#I liked the vibe right at the beginning because it felt like I'd opened a new LeMiNo video

[glimmering-brainfamily]

Trying a second time to read Sacred And Terrible Air, the story so far is interesting but no matter which translation I pick it's always extremely difficult to parse anything 💀 makes me feel stupid asf but then I remember I don't have this problem with most other books, there's just something about the way the prose flows in sata in particular that doesn't gel with my brain

[il-miele-che-scrive]

Constellations

lando norris x reader

summary: a blurb where lando surprises his girlfriend arriving earlier than planned

words count: 1k

People told Y/n that Lando and her wouldn't last a week in a long distance relationship when he first moved from the UK to Monaco. Yet, there they were - almost three years of long distance and three more in general going strong.

Y/n loved summers because she traveled with her boyfriend wherever his races were, and Lando loved Christmas because it was the time when he would come back and spend time with his girlfriend and both their families.

As soon as Y/n woke up, she started getting everything ready, it was that time of the year again. Cleaning up her apartment and most importantly baking gingersnap biscuits. After she took them out of the oven, she went to the bedroom in the order to choose an outfit. She was going to pick Lando up from the airport that evening and wanted to dress pretty.

When the girl was picking out something to wear, she suddenly heard the doorbell. With a quiet sigh she went to open the door, hoping whoever it was wouldn't take too much time. All her friends knew she'd be busy.

Her facial expression changed from slightly annoyed to beaming when she saw Lando.

"Why didn't you call?" Y/n asked as she hugged her boyfriend. "I was going to pick you up, remember?"

"I decided to take an earlier flight," Lando confessed, "it's been the plan from the beginning, actually. I wanted to surprise you."

"And you surprised me, indeed. Come on in."

Lando stepped into his girlfriend's apartment. Leaving his suitcase in the hallway, he walked towards the kitchen.

"You baked?"

"Yeah, ginger snaps. A small training portion before Christmas, to check if I still got it." Y/n propped herself on the kitchen counter in a theatrically proud pose. "Turns out I do."

Without thinking, Lando took one biscuit and bit it. He quickly regretted this decision when he noticed how hot it was.

"No, Lando!" Y/n exclaimed. "I've just took them out of the oven!"

The girl fought the need to start laughing at the sight of Lando panicking. Despite the temperature, he ended up swallowing the biscuit.

"You know you could've spit it out, right?" Y/n laughed.

"Are you kidding?" Lando snapped jokingly. "I love when you make those, I would never waste even a bite."

"Consider yourself initiated into the Christmas spirit." The girl opened the fridge and poured milk into a glass, then passed it to her boyfriend.

"Well, now I know your gingersnaps are still as deadly as ever." He took the glass with a mock salute.

"That's a nice definition of irresistible."

"Absolutely."

"You know," Lando began when he and his girlfriend laid down in the bedroom watching TV, "I missed this place. Your apartment feels like a second home."

"A second one?" Y/n questioned, a teasing glint in her eyes. "That's flattering, I'd expect like third or fourth."

"Consider yourself promoted."

The boy gently cupped his girlfriend's face, her head turned to look at him. He placed a soft kiss on her forehead, then looked into her eyes. Their eyes met in a silent exchange of affection that needed no words.

She connected their lips in a kiss. Lando ran his fingers through Y/n's hair, savoring the simplicity of the moment. The outside world seemed to fade away, leaving only the comforting glow of the TV screen.

Some Netflix show on the TV played in the background, its characters living their own dramas, but in that quiet space, Lando and Y/n found their own story.

"Y/n," he began again, his voice a gentle whisper, "I was counting down the days until Christmas, couldn't wait to be here with you."

Y/n smiled, her eyes matching the love she felt. "I love it when it's Christmas and you're here... summer is great, we spend much more time together and with your friends, but Christmas is a vibe."

"Definitely a vibe," Lando laughed, emphasizing the last word. "You have a way with words, don't you?"

As the couple kept watching the show, occasionally adding their own comments, it got dark outside and now the screen was casting shadows om the walls, being the only source of light in the room. Y/n and Lando remained cuddled up to each other, his fingers tracing shapes on her arm.

Once again, Lando broke the silence. "I've been thinking about us." From the tone of his voice, Y/n could tell it wasn't anything she should worry about.

"What were you thinking?"

"We're like constellations up in the sky. Even when we're apart, there's this invisible thread that keeps us connected."

"Have you just made it up?"

"Probably, I don't remember hearing it anywhere before."

"Look who has a way with words," Y/n smiled, not a tint of sarcasm in her voice. "That was poetic, wouldn't expect that from an f1 driver."

"We've been dating for over five years and I plan on keeping surprising you for many, many more."

"And people had the audacity to say we wouldn't last a week after you move to Monaco."

"In these past few years our love has been like a guiding star. No matter where I am, it points me back to you. Always."

"And no matter where you go, I'll always be here, waiting for you."

Lando's fingers continued their gentle dance on Y/n's arm, a rhythmic lullaby. Her eyelids felt so heavy when she rested her head on Lando's chest, his steady heartbeat adding up to the sleepiness the girl felt. Wrapped in the soft glow of the room and in her boyfriend's arms, she felt so peaceful.

When Lando noticed Y/n breathing deeply, he realized she had drifted off to sleep. He decided to turn off the TV and do the same, shifting his body to provide comfortable sleep for both himself and his girlfriend. Christmas had a way of bringing everything together.

[lutawolf]

Hi Luta, if you don't mind answering, what do you think attracted Joe to Ming? And how much does their D/s vibe play into it? I'd love to hear your perspective.

Hey nonnie!!!

Let's go back to episode one and examine this together. I will be utilizing excerpts from the book to showcase inner thoughts, but I will refrain from divulging any spoilers from the book.

I will skip the entire part about awakening from a coma. Instead, let's start where Joe first encountered Ming's poster. I am beginning here in order to provide quotation from the book and provide a comprehension of Joe's inner thoughts.

I wanted to share this because I think it shows how Joe feels about Ming and also reminds us that for him, this is still fresh. Everyone else's world kept revolving, but for Joe, he was just on the phone with Ming. Those emotions have yet to be addressed, and we are currently adding additional complications to the situation.

Now to the elevator scene where Ming and Joe meet.

“The elevator door opened completely. The man standing in front of him is the man on the LED commercial that day. He is only 23 years old and is already well known to half of the world. He is the mighty movie star that no one dared to approach, YanMingXiu. YanMingXiu had gotten older. ZhouXiang's memory of him is still a person who is in the teenager phase, one who likes to wear sportswear and jeans. His entire person exuded youthfulness and a flamboyant aura. The YanMingXiu of today is wearing a casual suit, looking calm and restrained. His expression seems to have solidified on his face but looking icy.

ZhouXiang had been in the entertainment industry for nearly ten years. He had seen all kind of beauties, but no matter whether it was three years ago or now, he always felt that YanMingXiu's appearance is most perfect. He doesn't know how God crafted him out so finely and superbly that it's not a surprise that millions of spectators would be awed by him. Even he, who believes that he had encountered many beautiful people, is also fascinated by YanMingXiu.

In his mind, there was no way he could suppress the memories between him and YanMingXiu. From the time when he and YanMingXiu met to the last phone call they had, it was merely a years' time from beginning to end. However, to him, those memories were too recent. This feeling is very strange. It was like he only saw the person last week, and he was still a teenager, but this week, he had become a man. To him, the two years in between were completely blank. The two years had changed everyone and changed many things. Except for him, he not only lost two years of time, but he was forced to accept the changes that occurred in the past two years.”

For fun, I'll give you Ming's thoughts.

Both of their inner thoughts have now been seen. We are aware that both individuals are in love with each other. Now from when? From the show, we know that Ming fell in love with Joe's back right away. But what about Joe?

The show did an impressive job of capturing the book here, but the show changes from the book when Ming simply walks away.

