#I kin xie Lian because I also want to see his everything

[budd-ie]

The number one most endearing thing to me about tgcf is the way the flashbacks make me feel like I’m watching Hong-er grow up. I feel like I’m watching a montage of that trembling little kid gather every ounce of courage and strength the world has to offer and slowly learn how to become somebody he can be content with. Somebody who has likes and dislikes, desires and preferences, and especially the freedom of choice, the freedom of anything, really. So now when I see Hua Cheng, legendary ghost king Crimson Rain Sought Flower, all I can see is that little kid who grew up. And that kid was always loved by the one he wanted to catch up to most in the world. He achieved exactly what he wanted and he deserves every ounce of power he’s acquired.

[anulithots]

hello hello hello noorie

i've heard a lot about heaven's official blessing... what is it? a manhua? a donghua? both? what is it about? it looks cool asf and all the art i've seen on it on my dash looks GORGEOUS <3

HIIIIIIIIIIII CRISTIE!!! <3

Okay so Heaven Official's Blessing started off as a webnovel, I'm reading the first book right now and I find Xie Lian to be such an interesting protagonist (I rarely see a character like him in media tbh), the writing is silly /aff, and overall so far it feels like fun little adventures with loveable characters. (So basically comfort read right now) Although I'm thinking that it might get more... er dramatic later, I'm desperately hoping for Xie Lian flashbacks that give more context to his backstory + what exactly he did and what he thought about it.

I doubt I will be able to get past the third book as of now because of the fruity covers and my homophobic parents but alas

There is a donghua that is an adaptation of the webnovel. I loosely skimmed through the first episode (I want to watch it once I finish the books and since my partner is away for a bit then I can perhaps take a pause on rewatching link click since I usually do it with her.) and it seems to be a pretty beat-for-beat adaptation

AND. THE. ART.

there's a looott of pretty gifs.

THere's also an audio drama I think.

Okay and Xie LIan as a character is like the 'sad pathetic one' but also incredibly polite and kafaklsdjfkalsdjfkasdfjkasd he's soooo sillyyyyy I love him. AND ALSO the thing where it was like 'when he was younger, he got everything he wanted, so he thinks he can complete his ambitions of helping people without any opposition. That's just how it works.

THEN HE MESSES UP. From then on he tries his best, honestly tries his best to connect with others and earn respect and yet he is so accepting of his situation because he blames and belittles himself, while ALSO being exasperated and upset with what everyone thinks about him.'

I kin.

OKAY THEN HUA CHENG AS A CANNON SHIP WITH XIE LIAN

Again, while I'm on the first book, the fact that Xie Lian both (a) finds Hua Cheng interesting and easy to talk to because there is mutual respect and it's the first person in so long who doesn't look down on him and (b) starts *admiring his beauty* is SOO FUNNY and like sad and also YAYAY XIE LIAN DESERVES HAPPINESS. HE DID NOTHING BUT TRY HIS BEST.

So yes overall I recommend it! <3

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tagged by @leonzhng​ thanks for making me dig through my most embarrassing crushes 😭✋

i’ll tag @highwarlockkareena​ @yibobibo​ @lan-xichens​ @purplexedhuman​ @aheartfullofjolllly​ @lanzhansmiles​ @nyx4​ i feel like i tag you guys in everything i am so sorry please ignore this if u don’t wanna do it !!

putting this under a read more for reasons

MEN 2010 – 2016

literally nothing more embarrassing than falling on the same type of white man over and over again (with the exception of minho from shinee bless his heart)

tommy joe ratliff → he was the bass player for adam lambert during his glamnation era (think of songs like for your entertainment and if i had you) idk why exactly i liked him so much but i just did.... however i searched him up again quite recently and found out he’s one of those republicans that says the dumbest shit on twitter so Big Yikes

harry styles → “baby you light up my world like nobody else, the way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed, and when you smile at the ground it ain’t hard to tell...” and BOOM 13-year-old me was sold for well over two years

louis tomlinson → basically i liked harry most until around 2013 when for some reason i started to like him a little less, and i got more focused on louis tomlinson, and although i didn’t like one direction anymore louis tomlinson always had a special place in my heart

ashton irwin → so ashton is 5sos’ drummer, i discovered 5sos through one direction & i stanned them until late 2014

harries twins → the harries twins (jack & finn) are basically the reason i started spending a lot of time on youtube, they were funny and pretty and they just had good videos in general, so for almost two years i’d watch their content regularly

choi minho → my first steps into kpop happened bc i was watching videos on youtube (most probably the harries twins) and suddenly i saw the sherlock mv in my recommended videos so i clicked on it and then 14-year-old me proceeded to fall for minho like an idiot

