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deoidesign · 3 months ago

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Thinking about vampires, death, life, and the space they occupy in between

#to be or not to be. that is the question #ty adam for being my model for dramatic vampire moment #musings on the thinkings about:#when to live you are required to hurt others. you must repeatedly ask yourself what the value of your life is #To sleep... perchance to dream...#ah. THERES THE RUB.#ok I actually couldnt come up with too many thoughts. I had a lot more while I was drawing this but I guess I put them in the painting LOL #reading that soliloquy and being like damn this is just like vampires #the reality of course is that the soliloquy is a debate over suicide and ultimately making the choice to live #even if just out of fear of the unknown #and vampires are about dying and then in undeath choosing to continue to live #despite the fear of eternity and loneliness and hurting others #theyre not the same. but like let me thiiink come onnnn I'm allowed to thiiink and have incomplete thoughts #I would have to write like a proper essay about this to organize my thoughts. this is the tags on a tumblr post.#anyways finished episode 79 #working on patreon stickers for this month (and next month soon)#and working on book 4. taking a pause from episodes cause I've got 3 weeks of buffer now... UGH #I'm so mad that they changed it. it would have been 5 weeks before but it's fine it's whatever #anyways yeah taking a break from episodes to make my book now!#its good stuff.#and this painting is good stuff #banger after banger from me tbh #this was a little relaxing giving myself a couple hours to muse #it's necessary for my health and I always forget that til I do a painting...#I loved doing the little landscape in the background too I should do that more! I love how plants are just like whatever shape you want #like you can make up any plant you want and not only does that plant PROBABLY exist somewhere #a weirder plant exists somewhere too. so. literally whatever you want #ok bye again for a few days while I get back to work

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icewindandboringhorror · 2 months ago

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Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~

(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)

#ootd #jfashion #fashion #fantasy fashion #mori kei #....like... adjacent... lol #no idea what style this would be lol.. makes me think of like whimsical vaguely fantasy themed childrens book character #finally posting one of my aforementioned seven million drafts of actual outfits and costumes i have finished and edited #the photos for but just never feel like posting lol..#I need to find one of those people whos like 'omg i am ADDICTED to social media ugh i wish i could get off of it #im just browsing and posting like 60 times a daaaaay!!!' and take a little magical bottle and suck some of the social media #enthusiasim out of them. for moi. In exchange they can have some of my 'literally just never in the mood to post or interact with the #outside world ever' energy. We can balance each other. huzzah and so on #Though I think maybe it's part of the general thing I've heard of like.. I can't remember if it was in reference to adhd or just some sort #of general execcutive functioning issue type of thing - but the idea that things have to be ''just right'' before you do something. like #'oh i need to do this task. but i have to wait until XYZ first' or 'oh i can do this but only if X specific condition is met' or etc #The fact that I even have to be in a Specific Mindset to post. or sometimes will delay posting on social media because like 'oh well #I'm going somewhere tomorrow. somehow this matters. i cannot spend 5 minuts posting TONIGHT. clearly it will interfere #somehow schedule wise with the doctor appointment i have 15 hours from now. yes. yes. i must wait until my appointment is over #tomorrow afternoon. THEN i shall post' or etc. etc. lol. NOT even taking into account the many days #I just genuinely and physically sick and it's not even a mental thing. I just physically dont feel like sitting at the computer lol..#ANYWAY.. trying to get back into it. trying to get a business bank account.. make a proper paypal so i can start selling sculptures again.#selling clothes and sculptures.. posting about such things then of course as one must. etc... chanting to hype up and motivate myself lol #But yes. this is my favorite outfit out of the bunch so I am posting it first I guess.. maybe others later..#Also the purple dress says its from shein. which I've heard is bad fast fashion stuff. but maybe okay since its second hand? I havent #been to the bins since like 2020 or late 2019 even. and I think stuff like shein and temu has only become poular in the past few years #but I bet if I went to the bins now I might would find a good handfull of that stuff. Probably now not much different than what you #find in a walmart or a forever 21 or actual physical stores you can go to though. I hear quality of clothing is down everywhere no matter #where you get it or whatnot. What bountiful joys unfettered capitalism and exploitation bestows upon us (<being sarcastic).#Wearing one of my favorite little vests though. I love the texture of it and the clasps on it

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thematicparallel · 6 months ago

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YOU'VE BEEN OUTMANEUVERED BY A DEAD TRIBADIST. YOU PATHETIC FUCK.