I, personally, feel they still captured the fact that Joe was smitten, but in the book, we see Joe being unable to take his eyes off Ming. From the book, I know that he even wanted to go over and talk to him. So from the beginning, Ming captivated Joe. He is immediately drawn to his beauty. Which is fair considering we all know that Ming loves Joe's back. He is hostile initially to Joe for the reason that he can't understand why he is drawn to Joe when he is clearly in love with Tong.

I thoroughly enjoy the car scene. Joe is accustomed to being able to charm people, but this beautiful boy is not paying him any attention. Regardless of the efforts made by him. Yet, just when he is starting to get discouraged, Ming surprises him. Inviting himself to Joe's home.

“Zhou Xiang felt a bit bored seeing Yan Mingxiu's cold and detached attitude. Although he was itching to sound Yan Mingxiu out, he could tell Yan Mingxiu was completely uninterested in him. Even if Yan Mingxiu was gay, what did it matter? Being homosexual wasn't anything special. If two men liked the look of each other, both would have realized already. Who had the patience to unearth if the other person was beautiful inside? Even though Zhou Xiang felt that it was a pity, he wasn't a petty person. Being able to accompany such an unrivalled beauty on the way home in a traffic jam under the heavy rain was already very wonderful. He'll just make do with sexually fantasizing about him in his head. He should tightly zip his mouth, behave, and drive the car to avoid annoying him.”

Okay, so from everything I've shown you. You can clearly see that Joe has a submissive personality.

The sexual scene in the show effectively showcases their mutual sexual attraction. However, the scene itself doesn't match up with what is in the book. Having said that, I believe that the show aligns more closely with their individual traits, and I found that I liked it more than the book.

Okay, back to the show. Ming being aggressive is a turn on for Joe. It allows him the opportunity to not think. He has been making his own choices for a long time, so this is a chance for him to relax. That however doesn't extend to letting Ming top without first mentally preparing for it.

Joe immediately rejects Ming, going home. Why? Because he is tired of being alone. So Joe cooks and feeds Ming. As Joe begins to care and charm Ming, the attraction between the two builds. Both individuals experiencing a diminished sense of loneliness. Please keep in mind that Ming has lived abroad for years, with only the occasional visits from his family. He is just as lonely as Joe.

“After the meal, YanMingXiu continued to watch TV while ZhouXiang went to clean up the kitchen.

After cleaning up, ZhouXiang brought out the dessert and tea. He had not entertained anyone in his home for a long time. He rarely had people over. Even if he brought back anyone; they certainly wouldn't sit down to have tea and chat.

Although it is a pity that he and YanMingXiu couldn't achieve the goal (sex), sitting and chatting with him on this rainy night is quite romantic, so ZhouXiang's mood has been good.”

Moving on to the scene of the one on the floor and the other on the bed. Notice the threat that gets Joe on the bed with Ming. Joe had just pointed out that a man like him cannot sleep on the floor, so Ming told him to get up here, or he would get on the floor. Joe immediately gives in to the pressure.

The thought of being Joe's first means something to Ming, but he warns Joe. Ming isn't a nice person, but he can be unexpectedly kind, but Joe wants Ming. Take a look at his face after he has tucked Ming in. He is content because he is not sleeping alone. He has a beautiful boy beside him, that seems to need him as much as he needs to care for someone.

So why do they like each other? They are both physically attracted to each other, and one prefers to be commanded, while the other enjoys commanding. One needs to be able to take care of someone, and the other expects others to take care of him. Add in the fact that they're both lonely, and somehow Joe was able to sneak past Ming's intimidating walls of mistrust to ease his loneliness.

There you have it, this is what my opinion any ways. Sorry it got so long, nonnie. It just kind of happened. 💜💜💜

[phoenix-eclipses]

Casting Love 0.6 -- Put it in the Universe

YN got there early. The moment they walked into the store, one of the employees immediately recognized them and waved. They waved back and sat at one of the tables, not wanting to order anything yet while waiting for Kenma.

Right at 2:30 Kenma walked into the small cafe. YN walked over.

"Hi! How are you today?"

"Oh, hi. I'm okay. Were you waiting?"

"Not for that long, don't worry. I just didn't have much to do once class ended so I changed and headed over. I got here like five minutes ago." they waved his concern off before turning to the menu. "What do you want? I'd personally recommend a slice of one of their pies, they're all really good."

"Hm." He walked over to the display case and looked at the options. "I'll take a slice of the apple pie."

"Nice choice! I haven't tried it myself but one of my friends really like it. Hmm... I think I'll have the strawberry rhubarb." YN glanced to the employee who happened to be listening. "And I'll take your recommended drink."

After they got their food and drinks, the two walked over to one of the empty tables to discuss a few things. YN pulled out their laptop and shifted it so Kenma could see the screen.

"I made a list of a few things I felt like were important to discuss with each other."

Schedules (update each other if major updates are made)

Extended absences (missing one or two days in a row is okay, at least for me, but preferably alert each other if we're going to be gone, especially if it's for multiple classes)

Weekly or biweekly meetings (don't know how much time we'll have in class to properly talk so it'd be important to talk outside of class)

"Of course, if you have anything you're concerned about you can add it in the list. I just thought these were important to settle first."

Kenma nodded his head, opening his own laptop. "Can you share this with me? It'd be helpful for us to both have it to our disposal in case we need to reference it or if any changes need to be made."

"Yep! What's your email?"

0.5 -- Masterlist -- 0.7

Notes

YN did in fact leave their class early (the prof takes attendance in the beginning so they got full attendance marks since he didnt even notice)

They were running back to their shared appartment with Iwa as they called Tsuki (they almost tripped while trying to explain everything to him)

Realistically, it didn't take them that long to decide on an outfit (like 10 minutes max) but then YN spent the rest of the time worrying about how to talk to Kenma so they made the bullet list to try and at least have a baseline to start from

YN was purposefully excluding Oikawa because it's 1/2 am for him

I love Kenma but I'm also convinced unless he is fully interested in the conversation/it's with one person he's comfortable with he can be dry asf

The range of time of when I drop these posts keeps getting more chaotic, it really just represents the ruin my sleep schedule is in

One of the funniest but also hardest things about this is because my normal writing tends to be so much more formal than this but I want the writing portions to fit the vibe but also just be goofy so don't expect anything crazy from them :b

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Mine All Mine - Angela Giartanna x Fem!Reader

warnings: kissing, possessive behaviours, implied future smut, mention of throwing up (think that's it but let me know if there is more)

words: 1617

I know this sucks guys, but just bear with me, I haven't written for a long time and I am still tryna find my vibe again. Hope you enjoy though :)

Mine All Mine

Jealousy wasn't an emotion that Angela was used to, at least not until the last few months. When Y/N joined the Smosh cast at the beginning of the year, Angela quickly felt something drawing her in. She felt lost when Y/N wasn't near her and only complete when she had her eyes on the girl. So she set out to make sure she felt the same. Whether it was offering to grab Y/N's lunch when she picked up hers, always laughing extra hard at her bits, or even things as simple as always asking for her opinions on her newest jokes, she was always making an effort. Y/N had no issues with it, though; she thought it was cute, plus it made her feel safe around Angela. They always looked out for each other, told each other everything, and considered each other their best friends. Looking back, all the signs were there, but it was only on that day that Y/N finally picked up on I.

The cast had just wrapped the shoot for their most “fun” Eat It or Yeet It episode, which Garret had called the All-Stars episode. They brought back some of the best and worst dishes for an hour-long special. Unfortunately for her, Y/N got stuck with the worst dish of the game. No one thought she could manage it, and they were right. One mouthful in, she reached for her bucket and spat it all out. She coughed and choked as she spilled her guts. In an attempt to give her some comfort, Courtney rubbed Y/N's back. The second her hand made contact, Angela's eyes snapped to it. Why was Courtney touching her girl? No one was allowed to be that close to her. Was there something going on between them? No, Y/N would've told her, right?

