#I know very few other ppl irl that are not into men

[mossygrovenearthebrook]

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[noburden]

when the very small amount of people in my life who know i’m a lesbian still talk about me dating guys 😃 like

[marsprincess889]

Me getting political

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So, I know I mostly only really talk about vedic astrology here, but I'd like to speak to the very same audience who found and followed me because of that about what's going on in my country. So, followers, dear mutuals, those couple of ppl I know irl who are on here, or someone who randomly found this_please, read and interact. (!!!please)

For context, the vast majority Georgia, mainly gen z, has been protesting a "foreign agents law", which is almost identical to the law that russia passed in 2012 and that has resulted in significant restriction of the freedom of its citizens. So, eurovision, met gala, whatever.... this is the reality my country lives in.

I had no idea so many people from other countries were this misinformed about georgia(in general)? People thinking photos from our massive protests were not from here because we have "police" written in english and not "policija"(which is not a fcking georgian word??????)?

People thinking america funded, I repeat, MASSIVE protests that have been going on for a month(and have also taken place in the march of last year for the same reason), just because some of the protestors wrote signs in english? Like, the sheer idea of that is honestly infuriating.

I don't think anyone who has not lived in Georgia will understand the situation clearly. The government is ordering to beat up peaceful protestors, is using pepper spray on them.... and most of the protestors are teens and young adults, trying to make a better future for themselves and for generations to come, tired of fighting the same fight that their parents and grandparents have fought.

When you are born georgian, patriotism is instilled in you like vow. I was born in 2002, a decade after my country exited the soviet union, fresh out of the notoriously hard and dark 90s(full of poverty and crime), six years before I started school and russia invaded the city of Gori. We learned all the poems and novels of our great writers, learned the stories of them fighting for freedom of speech, for the freedom of our country, our teachers would explain every detail of their astristry and their importance. At some point I think we all got tired of it, no matter how loving and full of care they were, but then I remember the presentation my class did in sixth grade about february of 1921, how Georgia exited the russian empire in 1918 and how the brand new(at the time) constitution was implemented just a few days before the red army came in 1921... MY PARENTS were born when Georgia was in ussr, my mother had to spend her years as a young student in the 90s in constant fear of danger on the streets, our parents saw the worst of it and did everything in their power for us to live in a better environment. But we're first generation in georgia who grew up with internet, who is fluent in internet slang and is way more informed, with a completely different mentality, for whom the decades of oppression is more distant. We know russia is an enemy, we know what our country has gone through, but we are the first gen with the freedom to speak up when yet another attemp to control is made.

We have a very long and rich history and one thing that is clear from it is that we are supernaturally resilient, and our refusal to be subdued has protected not only ourselves, but countries that lie west from us, the countries that make Europe, that we consider ourselves a part of.

My friends know I'm the quickest to say that I feel like I don't belong here(georgia), that I never really connected to what I saw, generally, in my country, but maybe there are thousands like me here. Maybe(100%) the men in power haven't been paying their due respect to my generation and how persistent we have been in our actions and convictions. And maybe, the rest of the world(western countries) have significantly undervalued our importance. We deserve our due, and to me, the least that others can do, is to educate themselves before typing or speaking about us.

We are not a "former soviet country", we are an ancient civilization with an extremely unique culture that has survived to this day, that has protected its customs, identity and the right for freedom, and has been under almost constant threat for losing them. And, once again, if there was any doubt, we are not our government.

I sincerely hope for this to get as many notes or possible, or at least, to reach the right people.

[messrsrarchives]

Sorry to bring up the reboot again but wow this sucks. I’m trans and mostly close friends with other trans people I’ve had my friends ask me how I could continue to be a HP fan. And the main thing I’ve told them is that the Marauders fandom is very anti-JKR and, for better or worse, most people don’t engage with the original source material. I’ve always hoped that in the end she gets little to no financial support from this fandom and very little advertising either. People talking about the reboot was expected if not irritating, but seeing rumors of the two biggest fancasts getting casted in it is smth else. Like if that happens and ppl are right, i dont know if ill be able to stick around this fandom like wow maybe my friends were right

hi never apologise for this !! i get you !!

honestly i'm,,, struggling. with tiktok at the moment (my main platform) and i think the reaction to the reboot is going to stronglyyy dictate whether i have these accounts or just,,, dip. stop posting. and if they're genuinely cast? everything is going i do not care

i,, it's so difficult yk? it's so fucking difficult to be trans in this space.

if it's not people arguing about fictional men being "too womenly" and dimissing my identity and expression of it, it's people calling me slurs or debating my gender because i ship something. regularly. if it's not slurs over opinions, it's dictating what i can and can't post, with so many people mad at me for reposting tts about womens right. sorry ig??? if it's not THAT, it's people profiting her and posting it. and if it's not THATTTT, it's the complete break of everything that led me here, it's the reboot and so many people (even mutuals - ex mutuals now) hyping it up

and it's just. draining. i don't think i've ever felt less secure in my identity than in this space recently.