#I JUST FINISHED TYRANT. WHAT DO I DO WITH MY LIFE NOW. (<- me about to yap for months. perhaps years. until the final book comes out)#baru cormorant #that was So Fucking Delicious. UGH

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pigeonclaw · 1 month ago

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some leaders I've somehow never drawn before

#leopardstar #rowanstar #blackstar #riverclan #shadowclan #my art #well. never might not be true bc i probably drew leopard and black at some point in the decade+ i've been reading these books #but i haven't drawn them since learning to draw cats and starting this blog lol #ugh blackstar took me so long to finish. i kept restarting over and over. in the end the best one was a doodle i'd made at work #so i just took a picture of that and used it as my sketch #he's rounder faced than i picture him but i ain't doing it again!#anyway i'm still waiting for my library to get a copy of star. which btw is a title which is a pain in the ass to search #i had to filter out every book not by erin hunter and even then it was like. the twelfth result #this arc is good but has such bad book titles lol #i've had this problem with most asc books but not usually to this degree

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sinhasfluffyheadfur · 9 months ago

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[ID: A digital drawing done in pink pencil of Galadriel and Orion from The Scholomance book series. They’re cuddling, and Orion has his arms and one leg wrapped around El, the other dangling next to her legs. Orion has his eyes closed and is grinning. He wears a hoodie and baggy cargo pants, and his socks are falling off at the toes. El has an arm wrapped around Orion, and she looks down at him in a subdued loving way, with a slight smile. She’s wearing a t-shirt and baggy sweatpants. A flurry of hearts is above Orion’s head, and a single heart in a word bubble is next to El’s head. /end ID]

I just really like cuddles :3

#grim draws #is the id too long? new to this and I tend to over explain things #I can shorten it I just wanted to point out orions cute loose socks #ALSOOOOO UGH THEYRE SO STINKIN ADORABLE I WANT TO CHEW THEM UP #finished the series earlier today and they’re officially my pookies. I am becoming a ya girlie(dismay. despair. also not true)#anyway tags. hi #the scholomance #a deadly education #the last graduate #the golden enclaves #galadriel higgins #orion fuck what’s his last name #help #orion lake #how did I forget such a simple last name that’s so embarrassing #anyway. proud of this actually they look so cutie #orion to me is short and scrawny strong and has brown hair and I refuse to change my mental image. sorry he’s too good #if you wanted me to picture him right maybe you should have described him before 2/3 of the way into the second book. consider #and if she did. sorry i wasn’t paying attention i was too busy looking at how cute my orion is

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loveyazy · 10 months ago

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wanna post my theory before Elain's book is here

I know people say Feysand is Hades x Persephone, but NO. Wrong. They're Beauty and the Beast as well. Rhys is literally described as having a beast mode/version/side. People are scared of him. He's misunderstood, etc. And because these are retellings, some things are changed. Like for instance, Rhys teaches HER to read, the way Belle taught the Beast to read in the Disney version (I can't recall if they do that in the original fairytale).

I think Tamlin x Feyre were the BatB fairytale retelling, and Feysand were more the Disney BatB retelling.

Hades kidnaps Persephone in the original story. Rhys tells her he wants her to come to the Night Court as part of her deal. You know who else makes a deal to stay with them? Belle and the Beast.

And yes, Rhys takes her away from Tamlin, but that's literally the only similarity to Hades x Persephone they have. Feyre was never spring-like to be Persephone, but who is?

ELAIN.

Elain is actually going to be the Persephone retelling. She is SPRING and where is she? In the Night Court, aka The Underworld, and ope, who is the male she likes? Azriel. Hades kidnaps Persephone and makes a deal to keep her in the Underworld. I don't think Az is obviously going to "kidnap" Elain, he doesn't need to, but I do think some sort of deal will be made, finally ending any sort of tie of her to Lucien and breaking the mating bond (because let's be honest, everyone and their mate getting together is boring af and is honestly why I'm kinda eh about all the mate reveals in her books now but I digress). Also Az's personality fits Hades much more than Rhys did. Hades has been written as a quiet, reserved introvert who likes to stay in the "shadowy darkness of his realm". Does that sound like Rhys or Az? I mean. It's right there, really.

Now the other retelling was Snow White and The Seven Dwarves, and other than a total crack explanation that Nesta went through several men before finding her prince, aka Cassian, (they did say her mother wanted a prince for her and Cassian was referred to as the Prince of Bastards so....?) it's hard for me to really place them as Snow White, but there wasn't another retelling in the first three.

People say oh three brothers, three sisters, so boring. And everyone and their mate getting together is what? Not boring? Not easy? I would LOVE for someone to finally break the mating bond and say yeah no, I don't want you.

Possibly hot take: Nessian would have been 100000000x better if they didn't turn out to be mates. The reveal at first was like WHAT. And then like five seconds later, I was like, "ope, wait. I hate this."