As everyone made their way off set, Angela grabbed Y/N by the arm and dragged her away from her conversation until they were alone together in a far corner of the building. Angela stood there with her arms crossed and her brows furrowed. They stayed in silence for a moment, neither daring to speak. Finally, Y/N broke it.

"Hey, Ange, you ok? You look a bit upset there. What's on your mind, pretty girl?" She brushed some stray hair behind Angela's ear. Getting a bit flirty always cheered her up when she was having a bad day. But today it didn't seem to do the trick because Angela's demeanour hadn't changed.

"Why was Courtney all up on you earlier? Are the two of you together? Why wouldn't you tell me? I thought we were friends." Y/N's mouth opened in shock. Nothing was going on with Courtney; why would Angela even think that?

"No, we aren't together; don't worry. If I ever got with anyone, you would be the first person I'd tell, I promise." Y/N smiled at Angela, trying to offer any comfort. She wasn't sure what caused this little outburst. Sure, Angela could be a bit clingy sometimes, but never anything like this. Then Y/N noticed how Angela was nervously fidgeting with her sleeve. She took Angela by the hand and gently rubbed her thumb. “What's going on with you? You know you're the most important thing to me, why are you getting all worried about it?” Y/N whispered softly to her friend.

“What if... what if I don't want you dating anyone?” Angela mumbled. Y/N stayed quiet, she was confused. She loved Angela, probably more than she cared to admit, but she had never acted like this before. “What do you mean?” Before Y/N could question it more, Angela surged forward with an urgency neither woman had witnessed before. Before she knew it, Y/N could feel Angela's soft lips on hers. Butterflies erupted in her stomach. She didn't realise how desperately she had needed this. Their lips moved together, as one. It didn't take long for Angela to brush her tongue against Y/N's bottom lip. She gasped, and Angela used that chance to slip her tongue in. They fought for dominance, but Y/N soon lost, not that she ever really had a chance. The two leant into each other, Angela's hands on the back of Y/N's neck, pulling her in.

The kiss ended abruptly, though, as Angela pulled away slightly. Y/N caught herself trying to chase after her lips, she made note of how pathetic it was and thought to remind herself in future not to do it. Angela also made note of it, however, her reasoning was the opposite. She liked how quickly Y/N submitted to her. “You are mine. Is that understood? I don't want anyone else touching you. I need to know that you belong to me and me only.” Angela muttered through gritted teeth. Y/N could only manage a nod in reply. She looked at Angela, her eyes like a lost puppy looking for approval.

Over the next few months, the two built a relationship. They kept it private, though if anyone really wanted to figure it out, they could. Not too much had changed from before, but now you would never see one without the other. They were attached at the hip and were always touching in one way or another, whether it was a hand on one of their backs, an arm wrapped around their shoulders, or just sitting so close that their thighs were pressed up against each other. It didn't go unnoticed—a clear difference in their behaviour—but it wasn't enough to raise anyone's suspicions.

Then the day that Angela had been looking forward to for months arrived. The Starkid episode of TNTL. It was supposed to be the best day ever. But stupidly, Angela had not accounted for all the extra people that would be around her girlfriend.

The filming began, and Y/N was seated between Chance and Mariah.

While they were sat on the stools, Angela noted how close they were. She saw how they would grab each other every time they laughed and have quiet little conversations between each bit. She could feel the anger and jealousy bubbling up inside her. When it was time to swap over teams, Angela pulled Y/N aside quickly to give her a warning before going to her stool.

When the other team started doing their bits, Angela quickly noticed that whenever Mariah was out, so was Y/N, and vice versa. She was already angry, but now it just felt like they were doing it on purpose. She knew she couldn't technically blame Mariah; she didn't know about Angela and Y/N's relationship. But Y/N was to blame. Angela had even been kind enough to give her a warning.

When the shoot finally finished, everyone decided to hang out for a bit. Mariah and Y/N were together the entire time. As the afternoon went on, Angela could feel her jealousy build up moment by moment. She didn't know what to do. She couldn't drag Y/N away without most likely outing their relationship, but she couldn't just let this go on.

Neither was a good option, but Angela soon decided she would invite Y/N over after work so they could talk about it (among other things, hopefully).

When Angela and Y/N were alone together, talking was not an activity they could manage much of. They couldn't keep their hands off each other. But Angela was determined to show the younger girl who she belonged to.

“Mine.” Y/N had barely made it through the front door before she was being pushed up against it.

“Of course, I'm yours, baby. Why would you ever doubt that?” Angela noticed the look of innocence on Y/N's face. She wasn't going to let this slide.

“Mariah was all over you, flirting with you, touching you, she was obviously into you. You just let her act like that. Were you trying to get a rise out of me? Cause it worked,” Angela growled, keeping Y/N up against the wall.

“No, I was literally just spending time with a friend, Angela. You always get so worked up about things like this. If you can't handle me just communicating with people, then maybe we should have some space. I need to be able to have a life outside of  you." Y/N shoved Angela off her. She walked further into the apartment and slumped down onto the sofa. Work had worn her out, and now she was coming home to Angela being like this.

“What does that mean? Are you trying to break up with me right now?” Fear was present in Angela's voice now. This wasn't what she'd expected to happen. She thought they'd maybe argue a bit, then ultimately settle it in the bedroom. Knowing she was at risk of losing Y/N made her realise that maybe she had overreacted a bit. Y/N sighed as Angela walked over to her.

“No, pretty girl. I could never break up with you. I think both of us are tired and need to chill out a bit. Come here, we can cuddle and put on a film for a bit. How does that sound?” Y/N the cushion next to her as she spoke. Angela smiled as she sat down on the sofa. While they were discussing what film to watch, Y/N crawled onto Angela's lap. It had been a while since they had been able to just sit together and relax. As Angela pulled the girl closer to her, she heard a small whisper come from her.

“Just to be clear, I'm still getting laid tonight.” And with that, Angela decided that this was definitely the best day ever. She got to keep Y/N, and she gets hot make-up sex for another one of their "not really an argument" arguments.

[rawliverandgoronspice]

okay I finally carved a couple of hours to begin playing Skyward Sword, and it's wild how many thoughts I got hit with almost immediately. In no particular order:

the soundtrack is really good

it is so wildly interesting how much it feels like both botw and totk are kind of a do-over of what they tried to do with ss gameplay-wise but couldn't quite pull off at the time, but all the open world yearning is there, boiling under the surface and ready to overflow (and you can kind of feel how constrained the gameplay feel by the old formula, as I much as I love it. I completely understand the need for pushing the boundaries a little bit already)

the characters and world are very charming honestly, shoutout to the vendor in skyward loft who's so excited about you/so disappointed when you leave empty-handed

SS Link is, by far, the most himbo Link has ever been to me. I don't know if it's something about his face or his animations, but the strong-helpful-a-little-simple vibes are off the chart with this one

Zelda is really cute!

groose

I love the soft environmental worldbuilding!! like the characters' bedroom, the hints of what life and culture is like here... It's something I really missed in TotK, to compare the skybound people with the newer, shinier (literally) skybound people --how barren their ruins are, how they have literally nothing to say about the people who once lived in them...

okay so playing this game, aka the game right before botw which, while being older isn't that old and is available on modern consoles to play right now, and then hearing the take "zelda was never about the story" feels downright insane to me now. Like, it always felt insane to me, but now I'm like... okay so you guys haven't played anything beyond Breath of the Wild. This is actually what's going on, right? Because playing around 2 hours of SS, I'd even argue there is *too much story* at the moment, and I barely got an opportunity to play properly...

[lorelite333]

thank you to @sclairereject for the inspiration for the post, because i never have anything to post about half the time. however as someone who does do tarot (i'm spiritual), i wanna put my own twist to this. (ppl have their own interpretations, but the cards still have definitions)

Redacted Boys (includes Alexis) Major Arcana Tarot Cards:

I'd also like to say that these are just my takes, and things that I've noticed and felt. I don't have everyone on here, as I got tired writing this halfway through, so I don't have everyone on here.