i'm realising none of this helps. i've just kind of blurted out my troubles lol i'm sorry but,,, i get you.

i defend my involvement in this space so much to irls because i know that i am doing this ethically and right. but if the reaction is positive or if the fancasts are in it or whatever whatever whatever, it's the guilt of complicity yk? and it's been getting heavier ever since the casting calls. idk :/ this space hasn't felt v inclusive for a few months now and it just gets worse and worse

[notyouraryang0dd3ss]

Hii ⏳️ here! In my ask you said this:

"Do black/brown american artists who are “approved” by white people trend the same way taylor swift does? or is it only the white celebs “approved” by white people?"

And I think it does happen with black/brown artists... to an extent. I'm gonna speak mostly about what trends between teen or recently adult girls (since I mostly engage with them, and guys in that age frame are either indifferent or dislike taylor but that part is actually because of misogyny, cuz they dislike anything that trends among teen girls (idk why but it is a thing).There are guys who like her ofc, but I've never met any of them irl, only online, so I wouldn't know).

Obv, ppl's interest in music genres matter too, so girls who are into other genres than pop don't have the same opinion on taylor. However, I've seen that among the girls who do like pop, they are mostly into recently very hyped artists like taylor, olivia (when she got hyped up during covid), conan gray, Maisie peters, gracie abrams, etc. Like mostly recently popular gen z artists (except for taylor ofc). This also includes sabrina carpenter, although I've seen ppl like her even more ever since taylor associated herself with her. Now, while olivia is filipino american, and conan is half japanese, they are mostly the only non white artists that ppl continuously listen to. Ofc, artists such as sza, Beyonce and rihanna are also very popular here, but Beyonce and rihanna have been popular since a long time (they have a similar amount of hype and reputation in here too) and sza got more popular recently, again, cuz she suddenly trended.

There are different aspects to this, cuz you will see a difference btw ppl who listen to western artists and the ones who listen to indian/local artists, and one of them is, that while almost everyone listens to desi artists, western artists are mostly popular in more upper middle class to rich communities, and they are very obsessed with white ppl.

Ig the bottom line is brown and black artists do get popular here too, but not as much as white artists, or artists whom taylor is associated with, so it is obsession with white ppl at the end of the day, with a few extra steps to make it seem okay.

men hating anything teenage girls like is misogyny. swifties have broken that word that people sound weird using it in the correct context now 😭 send the flood!!!! lol

see, i always knew wealth was involved as a factor with swifties. for the longest time (before my eyes were forcibly opened by the eras tour) i thought swifties were mostly wealthy white girls, but now i know its just a lot of middle class to wealthy girls in general. key phrase “in general” (just in case people want to start talking about “well there are x swifties-“ like i know. but im talking about overall)

⏳ anon you and other desi anons (shreya, imy) are really giving me so much insight into how ts has such a large south asian fanbase. like the obsession is with the west and in particular WHITE westerners and any artist of color approved by white westerners are basically approved with the wealthy, white aspiring classes in india. this is a culminative summary of what every desi anon has told me but the fact you guys are all telling me the same thing in different words is damning…free my former colonized peoples from the shackled of white supremacy free us!!!

[selamat-linting]

yknow growing up as lgbtq with an embarrassing kink and realizing sexuality from the lens of that fetish has always made me question myself. different from other ppl who grew up as a girl and realize theyre bi later in life, the first person i had a crush on was always women. the person i have daydreams for are always girls. i might have crushes on men, and i have plenty, and i talk a lot about it, but i can never find them sexually attractive from the lense of the kink i developed when i was seven years old. thats how i know im gay basically. i even have a case where a guy i had a crush on online turns out to be a girl, twice.

i guess i found men kind of gross in general? its strange. i thought i was a lesbian and then i thought i was asexual and had a whole angsty teenage phase about it that caused me to internally ping pong between two labels. like, i feel that my attraction to men is just comphet because i cant find them hot in this spesific scenario that always gets me good if a random woman was in it. i said i was bi, but its mostly because i dont mind dating men for social acceptability and friendship reasons, and because im still unsure if im a man or a woman or neither. i wouldnt mind dating men, some of them are nice and i dont think being friends and dating have much difference anyway. i have a guy irl that i absolutely adore and would love to cuddle for hours. but would i like it if i fuck them? not really. but i guess i have to do it because thats what a good partner is supposed to do. so thats the kind of bi i was from 2013-2022. even when i decided im genderfluid, not a full time girl nor a full time dude, my sexuality is very ambiguous.

until i saw that damned dog collar gifset and it sent me to a spiral. i began to find men legit hot in a physical way, and i develop a fixation on cm punk. i began to read a few porn, and i found a some... materials that happens to have my super secret embarrassing fetish that features him in it. and turns out im into it. like really really into it. he's different. i thought he'll simply end up as yet another men i like for a few months but can never truly have the hots with, but no. i really truly find him fuckable. the streak is broken. and he broke it.

so thats why im happy to call myself bi! i really am one. unless he decides to be a girl a few years down the line ofc. but thats unlikely right?

