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underthewingsofthblackeagle · 5 years ago

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“Berliner Fernsehturm” * Foto: BernardoUPloud

After her marriage with Frank Randall has failed and Claire Beauchamp flees from her violent husband, she finds refuge in the house of the Fraser/Murray family in Berlin-Wilhelmshorst. But then tensions arise between Britain (which has since left the EU) and some EU member states. All holders of an English passport are required to leave EU territory within six weeks … and suddenly Claire’s fate looks more uncertain than ever.

This story was written for the #14DaysofOutlander event, hosted by @scotsmanandsassenach

Chapter 6: 14 Men (2)

A deep breath escaped Claire’s lungs as the limousine drove on.

It seemed as if pure adrenaline was pumping through her body. The thought of leaving the country with a man who was almost a complete stranger to her had already created a strong excitement in her. She still didn’t know if she could trust this person. The way to her marital home and the stay in that room where the horrible deed had happened had cost her unspeakably much effort and strength. But it was the unexpected and repulsive encounter with that being, which she could no longer call human, that had almost pulled the ground from under her feet. It was only thanks to his alcohol level and the intervention of Etienne that Frank could not live out his hatred and brutality again. Claire was sure that she would not have survived another ‘encounter’ with him like the one the night before. And still, still, she had to gather all the strength she could find in her body, her soul and her mind. Because she had sworn an oath …

Claire opened her bag and took out her smartphone. Again she breathed in and out audibly. Then she dialed one of the numbers she had saved some time ago, albeit reluctantly. Jamie’s eyes followed her. It took a moment, then someone seemed to answer.

“Smartphone" by JESHOOTS-com

“Mrs. Travers? This is Claire Beauchamp. You know who I am, and I’ve known who you are for a long time. The man who cheated on me with you is lying on the sofa in the living room of his house. He’s drunk. He may vomit and choke on his vomit. If he means something to you, take care of him. The key to the front door is under the pot with the little buxus, which is on the top step of the stairs to the house. And when he wakes up and sobers up, tell him I left him. Once and for all. He’ll hear from my lawyer.”

Claire didn’t wait for an answer. She hung up and deleted the number. Then she turned off the phone and slipped it into her bag. She looked out the window of the limousine. Silently, she began to cry.

Jamie, who had noticed, put his arm around her and pulled her towards him. But Claire pulled her face in pain and he immediately let go.

“I’m sorry, Claire, I didn’t realize… ”

“It’s okay, you couldn’t …

She pushed her right hand over to him, which he took carefully and stroked gently.

“I’m sorry, Claire. I’m very sorry.”

“Thank you. It’s over,” she said softly, leaning against him exhausted.

“Yes, it’s over,” he replied and then added whisperingly, “By this time tomorrow we’ll be in Berlin and from then on you’ll have all the time in the world to relax … and recover.”

She closed her eyes while he continued to hold her hand. He would only let her go if she wanted him to.

An hour after they left the house, they arrived at the airport. The chauffeur parked the limousine and he unloaded the luggage onto a luggage cart, which he steered towards the check-in. Jamie and Claire followed him. Suddenly a slim, black young man came towards them. He was wearing dreadlocks, covered by a colorful knitted hat, on which large headphones were sitting. He reminded Claire of Bob Marley in other ways as well. Although the young man must have seen them, he ran straight towards Jamie and bumped into him.

“Oh, sorry, man!”

The young man raised his hands defensively. In one of them, to Claire’s amazement, he held an issue of the American magazine ‘Wine Advocate’.

“It’s all right, no problem bro!” said Jamie and smiled at the young man, “Nothing happened.” They continued on to the check-in where Carl was already waiting with the luggage.

“Etienne,” Claire said excitedly, “I think the young man booby-trapped something from your coat. He reached into the inside pocket! I saw it clearly.”

Jamie smiled at her. Then he replied:

“Shh, it’s all right, go on. Keep calm and carry on.”

Claire could only look at him in wonder.

Arriving at the baggage claim, Jamie said goodbye to his chauffeur.

“Carl, I travel a lot on business, but you’ve been the best chauffeur I’ve ever had. Thank you for the service and especially for your discretion. If I ever have business in Boston again, I’d be happy to take you up on it.”

“Thank you, sir.”

Jamie reached into the inside pocket of his coat and took out a small envelope.

“This is for you, Carl. Buy something nice for your child and take your wife out to a special dinner.”

“How did you know, sir …?”

“I happened to see the picture on your smartphone when you were holding it yesterday.”

Carl smiled, then he reached out to Jamie.

“Thank you, sir, and have a safe flight home.”

Shortly after that, Carl disappeared with the baggage car. Jamie reached back inside his coat and turned to Claire.

"The young Bob Marley fan,” he said whisperingly, “even though he reached into my coat, didn’t steal anything. He put your passport with the visa and your ticket inside. The bump-into-trick works the other way round, too.”

He smiled. Then he handed her the passport, which contained the ticket from Boston to Berlin. Claire was silent. She wouldn’t have known what she could have said. Only one thought kept going through her mind: Who on earth was this man?

A few minutes later they checked in their luggage and received their boarding cards. They went through the security and identity check, went to the gate and after passing another check, they boarded.

Jamie didn’t know how the “In Vino Veritas” team had done it, but he decided to thank them for getting Claire the seat next to him. He told her to take the one by the window.

They went through the usual introductory program and finally the plane took off, leaving Boston first under and then behind them. Although Claire loved to look out of the window while flying, she now consciously resisted this wish. She never wanted to look back at the place where the most horrible thing that had ever happened to her … had happened to her. She closed her eyes and wished for nothing more than to finally fall asleep.

Boston - General Edward Lawrence Logan International by Konstantin von Wedelstaedt - Gallery page http://www.airliners.net/photo//0171420/LPhoto http://cdn-www.airliners.net/aviation-photos/photos/0/2/4/0171420.jpg, GFDL 1.2, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=26879312

Then everything happened very quickly. On the flight to Berlin, Claire had slept most of the time. Only once did she wake up. It was at Stockholm Arlanda airport where they had to change planes. When they arrived at Berlin-Schönefeld Airport, Jamie had woken her gently.

He took care of the luggage and when they came to the exit a young man was waiting there whom he introduced to her as Felix Kloppstock. He loaded her luggage into a black Mercedes S-Class Coupe Concept. Jamie opened the door for Claire, let her in and sat down next to her.

“We’re driving to my house, but we have to stop by the company first. It won’t take long.”

Claire nodded. She was too exhausted to ask questions.

Almost half an hour later Felix Kloppstock dialled a number on the car phone and announced his arrival. When they stopped in front of a five-storey building with the name “In Vino Veritas” emblazoned in large letters on its façade, the car was spotted by a surveillance camera. Then a large steel rolling gate opened and the driver steered the car into an underground garage.

“We have to change cars now,” Jamie said and opened her door.

To Claire’s surprise, the garage was quite large. There were only a few other vehicles in it, though. They were mostly small vans, the majority of which had “In Vino Veritas” written on them. Each of the men took parts of the luggage, then Claire and Etienne followed Felix through a wide aisle and two fire doors into … another underground garage. Several passenger cars were parked there. The men walked towards a black BMW M550d xDrive Touring and loaded the luggage into its trunk. Then, Jamie opened the front passenger seat door for Claire.

“Please take a seat. I’ll be right with you.”

She nodded. Then she saw the two men walking to an elevator door. A moment later the door opened and out stepped an elderly man with gray hair, wearing a blue suit. Etienne and the man talked briefly, then Felix Kloppstock and the stranger disappeared in the elevato. Etienne returned to the car.

Although the men all smiled and patted each other on the back as they said goodbye, Claire was a little eerie.

“Etienne, what’s all this about?” she asked when Jamie got back in the car. Hoping to instill confidence and trust in her in this way, he took her left hand and smiled.

“There’s no need to worry, Claire. I’d parked my car at the company before I left on my business trip. It’s what I always do.”

He started the car and drove it towards a steel roll-up door that resembled the one they used to enter the first garage. He waited until the security camera caught him and the door opened automatically. Then he drove out. Claire noticed that they left the building in a completely different way than when they entered it. But she knew that now was not the time to ask any more questions.

For about twenty minutes, their path led them through the city, then the picture changed. For a longer time they drove through a wooded area. Finally, a few smaller villages and a large motorway junction followed.

“Potsdam / Babelsberg” by Kai_Vogel

“Now we are leaving Berlin and we are in Brandenburg,” Jamie suddenly said.

“Brandenburg?”

“One of the 16 German states. The state capital is Potsdam. It’s only ten minutes from our home. We’re just passing by Babelsberg. Maybe the name means something to you. It is the most famous film location in Germany. When the GDR still existed, its state film company, the DEFA, had its headquarters here. The place was also popularly known as “Honnywood”, a pun from “Hollywood” and “Erich Honecker”, the head of the GDR government at the time. But that was long ago.“

They drove through a small town area and then came to a less populated area. Jamie turned onto a road that led to a stately country house. The house was on a sloping hillside property that was enclosed by a limestone wall with a wooden fence on top. At the entrance of the property was a small pavilion. This pavilion, also built of limestone and with a red pointed roof, reminded Claire of an ancient guard house. The path leading to the house and the car park in front of it was framed by pine trees on both sides. When they stopped directly in front of the house, Claire saw a huge tree on the right, which she estimated to be at least fifteen meters tall. But before she could take a closer look at the house, Jamie had already got out and held the door open for her. Out of a garage door that apparently led directly to the lowest floor of the house came a friendly looking older man. He was wearing brown corduroy pants and a white shirt over which he had put a green quilted jacket. When he saw Etienne, he smiled over his whole, very round, face. The two men greeted each other warmly. Then Etienne introduced the older man, whose head was only framed by a wreath of grey hair, as Frieder Ballin.

Suddenly the big oak door had opened and a woman whom Etienne introduced to her as his sister Janet, called Jenny, had come out. Jenny had welcomed Claire with great kindness. A few minutes later, they were sitting in the living room, drinking tea and eating apple pie. An hour later, Claire was lying in a freshly made bed in a room prepared especially for her, fast asleep. When she woke up, she had slept for nearly eighteen hours. To her surprise, there was a small table with a thermos of tea, a Tupperware box with sandwiches, a bowl of fresh fruit, and a small vase of yellow and red tulips by her bed. Her suitcase and backpack stood next to the door of her room. Someone must have put all this in there while she was sleeping.

It was eleven o'clock the next morning when Jamie, who was taking a walk around the house, saw the shutters on Claire’s windows being pulled up.

He was happy to see a sign of life from Claire and hoped that the long sleep had done her good. At the same time, deep inside his stomach, a sinking feeling came over him. Now he would have to talk to her. It had to be now, it definitely had to be before the children returned from their trip. And he would have to reveal a truth to her that he didn’t know how she would react to. All he could do was hope that everything would work out.

Ten minutes later, Jamie came knocking on Claire’s door. When she opened and greeted him, he was relieved to see that she really looked more recovered.

"Claire, are you okay?”

“A little better, yeah. Thank you, Etienne.”

“I have something important to discuss with you. Would you please come with me?”

Claire nodded. Then she picked up her bag and followed him.

