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i saw a post saying boom was good bc it feels like it could be done with any doctor/companion duo and honestly that was one of the things i felt was wrong with it
#in a show with a title character that could be Literally Anyone and a companion sharing the lead that could be Literally Anyone#i value the little moments that set this duo apart from the rest. ESPECIALLY when it comes to returning writers like rtd/moff#fifteen and ruby felt a little too eleven/twelve and clara adjacent in boom. in both their dialogue and characterization#space babies also landed a little weird at first bc it lifted a bit from end of the world BUT the scenes that fifteen and ruby#had to themselves. like ruby getting covered in snot and fifteen laughing. or fifteen and ruby looking after the Space Babies#or fifteen going out of his way to save the monster bc that monster is the only one of its kind Just Like Him Fr#that stuff is so good and its also something we haven't seen from another nuwho doctor. the vulnerable bleeding-heart empathy#and a dynamic w a companion that is basically 'two troublemakers that just deeply love fun and adventure and getting into trouble together'#oh yeah and also the devil's chord was peak fiction because it touches on fifteen's renewed connection and love for humanity#and marries it to ruby being a musician and how music like any art is the expression of the human soul etc etc#WHAT MAKES A DOCTOR WHO STORY GOOD TO ME IS PARTLY HOW THE PREMISE TIES INTO THE DOCTOR AND COMPANION'S CHARACTERS#IT HAS TO FEEL LIKE IT WAS TAILOR MADE TO THEM. ELSE IT WONT LAND RIGHT TO ME#i hate the take that they should've saved wild blue yonder for a fifteen episode bc#the tension is hinged on how well the doctor/companion know each other. u have a level of it that u can ONLY get#with fourteen and donna who are two halves of a whole soul but have also spent much more time missing the other than knowing them#im not rewatching fifteen's eps rn until a week later when i can watch it w my qpp but#rn i still feel a stronger sense of fifteen and ruby's characters from all the rtd-written eps rather moffat#which like. i get that a lot of that is my personal dislike of moffat's writing style but still#dr who#15 era#dw spoilers
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Imagine crawling under the Horned King's robe to cuddle with him ... It doesn't necessarily have to be a sexual situation (though it could possibly lead to that if you're both up to it - I mean does he even wear anything else underneath there?đ), but could also simply be a tender moment of both physical and emotional closeness.
Author's note: This was originally supposed to be an imagine at best or simply just me yelling out my thoughts about the Horned King, but somehow it kind of accidentally turned into a short story. Things you do at 5am I guess. This man probably has to much control over my mind at this point (not that I'm complaining).
The Horned King x Reader - Cuddling under his robe
It's cold this evening, though this is not something particularly unusual. The wind is howling around the walls of the castle, and you're snuggling a little closer to the Horned King as you're resting in your shared bed together. You feel his grip around your waist tighten ever so slightly, when suddenly an idea sparks up in your mind. Maybe there is an even better way to escape the cold than just pressing yourself up against him ...
He tilts his head, but doesn't say anything yet when you wriggle yourself out of his embrace and crawl towards the foot of the bed. You hesitate for a moment, but eventually decide to lift the hem of his robe.
"What are you doing, my dear?"
You can hear mild confusion in his voice, and stop in your motion for a moment, one of your hands pulling up the fabric a little while the other is resting on his calf.
"Just trying to escape the cold ..."
With that, you lean forwards and start crawling under the king's robe. The thick fabric holds off any light, so you let your hands follow the contours of his body as you move upwards, careful not to put your weight onto him in an uncomfortable way. You can feel a smile forming on your face as you finally stick your head through the collar - which luckily is wide enough to fit both of you.
"I thought it might be warmer underneath here, and I have to say that I'm not disappointed. But I also just wanted to be close to you ..."
The Horned King's gaze turns soft - over time you've learned to read his more subtle facial expressions - , and when you lean forwards a little to press a kiss onto his lipless mouth, you can feel him eagerly reciprocate the motion, to the best of his abilities at least. He lets out a content sigh as you rub your nose against his cheek and wraps his arms around you, resting his hands on your back. You allow your body to relax completely as you lay down on top of his own, and although he's not giving off any body warmth, you relish the feeling of being pressed up against his bare skin.
"This is perfect ..."
You mumble as you're nuzzling your face into his neck. Your eyelids are starting to get heavier as he gently rubs your back, and a yawn escapes you.
"Rest now, my dear."
Your king's soothing voice still reaches you as your consciousness starts to drift off into the shadows.
"Rest well. I will not be going anywhere right now ..."
#I haven't written any proper (fan)fiction in ages I have actually no idea where the hell this came from#it was such a good feeling though! I think I usually overthink way too much about the build-up of the scenario#or whether I'm portraying the characters' personalities properly that I'm too anxious to actually start anything#but here I was like 'I'm going to write this cute scenario just because I want to' and the words started forming basically on their own#I hope inspiration like this strikes me for my other loves too at some point#also ik I've been all about the king in the past days but be assured my love for my other faves is as strong as ever <3#I have a feeling he's probably going to end up up there with my main f/os at some point though#f/o: đ#the horned king#the black cauldron#disney villains#the horned king x reader#x reader#villain x reader#f/o imagine#self ship#fanfiction#writing#selniaswriting#suggestive#(not really but just to make sure)
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slow day of work at the email factory, so I finished a draft of my first ever zine piece today! I will post a teaser once it's a little more polished and I'm feeling better about it :)
#my writing#bound by blood tag#i haven't written in short story format or to a wordcount in soooooo long :')#longfic has made both my fiction and academic writing soooooo much wordier so this was probably a useful exercise lmao
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thinking a lot about how in a watsonian pov Lucas's motivations make a lot of sense and I support the character but in a doylist way his s3 arc has always rubbed me the wrong way bc i feel that the motivations of fictional black men almost always revolve around the concept of popularity and what is Cool and Masculine
and like yes white fictional characters often also interact with those concepts but like. they are also given other plots and I feel like young black men usually aren't. like black teen boys are always written as either jocks obsessed with what's cool or nerds who are obsessed with what's cool. like its disturbing how often fiction is set up to imply that a black person whose entire identity doesn't revolve around the acceptance of others must be miserable.
there is almost no presence of a gleeful black nerd in any medium. which is odd to me because I feel like, in the years before Marvel and Halo made being a nerd "cool", it was my black friends who introduced me to most of the nerdy shit in my life. Like, I probably never would have gotten into anime at all if not for a guy on the bus letting me read his copies of Yu Yu Hakusho. Most of the video games I play are because they are genres I used to play with a girl who I only became best friends with bc we were the only two girls who were into anime in our class. we got into dnd together.
and like it could be argued that Lucas feeling pressured to turn to sports is only because of this stereotype, but I don't think acknowledging the stereotype within the narrative actually makes it different from all the others.