[agaypanic]

honestly, that 90s show isn't that bad! of course it'll never hit like the original but personally i like the different elements they add. and i absolutely love the new cast, i think they just need time (i fully believe this next season is that time) to build up the character chemistry.

getting to see a taping of the first ep of season 2 was also amazing, the cast is so sweet and i feel bad abt the unnecessary hate they get tbh. they are funny and work well with each other

i think it's worth giving a try though! as long as you don't spend the time constantly comparing it to the OG show, you'll have a good time watching. and the new cast does a phenomenal job at capturing the 90s essence too.

(personally Jay kelso has my heart, mace coronel captures the kelso genes so fucking well it's insane.)

and even if you weren't to care for the new cast (which is lowk a crime) the reoccurring characters from t70ss are also cool to see and fit like they never left.

(lmao sorry for the whole ass essay i am just an avid t70ss and t90ss enjoyer and love to encourage ppl to actually take the time to watch t90ss without being so negative.)

i think i might just be autistic bruh (pls no one be like “don’t self diagnose” “blah blah blah”. not only do you not know me or how i act irl, but autism and many other disorders are under researched in women compared to men and it is therefore a lot harder for women to get diagnosed and/or taken seriously) i have such a hard time watching new shows/movies. i think ive watched malcolm in the middle (im literally malcolm y’all, he’s me and im him) and that 70s show at least 4 times each in the past few years

i think that’s partially why i don’t watch many spin offs or reimagines of shows/movies (only exception i can think of rn are those hercule poirot movies, they slap) like i still need to watch chilling adventures of sabrina but not only am i too busy to invest myself in a show like that, but i also really liked sabrina the teenage witch and i know the two shows have very different vibes (don’t tell me i have to watch it, im already planning on watching it lol i just don’t know when😭)

considering it’s getting a second season instead of getting canceled like other netflix originals (or that 80s show pffft) shows that it’s a pretty decent/well received show. and based on the trailer for the show i know ill probably like it. i just hate change🥴

[schizowitchic]

re: the last post i reblogged i am now going to rant about biphobia i have experienced and am experiencing! yay /s

(under a cut bc this got way too long)

so in secondary school i was in a friend group full of queer people, majority of whom were bisexual girls (at the time. a couple are now nonbinary / asexual) . and they were very big on the whole "bisexual culture is liking every woman and 2 men" thing, a lot of "ew men" jokes, and all in all general "liking women is better than liking men" "why am i dating a gross icky man i should be with a woman".

now i am more attracted to men than women, not by much, its typically fairly equal, but i definitely have a leaning towards men. and i repressed that for AGES. because it simply was "frowned upon", so to speak, from almost everyone i was close with

(for further context for the rest of this. i am not out as genderfluid. i use she/her pronouns irl and ppl know me as a cis woman. i am not really out as aromantic, when i identified as aroace i did tell a few people but i think they either completely ignored me or forgot. lol.)

nowadays, i tell my friends i am bisexual. one in particular always seems to forget, constantly calling me gay/lesbian, assuming i have no opinion or that my opinion will be "ew no" when she asks if i find a man she likes hot. (she has told me so many times "why am i asking you this you don't even like men". i have told her i am bisexual several times) (she also thinks it's funny to call me & another friend "f-slurs" . she says that not the actual word but still. i have to find it funny bc she gets so defensive if we imply she's homophobic)

(i do call myself gay bc i consider none of my attraction ever to be straight. i have no major issues with being called a lesbian apart from the fact that. yknow. im not a lesbian and have never identified as such)

i made a post a while back saying something like "help im being biseuxal erasured". because i am!! i am stuck in yet another situation with people who are either mainly attracted to women/only attracted to women/don't often talk about their attraction to me & also two cishet girls who are attracted to men in a very different way than i am (one of whom erases the fact i am attracted to men and the other who i don't like and probably assumes i'm a lesbian bc of how often everyone else says that)

also full of "ew men" jokes!!. might i add.

i literally have no space to talk about the way i experience attraction, i have to water it down and pretend i only like women, pretend i am interested in romance, pretend i feel attraction when the occasioanll bout of extreme sex-repulsion hits, take (albeit censored) homophobic slurs, sex jokes about me & another female friend that are getting uncomfortable.