brooks twins → still youtubers, the brooks twins were 3/5 of the janoskians (jai & luke brooks, beau brooks, daniel sahyounie, & james yammouni), an australian youtube comedy group that was active from 2011-2018 though i was only around from 2012-2014 (when jai brooks was dating ariana grande)

jc caylen → surprise! another youtuber! jc caylen was part of o2l (our2ndlife) a youtube collaboration channel on which each of the 6 members posted videos on a certain day in the week (mondays with connor, tuesdays with ricky, wednesdays with sam, thursdays with jc, fridays with trevi (my 2nd favorite member bc she participated on the x factor), saturdays with ricardo, and then they had surprise sundays every week) and i remember how much joy jc & the others always brought me with their silly videos

misha collins → up next, you might know him as the gay angel that was sent to superhell after confessing his love to the homophobic hunter on supernatural, it’s misha collins! basically misha was a huge source of comfort for me, and i even went around calling myself emmisha for almost two full years (cringe)

henrik holm → he played even bech naesheim in skam and my crush on him reached that level of ridiculousness where i actually tried my hand at learning norwegian (i can only remember how to introduce myself and some curse words i would make a great first impression on him)

MEN 2016 – 2021

min yoongi → okay so my baby steps into kpop happened through shinee’s sherlock, but i only got really invested when yoongi dropped agust d 1 because Holy Fuck y’know??

kim namjoon → oh man i remember thinking namjoon was cute and a very good leader and then BAM he dressed like THAT at the 2016 mma’s and i fell in love. hard

park seojoon → i started liking park seojoon whilst i was watching hwarang (you guessed it, i watched it bc of taehyung), although he wasn’t my favorite character by far, but he was very silly off camera & i liked that (i’m not that into him anymore tho </3)

kim seokjin → OH BOY LET ME TELL U i liked seokjin from the very beginning (i got to know bts in late 2014) and i always liked seeing him perform and be himself and god once i realized i had a crush on him it just hit me like a mf truck, and he’s still one of my favorite people to this day

jung hoseok → god fake love era hoseok really hits different.... also yes i know i have all of bts’ hyung line on my list BUT bts was a really big part of my life for almost 6 years soooo honestly they deserve it i still think they’re great guys

choi san → when ateez made their debut in 2018 i immediately fell in love with san, he was such an amazing dancer and he captivated me right from the very beginning, to this day he’s still my bias in ateez uwu

xiao zhan → AND THEN, OCTOBER OF 2019 HAPPENS AND I WATCH CQL AND... i fall in love with xiao zhan, something i’d never expected would happen bc when i watched cql for the first time i wasn’t as invested in the story, but i really really really liked xiao zhan and one thing led to another and now here i am as a xfx

wang yibo → the thing is, i’ve known yibo since eoeo except i didn’t know cql yibo was uniq yibo (bc i’d forgotten his name) and when i looked it up i can tell you my jaw dropped to the floor bc holy shit????? also he is very silly and i love him loads ok

lee minho → ah, the man who has been my skz bias since 2018, not only is minho my bias i also kin him (there’s a lot of aspects of myself that i see in minho and vice versa) and he’s very comforting to me

bang chan → honestly, it was only a matter of time before i’d fall for bang chan, i knew the moment i got into skz again that i’d start biasing him and, well, here i am, double biasing chan & minho

WOMEN

this list is shorter bc i’ve in general always had less crushes on women than on men??? blame society forcing me into thinking i was straight for a LONG time

ariana grande → remember the 2011 layout of twitter?? where u could not only have an icon and a header, but also a background and ur twitter page was smack in the center of ur screen with the big ugly menu bar at the top??? yeah ariana grande was always my background for my l*rr* st*l*n*s*n layouts

perrie edwards → this was right around the time she was dating zayn & little mix was breaking out into the spotlight, yeah i just really loved her

andrea russett → okay so remember o2l?? andrea russett was kian’s girlfriend for a pretty long time and they always did videos together and i always thought she was super pretty

lily collins → maybe i don’t like clary in tmi all that much but i sure liked the way lily collins looked

alona tal → MY BISEXUAL AWAKENING, it’s only when i saw alona tal in spn that i realized, fuck i might be gay

park jihyo → i discovered twice (my 2nd jype group after day6) through the like ooh-ahh mv and red-haired jihyo really did something to my heart (i just rewatched it and god zombie bang chan is so mf cute)

kim jisoo → when bp made their square two comeback i was immediately smitten for red-haired jisoo in playing with fire, it’s also when i realized she was my bias out of the four members

shin ryujin → the reason that i have blue hair is partially bc of ryujin and her amazing intro in wannabe :D

xuan lu → her portrayal of jiang yanli was SO ON POINT and she’s just such a kindhearted wonderful person wow i want her hand in marriage

lee yoobin → god i’ve known dreamcatcher from back when they were still called minx and ever since i’ve always looked at dami that bit more than the rest, i was also able to see dreamcatcher live in october of 2019 and the whole experience was just so amazing !!