#shut up az#I already have so many issues with how Lucas and Erica are treated in s4 so#like one could argue that Erica is a gleeful black nerd but also she calls everyone else a nerd and does still value popularity so idk#I'm trying to think of like every black male character without this trope that I can#honestly like even my 2nd favorite fictional character of all time Virgil Hawkins falls prey to this trope#he literally stands up a girl he likes because she's too nerdy for his reputation like girl....#Cyborg I think maybe doesn't but I haven't read all his comics#Whitney Jammer from MisMag touches on it a few times but he's genuinely supportive of his nerdy friends#and is written/played by a black man so yk#Miles Morales is also a good one but again I haven't read all his comics#most of the ones I can think of are much older and like. their nerdiness is assumed bc they are like Engineers and whatnot#also they aren't main characters#anyway no one needs to respond to this I was just laying awake being haunted by visions
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hello! can you give us a timeline of events starting from when mc and leith first met? like how many years later from when they first met did the release happen? and how many years later did the second event happen? etc.
Hi! Hmm, an exact timeline is not going to happen, since I want to allow for many different headcanons. But in rough estimates of how I envision it, MC is a full fledged [origin] by the time they meet L, and there is a decade or two (or more, but this is as close to 'canon' as it gets) of friendship/romance before the release. (L has lived in Riven for their whole life too, and gone through the ritual at the Stila).
And then, while being hunters, at least two centuries pass before L's death.
Hope this helps! :]
#ouroboros-if#interactive fiction#lore question#leith/custom#I mean in an immortals life so much can happen/ entire lifetimes of events that haven't been written into Ouro#the origin of MC is a canvas I'd like to leave blank for others to imagine#if they had a brief stint of being a pirate or if they explored the world for a decade or so you know. possibilities endless
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For the 2023 fic writer asks: 20 and 30. And may the week be kind to you.
from fic writers asks 2023!
*tacklehugs!!* thank you, and you too!! ;u; (I think we've all earned some kindness after the rollercoaster of this last year..!)
20. Share your favorite ending line?
LOVE THIS QUESTION >:3 okay, let me see... hehehe lets have a chapter ending from 'ropes and fangs', the original novella I'm working on:
When the moon was full, heâd change and heâd be helpless to it, to the call of instinct and the hunt. A ferocious, wild joy that he was powerless to resist, succumbing to the shift with abandoned freedom as he takes full possession of his birth rite, running through the forests on the outskirts of the city. And she was human, completely unaware of the realities of the world and the other creatures that live within it. Fuck.
I just love the contrasts here hehehe. <33
30. Whatâs something that you want to write in 2024?
I'm going to take this as things I want to finish, which is the short story in the same verse as ropes and fangs!!! It's about Ilya and Georgi, and their relationship with an aro changeling. snippet and incredible art by andy HERE.
I've been thinking a lot about aromanticism this year (in regards to my personal life sksksk) and this is part of my exploration of it. I've written the first part, the second part is sketched out, it's smutty as hell, and just needs me to be in the right head space for smut writing xD
#ropes and fangs#ej writes werewoofs#<- the original fiction tags hehehe#I've written a LOT but I don't write chronologically#and then life got insane and I haven't done much with these projects since summer. definitely a goal for the new year!#but!! in trying to find an ending line#I found a story idea I'd forgotten about and love and started working on THAT#so thank you for the writing fuel heheheh >:3 <33
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Motherfucker, y'all got me writing again, what the fuck?
#nah it's cool#i just banged out 1200 words one night then made myself cry with my own writing the next night#good. great. awesome. love that for me.#i haven't written fic in 10 years#what the actual fucking fuck#also#i'm just out here trying to get to the one scene i wanted to write that started this whole mess but now there's fucking PLOT?#i'm 2900 words in and it's gonna take at least twice that long to get where i wanna go#maybe#if i'm lucky#and why does a bitch need to understand fake science from a fictional world?#fucking hell#i refuse to deal with reya and the holy war#i am not taking it that far#that entire prospect is fucking exhausting and many better writers than me have already gone there#i mean fuck i'm already worried that i've read so much WN fic that i'm subconsciously cribbing story elements#y'all do this for fun? on the regular?#props to the fic writers#i was already a fan but damn i had forgotten how hard this shit is#warrior nun#fanfic
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"...Dr. Ludwig looked increasingly worn out during each visit I made to his office. His calm, collected, and professional nature was nothing more than a front to avoid making his own patients worry for him. He was close to falling apart---the cracks were showing themselves.
"Having been in that position myself, I was tempted to pry on what could be happening to him by way of small talk. I think he knew my true intentions, as he constantly dodged my questions and glared at me when I tried to steer the subject back to our conversation.
"By the end of my last visit, he suddenly snapped back to his cheerful demeanor, although it was clear that he was simply forcing himself to hide any sign of his annoyance with me for the sake of professionalism. With a strained, unsettling grin, he told me he would see me soon.
"...Come to think of it, if I hadn't given in to my nosiness at that time, I would have never ended up... being dragged into an alley... and gutted like a fish. I'm sorry you had to see me like this. I wish I could tell you more."
-Excerpt from an interview with [NAME REDACTED], recorded hours before his passing at 1am in [LOCATION REDACTED]. Murdered by one Dr. Karlheinz Ludwig.