and pretend like the main perpretatror of this isn't being at all queerphobic. (she also has massive racism and antisemitism issues. although my friend did throw basically a whole book at her face when she made a really bad joke). to the point where i no longer consider her a friend but i can't say that bc then im overreacting and i'll get the same bullying ostracisation treatment & my friends are still gonna hang out w her so i can't avoid it

people wonder why i am aplatonic when throughout friendships i have experienced: making fun of me to my face & behind my back, bullying, homophobia, biphobia, aphobia, ableism .

like what the fuck. im sick and fucking tired of having nowhere safe to express my sexuality bc let's be real, the internet often isn't the best space.

ive made my peace with either having to compromise my aromanticism or my allosexuality irl (ie either be out as bisexual or out as aroace) but apparently i can't even freely be bisexual without people making assumptions and at this point im just waiting it out until i can hit restart and try make new friends

[star-sim]

oh wise vanya please help me apparently my year of dignity and male-lessness decided to spice things up and now i’m in a Dilemma!

a bit (a lot) of context: so around two and a half years ago there was this guy who liked me and then confessed to me, at the time i liked him a little too but i think it was mainly because i liked the idea of liking someone and someone liking me?? if that makes sense.

so he confessed to me one day and i was like “oh i like you too lol” because i literally did Not know what to do in that situation and then it was lowkey awk because we mutually avoided each other at school 💀 we were really young tho BUT THEN like a month and a half later he was said he didn’t like me anymore (HE SENT THAT OVER TEXT LMFAO…) and i responded with “okay” (i realized that i didn’t really like him at that point too so i was kind of relieved tbh) it wasn’t even a relationship because bffr we didn’t even hold hands so why was bro being all like “let’s break up 😐” like… were we ever even together be honest

it was VERY awkward after that like lmao we wouldn’t even make eye contact but then a few months later we became close friends because we were friends before (idek how atp); then he moved away during the summer because he was going to some boarding school & we still kept in contact up until last summer

he got a girlfriend in may of last year?? and ever since then i’d been VERY distant like i didn’t talk to him at ALL because i have to uphold the girl code… apparently he told his girlfriend about me though and i’ve heard from a mutual friend that she doesn’t like me that much and disliked me even more after she found out that he had a saved folder of me in his photos (that’s on him tho bc wtf 💀 that’s kind of a Red Flag of him)

anyways back to today… i opened my snapchat after 8263872 days of being dormant and apparently he texted me for the first time since JUNE three weeks ago and i unknowingly left him on sent 💀💀

now i could either: a) open his message because honestly i am morbidly curious or b) leave his message to marinate forever and leave him on sent indefinitely

which would be more girlboss because i am done w men irl 😐 send help pls

ASH!!!!

liking someone purely bc you like the idea of liking someone and them liking you back is SO REAL

UGHH he is so middle school boy love.... the "let's break up" over text when the most ygs did was probably look at each other.... pukes

youre such a girl's girl, youre SO realness for not talking to him for the sake of girl code... ugh im sorry controversial opinion it irks me when ppl are angry at their s/o's ex... like u didnt even do anything to her, is it a crime to exist. if anything, she should be mad at HIM??? like who is the one keeping pictures of their ex? not you, so why are you literally the subject of her anger. ever since new years i've been trying to tone down my d1 hater tendencies but ouuuu that makes me to annoyed on your behalf like LEAVE HER ALONE 😡

i say... open the message. see what this bitchass has to say. i'm also kinda curious too. whether or not you respond is up to you, but if youre worried about girl code, i don't see an issue? he's the one doing shady stuff, your entire existence is not tied to him and your actions are independent of him, if that's hard for him or his gf to see then they clearly aren't mature does it kill them to use critical thinking

but if you DO leave him on sent... it would be pretty funny

everyone ditch his ass he deserves no one!!!!!

[papirouge]

I can’t believe I’m admitting this… but a long time ago when I started to get really critical over Christian groups and pro life groups, I was apart of a small pro life Christian group that was led by this scrote. To this day I don’t think he was Christian. You know how you can just feel that someone has light in them? Like Gods light? Never felt that with him. I had nightmares over him hurting me. It was fucked up

Anyway, I got kicked out for punching him in the face after he explained that we aren’t going to help this local girl that had a miscarriage. She was still in high school so she had little money and was mentally suffering from her loss. His reason was that “in the Bible, women deserve pain.” A baby passed away and it’s mother is grieving and that’s all he thought about - her pain. So I snapped. I punched him a few more times before getting kicked out. I let her fiancé know what happened that same day and since he was in the military, he was more than pissed and strong enough to do something about it. The guy left town that same night. Some people were mad at me for ruining the group but I never said sorry because I will never be. I moved away but I think about that day a lot. And I think truly believe that the man leading that group was a demon possessing that man. I’m so cautious over Christian groups because anyone can join and that means evil can easily invade and take over. We have to be vigilant and watch what they do and not just what they say. If they say abortion is bad but do nothing on helping others, you know that group is a cheap mockery of Gods peoples and His commandments for us on this earth.

