Relapse / literally trying to get back into the relationship / literally acting on the bargaining stage

Stay the Night - Zedd

We belong together - Mariah Carey

5. Anger / “Why can’t I get over my significant other?!” / self defeating at first until you turn that anger into realizing you deserved more in the relationship

Call Out My Name - The Weekend

Green Light - Lorde

We are never getting back together -Taylor Swift

Fuck you - Lily Allen

Wrecking Ball - Miley Cyrus

Up out of my face - Mariah Carey ft Nikki Minaj

Part of me Katy Perry

Outside - Ellie Goulding Calvin Harris

6. Initial Acceptance (surrendering / “You are holding up your end of the breakup because you have to, not because you want to”)

Love yourself -Justin Bieber

Wells - Joshua Hyslop

I can’t make you love me - Bonnie Raitt

Somebody that I used to know - Gotye

It ain’t me -Selena Gomez

Remind me to Forget - Kygo and Miguel

7.  Redirected Hope / finding the strength in yourself

Say Something - A Great Big World

Elastic Heart - Sia

Lose you to love me - Selena Gomez

Begin Again - Taylor Swift

She will be loved - Maroon 5

Stitches - Shawn Mendes

Survivor - Destiny’s Child

Perfect Places - Lorde

Titanium - Sia

8. Getting Over them finally!

Paradise - Coldplay

Beyoncé - Irreplaceable

New Romantics -Taylor Swift

Whatever it takes - Imagine Dragons

[kiwispideys]

I Blame Mum | Part 2 (Tom Holland X Reader)

A/N: Hey!!! So I Blame Tessa went really well and I've decided to publish it!! Well, it's not published yet cause I don't have a cover and I need to go over grammar but if you want to make a cover go ahead!! My user on Wattpad is sassyslays and it will be published soon!! For now here's Part 2 to I Blame Tessa since you asked for it!! :)

note: REQUESTS ARE OPEN!

I DON’T DO SMUT!!! IF YOU’RE NOT SURE OF A CELEB / FANDOM JUST ASK ;)

Summary: Being the Holland's exchange student has been a wonderful experience but is hard to see some people come back when they look the way they do...

WARNINGS: none :)

Part 1

He was coming back. Although you'd stayed with the Holland's for many months you had never gotten over how looks seemed to run in the family. Unfortunately for you, like the many other millions of people that had done the same thing, had fallen for Tom.

It came as a surprise at first as you never saw him but soon accepted it and how he would never date you as he only saw you as the exchange student, nothing else.

"Y/N! Don't forget we're going out to a family function tonight and you're coming! Wear something nice." Paddy shouts after nearly an hour of being home.

"I have nothing nice enough to wear for something fancy."You groan as you open your wardrobe.

"You could always wear this?" Nikki says. Making you turn to see a beautiful knee length black dress in her hands. "We were going to give it to you for your formal but you never went."

"You seriously bought me a dress?" You say awestruck. She nods, making you run up and hug her. "Thank you so much! You have no idea what this means to me."

"Well I know how hard you've worked at school and you've been a darling to have so you deserve it." She says kissing your forehead before laying the dress on your bed. "Tom is with Harry and will be meeting us there as his flight got delayed so you have plenty of time to try impress him."

"Oh no. I don't like him like-"

"I see the way you look at him. It's fine by me. I do see you for the daughter I've never had but I think you two will be very cute together." She says leaving the room.

Picking up the dress and closing your door you try it on. It fitted perfectly, it hugged you in all the right places and showed your figure. Making you feel a lot more confident and think you could do anything in it. You loved it. You hear a small knock on the door.

"Does it fit?" Nikki asks.

"Yes it's wonderful thank you." You say taking it off again and getting into some more 'lazy' clothing before you went.

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"Y/N! You ready? We're leaving here in five!" Sam yells as he runs around the house looking for a specific pair of shoes.

"Yep!" You yell back finishing off your lipstick, then grabbing your shoes and sliding them on. Before walking out of the house to go sit in the car with Paddy who is already excited to go see family, not even noticing the mud on his face.

"Paddy did you wash your face?" You ask.

"Yeah. Why?"

"Liar. Go wash-"

"Alright so we're all in except Sam who's locking up." Dom says checking he hasn't lost anyone.

"You look lovely Y/N." Nikki says giving you a smile.

"Thanks." You say licking your thumb and scrubbing Paddy's cheek so the mark goes away, ignoring his complaints.

"I was just about to do that. Thanks love." She laughs at your sisterly instincts, treating Paddy as if he was actually your sibling.

Sam hops back in the car and passes Dom the keys so he can get the car actually started.

The car ride to the restaurant was very quiet with only the small talk between Nikki and Dom. The restaurant looked very posh and you saw why everyone was so dressed up. 

You walk in and wait patiently as Dom and Nikki find their booking.

"It's Dad's side of the family and they're a bit nosy so if they annoy you just come find me." Sam whispers as he stands next to you.

You get guided into a room where it was full of people. As you meet people you find that they're all very welcoming making you feel slightly better.

You follow Nikki around as you'd seemed to have lost everyone else.