#tf2 medic#writing#wanted to do something a little different today!#i haven't written much in the field of fiction. normally i do academic essays#but this was fun to come up with on the fly#it's also related somewhat to something i have planned in the future#that's all i can say right now đ
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having thoughts about grimm's relationship with their body and humanity and how it probably transitions more post-story bc it's not until somewhere in p3 that it feels actually, fully comfortable in its own skin for all its inhumanity, and i think that's enough for it to unlock new gender thoughts
this got long so i'm putting it under the cut. i'm just rambling abt character shit over the timeline of the story and whatnot yeehaw
overall, grimm's not someone who hates their body and all the ways it's not human, especially not to the point of harming themself about it or being overly reckless (their sense of survival and self-preservation are Very strong), and at no point in the story do they really hate their body or anything, but they struggle to see it as a human body. before i get too into how the story affects things; they exist in a body that was modified at a decently young age, they've grown up in this body and know how it moves and reacts, but as they distance themself from their past, they realize that a lot of what felt like decisions they chose to make, including modification, were actually the result of manipulation and abuse, so their body carries a lot of...reminders that fade in time but never truly disappear. and they got out of that! they survived and won't go back! but because of all of this shit (< grimm backstory post) it left them not only with an emotional gap between them and most people, but a physical one too, and that's even harder to form relationships with people without hiding because opinions on humods among the non-modified majority usually falls somewhere between "patronizing pity" and "violent disgust" (then you occasionally get the outliers like yarrow who are fascinated by it, or the folks who choose modification out of excitement and not desperation, but again, outliers).
which, grimm doesn't consciously carry any of the "ohh they're going to think i'm a disgusting abomination of a creature" sort of angst that i often loathe in fiction, but instead has this perpetual sense of "i'm comfortable in my own skin, but i need to hide what i am for my own safety because i am not human" which isn't entirely untrue, but it keeps them from sitting down and thinking about like. what they want. or analyzing their personhood and how that's affected my being humod. in a way i think gender stuff comes easier bc grimm is so comfortable letting other people just assume whatever of them bc they're more concerned with "passing" as human and therefore whatever other ppl percieve grimm as gender-wise has no bearing on their own sense of gender (if that makes sense)
of course the actual thing is they have a metric fuckton of internalized shame around being humod they don't/can't look in the eye, but there's no way in hell grimm would have the self awareness or emotional intelligence for that. at least not at this point
and one of the many things that grimm runs away from at the end of p1 is yarrow's curiosity about their inhuman body, because why the fuck would it confront the reason why someone showing interest in them for what they are causes them immense discomfort? that's enough vulnerability for the next five years, thank you very much.
for all they run away from everything there, a lot of emotions still linger and that empowers grimm to at least sit down and think about what it would like its body to be like and change it accordingly, which is great! transitioning and exhibiting control over their own body is what grimm needs! it doesn't solve everything bc they're still paranoid as all hell about having their modifications seen by anyone, but damn, having tits sure ain't bad.
then everything with grimm coming back in p2 happens and here yarrow is, enthusiastically loving it and its body for all it is (after the whole. yknow "hey that the fuck is going on between us what is your goal here asshole"), so a pocket of the world where it doesn't have to worry about constantly wearing like five facades opens up and it's comfortable for the time being and some of that stuff can start to be slowly unpacked, which is well and good, but grimm still is distinctly aware of how it feels different from yarrow because it's humod and they're human and that's not really as big a deal as grimm is thinking but. yknow. the hypervigilance
and then of p3 happens and yarrow becomes humod and of course the shame in letting that happen is there and it's overwhelming and it's crushing and grimm thinks they can never do enough to apologize for dooming yarrow to the same existence it has but worse bc he can't hide like they can but then yarrow...just... isn't doomed by it. he revels in his new and weird body like the weird doctor he is despite the horror of it happening in the first place! he can't hide it like grimm could before (grimm stopped caring about hiding bc it's not like yarrow could. plus pretending to be fully human is negligible when you're like. hunting people down and causing extreme property damage), but that doesn't change that he can clack his mandibles like tongs or has a secondary pair of arms or a fucked up proboscis tongue to [redacted], which is fucking cool! how could grimm ever be disgusted by yarrow's body when the not-quite-man they went through hell to find and still love so much loves it! yarrow's still a person! maybe not fully human anymore, but what does that matter!
and there's way too much other shit going on in p3 for them to parse everything out but loving yarrow and his humod body gradually allows grimm to circle around and reconsider their own body and relationship with it for themself and eventually question what about hiding/ambiguity they liked so much and if it's still "useful" or should they make some more assertions about who and what they are. also how the shame of not being "human" they carried for so long doesn't actually matter and is not exclusive to personhood unlike their teen years suggested and also maybe yarrow calling them his "wife" set off something too idk
after that it's even more vague soup than the actual canon of the story bc i'd like to. y'know. write the story itself first before thinking about what happens after everything but it's good to have a trajectory. or something idk
#honeybee is many things to me and one of them is it's a story about bodies#it's about queerness as a disruption of binaries and an embracing of otherness. and having gay sex about it#good lord my undergrad thesis will never leave me..........#humodifcation in and of itself is complex as a metaphor bc it can be interpreted as a lot of different things. as it goes with body horror#and like. art and fiction in general#there's Levels to it. like yeah it exists bc monsterpeople cool and it's what i like to draw#but also it's like. at times it's a metaphor for capitalistic exploitation of the body. at others it's a metaphor for trans bodies#it's there bc i think it's cool. it's there bc it's meaningful. yknow?#i also haven't written much in the past....month or so. ngl i get frustrated with myself bc i have all these cool ideas i'm stoked for and#i'm so in love with this story and i! don't know how to write. like by god i'm going to try to do these ideas justice because i love them#but man. the gap in skill writing vs skill reading...pain#that's not why i haven't been writing though i've just been busy and then art fight happened and i've been drawing until 1 am#on most nights. tonight's an exception bc i wrote this post hdgklhdf#rambles#grimm
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"Rick is the better scientist!" "actually, Reagan is the better scientist because-!!" shut up shut up shut up we all know the best fictional scientist is ALPHYS from UNDERTALE
#jeremy hater moment#hate hate HATE looking up reagan on anything and seeing her compared to rick like leave my girl alone !!!#STOP BASHING HER!!!#istg anytime i see rick and reagan in the same post i'll think ''god help me''. this is making me hate r&m fans so bad#where was i. oh yeah#in comparison to both of these characters i personally think alphys comes out on top both in a better written and better story arc stance#like don't get me wrong!! i love reagan!! but alphys will always be first in my heart#alphys is an amazing example of the ''good person who's done bad things and has to live with themselves'' character archetype-#what with the amalgamates and locking them away and hiring mettaton to stage stuff for the human just so alphys could be apart of it all-#and her arc about forgiving herself and finally giving the families closure and bringing their relatives back home and confessing-#what she had done and just. overall- everything about her story and her time interacting with frisk and undyne and everyone-#it's amazing how toby fox created this- this AMAZING little dino gal and wrote her with so much love and. just. AH!!!#alphys is. an amazing character. and i wouldn't have had her story go any other way.#(also if any of the details here are inaccurate please be nice đ i haven't replayed undertale in fuck knows how long)#like i said i think she comes out on top for any fictional (mad?) scientist in any media tbh. she's so sillay âĄ#(sorry to reagan. even if i love her character and overall just. her in general i'm giving alphys this one. she's the og đ„âŒ)#one last thing: outside of everything i've mentioned alphys is just SUCH a charming character overall !#alphys appreciation club 4eva *peace sign*#(also i think reagan and alphys should meet and become friends right... neow!!)#(should i tag rick and reagan??? i'll tag em for organizational purposes)#reagan ridley#rick sanchez#tw rick and morty#<- for blacklist#inside job netflix#im not tagging r&m LOL#alphys undertale#undertale#dr alphys#this is ok to reblog by the way
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Gonna ask here on the off chance someone knows, but I've been writing some original stuff lately and I don't really know if there's anything I can do with it??