First of all: that scrote deserved to be punched. And while I don't think being a piece of crap is enough to states someone is demonically possessed, he for sure displays a very off based comprehension of the bible. God said women were supposed to suffer during delivery....not through grueling life experiences such as miscarriage.

Secondly: the fiancé sounded like a good man, so sad he had to leave that town.... I hope they're both okay💔

As a Christian, I quickly caught on that Christian groups are a huge stumbling stone. I remember shortly after converting, I was eager to mingle with other Christians (since I didn't have any Christian friends IRL), so I tried to interact with Christians online, and also on Tumblr. That's how I realized that A LOT of ppl very losely call themselves 'christians'. You know, the kind to think that thinking that Jesus is Lord & Savior is enough... Some of my interactions ended up with me being the receiving end of very heinous remarks and tbh online Christians have hurt me more than any hater I ever got. That's how I gave up on forcing myself into Christian communityship and learned to be self reliant in my walk with Christ. I don't attend church and never felt like to. Coincidentally, good Christians eventually crossed ways with me (especially some of my followers/mutuals 🤍)

And yeah you're right, many pro life Christians aren't much interested in helping women/mothers or justice for the unborn. Some of them are very transparent in their sick fulfilment in mocking & humiliating women online, under the guise of righteousness. That's why I'm very wary of pro life men, bc they're always a few inches away from good ol'misogyny.

[jadeee]

Hi honey for the writer Ask if its still on 😅🎢✨⛔🙋🍆❌🎯🎨🤗💞🧠(Howie)🤩😬📚🤯💔🤭 please? -sarah

i love that you put practically every emoji, hahaha! tysm for spamming me with these asks

😅 what's a story or scene you've created that you're a smidge embarrassed exists?

the first thing that comes to mind would be "hot & bothered". the teasing scene at the table during the meeting is very bold. i can see teasing between nicky and mc but in front of others who don't know them all that well is questionable. close 2nd would prob be the find the cannoli scene in vendetta but i'm not even embarrassed. it just makes me laugh or smile every time.

🎢which of your fics would you call your wildest ride?

it should be "vendetta" bc there's drama, violence, action, and romance but i automatically thought of "let's get out of here". i wrote that before "vendetta" and it was challenging bc i had to make sure the movements were described accurately since it was in a moving car.

✨give you and your writing a compliment. go on now. you know you deserve it. 😉

aww! well, when i reread my work i love the emotion it evokes. i feel tied to the characters and like i'm watching it unfold before my eyes.

⛔do you have a fic you started, but scrapped?

yeahhhh ... so a few months ago i had an idea for a nanami story {lemme just say that i truly was done writing fanfiction except for "vendetta" which was, and is, still unfinished as a series. i wanted to focus on ocs and original plots but i got swept away by nanami kento and just had to write smthn about him. i had severe brain rot}

i was inspired by this post i saw of men on their knees in front of women/their lovers and thought of nanami on his knees for his s/o, wtv the reason may be. the premise was that he was late for a special dinner at a fancy restaurant that they made reservations for months ago. he got held up at work and was going to meet mc there, but then told them to go on without him anyway. so he ends up meeting mc at their shared home and they're livid, just ready to lay it on him. they don't get the chance to bc as soon as he sees them sitting in the loveseat in their living room he's apologizing like crazy. mc doesn't have the heart to go off so they just do some light teasing instead. i imagine it would've went smthn like

"i don't believe you."

"how can i prove it to you?"

"you can beg."

he took a deep breath and walked toward you. he placed his hands over yours which were on the armrest then sank down to his knees. then he rested his face in your lap and brought your hands to his cheeks, "is this better?"

🙋‍♀️ do any irl people know you write fanfic?

yes. i've told a handful of ppl and surprisingly it's become smthn a few of my coworkers and i bond over.

🍆do you write the spicy stuffs? if so, what's your most popular nsfw fic?

i do, or at least i have. my most popular is a hc about nicky treating mc, if y'know what i mean {i know the policy changed with mature content on here so i'm treading very carefully lol}.

❌what's a trope you will never write?

i can't really think of one atm. the ones that i know of are --- OH WAIT i have one, so anything to do with age gaps and minors getting involved with older characters, like lolita-type stuff 🙅🏾‍♀️🙅🏾‍♀️🙅🏾‍♀️ idk if it's a trope but it won't be happening here.

🎯have any of your readers accurately guessed major plot points? care to share which?

i'm not sure i've ever had anyone guess what will happen in a story or chapter {i'm referring to "vendetta" here}.

🎨how do you feel about fan art of your stories?

oh i love it! i remember a couple people made something based off of vendetta and it really took me by surprise. i couldn't believe they were influenced to the point of creating smthn.