*spoilers up to cc2, all acotar, and tog 7 in the tags

#elain archeron #elriel #pro elain archeron #pro elriel #azriel shadowsinger #azriel #acotar #i'm trying to hide the spoilers with many tags before it so people who are still behind on some series won't get spoiled #i'll prob get hate for this but #i read tog later so when the mate reveal happened in that i was like yeah that pushed me over the edge to dnf the series #and it was just one more book to go #i already just wasn't feeling tog that much but yeah that did it #maybe i'll finish one day I just ugh dread it every time I open it #she uses it too much as the LE GASP reveal and i just don't think it has the same impact after the feysand and the lucien reveal #in addition to feysand and lucien and then nessian and hunt x bryce i was just like ehhh okay #and yes I know EOS was published before acosf and cc but I read it later so

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cadaverousdecay · 1 year ago

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i’m so overwhelmed by things that shouldn’t be overwhelming...

#among them‚ i’ve fallen behind on drscula dauly for the first time this year and it’s stressing me out cuz i really really wanted to keep up #this year that was the one goal i had for the year is keep up with it. last year i fell way behind when my brother died and it was so hard #catching up and the entry on the 30th was a little longer than they’ve been recently and i’ve been busy and also slipping back into depressi #on real bad and i’m just not in the mood for it and i feel like it’s just gonna snowball #and this is such a non issue. it’s a book. that i’ve read before. but still it’s just stressing me out. among other things #like library books that are overdue and i haven’t finished or journal entries i want to write or a letter i’ve been wanting so badly to writ #e and a short story idea that i wanted to write down but is escaping me and fucking. tumblr notifications #these are non issues!!! but it feels like there’s a timer for the world to end again all the same.#ugh #and i should be able to focus on one thing and get it done! these things shouldn’t be hard! they’re even meant to be enjoyable! but i can’t #get myself to do anything lately #and on top of all that i’m not able to fall asleep even with my sleep meds.#what even ever‚‚‚#anyway sorry for the rant i’m basically fine

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bootstrapparadoxed · 2 months ago

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The desire to go back and rewrite multiple chapters versus the desire to keep going and actually finish this draft FIGHT

#writeblr #writers on tumblr #frankensteinwip #i'm almost done editing the first 50k #and i'm still really not happy with the prose/feel like a lot of the stuff is pointless filler #i think i can fix it on rewrite but do i do it now? or just keep going #i'm leaning towards just finishing the draft first BUT idk if i have enough motivation now #i know the first part is great and i *think* i know how to fix the bits of the second i've written so far #but maybe i need something more so that the writing process sparks joy again...#ugh i need to read more books

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essektheylyss · 2 years ago

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reading books isn't enough anymore I need to unhinge my jaw and swallow them whole

#someone explain to me why my brain just went 'quicker and easier to eat your Books'#i mean. it's not wrong. it would be quicker than reading through my entire tbr list.#i am LOSING IT #anyway I'm gonna finish this book of poetry and then eat dinner and then try to get through yet ANOTHER chapter of philosophy #ugh that book is KILLING ME and i refuse to dnf it cuz it's all of my interests but good god.#I'm not gonna lie. derrida? readable. every fucking academic writing on derrida? INCOMPREHENSIBLE.#drives me fucking insane

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moe-broey · 1 month ago

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FUCK RECENT BOOK JUST ENDED?!?!???!!

#i have been away too long. WEIRD ass position to be in.#constantly obsessing over my interest but getting scared to interact w it outside of the mind palace #gguuuhhh..... the... ISSUES....... why do i have so many of them...#I NEVER EVEN FULLY FINISHED SEIDER'S BOOK. i was scared of disappointment and scared of an ending #ugh .. but i am... so invested in ratatoskr... alfonse's insane dynamic w her. even if we don't see more of it #like. just the fact that we got That Scene. gave me enough of alfonse's character to work w for A LIFE TIME.#like to me. it can DIRECTLY translate to how he theoretically has been w sharena growing up.#and it still drives me so insane that alfonse has no personal attachment to ratatoskr and is (EVEN SELF ADMITTED!)#using her to his own ends. BUT. BUT. he's still so fucking good to her??? respecting her autonomy #again even if that WAS to win her over. like he was So good about it. IDK IDK IT'S THAT MIXTURE #of an act being purely practical and even self-serving. but he's honest and kind about it.#and ultimately it's on her if she wants to accept that under the given conditions/expectations.#and then ofc the Scheming. alfonse's METICULOUS ride or die act. ratatoskr made the informed choice to trust him #AND BOY HOWDY. WHAT THE FUCK. SIR. i KNOW you have your reasons and all of this is a means to an end #AND THAT'S WHAT DRIVES ME EVEN MORE INSANE. give him a compelling enough reason not just personal practical too #and even if he met you like yesterday. or maybe generously. maybe a week has passed.#this guy is both READY and WILLING. to put his life on the line for you. GOD.#uhghhhh... maybe i should actually play feh.........

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deoidesign · 4 months ago

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My comic is so pretty...

The hiatus is letting me take a little extra time on these episodes, and I'm definitely putting it to good use!!!