"Don't you two look nice!" Nikki says finally spotting her two sons just entering the room and giving them a hug each.

"Sorry we're late Mum there was heaps of traffic and the plane." Tom apologizes as he hugs her.

"Ugh don't even remind me." Harry sighs rolling his eyes.

"It's alright! Nobody has started eating yet so you haven't missed out on anything."

Harry notices your presence and gives you a small nodd as Tom indulges in conversation with Nikki.

"Shall we?" He says offering you his arm.

"And where shall you be taking me fine gentleman." You say curtsying and taking his arm.

"Only to find Sir Samuel Holland." He says with a smirk.

"Oh aren't you nice being the knight in shining armor."

"Harry!" Paddy calls out running up to him and hugging him.

"Hey mate! How are you? Y/N not being mean to you?"

"No she gave me a chocolate bar cause I did her chores and she helped me with an excuse for homework so I could get extra time for it."

"Let me guess, you blame Tessa." You laugh at his reference to when you first met.

"No, it was on countries and I got hers so she came in and talked about it. Giving the excuse that I couldn't do it on the day as she was at school and therefore the presentation wouldn't be complete."

"Very smart."

You start to look around bored of their conversation and catch eyes with Tom who is standing with Nikki as she talks to some other family member but his gaze seems to stay on you, Paddy and Harry.

"I'll be back." You say, leaving to go talk to Tom. He sees this and excuses himself from his conversation.

Tom gives you a small smile and hello as he gives you the hug.

"Hi." You mutter as you hug Tom, trying to ignore the butterflies in your stomach and how comfortable you feel in his embrace.

"How are you?" He asks still smiling.

"Good, school sucks as per usual." You say tucking a loose hair behind your ear, making him laugh at your comment. "How's filming? You and Harrison not getting up to too much trouble."

"Tiring but I enjoy it though so it's worth everything." He says making you laugh.

You notice some one strand of hair is loose and seems to be annoying Tom so out of instinct you brush it out of his face and back into place. "Sorry it seemed to annoy you." You say giving him a small, nervous smile.

"Is this your girlfriend Tom?" An older family member asks interrupting the conversation.

"Oh no she's not my-"

"Oh no I'm not his-"

"Oh how wonderful! You can finally get on with the great grandchildren for your grandmother. You know she wants to see them before she's dead." The old woman says patting Tom on the back as he nods his head like he's heard this a thousand times. She whispers something to him before walking away as he chuckles at what she said.

"She's very-"

"Straight forward?"

"I was going to say head strong but that works too."

"She's been onto me about grandchildren ever since I was fifteen. She's very old fashioned."

"Hey Y/N can I talk to you for a sec?" Harry asks resting his hand on the small of your back as he interrupts the small conversation.

"Yeah sure." You say hesitantly following Harry and apologizing to Tom. "What is it?" You ask once he guides you to a stop.

"I'm testing something. And as soon as you're away he's checking you out and watching your every move."

"What? Who?" You ask looking around.

"Look, Mum told me how you fancy Tom and so I'm seeing if there's definitely mutual feelings as Harrison has said that Tom fancy's you but I wasn't going to take his word for it."

"So the Aunt thing was you too?"

"The Aunt thing?"

"Never mind."

"What's happening and why is Tom constantly looking between us and whoever he's talking to every two seconds?" Sam says coming into you and Harry's conversation.

"Can you not smell the sexual tension?"

"It is not sexual!" You say hitting Harry on the arm.

"Now that you pointed it out Harry, Tom reaks of it. And you do too slightly." Sam says sniffing the air sarcastically and laughing as you hit him as well.

"Little black dress just walked into the room. Makin' heads turn, can't stop looking at you." Harry sings.

"Did you just sing a One Direction song?" You say stifling out a small laugh.

"It's also the song playing while Tom walks this way." Sam says guiding his brother away from you.

"No don't leave me alone with him!" You whisper shout at the twins while they both give you a small sarcastic wave.

"You alright love? They looked as if they were terrorizing you."

"I'm just going to the dance floor." You say going to the wooden floor, avoiding all conversation with him scared of what he might say or what may slip out of your mouth. Not even noticing Tom following you as you're in such a rush to get away. You walk through the crowd and see Sam and Harry at the edge watching some younger children around the age of seven dance.

"May I join you?" You ask one of the younger girls who was dancing by herself near the edge of the floor. "You look like you're having a lovely time and I simply couldn't help but want to join." The girl nods and starts dancing with you. You twirl her around to the music and you hear a familiar song replay. Little Black Dress by One Direction. You sigh knowing it's Harry and Sam's doing, you look in their direction to see Tom watching you from the side of the dance floor. You gesture for him to come dance but he shakes his head no. Earning a shove from Harry and Tom stumbles onto the wooden floor.

"May I take this lovely young lady off you? I'm sure Harry will dance with you." He asks the little girl you were dancing with. She runs off to go find Harry, allowing Tom dance with you.

"Little Black dress, who you doin' it for? Little black dress, I can't take it anymore." You sing along quietly to the music, swinging your hips playfully to the song. Making Tom laugh and spin you around.