While they walked through the house, Jamie showed her the different rooms. About ten minutes later they were standing in front of a double door. Jamie opened the right door and pointed in:

“Please. This is our little library.”

Claire walked in. A room opened up to her, with bookshelves on three walls. On the fourth wall, a large window opened onto a garden. Jamie pointed to four comfortable leather armchairs set around a coffee table. There stood a bowl of fruit and drinks. They sat down. Then Claire, who could no longer stand the tension, asked:

“What is it, Etienne?”

Jamie took a deep breath, like he was trying to get a running start inside.

“Library” by mbahoco

“Claire, I have a confession to make …”

She didn’t say anything, just looked at him defiantly.

“I … haven’t been completely honest with you …”

Claire’s gaze changed into a state of consternation.

“It’s not that I was deliberately deceiving you …”

“Then why did you do it?”

“Because … I would have put myself, my family, and probably you in danger.”

"And what did you lie about?

Claire’s voice trembled slightly.

"My name is not Etienne Marcel de Provac Alexandre.”

She had expected many things, but not this.

"Your name is not Etienne Marcel de Provac Alexandre? But you have a passport …”

“Yes, I have a passport with that name. And this passport is not fake. It "s real. I …”

Claire saw non-Etienne kneading his hands, but he stopped immediately when he noticed her look.

“I use that name because it’s too dangerous for me to travel under my real name.”

“Why is that?”

“Because otherwise I might be kidnapped, taken to a maximum security prison and put away for life … for high treason.”

Only later would she admit, admit it only to herself. But the thought that this man, whoever he really was, would be locked up for the rest of his life stabbed Claire’s heart.

“Then who on earth are you?”

“My name is James Fraser, you can call me Jamie.”

Claire’s eyes had widened in astonishment. Then she said slowly, as if in shock:

“James Fraser? The James Alexander Malcolm MacKenzie Fraser? Lord Broch Tuarach?” The shock hit his whole body like lightning. But before Jamie could ask how she knew his full name, Claire went on: “You are one of the ‘14 New Jacobites.’ You are one of the leading men of the Scottish independence movement. You have fled Scotland with your family and are said to be somewhere in Europe. Downing Street No. 10, the government of Vladimir de Salty Brownson, has put a bounty on your head!” Claire clapped her hands together in front of her face. They were silent for a moment. Then Jamie asked: "How do you know all this, Claire?” For a moment she seemed to be struggling, but then she said: “My husband, Frank. He’s not just a historian, not just a professor at Harvard. He’s also worked for the Ml5 … and still does. You … and the 14 New Jacobites are the centre of his work.”

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moreaboutsomethingelse · 6 years ago

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82 | Vibing w/ Oluwah Akinyemi

“First Gen” is now out

On this episode the following was discussed:

The ins and outs of religion

The problem with self-help

Bringing your projects to life

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Yeah, exactly 0:10:46.800,0:10:48.800 the thing that I noticed about 0:10:49.320,0:10:54.470 life in general and this is just from reading a my own interest is that 0:10:55.200,0:10:59.629 Things are gonna go around in a circle, isn't it doesn't matter and that's just what life 0:11:00.480,0:11:02.480 Life is gonna go around in a circle 0:11:02.700,0:11:07.549 If you don't overcome the obstacle that you're supposed to lay, you're gonna repeat it again 0:11:07.890,0:11:13.879 Mm-hmm, maybe in a different form of fashion, but you will repeat it. That's very true. And that's just like in a relationship, you know 0:11:16.170,0:11:19.550 Be like oh oh man ain't shit, right, okay 0:11:19.550,0:11:23.930 All right, if all man ain't shit, what are you bringing to table, essentially? 0:11:23.930,0:11:27.169 And and I think that's a bad thing to say. Is that what are you bringing to the table? 0:11:27.170,0:11:32.690 But it's just like have you looked in the mirror? Mm-hmm, you know because I think I'm not shit a lot of the time exactly 0:11:33.270,0:11:36.530 and that's fine because I I filled out ways to sometimes and 0:11:37.650,0:11:41.599 You just gotta figure it out. Yeah, you know, you gotta you gotta get your level of a shit 0:11:41.600,0:11:44.210 Right, but history repeats itself. It doesn't matter 0:11:44.970,0:11:52.160 Yeah, I think that's what like that's where we're going because we're we're dancin so fast. Yeah, it was just like 0:11:53.130,0:11:56.059 Still we don't know what to do it. There's almost it's almost like 0:11:57.180,0:12:00.560 Moment to moment to moment to moment and the moments almost too quick 0:12:00.590,0:12:04.099 Yeah, you know and I kind of gets fogged up and just scrolling 0:12:04.100,0:12:04.910 It's calling, you know 0:12:04.910,0:12:10.459 I mean now I mean the future is about like content and stuff like that but for like if you if you can 0:12:10.650,0:12:13.219 You know, the digital contents always gonna be there now 0:12:13.220,0:12:15.220 You might you have to adjust to that way your hook 0:12:15.240,0:12:22.789 You also gotta got to understand how that analog oral comment because that's this is better that that's Thomas, you know yesterday, you know 0:12:23.310,0:12:25.310 somebody made a interesting post about how 0:12:26.460,0:12:28.460 if you were born from 0:12:29.040,0:12:30.510 1986 to 0:12:30.510,0:12:33.619 1995 it's very interesting how I said that you know 0:12:33.620,0:12:35.010 We do get the best of both worlds 0:12:35.010,0:12:39.890 We get to see the hard work ethic of the generation before us and we get to see 0:12:40.470,0:12:45.440 Technology and at its best so we kind of understand a mix of what's going on 0:12:45.440,0:12:47.809 yeah, and I think that's so cool because it's just like 0:12:48.330,0:12:54.439 Huh never thought about like that, you know, yeah, I did generational but as much as people say I hate this generation 0:12:54.440,0:12:56.440 There's a lot of this Jay 0:12:56.440,0:13:00.210 we're in the best generation or literally like right like you said like 0:13:00.430,0:13:03.870 We have the past as influenced who were kind of we still kind of got to grasp that 0:13:03.870,0:13:06.899 Yeah, you know and now we're just pulling pulling, you know 0:13:06.900,0:13:13.920 We're headed towards the future and that's kind of wild. Like my book is called first-gen because like see we're first-generation Africans 0:13:13.920,0:13:17.849 so that's already a whole nother part of that equation there being this kind of like 0:13:17.850,0:13:21.689 You know that generational gap kind of thing and they could have never imagined 0:13:21.690,0:13:26.820 You know us being what we're becoming or what we are right now. So that's like a first-gen 0:13:27.910,0:13:33.990 Entendre that I also kind of the win there too. Because yeah, man, the features is here. It's kind of dobra 0:13:34.120,0:13:41.789 Yeah, it's cool. It's cool. It's just that you know, as far as this is just this generation. It's just like we 0:13:42.340,0:13:46.980 We had we don't know really hostile honest it but we've harnessed it. Hmm and 0:13:48.160,0:13:51.810 When we get to that point what we do harness it game over, you know 0:13:52.180,0:13:58.949 And it's just like if you pay attention to economy or economic system general is that there's always one 0:13:59.230,0:14:04.259 Generation that does it the best and it make it last for a few generations 0:14:04.930,0:14:06.220 because 0:14:06.220,0:14:12.389 Did the millennial generation, you know, they're making it but it's not really sane, you know, so they're going on there 0:14:12.550,0:14:17.550 They're going with that and you know, it's kind of affecting them where it doesn't really affect us anymore 0:14:17.550,0:14:21.990 I mean as much because we can like you can you could dial out at any point, you know? 0:14:21.990,0:14:25.740 You can you don't have to you can you can disconnect? I think that's the best part for it 0:14:25.770,0:14:30.930 Yeah, that's connect that any plan you understand how to disconnect we went outside for goodness sakes, you know, hmm 0:14:31.230,0:14:37.920 We're outside like sunup to sundown like yeah. Yeah, and that's the thing. You know, it's it's crazy to me because I'm just like 0:14:39.160,0:14:40.390 I 0:14:40.390,0:14:44.490 Just don't I don't think people understand that, you know, the world is gonna get shitty to go soon 0:14:45.460,0:14:49.470 And then it's gonna build itself back up because whenever it is a shitty place, you know 0:14:49.470,0:14:53.009 There's a demand to pick it back. All right, there's only this lonely way to go up literally 0:14:53.010,0:14:55.010 It's the only way to go up but oh 0:14:55.360,0:14:57.839 It's a lot to me. Um as far as 0:14:59.530,0:15:02.339 Just life you know, it's a very interesting 0:15:03.700,0:15:05.790 you mentioned your book we go ahead and 0:15:07.180,0:15:12.939 Scott first-gen yeah, was it about so first Jen is kind of like a like I said earlier, you know 0:15:13.459,0:15:14.870 Being a first-generation 0:15:14.870,0:15:16.870 Nigerian immigrant, I guess 0:15:17.779,0:15:19.779 the United States and just 0:15:19.910,0:15:20.860 Just you know 0:15:20.860,0:15:23.289 just growing up in that in that bubble in that hole because 0:15:23.660,0:15:26.230 Your parents are also being influenced by a lot of these stuff 0:15:26.269,0:15:30.729 My mom just early on I used to disgust be disgusted at Burger King 0:15:30.730,0:15:35.709 You know, I remember I went my first Burger King bike that shit up almost to look you know I'm saying 0:15:35.709,0:15:39.489 But now I can probably pull up and eat breaking. Yeah, I feel like you know 0:15:40.370,0:15:45.489 yeah, so yeah, just being a first-generation African but also this is kind of my first generation of uh 0:15:46.310,0:15:52.929 Works that I'd say these are fine works of art. You know, these are these are well thought out these are very 0:15:56.329,0:15:57.550 Strategic pieces of art 0:15:57.550,0:15:59.620 You know also and not not also not 0:15:59.930,0:16:04.539 strategic in a sense that along this is what I'm gonna put out and it's gonna be like this what strategic guys and this is 0:16:04.540,0:16:06.430 Clean cut is thorough, you know 0:16:06.430,0:16:07.009 this is 0:16:07.009,0:16:13.568 This is not being put out just you know for any kind of other things to really touch the people and stories 0:16:13.569,0:16:19.629 You know about the stories. I mean, that's one thing that you know, we talk about or I talk about in general 0:16:20.300,0:16:23.740 Probably if there's one thing I'll talk about just not talk about legacy 0:16:23.899,0:16:29.438 Yeah, you know it's so important, you know, a lot of people they talk about or not even people 0:16:29.439,0:16:35.619 It's just like Nigerians in general, you know, your legacy or your children, and I'm just like yeah, that's good. But 0:16:36.800,0:16:41.050 To me. I just feel like I should have some type of guide for my kids like, you know 0:16:41.050,0:16:43.659 I want you to know exactly what was going on. Mm-hmm 0:16:44.209,0:16:49.659 This time of my life or when I dropped this project. I did this, you know, I just think I think it's important because 0:16:51.259,0:16:57.039 We have the ability to leave that footprint, yeah, we really do definitely like your great 0:16:58.100,0:16:59.529 grandkids times 10 0:16:59.529,0:17:03.099 Can you see a picture of you when you're young or there is? 0:17:03.470,0:17:06.939 Looking at a video of you want now or anything really, you know? 0:17:07.459,0:17:11.828 Not just I just find that fascinating. But yeah, I think that's kind of what like, uh 0:17:12.409,0:17:17.049 Even this this whole book project kind of thing is just kind of bought it's just like just that that imprint 0:17:17.049,0:17:21.819 yeah, you know just that that way to let you know like it's coming is here, you know, I'm saying like 0:17:22.590,0:17:24.530 You know, this is just our live clone thing 0:17:24.530,0:17:26.460 so this is this is a good a 0:17:26.460,0:17:30.799 good staple and you can see all the things that I was blowing at this moment in time because 0:17:31.860,0:17:35.090 it's all he's just gonna keep stretching, you know as 0:17:35.610,0:17:38.120 With a sore eyes with new day, and that doesn't mean you know 0:17:38.250,0:17:42.229 That's the only kind of directions we're gonna go but this is just a state below, you know 0:17:42.900,0:17:44.900 Just work kind of thing 0:17:45.090,0:17:47.090 the process of the book 0:17:47.460,0:17:50.960 Like when did you get the idea to do it? I 0:17:51.630,0:17:57.050 Got earlier this year actually. Yeah, um, I was coming around just just a lot of headspace and I was like 0:17:57.050,0:17:59.050 I don't really want people to have something tangible 0:17:59.430,0:18:01.430 you know cuz I 0:18:01.470,0:18:03.470 know I know how it is being a 0:18:04.590,0:18:05.660 Consumer yeah 0:18:05.660,0:18:07.700 You know as often as I create 0:18:07.700,0:18:12.319 I still know how it is to be a consumer and I kind of try to think about how other artists influenced me 0:18:12.320,0:18:15.439 Yeah, and like I do have a bookshelf myself 0:18:15.440,0:18:19.820 so I see these books that I've had for like years and years and years and it could have just been like 0:18:21.240,0:18:25.460 You know just something that I've had whatever I have like what the alchemist or something like that you know 0:18:25.460,0:18:29.479 And it's just like that that's sitting there. You know, he knew I was gonna sit there. Yeah 0:18:29.480,0:18:34.910 It's probably a whole lot of I just read it. Yeah already last year. Yeah, I just forget I guess 0:18:34.910,0:18:38.779 Yeah, and I was just like what why didn't I pick this book up a long time ago? 0:18:38.780,0:18:41.030 Yeah, cuz I kind of know these things. Yeah freshmen 0:18:42.780,0:18:48.349 Oh so mad at myself, but I just like them right I could have used it's probably like last year a year before that 0:18:48.930,0:18:51.979 But I guess that's the beauty of time and you know, yeah 0:18:52.860,0:18:54.860 But that's straight bro. Um 0:18:55.380,0:18:57.380 Talk about yourself, you know 0:18:58.350,0:19:00.350 You definitely had this bass 0:19:02.190,0:19:08.210 Fishbowl of knowledge, you know, did that come natural? Did you do you read? 0:19:10.170,0:19:16.550 Maybe all that look. Yeah. Yeah, just living my life kind of thing. I love reading. I'm always reading. I'm always in a book 0:19:17.280,0:19:20.960 I'm always studying something like even just allow process information 0:19:21.030,0:19:27.619 it's just like, you know, everything is kind of information that like I I told myself because it was just like 0:19:27.620,0:19:32.030 You know elementary school, you know people just call me weird and whatever it be funny 0:19:32.030,0:19:37.169 we were all my life and you know some writers decide maybe you just accept that your you decide I mean 0:19:37.720,0:19:40.500 there's a point where you have to but you know, I 0:19:41.500,0:19:45.689 Don't know. I just the way I process things. I just felt like it wasn't normal 0:19:45.850,0:19:51.449 There's no there's no reason I should be thinking about this not