SHAW PACK:

David Shaw is the Magician, specifically because he was trying to find his power and voice as leader, in which he did.

Milo Greer is the Chariot, because of sense of direction and will power. He tries his best to do what's right, even if it hurts him in the process.

Asher Talbot is the Strength card, due to his overcoming self-doubt, his compassion, and his bravery in situations. In reverse, this card represents self-doubt, lack of confidence, and vulnerability.

SOLAIRE CLAN

Vincent is the Lovers card, standing by his personality alone, resembling unity, balance, partnerships, and choices.

Sam is the Justice card, associated with fairness, truth, balance, and legal matters. I feel like Sam genuinely cares about what's right, and wants to help no matter what, even if he says he wants to stay out of things. He has this sense to try to make things right, even if things may get rocky. He's a healer by heart, and tries his best to do what's best for everyone in a situation.

William is the Hierophant, it is associated with education, knowledge, traditions, and institutions. I dont really have a reason for this one other than vibes.

Alexis the Judgement card, due to her past actions as well as her personality. This card represents reflection, rebirth, transition, and decision-making. In reverse, this card represents self-doubt, poor choices, stubbornness, blame, and confusion.

Porter is the Tower card. It represents trauma, destruction, unexpected change, revelation, chaos, awakening, and warning. We know that Porter is in fact "The Blade" of the Solaire Clan, and we know that he somewhat regrets it in some way, as well as him having trauma from this and his maker.

DAMN SQUAD

Gavin is The World, as it symbolizes success, fulfilment, and an end of a cycle. I feel like this represents him due to his change with the Freelancer, him being able to open up and enjoy his life with them and his friends. Gavin never really considered Aria his home, but more so just a place he lived at. In his SBW, he talks about how Dhalia has become his home, as Freelancer and the DAMN squad had helped him change his view on it (as well as change him).

Damien is the Sun, mostly in reverse, this academic over-achiever has a little bit of an ego. He's also quite pessimistic and has unrealistic expectations that were set on him by other people. However, the Sun is also associated with positivity, happiness, freedom and vitality. Which I think Damien has learned throughout his years of being friends with the Freelancer, that it's okay to take a break sometimes and just have fun.

Huxley is the Star, as he tries to maintain his happy and positive self for everyone else, turning to inspire others and give them hope with their problems. However Huxley also experiences negativity, hopelessness, failure. I think Huxley somewhat feels like the things in life get too repetitive, and he sometimes loses interest in certain things or just becomes bored with them from a tedious routine.

And finally Lasko, is the Fool, mostly from vibes, however The Fool is an air element card, which represents new beginnings, a leap of faith, and loyalty. Lasko sees the DAMN squad as family, in which he's very loyal to. I feel like during his time at DAMN, he's experienced time after time a new beginning, from Damien and him becoming friends to him and Coworker having a relationship.

[fkmarrycill]

Touch Me, Tease Me Collection, Part 1

911 words

Smutty vibes 🔞

Yes, I named this after a 90s R&B song. 🤭🤭🤭 It's Jackson Rippner, getting a little spicy TLC from his dominatrix girlfriend. I plan to write more of them–I see it as a collection of one shots of them, a loving couple with unusual careers. I love the idea of our man Jackson being vulnerable in this way.

Thanks for reading! ❤️

At last, I felt the tension begin to leave his body, as my deep kiss made his self-control slowly melt away. My full lips, pressed against his full ones, nuzzling their softness, teasing before they gave way to my tongue cleaving his mouth open. He gasped as I grasped his face strongly. I explored the warm cavern of his mouth, dueled his tongue for supremacy and, triumphant, sucked gently on the acquiescing muscle. The groan that began deep in his throat wanted to escape and fill the room, but I continued to silence him, with one soul-scorching kiss after another.

I straddled him while he reclined on the curved sex chaise that was covered in red PVC, and I could feel him hardening rapidly underneath me. I chuckled into his mouth while I continued to kiss him. He was right where I wanted him: arms over his head, wrists in tied in soft rope, legs similarly bound. He was excited, eager to have his latest fantasy come to life. All I knew was that I'd have a wicked good time with him, same as always.

I knew when I first saw him that he was trouble, but not in the way he usually inflicted chaos on the world. Yes, he was a merciless assassin, but to me, he was trouble in the sense of his energy: powerful, mysterious, barely contained. Primal, like a tiger hunting its prey and biding its time.

I'd met him at a friend's party. He'd tried to woo me with a sweet, charming veneer at first, but he soon revealed his true self after I mentioned I'd heard of his work. I told him I was glad he'd stopped pretending with me, that someone with my unique skill set would never fall for his meet-cute gambit, because his presence alone spoke volumes about who he really was.

He wanted to be a client, but I never mixed business with pleasure. I told him that. Exactly like that. And then I whispered in his ear what I had in mind for us. The lust that crawled across his face, narrowing his eyes and turning his lips up into a grin, let me know he didn't mind one bit.

What I didn't tell him was that he made me a little uneasy when we first met, with those intense blue eyes set deep into the contours of his preternaturally beautiful face–his beauty being much more disarming than his resume to me. But now, we were inseparable: lovers living together, doing the things that all lovers do, but also terrorizing the world with our unique sets of skills.

He came home with a toy, one that I could use to drag him to that line between extreme pleasure and temporary insanity that he loved so well. It was a basic prop that could be obtained from any mildly titillating sex shop, but he'd never expressed interest in one before. He was always in control for his job, but lucky for both of us, he liked to play much, much harder than he worked, and he was open to trying anything once. I took today's request as a deeper level of trust that had developed between us, boyfriend and girlfriend, sub and mistress. I looked forward to the vulnerability he would share, only with me.

"Ready to start the scene?" I said, breaking the kiss.

"Yes,” he intoned.

“Same rules as usual, same safe word.”

“Make it good, Mistress," he said, looking up at me with his cold, seductive eyes and his usual smirk. His mouth was closed, but his flared nostrils and chest rising and falling let me know that he would've been gasping for breath if his pride wasn't so strong.

He was my lovely brat, easily the most beautiful man I'd ever laid my eyes on. I let him get away with much more talk than my clients when we were in a scene; partly because of our bond, but also because of that cold-blooded reputation. I liked to get as close to that line of danger and excitement as possible for myself, just as much as my clients and my lovers did, which is why my schedule was filled with the scariest of killers and thugs. But I always knew not to push so far that they wanted to break character–and break my bones.

I gave him one last kiss. We both smiled at each other, and while our eyes locked in a gaze of mutual admiration, my right hand grasped the gag on the side table.

Soon, everything was in place. I stifled a moan as I took a look at him: his mouth parted and his full lips comfortably cradling the red silicone ball, while the leather straps hugged his face and drew even more attention to his prominent cheekbones. The pale, naked skin of his body flushed as he waited for me to do my worst.

His wide, cyan eyes were starting to glaze over, occasionally hidden by the fan of his eyelashes every time he blinked. His dark hair had been perfectly styled, but now shaggy bangs almost covered those eyes, thanks to his arching and squirming. He'd come undone a bit already, yes, but he and I both knew it was only the beginning. I'd savor every scandalous thing I'd do along the way to give him release with an edge.