🤗 what advice would you give to new fanfic writers that are just getting started?

do it for yourself and not for others. don't worry about who will and won't see it. just write, don't think too much about how or when bc it'll come together in the end, and enjoy it.

💞 who's your comfort character?

i don't have one rn but since this is focused on fanfiction, i would say nicky and nanami. nicky just feels so familiar at this point and with nanami, he's so relatable. from my pov, he wants a simple life. he doesn't wanna work at an office and he doesn't really wanna work as a sorcerer. if anything, cooking at home and going to get bread from the bakery is all he wants to do most days {and travel from time to time} and that's very relatable.

🧠pick a character (howie) and i'll tell you my favorite headcanon for them.

my favorite hc about howie is prob the boyfriend hc bc it's so wholesome. he'd really be the sweet and thoughtful boyfriend. the thought of mc being swallowed whole by his shirts and him wearing their shirt which is a smidge too tight 🥹

🤩who is your favorite character to write?

nicky! his personality really allows for this nice mix of playfulness and seriousness/melancholy. i admire his charm and wit as well. i loved writing the more hidden sides of his character too, like in "midnight" or "what are you hiding?" overall, he has this nice balance that gives me a lot of room to play with as a writer.

😬which of your fics would you be most horrified for friends, family, or coworkers to stumble upon?

definitely any of my nsfw works bc i'm reserved for the most part at work. it takes a while for me to open up completely so i think ppl would be like 'idk she was into that' or the complete opposite 'it makes since bc she's so quiet'. my friends wouldn't really care tbh, they'd prob make jokes or gimme ideas. my family?! 💀 i'd prob be doused in holy oil.

📚would you ever want to turn writing into a career?

yes! when i was younger i often thought it was a bad idea to pursue your passion as a career or major in college bc then you'd have deadlines and guidelines; and i saw that as a sorta crutch on my creative freedom as an artist but now i believe the complete opposite.

🤯what's a genre you struggle with as a writer (ex. romance, action, etc.)?

i would say fantasy. in terms of fanfiction, i've mainly written romance with a bit of drama and some action. i've tried writing fantasy before and it requires a bit more artistry - there's world building, figuring out the land, if there are animals, what kinda powers characters have, how magic works, and sm more.

💔is there a fic of yours that broke your heart?

if mc died before their wedding night. there's smthn about seeing a good-hearted person get what they deserve only to lose it in the end. i don't take joy in it, there's just some sort of unspeakable pain there where you can't look away.

🤭do you have a favorite tag to use when posting your works?

#madebyjade bc it's like my signature in a way and it's smthn i made and stuffed bits and pieces of myself inside.

[sussyside]

My brother told me my eyes look kinda dead

Nothing happened today. I was legit goofing around with my friend and him an hour be4 he said that.

Yknow, im very good at acting like everything is fine. Just so yknow, dissociation is the key. I think me being surprised is oso something I unconsciously told myself to be cuz I have no idea how he managed to spot that. Like sure I have all these issues over here but today I’m completely fine. Like how can my eyes look dead when I’m genuinely don’t feel depressed today. It’s been a week since. I alr make sure I don’t look fatigued or depressed anymore like just how?

On one side ye sure it’s obvious cuz my mental health has never been cool for a few yrs now. But on the other hand, it’s not abt the fact I wanted to hide it, it’s more of I genuinely feel happy why would he said my eyes look tired and dead. We legit abt to go on holiday to one of my fav place in the world I’m genuinely excited to go there. How can I be depressed over it.

My mental health often has this kind of relapses like this since I started high school. Just every 3-6 months, I would went into a period of being insanely depressed. Probably cuz school, who knows. The thing here is I hallucinated stuff with it. Voices often come up in my head when I was sleeping. I’m pretty used to having voices in my head cuz ADHD so it’s just my voice. But during these periods other ppl’s voices it is. The 1st time was a slowly builds up of many different screams of both men and women just right at my ears with a stinging continuous wooden table knock. They said something but I forgot. The 2nd time a women voice just chanting bullshits at me. The 3rd time, just a month ago, my cousin's voice and my teachers voices, all at them scream at me to burn to death. twice in a single night. I'm not suicidal actually, or do I? Rn I'm sure I'm not tho.

I used to suspect that I have psychosis man. Or even worse, schizophrenia. I talked to my school counselor abt it and she said ppl with psychosis most of the time they are not aware of their delusion. Well, I'm clearly aware of my hallucination so I put that thought aside pretty quick.I never told her abt my thoughts abt schizo tho.

I often write abt what i feel at the present somewhere online cuz my memory is very not good. I think there is still texts of me talking abt my 1st hallucination somewhere with details.

Ik the internet is not somewhere so u can self-diagnosed. So you guys can treat this as just me sharing my rambles abt what im thinking cuz truly, idk where can I talk abt it man. What i feel is never seems to be taken seriously with insightful thoughts irl so here i am.