Taking aside my hatred for that website, they're not going to do great on Wattpad and with Wattpad's T&Cs I don't really want to post it there.
So, is there a site where you can post your original writing without catches (i.e. giving rights to the published text to the website or no mature themes)? I'm going to write it anyway but posting stuff online usually keeps me a bit more accountable...
#depending how much i hate it i might see if it's publishable#i haven't written original stuff since i started writing in English so I only know where to post polish writing#writing resources#writing#fiction writing#wattpad#ao3#fanfic writing
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There where a few mentions/hints from asks you shared that you are working on a few projects. Would you mind to share on how many projects you are working? And IF you do, how do you manage working on more than ONE thing? Do you have a routine or is it random working on a thing?
ah hello! thanks for stopping by! and OOF, loaded question!
the number of projects that i'm actively working on varies. i am definitely a big ideas person and less of a big see the ideas to completion person, so my gdocs, several notebooks and various other word processing platforms are scattered with about a billion scraps.
as for what i'm actively working on right now (fanfiction-wise, at least), i've got blackiron as my current #1 priority, then i have a what-if-din-had-been-a-jedi au called sideways that i've been slooooowly chewing on for a while. i also have wet hot mandalorian summer, various bits and bobs in the ast 'verse, and i am trying so hard not to pursue expanding on "what if din and boba had met earlier and fucked nasty about it," but it looks like the answer is "teamed up w/ fennec and accidentally took over tatooine about two decades ahead of schedule, so.)
outside of star wars i have a witcher/temerarie au that is VERY stupid and VERY dear to my heart. we'll see if witcher s3 kills all passion i had for the franchise or if i get mad enough to finish the thing out of spite.
i am ignoring the urge to write about 1,000 canon divergence aus for one piece. i love thinking about that kind of shit and one piece has so many shatterpoints that if i start down that particular rabbit hole i won't ever come back out!
for the other part of your question: i don't manage anything, unfortunately. my gdocs manages me. i do set aside at least half an hour to write or revise every day, but aside from that i am utterly at the mercy of The Dopamine, and go where it goes.
#i haven't written any originial fiction in like two years (ast didn't leave me much brainroom for anything else)#but i have heaps of folders of that as well#ask box#writing tag
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all i want to do is talk about nara and estinien and take screenshots of nara and estinien and write about nara and estinien and make gifs of nara and estinienâ
#ci.txt#it's almost bedtime so i will do none of these things but still#it's really bad???#but also not bad at all because i haven't written this much in ages#and it's all been so EASY.#they've somehow even inspired me to continue bookstore au??#even though they're not the main ship???#or shipped at all in that fic?????#i've outlined like 4 aus that could be turned into original fiction???#i don't know.#it's a good wave to be riding though lemme tell youuuuu!
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and TODAY ON "Songs Fionna can't listen to without them fucking her up immensely and remind her why she doesn't listen to them very often every time she listens to them", we have:
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#logs#every time i'm like oh this song gets me in my feels i should listen to it and every time i end up hurting#something something proof of being alive yeah yeah but i really can't handle it#big shouts to trocadero for making songs that fuck me up every time i listen to them#i mean nothing comes close to contact in terms of how much a trocadero song fucks me up but you gotta admitâ and i wonder where you are /#and i wonder what you wore / and i'm lost inside a bar / and i'm drunk inside a war / and i wonder where you are is also terrific#okay i'm gonna go cry about the tragedy of making a hyperspecific space opera that holds so much meaning and discusses so many things from#grief through moving on through learning how to live after having spent a significant portion of your life without any kind of autonomy#through reunions and learning how to talk with someone you haven't seen in nineteen years toâ ultimatelyâ having hope no matter what gets#thrown your way and that is ultimately about giving people happiness and closure but that loses a lot of its value by fitting into very#specific niches due to its nature as a work of fiction based on two works created by other people and having the centerpieces be not people#i have managed to come up with and whose stories i've written#but rather pre-existing persons that are mindchildren of a completely different individual#the worst part is that the story simply wouldn't work with different characters or using a different story as a basis. what i have createdâ#what i WANT to create isâ by all standards that count... perfect. the story /works/ /because/ of the characters involved. but the overlap#between the people who enjoy the story the characters are derived from AND the story that serves as the setting is so comically small that#it's all but impossible to find an audience to whom the story would mean as much as it means to me. and there are a few people out thereâ#sure enough. but i am terrified to reach out because this is so personal to me. i'd love to share this story with people but spilling my#entrails out and having people turn away dissatisfied with what they see or saying it's ''not for them'' hurts me more than almost anything#else in this world. call me a cowardâ but my soul's aged too fastâ and i'm tiredâ and i can't bear that risk.#one dayâ though... someone will listen.#black blank blah-blah-blah
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Alright, uh. Screw it. Let's dust off this account. I was embarrassed about even drawing this, and especially about sharing it publicly, but I'm slapping it up here. Why not. Been extremely burnt out lately, doing art professionally has pretty much killed my desire to do art for the sake of enjoying it (sorry, fans of my dead comic). Mental health has been shoddy. Actual health is eh, as well. I've been too busy to really think and have been so guilty about there being so much stuff to do in my life still that I haven't really afforded myself time to relax or unwind. My enthusiasm for anything has been in the dumps for years. I don't think I've drawn more than a handful of fanart pieces in over a decade (what you see on here is pretty much it), and I've certainly never drawn something like... this. Obviously, I watched Hazbin finally (didn't even realize the show was an actual thing now, though I did love the pilot eons ago; I don't tend to traverse into fandom discussion and discourse so I've been out of the loop). I'm actually nearing double-digit rewatches... and the OST has been on repeat for weeks. Well animated, beautifully written adult cartoons? I'm here for it. Musicals? Oh yeeahhhhh! A well animated, beautifully written adult cartoon that is also a musical??? *teakettle noises*
I'm ace as hell, but wholesome, loving, devoted relationships like this in fiction seem to hit me right at my core. I also cry at heartwarming videos and movies, but that's beside the point... I just... hrrrnnnnggg... Charlie and Vaggie's relationship has SENT ME. It has an iron grip on my soul and I cannot stop it. I feel like i'm 14 years old again. I want to write fanfiction. Is it 2004?? Where am I????? What the fffffasdfasfagghfgfjhdd????????!!!! Aannnyyyyywayyyy.... This art gave me stomach butterflies the entire time I worked on it, as well as an immense amount of joy, and I really hope this can maybe do that for others. And I still have... so many ideas........ so many....