[yandere-yearnings]

Waiittt Dar appreciation timeee

so it turns out I’m a suuuper shy reader, I don’t really interact with people because I’m honestly the worst at getting things out and overcoming my shyness, like I mean I type something out and if I make a single typo I’m already contemplating whether or not to delete my whole account 😩

but your blog and you overall radiate such nice vibes!! You are an amazing amazing sweet person, I get super happy whenever I get a notification and I’m being real but I RUN to my phone to see your post, I have no shame in admitting I read your posts over and over again because I love YOU and YOUR work so freaking much, I’m literally kicking my legs while writing this, in my humble opinion you deserve everything positive coming your way, it makes me feel sad seeing YOU sad, you are such a pretty pretty beautiful breathtaking person, I along with many many others appreciate you, so never doubt your abilities, because if you were as bad as you think you are there wouldn’t be so many people loving on you and reading your work,

thank you dar for being so kind and giving to us, I love youuu 🫶🏼🫶🏼

I'M ACTUALLY CRYING?? 😭😭😭 this is literally the sweetest thing and i think it's just taken away all the heaviness in my heart, i genuinely am on the verge of tears like,, i can't thank you enough for this, really.

you're so valid, i totally get where you're coming from!! granted, i don't read a lot bc i'm dyslexic, but that feeling of a single typo making you rethink everything is so familiar to me, i get it completely😩💔 i'm a really introverted person, so it takes a lot out of me to interact with others and while it isn't the exact same as being shy, i think i can understand how difficult it probably is for you and it just means so much to me that despite that, i'm still privileged to the sweetest asks from you. they always, always make my day and i'm so grateful that you feel comfy enough to share your thoughts with me, thank you so much🥺💕

i'm so happy to hear you get good vibes from me and my blog?? literally you've got me blushing rn, the fact that you even have notifs on for me to begin w/ is so flattering, i'm so flattered😭 it's the same for me bc whenever your user pops up i open tumblr so fast, you're always making me smile🥺🩷 a moment of honesty from me but i really hate my writing so i don't have a habit of rereading my posts, the fact that they're decent enough that you come back to them just gives me so many positive emotions i wouldn't be able to describe😩💕 i love you too, i feel like i don't say it enough but i appreciate you sm❗️❗️and you're absolutely adorable, thank you for saying that😭 i'm kicking my feet right alongside you, wishing you always, always stay happy and that everything good in this world comes to you🥰

after all this, i don't think i can be sad anymore, honestly. haven't felt this way in so long and i really owe it to you, so pls don't be sad bc that's the last thing i'd want🥺 thank you for your sweet words, when i say that i could describe you in exactly the same way, i really mean it. a beautiful person w/ a beautiful heart and i feel so insanely lucky to be able to be around for it all🤧 i appreciate you and everyone else as well, i wouldn't be doing this had it not been for all the kindness and compassion you've all been showing me, it truly is everything😌💕

thank you for being even kinder and for taking the time out of your day to send me this, i really suck at expressing myself so you'll never know, but it's really done so much for me🥺🩷 thank you for always receiving so kindly, and know i love you even more❤️

[benkyoutobentou]

Hi! For the langblr ask thing, what do you think for 15, 20 & 21? (:

Thank you so much for asking!

15. Why are you learning your target language(s)?

Mostly I start learning languages because I like the sound of them. For Japanese, a few friends pressured me to start learning with them after I expressed interest. With Mandarin, I actually specifically remember that not knowing the nuance in the different ways I was hearing characters in shows say "thank you" bothered me enough to get me to start studying the language. That and, of course, I think it's a really pretty language. German is a bit different because it's a language I've wanted to learn since I was a kid. I don't know much of my ancestry (white American vibes), but I do know that my great grandparents spoke German, so that's a big inspiration for me to learn it myself.

20. Opinion on duolingo?

Like most everyone who has used Duolingo once in their life, I definitely have (lots and LOTS of) ways in which I'd change it, but overall I think it's a worthwhile addition to regular study, mostly in the beginning. It won't necessarily work in a vacuum, but I also think that that goes for any resource (just... more so with Duolingo). In general, Duolingo tends to prioritize rote memorization, which really isn't the best way to learn a language in my opinion, because you can't memorize your way through a real conversation. Also, there's a learning curve of learning how Duolingo wants their sentences written rather than how to naturally craft a sentence. And then there's the emphasis on translation, which makes the most sense for a game and for a business (opening up the platform to less serious learners, which is a benefit and a drawback depending on where you fall on the scale). I think its biggest fallback right now, though, is its near complete absence of grammar. It could really be taken up a notch if they focused a bit more on in depth grammar explanations and added some grammar specific exercises. But with that all said, I still think it can help in the beginning stages of language learning by introducing you to lots of vocabulary and basic sentence patterns. I don't really use it much myself anymore because the "gameification" doesn't really work on me, but I know people who do like that aspect of it, and I think that it's great that it can get people to practice their TL, even just a bit. Unless it's something you really enjoy, I don't think it's worth it in the upper stages of language learning, though, so I don't think I'll ever finish a tree. Side note: I know some people take issue with having less freedom in what lesson you do next, but I never felt like there was all that much freedom of choice to begin with, so that update didn't really bother me.

21. What’s your favorite method of studying?

Honestly, I love the old fashioned hand taken notes on grammar explanations. There's something mildly therapeutic about it. As with all my study, I also cater it pretty specifically to my needs, so I won't take notes on every little thing. My other favorite method of studying, which wasn't listed first because some might not consider it technical studying, is reading! Reading really makes all the other study you put in really feel worth it, connects you to the culture of your TL, and I just love reading in general.

[invisiblegarters]

23.5 Episode 6

Halfway mark, here we come!

Last ep, Ongsa almost told Sun the truth about Earth but then bottled it like we all knew she would, and Sun was kinda dumb. Sorry not sorry but if someone just sent me a package to a random park I would have some questions.

Meanwhile Aylin was getting picked on for the crime of being herself and that did not sit well with Luna, who offered to be a safe space for her and then got very very bashful about it and it was the cutest. Aylin then wondered if she could feel human emotions and it was also the cutest.

Alpha is still a great big sis and cousin. Only "normal" one or not, that girl cares a lot about her family. If she also hooks up with a girl in this I might cry tears of joy.

Lol poor Aylin being pushed into interaction again. Or bribed. But Aylin veggies are delicious I don't know if I can get behind this part of you, lol.

Okay I think I might officially be over the Earth thing. I think it's because there's not enough conflict for Sun between her feelings for Earth and her feelings for Ongsa. I'm not getting enough of a Bruce Wayne v. Batman vibe and that was what I was most looking forward to.

Oh Ton. You were doing so well.

Lol my god did Ton just discover gay people exist? If he were less of a himbo I'd be madder about it. But as it is, he's just too dumb to be really mad at. Like a giant pretty puppy.

Oh Aylin no. But also it's sweet she trusts Luna that much. And she's lucky in that I don't think Luna has a mean bone in her entire body. Still. Not your secret, babe. That said, have more cute moments with Luna. Please.

Mawin's crush is adorable.

Open your mouth and use your words, Ongsa, that's how you tell her. Because when she finds out on her own it'll be worse.

Hahahaha oh man I don't mean to laugh but Sun, babe. They don't mean that he's not as attractive as you imagine. They mean that he's not even a he to begin with. Although in this case that's probably going to be a plus, lbr.

She's not gonna confess in front of people, Dear lord girls get it together.

Hahaha Aylin. Sun really is the most oblivious thing ever though, can she not see how strangely everyone else is acting?

Aw I knew Luna would find her way to sleeping in Aylin's room. Just accept she likes you, Aylin.

AAAAH THEY ARE SO CUTE.

Aw I think Luna finally won her over completely. I swear I want to have things to say besides aaaaaaaw but well. They're too cute, the cuteness kills me. I am only human here.

It is probably that I am watching The Eclipse with a friend but I swear, sometimes this show reminds me of that one. Like Ongsa very clearly thinking the idea of angry Sun is hot. If you know, you know.

Spit. It. Out. Ongsa.

Ugh it is so frustrating watching her bottle it and bottle it and bottle it. I am not like that as a person so I just want to grab her shoulders and give them a good shake.

Oh thank god. Not sorry, I'm ready for some fallout already.

I am not mad at Ongsa. I want to say that right up front. But also, girl. All Sun was asking for was an explanation. At least give her that before running off.