[dancedance-resolution]

feel free to read beneath the cut if you’re a queer woman ish person who’s had sex with a cishet man before and wants to give me some advice lol

i’ve decided im going to have sex with a cis man to see what it’s like, figure out some gender stuff, and first hand research on how penises work for writing reasons.

on bumble, i found the one in ~50 who doesn’t repulse me! i messaged him:

Hi [Name] - so I’m looking for something really specific haha. I’m trying to figure out some gender stuff, and I’m interested in having sex with a man with a penis. The way this would work for me is we’d meet up somewhere for coffee/lunch, then based on vibes etc, we’d determine if we want to see each other again for that :) Is that something you’re open to?

he said: That’s pretty interesting hahahaha. I might be down for that

we made some small talk (he has a couple of cats and an aussie named darby, he asked me if i like music games books, etc). we both live with our parents but he said “I’ve got a pretty big back seat I guess LMAO”. generally he has been extremely polite and not creepy at all despite the clear implication that i am a “virgin” to men with penises, and he seems friendly too.

it is his birthday this weekend so he is busy (also i’m going on a first date with someone who i’m actually interested in a relationship with on saturday), but he said he will let me know if he’s available for coffee on monday between 4 and 6.

his profile says his main hobby is video games. he’s two counties northwest of me aka lives in hick country and looks a little bit like it but in a very non intimidating way. he doesn’t show off muscles in any photo like so many of these men do, so i’m hoping he’s got a ‘dad bod’ or whatever. (i hope that doesn’t come off as me emasculating fat men; i just like fat ppl generally regardless of gender.)

i am optimistic! worst case scenario he actually does repulse me and i don’t have sex with him. best case scenario maybe i get him off in the back seat of his car (although i presume its a truck lol) and it sparks some realizations about everything i want it to slash helps me get some answers on those things! also im really really excited to see what a functioning penis is actually like

i don’t know what to do safety wise. my only irl friend is a 2 hour drive away for the next few months and i obviously cannot tell my catholic mother that her lesbian child is meeting up with a man i met on a dating app. she has my phone location at all times though, and ill share my location with my irl friend too so they know what’s going on. im not overly worried about safety??? however if i get in his car for sex stuff that’s theoretically the riskiest part. idk though i’ve never really considered safety on first dates??? like i don’t have a contingency plan for saturday other than having a phone on me, but i feel like bc this guy is a man i need to be more cognizant of safety. so if anyone has any advice on that, that’d be cool

also generally if anyone has been in a similar situation, lmk if you have advice or even just tell me what it was like for you bc im nosy lol. anons are open etc. also sorry if you read all this lol

[hugduckhesgay]

some interpretations also make me sad

We know that the episode is portraying a nightmare, just like every ep does for these 3. Oops I wrote a lot under the cut

Duck and red guy literally become trapped in a job they never wanted, and then they're forced into believing they are happy with it when they're not (duck being brainwashed by the care hound, red just getting all the privilege of being upper management shoved at him by LUCK and FAVORTISM which is pretty much how those promotions happen irl, and gives him a false sense of fulfillment). Yellow guy goes along with it from the beginning, representing so many of us that do, because western society tells us that a happy life is a 8 hr day/5 days a week job + cishet marriage + child + retirement. I definitely saw myself in him; when I got my first job in retail, i was excited to be working. Why tho?? Why should we be excited, really? When I look back, I realize that my boss was a disgusting power monger who took advantage of his position to harass and assault the employees, and got away with it because of the power he held over our heads and control over our livelihoods. I wasnt paid enough to live on my own and I worked my butt off there. I couldve easily stayed there my whole life -- plenty of others did. Many of my coworkers were old and grumpy as hell and I love them . They deserved better. (not some of them who all happened to be cishet men tho they sucked)

The jobs episode is all depictions of what actually happens in real life, sadly. People become trapped in soul-draining and abusive jobs, and the saddest thing is that the people profiting off our exploitation work hard to make us believe that this is the ideal, this is the dream. the fact that so many ppl are thinking that yellow and red were happy or something, is indicative of how far this brainwashing goes. People see a character growing old at a factory job that blatantly neglects its employees and is run by an incompetent, undeserving boss, and think that's the ideal situation.

That whole PSA thing that yellow guy parodies, saying "if you're having trouble coping at work, call this number", is so brilliant. Having an indoctrinated employee telling peers that the problem is THEM and not the system is so real. We all go around like this, enforcing the status quo that is actively harming us, when the reality is, if there's people suffering, the problem is not the people, the problem is the job/workplace.

I'm not good at words but this episode seems to be a whole thing in the fandom. Any commentary on the state of capitalism we are in will have mixed results tho, I suppose, given that it takes quite a bit of questioning our forced way of living to realize that this is not the only way there is to function as a society. To question takes a lot of energy too ugh and it is depressing as heck since most of us have very little autonomy in actually changing our situations, so I can understand why people want to believe that western lifestyle is fine the way it is.