#hazbin hotel#charlie morningstar#vaggie#chaggie#hazbin spoilers#spoilers maybe???#digital art#art by me
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ten years of being one and the same with jungkook as the country's it couple is the perfect disguise for the reality of a tumultuous relationship hidden behind the scenes.
đđđđđđđ: you welcome your boyfriend back to the country with a surprise party, just as the clock is ticking to say goodbye again. the big day is almost here and enlistment brings couples either one of two things: a ring or a breakup. đđđđđđđđđđ: idol!jungkook/female idol!reader and fictional versions of various idols đđđđđ. idol au, on-and-off relationship, angst, i swear there's fluff, and themes of first love, growing up, struggles with fame, and marriage (ish) đđđđđđđđ. portrayal of a toxic couple (implications of emotional abuse and control), infidelity, foul language, substance use, underage drinking, mentions of the covid-19 pandemic, sexually suggestive content đđđđ. based off of "you're losing me" by taylor swift. this is a fictional portrayal of real-life people that implement some aspects of real-life events. the series is told in non-chronological order. note that the main character is a member of a fictional idol group. more warnings may be added as the story is written. join the taglist here! ă
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you say, "i don't understand, " and i say, "i know you don't" we thought a cure would come through in time, now i fear it won't
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€autumn 2023
the confrontation  when it rained, it poured and you felt like you haven't seen even a glimpse of the sun in ages. there was a nagging feeling in your gut that it was too far gone, but like everything else for the past ten years, you swallowed it down and swept it under the rug. bad feelings didnât exist in your relationship. that was the unspoken rule. yet, it was growing more and more difficult to mask the disappointment in your eyes or the frown fighting your lips. today marked the worst of your attempts.
 seoul was unusually calm tonight and it scared you. when you moved to the city ages ago to begin your journey as an idol trainee, it was nothing but intimidating for your meek, pre-teen self. eventually, over time, your love for the city bloomed and it was truthfully because of jungkook. once young teenagers that arrived to seoul alone, you found solace in each other and embraced the change as one. he made you fall in love with seoul the same way he made you fall in love with him. dates, nightclubs, late night adventures, and years worth of moments within the city limits.Â
 however, the streets were as hushed as you were, as you gripped your steering wheel like a robot.Â
 the decision had been long made and you knew it was going to come around at some point, so there was no use in fighting it. after going without seeing your boyfriend for months, it should have been nothing but pure excitement.
 âyouâre awfully quiet,â murmured jungkook, glancing over at you from the passenger seat.
 you were already annoyed to begin with, when he mentioned that he was going to have a driver pick him up from the airport, instead of asking for you. it felt like he didnât even expect to have you waiting for him, considering the two of you had been apart due to his time working in the united states. you thought heâd be insisting for you to be the first person he saw once he came back. these frustrations were on top of several other things, which youâd been dreading to confront for even longer of a time.
 and then, there was also the velvet box you spotted in the background of one of your facetime calls. you didnât bring it up, but it was living in your mind everyday since. with jungkookâs big day fast approaching, there were a lot of conflicting ideas in your head.
 you shrugged. âiâve been filming long hours. not getting that much sleep.â
 the look jungkook gave you read that he knew that you werenât being a hundred percent honest, but he didnât say anything. his eyes returned to being fixated on his phone.
 after over ten years of knowing each other, you and jungkook could see through each other like glass. the only problem was that nobody ever wanted to speak up. you feared the glaring possibility of other buried conflict dating further back into the relationship because of this dynamic.
 you didnât think you deserved the blame for the tension in the air. there were several things in your mind, but jungkook wasnât exactly a person who could easily mask their emotions. something was off with him, too, and you needed to figure out what it was. you could only hope for the best case scenario because otherwise, it was going to be your worst nightmare. there was no situation you could fathom where his behaviour was a result of an in between.Â
 keeping your voice casual, you asked, âwho are you texting?â
 âmy mom.â
 you held back a sigh - jungkook was never particularly keen on involving you with his family. though youâd been together since he was sixteen, you always felt like he kept you an armâs reach away from that part of your life and you never understood why.