Well that was quick. But well. I think we all knew Sun would be like that. Genuinely I wish I could be more like her. Maybe not the total obliviousness to things around me, but she's so positive and lovely and I...am not. I felt the same way about Sand's ridiculous patience and gentleness in OF. I have no clue what it must be like to be able to do that.

You know I'm more like Ongsa lol. Except for the not facing things head on thing. Optimism is not my default state lol.

Sun girl. You might have not registered your friends' shock that you were into a guy, but I haven't. You and Ongsa will do just fine.

[millenari]

If you’re up to more bitching about the broadway revival, what are your feelings on Jennyanydots’s number? Personally I was surprised with how much I didn’t mind the new stuff at the end (though I wouldn’t say I PREFER it) but I thought the choreo during the verses was… it irritated me. I don’t remember which boot(s) I watched but it felt like Jenny did a lot more sitting, less moving than I remember her doing in the ‘98 and in the older boots I’ve seen. In general I thought the new choreo took her out of her own number a bit, which is a real shame. Just interested to know what you think, would be happy to disagree haha.

hohohoh you're in for it now, anon. I could talk about revival!Jenny for a long, long time...

AND I WILL!

I hate it.

I don't love a lot of the revival changes, but with each song generally there's something I can be positive about? Yeah they removed the horndog parts of Tugger's song, but there's cute tuggoff and platoria dances. Yeah they made all those little changes to Macavity's song but at least they're small. Yeah they changed Misto's choreo, but at least it is admittedly exciting.

Jenny's song? Idk even the spots that aren't bad, I don't think I can point at any element of her new song and say that it isn't a downgrade.

I rewatched it just now, and I'd like to list the parts I do actually like for the sake of being fair:

Andy Huntington Jones? a very cute Munk

That bit with Misto & the little light on the floor which leads to him opening the boot

The Gumbie trio interacting with the 'mice' kittens

you're right, the end is pretty cool

That's it.

Like... let's go over what the '''original''' Jenny song does. Gumbie Cat, like a considerable number of songs in Cats, doesn't really contribute to the plot at all. Some songs do, like Misto's, but many don't. They only thing Jenny's song really 'does', arguably, is tell the audience what Munkustrap's idea of a Jellicle Choice looks like (given his lyrics at the beginning of the song).

So otherwise, all this song does is characterize Jenny.

Which the classic version does very efficiently, I think! The poem gives us an idea of her personality: she's lazy during the day and active during the night. She teaches the local varmints how to be 'upstanding' members of society. It's specifically mentioned she started a 'Beetle's Tattoo' (A tattoo is a military performance of stuff like marching bands, dancing, drill team, etc) so she has this association with a military-esque discipline. The song also talks about her and crocheting and knitting and baking, so she also has this homestead motherly vibe to her as well.

Her nature is two-fold: she's lazy but also hard-working. She's motherly but also militant. The song capitalizes on this dynamic: it starts out with a slow lullaby, and then transitions to an upbeat tune, and then goes back and forth between those two vibes until the Tattoo (aka the tap section) starts. The feeling of the music matches her personality. So does her costume change: at first she has a big floppy coat, then she switches into a flapper-like bodysuit.

The style of the Tattoo is tap, (as we all know lmao). Most songs in Cats build upon ballet, but Jenny uses tap, probably because it's a more ''''aggressive'''' (obv I use that word lightly) style of dance, unlike the flowing and effortless impression ballet tends to give. It matches the military vibe, it seems like something that might actually be in a real Tattoo, and it gives the actress the opportunity to characterize Jenny further by having her act like a little drill sergeant.

(And sometimes the tap battle is included here, which is also nice characterization. It's usually either Misto or a kitten who challenges Jenny, and I think it's hilarious that either A) Misto feels the need to clown on an old lady's tapping skills or B) Jenny rises to the occasion when a literal child tries to clown on her tapping skills. Either way, funny and defining.)

Despite ping-ponging back and forth, the song is well contained. Most of the props are made of garbage: the cockroaches are made from garbage bags, the mice masks are piping bags, the cockroaches hold spoons and forks, etc. The song also builds well: it goes as such.

Munk, alone, introduces Jenny

the Gumbie trio join in, we start ping-ponging

Jenny comes on stage

Jenny stumbles around stage a little as she wakes up

Music builds

Costume change from day Jenny to night Jenny, tone immediately changes.

Cockroaches start coming out

Cockroaches + Jenny dance together

(maybe insert tap battle here)

Music builds up, the Gumbie trio and Munk join in, big happy finale

Tugger interrupts

The revival... sort of follows this pattern. The way the Revival Gumbie was choreographed makes me think of this Blankenbuehler quote that annoyed me.

'mm yes in this play about a tribe theres a lot of tribal energy. in this play about Cats Dancing Together there's a lot of dancing in unison. lets get rid of some of that'

The Revival Gumbie takes forever to get everyone dancing together, and instead of growing momentum-- where characters keep joining the dance and it gets bigger and bigger (starting with just Munk, ending with everyone)-- it feels like a bunch of disjointed nonsense.

The beginning is mostly the same, except you're right, Jenny does do a lot of sitting there. (Also the Gumbie trio has that same thing that the Macavity song has, where they fiddled with their choreo and the changes don't do anything but also aren't that important either)

But the Revival starts to divert after that first section-- instead of the (nearly) full cast wearing cockroach costumes, three (3) characters are given 'beetle' costumes. (Which yeah, the poem mentions beetles, and yeah, the beetle costumes are made of hubcaps so it matches the garbage theme. But they look so unwieldy that the dancers can barely move, and honestly I didn't even realize they were supposed to be beetles until I saw someone on here mention it.)

But yeah, Jenny and the beetles dance together for like 3 seconds, [I just went back to check how long it is exactly? 10 fuckin seconds.] and Jenny changes costumes. It's actually a pretty smooth costume change, because I'm always so busy looking at the hubcap beetles and being annoyed by them I forget to look at Jenny, but honestly classic Cats never really sought to hide/distract from the costume change here, and tbh I feel like that showy deliberate change is relevant to her dual nature? Whatever. Not a big deal.

But anyways so Jenny and the beetles start tapping. Oh, are we going to build on this momentum? Is someone else going to join in? No. That bigass broom prop comes flying in, the beetles go off stage (and probably rip off those huge costumes), and Jenny stops dancing. Then we spend like an honest thirty seconds playing with the broom and then playing with those basketball/soccerball props while pretty much 0 dancing happens on stage at all. Jenny mostly just wanders around during this section (& you're right, she definitely does less in this version).

Then there's the 'tick tock tap' section where that big clock prop in the background makes a bunch of tick-tock noises and Jenny dances to it. While everyone just kind of watches. Which is fine I guess.

The music BUILDS UP, EVERYONE COMES ON STAGE, OH BOY ARE WE FINALLY BUILDING SOME MOMENTUM?

No. Everyone dances for five seconds and then stands there and watches Jenny dance. Some cats are ? scrubbing the floor with brushes like cinderella ?

THE MUSIC BUILDS UP AGAIN EVERYONE IS GETTING IN A LINE OOH NOW THEY'RE SPREADING OUT ARE WE FINALLY GOING TO HAVE OUR BIG FINALE?

Nope pretty much everyone just stops dancing again to watch Jenny. Also Jerrie is breakdancing for some reason.

OKAY NOW EVERYONE IS DANCING TOGETHER! HOORAY! YAHOO!

Then like 15 seconds of dancing later the clock goes off, interrupting the finale, and the song ends.

Yay.

Where classic Gumbie builds up by adding more and more dancers over time, this one just kind of slaps everyone in there and then takes everyone out, a chunk of kittens will join, then leave, a prop will come in and then out, and the Tattoo element that the song was mostly made of is pretty much gone entirely. Instead of one unified piece of choreo, it feels like getting random crap shoved in your face over and over. 'Isn't this cool? Isn't THIS cool? How about this? Or this????'