at this age, you know, but I don't know 0:19:51.450,0:19:53.450 I find that fascinating too 0:19:53.889,0:19:55.389 but 0:19:55.389,0:20:00.899 It's one of those things that you know, you just have to accept and learn how to utilize 0:20:01.630,0:20:05.549 Man, I think that's where we are right now. Learn how to utilize our odd 0:20:06.340,0:20:10.230 Individuality, you know a whole our whole thing kind of thing. Oh, 0:20:11.260,0:20:14.459 No, that's the thing. I I thought to myself that uh 0:20:15.309,0:20:20.398 You know, how can I be myself? And I think that's where I'll never right now is I being myself like that stuff 0:20:20.590,0:20:22.590 That's to go was the end-all be-all 0:20:22.620,0:20:27.839 All right, you know truth if I didn't live my life to be myself like I just started making my own sailors, you know 0:20:27.880,0:20:33.989 It's very hard enough in the immigrant household two no-decisions agree. But I mean, that's where we are right now 0:20:35.470,0:20:37.149 even today like 0:20:37.149,0:20:41.909 Just trying to push and like change the narrative because I don't know. It's not to say that I'm right 0:20:41.909,0:20:46.979 But it's just like I just feel like things need to be penny more. I agree. Yeah 0:20:48.669,0:20:50.669 There's always a there's 0:20:51.159,0:20:52.980 Always a need to be better 0:20:52.980,0:20:58.559 Yeah, you know endlessly it just bothers me that people that people don't want to be better. That bothers me the most 0:20:59.440,0:21:03.419 But I just feel like I can't change nobody why I'm coming to take something 0:21:03.419,0:21:07.109 You can't change nobody put yourself and even changing yourself 0:21:07.110,0:21:11.699 that's that's a whole nother thing cuz and you know, you know, and now, you know, you want to change and I was like 0:21:12.789,0:21:17.398 I'm I ready to confront that. Yeah, that's like the fear that you have to work through to you know 0:21:17.399,0:21:20.399 There's certain things about everybody that we'd want to change like, yeah 0:21:21.039,0:21:24.388 Say I'm gonna wake up for the next year at five o'clock 0:21:25.330,0:21:28.949 I'm gonna do it cuz then you know just like shit just fucking job early. Yes 0:21:28.950,0:21:33.990 I can be up you know, and this is like sometimes you might wake up a cemetery like that job is code as though 0:21:37.330,0:21:41.039 There will be days like, you know, like we're in this era of self-help 0:21:41.039,0:21:46.079 But yeah, you know, I don't know like I kind of stopped I've strayed myself away from it 0:21:46.080,0:21:48.689 But I still talk about it because I still want people to do that, you know 0:21:48.690,0:21:51.270 And I just feel like whenever I open my mouth 0:21:51.270,0:21:54.540 I'm not trying to give you fluff and that's what everybody else to check myself fluff 0:21:54.790,0:21:59.219 Yeah, you know that's annoying at this point, you know because just like qualities 0:22:00.160,0:22:03.959 Quality is uh, self-help gurus and everything like that, you know 0:22:05.020,0:22:07.020 It's still a bunch of miserable 0:22:09.250,0:22:11.250 That is that is though 0:22:11.650,0:22:16.919 That's crazy. And and I don't know it's it's just annoying because I 0:22:17.500,0:22:22.500 Just I just have this like desire to see people grow need to know me to move 0:22:22.500,0:22:25.349 it it bothers me how you know, you see people 0:22:26.200,0:22:33.840 Just in general like I say somebody is working at a job that animation or just like look I wonder what happen. Mmm like 0:22:34.419,0:22:37.079 What went on in your lifetime that you're just like, I don't know 0:22:37.080,0:22:41.850 I don't think I can do it right that. I yeah. Yeah, and that's the thing like that's why we all are right now 0:22:41.850,0:22:44.219 We're literally sitting at an edge. Mm-hmm. I 0:22:44.770,0:22:48.540 Mean you gonna jump or what? You can fall you could fall man 0:22:48.640,0:22:54.780 You can fall a hundred times like, you know, that ledge is the interesting list cuz it's like it's gonna teacher every time. Yeah, so 0:22:55.780,0:22:57.549 It's just gonna leap out 0:22:57.549,0:23:02.219 After every leap you go. Are you gonna take every leap every time you could take that leaving is one of those leaps? 0:23:02.220,0:23:08.250 I'm gonna land and that's the thing, you know because people think that um, you know, once you make it you're good, you know 0:23:08.250,0:23:10.250 Yeah, there's another leader 0:23:12.160,0:23:14.160 Like there's a mountain and 0:23:15.040,0:23:17.040 You can climb that mountain 0:23:17.200,0:23:25.169 But there's another mountain as soon as you get down. Yeah, except. Oh, it's not that you climb the mountain and you just walk on 0:23:26.290,0:23:28.270 a trail and 0:23:28.270,0:23:29.950 then run into another 0:23:29.950,0:23:31.720 Mountain then who knows when that could be? 0:23:31.720,0:23:34.350 Mm-hmm, or you can go straight because it you know 0:23:34.350,0:23:38.640 It's people are just like they always got shake going on back to back to back 0:23:38.640,0:23:41.579 I'm just like I don't want that like, you know 0:23:41.580,0:23:49.260 Mm-hmm, but that's just to say look like, you know, you're never gonna finish like I work it I work at 24 hour fitness 0:23:49.929,0:23:51.929 personal trainer and and 0:23:53.140,0:23:55.259 When I talk to people I'll talk about their goals 0:23:55.600,0:24:01.020 I'm just like like I'm less, you know right now you're never gonna get the buddy that you want because you're never gonna be satisfied 0:24:01.530,0:24:06.599 Hmm, but you said and that's the thing. It's just like you should never really really be satisfied with yourself. Mm-hmm 0:24:06.960,0:24:08.960 You should always seek some type of greater 0:24:09.520,0:24:15.690 Greater cause that's just you know, because it's it's really annoying to see people say okay. I wanna lose weight 0:24:15.690,0:24:19.049 Well, what do you want to do when you after you lose weight, you know very well 0:24:19.050,0:24:22.409 Who do you want to attract your husband your wife, right? Why are you losing weight? 0:24:22.410,0:24:24.930 this is your health, you know yet yeah, you know just 0:24:25.780,0:24:27.780 It's heavy to wake up every morning. Yeah 0:24:28.870,0:24:32.430 That's just one thing. You know, I don't really understand but I mean, here we are 0:24:33.400,0:24:35.400 living that life and 0:24:35.410,0:24:40.920 Not we're getting into this era of being conscious, but I'll be really conscious 0:24:42.100,0:24:45.480 We conscious though. Yeah a I they treat me 0:24:46.000,0:24:50.849 That is that trust me. Yeah, I can act Siri. Hey Siri, what song is this? 0:24:51.670,0:24:56.909 She'll tell me and this song can be from almost any generation. That is the trapeze 0:24:56.950,0:25:00.059 That's like I love that though because I'll do that like 10 times a day 0:25:01.930,0:25:07.710 This carrot is only scary to the point where it's just like, you know, we have this self reliance on certain things 0:25:08.230,0:25:14.849 Now we're more reliant on our cellphones than anything. Yeah, they stuck with it. Yeah, I know for sure. Like I'm not leaving my room 0:25:15.820,0:25:17.820 It's like another arm. Yeah, yeah 0:25:18.280,0:25:22.920 Fingers. Yeah, and like, you know like back in the day we used to talk about how 0:25:25.390,0:25:32.249 You know in the Bible they talk about you know, something about a chick they don't say that shit moving people talk about it 0:25:32.250,0:25:34.250 Right. I know 0:25:38.920,0:25:40.920 Nighttime 0:25:47.020,0:25:51.239 But then that shit is crazy, yeah, I thought about that 14, I remember that I 0:25:51.910,0:25:58.170 Remember reading that I remember being so attracted to revelations. Yes, young gone. Just cuz I was I don't know 0:25:58.170,0:26:02.849 I just like that concept. Yeah of the end of the world. Yeah, not that the world is ending but I 0:26:03.430,0:26:07.769 Suppose the portrayal. Yeah. I just I just want to know I'm gonna know shit, you know 0:26:07.770,0:26:12.989 And when he came down to the cadaverine revelation, like there's two times in my life that I've read it like 0:26:14.080,0:26:18.899 Everything anywhere because it was think about why they put it laughs. Yeah, and it was tricky it's weird 0:26:18.900,0:26:21.869 Yeah, they're gonna put it in the middle and why not have had the same power. Yeah. Yeah 0:26:21.870,0:26:25.109 Yeah, and that's the thing because when you read it, you're just like, huh? 0:26:25.690,0:26:31.440 Because it's a lot of symbolism. Mmm. Yeah, like, you know and I use this a lot 0:26:32.200,0:26:37.950 The angel that standing on land and water and I use that when I'm talking about somebody 0:26:38.500,0:26:42.989 Trying to make a decision. Mm-hmm. Like like you said on land water right now 0:26:42.990,0:26:47.130 Where do you want to go? Right, you know, and that's that's what it talks about and 0:26:48.310,0:26:55.229 It's just our brother. So trippy and like even when it comes to religion night, that's a whole nother thing, you know, I uh, 0:26:55.870,0:26:57.870 Religion is really interesting too. Yeah, because 0:26:58.720,0:27:04.860 Yeah, I think even like even like even away from the religion like I used to like played drums for my mom's Church 0:27:05.680,0:27:10.019 So it's like and back then I hated it. Yeah, you know like I despise it 0:27:10.050,0:27:15.210 I hate hate. I hate I hated setting it up and then taking it down and I did it like twice a week 0:27:15.210,0:27:19.889 Yeah, and suddenly and it's not like I was good at it or anything like that, but I just left it alone here 0:27:19.890,0:27:24.420 but you know music comes back around it came back around like three years later and then suddenly I'm 0:27:24.580,0:27:29.849 making beats and then suddenly I'm trying to get instruments and now, you know stuff like that the 0:27:30.370,0:27:35.640 Religion is interesting to how it influences people. I was thinking about how like I was thinking about the truth 0:27:35.640,0:27:36.030 You know 0:27:36.030,0:27:42.359 What makes the truth the truth and it's like a room full of people big-ass room full of people can all have one truth 0:27:42.610,0:27:48.900 That can make it the truth. But as soon as somebody steps out that room it might not be the truth anymore. So 0:27:49.810,0:27:54.210 What is the truth especially with religion and stuff like that? Because it's all kind of same stories - yeah, isn't it? 0:27:54.210,0:27:57.029 So it looks like there might have been one common truth though 0:27:57.460,0:28:00.840 And that's the thing because I'm I I try to adventure it 0:28:00.840,0:28:06.359 Well, I'm not venture and I just want to gain a basic understanding of different religions and you know, what? 0:28:06.430,0:28:08.580 What is this? Is it is it logical? 0:28:09.310,0:28:10.720 rational 0:28:10.720,0:28:14.790 And pretty much they're all the same. You know, it's not a do's and dont's to live your life 0:28:14.860,0:28:16.590 Yeah to be to be fair 0:28:16.590,0:28:22.709 I think Christianity is one of those religions that has proven that if you follow this, religiously, you're gonna make it 0:28:23.290,0:28:25.469 So so, you know, there's a few people 0:28:27.160,0:28:34.060 Don't want to get into white supremacy right now a man. Yeah like yeah, it's a thing but I 0:28:35.030,0:28:39.369 Don't like right now like, you know, it's not that I stopped going to China side one on my model show 0:28:39.370,0:28:41.620 But I'm just like I'm trying to figure it out for myself 0:28:42.080,0:28:49.479 There's a of course I like the idea but I love the idea of concepts and all that those concepts motivate me. I 0:28:50.000,0:28:51.160 Asked it I said, okay 0:28:51.160,0:28:54.609 I can read the Bible sometimes on because it's just like I get it but 0:28:54.980,0:29:00.340 What is it going to be to the point where I I truly believe it because you know idea niggas niggas 0:29:01.910,0:29:03.910 Thank you, alright 0:29:04.070,0:29:06.999 I'll put a check. I'll look I'll let them to say 0:29:08.090,0:29:12.549 Does this person that is reciting this message do they live the life do they believe that? 0:29:12.550,0:29:15.669 Yeah, do they believe it? Do you live the life that you thought that you talk about? 