 âoh. tell her i say hi,â you said and he hummed in response.Â
 whilst you werenât in a talkative mood, it wasnât like jungkook was doing anything to keep the conversation flowing either. you guys obviously texted and called during his time away, but the present atmosphere was awkward, like there was nothing to talk about after his grand return. you hugged and kissed at the airport, asked how his flight was, and that was that. driving him felt like a business endeavour, rather than welcoming your long-term partner back to the country.
 after a few minutes, jungkook finally looked up from his phone. upon peering out the window, he grew confused and turned to you.
 he questioned, âwhere are we going? the apartment is in the other direction.â
 âjust wait,â you assured, forcing a small smile. âtake off your hoodie and put on what i have for you in the backseat.â
 there was a shopping bag sitting behind jungkookâs seat and he reluctantly reached over, revealing a silk ysl shirt that you picked up that very afternoon. sighing, he did as you asked and made the change. you didnât care to look over at your boyfriendâs shirtless body, too irritated at the curtness of the conversation.
 you just wanted to get to the destination, the heavy silence becoming too much for you. there wasnât even music on. you found yourself focusing too much on it, as you finally pulled up to the infamous hotel azure. somehow tucked away in the busy songpa district, it is unassuming to the civilian eye, but a well-known name amongst the circles of south koreaâs entertainment industry. you didnât âmake itâ in entertainment until you attended a party at hotel azure.
 jungkook shifted in his seat. âwhat is this?â his tone was demanding, which immediately put you off. âthe plan was to go home.â
 to be fair, the last time that the two of you were at the azure hotel, jungkook wound up with a bloody nose after getting into it with an not-to-be-named yg idol at one of jackson wangâs wild parties. you werenât even sure what happened yourself, bleary eyed for the majority of the night with several substances in your body. hotel azure was for idols at the top of the world with everything to lose, a favourite place of yours around 2018. it was now a place that you actively tried to avoid, but made an exception for the special occasion.
 âcalm down,â you shot back, not letting him get away with the voice he used. âjust wait, i said.â
 âiâm tired, y/n,â jungkook pleaded, as you stopped the car for the valet to take.Â
 you ignored him - it wasnât like it was up to you - and unbuckled your seatbelt, not waiting a second for jungkook.Â
 not only did you pick up your boyfriend from the airport, you also spent hours meticulously preparing your appearance for the night. it didnât seem like jungkook noticed, other than at the airport, when he questioned why you were wearing high heels.Â
 you never wore heels unless you were working, but that changed when you met jungkook. he loved it when you wore heels and by the time your respective trainee debts were paid, made it a point. you bought platforms with the anticipation of how your boyfriend would go crazy over them. jungkook gifted you designer jimmy choos and pradas whenever you guys got into a fight. it made you feel your prettiest and he showered you with compliments every time.
 now, he looked at you oddly for it, like you were doing too much.
 jungkook eventually gave up and followed you in without a word, watching you take off your trench coat to reveal a stunning baby pink two-piece dress. the colour glittered under the low lighting of the hotel lobby and the corset accentuated your curves in all the right aways. except, he still did not say a word. this made you frown.
 you handed off your coat to an employee and jungkook did the same. the lobby was empty, but you and jungkook knew exactly where to go, making a beeline for the elevator and pressing the button to move up to the penthouse suite.Â
 âwhy didnât you warn me about this?â he grumbled under his breath, adjusting his shirt in the mirror.
 because thatâs how surprise parties work, you wanted to reply. unfortunately, this was not a surprise party that you wanted to celebrate, so you didnât even try to keep jungkook excited. you were both quiet, irritable, and only wanted to go home.Â
 you said, âthis is the part where i cover your eyes and lead you out.â
 jungkook complied and you placed your perfectly manicured hands over his line of vision. other than sharing a hug and kiss earlier, this was the closest youâd physically gotten to your boyfriend in months. your hands were cold and you were close enough that he could hear your breathing - all too uncomfortable.Â
 the elevator dinged and you nudged jungkook to step forward. the penthouseâs lights were off, but you could make out the shuffling of feet from behind the kitchen counter. it looked like everything was set up and pristine. then, in just a beat, the entire room lit up and you removed your hands from jungkookâs eyes.
 âSURPRISE!â
 the floor rumbled, voices roaring and bodies popping out from different places - behind pillars, couches and the bar. jungkookâs eyes brightened in a way that you had yet to see since reuniting with him earlier and it made your heart sink. you hadnât realized how dull his demeanour was around you until something else actually made him smile.
 his closest friends and family gathered in the penthouse and there was a large, golden banner that hung from the walls that said âwelcome back jungkook!â the other wall was decorated with another banner, but this one said âgood luck rm, v, jimin and jungkook!âÂ
 jungkookâs older brother was the first one that enveloped him into a bear hug, nearly squeezing the life out of him, then his mom. this was followed by the remainder of his band mates that managed to make the party. you awkwardly stood off to the side, a wide smile plastered on your face to mask your despondence. it seemed like jungkookâs exhaustion only existed when he was sitting in a car with you, as his laughter echoed throughout the room.
 you caught jungkookâs eye and he already knew how you were feeling. while he exchanged words with other friends, it was namjoon who pulled you to the side.
 âhey. you guys did a really great job with the party,â you started, looking around.
 the penthouse of the azure hotel was a thing of beauty, with ceiling high windows that looked over the lights of seoul. everything shone and glimmered - the city skyline, the perfect marble floors, the expensive liquor bottles, and hell, even the perfect teeth of the myriad of a-list south korean celebrities gracing this exclusive party. there wasnât a wrong way to ever throw a party there, but the group made an extra effort to make jungkookâs homecoming a special one.Â
 jungkook was swarmed by several people, all asking about his time in america and how exciting it was. those were the words you used to describe it for him, too, when you sent him off months ago. you watched him take shots with mingyu and eunwoo.Â
 namjoon shook his head, âno, no. this wouldnât be possible without you,â he said and then glanced at jungkook, âand iâm sure he knows it, too.â
 the boys, despite it also serving as a goodbye party before their enlistments, had been helping you plan the surprise for weeks leading up to jungkookâs arrival. it was one of the longest times jungkook had been apart from them and from the country in general, so they wanted to make it extra special. though you were the main mastermind behind the gathering, you initially didnât want to do it at all.Â
 âyeah, i hope so,â you replied, as you poured yourself a glass of white wine. âyou guys all deserve it.â
 over the years, jungkookâs band mates slowly became some of your friends, as well. it was somber goodbye for you in all kinds of ways. everyone was preparing to send them off with good luck and high spirits.Â
 the boys were also preparing in their own way. you noticed that taehyung and jiminâs girlfriends were missing from the party, which only confirmed your speculations.Â
 âit was just bound to happen,â said a voice.