Then you have the props: only a couple cats wear bug costumes and they don't translate well and look unwieldy. The clock, balls, (tooth?)brushes, and the broom are a disjointed assembly of props. Everything in the classic song characterizes Jenny. These items have nothing to do with her-- they're not even really things you'd find in a Junkyard. What does a clock have to do with Jenny's duality between her militant and motherly nature? What about the balls? With the cleaning stuff, you can at least say she makes the mice and bugs clean, but the poem doesn't mention her making them clean, it mentions 'music, crocheting and tatting', mentions turning them into boyscouts, mentions the Beetles' Tattoo, mentions baking for them, etc.

If the stuff like the balls and the broom were cool enough that I could forgive them being just slapped in there, that'd be one thing. But I got sick of the balls like 5 seconds after they came in, and the broom didn't really do anything for me. The clock wasn't that bad, but I don't know why they took out the Tattoo and instead added these elements. The Tattoo had to do with Jenny's nature, this shit doesn't.

I get why a lot of the tapping was removed, because they added a lot of hip hop and stuff in there and you can't really cast for people who can act, sing, dance ballet, dance tap, and dance hip hop, but regardless of how much tap they decided to use (which is a creative choice, I get it) it just doesn't feel good. It builds to nothing, most of the props say and do nothing interesting, there's big chunks of the song where no dancing happens at all, and there's even bigger chunks where Jenny is the only one dancing and everyone just watches her.

Right after that quote I mentioned earlier, Andy adds, "It’s like that circus in the second grade. It’s completely labor-intensive. You’re choreographing 20 numbers instead of one number."

And like. Yeah, Andy. You're right. This does kind of feel like a circus.

[13eyond13]

Hello, do you mind if I ask that "bookish ask"? For no. 15, 34, and 50. Thanks if you want to answer.....

Hello! Sure, thank you for asking :)

15. What book changed your life?

This was a hard question!

I know I've mentioned this book already several times but in complete honesty I think Interview with the Vampire by Anne Rice did geniunely change my life a bit whenever I first read it at 15 or 16. I was raised in a strict Christian home and sent to a tiny Christian school in a small town, and had all my media and activities and the people I was allowed to interact with and the stuff I did very closely monitored so that it was basically always Christian and rarely ever adult in content or themes or anything for most of my childhood and my early teens. So originally when I bought this book at the bookstore at age 15 and my mom found out about it I had to return it to the bookstore immediately, because she saw that it was about vampires and she thought it sounded bad. Normally I was pretty obedient and I hated to do anything against my parents' wishes, but by then I had already started reading it and was already pretty hooked on knowing what was going to happen next. So I sneaked around behind my mom's back to secretly buy it again, and then pulled a Light Yagami by gutting one of the wholesome children's books on my shelf to hide this forbidden book inside (this was before I ever watched Death Note, but whenever I saw Light using the same bookshelf trick to hide his magazines I was like HAHAHA omg no way). So reading this book and then several more of them in the series after that kinda marked the first time I ever really explicitly disobeyed the authority figures around me in order to read something considered off-limits or more "adult," and kinda made me realize that I felt like I was missing out on a whole gigantic part of life by only ever being restricted to that tiny little bubble of stuff I'd been exposed to thus far. Everything that the book touched on just resonated extremely strongly with me at the time, in large part probably due to my religious guilt and my questioning of these things (because oooh boy is it obvious that Anne Rice is a lapsed Catholic in her writing a lot of the time). But also I think the melodrama of the story matched with my teenage angst so well, and I definitely was vibing strongly with just how queer so much of the series feels as well (I didn't realize yet that I was gay, but I was starting to question things like that about myself a bit by then I think. It was very rare that I was ever exposed to anything not completely heteronormative back then due to it being the 2000s and due to being in a homophobic religious bubble my whole life, so this really was one of the very first times I was). I feel like reading this book really marked the beginning of me opening my mind up from the stuff that I'd just been raised to believe and acted like a nice gateway for me between that and exploring lots of other interesting things that had previously been off-limits to me before that as well.

34. List 5 OTPs: I don't think I actually have five OTPs! The only one I really truly have ever been long-term passionate about enough to call it something like an otp is Lawlight. I could name you a few other ships that I definitely find pretty compelling and angsty for me to think about as well right now though, like Nana and Hachi from the Nana manga series and Griffguts from Berserk

50. Why do you love to read?

Hmm! At this point I might say just that I'm kind of obsessed with stories and the art of storytelling in general. And I think what I love so much about books in particular is just how intimate they can feel and how deep into a character's head or specific point of view or a different world or time period or whatever you can get with them. It's a bit different than something like watching a show or a movie to really get to know a character or experience a story directly just through the words on the page. I like how much you can just make it all up for yourself (which is to me why it often feels really odd to see a book I loved turned into a movie or show that doesn't match what I pictured in my imagination). I was lucky enough to grow up reading and being read to by my parents quite a bit, so it feels homey and nostalgic to me to sit down with a good book too. And I feel like as an adult it's just one of the better hobbies I've ever had in terms of expanding my mind and challenging me and teaching me a lot about all the things that interest me the most.

[bookish asks]

[thegeminisage]

it's time for. SIIIGH. a star trek update. on ummm feb 20 or whatever we did tng's "aquiel" and ds9's "q-less" (SIGH) and i didn't write an update because i was not very excited about those. and then we paused for a week to do natla. and then last night we did tng's "face of the enemy." ok.

aquiel (tng):

what's weird is that of the two episodes we watched that evening i actually did like this one better

that said it DID involve geordi being a little bit of a creep to the not-so-dead-girl though. when he brings up a fact about her he should not know it's JUST like leah brahams. granted it was actually his job this time to watch her diary and he SUPER thought she was dead but still. can you not open with that

i did like geordi taking his visor off though it's always cool when he gets to do that

i knew from the beginning something was Up with the dog but i didnt EXPECT THE DOG TO BE EVIL..................tng writers that is just heartless. not only is the real dog dead but the fake dog got killed too. you killed the dog twice. are you happy? do you feel proud of yourself? i fucking hate this show actually

nevermind idr anything else about this episode and i have now stopped caring

q-less (ds9):

i only found q tolerable ONE TIME. ONE TIME i found him tolerable and that was when he was drooling over picard who did not want to fuck him and it was the funniest thing i'd ever seen and every day i beg them to do it agaiun but they won't. you know who's not in ds9? picard! so get q out of here!!

this felt way too much like a tng episode for my tastes. i decided i don't like that chocolate in that peanut butter.

vash hot though. whew! you slap some crow's feet on a woman and i swoon instantly

vash rubbing ferengi ears like lwaxana troi made me have ptsd flashbacks to the episode with the ha ha funny rape. no fucking thank you

honestly, does sisko need to be dealing with picard's past lays and guy who wishes he could be a present lay? picard killed his wife. give the man a break

that said i DO think q and vash were fucking purely because that's as close as q can get to fucking picard. disgusting.

anyway 0/10 except for vash's wrinkles

face of the enemy (tng):

THEY MENTIONED SPOCK IN THIS EPISODE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! boy i sure sat up straight fast

deanna racefaking as a romulan AGAINST HER WILL...could they not have just asked. could they not have asked like literally ANYBODY. like she was so underprepared. that said i loved that she actually got to do stuff

the fucking guy in this was tosk or whoever from ds9...he looked SO familiar but i feel like i know him from somewhere else too

my fav part of this ep besides the spock mentions of course was the fact that the romulan commander deanna was up against seemed like a genuinely good person who had been hurt by the empire. like deanna was very much the bad guy here. imagine if some starfleet bigwig took kirk's ship away and used it to kill 18 people, you know? the outside pov vibe was kind of a slay actually

kind of a bummer to do all this angsting about romulus and helping the defectors and everything when quite literally it's gonna blow up in like...what, less than 20 years now, right? yeah. i mean if a romulan had a baby right now that baby wouldn't even live to be old enough to drink. obviously they had no idea when they were making all this but it's THAT VERY FACT that kind of makes me fucking nuts. please smuggle more people out of there. get them out now while you can. but they don't know. and it's not dramatic irony that they don't know like in real life nobody making this KNOWS. AAAAAAA

TONIGHT: ds9's "dax" and tng's "tapestry."