0:29:16.250,0:29:17.330 walking in righteous 0:29:17.330,0:29:22.869 And you know one thing that I hate about religion is that they always come and backhand you with a warm only human 0:29:23.020,0:29:25.119 What the fuck does that mean? I get it 0:29:25.120,0:29:32.050 I really do get it but I don't know if am that's like that's like me talking about is one of these self-help 0:29:32.050,0:29:33.920 gurus, you know 0:29:33.920,0:29:36.519 You can do it if you believe me achieve 0:29:37.130,0:29:42.280 Mmm, but you are here with a drug addiction or whatever. Mm-hmm and like that's annoying 0:29:44.900,0:29:46.900 But 0:29:47.510,0:29:48.650 Religion is 0:29:48.650,0:29:54.430 Very interesting to me. It is very interesting because this is like I don't even when I would when I look at religious now 0:29:54.430,0:30:00.549 I just look at everybody has to be dark. Yeah, right. So now if we really know we're really gonna have fun religion 0:30:00.550,0:30:02.550 I'm gonna make everybody look 0:30:02.960,0:30:06.849 Like me, so like I even play with you know how everybody plays with those concepts now 0:30:06.850,0:30:09.190 Yeah, like we are the gods and all that stuff 0:30:09.190,0:30:14.769 I mean and I guess I guess that concept itself even comes from like like Egypt I guess or whatever, you know 0:30:14.770,0:30:17.499 and that's a whole nother kind of religion too because 0:30:18.050,0:30:21.700 Sphinx and all that they listen to some other other stuff. Oh, yeah 0:30:21.700,0:30:25.869 Yeah, and that's the thing like, you know, we talked about it. Like you said you mentioned the Egyptians and whatnot 0:30:25.900,0:30:32.469 it is weird because they were sore at that's Steve so events and like they're still trying to figure out like 0:30:32.510,0:30:34.510 You know the pyramids right? Hmm 0:30:34.880,0:30:35.990 they're 0:30:35.990,0:30:40.450 Mathematically correct right on the world and they're trying to figure out like yo 0:30:41.000,0:30:45.559 Are you sure they just right they did that shit man. They did that shit 0:30:46.860,0:30:53.270 Every generation it's gonna be good. Yeah, they did that shit. Yeah, but I don't some trebuchet 0:30:53.970,0:30:59.540 It's big so true because like I was thinking like how they are pyramids around the whole world, right? But 0:31:00.630,0:31:05.660 Take it I feel like and but they're all they're all different cultures, right? So all these different cultures 0:31:05.700,0:31:11.120 yeah, and like there's even once in like, you know Asia and all that so we all have these pyramids and I was thinking like 0:31:11.700,0:31:15.290 Harold how was ha where did this signal come from? 0:31:15.290,0:31:19.399 Yeah, and I had to think like the signal probably came from when it was like Pangea 0:31:19.400,0:31:25.249 Yeah, you know it was there was a certain commonality and then it just became in into certain people indigenous peoples blood 0:31:25.250,0:31:28.969 Yeah, it's even more like like to talk about my sculptures because it's like yeah 0:31:28.970,0:31:33.980 I I want you to know where they're from because it gives them a certain representation like yeah 0:31:33.980,0:31:35.480 This is an original person 0:31:35.480,0:31:41.059 They kind of knew they knew what they knew themselves or or what they thought there was themselves or you know 0:31:41.059,0:31:44.178 However, the clothes they worked with himself. So it's really crazy. Yeah 0:31:45.270,0:31:50.869 You know, I was just dating by the tuna. I just talking about like the Bible stuff and like I 0:31:51.450,0:31:57.260 Questioned a lot and I feel like it's okay to question. Yeah, some people just like no you can't be asking these questions 0:31:57.260,0:32:01.849 I love questions. Yeah, I mean I expression because I genuinely want to know hmm 0:32:02.040,0:32:03.809 So I was thinking about it, you know 0:32:03.809,0:32:09.889 And it's not to say that it's not the master Bible anything but you know thinking about when Jesus fed 0:32:10.260,0:32:14.689 5,000 people with five local fishes sounds really crazy if I if you hear it, right? 0:32:16.650,0:32:23.809 And a part of me is wondering like the writer who wrote that. Mm-hmm. What were you trying to 0:32:24.480,0:32:27.770 Convey. Yeah. Yeah it what are you trying to say about Jesus? Yeah 0:32:28.320,0:32:34.970 But to be on light and that's the thing because everybody talks about Jesus, right? Yeah. Hey, Jesus was a dick. All right 0:32:35.880,0:32:37.880 No, Jesus could have been cool as hell 0:32:39.240,0:32:44.270 He could have been cool. But if I do say no certain dialogues where you say damn, here's why you so mean 0:32:47.400,0:32:52.849 Jesus probably always like I'm right. Okay. I'm right. Just let me just listen to what I'm saying, but 0:32:53.429,0:32:57.649 It was just like you're so nonchalant about everything that you did, but he did it 0:32:57.650,0:33:00.440 Yeah, and like it's like y'all didn't know later. Yeah, I 0:33:01.470,0:33:05.779 Find interesting even like that five thousand those things cuz I was thinking about that 0:33:06.330,0:33:08.629 Other day - were like even Jesus being I guess 0:33:09.150,0:33:11.900 One of the somebody had leprosy right or something 0:33:11.900,0:33:15.950 Oh and they were blind or something like that, or maybe no, it was just like they were blind 0:33:15.950,0:33:20.480 I don't know if they had leprosy but you know back then it could have been like Jesus could have just been like 0:33:21.570,0:33:27.019 That doesn't mean that person can't see ya. That means Jesus may just trying to show them something they didn't see before 0:33:27.900,0:33:28.910 You know what I'm saying? 0:33:28.910,0:33:29.570 Like, okay 0:33:29.570,0:33:35.419 You know like you are blind but now you kind of see because who know that person that person might not have been 0:33:35.760,0:33:38.030 Visually blond like sir, you know happens everyday, you know 0:33:38.030,0:33:42.229 Like certain epiphanies and then you see a different equation and just your life, you know 0:33:42.230,0:33:48.050 Just like I was blind to that moment and now seeing maybe Jesus helped me and now can tell somebody. Oh my god 0:33:48.050,0:33:51.169 She just helped me see. Yeah, but somebody's gonna be like 0:33:51.720,0:33:54.709 He helped you see you know, it's like you have wrong 0:33:54.710,0:34:00.259 You know, it's like yeah, it's just really trippy how stories can blend even with the five thousand loaves. It's like 0:34:00.990,0:34:07.430 It could have been five loaves broke. Yeah, but maybe he's like okay if I get five families dinner 0:34:08.730,0:34:14.270 So they won't die tonight. Maybe they can feed their five thousand other families. Yeah, you know or 0:34:14.970,0:34:18.679 Just certain ways to look at stories and its really hilarious 0:34:22.470,0:34:27.380 My you after I really do try to look at things from a different and take it from a different approach 0:34:27.900,0:34:32.839 Whether it's radical whether it's logical and really I want to see some things from a logical standpoint 0:34:32.840,0:34:37.039 Like what are we doing here right now? What are we? What are we talking about? Right because at the end of the day like 0:34:38.669,0:34:42.529 This bullshit meter mmm, it's awful. I 0:34:43.560,0:34:45.560 know when 0:34:45.990,0:34:49.729 bullshit is there yeah, and I just I think it just comes with time because it's just like 0:34:50.760,0:34:57.320 you just don't not like the people will talk as if they want you they have your best interest and it's just like 0:34:57.570,0:34:59.010 Doing it, really 0:34:59.010,0:35:02.660 And I'll be digging like I'm just like oh no, hmm 0:35:02.670,0:35:09.020 Like body language the way you perceive things where you're talking about things. Are you optimistic? Cuz I'm very mr 0:35:09.020,0:35:11.060 person Blacula I can definitely be a 0:35:12.780,0:35:18.590 Melancholy yeah, right. It could definitely be shady. Yeah. Yeah and like I don't know I got I've 0:35:19.440,0:35:22.490 Thought about this concept for a long time about darkness, right? 0:35:22.490,0:35:28.040 You know like we have this dark side to us and it's just like you need to play with that dark side, man 0:35:28.410,0:35:31.850 Either play with it man. You gotta play with it daily. Yeah 0:35:31.850,0:35:35.329 yeah, you got a shadow box lid and that's the thing is just because uh 0:35:36.480,0:35:42.230 In my lifetime like recently. I'm only 26 right but like I feel like I've lived a long time 0:35:44.460,0:35:48.710 Yeah, it is a lot yeah if you if you bought if it's myself, you know 0:35:48.740,0:35:50.870 Yeah next to 86 million or something 0:35:50.870,0:35:55.399 And that's the thing cause like, you know, I was always like a quiet calm person, you know 0:35:55.400,0:36:01.250 I'm still calm but it's just like quiet sometimes, you know, I do have this on the side where just like I'm yelling 0:36:01.250,0:36:05.239 I don't yell. But like I'm uh, thanks for wearing it, right? Yeah 0:36:05.240,0:36:12.320 Yeah, I don't like talking as much but I like I like to sit back and like observe. Mm-hmm. That's just one thing and like 0:36:14.340,0:36:17.870 Channeling that inner darkness, you know, yes been something it's been something real 0:36:17.870,0:36:20.899 Yeah, and that's the crazy part about it because it's just like, huh? 0:36:22.320,0:36:23.970 what do you 0:36:23.970,0:36:28.040 What are you gonna do? Like, what are you getting right it? You can't run from it and like that's the thing 0:36:28.040,0:36:33.560 I feel like people run away from their darkness. Yeah, and it doesn't darkness doesn't necessarily have to symbolize bad, right? 0:36:33.630,0:36:37.130 You know, it doesn't have to be negative at all. It could just be your daily darkness 0:36:37.130,0:36:41.120 Yes, it could be certain certain nuances within even the way you talked 0:36:41.120,0:36:41.540 You know 0:36:41.540,0:36:45.649 It could be the way you look at a certain person whether they don't give you something or when they say no to you 0:36:45.680,0:36:48.830 Yeah, you know doesn't mean that's a negative things just like, you know 0:36:48.830,0:36:54.229 Maybe I should fix that about myself. So that person doesn't feel like they're in the wrong product. Ya know 0:36:54.300,0:37:01.909 I'm in a constant round of a realm of trying to be a better person isn't there, you know, like 0:37:02.820,0:37:09.199 You go how you talked about you wake up at 7:30. You just I thought fuck this right it's normal 0:37:09.380,0:37:11.780 All right. It's so normal like Doby times like 0:37:12.480,0:37:16.520 Sometimes I struggle like putting out of Episode II it was just like always in my head 0:37:16.520,0:37:21.199 I'm always in my head and that's also part. That's the darkness the real advice. Yes I'm saying 0:37:21.200,0:37:23.540 Yeah, and that's the thing. I was talking to like, uh 0:37:25.079,0:37:31.399 One of my friends she's a life coach and I don't like when she uh, I don't like what she like try sex you 0:37:32.190,0:37:36.200 Think it's for my head. So I'm this I think I think I was smart enough to know was alright 0:37:36.200,0:37:41.510 I'm gonna get into my head, right but like she's cool. Like I love her. Yeah, but she's just like like 0:37:43.470,0:37:49.939 It's not to say that I feel like I'm on another level I already do feel like that. Mm-hmm, but 0:37:50.940,0:37:53.690 It's like the things I think about you know 0:37:54.480,0:37:56.480 the questions that I ask and just 0:37:57.180,0:38:00.740 In general like my overall life. Well it actually you have nothing to of my life 0:38:00.740,0:38:06.679 It's just everything that I've been gifted with. Mmm. Why is that, you know, like especially when it comes to religion 0:38:06.680,0:38:08.680 She just tells me you know 0:38:09.480,0:38:10.530 Well 0:38:10.530,0:38:14.749 It's a very risky thing, you know. Mm-hmm it is it is risky 0:38:15.329,0:38:20.659 and I think that a lot of people don't understand the repercussions of 0:38:21.030,0:38:26.479 Trying to reach into that side and she said that you punished it, but you just have to learn how to contain it 0:38:26.599,0:38:28.440 I think that I think that's what we already 0:38:28.440,0:38:29.010 Yeah 0:38:29.010,0:38:31.010 that is what we already know because I 0:38:31.260,0:38:36.589 don't there's not even necessarily even a bad side suit to that because I was doing another day like, um 0:38:37.230,0:38:40.490 Even with a theist