"It's not right you know." He sings along.

"You know the lyrics?"

"It's One Direction! Who doesn't know?"

"You know, earlier, that stare before lasted a bit too long for being friends." You say.

"Oh really?"

"Yeah."

"Well does this clear it up?" He asks kissing you, taking you by surprise at first but then you start kissing back, wrapping your arms around his neck. A round of applause starts and some shouts of "Yeah get it Tom!" And some hollers were heard, making you break apart in embarrassment and hide your face in his chest.

"Thanks for keeping PG kids!" Harry yells making everyone laugh and continue with their conversations.

"So where does that leave us?" You ask with a quirked brow.

"I don't know but I blame Mum for buying you that dress." He says making you laugh at his small reference from when you first met.

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OFFSTAGE: Q&A with Me Not You

There is no lack of female/male electronic duos these days, but New Yorkers Me Not You have a grittier approach to the genre as can be witnessed when listening to their single “Relief, that dropped early this year. Now they have released their six song debut EP “Reckoning 1” (Apple Music | Spotify) and go on tour with English synth pop legend Gary Numan.

Listen to “Bulletproof”, the opener of “Reckoning 1”:

https://soundcloud.com/menotyouband/bulletproof?in=menotyouband/sets/mny_ep_reckoning_1

Nikki and Eric were so nice to answer some questions for our Offstage Q&A series:

Q: What was the last song that got stuck in your head? A: Eric: The War on Drugs’ “Holding On.” It’s been on the radio a lot in New York lately and the whole song, but specifically that 5-note descending glockenspiel part, has been perpetually glued to my brain. So simple, and so brilliant. My theory is that Adam wrote it after doing his cover of “Touch of Grey” for the National’s Grateful Dead compilation. There’s a similar kind of effortless simplicity and lightness to the two songs.

Q: Do you have a song from your childhood, one you always enjoy hearing again? A: Eric: I never really got into Soundgarden, but whenever “Black Hole Sun” comes on the radio, I can’t turn it off. And that guitar sound… that’s become a staple for us. Can’t help but refer to it as the “Black Hole Sun sound.” I’m sure we’re not the only ones.

Q: What is your favorite Gary Numan song (don’t say “Cars”)? A: Nikki: My favorite is probably his other big hit from that era, “Are Friends Electric.” But since booking the tour, I’ve been delving into his catalog, and there are fantastic songs on every album. Super stoked to get to see him play 27 times. I’m sure I’ll have a different favorite song by the end of the tour.

Q: What’s your songwriting process like? Are you working together in a room or developing different parts separately? A: Nikki: Most of our songs start with both of us in the room together. Eric will start messing with a drum loop or a synth patch or something, and jam by himself while I’m playing guitar and singing stuff on the other side of the room. If he hears something that jumps out at him, he’ll tell me, and if he makes some magic, I’ll tell him to “HIT RECORD MAN!” He loves to not hit record, but I’m a big fan of that “record” button.

Once in awhile, I’ll bring in a sketch of a song or some lyric or melody idea and we’ll flesh it out together.

And even less frequently, we’ll sit somewhere with two acoustic guitars and write. That’s how “Julia” came about. But once we had the basic ideas written, we bolted back to the studio to lay down electric guitars and drums… we didn’t want it hanging around as a summery acoustic song for too long.

Q: If you could have any musical instrument in the world, which one would it be and why? A: Nikki: There are lots of vintage synths on that list, but I’ve always really wanted a sitar. I played one years ago and even just messing around, everything you do sounds magical.

Q: Is there a song you’d like to cover? A: Nikki: We’ve been talking about covering Elliot Smith’s “Speed Trials” for awhile now. It’s such a great song, and we think it would be cool to re-imagine it a little faster, grungier, and darker… really fun to cover. We still might do it.

Q: In your experience, is there any place with a better live music scene than New York? A: Eric: Fuck no! It’s honestly overwhelming… sitting at home and feeling like, “What am I not doing out seeing music tonight?” The fomo is crippling! I read an interview recently with Laurie Anderson, and she said that Lou Reed used to make them go out in NYC every single night for the entirety of their relationship. That’s inspiring. NYC is a world unto itself, and it’d take many lifetimes to see, hear and eat all that it has to offer. (Oh, and yes… the live music scene is great!)

Q: If you could choose to live in a decade (music, style, etc.) which one would it be? A: Eric: The twenty-teens, of course! Come on! How would we be able to live without the word “lit?”

But really… Nikki and I talk about this a lot, and I don’t think we’ve come to a consensus on what the best decade for music was. I lean towards the 80s. Though most of my favorite albums of all time come from the 70s and the 90s (Rumours and Dark Side and OK Computer and Loveless), the music of those two decades doesn’t seem as focused on progression and innovation. In the 80s it was a revolution. Electronic music and hip-hop came into their own, and pop music got so incredibly interesting. The clothes are amazing and ridiculous and everything seems soooo fun. So yeah, for me, it’s probably the 80s.

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Thank you, Nikki and Eric for your time and for your inspiring answers! It’s great to know about fellow New York and 80s enthusiasts. Have a joyful and pleasant tour!