[wutheringmights]

Howdy it's me, the ex-DSMP stan who has a bunch of fanmade DSMP-themed songs that REEK of CTB First one up: https://youtu.be/9stQnuF5QSs Til The End (Re-imagined)

The original version was similar in many ways, but the most notable changes were to the lyrics at this part In the original, the second character sings; "Child, I'm here til the end." Meanwhile in this version, the same character instead sings; "Darling I'm here til the end." The newer version sounds more like the engineer and Wars while the older version gives me more baby Time and Wars vibes. Next up: https://youtu.be/GKXUl7oLEus Oblivion This song makes me think of Wars in either the wagon on his way to the well, or hell maybe even IN Kakariko Well. The song talks a lot about regrets of the past after the singer did some terrible things and landed himself in jail for it and honestly? Wars. Some lyrics that stand out to me: "Now I lay across the dust ridden floor Knowing now that regrets shouldn't be ignored Left to waste, now I see how you must have felt When the world began to change and I followed"

"

In those days when we'd fight our demons together If we had started over, oh, I wonder Would I be descending through the darkness Through the fire and the rain and the mist? Would the air fail to catch me as I failed to catch you?

Would we have fallen Fallen Into oblivion?"

"Alone in this empty room All I hear now is the ambience of our faded tune How fragile of me to break so easily Fear took the lead Now I'm still falling"

Next up we have; https://youtu.be/Ytd-5KwPTIc Please Don't Make Me Choose

This song isn't as obvious as the others I've listed, but there are certain lyrics that make me think about CTB. I can imagine this song taking place while Time was acting as Wars' secret keeper after he killed Orlanda. I could also see this taking place during the war itself, as Mask sees the relationship between Wars and Spirit fracture, such as this verse; "Oh it’s not too late to go back It’s not late to take it back It’s not too late Don’t turn your back on me"

He sees Wars slowly turning into something more twisted, sees the fracturing brotherhood, and is basically BEGGING Wars to just... stop. Because Wars and Mask had something too, and Spirit is already drawing back, so Wars slowly pulling away from him? The Last God Damn Straw. And, finally; https://youtu.be/N5MmEoqgGQc Play With Dynamite (the reprise of PDMMC)

This song I can see taking place after the group (mostly) reconvenes, with Time trying to pick himself up after everyone has lost a lot of faith in Wars. Hell, this could even take place in the most recent chapter, where Wars is admitting how much he didn't CARE about the child right to Time's place. This following verse fits that very well; "And I wish that we could go back to the days Back you'd hear the words I'd say Back when I was still myself Back when you heard my cries for help And I know there's still a part of me That holds on to what we used to be Before you burned it all to ash I really want that person back" Time thinking back to when he was Mask and how Wars used to be. He wants Wars back to when they were just hanging out at that party, he wanted a brother and instead he got this. Another verse that fits very well;

"Why do I play the part of the fool With such an open heart I already know how this will end I know I'll just get hurt again Know I should listen to my gut But you're just too easy to trust Do I seek comfort in your lies Why do I play with dynamite?"

Time knowing what Wars is like. He's so scared of Wars, and yet he continues to trust him - back at the beginning of LU, during CTB, keeping his secret from everyone else after Orlanda, and now this. He wants to run, he wants to get the others and take them all as far away from Wars as he can, he just wants to know that Wars won't hurt any of them, but he can't. Wars is just too easy to trust, and he isn't sure why he keeps falling into this trap when he knows he'll just get hurt. That's what happened to the engineer, and it's probably going to happen to him too. WHOOOOO, sorry for the long ask, some of the songs that the DSMP fandom has created just STINKS of Call Them Brothers vibes and I just gotta ramble about them to you hhjasa hope you enjoy the songs I will probably find more somehow.

Ooooo these songs slap. Your choices are top notch, and I love the lyrics you picked out for each one. I especially liked "'Til the End" and "Oblivion" (though it seems that I have listened to Oblivion before; I think it was on the playlist you sent me previously?).

Thanks for sending these my way, even when all my knowledge of DSMP is all secondhand. On a side note, I am always amazed at fan songs. Music writing is hard, and I admire anyone who watches a show or gets into a thing and decides that they have to make music about it. Insane energy. I love it.

[sondersil]

had another dream.

(in which there's a music festival outside my house that turns unsettling).

there was a lenghty dream before this one in which i saw an advertisement in the papers for a free concert/music festival taking place in the city where i live, it was supposed to be quite close by. it was advertised as featuring many different, smaller artists, the main attraction being a small ensemble playing skyrim music on the larger stage.

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i was going down to the store across the park from where i live because i needed something for dinner. i'd stuffed a 10€ bill in my pocket. as i was heading down the stairs, the appartment building began to look different. there was a window with a sill that a coursemate (who lives in the same building as i do) was sitting in. she says hi. i greet back. we exchange a few words. i leave.

as i'm making my way across the park, suddenly there's an influx of familiar faces from university- way too many to be a coincidence. none of them have business up here, i live quite far north, it's a quiet area for families, not students. i overhear one of them mention something about the concert. it makes sense.

sure enough, once i reach the store, the entire area in front of it is packed with stages. i didn't realize it'd be happening right outside my door. i walk along, there's tents, there's food stalls, there's so many people. it's still daylight.

i walk by a small group of people and this super cute goth looking girl suddenly turns to me and asks if i want a cigarette. i turn her down (because i don't smoke), but thank her. i ask her why she'd offer me one? she says because i look like someone she'd expect at a death metal concert (lol what) and that i looked like kindred spirit.

i keep wanting to talk to her more, but being the shy idiot that i am, i hope that she talks to me. we keep bumping into each other and exchange a few words and smiles here and there. i end up walking to a stall serving food, she walks with me. it's way overpriced, but i decide why not? i order a bowl of vegan chili. it's only 3 bites for 6€. ridiculous.

suddenly the sun is gone and i end up at mainstage, where a man with a chello and a man with a keyboard are doing introductions, playing some Skyrim ambience. it's nice.

once they stop, other stages (it was literally just.. booths? where there would be what looked like animatronic puppets performing, or it'd look like someone was sticking their face through a piece of cloth, each booth had a number) begin to perform. the crowd dissolves, all trying to find performances to listen to.

they gather at the first one, where 3 creepy looking, halloween-esque animatronics (or at least i thought they were) started performing. it wasn't bad, per se, but not my thing. the crowd quickly dissolves. feeling guilty and being the only person left, i stay until they finish. once they do, i give a small clap and hurry off. the leftmost "animatronic" turns his head around the corner and calls after me, "how disheartening, a half hearted clap and barely a smile, that's all we get" or something similar. it was very creepy. i felt even worse. it was three men in costume, after all.

as i hurry along, it's hard to find the other performances. there's some happening simultaneously, but once you find one it's usually almost over. they don't happen in chronological order.

i only rarely see people. the place expands in size, rows upon rows upon rows of booths and stalls. it's dark by now and the open sky has transformed into a large hall, the walls are far away to either side and the ceiling is tall. it's got more of a creepy-arcade/indoor-amusement-park vibe.

i eventually find a booth that is playing a song i know, so i stay. i listen, sway along. (it was an ambient song, no singing). i'm the only one there. when he finishes, i thank him and say that i've been enjoying their music recently. they take it kindly. i say something more. it was the wrong thing to say. the mood shifts.

i hurry off, back to the front of the area. it looks like a ballroom. it's incredibly dark and gloomy. there's people gathered there, tired out, filling out slips to vote on their favorite performance or just waiting to finally be let out.

there's no way out.