so see what they don't even believe in anything, you know 0:38:41.250,0:38:47.329 The whole thing is faith-based. So you can't I still have to have faith that there's nothing out there, you know. Yeah 0:38:48.420,0:38:51.710 That's a scary part too because women especially when your customer religion is your site 0:38:51.810,0:38:52.310 Yeah 0:38:52.310,0:38:57.259 I don't want to get to the end of time and there was everything that they told me as a kid was a lie 0:38:57.260,0:39:01.399 That's gonna piss me. I can't believe anybody in 2019 except myself 0:39:01.400,0:39:07.339 I can't even believe it like I could understand concepts and I could play with it all day and I can even 0:39:07.470,0:39:13.069 Harness that energy and use that you know as synthesis to you know, I can make a whole concept of it, you know 0:39:13.069,0:39:14.280 but it's just like 0:39:14.280,0:39:15.930 I'm not gonna believe some 0:39:15.930,0:39:21.710 Spaceship came to Egypt. I'm not gonna believe Jesus walked on water. I'm not gonna believe you know, 0:39:22.290,0:39:25.189 All these other things on margins gonna be like those are amazing 0:39:25.319,0:39:29.509 Stories of people doing amazing things and I think I can be just as amazing 0:39:29.510,0:39:34.019 yeah, you know I'm saying so it's just like it just depends on you kind of digest that thing and 0:39:34.539,0:39:36.539 Yes, like Wow, yeah 0:39:36.880,0:39:38.880 people talk about Jesus as if like 0:39:40.239,0:39:43.678 It's not to say that Jesus wasn't special Jesus. Just knew the way 0:39:44.109,0:39:46.109 Hmm and Jesus was himself 0:39:46.179,0:39:51.899 Like we talk about how Jesus did his his stuff when he was little 0:39:52.239,0:39:54.239 Jesus came back on the scene when he was 33 0:39:54.999,0:39:56.999 What happened in between that time? 0:39:59.319,0:40:04.948 See but that's the thing about it because you get it as a story you could just if you look at about as I got 0:40:04.949,0:40:10.139 Stories. Well, I guess the artha just decided to jump or whoever these arches are. Maybe they don't want you to know 0:40:10.140,0:40:12.179 It's like whatever like, you know 0:40:12.880,0:40:14.880 We'll never know 0:40:15.880,0:40:20.729 Like if we'll never know then how can I believe I cannot listen anybody else if I just have to know from us? Well, yeah 0:40:21.519,0:40:24.419 See, that's the thing. It's just like, you know Jesus 0:40:25.420,0:40:28.829 Became this person whatever he went through in his 0:40:29.529,0:40:31.529 So-and-so years, you know 0:40:32.739,0:40:37.049 And like we talk about Jesus as if he's magical and just like no then think it was a big 0:40:38.109,0:40:40.438 Man, Jesus was he was something man 0:40:40.439,0:40:45.749 Yeah, he was and and I feel like you know, especially when it comes to religion is just saying, you know 0:40:45.749,0:40:52.289 They talked about being christ-like. Now, I think people who truly understand what that concept mean to be christ-like 0:40:53.559,0:40:57.508 Jesus was himself, you know nonchalant 0:40:59.619,0:41:04.169 But he knew you had to tap into the hearts to you as a son yeah, that's what he knew 0:41:04.170,0:41:07.859 He'd come up every morning and I think that's what it is. It's just knowing yeah 0:41:08.829,0:41:10.829 because 0:41:10.839,0:41:13.528 The devil talking about yo argue whatever you weren't 0:41:14.979,0:41:21.989 Just following right? What do you think? The modern-day devil is right now? Look what could be the modern-day. Uh, 0:41:23.439,0:41:28.529 you know a lot of the devil the pull is 0:41:29.799,0:41:35.518 there like visibility or is it static some type of energy is the ego is I 0:41:37.390,0:41:41.729 Don't think egos needed so maybe that goes back to how you know, we do need our shadows. Yeah 0:41:45.200,0:41:47.289 That's hard that is a hard one, yeah 0:41:48.020,0:41:48.910 That is a hard one 0:41:48.910,0:41:54.099 I've never really thought about that myself because I just know like there's a lot of who loopholes you can't call them to day 0:41:54.100,0:41:59.589 We Devils, you know, there's little don't cheat on your girlfriend. That's it and just just don't be able to go from this, you know 0:42:00.110,0:42:01.490 like 0:42:01.490,0:42:03.610 I think it's a 0:42:04.430,0:42:05.540 hmm 0:42:05.540,0:42:08.830 Because it could be anybody like yeah, you could react to some that 0:42:08.830,0:42:14.769 I won't even react whether vice versa and um, I don't know. Yeah and the deadly Devils 0:42:15.590,0:42:21.880 Everybody, you know somebody in your ears telling you hey, you know, you don't have to do anything today 0:42:21.880,0:42:28.059 Just just relax, you know, but that's stopping you from your greatness. No, that's an addict today off. Yeah 0:42:28.060,0:42:31.630 Yeah, and like, you know, it feels good after one day and you're saying you know what? 0:42:32.450,0:42:34.450 Just take another day off, right? 0:42:34.790,0:42:39.430 And then like it just happened then you you don't follow through on whatever mmm 0:42:39.590,0:42:41.350 I'm really hard on people, you know 0:42:41.350,0:42:45.670 Don't give a fuck accountability it like I owe you a fuck about whatever you're gonna do in life 0:42:45.860,0:42:49.930 Really hard on you as far as I getting your shit on, you know, just do that shit 0:42:49.930,0:42:54.129 Yeah, like I'll reach out to people like I see something about it 0:42:54.160,0:42:58.119 Like let's say if you if you had this book and not knew that you were gonna come out with a book 0:42:58.340,0:43:02.529 I'd probably on your ass be like yeah, what's going on right now? Cuz it's just like 0:43:04.100,0:43:08.259 We want to be great. Mm-hmm, but we don't want to do what it takes to be great 0:43:08.260,0:43:14.560 Yeah, we got a we got a fall in love with that process, you know, yeah that whole process that that that day 0:43:14.560,0:43:15.830 will you feel like 0:43:15.830,0:43:20.860 do I even have a voice you guys just shut the fuck up, you know and that's a day, you know, because 0:43:21.800,0:43:23.800 We talking about history 0:43:23.990,0:43:25.990 History is so important 0:43:26.630,0:43:27.980 you can either 0:43:27.980,0:43:33.400 Live and be a part of history. Mm-hmm, or you can watch history past. All right, unless somebody else write it. Yeah 0:43:33.430,0:43:39.639 I'm not writing for yourself. That's not even have your own it because um we talked about how you know, 0:43:40.190,0:43:44.859 JK Rowling she did this she got rejected 11 times or whatever. I'm just like 0:43:46.100,0:43:51.489 Yeah, you know your time will come but what are you doing in the meantime, right because that was her process. Yes 0:43:51.490,0:43:53.860 Maybe she wrote a character 100 0:43:54.610,0:44:00.869 You know, she could've wrote. You know, Harry could have been a smooth and not a sloppy, you know, silly dude 0:44:00.869,0:44:06.539 Yeah, and maybe they wouldn't you know and SS and she was probably not even thinking about the audience. Yeah, that's what I'm thinking 0:44:06.869,0:44:08.200 What makes this? 0:44:08.200,0:44:12.090 Magical. Yeah, and that's the thing about art, you know brings it to life, right? 0:44:12.090,0:44:16.559 Yeah, the best thing that you could ever ever do is try to hone in on that art 0:44:16.560,0:44:19.259 Yeah, you got I think that we are art, you know 0:44:19.260,0:44:24.869 We all look similar just a little bit, but it's one little thing. They want anything, right? 0:44:24.869,0:44:26.130 and you know 0:44:26.130,0:44:31.320 I think that's what makes us each special that we all know how to do something or we can all do something just in general 0:44:31.840,0:44:35.759 Yeah for like the best thing is for anybody. You know, it's just to find out what makes 0:44:36.340,0:44:41.639 What makes you tick? You know, not what somebody else does you makes you tick what makes you tick? You know, what makes you just 0:44:42.490,0:44:45.270 What makes you think? Hmm? How did that happen? 0:44:45.270,0:44:48.360 Yeah, you know just how did how does how did that person do that? 0:44:48.550,0:44:51.269 Or why does this make me feel this way Ahad. Why does? 0:44:51.910,0:44:53.619 Why does the Sun feel so good on my skin? 0:44:53.619,0:44:59.759 Yeah, you know just little things that make make make you you and you know, you can beat you can know being a dermatologist 0:44:59.760,0:45:02.639 I'm sure and you know figuring out how scheme works with like, you know 0:45:02.640,0:45:05.760 Just some you just gotta just do this. Just do the process 0:45:05.830,0:45:12.269 That's all because it's just like and that's anuria so exactly exactly I'm trying to figure shit out. Yeah, because 0:45:12.880,0:45:16.770 You really think about it, you know a thing about LeBron, you know 0:45:17.320,0:45:18.550 LeBron 0:45:18.550,0:45:22.800 He went to like ten different schools and like yeah, well 0:45:22.800,0:45:28.919 Then it was within a short amount of time because they report right rent was seven. I don't say 17 0:45:34.450,0:45:39.840 It was really really cheap and then was like in the hundreds like yeah low five hundred, you know 0:45:39.840,0:45:42.359 and they're moving from place to place and 0:45:42.970,0:45:46.590 you know, we always hear these stories about the prodigal child how 0:45:47.320,0:45:52.289 Yo, you're gonna make it but there's always that one guy for the hood 0:45:52.290,0:45:55.769 That's gonna carry the hood on his back. Right and that was LeBron, right and 0:45:56.380,0:45:58.380 LeBron could have made one mistake 0:45:58.720,0:46:05.639 One mistake and that would be the yeah, but he figured it out. Mm-hmm and you think about all these successful people 0:46:06.190,0:46:08.190 They figured it out, you know 0:46:08.590,0:46:12.659 And that's what you just need to like trying to like figure shit out for yourselves as I yeah 0:46:13.120,0:46:15.539 Because everybody's working on their own machine, you know 0:46:15.540,0:46:20.759 It's like that machine that you just got a that machine of, you know, getting up in the morning and knowing hey 0:46:20.760,0:46:21.480 This is what I love 0:46:21.480,0:46:26.580 Alright, this is not what other or but I'm just gonna get this machine right or try to get to another machine right today 0:46:26.580,0:46:28.580 Yeah, or you know 0:46:28.660,0:46:32.880 sustainability, I guess and I just I think about it in mark modern date sex because this is like 0:46:34.060,0:46:35.140 and 0:46:35.140,0:46:37.030 Every day is way to look. Yeah 0:46:37.030,0:46:42.689 It's to blissed and even just think about just humans period like just think about nothing failing inside your body 0:46:42.690,0:46:47.760 Yeah, that's that's a whole. Nother thing. Oh, yeah. Yeah, it's all it's all attributed 0:46:48.070,0:46:53.130 sometimes I you know, it's not that believed so that big existential I 0:46:53.800,0:46:56.519 believe in the simulation or not, but 0:46:57.250,0:47:01.290 Not a simulation. I don't know what we you know, I don't think of the simulation 0:47:01.290,0:47:06.600 But what one day I was thinking about exercise what if I could take off this headset? Yeah, like the matrix 0:47:06.900,0:47:10.829 Yeah, and I'm oh I need to watch it again. They they they dropped 0:47:11.380,0:47:13.439 Champ. Yeah, I think we're in like a 0:47:14.080,0:47:20.789 Just a bubble of energy. Yeah. Yeah. It's like a hobo and we're powered by the Sun. Yeah, which is Jesus 0:47:24.520,0:47:32.100 Or God or Son of God or the whole thing is but we are definitely just a big ball of energy like and 0:47:33.790,0:47:37.979 We could and I don't even know we might not even there might not even be any other 0:47:38.740,0:47:45.600 Plane, he might all be right here. Yeah, we clearly see this. I mean, yeah, I think I think as time goes on you 0:47:46.150,0:47:49.410 Know how you talked about like Jesus letting somebody see 0:47:49.410,0:47:52.890 Yeah, I think like it's not to say that we're already on heaven 0:47:53.080,0:47:57.209 But it's just like we we just need to be able to see everything. Mm-hmm. Is that thing? 