 it was taehyung who joined you and namjoon in a quiet circle at the corner of the living room. all of the boys looked a little bit sad, despite the celebratory atmosphere, but you read a different kind of story in taehyungâs eyes.Â
 he smiled with a hint of gloom. âyouâre looking around for her, right?â
 as a fellow idol and also a girlfriend to a member of one of the biggest groups in the world, taehyungâs girlfriend grew to become one of your close confidants in the past few years. you guys were polite before, but this connection created a specific bond that couldnât be understood by anyone else. however, you hadnât heard from her in a few days and with her absence at taehyungâs goodbye party, you put two and two together.Â
 to his side, namjoon clapped a hand on his friendâs back. âsorry, man.â
 âi hope it was cordial,â you mustered up, ignoring the growing heaviness at the pit of your stomach. you could only hope you werenât next.
 taehyung replied. âshe understood, but she wasnât happy. regardless,â he sighed, âweâre still so young. her career is just blowing up even more, i feel like iâd only be holding her back.âÂ
 that was the way it went. when enlistment rolled around for most couples, it was either breaking up or a ring. you looked at your feet, not knowing what to say.Â
 âjimin also told me that he broke things off with - â
 a loud yelp squeaked from taehyung, who was abruptly jabbed in the side with namjoonâs elbow. the latter cleared his throat and you recognized that look. namjoon only made that face when he pulled the leader card and needed to put someone in their place. you figured that your worries were transparent to those around you.
 namjoon cleared his throat. ânot in a chatty mood?â
 while you greeted people during the set-up of the party, you realized that you had yet to actually try socializing. things were awkward with jungkookâs parents, who you long suspected didnât approve of you for various reasons. in general, most people were interested in chatting with the boys, which you didnât mind. it was a gathering to send them off, after all.
 ânot really. you guys should go mingle with your friends,â you said, taking another sip of your wine. âitâs your party.â
 âi hope iâm not overstepping, but did you and jungkook get in a fight?â taehyung asked.
 you blinked slowly. âno. does it seem like it?â
 âjust seems like heâs nervous about something,â he commented and you noticed namjoon glare at him once more, as if to shut up.
 for the first time that night, you felt a glimmer of mixed feelings that left you wondering. why would he be nervous? the big visual forming in your mind was a diamond ring. you and jungkook had contemplated marriage in the past year, but it was also the source of many arguments. you werenât even sure you wanted to get married now, but your mother had been getting into your ear about you getting older. then, there were your respective companies who lost their shit at the idea. but, what really mattered, was jungkookâs opinion. he seemed to wave it off or change the topic at every opportunity, so your hopes for a ring lived in the back of your mind.Â
 despite this, taehyung was right. jungkook looked nervous. heâd been irritated at being dragged to his surprise party - you wondered if it was delusional enough to believe that he had plans for the two of you, instead.Â
 for the rest of the night, you continued to keep to yourself. you werenât lying when you told jungkook you were tired, but you were determined to stay as long as you could and pretend that you and jungkook werenât stealing mysterious glances at each other for the entire evening. it was obvious and only made you anxious.Â
 a few hours later and the party only grew in numbers and in noise. you thought you lost him in the crowd, until you left to refill your nth drink and found him talking to his cousin.
 the two were smiling and laughing, as his cousin appeared to be showing jungkook pictures on his phone. you assumed it was her newborn daughter - she gave birth just two months before her fiance was to be discharged and now that he was back, the wedding was just around the corner. you remembered jungkook telling you that she was proposed to on the day of his enlistment.Â
 jungkook caught your eye and he immediately looked away - what the hell was that? he even turned slightly and you couldnât read his lips. something was going on. you watched him shove his hands in his pockets and you swore you saw the shape of a small square inside.
 eventually, you grew tired of the tension in the air and the music began to make your head pound. the longer you thought about your partner, the greater your anxieties grew. there was a chance you even just although it was late in the year and a fresh sheet of snow adorned the streets of seoul, you decided it was best to step out into the balcony to take some time to breathe.Â
 nobody else was there, thankfully, and you let out a shiver when you stepped out. the peppermint air dispelled the haze in your head and in your heart, as taking a deep breath was the greatest relief you felt all night. though your muscles remained tense and you knew you wouldnât last out in the cold, the balcony was a welcome change.
 you werenât sure how long you were outside when the door creaked open and just by the footsteps alone, you knew who it was.
 âyour guests will miss you,â you said, not even looking behind you.
 at this point, you were hugging yourself to stop shivering. a rustle later and you felt a thick blanket drape over your shoulders, the wool of its make completely enveloping you with much needed warmth. you relaxed your shoulders, but couldnât look jungkook in the eyes.
 âsomethingâs wrong. tell me.â
 jungkookâs wine stained lips were pulled into a frown and although he hid it well when he was chatting away with his friends and family, you could see the exhaustion in his eyes. he sniffled a few times and you knew why, but you decided to bite your tongue. it was his party and he was an adult who could celebrate whatever way he wanted. it was also clear that neither of you had the energy to argue. instead, to his surprise, you raised an arm and gestured for him to come closer.
 he sidestepped towards you and although you were shorter, let you wrap some of the blanket around him. his cold arm snaked around your waist and you tensed up again at his touch.
 you continued to look out into the skyline. âi was going to say the same for you.â
 âiâm really thankful for the party, love,â he ignored your question and pressed a kiss against your temple.
 you mumbled under your breath, âit wasnât easy." this was the first time all night that you were comfortable enough to physically touch jungkook and you suspected alcohol played a role in relieving the tension between you two, but it was always going to be easy to fall right back into routine.
 and just like that, you felt a stinging sensation in your eyes. tears welled up and blurred your vision, which only made you turn your head away further from your boyfriend. he caught this immediately, his instincts nothing but natural when it came to you, and pulled you right into his chest.Â
 the sound that came out of your mouth sounded nothing like you. the sob was desperate and helpless. it was akin to a toddler who couldnât do anything by themselves. your voice cracked with each body-shaking sob and you didnât have the guts to conceal it. your head was buried into jungkookâs new shirt, ruining it, but he only stroked your hair and wrapped the blanket tighter around the two of you.