#almost done with my 8th episode... which will give me. two weeks. of buffer...#id really like at LEAST a month... but to be more comfortable id like two #which means 2-6 more episodes before I come back!#I've got about 7 weeks so its possible. but i do still have to finish book 4 #so much to do ..........#I decided for my next comic im doing 3 updates a month.#having 10 days instead of 7 to make an episode is such a huge huge huge difference...#difference in quality and in my health!#anyways the comic is really pretty im really happy with the work im doing rn #the environments especially. im getting to spend a nice amount of time on them and theyre turning out so nicely #its nice to be able to write with a lot of different environments and not have to redo panels when I get to them cause of time #cause every time theres a wild angle? you need a new background...#so sometimes. often actually. there just isnt the time to make the backgrounds for those and i have to make them more flat...#which is fine. it doesnt really affect anything narratively. but. idk. it's kinda sad right?#anyways yeah! 10 days will be much better.#36 episodes a year is about what ive been uploading with my hiatuses on the weekly schedule anyways!#so might as well cut out that super stressful middleman and just commit to that #52 a year is just such a huge difference and i have to accept its not possible to me #i will hurt myself trying to do that. and i want to make comics my whole life!#so i cant push myself that hard now and sacrifice my future. we're gonna go slower after this...#anyways yeah cant wait to come back but also time. if I could get an extra week like a secret one just for me #where theres no chores no nothin just me and my work #thatd be great! so go ahead and do what you gotta do to give me a little pocket dimension #me: ugh i want to return right now...#the more logical me: NO we need the time to finish everything!!!!!! NOT right now!!!!#time and time again #ttawebcomic #comic panels #hiatus stuff #adam and steve

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chiistarri · 7 months ago

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can someone who's read every single book i have appear rn

#just finished starsight/skyward2 and god this series is gonna be the death of me #its so mf good and howw #like holy shit the arturo nedd jorgen trio need to interact more #spensa and brade take up so much space in my mind omfg their. whatever their dynamic is #hesho and kauri and the unnamed kitsen and mourrimur omg #idk if i spelled their name right but its ok i just zipped my bag w my book up so we can pretend 🙏#i left the third book at my house so i have to wait more than a week to finish ts. ugh #and then gotta convince our parents to take us to b&n for book 4 but that should be easy esp after next week #i think theres a book 4 anyway idk i forgot #post #erics tag #teo so ice #skyward #cytoverse

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xiakeik · 3 months ago

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Euclidia glyphica Common Name: Burnet Companion Species Description: A day-flying moth often found flying alongside butterflies and other day-flying moths. They'll fly rapidly for a short distance then settle down with their wings partly open, revealing the bright orange-yellow hindwings.(Source)

Alternative versions! (Because I'm indecisive LMAO)

From left to right: No text, Text (Phone Wallpaper), No Text (Phone Wallpaper)

#gravity falls #bill cipher #the book of bill #my art #fan art #thisisnotawebsitedotcom #the book of bill spoilers #bill gravity falls #art #euclydia #xiakeik arts #To people who reading the tags: i hope you can find the 3 other codes in the piece (they're not that hidden tbh LMAO)#im praying tumblr doesn't butcher the quality so the “finer details” can be seen well enough #ive been waiting for weeks to finish this piece because UGH i love it so much #i actually found out about the moth completely on accident because i was looking up content about Euclydia but i ended up mispellin it #and nowww here we are #funny thing about this is that im deathly afraid of bugs but i pushed through just to get this art out #i need more content on euclydia & bill's home dimension man the lore around it is actually driving me insane /hj

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milesofstars · 3 months ago

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chat guess whos old bsd hyperfixation from 2021-2022 (ish) resurfaced and who is now rewatching all of it and experiencing season 4 and 5 for the first time and losing my MIND at the characters i knew from the manga being animated

spoilers its me

#bungou stray dogs #bsd sigma #bsd #the autism hit #this image is of a message i sent to my friends on discord #i love him sooooo much you dont understand #i just finished season 4 ITS SO COOL #i read the manga when i used to be a fan but it was 2 yrs ago so i forgot lots of it #i remember the important things though #like sigma for example #I WILL BE MAKING BSD ART AND POSTING IT #SOON I SWEAR im just busy with school ugh #people who understand and appreciate that bsd fyodor is based off raskolnikov talk to me please #i finished crime and punishment recently and its my favourite book ever #unrelated to bsd cuz i started it way before getting back into bsd

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hyacinthorchids · 5 months ago

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How do I explain to my boss that I can’t come into work this week because I finished Sandrock

#I’ve been sad about it all week the second play attempt just isn’t hitting like the first :(#it’s like finishing a good book and your only option is to start over I can’t go back to level 0 with everyone #ESPECIALLY FANG UGH it’s so rough #my time at sandrock #mtas #I’m GRIEVING

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jewishcissiekj · 1 year ago

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