0:47:57.210,0:47:59.210 That would give us something to work with. Yeah 0:47:59.230,0:48:05.250 and like I just think that comes with time because you get exposed to different things in the world and like oh, 0:48:05.260,0:48:09.870 It's just you just got to not give up, you know, just don't give up on whatever you're trying to see, you know 0:48:09.870,0:48:11.790 You might not even never see it 0:48:11.790,0:48:18.029 Yeah, you know, oh he made that God my um, this is I don't know what he he got a dad with being blind 0:48:18.560,0:48:20.330 when he stumbled upon Jesus 0:48:20.330,0:48:21.930 I'm sure maybe he 0:48:21.930,0:48:26.150 Grew up to figure out how to a lot of Hill he was one and how to make sure other people 0:48:26.340,0:48:28.340 Just to see new things 0:48:28.560,0:48:33.830 That's usually how a lot of charitable work happens news that you know, their parents died from cancer or whatever 0:48:34.080,0:48:39.019 Yeah, it's crazy cast is still potter. You know, that's a crazy thing the cancer 0:48:39.690,0:48:43.310 Cancer is not gonna go away ever. Didn't you think they got a quick here. I 0:48:44.010,0:48:46.010 Don't think they got a mean. Whoa 0:48:46.440,0:48:51.260 What's this? Uh Cuba? I don't think we got what keep us they carried it. Yeah 0:48:51.930,0:48:56.450 Cuba's cured AIDS Cuba's cured a lot bro. No, man 0:48:57.690,0:48:59.330 No, but that's the thing 0:48:59.330,0:49:06.140 Like we're modern-day medicine, you know, right everything is about pills and shots and whatever or radiation. Mm-hmm 0:49:07.980,0:49:12.169 Not it's never gonna be a way but I mean, what is what is it? 0:49:12.170,0:49:16.220 You know, what is look we got this is now yes taking them. We you know 0:49:17.130,0:49:19.459 as a whole thing, so we're in a future so it's like 0:49:20.010,0:49:24.380 You know technology can be just as medical as it is, you know. Oh, yeah, definitely 0:49:24.990,0:49:31.159 I definitely feel that way as far as like, you know, like procedures and how to get into the body without actually 0:49:31.920,0:49:34.730 too much of an invasion on any type of warhead 0:49:35.910,0:49:41.030 Yeah, I had one of those they use just fix you just like sticks and he just went in and it just put it in 0:49:41.030,0:49:45.919 It suck it up instead of ripping my whole stomach open. Yeah, and that's you know, that's the crazy part about it because 0:49:47.460,0:49:49.460 When you think about medicine, you know 0:49:50.100,0:49:57.019 Yeah, we're like in the 21st century and everything is about medicine pillows. Whatever. Yeah, but 0:49:57.960,0:50:00.830 Where did you get those properties for? 0:50:01.470,0:50:06.740 You grow those properties from the earth, you know, that's why you know, I marijuana is illegal 0:50:07.500,0:50:09.830 DMT is legal. All these things are illegal 0:50:11.100,0:50:15.679 Here at rot DMT and I don't know. I don't think I'm a miner Holly. Yeah, I don't think 0:50:17.670,0:50:21.590 Maybe I want the a date like they talk about gateway drugs and you know 0:50:21.590,0:50:25.519 It's not that I believe that does a gateway drug, but it's just like, you know every joke has its purpose 0:50:25.520,0:50:28.340 you know and like I know like 0:50:29.340,0:50:31.729 it's just a assist another experienced at a 0:50:32.240,0:50:38.000 I don't know if I'm ready for ya. A lot of this I can it look like I thought about your horse 0:50:38.000,0:50:43.369 I'm just cool. Yeah, like yeah, I thought about it. I think you'd be perfect for it cuz you have a very calm manner 0:50:43.369,0:50:47.149 Yeah, yeah, most people get out of their heads real quick. Yeah 0:50:47.670,0:50:52.070 I don't know. I just have to uh, I have to weigh my options and whatever 0:50:52.070,0:50:57.379 Alright, I'm big on I'm big on a repercussion. So I just like there's no repercussions. Yeah, yes. Oh my god 0:50:57.380,0:50:59.099 I just want to know that 0:50:59.099,0:51:01.099 When I go into this round 0:51:01.380,0:51:03.710 What am I gonna get for me, you know ego death 0:51:03.960,0:51:07.849 That's what you're gonna get you go to for sure about you you you yeah 0:51:09.420,0:51:11.629 LSD, how's your experience? 0:51:12.450,0:51:13.980 it's usually like 0:51:13.980,0:51:20.089 It's usually you just come on like a Chinese person, but it's usually you just life is just kind of more like yeah 0:51:20.280,0:51:25.129 Like everything breeds, you know, the colors are more vibrant and you you almost 0:51:26.099,0:51:28.549 Feel yourself being a wave, you know 0:51:28.550,0:51:28.950 You can 0:51:28.950,0:51:33.379 Almost sensitive to the energy in the room see and you can kind of see energy sometimes - I don't know 0:51:33.390,0:51:35.810 it's kind of far out to say but um 0:51:36.690,0:51:42.260 Yeah, and especially creative wise. Yeah greater wise. It makes you dump everything you just thought was cool 0:51:42.780,0:51:44.780 You're like whoa, that is not cool 0:51:46.080,0:51:50.899 You're like this is cool. You know, this is actually saying something, you know, and you know stuff like that cuz 0:51:51.450,0:51:57.109 you know art in psychedelics kind of go hand in hand what you would think you know, like oh, that's a trippy and 0:51:57.720,0:52:02.270 Investing as the artist if I can make you feel like you're trapped just for a second just for a second 0:52:02.270,0:52:06.320 I can catch our just first I can make you be still just for that second that moment 0:52:06.390,0:52:09.589 it's like, you know, when you listen to music, you know that that moment is very 0:52:10.109,0:52:12.199 personal to each and every video so it's a 0:52:13.290,0:52:18.830 you know, it's just all about making you see I think that's kind of what psychedelics I it just makes you see I 0:52:23.369,0:52:25.369 Never heard that 0:52:26.970,0:52:28.970 We 0:52:29.280,0:52:33.589 Say oh we just bad for the body or that yeah. Oh shut up. Oh 0:52:34.470,0:52:36.470 Are you annoying? 0:52:36.620,0:52:39.410 man now we're in a future do yeah, it's like 0:52:40.200,0:52:42.979 they even that's a thing a being first generation again, because 0:52:44.880,0:52:47.130 It has it's hard trying to talk to your parents about psychedelics 0:52:47.130,0:52:52.079 That's like, you know, we're too free to have that conversation and we got out of conversation 0:52:52.080,0:52:54.989 But they can never grasp it unless they try because yeah 0:52:55.510,0:52:59.310 trying to have those concepto stalks about those concepts and things you see that's - 0:53:00.190,0:53:03.750 It's almost too far out for them. Unless you know, they've done something like 0:53:05.440,0:53:12.210 Indians or that generation though. They're very conservative. Yeah, but that's I think that's good though 0:53:12.210,0:53:18.870 I think our meeting I think they were concerned conservatives and you know, this next generation is progressive 0:53:18.870,0:53:19.260 hmm 0:53:19.260,0:53:20.580 And you know we get the brain 0:53:20.580,0:53:24.989 so I think it's good for it's gonna work out eventually because you know, like their grandkids will be 0:53:25.510,0:53:30.390 You know intellectuals. Yeah, basically, you know and have tradition still you know, the other thing like that 0:53:30.540,0:53:33.959 Yeah, I think that's when it comes down to - is tradition 0:53:33.960,0:53:37.199 That's why they you know, they try and say keep it in the bloodline, but you know 0:53:37.870,0:53:40.499 You just got to keep it. Just keep that shit 0:53:40.500,0:53:44.250 Yeah, even make sure you got it at least wanna give it to wherever you want to give it to you 0:53:44.440,0:53:45.690 especially in the bloodline 0:53:45.690,0:53:52.320 I understand that bloodline thing cuz I don't know that's that's far out - because you know DNA is matter, you know 0:53:52.320,0:53:56.009 yeah, I mean it does certain information is a 0:53:56.680,0:53:58.680 Nigga, shit. Yeah 0:54:00.070,0:54:02.219 The experience that we don't do right now 0:54:03.580,0:54:05.580 Hey, man, uh 0:54:06.340,0:54:08.340 We here and uh 0:54:08.800,0:54:10.420 talking about 0:54:10.420,0:54:16.830 fear, you know I was talking about fear with like a lot of people this in general because you know at my job 0:54:16.830,0:54:21.179 You know, they have people that don't make as much money. No, this is not - like 0:54:21.910,0:54:28.799 Clothes or anything, but they don't make they make 7/25 right? And you know, I'm talking shit. I'm just like yeah, what are you 0:54:29.380,0:54:32.039 What are you gonna what are you gonna be doing? Hmm in the next? 0:54:32.740,0:54:34.740 Five years and people don't look that far 0:54:34.900,0:54:41.699 You know, that's that's the upsetting part except you don't look that far and it's just like, you know, let's compromise, you know 0:54:42.070,0:54:47.549 Let's not talk about how far let's just talk about today. What are you doing today? And 0:54:48.940,0:54:52.470 No, no, we're just we're talking about people that really fear 0:54:53.590,0:54:57.779 Doing whatever right that change. Yeah, and then leave. Yeah and like 0:54:58.840,0:55:00.840 It's okay to be uncomfortable. I 0:55:01.360,0:55:08.789 Would always aim to be uncomfortable man. Once I get when I once I'm comfortable once I am comfortable I almost can't think yeah 0:55:08.830,0:55:14.699 I almost feel like I have no purpose once I'm comfortable. Yeah, it's almost like not working 0:55:14.980,0:55:17.669 You have to always make time to be comfortable. It's kind of weird 0:55:18.640,0:55:20.640 It is weird 0:55:20.980,0:55:22.980 It's one of those things where it's just like 0:55:24.310,0:55:30.749 Alright, I'm good, but I want better and you know, I'm starting to slowly realize that it's only like 0:55:31.450,0:55:33.280 1% of the people 0:55:33.280,0:55:37.320 Population on this world that want better for themselves. So I'm just gonna just gonna throw that out there 0:55:37.750,0:55:41.130 There's one it like look I'm so proven. I've gotta give people 0:55:44.050,0:55:48.989 Yeah, it's just man it is tough though, I mean I don't know I feel like 0:55:49.990,0:55:56.610 We're in the future worried. That's becoming the dingo. Yeah to be to want better for yourself. Yeah on it other kind of stuff 0:55:56.610,0:56:01.499 I think that's cool that there's people that actually want better than themselves. You shouldn't want for better for yourself. Yes 0:56:02.230,0:56:05.219 Nobody else is gonna want it for you. Yeah as much as you want it. Oh 0:56:06.640,0:56:11.099 no, bro, it's very interesting to try like 0:56:12.520,0:56:18.659 See your life go through, you know, because I think about it. I think about my life just in general 0:56:18.660,0:56:25.830 I feel like I noticed the changes it's more. It's like getting better because when I think about it, you know, I 0:56:26.860,0:56:32.039 Didn't know what I wanted to do. You know, I went I'm going to I thought that my life was gonna be like alright 0:56:33.250,0:56:38.760 Go to high school, you know get chicks go to college get chicks settle down get married 0:56:39.040,0:56:46.649 Yeah be a pharmacist slash doctor, whatever. Yeah get married at 25 have kids at 28 25 0:56:46.650,0:56:48.650 That's so scary - you murdered right? 0:56:48.760,0:56:51.449 Trust me. I know trust me. I'm not it 0:56:52.090,0:56:54.390 But it was just one of those things where like yo 0:56:54.940,0:56:58.740 I've planned out my life. Hmm, but then there's just like, alright this happened 0:56:59.110,0:57:03.749 Alright, so we're gonna go left or we're gonna go right? All right, let's go, right 0:57:04.210,0:57:10.800 All right, and I'm going still on that same path that I wanted to be on as far as like my life is sometimes happen 0:57:11.470,0:57:13.150 laughter, right 0:57:13.150,0:57:20.040 Mm-hmm, you know and that's just that's just where we are right now. Hmm, like people don't understand that the smallest decision is 0:57:21.820,0:57:27.299 Everything's very grander, you know. Yeah every grinder those little decisions. You gotta make sure they fulfill you 0:57:27.300,0:57:29.550 Yeah, you know I make sure yeah 0:57:29.550,0:57:35.189 I guess like the chosen that's is you gotta make sure you know if I'm making a lift am I gonna be? Okay? 0:57:36.010,0:57:38.399 With whatever comes with making there live 0:57:39.070,0:57:41.759 Yeah, it don't matter if it's good or bad, right? 