 âitâs okay. . .â jungkook cooed and for what seemed like the first time in a while, he sounded like himself.Â
 it wasnât like jungkook had undergone a drastic change from his time in america, but it was a gradual shift that you felt over a longer period of time. you attributed to the fact that you were no longer teenagers and things werenât going to be the same as it did ten, even five years ago. that was what you told yourself, but you werenât sure why you still held on to the old jungkook you knew.
 in that moment, he sounded like the fifteen year old boy you met in a convenience store again. he sounded like the jungkook who wrote you disgusting love songs that were horrible, but you adored anyway. he sounded like the man who you talked about children and a big house and an annoying dog with.Â
 as you found the bravery to finally pull away from jungkookâs comforting embrace, you looked up and saw that future in his eyes. his features softened, but he looked sad. your heart sank once again.
 âyouâre not just crying because iâm enlisting, are you?â he finally spoke, just above a whisper. his tone was certain, barely a question - after ten years together, jungkook knew you better than you knew yourself.
 you froze. there was nothing else you could do but shut your eyes tight, pretending that this wasnât really happening.
 after a beat, you found your voice. âlisten. . .we both know what happens after a man enlists. look at taehyung and jimin. look at your cousin.âÂ
 over the years, you and jungkook had gone through hell and back. you thought the worst day of your life was when dispatch leaked the news that you were dating five years ago, but you were able to recover. you thought it was the worst day of your life when your breakup was witnessed by the entire world, but you were able to recover. you even thought the worst day of your life was when word got out that you and jungkook got back together, effectively proving that you were weak and were the type of girl to crawl back to her ex. you recovered then, as well.
 at the second part of your sentence, you felt jungkook physically tense up.
 âis that why youâve been acting weird lately?â he replied.
 you donât know where it came from, but something triggered a spark of anger in you. still, with a tear stained face and a runny nose, you opened your eyes and met his. this was not something you would be able to recover from.
 you said, âit hasnât just been lately, jungkook. you know exactly whatâs on my mind, weâve been talking - â
 â - and you know what my answer has been, baby. you know what kind of position iâm in,â he interrupted, breaking apart from your hold and the blanket he brought for you.
 he wasnât wrong. you did know what kind of position he was in. one of the biggest stars in the world and he had everything to lose, especially with the anxieties looming in the air for him and the rest of his group. every one of them were on their toes as soon as their enlistment dates were finalized, fearing their fade from the spotlight. you and the rest of the world knew that it was bullshit, that the bts was going to be forgotten just because they were going into the military for a few years.Â
 marriage would surely ruin that further, right?
 you said, âand you know what position iâm in.â
 the careless joys of your early twenties had come and gone, which left you at the mercy of your motherâs constant talks about marriage. not just her, but other family members and even some of your friends. after all, you and jungkook had been together for ten years and you were pushing thirty sooner or later.Â
 you also had your own fears in regard to your career. jungkook once laughed when you expressed your worries about the public no longer finding you young and pretty, but it was a real fear. most girl groups didnât last more than a few years. many of your contemporaries had long said goodbye to their idol persona and went their separate ways from their band for a new life. you were considered a lucky one to remain with your group and maintain relevance, but for how long? was it time for you to finally settle down? you werenât granted the same longevity as jungkookâs renowned group and you werenât bitter about it, but nervous.
 snowflakes began to fall once again and as one fell on your eyelashes, you noticed jungkookâs jaw clench.Â
 âweâve talked about this,â he said and you knew your wandering thoughts about a potential proposal were too good to be true.
 you began, âlook, i know that things are different for people like us. . â but, things were changing. in recent years, you watched several of your peers get married and have children without losing their spot in the limelight.Â
 ây/n. . .what made you think i changed my mind?â jungkook sighed, pacing back and forth to calm himself down.
 âi just thought. . .â
 âiâm sorry, but i wasnât going to propose before my enlistment.â this time, jungkookâs frustrations melted away and there was genuine sadness in his voice.Â
 he stepped closer to you and put his hands on your waist. you didnât know what to say. you really had been pretending that his strange behaviour was because of a hope that seemed impossible now.Â
 you took a deep breath. âyou never said no. you made it seem like you were considering it.â
 that was what silenced jungkook. it was true, there was never an outright refusal from jungkook. he would say things that implied he would talk to his company again or âwith timeâ it would come. he gave you just enough reassurance, but never confirmation.Â
 continuing, you said, âand you even indulged in keeping the fantasy alive with me. youâre sick for talking about honeymoon destinations with me and suggesting songs we could dance to.â
 âhey. iâve said time ands time again that there is no future where you arenât by my side,â jungkook tried getting you to look at him, but every time he moved, you turned away.Â
 there was no reason for you to make eye contact. you felt like a fool and if you met his eyes, you knew you would just burst into tears again. then, you thought about your conversation earlier with your friends and your vision became wet again.
 âwere you planning to break up with me before you enlisted?â
 âwhat? no,â he responded, but you werenât convinced.Â
 you responded, âit was going to be inevitable, wasnât it? like jimin and taehyung. you were going to be done with me.â
 this time, jungkook forced you to look at him by the chin and your shoulders dropped. there was a crease in between his eyebrows that you donât remember seeing even just a year ago. he looked more tired than he did as a rookie with barely survivable living standards.Â
 âtime really goes by, huh?â you murmured, fighting to keep your voice stable.
 âwe were never going to break up, love,â jungkook maintained.
 still, his words didnât penetrate further than surface level. you were left numb and the chill of winter in seoul had nothing to do with it. you wished that someone would just call jungkook away, but the party inside continued on without him.Â
 âyou bought a ring. i saw it when we video called.â
 jungkookâs lips parted. you knew it. you knew you werenât losing your mind. over the last ten years, you made some crazy accusations for all kinds of reasons. this time was different and you saw it on his face.
 even after what seemed like forever, jungkook couldnât find words to say. the longer he waited to speak, the faster your heart began to race.Â
 he rubbed his temples and finally, he spoke. jungkook spoke and you immediately dropped the blanket he brought for you, dashing right back inside. you walked past every single attendee and ignored the few that cried out your name. you didnât care what it looked like. you just knew you had to get out of there.
 jungkook said there was a ring. he began to open his mouth and explain further, especially when he read the horrified expression on your face, but you wanted no part in it. there was no room for you to think about what that meant. you only saw red.
 you werenât sure why you wanted a proposal so badly. you knew you didnât care that much about what your mother wanted and getting married was no solution to the prospects of a dying career. you were second guessing if your wishes for a wedding were even genuine.Â
 on the other hand, maybe you intended for the wedding to be a solution to a dying relationship.Â
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