FICTIONAL CHARACTERS

there’s a whole lot more than just these 10 but i wanted to fit the evolution into one (1) slide as best as i could lmao

peter pan → this movie came out in 2003 (?) and he’s honestly the first fictional character i remember ever having a crush on

legolas → i was really doubting between placing haldir or legolas here but i only really got a vague haldir obsession when i was like 14

zuko → LOOK. ZUKO IN ATLA? HOT. ZUKO IN LOK? HOT EVEN IF HE’S AN OLD MAN.

will turner → man was annoying sometimes but i really liked him and his relationship with elizabeth was cute

jo harvelle → gosh i can’t believe she’s the only female character in here???? yeah she was one of my two spn faves and i’ll never forgive the screenwriters for the way they killed her off

castiel → does your fave ever get sent to super hell for being gay? no? well. mine did

kili → fili and kili’s storyline tore my heart out, spit on it, and then laughed straight in my face, KILI WAS LITERALLY MY FAVORITE DWARF

howl → i only watched this movie for the first time in 2020 so i kinda fucked up the tl cause i watched cql in 2019 but shh, anyways howl with his blonde hair was good looking but howl with his black hair just hits differently. i want a howl

lan jingyi → MY BABY BOY, TINIE LITTLE BABIE WHOMST I MUST PROTECT ok no but seriously this kid. i love him a lot

mu qing → BARK BARK. that’s all (that’s not all i love him a whole lot and it hurts me to see so many people misunderstand his character and only see the bad parts of him when they can forgive others for fucking up (eg. xie lian himself & feng xin) but bc mu qing doesn’t deal well with emotions suddenly he’s the bad guy??? i s2g if ppl are gonna do to him what they did to jiang cheng in the tgcf la i will RIOT)

[mamichigo]

mu qing

Be prepared for a whole ass rant, you knew this would happen when you requested Mu Qing so 

How I feel about this character

Takes a deep breath. Where do I even begin with this one? Foolish in a such a human way, too lost in his own head to see others, never learned to talk to others. So many problems could’ve been avoided if he just didn’t doubt everyone so much (but it’s never that simple, is it). I feel so hard for him... I’m sure there are people out there who blame him for what happened to Xie Lian, or even see him as a shitty person, but, while I admit he made (terrible) mistakes, I just... Get it. Sometimes no amount of kind words from one single person will make up for the lifetime of being looked down on, from being excluded and isolated. (And I guess that’s a big difference between Xie Lian and Mu Qing, isn’t it? “Only one person is enough”, was that ever true for Mu Qing?) And if I was made to choose between my own mother/family and a dear friend... I think I would do the same as him. There’s just so much guilt and a crippling inferiority complex that drove Mu Qing’s actions, there’s no part of it that isn’t painful and tragic.

(PS: MTXT assigned kin)

All the people I ship romantically with this character

Is there any chance that I would reply to this with anything other than Feng Xin? (the answer is no). I love the centuries of baggage between them, the things they never said, the misunderstandings, everything. Plus who doesn’t enjoy a little enemies to friends to lovers sometimes, c’mon. Anyways, the fact that their relationship is so flawed is exactly what draws me to it, I’m into it.

Also because I’m a horrible, horrible person, I’m obsessed with the concept of one-sided Mu Qing/Xie Lian. Since this ask is from you sweetheart, you can already imagine exactly what I’ll say, but let me state it anyways: it’s about the pain.

(If it doesn’t horribly hurt me then what’s the point)

My non-romantic OTP for this character

Okay, now putting the shipper heart aside, I still enjoy everything that I said above in a platonic sense. I mean, it’s basically all I think about HFJDS The Xianle trio just have so much history, which is both heavy and impossible to erase.... Though, most of my heart goes to Mu Qing and Xie Lian’s relationship the most in this case. The whole thing with how Mu Qing looked up to Xie Lian and valued him and wanted to be his friend, but his own insecurities and thoughts got in the way, along with all the tragedy they all went through.... It gets to me.

My unpopular opinion about this character

I have no idea because I don’t pay attention to fandom HDJHFJDSK

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

I wish we knew what he felt after the mess with the 33 Heavenly Officials. I have so many feelings about that whole sequence of events, I’d read an entire book of just that and the repercussions of it for Mu Qing. To see at what point the anger and the guilt and the pain turned into resentment (which we see  when Xie Lian ascends the third time). And how he struggled with that while also painfully caring for Xie Lian. He didn’t even hesitate to go to Xie Lian’s aid...

Well, basically just more Mu Qing in general.