0:57:42.550,0:57:43.800 You still gonna be either too cold? 0:57:43.800,0:57:48.840 yeah, you're still gonna be still gonna pay for debris because no matter what hmm like and that's just to say that 0:57:50.260,0:57:52.979 Make good decisions to know that hey 0:57:54.070,0:57:57.449 If anything bad comes out of it, I made a good decision at that time 0:57:57.490,0:57:59.790 Mm-hmm, because we talking about present time now 0:57:59.830,0:58:06.600 you know as much it as much as I press to push for the future and you fix yourself today, you know you do and 0:58:07.120,0:58:14.609 That's what like, you know, the self-help whole thing is just like they're talking about the future, you know, they're talking about you know 0:58:14.610,0:58:20.610 If you just visualize what you want and you'll get it. Well, what about now? You know, hmm, and one thing that I have 0:58:21.370,0:58:24.359 grown to understand especially like let's let's talk about 0:58:25.480,0:58:31.590 What's this called the presidential election? Right? Mmm, and how people are like, you know, I believe that 0:58:32.200,0:58:37.470 Black people need reparations. Yeah, that's the new topic this go-around, but we got to make them talk about that 0:58:37.470,0:58:40.770 I mean you got to I mean wheat some kind of we could talk about all of it 0:58:41.020,0:58:45.090 We can talk about it, but it's just like yeah, how are you gonna do it? 0:58:46.390,0:58:50.430 But I mean, that's what they gotta bring to the table exactly. But we gotta bring that with them. Yeah, yeah 0:58:50.430,0:58:53.430 yeah, like yeah, we could talk about it, but it's just like 0:58:54.280,0:58:59.009 I'm all about look I get it. This is what we need. But how are you doing it? 0:58:59.040,0:59:04.409 How are you gonna do it? Do you have even this? Yeah, even if it's the slightest plan to be like 0:59:04.930,0:59:11.250 okay, I know you're gonna do it but I need a little bit more reassurance because look no offense to Obama Obama is one of 0:59:11.250,0:59:16.709 The he is a phenomenon, you know, we we will never get anybody like him ever again 0:59:17.050,0:59:20.909 What if we get somebody better we can I mean we had the possibility 0:59:20.910,0:59:27.839 I mean II do have the possibility make this generation deaf definitely has a possibility you thought you seen that Asian president that oh, 0:59:27.839,0:59:35.399 Yeah, yeah, see what he talked about. I don't know II think he's progressed. He sees features. Yeah, he he he's smart 0:59:35.400,0:59:38.129 He's smart. I actually like I donated some money to his campaign 0:59:38.470,0:59:38.970 Yeah 0:59:38.970,0:59:42.929 Cuz I just like did he go he could get there he can get far you think he can win 0:59:43.420,0:59:48.359 Agent president down fix economy. Yeah, look if that fixes 0:59:48.359,0:59:52.528 I would hope so look at ASA president America better wake the fuck up 0:59:53.230,0:59:55.230 We're talking about 0:59:55.599,0:59:58.139 flying cars to stay outside 1:00:00.640,1:00:04.829 See well, that's what you gotta give them that stereotype that's what he wants that is this 1:00:04.839,1:00:07.679 he almost has to work against that stereotype too because it's like 1:00:08.680,1:00:12.839 Okay, you're Asian. You have to work work with a future futuristic concept, right? 1:00:12.839,1:00:17.339 That's what we kind of so she ate them with me know sometimes with the you know in comics or whatever 1:00:17.339,1:00:19.919 But it's like yeah, what are we? What are you gonna bring the tip to the table? 1:00:19.920,1:00:21.930 And he's an American so it's just like yeah 1:00:21.930,1:00:28.139 I appreciate like he's gonna say he can definitely like he could definitely fit in all demographics 1:00:28.230,1:00:31.139 Well, maybe not rest I thing but he seems very fluid 1:00:31.140,1:00:33.390 Yeah, it seems like like like Anna, you know 1:00:33.549,1:00:38.008 He wants to work against the economy because he knows the companies for pretty much done. Yeah, yeah 1:00:38.009,1:00:41.729 he's yeah, like he was talking about how how 1:00:43.569,1:00:48.179 How he's gonna get the money for all that extra I'm just not like the Amazon or whatever 1:00:48.519,1:00:52.409 Yeah, I mean, yeah, like this is all it all makes sense. It does makes it 1:00:52.410,1:00:58.049 Yeah, and when is this I wouldn't make sense then. Okay. Yeah, we understand. They're not right. Yeah. Yeah like 1:00:58.690,1:01:00.690 to be honest like 1:01:02.349,1:01:03.880 Everybody else sucks 1:01:03.880,1:01:05.519 to me at least 1:01:05.519,1:01:11.429 What about what's-his-name? Oh baby. So yeah, I think he just posted that he's yeah, I 1:01:12.190,1:01:18.149 saw that you know, to be honest, I was kind of disappointed because I'm just like and you can wait till 1:01:19.930,1:01:21.930 2024 or 2028 1:01:22.269,1:01:27.119 Where's the psych these people are gonna try and come for you? Yo, you lost Senate. Hmm? 1:01:27.180,1:01:30.869 You know you think here do you think people don't people like them already gave him my money 1:01:30.869,1:01:34.619 Anyway, I'm not even gave it to him no more. No, he he has his weight 1:01:34.619,1:01:38.758 Like if it wasn't like everybody caught his wave late, right? 1:01:38.759,1:01:41.699 He's in pain I'm saying that's why that's why he essentially that's why he lost 1:01:41.700,1:01:43.950 Yeah, cuz they caught his way if he had more time 1:01:43.950,1:01:49.499 Yeah, but the whole thing about is like bado knows how to speak to people if you look at him that's white chocolate 1:01:49.529,1:01:51.899 Alright, he just like oppa say white shit 1:01:54.309,1:01:59.788 Now he's very very well-spoken yeah. Yeah, he's very well-spoken and that's what you need you need to be able to 1:02:00.339,1:02:04.439 Deliver the message very well. Mhm, but there's a problem when it's like 1:02:05.769,1:02:08.849 alright, you deliver your message, but you're only a 1:02:09.579,1:02:14.278 Message carrier. Yeah, he doesn't seem much in control. Yeah, he seems just very good 1:02:14.890,1:02:19.589 He could bring the plan. Yeah, he that he might know maybe he meant to bring the plan 1:02:19.589,1:02:23.968 Yeah, he'll pick the people to execute it, which a president is kind of, you know, it's a positive right? 1:02:23.969,1:02:27.569 Yeah, um, but even with him is just like yo 1:02:27.569,1:02:33.058 do you another reason why he lost and people couldn't grasp the concept of how he lost was because 1:02:33.489,1:02:37.019 He only looked at on social media. Yeah, I think his didn't really go 1:02:37.019,1:02:40.919 Oh, you know I care if I should say if you don't have for this guy 1:02:41.699,1:02:44.189 And that's it. Alright, see what this is 1:02:44.190,1:02:47.039 that's a good thing again about like that that digital thing because 1:02:47.349,1:02:52.978 You just crawl on my pasta after a while you once you've seen it initially most times 1:02:52.979,1:02:55.289 You're just gonna scroll past here the second time. Yeah, you know, I 1:02:55.869,1:03:01.498 Dig his design he kind of stole. What a Rigger's design. Yeah. That was very smart for a Texas thing. Yeah 1:03:02.289,1:03:06.689 That's probably the best thing about champagne. Yeah, what's the design is? It's all 1:03:07.539,1:03:12.508 It's all interesting to me, you know not to say that I want anybody to lose. I want everybody to do their best because 1:03:14.079,1:03:19.019 Very optimistic about the future and you know who every time you present better come with it because 1:03:19.990,1:03:23.219 Because they're not gonna get our folks no more. Like that's really the bottom line 1:03:23.220,1:03:27.119 You're not gonna get our money or our votes likes it as much as as much as I hate 1:03:27.120,1:03:29.760 I would hate to say that Hillary didn't deserve my boat. She just in 1:03:30.280,1:03:32.850 Yeah, I mean not to say I was wrong 1:03:37.630,1:03:43.710 But you know like it's just is this she didn't she didn't deserve it but it's just like, you know, somebody said 1:03:44.410,1:03:49.680 The the better of two devils and this I don't all right, the the lesser of two evils. Yeah, I 1:03:50.350,1:03:52.920 Don't know. I don't know how much I agree with that. I mean 1:03:53.680,1:03:57.569 It was Gary Johnson there was but you know think it's not trying 1:03:58.240,1:04:01.229 Libertarian like, you know through our generation. It'll be a 1:04:01.780,1:04:06.210 real thing to participate in voting believe but really 1:04:06.790,1:04:08.790 You know, we gotta find a way I guess 1:04:10.000,1:04:15.029 Have people excited about it because I don't talk about voting like that. Yeah. It's like I'll see someone who just corn up 1:04:15.030,1:04:17.030 Okay, I'll register to vote and you know 1:04:17.530,1:04:21.210 But I don't feel like I'm a part of it. I don't feel like I you know, that's why I voted 1:04:21.820,1:04:25.380 Suppression is so real to cuz most people don't think they'll even have an elephant 1:04:25.380,1:04:28.950 Yeah, that that even gives but we gotta understand like man 1:04:29.590,1:04:34.620 We're not even gonna blink at you. If you're not talking about a black agenda. That's why this this one around for 1:04:34.620,1:04:40.680 yeah, it's so kind of important because we need that agenda Chris like crazy like 1:04:41.560,1:04:44.220 What's the promise? Yeah, yeah 49. Yeah 1:04:46.450,1:04:49.559 It's a trippy experience, you know 1:04:51.850,1:04:58.410 It's cool in his cool. Yes it it's nice that we're able to talk about it, you know every time I think about Trump 1:04:58.410,1:05:00.960 I'm just like damn President Bush was a good president. I 1:05:03.760,1:05:05.760 Don't know man, I feel like 1:05:05.860,1:05:10.410 He wasn't he was I don't know. I think I think that 1:05:11.350,1:05:18.329 No, no, I mean despite that. You know, how can you despite that though that I've been on Orlando? Yeah, it did 1:05:18.910,1:05:20.230 um 1:05:20.230,1:05:24.510 Yeah that we got them a fee. Am I in the airport now when you book a flight? Yeah. Yeah 1:05:25.680,1:05:28.220 What the fuck? I think that 1:05:29.640,1:05:33.410 Like just was bushes in general. Yeah, he wasn't in control 1:05:34.530,1:05:40.759 His family. Yeah, I think like somebody had influence or like I feel like he was he was that guy 1:05:41.700,1:05:46.580 But he definitely like I think Dick Cheney was like the puppet master, you know 1:05:46.580,1:05:51.919 Right, like they had this whole movie about him being that I saw at about 1:05:52.800,1:05:54.800 that movie in my 1:05:56.100,1:06:03.499 Sister's was his uh, after 9/11 happen you ever seen is I guys know that's what that's really when all the conspiracies came through 1:06:03.500,1:06:07.160 That's one this whole wave of conspiracy. Theories came to after that movie 1:06:07.200,1:06:11.419 it was it was basically all about 9/11 and the economy and all this stuff and I was like 1:06:12.150,1:06:16.219 It's maybe bull. I mean, I believe that first was talking about loominatee and all that other bullshit 1:06:16.280,1:06:18.280 I believe the for like two months, but then I was like 1:06:18.720,1:06:23.480 There's a market for this now because you got middle school was talking rubbish in high school was talking efficient. It's like 1:06:24.570,1:06:28.580 He might have really been a just a terrible person. So he might have just really yeah, let those people die 1:06:28.610,1:06:30.610 Yeah, whatever we go to war. I 1:06:31.230,1:06:33.080 Thought I'd break it down like or aunts 1:06:33.080,1:06:33.770 Anyways, yeah 1:06:33.770,1:06:35.760 I mean we are we truly are I mean 1:06:35.760,1:06:39.770 As much impact ups as we try to change right now. It wasn't tangible back in a day 1:06:40.530,1:06:42.150 Mm-hmm 1:06:42.150,1:06:45.979 Think about think about that should happen with eggs alone living what? 1:06:48.090,1:06:52.549 That's that's really again we might shut down cuz yeah fucking shrimp gonna do yeah, but maybe 1:06:53.370,1:06:57.349 You might stick. Yeah, it's just like you know, what fucking I'm tired 1:06:57.990,1:07:03.350 And I had enough of these Russian box. Yeah, no. No, that's interesting. Oh, yeah, man, uh, 1:07:03.960,1:07:05.520 About to wrap it up 1:07:05.520,1:07:07.520 Go ahead plug your stuff 1:07:07.830,1:07:14.959 Man, my name is Aldo walk. Eme. Y'all can follow me on on Instagram Twitter Oh Lu WH T 1:07:15.810,1:07:20.209 Come check out my stuff man. I got a show coming out next month at arc art gallery 1:07:20.210,1:07:23.390 I also have another show at the Hobby Center in May 1:07:23.790,1:07:28.729 So check that out and it's on 4/20 then one next month our hearts. 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