Ugh I could really go on and on about this episode, like the whole sequence with Duck's song about stress and stuff, ugh, the satire and writing is so good. Maybe the satire wasn't obvious enough tho, at least for a subject like this, since it seems to have gone over a lot of heads.... but maybe a lot of those people are kids who havent lived it and havent noticed older family members suffering through it? I wouldnt have noticed all the bad things the episode is pointing out if I had watched this a few years ago.

No way I just saw someone saying Duck "ruined Yellow and Red's future" by saying they weren't supposed to be there on the jobs episode and pulling them out of that simulation

GIRL THAT WAS AN ILLUSION SIMULATION WHATEVER. IT WASN'T REAL. THEY WEREN'T HAVING A NICE FUTURE

See this is why I hate the jobs episode, the interpretations of the fandom suck all kinds of ass.

[nebulaniggatry]

im sorry this is long, you can delete if you want, but i dont quite know where or how to ask this question and i figure this is a better bet than most wlw blogs on this site. but do any other bi women just feel SUPER unwelcome around a lot of lesbians lately???? this has happened to me in a couple different groups within the past few months, i start getting along great with a group of gay women, and then as soon as i mention im bi and not a lesbian its like they get disappointed and quietly try to shove me away. the energy just automatically changes. instead of everything being abt loving women, suddenly its all abt their hatred for men. plus, a week ago, i almost got kicked out of a group chat because someone accused me of being a "bi lesbian" (i dont even know how that would work or where they got that idea) and everyone freaked out and started saying i hate lesbians and want them to get r*ped by my boyfriend?? i did correct them and explain i dont even date men, but i ended up leaving the group anyway very soon after bc they didnt apologize or anything, they just stayed distant. i hope im just being dramatic, or getting unlucky, but has anyone else been dealing with this kinda stuff??? i get so much anxiety talking to other wlw now, and it hurts a lot. ive cried over it a couple times now so i guess im looking for some kind of support or advice.

Hey. You’re most likely not alone in that, but from my experience it definitely depends on the environment and where you’re meeting people. I’ve vented before on here that I’ve told a gay person, who previously thought I was gay, that I was bisexual, and I could physically see the light die from their eyes with disappointment lol. While I know generally for bisexuals we don’t go “:///“ when we encounter other gays or have them in our spaces, but are more or less happy we found another gay person to relate to. But that also could be because bisexuals don’t really have a grounded “community” by itself.

In general I prefer meeting lgbt people online in order to see their viewpoints first since its more open, but I can understand as well how that probably isn’t as enjoyable if you’re meaning to hang out. A lot of lgbt ppl I meet irl often hold strange grudges and misconceptions against another, whether that be biphobia, misogyny, transphobia, general bigotry, etc. So you’re definitely not alone.

Even now with on Twitter, recently this thread caught traction about bisexuals wanting their own spaces in NYC, and in the thread many bisexuals (bi women especially) have come forward about their mistreatment and alienation in gay bars. Which is, of course, met with biphobic statements like this:

My advice to you is to search for more inclusive spaces and groups, and also be blunt and combative towards people attempting to alienate you for being bisexual, even if that may be difficult. Gay people bullying other gay people stems from insecurity and unpacked self-hatred. There’s a reason why so many wlw target each other but worship the ground attractive cishet women walk on. It’s easier. Hope that helped you somewhat, and I’m sorry about what you’re going through 😞 💖💜💙

[achoonihaachu]

Meet the Writer

Hi there, you can call me Achoo! Here are a few things you might wanna know about me before you follow!

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Achoo's info:

Name: Achoo, or u can call me chuu if ur feelin' frisky ;)

Age: 18

Pronouns: She/Her

Zodiac Sign: Leo

MBTI: infp <33

Nationality: Filipino, pipino pride yuhyuh

Likes: sweets, coke zero, anime, music, singing, writing, true crime cases, podcasts,

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Fun facts:

- my favorite bois in Obey Me! are Satan and Simeon but they kinda shift around on a weekly basis sooo.. yeah :))

- i plan on becoming a registered nurse someday but if med school doesn't literally kill me, i'll shoot to become a family medicine doctor :)

- i'm actually a really shy person irl but once we get past that awkward "heyy! youuu!... yes we're now talking... yep..." phase, you can guarantee that i'll talk your ear off.

- i swear... a lot.

- i never proofread ;A; im sorry but also i cringe when i reread some of my work (IM VERY HARSH ON MYSELF ;A;) but im getting better :DD i promise that i try to make sure that the work i publish is good enough even to my standards! but please be kind when you see certain grammatical errors <33

- my daddy issues run deep- all the men i simp for are much older than me (bruno madrigal, shouta aizawa... i'm looking at the both of u...)

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